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Speaker 1: Hello and welcome back to the Rise and Conquer Podcasts.

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Speaker 1: you with timing and just putting up a little bit

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00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:46,320
Speaker 1: higher so the sperm, you know, it doesn't die off

436
00:25:46,320 --> 00:25:52,280
Speaker 1: as much. So we started looking into that and I

437
00:25:52,400 --> 00:25:54,760
Speaker 1: was like to Tim, I was like, let's just try this. Obviously,

438
00:25:55,440 --> 00:25:57,919
Speaker 1: like I'm not ready to do the IVF, It's definitely

439
00:25:57,920 --> 00:26:00,480
Speaker 1: something I'll consider in the future, but I would like

440
00:26:00,520 --> 00:26:03,800
Speaker 1: to try this because for me also, it just got

441
00:26:03,920 --> 00:26:08,119
Speaker 1: very stressful because I was the one who had to

442
00:26:08,200 --> 00:26:12,040
Speaker 1: track my ovulation, and just because of my lifestyle and

443
00:26:12,119 --> 00:26:17,800
Speaker 1: running two companies and whatnot, I was ovulating weird. So

444
00:26:17,920 --> 00:26:21,639
Speaker 1: like some weeks, sorry, some months, I would ovulate like

445
00:26:21,760 --> 00:26:25,600
Speaker 1: day ten, and then some months I would ovulate day eighteen.

446
00:26:26,119 --> 00:26:29,880
Speaker 1: So my cycles, even though the actual cycle was normal

447
00:26:30,080 --> 00:26:34,000
Speaker 1: about a thirty day cycle, my ovulation was out of wax.

448
00:26:34,040 --> 00:26:36,679
Speaker 1: So that's why my doctor was like, I recommend you

449
00:26:36,720 --> 00:26:39,840
Speaker 1: do this. It's really going to help with you knowing

450
00:26:39,840 --> 00:26:42,879
Speaker 1: when you're ovulating, and it kind of takes out the

451
00:26:42,960 --> 00:26:45,520
Speaker 1: stress because that's also another thing, like to be very

452
00:26:45,560 --> 00:26:49,040
Speaker 1: transparent with you guys, after you've been trying for over

453
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:52,639
Speaker 1: the year, over a year, like and you're having to

454
00:26:52,720 --> 00:26:56,520
Speaker 1: have sex at specific times in the month all the time,

455
00:26:57,320 --> 00:27:00,240
Speaker 1: it's like not very fun and romantic, like it kind

456
00:27:00,240 --> 00:27:02,280
Speaker 1: of takes the fun out of it. It's like fun

457
00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:04,880
Speaker 1: at the start, and then by the end you're like, oh,

458
00:27:05,680 --> 00:27:07,280
Speaker 1: and it was it was like just getting to the

459
00:27:07,280 --> 00:27:10,120
Speaker 1: point where it wasn't romantic. It was taking the fun

460
00:27:10,160 --> 00:27:13,840
Speaker 1: out of it. So by knowing like, okay, ovulating now,

461
00:27:13,960 --> 00:27:15,280
Speaker 1: we're putting the sperm in.

462
00:27:16,040 --> 00:27:17,000
Speaker 3: Now it's just up.

463
00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:21,320
Speaker 1: To like nature to takes its course, it just put

464
00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:25,040
Speaker 1: so much less pressure on me. And I think that

465
00:27:25,200 --> 00:27:30,480
Speaker 1: was honestly the trick. So in February, we actually did

466
00:27:30,600 --> 00:27:34,879
Speaker 1: a cycle, a first cycle in February, and we actually

467
00:27:34,880 --> 00:27:39,439
Speaker 1: had to cancel it because I overstimulated. So you do

468
00:27:39,520 --> 00:27:42,080
Speaker 1: inject estrogen and there is a chance you can be

469
00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:47,200
Speaker 1: overstimulated and have multiple eggs, and legally they cannot put

470
00:27:47,720 --> 00:27:52,960
Speaker 1: like they legally cannot do an IU y with multiple

471
00:27:53,000 --> 00:27:55,320
Speaker 1: eggs because it means, you know, you'll have twins or

472
00:27:55,320 --> 00:27:58,360
Speaker 1: triplets and it's classed as a high risk pregnancy, which

473
00:27:58,400 --> 00:28:02,160
Speaker 1: they just don't do these days. So he was like,

474
00:28:02,200 --> 00:28:04,800
Speaker 1: there's three eggs there, like, we have to cancel the cycle.

475
00:28:05,160 --> 00:28:07,679
Speaker 1: I was obviously super sad. And the crazy thing is

476
00:28:07,720 --> 00:28:10,399
Speaker 1: like me and him actually still had sex and I

477
00:28:10,400 --> 00:28:13,320
Speaker 1: didn't get pregnant. And that's when I was like, oh,

478
00:28:13,720 --> 00:28:17,359
Speaker 1: like we had three chances, didn't get pregnant. Maybe there

479
00:28:17,440 --> 00:28:20,000
Speaker 1: is something like wrong, Maybe we will have to do IVF.

