WEBVTT - Reflections on 2024 ⏳ and the Year that's Been 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:02.640 I would like to acknowledge the traditional owners of the 0:00:02.759 --> 0:00:06.279 land on which this episode is being recorded, the Combomb 0:00:06.360 --> 0:00:11.120 Merry people. They've been having conversations and telling stories on 0:00:11.160 --> 0:00:14.320 this land for thousands of years, and we show our 0:00:14.360 --> 0:00:19.240 gratitude and respect for their contribution to our environment and culture. 0:00:25.600 --> 0:00:31.520 This is Rise and Conquer, the podcast where we strive 0:00:31.680 --> 0:00:37.520 to become the highest version of ourselves through curious conversations, 0:00:37.800 --> 0:00:43.120 healthy mindsets, laughter, connection, and a deep desire to evolve. 0:00:44.200 --> 0:00:50.839 I'm your host, Georgie Stevenson. Join me as we explore parenthood, business, manifestation, 0:00:51.120 --> 0:00:54.840 and so much more. It's positive, it's practical, and it's 0:00:54.840 --> 0:00:58.160 about putting you in the driver's seat of your own life. 0:00:58.720 --> 0:00:59.360 Are you ready? 0:01:04.360 --> 0:01:09.440 Hello, my loves, and welcome back to the potty. We 0:01:09.880 --> 0:01:15.000 have a reflection episode of twenty twenty four for you, 0:01:15.680 --> 0:01:19.399 and I'm going to tell you the highs, the lows, 0:01:19.920 --> 0:01:24.240 the lessons, the milestones and the realizations. 0:01:25.080 --> 0:01:26.360 Twenty twenty four for me. 0:01:26.760 --> 0:01:32.080 Was probably the biggest year of my life. If January 0:01:32.880 --> 0:01:36.759 twenty twenty four, if I told her what had happened 0:01:37.440 --> 0:01:42.399 this year, I don't think she would have believed you, 0:01:42.920 --> 0:01:46.200 or you know, she would be very confused and very like, 0:01:46.360 --> 0:01:49.000 surely that's not actually going to happen, because there was 0:01:49.120 --> 0:01:52.400 just so many twists and turns and things that happened 0:01:52.440 --> 0:01:55.160 that I was like, wow, this, like how is this 0:01:55.240 --> 0:01:58.720 real life? A lot of great humbling moments, a lot 0:01:58.720 --> 0:02:03.800 of great realizations, and I currently still am in my 0:02:03.880 --> 0:02:07.000 Satin return, which, if you guys don't know, a Sadden 0:02:07.120 --> 0:02:13.160 return is basically a very turbulent time of your twenties 0:02:13.200 --> 0:02:16.120 where it's like you close out of your twenties and 0:02:16.160 --> 0:02:17.400 you enter your thirties. 0:02:17.800 --> 0:02:19.160 It depends on your birth chart. 0:02:19.280 --> 0:02:21.360 It can't happen from when you're like twenty seven to 0:02:21.480 --> 0:02:22.040 like thirty one. 0:02:22.200 --> 0:02:22.920 I'm pretty sure. 0:02:23.320 --> 0:02:28.040 So mine actually finishes in February, and thank the. 0:02:28.000 --> 0:02:32.639 Lord because it has been bumpy. 0:02:33.680 --> 0:02:37.160 But before we get into the episode, I just wanted 0:02:37.200 --> 0:02:40.399 to let you guys know, if you haven't seen already, 0:02:40.960 --> 0:02:47.639 we launched a brand new course called the Magnetic Blueprint, 0:02:47.960 --> 0:02:52.720 And this course really was birthed from a lot of 0:02:52.720 --> 0:02:57.680 my realizations this year actually and also me wanting to 0:02:57.760 --> 0:03:03.200 create twenty twenty five to be different and better. A 0:03:03.320 --> 0:03:07.280 huge realization which I'm sure i'll get into, is how 0:03:07.400 --> 0:03:11.560 I probably didn't really goal set and plan my year 0:03:12.000 --> 0:03:16.440 in a great way and from my very authentic self, 0:03:16.960 --> 0:03:21.360 and I'm doing things differently, and so I've created a 0:03:21.400 --> 0:03:26.080 goal setting template, a blueprint for you guys, and we 0:03:26.639 --> 0:03:30.320 can do it all together in January. It is going 0:03:30.360 --> 0:03:32.640 to start on the eighteenth of January and then we 0:03:32.720 --> 0:03:36.840 have fourteen days together. But here's where it is so 0:03:36.960 --> 0:03:41.400 different to anything else that you have done around goal setting. 