1 00:00:00,960 --> 00:00:04,360 Speaker 1: Welcome to Your Diary Episode. Here's the thing. 2 00:00:04,600 --> 00:00:07,920 Speaker 2: I'm a bit of a nomad, so these episodes come 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:11,559 Speaker 2: to from wherever I'm living or traveling to at the time, 4 00:00:12,400 --> 00:00:15,200 Speaker 2: so I'll share with you what's going on in my world, 5 00:00:15,280 --> 00:00:20,920 Speaker 2: from book tours, animal encounters, delish meals, nature adventures, health 6 00:00:20,960 --> 00:00:25,119 Speaker 2: discoveries to swimming in Hidden Byron Bay Beaches. Come with 7 00:00:25,280 --> 00:00:31,080 Speaker 2: me as I share my adventures with you. Hello, Welcome 8 00:00:31,120 --> 00:00:34,440 Speaker 2: to your Friday Diary episode. 9 00:00:35,400 --> 00:00:36,520 Speaker 1: Welcome to newbies. 10 00:00:36,720 --> 00:00:40,519 Speaker 2: Basically, the Friday episode is a diary check in depending 11 00:00:40,560 --> 00:00:43,320 Speaker 2: on kind of like where I am in the world 12 00:00:43,360 --> 00:00:45,720 Speaker 2: is where we do the check in from, and then 13 00:00:47,720 --> 00:00:51,080 Speaker 2: the Monday episode is an interview. So the Monday that 14 00:00:51,120 --> 00:00:53,680 Speaker 2: has just gone, we've had the incredible Liner Wilkinson on 15 00:00:53,720 --> 00:00:57,720 Speaker 2: the pod, who's an awesome stylist and also founder and 16 00:00:57,800 --> 00:01:00,560 Speaker 2: designer of our own shoe range as well, so really 17 00:01:00,600 --> 00:01:06,520 Speaker 2: interesting if you're a creative, really awesome work ethic. We're 18 00:01:06,560 --> 00:01:09,240 Speaker 2: just in the throes of trying to figure out which 19 00:01:09,400 --> 00:01:12,600 Speaker 2: epp will come out on Monday. I recorded quite a 20 00:01:12,640 --> 00:01:16,040 Speaker 2: few in Melbourne when I was last in Melbourne, and 21 00:01:17,560 --> 00:01:19,880 Speaker 2: there's one that I was really looking forward to doing, 22 00:01:19,959 --> 00:01:23,120 Speaker 2: but I think they're away, So I like the pods 23 00:01:23,120 --> 00:01:25,120 Speaker 2: to come out when the guest is kind of like 24 00:01:25,160 --> 00:01:28,080 Speaker 2: around and able to listen and engage and hopefully, you know, 25 00:01:28,160 --> 00:01:30,600 Speaker 2: share with their mates and whatnot. So I might do 26 00:01:30,680 --> 00:01:35,240 Speaker 2: some juggling and reshuffling to sort out who goes on Monday. 27 00:01:35,240 --> 00:01:38,000 Speaker 2: So I've got the EPs there, I just don't know 28 00:01:38,080 --> 00:01:40,480 Speaker 2: yet which one will be coming out on Monday. 29 00:01:41,760 --> 00:01:42,800 Speaker 1: I have also had a. 30 00:01:42,760 --> 00:01:46,680 Speaker 2: Big week this week of recording podcasts, so we had 31 00:01:47,120 --> 00:01:50,560 Speaker 2: our mate Alias Black on the pod, who is a 32 00:01:50,640 --> 00:01:54,760 Speaker 2: legend really good mate of Bossos and we've just become 33 00:01:54,840 --> 00:01:57,400 Speaker 2: mates since we all live in Byron together and have 34 00:01:57,600 --> 00:02:00,880 Speaker 2: like cook ups and hang and fun time. 35 00:02:02,640 --> 00:02:04,600 Speaker 1: That might not come out for a little while. 36 00:02:04,760 --> 00:02:06,760 Speaker 2: Like I said, I'm a bit virgo, so I get 37 00:02:06,800 --> 00:02:09,240 Speaker 2: a bit, I get a bit ahead of this schedu. 38 00:02:09,720 --> 00:02:14,360 Speaker 2: Then I'm interviewing Lorna Jane Clarkson next week. So I 39 00:02:14,400 --> 00:02:16,600 Speaker 2: reviewed her book last week, not next week. I'm interviewing 40 00:02:16,639 --> 00:02:20,120 Speaker 2: her tomorrow. And I reviewed her book last week on 41 00:02:20,160 --> 00:02:23,000 Speaker 2: the pod called Nurish. It's a really great book and 42 00:02:23,160 --> 00:02:26,280 Speaker 2: so many awesome recipes in there, but also her health philosophies, 43 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:28,880 Speaker 2: so it's a bit potty and then I might be 44 00:02:29,760 --> 00:02:33,239 Speaker 2: going maybe going to now So soon to interview someone 45 00:02:33,320 --> 00:02:36,640 Speaker 2: special up there. So I'm back in very much the 46 00:02:36,720 --> 00:02:39,480 Speaker 2: land of locking people down to do pods. It feels 47 00:02:39,560 --> 00:02:43,440 Speaker 2: like COVID is kind of like ripped through Byron now, 48 00:02:43,480 --> 00:02:47,840 Speaker 2: so people are less bunker down and kind of like 49 00:02:48,000 --> 00:02:51,639 Speaker 2: coming out and doing things. I've got our first event 50 00:02:51,840 --> 00:02:56,280 Speaker 2: of the year tonight in Byron. The Boss is coming 51 00:02:56,560 --> 00:02:59,880 Speaker 2: to me with me too, so that should be really fun. 52 00:03:00,080 --> 00:03:03,079 Speaker 2: Been to an event since probably my book launch in December, 53 00:03:03,160 --> 00:03:06,320 Speaker 2: so I was like, December eighteenth, and where what third 54 00:03:06,320 --> 00:03:08,480 Speaker 2: of fab today? And this will come out on the 55 00:03:08,480 --> 00:03:11,520 Speaker 2: fourth affair, So yeah, it'd be our first event tonight, 56 00:03:13,120 --> 00:03:17,200 Speaker 2: and that's exciting. I was making notes for this podcast 57 00:03:17,280 --> 00:03:19,120 Speaker 2: yesterday and I was like, oh my goodness, I feel 58 00:03:19,120 --> 00:03:20,600 Speaker 2: like this last week. 59 00:03:20,639 --> 00:03:20,920 Speaker 1: Tell me. 60 00:03:20,960 --> 00:03:22,960 Speaker 2: I don't know if it's a new Year thing or 61 00:03:23,040 --> 00:03:25,519 Speaker 2: like having January kind of like being a he goody 62 00:03:25,520 --> 00:03:28,200 Speaker 2: piggoty month as far as like its half feels like Christmas, 63 00:03:28,240 --> 00:03:29,960 Speaker 2: half feels like you're back at work, half feels like 64 00:03:29,960 --> 00:03:32,280 Speaker 2: you're not back at work, and then February kind of 65 00:03:32,320 --> 00:03:34,960 Speaker 2: like hits you. And so I feel like this last 66 00:03:35,000 --> 00:03:37,400 Speaker 2: week I've just kind of been chasing my tail. I 67 00:03:37,440 --> 00:03:39,720 Speaker 2: know I'm going to America, since there's a few things 68 00:03:39,760 --> 00:03:41,800 Speaker 2: that I've got to get lined up before I do that. 69 00:03:42,240 --> 00:03:44,760 Speaker 2: I've also been selling clothes on DP pops so that 70 00:03:45,080 --> 00:03:46,400 Speaker 2: I'm not leaving. 