1
00:00:00,400 --> 00:00:04,600
Speaker 1: The Rising Conquer Podcast acknowledges the traditional custodians of the

2
00:00:04,720 --> 00:00:08,320
Speaker 1: land which this episode is being recorded, the yugen Bah region.

3
00:00:08,960 --> 00:00:13,360
Speaker 1: We further acknowledge country throughout Australia and their connections to land,

4
00:00:13,520 --> 00:00:16,880
Speaker 1: sea and community. We pay our respect to their elders

5
00:00:16,960 --> 00:00:20,920
Speaker 1: past and present and extend that respect to all Aboriginal

6
00:00:21,000 --> 00:00:34,199
Speaker 1: and Terrestride Islander peoples today. Hello and welcome back to

7
00:00:34,240 --> 00:00:37,400
Speaker 1: the Rise and Conquer Podcasts. This is the podcast for

8
00:00:37,600 --> 00:00:49,600
Speaker 1: ordinary people who want to do extraordinary things.

9
00:00:50,600 --> 00:00:53,560
Speaker 2: You are the only person alive on this earth ever

10
00:00:53,840 --> 00:00:55,840
Speaker 2: that can do what you can do, and that is

11
00:00:55,880 --> 00:00:56,640
Speaker 2: the way you are.

12
00:00:56,800 --> 00:00:59,000
Speaker 3: And you may think you want to fit them with a.

13
00:00:59,360 --> 00:01:01,840
Speaker 2: Certain group of people, like a certain way of life,

14
00:01:01,880 --> 00:01:04,800
Speaker 2: but just sit and figure out what you want and

15
00:01:04,840 --> 00:01:07,600
Speaker 2: like really kind of understand what you want and learn

16
00:01:07,680 --> 00:01:10,000
Speaker 2: to understand what you want, and I promise you that

17
00:01:10,120 --> 00:01:12,440
Speaker 2: everything will work out the way it's supposed to.

18
00:01:18,760 --> 00:01:22,280
Speaker 1: Hello and welcome back to the Rise and Conquer Potty.

19
00:01:22,480 --> 00:01:27,400
Speaker 1: It is your host, Georgie Stevenson, lawyer turned entrepreneur, business owner,

20
00:01:27,720 --> 00:01:33,480
Speaker 1: mom wife, all the things. Before we get into today's episode,

21
00:01:33,560 --> 00:01:37,240
Speaker 1: I do want to give a trigger warning. This episode

22
00:01:37,319 --> 00:01:44,240
Speaker 1: touches on bullying, harassment, sexual assault, and suicide. Guys, today

23
00:01:44,560 --> 00:01:49,440
Speaker 1: we have such a special guess. I am joined by

24
00:01:49,480 --> 00:01:53,880
Speaker 1: Taylor Clement, also known as the Girl who Can't Spile.

25
00:01:54,360 --> 00:01:54,520
Speaker 4: So.

26
00:01:54,560 --> 00:01:57,760
Speaker 1: Taylor was diagnosed with Mobia's syndrome when she was just

27
00:01:57,920 --> 00:02:01,640
Speaker 1: eight months old. This is a rare condition that results

28
00:02:01,680 --> 00:02:05,880
Speaker 1: from an underdevelopment of facial nerves that control some eye

29
00:02:05,920 --> 00:02:11,240
Speaker 1: movements and facial expressions, and it affects one in four

30
00:02:11,400 --> 00:02:14,560
Speaker 1: million people. She talks to us about her journey of

31
00:02:14,600 --> 00:02:18,760
Speaker 1: self acceptance. She's honestly one of the most inspiring resilient

32
00:02:18,840 --> 00:02:22,640
Speaker 1: people we've had on the potty. Had her in person

33
00:02:22,720 --> 00:02:25,920
Speaker 1: record and we were all literally in tears for a

34
00:02:25,919 --> 00:02:29,440
Speaker 1: lot of the time. She is so so inspiring and

35
00:02:29,560 --> 00:02:34,200
Speaker 1: her story is just it's so moving. You guys definitely

36
00:02:34,240 --> 00:02:36,519
Speaker 1: bring the tissues for this one, but it is. It's

37
00:02:36,639 --> 00:02:40,040
Speaker 1: one of our favorite epps ever. If you're struggling with

38
00:02:40,120 --> 00:02:43,160
Speaker 1: confidence or self acceptance, or if you're just on your

39
00:02:43,160 --> 00:02:47,359
Speaker 1: personal development journey, this EP is for you. It was incredible.

40
00:02:47,480 --> 00:02:48,119
Speaker 1: Wasn't it a tear?

41
00:02:48,480 --> 00:02:51,280
Speaker 4: It was amazing. We were literally sitting on the side crying,

42
00:02:51,440 --> 00:02:52,600
Speaker 4: trying not to make any noise.

43
00:02:53,240 --> 00:02:57,440
Speaker 1: We were all so obsessed with Taylor. Yeah, it's so inspiring.

44
00:02:57,480 --> 00:03:00,400
Speaker 1: But of course, before we get into the episode, a

45
00:03:00,400 --> 00:03:03,040
Speaker 1: little quick update on our week.

46
00:03:03,360 --> 00:03:04,120
Speaker 3: I'll go first.

47
00:03:04,240 --> 00:03:09,480
Speaker 1: Okay, so guys, our R n C merch bottles that

48
00:03:09,680 --> 00:03:11,079
Speaker 1: you're all very surprised.

49
00:03:12,000 --> 00:03:13,600
Speaker 4: It's a shock to be honest.

50
00:03:14,440 --> 00:03:18,239
Speaker 1: Honestly, what's this thing that we have to hide things?

51
00:03:19,800 --> 00:03:23,960
Speaker 1: Marketing strategy? I don't like marketing. Can't we just tell

52
00:03:24,000 --> 00:03:27,720
Speaker 1: everyone everything and just be super transparent. I've got bloody

53
00:03:27,760 --> 00:03:29,959
Speaker 1: a tear and Jamie here down my neck off me

54
00:03:30,040 --> 00:03:37,600
Speaker 1: because I keep showing you guys. We'll put a poll up. Yeah, yeah,

55
00:03:37,640 --> 00:03:41,119
Speaker 1: So you may have seen our R and C Hydrate

56
00:03:41,160 --> 00:03:43,720
Speaker 1: bottle in my stories for quite a while because I've

57
00:03:43,760 --> 00:03:46,320
Speaker 1: been using the sample for so long because I'm just obsessed.

58
00:03:46,640 --> 00:03:52,480
Speaker 1: But basically we created Rise and Hydrate, our water bottles,

59
00:03:52,600 --> 00:03:57,520
Speaker 1: their timestamped. They are so bloody cute, they're Elita and yeah,

60
00:03:57,600 --> 00:04:00,640
Speaker 1: they're coming out four pm today. I feel this in

61
00:04:00,880 --> 00:04:03,760
Speaker 1: real time otherwise they will be available. And I guess

62
00:04:03,760 --> 00:04:06,480
Speaker 1: we wanted to create something for the rn C, you know,

63
00:04:06,680 --> 00:04:09,440
Speaker 1: the R and C Club of how cool would it

64
00:04:09,440 --> 00:04:11,040
Speaker 1: be if you're just like sitting on the bar s

65
00:04:11,160 --> 00:04:13,400
Speaker 1: or somewhere and you see someone with the rid skunkled

66
00:04:13,440 --> 00:04:13,880
Speaker 1: water bottle.

67
00:04:13,920 --> 00:04:15,720
Speaker 4: I know it'd be the best conversation starter.

68
00:04:16,000 --> 00:04:17,240
Speaker 3: I know, I get a new.

69
00:04:17,120 --> 00:04:21,920
Speaker 1: Friend, very very excited. But yeah, that's probably about it.

70
00:04:22,000 --> 00:04:24,800
Speaker 1: Other than that, I've just been working on some new

71
00:04:24,839 --> 00:04:28,880
Speaker 1: stuff for rn C. But since I'm not allowed to

72
00:04:28,880 --> 00:04:31,720
Speaker 1: tell you guys anything, look, you'll just have to wait

73
00:04:31,760 --> 00:04:33,760
Speaker 1: and see. But it's exciting. We've got a couple of

74
00:04:33,800 --> 00:04:34,880
Speaker 1: things coming out towards the.

75
00:04:34,920 --> 00:04:36,799
Speaker 4: End of the year. And how is your weekend?

76
00:04:37,440 --> 00:04:39,760
Speaker 1: It was great. I had a chill weekend, just mucked

77
00:04:39,760 --> 00:04:44,799
Speaker 1: around Ivy girl beach time. I'm finding because I'm so busy,

78
00:04:45,320 --> 00:04:48,760
Speaker 1: I'm really on the weekend, I like don't call on

79
00:04:48,760 --> 00:04:51,400
Speaker 1: my phone, you know, having text my friends back in

80
00:04:51,400 --> 00:04:56,799
Speaker 1: two weeks. The boundaries are just it's like right now

81
00:04:56,920 --> 00:04:59,600
Speaker 1: because I am feeling like really creative and really in

82
00:04:59,640 --> 00:05:02,240
Speaker 1: my zone, which means I'm kind of working a bit

83
00:05:02,279 --> 00:05:04,400
Speaker 1: more so I'm leaving to work a little bit earlier,

84
00:05:04,520 --> 00:05:06,400
Speaker 1: missing a bit of IVY time, so I'm just like

85
00:05:06,520 --> 00:05:09,840
Speaker 1: really strict on weekends. It's just like full Ivy time.

86
00:05:11,200 --> 00:05:13,679
Speaker 1: But yeah, that's about it. What about you weekly update?

87
00:05:14,279 --> 00:05:17,799
Speaker 4: I have come back with a venge with my nutrition.

88
00:05:18,120 --> 00:05:19,159
Speaker 1: I was like, what does this mean.

89
00:05:20,960 --> 00:05:22,400
Speaker 4: I just woke up one day and I was like,

90
00:05:22,480 --> 00:05:23,760
Speaker 4: I'm gonna do it.

91
00:05:24,200 --> 00:05:27,440
Speaker 1: I'm trying to bullshit. Yeah, I did it. I called

92
00:05:27,440 --> 00:05:30,680
Speaker 1: my own bulls it after all our Yeah, I calling

93
00:05:30,680 --> 00:05:33,560
Speaker 1: your own bullshit. It literally was I think that's coming

94
00:05:33,600 --> 00:05:34,360
Speaker 1: out on Friday.

95
00:05:34,440 --> 00:05:38,560
Speaker 4: Actually, Friday's episode, just a little sneak peek is all about.

96
00:05:38,279 --> 00:05:40,680
Speaker 1: Health and we're calling you out on your bullshit.

97
00:05:42,600 --> 00:05:44,760
Speaker 4: So I called myself out, gave myself a bit of

98
00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:47,040
Speaker 4: tough love, and just decided that I need to do it.

99
00:05:47,600 --> 00:05:50,560
Speaker 1: I love that. And so you're hitting your protein targets. Yes,

100
00:05:50,960 --> 00:05:53,080
Speaker 1: day one slowly, but you're getting that.

101
00:05:53,880 --> 00:05:57,560
Speaker 4: Literally, guys been eating the whole day because I can't

102
00:05:57,600 --> 00:05:58,560
Speaker 4: eat that much food.

103
00:05:59,000 --> 00:06:01,720
Speaker 1: It took it to you like I was have a breakfast.

104
00:06:02,640 --> 00:06:05,599
Speaker 1: It was literally just yo getting I just can't relate.

105
00:06:06,760 --> 00:06:07,279
Speaker 3: I just don't.

106
00:06:07,440 --> 00:06:08,240
Speaker 1: I just can't rely.

107
00:06:08,400 --> 00:06:10,400
Speaker 4: It's fine, my appetite, We'll get in there.

108
00:06:10,720 --> 00:06:13,719
Speaker 1: Yeah, we need to speed up that metabolism. Yeah, but

109
00:06:13,760 --> 00:06:14,159
Speaker 1: that's me.

110
00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:18,040
Speaker 4: I'm also drinking lots of water because I'm using our

111
00:06:18,040 --> 00:06:21,440
Speaker 4: bottle hashtag hydride. Yeah, and makes speakers difference.

112
00:06:24,000 --> 00:06:31,680
Speaker 1: Just such a small thing, just a shameless plot. All right,

113
00:06:31,760 --> 00:06:38,520
Speaker 1: let's get into the show. You're gonna love this one, guys. Taylor,

114
00:06:38,839 --> 00:06:40,560
Speaker 1: Welcome to the Rise and Conker Podcast.

115
00:06:40,640 --> 00:06:42,560
Speaker 3: Thank you so much for having me. I'm so excited

116
00:06:42,560 --> 00:06:43,039
Speaker 3: to be here.

117
00:06:43,240 --> 00:06:46,159
Speaker 1: I'm so excited to have you here. And so we're

118
00:06:46,200 --> 00:06:49,360
Speaker 1: here in person. I love this because I usually see

119
00:06:49,360 --> 00:06:51,599
Speaker 1: my guests, you know, over the computer. So it's so

120
00:06:51,720 --> 00:06:55,320
Speaker 1: lovely to have you here. And you'll hear holidaying slash

121
00:06:55,440 --> 00:06:56,000
Speaker 1: work trip.

122
00:06:56,240 --> 00:06:57,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, a hybrid.

123
00:06:57,800 --> 00:07:01,200
Speaker 2: Love made them into one, which is always but yes,

124
00:07:01,360 --> 00:07:03,720
Speaker 2: So it's been so called being here on the Gold Coast.

125
00:07:03,760 --> 00:07:06,040
Speaker 2: And I was saying to you earlier that I'm planning

126
00:07:06,080 --> 00:07:07,719
Speaker 2: on moving over here in the near future.

127
00:07:07,800 --> 00:07:10,320
Speaker 3: So it's incredible, very excited to be here.

128
00:07:11,080 --> 00:07:13,120
Speaker 1: And like I know, we've had a bit of rain,

129
00:07:13,160 --> 00:07:15,840
Speaker 1: but I feel like the weather is getting better. You know,

130
00:07:15,920 --> 00:07:17,680
Speaker 1: what have you been doing? What have you been up to?

