WEBVTT - Opening Up About My Trying to Conceive Journey 👶🏼 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:02.680 I would like to acknowledge the traditional owners of the 0:00:02.759 --> 0:00:06.319 land on which this episode is being recorded, the Combomb 0:00:06.360 --> 0:00:11.160 Merry people. They've been having conversations and telling stories on 0:00:11.160 --> 0:00:14.360 this land for thousands of years, and we show our 0:00:14.400 --> 0:00:19.280 gratitude and respect for their contribution to our environment and culture. 0:00:25.600 --> 0:00:31.520 This is Rise and Conquer, the podcast where we strive 0:00:31.720 --> 0:00:37.520 to become the highest version of ourselves through curious conversations, 0:00:37.840 --> 0:00:43.159 healthy mindsets, laughter, connection, and a deep desire to evolve. 0:00:44.240 --> 0:00:50.839 I'm your host, Georgie Stevenson. Join me as we explore parenthood, business, manifestation, 0:00:51.159 --> 0:00:54.840 and so much more. It's positive, it's practical, and it's 0:00:54.880 --> 0:00:58.480 about putting you in the driver's seat of your own life. 0:00:58.760 --> 0:01:04.600 Are you ready? Hello, my loves, and welcome back to 0:01:04.640 --> 0:01:10.640 the RNC Potty. Today's episode does come with a trigger warning, 0:01:11.000 --> 0:01:14.040 as I am going to be opening up and sharing 0:01:14.080 --> 0:01:20.400 about our trying to conceive journey. I wanted to open 0:01:20.400 --> 0:01:22.360 this up to you guys and just be like really 0:01:22.720 --> 0:01:26.319 raw and real about everything that me and Tim have 0:01:26.440 --> 0:01:30.400 kind of gone through this year. I didn't think I 0:01:30.440 --> 0:01:34.160 was going to talk about this until we were pregnant, 0:01:34.360 --> 0:01:39.240 but we still aren't pregnant, so I was like, you 0:01:39.319 --> 0:01:44.520 know what, I base my Instagram and podcasts off being 0:01:44.840 --> 0:01:47.960 raw and real to you guys. So I just felt 0:01:47.960 --> 0:01:51.400 like I've been going through this personally so much behind 0:01:51.440 --> 0:01:55.080 the scenes. I wanted to bring it up just more 0:01:55.120 --> 0:01:59.520 because I know so many other people are going through this. 0:02:00.120 --> 0:02:03.440 We went through this with Ivy Girl, and it was 0:02:03.520 --> 0:02:07.440 so hard and difficult, and I was so determined for 0:02:07.520 --> 0:02:11.680 this experience to be different, and it has. But I'm 0:02:11.720 --> 0:02:15.040 not gonna lie. It's definitely taken a toll on my 0:02:15.120 --> 0:02:17.440 mental health. It's the end of the year and we're 0:02:17.480 --> 0:02:19.880 still not pregnant, and I was like, you know what, 0:02:19.960 --> 0:02:22.560 I'm just going to open up about it because it 0:02:22.680 --> 0:02:26.760 is really exhausting when you have something like this going 0:02:26.919 --> 0:02:30.400 on in the background of your personal life. Yeah, so 0:02:30.840 --> 0:02:33.520 I'm going to get into it. Also, something that I 0:02:33.600 --> 0:02:36.320 did want to let you guys know that if you 0:02:36.560 --> 0:02:41.840 are also experiencing, you know, pregnancy or fertility issues. We 0:02:41.960 --> 0:02:48.000 actually have some beautiful visualizations and meditations on the Rise 0:02:48.120 --> 0:02:51.600 app that I have been doing through the whole year, 0:02:51.880 --> 0:02:54.560 and I asked Jamie, I'm like, let's put these on 0:02:54.600 --> 0:02:58.240 the apps because these have helped me so much. I 0:02:58.320 --> 0:03:03.440 just think for such a situation where you cannot control, 0:03:03.520 --> 0:03:07.840 you cannot push, you know what's happening, to have a 0:03:07.919 --> 0:03:12.560 tool where you can feel like you're doing something has 0:03:12.639 --> 0:03:15.680 just been so so helpful for me. So we have 0:03:15.760 --> 0:03:19.839 some beautiful fertility meditations, and we will leave a link 0:03:19.880 --> 0:03:22.360 in the show notes where you can get a free 0:03:22.480 --> 0:03:25.240 month in rise apps, so