71 00:03:46,400 --> 00:03:47,080 Speaker 1: I don't want to leave. 72 00:03:47,120 --> 00:03:49,400 Speaker 2: I don't like the idea of leaving Boss with too 73 00:03:49,480 --> 00:03:52,320 Speaker 2: much of my stuff because it's just hard for him, 74 00:03:52,360 --> 00:03:55,040 Speaker 2: you know, and I like to give my wardrobe to him. 75 00:03:55,080 --> 00:03:58,760 Speaker 2: So I've really been doing a massive clothing clean out. 76 00:03:59,680 --> 00:04:02,960 Speaker 2: And we did a campaign for Lolla coffee last over 77 00:04:03,000 --> 00:04:06,240 Speaker 2: the weekend, so we've been packing up Madalie, packing up orders, 78 00:04:06,240 --> 00:04:07,360 Speaker 2: and doing a lot of coffee stuff. 79 00:04:07,400 --> 00:04:09,520 Speaker 1: So we've been doing things. 80 00:04:09,240 --> 00:04:11,920 Speaker 2: But I said to Boss Ships, we haven't done much 81 00:04:11,960 --> 00:04:15,920 Speaker 2: adventury stuff because we've kind of just been in work mode. 82 00:04:15,960 --> 00:04:18,679 Speaker 2: But that weird kind of chasing your tail work mode 83 00:04:18,680 --> 00:04:21,280 Speaker 2: where you don't feel like you're super productive. 84 00:04:22,160 --> 00:04:23,480 Speaker 1: So that's kind of where we're at right now. 85 00:04:23,480 --> 00:04:25,000 Speaker 2: So I have no idea how this app's going to 86 00:04:25,080 --> 00:04:27,640 Speaker 2: go because my list is short. 87 00:04:27,800 --> 00:04:28,559 Speaker 1: Put it that way. 88 00:04:28,920 --> 00:04:31,039 Speaker 2: So I did on the weekend go up to the 89 00:04:31,080 --> 00:04:34,839 Speaker 2: Gold Coast to see my bestie Andrea. We did a 90 00:04:35,000 --> 00:04:39,080 Speaker 2: really nice hike all the way from her place and 91 00:04:39,120 --> 00:04:42,920 Speaker 2: then like Burly Headland and back and that was fifteen 92 00:04:42,960 --> 00:04:46,200 Speaker 2: thousand steps, got my steps up. That was a lot 93 00:04:46,200 --> 00:04:51,039 Speaker 2: of fun. Also had my manager in town, so that 94 00:04:51,120 --> 00:04:53,599 Speaker 2: was really nice. Boss and I went for a coffee 95 00:04:53,640 --> 00:04:57,680 Speaker 2: date with her and her partner, so that was really lovely. 96 00:04:58,400 --> 00:05:00,719 Speaker 2: So we did do some lovely stuff the weekend. I 97 00:05:00,720 --> 00:05:03,560 Speaker 2: think we were just in like work mode, and we're 98 00:05:03,560 --> 00:05:05,800 Speaker 2: in that today. Like we had a plan to go 99 00:05:05,880 --> 00:05:08,200 Speaker 2: on a We love going on coffee dates together, and 100 00:05:08,279 --> 00:05:10,320 Speaker 2: we're like, we're going to go. There's a place we 101 00:05:10,360 --> 00:05:12,919 Speaker 2: really want to check out in Uriba. It's called the 102 00:05:12,960 --> 00:05:15,840 Speaker 2: Little General in Uruba, and we really want to go 103 00:05:15,920 --> 00:05:18,839 Speaker 2: there and grab a coffee. But it is palting down 104 00:05:19,040 --> 00:05:24,480 Speaker 2: here in Byron. It's like full rain storms. It's really 105 00:05:24,600 --> 00:05:28,280 Speaker 2: muggy but stormy, and so we thought we're probably just 106 00:05:28,279 --> 00:05:30,839 Speaker 2: gonna work our butts off today to try and catch 107 00:05:30,920 --> 00:05:33,800 Speaker 2: up and feel not so overwhelmed about the week and whatnot. 108 00:05:35,080 --> 00:05:38,880 Speaker 1: So yes, that's me. What else have I made here? Now? 109 00:05:38,920 --> 00:05:40,760 Speaker 2: I promised you I would do a book review on 110 00:05:41,360 --> 00:05:44,760 Speaker 2: David Sinclair's Lifespan. I am only a third of the 111 00:05:44,760 --> 00:05:47,240 Speaker 2: way through those, I am gonna do a deal with 112 00:05:47,279 --> 00:05:52,040 Speaker 2: you and hold myself accountable to doing that next week 113 00:05:52,080 --> 00:05:54,400 Speaker 2: for you. I've booked in some fun health things to 114 00:05:54,440 --> 00:05:56,120 Speaker 2: do over the next week too, so I promise I'll 115 00:05:56,120 --> 00:05:58,159 Speaker 2: be able to review some new things in Byron Bay 116 00:05:58,400 --> 00:06:01,960 Speaker 2: as well. This week, Boss and I have really been 117 00:06:02,040 --> 00:06:04,440 Speaker 2: using our nights to just kind of like switch off 118 00:06:04,560 --> 00:06:08,680 Speaker 2: and just like decompressed from the day we finished I think. 119 00:06:08,520 --> 00:06:11,000 Speaker 1: I told you last week we're watching Lord of the Rings. 120 00:06:10,600 --> 00:06:14,880 Speaker 2: And now we've just done season three of After Life 121 00:06:14,880 --> 00:06:20,840 Speaker 2: with Ricky Gervas, who is arguably one of my favorite entertainers, writers, 122 00:06:21,080 --> 00:06:25,000 Speaker 2: creatives in the world. I love Ricky Gervays. It's really 123 00:06:25,320 --> 00:06:30,640 Speaker 2: Afterlife is a really great show because it's like it 124 00:06:30,760 --> 00:06:33,640 Speaker 2: shows all the elements of grief and loss and death, 125 00:06:34,120 --> 00:06:37,520 Speaker 2: and there's like a comedic element to it, but also 126 00:06:37,720 --> 00:06:39,960 Speaker 2: like a painful element to it, and it's just. 127 00:06:39,880 --> 00:06:43,400 Speaker 1: A really it's just a really nice. 128 00:06:44,560 --> 00:06:47,280 Speaker 2: Show that forces you to sit with feelings that are 129 00:06:47,320 --> 00:06:52,240 Speaker 2: confronting but also like take it lightly too. It's just yeah, 130 00:06:52,279 --> 00:06:56,200 Speaker 2: I would highly Hi, there's three seasons on Netflix. Where 131 00:06:56,200 --> 00:06:58,840 Speaker 2: else have I god on? I'm like, oh, yes, yes, 132 00:06:58,880 --> 00:07:00,480 Speaker 2: I'm so excited. To tell you this, I did not 133 00:07:00,480 --> 00:07:02,400 Speaker 2: get the acting job. Remember I went for that audition 134 00:07:03,040 --> 00:07:05,640 Speaker 2: and I knew that if I got through round one, 135 00:07:05,800 --> 00:07:08,680 Speaker 2: the callback would be this week just gone, and then 136 00:07:08,680 --> 00:07:11,120 Speaker 2: I think it's shooting next week. And so I obviously 137 00:07:11,120 --> 00:07:13,880 Speaker 2: didn't get a callback. So this is the crazy thing 138 00:07:14,080 --> 00:07:18,360 Speaker 2: about auditions. You literally blood, sweat and tears, put everything 139 00:07:18,400 --> 00:07:20,600 Speaker 2: on the line, and you only. 140 00:07:20,280 --> 00:07:22,080 Speaker 1: Hear if you get a callback. 