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Speaker 1: about putting you in the driver's seat of your own life.
Speaker 1: Are you ready? Hello, my loves, and welcome back to
Speaker 1: the RNC Potty. Today's episode does come with a trigger warning,
Speaker 1: as I am going to be opening up and sharing
Speaker 1: about our trying to conceive journey. I wanted to open
Speaker 1: this up to you guys and just be like really
Speaker 1: raw and real about everything that me and Tim have
Speaker 1: kind of gone through this year. I didn't think I
Speaker 1: was going to talk about this until we were pregnant,
Speaker 1: but we still aren't pregnant, so I was like, you
Speaker 1: know what, I base my Instagram and podcasts off being
Speaker 1: raw and real to you guys. So I just felt
Speaker 1: like I've been going through this personally so much behind
Speaker 1: the scenes. I wanted to bring it up just more
Speaker 1: because I know so many other people are going through this.
Speaker 1: We went through this with Ivy Girl, and it was
Speaker 1: so hard and difficult, and I was so determined for
Speaker 1: this experience to be different, and it has. But I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna lie. It's definitely taken a toll on my
Speaker 1: mental health. It's the end of the year and we're
Speaker 1: still not pregnant, and I was like, you know what,
Speaker 1: I'm just going to open up about it because it
Speaker 1: is really exhausting when you have something like this going
Speaker 1: on in the background of your personal life. Yeah, so
Speaker 1: I'm going to get into it. Also, something that I
Speaker 1: did want to let you guys know that if you
Speaker 1: are also experiencing, you know, pregnancy or fertility issues. We
Speaker 1: actually have some beautiful visualizations and meditations on the Rise
Speaker 1: app that I have been doing through the whole year,
Speaker 1: and I asked Jamie, I'm like, let's put these on
Speaker 1: the apps because these have helped me so much. I
Speaker 1: just think for such a situation where you cannot control,
Speaker 1: you cannot push, you know what's happening, to have a
Speaker 1: tool where you can feel like you're doing something has
Speaker 1: just been so so helpful for me. So we have
Speaker 1: some beautiful fertility meditations, and we will leave a link
Speaker 1: in the show notes where you can get a free
Speaker 1: month in rise apps, so you can try them out
Speaker 1: if that's something you're interested in. So I will leave
Speaker 1: a link in the show notes. But let's get into
Speaker 1: this episode. So I wanted to do a super vulnerable
Speaker 1: and raw open episode or about the current journey that
Speaker 1: Tim and I are on with trying to conceive our
Speaker 1: second baby. And it's been a journey. Again, it's such
Speaker 1: a lonely journey and it's such a hard journey that
Speaker 1: no one really talks about. And I just I felt
Speaker 1: like I was ready. I wasn't ready before now because
Speaker 1: it was just, yeah, it's just it's such an interesting time.
Speaker 1: And basically me and Tim decided late last year that
Speaker 1: we were ready for second baby. Yeah, I'm talking probably
Speaker 1: Christmas last year, and so we kind of just that
Speaker 1: whole trying but not trying, so we were basically just
Speaker 1: having unprotected sex which you know, for some people they
Speaker 1: do that the first month and they conceive and like
Speaker 1: nothing happened. And then it got to February and that's
Speaker 1: when we actually like fully sat down and I was
Speaker 1: like I'm ready. I'm you know, really keen for second baby,
Speaker 1: and Tim was like, I am two. But also we
Speaker 1: had decided we were going to Europe that year, so
Speaker 1: we were like, cool, if it happens now, like it'll
Speaker 1: be like a baby moon, so it's fine. But if
Speaker 1: it doesn't, like, it's all good. We've got Europe. And
Speaker 1: we didn't tell anyone. If they would ask, we're like, oh,
Speaker 1: we're going to Europe first, blah blah blah, which you know,
Speaker 1: that's our progative. And then like February, March, April, May, June,
Speaker 1: so those were like pretty you know, hardcore timing my
Speaker 1: ovulation having sex to certain times.
