1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:02,640 Speaker 1: I would like to acknowledge the traditional owners of the 2 00:00:02,720 --> 00:00:06,279 Speaker 1: land on which this episode is being recorded, the Combomb 3 00:00:06,320 --> 00:00:11,080 Speaker 1: Merry people. They've been having conversations and telling stories on 4 00:00:11,119 --> 00:00:14,280 Speaker 1: this land for thousands of years, and we show our 5 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:19,240 Speaker 1: gratitude and respect for their contribution to our environment and culture. 6 00:00:21,920 --> 00:00:26,280 Speaker 1: This is Rise and Conquer, the podcast where we strive 7 00:00:26,480 --> 00:00:32,400 Speaker 1: to become the highest version of ourselves through curious conversations, 8 00:00:32,600 --> 00:00:37,919 Speaker 1: healthy mindsets, laughter, connection, and a deep desire to evolve. 9 00:00:39,760 --> 00:00:46,360 Speaker 1: I'm your host, Georgie Stevenson. Join me as we explore parenthood, business, manifestation, 10 00:00:46,680 --> 00:00:50,720 Speaker 1: and so much more. It's positive, it's practical, and it's 11 00:00:50,720 --> 00:00:54,720 Speaker 1: about putting you in the driver's seat of your own life. 12 00:00:55,280 --> 00:01:01,320 Speaker 1: Are you ready? Hello, my loves, and welcome back to 13 00:01:01,320 --> 00:01:05,480 Speaker 1: the podcast. Today is going to be a bit of 14 00:01:05,480 --> 00:01:08,760 Speaker 1: a vulnerable one, something a little bit different, something I 15 00:01:08,920 --> 00:01:13,280 Speaker 1: just feel really called to share in real time before 16 00:01:13,319 --> 00:01:18,000 Speaker 1: it happens. And I have been keeping you somewhat updated 17 00:01:18,360 --> 00:01:22,200 Speaker 1: on my social media if you follow me over on Instagram. 18 00:01:22,480 --> 00:01:26,200 Speaker 1: And there has been a lot of things to process 19 00:01:26,480 --> 00:01:31,120 Speaker 1: with my birth plan with my second daughter, and basically 20 00:01:31,200 --> 00:01:34,720 Speaker 1: I wanted to do this episode because I know, especially 21 00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:39,920 Speaker 1: the Rise and conquer community. We often have very specific, 22 00:01:40,240 --> 00:01:45,000 Speaker 1: clear goals, We have very specific visions of who we 23 00:01:45,040 --> 00:01:47,960 Speaker 1: want to be and how things how we want things 24 00:01:48,200 --> 00:01:51,920 Speaker 1: to go. So really this is for anyone who has 25 00:01:52,120 --> 00:01:57,080 Speaker 1: had a plan or vision and for whatever reason, things 26 00:01:57,120 --> 00:02:00,200 Speaker 1: have had to deviate and things have had to change. So, 27 00:02:00,240 --> 00:02:04,520 Speaker 1: whether you're pregnant or not, this episode is really about 28 00:02:04,600 --> 00:02:08,840 Speaker 1: what to do when life throws you those curve balls, 29 00:02:09,240 --> 00:02:13,840 Speaker 1: when plans change, and even you know when you're grieving 30 00:02:14,280 --> 00:02:18,040 Speaker 1: something being a specific way, but you also want to 31 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:19,760 Speaker 1: process it and you want to move through it. You 32 00:02:19,800 --> 00:02:22,320 Speaker 1: don't want to keep living in the past, and you 33 00:02:22,480 --> 00:02:26,680 Speaker 1: want to basically move through it in a very healthy way. 34 00:02:26,720 --> 00:02:30,080 Speaker 1: This episode is going to be very, very helpful for you. 35 00:02:30,639 --> 00:02:34,080 Speaker 1: So let's get into a bit of an update. I'll 36 00:02:34,200 --> 00:02:39,280 Speaker 1: start from the start. So with my first daughter, Ivy, 37 00:02:39,639 --> 00:02:44,840 Speaker 1: we had a vaginal birth. I labored I think it 38 00:02:44,880 --> 00:02:49,040 Speaker 1: was for a good seventeen hours. I was seven centimeters dilated, 39 00:02:49,360 --> 00:02:53,600 Speaker 1: and then I had this kind of euphoric experience where 40 00:02:54,840 --> 00:02:58,120 Speaker 1: very quickly the backstory would be tim. When me and 41 00:02:58,200 --> 00:03:02,440 Speaker 1: Tim first found out about Ivy, we were in Ularu 42 00:03:02,600 --> 00:03:05,920 Speaker 1: on a holiday and it was the most magical holiday 43 00:03:05,960 --> 00:03:08,080 Speaker 1: still to this day, it was my favorite holiday at 44 00:03:08,120 --> 00:03:11,120 Speaker 1: the It's so sacred there and it's so beautiful. And 45 00:03:11,200 --> 00:03:13,720 Speaker 1: I was getting a massage and it was the day 46 00:03:13,760 --> 00:03:19,040 Speaker 1: before I could take a test, and my massage lady said, 47 00:03:19,360 --> 00:03:23,840 Speaker 1: oh my god, you're pregnant. And I was like, ah, really, 48 00:03:24,400 --> 00:03:26,000 Speaker 1: how do you know? And she said, when I was 49 00:03:26,080 --> 00:03:32,080 Speaker 1: massaging you, I got this vision of this. Yeah, this 50 00:03:32,240 --> 00:03:36,720 Speaker 1: vision in so in Aboriginal culture there would be women's 51 00:03:36,760 --> 00:03:39,880 Speaker 1: ceremonies and men's ceremonies. They would do them separately. And 52 00:03:39,920 --> 00:03:45,640 Speaker 1: she said, there was this woman's ceremony where basically they 53 00:03:45,800 --> 00:03:51,360 Speaker 1: were calling in this spirit baby for you, and I 54 00:03:51,400 --> 00:03:54,440 Speaker 1: think you're pregnant. And so the next day I took 55 00:03:54,480 --> 00:03:57,280 Speaker 1: the test. I was pregnant. It was like obviously incredible 56 00:03:57,320 --> 00:04:00,240 Speaker 1: after a year of infertility, so that was it's like 57 00:04:00,240 --> 00:04:05,000 Speaker 1: super super special. And it's so interesting because we birthed 58 00:04:05,200 --> 00:04:08,840 Speaker 1: publicly at the Gold Coast ud Hospital if you'd know 59 00:04:09,000 --> 00:04:13,320 Speaker 1: the Gold Coast area, and in the rooms, the walls 60 00:04:13,320 --> 00:04:16,000 Speaker 1: were painted and you know, they have the bath they 61 00:04:16,000 --> 00:04:19,400 Speaker 1: have the beds. It's very set up very well. And 62 00:04:19,839 --> 00:04:23,039 Speaker 1: the room that we got put in, the birthing suite, 63 00:04:23,800 --> 00:04:27,480 Speaker 1: was actually aboriginal art on the wall, and I remember 64 00:04:27,560 --> 00:04:30,479 Speaker 1: getting in there and being like, oh wow, that's so beautiful. 