WEBVTT - Bachelor In Paradise - FREE BRITTANY 0:00:21.160 --> 0:00:24.840 Hi guys, and welcome back to another episode of Life Uncut. 0:00:24.960 --> 0:00:26.599 I'm Laura and I'm Britney. 0:00:26.720 --> 0:00:31.800 And today today we have a very very special episode 0:00:31.840 --> 0:00:34.800 for you. Now, Laura, you actually say this every week, 0:00:35.000 --> 0:00:38.120 today's a special app, but today actually is a special app. 0:00:38.360 --> 0:00:39.320 It is a special ap. 0:00:39.360 --> 0:00:46.000 Why because we're talking about Britney. So, as you all know, 0:00:46.360 --> 0:00:50.120 Paradise Paradise episode last night, Brittany went home. 0:00:50.640 --> 0:00:51.480 It was a bit weird. 0:00:51.640 --> 0:00:54.120 We're going to get into it, but we decided that 0:00:54.120 --> 0:00:56.680 today we're going to not do any acciently unfiltered. We're 0:00:56.760 --> 0:00:59.280 not going to do any ask guncuts because we're recording 0:00:59.280 --> 0:01:03.320 this episode at nine point thirty pm and we are here. 0:01:03.160 --> 0:01:05.440 In my bedroom bla la la la in the studio. 0:01:05.560 --> 0:01:08.000 I mean, and we really thought we'd bring you an 0:01:08.040 --> 0:01:12.120 episode that is all about BRIT's experience in Paradise, what 0:01:12.319 --> 0:01:15.000 is happening now in her life, where she's at, so 0:01:15.040 --> 0:01:16.920 that you can get your story across. 0:01:17.040 --> 0:01:19.360 Well, yeah, and you guys, I appreciate your patience. 0:01:19.400 --> 0:01:21.880 You guys have waited a very very long time for 0:01:21.920 --> 0:01:24.160 me to be able to openly speak about my life 0:01:24.200 --> 0:01:26.399 and what's been going on. So I appreciate that obviously 0:01:26.400 --> 0:01:28.920 there is a lot to talk about and we will 0:01:28.959 --> 0:01:31.520 get into it. And everyone's been so patient with the 0:01:31.600 --> 0:01:33.640 lack of dating stories that you've brought to this podcast, 0:01:33.640 --> 0:01:37.319 because from the very beginning, that was your one fucking job. 0:01:37.440 --> 0:01:39.600 But that was what we just meant when I said, 0:01:39.600 --> 0:01:42.840 you guys my patient, that's literally what, man? Where do 0:01:42.920 --> 0:01:46.319 we start? I actually thought, I'm like, Laura and I 0:01:46.400 --> 0:01:49.560 were just talking and now Laura obviously knows everything, and 0:01:49.600 --> 0:01:50.920 we look at each other and we're like, how do 0:01:50.960 --> 0:01:54.360 we even do this? Like there's so much to get 0:01:54.400 --> 0:01:57.320 through and so many weird things. I mean, how weird 0:01:57.480 --> 0:01:58.640 was that exit? Oh? 0:01:58.960 --> 0:01:59.960 Like, jump straight to the end. 0:02:00.120 --> 0:02:02.760 How weird was that? I'm still like, what the fuck? Like, 0:02:02.760 --> 0:02:04.760 why did no one say goodbye? Why didn't you tell 0:02:04.800 --> 0:02:06.720 anyone that why you were leaving? Why did you just 0:02:06.760 --> 0:02:07.280 walk out? 0:02:07.440 --> 0:02:09.240 Why did Tim just say hey, I want to leave 0:02:09.240 --> 0:02:12.280 and you're like, okay, let's go. I was a three 0:02:12.360 --> 0:02:15.120 second conversation, which I'm going to take a guess that 0:02:15.200 --> 0:02:17.640 there was more to it than that. But let's like 0:02:17.800 --> 0:02:21.880 rewind to probably the first and most important question that 0:02:21.919 --> 0:02:23.160 I think everyone would want to know. 0:02:23.840 --> 0:02:24.720 Are you still with Tim? 0:02:25.200 --> 0:02:25.359 Oh? 0:02:26.600 --> 0:02:30.919 I am not with Tim. Do you want to start 0:02:31.000 --> 0:02:36.200 there with what happened? Let's just start day one. Okay, Go, 0:02:37.160 --> 0:02:40.040 you take the bike. You're supposed to be an interview 0:02:40.120 --> 0:02:43.000 on you