131
00:07:18,200 --> 00:07:21,480
Speaker 2: So over the weekend, so we're recording on a Wednesday. Yeah,

132
00:07:21,600 --> 00:07:24,040
Speaker 2: over the weekend. Ours at the Nitro Circus WORL Games.

133
00:07:24,080 --> 00:07:26,960
Speaker 2: It's part of the investor team for the Good Human Factory,

134
00:07:27,000 --> 00:07:29,520
Speaker 2: which is a mental health organization that I'm a part

135
00:07:29,560 --> 00:07:31,920
Speaker 2: of and so we were supposed to be it was

136
00:07:31,920 --> 00:07:33,880
Speaker 2: supposed to be on Saturday and Sunday, but it was

137
00:07:34,080 --> 00:07:36,960
Speaker 2: raining so heavily and like the athletes just can't perform

138
00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:39,920
Speaker 2: in that weather, and so all got moved to Monday afternoon.

139
00:07:39,960 --> 00:07:42,440
Speaker 2: So we were there like pretty much all day, like

140
00:07:42,520 --> 00:07:45,160
Speaker 2: six or seven hours. Like I was exhausted by it.

141
00:07:45,360 --> 00:07:46,320
Speaker 1: She's exhausted.

142
00:07:46,560 --> 00:07:49,080
Speaker 2: So I've spent all of yesterday just like lying on

143
00:07:49,120 --> 00:07:50,840
Speaker 2: the couch with the air con on and my like

144
00:07:50,920 --> 00:07:53,280
Speaker 2: little hotel that I and I'm like this, like this.

145
00:07:53,480 --> 00:07:55,760
Speaker 3: Heat though so crazy.

146
00:07:56,240 --> 00:07:57,920
Speaker 2: I was saying to the guy in the over I

147
00:07:57,960 --> 00:08:01,000
Speaker 2: was like this, I'm just not built for this teat anymore.

148
00:08:01,320 --> 00:08:03,200
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, Well you better get ready because this

149
00:08:03,320 --> 00:08:03,880
Speaker 1: is not hot.

150
00:08:04,360 --> 00:08:05,720
Speaker 3: This is people keep telling me.

151
00:08:05,760 --> 00:08:09,800
Speaker 1: I listen, I'm not joking, as I was wearing a

152
00:08:09,840 --> 00:08:12,600
Speaker 1: jumper this week and I'm like, it's freezing here. I

153
00:08:13,320 --> 00:08:14,400
Speaker 1: get ready for summer.

154
00:08:14,720 --> 00:08:16,360
Speaker 2: I saw on your stories when you said you're in

155
00:08:16,400 --> 00:08:19,320
Speaker 2: a junk pass like this girl is actually meantul How

156
00:08:19,400 --> 00:08:20,600
Speaker 2: is she in a jumper right now?

157
00:08:20,600 --> 00:08:23,320
Speaker 1: It's so hot and I'm sleeping like with our colts on.

158
00:08:25,000 --> 00:08:28,280
Speaker 1: I do have a fanom but yeah, look you'll get

159
00:08:28,360 --> 00:08:31,440
Speaker 1: used to the humidity. It's so excited to have you here.

160
00:08:31,960 --> 00:08:34,280
Speaker 1: Do you want to tell the RNC fam just a

161
00:08:34,320 --> 00:08:37,280
Speaker 1: little bit about your beautiful journey? I want to hear

162
00:08:37,280 --> 00:08:37,600
Speaker 1: it all.

163
00:08:38,120 --> 00:08:41,520
Speaker 3: Sure. So my name is Taylor. I've just in twenty five.

164
00:08:41,800 --> 00:08:45,600
Speaker 2: I was born and raised in the beautiful New Zealand

165
00:08:46,240 --> 00:08:49,080
Speaker 2: moved around the country that now I'm living in Auckland,

166
00:08:49,360 --> 00:08:52,520
Speaker 2: and I was born with an extremely rare neurological disorder

167
00:08:52,559 --> 00:08:56,120
Speaker 2: called mobire syndrome. So it'll fix my six and seventh

168
00:08:56,120 --> 00:08:59,040
Speaker 2: cranial nerds. Watch means my eyebrows don't move, my eyes

169
00:08:59,080 --> 00:09:01,360
Speaker 2: don't track from left, and the upper lip doesn't live,

170
00:09:01,400 --> 00:09:02,640
Speaker 2: which means I can't smile.

171
00:09:03,440 --> 00:09:05,720
Speaker 3: But I can smile. It's just nice smile.

172
00:09:07,000 --> 00:09:07,920
Speaker 1: Yeah.

173
00:09:07,960 --> 00:09:09,240
Speaker 3: But yeah. So it's super rare.

174
00:09:09,240 --> 00:09:11,840
Speaker 2: It only affects one person in every three to four million.

175
00:09:12,600 --> 00:09:15,760
Speaker 2: And I wasn't diagnosed at birth. I was diagnosed about

176
00:09:15,880 --> 00:09:17,880
Speaker 2: when I was eight months old, just because it is

177
00:09:17,920 --> 00:09:21,600
Speaker 2: so rare and it's just not really known about. So

178
00:09:21,760 --> 00:09:23,760
Speaker 2: I do a lot of work with that now, promoting

179
00:09:23,800 --> 00:09:26,800
Speaker 2: it on social media and all the events that I

180
00:09:26,840 --> 00:09:30,520
Speaker 2: go to and stuff that It's been a tough journey

181
00:09:30,559 --> 00:09:33,959
Speaker 2: having a syndrome that's rare that leads you kind of

182
00:09:34,080 --> 00:09:36,160
Speaker 2: I mean, it's sort of like facial paralysis in a way,

183
00:09:36,240 --> 00:09:39,640
Speaker 2: so you know, when you're in school and like trying

184
00:09:39,640 --> 00:09:42,120
Speaker 2: to make friends, it's pretty tough and it's been.

185
00:09:42,480 --> 00:09:43,400
Speaker 3: A hell of a ride.

186
00:09:44,040 --> 00:09:46,360
Speaker 2: But i would not change it for the world because

187
00:09:46,360 --> 00:09:48,640
Speaker 2: I'm just so grateful that it was me that was

188
00:09:48,679 --> 00:09:51,160
Speaker 2: born with the syndrome and me that went through all

189
00:09:51,160 --> 00:09:53,960
Speaker 2: the experiences that I did, because it's brought me in

190
00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:56,000
Speaker 2: front of you today and brought me into so many

191
00:09:56,280 --> 00:10:00,120
Speaker 2: other experiences that if I didn't go through everything, I

192
00:10:00,160 --> 00:10:02,480
Speaker 2: just wouldn't be doing what I'm doing now.

193
00:10:02,520 --> 00:10:03,719
Speaker 3: And I'm just so thankful for that.

194
00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:12,240
Speaker 1: Tell like we're not going to cross me at the intro.

195
00:10:13,960 --> 00:10:20,480
Speaker 1: It's just like, I know, it's honestly just your story

196
00:10:20,600 --> 00:10:22,920
Speaker 1: is just like so incredible and even just what you

197
00:10:22,960 --> 00:10:25,200
Speaker 1: said that and you're like, I'm so thankful it's me,

198
00:10:25,240 --> 00:10:26,719
Speaker 1: and I'm so grateful it is just.

199
00:10:27,679 --> 00:10:30,959
Speaker 4: Yeah, I can't even like your I guess like.

200
00:10:30,920 --> 00:10:33,600
Speaker 1: Your strength and your resilience. And when I heard about

201
00:10:33,640 --> 00:10:37,280
Speaker 1: your story, I just was like, Wow, it really puts

202
00:10:37,559 --> 00:10:41,680
Speaker 1: my problems into perspective, and I just I even when

203
00:10:41,679 --> 00:10:43,680
Speaker 1: you spoke about your story and how you said you

204
00:10:43,760 --> 00:10:47,040
Speaker 1: got you know, bullied, growing up and dealing with that

205
00:10:47,080 --> 00:10:49,079
Speaker 1: sort of thing. And I have a daughter, and so

206
00:10:49,400 --> 00:10:52,240
Speaker 1: you just resonated with me. And I just think what

207
00:10:52,280 --> 00:10:54,720
Speaker 1: you speak for and what you stand for, and you

208
00:10:54,760 --> 00:10:57,600
Speaker 1: know mentally, what you would have had to, you know,

209
00:10:57,760 --> 00:11:01,520
Speaker 1: go through to get to this point is just incredible.

210
00:11:02,040 --> 00:11:07,120
Speaker 1: Like you're You're just incredible. So apologies for crying in

211
00:11:07,160 --> 00:11:10,720
Speaker 1: the intro. Could you tell us a little bit more

212
00:11:10,920 --> 00:11:14,160
Speaker 1: about you know, growing up, you know, with this syndrome.

213
00:11:14,440 --> 00:11:17,040
Speaker 2: Things that I talk about that I've been through, you know,

214
00:11:17,080 --> 00:11:19,880
Speaker 2: they're not kind of surface level. I think when I

215
00:11:19,960 --> 00:11:22,559
Speaker 2: started this journey and when I decided that I was

216
00:11:22,600 --> 00:11:24,839
Speaker 2: going to use my platform and my voice to help people,

217
00:11:24,920 --> 00:11:27,800
Speaker 2: I really made the decision to just go all in.

218
00:11:28,080 --> 00:11:30,800
Speaker 3: I didn't want to leave anything unseid or I'm told.

219
00:11:30,920 --> 00:11:34,400
Speaker 1: So it gets a bit hectic, let's do it.

220
00:11:34,520 --> 00:11:36,840
Speaker 2: So I just want to say, if anyone kind of

221
00:11:36,880 --> 00:11:39,080
Speaker 2: is struggling with things at the moment, maybe you know,

222
00:11:39,160 --> 00:11:41,400
Speaker 2: have a free decide you or talk to someone after it.

223
00:11:41,440 --> 00:11:43,920
Speaker 2: Because it is quite heavy, but there's always a light

224
00:11:43,960 --> 00:11:44,760
Speaker 2: at the end of the tunnel.

225
00:11:44,840 --> 00:11:47,439
Speaker 3: So but yeah, So, like I.

226
00:11:47,400 --> 00:11:50,120
Speaker 2: Said, I was been with a really really neurological disorder,

227
00:11:50,160 --> 00:11:53,120
Speaker 2: and I think ever since I can remember, I've just

228
00:11:53,240 --> 00:11:56,000
Speaker 2: always felt like I was different. I was always treated

229
00:11:56,040 --> 00:11:58,920
Speaker 2: differently at school, and ever since I started score at

230
00:11:58,920 --> 00:12:00,840
Speaker 2: the age of five, I was bullied right from the

231
00:12:00,840 --> 00:12:01,280
Speaker 2: word though.

232
00:12:01,360 --> 00:12:02,400
Speaker 3: So it just started off as.

233
00:12:02,320 --> 00:12:04,679
Speaker 2: Like name calling, people telling me that I was ugly

234
00:12:04,840 --> 00:12:07,520
Speaker 2: or that I was contagious. I don't know why. I'm

235
00:12:07,559 --> 00:12:10,000
Speaker 2: not sure why the school was contagious, but they just

236
00:12:10,040 --> 00:12:12,240
Speaker 2: went with it. So I was like, sure, do you think, dell,

237
00:12:13,559 --> 00:12:17,720
Speaker 2: But yeah, just getting name called and excluded. I think

238
00:12:17,800 --> 00:12:19,880
Speaker 2: that was like as when I was younger, that was

239
00:12:19,920 --> 00:12:22,280
Speaker 2: always the hardest thing, excluded because all you want to

240
00:12:22,320 --> 00:12:24,959
Speaker 2: do all throughout school is be liked and have friends

241
00:12:25,000 --> 00:12:27,560
Speaker 2: and just you know, be in groups of people and

242
00:12:27,600 --> 00:12:29,920
Speaker 2: silk with people at lunch. That I was always that

243
00:12:30,000 --> 00:12:32,559
Speaker 2: kid that would like eat her lunch in the bathroom

244
00:12:32,720 --> 00:12:35,440
Speaker 2: or like, you know, just always sitting at school like

245
00:12:35,559 --> 00:12:38,520
Speaker 2: by myself, and even teachers would exclude me. I would

246
00:12:38,559 --> 00:12:40,400
Speaker 2: like be the only one with my hand up in

247
00:12:40,440 --> 00:12:43,960
Speaker 2: class and they would just kind of look right past

248
00:12:44,000 --> 00:12:46,679
Speaker 2: and then like not answer my questions or anything.

249
00:12:46,760 --> 00:12:48,920
Speaker 3: Like that, and as I.

250
00:12:48,880 --> 00:12:51,520
Speaker 2: Got older and moved around schools, it did turn into

251
00:12:51,520 --> 00:12:55,240
Speaker 2: physical bullying. So around the age of well, well, so,

252
00:12:55,320 --> 00:12:58,000
Speaker 2: at the age of eleven, I had a really invasive

253
00:12:58,120 --> 00:13:01,040
Speaker 2: operation that was called the smile Surge. So it was

254
00:13:01,080 --> 00:13:03,760
Speaker 2: an eight hour long operation and they took tissue from

255
00:13:03,800 --> 00:13:07,559
Speaker 2: my right thigh and implanted it internally from the corners

256
00:13:07,600 --> 00:13:09,599
Speaker 2: of my mouth up until my teen pools across the

257
00:13:09,679 --> 00:13:12,280
Speaker 2: cheap bones. So the idea was that when I would

258
00:13:12,520 --> 00:13:15,360
Speaker 2: clinch down on my jaw, the corners of my mouth

259
00:13:15,360 --> 00:13:18,240
Speaker 2: would turn up to then a smile. And there was

260
00:13:18,280 --> 00:13:20,840
Speaker 2: like a fine line between tightening the tissue too much

261
00:13:20,880 --> 00:13:24,560
Speaker 2: and tightening it not enough, and evidently they didn't tighten

262
00:13:24,600 --> 00:13:27,199
Speaker 2: it enough, and at the time like it completely broken me.