you can try them out 0:03:25.320 --> 0:03:30.240 if that's something you're interested in. So I will leave 0:03:30.360 --> 0:03:32.919 a link in the show notes. But let's get into 0:03:32.919 --> 0:03:46.480 this episode. So I wanted to do a super vulnerable 0:03:46.680 --> 0:03:52.960 and raw open episode or about the current journey that 0:03:53.240 --> 0:03:58.360 Tim and I are on with trying to conceive our 0:03:58.400 --> 0:04:11.680 second baby. And it's been a journey. Again, it's such 0:04:11.720 --> 0:04:17.120 a lonely journey and it's such a hard journey that 0:04:17.200 --> 0:04:20.960 no one really talks about. And I just I felt 0:04:21.040 --> 0:04:24.520 like I was ready. I wasn't ready before now because 0:04:25.480 --> 0:04:33.080 it was just, yeah, it's just it's such an interesting time. 0:04:33.800 --> 0:04:40.360 And basically me and Tim decided late last year that 0:04:40.400 --> 0:04:43.520 we were ready for second baby. Yeah, I'm talking probably 0:04:43.560 --> 0:04:47.800 Christmas last year, and so we kind of just that 0:04:47.960 --> 0:04:51.640 whole trying but not trying, so we were basically just 0:04:51.720 --> 0:04:56.200 having unprotected sex which you know, for some people they 0:04:56.320 --> 0:04:58.960 do that the first month and they conceive and like 0:04:59.040 --> 0:05:02.120 nothing happened. And then it got to February and that's 0:05:02.120 --> 0:05:04.159 when we actually like fully sat down and I was 0:05:04.240 --> 0:05:07.960 like I'm ready. I'm you know, really keen for second baby, 0:05:07.960 --> 0:05:10.720 and Tim was like, I am two. But also we 0:05:10.800 --> 0:05:13.560 had decided we were going to Europe that year, so 0:05:13.600 --> 0:05:16.320 we were like, cool, if it happens now, like it'll 0:05:16.360 --> 0:05:18.840 be like a baby moon, so it's fine. But if 0:05:18.880 --> 0:05:21.880 it doesn't, like, it's all good. We've got Europe. And 0:05:21.960 --> 0:05:24.600 we didn't tell anyone. If they would ask, we're like, oh, 0:05:24.640 --> 0:05:27.359 we're going to Europe first, blah blah blah, which you know, 0:05:27.520 --> 0:05:32.040 that's our progative. And then like February, March, April, May, June, 0:05:32.480 --> 0:05:35.160 so those were like pretty you know, hardcore timing my 0:05:35.279 --> 0:05:38.359 ovulation having sex to certain times. 0:05:39.040 --> 0:05:43.359 And then we went to Europe and we kind of 0:05:43.440 --> 0:05:47.599 just like, you know, weren't trying that much before and 0:05:47.760 --> 0:05:50.359 after and during Europe because we were just enjoying it 0:05:50.400 --> 0:05:52.799 and we had the most amazing trip. 0:05:53.320 --> 0:05:57.279 And then we got back from Europe and obviously we 0:05:57.279 --> 0:06:01.080 were still trying where we were talking in Europe and 0:06:01.120 --> 0:06:03.840 we were like, look, if it doesn't happen like by 0:06:03.880 --> 0:06:06.440 the time we're back, like, it's probably time to go 0:06:06.520 --> 0:06:11.080 see our fertility doctor. Because with Ivy we had a 0:06:11.160 --> 0:06:14.400 very long trying to conceive journey. It was over twelve months. 0:06:14.480 --> 0:06:18.440 I also had a miscarriage because of my hashimotos, which 0:06:18.480 --> 0:06:21.440 is like a thyroid disease. We ended up having to 0:06:21.520 --> 0:06:25.400 do IUI, which basically just means like think Turkey based, 0:06:25.640 --> 0:06:29.360 and it's basically where they time your ovulation. You do 0:06:29.360 --> 0:06:32.919 do injections, they time your ovulation, they do blood tests 0:06:32.960 --> 0:06:36.600 and scans, and then at the perfect timing from your 0:06:36.640 --> 0:06:40.760 blood tests, they get tim sample his sperm and they 0:06:41.480 --> 0:06:44.240 put it on like a prod thing at the highest 0:06:44.360 --> 0:06:47.520 point in your like womb, your cervix, and they drop 0:06:47.560 --> 0:06:49.560 it there and then they let it out and you 0:06:49.640 --> 0:06:52.400 kind of just like let it do its thing. And 0:06:52.440 --> 