talk. I'll sit here. This is a great 0:02:43.040 --> 0:02:44.000 therapy session for me. 0:02:44.520 --> 0:02:46.400 I guess one of the big questions we had that 0:02:46.520 --> 0:02:49.000 came in was, I mean Tim and I got together 0:02:49.000 --> 0:02:51.280 on day one, and people are sort of like, didn't 0:02:51.280 --> 0:02:53.800 see that coming, and everyone wanted to know why and 0:02:53.840 --> 0:02:56.360 what it was and what the attraction was there, because 0:02:56.360 --> 0:02:59.520 obviously I think, I mean, yes, we are very very 0:02:59.560 --> 0:03:04.480 polar opposite humans. And to be honest, I had never 0:03:04.560 --> 0:03:08.359 dated anyone like Tim never ever, didn't ever think I would. 0:03:09.200 --> 0:03:13.000 But what I look for in someone, what I always have. 0:03:13.200 --> 0:03:15.680 It was the same thing with Nick was humor. Someone 0:03:15.680 --> 0:03:17.640 that makes me laugh and he's just silly, it doesn't 0:03:17.639 --> 0:03:20.080 take life seriously, and someone that makes me feel good. 0:03:20.120 --> 0:03:21.840 And Tim was that from day one. I was just 0:03:21.880 --> 0:03:24.560 constantly in hysterics and that wasn't shown a lot, but 0:03:25.360 --> 0:03:27.000 that was my initial attraction. 0:03:27.080 --> 0:03:29.079 Yeah, for sure, we all know how much you. 0:03:29.080 --> 0:03:33.800 Like a red flag fucking love. I think he had 0:03:33.800 --> 0:03:35.400 a red hat on red shorts on day one and 0:03:35.440 --> 0:03:42.680 I was like, that's like a moster a flame adam, Okay, 0:03:42.720 --> 0:03:45.440 but like jokes aside, How are you feeling now? Also, 0:03:45.640 --> 0:03:47.600 I do want to say that the way I deal 0:03:47.640 --> 0:03:49.280 with a lot of things, and you probably know this 0:03:49.320 --> 0:03:51.240 by now, but it is laughter and humor, So I 0:03:51.320 --> 0:03:53.560 might joke a lot, but like my heart hurts. 0:03:53.600 --> 0:03:56.760 How are you feeling now about everything now? But like 0:03:57.160 --> 0:03:59.160 now that you can talk openly, now that you can 0:03:59.240 --> 0:04:01.960 kind of tell your story, now that you're no longer 0:04:02.000 --> 0:04:05.920 having to live in this purgatory or limbo about where 0:04:05.920 --> 0:04:07.600 your life is at and whether you're with him or 0:04:07.600 --> 0:04:10.200 not with him, or what's happening, how are you feeling. 0:04:10.320 --> 0:04:14.280 Straight up relief? I'm just so relieved. It has been 0:04:14.600 --> 0:04:17.920 nine or ten months, which is such a long time 0:04:18.160 --> 0:04:20.400 to be in this in purgatory, like you said, just 0:04:20.400 --> 0:04:23.080 to be in limbo, not being able to publicly date 0:04:23.279 --> 0:04:25.800 and not being able to tell everyone in your life 0:04:25.800 --> 0:04:28.080 what's actually really going on. You just feel like this 0:04:28.160 --> 0:04:31.080 sense of responsibility because you sign your life away. I'm 0:04:31.120 --> 0:04:33.560 just so relieved that I can get my life back 0:04:33.600 --> 0:04:36.080 on trop Tell me how long does the actual filming 0:04:36.080 --> 0:04:39.719 of Bachelor and Paradise go for the filming from day 0:04:39.800 --> 0:04:42.880 dot to the end. The filming from the beginning to 0:04:42.920 --> 0:04:45.440 the end. Literally the whole thing is just under a month. 0:04:45.600 --> 0:04:48.200 It is so short, like The Bachelor's three and a 0:04:48.200 --> 0:04:50.440 half months Paradise one month max. 0:04:50.520 --> 0:04:52.080 And how many weeks were you in there? 