263
00:13:27,320 --> 00:13:29,080
Speaker 2: Like when I say that that was kind of like

264
00:13:29,080 --> 00:13:32,040
Speaker 2: a pivotal moment and like my mental health journey in

265
00:13:32,120 --> 00:13:35,200
Speaker 2: terms of going downhill. And then I was eleven years old.

266
00:13:35,240 --> 00:13:37,640
Speaker 2: That six months after that, I had my first suicide

267
00:13:37,679 --> 00:13:39,000
Speaker 2: attempt at the age of twelve.

268
00:13:39,160 --> 00:13:41,480
Speaker 3: So I think to have.

269
00:13:41,559 --> 00:13:45,720
Speaker 2: Experienced so much bullying and then that operation not being

270
00:13:45,760 --> 00:13:48,200
Speaker 2: successful on top of it, to be so young and

271
00:13:48,280 --> 00:13:51,920
Speaker 2: experience all those emotions and all that hardship and kind

272
00:13:51,960 --> 00:13:54,040
Speaker 2: of have an understanding of not wanting to be on

273
00:13:54,040 --> 00:13:56,880
Speaker 2: this earth. At like twelve years old, it was a

274
00:13:56,920 --> 00:13:59,240
Speaker 2: lot and like looking, I don't think I'll ever gable

275
00:13:59,280 --> 00:14:02,120
Speaker 2: to fully comprehend or understand how bad it was for me,

276
00:14:02,160 --> 00:14:04,480
Speaker 2: because it was normal for me. But after that operation,

277
00:14:04,600 --> 00:14:07,160
Speaker 2: it got a lot worse. The bullying so started turning

278
00:14:07,200 --> 00:14:10,440
Speaker 2: into physical bullying. So peck the wood, like take my

279
00:14:10,480 --> 00:14:13,199
Speaker 2: bags off my back and like throw everything out of it,

280
00:14:13,280 --> 00:14:15,120
Speaker 2: like take my lunch out on my lunch box.

281
00:14:15,120 --> 00:14:16,520
Speaker 3: A lot. You can take my bag, you can take

282
00:14:16,559 --> 00:14:21,280
Speaker 3: my boxes, don't take my lunch. I need food. But

283
00:14:22,160 --> 00:14:23,600
Speaker 3: I would get my knees.

284
00:14:23,320 --> 00:14:26,400
Speaker 2: Kicked from behind when I'd be walking upstairs, I would

285
00:14:26,400 --> 00:14:29,680
Speaker 2: get like cornered, and bathrooms and like people would like

286
00:14:29,800 --> 00:14:32,080
Speaker 2: try to like rip my skirt or like flip my

287
00:14:32,120 --> 00:14:34,720
Speaker 2: skirt up from behind when I'd be like walking upstairs,

288
00:14:34,800 --> 00:14:36,480
Speaker 2: and like this would hap them in front of teachers

289
00:14:36,520 --> 00:14:39,280
Speaker 2: as well, And so it's not like they weren't aware

290
00:14:39,320 --> 00:14:41,840
Speaker 2: of what was happening and all of that stuff. And

291
00:14:41,880 --> 00:14:44,920
Speaker 2: then around the age of I want to say fourteen,

292
00:14:44,960 --> 00:14:48,160
Speaker 2: it was right before my fifteenth birthday that I experienced

293
00:14:48,200 --> 00:14:51,000
Speaker 2: sexual assault and rape for the first time. So between

294
00:14:51,040 --> 00:14:54,680
Speaker 2: the ages of fourteen, around fourteen fifteen to sixteen to

295
00:14:54,680 --> 00:14:56,920
Speaker 2: about a year and a half, I went through rape

296
00:14:56,960 --> 00:14:58,840
Speaker 2: and sexual assault and at the time I didn't know

297
00:14:58,840 --> 00:15:01,920
Speaker 2: what it meant, know what sexual assault or rape was,

298
00:15:02,000 --> 00:15:04,040
Speaker 2: which is one sort opening about talking about it now

299
00:15:04,120 --> 00:15:07,400
Speaker 2: that I was kind of forced into these situations because

300
00:15:07,400 --> 00:15:09,280
Speaker 2: I thought they were my friends at the time. I thought,

301
00:15:09,440 --> 00:15:12,360
Speaker 2: you know, these people really liked me, and then they

302
00:15:12,360 --> 00:15:14,560
Speaker 2: would come to school and like slut shame me and

303
00:15:14,640 --> 00:15:17,760
Speaker 2: like tell all these people that I'd been doing these

304
00:15:17,800 --> 00:15:19,800
Speaker 2: things with them, and I was like that they've been

305
00:15:19,840 --> 00:15:22,080
Speaker 2: doing it too, so why I'm either one that's getting

306
00:15:22,520 --> 00:15:24,480
Speaker 2: like called out on it. But yes, I went through

307
00:15:24,520 --> 00:15:26,760
Speaker 2: all of that, and then I moved away from where

308
00:15:26,800 --> 00:15:29,640
Speaker 2: I was staying at the age of sixteen, so moved

309
00:15:29,680 --> 00:15:32,160
Speaker 2: up to Auckland with my family, and things just really

310
00:15:32,200 --> 00:15:35,120
Speaker 2: went downhill from there. I would wear school, I would

311
00:15:35,240 --> 00:15:38,120
Speaker 2: I just got into the wrong crowd of people. In

312
00:15:38,160 --> 00:15:40,280
Speaker 2: my last year of school, I got a knife pulled

313
00:15:40,320 --> 00:15:43,360
Speaker 2: on me at school because apparently I'd done something wrong

314
00:15:43,480 --> 00:15:45,120
Speaker 2: or any like, you know. It was just it was

315
00:15:45,200 --> 00:15:47,440
Speaker 2: it was a lot going through school and I think

316
00:15:47,440 --> 00:15:49,640
Speaker 2: I made a lot of wrong decisions out of fear

317
00:15:49,680 --> 00:15:52,200
Speaker 2: of not being liked or not being wanted, and again

318
00:15:52,240 --> 00:15:54,520
Speaker 2: a few dark paths that in twenty fifteen, it was

319
00:15:54,560 --> 00:15:57,000
Speaker 2: my last year's school and I started having these seizures

320
00:15:57,000 --> 00:15:59,240
Speaker 2: and collapsing and no one knew what it was about

321
00:15:59,240 --> 00:16:01,280
Speaker 2: at time. Last out of hospital for a good year

322
00:16:01,320 --> 00:16:03,800
Speaker 2: and a half, and it turns out that my brain

323
00:16:03,880 --> 00:16:07,520
Speaker 2: was actually such shutting down. So I'm pretty lucky to

324
00:16:07,560 --> 00:16:10,520
Speaker 2: real life still of it because I've been through so

325
00:16:10,680 --> 00:16:13,560
Speaker 2: much and I was so depressed and anxious all the time.

326
00:16:13,600 --> 00:16:16,080
Speaker 2: Then I was always kind of in a fight or flight,

327
00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:20,160
Speaker 2: more so flight than fight, but because my nervous system

328
00:16:20,200 --> 00:16:22,760
Speaker 2: was under so much pressure and I'd gone through so

329
00:16:22,880 --> 00:16:25,280
Speaker 2: much and I was experiencing like like huge amount of

330
00:16:25,320 --> 00:16:28,600
Speaker 2: PTSD and my body was shutting down. And they finally

331
00:16:28,600 --> 00:16:30,560
Speaker 2: got to the bottom of it, and I went into

332
00:16:31,040 --> 00:16:34,520
Speaker 2: like this rehagged kind of program and I had two

333
00:16:34,520 --> 00:16:37,480
Speaker 2: more suicide attempts after that that. My last suicide attempt

334
00:16:37,520 --> 00:16:41,800
Speaker 2: was when I was twenty, just before my twenty first birthday,

335
00:16:42,400 --> 00:16:45,400
Speaker 2: and then on like a spiritual journey in then, and

336
00:16:45,400 --> 00:16:47,760
Speaker 2: I've done the Rise and Conquer project and that was

337
00:16:47,840 --> 00:16:51,760
Speaker 2: really cool, and yeah, just super grateful to be here

338
00:16:51,800 --> 00:16:53,720
Speaker 2: and to have the story that I have. And I

339
00:16:53,760 --> 00:16:56,680
Speaker 2: don't just say that because I can, like I truly

340
00:16:56,840 --> 00:17:01,360
Speaker 2: like Nina, I'm just so I think everything happens for

341
00:17:01,360 --> 00:17:01,760
Speaker 2: a reason.

342
00:17:01,800 --> 00:17:03,160
Speaker 3: I'm such a huge believer in that.

343
00:17:03,320 --> 00:17:07,000
Speaker 2: And while what I went through wasn't easy, like like

344
00:17:07,160 --> 00:17:10,200
Speaker 2: nading to the person that I am today, and I'm

345
00:17:10,240 --> 00:17:12,360
Speaker 2: so grateful for that. Like I just I wish there

346
00:17:12,440 --> 00:17:14,960
Speaker 2: was like another word to explain how grateful I am

347
00:17:15,040 --> 00:17:17,600
Speaker 2: because I get to help other people and if what

348
00:17:17,680 --> 00:17:19,720
Speaker 2: I went through can help someone, then I'm.

349
00:17:19,560 --> 00:17:20,399
Speaker 3: So grateful for that.

350
00:17:24,680 --> 00:17:27,960
Speaker 1: I just think it's so interesting that you said, you know,

351
00:17:28,560 --> 00:17:33,000
Speaker 1: growing up, you were going through so much turmoil and

352
00:17:33,160 --> 00:17:37,800
Speaker 1: so much you know, I feel like no child, no

353
00:17:37,880 --> 00:17:41,240
Speaker 1: one who's not an adult, should be going through such

354
00:17:41,480 --> 00:17:46,679
Speaker 1: hard things. And I just cannot imagine going through those

355
00:17:46,800 --> 00:17:51,160
Speaker 1: experiences being so young, because like I even think back

356
00:17:51,160 --> 00:17:53,800
Speaker 1: to my childhood, and like you said, it is it's

357
00:17:53,880 --> 00:17:57,960
Speaker 1: this component of I just want to be accepted. I

358
00:17:58,000 --> 00:18:02,159
Speaker 1: remember feeling the exact same way like I would kind of,

359
00:18:02,280 --> 00:18:06,000
Speaker 1: you know, do anything to just be accepted, and I

360
00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:10,640
Speaker 1: can imagine how confusing that was for you. Was there

361
00:18:10,720 --> 00:18:15,280
Speaker 1: anything in your childhood or you know, growing up, like

362
00:18:16,359 --> 00:18:19,320
Speaker 1: was it kind of just that constant negative loop or

363
00:18:19,400 --> 00:18:23,280
Speaker 1: did you find yourself, you know, wanting to accept yourself

364
00:18:23,680 --> 00:18:25,560
Speaker 1: or were you just constantly in that loop?

365
00:18:26,000 --> 00:18:26,320
Speaker 3: Oh?

366
00:18:26,359 --> 00:18:28,800
Speaker 2: For sure, I was definitely always in that negative loop.

367
00:18:28,920 --> 00:18:31,000
Speaker 2: I think there's not a time that I can remember

368
00:18:31,000 --> 00:18:35,040
Speaker 2: that I was ever like I really accept in my childhood, it.

369
00:18:35,040 --> 00:18:36,280
Speaker 1: Just felt like your reality.

370
00:18:36,520 --> 00:18:37,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, for sure.

371
00:18:37,240 --> 00:18:40,560
Speaker 2: I thought it was just normal to like be excluded

372
00:18:40,560 --> 00:18:43,359
Speaker 2: from things. And I thought, like, you know, it's like

373
00:18:43,520 --> 00:18:45,480
Speaker 2: my fault that I was born with this, and like

374
00:18:45,560 --> 00:18:47,159
Speaker 2: this is just what I've got to go through, you know,

375
00:18:47,280 --> 00:18:47,920
Speaker 2: this is just what.

376
00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:48,720
Speaker 3: I've got to deal with.

377
00:18:48,760 --> 00:18:51,879
Speaker 2: And I almost I almost kind of thought in a

378
00:18:51,920 --> 00:18:54,160
Speaker 2: way that it was like a good thing that they

379
00:18:54,160 --> 00:18:55,320
Speaker 2: were like being.

380
00:18:55,080 --> 00:18:57,199
Speaker 3: A mean to me, like like you deserve it.

381
00:18:57,440 --> 00:18:59,120
Speaker 2: You know, like I deserved it. Not a good way,

382
00:18:59,160 --> 00:19:01,440
Speaker 2: but I think I just like I deserved it. I thought,

383
00:19:01,480 --> 00:19:04,200
Speaker 2: because I've been dealing with it for so long that.

384
00:19:04,160 --> 00:19:04,919
Speaker 3: It was just normal.

385
00:19:05,280 --> 00:19:07,440
Speaker 2: I just thought it was normal if someone was different

386
00:19:08,119 --> 00:19:10,520
Speaker 2: to be treated in a negative way.

387
00:19:10,560 --> 00:19:13,120
Speaker 3: And I just you know, would see other people with disabilities,

388
00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:13,760
Speaker 3: other people that.

389
00:19:13,800 --> 00:19:16,159
Speaker 2: Were different and I would also see them like getting

390
00:19:16,200 --> 00:19:18,479
Speaker 2: treated and feeling and I thought it was just normal.

391
00:19:18,640 --> 00:19:20,320
Speaker 2: You know, it's just you know, there's nothing I can

392
00:19:20,359 --> 00:19:22,560
Speaker 2: do about it. But again, which is why I'm so

393
00:19:22,760 --> 00:19:25,400
Speaker 2: like open and vulnerable about it now, because I want

394
00:19:25,880 --> 00:19:28,199
Speaker 2: you just don't even know who you're gonna talk to

395
00:19:28,280 --> 00:19:30,840
Speaker 2: or who you're gonna who your story is gonna come across,

396
00:19:30,880 --> 00:19:33,560
Speaker 2: and you know, if they're going through something hard or

397
00:19:33,880 --> 00:19:35,679
Speaker 2: they're in a hard time of their life, you just

398
00:19:35,680 --> 00:19:38,480
Speaker 2: want them to know that no matter what, they are

399
00:19:38,480 --> 00:19:40,800
Speaker 2: good enough as they are and they are worthy to

400
00:19:40,920 --> 00:19:43,040
Speaker 2: love themselves and be loved by other people.

