WEBVTT - MINI! Britt Breaks Down Her Surprising New Fertility Journey

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<v Speaker 1>I know my fertility journey has been something that I

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<v Speaker 1>have spoken about quite a few times, particularly over this year,

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<v Speaker 1>but for me, it's been quite spread out over the

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<v Speaker 1>last couple of years. It started probably two years ago

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<v Speaker 1>when I did my first egg freezing cycle. Yeah, and

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<v Speaker 1>I am on my third cycle at the moment, so

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<v Speaker 1>I am thirty six years old for those that are

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<v Speaker 1>playing at home, and I have quite low fertility, and

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<v Speaker 1>it's something that I never thought I would have because

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<v Speaker 1>as women, you know, you grow up thinking, don't feel

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<v Speaker 1>pregnantn't fall pregnant, do't fore pregnant, because that's what you're taught.

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<v Speaker 1>And then all of a sudden the day comes where

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<v Speaker 1>you're like, time to feel pregnant and you can't.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know, brit As well, like you recently

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<v Speaker 2>did your second round of egg freezing and the results

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<v Speaker 2>weren't what you were hoping for and you were so

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<v Speaker 2>vulnerable and sharing that with everyone.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, yeah, so I did my second round only two

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<v Speaker 1>months ago, now, I think, and you go through weeks

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<v Speaker 1>of injections and hormone injections and I ended up with nothing.

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<v Speaker 3>And that was the slap in the face.

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<v Speaker 1>That was where I was like, oh my god, like,

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<v Speaker 1>even with the help of science, and you've just paid

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<v Speaker 1>all this money. And I know it's not about money,

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<v Speaker 1>but that's what you think, right, And that's what the

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<v Speaker 1>every day person thinks.

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<v Speaker 3>I've just paid so much money.

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<v Speaker 1>I have just put my body through hell for weeks,

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<v Speaker 1>I've had an operation, I've had all of science's help

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<v Speaker 1>to get what I.

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<v Speaker 3>Need and I didn't get anything.

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<v Speaker 1>And that was like, holy smokes, this is serious, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>because the last year or so, I've always said it,

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<v Speaker 1>and I've always joked about, oh, I've got my fertility

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<v Speaker 1>is not great, you know, like.

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<v Speaker 3>It's probably going to be hard for me.

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<v Speaker 1>But then when you get zero, you're like, oh, this

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<v Speaker 1>is actually really serious. This is not a This is

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<v Speaker 1>not a my fertility is low. This is a far

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<v Speaker 1>out How am I ever going to have a.

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<v Speaker 2>Britt You were saying you didn't want to keep talking

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<v Speaker 2>about it, but your reasoning for not wanting to continue

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<v Speaker 2>talking about it was more so because you were like,

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<v Speaker 2>surely people are sick of hearing from it, Like, surely

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<v Speaker 2>people are sick.

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<v Speaker 4>Of hearing my story.

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<v Speaker 2>And I know for you, because you live it and

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<v Speaker 2>you're in it, it feels like it's every single day.

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<v Speaker 4>But I can't tell you how much.

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<v Speaker 2>Of a comfort and how much it helps other women

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<v Speaker 2>out there to hear someone speaking about what it is

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<v Speaker 2>that they're going through, because there's nothing harder than when

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<v Speaker 2>you are trying to for pregnant or you are in

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<v Speaker 2>that process yourself than just seeing happy pregnancy announcements and

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<v Speaker 2>never hearing about all of the work that can go

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<v Speaker 2>into finally getting pregnant for some people. And do you

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<v Speaker 2>know what in saying that, like, we've had people calling

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<v Speaker 2>through while you've been talking about this, Brett.

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<v Speaker 4>We've got Emma, Emma on the line.

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, Emma, Hi, guys, Hi Emma, Hi, welcome to big up.

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<v Speaker 3>I wasn't expecting it not to call.

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you, No, I was just calling to say a

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<v Speaker 5>big thank you to you, Britt for putting it out there,

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<v Speaker 5>because it's a pretty isolating situation going through IVF and

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<v Speaker 5>it's a scary topic that people don't really want to

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<v Speaker 5>talk about it or it's a bit too icky and

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<v Speaker 5>uncomfortable for them, so they shy away from it.