0:04:52.320 --> 0:04:55.440 So I left about three and a half weeks, so 0:04:55.480 --> 0:04:57.600 only a few days I guess before the end, which 0:04:57.640 --> 0:04:59.440 in the grand scheme of things, when you think about it, 0:04:59.480 --> 0:05:01.239 like three and a half weeks is such a short 0:05:01.279 --> 0:05:03.839 period of time to be dating someone and to be 0:05:03.839 --> 0:05:06.440 getting to know someone. And we opened up said, like 0:05:06.520 --> 0:05:08.680 yesterday I put a thing up on our Life on 0:05:08.800 --> 0:05:12.440 cut podcast Instagram page and asked you guys, what questions 0:05:12.440 --> 0:05:14.159 you have for Britain? What you want to know about 0:05:14.160 --> 0:05:17.400 the mechanics of how the show works, and also just 0:05:17.440 --> 0:05:19.760 like her experience on the show. And one of the 0:05:19.800 --> 0:05:22.840 main questions that we got that kept on coming up 0:05:22.960 --> 0:05:25.800 time and time again was people asking like, what was 0:05:25.839 --> 0:05:28.159 it that you saw in Tim when it's so obvious 0:05:28.200 --> 0:05:30.400 to the viewer that he was behaving so badly and 0:05:30.440 --> 0:05:33.479 he was stirring the pot and kind of just being 0:05:33.480 --> 0:05:36.920 a little trouble maker, Like what, like, how did you 0:05:36.960 --> 0:05:39.520 overlook that, and why didn't you see that at the time. 0:05:40.360 --> 0:05:43.359 I totally get where that question comes from. After watching, 0:05:43.880 --> 0:05:46.680 after living it for three and a half weeks, and 0:05:46.839 --> 0:05:49.680 now watching the edit back, I can I get that 0:05:49.760 --> 0:05:51.000 question one hundred percent. 0:05:51.040 --> 0:05:53.880 I would be asking the same question. I think. What's 0:05:53.960 --> 0:05:56.160 really hard to understand, but really important. 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:59.280 To understand, is that we filmed twenty four hours a 0:05:59.360 --> 0:06:03.640 day day and you guys have shown an hour max 0:06:04.920 --> 0:06:08.240 of fifteen people, So you're seeing that. You're seeing like 0:06:08.320 --> 0:06:11.360 fifteen minutes worth of day's worth of filming of someone. 0:06:11.880 --> 0:06:19.040 And Tim definitely is a shit stirer, and he definitely 0:06:20.120 --> 0:06:22.880 ruffled some feathers, and he had some behavior that was 0:06:22.960 --> 0:06:25.880 very questionable. He had behavior I was really unimpressed with. 0:06:28.240 --> 0:06:31.599 But the things you didn't see were some really sweet 0:06:31.640 --> 0:06:35.200 moments with us on our own him making a lot 0:06:35.200 --> 0:06:38.400 of people laugh and still feel good. But you have 0:06:38.440 --> 0:06:40.400 to remember too that you guys have seen a lot 0:06:40.440 --> 0:06:42.560 of the conversations that the boys have together that are 0:06:42.640 --> 0:06:47.840 quite toxic and quite horrible, and you have to remember 0:06:47.880 --> 0:06:49.920 that I don't see those. That's just the boys off 0:06:49.960 --> 0:06:52.279 talking together. So I don't see most of what you see. 0:06:52.279 --> 0:06:53.800 I didn't see the extent. 0:06:53.400 --> 0:06:54.200 Of what was going on. 0:06:54.240 --> 0:06:56.520 I didn't see the conversations behind closed doors and the 0:06:56.560 --> 0:06:57.880 conversations between the boys. 0:06:58.080 --> 0:06:58.760 I didn't see it. 0:06:59.000 --> 0:07:02.039 I saw snippets in a group where you know, he 0:07:02.080 --> 0:07:04.239 got angry in the fight, where all the boys did. 0:07:04.440 --> 0:07:09.720 But from what I know actually happened, that was equal 0:07:09.720 --> 0:07:11.400 between all the boys. That was not one person that 0:07:11.440 --> 0:07:13.920 started anything. It was just a big build up and 0:07:13.960 --> 0:07:17.360 everybody imploded. So I guess that's how it happened. A 0:07:17.360 --> 0:07:18.760 lot of people just think that he was like that 0:07:18.800 --> 0:07:20.280 twenty four to seven, and how could I be with 0:07:20.320 --> 0:07:20.840 someone like that? 0:07:20.920 --> 0:07:22.520 But there were definitely some nice moments. 