141 00:07:22,120 --> 00:07:25,680 Speaker 2: If you do not get a callback, nada, no email, 142 00:07:25,920 --> 00:07:30,320 Speaker 2: no notification in your Casting Networks profile, nothing from your manager. 143 00:07:30,360 --> 00:07:32,400 Speaker 1: Like this is so acting world is very different to you. 144 00:07:32,440 --> 00:07:33,840 Speaker 2: When I said to you, I crupt with my manager 145 00:07:33,840 --> 00:07:35,520 Speaker 2: on the weekend. That's my manager. I've been with for 146 00:07:35,680 --> 00:07:38,560 Speaker 2: like I want to say, like almost ten years that 147 00:07:38,560 --> 00:07:41,679 Speaker 2: we've worked together on everything that I've done, like under 148 00:07:41,680 --> 00:07:45,480 Speaker 2: the banner of Lula Berry cookbooks, pollods, the works. Right, 149 00:07:46,200 --> 00:07:48,800 Speaker 2: So acting is a completely new thing for me and 150 00:07:48,840 --> 00:07:53,240 Speaker 2: a different agent, different kind of like ballgame. So I 151 00:07:53,400 --> 00:07:55,800 Speaker 2: didn't the way I figured out, I didn't get a callback. 152 00:07:55,840 --> 00:07:57,800 Speaker 2: As it got to the end of the week, and 153 00:07:57,880 --> 00:08:01,080 Speaker 2: I knew that the second rounds was Monday this week, 154 00:08:01,120 --> 00:08:03,560 Speaker 2: and I just there was no notifications. I heard nothing 155 00:08:03,600 --> 00:08:06,600 Speaker 2: from my managers, no feed you get no feedback. 156 00:08:07,120 --> 00:08:08,880 Speaker 1: It's really confronting. 157 00:08:09,440 --> 00:08:11,960 Speaker 2: So I wrote down and I didn't want to share 158 00:08:12,000 --> 00:08:14,480 Speaker 2: any of this with you in case I got a callback, 159 00:08:14,520 --> 00:08:16,360 Speaker 2: which would have been a miracle because it wasn't a 160 00:08:16,360 --> 00:08:20,720 Speaker 2: good audition. But I wrote down the experience and obviously 161 00:08:20,720 --> 00:08:23,360 Speaker 2: I'm not going to name names or like none of that. 162 00:08:23,440 --> 00:08:26,600 Speaker 2: I'm just going to share with you my audition experience 163 00:08:26,680 --> 00:08:30,160 Speaker 2: because it was so full on. So usually when I 164 00:08:30,200 --> 00:08:32,640 Speaker 2: go for like a big campaign job, like I've done 165 00:08:33,520 --> 00:08:36,120 Speaker 2: a really fun gig with A and Z, I've done 166 00:08:36,120 --> 00:08:40,680 Speaker 2: stuff with ORALB. Usually what happens is your manager, that 167 00:08:40,679 --> 00:08:42,679 Speaker 2: one I told you I've been with for like ten years, 168 00:08:42,800 --> 00:08:46,319 Speaker 2: will negotiate with the either. 169 00:08:46,040 --> 00:08:47,160 Speaker 1: The PR company. 170 00:08:49,040 --> 00:08:51,560 Speaker 2: Usually it's the PR company that is looking after say 171 00:08:51,960 --> 00:08:54,920 Speaker 2: ORALB for example, and I was shooting a whole mindfulness 172 00:08:54,920 --> 00:08:55,760 Speaker 2: campaign ORB. 173 00:08:55,880 --> 00:08:56,960 Speaker 1: It was a lot of fun. 174 00:08:58,600 --> 00:09:01,839 Speaker 2: Anyway, so they negotiate everything, and then you signed on 175 00:09:02,440 --> 00:09:04,480 Speaker 2: so you don't have to go through an audition process. 176 00:09:05,000 --> 00:09:07,000 Speaker 2: And then of course, like you're working. Then then what 177 00:09:07,000 --> 00:09:08,920 Speaker 2: happens is you get connected with the creatives and you're 178 00:09:08,920 --> 00:09:11,160 Speaker 2: working on with the writers and sometimes you get to 179 00:09:11,200 --> 00:09:12,640 Speaker 2: write a majority of it. So that it's in your 180 00:09:12,640 --> 00:09:15,280 Speaker 2: own voice, or they'll write it and you'll tweak it, 181 00:09:15,400 --> 00:09:18,320 Speaker 2: and then from there, like you talk to someone that 182 00:09:18,679 --> 00:09:21,960 Speaker 2: might be working on the styling of it. And sometimes 183 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:24,360 Speaker 2: like if I've got good relationships, old pool clothes and 184 00:09:24,440 --> 00:09:27,000 Speaker 2: take them with me for the shoot anyway, So this 185 00:09:27,080 --> 00:09:29,160 Speaker 2: is very different because I'm not going into a room 186 00:09:29,200 --> 00:09:32,000 Speaker 2: as myself. I'm going into my room as a blank 187 00:09:32,080 --> 00:09:33,760 Speaker 2: hamvas and as an actor. 188 00:09:35,040 --> 00:09:38,760 Speaker 1: And I have never been into a casting room before. 189 00:09:38,880 --> 00:09:42,160 Speaker 2: I've never I've done like practice ones in acting school, 190 00:09:42,240 --> 00:09:45,520 Speaker 2: like they'll do mock casting auditions for you to help 191 00:09:45,559 --> 00:09:48,600 Speaker 2: you understand what to expect when you go fro an audition, 192 00:09:48,640 --> 00:09:52,000 Speaker 2: because it is quite petrifying. And usually in the mock ones, 193 00:09:52,559 --> 00:09:55,160 Speaker 2: you've got one camera, you've got one reader, so that 194 00:09:55,200 --> 00:09:57,840 Speaker 2: means there's someone else reading the lines, and then you've 195 00:09:57,840 --> 00:10:03,600 Speaker 2: got one director that'll give you like notes and then 196 00:10:03,880 --> 00:10:06,839 Speaker 2: they want to see how you can take feedback. So 197 00:10:07,160 --> 00:10:09,600 Speaker 2: I kind of knew that I'd be expected to do that, 198 00:10:09,720 --> 00:10:12,480 Speaker 2: but like I walked into this room, it was like 199 00:10:12,520 --> 00:10:15,080 Speaker 2: a four year I drove two hours and fifteen minutes 200 00:10:15,120 --> 00:10:17,520 Speaker 2: to get there, number one, so that's how long I 201 00:10:17,559 --> 00:10:18,360 Speaker 2: was in the cart to get there. 202 00:10:18,840 --> 00:10:20,960 Speaker 1: I honestly not a word of a lie. 203 00:10:21,080 --> 00:10:23,600 Speaker 2: I was in that room for no more than six 204 00:10:23,679 --> 00:10:27,160 Speaker 2: minutes maximum, and then I got straight back in my 205 00:10:27,200 --> 00:10:29,240 Speaker 2: car and drove two hours and fifteen minutes back time. 206 00:10:30,200 --> 00:10:30,680 Speaker 1: Insane. 