1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:02,640 Speaker 1: I would like to acknowledge the traditional owners of the 2 00:00:02,720 --> 00:00:06,279 Speaker 1: land on which this episode is being recorded, the Combomb 3 00:00:06,320 --> 00:00:11,080 Speaker 1: Merry people. They've been having conversations and telling stories on 4 00:00:11,119 --> 00:00:14,280 Speaker 1: this land for thousands of years, and we show our 5 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:19,240 Speaker 1: gratitude and respect for their contribution to our environment and culture. 6 00:00:21,920 --> 00:00:26,280 Speaker 1: This is Rise and Conquer, the podcast where we strive 7 00:00:26,480 --> 00:00:32,400 Speaker 1: to become the highest version of ourselves through curious conversations, 8 00:00:32,600 --> 00:00:37,919 Speaker 1: healthy mindsets, laughter, connection, and a deep desire to evolve. 9 00:00:39,760 --> 00:00:41,720 Speaker 1: I'm your host, Georgie Stevenson. 10 00:00:42,400 --> 00:00:47,080 Speaker 2: Join me as we explore parenthood, business, manifestation, and so 11 00:00:47,280 --> 00:00:51,400 Speaker 2: much more. It's positive, it's practical, and it's about putting 12 00:00:51,440 --> 00:00:55,440 Speaker 2: you in the driver's seat of your own life. Are 13 00:00:55,440 --> 00:01:02,080 Speaker 2: you ready? Hello, my love, Welcome back to the podcast. 14 00:01:02,440 --> 00:01:05,240 Speaker 2: It is so good to be back in your ears 15 00:01:05,560 --> 00:01:10,399 Speaker 2: in real time. I am doing an episode. I've come 16 00:01:10,760 --> 00:01:14,240 Speaker 2: out of maternity leave for a quick minute to tell 17 00:01:14,280 --> 00:01:19,040 Speaker 2: you guys about me and Lacey's birth story. And as 18 00:01:19,160 --> 00:01:23,480 Speaker 2: I'm recording this podcast, I've got Jamie here holding Lacey. 19 00:01:23,840 --> 00:01:27,360 Speaker 2: I can see her. I've got breast milk over my top, 20 00:01:29,280 --> 00:01:33,800 Speaker 2: and I'm also the baby brain is so real, Like 21 00:01:34,720 --> 00:01:39,720 Speaker 2: I've just been very scattered, and I have trouble finding 22 00:01:39,800 --> 00:01:43,560 Speaker 2: words for things. It's so real, so bear with me. 23 00:01:43,760 --> 00:01:47,360 Speaker 2: But I cannot wait to tell you guys about our 24 00:01:47,400 --> 00:01:52,120 Speaker 2: birth story, our birth experience, because it was wild. It 25 00:01:52,200 --> 00:01:57,600 Speaker 2: was a bit full on, but beautiful and so many 26 00:01:57,640 --> 00:02:03,720 Speaker 2: beautiful lessons, so many beautiful takeaways, and yeah, let's just 27 00:02:03,760 --> 00:02:07,720 Speaker 2: get straight into it. So if you guys haven't listened 28 00:02:07,720 --> 00:02:12,400 Speaker 2: to the podcast where I explained my high risk pregnancy, 29 00:02:12,919 --> 00:02:15,480 Speaker 2: I would recommend going to that first, and I'll link 30 00:02:15,520 --> 00:02:19,480 Speaker 2: it in the show notes. I won't link it, someone 31 00:02:19,520 --> 00:02:22,919 Speaker 2: else will link it in the show notes. And basically 32 00:02:23,360 --> 00:02:28,720 Speaker 2: that just explains a bit more about I had a condition, 33 00:02:29,000 --> 00:02:31,640 Speaker 2: like cliff notes is, I had a condition called placenta 34 00:02:31,680 --> 00:02:35,920 Speaker 2: previa where my placenta was sitting over my cervix. So 35 00:02:36,440 --> 00:02:39,200 Speaker 2: the baby comes through the cervix, so if your placenter 36 00:02:39,320 --> 00:02:43,079 Speaker 2: is there, you know the baby can't pass through. And 37 00:02:43,280 --> 00:02:47,480 Speaker 2: it's actually quite detrimental because if you've gone too spontaneous labor, 38 00:02:47,919 --> 00:02:51,240 Speaker 2: the cervix opens up and if the placenta is sitting 39 00:02:51,240 --> 00:02:55,560 Speaker 2: on top, it basically pulls the placenter and can like 40 00:02:55,720 --> 00:02:59,520 Speaker 2: abrupt it and can tear it. And if that happens. 41 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:02,920 Speaker 2: I remember reading you know this, you shouldn't do this, 42 00:03:03,040 --> 00:03:06,239 Speaker 2: but I was googling facts and like, if that happens, 43 00:03:06,480 --> 00:03:09,720 Speaker 2: the baby only has a forty percent chance of living. 44 00:03:09,840 --> 00:03:14,079 Speaker 2: So it's it's a very serious condition and it's cast 45 00:03:14,080 --> 00:03:17,200 Speaker 2: as a high risk pregnancy. There is grades, so there's 46 00:03:17,320 --> 00:03:21,240 Speaker 2: like the placenta being not over, but it's a few 47 00:03:21,320 --> 00:03:23,720 Speaker 2: centimeters up. You still have to get a C section. 48 00:03:24,440 --> 00:03:28,320 Speaker 2: Mine was Grade four, which means it was completely over, 49 00:03:28,919 --> 00:03:33,120 Speaker 2: you know, the most high risk grade. And I kept 50 00:03:33,120 --> 00:03:36,880 Speaker 2: thinking throughout the pregnancy it would come up. It didn't. 51 00:03:37,120 --> 00:03:38,800 Speaker 2: I accepted the fact I was going to have a 52 00:03:38,840 --> 00:03:42,120 Speaker 2: C section that was booked in, and then also because 53 00:03:42,120 --> 00:03:45,640 Speaker 2: of the high risk factor of it, my doctor wanted 54 00:03:45,640 --> 00:03:48,480 Speaker 2: me to come in from thirty five weeks on bed rest. 55 00:03:49,240 --> 00:03:54,160 Speaker 2: I was very hesitant of that because of Ivy leaving her, 56 00:03:54,600 --> 00:03:57,880 Speaker 2: knowing that it would be two weeks you know, before 57 00:03:57,920 --> 00:04:00,360 Speaker 2: I get the C section in thirty seven weeks and 58 00:04:00,360 --> 00:04:05,200 Speaker 2: then also another week in hospital with the baby. But 59 00:04:05,840 --> 00:04:07,800 Speaker 2: of course, you know, you do what you got to do. 60 00:04:07,880 --> 00:04:10,720 Speaker 2: So I was like, Okay, I'll go on to bedrost. 61 00:04:10,800 --> 00:04:14,480 Speaker 2: At thirty five weeks, I had finished maternity leave, a 62 00:04:14,520 --> 00:04:19,600 Speaker 2: bit earlier, and because of this condition, we really were prepared. 63 00:04:20,040 --> 00:04:22,960 Speaker 2: So we had baby girls, you know, room done, we 64 00:04:23,040 --> 00:04:26,560 Speaker 2: had the house done, I was on maternity leave. Everything 65 00:04:26,680 --> 00:04:29,800 Speaker 2: was wrapped up at work. So that was a blessing 66 00:04:29,960 --> 00:04:33,919 Speaker 2: because you know, we were really really prepared. And so 67 00:04:34,600 --> 00:04:38,000 Speaker 2: the doctor had told me worst case scenario with this 68 00:04:38,080 --> 00:04:41,560 Speaker 2: condition of I would have to have a C section, 69 00:04:41,680 --> 00:04:45,400 Speaker 2: but also I'd have to go under so be under 70 00:04:45,440 --> 00:04:51,680 Speaker 2: general like general aesthetics, not aesthetics anesthetics. Yeah, general anesthetic, 71 00:04:51,839 --> 00:04:54,679 Speaker 2: which means you know, you can't even like receive your baby, 72 00:04:54,760 --> 00:04:57,800 Speaker 2: and that would obviously be worst case scenario. But then 73 00:04:57,839 --> 00:05:02,400 Speaker 2: he also said a big factor with placenta previa is 74 00:05:02,560 --> 00:05:07,839 Speaker 2: pre bleeding, and if you bleed, it could mean that 75 00:05:08,040 --> 00:05:11,279 Speaker 2: you're in spontaneous labor or you know, something's happening with 76 00:05:11,320 --> 00:05:14,360 Speaker 2: the placenta and they have to do emergency sea sections. 