65 00:04:31,120 --> 00:04:35,200 Speaker 1: And when I was laboring and I was seven centimeters, 66 00:04:35,520 --> 00:04:40,760 Speaker 1: I went into this kind of like euphoric hallucination. And 67 00:04:41,160 --> 00:04:44,039 Speaker 1: she was posteria, so I was in a lot of pain, 68 00:04:44,200 --> 00:04:46,000 Speaker 1: and I kind of take that as I was trying 69 00:04:46,040 --> 00:04:47,840 Speaker 1: to go. I was in a lot of pain because 70 00:04:47,880 --> 00:04:52,560 Speaker 1: she was posterior. And I started having this hallucination that 71 00:04:52,760 --> 00:04:56,159 Speaker 1: I was in this woman's circle and she was ready 72 00:04:56,200 --> 00:05:00,960 Speaker 1: to come in and I was cooling her in. And 73 00:05:00,960 --> 00:05:03,719 Speaker 1: and this is how much I believe, like our mind 74 00:05:03,839 --> 00:05:07,560 Speaker 1: and our subconscious mind controls our body and all our 75 00:05:07,960 --> 00:05:11,440 Speaker 1: workings within our body, and we know that. But basically 76 00:05:11,560 --> 00:05:14,479 Speaker 1: I started bearing down, which you're only supposed to do 77 00:05:14,520 --> 00:05:17,600 Speaker 1: once you're fully dilated. And so I remember I started 78 00:05:17,600 --> 00:05:20,680 Speaker 1: bearing down. Basically just feels like you want to pooh, 79 00:05:20,839 --> 00:05:24,200 Speaker 1: and it feels good too. Bearing down feels good. It 80 00:05:24,240 --> 00:05:27,039 Speaker 1: feels like your body knows it's towards the end. And 81 00:05:27,040 --> 00:05:30,400 Speaker 1: I started bearing down. I looked over to the nurses 82 00:05:30,480 --> 00:05:33,200 Speaker 1: and they were looking at me like oh no, and 83 00:05:33,240 --> 00:05:36,039 Speaker 1: they were like, no, you're not fully dilated, Like you 84 00:05:36,080 --> 00:05:38,599 Speaker 1: need to stop bearing down, and so it was half 85 00:05:38,600 --> 00:05:41,279 Speaker 1: an hour of bearing down and then I started bleeding 86 00:05:41,520 --> 00:05:45,200 Speaker 1: and that was actually Ivy's head banging on my cervix, 87 00:05:45,480 --> 00:05:48,599 Speaker 1: pushing her. Doctors rushed in and they did say, you 88 00:05:48,640 --> 00:05:50,840 Speaker 1: have to go for a CEA section. We don't want 89 00:05:50,880 --> 00:05:53,919 Speaker 1: baby to be in distress. But her heart rate was okay, 90 00:05:54,240 --> 00:05:56,560 Speaker 1: and so I said to them, so anything else we 91 00:05:56,640 --> 00:05:59,080 Speaker 1: can try before that, and they said, you could get 92 00:05:59,080 --> 00:06:02,200 Speaker 1: an epidrale see if that calms you down. If not, 93 00:06:02,240 --> 00:06:03,520 Speaker 1: you'll have to get a sea section. So I go 94 00:06:03,600 --> 00:06:07,039 Speaker 1: to epidural and straightaway stop bearing down. I could control 95 00:06:07,040 --> 00:06:09,719 Speaker 1: my body a bit more, and then she came out 96 00:06:09,760 --> 00:06:14,600 Speaker 1: literally an hour later. So that was again it's not 97 00:06:14,680 --> 00:06:17,640 Speaker 1: like the most textbook birth, but I don't know. It 98 00:06:17,680 --> 00:06:21,479 Speaker 1: was such a beautiful experience. Pushed her out straight, skin 99 00:06:21,560 --> 00:06:24,960 Speaker 1: on skin. It was amazing. Tim was with me the 100 00:06:25,000 --> 00:06:29,000 Speaker 1: whole time. It was just incredible, and so I always 101 00:06:29,080 --> 00:06:32,520 Speaker 1: just thought I would have another vaginal birth with this baby. 102 00:06:32,880 --> 00:06:36,120 Speaker 1: My mum also has had four kids, all vaginal births. 103 00:06:36,520 --> 00:06:39,599 Speaker 1: All my sister in laws have all had vaginal births. 104 00:06:39,640 --> 00:06:42,560 Speaker 1: The only people I know who have had sea sections 105 00:06:42,760 --> 00:06:47,520 Speaker 1: are emergency sea sections, and so their stories are a 106 00:06:47,560 --> 00:06:51,760 Speaker 1: little bit scary. That's the only experience that I had 107 00:06:51,800 --> 00:06:54,640 Speaker 1: been told about sea sections going back. That was always 108 00:06:54,640 --> 00:06:58,160 Speaker 1: the plan. We did decide to go private this time 109 00:06:58,240 --> 00:07:00,880 Speaker 1: because we do have private health color and it was 110 00:07:00,960 --> 00:07:02,880 Speaker 1: just like this intuitive thing where I was like, m 111 00:07:03,200 --> 00:07:06,559 Speaker 1: we did public. It was incredible, couldn't recommend it enough. 112 00:07:06,960 --> 00:07:08,800 Speaker 1: But then I was like, I think I want to 113 00:07:08,800 --> 00:07:11,720 Speaker 1: try private and just have one doctor throughout the whole thing, 114 00:07:12,040 --> 00:07:15,520 Speaker 1: et cetera, et cetera. And at our twenty week scan 115 00:07:16,920 --> 00:07:21,560 Speaker 1: previous to that, my doctor, my OB I am seeing 116 00:07:21,840 --> 00:07:27,760 Speaker 1: Drew Moffrey at Pindara, a private hospital, and he had 117 00:07:27,880 --> 00:07:30,480 Speaker 1: mentioned like I had less center was over the cervix, 118 00:07:30,520 --> 00:07:33,800 Speaker 1: but he continuously was like, oh, we don't have to stress. 119 00:07:33,880 --> 00:07:36,640 Speaker 1: It usually just stretches up, and I honestly didn't really 120 00:07:36,640 --> 00:07:39,320 Speaker 1: take notice. And then at the twenty weeks again had 121 00:07:39,320 --> 00:07:42,160 Speaker 1: the skin and then we had our full up appointment 122 00:07:42,160 --> 00:07:44,960 Speaker 1: with him and he basically explained that I have a 123 00:07:45,000 --> 00:07:50,000 Speaker 1: condition called placenta previa, which mine was Grade four because 124 00:07:50,040 --> 00:07:52,400 Speaker 1: of how much the placente is sitting over the cervix. 