207 00:10:30,920 --> 00:10:33,280 Speaker 2: I mean, let's chalk it off to a great experience, 208 00:10:33,400 --> 00:10:34,360 Speaker 2: but wowsers. 209 00:10:34,600 --> 00:10:37,320 Speaker 1: And to not even get a response, it's like wow. 210 00:10:37,600 --> 00:10:40,880 Speaker 2: Whereas like if I didn't get like I am back 211 00:10:40,920 --> 00:10:43,000 Speaker 2: to like if I got booked for something for Lola Berry, 212 00:10:43,120 --> 00:10:46,480 Speaker 2: Like I nearly got booked for something recently and there 213 00:10:46,559 --> 00:10:48,040 Speaker 2: was a clash with the dates that I'll be in 214 00:10:48,080 --> 00:10:51,280 Speaker 2: America and the pr I my manager will write to 215 00:10:51,320 --> 00:10:54,320 Speaker 2: me and go, oh, dang it, you know, not dang it, 216 00:10:54,360 --> 00:10:57,120 Speaker 2: but like there's a there's a date clash when they 217 00:10:57,160 --> 00:11:00,320 Speaker 2: want you to shoot, We're gonna have to let this go. 218 00:11:00,640 --> 00:11:03,640 Speaker 2: And so you get feedback the whole time, and often 219 00:11:04,160 --> 00:11:06,440 Speaker 2: it is a date class or it is that it's 220 00:11:06,440 --> 00:11:08,480 Speaker 2: not actually personal is kind of my point. 221 00:11:08,559 --> 00:11:10,360 Speaker 1: But you don't get to know that in acting world. 222 00:11:10,440 --> 00:11:14,200 Speaker 2: You just don't hear, and so like you naturally like 223 00:11:14,920 --> 00:11:18,199 Speaker 2: think there's something wrong with you. Anyway, this is how 224 00:11:18,200 --> 00:11:22,200 Speaker 2: the audition went down. Honestly, I walk into this little 225 00:11:22,240 --> 00:11:27,760 Speaker 2: foyer and I see there's empty slates. So slates a 226 00:11:27,800 --> 00:11:30,400 Speaker 2: piece paper where you put your name, your age, your height, 227 00:11:30,679 --> 00:11:35,280 Speaker 2: your bus measurements, your waiste measurements, your agent, everything right. 228 00:11:35,600 --> 00:11:37,400 Speaker 2: And I was like, okay, I'd just done a course 229 00:11:37,440 --> 00:11:39,319 Speaker 2: with the casting director two weeks before, so I was like, 230 00:11:39,360 --> 00:11:42,360 Speaker 2: I know exactly. I knew all my measurements, but no 231 00:11:42,400 --> 00:11:44,760 Speaker 2: one told me to take my measurements. So like to 232 00:11:44,760 --> 00:11:47,360 Speaker 2: anyone listening, like have your measurements in your phone. I 233 00:11:47,400 --> 00:11:49,520 Speaker 2: had no idea that I would have needed them, but 234 00:11:49,600 --> 00:11:53,800 Speaker 2: I just randomly had done a practice slate two days before, 235 00:11:54,040 --> 00:11:58,040 Speaker 2: and so I had my measurements, and so I sat 236 00:11:58,080 --> 00:12:01,080 Speaker 2: down put all my measurements down, and then someone came 237 00:12:01,120 --> 00:12:02,040 Speaker 2: out and was like. 238 00:12:02,040 --> 00:12:03,040 Speaker 1: We're running early. 239 00:12:03,600 --> 00:12:06,240 Speaker 2: Come in early as soon as you finished writing your slate, 240 00:12:06,320 --> 00:12:07,680 Speaker 2: and I was like great. So you feel out a 241 00:12:07,720 --> 00:12:09,720 Speaker 2: slate which is all your info, and then you fill 242 00:12:09,760 --> 00:12:12,240 Speaker 2: out like a release form effectively, so you just kind 243 00:12:12,240 --> 00:12:16,040 Speaker 2: of like signing a wabar like I'm okay for X 244 00:12:16,080 --> 00:12:19,040 Speaker 2: amount of people to see this. You walk into the 245 00:12:19,080 --> 00:12:21,199 Speaker 2: room and you've got, like I said, a casting director 246 00:12:21,240 --> 00:12:22,920 Speaker 2: and a reader. In this case, it was a casting 247 00:12:22,920 --> 00:12:26,000 Speaker 2: director and an assistant, and the assistant was a lovely 248 00:12:26,080 --> 00:12:27,800 Speaker 2: lady that was like, come on, come into the room. 249 00:12:28,480 --> 00:12:30,640 Speaker 2: I stood at the door and I was just standing 250 00:12:30,640 --> 00:12:33,400 Speaker 2: in the door. Everyone could see me, like the feeling there, 251 00:12:33,400 --> 00:12:36,120 Speaker 2: and he just ignored me and just kept talking amongst 252 00:12:36,120 --> 00:12:38,319 Speaker 2: themselves to the point that I started sweating and my 253 00:12:38,400 --> 00:12:41,840 Speaker 2: legs started shaking. No joke, not a whatever like, and 254 00:12:41,920 --> 00:12:42,920 Speaker 2: I was like, oh my god, am I doing the 255 00:12:42,920 --> 00:12:45,320 Speaker 2: wrong thing. Should not be here, like all the internal 256 00:12:45,320 --> 00:12:50,160 Speaker 2: dialogue like like what should I be doing? And I'd 257 00:12:50,200 --> 00:12:53,640 Speaker 2: picked up I had the release form and the slate 258 00:12:53,679 --> 00:12:55,640 Speaker 2: in my hand, these two pieces of paper, but I 259 00:12:55,640 --> 00:12:58,280 Speaker 2: accidentally picked up a clipboard because they give you clipboards 260 00:12:58,320 --> 00:12:59,800 Speaker 2: to lean on when you feeling out information. 261 00:13:00,200 --> 00:13:01,240 Speaker 1: Well, I don't in my clipboard. 262 00:13:01,400 --> 00:13:03,240 Speaker 2: Basically, I just need to get out of standing in 263 00:13:03,240 --> 00:13:05,240 Speaker 2: the door feeling like a Google. Well, I'm being ignored, 264 00:13:05,440 --> 00:13:07,120 Speaker 2: So I put the clipboard back in the four yer. 265 00:13:07,240 --> 00:13:11,280 Speaker 2: I walk back to the doorway and they're still talking. 