0:07:22.640 --> 0:07:25.520 But also I think what people don't realize is this idea, 0:07:25.600 --> 0:07:28.040 like when we watch the show back as a viewer, 0:07:28.720 --> 0:07:31.720 you get this real three sixty view of what's happening. 0:07:31.760 --> 0:07:34.800 You see contestants when they're on their own with their friends, 0:07:34.840 --> 0:07:37.120 when they're with their partner, you see and you get 0:07:37.160 --> 0:07:40.280 to really get this insight into all aspects of them 0:07:40.320 --> 0:07:43.040 and three sixty degree of their personality. But when you're 0:07:43.040 --> 0:07:46.200 in it, it's like you only still see what you're 0:07:46.560 --> 0:07:48.840 exposed to, what you actually experienced one on one with 0:07:48.880 --> 0:07:51.600 that person. But then in such a short timeframe. I 0:07:51.640 --> 0:07:53.800 think we've all been guilty of this. When you've dated 0:07:53.840 --> 0:07:56.800 someone for only three weeks, it takes that long to 0:07:56.920 --> 0:07:59.880 actually start to see the things that are the red flags. 0:08:00.000 --> 0:08:03.680 Sometimes red flag can be diluted by the fact that 0:08:03.760 --> 0:08:05.840 they're also doing really nice things throughout the day as well, 0:08:05.880 --> 0:08:07.760 so you kind of forgive that first one and forgive 0:08:07.800 --> 0:08:10.800 that second one, and then eventually you're like, who the 0:08:10.840 --> 0:08:13.000 fuck am I the so many red flags here? 0:08:13.160 --> 0:08:16.080 Yeah, and we're in paradise, so we would spend hours. 0:08:15.760 --> 0:08:18.360 On paddleboards and having fun and. 0:08:17.880 --> 0:08:20.120 Having really cute, sweet little moments and all of us 0:08:20.120 --> 0:08:24.880 playing volleyball together. And it's the honeymoon phase on steroids. 0:08:24.920 --> 0:08:27.760 That's what paradise is. It's the honeymoon phase on steroids. 0:08:27.760 --> 0:08:30.240 And it's also like obviously drama phase on steroids. 0:08:30.320 --> 0:08:34.160 And then there's single beds as well, which is every skid. 0:08:34.520 --> 0:08:36.760 Yeah, it make sleep me hard, but it's yeah, it's 0:08:36.760 --> 0:08:39.439 a different world everything. It's like The Bachelor, same thing, 0:08:39.480 --> 0:08:42.640 you know, how heated it gets and how driven and 0:08:42.679 --> 0:08:46.079 sped up everything is. It's like three months on the Bachelor, 0:08:46.120 --> 0:08:47.960 it's like dating somebody for a year, it's like it's 0:08:48.160 --> 0:08:51.559 very intense and emotions flying being in that environment. And 0:08:51.640 --> 0:08:53.680 I know obviously from Matt and Night it's a complete 0:08:53.720 --> 0:08:57.360 pressure cooker. Like in our season, like it's three and 0:08:57.360 --> 0:08:59.760 a half months of filming Max, so we'd been a 0:08:59.800 --> 0:09:01.240 not each other for three and a half months, and 0:09:01.280 --> 0:09:04.280 at the end of it, you're in love with someone, 0:09:04.320 --> 0:09:07.679 like genuinely in love with someone, Like those feelings aren't manufactured, 0:09:07.720 --> 0:09:10.120 I think for you know, we're definitely not for the 0:09:10.160 --> 0:09:12.480 couples who have ended up long term together with being 0:09:12.480 --> 0:09:16.800 married and having kids and whatnot. But it just really 0:09:17.360 --> 0:09:20.560 like condenses those feelings down and reduces it down, and 0:09:20.600 --> 0:09:23.320 so you you just end up having this really intense 0:09:23.360 --> 0:09:28.120 and euphoric relationship when you're in that environment. It's really sad, Like, oh, 0:09:28.120 --> 0:09:30.520 it's just really hard to explain this story because I 0:09:30.559 --> 0:09:32.120 feel like I'm going to be jumping forward and back 0:09:32.160 --> 