0:03:41.960 --> 0:03:44.440 And the first week we're not even going to think 0:03:44.480 --> 0:03:47.400 of our goals because the first week I'm going to 0:03:47.480 --> 0:03:52.119 take you through a whole bunch of exercises for you 0:03:52.240 --> 0:03:56.880 to take off your mask and really dig deep and 0:03:57.120 --> 0:04:02.280 find that person within you, guys. Because when you are 0:04:02.320 --> 0:04:06.520 locked into that person inside you, like your your higher self, 0:04:06.560 --> 0:04:12.280 your true self, everything falls into place, everything is drawn 0:04:12.320 --> 0:04:15.440 to you. That's why we're calling it magnetic, because it's like, 0:04:15.560 --> 0:04:20.400 once you've finished it, you will become a magnet for 0:04:20.520 --> 0:04:24.480 your desires. That twenty twenty five will just like roll 0:04:24.600 --> 0:04:28.080 around and you'll go through the year, and of course 0:04:28.120 --> 0:04:30.000 you're gonna work for what you want and you're going 0:04:30.040 --> 0:04:34.160 to go through it, but it's going to feel different. 0:04:34.360 --> 0:04:37.520 It's going to feel easier, flowier. 0:04:37.200 --> 0:04:41.800 Not so bumpy, and it's because you're doing it in 0:04:41.880 --> 0:04:46.400 this beautiful magnetic way. 0:04:46.440 --> 0:04:47.599 It's such a unique course. 0:04:47.600 --> 0:04:51.200 So the first seven days we are like finding our 0:04:51.320 --> 0:04:54.760 true self and undoing the mass and undoing our conditioning 0:04:54.880 --> 0:04:59.360 and getting rid of any negative like routines or habits 0:04:59.600 --> 0:05:03.279 or patterns. I'll talk about patterns in this episode in 0:05:03.279 --> 0:05:08.120 twenty twenty four. And then we're actually creating our plan, 0:05:08.480 --> 0:05:12.680 our goals for twenty twenty five. And that was my 0:05:12.680 --> 0:05:16.640 biggest realization is I didn't really do that in John 0:05:16.720 --> 0:05:18.840 of twenty twenty four. I think I actually remember being 0:05:18.839 --> 0:05:24.400 on this podcast saying I'm just surrendering this year, and look, 0:05:24.560 --> 0:05:27.240 I did surrender and a lot came up, but to 0:05:27.279 --> 0:05:30.400 be honest, I kind of regret not having some more 0:05:30.560 --> 0:05:34.520 clear goals in intentions. And so that's what I'm doing differently, 0:05:34.680 --> 0:05:36.920 and I want you guys to join me. It's a 0:05:37.080 --> 0:05:38.719 very affordable course. 0:05:39.040 --> 0:05:40.960 It is only going to. 0:05:40.880 --> 0:05:43.440 Be about, you know, ten to twenty minutes a day 0:05:43.839 --> 0:05:47.440 every day. There's either a training, a workbook, or a meditation, 0:05:48.120 --> 0:05:51.839 and so it is very easy to finish and implement 0:05:51.960 --> 0:05:56.479 and integrate. So I'm so excited for that. Enrollment is 0:05:56.560 --> 0:05:59.679 now open and we do have an early bird price, 0:06:00.279 --> 0:06:04.160 but once December finishes, the price will go up, so 0:06:04.440 --> 0:06:06.039 make sure you check it out the link. 0:06:06.200 --> 0:06:08.119 It will be in the show notes. There'll be stuff 0:06:08.120 --> 0:06:09.720 on social media. 0:06:09.880 --> 0:06:19.719 But let's get in to this episode. Let's start off 0:06:20.120 --> 0:06:25.120 with my first high and my first lesson of twenty 0:06:25.160 --> 0:06:29.640 twenty four, and that was launching the Rise app. So 0:06:29.880 --> 0:06:33.880 the Rise app really was birth from this place where 0:06:33.920 --> 0:06:36.680 I saw such a gap in the market and a 0:06:36.720 --> 0:06:40.719 gap in self development where people would do this life 0:06:40.800 --> 0:06:41.520 changing course. 