0:06:55.080 we got pregnant the first time with that, and then 0:06:55.120 --> 0:06:57.840 we had Ivy Girl, so we you know, we've been 0:06:58.080 --> 0:07:02.240 through the trying to conceive, and my journey with trying 0:07:02.279 --> 0:07:07.240 to conceive previously, it was really it was so hard 0:07:07.320 --> 0:07:09.640 and it was such a mind fuck. It was really 0:07:09.680 --> 0:07:12.360 hard because again I had this notion that if you 0:07:12.400 --> 0:07:15.600 have sex once unprotected, you have a baby, which I 0:07:15.680 --> 0:07:19.960 know does happen to people. So when it's not happening 0:07:19.960 --> 0:07:21.720 to you and your partner and you want this thing 0:07:21.800 --> 0:07:25.960 so bad, it's just really mentally hard, especially because it's 0:07:26.040 --> 0:07:29.400 like you then get into the hole, oh I'm ovulating 0:07:29.440 --> 0:07:31.480 to say, you know, we've got to have sex the 0:07:31.520 --> 0:07:34.440 week before the week after. It makes it a little 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:38.360 bit unromantic a lot. And then also the week before 0:07:38.360 --> 0:07:41.560 you're getting your period, you're like, oh, you know, my 0:07:41.640 --> 0:07:44.280 boobs are swelling. Is does this mean I'm pregnant? But 0:07:44.560 --> 0:07:48.040 all the symptoms that you're pregnant are literally the same 0:07:48.240 --> 0:07:51.680 as if you're getting your period, so it's really confusing. 0:07:51.800 --> 0:07:54.440 And then also you know, when you are trying to conceive, 0:07:54.520 --> 0:07:58.040 you're obviously limiting you know how much you're drinking, and 0:07:58.160 --> 0:08:00.680 you know all those sorts of things. So it was 0:08:00.760 --> 0:08:03.320 just such a mind fuck, And I honestly I was 0:08:03.320 --> 0:08:06.840 a bit of a head case last journey. I would 0:08:06.880 --> 0:08:10.680 test five days before, four days before, three days before. 0:08:11.080 --> 0:08:16.640 I was so anxious and obsess and like narrow minded. 0:08:16.800 --> 0:08:19.840 I just I really really struggled, you know, having the 0:08:19.880 --> 0:08:22.920 miscarriage and then like finding out I had Hashi motos 0:08:23.040 --> 0:08:25.320 and then going through the whole Iui journey, which it 0:08:25.440 --> 0:08:28.080 was fine, but it was just it was a lot, 0:08:28.200 --> 0:08:31.600 and it was not what you think will happen, what 0:08:31.640 --> 0:08:34.160 you picture to happen when you're trying to conceive with 0:08:34.320 --> 0:08:37.880 your you know, your lover is like, you have beautiful 0:08:37.920 --> 0:08:40.839 sex and then one day you're like, oh my god, 0:08:40.840 --> 0:08:42.880 my boob's are feeling bigger, and then you take this 0:08:43.000 --> 0:08:49.400 Bacon pregnancy tests and you're pregnant. That's like perfect life vibes. 0:08:49.920 --> 0:08:53.120 And so because we went through that with Ivy again, 0:08:53.160 --> 0:08:56.439 I kind of fell into the this time, we'll just 0:08:56.480 --> 0:08:59.680 get pregnant right away. And also we did have some 0:08:59.760 --> 0:09:04.839 friends who were trying to conceive at the same time 0:09:04.920 --> 0:09:08.320 when we had Ivy, and they had a lot of 0:09:08.360 --> 0:09:10.760 issues like us, Like they both had to do two 0:09:10.840 --> 0:09:14.600 girlfriends had to do IVF and they both you know, 0:09:14.679 --> 0:09:17.680 started trying for the second baby and both felt pregnant 0:09:17.800 --> 0:09:21.960 first or second month and have already had their babies. Also, 0:09:22.080 --> 0:09:25.160 you know, to see other people, yeah, struggle the first time, 0:09:25.200 --> 0:09:27.960 but then the second you know, it happens. So like 0:09:28.000 --> 0:09:29.840 in my mind, I was like, oh, you know, maybe 0:09:29.880 --> 0:09:33.319 it will just happen, and it hasn't, and so there 0:09:33.360 --> 0:09:36.640 has been a lot of feelings to deal with with that. 0:09:37.240 --> 0:09:39.360 It's also the planning side of it, because you know, 0:09:39.559 --> 0:09:43.400 I obviously have my own business. We're planning things. For example, 0:09:43.480 --> 0:09:48.080 we are probably doing an America trip next year, hopefully 0:09:48.280 --> 0:09:53.000 in March, because we are looking to expand naked Harvest. 