266 00:13:11,360 --> 00:13:14,439 Speaker 2: They've definitely clocked me again. Talk talk talk, and then 267 00:13:14,480 --> 00:13:18,640 Speaker 2: eventually Hi, Lola, and I was like, by this stage, honestly, 268 00:13:19,160 --> 00:13:22,560 Speaker 2: my confidence was at a zero. I felt like I'd 269 00:13:22,600 --> 00:13:24,640 Speaker 2: been made to feel really small. These are all my 270 00:13:24,720 --> 00:13:27,320 Speaker 2: own mental issues that I've got, though, Like I booked 271 00:13:27,360 --> 00:13:29,679 Speaker 2: it with my therapist the day after because I was 272 00:13:29,800 --> 00:13:34,800 Speaker 2: so mortified at the way that I was so triggered 273 00:13:34,800 --> 00:13:38,600 Speaker 2: to feel all these anxieties and stresses in this one 274 00:13:38,640 --> 00:13:43,320 Speaker 2: little six minute window. Anyway, They're like, Okay, this is 275 00:13:43,320 --> 00:13:45,240 Speaker 2: how it's going to go. Let's do a line. Run. 276 00:13:45,360 --> 00:13:48,360 Speaker 2: I was so petrified that I forgot the line. Like 277 00:13:48,400 --> 00:13:51,160 Speaker 2: I didn't forget it, I just stuffed it up and 278 00:13:51,200 --> 00:13:52,880 Speaker 2: I'd run it. I can't tell you how many times 279 00:13:52,880 --> 00:13:55,640 Speaker 2: I've run it, like eighty eighty five times. I knew 280 00:13:55,679 --> 00:13:58,640 Speaker 2: the lines. I had different versions, like I had five 281 00:13:58,679 --> 00:14:03,080 Speaker 2: different versions of how this scene could go. And I've 282 00:14:03,120 --> 00:14:05,920 Speaker 2: been told before never barrow the camera, and that means 283 00:14:05,960 --> 00:14:09,920 Speaker 2: like look eye line down the camera. And the caste 284 00:14:10,000 --> 00:14:12,400 Speaker 2: ager was standing directly behind the camera, and I go, oh, 285 00:14:12,400 --> 00:14:14,920 Speaker 2: where would you like my eye line? And she's like 286 00:14:15,080 --> 00:14:16,880 Speaker 2: to me, which would mean I would be looking like 287 00:14:16,960 --> 00:14:18,680 Speaker 2: I was barrowing the camera. And I was like, shit, 288 00:14:19,200 --> 00:14:21,120 Speaker 2: I don't think I need to be I've been told 289 00:14:21,200 --> 00:14:23,280 Speaker 2: never to do that. Maybe I shouldn't do that, And 290 00:14:23,320 --> 00:14:27,680 Speaker 2: so that was throwing me far out, Like my internal 291 00:14:27,760 --> 00:14:32,320 Speaker 2: dialogue was literally like fuck, ping ping ping like fire 292 00:14:32,440 --> 00:14:36,840 Speaker 2: ring off. And then I was like, okay, all right, 293 00:14:36,840 --> 00:14:37,560 Speaker 2: we do a line. Run. 294 00:14:37,640 --> 00:14:38,280 Speaker 1: I stuff it up. 295 00:14:38,400 --> 00:14:40,920 Speaker 2: She corrects me, and then we correct one another like 296 00:14:40,960 --> 00:14:43,320 Speaker 2: you know, it's fine. We check that I've got the lines. 297 00:14:43,520 --> 00:14:45,040 Speaker 2: I've got the lines, and she's like, all right, we're 298 00:14:45,040 --> 00:14:46,960 Speaker 2: gonna run it. And I was like, oh, I'm previous 299 00:14:47,000 --> 00:14:49,640 Speaker 2: that you have to go. Hey, my dame's Aliberry, I'm 300 00:14:49,680 --> 00:14:52,360 Speaker 2: thirty six years old. This is my manager, Like you 301 00:14:52,360 --> 00:14:53,960 Speaker 2: have to say that on camera as well, while you're 302 00:14:53,960 --> 00:14:56,960 Speaker 2: holding that little piece of paper up and then you 303 00:14:57,040 --> 00:15:00,160 Speaker 2: put your slate, that little piece of paper aside. And 304 00:15:00,200 --> 00:15:02,800 Speaker 2: then I watched the assistant go to the waste paper 305 00:15:02,800 --> 00:15:05,280 Speaker 2: bin with a full thing of slates, so all the 306 00:15:05,320 --> 00:15:08,520 Speaker 2: people that have auditioned before me and squnch them into 307 00:15:08,520 --> 00:15:11,080 Speaker 2: the ball, into a ball like they were rubbish, which 308 00:15:11,120 --> 00:15:13,920 Speaker 2: they were. And in that moment, I was like, oh 309 00:15:13,960 --> 00:15:15,360 Speaker 2: my god, I'm so disposable. 310 00:15:15,440 --> 00:15:16,760 Speaker 1: Oh my god, like all my. 311 00:15:16,800 --> 00:15:22,840 Speaker 2: Insecurities were like fully just like I was flipping out internally, honestly, 312 00:15:22,960 --> 00:15:26,320 Speaker 2: legs shaking, sweating like no man's business, wanted to pooh 313 00:15:26,360 --> 00:15:28,800 Speaker 2: my pants all the works like I was not in 314 00:15:28,960 --> 00:15:32,080 Speaker 2: a good way. I should not have been feeling this way. 315 00:15:33,040 --> 00:15:36,760 Speaker 2: And then I run the scene. She's like, okay, let's 316 00:15:36,800 --> 00:15:40,880 Speaker 2: run the scene. I run the scene and she's like, 317 00:15:41,720 --> 00:15:45,000 Speaker 2: way too much, way, way, way too much. Now, my 318 00:15:46,040 --> 00:15:50,200 Speaker 2: initial training is theater training, which is larger than TV 319 00:15:50,400 --> 00:15:53,480 Speaker 2: and commercial, Like you need to be larger on stage 320 00:15:53,520 --> 00:15:57,520 Speaker 2: than you're doing TV or commercials, and so I've heard 321 00:15:57,720 --> 00:15:59,880 Speaker 2: I was ready for that feedback, like I've heard other 322 00:16:00,120 --> 00:16:02,080 Speaker 2: people that have been through the same training as me 323 00:16:02,160 --> 00:16:04,920 Speaker 2: say they get that feedback. So I was like, okay, cool, 324 00:16:05,160 --> 00:16:07,840 Speaker 2: and she was like, turne it back more naturalistic, and 325 00:16:07,880 --> 00:16:08,720 Speaker 2: I was like got it. 326 00:16:10,520 --> 00:16:11,760 Speaker 1: Meanwhile, like the scene I. 327 00:16:11,760 --> 00:16:13,520 Speaker 2: Was doing, and I'm pretty sure I wouldn't be able 328 00:16:13,520 --> 00:16:15,680 Speaker 2: to give it away, but like it was a different 329 00:16:15,680 --> 00:16:18,440 Speaker 2: it was a weird scenario. So you're kind of like imagining, 330 00:16:18,480 --> 00:16:20,680 Speaker 2: because you're just in this playing room, you're imagining this 331 00:16:20,760 --> 00:16:23,720 Speaker 2: scenario going on to try and make it realistic anyway, 332 00:16:24,080 --> 00:16:28,640 Speaker 2: So I run it really natural, way too much. Lola 333 00:16:29,280 --> 00:16:32,240 Speaker 2: give it to me deadpan, and by this stage I 334 00:16:32,280 --> 00:16:35,880 Speaker 2: feel like a piece of sand, Like I feel that 335 00:16:35,960 --> 00:16:39,160 Speaker 2: small that I'm just like, oh god, this is not good. 336 00:16:39,240 --> 00:16:42,240 Speaker 1: This is not good. This is not good. And then 337 00:16:43,440 --> 00:16:44,640 Speaker 1: I do the dead pan one. 338 00:16:44,720 --> 00:16:49,040 Speaker 2: She goes thanks, and I'm like, oh wow, shivers, shivers, 339 00:16:49,080 --> 00:16:53,560 Speaker 2: and then as she's walking away from me, says, you'll 340 00:16:53,600 --> 00:16:56,640 Speaker 2: know by Friday, and I was like, okay, thanks so much, 341 00:16:56,800 --> 00:17:00,760 Speaker 2: really appreciate your time. And I go a driven, like 342 00:17:01,200 --> 00:17:03,000 Speaker 2: over two hours age, he can I use your bathroom? 