0:06:41.600 --> 0:06:43.760 Like people would do the project. 0:06:43.279 --> 0:06:46.000 Which is my seven week manifesting course, and it would 0:06:46.040 --> 0:06:47.600 change their lives and they would be like, oh my god, 0:06:47.600 --> 0:06:50.320 this is incredible. I've got so much new knowledge. But 0:06:50.440 --> 0:06:54.080 then a couple of months later, because they aren't integrating 0:06:54.120 --> 0:06:57.840 it and they're not continuing their practices and who they 0:06:57.839 --> 0:07:00.159 are and how they show up, they drop it and 0:07:00.200 --> 0:07:03.880 they full off and they don't get the benefits from manifestation. 0:07:04.440 --> 0:07:06.560 And so I've seen this in all my courses and 0:07:06.640 --> 0:07:09.600 in the self development industry. It's like they get motivation, 0:07:09.760 --> 0:07:13.240 they get high from something, but then it's not continued. 0:07:13.560 --> 0:07:16.040 And that's really what the Rise app is. It's a 0:07:16.080 --> 0:07:19.240 tool so every single day you have something to go 0:07:19.320 --> 0:07:22.720 to that is going to enhance your day, is going 0:07:22.760 --> 0:07:25.240 to get you on the vibration. And so we have 0:07:25.320 --> 0:07:29.040 a whole bunch of pep talks, we have meditations, and 0:07:29.120 --> 0:07:33.440 basically the whole thing is like your mindset bestie. 0:07:32.760 --> 0:07:33.600 In your pocket. 0:07:34.240 --> 0:07:36.480 So I have worked with a lot of coaches over 0:07:36.480 --> 0:07:38.960 the years, and like they usually have like a vox 0:07:39.000 --> 0:07:42.120 era or like a telegram situation where if you have 0:07:42.200 --> 0:07:45.120 like a problem or you're dysregulated, you can like telegram 0:07:45.160 --> 0:07:47.720 them and be like, hey, this happened, blah blah blah, 0:07:47.760 --> 0:07:50.840 and then they pop in and they're like, hey, breathe, 0:07:51.480 --> 0:07:55.880 this is the advice whatnot. And obviously coaches, you're looking 0:07:55.920 --> 0:07:58.480 at like fifty thousand dollars for three months kind of vibes. 0:07:58.960 --> 0:08:01.440 It's not something every one is able to afford. So 0:08:01.480 --> 0:08:03.680 what I wanted to do was put it into an app. 0:08:03.720 --> 0:08:06.080 So it's like every single day when you're looking for something, 0:08:06.280 --> 0:08:07.960 you can have it. And so we you know, we 0:08:08.040 --> 0:08:11.239 have meditations where it's like if you want to feel grounded, 0:08:11.320 --> 0:08:11.960 listen to this. 0:08:12.560 --> 0:08:15.000 If you're going for an interview, listen for this. 0:08:15.360 --> 0:08:16.960 If you want to feel inspired, if you want to 0:08:16.960 --> 0:08:18.840 feel motivated, if you're about to go to gym, Like 0:08:19.160 --> 0:08:23.360 we have built a beautiful audio experience for every sort 0:08:23.400 --> 0:08:26.360 of situation. That's like, that's what the Rise app was for. 0:08:27.080 --> 0:08:30.760 But when we launched it in January I think February, sorry, 0:08:31.320 --> 0:08:33.480 we actually did that. 0:08:33.640 --> 0:08:35.040 But then we did a lot more. 0:08:35.280 --> 0:08:38.600 So we also put like master classes on there, we 0:08:38.679 --> 0:08:42.120 put training videos, we put workbooks, and we basically just 0:08:42.160 --> 0:08:45.080 wanted to give our audience everything and just like make 0:08:45.160 --> 0:08:49.880 it so worth their while. But now in December, I 0:08:49.920 --> 0:08:53.320 can kind of see in hindsight that it was such 0:08:53.360 --> 0:08:56.920 a potent tool that had such a direct and clear 0:08:57.000 --> 0:09:00.160 purpose which I just spoke about, but we kind of 0:09:00.160 --> 0:09:02.640 of muddied it, like we kind of tried to do 0:09:02.800 --> 0:09:05.720 too much and please too many people, and so the 0:09:05.840 --> 0:09:09.520 message often got lost and