401
00:19:44,680 --> 00:19:47,040
Speaker 1: I really, I know we're gonna, you know, switch gears

402
00:19:47,040 --> 00:19:50,000
Speaker 1: and talk about what change when you were twenty, But

403
00:19:50,119 --> 00:19:53,680
Speaker 1: before we go there, now, looking back, you know, through

404
00:19:53,680 --> 00:19:57,000
Speaker 1: your childhood, through everything you know you went through, Like

405
00:19:57,119 --> 00:19:59,840
Speaker 1: let's maybe think of the age twelve, you know, when

406
00:19:59,880 --> 00:20:03,800
Speaker 1: you you did go through that first suicidal experience, Like

407
00:20:03,960 --> 00:20:06,280
Speaker 1: what would you tell little Taylor now?

408
00:20:06,480 --> 00:20:10,680
Speaker 2: I would say that everything happens for a reason, and

409
00:20:11,119 --> 00:20:14,000
Speaker 2: it might be hard now and you've still got a

410
00:20:14,040 --> 00:20:15,680
Speaker 2: lot of things to go through. It's not going to

411
00:20:15,760 --> 00:20:18,160
Speaker 2: be easy for a long time. But what you're going

412
00:20:18,160 --> 00:20:20,480
Speaker 2: through right now is going to change people's lives, and

413
00:20:20,560 --> 00:20:22,399
Speaker 2: you're going to be able to help more people, and

414
00:20:22,440 --> 00:20:24,240
Speaker 2: you're going to be out to experience like the most

415
00:20:24,720 --> 00:20:30,879
Speaker 2: encryptb You're going to get experience the most incredible things

416
00:20:30,920 --> 00:20:35,120
Speaker 2: that help people, and like, you just can't, you cannot

417
00:20:35,160 --> 00:20:38,119
Speaker 2: even understand what your life is going to be like

418
00:20:38,160 --> 00:20:40,320
Speaker 2: in like ten years, you know, because it's someone who

419
00:20:40,359 --> 00:20:42,040
Speaker 2: told me at the age of twelve that I was

420
00:20:42,080 --> 00:20:45,239
Speaker 2: going to be going to Nichros because World Games as

421
00:20:45,320 --> 00:20:48,720
Speaker 2: part of like an investable team and being assigned model

422
00:20:48,800 --> 00:20:52,119
Speaker 2: and being on like amazing podcasts like these, ensaring my

423
00:20:52,200 --> 00:20:55,000
Speaker 2: story with people and working with brands that like you're

424
00:20:55,040 --> 00:20:58,000
Speaker 2: growing up loving and being on the news and all

425
00:20:58,040 --> 00:21:00,240
Speaker 2: this sort of stuff. You know, I think I just

426
00:21:00,280 --> 00:21:03,240
Speaker 2: would never have believed it that. I think it's just

427
00:21:03,480 --> 00:21:05,639
Speaker 2: been in the most organic and natural way. And I

428
00:21:05,680 --> 00:21:08,760
Speaker 2: think as I've grown in my confidence, I've stooped more

429
00:21:08,800 --> 00:21:10,960
Speaker 2: and more into my power and more and more into

430
00:21:11,040 --> 00:21:12,800
Speaker 2: knowing who I am and knowing that this is what

431
00:21:12,880 --> 00:21:15,600
Speaker 2: I was born to do. And I went through everything

432
00:21:15,600 --> 00:21:18,040
Speaker 2: that I went through for this exact reason, which is

433
00:21:18,080 --> 00:21:19,600
Speaker 2: just why I'm so grateful for it.

434
00:21:19,800 --> 00:21:23,879
Speaker 1: So yeah, it's like the thought that came to me

435
00:21:23,920 --> 00:21:26,439
Speaker 1: then was like you just tell like little Taylor to

436
00:21:26,600 --> 00:21:35,960
Speaker 1: like not give up the whole episode too much. No,

437
00:21:36,200 --> 00:21:38,760
Speaker 1: like we said of air, which is going to be

438
00:21:38,800 --> 00:21:41,800
Speaker 1: So we're just getting out of emotions and it's beautiful

439
00:21:41,920 --> 00:21:44,640
Speaker 1: and I think, you know, it's important to have these

440
00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:48,159
Speaker 1: hard conversations if there's a reason why, you know, we

441
00:21:48,200 --> 00:21:51,679
Speaker 1: feel these emotions. So it's really really incredible and.

442
00:21:51,720 --> 00:21:52,560
Speaker 3: They're not sad.

443
00:21:54,280 --> 00:21:57,120
Speaker 2: Because I honestly, I think when you just feel so

444
00:21:57,200 --> 00:22:02,560
Speaker 2: grateful for everything, Like yeah, people think like you're crying

445
00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:04,680
Speaker 2: because you're said that, I'm like crying because.

446
00:22:04,480 --> 00:22:06,840
Speaker 1: I'm just like so grateful and I can I can

447
00:22:06,960 --> 00:22:10,560
Speaker 1: feel that, and that's why I'm crying because I can

448
00:22:10,760 --> 00:22:15,280
Speaker 1: absolutely feel that happy dial you know, well, let's you know,

449
00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:17,600
Speaker 1: change gears a little bit and let's talk about this,

450
00:22:17,880 --> 00:22:21,520
Speaker 1: you know, pivotal time. Like you said, when you were twenty,

451
00:22:21,640 --> 00:22:25,000
Speaker 1: you went on this spiritual journey and your life truly changed.

452
00:22:25,040 --> 00:22:28,000
Speaker 1: And like, when you think about it, that's only five

453
00:22:28,119 --> 00:22:33,080
Speaker 1: years ago. And to think, you know, like who you

454
00:22:33,160 --> 00:22:37,720
Speaker 1: are now, what you've accomplished, even your your mindset, your

455
00:22:37,720 --> 00:22:41,320
Speaker 1: mental health, only five years ago. Being at that point

456
00:22:41,480 --> 00:22:44,359
Speaker 1: is just it's incredible. That's like a life, you know,

457
00:22:44,480 --> 00:22:47,080
Speaker 1: lifetime journey. Can you tell us a little bit more

458
00:22:47,119 --> 00:22:50,600
Speaker 1: about like what was the pivotal moment what changed for you?

459
00:22:50,920 --> 00:22:54,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, So it was after my last suicide tint at

460
00:22:54,400 --> 00:22:56,879
Speaker 2: around like just before my twenty first birthday, and I

461
00:22:56,920 --> 00:23:00,200
Speaker 2: was a really obviously dark s thought and just wasn't

462
00:23:00,240 --> 00:23:03,919
Speaker 2: doing well. And a couple of days after, I was

463
00:23:03,960 --> 00:23:06,040
Speaker 2: just in my room and like I would like, there

464
00:23:06,080 --> 00:23:08,399
Speaker 2: was literally like wet patches on my floor from me

465
00:23:08,520 --> 00:23:10,440
Speaker 2: like bawling my eyes out. There was no one home,

466
00:23:10,480 --> 00:23:13,000
Speaker 2: and I was just like, I just don't see how

467
00:23:13,000 --> 00:23:16,240
Speaker 2: it's going to get any better. Anyway, I just randomly

468
00:23:16,280 --> 00:23:18,800
Speaker 2: went on my laptop and started watching YouTube and this

469
00:23:19,000 --> 00:23:21,919
Speaker 2: video came up cold. It was like talking about The Secret,

470
00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:23,919
Speaker 2: and I was like, what is this like secret? I

471
00:23:23,960 --> 00:23:26,679
Speaker 2: want to know what a secret is? I'm interested. So

472
00:23:27,240 --> 00:23:28,919
Speaker 2: I clicked on it and it started talking about the

473
00:23:28,920 --> 00:23:31,399
Speaker 2: book The Secret, which is like a kind of like

474
00:23:31,480 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 2: one of the main books and like people's spiritual journey,

475
00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:35,520
Speaker 2: and I think a lot of people find it when

476
00:23:35,520 --> 00:23:36,280
Speaker 2: they first start.

477
00:23:36,359 --> 00:23:38,240
Speaker 3: And I was like, I feel like I've.

478
00:23:38,040 --> 00:23:39,960
Speaker 2: Seen that book somewhere in my house, and so I

479
00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:42,639
Speaker 2: went looking and ten minutes later I found it on

480
00:23:42,640 --> 00:23:44,240
Speaker 2: my mum's bedside table.

481
00:23:44,680 --> 00:23:45,160
Speaker 4: Wow.

482
00:23:45,280 --> 00:23:47,119
Speaker 2: Yeah, And she was like, I don't even need the

483
00:23:47,160 --> 00:23:50,119
Speaker 2: cutting net there, which is like the like, honestly, it's

484
00:23:50,160 --> 00:23:52,400
Speaker 2: I just got ghost ons. It gives me ghost stocks

485
00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:53,879
Speaker 2: every time I talk about it, because it was like

486
00:23:53,880 --> 00:23:59,240
Speaker 2: that is just some crazy magical shit right there. But yes,

487
00:23:59,320 --> 00:24:02,600
Speaker 2: I found this, read it all through the first day

488
00:24:02,680 --> 00:24:04,800
Speaker 2: in about like an hour or so, and I'll like,

489
00:24:05,040 --> 00:24:07,840
Speaker 2: right in that moment, like obviously it took time after

490
00:24:07,880 --> 00:24:10,720
Speaker 2: that to connect habits, but my whole nine set shift

491
00:24:10,800 --> 00:24:14,400
Speaker 2: in that afternoon. So like two days previous, I'd been

492
00:24:14,440 --> 00:24:17,080
Speaker 2: like suicidal and like attempting to take my own life,

493
00:24:17,440 --> 00:24:19,280
Speaker 2: and then two days later I was like I can

494
00:24:19,359 --> 00:24:19,680
Speaker 2: do this.

495
00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:25,520
Speaker 1: Wow. So that just that book completely changed your life.

496
00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:29,199
Speaker 2: Yeah, And I think as I've grown, my spiritual journey

497
00:24:29,240 --> 00:24:34,280
Speaker 2: has also grown, and I've kind of found what I

498
00:24:34,560 --> 00:24:35,399
Speaker 2: has worked for me.

499
00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:37,959
Speaker 1: You know, like what about that book or like what

500
00:24:38,119 --> 00:24:40,560
Speaker 1: about the concept was like kind of the light bulb

501
00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 1: moment for you.

502
00:24:41,760 --> 00:24:44,800
Speaker 2: I think it was the fact that kind of how

503
00:24:44,880 --> 00:24:47,280
Speaker 2: your thoughts create your reality and it just clicked for

504
00:24:47,359 --> 00:24:50,240
Speaker 2: me that, yes, I'd had these like horrible things happened

505
00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:53,040
Speaker 2: to me. I'd also been in online set where I

506
00:24:53,160 --> 00:24:56,159
Speaker 2: just expected them to happen because they were happening to me,

507
00:24:56,640 --> 00:24:59,520
Speaker 2: and it had been It's what I'd always known that

508
00:24:59,600 --> 00:25:01,680
Speaker 2: the same. It kind of clicked for me that if

509
00:25:01,680 --> 00:25:04,960
Speaker 2: I steck something different, or if I love myself in

510
00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:07,680
Speaker 2: a different way, or if I choose a different path

511
00:25:07,680 --> 00:25:09,840
Speaker 2: of myself, or I choose different thoughts from myself, then

512
00:25:09,880 --> 00:25:10,600
Speaker 2: I can change.

513
00:25:10,440 --> 00:25:11,080
Speaker 3: It around for me.

514
00:25:11,119 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 2: And I do just want to like clarify that it

515
00:25:13,880 --> 00:25:17,840
Speaker 2: didn't happen overnight. I had to like work really hard

516
00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:20,720
Speaker 2: to implement these new habits and implement these new kind

517
00:25:20,720 --> 00:25:24,240
Speaker 2: of thought thoughts and how I felt about myself. And

518
00:25:24,280 --> 00:25:26,280
Speaker 2: it was a huge journey. Just getting to a point

519
00:25:26,280 --> 00:25:28,119
Speaker 2: where I didn't have to think about that any or

520
00:25:28,200 --> 00:25:30,000
Speaker 2: like that took at least like a year or two,

521
00:25:30,040 --> 00:25:32,480
Speaker 2: and that was like a huge part of what got

522
00:25:32,520 --> 00:25:36,199
Speaker 2: me through, you know, those initial years. And then I

523
00:25:36,280 --> 00:25:41,000
Speaker 2: found yourself on social media and the Rise in Conquer project,

524
00:25:41,119 --> 00:25:43,960
Speaker 2: and I think I think the Rise in Conker project

525
00:25:44,000 --> 00:25:46,440
Speaker 2: really helped me in a way to kind of establish

526
00:25:46,800 --> 00:25:49,480
Speaker 2: a new mindset for me and a new kind of.

527
00:25:50,000 --> 00:25:51,560
Speaker 3: Because that was kind of the first time in a

528
00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:52,000
Speaker 3: project that.