343 00:17:03,040 --> 00:17:05,880 Speaker 2: So then I go use a bathroom. I come out 344 00:17:05,880 --> 00:17:08,360 Speaker 2: the assistance like, well done, you did a good job, 345 00:17:08,400 --> 00:17:09,920 Speaker 2: and I was like, I was my first ever one, 346 00:17:10,160 --> 00:17:11,919 Speaker 2: Like I said, I was so nervous, and then I 347 00:17:11,960 --> 00:17:15,200 Speaker 2: just said my goodbyes, got back in the car, and 348 00:17:15,880 --> 00:17:16,960 Speaker 2: I was mortified. 349 00:17:17,320 --> 00:17:18,720 Speaker 1: Not because. 350 00:17:20,040 --> 00:17:22,560 Speaker 2: Like I'm so glad I had the experience. I'm so 351 00:17:22,760 --> 00:17:26,800 Speaker 2: glad that I know got out of my comfort zone 352 00:17:26,800 --> 00:17:29,160 Speaker 2: and ripped the bandaid off, so to speak, but like 353 00:17:29,320 --> 00:17:31,520 Speaker 2: I was just so surprised how I was so willing 354 00:17:31,560 --> 00:17:33,560 Speaker 2: to give my power over and it was all me, 355 00:17:33,800 --> 00:17:37,200 Speaker 2: Like I was the one that was like psychoanalyzing every 356 00:17:37,200 --> 00:17:41,280 Speaker 2: single thing going on in the room rather than just 357 00:17:41,320 --> 00:17:43,800 Speaker 2: being present to the lines in the script and taking 358 00:17:43,800 --> 00:17:47,480 Speaker 2: the feedback really constructively. I was like so hyper sensitive, 359 00:17:47,520 --> 00:17:49,639 Speaker 2: like I felt like I don't know if you've seen Entourage, 360 00:17:49,680 --> 00:17:54,000 Speaker 2: But Johnny Drama, he's doing an audition and like one 361 00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:56,000 Speaker 2: of the casting directs in the room is scrolling his 362 00:17:56,160 --> 00:17:59,600 Speaker 2: BlackBerry while he's doing the audition, and Johnny Drama flips it. 363 00:17:59,640 --> 00:18:00,679 Speaker 1: Like I felt like dray. 364 00:18:00,600 --> 00:18:03,640 Speaker 2: Rum, Like I was flipping out, like when I started 365 00:18:03,640 --> 00:18:05,720 Speaker 2: swipping at all internal, like I was just trying to 366 00:18:05,720 --> 00:18:07,680 Speaker 2: be like a duck on the top of the water, 367 00:18:07,720 --> 00:18:11,040 Speaker 2: but my legs were just like paddling really really fast 368 00:18:11,080 --> 00:18:13,800 Speaker 2: like a duck would, but instead of paddling really fast, 369 00:18:13,800 --> 00:18:16,520 Speaker 2: they were just shaking. So I just wanted to share 370 00:18:16,560 --> 00:18:22,159 Speaker 2: that experience because I didn't expect that I need to 371 00:18:22,240 --> 00:18:27,000 Speaker 2: go in like so fool proof, like so confident within myself, 372 00:18:27,040 --> 00:18:28,879 Speaker 2: like I write about all this kind of stuff in 373 00:18:28,880 --> 00:18:31,879 Speaker 2: the book about like being bulletproof and being confident and 374 00:18:32,080 --> 00:18:34,960 Speaker 2: knowing who you are and knowing your values, and it 375 00:18:35,000 --> 00:18:37,840 Speaker 2: all felt like it went out the window. And to 376 00:18:37,920 --> 00:18:41,760 Speaker 2: be honest, like that would have been a very normal 377 00:18:41,840 --> 00:18:46,879 Speaker 2: casting experience. They were really like pretty like like I 378 00:18:46,880 --> 00:18:49,919 Speaker 2: wouldn't say sweet, but like they were welcoming enough, but 379 00:18:50,600 --> 00:18:55,879 Speaker 2: I was so expecting, you know, oh hey, Lola, thanks 380 00:18:55,880 --> 00:18:59,360 Speaker 2: for coming in. How are you like I was expecting niceties, 381 00:18:59,359 --> 00:19:03,440 Speaker 2: which I shouldn't done rookie era, and because I didn't 382 00:19:03,480 --> 00:19:05,480 Speaker 2: get that, and because I felt like I was really 383 00:19:05,480 --> 00:19:10,080 Speaker 2: ignored when I'm just standing in this doorway, I kind 384 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:14,359 Speaker 2: of felt really small. And so anyway I like to 385 00:19:14,400 --> 00:19:18,040 Speaker 2: share this podcast is called Fieldsley Failing. I would say 386 00:19:18,080 --> 00:19:21,040 Speaker 2: that entire audition was an epic failure for me, A 387 00:19:21,119 --> 00:19:25,239 Speaker 2: wonderful lesson in growth, in self worth, in resilience, in 388 00:19:26,400 --> 00:19:28,480 Speaker 2: going in and just like giving it a red hot 389 00:19:28,480 --> 00:19:30,840 Speaker 2: crack but not being attached to the outcome. 390 00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:32,160 Speaker 1: There's a Yogi word. 391 00:19:32,240 --> 00:19:35,560 Speaker 2: I think it's villa gria via ga, and it's like 392 00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:39,359 Speaker 2: to practice consistently but have no attachment to the outcome. 393 00:19:39,560 --> 00:19:41,080 Speaker 2: And I think I need to be a bit more 394 00:19:41,119 --> 00:19:44,680 Speaker 2: like that, Like I had done the full boyfriend romance thing. 395 00:19:44,680 --> 00:19:45,919 Speaker 2: You know when you first go on a date with 396 00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:50,000 Speaker 2: someone and literally you're like planning holidays, planning and engagement, 397 00:19:50,160 --> 00:19:53,080 Speaker 2: planning kids, all that, like buying a house, all those things, 398 00:19:53,119 --> 00:19:55,360 Speaker 2: and your brain has been on one or two dates 399 00:19:55,359 --> 00:19:57,800 Speaker 2: with this person. Next minute their planning, your brain is 400 00:19:57,840 --> 00:20:01,520 Speaker 2: planning the entire future. I was doing that for this gig, like. 401 00:20:03,920 --> 00:20:04,400 Speaker 1: So it was. 402 00:20:05,119 --> 00:20:09,040 Speaker 2: Their commercial had five different commercials within this one campaign, 403 00:20:09,040 --> 00:20:10,320 Speaker 2: and I was like, well, maybe they're gonna love me 404 00:20:10,359 --> 00:20:12,480 Speaker 2: so much, I'll put me in all five of these 405 00:20:12,520 --> 00:20:16,919 Speaker 2: different commercials. And I'm like, one ticket's lower tickets on yourself, 406 00:20:16,960 --> 00:20:19,960 Speaker 2: but two like I was romanticizing the idea of this 407 00:20:20,080 --> 00:20:23,840 