people didn't really understand what 0:09:09.760 --> 0:09:13.280 the app was, which was on our side. And so 0:09:13.559 --> 0:09:18.000 now like as I'm talking, we have changed things. So 0:09:18.200 --> 0:09:22.040 we have removed the master classes and the video and 0:09:22.040 --> 0:09:25.200 we've kind of like simplified it and made it easier 0:09:25.240 --> 0:09:27.960 to use and use it friendly, and we've also like 0:09:28.040 --> 0:09:30.920 reduced the price because we're you know, half the stuff 0:09:31.040 --> 0:09:34.560 is available but it's very like niched and on purpose 0:09:34.640 --> 0:09:38.320 and clear that was like the best thing we could 0:09:38.320 --> 0:09:42.280 have done. But we had to go the year figuring 0:09:42.320 --> 0:09:45.240 out putting content on there, taking it down, and it 0:09:45.320 --> 0:09:49.319 was a very messy experience. And also there's something interesting 0:09:49.400 --> 0:09:52.640 about being a business owner and having a product like 0:09:52.679 --> 0:09:53.880 this and trying. 0:09:53.600 --> 0:09:55.800 To figure it out as you go, and you know, 0:09:55.840 --> 0:09:56.240 we had. 0:09:56.160 --> 0:09:58.720 To email people and being like this content will be 0:09:58.760 --> 0:10:00.800 taken off, and of course that those people who were 0:10:00.800 --> 0:10:03.760 like no, I love that content, and so like, trying 0:10:03.760 --> 0:10:07.200 to keep everyone happy is hard. But my lesson for 0:10:07.280 --> 0:10:12.040 that is, first of all, your mistakes are your greatest teachers. 0:10:12.360 --> 0:10:16.559 You cannot fail. So even if something doesn't go exactly 0:10:16.640 --> 0:10:20.760 to plan, it's not a failure because you're learning a lesson, 0:10:20.840 --> 0:10:24.480 you're understanding. And so for me, I'm like, okay, wow, 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:26.680 I tried to do too much. Like we tried to 0:10:26.720 --> 0:10:29.080 do too much, and really we should have just stuck 0:10:29.160 --> 0:10:32.360 with this is what the app is for a very 0:10:32.400 --> 0:10:36.240 specific purpose and only done content on that. 0:10:36.600 --> 0:10:39.440 For example, on the Rise app, now it's only audio. 0:10:39.559 --> 0:10:43.240 There is no video content, and some people, you know, 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:45.520 we're unhappy about that, but I'm like, no, I'm so 0:10:45.760 --> 0:10:49.520 clear on what this app is, it's important that we 0:10:49.640 --> 0:10:50.320 stick to it. 0:10:51.320 --> 0:10:54.760 So that was that was a great long lesson. 0:11:01.240 --> 0:11:04.840 Now we move to some highs of the year and 0:11:05.480 --> 0:11:08.320 a big intention that I had, actually, this was one 0:11:08.360 --> 0:11:13.160 of my goals for twenty twenty four was speaking at events, 0:11:13.760 --> 0:11:17.439 and I think I spoke at three events, which was incredible. 0:11:17.920 --> 0:11:22.360 And I loved this because even though I have a 0:11:22.400 --> 0:11:24.880 podcast and even though I show up on social media, 0:11:25.520 --> 0:11:28.880 showing up in real life, you know, having to talk 0:11:28.920 --> 0:11:32.360 and having to remember and having to articulate yourself is 0:11:32.440 --> 0:11:36.119 actually I find it so scary. Like on this podcast, 0:11:36.160 --> 0:11:38.959 we have an editor and so she will snipe it 0:11:39.080 --> 0:11:42.080 if I stuff up or have to start again, but 0:11:42.160 --> 0:11:44.520 in real life, like you have to be kind of perfect. 