Speaker 2: And then we went to Europe and we kind of
Speaker 2: just like, you know, weren't trying that much before and
Speaker 2: after and during Europe because we were just enjoying it
Speaker 2: and we had the most amazing trip.
Speaker 1: And then we got back from Europe and obviously we
Speaker 1: were still trying where we were talking in Europe and
Speaker 1: we were like, look, if it doesn't happen like by
Speaker 1: the time we're back, like, it's probably time to go
Speaker 1: see our fertility doctor. Because with Ivy we had a
Speaker 1: very long trying to conceive journey. It was over twelve months.
Speaker 1: I also had a miscarriage because of my hashimotos, which
Speaker 1: is like a thyroid disease. We ended up having to
Speaker 1: do IUI, which basically just means like think Turkey based,
Speaker 1: and it's basically where they time your ovulation. You do
Speaker 1: do injections, they time your ovulation, they do blood tests
Speaker 1: and scans, and then at the perfect timing from your
Speaker 1: blood tests, they get tim sample his sperm and they
Speaker 1: put it on like a prod thing at the highest
Speaker 1: point in your like womb, your cervix, and they drop
Speaker 1: it there and then they let it out and you
Speaker 1: kind of just like let it do its thing. And
Speaker 1: we got pregnant the first time with that, and then
Speaker 1: we had Ivy Girl, so we you know, we've been
Speaker 1: through the trying to conceive, and my journey with trying
Speaker 1: to conceive previously, it was really it was so hard
Speaker 1: and it was such a mind fuck. It was really
Speaker 1: hard because again I had this notion that if you
Speaker 1: have sex once unprotected, you have a baby, which I
Speaker 1: know does happen to people. So when it's not happening
Speaker 1: to you and your partner and you want this thing
Speaker 1: so bad, it's just really mentally hard, especially because it's
Speaker 1: like you then get into the hole, oh I'm ovulating
Speaker 1: to say, you know, we've got to have sex the
Speaker 1: week before the week after. It makes it a little
Speaker 1: bit unromantic a lot. And then also the week before
Speaker 1: you're getting your period, you're like, oh, you know, my
Speaker 1: boobs are swelling. Is does this mean I'm pregnant? But
Speaker 1: all the symptoms that you're pregnant are literally the same
Speaker 1: as if you're getting your period, so it's really confusing.
Speaker 1: And then also you know, when you are trying to conceive,
Speaker 1: you're obviously limiting you know how much you're drinking, and
Speaker 1: you know all those sorts of things. So it was
Speaker 1: just such a mind fuck, And I honestly I was
Speaker 1: a bit of a head case last journey. I would
Speaker 1: test five days before, four days before, three days before.
Speaker 1: I was so anxious and obsess and like narrow minded.
Speaker 1: I just I really really struggled, you know, having the
Speaker 1: miscarriage and then like finding out I had Hashi motos
Speaker 1: and then going through the whole Iui journey, which it
Speaker 1: was fine, but it was just it was a lot,
Speaker 1: and it was not what you think will happen, what
Speaker 1: you picture to happen when you're trying to conceive with
Speaker 1: your you know, your lover is like, you have beautiful
Speaker 1: sex and then one day you're like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: my boob's are feeling bigger, and then you take this
Speaker 1: Bacon pregnancy tests and you're pregnant. That's like perfect life vibes.
Speaker 1: And so because we went through that with Ivy again,
Speaker 1: I kind of fell into the this time, we'll just
Speaker 1: get pregnant right away. And also we did have some
Speaker 1: friends who were trying to conceive at the same time
Speaker 1: when we had Ivy, and they had a lot of
Speaker 1: issues like us, Like they both had to do two
Speaker 1: girlfriends had to do IVF and they both you know,
Speaker 1: started trying for the second baby and both felt pregnant
Speaker 1: first or second month and have already had their babies. Also,
Speaker 1: you know, to see other people, yeah, struggle the first time,
Speaker 1: but then the second you know, it happens. So like
Speaker 1: in my mind, I was like, oh, you know, maybe
Speaker 1: it will just happen, and it hasn't, and so there
Speaker 1: has been a lot of feelings to deal with with that.