77 00:05:14,400 --> 00:05:17,720 Speaker 2: So that's why I was going on bed rest because 78 00:05:18,839 --> 00:05:23,200 Speaker 2: there's a time window with this condition condition too, and 79 00:05:23,240 --> 00:05:27,279 Speaker 2: he basically said, like if you're bleeding for let's say 80 00:05:27,360 --> 00:05:31,680 Speaker 2: over an hour, it's very detrimental to the baby. The 81 00:05:31,680 --> 00:05:34,599 Speaker 2: way he described it, Because my doctor's awesome, I see 82 00:05:34,640 --> 00:05:39,240 Speaker 2: doctor Moffrey at Pindara private and you know he's got 83 00:05:39,240 --> 00:05:42,400 Speaker 2: gray hair, and he was like, your condition is the 84 00:05:42,440 --> 00:05:46,640 Speaker 2: reason I have gray hair. And I remember laughing and 85 00:05:46,880 --> 00:05:49,560 Speaker 2: just thinking, oh yeah, you know, he's got to tell 86 00:05:49,560 --> 00:05:52,240 Speaker 2: me all the risks. He has to tell me everything, 87 00:05:52,640 --> 00:05:55,840 Speaker 2: but it won't happen to us. I'll go on on 88 00:05:55,920 --> 00:05:59,240 Speaker 2: bed rest. I'll have the sea section. And you know, 89 00:05:59,279 --> 00:06:02,000 Speaker 2: I had already start I putting a playlist together for 90 00:06:02,080 --> 00:06:06,040 Speaker 2: the sea section. I had listened to some podcasts about 91 00:06:06,040 --> 00:06:10,920 Speaker 2: really positive sea sections. I had done the Rise Meditation. 92 00:06:11,640 --> 00:06:14,440 Speaker 2: We have a beautiful sea section birth meditation on the 93 00:06:14,520 --> 00:06:17,279 Speaker 2: Rise app. I was doing that and so I felt 94 00:06:17,440 --> 00:06:20,400 Speaker 2: really good. I felt really calm, I felt really excited, 95 00:06:21,360 --> 00:06:24,560 Speaker 2: and so I was slowing down for work. And it 96 00:06:24,880 --> 00:06:29,279 Speaker 2: was Friday, the eleventh of July, and I had my 97 00:06:29,480 --> 00:06:32,560 Speaker 2: last beauty appointments booked in. So because I knew it 98 00:06:32,640 --> 00:06:34,560 Speaker 2: was going on bed rest, you know, I booked in 99 00:06:34,600 --> 00:06:39,440 Speaker 2: my hair, nails, lashes, especially being postpartum. I just remember 100 00:06:39,480 --> 00:06:42,920 Speaker 2: with Ivy, I didn't do anything like that. And then I, 101 00:06:43,000 --> 00:06:45,880 Speaker 2: you know, wanted to get some of those appointments done postpartum. 102 00:06:45,920 --> 00:06:47,840 Speaker 2: And it's like very hard because you have a new 103 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:51,200 Speaker 2: book and you can't, basically, So I was very onto 104 00:06:51,400 --> 00:06:53,719 Speaker 2: my appointments. That was kind of like the blessing of 105 00:06:53,800 --> 00:06:58,760 Speaker 2: having a specific date going into hospital. And so this 106 00:06:58,960 --> 00:07:01,520 Speaker 2: day it was I had my last appointments, and then 107 00:07:01,560 --> 00:07:04,080 Speaker 2: I just wanted a week with Tim and Ivy and 108 00:07:04,080 --> 00:07:06,240 Speaker 2: we were going to do a whole bunch of fun things. 109 00:07:06,760 --> 00:07:10,800 Speaker 2: And so I got my nails done, I got my 110 00:07:10,920 --> 00:07:14,160 Speaker 2: lashes done, and then I got home, me and Ivy 111 00:07:14,800 --> 00:07:19,600 Speaker 2: did some baking. Tim went to golf, and me and 112 00:07:19,640 --> 00:07:23,360 Speaker 2: Ivy played on the playground and you know, watched TV. 113 00:07:24,120 --> 00:07:26,120 Speaker 2: And it's funny because she was playing on the playground 114 00:07:26,280 --> 00:07:28,240 Speaker 2: and the sun was setting, and I just remember looking 115 00:07:28,240 --> 00:07:30,560 Speaker 2: at the sunset. You know, this is in the afternoon, 116 00:07:31,160 --> 00:07:36,880 Speaker 2: and I was just feeling so grateful, like all euphouri 117 00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:41,720 Speaker 2: R vibes, Like I remember thinking, oh my god, I 118 00:07:41,760 --> 00:07:45,480 Speaker 2: am obsessed with this home. I cannot believe we're in 119 00:07:45,560 --> 00:07:48,240 Speaker 2: our dream home. I cannot believe, you know, we found 120 00:07:48,240 --> 00:07:51,480 Speaker 2: this house, we moved in it. How good it feels, 121 00:07:51,560 --> 00:07:54,880 Speaker 2: how grounded I feel. I cannot believe how obsessed I 122 00:07:54,920 --> 00:07:59,560 Speaker 2: am with Tim and Ivy. I love being pregnant. I'm 123 00:07:59,640 --> 00:08:04,080 Speaker 2: so ready for a newborn, Like I was I'm talking 124 00:08:04,200 --> 00:08:07,440 Speaker 2: like ten out of ten grateful on the scale of 125 00:08:08,320 --> 00:08:12,000 Speaker 2: high vibration, I was, you know, one hundred and in 126 00:08:12,040 --> 00:08:14,400 Speaker 2: saying that that's not unusual for me. So I was 127 00:08:14,480 --> 00:08:16,160 Speaker 2: just like going with it, and I was like, you 128 00:08:16,200 --> 00:08:18,960 Speaker 2: know what a vibe. This is beautiful. And then Tim 129 00:08:19,040 --> 00:08:22,440 Speaker 2: got home from golf, we got takeout, we watched a movie, 130 00:08:22,840 --> 00:08:25,800 Speaker 2: still feeling really really good, and then we went to bed. 131 00:08:26,120 --> 00:08:29,480 Speaker 2: When we went to bed, I remember crying to Tim 132 00:08:29,840 --> 00:08:33,160 Speaker 2: and I was just quite upset about having to go 133 00:08:33,200 --> 00:08:38,680 Speaker 2: on bed rest leaving Ivy because since becoming pregnant, I know, scientifically, 134 00:08:38,800 --> 00:08:42,160 Speaker 2: you release a specific hormone that does make you know, 135 00:08:42,280 --> 00:08:45,439 Speaker 2: like the love you release, you were releasing more oxytocin 136 00:08:45,520 --> 00:08:47,800 Speaker 2: and like all those sorts of things, and so you 137 00:08:47,840 --> 00:08:51,200 Speaker 2: will find your toddlers if you have one ah more 138 00:08:51,240 --> 00:08:55,120 Speaker 2: clingy towards you. And so since being pregnant and slowing down, 139 00:08:55,520 --> 00:08:59,360 Speaker 2: my relationship with Ivy had really changed and evolved and 140 00:08:59,400 --> 00:09:02,760 Speaker 2: it was so sweet and beautiful and I was just 141 00:09:02,880 --> 00:09:04,960 Speaker 2: loving it so much. So I was having this like 142 00:09:05,800 --> 00:09:09,480 Speaker 2: physical reaction to going on to bed rest and away 143 00:09:09,480 --> 00:09:11,480 Speaker 2: from her, because you know, I put her to bed 144 00:09:11,520 --> 00:09:15,280 Speaker 2: every night. We cuddle, we read books, and you know, 145 00:09:15,440 --> 00:09:17,440 Speaker 2: I feel like I don't have to explain that. But 146 00:09:18,160 --> 00:09:19,319 Speaker 2: I was crying to Tim and I was like, I 147 00:09:19,360 --> 00:09:20,959 Speaker 2: don't want to go on beddress. I don't want to 148 00:09:20,960 --> 00:09:23,520 Speaker 2: go away from you guys. And he's like, it's fine, 149 00:09:23,559 --> 00:09:26,120 Speaker 2: We'll come up and see you every day. Like it's okay. 150 00:09:26,200 --> 00:09:28,520 Speaker 2: You just have to do what's best for you know 151 00:09:28,640 --> 00:09:31,120 Speaker 2: this baby, we already knew what we're gonna call it, 152 00:09:31,240 --> 00:09:32,600 Speaker 2: so you know, He's like, you just got to do 153 00:09:32,640 --> 00:09:34,840 Speaker 2: what's best for Lacey. And I was like, I know, 154 00:09:35,640 --> 00:09:39,440 Speaker 2: and but I was like, I was very emotional. Tim 155 00:09:39,520 --> 00:09:44,080 Speaker 2: then went to our sleep and I also took half 156 00:09:44,120 --> 00:09:47,760 Speaker 2: a sleeping tablet a restative, which is okay to take 157 00:09:47,760 --> 