480
00:28:20,119 --> 00:28:24,440
Speaker 1: So I even started the process of IVF, just because

481
00:28:24,440 --> 00:28:27,359
Speaker 1: I'm super proactive guys. But I just like, for me,

482
00:28:27,800 --> 00:28:30,520
Speaker 1: it was a peace of mind having things in place,

483
00:28:30,880 --> 00:28:33,840
Speaker 1: knowing because at that point I was like looking back

484
00:28:33,880 --> 00:28:37,040
Speaker 1: and I was like, I would have like had my

485
00:28:37,160 --> 00:28:39,760
Speaker 1: baby by now if I was to get pregnant, you

486
00:28:39,840 --> 00:28:42,080
Speaker 1: know when we thought. So I was just putting things

487
00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:45,440
Speaker 1: in place and just being proactive obviously because you have

488
00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:48,200
Speaker 1: to wait an entire month. Things are just so much

489
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:50,840
Speaker 1: slower with doctors and everything and they've got to have

490
00:28:50,880 --> 00:28:53,320
Speaker 1: the right appointment, and oh it's a bit of a

491
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:57,520
Speaker 1: shit show anyway. So we did the second cycle of IUI,

492
00:28:58,240 --> 00:28:59,640
Speaker 1: and again it was so good.

493
00:28:59,680 --> 00:29:02,320
Speaker 3: There was off I was like, look.

494
00:29:02,200 --> 00:29:04,920
Speaker 1: If nature's gonna take a kid's course, it's gonna happen.

495
00:29:05,080 --> 00:29:08,720
Speaker 1: If not, like we know, we have done all we can.

496
00:29:09,320 --> 00:29:12,000
Speaker 1: And also I was in such a better mindset because

497
00:29:12,000 --> 00:29:13,920
Speaker 1: previous to that, I was a bit of like a

498
00:29:13,960 --> 00:29:14,720
Speaker 1: control freak.

499
00:29:14,760 --> 00:29:15,440
Speaker 3: I was tracking.

500
00:29:15,560 --> 00:29:18,120
Speaker 1: It was like all a bit stressful. And these were

501
00:29:18,160 --> 00:29:20,600
Speaker 1: the first couple of months that I was like, look,

502
00:29:21,080 --> 00:29:23,440
Speaker 1: it's gonna happen when it's gonna happen. And I don't

503
00:29:23,480 --> 00:29:26,800
Speaker 1: know if you guys notice, but this year especially, like

504
00:29:26,920 --> 00:29:29,640
Speaker 1: I really kind of let go and was just having fun.

505
00:29:30,080 --> 00:29:32,280
Speaker 1: Like I was going out for drinks with the girls

506
00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:34,760
Speaker 1: and I was just like, look, I want to be

507
00:29:34,760 --> 00:29:37,080
Speaker 1: a mother so bad, but it's gonna happen when it's

508
00:29:37,080 --> 00:29:39,000
Speaker 1: gonna happen. And I think that was really a trick

509
00:29:39,040 --> 00:29:43,640
Speaker 1: for me, is like surrendering, as as annoying as that sounds.

510
00:29:45,000 --> 00:29:45,280
Speaker 3: Yeah.

511
00:29:45,280 --> 00:29:48,720
Speaker 1: So also during this time, too, I was saying positive affirmation.

512
00:29:48,920 --> 00:29:52,280
Speaker 1: So I was saying stuff like my body is capable

513
00:29:52,360 --> 00:29:56,760
Speaker 1: of holding a pregnancy, I am a creator, I have

514
00:29:57,000 --> 00:30:00,560
Speaker 1: so much feminine energy like this, this is what I

515
00:30:00,640 --> 00:30:04,360
Speaker 1: was born to do. I can create a healthy baby,

516
00:30:04,400 --> 00:30:07,640
Speaker 1: like all these sort of affirmations that just made me

517
00:30:07,760 --> 00:30:11,240
Speaker 1: feel a bit more better and I guess probably made

518
00:30:11,240 --> 00:30:13,720
Speaker 1: me feel like I have some sort of control.

519
00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:18,640
Speaker 3: Anyway. So I also was.

520
00:30:18,760 --> 00:30:21,760
Speaker 1: Doing these like spirit baby meditations, which I do talk

521
00:30:21,800 --> 00:30:28,240
Speaker 1: about in my miscarriage episode, where you do this meditation

522
00:30:28,560 --> 00:30:33,080
Speaker 1: and you in vision, I guess connecting to your future child.

523
00:30:33,800 --> 00:30:36,840
Speaker 1: So I was probably doing these spirit baby meditations like

524
00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:41,720
Speaker 1: at least one every second day, so like quite a bit,

525
00:30:42,040 --> 00:30:45,360
Speaker 1: especially during the IUI where I was like, oh, I'm

526
00:30:45,360 --> 00:30:50,120
Speaker 1: gonna cry again. I was like connecting to my future child.

527
00:30:50,360 --> 00:30:53,120
Speaker 1: And it's so weird because sometimes I saw a boy,

528
00:30:53,360 --> 00:30:56,520
Speaker 1: sometimes I saw a girl. And I also had this

529
00:30:56,560 --> 00:31:01,040
Speaker 1: feeling like sometimes I was connecting with the first baby

530
00:31:01,080 --> 00:31:04,200
Speaker 1: the miscarriage, and then sometimes I was connecting with the

531
00:31:04,240 --> 00:31:07,600
Speaker 1: future baby. It was so weird. So I was also

532
00:31:07,720 --> 00:31:10,040
Speaker 1: doing those and it was just like I don't know,

533
00:31:10,160 --> 00:31:13,560
Speaker 1: also keeping me at peace because I was like I

534
00:31:13,680 --> 00:31:16,600
Speaker 1: had that connection even before I was pregnant, and I

535
00:31:16,680 --> 00:31:18,480
Speaker 1: was like I know it's coming.