Speaker 1: It's also the planning side of it, because you know,
Speaker 1: I obviously have my own business. We're planning things. For example,
Speaker 1: we are probably doing an America trip next year, hopefully
Speaker 1: in March, because we are looking to expand naked Harvest.
Speaker 1: But it's interesting because I'm like, if I get pregnant now,
Speaker 1: because we're trying to book flights, I'm like, I don't
Speaker 1: know will I be able to fly? But then it's like,
Speaker 1: what do I not book them? But then what about
Speaker 1: if I'm still not pregnant in March next year? Do
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like, it's a really hard
Speaker 1: you almost want to put your life on hold because
Speaker 1: you have this plan, but it's like it might not
Speaker 1: even happen. It's like coming on nearly twelve months and
Speaker 1: I'm like, well, thank god I didn't plan anything, because
Speaker 1: it's it still hasn't happened. So it's this really interesting time.
Speaker 1: I wanted to be very honest with you guys. It
Speaker 1: is a journey. So long story short, we went to
Speaker 1: the fertility doctor after Europe and I basically found out
Speaker 1: I have PCOS, which just makes it harder. I don't
Speaker 1: like I don't have a lot of the symptoms. The
Speaker 1: symptoms are hair growth, weight gain, acne. It's like some
Speaker 1: am like, oh, yeah, like maybe, but then I'm like
Speaker 1: have I always struggled with that. So I even remember
Speaker 1: going to a natural path when I was younger and
Speaker 1: she said I probably have PCOS. But my fertility doctor,
Speaker 1: he actually did an internal exam and I did have
Speaker 1: CYS on my ovaries, which is also like a requirement
Speaker 1: like cyst on your ovres for PCOS, which means polycyster
Speaker 1: avarian syndrome. And basically it's just harder for people with
Speaker 1: PCOS to get pregnant because their ovulation isn't usually the
Speaker 1: time when everyone else's ovulation is. It just can be
Speaker 1: very frustrating because obviously, you know, when we have a
Speaker 1: toddler and you're trying, you're trying to have sex, it's
Speaker 1: like you do need to somewhat time it because and
Speaker 1: she literally sleeps in our bed right now, so it's
Speaker 1: not just happening all day every day, so it is
Speaker 1: a very interesting time. So I got diagnosed with PCOS,
Speaker 1: so I'm on my journey of like healing that Tim
Speaker 1: got his sperm tested and we're going through that. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's a journey, and this is where we're at. I
Speaker 1: kind of don't want to go any more deeper on
Speaker 1: it than those things, just because otherwise I just again
Speaker 1: it's like, I'm so happy to be open to you guys,
Speaker 1: but I also just do need some things for ourself
Speaker 1: and our own life. But that is the current situation
Speaker 1: without trying to conceive journey. I did just want to
Speaker 1: open up because again, I think it's such a lonely journey.
Speaker 1: Most people, even if they are and are trying to
Speaker 1: conceive journey, they don't tell people. They kind of just
Speaker 1: sit in this like silo of well, I'll wait till
Speaker 1: I get the good news and then I'll start talking
Speaker 1: to people about it. And that's pretty much how I was.
Speaker 1: I think that's fine, if you want to do that,
Speaker 1: it's absolutely fine, but also it's fucking lonely. They're asking
Speaker 1: why don't I want to book the US flights? So
Speaker 1: I'm like, so I just spoke to him about it,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, look, I want to be open about it.
Speaker 1: I want to tell people, and he was on board.
Speaker 1: And he was like, yeah, look, I don't mind. I'm
Speaker 1: how to be open about it. And also, I have
Speaker 1: been struggling with my hormones, like as symptom of PCOS
Speaker 1: is gaining weight, and I feel like I have been
Speaker 1: struggling with my hormones. I've been struggling with my skin.