529
00:25:52,000 --> 00:25:54,359
Speaker 2: I'd ever kind of heard about limiting beliefs and like,

530
00:25:54,960 --> 00:25:57,679
Speaker 2: you know, really trying to unravel what kind of limiting

531
00:25:57,720 --> 00:26:00,280
Speaker 2: beliefs I had grown up with and kind of for

532
00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:03,840
Speaker 2: myself and breaking them down. So the Rising Convocroage, it

533
00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:06,239
Speaker 2: was amazing. It really helped me kind of smash all

534
00:26:06,280 --> 00:26:09,520
Speaker 2: those limiting beliefs. And I think since then I did

535
00:26:09,560 --> 00:26:13,680
Speaker 2: that must have been two years ago, maybe year and

536
00:26:13,720 --> 00:26:16,280
Speaker 2: a half. I really that's so good. I should have

537
00:26:16,320 --> 00:26:18,040
Speaker 2: a name of it. It was like it was like

538
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:21,200
Speaker 2: maybe like round three, yeah, potentially, Yeah, a couple of

539
00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:24,080
Speaker 2: years ago. And since then, I've just I feel like

540
00:26:24,119 --> 00:26:27,600
Speaker 2: my spirituality journey has like up leveled so much. And

541
00:26:28,000 --> 00:26:30,560
Speaker 2: it's crazy because when you talk about limiting the leafs,

542
00:26:31,240 --> 00:26:33,640
Speaker 2: they're really like blockages. And I feel like every sort

543
00:26:33,640 --> 00:26:35,240
Speaker 2: of limiting the leaf because I had a lot to

544
00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:39,080
Speaker 2: go through, trust me, relimiting belief I kind of broke

545
00:26:39,160 --> 00:26:41,840
Speaker 2: through more and more things just happening.

546
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:42,600
Speaker 3: So naturally for me.

547
00:26:42,680 --> 00:26:44,840
Speaker 2: And that's the way you explained it, like the less

548
00:26:44,920 --> 00:26:48,119
Speaker 2: kind of resistance you have, the easier life is for you.

549
00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:50,400
Speaker 2: And it's like life is happening for us, not to us,

550
00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:53,120
Speaker 2: And it just rings so true when you talk about

551
00:26:53,119 --> 00:26:55,840
Speaker 2: limiting the leafs and how how kind of crazy is

552
00:26:55,920 --> 00:26:59,000
Speaker 2: how much kind of how much kind of charge they

553
00:26:59,000 --> 00:27:02,320
Speaker 2: have on us. You know, they really affect the way

554
00:27:02,359 --> 00:27:05,479
Speaker 2: we live our lives. But the way you kind of

555
00:27:06,160 --> 00:27:08,320
Speaker 2: think about it now and the way you change your

556
00:27:08,359 --> 00:27:11,040
Speaker 2: limiting beliefs, it like changes your life.

557
00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:16,639
Speaker 1: So yeah, wow, And so talk to me about you know,

558
00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:20,840
Speaker 1: you're going on their spiritual journey changing your mindset, Like

559
00:27:20,920 --> 00:27:23,880
Speaker 1: what were some of the very first things that you

560
00:27:24,000 --> 00:27:27,720
Speaker 1: did that helped you know, you on your journey.

561
00:27:28,119 --> 00:27:31,480
Speaker 2: So I really got into meditation quite early on, even

562
00:27:31,640 --> 00:27:34,000
Speaker 2: just like starting off for five minutes, because you know,

563
00:27:34,160 --> 00:27:37,320
Speaker 2: I was always an overthinker and really struggled with trying

564
00:27:37,359 --> 00:27:43,199
Speaker 2: to not overthink in every situation. I was like liketognisant

565
00:27:43,200 --> 00:27:46,679
Speaker 2: for but really learning to kind of sit on my

566
00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:49,439
Speaker 2: mind and really pay attention to the thoughts that were

567
00:27:49,480 --> 00:27:51,359
Speaker 2: coming into their head rather than just going through the

568
00:27:51,400 --> 00:27:53,600
Speaker 2: day and feeling like down and out all the time.

569
00:27:53,680 --> 00:27:57,040
Speaker 2: And went on locks lots of like walks and everything

570
00:27:57,480 --> 00:28:01,800
Speaker 2: and really kind of surrounded my self worth kind of

571
00:28:01,840 --> 00:28:04,080
Speaker 2: positivity and changed a lot of the things I was

572
00:28:04,160 --> 00:28:06,959
Speaker 2: viewing on social media as well, because I realized that

573
00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:11,120
Speaker 2: what I was consuming probably wasn't helping the either, So

574
00:28:11,320 --> 00:28:14,040
Speaker 2: just kind of implanting things into my life that were

575
00:28:14,080 --> 00:28:16,560
Speaker 2: going to help me and like nurture the way I

576
00:28:16,600 --> 00:28:17,320
Speaker 2: was going about it.

577
00:28:18,960 --> 00:28:23,919
Speaker 1: Guys, let's be honest. When we're not sleeping, we're pretty

578
00:28:23,960 --> 00:28:27,640
Speaker 1: much our worse selves. When Ivy wasn't sleeping as a newborn,

579
00:28:28,240 --> 00:28:31,600
Speaker 1: I turned into just the worst. And she's sleeping now,

580
00:28:31,920 --> 00:28:35,359
Speaker 1: But it just made me realize how important sleep is.

581
00:28:35,760 --> 00:28:39,920
Speaker 1: And that's why my absolute holy Grail and H product

582
00:28:40,280 --> 00:28:44,920
Speaker 1: has to be Moon Milk. Moon milk was also my idea.

583
00:28:45,320 --> 00:28:50,000
Speaker 1: Moon Milk is our functional blend of unique herbs, vitamins,

584
00:28:50,200 --> 00:28:54,280
Speaker 1: minerals designed to relax your body and mind and have

585
00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:58,640
Speaker 1: a calming effect on your nervous system. So we honestly

586
00:28:58,920 --> 00:29:03,320
Speaker 1: had the most amazing testimonies from our NH gang and

587
00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:06,760
Speaker 1: it has been reported to help people sleep at night,

588
00:29:07,320 --> 00:29:11,080
Speaker 1: help them to wake up feeling energized, and just put

589
00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:15,080
Speaker 1: them in a really really great relaxed moove. So we

590
00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:19,760
Speaker 1: have a whole bunch of delicious flavors available. My favorite

591
00:29:20,080 --> 00:29:23,600
Speaker 1: is definitely Rocky Road, but I know the og is

592
00:29:23,960 --> 00:29:27,640
Speaker 1: just everyone cannot go past it. Basically, guys, moon milk

593
00:29:27,960 --> 00:29:32,320
Speaker 1: is vegan, gluten free, dairy free, or natural, and I

594
00:29:32,320 --> 00:29:35,480
Speaker 1: would be using this product as obviously to help you

595
00:29:35,560 --> 00:29:38,840
Speaker 1: relax and unwind, but also if you're like me where

596
00:29:38,960 --> 00:29:41,719
Speaker 1: you just want to finish the night with something sweet,

597
00:29:42,040 --> 00:29:44,400
Speaker 1: So this is like my go to. I've had dinner,

598
00:29:44,520 --> 00:29:47,200
Speaker 1: I make myself a Moon milk, I watch my Netflix,

599
00:29:47,560 --> 00:29:50,280
Speaker 1: and I literally have the best sleep and wake up

600
00:29:50,320 --> 00:29:54,080
Speaker 1: feeling refreshed as always. Guys, I have my potty form

601
00:29:54,200 --> 00:29:58,520
Speaker 1: a cheeky discount. You can use Rise and Conquer Podcasts

602
00:29:58,520 --> 00:30:01,920
Speaker 1: at checkout for ten percent off. That is Rise and

603
00:30:01,960 --> 00:30:05,440
Speaker 1: Conquered Podcasts spelled out completely. Of course that will be

604
00:30:05,480 --> 00:30:08,160
Speaker 1: in the show notes, and of course you can shop

605
00:30:08,200 --> 00:30:12,560
Speaker 1: at Naked Harvest Supplements dot com. All right, guys, let's

606
00:30:12,600 --> 00:30:16,360
Speaker 1: get back into the episode. What sort of things did

607
00:30:16,400 --> 00:30:21,240
Speaker 1: you change on social media? Was it unfollowing certain people differently?

608
00:30:21,360 --> 00:30:21,440
Speaker 2: Like?

609
00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:23,640
Speaker 1: What sort of people did you like? You don't have

610
00:30:23,680 --> 00:30:26,600
Speaker 1: to name names, we don't do that. Yeah, just going

611
00:30:26,640 --> 00:30:30,840
Speaker 1: on a name things, don't name any names, Like, were

612
00:30:31,160 --> 00:30:34,440
Speaker 1: was it more like diversity? Were you following more people

613
00:30:34,840 --> 00:30:38,760
Speaker 1: you know? Similar to you or unfollowing people in a

614
00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:39,920
Speaker 1: certain tells.

615
00:30:41,040 --> 00:30:43,479
Speaker 2: Well, the thing was, I was still following a lot

616
00:30:43,520 --> 00:30:46,560
Speaker 2: of people from school, and like, it's funny, because I'll

617
00:30:46,560 --> 00:30:50,000
Speaker 2: never forget this. I just started kind of getting the

618
00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:52,800
Speaker 2: courage to start posting on social media again my own journey.

619
00:30:52,840 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 2: I had no intention of growing my platform to what

620
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,680
Speaker 2: it's grown too, but it just kind of happened because

621
00:30:57,720 --> 00:31:02,440
Speaker 2: people were interested. And the one girl from my old school,

622
00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:04,320
Speaker 2: I can tell you a couple of stories. It was

623
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:07,200
Speaker 2: the one girl from my old school who really hurt me,

624
00:31:07,440 --> 00:31:09,960
Speaker 2: you know, and I'd like been so forgiving of her

625
00:31:10,000 --> 00:31:12,200
Speaker 2: in a way that was like so unhealthy. I just

626
00:31:12,280 --> 00:31:14,480
Speaker 2: kind of was like, it's fine, like you, I just

627
00:31:14,520 --> 00:31:17,320
Speaker 2: gave her excuse after excuse as to why her behavior

628
00:31:17,400 --> 00:31:20,200
Speaker 2: was okay to me when it wasn't. And I remember

629
00:31:20,240 --> 00:31:23,440
Speaker 2: her messaging me on Instagram and I'd got maybe to

630
00:31:23,520 --> 00:31:27,440
Speaker 2: about fifteen thousand followers at this point, and she was like, Oh,

631
00:31:27,440 --> 00:31:30,520
Speaker 2: it's so amazing to see you doing so well, and

632
00:31:31,240 --> 00:31:33,760
Speaker 2: you know, we should like hang out and all this

633
00:31:33,800 --> 00:31:36,800
Speaker 2: sort of stuff. And old Taylor would have been like, Yep,

634
00:31:36,880 --> 00:31:39,520
Speaker 2: that's so fine that this new Taylor, this new kind

635
00:31:39,520 --> 00:31:42,560
Speaker 2: of mindset I was in. I just locked her and

636
00:31:42,680 --> 00:31:45,560
Speaker 2: like literally it was the easiest thing I've ever done

637
00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:47,360
Speaker 2: in my life. And it sounds so stupid. It's like

638
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:51,280
Speaker 2: you're blocking someone. It's easy that when you've been boundaries, yeah,

639
00:31:51,320 --> 00:31:53,920
Speaker 2: and when you're changing from an old version of yourself

640
00:31:53,920 --> 00:31:56,800
Speaker 2: to a new version of yourself, that kind of gray

641
00:31:56,960 --> 00:31:59,400
Speaker 2: in between areas so hard to navigate.

642
00:31:59,480 --> 00:32:01,200
Speaker 3: Especially it was so early on.

643
00:32:01,160 --> 00:32:04,400
Speaker 2: And like kind of changing myself and I found it

644
00:32:04,480 --> 00:32:06,720
Speaker 2: so hard. But at the same time that was so freeing.

645
00:32:06,760 --> 00:32:08,440
Speaker 2: And I've just never looked back from that, and I've

646
00:32:08,480 --> 00:32:11,280
Speaker 2: actually just gone and like blocked everyone from like like

647
00:32:11,320 --> 00:32:11,800
Speaker 2: my past.

648
00:32:11,880 --> 00:32:14,200
Speaker 3: It's been so amazing. I love it. Blocking is so fun.

649
00:32:16,640 --> 00:32:19,320
Speaker 1: It is the most quote of the episode. Blocking is

650
00:32:19,360 --> 00:32:22,360
Speaker 1: so fun. No, No, you know what, Like you know

651
00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:25,840
Speaker 1: what that is? That is you knowing your worth and

652
00:32:25,880 --> 00:32:28,600
Speaker 1: going no, you do not get to end to my life,

653
00:32:28,680 --> 00:32:31,560
Speaker 1: like and that is such a strong boundary, and.

654
00:32:32,120 --> 00:32:33,600
Speaker 3: It's I do it so easily.

655
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:38,320
Speaker 1: Now, good, don't you don't deserve my time or energy?

656
00:32:38,480 --> 00:32:39,560
Speaker 3: No, one hundred percent.

657
00:32:39,640 --> 00:32:42,240
Speaker 2: And I think I think what people really need to realize,

658
00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:43,680
Speaker 2: and I know you talk about it a lot, that

659
00:32:44,080 --> 00:32:48,560
Speaker 2: the importance of one knowing your worth not just in

660
00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:51,320
Speaker 2: your body, but also in your mindset and your life

661
00:32:51,320 --> 00:32:53,600
Speaker 2: and your day to day, knowing what you deserve, knowing

662
00:32:53,600 --> 00:32:57,200
Speaker 2: your worth, and knowing the energy that you have you

663
00:32:57,280 --> 00:32:59,840
Speaker 2: need some of that. You know, you need your energy

664
00:32:59,880 --> 00:33:01,640
Speaker 2: to be given to you. You need to fill your

665
00:33:01,640 --> 00:33:03,760
Speaker 2: own cup up before you can fill others up. And

666
00:33:04,280 --> 00:33:06,600
Speaker 2: I always felt guilty for a long time for trying

667
00:33:06,640 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 2: to like do things for myself because I had always

668
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:12,800
Speaker 2: just trying to be pleasing other people. And so when

669
00:33:12,800 --> 00:33:15,040
Speaker 2: I finally took that stick to fill up my own cup,

670
00:33:15,160 --> 00:33:17,040
Speaker 2: it was hard at first, but it's so easy for

671
00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:19,320
Speaker 2: me now because I know that the more energy I

672
00:33:19,360 --> 00:33:21,520
Speaker 2: have for myself, the more I have for other people.

673
00:33:21,600 --> 00:33:24,320
Speaker 2: And it's such like kind of like an ironic situation

674
00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:26,640
Speaker 2: to be in. But it's just like I just watched

675
00:33:26,680 --> 00:33:28,200
Speaker 2: the more people knew it so that we could have

676
00:33:28,240 --> 00:33:30,600
Speaker 2: a happier world around us.