0:11:44.640 --> 0:11:47.280 And so I've always been like, oh no, don't want 0:11:47.320 --> 0:11:51.040 to do in person key speaker vibes. But I did that, 0:11:51.120 --> 0:11:54.920 and even for like International Women's Day, and I am 0:11:55.000 --> 0:11:59.240 so proud of myself for getting out of my comfort 0:11:59.320 --> 0:12:02.959 zone and for doing something that I'm going to tell 0:12:02.960 --> 0:12:06.000 you like scared me shitless. So that was like a 0:12:06.080 --> 0:12:09.839 huge high. Another high was we did a whole bunch 0:12:09.880 --> 0:12:13.840 of in person retreats, so We did the Rise Retreat, 0:12:14.240 --> 0:12:16.760 which was in collaboration with yogabl and we did the 0:12:16.880 --> 0:12:20.720 n H Retreat. The RISE Retreat was more like manifesting 0:12:20.840 --> 0:12:23.720 creating vision boards based, and then the n H Retreat 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:27.920 was really kind of like trauma based and kind of 0:12:27.960 --> 0:12:32.280 health fitness, and we got into trauma and they were 0:12:32.320 --> 0:12:38.960 the most amazing experiences. I crave in human connection and 0:12:39.000 --> 0:12:44.040 that deeper conversation and that deeper connection, and to have 0:12:44.160 --> 0:12:46.600 that with my community, like some of the women that 0:12:46.679 --> 0:12:52.880 I had moments with at these retreats, was extraordinary, totally 0:12:53.200 --> 0:12:55.800 such a high from the year. I definitely want to 0:12:55.840 --> 0:12:59.920 do more retreats in twenty twenty five. Actually, we do 0:13:00.200 --> 0:13:03.400 have a Naked Harvest retreat. I'm not sure it's if it's. 0:13:03.200 --> 0:13:03.920 Sold out or not. 0:13:04.320 --> 0:13:06.400 I will put a link if it's not and you 0:13:06.400 --> 0:13:08.719 guys can check that out. So the kind of true 0:13:08.800 --> 0:13:12.920 lessons from that though, is your time and energy is 0:13:12.960 --> 0:13:17.559 your greatest currency, and it matters so much what you 0:13:17.640 --> 0:13:20.400 pick to do with it that you have to be 0:13:20.760 --> 0:13:24.800 really careful and intentional with your time. And I am 0:13:24.920 --> 0:13:28.679 just so glad that I put time and energy into 0:13:29.000 --> 0:13:32.320 in person events because you know, they are a lot 0:13:32.320 --> 0:13:36.000 of energy being with people for over a weekend. The 0:13:36.040 --> 0:13:39.720 planning that goes into these events, and sometimes the return 0:13:40.000 --> 0:13:43.600 isn't as much as you know, maybe a campaign that 0:13:43.640 --> 0:13:46.400 you would do with a product, but the fulfillment that 0:13:46.440 --> 0:13:50.760 I felt was just so much. So I'm so glad 0:13:51.000 --> 0:13:54.160 that we did those and I'm so glad that I 0:13:54.240 --> 0:13:58.760 was intentional, intentional with my time and energy. So the 0:13:58.840 --> 0:14:03.160 next the next what we're going into is family and 0:14:03.240 --> 0:14:04.520 my relationship with Tim. 0:14:04.800 --> 0:14:05.800 Let's start on a high. 0:14:06.120 --> 0:14:11.760 And I am so fucking proud of the mom I 0:14:11.960 --> 0:14:15.000 was this year. I really feel like this was the 0:14:15.120 --> 0:14:19.080 year that I was just so solid in being a 0:14:19.120 --> 0:14:23.280 working mom and showing up for Ivy and not feeling 0:14:23.360 --> 0:14:28.160 any guilt, being so present with her, bit so strict 0:14:28.440 --> 0:14:31.640 on my boundaries to make time for her and to 0:14:31.760 --> 0:14:34.960 make sure that I had no guilt. And I haven't 0:14:34.960 --> 0:14:38.640 always got that right in previous years, but this year, 0:14:38.840 --> 0:14:44.200 like wow, it's just I was so clear on how 0:14:44.200 --> 0:14:45.880 I wanted to show up and who I wanted to 0:14:45.920 --> 0:14:48.240 be for her, and I really feel like I did 0:14:48.240 --> 0:14:51.040 that and I'm so so proud of myself. And that 0:14:51.240 --> 0:14:55.200 was because of the previous self development work that I 0:14:55.360 --> 0:14:59.640 have done in twenty three and twenty two around Ivy, 0:14:59.720 --> 0:15:03.880 because that feeling is not how I previously felt about 0:15:03.920 --> 0:15:04.480 being a mom. 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:05.760 I really struggled. 