Speaker 2: as opposed to just like going in super present, giving 408 00:20:23,840 --> 00:20:26,440 Speaker 2: it my all and then just letting it go. And 409 00:20:26,560 --> 00:20:31,679 Speaker 2: I've heard actors say how hardcore the audition processes in 410 00:20:31,760 --> 00:20:34,760 Speaker 2: podcasts and in interviews, and one of them had really 411 00:20:34,760 --> 00:20:37,560 Speaker 2: good advice, which I'm one hundred percent going to heed. 412 00:20:38,600 --> 00:20:41,199 Speaker 2: And it is the second that you walk out of 413 00:20:41,200 --> 00:20:45,920 Speaker 2: the audition, you throw the script in the bin because 414 00:20:45,960 --> 00:20:48,480 Speaker 2: it stops you from hanging on to it. So I 415 00:20:48,560 --> 00:20:50,840 Speaker 2: had my script and I hung onto it until I 416 00:20:50,880 --> 00:20:52,919 Speaker 2: knew the day of callbacks was because I was like, well, 417 00:20:52,920 --> 00:20:54,840 Speaker 2: I'm going to need it again if I get a callback. 418 00:20:55,280 --> 00:20:57,879 Speaker 2: And there literally as soon as that he ended business 419 00:20:57,960 --> 00:21:00,280 Speaker 2: day on the day that I knew the callbacks would 420 00:21:00,280 --> 00:21:02,760 Speaker 2: have happened, straight in the bin, I was like, let 421 00:21:02,840 --> 00:21:04,919 Speaker 2: it go. And that's a bit that I feel like 422 00:21:04,920 --> 00:21:06,879 Speaker 2: I'm good at. I feel like I'm really good at 423 00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:07,560 Speaker 2: letting go. 424 00:21:08,200 --> 00:21:09,360 Speaker 1: But in the moment. 425 00:21:09,520 --> 00:21:12,600 Speaker 2: I was so flawed and I really stuffed it up, 426 00:21:12,760 --> 00:21:14,800 Speaker 2: and like I knew, I knew all the lines. 427 00:21:14,520 --> 00:21:15,760 Speaker 1: But I still stuffed it up. 428 00:21:16,480 --> 00:21:19,920 Speaker 2: And I was so sensitive, and I put so much 429 00:21:19,960 --> 00:21:22,080 Speaker 2: of my worth in these two other people that i'd 430 00:21:22,080 --> 00:21:25,080 Speaker 2: never even met before, that probably had no idea about 431 00:21:25,280 --> 00:21:28,720 Speaker 2: anything like my process, how hard i'd worked on it, 432 00:21:28,920 --> 00:21:33,080 Speaker 2: you know, any of that. And so I just wanted 433 00:21:33,119 --> 00:21:36,280 Speaker 2: to share this epic failure with you. I hope you 434 00:21:36,400 --> 00:21:41,200 Speaker 2: find it interesting, and you know, I wish it. As 435 00:21:41,200 --> 00:21:43,359 Speaker 2: an actor, I'd wish i'd heard a story like this 436 00:21:43,480 --> 00:21:44,920 Speaker 2: so that I knew that you're going and you're not 437 00:21:44,960 --> 00:21:47,520 Speaker 2: there to make mates. And I've been warned that other 438 00:21:47,560 --> 00:21:50,240 Speaker 2: actors in the foyer will often try and psych you out. 439 00:21:50,359 --> 00:21:52,800 Speaker 1: I didn't even know that was a thing. I will say. 440 00:21:52,800 --> 00:21:54,720 Speaker 2: The other actors in the foyer that I saw were 441 00:21:54,840 --> 00:21:57,800 Speaker 2: so lovely, like I'm just talking energy glovely, like I 442 00:21:57,840 --> 00:21:59,760 Speaker 2: didn't talk to them, but like they give you a smile, 443 00:22:00,119 --> 00:22:03,920 Speaker 2: they'd you know, not mean at all. They're not trying 444 00:22:03,920 --> 00:22:06,000 Speaker 2: to size you up. But that was also I'm going 445 00:22:06,080 --> 00:22:08,159 Speaker 2: to that was a Queensland audition. Who knows what that 446 00:22:08,200 --> 00:22:11,160 Speaker 2: would be like in La or Sydney or Melbourne, where 447 00:22:11,640 --> 00:22:14,679 Speaker 2: the competition is probably greater because you know there are 448 00:22:14,720 --> 00:22:16,880 Speaker 2: so many people out there city, right, so many people 449 00:22:16,960 --> 00:22:18,040 Speaker 2: going for these jobs. 450 00:22:19,040 --> 00:22:21,960 Speaker 1: So yeah, I wanted to I wanted to. 451 00:22:22,400 --> 00:22:24,439 Speaker 2: Really be honest with you and I and to be 452 00:22:24,520 --> 00:22:28,440 Speaker 2: completely transparent. I booked him with my therapist the very 453 00:22:28,480 --> 00:22:30,119 Speaker 2: next day and I was like, WHOA, I need to 454 00:22:30,240 --> 00:22:34,200 Speaker 2: unpack this. I literally gave all of my power away 455 00:22:34,520 --> 00:22:38,560 Speaker 2: in a nano second and we did heaps of work together. 456 00:22:38,600 --> 00:22:41,600 Speaker 2: And he goes, you need to understand that, yes, you're 457 00:22:41,600 --> 00:22:44,560 Speaker 2: an actor now, but you're also a profile. And when 458 00:22:44,600 --> 00:22:47,320 Speaker 2: I say profile, he means like, like I really want 459 00:22:47,359 --> 00:22:48,480 Speaker 2: to host TV one day. 460 00:22:48,680 --> 00:22:49,600 Speaker 1: And so that's like a. 461 00:22:49,600 --> 00:22:53,000 Speaker 2: Steve Colbert or Jimmy Kimmel or Jimmy found there what's 462 00:22:53,040 --> 00:22:57,160 Speaker 2: called profiles. And so he's like, you've got such strong 463 00:22:57,359 --> 00:23:00,240 Speaker 2: character traits that you're going to need to find role 464 00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:03,359 Speaker 2: that suit you and suit their I think you use 465 00:23:03,400 --> 00:23:06,840 Speaker 2: word profile or personality, not profile. He's like, you need 466 00:23:06,880 --> 00:23:10,200 Speaker 2: a suit find acting roles that fit your personality trait. 467 00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:14,760 Speaker 2: So a TV host is a personality and an actor 468 00:23:14,800 --> 00:23:17,800 Speaker 2: is an actor. He's like, but he goes, and I 469 00:23:17,840 --> 00:23:19,840 Speaker 2: said that makes such great sense to me, because I 470 00:23:19,880 --> 00:23:24,080 Speaker 2: really struggle with the dark roles the like unless there's 471 00:23:24,119 --> 00:23:28,440 Speaker 2: like fire and power behind it and wit. I really 472 00:23:28,480 --> 00:23:31,160 Speaker 2: struggle with like things that are a more depressed kind 473 00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:33,880 Speaker 2: of tone. It's just like, there are some amazing actors 474 00:23:33,880 --> 00:23:35,960 Speaker 2: that can sit in that space, and I know that 475 00:23:35,960 --> 00:23:39,400 Speaker 2: that's like not my skill set at all. And I said, 476 00:23:39,400 --> 00:23:41,040 Speaker 2: this is a great gift and he said yeah, he's 477 00:23:41,040 --> 00:23:47,320 Speaker 2: like you need you know, strong, witty, funny, banter, like 478 00:23:47,440 --> 00:23:49,800 Speaker 2: all those kind of things a part of your personality 479 00:23:49,880 --> 00:23:52,320 Speaker 2: as who you are as a human and you can 480 00:23:52,359 --> 00:23:54,240 Speaker 2: transfer that to being an actor. 