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Speaker 1: This is Rise and Conquer, the podcast where we strive

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Speaker 1: healthy mindsets, laughter, connection, and a deep desire to evolve.

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Speaker 1: I'm your host, Georgie Stevenson. Join me as we explore parenthood, business, manifestation,

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Speaker 1: and so much more. It's positive, it's practical, and it's

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Speaker 1: Are you ready? Hello, my loves, and welcome back to

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Speaker 1: the RNC Potty. Today's episode does come with a trigger warning,

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Speaker 1: as I am going to be opening up and sharing

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Speaker 1: actually have some beautiful visualizations and meditations on the Rise

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