00:09:50,800 Speaker 2: when you're pregnant, do want to say that, but just half. 158 00:09:50,840 --> 00:09:54,520 Speaker 2: And this was something that I had done because I 159 00:09:54,600 --> 00:09:58,679 Speaker 2: was having really bad insomnia towards the end, to the 160 00:09:58,720 --> 00:10:01,719 Speaker 2: point where I would go to sleep, I'd wake up 161 00:10:01,760 --> 00:10:04,720 Speaker 2: at like eleven twelve or one am and I would 162 00:10:04,800 --> 00:10:06,960 Speaker 2: not get back to sleep, and then it was just 163 00:10:07,080 --> 00:10:10,320 Speaker 2: wrecking me the whole next day. And so I took 164 00:10:10,360 --> 00:10:13,120 Speaker 2: it half a sleeping tablet. Sometimes i'd take a quarter, 165 00:10:13,200 --> 00:10:16,720 Speaker 2: sometimes a half and that just helps me relax. And 166 00:10:16,720 --> 00:10:20,400 Speaker 2: I was finding too, I was, you know, peeing multiple 167 00:10:20,440 --> 00:10:23,400 Speaker 2: times a night because I was heavily pregnant, and taking 168 00:10:23,440 --> 00:10:26,240 Speaker 2: that I could get up to peek go straight back 169 00:10:26,280 --> 00:10:28,720 Speaker 2: to sleep, and so that's just something I was doing 170 00:10:28,920 --> 00:10:32,440 Speaker 2: that my doctor had helped me with. And so I 171 00:10:32,480 --> 00:10:35,960 Speaker 2: took you know, half a tablet of my sleeping tablet. 172 00:10:36,160 --> 00:10:37,480 Speaker 2: I was going to go to sleep, but then I 173 00:10:37,559 --> 00:10:41,480 Speaker 2: was like, it's Friday night and I'm gonna scroll on TikTok. 174 00:10:42,280 --> 00:10:44,320 Speaker 2: And it's funny because I don't really allow myself to 175 00:10:44,360 --> 00:10:46,560 Speaker 2: scroll during the week because I know sometimes then my 176 00:10:46,600 --> 00:10:48,280 Speaker 2: sleep is really bad. So I was like, no, I'm 177 00:10:48,280 --> 00:10:51,520 Speaker 2: going to treat myself. It's Friday night scrolling on TikTok, 178 00:10:51,960 --> 00:10:56,200 Speaker 2: and the algorithm was more, you know, like funny videos. 179 00:10:56,280 --> 00:11:00,840 Speaker 2: So I remember laughing, and I remember being like, oh shit, 180 00:11:01,000 --> 00:11:04,559 Speaker 2: I think I've weed myself, which is not uncommon when 181 00:11:04,600 --> 00:11:08,280 Speaker 2: you're pregnant, and so I was like, oh, I think 182 00:11:08,320 --> 00:11:11,240 Speaker 2: I've weed myself. And then even I didn't even get 183 00:11:11,320 --> 00:11:13,400 Speaker 2: up then, like I kind of just like stayed scrolling 184 00:11:13,440 --> 00:11:15,560 Speaker 2: for a little bit longer because I was watching something funny. 185 00:11:16,440 --> 00:11:18,240 Speaker 2: And then I was like oh no, I think I've 186 00:11:18,240 --> 00:11:21,319 Speaker 2: really weed myself. And so I got up, and when 187 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:25,079 Speaker 2: I got up, I could feel, you know, like it 188 00:11:25,120 --> 00:11:26,920 Speaker 2: was like very wet down there, and I was like, 189 00:11:26,960 --> 00:11:30,439 Speaker 2: oh my god, surely I haven't like actually weed my weed, 190 00:11:30,520 --> 00:11:32,800 Speaker 2: like fully weed, like not just you know a little bit. 191 00:11:33,320 --> 00:11:37,240 Speaker 2: And I put my hand down there and put it up, 192 00:11:37,280 --> 00:11:39,800 Speaker 2: and you know, it was completely dark because Tim was asleep, 193 00:11:40,160 --> 00:11:42,400 Speaker 2: and I could see that there was something on my hand. 194 00:11:42,480 --> 00:11:45,640 Speaker 2: So I quickly went and turned the light on, looked 195 00:11:45,640 --> 00:11:49,840 Speaker 2: into the mirror, and my pajama pants were just soaking 196 00:11:50,120 --> 00:11:52,760 Speaker 2: in blood. And so I quickly went to the toilet 197 00:11:52,800 --> 00:11:56,320 Speaker 2: and pulled down my pants and there was blood clots. 198 00:11:56,440 --> 00:12:00,240 Speaker 2: And for a moment, I just kind of it's like 199 00:12:00,280 --> 00:12:03,760 Speaker 2: I just was like stuck in time, and it took 200 00:12:03,800 --> 00:12:06,840 Speaker 2: a moment to be like, holy shit, this is happening. 201 00:12:07,000 --> 00:12:10,720 Speaker 2: Something's not right. Obviously, something's not right. And I knew 202 00:12:10,840 --> 00:12:14,640 Speaker 2: I was only thirty four weeks. And it's funny because 203 00:12:14,679 --> 00:12:17,600 Speaker 2: I actually had a doctor's appointment the day before and 204 00:12:17,679 --> 00:12:20,920 Speaker 2: he was like, she's thirty four weeks, you know, only 205 00:12:21,040 --> 00:12:24,079 Speaker 2: a couple more weeks, and you know, she's fully cooked. 206 00:12:24,480 --> 00:12:29,800 Speaker 2: At the moment her lungs are still underdeveloped. That happens 207 00:12:29,840 --> 00:12:32,200 Speaker 2: next week, and so I kind of just remember him 208 00:12:32,240 --> 00:12:35,280 Speaker 2: being like, she's basically you know, she's not fully cooked. 209 00:12:35,480 --> 00:12:37,240 Speaker 2: And I remember being like, oh my god, no, she 210 00:12:37,280 --> 00:12:42,040 Speaker 2: can't come out. She's too small, she's too young. And anyway, 211 00:12:42,080 --> 00:12:45,240 Speaker 2: so I had that thought in that micro moment, I 212 00:12:45,360 --> 00:12:47,760 Speaker 2: quickly woke up t him and turned on the light 213 00:12:47,920 --> 00:12:51,240 Speaker 2: and just stood there and he obviously saw my pajama 214 00:12:51,360 --> 00:12:54,960 Speaker 2: pants and his face just went fully white. And I 215 00:12:54,960 --> 00:12:59,040 Speaker 2: remember the look on his face and he just goes, 216 00:12:59,320 --> 00:13:02,040 Speaker 2: I'm getting eyes. Get like, get the keys, like, get 217 00:13:02,080 --> 00:13:03,640 Speaker 2: in the car. We need to go to the hospital. 218 00:13:04,040 --> 00:13:08,000 Speaker 2: Pull doctor mofree. And so he went and got Ivy 219 00:13:08,040 --> 00:13:11,720 Speaker 2: from bed. She was obviously sleeping, and I called my 220 00:13:11,840 --> 00:13:15,079 Speaker 2: doctor and I said, I'm bleeding. And he's like how 221 00:13:15,160 --> 00:13:19,440 Speaker 2: much because previously he said literally, if you have a 222 00:13:19,520 --> 00:13:24,280 Speaker 2: couple of drops, come into emergency, like that's how serious 223 00:13:24,320 --> 00:13:28,120 Speaker 2: the bleeding is with this condition. And so he's like, 224 00:13:28,160 --> 00:13:30,560 Speaker 2: how much you're bleeding. I'm like, no, I'm breeding. I'm 225 00:13:30,600 --> 00:13:34,480 Speaker 2: bleeding a lot. It's not good. And I'm like, I 226 00:13:34,960 --> 00:13:36,679 Speaker 2: my pajama pants are so it's like I need to 227 00:13:36,679 --> 00:13:39,800 Speaker 2: get a towel, and he was like getting like shit 228 00:13:39,960 --> 00:13:43,600 Speaker 2: is saying this, but he was like, Georgia, it is 229 00:13:43,800 --> 00:13:46,720 Speaker 2: so important that you get in the car and you 230 00:13:46,800 --> 00:13:51,440 Speaker 2: get here as soon as possible, like stay calm, I'm 231 00:13:51,480 --> 00:13:54,680 Speaker 2: going to meet you there, like don't grab anything, like 232 00:13:54,760 --> 00:13:57,360 Speaker 2: get in the car right now and leave. And I 233 00:13:57,360 --> 00:14:02,800 Speaker 2: could just feel the seriousness, you know, the emergency in 234 00:14:02,840 --> 00:14:05,520 Speaker 2: his voice, and I just was like, oh my god, 235 00:14:05,800 --> 00:14:08,760 Speaker 2: I can't believe this is happening, Like this can't be happening. 