0:09:53.960 --> 0:09:57.199 But it's interesting because I'm like, if I get pregnant now, 0:09:57.840 --> 0:09:59.840 because we're trying to book flights, I'm like, I don't 0:09:59.880 --> 0:10:02.760 know will I be able to fly? But then it's like, 0:10:03.040 --> 0:10:05.720 what do I not book them? But then what about 0:10:05.760 --> 0:10:08.880 if I'm still not pregnant in March next year? Do 0:10:08.920 --> 0:10:10.400 you know what I mean? Like, it's a really hard 0:10:10.640 --> 0:10:13.720 you almost want to put your life on hold because 0:10:14.080 --> 0:10:16.680 you have this plan, but it's like it might not 0:10:16.800 --> 0:10:20.640 even happen. It's like coming on nearly twelve months and 0:10:20.679 --> 0:10:24.120 I'm like, well, thank god I didn't plan anything, because 0:10:24.160 --> 0:10:28.400 it's it still hasn't happened. So it's this really interesting time. 0:10:34.640 --> 0:10:38.080 I wanted to be very honest with you guys. It 0:10:38.240 --> 0:10:41.880 is a journey. So long story short, we went to 0:10:41.880 --> 0:10:45.640 the fertility doctor after Europe and I basically found out 0:10:45.640 --> 0:10:49.120 I have PCOS, which just makes it harder. I don't 0:10:49.160 --> 0:10:51.200 like I don't have a lot of the symptoms. The 0:10:51.240 --> 0:10:56.480 symptoms are hair growth, weight gain, acne. It's like some 0:10:56.600 --> 0:10:59.320 am like, oh, yeah, like maybe, but then I'm like 0:10:59.440 --> 0:11:02.760 have I always struggled with that. So I even remember 0:11:02.880 --> 0:11:04.880 going to a natural path when I was younger and 0:11:04.920 --> 0:11:08.520 she said I probably have PCOS. But my fertility doctor, 0:11:08.559 --> 0:11:12.160 he actually did an internal exam and I did have 0:11:12.360 --> 0:11:16.520 CYS on my ovaries, which is also like a requirement 0:11:16.559 --> 0:11:19.920 like cyst on your ovres for PCOS, which means polycyster 0:11:20.280 --> 0:11:24.120 avarian syndrome. And basically it's just harder for people with 0:11:24.200 --> 0:11:28.880 PCOS to get pregnant because their ovulation isn't usually the 0:11:29.080 --> 0:11:32.720 time when everyone else's ovulation is. It just can be 0:11:32.800 --> 0:11:35.360 very frustrating because obviously, you know, when we have a 0:11:35.400 --> 0:11:39.640 toddler and you're trying, you're trying to have sex, it's 0:11:39.679 --> 0:11:43.280 like you do need to somewhat time it because and 0:11:43.320 --> 0:11:46.920 she literally sleeps in our bed right now, so it's 0:11:46.960 --> 0:11:50.840 not just happening all day every day, so it is 0:11:50.880 --> 0:11:53.679 a very interesting time. So I got diagnosed with PCOS, 0:11:53.720 --> 0:11:57.080 so I'm on my journey of like healing that Tim 0:11:57.120 --> 0:12:01.040 got his sperm tested and we're going through that. Yeah, 0:12:01.120 --> 0:12:03.959 it's a journey, and this is where we're at. I 0:12:04.080 --> 0:12:07.840 kind of don't want to go any more deeper on 0:12:07.920 --> 0:12:12.520 it than those things, just because otherwise I just again 0:12:12.720 --> 0:12:14.840 it's like, I'm so happy to be open to you guys, 0:12:14.920 --> 0:12:18.080 but I also just do need some things for ourself 0:12:18.160 --> 0:12:22.000 and our own life. But that is the current situation 0:12:22.520 --> 0:12:32.560 without trying to conceive journey. I did just want to 0:12:32.559 --> 0:12:35.319 open up because again, I think it's such a lonely journey. 