536
00:31:18,840 --> 00:31:20,320
Speaker 3: I know I was born to.

537
00:31:20,280 --> 00:31:23,840
Speaker 1: Have kids, like yeah. It was just like really beautiful

538
00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:26,280
Speaker 1: for me. And it's definitely something I recommend as like

539
00:31:26,360 --> 00:31:28,800
Speaker 1: connecting to your future child if you are trying, because

540
00:31:28,840 --> 00:31:31,600
Speaker 1: it just it filled my heart. It was like my

541
00:31:31,680 --> 00:31:35,920
Speaker 1: happy time. Also at this point, we booked in Alaru,

542
00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:38,800
Speaker 1: so there was this weird thing that happened with Ularu

543
00:31:38,840 --> 00:31:41,920
Speaker 1: because we were actually meant to go mid year and

544
00:31:42,080 --> 00:31:44,840
Speaker 1: I called up and said, oh, do you have any

545
00:31:45,080 --> 00:31:49,040
Speaker 1: any sooner availabilities? Because I was like wanting to go

546
00:31:49,320 --> 00:31:52,320
Speaker 1: just a bit sooner, and they and this is like

547
00:31:52,400 --> 00:31:55,440
Speaker 1: where we went longitude one two one, which is where

548
00:31:55,480 --> 00:32:01,600
Speaker 1: we went in ullu Watu what llawatu laru most beautiful place.

549
00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:04,360
Speaker 1: So they're like insanely booked out, Like I'm pretty sure

550
00:32:04,400 --> 00:32:07,640
Speaker 1: they're booked out until next year, if that makes sense.

551
00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:10,080
Speaker 1: And she's like, oh my god, the weirdest thing happened.

552
00:32:10,080 --> 00:32:13,720
Speaker 1: We actually just had a cancelation in two weeks. Do

553
00:32:13,800 --> 00:32:16,440
Speaker 1: you want to come in two weeks? And so I

554
00:32:16,560 --> 00:32:20,200
Speaker 1: checked flights, I asked him, and we were like, fuck it,

555
00:32:20,360 --> 00:32:23,840
Speaker 1: let's go. We didn't take much Christmas holidays because of

556
00:32:23,960 --> 00:32:26,959
Speaker 1: naked harvest and all our stuff till Christmas holidays, so

557
00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:28,880
Speaker 1: me and Tim were like fanging for a holiday and

558
00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:30,280
Speaker 1: so we're like, yeah, let's do it.

559
00:32:30,280 --> 00:32:31,680
Speaker 3: It's four days, full nights.

560
00:32:31,680 --> 00:32:35,160
Speaker 1: Sorry, let's do it. So literally booked in a holiday

561
00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:38,200
Speaker 1: of two weeks beforehand, and we booked it in around

562
00:32:38,240 --> 00:32:42,560
Speaker 1: the time I did the Iuy. So it's weird because

563
00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:46,760
Speaker 1: obviously mentally I kind of knew that technically a couple

564
00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:50,520
Speaker 1: of days after we got back from aularu, I would

565
00:32:50,560 --> 00:32:54,400
Speaker 1: be able to test do a pregnancy test, and so

566
00:32:54,680 --> 00:32:58,680
Speaker 1: even weirder once we booked Alaru. Whenever I was doing

567
00:32:58,720 --> 00:33:03,120
Speaker 1: my spirit baby meditators, it's like I wasn't doing it,

568
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:07,560
Speaker 1: but I kept envisioning being an ularu and like meeting

569
00:33:07,560 --> 00:33:10,520
Speaker 1: my spirit baby, which is always a light, and then

570
00:33:10,560 --> 00:33:13,000
Speaker 1: you you know, envision other things. But I was always

571
00:33:13,040 --> 00:33:15,560
Speaker 1: in Ularu, and I was like, oh, this is the

572
00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:17,920
Speaker 1: weirdest thing, but I guess you know, I'm going there.

573
00:33:18,120 --> 00:33:24,360
Speaker 1: It makes sense. And then also something I did throughout

574
00:33:24,400 --> 00:33:28,800
Speaker 1: my whole thing is I asked, you know, God, angel, spirit,

575
00:33:29,040 --> 00:33:33,360
Speaker 1: spirit guides, whoever, for a sign. So the whole entire time,

576
00:33:33,600 --> 00:33:36,920
Speaker 1: I was like, if I'm pregnant, give me a daisy.