236 00:14:10,080 --> 00:14:13,440 Speaker 2: And so Tim got Ivy. We got in the car 237 00:14:14,080 --> 00:14:16,640 Speaker 2: and me and Tim were kind of just silent the 238 00:14:16,679 --> 00:14:19,360 Speaker 2: whole time. We just explained to Ivy, you know, mommy 239 00:14:19,800 --> 00:14:22,120 Speaker 2: is bleeding. We need to go to the hospital. You know, 240 00:14:22,560 --> 00:14:25,400 Speaker 2: baby sister might be coming out. We're very transparent with her. 241 00:14:26,120 --> 00:14:31,040 Speaker 2: And I called Tim's mum because they were on the coast, 242 00:14:31,040 --> 00:14:34,080 Speaker 2: and I just said, I'm bleeding really heavily. We're going 243 00:14:34,080 --> 00:14:35,640 Speaker 2: to the hospital. I need you to come and get 244 00:14:35,640 --> 00:14:38,200 Speaker 2: Ivy and she was like, yep, of course, we'll see 245 00:14:38,200 --> 00:14:41,160 Speaker 2: you guys soon. And then I called back and then 246 00:14:41,200 --> 00:14:43,600 Speaker 2: doctor Moffrey called me and he's like, how close are you? 247 00:14:43,720 --> 00:14:46,600 Speaker 2: I'm like five minutes away. He's like, all right, I'm here. 248 00:14:46,720 --> 00:14:49,360 Speaker 2: I'm waiting, come around the side, come straight to an 249 00:14:49,400 --> 00:14:52,440 Speaker 2: emergency like, don't park, you need we need to get 250 00:14:52,440 --> 00:14:55,600 Speaker 2: you straight in. And then he said, I think we're 251 00:14:55,600 --> 00:15:01,360 Speaker 2: having baby girl tonight. And I just like, I just 252 00:15:02,320 --> 00:15:06,080 Speaker 2: I had such a mix mix emotions because I was like, Okay, good, 253 00:15:06,120 --> 00:15:09,720 Speaker 2: she needs to come out, because obviously what's happening inside 254 00:15:09,800 --> 00:15:12,200 Speaker 2: is you know, not good. I'm bleeding. But then also 255 00:15:12,320 --> 00:15:14,360 Speaker 2: I just was like, oh my god, she's so small, 256 00:15:14,440 --> 00:15:18,640 Speaker 2: she's so tiny, she's undeveloped, her lungs are developed. And 257 00:15:19,360 --> 00:15:21,640 Speaker 2: so I just remember on the car ride there just 258 00:15:21,640 --> 00:15:24,080 Speaker 2: holding my stomach and I could feel her moving, so 259 00:15:24,240 --> 00:15:29,080 Speaker 2: that like I didn't feel completely scared for her life 260 00:15:29,120 --> 00:15:31,440 Speaker 2: because I could kind of feel her moving inside, so 261 00:15:31,480 --> 00:15:35,040 Speaker 2: I didn't feel like she had stopped moving. But I 262 00:15:35,120 --> 00:15:38,360 Speaker 2: just remember holding my stomach and being like, you have 263 00:15:38,440 --> 00:15:41,240 Speaker 2: to be okay, like just stay strong, you have to 264 00:15:41,280 --> 00:15:44,400 Speaker 2: be okay, and was just kind of talking to her 265 00:15:44,680 --> 00:15:48,040 Speaker 2: that I said to her, you might be coming out tonight, 266 00:15:48,080 --> 00:15:50,040 Speaker 2: but you have to be okay. Daddy's going to be 267 00:15:50,120 --> 00:15:55,440 Speaker 2: with you. And then so yeah, then we got to hospital. 268 00:15:55,760 --> 00:15:58,760 Speaker 2: My doctor was literally there. He like opened the car door. 269 00:15:59,280 --> 00:16:01,680 Speaker 2: He got me out, Tim got IVR and we went 270 00:16:01,720 --> 00:16:07,160 Speaker 2: straight in. We went into a birth suite and did 271 00:16:07,560 --> 00:16:09,800 Speaker 2: there was like a whole bunch of nurses rushed in. 272 00:16:10,680 --> 00:16:14,200 Speaker 2: He did an examination. He wanted to put I don't 273 00:16:14,240 --> 00:16:16,120 Speaker 2: really know what it's called, but he wanted to put 274 00:16:16,960 --> 00:16:23,840 Speaker 2: basically like something inside that stopped you bleeding. And he 275 00:16:23,880 --> 00:16:25,960 Speaker 2: put it in and it fell straight out, and he 276 00:16:26,080 --> 00:16:29,080 Speaker 2: was like, oh my god. We didn't say he didn't say, 277 00:16:29,080 --> 00:16:32,080 Speaker 2: oh my god, but he was like, Georgia, you're already 278 00:16:32,080 --> 00:16:35,400 Speaker 2: in spontaneous labor. We have to we have to get 279 00:16:35,440 --> 00:16:38,840 Speaker 2: her out right now. Because again, like I said at 280 00:16:38,880 --> 00:16:43,080 Speaker 2: the start, if you go into spontaneous labor instantly, baby 281 00:16:43,080 --> 00:16:46,160 Speaker 2: girl is on a time limit where it's you know, 282 00:16:46,320 --> 00:16:50,560 Speaker 2: very detrimental for her. So he said that, and I 283 00:16:50,640 --> 00:16:55,040 Speaker 2: was like, oh my god. And they he yelled out 284 00:16:55,040 --> 00:16:57,680 Speaker 2: to the nurses and he's like, we need to get her, 285 00:16:57,960 --> 00:17:01,160 Speaker 2: you know, to the O R, you know whatever it's called, 286 00:17:01,200 --> 00:17:03,640 Speaker 2: straight away. She needs to come out right now. That 287 00:17:03,760 --> 00:17:06,280 Speaker 2: all the nurses rushed in. They were you know, asking 288 00:17:06,320 --> 00:17:09,120 Speaker 2: me questions, they were putting things on me. They put 289 00:17:09,119 --> 00:17:11,280 Speaker 2: me on the stretcher, they took my clothes off, and 290 00:17:11,320 --> 00:17:15,480 Speaker 2: then we were like leaving towards the or and I 291 00:17:15,520 --> 00:17:17,760 Speaker 2: hadn't seen Tim and Ivy, and I was like, wait, 292 00:17:17,840 --> 00:17:19,520 Speaker 2: like I have to say about it him and Ivy 293 00:17:19,920 --> 00:17:21,919 Speaker 2: and they were in the waiting room or something. So 294 00:17:21,960 --> 00:17:25,199 Speaker 2: then they came and I just said to Tim like, 295 00:17:25,280 --> 00:17:28,720 Speaker 2: don't stay with me. Make sure you like go with 296 00:17:28,840 --> 00:17:32,520 Speaker 2: Lacey when she's born, like wherever she is, don't worry 297 00:17:32,560 --> 00:17:36,200 Speaker 2: about me. And then you know, gave Ivy a big 298 00:17:36,280 --> 00:17:39,359 Speaker 2: kiss and cuddle and just said, you know, mummy's going 299 00:17:39,440 --> 00:17:42,680 Speaker 2: to go have baby sister and we'll see you soon. 300 00:17:44,000 --> 00:17:46,480 Speaker 2: And she was really sleepy and stuff, so she didn't 301 00:17:46,520 --> 00:17:51,720 Speaker 2: really understand the situation. So then they wheeled me through 302 00:17:51,800 --> 00:17:54,879 Speaker 2: ther like through the hospital to the o R. Again. 303 00:17:55,119 --> 00:17:57,440 Speaker 2: I just remember there was like ten or so people 304 00:17:57,480 --> 00:18:01,840 Speaker 2: in the room, a lot of people asking questions. I 305 00:18:01,880 --> 00:18:04,800 Speaker 2: remember also thinking because I had just had dinner at 306 00:18:04,840 --> 00:18:09,560 Speaker 2: seven pm and it was nine pm, and I remember 307 00:18:09,560 --> 00:18:13,080 Speaker 2: thinking like, how can I go under you know, under 308 00:18:13,200 --> 00:18:15,080 Speaker 2: like I've just had food. And they made me drink 309 00:18:15,119 --> 00:18:19,040 Speaker 2: this like certain solution that helps like dissolve things in 310 00:18:19,080 --> 00:18:22,399 Speaker 2: your stomach. And then my doctor said, now I know 311 00:18:22,600 --> 00:18:25,920 Speaker 2: that you know you wanted to receive her, but you've 312 00:18:25,920 --> 00:18:28,639 Speaker 2: lost too much blood and it's too dangerous for both 313 00:18:28,640 --> 00:18:32,000 Speaker 2: of you. You will have to, you know, be completely under. 