0:15:06.400 --> 0:15:08.880 Yeah, so proud of myself, but it was because I 0:15:08.960 --> 0:15:12.880 put in so much work on myself and it has 0:15:12.920 --> 0:15:15.640 bled out into our relationship. 0:15:16.520 --> 0:15:17.479 Me and Tim. 0:15:19.280 --> 0:15:22.360 I'm gonna be really honest with you guys, like when 0:15:22.360 --> 0:15:25.840 am I not? And I like, I really trust this 0:15:26.520 --> 0:15:30.160 communication style, Like I would never post this over you know, 0:15:30.280 --> 0:15:33.280 Instagram or whatnot, but like the podcast is sacred to me. 0:15:33.320 --> 0:15:35.880 And if you're going to spend twenty to forty minutes 0:15:35.920 --> 0:15:38.320 listening to my podcast, I feel like we have a 0:15:38.320 --> 0:15:42.640 certain understanding and you're an amazing, respectful human and so 0:15:43.120 --> 0:15:46.120 you will hear this and there will be no judgment 0:15:46.200 --> 0:15:49.640 or if there is, like you have complete understanding. Bit 0:15:50.280 --> 0:15:54.040 Twenty twenty four was a rough year for me and Tim. Obviously, 0:15:54.080 --> 0:15:58.200 we were trying to conceive while I'm a working mom, 0:15:58.440 --> 0:16:01.800 he's looking after a three year old, and. 0:16:01.160 --> 0:16:02.440 The economy went to shit. 0:16:03.960 --> 0:16:09.280 There was just a lot of stresses happening on our relationship, 0:16:09.480 --> 0:16:11.080 you know, stuff where I was like, I feel like 0:16:11.120 --> 0:16:12.920 we've been through this before, Like why are we're going 0:16:12.960 --> 0:16:18.560 through this, but I truly believe our relationship had to 0:16:19.320 --> 0:16:23.640 break down to fall back together. In twenty twenty four, 0:16:24.000 --> 0:16:27.960 we went through it, and like the biggest realization that 0:16:28.000 --> 0:16:30.840 I have from this me and Tim, we've been together 0:16:30.880 --> 0:16:32.880 since I was seventeen and he was twenty one, so 0:16:33.040 --> 0:16:38.840 over twelve years now, thirteen years now, and we previously 0:16:39.320 --> 0:16:42.680 kind of like if we're talking about interactions and like 0:16:42.760 --> 0:16:49.040 shadow work, we played certain loops out together. And you 0:16:49.080 --> 0:16:53.320 will do this with all your key relationships. So you'll 0:16:53.560 --> 0:16:57.200 act in a certain way with your mom, and then 0:16:57.280 --> 0:17:00.240 maybe act a tiny bit different with your dad, and 0:17:00.280 --> 0:17:02.440 then maybe act a tiny bit different with your partner 0:17:02.720 --> 0:17:04.119 and your best friend, and. 0:17:04.480 --> 0:17:06.480 These are all parts of yourself. 0:17:06.840 --> 0:17:10.840 But basically what has happened is as we grow up, 0:17:11.080 --> 0:17:16.480 we learn certain coping mechanisms and we learn certain let's 0:17:16.480 --> 0:17:21.040 call them strategies, where for example, my dad is someone 0:17:21.240 --> 0:17:28.240 where he's emotionally intelligent, but he really can't deal when 0:17:28.359 --> 0:17:32.760 people aren't happy, like I think he's you know, he's 0:17:32.800 --> 0:17:35.480 gone through a lot in his life, and so if 0:17:35.520 --> 0:17:39.160 someone is really sad and down, he gets really uncomfortable 0:17:39.160 --> 0:17:40.760 and he can't deal with it, like him going to 0:17:40.800 --> 0:17:43.640 a funeral, he freaks out, was my mum isn't She's 0:17:43.720 --> 0:17:46.879 very sensitive? So who I am with my dad is 0:17:46.960 --> 0:17:50.760 probably a little bit more emotionless and a little bit 0:17:50.800 --> 0:17:54.760 more like, smile on my face, I'm all good, love you, 0:17:54.880 --> 0:17:57.800 let's have a joke. I can talk about deep things, 0:17:57.840 --> 0:18:00.680 but they're about kicking goals at work. 0:18:00.600 --> 0:18:01.560 Good things happening. 