577
00:33:37,120 --> 00:33:40,160
Speaker 1: And that was just my spiritual sign. I don't know why,

578
00:33:40,360 --> 00:33:42,960
Speaker 1: it's so weird, And I picked a daisy, and the

579
00:33:43,000 --> 00:33:45,760
Speaker 1: whole entire time I never saw a daisy. So I

580
00:33:45,800 --> 00:33:49,000
Speaker 1: remember once I did see a sunflower and I'm mistaken

581
00:33:49,040 --> 00:33:53,720
Speaker 1: it as a daisy. But yeah, anyway, so bitwait, this

582
00:33:53,800 --> 00:33:58,240
Speaker 1: is after my miscarriage, so not beforehand. So after my miscarriage,

583
00:33:58,440 --> 00:34:01,800
Speaker 1: whenever I was doing my spirit Baby mineations, I'd picture daisies,

584
00:34:01,800 --> 00:34:03,840
Speaker 1: and I was like, you know, send me the sign

585
00:34:03,880 --> 00:34:08,400
Speaker 1: of a daisy if I'm pregnant. So and also whenever, yeah.

586
00:34:08,480 --> 00:34:11,120
Speaker 3: I've already said that, so yeah.

587
00:34:11,160 --> 00:34:15,759
Speaker 1: Anyway, we got to ULARU had the absolute best time.

588
00:34:15,880 --> 00:34:17,080
Speaker 3: Was so lovely there.

589
00:34:17,239 --> 00:34:19,360
Speaker 1: You would have seen like my videos and photos like

590
00:34:19,480 --> 00:34:20,440
Speaker 1: bloody beautiful.

591
00:34:20,960 --> 00:34:21,800
Speaker 3: And it's really.

592
00:34:21,560 --> 00:34:26,680
Speaker 1: Funny because the message I got a massage like kind

593
00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:28,480
Speaker 1: of the first day I was there, and I just

594
00:34:28,520 --> 00:34:31,719
Speaker 1: said to the lady, oh, like I could be pregnant,

595
00:34:32,000 --> 00:34:34,880
Speaker 1: but you know, we've been trying for that long, so

596
00:34:34,920 --> 00:34:38,840
Speaker 1: who bloody knows. But I just said, oh, could you

597
00:34:38,880 --> 00:34:41,000
Speaker 1: you know, because you're just not supposed to get a

598
00:34:41,000 --> 00:34:44,399
Speaker 1: massage on your like uterus or whatever if you could

599
00:34:44,400 --> 00:34:46,520
Speaker 1: be pregnant in the first timemester, So I said, could

600
00:34:46,560 --> 00:34:48,680
Speaker 1: you just avoid that and do the other areas and

601
00:34:48,719 --> 00:34:51,440
Speaker 1: she was like yeah, sure, And she was like a

602
00:34:51,440 --> 00:34:54,040
Speaker 1: bit of an intuitive soul and she was a bit spiritual,

603
00:34:54,800 --> 00:34:59,520
Speaker 1: and she actually said to me, She's like, I could

604
00:34:59,560 --> 00:35:00,680
Speaker 1: just in vision you.

605
00:35:01,600 --> 00:35:03,440
Speaker 3: Oh my god, I'm gonna get emotional again.

606
00:35:03,840 --> 00:35:07,120
Speaker 1: Like like laying on the table the whole time. I

607
00:35:07,239 --> 00:35:12,040
Speaker 1: just envisioned you full term, like a big belly and

608
00:35:12,080 --> 00:35:15,680
Speaker 1: She's like, I just feel like you're pregnant. And I

609
00:35:15,719 --> 00:35:19,000
Speaker 1: was like, well, like, you know, that would be amazing,

610
00:35:19,160 --> 00:35:21,040
Speaker 1: but like, you know, didn't think too much of it.

611
00:35:21,520 --> 00:35:23,680
Speaker 1: She was lovely, and I was just like, oh interesting,

612
00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:26,160
Speaker 1: Like told Tim we had, you know, a bit of

613
00:35:26,160 --> 00:35:28,960
Speaker 1: a message out, and that's what Tim said too. Tim's like, Babe,

614
00:35:29,000 --> 00:35:31,480
Speaker 1: I've got such good vibes, like let's put out positive

615
00:35:31,520 --> 00:35:32,959
Speaker 1: vibes like you know it could happen.

616
00:35:33,040 --> 00:35:35,239
Speaker 3: I was like, yeah, babe, like just going along with it.

617
00:35:35,280 --> 00:35:36,560
Speaker 3: But still in my mind.

618
00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:38,320
Speaker 1: I was like, it's the same chances and we haven't

619
00:35:38,480 --> 00:35:43,760
Speaker 1: got pregnant for so long, so yeah, whatever. Anyway, Also

620
00:35:44,360 --> 00:35:48,239
Speaker 1: that trip, it was the weirdest thing. So you know,

621
00:35:48,480 --> 00:35:52,719
Speaker 1: the daisy perfume by Mark Jacobs, Like I haven't thought

622
00:35:52,719 --> 00:35:55,719
Speaker 1: about that perfume in years, but it's like they did

623
00:35:55,800 --> 00:36:03,440
Speaker 1: a revamp of a a new ccent and I saw

624
00:36:03,719 --> 00:36:08,120
Speaker 1: about five influences on my feed post about it, so

625
00:36:08,160 --> 00:36:12,239
Speaker 1: it came up like daisy perfume and I was like, oh,

626
00:36:12,600 --> 00:36:13,520
Speaker 1: like this is weird.

627
00:36:13,520 --> 00:36:14,640
Speaker 3: But I saw it so.