314 00:18:33,119 --> 00:18:36,719 Speaker 2: And at that moment I just kind of was in 315 00:18:36,760 --> 00:18:41,919 Speaker 2: that surrendered state of just like you do whatever you 316 00:18:42,000 --> 00:18:43,919 Speaker 2: need to do to get her safe. I think I 317 00:18:43,960 --> 00:18:46,520 Speaker 2: even said that to him, and I was like, yeah, 318 00:18:46,520 --> 00:18:49,160 Speaker 2: it's fine, just you know, get her out kind of thing. 319 00:18:50,480 --> 00:18:52,639 Speaker 2: So it was very full on and then I was 320 00:18:52,680 --> 00:18:55,440 Speaker 2: even awake when they put the catheter in, like they 321 00:18:55,440 --> 00:18:58,639 Speaker 2: didn't really have enough time to do it all in 322 00:18:58,680 --> 00:19:01,240 Speaker 2: the proper way and so put the kaff it in. 323 00:19:02,119 --> 00:19:05,560 Speaker 2: I had quite a few canulas in my arms, and 324 00:19:05,760 --> 00:19:09,840 Speaker 2: also we had some machines in there if I lost 325 00:19:09,840 --> 00:19:14,640 Speaker 2: too much blood. And then the last thing I remember 326 00:19:14,760 --> 00:19:17,160 Speaker 2: is obviously just you know, having that thing on your 327 00:19:17,440 --> 00:19:22,359 Speaker 2: mouth and getting put under. And when he told me 328 00:19:22,640 --> 00:19:24,920 Speaker 2: she was going to come out tonight, like back when 329 00:19:24,960 --> 00:19:27,920 Speaker 2: we were in the birth suite, I remember my whole 330 00:19:27,920 --> 00:19:32,080 Speaker 2: body just started shaking. It's like I think before, because 331 00:19:32,119 --> 00:19:36,159 Speaker 2: I had had the sleeping tablet, I was quite relaxed 332 00:19:36,400 --> 00:19:39,840 Speaker 2: considering the situation and the amount of blood, and I 333 00:19:39,920 --> 00:19:42,880 Speaker 2: was just like talking to her, I felt quite relaxed. 334 00:19:42,880 --> 00:19:46,040 Speaker 2: I was breathing, and then when he was like, she's 335 00:19:46,080 --> 00:19:49,000 Speaker 2: not okay, you're in spontaneous labor. We need her get 336 00:19:49,040 --> 00:19:53,000 Speaker 2: her out right now, I just oh, and I'm getting 337 00:19:53,000 --> 00:19:54,960 Speaker 2: shivers saying it to you guys, but like I just 338 00:19:55,000 --> 00:19:59,680 Speaker 2: started shaking. And that's when I started really freaking out, 339 00:20:00,160 --> 00:20:04,119 Speaker 2: being like, oh my god, like what about if I 340 00:20:04,160 --> 00:20:07,560 Speaker 2: wake up and she's not okay or you know, you 341 00:20:07,640 --> 00:20:11,280 Speaker 2: always go to the worst case scenario, So that was 342 00:20:11,359 --> 00:20:15,840 Speaker 2: really really scary, really full on. But then they put 343 00:20:15,840 --> 00:20:25,800 Speaker 2: me under. That's the last thing I remember. I woke 344 00:20:25,920 --> 00:20:30,119 Speaker 2: up in the recovery room and straight away the nurse goes, 345 00:20:31,080 --> 00:20:37,080 Speaker 2: she's fine, she's healthy, her lungs are underdeveloped, so she 346 00:20:37,119 --> 00:20:41,520 Speaker 2: did need to go in on oxygen. Sorry, and in 347 00:20:41,800 --> 00:20:45,560 Speaker 2: they call it in like an iso neet capsule thing 348 00:20:45,600 --> 00:20:47,639 Speaker 2: where the baby needs to go in and have oxygen. 349 00:20:48,320 --> 00:20:51,119 Speaker 2: So she's like, she's fine, your husband's with her, and 350 00:20:51,160 --> 00:20:56,440 Speaker 2: I just was like, oh, Like obviously, instant relief felt 351 00:20:57,240 --> 00:21:00,399 Speaker 2: so much better. And then I stayed in recovery just 352 00:21:00,600 --> 00:21:03,040 Speaker 2: probably only like ten minutes, and then they wheeled me 353 00:21:03,200 --> 00:21:07,040 Speaker 2: up to see her in the special care nursery and 354 00:21:07,119 --> 00:21:10,119 Speaker 2: she was so small. Oh my gosh, she was tiny. 355 00:21:10,200 --> 00:21:13,879 Speaker 2: So she was born at two point two kilos and 356 00:21:13,920 --> 00:21:16,400 Speaker 2: then they lose a bit, so she ended up losing 357 00:21:17,000 --> 00:21:20,639 Speaker 2: and weighing just two kilos. So if you think of 358 00:21:20,800 --> 00:21:25,720 Speaker 2: how small two kilos is, it's yeah, she was so tiny. 359 00:21:26,240 --> 00:21:30,280 Speaker 2: And so the first time I saw her, she was, 360 00:21:30,400 --> 00:21:32,760 Speaker 2: you know, hooked up to all the machines, she had 361 00:21:32,840 --> 00:21:36,280 Speaker 2: like a oxygen mask on, she had a canula in 362 00:21:37,000 --> 00:21:39,320 Speaker 2: and obviously it was very full on to see her 363 00:21:39,520 --> 00:21:44,080 Speaker 2: like that, and then I had just had emergency surgery, 364 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:50,160 Speaker 2: and yeah, it was very full on. It was very emotional. 365 00:21:50,680 --> 00:21:52,720 Speaker 2: So we saw her, we stayed with her for a bit, 366 00:21:53,240 --> 00:21:56,560 Speaker 2: and at this point, you know, it's like eleven twelve pm, 367 00:21:56,960 --> 00:22:00,560 Speaker 2: so the timeline was I noticed how it was bleeding, 368 00:22:00,760 --> 00:22:04,720 Speaker 2: probably twenty to nine, and then we got to the 369 00:22:04,760 --> 00:22:08,880 Speaker 2: hospital at nine and then she was born at nine 370 00:22:08,960 --> 00:22:14,720 Speaker 2: twenty two, so very very quick, you know. And it's 371 00:22:14,880 --> 00:22:17,840 Speaker 2: it's funny because you know, a couple of people have asked, like, 372 00:22:17,880 --> 00:22:20,760 Speaker 2: you know, how does Tim you know, feel about this experience, 373 00:22:20,960 --> 00:22:24,680 Speaker 2: And obviously he was very you know, scared, and it 374 00:22:24,840 --> 00:22:28,320 Speaker 2: was very forlorn. But the way he describes it is 375 00:22:29,680 --> 00:22:31,760 Speaker 2: it was such a short amount of time from like 376 00:22:32,000 --> 00:22:35,320 Speaker 2: you know, eight forty to her being born at nine twenty. 377 00:22:35,880 --> 00:22:39,119 Speaker 2: He kind of was in shock, but didn't You don't 378 00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:42,720 Speaker 2: have a lot of time to sit in the worrying 379 00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:45,479 Speaker 2: and that sort of thing. So that's kind of a 380 00:22:45,480 --> 00:22:50,080 Speaker 2: blessing because it was all just so far so from 381 00:22:50,240 --> 00:22:52,680 Speaker 2: the time that I started bleeding, I was like, holy shit, 382 00:22:52,720 --> 00:22:54,359 Speaker 2: I don't know what's going to happen. I don't know, 383 00:22:54,560 --> 00:22:58,640 Speaker 2: you know, how she is, till only you know, an 384 00:22:58,640 --> 00:23:02,760 Speaker 2: hour later knowing she's okay. That side of things is 385 00:23:04,160 --> 00:23:06,720 Speaker 2: that was a blessing rather than you know, not knowing 386 00:23:06,760 --> 00:23:12,400 Speaker 2: for longer, but very full on, very traumatic. And then 387 00:23:12,640 --> 00:23:15,520 Speaker 2: after that we got willed back to the room, so 388 00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:18,639 Speaker 2: she stayed in special care nursery. They had a feeding 389 00:23:18,680 --> 00:23:22,199 Speaker 2: tube for her, and we got back to the room 390 00:23:22,600 --> 00:23:27,080 Speaker 2: and I couldn't really sleep that night. I really struggled. 