0:09:33.679 all the time. There's so much I want to say, 0:09:34.120 --> 0:09:36.520 but it's really I found it really sad, and I'm 0:09:36.559 --> 0:09:39.120 really disappointed with what were shown of Tim and I 0:09:39.320 --> 0:09:42.040 because we were the strongest couple on there for sure 0:09:42.120 --> 0:09:44.160 during the show. We were together from day one, and 0:09:44.200 --> 0:09:46.120 they didn't show it. They did not show any of 0:09:46.160 --> 0:09:48.800 their story, didn't show all the really sweet moments. They 0:09:48.920 --> 0:09:50.640 really just showed a lot of the drama, which I 0:09:50.640 --> 0:09:52.839 found really disappointing because at the end of the day, 0:09:52.840 --> 0:09:56.080 it's supposed to be a show about people finding love 0:09:56.160 --> 0:10:00.240 and being happy and that just wasn't shown. Yeah, I 0:10:00.240 --> 0:10:02.320 guess I'm a bit sad that, finally on a show, 0:10:02.360 --> 0:10:05.040 I did find some happiness, And sure you didn't get 0:10:05.040 --> 0:10:05.360 to see it. 0:10:05.760 --> 0:10:08.400 So what happened when you left Paradise? There was a 0:10:08.440 --> 0:10:09.439 lot you did not see. 0:10:09.480 --> 0:10:12.160 That was the strangest exit, Like why did anyone even 0:10:12.160 --> 0:10:12.840 ask where we went? 0:10:14.600 --> 0:10:18.040 Literally, you guys walked out and nobody even was like, hey, 0:10:18.040 --> 0:10:20.320 where's Tim and Brittany, Which is what led me to 0:10:20.360 --> 0:10:22.920 think instantly, and like, I obviously we've spoken about it now, 0:10:22.960 --> 0:10:26.040 but which is what led me instantly to think that 0:10:26.040 --> 0:10:27.839 that's not the ending, Like there had to have been 0:10:27.880 --> 0:10:30.280 more to it that didn't make sense from like an 0:10:30.480 --> 0:10:33.520 edit and production perspective, that they had to sniff it 0:10:33.559 --> 0:10:36.600 and reduce it down. So I think anybody watching that 0:10:36.880 --> 0:10:39.360 felt it was bizarre. And I know from our Facebook 0:10:39.360 --> 0:10:42.240 group chat that every single person who was commenting on 0:10:42.360 --> 0:10:45.079 last night's thread was like, what the fuck was that? 0:10:45.480 --> 0:10:48.320 Oh yeah, my whole inbox is I'm so perplexed, Like, 0:10:48.360 --> 0:10:51.680 I don't get what just happened. You just ghosted everybody, 0:10:51.960 --> 0:10:55.280 like literally I single person in Paradise. Hi Josh's message 0:10:55.320 --> 0:10:56.880 and he's like, I love how you just walked out 0:10:56.880 --> 0:10:59.040 of Paradise and you've never seen it again. No one 0:10:59.080 --> 0:11:01.320 asked where you were. What Lowen says anything. No one 0:11:01.320 --> 0:11:02.880 says goodbye. And it's true. 0:11:03.080 --> 0:11:05.360 It was the strangest ending that Paradise has ever had 0:11:05.480 --> 0:11:07.920 taught me through what happened when you left Paradise and 0:11:07.960 --> 0:11:09.760 you and Tim were like, bla la la, we love 0:11:09.760 --> 0:11:10.800 each other, let's be together. 0:11:11.080 --> 0:11:14.400 What happened firstly, when we did leave, the ending was very, 0:11:14.480 --> 0:11:17.800 very different, and obviously a lot more went on, and 0:11:17.960 --> 0:11:19.760 Channel ten that's what they've decided. 0:11:20.160 --> 0:11:21.240 They've just decided to. 0:11:21.200 --> 0:11:23.360 Show a snippet of us leaving happily, which you know, 0:11:23.559 --> 0:11:26.040 at the end of the day, Tim did ask me 0:11:26.080 --> 0:11:28.400 to leave. He didn't want to be there anymore. And 0:11:28.440 --> 0:11:30.960 at the end of the day they're making the TV show. Yeah, 0:11:31.040 --> 0:11:33.880 and I did. He said he wanted to leave, and 0:11:33.920 --> 0:11:36.080 I never questioned that to be honest, I could tell 0:11:36.120 --> 0:11:38.120 that this environment was not right for him anymore. 