0:12:36.160 --> 0:12:38.840 Most people, even if they are and are trying to 0:12:38.920 --> 0:12:42.520 conceive journey, they don't tell people. They kind of just 0:12:42.600 --> 0:12:45.640 sit in this like silo of well, I'll wait till 0:12:45.679 --> 0:12:48.120 I get the good news and then I'll start talking 0:12:48.160 --> 0:12:51.520 to people about it. And that's pretty much how I was. 0:12:51.960 --> 0:12:53.440 I think that's fine, if you want to do that, 0:12:53.440 --> 0:12:57.560 it's absolutely fine, but also it's fucking lonely. They're asking 0:12:57.600 --> 0:13:00.160 why don't I want to book the US flights? So 0:13:00.160 --> 0:13:04.000 I'm like, so I just spoke to him about it, 0:13:04.040 --> 0:13:05.800 and I'm like, look, I want to be open about it. 0:13:05.840 --> 0:13:08.080 I want to tell people, and he was on board. 0:13:08.120 --> 0:13:10.120 And he was like, yeah, look, I don't mind. I'm 0:13:10.120 --> 0:13:12.840 how to be open about it. And also, I have 0:13:13.080 --> 0:13:17.560 been struggling with my hormones, like as symptom of PCOS 0:13:17.640 --> 0:13:20.080 is gaining weight, and I feel like I have been 0:13:20.200 --> 0:13:23.160 struggling with my hormones. I've been struggling with my skin. 0:13:23.360 --> 0:13:26.760 I've been struggling with a lot of these internal things 0:13:26.800 --> 0:13:29.760 that again I just didn't really want to talk about 0:13:29.920 --> 0:13:32.360 because I was still in them. And I do have 0:13:32.400 --> 0:13:34.480 a bit of a rule on this podcast that I 0:13:34.520 --> 0:13:37.360 don't really like to talk about things until I'm on 0:13:37.400 --> 0:13:39.920 the other side because I don't just want to like 0:13:40.000 --> 0:13:42.240 traum a dump on you guys. I love to have 0:13:42.320 --> 0:13:45.160 like here's the lesson, here's the learning. That's what this 0:13:45.200 --> 0:13:49.439 podcast is for. But also I do struggle to be vulnerable. 0:13:49.600 --> 0:13:51.320 I feel like this is something I need to open 0:13:51.400 --> 0:13:54.520 up about. And also I know so many other women 0:13:54.760 --> 0:13:58.840 are currently on this trying to conceive journey and it's 0:13:59.040 --> 0:14:02.479 so hard, and I do just want to say I 0:14:02.520 --> 0:14:07.200 actually have been video recording myself every single month, you know, 0:14:07.240 --> 0:14:10.000 getting a negative pregnancy test or just how I felt 0:14:10.040 --> 0:14:13.359 when I got my period or whatnot, because my mindset 0:14:13.440 --> 0:14:19.520 previously was like I said, I was very fixated, very obsessed. 0:14:19.680 --> 0:14:23.000 I would cry a lot. I would be really victim 0:14:23.000 --> 0:14:26.600 mentality about not getting pregnant. And I have been really 0:14:26.720 --> 0:14:31.040 focused on doing things differently this time and having a 0:14:31.040 --> 0:14:33.400 different experience, so I did want to speak about that. 0:14:33.600 --> 0:14:37.480 So I have been video recording myself and I think 0:14:37.520 --> 0:14:40.320 I will, you know, once our journey is complete, I 0:14:40.360 --> 0:14:43.960 will post that as a whole episode, so you can 0:14:44.040 --> 0:14:47.640 really see the thoughts, you can see the evolution, you 0:14:47.640 --> 0:14:50.240 can see like my mindset, because like some months, I'm like, 0:14:51.280 --> 0:14:54.160 I'm so ready to be a mom. I'm so grateful 0:14:54.200 --> 0:14:57.280 to have Ivy. I feel so relaxed, I feel so 0:14:57.360 --> 0:14:59.440 ready for this baby to come in. It's all going 0:14:59.480 --> 0:15:03.000 to become per timing. I've been doing my meditations and 0:15:03.200 --> 0:15:06.600 journaling and it's perfect. And then other months I'm like, 0:15:06.640 --> 0:15:11.360 this is really fucking frustrating and I'm like just like 0:15:11.400 --> 0:15:14.520 a bit over it. So I do feel like my mindset, 0:15:14.960 --> 0:15:17.000 you know, like I'm still having the up and downs, 0:15:17.000 --> 0:15:19.560 but I do feel so much better this time, and 0:15:19.600 --> 0:15:21.840 I think it obviously does help that I already have 0:15:21.840 --> 0:15:24.200 a baby. I have Ivy. You know, I'm very busy 0:15:24.400 --> 0:15:27.600 with my work and having a toddler and all the things. 