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Speaker 1: I've just finished reading a book and we're going to

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Speaker 1: talk about that book today on the Happy Families Podcast.

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Speaker 1: The book is called Mumming. It's by award winning podcast

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Speaker 1: Victoria Vanstone, and we are going to get into a

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Speaker 1: couple of bits that really reached out and grabbed me

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Speaker 1: as I spoke with Victoria recently about her book, A

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Speaker 1: Year of Trying and Failing to be a Better Parent.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to the Happy Families Podcast. Real parenting solutions every

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Speaker 1: day on Australia's most downloaded parenting podcast. Sometimes being a

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Speaker 1: mum is just hard work. I would love to read

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Speaker 1: so much stuff to you from this book, but I'm

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Speaker 1: not going to. Instead, I'm going to ask Kylie, how

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Speaker 1: do you like being a mum? Not a trick question.

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Speaker 1: You looked at me like, didn't see that one coming.

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Speaker 1: I didn't forewarn you.

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Speaker 2: You didn't know.

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Speaker 1: Been a trying couple of days in our home.

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Speaker 2: It has been a trying couple of days.

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Speaker 1: We are the parenting experts apparently, But so Mumming, A

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Speaker 1: Year of Trying and failing to be a bit of

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Speaker 1: parent by Victoria.

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Speaker 2: Vans Glad she only had a year of it. We're

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Speaker 2: coming on twenty five, and I'm oh, well.

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Speaker 1: Oh well all right. So what we do most Wednesdays

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Speaker 1: if I have great chats with people, is we play

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Speaker 1: a sniffet just a preview of how wonderful my interview was.

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Speaker 1: You and I talk about it, and then on Saturday

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Speaker 1: we played the whole interview for you. That's what we're

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Speaker 1: going to do today. Because Victoria was just a treat.

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Speaker 1: She was such a delight to talk to. I was

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Speaker 1: talking to her about the book, like why write a

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Speaker 1: book about being a mum, And She's really clear, like,

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Speaker 1: I don't really know who I am as a mum.

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Speaker 1: It's really hard to be and I've just got three kids.

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Speaker 1: So there's a lot going on in her home and

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Speaker 1: her husband, poor John. She calls him just poor John

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Speaker 1: because apparently she reckons she's a lot. And this is

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Speaker 1: what she said about walking out who she is as

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Speaker 1: she writes a book about being a mum.

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Speaker 3: I find that we're living in a world where imperfection

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Speaker 3: isn't accepted. And I've found that embracing my imperfections whilst

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Speaker 3: writing and whilst being a mum has actually kind of

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Speaker 3: been my superpower. As I've gone on along and learned

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Speaker 3: it kind of takes some training to work out who

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Speaker 3: I want to be and who I actually am. And

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Speaker 3: I think there was a point very early in the

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Speaker 3: book where I was shouting too much, and it's a

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Speaker 3: trait that's carried on throughout my family. No, my mum

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Speaker 3: shouted at me, and now I shout at my children,

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Speaker 3: and I hear my mum's voice ricocheting around my house,

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Speaker 3: and I realized that I didn't want to be that person.

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Speaker 3: So this book is about that journey, about me trying

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Speaker 3: to become the mum I thought I wanted to be.

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Speaker 3: But actually it was so interesting writing it because I

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Speaker 2: I love this idea of being able to embrace our shortcomings.

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Speaker 1: I think even if you're a shouting mum who swears

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Speaker 2: I think that there's so much perfectionism within society and

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Speaker 2: perfect home. There's just so much perfectionism squashed into our lives.

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Speaker 2: And I love how real she is and just acknowledging

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Speaker 1: Identity is critically important. Victoria is remarkably self aware and

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Speaker 1: She's so human if I'm perfectly honest, I'm not into

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Speaker 1: reading these kinds of parenting memoirs. I just it takes

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Speaker 1: Yeah, and yet she says things like I haven't always

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Speaker 1: We can figure this out together. Let's go on a

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Speaker 1: It wasn't meant to be like this, Mumming. I mean,

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Speaker 1: The prologue. It all started by the side of a road.

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Speaker 1: She's six, she's in the UK. Her parents have taken

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Speaker 1: And reading this book, Mumming year of trying and failing

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Speaker 1: After the break, a heart stopping moment literally that almost

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Speaker 1: She tells the story so sublimely well, and it is.

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Speaker 1: It's one of those earth shattering moments. It happened while

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Speaker 1: She says, June, We're in a camp of van on

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Speaker 3: sometimes takes some therapy. I'm going to be one hundred

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Speaker 2: I didn't think i'd say this, but I really want

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Speaker 2: to read the book now. She's got me cooked. This

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Speaker 2: a totally different way watching one of our children navigate dating,

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Speaker 2: can't you can't have one without the other. And the

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Speaker 2: going to make decisions we don't want them to make,

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Speaker 2: get to see them every day, or tragedy hits and

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Speaker 2: they're not in our lives in the way we'd like

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Speaker 2: them to be. It's inhabitable that we will experience a

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Speaker 1: Yeah, it's a wonderfully human book. It's just a delightful read.

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Speaker 1: The book is called Mumming. It's by Victoria Vanstone. We

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Speaker 1: will link to it in the show notes. Just a

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Speaker 1: quick language warning for those who have sensitive is there's

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Speaker 1: a couple of moments to bleep out there. But what

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Speaker 1: a delightful book. I'm so glad that I love a

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Speaker 1: good memoir. And it really was a delightfully funny and

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Speaker 1: beautifully embracing memoir. Victoria Vanstone mumming. Details for the book

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Speaker 1: Happy Famili's podcast is produced by Justin Ruland for Bridge Media.

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Speaker 1: find it at happy families dot com. Dol A