391 00:23:27,160 --> 00:23:29,879 Speaker 2: I don't know if it was like the drugs from surgery, 392 00:23:29,960 --> 00:23:31,960 Speaker 2: but I was like off and on. And they also 393 00:23:32,000 --> 00:23:35,000 Speaker 2: come and check you every two hours, so they check 394 00:23:35,040 --> 00:23:37,679 Speaker 2: your incision, they check your blood pressure and everything like that. 395 00:23:37,880 --> 00:23:42,600 Speaker 2: And then Tim slept and then the next day woke 396 00:23:42,760 --> 00:23:45,640 Speaker 2: up in order to go and see her. I had 397 00:23:45,680 --> 00:23:49,760 Speaker 2: to have a shower and get out of bed. So 398 00:23:49,920 --> 00:23:53,239 Speaker 2: I did that, And can we just talk about the 399 00:23:53,280 --> 00:23:57,399 Speaker 2: C section recovery because I'm just gonna be really honest 400 00:23:57,440 --> 00:24:02,320 Speaker 2: with you guys. It was pretty fucked up. I don't know. 401 00:24:02,480 --> 00:24:04,720 Speaker 2: I think i'd spoken to I have a couple of 402 00:24:04,760 --> 00:24:07,600 Speaker 2: girlfriends who had had a sea section, and they were like, 403 00:24:07,920 --> 00:24:12,520 Speaker 2: it's not that bad, you know, the recovery is really fine. No, 404 00:24:12,840 --> 00:24:17,400 Speaker 2: it was so full on, like the pain was quite excruciating. 405 00:24:18,000 --> 00:24:21,879 Speaker 2: And look, I'm sorry if you knew you're booked in 406 00:24:21,920 --> 00:24:23,560 Speaker 2: for a sea section, and I'm not trying to scare 407 00:24:23,600 --> 00:24:26,800 Speaker 2: anyone or like, I'm just telling you my experience, but 408 00:24:27,200 --> 00:24:31,880 Speaker 2: the recovery was so full on. I've had a vaginal 409 00:24:31,920 --> 00:24:35,760 Speaker 2: birth with Ivy and then having a sea section, and honestly, 410 00:24:35,880 --> 00:24:38,600 Speaker 2: I would opt for the vaginal birth any day of 411 00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:41,119 Speaker 2: the week, and that I was in labor for you know, 412 00:24:41,440 --> 00:24:45,159 Speaker 2: twenty hours. But it's just I was so painful and 413 00:24:45,200 --> 00:24:49,040 Speaker 2: I couldn't like stand up straight, and I just like, oh, 414 00:24:49,840 --> 00:24:52,199 Speaker 2: I don't know if it made a difference because it 415 00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:57,000 Speaker 2: was an emergency, but yeah, the recovery was not well 416 00:24:57,040 --> 00:24:59,240 Speaker 2: and I had to take quite a few pain meds 417 00:24:59,280 --> 00:25:01,880 Speaker 2: to just like feel okay, and then you know, when 418 00:25:01,880 --> 00:25:04,320 Speaker 2: you're in pain meds, you never feel like yourself. So 419 00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:08,440 Speaker 2: the next couple of days after that were really full 420 00:25:08,480 --> 00:25:13,959 Speaker 2: on because we couldn't actually hold Lacey for three days, 421 00:25:14,200 --> 00:25:18,679 Speaker 2: and that's because her oxygen levels kept dipping, and so 422 00:25:19,119 --> 00:25:21,960 Speaker 2: she had to stay in this like it's called an 423 00:25:22,040 --> 00:25:27,520 Speaker 2: isolate where it's she's got like oxygen through her, you know, 424 00:25:27,560 --> 00:25:30,399 Speaker 2: like an oxygen mask, but then also oxygen in this 425 00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:33,240 Speaker 2: like tank sort of thing where she was in. And 426 00:25:33,280 --> 00:25:37,520 Speaker 2: then the peeds doctor just explained that you know, if 427 00:25:37,560 --> 00:25:40,720 Speaker 2: you take her out to hold her, it could dip 428 00:25:40,840 --> 00:25:44,600 Speaker 2: and it can just really affect then her recovery. So 429 00:25:44,720 --> 00:25:47,520 Speaker 2: obviously again we're going to listen to the doctors and 430 00:25:48,119 --> 00:25:52,560 Speaker 2: but that was very full on and very emotional time. 431 00:25:52,680 --> 00:25:56,199 Speaker 2: You can imagine going through emergency c section at just 432 00:25:56,240 --> 00:26:00,119 Speaker 2: thirty four weeks and then not receiving your baby when 433 00:26:00,160 --> 00:26:02,119 Speaker 2: they first come out, and then not being able to 434 00:26:02,160 --> 00:26:06,800 Speaker 2: hold her for three days. Yeah, it was very very difficult, 435 00:26:07,040 --> 00:26:10,680 Speaker 2: very emotional. I was crying pretty much the whole time, 436 00:26:11,840 --> 00:26:17,920 Speaker 2: and Tim was amazing though, he really held me emotionally 437 00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:24,359 Speaker 2: and physically through that time, and really, yeah, I think 438 00:26:24,840 --> 00:26:27,320 Speaker 2: I felt this too with Ivy's birth, but I feel 439 00:26:27,359 --> 00:26:31,240 Speaker 2: like since Lacey was born, like our relationship it again 440 00:26:31,400 --> 00:26:35,040 Speaker 2: has gotten stronger because of what you go through, you know, 441 00:26:35,119 --> 00:26:38,359 Speaker 2: together and how he showed up for you know, me 442 00:26:38,400 --> 00:26:42,160 Speaker 2: and Lacey during that time. It's really really special. So yeah, 443 00:26:42,160 --> 00:26:43,679 Speaker 2: the next couple of days were just kind of a 444 00:26:43,720 --> 00:26:47,280 Speaker 2: blur out. Lacey was getting fed through a tube and 445 00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:50,240 Speaker 2: then kind of like the next sort of season that 446 00:26:50,359 --> 00:26:54,480 Speaker 2: you not sorry, the next kind of thing is Lacey 447 00:26:54,920 --> 00:26:59,080 Speaker 2: had to stay in the special care nursery. I was 448 00:26:59,480 --> 00:27:02,680 Speaker 2: you know, after a c section, you stay in hospital 449 00:27:02,720 --> 00:27:05,760 Speaker 2: for five days, and so what that kind of looked 450 00:27:05,840 --> 00:27:10,680 Speaker 2: like was once I could hold her, I was going 451 00:27:10,760 --> 00:27:12,880 Speaker 2: up to hold her, you know, as much as possible, 452 00:27:12,960 --> 00:27:15,080 Speaker 2: but it was usually on you twice a day, just 453 00:27:15,119 --> 00:27:17,960 Speaker 2: because again we didn't want her oxygen to dip. And 454 00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:22,080 Speaker 2: then I was pumping, so my milk came in after 455 00:27:22,200 --> 00:27:25,560 Speaker 2: day three, and before that I was just expressing clossroom 456 00:27:25,960 --> 00:27:28,200 Speaker 2: and I was actually getting a lot, and with Ivy 457 00:27:28,280 --> 00:27:30,200 Speaker 2: I didn't get a lot, so I was like really 458 00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:34,199 Speaker 2: loving that factor. So we were feeding her classroom. She 459 00:27:34,280 --> 00:27:37,119 Speaker 2: was also getting fed through the tube, and because she 460 00:27:37,400 --> 00:27:41,000 Speaker 2: was a PREMI they actually have a program in the 461 00:27:41,040 --> 00:27:45,240 Speaker 2: hospital where they have donated breast milk, so through the tube, 462 00:27:45,280 --> 00:27:48,480 Speaker 2: she was getting breast milk, you know, from someone else 463 00:27:48,560 --> 00:27:51,000 Speaker 2: the first three days, and then my milk came in 464 00:27:51,040 --> 00:27:53,800 Speaker 2: out day three and then I was pumping every three hours, 465 00:27:54,359 --> 00:27:57,639 Speaker 2: and I was very grateful that my supply was really good, 466 00:27:57,840 --> 00:28:01,520 Speaker 2: and yeah, my milk was My supply was good. So 467 00:28:02,160 --> 00:28:05,760 Speaker 2: she then was feeding off my breast milk from then, 468 00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:09,360 Speaker 2: and I honestly think my supply was really good this 469 00:28:09,400 --> 00:28:14,280 Speaker 2: time because if you think of a newborn's mouth, you know, 470 00:28:14,320 --> 00:28:16,480 Speaker 2: they can only suck so much and then they get 471 00:28:16,520 --> 00:28:19,520 Speaker 2: tired and they stop, whereas I was pumping every three 472 00:28:19,600 --> 00:28:22,840 Speaker 2: hours for twenty minutes, and so I think just like 473 00:28:23,119 --> 00:28:27,600 Speaker 2: the constant pumping just really brought my milk in sooner. 