0:15:27.680 --> 0:15:32.280 But again I do know from Ivy that it will 0:15:32.280 --> 0:15:35.800 happen in the perfect time. And also a theme of 0:15:36.040 --> 0:15:40.400 my trying now trying to conceive journey is health. And 0:15:40.480 --> 0:15:44.400 so again previously I got my boobs out and I 0:15:44.440 --> 0:15:47.040 dealt with that, and then now the p SOS is 0:15:47.080 --> 0:15:49.920 coming up. So I do feel like it's a great 0:15:50.680 --> 0:15:53.800 kind of reality check for me to dive back into 0:15:54.200 --> 0:15:57.480 parts of my health that I had maybe neglected. So 0:15:57.920 --> 0:16:00.560 I am working on that sort of thing. A big 0:16:00.560 --> 0:16:03.640 thing of p SOS is balancing your blood sugar levels, 0:16:03.640 --> 0:16:06.760 so that's actually something that I have been really in. 0:16:06.880 --> 0:16:09.480 I followed the Gluecose goddess, which she's really good for that. 0:16:10.320 --> 0:16:12.840 So again it's put me on this beautiful health journey. 0:16:13.120 --> 0:16:16.720 It makes me so grateful for Ivy. I also have 0:16:16.920 --> 0:16:22.920 been doing these incredible visualizations and meditations. We actually recorded 0:16:22.960 --> 0:16:25.680 some for the Rise app so they will be out 0:16:25.720 --> 0:16:29.000 when this episode goes live. These are the meditations that 0:16:29.080 --> 0:16:32.640 I have been doing that have there's a fertility one, 0:16:32.680 --> 0:16:35.480 and there's a pregnancy one, and there's a birth one. 0:16:36.040 --> 0:16:39.400 I have been doing the fertility and the pregnancy one. 0:16:39.440 --> 0:16:42.120 The pregnancy one is so beautiful. I basically just take 0:16:42.160 --> 0:16:45.680 you through the journey of a pregnancy. And if you 0:16:45.720 --> 0:16:49.040 are a visual person, I just find it so amazing 0:16:49.160 --> 0:16:53.360 to connect. Ah, guys, I have been connecting with this 0:16:53.440 --> 0:17:00.080 beautiful spirit baby. They are just beautiful, like their energy. 0:16:59.760 --> 0:17:03.320 They are so soft and they're really sensitive, and I 0:17:03.400 --> 0:17:06.240 kind of get this like download that they're not going 0:17:06.320 --> 0:17:11.920 to come in until I'm in a more feminine, flowy, 0:17:12.160 --> 0:17:16.000 receptive state, because I can kind of tell they don't 0:17:16.040 --> 0:17:20.040 like chaos, Like they're very sweet and innocent and soft. 0:17:20.680 --> 0:17:23.720 And it's funny because when I felt Ivy's energy, because 0:17:23.720 --> 0:17:27.959 I would connect with her, her energy is exactly what 0:17:28.040 --> 0:17:31.840 she is is a baby, like a whirlwind, like chaos. 0:17:31.920 --> 0:17:36.040 And it's so funny because when I was pregnant with Ivy, Guys, 0:17:36.160 --> 0:17:39.399 I felt so powerful. I was on another level, Like 0:17:39.480 --> 0:17:42.560 I don't think I've ever earned so much money and 0:17:42.640 --> 0:17:45.760 done so many things in such a short amount of time. 0:17:45.840 --> 0:17:50.159 Like she gave me beautiful, wild energy. It was like 0:17:50.480 --> 0:17:54.239 feminine goddess energy. And then when she came out, that 0:17:54.400 --> 0:17:56.480 is her, that's her as a person, like she is 0:17:57.160 --> 0:18:00.000 a wild woman and She's amazing, and it's so crazy 0:18:00.400 --> 0:18:06.600 because I'm noticing such a pull to slow down, to reconnect, 0:18:06.640 --> 0:18:10.600 to step into this beautiful softness, to be more sensitive, 0:18:10.680 --> 0:18:13.760 to be more nurturing, to be more caring, and so 0:18:13.800 --> 0:18:16.439 I really feel like that's what this soul is, and 0:18:16.520 --> 0:18:20.560 so it has been pulling me too slow down. I 0:18:20.560 --> 0:18:23.440 think that's also really beautiful because it's pulling me into 0:18:23.440 --> 0:18:26.840 a new season. I do feel like there are still 0:18:26.880 --> 0:18:29.920 some changes that need to happen before this beautiful baby 0:18:29.960 --> 0:18:32.639 comes in. But again, like I said, because we do 0:18:32.720 --> 0:18:35.520 have IVY, because of like the work that I've done, 0:18:35.600 --> 0:18:39.679 the internal work, I'm not feeling like, of course I 0:18:39.720 --> 0:18:41.880 want to be pregnant and I want our second baby 0:18:41.920 --> 0:18:45.400 and all those sorts of things, but I don't feel rushed. 