125 00:07:52,800 --> 00:07:56,280 Speaker 1: And he explained that this is considered a high risk 126 00:07:56,320 --> 00:08:00,360 Speaker 1: pregnancy and if it's still sitting, if the placenta still 127 00:08:00,400 --> 00:08:03,640 Speaker 1: sitting on the cervix, I would get continuous scans, but 128 00:08:04,040 --> 00:08:05,640 Speaker 1: closer to birth, I would have to get a C 129 00:08:05,840 --> 00:08:10,560 Speaker 1: section and possibly come in for bed rest because of 130 00:08:10,600 --> 00:08:14,320 Speaker 1: how serious this condition is. Because basically, if you go 131 00:08:14,440 --> 00:08:18,080 Speaker 1: into this is my understanding, obviously I'm not a medical professional, 132 00:08:18,480 --> 00:08:21,640 Speaker 1: but if you go into spontaneous labor with this condition, 133 00:08:22,320 --> 00:08:26,760 Speaker 1: the baby's head descends onto the placenta and then you 134 00:08:26,960 --> 00:08:31,480 Speaker 1: get something called a placenter abruption. What you can get 135 00:08:31,880 --> 00:08:36,319 Speaker 1: and you can have internal bleeding and obviously super highrius 136 00:08:36,520 --> 00:08:40,280 Speaker 1: for mum and baby. He said that, and I was like, okay, 137 00:08:40,400 --> 00:08:43,840 Speaker 1: all good. Told Tim told my parents, and I was 138 00:08:43,920 --> 00:08:45,880 Speaker 1: a little bit scary and a little bit like, oh, okay. 139 00:08:46,240 --> 00:08:49,560 Speaker 1: Never had any issues with my pregnancy with Ivy. But 140 00:08:49,679 --> 00:08:52,240 Speaker 1: also I was like, it's fine, it all lived up. 141 00:08:52,559 --> 00:08:54,360 Speaker 1: I'm not too worried. I'm go give it my attention 142 00:08:54,760 --> 00:08:58,000 Speaker 1: throughout this time too. I'm still doing my pregnancy meditations. 143 00:08:58,080 --> 00:09:02,280 Speaker 1: On the rise app A couple of weeks ago, I 144 00:09:02,320 --> 00:09:05,359 Speaker 1: had some bleeding, and so at that twenty week appointment 145 00:09:05,520 --> 00:09:08,800 Speaker 1: and my follow up ones, he said, any sort of 146 00:09:08,800 --> 00:09:12,760 Speaker 1: bleeding come to the hospital straight away, especially pink, like 147 00:09:12,880 --> 00:09:16,120 Speaker 1: bright pink. Come to the hospital straight away, because that's 148 00:09:16,160 --> 00:09:19,320 Speaker 1: it's just it's not good. Once you start bleeding with 149 00:09:19,360 --> 00:09:21,880 Speaker 1: this condition, it's you don't have a long amount of 150 00:09:21,880 --> 00:09:26,200 Speaker 1: time before it is life threatening to you and baby 151 00:09:26,480 --> 00:09:28,960 Speaker 1: mostly baby first and then new kind of thing. And 152 00:09:29,000 --> 00:09:30,760 Speaker 1: so I had a bit of bleeding. I went straight 153 00:09:30,800 --> 00:09:34,280 Speaker 1: into hospital and it was just a little bit too, 154 00:09:34,480 --> 00:09:37,679 Speaker 1: wasn't anything crazy, but I just am conscious that that's 155 00:09:37,679 --> 00:09:39,920 Speaker 1: what he said. So I went to hospital. They deal 156 00:09:39,960 --> 00:09:43,760 Speaker 1: with their checks, and he wasn't too worried. He was like, 157 00:09:43,840 --> 00:09:46,360 Speaker 1: I had sex, and I'm like, definitely not in the 158 00:09:46,440 --> 00:09:48,280 Speaker 1: last you know, twenty four hours or forty eight hours. 159 00:09:48,320 --> 00:09:53,200 Speaker 1: I'm like absolutely not. And he was like, well, He's like, honestly, 160 00:09:53,280 --> 00:09:55,080 Speaker 1: that would make me feel better because there would be 161 00:09:55,080 --> 00:09:58,040 Speaker 1: a reason. The fact that you just got spontaneous bleeding 162 00:09:58,640 --> 00:10:02,040 Speaker 1: isn't the greatest sign, but also that's okay. I had 163 00:10:02,040 --> 00:10:06,679 Speaker 1: a scan at the hospital and the scanner picked up 164 00:10:07,080 --> 00:10:10,760 Speaker 1: quite a few blood vessels around the cervix, and my 165 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:14,560 Speaker 1: doctor was worried that I also had this other more 166 00:10:14,679 --> 00:10:19,800 Speaker 1: rare pregnancy condition called vasa previa. It's basically my again, 167 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:23,720 Speaker 1: my understanding, I'm not a medical professional, is the blood 168 00:10:23,800 --> 00:10:26,679 Speaker 1: vessels of the umbilical cord of the baby are on 169 00:10:26,720 --> 00:10:29,679 Speaker 1: the outside, not on the inside. And so again, if 170 00:10:29,679 --> 00:10:33,840 Speaker 1: you go into spontaneous labor, the baby's head descends and 171 00:10:33,920 --> 00:10:38,079 Speaker 1: pushes on them, it can break these blood vessels. And 172 00:10:38,320 --> 00:10:43,640 Speaker 1: with that condition it's very serious, to the point where 173 00:10:44,320 --> 00:10:47,920 Speaker 1: baby has twenty minutes and then it's the worst possible outcome. 174 00:10:48,520 --> 00:10:50,520 Speaker 1: And so he said, if I have that condition, I 175 00:10:50,600 --> 00:10:53,280 Speaker 1: will have to come in the hospital and bed rest 176 00:10:53,320 --> 00:10:55,520 Speaker 1: that week kind of thing. So I got another scan 177 00:10:56,320 --> 00:11:00,360 Speaker 1: and it was very lucky I don't have that rare condition. Obviously, 178 00:11:00,400 --> 00:11:02,880 Speaker 1: it was like a week of waiting and not knowing 179 00:11:02,920 --> 00:11:04,839 Speaker 1: and kind of freaking out by it all and also 180 00:11:04,920 --> 00:11:06,880 Speaker 1: just being oh my god, it means I'd have to 181 00:11:06,920 --> 00:11:09,520 Speaker 1: sit in possible for five or six weeks, which is 182 00:11:10,080 --> 00:11:13,000 Speaker 1: if you have a toddler. It's just the thought of 183 00:11:13,040 --> 00:11:15,560 Speaker 1: it was too much. We have had the last scan 184 00:11:15,640 --> 00:11:17,560 Speaker 1: at the thirty three weeks, which is like the last 185 00:11:17,559 --> 00:11:21,079 Speaker 1: week when you get the big scan, and my placenta 186 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:25,400 Speaker 1: is still a grade for sitting over my cervix. So 187 00:11:25,440 --> 00:11:27,640 Speaker 1: I don't have the rare condition. So that's almost like 188 00:11:28,040 --> 00:11:31,760 Speaker 1: thank God, But I still do have placenta previr grade four, 189 00:11:32,080 --> 00:11:36,360 Speaker 1: which means unless it does like a miracle and shifts 190 00:11:36,440 --> 00:11:41,880 Speaker 1: up four centimeters in only a couple of weeks, I 191 00:11:41,920 --> 00:11:45,880 Speaker 1: have to get a sea section. Also, it means I 192 00:11:46,000 --> 00:11:49,520 Speaker 1: have to go on bed rest for probably two weeks 193 00:11:49,559 --> 00:11:53,959 Speaker 1: before my sea section again because if I gone to 194 00:11:54,080 --> 00:11:59,280 Speaker 1: spontaneous