0:18:02.240 --> 0:18:04.439 So I will be a certain person for him, and 0:18:04.480 --> 0:18:07.600 that's like that's a loop. That's like something that we 0:18:08.000 --> 0:18:11.399 play out, and that's like our relationship. And just like 0:18:11.480 --> 0:18:13.440 with my mom, I can go deeper and I can 0:18:13.520 --> 0:18:15.479 be like I'm really fucking sad, and I can like 0:18:15.760 --> 0:18:18.639 show that emotion. She can really hold me just like 0:18:18.680 --> 0:18:22.520 I have a different let's call it mass. So if 0:18:22.560 --> 0:18:25.560 you think about it me being seventeen, since knowing Tim, 0:18:25.800 --> 0:18:28.000 there's been a lot of mass that I've worn with 0:18:28.119 --> 0:18:31.600 him where I have leant into certain strategies and the 0:18:31.600 --> 0:18:34.200 way that I have dealt with life in our relationship 0:18:34.720 --> 0:18:37.359 to like make things work or to like get what 0:18:37.440 --> 0:18:41.199 I want and like we all will do it. So 0:18:41.359 --> 0:18:46.359 for me and Tim's relationship, I often would you know, 0:18:46.400 --> 0:18:49.000 he was my safe place. He was like my punching bag, 0:18:49.480 --> 0:18:51.439 and you know, if I was too stressed, it was 0:18:51.480 --> 0:18:53.680 too much, I would often take it out on him. 0:18:54.160 --> 0:18:56.680 There was also this weird dynamic I would play where 0:18:56.840 --> 0:18:59.800 if he was doing something I didn't like doing or 0:19:00.040 --> 0:19:02.200 anything like that, I wouldn't have a lot of space 0:19:02.240 --> 0:19:05.600 for him. Not like an ultimatum, but you know, like 0:19:06.240 --> 0:19:09.440 we'll stop doing that because I didn't like it. If 0:19:09.440 --> 0:19:12.640 you're gonna act like that, I'm out, Like not actually out, 0:19:12.640 --> 0:19:15.280 but you know, like that sort of vibe. And it's 0:19:15.320 --> 0:19:18.720 always been like kind of that dynamic in our relationship, 0:19:19.520 --> 0:19:21.399 and in the last couple of years we have like, 0:19:21.480 --> 0:19:23.480 you know, fixed it and worked on it. And I 0:19:23.520 --> 0:19:25.240 think it's because, like we met when I was younger 0:19:25.240 --> 0:19:27.440 and I was the young girl, he was the older boy. 0:19:27.480 --> 0:19:29.960 He always looked after me. I was always like the 0:19:30.000 --> 0:19:33.440 little princess. And so this year I felt like there 0:19:33.480 --> 0:19:36.800 was this new layer of Tim calling me out of 0:19:36.840 --> 0:19:41.040 my shit and not playing into my cycles and into 0:19:41.080 --> 0:19:45.160 my strategies and basically just being like, no, you need 0:19:45.200 --> 0:19:48.480 to fucking look at your shit, and me being like, 0:19:48.720 --> 0:19:52.359 oh my god, how dare you? And so I'm gonna 0:19:52.400 --> 0:19:55.159 take a lot of responsibility for this year and say like, 0:19:55.920 --> 0:19:59.040 we came up to a lot of tough moments because 0:19:59.240 --> 0:20:01.960 I hadn't pre viously dealt with my shit and he 0:20:02.520 --> 0:20:04.560 has also done a lot of self development work, and 0:20:04.600 --> 0:20:07.240 he's like, no, like, I'm not dealing with your shit anymore, 0:20:07.280 --> 0:20:10.399 Like change it. We need to do life differently. And 0:20:10.440 --> 0:20:13.960 I did listen, and obviously there was vice versa stuff 0:20:13.960 --> 0:20:16.640 with him that we worked through, but I felt like 0:20:16.760 --> 0:20:20.320 we have never worked through so much shit than we 0:20:20.400 --> 0:20:23.800 did in twenty twenty four in our relationship. He was 0:20:23.920 --> 0:20:28.479 actually wild on top of trying to conceive and like 0:20:28.760 --> 0:20:32.080 doing life. And I think for me, the biggest lesson, 0:20:32.280 --> 0:20:35.080 like I said, is for twenty twenty four in our 0:20:35.119 --> 0:20:39.879 relationship is some things have to die in order to 0:20:40.359 --> 0:20:45.120 be rebirth. And I honestly feel like our past