0:11:38.640 --> 0:11:41.840 That environment was not right for me. It was so toxic. 0:11:42.080 --> 0:11:43.920 And I think that's why you never really saw me 0:11:43.960 --> 0:11:46.440 on there, because I would just like scurry awayne put 0:11:46.440 --> 0:11:48.160 my head in the sound like an ostriach every time 0:11:48.160 --> 0:11:51.840 this drama came out, which was every day, so I just. 0:11:52.000 --> 0:11:54.080 Everyone every day was like, hey, where were you last night? 0:11:54.160 --> 0:11:55.920 I was like, who knows? You're Like, how I wasn't 0:11:55.960 --> 0:11:58.680 there sipping to martini by the pool, babe. 0:11:58.840 --> 0:12:02.760 When we left Tim, Tim was lovely and saying all 0:12:02.800 --> 0:12:05.079 the right things. He was always very sweet to me 0:12:05.200 --> 0:12:07.360 in the show. For the majority of the time anyway. 0:12:08.720 --> 0:12:12.480 He was like, you're my right or die. I can't 0:12:12.520 --> 0:12:14.199 wait to have this relationship with you, and like We're 0:12:14.200 --> 0:12:16.839 going to do so many amazing things together. You're the 0:12:16.840 --> 0:12:20.360 best thing I've ever come across. You know. He just 0:12:20.360 --> 0:12:22.640 thought I was the ants pants, and I just thought 0:12:22.679 --> 0:12:24.360 he was great as well, because he just made me 0:12:24.480 --> 0:12:27.720 laugh so much. And I really, really from the bottom 0:12:27.800 --> 0:12:30.440 of my heart, thought, wow, like this is it. I 0:12:30.480 --> 0:12:32.560 found someone that makes me really happy, and I found 0:12:32.600 --> 0:12:34.440 someone that really wants to be with me, and I 0:12:34.520 --> 0:12:39.520 believed everything he ever said to me. It turns out 0:12:39.559 --> 0:12:41.520 that I feel like everything he ever said to me 0:12:41.720 --> 0:12:44.840 was not true. I don't want to say a lie. 0:12:45.360 --> 0:12:47.080 I don't think that's the right word, but I think 0:12:47.120 --> 0:12:51.080 it was exaggerated. I think he was exaggerating those feelings. 0:12:51.520 --> 0:12:54.600 And I say that because it was pretty horrific time 0:12:54.679 --> 0:12:58.680 after the show. To be completely honest, we only really 0:12:58.679 --> 0:13:02.520 saw each other at one time for about five days. 0:13:02.520 --> 0:13:06.120 We visited. He visited me straight after the show. 0:13:06.200 --> 0:13:09.040 We went and met his family, and I say, to 0:13:09.080 --> 0:13:10.559 his family, he met my family, like. 0:13:10.520 --> 0:13:11.160 All my family. 0:13:11.200 --> 0:13:15.440 I'm talking like, oh, cousins and everything. This is Christmas time, 0:13:15.800 --> 0:13:20.520 Christmas party, so like it was a baptism for five baby, 0:13:21.160 --> 0:13:24.760 imagine me, but like fifty of me was there and 0:13:24.800 --> 0:13:26.640 he was like, who's this scaley wag you brought in? 0:13:26.880 --> 0:13:29.560 Exactly. Everyone was a bit perplexed. Everyone was like, who 0:13:29.640 --> 0:13:30.160 is this guy? 0:13:30.960 --> 0:13:33.040 Yeah. It's really hard to say because I don't want to. 0:13:33.240 --> 0:13:35.280 I'm not going to go into deep detail because there 0:13:35.320 --> 0:13:38.520 are some things that should stay between two people, for sure, 0:13:39.040 --> 0:13:41.400 But I think to put it lightly and to sum 0:13:41.520 --> 0:13:45.480 it up, Tim was a very different person outside of 0:13:45.480 --> 0:13:48.960 Paradise to who he was in Paradise and everything he 0:13:49.080 --> 0:13:51.360 said to me, the way he made me feel, the 0:13:51.400 --> 0:13:56.680 way he was speaking, the things he promised me, none 0:13:56.720 --> 0:14:00.320 of that translated to the outside world none. And I 0:14:00.400 --> 0:14:04.560 was so gobsmacked at the person that he became. The 0:14:04.559 --> 0:14:06.640 second we walked outside of those doors. It was just 0:14:06.679 --> 0:14:08.160 like I was talking to a different person. 