labor, which obviously can happen from thirty and so 195 00:11:59,360 --> 00:12:01,560 Speaker 1: basically I do, you have to go on bedress for 196 00:12:01,720 --> 00:12:05,280 Speaker 1: a couple of weeks before the planned caesarean. And this 197 00:12:05,400 --> 00:12:09,360 Speaker 1: is just to be cautious because again, if you've go 198 00:12:09,440 --> 00:12:13,920 Speaker 1: into spontaneous labor with this condition, it's just you don't 199 00:12:13,960 --> 00:12:16,800 Speaker 1: have a lot of time. And I live twenty minutes 200 00:12:16,840 --> 00:12:19,560 Speaker 1: away from the hospital, and so he said, by the 201 00:12:19,559 --> 00:12:22,760 Speaker 1: time you get to the hospital could be traffic. He's 202 00:12:22,800 --> 00:12:24,720 Speaker 1: got to get there. They've got to get me prepped 203 00:12:24,720 --> 00:12:28,240 Speaker 1: for the cesarean. If it's longer than an hour, it's 204 00:12:28,320 --> 00:12:32,160 Speaker 1: detrimental to me and the baby because I'm internally bleeding. 205 00:12:32,720 --> 00:12:34,640 Speaker 1: So he's like, it's not worth it, Like, you come 206 00:12:34,679 --> 00:12:37,280 Speaker 1: and sit on bedress, So it's like any blood anything, 207 00:12:37,640 --> 00:12:40,320 Speaker 1: you're prepped, you're ready. We get you straight into the theater. 208 00:12:40,559 --> 00:12:43,479 Speaker 1: So that's obviously a bit scary and a bit concerning, 209 00:12:43,679 --> 00:12:46,680 Speaker 1: and the thought of spending two weeks away from Tim 210 00:12:46,720 --> 00:12:50,439 Speaker 1: and Ivy just before such a transitional time for her, 211 00:12:50,960 --> 00:12:53,360 Speaker 1: So it's like two weeks. Obviously they'll come and visit 212 00:12:53,400 --> 00:12:56,439 Speaker 1: me every single day, but two weeks without Mum putting 213 00:12:56,480 --> 00:12:58,679 Speaker 1: her to bed and then she comes home with a newborn. 214 00:12:59,559 --> 00:13:04,600 Speaker 1: It's yeah, it's been hard to process, and for me, 215 00:13:04,920 --> 00:13:08,280 Speaker 1: the whole the C section was at twenty weeks. I 216 00:13:08,360 --> 00:13:11,160 Speaker 1: was processing that a lot, because again, like I said, 217 00:13:11,160 --> 00:13:13,640 Speaker 1: I always just thought i'd birth vaginally. But I feel 218 00:13:13,679 --> 00:13:16,080 Speaker 1: like I've come such a long way with that, and 219 00:13:16,160 --> 00:13:20,560 Speaker 1: I'm so accepting and almost excited to have a different 220 00:13:20,559 --> 00:13:24,800 Speaker 1: birth experience and for it to still be really, really beautiful. 221 00:13:24,800 --> 00:13:28,040 Speaker 1: And I'm gonna share those mindset shifts that I've been making, 222 00:13:28,559 --> 00:13:30,319 Speaker 1: so I feel like I've come to peace with that, 223 00:13:30,360 --> 00:13:32,760 Speaker 1: and I will share that in the moment. But I 224 00:13:32,760 --> 00:13:35,280 Speaker 1: think when I'm still processing right now, is spending that 225 00:13:35,360 --> 00:13:37,880 Speaker 1: two weeks away from Ivy and Tim again, it just 226 00:13:37,920 --> 00:13:41,240 Speaker 1: feels like such a pivotal, transformative time and I feel 227 00:13:41,240 --> 00:13:43,720 Speaker 1: really guilty. I feel really bad that you know Ivy 228 00:13:43,720 --> 00:13:46,480 Speaker 1: doesn't get her mum for those two weeks before such 229 00:13:46,520 --> 00:13:49,679 Speaker 1: an important time. So that's the update. That's me just 230 00:13:49,720 --> 00:13:53,040 Speaker 1: being very raw and honest. That's where I'm at. It's 231 00:13:53,080 --> 00:13:55,520 Speaker 1: been a lot. It's a bit of an emotional rollercoaster, 232 00:13:56,280 --> 00:14:00,320 Speaker 1: but again obviously so grateful that they've found this condition, 233 00:14:00,480 --> 00:14:03,760 Speaker 1: because if it does go undiagnosed, it has really really 234 00:14:03,800 --> 00:14:07,480 Speaker 1: diet it can be worst case scenario. Very grateful they've 235 00:14:07,480 --> 00:14:10,959 Speaker 1: found it. Very grateful. I've had time to process and 236 00:14:11,160 --> 00:14:14,680 Speaker 1: I'm with the same doctor and he's very onto it. 237 00:14:14,800 --> 00:14:17,400 Speaker 1: He's been great. I also have quite a few people 238 00:14:17,400 --> 00:14:19,960 Speaker 1: who've been through the same doctor and said he's amazing, 239 00:14:20,640 --> 00:14:23,720 Speaker 1: and also been talking to a lot of women about 240 00:14:24,040 --> 00:14:33,880 Speaker 1: caesareans and whatnot. So that is the personal update. Not 241 00:14:34,440 --> 00:14:37,200 Speaker 1: what I thought this birth would be and how this 242 00:14:37,320 --> 00:14:40,600 Speaker 1: baby would come into the world. But I'm really surrendering 243 00:14:41,000 --> 00:14:44,200 Speaker 1: into this time more powerful version of me that it 244 00:14:44,240 --> 00:14:46,400 Speaker 1: gets to be different and it gets to be okay, 245 00:14:47,080 --> 00:14:50,320 Speaker 1: and trusting my body and trusting this is all better 246 00:14:50,360 --> 00:14:53,200 Speaker 1: than I could have imagined. That's something I preached to 247 00:14:53,240 --> 00:14:56,040 Speaker 1: you guys that if things are going a certain way 248 00:14:56,120 --> 00:14:59,080 Speaker 1: and you still feel regulated, you still feel like you've 249 00:14:59,080 --> 00:15:02,280 Speaker 1: been showing up and putting in the work and things 250 00:15:02,320 --> 00:15:05,120 Speaker 1: are just going a certain way. You have to trust 251 00:15:05,720 --> 00:15:08,320 Speaker 1: that it's for a bigger meaning, that it's for a 252 00:15:08,360 --> 00:15:12,520 Speaker 1: bigger reason, and even if you cannot see it right now, 253 00:15:12,760 --> 00:15:16,760 Speaker 1: it is what's best for you. It is what needs 254 00:15:16,800 --> 00:15:19,280 Speaker 1: to happen. And you know, I can't help but think 255 00:15:19,320 --> 00:15:22,000 Speaker 1: it's like this, this all needs to happen, so the 256 00:15:22,040 --> 00:15:25,520 Speaker 1: worst case doesn't happen. That's how I've been doing it emotionally. 