628
00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:17,719
Speaker 1: Much while we're at ULARU and I was like, oh,

629
00:36:17,920 --> 00:36:20,360
Speaker 1: like this is weird. Bit just a coincidence, do you

630
00:36:20,400 --> 00:36:21,880
Speaker 1: know what I mean, like I put it down to that.

631
00:36:22,840 --> 00:36:28,040
Speaker 1: And then the weirdest thing, so our tour guide he

632
00:36:28,160 --> 00:36:31,840
Speaker 1: was talking about something with Ularu and for some reason

633
00:36:32,239 --> 00:36:35,080
Speaker 1: I forty said daisy and I don't know, like I

634
00:36:35,160 --> 00:36:37,680
Speaker 1: still to this day don't know. But I turned around

635
00:36:37,680 --> 00:36:40,200
Speaker 1: to Tim, and Tim didn't know about my spiritual sign

636
00:36:40,239 --> 00:36:42,200
Speaker 1: because I like to keep all this stuff to myself.

637
00:36:42,719 --> 00:36:45,840
Speaker 1: And I was like, did the guy just say something

638
00:36:45,880 --> 00:36:48,319
Speaker 1: about a daisy? And He's like, yeah, I think so,

639
00:36:49,000 --> 00:36:52,600
Speaker 1: but I didn't really hear him, and I was like, oh, okay,

640
00:36:52,840 --> 00:36:55,279
Speaker 1: another coincidence, Like didn't think anything of it.

641
00:36:56,040 --> 00:36:58,520
Speaker 3: But by this point I was like, oh, kind of weird.

642
00:36:58,640 --> 00:37:01,560
Speaker 1: I was also feeling like not actually, I wasn't even

643
00:37:01,600 --> 00:37:03,480
Speaker 1: feeling too different. It was kind of how I felt

644
00:37:03,520 --> 00:37:05,839
Speaker 1: every single month, so I was like, I'm not even

645
00:37:05,880 --> 00:37:08,360
Speaker 1: feeling too different, Like, yeah, my boobs are a bit bigger,

646
00:37:08,400 --> 00:37:11,000
Speaker 1: but that happens every time I get my period. And

647
00:37:11,040 --> 00:37:14,200
Speaker 1: then I did bring one test and I made sure

648
00:37:14,239 --> 00:37:17,120
Speaker 1: it was one because previous months I do this psycho

649
00:37:17,200 --> 00:37:21,439
Speaker 1: thing where I test every single day five days before

650
00:37:21,480 --> 00:37:23,520
Speaker 1: my period, which is when you can do it, and

651
00:37:23,560 --> 00:37:26,240
Speaker 1: I use five tests and it's such a mental fuck,

652
00:37:26,760 --> 00:37:28,560
Speaker 1: and I was like, you have to stop doing that

653
00:37:28,600 --> 00:37:32,200
Speaker 1: to yourself, Georgie. And so I brought one test. So

654
00:37:32,239 --> 00:37:33,759
Speaker 1: I was like, you got one chance. If you want

655
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 1: to do it early, choose it wisely. Basically, it was

656
00:37:36,400 --> 00:37:40,160
Speaker 1: like weaning myself off. And so the very last day

657
00:37:40,320 --> 00:37:42,719
Speaker 1: of our trip, I woke up and I was like,

658
00:37:43,560 --> 00:37:46,279
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna do it. I feel I don't know,

659
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:48,120
Speaker 1: and I said, I feel like I'm in a really

660
00:37:48,160 --> 00:37:52,680
Speaker 1: good place where if it happens, amazing, but if it like,

661
00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:55,640
Speaker 1: if it doesn't, We've had the most amazing trip. It's

662
00:37:55,680 --> 00:37:57,799
Speaker 1: not a big deal. I won't tell Tim. I'll wait

663
00:37:57,840 --> 00:38:00,520
Speaker 1: to the blood tests, you know, on Friday, also not

664
00:38:00,560 --> 00:38:03,319
Speaker 1: a big deal. So I took the test early in

665
00:38:03,360 --> 00:38:05,880
Speaker 1: the morning. It was in a dark toilet and was

666
00:38:05,880 --> 00:38:09,319
Speaker 1: actually still sleeping. So I took the tests, put it

667
00:38:09,600 --> 00:38:12,239
Speaker 1: like just on the floor, you know, finished my wig,

668
00:38:12,520 --> 00:38:16,000
Speaker 1: got up, was fiddling around washing my hand, went back

669
00:38:16,000 --> 00:38:18,040
Speaker 1: and got it and there was just one line. And

670
00:38:18,080 --> 00:38:20,280
Speaker 1: I was like, all right, not pregnant.

671
00:38:20,600 --> 00:38:21,239
Speaker 3: It's all good.

672
00:38:21,520 --> 00:38:23,120
Speaker 1: You know, you knew this was gonn't happen, and I

673
00:38:23,200 --> 00:38:26,640
Speaker 1: honestly wasn't as upset that I had been a lot

674
00:38:26,640 --> 00:38:28,359
Speaker 1: of other months, and I was like, it's all good.

675
00:38:28,400 --> 00:38:31,439
Speaker 1: We'll try next month and we'll keep trying and then

676
00:38:31,560 --> 00:38:33,600
Speaker 1: we'll do IVF and I'll get my baby.