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<v Speaker 4>Are you going through it? Have you frozen?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you?

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<v Speaker 4>Where are you at your journey?

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<v Speaker 5>So he did ovulation induction for and surgeries and all

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<v Speaker 5>kinds of fun things for nearly three years.

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<v Speaker 4>Wow.

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<v Speaker 5>And then I do have a little one night to

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<v Speaker 5>go through a lot for him as well. But we

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<v Speaker 5>started IVF in October because I have indimit traces and

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<v Speaker 5>polosis decovaries and adam iiosis, you name it. I've got

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<v Speaker 5>the trifector. But as you were going through your process,

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<v Speaker 5>I was sort of going through mine, and I started

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<v Speaker 5>all the needles and I had to back on your

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<v Speaker 5>clips because I couldn't like inject them properly.

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<v Speaker 3>They wouldn't go in.

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<v Speaker 5>I was like, felt like I was stabbing myself with

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<v Speaker 5>a dart.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh, I mean I still do.

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<v Speaker 3>I did that today.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, get in.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, it wouldn't. I couldn't break the skin.

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<v Speaker 2>Also, you wouldn't think of this like, I mean even

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<v Speaker 2>not just from like an emotional support perspective, but from

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<v Speaker 2>an actual physicality of like how do you do it?

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<v Speaker 4>I think people underestimate how terrifying it might.

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<v Speaker 2>Be to go home and have to inject yourself and

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<v Speaker 2>do all the hormone stuff that goes along with the fastility.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah. And I had to psy like myself up on

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<v Speaker 5>that because my husband isn't like he's a placeman, so

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<v Speaker 5>he's not home to help in the eye. To really

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<v Speaker 5>work myself up to do that first needle and then

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<v Speaker 5>to have trouble actually breaking the skin was like, I

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<v Speaker 5>don't know what to do.

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<v Speaker 3>So then I remembered Britad had that.

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<v Speaker 5>Problem, So I'll go watch brit restabber. So how do

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<v Speaker 5>I do this? Move back on that?

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<v Speaker 2>How are the results for you now in terms of

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<v Speaker 2>where your headed with your fertility?

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<v Speaker 5>So they were touching go for a while. Their doctors

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<v Speaker 5>were not happy with my response. I had lots, but

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<v Speaker 5>they were little, so they were going to cancel my cycle.

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<v Speaker 5>Then they changed their mind and they were like, yes, we'll.

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<v Speaker 4>Keep doing it.

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<v Speaker 5>So I got four eggs in the end who were

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<v Speaker 5>Bible like mature. Yeah, so I was quite deflated by that. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 5>and I'm turning thirty five in a couple of weeks,

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<v Speaker 5>which is apparently ancient in the fertility.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, well, welcome to the geriatric world. Yeah, it's

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<v Speaker 3>the word they used, Jerry.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, but it sounds like you at least, Yeah, it

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<v Speaker 1>sounds like you at least got the one, which it's

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<v Speaker 1>I say, at least, and it's not it's not amazing,

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<v Speaker 1>but one is One is something to at least hold

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<v Speaker 1>on to, and it's better than nothing.

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<v Speaker 5>And I get my result today, So I have one

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<v Speaker 5>put back in and I've been waiting and being that

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<v Speaker 5>impatient person testing when I'm not meant to test.

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<v Speaker 3>I get good results in a few hours.

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<v Speaker 2>Emma, we are absolutely rooting for you. And also, like

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<v Speaker 2>I think, keep sharing because as much as much as

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<v Speaker 2>you think that it's an overshare, and as much as

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<v Speaker 2>you might think that you are giving so much of yourself,

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<v Speaker 2>it really does.

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<v Speaker 4>These conversations really do help women.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and I really am Just to tie up my update,

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<v Speaker 1>I really am very optimistic about my results this time

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<v Speaker 1>because my doctor has purposely put me on a much

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<v Speaker 1>high doise of hormones, which which makes for a pretty

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<v Speaker 1>chaotic couple of weeks for me, and it's gonna be

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<v Speaker 1>very uncomfortable. But I'm optimistic that because that is so high,

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<v Speaker 1>that I'm going to have a better outcome.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I went optimistic for you too, Emma. Thanks so much,

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<v Speaker 2>and thank you