257 00:15:25,880 --> 00:15:31,440 Speaker 1: I've just been really allowing myself, allowing myself room to 258 00:15:32,280 --> 00:15:37,320 Speaker 1: have both gratitude, like so much gratitude that I know 259 00:15:37,480 --> 00:15:40,040 Speaker 1: about this, that I have an amazing care team that 260 00:15:40,120 --> 00:15:42,040 Speaker 1: I have that I did go private, I have the 261 00:15:42,080 --> 00:15:45,520 Speaker 1: same doctor, that I have people around me who are 262 00:15:45,560 --> 00:15:49,240 Speaker 1: so supportive. How incredible that my husband's stay at home 263 00:15:49,320 --> 00:15:53,520 Speaker 1: dads so really like me staying in hospital for two weeks. 264 00:15:53,600 --> 00:15:56,560 Speaker 1: It's not the biggest deals. It's not like he works 265 00:15:56,600 --> 00:15:59,360 Speaker 1: away or he's got to work and I've got toddlers 266 00:15:59,360 --> 00:16:02,880 Speaker 1: at home. We really are in the best case scenario 267 00:16:03,840 --> 00:16:06,600 Speaker 1: to make this work. And even though it's not what 268 00:16:06,720 --> 00:16:10,560 Speaker 1: I would like, it is like I am still grateful 269 00:16:10,760 --> 00:16:13,320 Speaker 1: that it's not the biggest it's not the biggest stial, 270 00:16:13,440 --> 00:16:17,000 Speaker 1: like we can move through it. But also holding the 271 00:16:17,120 --> 00:16:21,200 Speaker 1: duality of I'm allowed to be really fucking disappointed and 272 00:16:21,240 --> 00:16:24,320 Speaker 1: I'm allowed to be like this isn't what it's supposed 273 00:16:24,360 --> 00:16:28,800 Speaker 1: to be, and really holding myself in that duality of 274 00:16:29,440 --> 00:16:34,160 Speaker 1: both rather than trying to suppress certain feelings, because that's 275 00:16:34,200 --> 00:16:36,640 Speaker 1: really when we go wrong is we think, oh, well, 276 00:16:36,680 --> 00:16:39,320 Speaker 1: I should just be grateful. So I'm just gonna be grateful. 277 00:16:39,400 --> 00:16:42,360 Speaker 1: I'm going to ignore these like sad emotions or this 278 00:16:42,480 --> 00:16:46,520 Speaker 1: disappointment or this shame or this guilt. It's really important 279 00:16:46,640 --> 00:16:49,480 Speaker 1: to feel those obmissions, to process them so they're not 280 00:16:49,520 --> 00:16:53,080 Speaker 1: getting stored in the body. And so I've just been 281 00:16:53,120 --> 00:16:56,800 Speaker 1: giving myself full permission to feel it all. I've definitely 282 00:16:56,800 --> 00:16:59,720 Speaker 1: had quite a few cries. I've spoken to Tim about 283 00:16:59,720 --> 00:17:04,919 Speaker 1: my is. I've really had this like open heart with 284 00:17:05,000 --> 00:17:08,280 Speaker 1: this experience, and I'm just allowing it to look and 285 00:17:08,359 --> 00:17:12,639 Speaker 1: feel exactly how it is. That's very transformational for me 286 00:17:12,760 --> 00:17:15,879 Speaker 1: because I am in the past someone who used to 287 00:17:15,880 --> 00:17:18,399 Speaker 1: suppress her feelings and think, oh well, I should just 288 00:17:18,440 --> 00:17:21,600 Speaker 1: be grateful this is a shit situation or like very 289 00:17:21,640 --> 00:17:23,840 Speaker 1: black and white. But it's just it's not the case. 290 00:17:23,880 --> 00:17:27,080 Speaker 1: We're humans. We've got such this range of emotions, and 291 00:17:27,119 --> 00:17:30,359 Speaker 1: I've just really been connecting with myself and my body. 292 00:17:30,720 --> 00:17:33,040 Speaker 1: So let's get into some mindset shifts that I have 293 00:17:33,200 --> 00:17:37,400 Speaker 1: kind of been choosing for this situation. And again, these 294 00:17:37,440 --> 00:17:40,239 Speaker 1: are obviously specific for birth, but if you're kind of 295 00:17:40,720 --> 00:17:43,000 Speaker 1: going through something where you're like, it's not how it's 296 00:17:43,040 --> 00:17:45,919 Speaker 1: supposed to be, these might be really really helpful. So 297 00:17:46,040 --> 00:17:49,720 Speaker 1: the first one is just because this isn't the how 298 00:17:49,760 --> 00:17:53,160 Speaker 1: I thought I was going to birth this baby doesn't 299 00:17:53,200 --> 00:17:56,960 Speaker 1: mean it's not sacred and doesn't mean it's not how 300 00:17:56,960 --> 00:18:00,360 Speaker 1: it should be. I find as humans, we have this 301 00:18:00,400 --> 00:18:03,880 Speaker 1: thing where we're like, okay, so A plus B equal C, 302 00:18:04,160 --> 00:18:06,879 Speaker 1: one plus two equals three. Like we're very we like 303 00:18:07,000 --> 00:18:10,240 Speaker 1: to well, this happened and that happen, and that means this, 304 00:18:10,920 --> 00:18:15,520 Speaker 1: And what we don't realize is that meaning is actually 305 00:18:15,760 --> 00:18:19,560 Speaker 1: it's not the truth. A meaning is you just giving 306 00:18:19,600 --> 00:18:22,920 Speaker 1: something a meeting. It's not like right or wrong. It's 307 00:18:23,040 --> 00:18:26,560 Speaker 1: what you decide. And that's why people can go through 308 00:18:26,680 --> 00:18:30,080 Speaker 1: very traumatic experiences. Like a group of people and all 309 00:18:30,200 --> 00:18:34,560 Speaker 1: have different experiences and different traumas and different ways they 310 00:18:34,600 --> 00:18:39,239 Speaker 1: see things because they are putting their own meaning on it. 311 00:18:39,760 --> 00:18:43,840 Speaker 1: So I'm really not putting, firstly a negative meaning on 312 00:18:44,320 --> 00:18:48,280 Speaker 1: having a cesarean, which I definitely picked up because it 313 00:18:48,320 --> 00:18:51,320 Speaker 1: wasn't normalized to me and no one I knew had one. 314 00:18:51,760 --> 00:18:56,080 Speaker 1: I definitely had some judgment, not to others but to myself. 315 00:18:56,359 --> 00:19:00,040 Speaker 1: I think there is a lot of expectations, and I 316 00:19:00,040 --> 00:19:03,760 Speaker 1: feel like with caesareans, well, in my world, there was 317 00:19:03,800 --> 00:19:05,919 Speaker 1: a lot of stigma around it, which I've had to 318 00:19:06,160 --> 00:19:08,480 Speaker 1: really kind of be like, where did I pick this up? 319 00:19:08,600 --> 00:19:12,480 Speaker 1: So that has been really good because again, the meaning 320 00:19:12,560 --> 00:19:15,920 Speaker 1: is only what you make it mean, so really kind 321 00:19:15,920 --> 00:19:20,040 Speaker 1: of changing the meaning on what this means for me 322 00:19:20,200 --> 00:19:23,639 Speaker 1: and my family and my baby and really being like, no, 323 00:19:23,720 --> 00:19:27,440 Speaker 1: this actually gets to be really beautiful and really really sacred, 324 00:19:27,640 --> 00:19:29,439 Speaker 1: and I get to make the experience my own, Like, 325 00:19:29,560 --> 00:19:32,520 Speaker 1: just because I didn't have a lot of control over it, 326 00:19:32,560 --> 00:19:35,359 Speaker 1: if it gets to be vaginal birth or a cesarean, like, 327 00:19:35,440 --> 00:19:39,240 Speaker 1: the are still elements I can pick and choose. Number two. 328 00:19:39,600 --> 00:19:41,720 Speaker 1: I didn't get to choose this, but I do get 329 00:19:41,760 --> 00:19:48,119 Speaker 1: to choose how I respond. Again, I'm not in control 330 00:19:48,240 --> 00:19:51,600 Speaker 1: of so much of my life, but I do get 331 00:19:51,640 --> 00:19:54,760 Speaker 1: to be in control of how I show up during 332 00:19:54,800 --> 00:19:57,960 Speaker 1: this time, and I think that's anyone I truly believe. 