relationship 0:20:45.680 --> 0:20:49.080 is dead, Like I feel like we have a brand 0:20:49.280 --> 0:20:52.240 new relationship. I want to say, like probably like midyear, 0:20:52.480 --> 0:20:54.560 the first half of the year was really turbulent, and 0:20:54.600 --> 0:20:58.880 then right before Europe, we basically sat down and had 0:20:58.880 --> 0:21:01.879 this whole thing where we were both like do you 0:21:01.960 --> 0:21:04.520 want this? And we both obviously was like, yes, we 0:21:04.640 --> 0:21:06.800 want this, and we promised to be one hundred percent 0:21:06.880 --> 0:21:09.679 in so yeah, that was a wild ride and like 0:21:09.760 --> 0:21:13.720 not something I foresaw because we've always been like very 0:21:13.760 --> 0:21:17.080 solid and you know, together forever and whatnot. But I'm 0:21:17.160 --> 0:21:19.639 so glad I went through that. And I would just 0:21:19.680 --> 0:21:21.679 want to say, like, if you're currently going through a 0:21:21.680 --> 0:21:25.439 turbulent time in your relationship, it doesn't have to be 0:21:26.040 --> 0:21:29.800 a bad thing. It can actually be an incredible thing 0:21:29.840 --> 0:21:33.680 because maybe your old relationship has to die for this new, 0:21:33.880 --> 0:21:37.920 beautiful relationship to come through. And even if you think 0:21:37.960 --> 0:21:40.639 about it, like me and Tim have probably had a 0:21:40.720 --> 0:21:44.280 thousand deaths in our relationship over the thirteen years together, 0:21:44.520 --> 0:21:46.920 this one was just like really really big and really prominent. 0:21:47.600 --> 0:21:51.520 So don't be scared if you're having relationship issues. That's 0:21:51.520 --> 0:21:53.960 what I would say, Like, I really feel like we 0:21:54.080 --> 0:21:57.920 could work anythink out and we did seek help and 0:21:57.960 --> 0:22:01.840 we got that, and so talk to professionals about it. 0:22:01.960 --> 0:22:05.560 Just like keep communicating. That's my advice is, like just 0:22:05.680 --> 0:22:10.040 keep communicating and don't judge, So like, let the person 0:22:10.160 --> 0:22:13.639 communicate and say their feelings, but don't judge them for 0:22:13.680 --> 0:22:17.280 their feelings. So yeah, in saying that, I feel like 0:22:17.720 --> 0:22:19.960 now at the end of the year, I have never 0:22:20.000 --> 0:22:24.240 felt so solid and so good about us. I feel 0:22:24.280 --> 0:22:27.480 like it all happened for this next baby to come through, 0:22:27.640 --> 0:22:29.200 and I really feel like this baby is going to 0:22:29.240 --> 0:22:33.480 come through soon because that needed to happen in our relationship, 0:22:34.280 --> 0:22:36.800 and then this baby comes through. I don't know, it's 0:22:36.880 --> 0:22:39.800 just like a feeling. Who knows, but yeah. 0:22:39.560 --> 0:22:40.119 That was wild. 0:22:45.720 --> 0:22:48.520 And then we went to Europe and that was incredible. 0:22:48.680 --> 0:22:51.760 Oh my god, I like we had never been to Europe. 0:22:51.880 --> 0:22:53.879 We did the whole we're not going to Europe, going 0:22:53.880 --> 0:22:56.120 to save our money and buy a house, which very 0:22:56.160 --> 0:22:59.240 grateful for younger Georgie for making that decision because we 0:22:59.359 --> 0:23:03.240 then got to do Europe super bougie and just like vibes. 0:23:03.880 --> 0:23:04.720 And I think my. 0:23:04.840 --> 0:23:09.080 Kind of takeaway from this was it's not selfish to 0:23:09.200 --> 0:23:15.040 prioritize yourself and still have fun in your relationship for yourself, 0:23:15.240 --> 0:23:16.240 even if you're a parent. 0:23:17.040 --> 0:23:17.280 I know. 0:23:17.400 --> 0:23:19.160 I think we triggered a lot of people by going 0:23:19.200 --> 0:23:20.320 to Europe without Ivy. 0:23:20.720 --> 0:23:21.720 It was only two weeks. 0:23:22.200 --> 0:23:25.720 I'm so glad we did it because it was incredible 0:23:25.800 --> 0:23:28.000