0:14:08.600 --> 0:14:10.679 And then how did it end up resolving? Like how 0:14:10.720 --> 0:14:14.280 did you guys end up not being together? Like was 0:14:14.280 --> 0:14:14.800 that your call? 0:14:14.920 --> 0:14:15.680 Was that? His call? 0:14:15.920 --> 0:14:18.360 Was it in this five days? Like how soon after 0:14:18.360 --> 0:14:20.000 paradise did you guys call it quits? 0:14:20.160 --> 0:14:21.080 I guess no. 0:14:20.960 --> 0:14:26.360 One actually really called it. So basically, he just wanted 0:14:26.480 --> 0:14:28.720 to party. He in no way wanted to be in 0:14:28.720 --> 0:14:33.200 a relationship with anyone. He wanted to party hard, and 0:14:33.240 --> 0:14:36.160 he just didn't want anyone around. So I was there 0:14:36.200 --> 0:14:39.320 with him and he basically just left me alone. And 0:14:39.360 --> 0:14:43.120 when partied hard. Again, I'm not going to go into detail, 0:14:43.160 --> 0:14:50.040 but he just didn't come home one night and I 0:14:50.080 --> 0:14:51.880 was there with him, and that's it. So I didn't 0:14:51.920 --> 0:14:52.600 know where he was, he. 0:14:52.600 --> 0:14:54.680 Didn't contact me, nothing like, nothing like that. 0:14:54.800 --> 0:14:57.000 And then the next day we just had this really 0:14:57.040 --> 0:14:59.080 big argument and I said, is this who you are? 0:14:59.160 --> 0:15:01.120 I was he'd done a few times that week, like 0:15:01.200 --> 0:15:02.880 just had just gone out and gone hard. And I 0:15:02.920 --> 0:15:05.280 just said, is this who you are? Because this isn't 0:15:05.280 --> 0:15:07.920 the person that This isn't the person that I signed 0:15:08.000 --> 0:15:10.360 up for. And you're not the person that you were 0:15:10.440 --> 0:15:12.040 showing me, and you're not doing any things you said 0:15:12.080 --> 0:15:13.320 you want to do, and you know. 0:15:13.440 --> 0:15:16.240 Yeah, words and actions are kind of not really aligned here, buddy. 0:15:16.480 --> 0:15:19.520 Yeah, And we had this big fight. We'll not a fight, 0:15:19.640 --> 0:15:21.520 but I was just so because I don't fight, but 0:15:21.560 --> 0:15:23.640 I was just really beside myself. I was in tears, 0:15:23.720 --> 0:15:27.240 and I just thought, how could I have waited eight 0:15:27.360 --> 0:15:31.800 years to find someone to finally open up to and 0:15:32.240 --> 0:15:35.280 love and be with and be vulnerable with. And this 0:15:35.360 --> 0:15:36.800 is who it is and this is how you're treating me. 0:15:37.120 --> 0:15:39.360 I was like, I have not waited this long to 0:15:39.400 --> 0:15:42.960 be walked all over. So I said, I can't be 0:15:43.040 --> 0:15:45.200 with someone like this. If you're if you want to 0:15:45.200 --> 0:15:47.880 be with me, you need to step up and you 0:15:47.920 --> 0:15:49.600 can't do this and you've got to treat me with 0:15:49.680 --> 0:15:54.160 some respect. And he basically just said no. He said, no, 0:15:54.240 --> 0:15:55.880 I can't. This is what I this is what I 0:15:55.920 --> 0:15:57.520 am and I'm not in a place to be with you, 0:15:57.880 --> 0:16:00.720 And I'm like, why did you ask me five days ago? 0:16:01.480 --> 0:16:04.440 So leave paradise with you? Because all you want to 0:16:04.440 --> 0:16:06.200 do is be with me, and you can't imagine life 0:16:06.320 --> 0:16:09.920 without me. Five days earlier, none of I just felt 0:16:09.960 --> 0:16:12.440 like none of it was real. I felt like it 0:16:12.520 --> 0:16:13.240 was just a big trick. 