474 00:28:28,320 --> 00:28:31,520 Speaker 2: But obviously you're not supposed to pump. You're supposed to 475 00:28:31,760 --> 00:28:35,679 Speaker 2: let the newborn do it. But Lacey wasn't breastfeeding. So 476 00:28:35,800 --> 00:28:38,640 Speaker 2: then the week that I was in hospital, yeah, just 477 00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:45,480 Speaker 2: going back and forth, you know, seeing her pumping, and honestly, 478 00:28:45,600 --> 00:28:49,920 Speaker 2: that was probably the hardest time because you know, I 479 00:28:50,000 --> 00:28:55,840 Speaker 2: was in hospital recovering from birth, without a baby in 480 00:28:55,880 --> 00:29:01,120 Speaker 2: my room and going back and forth saw from the 481 00:29:01,200 --> 00:29:07,360 Speaker 2: c section, very emotional. All the hormones is wild, and yeah, 482 00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:11,200 Speaker 2: I've honestly never cried so much my life. And yeah, 483 00:29:11,240 --> 00:29:14,200 Speaker 2: it was like really really dramatic, if I'm being honest. 484 00:29:15,160 --> 00:29:18,840 Speaker 2: And the hospital was great though. The nurses were great, 485 00:29:18,880 --> 00:29:22,760 Speaker 2: The hospital was great. The actual director of the maternity 486 00:29:22,880 --> 00:29:25,560 Speaker 2: unit ended up coming to see me, and I just 487 00:29:25,600 --> 00:29:29,680 Speaker 2: remember breaking down, you know, hysterically crying to her after 488 00:29:29,760 --> 00:29:32,520 Speaker 2: day five, being like I can't leave the hospital, like 489 00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:36,920 Speaker 2: I can't leave without her. It just like in my body, 490 00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:40,360 Speaker 2: it just like I just couldn't, Like I just I 491 00:29:40,440 --> 00:29:44,760 Speaker 2: felt so physically unwell that I was supposed to leave 492 00:29:44,760 --> 00:29:48,000 Speaker 2: the hospital without my baby. And they were really good. 493 00:29:48,080 --> 00:29:50,840 Speaker 2: They let me stay another couple of nights because I 494 00:29:50,880 --> 00:29:54,880 Speaker 2: think they could see my mental health was not well, 495 00:29:54,920 --> 00:29:58,560 Speaker 2: and so I stayed another couple of nights, and during 496 00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:02,040 Speaker 2: those times too, I could start breastfeeding Lacey. So I 497 00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:05,000 Speaker 2: started doing a couple of they call them nuzzles, so 498 00:30:05,440 --> 00:30:09,080 Speaker 2: nuzzling her, just putting on herd the boob, and then 499 00:30:09,080 --> 00:30:12,800 Speaker 2: she was getting fed by the tube after and then 500 00:30:12,840 --> 00:30:16,040 Speaker 2: it was time to leave the hospital, which was honestly 501 00:30:17,160 --> 00:30:20,960 Speaker 2: one of the hardest days because it was hard because 502 00:30:21,720 --> 00:30:24,400 Speaker 2: obviously I had to leave her in the hospital, but 503 00:30:24,440 --> 00:30:26,640 Speaker 2: like I knew she was getting taken care of by 504 00:30:26,680 --> 00:30:30,800 Speaker 2: the special care nurses. But then also I wanted to 505 00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:33,960 Speaker 2: go home and see Ivy. And I felt really bad 506 00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:36,400 Speaker 2: for Ivy because you know, she did come up and 507 00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:39,760 Speaker 2: see us at the hospital, but like I said, I just, 508 00:30:41,120 --> 00:30:44,880 Speaker 2: you know, I just you know, really wanted to see 509 00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:46,240 Speaker 2: how I really need to spend time with her, But 510 00:30:46,280 --> 00:30:48,680 Speaker 2: then I wanted to be at the hospital of Lacey. 511 00:30:48,840 --> 00:30:51,200 Speaker 2: So it was just really hard because I felt like 512 00:30:51,280 --> 00:30:53,880 Speaker 2: my heart was like breaking into so I wanted to 513 00:30:53,920 --> 00:30:55,400 Speaker 2: be at the hospital, but then I wanted to be 514 00:30:55,480 --> 00:30:58,719 Speaker 2: home with Ivy, and so I really didn't know how 515 00:30:58,760 --> 00:31:02,280 Speaker 2: it was going to feel. But then I left the 516 00:31:02,280 --> 00:31:07,840 Speaker 2: hospital and it was actually it actually was better because 517 00:31:08,160 --> 00:31:11,880 Speaker 2: during the hospital, you know, being in this room, just 518 00:31:11,920 --> 00:31:15,920 Speaker 2: the hospital environment can be like a bit depressing, let's say. 519 00:31:16,120 --> 00:31:18,840 Speaker 2: And so I got home, I got into my own bed, 520 00:31:19,400 --> 00:31:23,440 Speaker 2: I unpacked, my parents were there. They stayed with us 521 00:31:23,440 --> 00:31:25,160 Speaker 2: for a couple of weeks, so my parents were there. 522 00:31:25,160 --> 00:31:27,640 Speaker 2: It was really good to see them. And then I 523 00:31:27,680 --> 00:31:30,440 Speaker 2: would go and visit Lacy in the hospital twice a day. 524 00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:33,320 Speaker 2: So even though I didn't want to leave the hospital, 525 00:31:33,360 --> 00:31:35,480 Speaker 2: once I did, I was kind of glad because I 526 00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:39,000 Speaker 2: got some normalcyat at home and just like being in 527 00:31:39,040 --> 00:31:41,440 Speaker 2: your own house, your own clothes, your own bed is 528 00:31:41,560 --> 00:31:44,760 Speaker 2: like so much nicer. But then I would go up 529 00:31:44,840 --> 00:31:49,080 Speaker 2: and visit Lacey, So I'm glad when I got home. 530 00:31:49,120 --> 00:31:51,320 Speaker 2: But then, like before, I didn't want to leave the hospital. 531 00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:54,040 Speaker 2: It was really really hard. So yeah, then I got 532 00:31:54,040 --> 00:31:57,920 Speaker 2: home and then it was probably about two weeks of 533 00:31:59,080 --> 00:32:01,880 Speaker 2: going up and down to the hospital. So basically how 534 00:32:01,880 --> 00:32:06,000 Speaker 2: it would look was because the criteria for Lacey to 535 00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:09,800 Speaker 2: come out of special care nursery was she needed to 536 00:32:10,160 --> 00:32:13,480 Speaker 2: be putting on weight and she needed to be having 537 00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:17,400 Speaker 2: all suck feeds, So you know, she feeds every three 538 00:32:17,520 --> 00:32:20,760 Speaker 2: hours and at the start, she's getting fed through the tube. 539 00:32:21,240 --> 00:32:25,560 Speaker 2: And because premes are so tiny, if they're sucking on 540 00:32:25,600 --> 00:32:28,840 Speaker 2: a bottle or breast, it exhausts them and they can 541 00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:31,160 Speaker 2: like start to lose weight and not put on weight. 542 00:32:31,760 --> 00:32:34,840 Speaker 2: So the hospital kind of make you do it in 543 00:32:34,880 --> 00:32:38,680 Speaker 2: a very slow way where it starts with one breastfeed 544 00:32:38,680 --> 00:32:41,560 Speaker 2: a day and then you go to two breastfeeds a day, 545 00:32:41,560 --> 00:32:43,920 Speaker 2: but it has to be like six hours in between, 546 00:32:44,560 --> 00:32:46,440 Speaker 2: and then you go to three, but it has to 547 00:32:46,480 --> 00:32:50,200 Speaker 2: be like every second breastfeed, and it's like all this criteria. 