333 00:19:58,200 --> 00:20:00,160 Speaker 1: I really don't care about the person you are when 334 00:20:00,160 --> 00:20:03,560 Speaker 1: everything's like going well and you're conquering your goals and 335 00:20:03,600 --> 00:20:06,520 Speaker 1: everything's fine and dandy. It's like, who are you when 336 00:20:06,560 --> 00:20:09,640 Speaker 1: things aren't going well? Because that's who are your core 337 00:20:09,800 --> 00:20:13,600 Speaker 1: and that's who you should be the most proud of of. Like, Okay, 338 00:20:13,600 --> 00:20:15,840 Speaker 1: when things are going to shit, how do you show 339 00:20:15,880 --> 00:20:18,240 Speaker 1: up for yourself and others? And how do you respond 340 00:20:18,280 --> 00:20:21,520 Speaker 1: and how do you react? And again, I truly believe 341 00:20:21,560 --> 00:20:24,520 Speaker 1: everything happens for a reason, whether to teach us lessons, 342 00:20:24,560 --> 00:20:28,200 Speaker 1: to teach us about ourselves, to expand us and put 343 00:20:28,280 --> 00:20:30,320 Speaker 1: us into growth. And I do feel like this is 344 00:20:30,440 --> 00:20:34,000 Speaker 1: such growth for me. Like I said before, processing the 345 00:20:34,080 --> 00:20:39,480 Speaker 1: duality holding disappointment while holding gratitude, and again old Georgie, 346 00:20:39,520 --> 00:20:42,959 Speaker 1: that would have been really hard for her. So witnessing 347 00:20:43,000 --> 00:20:46,040 Speaker 1: myself through this and how I'm dealing with it and 348 00:20:46,080 --> 00:20:48,480 Speaker 1: how I'm still showing up and how I'm moving forward 349 00:20:48,600 --> 00:20:52,240 Speaker 1: has been very healing. And I think if you can 350 00:20:52,400 --> 00:20:57,920 Speaker 1: be someone who shows up for yourself and still regulates 351 00:20:57,920 --> 00:21:02,199 Speaker 1: your emotions and feels your emotions and doesn't let things 352 00:21:02,320 --> 00:21:05,399 Speaker 1: completely derail you. Like they're allowed to shake you, you're 353 00:21:05,400 --> 00:21:08,920 Speaker 1: allowed to wobble, but not letting things completely derail you. 354 00:21:09,000 --> 00:21:12,960 Speaker 1: That is such a beautiful life skill, and that's such 355 00:21:13,000 --> 00:21:16,800 Speaker 1: a beautiful character building skill. So that's something also I've 356 00:21:16,840 --> 00:21:18,680 Speaker 1: been leaning into. It's like, well, who do I want 357 00:21:18,720 --> 00:21:23,040 Speaker 1: to be through this? The next one is really understanding 358 00:21:23,080 --> 00:21:25,919 Speaker 1: that this is probably about the hospital bed rest, but 359 00:21:26,000 --> 00:21:29,280 Speaker 1: it's like, this is how it's meant to be for 360 00:21:29,480 --> 00:21:33,560 Speaker 1: whatever reason, whether that's I start bleeding early and I 361 00:21:33,600 --> 00:21:36,199 Speaker 1: do have to get emergency C section, like being in 362 00:21:36,200 --> 00:21:39,680 Speaker 1: the hospital and that saves baby's life, whether that's me 363 00:21:39,800 --> 00:21:41,840 Speaker 1: being on bed rest in the hospital is actually what 364 00:21:41,960 --> 00:21:45,159 Speaker 1: I really need my nervous system or my body to 365 00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:49,520 Speaker 1: be resting before a major surgery. And again really trusting 366 00:21:49,600 --> 00:21:53,520 Speaker 1: you guys. Know, when I teach surrender within manifestation, it's 367 00:21:53,760 --> 00:21:56,520 Speaker 1: at we are the child and the universe is the parents. 368 00:21:56,560 --> 00:22:00,639 Speaker 1: So as the child, sometimes we can't understand why parents 369 00:22:00,640 --> 00:22:03,320 Speaker 1: are picking certain things and doing things a certain way 370 00:22:03,760 --> 00:22:07,119 Speaker 1: because we only have the level and knowledge and understanding 371 00:22:07,160 --> 00:22:10,520 Speaker 1: of a child. But really trusting that even though I 372 00:22:10,560 --> 00:22:13,560 Speaker 1: can't see the outcome and I don't know what's going 373 00:22:13,600 --> 00:22:18,760 Speaker 1: to happen, it's what's best, and surrendering to it and 374 00:22:18,840 --> 00:22:21,960 Speaker 1: actually being like, it's actually going to be really really 375 00:22:21,960 --> 00:22:25,479 Speaker 1: good for whatever reason, even though I can't see it. 376 00:22:25,840 --> 00:22:28,439 Speaker 1: The next one is really making the mindset shift of 377 00:22:28,720 --> 00:22:32,960 Speaker 1: even though it's a surgical birth, I can still deeply 378 00:22:33,280 --> 00:22:38,320 Speaker 1: connect with my baby and have a really beautiful experience, 379 00:22:38,840 --> 00:22:42,560 Speaker 1: can still have music playing in the theater that I've 380 00:22:42,600 --> 00:22:46,360 Speaker 1: been playing to her the whole time. I can still 381 00:22:46,840 --> 00:22:50,240 Speaker 1: Something I've actually been more kind of been doing but 382 00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:53,919 Speaker 1: I want to do more too, is actually talking to 383 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:57,359 Speaker 1: her and explaining to her that this is what's going 384 00:22:57,400 --> 00:22:59,280 Speaker 1: to happen in our birth, and then you're going to 385 00:22:59,320 --> 00:23:03,640 Speaker 1: meet mommy and talking to her because she does, she understands, 386 00:23:03,680 --> 00:23:08,200 Speaker 1: she feels she's this beautiful, living being inside me, and 387 00:23:08,240 --> 