0:16:14.200 --> 0:16:16.880 How do you feel now, especially like watching it all back, 0:16:17.160 --> 0:16:17.800 like that's. 0:16:17.920 --> 0:16:18.320 I don't know. 0:16:18.440 --> 0:16:20.880 I mean, I like, I love you, Britt, and I 0:16:20.920 --> 0:16:23.120 know how hard this has been in the last couple 0:16:23.120 --> 0:16:26.200 of weeks and months, and I know that, Like now 0:16:26.920 --> 0:16:28.960 there is this relief of being able to talk about it, 0:16:28.960 --> 0:16:32.320 but there is also this like feeling of what, Like 0:16:32.480 --> 0:16:33.960 how the fuck did I put up with that? Like 0:16:34.000 --> 0:16:37.320 how did that even happen? What am I doing? But 0:16:37.360 --> 0:16:40.440 how do you feel now that it's put to bed 0:16:40.480 --> 0:16:41.000 a little bit? 0:16:41.520 --> 0:16:43.320 I remember it leaving him. 0:16:43.360 --> 0:16:45.160 I remember having this argument and getting in my car 0:16:45.200 --> 0:16:46.920 and being like, I have to drive back to Sydney 0:16:46.920 --> 0:16:50.080 then right now. I cried the whole way back. And 0:16:50.160 --> 0:16:53.080 I'm everyone that knows me knows I'm not overly emotional 0:16:53.840 --> 0:16:55.920 the majority of the time, but I really just thought 0:16:55.920 --> 0:16:57.720 that this was my happy ending, and I was just 0:16:57.800 --> 0:17:01.000 so hurt that I felt like I'd been lied to 0:17:01.120 --> 0:17:02.760 and I felt like the wool had been pulled over 0:17:02.760 --> 0:17:04.680 my eyes, and I felt like I'd finally opened up 0:17:05.119 --> 0:17:07.399 to someone that just didn't have an ounce of respect 0:17:07.400 --> 0:17:10.640 for me. I cried all the way back to Sydney, 0:17:10.720 --> 0:17:14.320 and then I'm not kidding, I don't think I ever 0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:16.440 heard from him again. That's it. 0:17:17.000 --> 0:17:17.480 So I didn't. 0:17:17.520 --> 0:17:19.400 I just came back and was really upset, and I thought, okay, 0:17:19.480 --> 0:17:21.720 let's just have a few days to cool down, you know, 0:17:21.800 --> 0:17:23.840 because I'm big on not sending a message or anything 0:17:23.880 --> 0:17:24.440 when you're mad. 0:17:26.760 --> 0:17:29.600 So I wrote to him and I just I basically, you. 0:17:29.560 --> 0:17:31.679 Know, when you go through like a breakup of sorts, 0:17:32.960 --> 0:17:35.280 you still don't see what's actually in front of your eyes. 0:17:35.080 --> 0:17:37.040 And you still trying to make excuses, and you still 0:17:37.080 --> 0:17:37.399 want a. 0:17:37.400 --> 0:17:40.320 Person in your life, like I really loved having to 0:17:40.400 --> 0:17:41.840 him in my life, and I liked the way he 0:17:41.880 --> 0:17:44.600 made me feel on the show, and I missed that 0:17:44.640 --> 0:17:46.880 feeling and I missed that and I thought, Okay, maybe 0:17:47.800 --> 0:17:49.720 we'll stay friends and we'll see. 0:17:49.520 --> 0:17:50.560 Where it goes down the track. 0:17:50.600 --> 0:17:53.239 So I messaged him and still just said like, if 0:17:53.280 --> 0:17:54.919 you're going through a hard time, know that I'm always 0:17:54.920 --> 0:17:58.520 here for you and be really great. You know, we've 0:17:58.520 --> 0:18:00.359 been through so much together, and really great if we 0:18:00.359 --> 0:18:02.800 stay in contact and we're friends and see what happens. 0:18:03.400 --> 0:18:05.960 And he just didn't write back because I'd just never 0:18:05.960 --> 0:18:08.119 heard it from him again until literally the day the 0:18:08.160 --> 0:18:13.600 show started. Nothing not a thing now zero. Branni got 0:18:13.600 --> 0:18:18.760 ghosted hard, like hard and for no reason, like I 0:18:18.880 --> 0:18:20.560 just I can't even you could give me a million 0:18:20.600 --> 0:18:22.440 dollars to tell you a reason why he would have 0:18:22.520 --> 0:18:24.399 done that to me, and there's nothing. So yeah, I 0:18:24.400 --> 0:18:27.600