481 00:23:54,560 --> 00:23:56,240 Speaker 1: So that was really cool. I learned so much. 482 00:23:56,280 --> 00:23:59,000 Speaker 2: I'm so grateful I went for the audition, but it 483 00:23:59,040 --> 00:24:01,239 Speaker 2: felt like it sucked at the time of being in 484 00:24:01,240 --> 00:24:05,680 Speaker 2: that audition room and casting room and I just don't 485 00:24:05,680 --> 00:24:08,400 Speaker 2: want to get that nervous ever again for an audition 486 00:24:08,480 --> 00:24:11,800 Speaker 2: because it really like and it affected me until I 487 00:24:11,840 --> 00:24:13,960 Speaker 2: had my therapist, so I booked it for the next day. 488 00:24:14,400 --> 00:24:16,719 Speaker 2: I think I then had the session the day after, 489 00:24:17,119 --> 00:24:19,560 Speaker 2: so it affected me for two days after and a 490 00:24:19,640 --> 00:24:22,120 Speaker 2: day prior because I got so nervous, which I. 491 00:24:22,320 --> 00:24:26,440 Speaker 1: Didn't need to, like, who cares like yeah, So a 492 00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:27,240 Speaker 1: lot of letting. 493 00:24:27,080 --> 00:24:35,399 Speaker 2: Go, a lot of learning about the importance of not 494 00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:39,360 Speaker 2: giving a shit, like do the work, learn the lines, 495 00:24:39,480 --> 00:24:43,560 Speaker 2: be off book, have your character choices, and you've scene 496 00:24:43,600 --> 00:24:47,320 Speaker 2: objectives and script analysis all that. Have all that stuff done, 497 00:24:47,400 --> 00:24:50,399 Speaker 2: but don't be like I was holding on so tight 498 00:24:50,760 --> 00:24:52,960 Speaker 2: that I left it up and it was all on me. 499 00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:54,280 Speaker 1: There you go. 500 00:24:54,359 --> 00:24:56,400 Speaker 2: I wanted to share that because obviously I didn't get 501 00:24:56,400 --> 00:25:00,760 Speaker 2: the role, and I just wanted to like, yeah, shit, yeah, 502 00:25:00,800 --> 00:25:03,080 Speaker 2: like I've said five times, sharing epic failure with you, 503 00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:05,080 Speaker 2: and I made notes on how I was feeling in 504 00:25:05,119 --> 00:25:06,399 Speaker 2: the moment and they were my notes. 505 00:25:08,160 --> 00:25:10,480 Speaker 1: Great, great, this is our update. 506 00:25:11,160 --> 00:25:13,720 Speaker 2: I will promise you I will have done more things 507 00:25:13,760 --> 00:25:19,400 Speaker 2: in Byron. Next week, I am getting involved as a nutritionist. 508 00:25:19,440 --> 00:25:22,520 Speaker 2: I'm putting my nutrition hat on for the Peach's Challenge. 509 00:25:22,640 --> 00:25:25,480 Speaker 2: So for you, Enviyron, there's a big Pilates challenge on 510 00:25:26,119 --> 00:25:29,480 Speaker 2: starting next week in feb And so. 511 00:25:29,520 --> 00:25:31,480 Speaker 1: I will have done some cool stuff. 512 00:25:31,800 --> 00:25:33,879 Speaker 2: Hopefully by next time I chat and I can be like, 513 00:25:33,880 --> 00:25:35,959 Speaker 2: oh my god, I went to this event which is tonight. 514 00:25:36,400 --> 00:25:38,960 Speaker 2: You know, I did nutrition to it, but at the moment, 515 00:25:39,200 --> 00:25:42,600 Speaker 2: literally boss, and I just like chasing our tails for 516 00:25:43,119 --> 00:25:47,480 Speaker 2: just normal life things. So Mega Love, I hope you 517 00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:50,480 Speaker 2: have a brilliant day depending on what time you're listening 518 00:25:50,480 --> 00:25:53,080 Speaker 2: to this all night, and thank you so much for listening, 519 00:25:53,160 --> 00:25:55,879 Speaker 2: and thank you again for all the support with the 520 00:25:56,480 --> 00:26:00,320 Speaker 2: half a million downloads. Still can't believe it, so pump 521 00:26:00,400 --> 00:26:03,760 Speaker 2: for the pod this year. I've got episodes recorded, like 522 00:26:03,800 --> 00:26:07,000 Speaker 2: I think I've got like another ten in the can already, 523 00:26:07,040 --> 00:26:10,720 Speaker 2: so we've got some really epic, epic guests. Some of 524 00:26:10,720 --> 00:26:13,000 Speaker 2: them are authors, though, so I'm trying to time them 525 00:26:13,119 --> 00:26:15,359 Speaker 2: so that you get the episode on the Monday and 526 00:26:15,400 --> 00:26:17,360 Speaker 2: then I do their book review on the Friday. 527 00:26:18,400 --> 00:26:19,399 Speaker 1: I'm trying to time that. 528 00:26:19,480 --> 00:26:22,400 Speaker 2: I mean, it's harder because I was meant to interview 529 00:26:23,040 --> 00:26:25,400 Speaker 2: Lorna Jane last week and it kind of got moved 530 00:26:25,400 --> 00:26:26,879 Speaker 2: around and I was like, ah, but I've done the 531 00:26:26,920 --> 00:26:29,560 Speaker 2: book review, so usually I know that'll be out of sequence. 532 00:26:29,600 --> 00:26:32,479 Speaker 2: But usually you'll get your Monday yep. If they're an 533 00:26:32,480 --> 00:26:36,439 Speaker 2: author and their book review on the Friday. Something you 534 00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:40,879 Speaker 2: go meg a Love And I'm about to plan a 535 00:26:40,960 --> 00:26:44,160 Speaker 2: trip where I go to Melbourne and Sydney for podcasting, 536 00:26:44,280 --> 00:26:45,840 Speaker 2: So if there's anyone that you want to hear on 537 00:26:45,920 --> 00:26:49,280 Speaker 2: the pod always dm me on Insta. I'm really open 538 00:26:49,320 --> 00:26:51,119 Speaker 2: to your ideas and i want this to be a 539 00:26:51,160 --> 00:26:54,520 Speaker 2: podcast that you love and that you're part of, so 540 00:26:54,720 --> 00:26:57,320 Speaker 2: please let me know what you want to hear more 541 00:26:57,359 --> 00:27:02,320 Speaker 2: of Big Love goodbue E Turtles