677
00:33:31,520 --> 00:33:34,680
Speaker 1: No, that's incredible, and like I don't think that's a

678
00:33:34,720 --> 00:33:37,520
Speaker 1: small thing. I think so many people would still let,

679
00:33:37,960 --> 00:33:41,280
Speaker 1: you know, toxic people or people who mistreated them, you know,

680
00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:44,560
Speaker 1: into their life, into their energy because they almost feel

681
00:33:44,920 --> 00:33:47,200
Speaker 1: bad or they feel like they've got to please that person.

682
00:33:47,320 --> 00:33:50,400
Speaker 1: So I think having those strong boundaries is like, it's

683
00:33:50,560 --> 00:33:53,760
Speaker 1: so important, and I love what you said. It's almost

684
00:33:53,800 --> 00:33:56,440
Speaker 1: like liberating be like, no, you don't get to you

685
00:33:56,440 --> 00:33:59,800
Speaker 1: didn't get to watch this, like not interested.

686
00:33:59,400 --> 00:34:01,680
Speaker 2: You know what a little bit toxic. But sometimes I

687
00:34:01,720 --> 00:34:03,240
Speaker 2: think I've never done it before, But.

688
00:34:03,960 --> 00:34:05,360
Speaker 1: Tell us, tell us how you really.

689
00:34:05,520 --> 00:34:08,560
Speaker 2: Really Sometimes I just feel like, surely I just unlock

690
00:34:08,600 --> 00:34:10,040
Speaker 2: them for a day so they can see how well

691
00:34:10,040 --> 00:34:14,600
Speaker 2: I'm doing, and then block them again. Yeah, I've never

692
00:34:14,640 --> 00:34:17,480
Speaker 2: done it, but sometimes it something like the toxic tailor

693
00:34:17,760 --> 00:34:19,160
Speaker 2: really wants this to happen.

694
00:34:19,600 --> 00:34:22,560
Speaker 1: Look, we're any humans, You're allowed to have those thoughts.

695
00:34:22,640 --> 00:34:25,800
Speaker 1: And but I think, like, I think that's incredible because

696
00:34:26,360 --> 00:34:29,000
Speaker 1: I think you have such you have come such a

697
00:34:29,200 --> 00:34:32,799
Speaker 1: long long way, and those small things is like it's

698
00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:36,520
Speaker 1: what makes the journey. I would love to kind of

699
00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:41,360
Speaker 1: know more about your self acceptance journey, because like you said,

700
00:34:41,440 --> 00:34:45,799
Speaker 1: you went from thinking that getting like bleed and then

701
00:34:45,840 --> 00:34:49,200
Speaker 1: physically bullied is what you deserved, thinking you know, you

702
00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:52,560
Speaker 1: were different and you weren't meant to be on this earth,

703
00:34:52,719 --> 00:34:57,120
Speaker 1: Like from that extremely dark place to now being where

704
00:34:57,160 --> 00:34:59,800
Speaker 1: you are, now where you're like the most incredible human.

705
00:35:00,040 --> 00:35:02,600
Speaker 1: You've come such a long way and just like I

706
00:35:02,600 --> 00:35:05,400
Speaker 1: don't know your essence, your light is just it's just

707
00:35:05,480 --> 00:35:08,879
Speaker 1: beaming like you're here for a reason and you can

708
00:35:08,960 --> 00:35:13,040
Speaker 1: just you can feel that, and that's it's huge. Just

709
00:35:13,040 --> 00:35:15,560
Speaker 1: to add to that, I think it's like the funny

710
00:35:15,760 --> 00:35:18,240
Speaker 1: like I love how I love your sense of humor.

711
00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:21,680
Speaker 1: We're we're big here and being funny in the r

712
00:35:21,760 --> 00:35:24,040
Speaker 1: n C, in the r n C fam, and I

713
00:35:24,080 --> 00:35:26,440
Speaker 1: love how I think I saw something on social media

714
00:35:26,480 --> 00:35:29,080
Speaker 1: where you had a comment why do you look that way?

715
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:33,480
Speaker 1: And then you said, it's I know, it's so hard

716
00:35:33,520 --> 00:35:38,880
Speaker 1: being this attractive, and it's just like it's so good.

717
00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:42,640
Speaker 1: Everything about you is just I think it's just perfect.

718
00:35:42,800 --> 00:35:45,360
Speaker 1: And I feel like obviously you've come on a journey

719
00:35:45,400 --> 00:35:47,399
Speaker 1: to get to that spot. Can you tell us about that?

720
00:35:48,239 --> 00:35:51,880
Speaker 2: Yeah, well, I feel like this journey in particular, I

721
00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:55,000
Speaker 2: mean it differently wasn't harder than what I went through,

722
00:35:55,719 --> 00:35:58,440
Speaker 2: you know, growing up, but it was differentely so hard

723
00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:02,279
Speaker 2: and I feel think it all started when my spirituality

724
00:36:02,320 --> 00:36:05,360
Speaker 2: journey started that I think the hardest thing for me

725
00:36:05,640 --> 00:36:08,680
Speaker 2: was kind of getting over that hurdle of feeling like

726
00:36:09,120 --> 00:36:11,560
Speaker 2: I wasn't good enough because I couldn't smile, and like

727
00:36:11,680 --> 00:36:15,799
Speaker 2: all my life growing up, I would always be introduced

728
00:36:16,200 --> 00:36:18,799
Speaker 2: or like you know, people would like come to me

729
00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:20,680
Speaker 2: and say, oh, you're the girl who can't smile, or

730
00:36:20,719 --> 00:36:24,160
Speaker 2: you can't smile, or even at school pictures, people would say,

731
00:36:24,200 --> 00:36:26,319
Speaker 2: like smile and then someone would yell out from that

732
00:36:26,440 --> 00:36:28,719
Speaker 2: like oh she can't would laugh, and it like was

733
00:36:29,080 --> 00:36:32,720
Speaker 2: something that really I struggled with because I just thought

734
00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:34,880
Speaker 2: if I could smile, And the whole reason I wanted

735
00:36:34,880 --> 00:36:37,440
Speaker 2: to get the operation that I talked about earlier to

736
00:36:37,520 --> 00:36:40,000
Speaker 2: begin with was because I thought, in my twelve year

737
00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:42,279
Speaker 2: old brain, if I can smile, I'll be liked, and

738
00:36:42,320 --> 00:36:44,640
Speaker 2: if I can smile, I'll be pretty, and if I

739
00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:47,120
Speaker 2: can smile, I'll have friends, and if I can smile,

740
00:36:47,200 --> 00:36:48,960
Speaker 2: that voice will like me and all that sort of

741
00:36:48,960 --> 00:36:52,200
Speaker 2: stuff and so and because it was ingrained for so

742
00:36:52,280 --> 00:36:54,239
Speaker 2: long that I'm not talking like five or six years,

743
00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:56,960
Speaker 2: I'm talking like from as long as I can runningber

744
00:36:57,080 --> 00:36:59,920
Speaker 2: my first thought up until the age of twenty twenty one,

745
00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:02,800
Speaker 2: Like that's a long that's like a lot of life

746
00:37:02,880 --> 00:37:09,080
Speaker 2: to kind of unpack and then reframe. So it kind

747
00:37:09,160 --> 00:37:14,960
Speaker 2: of it's gonna sound so stupid, but I literally just

748
00:37:15,040 --> 00:37:18,239
Speaker 2: decided one day. I was just like, fuck it, I'm

749
00:37:18,280 --> 00:37:20,800
Speaker 2: just going to do it, and it's going to be hard,

750
00:37:20,960 --> 00:37:30,640
Speaker 2: but like me, not being a little smile is not

751
00:37:30,719 --> 00:37:35,239
Speaker 2: being able to smile is what makes me me, and

752
00:37:36,480 --> 00:37:39,600
Speaker 2: being a little smile is the thing. Not being able

753
00:37:39,640 --> 00:37:41,920
Speaker 2: to smile, sorry, is the greatest gift I could have

754
00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:46,320
Speaker 2: ever been given. And while it's taken me through a lot,

755
00:37:46,520 --> 00:37:48,480
Speaker 2: and I've been through a lot, and I've had to

756
00:37:48,520 --> 00:37:50,759
Speaker 2: deal with a lot of negativity and a lot of

757
00:37:51,840 --> 00:37:55,040
Speaker 2: loneliness and exclusion, not being able to smile is what

758
00:37:55,120 --> 00:37:56,840
Speaker 2: makes me me. It's the greatest gift I could have

759
00:37:56,920 --> 00:38:01,000
Speaker 2: ever been given. I'm so thankful that I can't smile

760
00:38:01,480 --> 00:38:05,920
Speaker 2: because people like love me for that, you know, And

761
00:38:06,000 --> 00:38:08,360
Speaker 2: I've found my people who really love me for that,

762
00:38:08,600 --> 00:38:11,719
Speaker 2: and like people online, it's just so well to me

763
00:38:11,800 --> 00:38:14,400
Speaker 2: that you can go on a platform like Instagram or

764
00:38:14,440 --> 00:38:18,840
Speaker 2: TikTok and be accepted for something that you were bullied

765
00:38:18,840 --> 00:38:21,880
Speaker 2: for for so long. Not only that, that inspire others

766
00:38:22,160 --> 00:38:24,440
Speaker 2: and I think that's what's really kept me going because

767
00:38:24,480 --> 00:38:26,120
Speaker 2: I was like, this is what I'm here to do,

768
00:38:26,200 --> 00:38:28,200
Speaker 2: and obviously I'm going to have my down days or

769
00:38:28,239 --> 00:38:30,800
Speaker 2: like everyone has these days where they feel insecure or

770
00:38:30,800 --> 00:38:32,919
Speaker 2: they feel like they're just not feeling good on that day.

771
00:38:32,920 --> 00:38:34,719
Speaker 3: And I'm not adverse to that.

772
00:38:34,800 --> 00:38:37,560
Speaker 2: That I just don't know how asked to say, other

773
00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:39,439
Speaker 2: than not being able to smile, as the greatest gift

774
00:38:39,440 --> 00:38:42,000
Speaker 2: I could have ever been given. And it took me

775
00:38:42,040 --> 00:38:44,640
Speaker 2: a while to realize that that I'm one in four

776
00:38:44,680 --> 00:38:45,879
Speaker 2: million and.

777
00:38:47,880 --> 00:38:48,600
Speaker 1: So special.

778
00:38:50,480 --> 00:38:54,279
Speaker 2: I mean, we're all different, but I think just it's

779
00:38:54,360 --> 00:38:56,719
Speaker 2: just honestly the greatest gift. Like I just don't know

780
00:38:56,760 --> 00:38:59,120
Speaker 2: how else to say it, but I wish I could

781
00:38:59,120 --> 00:39:02,319
Speaker 2: be reborn again the same person and like know that

782
00:39:02,440 --> 00:39:05,520
Speaker 2: from the start. Yeah, and then I would wonder how

783
00:39:05,640 --> 00:39:08,239
Speaker 2: that would have been like different. They're going up that

784
00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:10,560
Speaker 2: everything happens for a reason, and I'm just grateful that

785
00:39:10,560 --> 00:39:11,759
Speaker 2: to hecken the way they're it did.

786
00:39:12,120 --> 00:39:14,120
Speaker 3: Oh. I just.

787
00:39:15,560 --> 00:39:18,000
Speaker 1: I think, like you just being like I just decided,

788
00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:21,320
Speaker 1: I just decided I was going to accept myself and actually,

789
00:39:21,719 --> 00:39:23,880
Speaker 1: you know who I was born to be is exactly

790
00:39:24,120 --> 00:39:26,239
Speaker 1: you know who I am, and that's just the most

791
00:39:26,239 --> 00:39:30,400
Speaker 1: special thing. It's just, yeah, it's just incredible, and I

792
00:39:30,440 --> 00:39:34,080
Speaker 1: think it very much, like you know, it reminds me.

793
00:39:34,200 --> 00:39:37,960
Speaker 1: You hear so many people say things like oh, I'll

794
00:39:38,040 --> 00:39:40,640
Speaker 1: you know, I'll do that when I'm skinny, or I'll

795
00:39:40,640 --> 00:39:44,400
Speaker 1: do this when this, and they're they're waiting for something

796
00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:47,280
Speaker 1: and they're waiting, you know, they they want to change

797
00:39:47,280 --> 00:39:50,319
Speaker 1: something about themselves that, like you said, that's what makes

798
00:39:50,320 --> 00:39:54,560
Speaker 1: them special, that's what makes them different. And it wouldn't

799
00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:57,160
Speaker 1: it be. I feel like we are getting so much

800
00:39:57,200 --> 00:39:59,640
Speaker 1: better because, like you said, you can get on Instagram

801
00:39:59,680 --> 00:40:02,160
Speaker 1: or TI talk and you know, find your people. But

802
00:40:02,680 --> 00:40:06,880
Speaker 1: imagine if we all embraced our differences from the very start.

803
00:40:07,040 --> 00:40:11,239
Speaker 1: Imagine how powerful we would be. Like it's it's just

804
00:40:11,640 --> 00:40:16,560
Speaker 1: makes me sad thinking about it. Sometimes cries again, it

805
00:40:16,560 --> 00:40:18,759
Speaker 1: makes me sad thinking about it. But it's like, there

806
00:40:18,840 --> 00:40:23,160
Speaker 1: is no better time to start than now, to be like, no,

807
00:40:23,360 --> 00:40:26,839
Speaker 1: actually I can be different and that makes me, you know,

808
00:40:27,200 --> 00:40:31,440
Speaker 1: perfectly me and I love that You're like, just decide.

809
00:40:31,120 --> 00:40:32,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's simple.