Speaker 1: I've been struggling with a lot of these internal things
Speaker 1: that again I just didn't really want to talk about
Speaker 1: because I was still in them. And I do have
Speaker 1: a bit of a rule on this podcast that I
Speaker 1: don't really like to talk about things until I'm on
Speaker 1: the other side because I don't just want to like
Speaker 1: traum a dump on you guys. I love to have
Speaker 1: like here's the lesson, here's the learning. That's what this
Speaker 1: podcast is for. But also I do struggle to be vulnerable.
Speaker 1: I feel like this is something I need to open
Speaker 1: up about. And also I know so many other women
Speaker 1: are currently on this trying to conceive journey and it's
Speaker 1: so hard, and I do just want to say I
Speaker 1: actually have been video recording myself every single month, you know,
Speaker 1: getting a negative pregnancy test or just how I felt
Speaker 1: when I got my period or whatnot, because my mindset
Speaker 1: previously was like I said, I was very fixated, very obsessed.
Speaker 1: I would cry a lot. I would be really victim
Speaker 1: mentality about not getting pregnant. And I have been really
Speaker 1: focused on doing things differently this time and having a
Speaker 1: different experience, so I did want to speak about that.
Speaker 1: So I have been video recording myself and I think
Speaker 1: I will, you know, once our journey is complete, I
Speaker 1: will post that as a whole episode, so you can
Speaker 1: really see the thoughts, you can see the evolution, you
Speaker 1: can see like my mindset, because like some months, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm so ready to be a mom. I'm so grateful
Speaker 1: to have Ivy. I feel so relaxed, I feel so
Speaker 1: ready for this baby to come in. It's all going
Speaker 1: to become per timing. I've been doing my meditations and
Speaker 1: journaling and it's perfect. And then other months I'm like,
Speaker 1: this is really fucking frustrating and I'm like just like
Speaker 1: a bit over it. So I do feel like my mindset,
Speaker 1: you know, like I'm still having the up and downs,
Speaker 1: but I do feel so much better this time, and
Speaker 1: I think it obviously does help that I already have
Speaker 1: a baby. I have Ivy. You know, I'm very busy
Speaker 1: with my work and having a toddler and all the things.
Speaker 1: But again I do know from Ivy that it will
Speaker 1: happen in the perfect time. And also a theme of
Speaker 1: my trying now trying to conceive journey is health. And
Speaker 1: so again previously I got my boobs out and I
Speaker 1: dealt with that, and then now the p SOS is
Speaker 1: coming up. So I do feel like it's a great
Speaker 1: kind of reality check for me to dive back into
Speaker 1: parts of my health that I had maybe neglected. So
Speaker 1: I am working on that sort of thing. A big
Speaker 1: thing of p SOS is balancing your blood sugar levels,
Speaker 1: so that's actually something that I have been really in.
Speaker 1: I followed the Gluecose goddess, which she's really good for that.
Speaker 1: So again it's put me on this beautiful health journey.
Speaker 1: It makes me so grateful for Ivy. I also have
Speaker 1: been doing these incredible visualizations and meditations. We actually recorded
Speaker 1: some for the Rise app so they will be out
Speaker 1: when this episode goes live. These are the meditations that
Speaker 1: I have been doing that have there's a fertility one,
Speaker 1: and there's a pregnancy one, and there's a birth one.
Speaker 1: I have been doing the fertility and the pregnancy one.
Speaker 1: The pregnancy one is so beautiful. I basically just take
Speaker 1: you through the journey of a pregnancy. And if you
Speaker 1: are a visual person, I just find it so amazing
Speaker 1: to connect. Ah, guys, I have been connecting with this
Speaker 1: beautiful spirit baby. They are just beautiful, like their energy.
Speaker 1: They are so soft and they're really sensitive, and I
Speaker 1: kind of get this like download that they're not going
Speaker 1: to come in until I'm in a more feminine, flowy,
Speaker 1: receptive state, because I can kind of tell they don't
Speaker 1: like chaos, Like they're very sweet and innocent and soft.