677
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Speaker 3: It's fine.

678
00:38:35,880 --> 00:38:37,200
Speaker 1: So then I put it on the bench and I

679
00:38:37,239 --> 00:38:39,840
Speaker 1: was washing my hands, and at this point it was

680
00:38:39,840 --> 00:38:42,360
Speaker 1: getting a tiny bit lighter in the bathroom and I

681
00:38:42,440 --> 00:38:44,640
Speaker 1: was about to throw it in the bin, and I

682
00:38:44,760 --> 00:38:49,120
Speaker 1: looked at it again and there was the faintest second line,

683
00:38:50,400 --> 00:38:54,720
Speaker 1: and I was like no. And then I kept looking

684
00:38:54,719 --> 00:38:58,799
Speaker 1: at it and it kept getting brighter, and I was like,

685
00:38:59,480 --> 00:39:03,560
Speaker 1: oh my god, no, and I was I was also

686
00:39:03,680 --> 00:39:06,080
Speaker 1: using a test that I hadn't used before, which was silly,

687
00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:08,319
Speaker 1: so I didn't well, I guess i'd never know about

688
00:39:08,320 --> 00:39:11,600
Speaker 1: that second line being faint, but I was like, it's

689
00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:14,120
Speaker 1: definitely a second line, Like I know it's faint, but

690
00:39:14,160 --> 00:39:18,680
Speaker 1: there is definitely a second line. Anyway, I didn't tell Tim.

691
00:39:18,840 --> 00:39:21,319
Speaker 1: We went to breakfast. I was like acting so weird

692
00:39:21,320 --> 00:39:23,480
Speaker 1: because I was like so happy but trying to contain it.

693
00:39:24,040 --> 00:39:27,040
Speaker 1: And I actually when I got another foot message, and

694
00:39:27,080 --> 00:39:29,600
Speaker 1: then after lunch we got ready and I was like,

695
00:39:30,120 --> 00:39:34,040
Speaker 1: let's take this photo. We were in shirts for my

696
00:39:34,120 --> 00:39:37,560
Speaker 1: sister in law's business. Birds are threads and we're in shirts.

697
00:39:37,640 --> 00:39:39,880
Speaker 1: And I was like, let's take these photos for ash, like,

698
00:39:40,480 --> 00:39:45,960
Speaker 1: put myself timer stand up and put it on video

699
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:51,440
Speaker 1: not camera, and had the test on my bag and

700
00:39:51,480 --> 00:39:54,279
Speaker 1: film the whole thing and told Tim and you guys

701
00:39:54,280 --> 00:39:57,480
Speaker 1: will see it. It will actually be on YouTube. And

702
00:39:57,520 --> 00:40:00,560
Speaker 1: I did a YouTube about my first trimester. Go check

703
00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:02,960
Speaker 1: that out if you want to know more. And he

704
00:40:03,040 --> 00:40:06,200
Speaker 1: was just so bloody over the moon and it was

705
00:40:06,239 --> 00:40:11,480
Speaker 1: just the best moments. So yeah, we are now over

706
00:40:11,560 --> 00:40:15,960
Speaker 1: thirteen weeks, so the first trimester is being gone. I

707
00:40:16,120 --> 00:40:20,560
Speaker 1: was so exhausted, so sick, and so tired the first trimester.

708
00:40:20,680 --> 00:40:23,560
Speaker 1: I think a lot because of my thyroid. Even though

709
00:40:24,160 --> 00:40:27,920
Speaker 1: it was really good during the pregnancy, it started to

710
00:40:28,000 --> 00:40:31,160
Speaker 1: creep up again, which the doctor said, look, it's just

711
00:40:31,200 --> 00:40:35,040
Speaker 1: going to happen because of during the first trimester, the

712
00:40:35,160 --> 00:40:39,520
Speaker 1: baby relies on your thyroid, and then after it relies

713
00:40:39,560 --> 00:40:42,040
Speaker 1: on its placenter. So you'll feel a lot better after

714
00:40:42,080 --> 00:40:45,439
Speaker 1: the first trimester. So now I really understand why that

715
00:40:45,600 --> 00:40:49,360
Speaker 1: first pregnancy could not hold because my levels were already

716
00:40:49,680 --> 00:40:54,360
Speaker 1: so whack and so yeah, so I've just been very tired.

717
00:40:54,520 --> 00:40:57,680
Speaker 1: I have been vomiting. I only vomited for a couple

718
00:40:57,680 --> 00:41:01,279
Speaker 1: of weeks and then it stopped. But also i'd just

719
00:41:01,400 --> 00:41:07,160
Speaker 1: been super anxious and super apprehensive, Like, to be completely honest,

720
00:41:07,239 --> 00:41:09,359
Speaker 1: I didn't even know if I wanted to record this

721
00:41:10,160 --> 00:41:13,239
Speaker 1: or announce because oh, and of course we got you know,

722
00:41:13,320 --> 00:41:16,560
Speaker 1: our thirteen weeks again and everything is all good with baby,

723
00:41:17,040 --> 00:41:20,319
Speaker 1: and we'll definitely find out the gender and that will

724
00:41:20,360 --> 00:41:24,359
Speaker 1: probably be next month. But yeah, like I was saying, like,

725
00:41:24,920 --> 00:41:27,040
Speaker 1: how don't know, it still doesn't feel real to me,

726
00:41:27,080 --> 00:41:31,719
Speaker 1: and even recording this podcast, I'm super apprehensive, and I'm like,

727
00:41:32,600 --> 00:41:34,400
Speaker 1: you know, is this gonna get taken away from me

728
00:41:34,600 --> 00:41:38,000
Speaker 1: in a couple of weeks? And I don't know, Like I.