00:23:11,800 Speaker 1: she is going to respond to my nervous system. So 388 00:23:11,960 --> 00:23:15,440 Speaker 1: really kind of like role modeling already, even though she's 389 00:23:15,440 --> 00:23:19,880 Speaker 1: still in the room of regulating my nervous system, talking 390 00:23:19,920 --> 00:23:22,959 Speaker 1: to her, explaining to her what's going to happen, explaining 391 00:23:23,000 --> 00:23:25,720 Speaker 1: it's still going to be magical and sacred, and then 392 00:23:25,760 --> 00:23:27,679 Speaker 1: just some tools that I've been using that might be 393 00:23:27,760 --> 00:23:32,680 Speaker 1: helpful for you guys. Is I am going to when 394 00:23:32,720 --> 00:23:34,760 Speaker 1: it gets a bit close to the cesaian, I'm going 395 00:23:34,800 --> 00:23:38,320 Speaker 1: to basically write a letter of the grief and the 396 00:23:38,359 --> 00:23:42,080 Speaker 1: disappointment and the shane, the guilt, anything that comes up, 397 00:23:43,080 --> 00:23:46,119 Speaker 1: and really write it down of like, i feel really 398 00:23:46,320 --> 00:23:50,399 Speaker 1: fucking disappointed that this happened, and I'm feeling so much 399 00:23:50,560 --> 00:23:53,399 Speaker 1: gill that I'm not with Ivy, and I'm gonna get 400 00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:57,120 Speaker 1: all the feelings out. I love journaling and writing letters, 401 00:23:57,520 --> 00:24:00,840 Speaker 1: and really just like what I'm letting go of, the emotions, 402 00:24:00,920 --> 00:24:04,639 Speaker 1: the heaviness, the feelings. I'm gonna write that out and 403 00:24:04,680 --> 00:24:06,720 Speaker 1: then I'm gonna burn that. I'm gonna do like a 404 00:24:06,720 --> 00:24:10,199 Speaker 1: beautiful letting go burning ceremony. And I've done this at 405 00:24:10,240 --> 00:24:14,360 Speaker 1: different stages in my life and it really makes a difference. 406 00:24:14,400 --> 00:24:16,639 Speaker 1: Like if you haven't tried this ritual, honestly do it, 407 00:24:16,760 --> 00:24:19,440 Speaker 1: and then you can also do some journaling on reframing 408 00:24:19,560 --> 00:24:24,000 Speaker 1: how magical the cesarean birth is gonna be The next 409 00:24:24,040 --> 00:24:26,920 Speaker 1: tool I would say is I have been doing now 410 00:24:27,080 --> 00:24:31,040 Speaker 1: the meditation and the visualization of we actually have a 411 00:24:31,080 --> 00:24:35,520 Speaker 1: C section birth meditation. So we have just a normal 412 00:24:35,520 --> 00:24:39,600 Speaker 1: pregnancy meditation that I was doing before this, but now 413 00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:42,960 Speaker 1: I'm switching to the CEA section meditation, and again it's 414 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:45,639 Speaker 1: just beautiful. It's just priving your body. It's just getting 415 00:24:45,640 --> 00:24:50,560 Speaker 1: your nervous system ready and okay, and I'll link that 416 00:24:50,600 --> 00:24:52,000 Speaker 1: in the show notes, so if you want to check 417 00:24:52,040 --> 00:24:56,520 Speaker 1: that out. But it really has made me feel so 418 00:24:56,760 --> 00:25:00,080 Speaker 1: much better. And I think when you have time, like 419 00:25:00,119 --> 00:25:03,879 Speaker 1: we're really we're so adaptable. Humans are so adaptable, and 420 00:25:03,920 --> 00:25:07,000 Speaker 1: when you have time to process your emotions and when 421 00:25:07,040 --> 00:25:09,720 Speaker 1: you let them come up and you feel them and 422 00:25:09,760 --> 00:25:13,439 Speaker 1: then you release them, you really can get through anything. 423 00:25:13,480 --> 00:25:16,960 Speaker 1: You really can deal with anything. But it's about taking 424 00:25:17,000 --> 00:25:20,520 Speaker 1: that time. And so that meditation is just Yeah, it's 425 00:25:20,560 --> 00:25:22,959 Speaker 1: been really really amazing, and I'm going to do that 426 00:25:23,119 --> 00:25:27,040 Speaker 1: every single day to make sure and really envision having 427 00:25:27,080 --> 00:25:30,639 Speaker 1: such an amazing experience. I have been doing some like 428 00:25:30,720 --> 00:25:34,480 Speaker 1: affirmations and they're just like, I trust that this path 429 00:25:34,640 --> 00:25:38,960 Speaker 1: is unfolding perfectly. I trust my body and baby is 430 00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:42,240 Speaker 1: going to be here and it's going to be beautiful. 431 00:25:42,600 --> 00:25:46,879 Speaker 1: I'm allowed to grieve and still be grateful. My birth 432 00:25:46,960 --> 00:25:50,520 Speaker 1: is still going to be so amazing in this direction 433 00:25:50,760 --> 00:25:52,480 Speaker 1: kind of thing. This gets to still be such an 434 00:25:52,520 --> 00:25:56,399 Speaker 1: empowering experience. Something else that has been really helping is 435 00:25:56,480 --> 00:26:01,199 Speaker 1: reading empowering C section stories, so or like asking people 436 00:26:01,400 --> 00:26:04,840 Speaker 1: I am seeing Sarah from Female physio co in the 437 00:26:04,840 --> 00:26:07,760 Speaker 1: Gold Coast. She has a really big online presence, you 438 00:26:07,800 --> 00:26:12,120 Speaker 1: can check out her Instagram, and she had a really 439 00:26:12,119 --> 00:26:17,280 Speaker 1: empowering C section and the dietitian did the Caitlin, the 440 00:26:17,320 --> 00:26:20,880 Speaker 1: dietitian in the same office, she also had a really 441 00:26:20,920 --> 00:26:23,280 Speaker 1: empowering sea section and they were telling me about it, 442 00:26:23,320 --> 00:26:25,240 Speaker 1: and it just made me feel so happy because, like 443 00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:27,280 Speaker 1: I said, I had only really known people who had 444 00:26:27,359 --> 00:26:31,200 Speaker 1: emergency ones and obviously not knowing and not processing it 445 00:26:31,200 --> 00:26:34,480 Speaker 1: would come with a lot of emotions, and so it 446 00:26:34,600 --> 00:26:36,840 Speaker 1: was just really beautiful to hear someone being like, no, 447 00:26:36,920 --> 00:26:39,520 Speaker 1: it was the most beautiful one. And also talking to 448 00:26:39,560 --> 00:26:42,199 Speaker 1: people who I've had people slide in my DMS and 449 00:26:42,200 --> 00:26:45,000 Speaker 1: be like, I had an actual vaginal birth and then 450 00:26:45,040 --> 00:26:46,919 Speaker 1: I had placenta privat and I had to have a 451 00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:51,280 Speaker 1: C section and honestly, ten out of ten great experience. 