Speaker 1: And it's funny because when I felt Ivy's energy, because
Speaker 1: I would connect with her, her energy is exactly what
Speaker 1: she is is a baby, like a whirlwind, like chaos.
Speaker 1: And it's so funny because when I was pregnant with Ivy, Guys,
Speaker 1: I felt so powerful. I was on another level, Like
Speaker 1: I don't think I've ever earned so much money and
Speaker 1: done so many things in such a short amount of time.
Speaker 1: Like she gave me beautiful, wild energy. It was like
Speaker 1: feminine goddess energy. And then when she came out, that
Speaker 1: is her, that's her as a person, like she is
Speaker 1: a wild woman and She's amazing, and it's so crazy
Speaker 1: because I'm noticing such a pull to slow down, to reconnect,
Speaker 1: to step into this beautiful softness, to be more sensitive,
Speaker 1: to be more nurturing, to be more caring, and so
Speaker 1: I really feel like that's what this soul is, and
Speaker 1: so it has been pulling me too slow down. I
Speaker 1: think that's also really beautiful because it's pulling me into
Speaker 1: a new season. I do feel like there are still
Speaker 1: some changes that need to happen before this beautiful baby
Speaker 1: comes in. But again, like I said, because we do
Speaker 1: have IVY, because of like the work that I've done,
Speaker 1: the internal work, I'm not feeling like, of course I
Speaker 1: want to be pregnant and I want our second baby
Speaker 1: and all those sorts of things, but I don't feel rushed.
Speaker 1: I am perfect timing, divine timing, you know, talking to
Speaker 1: baby as much as I can, doing my meditations, doing
Speaker 1: my visualizations, but still being present in my life and
Speaker 1: not future tripping. And I think that's kind of the difference.
Speaker 1: The previous trying to conceive journey, I was like future
Speaker 1: tripping so anxious, couldn't surrender, and this one, I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm doing the things I'm seeing the fertility doctor. I'm
Speaker 1: doing the steps. I am now following you know, the
Speaker 1: p SOS protocol. But it's not from this place of
Speaker 1: like I need to get pregnant, I need a baby now.
Speaker 1: It's from this beautiful this is our next journey, this
Speaker 1: is our next evolution, and really embracing it and being
Speaker 1: in it again. I think sometimes we can miss the
Speaker 1: sweetness of the journey. And something I say with hindsight
Speaker 1: is when I was trying to conceive Ivy, it's like
Speaker 1: I missed a whole year of my own life because
Speaker 1: my head was so filled up with I need to
Speaker 1: have a baby that it's like I wasn't really present.
Speaker 1: I was constantly kind of a low vibration. I was
Speaker 1: really sad. Yeah, I just kind of missed a whole
Speaker 1: thing of my life. And I look back now and
Speaker 1: I'm like, she's coming, Like she was coming anyway, She's
Speaker 1: a oil wind. I wish I had enjoyed that year
Speaker 1: because obviously you guys, well if you're a mum, you
Speaker 1: know so much changes once you have a baby. That's
Speaker 1: what I would say to previous storgy. So if you're
Speaker 1: currently in a trying to conceive journey, I just want
Speaker 1: to say, I'm sending you so much love. It's hard,
Speaker 1: it is raw, and it is vulnerable. But my I
Speaker 1: guess like recommendation would be too surrender to look into
Speaker 1: what could be the lesson here? What could I be learning?
Speaker 1: What am I getting pushed to? Like I said with IVY,
Speaker 1: it was like getting my boobs out and healing my
Speaker 1: thyroid disease, which I currently have. You know, I'm off
Speaker 1: medication now. And then with this journey, it's like looking
Speaker 1: into my pcos and the slowing down and the stepping
Speaker 1: more into my feminine energy, and so I'm embracing that
Speaker 1: and I'm like, Okay, cool, this is where I need
Speaker 1: to go. This is what I need to look into.