810
00:40:33,040 --> 00:40:35,160
Speaker 2: And I also just want to say while I running there,

811
00:40:35,440 --> 00:40:38,080
Speaker 2: yeah that you know, I had no one when I

812
00:40:38,120 --> 00:40:39,920
Speaker 2: was growing up to look up to. No one in

813
00:40:39,960 --> 00:40:42,440
Speaker 2: the front of magazines, no one in the median, no

814
00:40:42,480 --> 00:40:45,719
Speaker 2: one presenting the news, no one you know, doing all

815
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:49,440
Speaker 2: that stuff, and I think to be that person for

816
00:40:49,560 --> 00:40:51,640
Speaker 2: people now. I don't really like to say that because

817
00:40:51,680 --> 00:40:55,600
Speaker 2: it's so weird. It's so important, but you know, I

818
00:40:55,640 --> 00:40:57,720
Speaker 2: just want to say to anyone out there who feels

819
00:40:57,760 --> 00:41:01,000
Speaker 2: like they don't and or they don't because they don't

820
00:41:01,440 --> 00:41:04,000
Speaker 2: see themselves being represented, and I hope I can do

821
00:41:04,040 --> 00:41:04,720
Speaker 2: that for people.

822
00:41:04,760 --> 00:41:06,640
Speaker 3: But I just want to say, you know, to.

823
00:41:06,760 --> 00:41:10,640
Speaker 2: Accept yourself is probably one of the most powerful things

824
00:41:10,640 --> 00:41:13,840
Speaker 2: you could ever do for yourself. And it might feel

825
00:41:13,840 --> 00:41:16,799
Speaker 2: awkward at first, it might feel kind of weird and

826
00:41:16,880 --> 00:41:19,960
Speaker 2: like uncomfortable. That the more you go with it and

827
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:22,600
Speaker 2: the more you keep telling yourself to accept yourself. I

828
00:41:22,800 --> 00:41:27,920
Speaker 2: promised you, like a thousand, million, trillion percent the things

829
00:41:28,000 --> 00:41:31,160
Speaker 2: that will fall into place after you accept yourself and

830
00:41:32,040 --> 00:41:34,160
Speaker 2: really look after yourself and love yourself.

831
00:41:34,960 --> 00:41:37,000
Speaker 3: It's the most natural thing ever. And I'm not just

832
00:41:37,040 --> 00:41:38,600
Speaker 3: saying that, like it truly.

833
00:41:39,680 --> 00:41:44,000
Speaker 1: It was like that was so moving, that was just beautiful.

834
00:41:44,000 --> 00:41:49,319
Speaker 1: I hope we've call that depth. Sorry, it's just to

835
00:41:49,320 --> 00:41:55,040
Speaker 1: have a hug Jamie and a TiO here great if

836
00:41:55,040 --> 00:41:58,080
Speaker 1: we we're crying, because it's just it's so incredible, Like,

837
00:41:58,160 --> 00:42:01,759
Speaker 1: I'm so happy for you an think like what you're

838
00:42:01,920 --> 00:42:06,000
Speaker 1: doing is so huge and that's exactly right. Like you're

839
00:42:06,200 --> 00:42:09,479
Speaker 1: literally representing people who don't see themselves on social media,

840
00:42:09,480 --> 00:42:12,840
Speaker 1: who don't see themselves in mainstream media, and it needs

841
00:42:12,880 --> 00:42:13,600
Speaker 1: to change.

842
00:42:15,160 --> 00:42:16,480
Speaker 3: I hope I can do that for them.

843
00:42:16,760 --> 00:42:17,760
Speaker 2: You are.

844
00:42:20,080 --> 00:42:25,880
Speaker 1: You've answered my next question anyway, what are your you know,

845
00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:28,640
Speaker 1: your sort of tips if you have, like, you know,

846
00:42:28,880 --> 00:42:31,439
Speaker 1: three or four tips that you could say someone who

847
00:42:31,520 --> 00:42:34,400
Speaker 1: they do deal with low self esteem and you know

848
00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:37,480
Speaker 1: they're struggling with self worth, what are some things that

849
00:42:37,560 --> 00:42:40,800
Speaker 1: they can actually, you know, implement maybe in the daily

850
00:42:40,880 --> 00:42:43,479
Speaker 1: routine or in their life that has, you know, really

851
00:42:43,480 --> 00:42:44,720
Speaker 1: help you get to this point.

852
00:42:44,920 --> 00:42:46,799
Speaker 3: Well, I'm gonna throw a bit of a spinner in

853
00:42:46,800 --> 00:42:47,400
Speaker 3: the works.

854
00:42:49,000 --> 00:42:51,719
Speaker 2: I don't have any tips because I feel like that

855
00:42:52,000 --> 00:42:54,800
Speaker 2: journey is very like personal I think you've got to

856
00:42:54,840 --> 00:42:57,880
Speaker 2: find what works for you. And I feel like my

857
00:42:58,080 --> 00:43:01,040
Speaker 2: kind of journey really started when I and to myself

858
00:43:01,080 --> 00:43:04,359
Speaker 2: and really started learning about intuition and learning what felt

859
00:43:04,400 --> 00:43:04,799
Speaker 2: good for me.

860
00:43:04,920 --> 00:43:07,760
Speaker 3: But I do have more of a concept. It's probably

861
00:43:07,760 --> 00:43:08,359
Speaker 3: going to make you.

862
00:43:08,320 --> 00:43:14,400
Speaker 2: Cry again, got no time left, but it sounds really

863
00:43:14,440 --> 00:43:17,080
Speaker 2: simple when you say it out loud, but to fully

864
00:43:17,360 --> 00:43:21,000
Speaker 2: understand and grasp that you listening right now are the

865
00:43:21,160 --> 00:43:24,399
Speaker 2: only you in this world, Like there's no one else

866
00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:26,600
Speaker 2: like you. And yes, I say in one informalion, but

867
00:43:26,840 --> 00:43:29,640
Speaker 2: really I'm one, And like, however, billions of people on

868
00:43:29,680 --> 00:43:32,719
Speaker 2: this earth, I'm the only person that can share my

869
00:43:32,920 --> 00:43:35,520
Speaker 2: story and do what I do the way I do it.

870
00:43:35,600 --> 00:43:38,000
Speaker 2: And we could be very similar, me and Georgia. It

871
00:43:38,000 --> 00:43:41,040
Speaker 2: could be very similar that we've both got two completely

872
00:43:41,120 --> 00:43:43,920
Speaker 2: different things to kind of deliver into this world. And

873
00:43:43,960 --> 00:43:46,680
Speaker 2: I think it sounds so simple, but just sit with it,

874
00:43:46,760 --> 00:43:48,840
Speaker 2: like pause the podcast right now, and just sit with

875
00:43:48,880 --> 00:43:51,120
Speaker 2: it and understand the idea that you are the only

876
00:43:51,200 --> 00:43:54,520
Speaker 2: person alive on this earth ever that can do what

877
00:43:54,600 --> 00:43:56,560
Speaker 2: you can do, and that is the way you are.

878
00:43:56,680 --> 00:43:58,680
Speaker 3: And you may think you want to fit.

879
00:43:58,520 --> 00:44:01,080
Speaker 2: In with a super certain group of like a certain

880
00:44:01,120 --> 00:44:03,799
Speaker 2: way of life, but just sit and figure out what

881
00:44:03,840 --> 00:44:06,839
Speaker 2: you want and like really kind of understand what you

882
00:44:06,880 --> 00:44:09,200
Speaker 2: want and learn to understand what you want, and I

883
00:44:09,320 --> 00:44:10,920
Speaker 2: promise you that everything.

884
00:44:10,520 --> 00:44:12,400
Speaker 3: Will work out the way it's supposed to.

885
00:44:12,680 --> 00:44:15,400
Speaker 2: I think, like I've already said, self acceptance and self

886
00:44:15,400 --> 00:44:18,600
Speaker 2: love is the most beautiful thing and it sounds stupid

887
00:44:18,680 --> 00:44:21,480
Speaker 2: and it's cringey and it sounds weird, that like, when

888
00:44:21,520 --> 00:44:23,719
Speaker 2: you do it, it's the most freeing thing and it

889
00:44:23,760 --> 00:44:27,640
Speaker 2: gives you so much power to live your most authentic life.

890
00:44:27,760 --> 00:44:30,000
Speaker 2: And I think that's just so special, and like more

891
00:44:30,040 --> 00:44:31,720
Speaker 2: people need to do it. I think the more people

892
00:44:31,960 --> 00:44:34,000
Speaker 2: will do it, the happier this world will be. But

893
00:44:34,560 --> 00:44:36,759
Speaker 2: you know, I just hope that I can inspire like

894
00:44:36,920 --> 00:44:39,719
Speaker 2: one person out there today to like understand that they're

895
00:44:39,760 --> 00:44:43,279
Speaker 2: the only person in this world and they're beautiful the

896
00:44:43,280 --> 00:44:43,839
Speaker 2: way they are.

897
00:44:44,440 --> 00:44:46,359
Speaker 1: No one is you, and that is your power. Yeah,

898
00:44:48,800 --> 00:44:54,279
Speaker 1: I just love you. I think that's like that's the best,

899
00:44:54,360 --> 00:44:58,200
Speaker 1: most incredible advice anyone could give, because, like you said,

900
00:44:58,239 --> 00:44:59,880
Speaker 1: it is, it's going to be so different for every

901
00:45:00,200 --> 00:45:04,319
Speaker 1: there's no cookie cutter, but listening to what's in here,

902
00:45:04,719 --> 00:45:06,960
Speaker 1: listening to your intuition, that's.

903
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:07,960
Speaker 4: Going to be so powerful.

904
00:45:08,040 --> 00:45:11,360
Speaker 1: So thank you so much for sharing so much vulnerability

905
00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:14,800
Speaker 1: and sharing so much of your journey. I know how hard.

906
00:45:15,360 --> 00:45:17,959
Speaker 1: Well don't actually know, but I could imagine how hard

907
00:45:18,000 --> 00:45:21,560
Speaker 1: that is for you. And I think you constantly showing

908
00:45:21,680 --> 00:45:25,400
Speaker 1: up for yourself, constantly showing up for this important message

909
00:45:25,800 --> 00:45:29,000
Speaker 1: is it's literally changing, you know, the world, and it's

910
00:45:29,040 --> 00:45:31,880
Speaker 1: it's so needed. It's just so incredible.

911
00:45:32,320 --> 00:45:32,799
Speaker 3: Thank you.

912
00:45:33,160 --> 00:45:35,480
Speaker 1: Before we finish the potty, though, I really wanted to

913
00:45:35,480 --> 00:45:38,440
Speaker 1: touch on something because something that I just loved in

914
00:45:38,480 --> 00:45:43,160
Speaker 1: your journey because it was almost so random. We love it,

915
00:45:43,239 --> 00:45:45,640
Speaker 1: We love it. But you're really good at shot put.

916
00:45:48,280 --> 00:45:51,080
Speaker 3: I never I'm never able to get around this one.

917
00:45:51,160 --> 00:45:52,879
Speaker 3: Everyone always asks me about it.

918
00:45:53,719 --> 00:45:56,359
Speaker 1: Can you tell us a little bit about how that

919
00:45:56,520 --> 00:45:59,200
Speaker 1: entered your life, how you know how that may have

920
00:45:59,320 --> 00:46:02,480
Speaker 1: changed you and your journey and what that meant to you.

921
00:46:03,040 --> 00:46:04,880
Speaker 3: Yeah, so a lot of people don't know.

922
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:07,160
Speaker 2: But I was actually a swimmer for like ten years

923
00:46:07,520 --> 00:46:11,239
Speaker 2: before I got into athletics, So I was I represented

924
00:46:11,280 --> 00:46:15,360
Speaker 2: New Zealand at least ten times in swarming, which was

925
00:46:15,400 --> 00:46:18,120
Speaker 2: really cool as a paralym PIC athlete. And then I

926
00:46:18,160 --> 00:46:22,319
Speaker 2: had to quit in two thousand and fifteen because I

927
00:46:22,520 --> 00:46:24,520
Speaker 2: was in and out of hospital with my mental health.

928
00:46:24,840 --> 00:46:26,520
Speaker 3: I just couldn't keep up with the training. I had

929
00:46:26,560 --> 00:46:27,239
Speaker 3: a lot going on.

930
00:46:27,600 --> 00:46:29,759
Speaker 2: Yeah, and I kind of knew at the time that

931
00:46:29,840 --> 00:46:33,000
Speaker 2: I was going to maybe get back in the spot.

932
00:46:33,040 --> 00:46:35,160
Speaker 2: I felt like I wasn't completely done. I wasn't sure

933
00:46:35,160 --> 00:46:36,880
Speaker 2: that it was going to be swimming, because you know,

934
00:46:36,920 --> 00:46:38,560
Speaker 2: that had been a huge part of my life and

935
00:46:38,600 --> 00:46:40,759
Speaker 2: I just felt like I needed a change. But I

936
00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:43,520
Speaker 2: was in my first year of rehab and got to

937
00:46:43,560 --> 00:46:46,120
Speaker 2: the end of twenty sixteen, I was like, oh, I

938
00:46:46,200 --> 00:46:47,800
Speaker 2: kind of want to give sport ago. And then a

939
00:46:47,840 --> 00:46:51,360
Speaker 2: couple of days later, the paralym pic body in Auckland

940
00:46:51,800 --> 00:46:54,200
Speaker 2: from athletics. They contacted and they were like, just by

941
00:46:54,200 --> 00:46:55,360
Speaker 2: the off chance, do you want to.

942
00:46:55,360 --> 00:46:58,160
Speaker 3: Give athletics ago? And I was like, yeah, sure that.

943
00:46:58,200 --> 00:47:00,439
Speaker 2: I won't be running anywhere. I'm not a I don't

944
00:47:00,440 --> 00:47:03,160
Speaker 2: want to run. There's just no way. I'm not running.

945
00:47:03,160 --> 00:47:04,680
Speaker 3: All power walk but I won't run.

946
00:47:05,320 --> 00:47:06,520
Speaker 1: And we're hearing that one.

947
00:47:07,400 --> 00:47:09,200
Speaker 2: So they're like, yeah, you can come and give like

948
00:47:09,239 --> 00:47:11,040
Speaker 2: shot putal justice about and I was like sweet. So

949
00:47:11,080 --> 00:47:13,960
Speaker 2: I rapped up to this athletics kind of track and

950
00:47:14,000 --> 00:47:15,840
Speaker 2: they gave me a shot cut and they're like just

951
00:47:15,880 --> 00:47:17,799
Speaker 2: throw it. And I was like, well, what do you mean.