0:18:46.040 --> 0:18:50.800 I am perfect timing, divine timing, you know, talking to 0:18:51.400 --> 0:18:55.280 baby as much as I can, doing my meditations, doing 0:18:55.280 --> 0:18:59.879 my visualizations, but still being present in my life and 0:19:00.080 --> 0:19:03.240 not future tripping. And I think that's kind of the difference. 0:19:03.400 --> 0:19:06.880 The previous trying to conceive journey, I was like future 0:19:06.880 --> 0:19:12.119 tripping so anxious, couldn't surrender, and this one, I'm like, 0:19:12.160 --> 0:19:15.119 I'm doing the things I'm seeing the fertility doctor. I'm 0:19:15.200 --> 0:19:17.679 doing the steps. I am now following you know, the 0:19:17.720 --> 0:19:20.960 p SOS protocol. But it's not from this place of 0:19:21.080 --> 0:19:23.919 like I need to get pregnant, I need a baby now. 0:19:24.440 --> 0:19:27.680 It's from this beautiful this is our next journey, this 0:19:27.720 --> 0:19:32.040 is our next evolution, and really embracing it and being 0:19:32.359 --> 0:19:41.879 in it again. I think sometimes we can miss the 0:19:41.960 --> 0:19:45.440 sweetness of the journey. And something I say with hindsight 0:19:45.720 --> 0:19:48.399 is when I was trying to conceive Ivy, it's like 0:19:48.480 --> 0:19:51.960 I missed a whole year of my own life because 0:19:52.040 --> 0:19:55.639 my head was so filled up with I need to 0:19:55.680 --> 0:19:58.600 have a baby that it's like I wasn't really present. 0:19:58.720 --> 0:20:01.359 I was constantly kind of a low vibration. I was 0:20:01.440 --> 0:20:04.160 really sad. Yeah, I just kind of missed a whole 0:20:04.240 --> 0:20:05.760 thing of my life. And I look back now and 0:20:05.800 --> 0:20:08.520 I'm like, she's coming, Like she was coming anyway, She's 0:20:08.560 --> 0:20:11.480 a oil wind. I wish I had enjoyed that year 0:20:11.760 --> 0:20:14.199 because obviously you guys, well if you're a mum, you 0:20:14.280 --> 0:20:17.400 know so much changes once you have a baby. That's 0:20:17.440 --> 0:20:20.000 what I would say to previous storgy. So if you're 0:20:20.040 --> 0:20:23.560 currently in a trying to conceive journey, I just want 0:20:23.560 --> 0:20:28.080 to say, I'm sending you so much love. It's hard, 0:20:28.600 --> 0:20:33.119 it is raw, and it is vulnerable. But my I 0:20:33.119 --> 0:20:38.560 guess like recommendation would be too surrender to look into 0:20:39.200 --> 0:20:41.880 what could be the lesson here? What could I be learning? 0:20:41.960 --> 0:20:45.560 What am I getting pushed to? Like I said with IVY, 0:20:45.600 --> 0:20:47.800 it was like getting my boobs out and healing my 0:20:47.880 --> 0:20:51.880 thyroid disease, which I currently have. You know, I'm off 0:20:51.960 --> 0:20:55.280 medication now. And then with this journey, it's like looking 0:20:55.320 --> 0:20:58.840 into my pcos and the slowing down and the stepping 0:20:58.880 --> 0:21:02.720 more into my feminine energy, and so I'm embracing that 0:21:02.840 --> 0:21:05.200 and I'm like, Okay, cool, this is where I need 0:21:05.280 --> 0:21:07.280 to go. This is what I need to look into. 0:21:07.920 --> 0:21:11.160 Also realizing you might see your friend and they get 0:21:11.200 --> 0:21:14.760 pregnant straight away, but you have no idea what else 0:21:15.000 --> 0:21:19.520 that friend is struggling with. Don't get caught up in 0:21:19.680 --> 0:21:22.080 all the other people just get to be pregnant straight 0:21:22.119 --> 0:21:24.840 away or it gets to happen for other people. Don't 0:21:24.840 --> 0:21:27.119 get caught in that because that just puts you in 0:21:27.200 --> 0:21:30.720 victim mentality. That is a lawer vibration, and you don't 0:21:30.760 --> 0:21:32.879 need to be in that because again you never know 0:21:33.000 --> 0:21:35.639 what's happening in someone else's life. Yeah, they