Speaker 1: Also realizing you might see your friend and they get
Speaker 1: pregnant straight away, but you have no idea what else
Speaker 1: that friend is struggling with. Don't get caught up in
Speaker 1: all the other people just get to be pregnant straight
Speaker 1: away or it gets to happen for other people. Don't
Speaker 1: get caught in that because that just puts you in
Speaker 1: victim mentality. That is a lawer vibration, and you don't
Speaker 1: need to be in that because again you never know
Speaker 1: what's happening in someone else's life. Yeah, they might get
Speaker 1: pregnant right away, but maybe their relationship isn't good, Like
Speaker 1: maybe financially they're not good. Like there's so many things,
Speaker 1: and so I don't compare my trying to conceive journey
Speaker 1: with anyone else. I bring it back to what could
Speaker 1: I be learning in this moment? How can I surrender more?
Speaker 1: How can I slow down? How can I actually enjoy this?
Speaker 1: Like I keep thinking about how can I enjoy ivy more?
Speaker 1: How can I enjoy it? Like being a family of three.
Speaker 1: We're reevaluating the house situation because of like I'm not
Speaker 1: wanting to sleep downstairs. Lots of things. We're like, okay,
Speaker 1: like where is this taking us? Like what is this journey?
Speaker 1: And we're looking at it that way. We're not sitting
Speaker 1: in the oh my god, of course we're having like
Speaker 1: you know, fertility problems. Of course, is this happening again?
Speaker 1: Like we're not doing that. We're not sitting in that energy.
Speaker 1: It's this beautiful. We know what we want. We're clear
Speaker 1: on the vision. I am making a room for you, baby,
Speaker 1: you know I'm talking to baby, I'm visualizing. I'm meditation.
Speaker 1: I've been doing tapping too, Like I've been doing tapping
Speaker 1: talking about I'm ready for a second baby. I am
Speaker 1: a mum of two. I can definitely take you through
Speaker 1: something like that if you guys want. And also the
Speaker 1: meditations that I have been doing, they should now be
Speaker 1: on the Rise app. And I said to Jamie, I
Speaker 1: was like, I want these on there because they just
Speaker 1: have been incredible for me and I know they will
Speaker 1: be so helpful if you are currently on a trying
Speaker 1: to conceive journey. And we do have a promo right
Speaker 1: now where you can get a free week of the
Speaker 1: Rise app, So we'll put a link in the show notes.
Speaker 1: You can check that out. But my laugh's that busy
Speaker 1: update on our second trying to conceive journey. How we're going.
Speaker 1: There's definitely, you know, stuff happening behind doors. But again,
Speaker 1: I just I feel like that's all I kind of
Speaker 1: want to share. That's where we're at. I did just
Speaker 1: want to open up about it. Not a lot of
Speaker 1: people talk about it, and I know a lot of
Speaker 1: you guys would be going through it, and I just
Speaker 1: wanted to say you're not alone. It is hard. But
Speaker 1: also these mindset shifts have really really helped me during
Speaker 1: this time, and I'm just so excited to be a
Speaker 1: month or two soon. And look, it feels I don't know,
Speaker 1: it feels weird to be vulnerable and tell you guys
Speaker 1: before it's happened, if that makes sense. But I think
Speaker 1: that's why I want to do it, because I'm like,
Speaker 1: no Georgia like be vulnerable, tell them before it's happened.
Speaker 1: I feel like I share so many of my wins
Speaker 1: with you guys. I just wanted to share the not
Speaker 1: so great stuff, like you know, the hard stuff, the
Speaker 1: raw stuff, the vulnerable stuff I might do like your
Speaker 1: Q and A about it or my stories, but thank
Speaker 1: you so much for listening. Send you guys so much love.
Speaker 1: Of course, like I always say, if you do have
Speaker 1: someone you think that this party will help you know,
Speaker 1: maybe there and they're trying to conceive journey, please send
Speaker 1: it to them. Please share the potty. We are an
Speaker 1: independent party, so I would really appreciate it. I love
Speaker 1: you guys so much, and I'll see you in the
Speaker 1: next episode. By