952
00:47:17,840 --> 00:47:19,480
Speaker 2: They're like, just do eat it in school, and I

953
00:47:19,520 --> 00:47:22,280
Speaker 2: was like okay, So I sent back in the circle

954
00:47:22,360 --> 00:47:24,600
Speaker 2: and I just throw it and this guy looks at me,

955
00:47:24,880 --> 00:47:26,799
Speaker 2: looks me up and down and was like, hang on

956
00:47:27,080 --> 00:47:29,120
Speaker 2: and he like gets out his bone and like calls

957
00:47:29,120 --> 00:47:31,359
Speaker 2: a couple of people. They all come over. So now

958
00:47:31,400 --> 00:47:33,200
Speaker 2: there's like five people on the side of this like

959
00:47:33,280 --> 00:47:35,920
Speaker 2: shot put pitch thing whatever you call it. Yeah, And

960
00:47:36,200 --> 00:47:38,360
Speaker 2: I was like, well, now there's more pressure.

961
00:47:38,239 --> 00:47:40,120
Speaker 1: Because now there's like five people.

962
00:47:40,440 --> 00:47:42,040
Speaker 2: Do it again, I know, And I was like, well

963
00:47:42,080 --> 00:47:45,000
Speaker 2: what if I can't, But I do it again and

964
00:47:45,040 --> 00:47:47,400
Speaker 2: they measure and they're like, Taylor, you've just broken the

965
00:47:47,440 --> 00:47:53,560
Speaker 2: New Zealand record and your classification just first go yeah, nothing,

966
00:47:53,800 --> 00:47:55,839
Speaker 2: And I was just like, oh, okay, then you'll give

967
00:47:55,880 --> 00:47:56,439
Speaker 2: it a go there.

968
00:47:57,160 --> 00:47:58,880
Speaker 3: You don't have to twist my arm anymore.

969
00:47:59,280 --> 00:48:01,160
Speaker 2: But you're so A couple months later, I was on

970
00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:03,560
Speaker 2: a flight to know them to compete at the Victoria

971
00:48:03,680 --> 00:48:06,600
Speaker 2: State Chanks ended up coming second there and becoming world

972
00:48:06,719 --> 00:48:10,560
Speaker 2: number one in my classification. And then two months and

973
00:48:10,600 --> 00:48:13,280
Speaker 2: then a year later sorry, at the New Zealand Nationals

974
00:48:13,280 --> 00:48:15,800
Speaker 2: in twenty nineteen, I ended up breaking the world record

975
00:48:15,880 --> 00:48:17,399
Speaker 2: in my classification, so that.

976
00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:18,040
Speaker 3: Was pretty cool.

977
00:48:18,080 --> 00:48:21,040
Speaker 2: And then a couple months later I got injured and

978
00:48:21,160 --> 00:48:23,200
Speaker 2: I just kind of never went back because a lot

979
00:48:23,200 --> 00:48:25,239
Speaker 2: of things were happening in this spoor. I wasn't really

980
00:48:25,239 --> 00:48:27,000
Speaker 2: getting treated right. And I was at the point in

981
00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:29,560
Speaker 2: my journey where like I was really sitting boundaries for myself,

982
00:48:29,600 --> 00:48:32,440
Speaker 2: and I knew that I had to focus on myself

983
00:48:32,480 --> 00:48:34,520
Speaker 2: heavily otherwise I was gonna keep going around on that

984
00:48:34,560 --> 00:48:38,359
Speaker 2: negative length. So I've never looked back, and I'm doing

985
00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:42,680
Speaker 2: a lot more fun things now. The sport definitely taught

986
00:48:42,719 --> 00:48:46,920
Speaker 2: me a lot about commitment and resilience, and I guess,

987
00:48:47,320 --> 00:48:49,480
Speaker 2: in a weird way, believing in yourself, because not that

988
00:48:49,560 --> 00:48:52,319
Speaker 2: I really ever believed in myself for a long time,

989
00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:55,320
Speaker 2: but I think sport has a funny way of teaching

990
00:48:55,320 --> 00:48:57,200
Speaker 2: you to believe in yourself, whether you know it at

991
00:48:57,200 --> 00:48:58,680
Speaker 2: the time or not. And I think it gave me

992
00:48:58,680 --> 00:49:01,239
Speaker 2: a really great foundation to kind of continue there on

993
00:49:01,400 --> 00:49:04,680
Speaker 2: into my kind of like life outside of sport.

994
00:49:05,680 --> 00:49:08,319
Speaker 1: That's such an incredible achievement. I love how we weren't

995
00:49:08,320 --> 00:49:09,960
Speaker 1: even going to just talk about it and you're like, oh, yeah,

996
00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:15,440
Speaker 1: breath the world record, easy, easy, Taylor. It has just

997
00:49:15,480 --> 00:49:18,279
Speaker 1: been such a pleasure to have you here and you know,

998
00:49:18,520 --> 00:49:21,879
Speaker 1: get into your story and like I said, your vulnerability

999
00:49:22,200 --> 00:49:26,800
Speaker 1: is just it's literally going to change so many people's

1000
00:49:26,800 --> 00:49:30,440
Speaker 1: lives and it's not a small thing, and I just

1001
00:49:30,480 --> 00:49:33,600
Speaker 1: feel so grateful that I got to chat to you

1002
00:49:33,640 --> 00:49:38,000
Speaker 1: today and before we go though, I'm so interested to

1003
00:49:38,120 --> 00:49:40,200
Speaker 1: know I don't have to explain this question to you

1004
00:49:40,239 --> 00:49:42,600
Speaker 1: because you should know from the project. You know, I

1005
00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:45,799
Speaker 1: chat about core beliefs, and I would just absolutely love

1006
00:49:45,840 --> 00:49:47,440
Speaker 1: to know. I feel like I may be able to

1007
00:49:47,440 --> 00:49:49,919
Speaker 1: guess it, but could you share one of your core

1008
00:49:50,000 --> 00:49:54,040
Speaker 1: beliefs that has really been like really pinnacle in you know,

1009
00:49:54,120 --> 00:49:56,600
Speaker 1: through this getting you to where you are today?

1010
00:49:56,640 --> 00:49:59,880
Speaker 2: Sorry, well, I'm sure most people who are listening to

1011
00:50:00,440 --> 00:50:02,720
Speaker 2: but my number one, called the Leaf is everything happens

1012
00:50:02,719 --> 00:50:05,480
Speaker 2: for a reason. The story behind it and why I

1013
00:50:05,520 --> 00:50:08,520
Speaker 2: really resonate with it is because when I was on

1014
00:50:08,560 --> 00:50:11,080
Speaker 2: my Rehead journey, and you know, I was only really

1015
00:50:11,120 --> 00:50:13,600
Speaker 2: starting out, and I kept on thinking to myself, you know,

1016
00:50:13,640 --> 00:50:15,560
Speaker 2: why me, Why did I have to go through this?

1017
00:50:15,680 --> 00:50:17,600
Speaker 2: Like I was on a really dark spot and I

1018
00:50:17,680 --> 00:50:20,160
Speaker 2: just couldn't understand why I was the one that had

1019
00:50:20,200 --> 00:50:22,440
Speaker 2: to be born without a smile, Why I was the

1020
00:50:22,480 --> 00:50:23,160
Speaker 2: one that had to.

1021
00:50:23,120 --> 00:50:25,239
Speaker 3: Be one informally, and like why did why did?

1022
00:50:25,280 --> 00:50:27,480
Speaker 2: Why did I have to go through all this stuff?

1023
00:50:27,880 --> 00:50:30,200
Speaker 2: Because I just didn't want to do it. You know,

1024
00:50:30,280 --> 00:50:32,279
Speaker 2: I just didn't want to like go through all of it.

1025
00:50:32,320 --> 00:50:34,320
Speaker 2: I just got triplet where I was tired, I was exhausted,

1026
00:50:34,360 --> 00:50:36,120
Speaker 2: and I was like, I just can't do it anymore.

1027
00:50:36,200 --> 00:50:39,520
Speaker 2: And I read this, I was obviously read the secret,

1028
00:50:39,600 --> 00:50:41,960
Speaker 2: And as I started sticking in more and more to

1029
00:50:42,000 --> 00:50:44,319
Speaker 2: my power and understanding the power that I had with

1030
00:50:44,480 --> 00:50:47,360
Speaker 2: not being able to smile, I realized that everything happens

1031
00:50:47,400 --> 00:50:47,920
Speaker 2: for a reason.

1032
00:50:48,280 --> 00:50:49,239
Speaker 3: And I know we.

1033
00:50:49,320 --> 00:50:51,439
Speaker 2: Touched on it earlier that if I could say one

1034
00:50:51,520 --> 00:50:53,640
Speaker 2: thing to like twelve year old tailor or all the

1035
00:50:53,680 --> 00:50:56,000
Speaker 2: people out there who are struggling right now. Life can

1036
00:50:56,040 --> 00:50:58,960
Speaker 2: be hard sometimes and we don't deserve a lot of

1037
00:50:59,080 --> 00:51:02,040
Speaker 2: things that people do to us. It's not a reflection

1038
00:51:02,280 --> 00:51:04,600
Speaker 2: of who we are. It's a projection of the person

1039
00:51:04,680 --> 00:51:06,640
Speaker 2: doing those things to you. And in a way, it

1040
00:51:06,640 --> 00:51:08,960
Speaker 2: almost makes me like more sad for the people who

1041
00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:11,520
Speaker 2: did those things to me, because I wonder what they

1042
00:51:11,560 --> 00:51:13,680
Speaker 2: were going through in their life to treat me the

1043
00:51:13,719 --> 00:51:15,920
Speaker 2: way that they do, because even with everything that I

1044
00:51:16,000 --> 00:51:19,560
Speaker 2: went through, like I would just never without a comprehending

1045
00:51:19,600 --> 00:51:22,839
Speaker 2: that to someone. So I really hope that they're doing

1046
00:51:22,920 --> 00:51:25,000
Speaker 2: okay now because I know how hard it can be

1047
00:51:25,080 --> 00:51:27,560
Speaker 2: to feel like you're not good enough, or you know,

1048
00:51:27,600 --> 00:51:29,920
Speaker 2: you're just not happy. But I think out of everything

1049
00:51:29,960 --> 00:51:33,120
Speaker 2: I went through, the bullying and the exclusion and being

1050
00:51:33,200 --> 00:51:37,040
Speaker 2: excluded from everything really taught me that to be yourself

1051
00:51:37,080 --> 00:51:39,759
Speaker 2: in a world where so many people want to be

1052
00:51:39,880 --> 00:51:42,560
Speaker 2: like everyone else is such a beautiful thing. And like

1053
00:51:42,640 --> 00:51:44,920
Speaker 2: I've already said, being not being able to smile as

1054
00:51:44,960 --> 00:51:46,719
Speaker 2: the greatest gift I could have ever been given, and

1055
00:51:46,760 --> 00:51:47,560
Speaker 2: I wouldn't.

1056
00:51:47,280 --> 00:51:47,840
Speaker 3: Change it for the.

1057
00:51:51,080 --> 00:51:53,640
Speaker 2: I'm just so grateful that I've like come to a

1058
00:51:53,680 --> 00:51:56,480
Speaker 2: realization where i can be so confident in saying that

1059
00:51:56,520 --> 00:51:59,719
Speaker 2: because I've been through so much that I'm just so

1060
00:52:00,000 --> 00:52:02,360
Speaker 2: grateful for all of it and it all again, and

1061
00:52:02,400 --> 00:52:04,839
Speaker 2: I could help more people, because that's all I want

1062
00:52:04,880 --> 00:52:05,120
Speaker 2: to do.

1063
00:52:08,680 --> 00:52:11,880
Speaker 1: For another Taylor, I just want to say thank you

1064
00:52:11,920 --> 00:52:14,840
Speaker 1: so much for being so vulnerable and sharing your story.

1065
00:52:15,080 --> 00:52:18,960
Speaker 1: It's we are so grateful to have you. We're so

1066
00:52:19,080 --> 00:52:21,720
Speaker 1: lucky to have you, and it's just it's been incredible

1067
00:52:21,800 --> 00:52:22,680
Speaker 1: chatting to you today.

1068
00:52:22,960 --> 00:52:24,919
Speaker 2: Oh, thank you so much for having me. I hope

1069
00:52:24,920 --> 00:52:26,520
Speaker 2: I didn't make too many people cry at.

1070
00:52:26,480 --> 00:52:31,280
Speaker 1: Home, all of us. I just bowling. No, it's it's

1071
00:52:31,280 --> 00:52:32,040
Speaker 1: it's amazing.

1072
00:52:32,239 --> 00:52:34,640
Speaker 3: It's it's really amazing. Oh, thank you so much.

1073
00:52:36,600 --> 00:52:40,080
Speaker 1: Thank you so much for listening to another episode of

1074
00:52:40,120 --> 00:52:43,279
Speaker 1: the Rise and Conquer podcast. If you enjoyed it and

1075
00:52:43,400 --> 00:52:47,080
Speaker 1: want more, come connect with us on Instagram at Rise

1076
00:52:47,120 --> 00:52:51,520
Speaker 1: Andconquer dot podcast and join our Facebook discussion group, a

1077
00:52:51,640 --> 00:52:55,840
Speaker 1: Rise and Concer podcast community. We're an independent podcast and

1078
00:52:55,920 --> 00:52:58,480
Speaker 1: we have a small team, so we do appreciate your

1079
00:52:58,520 --> 00:53:01,120
Speaker 1: time and support. If you have a spare moment, a

1080
00:53:01,280 --> 00:53:05,560
Speaker 1: follow or subscribe on whatever platform you listen to would

1081
00:53:05,560 --> 00:53:09,560
Speaker 1: be so amazing. And look, if you're feeling extra kind,

1082
00:53:09,760 --> 00:53:22,920
Speaker 1: a review on Apple Podcasts would be great.