might get 0:21:35.680 --> 0:21:39.239 pregnant right away, but maybe their relationship isn't good, Like 0:21:39.359 --> 0:21:43.000 maybe financially they're not good. Like there's so many things, 0:21:43.119 --> 0:21:45.840 and so I don't compare my trying to conceive journey 0:21:45.840 --> 0:21:49.320 with anyone else. I bring it back to what could 0:21:49.359 --> 0:21:52.920 I be learning in this moment? How can I surrender more? 0:21:52.960 --> 0:21:56.359 How can I slow down? How can I actually enjoy this? 0:21:56.480 --> 0:21:58.840 Like I keep thinking about how can I enjoy ivy more? 0:21:59.240 --> 0:22:01.600 How can I enjoy it? Like being a family of three. 0:22:01.880 --> 0:22:05.679 We're reevaluating the house situation because of like I'm not 0:22:05.760 --> 0:22:09.520 wanting to sleep downstairs. Lots of things. We're like, okay, 0:22:09.600 --> 0:22:12.680 like where is this taking us? Like what is this journey? 0:22:12.880 --> 0:22:15.600 And we're looking at it that way. We're not sitting 0:22:15.720 --> 0:22:18.959 in the oh my god, of course we're having like 0:22:19.359 --> 0:22:21.920 you know, fertility problems. Of course, is this happening again? 0:22:22.000 --> 0:22:24.960 Like we're not doing that. We're not sitting in that energy. 0:22:25.040 --> 0:22:27.800 It's this beautiful. We know what we want. We're clear 0:22:27.880 --> 0:22:32.440 on the vision. I am making a room for you, baby, 0:22:32.920 --> 0:22:36.879 you know I'm talking to baby, I'm visualizing. I'm meditation. 0:22:37.600 --> 0:22:40.360 I've been doing tapping too, Like I've been doing tapping 0:22:40.520 --> 0:22:43.280 talking about I'm ready for a second baby. I am 0:22:43.320 --> 0:22:46.400 a mum of two. I can definitely take you through 0:22:46.440 --> 0:22:49.600 something like that if you guys want. And also the 0:22:49.640 --> 0:22:52.119 meditations that I have been doing, they should now be 0:22:52.240 --> 0:22:54.399 on the Rise app. And I said to Jamie, I 0:22:54.440 --> 0:22:56.359 was like, I want these on there because they just 0:22:56.400 --> 0:22:58.240 have been incredible for me and I know they will 0:22:58.280 --> 0:23:01.280 be so helpful if you are currently on a trying 0:23:01.320 --> 0:23:05.120 to conceive journey. And we do have a promo right 0:23:05.119 --> 0:23:07.320 now where you can get a free week of the 0:23:07.400 --> 0:23:09.800 Rise app, So we'll put a link in the show notes. 0:23:09.880 --> 0:23:13.680 You can check that out. But my laugh's that busy 0:23:13.840 --> 0:23:18.560 update on our second trying to conceive journey. How we're going. 0:23:19.240 --> 0:23:23.840 There's definitely, you know, stuff happening behind doors. But again, 0:23:24.080 --> 0:23:26.000 I just I feel like that's all I kind of 0:23:26.040 --> 0:23:28.720 want to share. That's where we're at. I did just 0:23:28.760 --> 0:23:30.679 want to open up about it. Not a lot of 0:23:30.720 --> 0:23:32.879 people talk about it, and I know a lot of 0:23:32.880 --> 0:23:34.679 you guys would be going through it, and I just 0:23:34.680 --> 0:23:37.600 wanted to say you're not alone. It is hard. But 0:23:37.720 --> 0:23:42.040 also these mindset shifts have really really helped me during 0:23:42.080 --> 0:23:44.600 this time, and I'm just so excited to be a 0:23:44.600 --> 0:23:48.320 month or two soon. And look, it feels I don't know, 0:23:48.359 --> 0:23:51.479 it feels weird to be vulnerable and tell you guys 0:23:52.080 --> 0:23:54.040 before it's happened, if that makes sense. But I think 0:23:54.040 --> 0:23:55.399 that's why I want to do it, because I'm like, 0:23:55.880 --> 0:23:59.240 no Georgia like be vulnerable, tell them before it's happened. 0:23:59.440 --> 0:24:02.240 I feel like I share so many of my wins 0:24:02.359 --> 0:24:04.960 with you guys. I just wanted to share the not 0:24:05.200 --> 0:24:07.960 so great stuff, like you know, the hard stuff, the 0:24:08.040 --> 0:24:10.879 raw stuff, the vulnerable stuff I might do like your 0:24:10.920 --> 0:24:13.720