729
00:41:38,000 --> 00:41:39,640
Speaker 3: Just like I wish.

730
00:41:40,120 --> 00:41:43,960
Speaker 1: And I also have a girlfriend who she's pregnant at

731
00:41:43,960 --> 00:41:47,640
Speaker 1: a similar time, and she didn't have a miscarriage, and

732
00:41:47,680 --> 00:41:50,480
Speaker 1: you can just tell she has no doubts that this

733
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:54,200
Speaker 1: pregnancy will be all good and that's because she's never had,

734
00:41:54,280 --> 00:41:57,440
Speaker 1: you know, a miscarriage and that sort of anxiety. But

735
00:41:57,560 --> 00:42:01,359
Speaker 1: even like I remember before like a seven week mark,

736
00:42:01,440 --> 00:42:05,040
Speaker 1: before we were getting that seven week scan, she started

737
00:42:05,080 --> 00:42:08,759
Speaker 1: asking me like what birth I wanted to have, and

738
00:42:08,800 --> 00:42:11,759
Speaker 1: I remember thinking, oh, I just want to have the

739
00:42:11,800 --> 00:42:14,840
Speaker 1: seven week scan, Like I haven't even let my mind

740
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:17,600
Speaker 1: go to birth because I don't want to get to

741
00:42:17,640 --> 00:42:20,560
Speaker 1: the place where I've planned my whole pregnancy and it

742
00:42:20,600 --> 00:42:24,560
Speaker 1: hasn't and it doesn't happen again. So to be completely honest,

743
00:42:24,640 --> 00:42:29,120
Speaker 1: I'm still half in that mindset. I'm still so anxious.

744
00:42:29,920 --> 00:42:34,239
Speaker 1: I get upset so easily because I just want this

745
00:42:34,320 --> 00:42:37,920
Speaker 1: to be real so bad, and even though like it

746
00:42:38,000 --> 00:42:41,280
Speaker 1: currently is, I have to keep reminding myself the tests

747
00:42:41,320 --> 00:42:44,040
Speaker 1: have been great, the scan has been great. No one

748
00:42:44,080 --> 00:42:48,759
Speaker 1: is saying anything otherwise, But I just have this anxiety

749
00:42:49,400 --> 00:42:52,680
Speaker 1: about something could happen at any time. It doesn't even

750
00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:56,439
Speaker 1: matter that I'm past the twelve weeks. But in saying that,

751
00:42:56,640 --> 00:42:59,520
Speaker 1: you guys know that I'm so transparent and open that

752
00:42:59,600 --> 00:43:03,120
Speaker 1: even if something did happen, I would tell you. So

753
00:43:03,480 --> 00:43:06,960
Speaker 1: I've just got to like just go with what I know,

754
00:43:07,160 --> 00:43:11,080
Speaker 1: which is I'm currently healthy, currently baby is healthy, and

755
00:43:11,160 --> 00:43:15,359
Speaker 1: it is all good, and if something happens, we will

756
00:43:15,360 --> 00:43:18,239
Speaker 1: deal with it then. So if you're going through a

757
00:43:18,239 --> 00:43:22,239
Speaker 1: similar pregnancy journey, I feel you, I see you. It

758
00:43:22,320 --> 00:43:25,440
Speaker 1: is it's a bit, it's a bittersweet because you're like,

759
00:43:26,000 --> 00:43:28,680
Speaker 1: I just want to enjoy this precious time, and I am.

760
00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:31,640
Speaker 1: I'm the happiest I've ever been. But it's also like

761
00:43:31,719 --> 00:43:35,399
Speaker 1: this constant, low lying anxiety, which I don't know if

762
00:43:35,440 --> 00:43:40,600
Speaker 1: you would get if you haven't had a loss. But yeah,

763
00:43:40,719 --> 00:43:43,480
Speaker 1: I'm trying to be positive. I say my affirmations every

764
00:43:43,560 --> 00:43:46,359
Speaker 1: day and guys, I'm just so happy. I can tell

765
00:43:46,400 --> 00:43:49,920
Speaker 1: you because you can probably tell, like, my content's so different.

766
00:43:50,040 --> 00:43:54,000
Speaker 1: I'm not doing fitness content as much because I'm literally

767
00:43:54,000 --> 00:43:56,760
Speaker 1: so exhausted, Like there's no way could work out. The

768
00:43:56,800 --> 00:43:59,839
Speaker 1: funniest story when we did that live workout for Naked

769
00:43:59,880 --> 00:44:03,600
Speaker 1: He to launch our bcas I did that Politi's class.