452 00:26:51,480 --> 00:26:54,080 Speaker 1: It's still going to be so magical. There's pros and 453 00:26:54,160 --> 00:26:57,920 Speaker 1: cons to both, so yeah, just really and also of 454 00:26:58,200 --> 00:27:03,359 Speaker 1: Australian birth stories. They have a podcast and Sarah she 455 00:27:03,600 --> 00:27:06,280 Speaker 1: also has a book that is really really great, so 456 00:27:06,960 --> 00:27:11,600 Speaker 1: highly recommend, just like kind of immersing yourself in positive 457 00:27:12,040 --> 00:27:15,320 Speaker 1: stories of what you're trying to move through. So for me, 458 00:27:15,440 --> 00:27:19,680 Speaker 1: it's having a cesarean. And yeah, so I'm currently thirty 459 00:27:19,680 --> 00:27:22,679 Speaker 1: three weeks as I'm recording this, and I do just 460 00:27:22,760 --> 00:27:27,280 Speaker 1: feel really grateful that I've had this time to process this. 461 00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:30,240 Speaker 1: I feel really grateful that I have such amazing support 462 00:27:30,280 --> 00:27:35,000 Speaker 1: by Tim, my family, my doctors, you guys. And again, 463 00:27:35,160 --> 00:27:38,159 Speaker 1: even though this wasn't how I thought it would be, 464 00:27:38,359 --> 00:27:41,600 Speaker 1: and even though that has been like roadblocks and certain things, 465 00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:45,480 Speaker 1: this is beautiful. This is what life is. It's a journey. 466 00:27:45,960 --> 00:27:49,199 Speaker 1: We're not we're not meant to have do just nothing 467 00:27:49,320 --> 00:27:51,960 Speaker 1: happen all the time, because these are the moments, like 468 00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:54,119 Speaker 1: I said, where you lock in and you practice what 469 00:27:54,160 --> 00:27:57,320 Speaker 1: you preach and you show up as who you want 470 00:27:57,359 --> 00:28:01,159 Speaker 1: to be. And it's really been such a growth moment 471 00:28:01,280 --> 00:28:03,920 Speaker 1: for me, and I truly believe the work I'm doing 472 00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:08,280 Speaker 1: now with processing this will just be so amazing postpartum. 473 00:28:08,359 --> 00:28:11,000 Speaker 1: So I'm not having to deal with not that I'm 474 00:28:11,040 --> 00:28:13,639 Speaker 1: saying I could still have certain things that happen, but 475 00:28:13,880 --> 00:28:16,639 Speaker 1: processing the emotions now, so I'm not dealing with postpartum 476 00:28:16,720 --> 00:28:20,720 Speaker 1: birth trauma. And there's so many emotions with postpartum I'm 477 00:28:20,720 --> 00:28:23,520 Speaker 1: going to get them. But I think it's really important 478 00:28:23,560 --> 00:28:25,840 Speaker 1: to talk about this. And like I said, I think 479 00:28:25,840 --> 00:28:29,160 Speaker 1: it's really important to talk about elective c sections because 480 00:28:30,000 --> 00:28:33,560 Speaker 1: there definitely is so much stigma around them and I 481 00:28:33,680 --> 00:28:37,159 Speaker 1: can feel isolating and it can feel really disappointing. There 482 00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:40,720 Speaker 1: can be so many feelings involved, so I just really 483 00:28:40,760 --> 00:28:42,800 Speaker 1: wanted to share with you guys and be raw and 484 00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:46,920 Speaker 1: honest and vulnerable and all the things. So thank you 485 00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:49,880 Speaker 1: so much for listening. That is a real life update 486 00:28:50,120 --> 00:28:52,640 Speaker 1: with George. Of course I will be doing a birth 487 00:28:52,680 --> 00:28:56,560 Speaker 1: podcast and updating with you how it all went. What 488 00:28:56,720 --> 00:29:00,479 Speaker 1: actually went down, who knows, But I really am locking 489 00:29:00,520 --> 00:29:04,720 Speaker 1: into that beautiful sea section meditation and visualizing how I 490 00:29:04,800 --> 00:29:09,200 Speaker 1: want it to go while also having space for maybe 491 00:29:09,240 --> 00:29:11,760 Speaker 1: girl to come in how she wants to come in. 492 00:29:12,480 --> 00:29:14,480 Speaker 1: So thank you so much for listening. Guys. If you 493 00:29:14,600 --> 00:29:18,280 Speaker 1: do want to try the pregnancy or the sea sectioned meditation, 494 00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:21,400 Speaker 1: we do have a week free on the Rise app 495 00:29:21,440 --> 00:29:24,200 Speaker 1: I'll put all the links in the show notes. Bye 496 00:29:24,200 --> 00:29:29,240 Speaker 1: for now. If you're loving this conversation and you're all 497 00:29:29,280 --> 00:29:35,160 Speaker 1: about growth, mindset shifts, and manifesting your dream reality, you 498 00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:40,800 Speaker 1: need to check out Rise, our meditation, manifestation and mindset app. 499 00:29:41,400 --> 00:29:44,760 Speaker 1: Rise is the place you go to actually integrate your 500 00:29:44,800 --> 00:29:48,640 Speaker 1: self development work. 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If you're ready to feel more empowered, more magnetic, 508 00:30:25,440 --> 00:30:29,200 Speaker 1: and just more like your true self, come and join 509 00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:32,240 Speaker 1: us inside the Rise app. You can download the app 510 00:30:32,280 --> 00:30:35,080 Speaker 1: now via the link in the show notes. Thank you 511 00:30:35,160 --> 00:30:37,560 Speaker 1: so much for listening to this episode of the Rise 512 00:30:37,640 --> 00:30:40,960 Speaker 1: and Conquer Podcast. If you enjoyed it and want more, 513 00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:45,160 Speaker 1: connect with us via Instagram or continue the conversation on 514 00:30:45,200 --> 00:30:48,880 Speaker 1: our beautiful Facebook community page. All the details are in 515 00:30:48,960 --> 00:30:51,320 Speaker 1: the show notes, and I'd love to hear more about 516 00:30:51,360 --> 00:30:55,160 Speaker 1: your journey. 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