770
00:44:03,680 --> 00:44:07,759
Speaker 1: It was literally half an hour, nothing extravagant. It put

771
00:44:07,800 --> 00:44:11,240
Speaker 1: me on my ass for three days. For three days,

772
00:44:11,280 --> 00:44:13,200
Speaker 1: I just had to lay on the couch because that

773
00:44:13,360 --> 00:44:16,319
Speaker 1: is how exhausted I was from that workout. Like I'm

774
00:44:16,320 --> 00:44:19,080
Speaker 1: telling you, guys, it is next level. No one tells

775
00:44:19,120 --> 00:44:22,120
Speaker 1: you about how tired and exhausted you are on the

776
00:44:22,120 --> 00:44:26,840
Speaker 1: first timester it is wild. But in saying that, so happy,

777
00:44:27,360 --> 00:44:30,960
Speaker 1: so blessed, Please don't ever think I'm wingching like I

778
00:44:31,000 --> 00:44:33,719
Speaker 1: said this is a true miracle and I am so

779
00:44:33,800 --> 00:44:36,920
Speaker 1: thankful every single day. But of course, you know I

780
00:44:36,960 --> 00:44:39,799
Speaker 1: have feelings, but I'm so excited to take you on

781
00:44:39,840 --> 00:44:43,640
Speaker 1: this journey. I will do probably further episodes and go

782
00:44:43,719 --> 00:44:46,520
Speaker 1: into any Q and age you have. Maybe just you know,

783
00:44:46,640 --> 00:44:48,880
Speaker 1: make sure you're on my stories. I'll put it in

784
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:53,680
Speaker 1: the Facebook group because yeah, you might have questions about

785
00:44:53,680 --> 00:44:57,200
Speaker 1: the IUY or you know, what sort of care we're doing,

786
00:44:57,280 --> 00:44:59,480
Speaker 1: or anything like that, and you know, I'm so happy

787
00:44:59,480 --> 00:45:03,160
Speaker 1: to answer this questions. But again, I just want to say,

788
00:45:03,239 --> 00:45:07,200
Speaker 1: if you ask someone that's still on a journey of

789
00:45:07,320 --> 00:45:12,640
Speaker 1: infertility or trying and it hasn't happened, I just my

790
00:45:12,680 --> 00:45:15,040
Speaker 1: heart goes out to you. I feel you, I acknowledge you.

791
00:45:15,120 --> 00:45:17,640
Speaker 1: It is so hard because usually no one knows about it,

792
00:45:17,920 --> 00:45:22,040
Speaker 1: and yeah, I just yeah, I totally feel you, and

793
00:45:22,160 --> 00:45:26,520
Speaker 1: it's it will happen. Put those positive vibes out there.

794
00:45:27,000 --> 00:45:29,200
Speaker 1: But thank you so much, guys. I hope you enjoyed

795
00:45:29,320 --> 00:45:31,439
Speaker 1: this episode. And can I just say a big thank

796
00:45:31,480 --> 00:45:33,960
Speaker 1: you for all the love and support. I've had so

797
00:45:34,080 --> 00:45:37,680
Speaker 1: many beautiful messages and comments and seen some stuff in

798
00:45:37,719 --> 00:45:41,640
Speaker 1: the Facebook group, so I really really appreciate the support.

799
00:45:41,680 --> 00:45:45,280
Speaker 1: I love you guys so much. I was so excited

800
00:45:45,320 --> 00:45:47,480
Speaker 1: to tell you. I honestly wish.

801
00:45:47,600 --> 00:45:47,880
Speaker 3: Yeah.

802
00:45:47,920 --> 00:45:50,960
Speaker 1: Anyway, I'm so excited to tell you and I will

803
00:45:51,000 --> 00:45:54,280
Speaker 1: chat to you my next podcast. Sorry about sorry about

804
00:45:54,360 --> 00:45:55,360
Speaker 1: the naisy voice.

805
00:45:55,719 --> 00:45:56,080
Speaker 3: Bye.

806
00:45:56,680 --> 00:45:59,520
Speaker 1: Thank you for listening for another R and C episode.

807
00:45:59,600 --> 00:46:03,040
Speaker 1: I really appreciate taking the time to be here with me,

808
00:46:03,280 --> 00:46:06,400
Speaker 1: and also for taking the time for yourself. If you

809
00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:10,359
Speaker 1: found this episode helpful, it would be so amazing if

810
00:46:10,400 --> 00:46:13,080
Speaker 1: you shared it on your stories and tagged us, or

811
00:46:13,120 --> 00:46:15,680
Speaker 1: simply just send it on to a girlfriend or family

812
00:46:15,840 --> 00:46:19,839
Speaker 1: member who would benefit from listening. We are an independent

813
00:46:19,960 --> 00:46:23,440
Speaker 1: podcast run by me and my amazing podcast manager, so

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00:46:23,640 --> 00:46:25,719
Speaker 1: it would mean the world to us if you left

815
00:46:25,719 --> 00:46:29,440
Speaker 1: a review on the Apple podcast app. Also, if you're

816
00:46:29,520 --> 00:46:32,960
Speaker 1: vibing this podcast and the concepts we're chatting about and

817
00:46:33,080 --> 00:46:36,960
Speaker 1: your craving community, please come and join us over at

818
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Speaker 1: the RNC podcast community Facebook group. Just search Rise and

819
00:46:41,440 --> 00:46:45,839
Speaker 1: Conquer Podcast community on Facebook and I will be in.

820
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Speaker 3: There to chat to you until next time.

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Speaker 2: Then