548 00:32:50,480 --> 00:32:54,560 Speaker 2: So I feel like once I left the hospital, I 549 00:32:54,680 --> 00:32:58,200 Speaker 2: was kind of in survival mode of just getting Lacey 550 00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:02,040 Speaker 2: home and so like whatever the doctor said I could do, 551 00:33:02,200 --> 00:33:04,680 Speaker 2: Like if it was okay, you can go to two breastfeeds, 552 00:33:05,080 --> 00:33:07,600 Speaker 2: you know, I was just doing whatever I could do 553 00:33:07,920 --> 00:33:10,960 Speaker 2: and obviously trying to be there as much as possible. 554 00:33:11,440 --> 00:33:13,480 Speaker 2: And so what it would look like is I'd wake 555 00:33:13,560 --> 00:33:16,960 Speaker 2: up at five thirty after pumping every three hours overnight, 556 00:33:17,080 --> 00:33:19,760 Speaker 2: wake up at five thirty. We'd get to the hospital 557 00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:25,280 Speaker 2: at six am, do the first feed. We'd stay, we'd stay, 558 00:33:25,560 --> 00:33:27,800 Speaker 2: maybe get a coffee or something, and then do the 559 00:33:27,840 --> 00:33:31,680 Speaker 2: next feed, go home for lunchtime, and then come back 560 00:33:31,840 --> 00:33:35,200 Speaker 2: and stay till you know, six or seven pm. And 561 00:33:35,240 --> 00:33:39,440 Speaker 2: we kind of did that, yeah, for two weeks straight, 562 00:33:40,400 --> 00:33:44,520 Speaker 2: and the hospital, like when I asked the nurses at 563 00:33:44,560 --> 00:33:48,560 Speaker 2: the start when she was, you know, thirty four weeks 564 00:33:48,600 --> 00:33:51,000 Speaker 2: in hostel, I said, you know, what's the kind of 565 00:33:51,040 --> 00:33:55,280 Speaker 2: time limit of her coming home? And everyone said, look, 566 00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:59,080 Speaker 2: probably not till she's thirty nine weeks like term that's 567 00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:02,440 Speaker 2: generally where they come home. And so I was like, 568 00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:06,960 Speaker 2: you know, that's like a month in hospital, a month 569 00:34:07,040 --> 00:34:09,480 Speaker 2: going back and forth. And I even remember when they 570 00:34:09,480 --> 00:34:12,400 Speaker 2: said it, I'd like thought on my head, I was like, no, 571 00:34:12,760 --> 00:34:15,000 Speaker 2: she's going to come home sooner. So I was like 572 00:34:15,280 --> 00:34:19,319 Speaker 2: very determined on getting her home and doing whatever was necessary. 573 00:34:20,040 --> 00:34:25,080 Speaker 2: And we were very lucky because she was she was 574 00:34:25,120 --> 00:34:28,320 Speaker 2: such a good feeder and she got on the breast 575 00:34:28,320 --> 00:34:31,359 Speaker 2: straight away, she'd wake up for all her feeds, like 576 00:34:31,400 --> 00:34:33,680 Speaker 2: she was just she was doing really, really well. So 577 00:34:33,719 --> 00:34:36,000 Speaker 2: she ended up coming home when she was just thirty 578 00:34:36,080 --> 00:34:39,480 Speaker 2: six and a half weeks, which all the nurses and 579 00:34:39,520 --> 00:34:41,920 Speaker 2: the hospital were like really surprised that she could like 580 00:34:42,400 --> 00:34:46,080 Speaker 2: get to that point. And I was just so happy 581 00:34:46,239 --> 00:34:49,520 Speaker 2: and so relieved. And I feel like, you know, from 582 00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:53,080 Speaker 2: that thirty four weeks, from the emergency C section to 583 00:34:53,160 --> 00:34:56,799 Speaker 2: the thirty six, you know, thirty seven, I was just 584 00:34:56,840 --> 00:35:00,480 Speaker 2: in survival mode and I couldn't like I couldn't like 585 00:35:00,520 --> 00:35:03,160 Speaker 2: talk to anyone on the phone. I couldn't like be 586 00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:05,560 Speaker 2: in the outside world. It was very like I was 587 00:35:05,600 --> 00:35:07,719 Speaker 2: in this bubble and I just was like doing what 588 00:35:07,840 --> 00:35:10,960 Speaker 2: was necessary to get Lacey home and you know, be 589 00:35:11,040 --> 00:35:16,160 Speaker 2: with Ivy and recover. And then yeah, then once Lacey 590 00:35:16,320 --> 00:35:22,520 Speaker 2: came home, Oh, it just was like instant relief. And 591 00:35:22,680 --> 00:35:26,080 Speaker 2: that's when you know, I felt like I could like 592 00:35:26,760 --> 00:35:32,600 Speaker 2: start her POSTPARTU, my postparter because it just like also 593 00:35:32,719 --> 00:35:34,840 Speaker 2: was very odd because you know, you're trying to recover 594 00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:38,120 Speaker 2: from a C section and you're going, you're you know, 595 00:35:38,200 --> 00:35:41,400 Speaker 2: getting up and down, you're driving. I personally wasn't driving, 596 00:35:41,520 --> 00:35:44,920 Speaker 2: was getting driven, but like the whole you're not really 597 00:35:45,000 --> 00:35:47,919 Speaker 2: recovering and you're in survival mode. So it really wasn't 598 00:35:48,000 --> 00:35:51,319 Speaker 2: until Lacey was home that I felt relief and was like, 599 00:35:51,360 --> 00:35:54,919 Speaker 2: oh my god, I can actually just like be and 600 00:35:55,800 --> 00:35:58,520 Speaker 2: oh she came home and it was just like the best, 601 00:35:58,600 --> 00:36:02,480 Speaker 2: Like I cannot even explain to you the feeling of 602 00:36:02,600 --> 00:36:06,360 Speaker 2: when she came home and we were a family. It 603 00:36:06,440 --> 00:36:09,520 Speaker 2: was just so special. And my parents they stayed one 604 00:36:09,560 --> 00:36:11,719 Speaker 2: more week just to make sure, you know, we were 605 00:36:11,760 --> 00:36:14,719 Speaker 2: sorted with Lacey, and then they left and it was 606 00:36:14,840 --> 00:36:17,400 Speaker 2: just you know, meetim and Ivy and Lacey and it 607 00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:22,280 Speaker 2: was just so special. Yeah, I just can't even explain 608 00:36:23,440 --> 00:36:27,200 Speaker 2: that period. Then for a good, like month after, I 609 00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:32,799 Speaker 2: just just would hold her, look at her and just 610 00:36:32,840 --> 00:36:38,600 Speaker 2: be so obsessed. And then yeah, since then, Honestly, she 611 00:36:38,880 --> 00:36:43,320 Speaker 2: is such a beautiful baby. She has such an amazing temperament. 612 00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:47,200 Speaker 2: I don't know, I think everyone has said it's well 613 00:36:47,239 --> 00:36:51,000 Speaker 2: deserved after the birth and everything we went through postpartum, 614 00:36:51,120 --> 00:36:54,960 Speaker 2: but it was just so incredible to get her home 615 00:36:55,200 --> 00:37:00,440 Speaker 2: and then she just fed and she slept, and obviously 616 00:37:00,560 --> 00:37:03,840 Speaker 2: she's a newborn, you know, she cries, she cluster feeds 617 00:37:04,360 --> 00:37:07,839 Speaker 2: and all the things. But I cannot tell you how 618 00:37:08,120 --> 00:37:13,360 Speaker 2: just in love with her and the newborn bubble and 619 00:37:14,080 --> 00:37:19,319 Speaker 2: postpartum I am. Even though it was a very full on, 620 00:37:20,840 --> 00:37:25,600 Speaker 2: you know, birth experience and everything that happened, I just 621 00:37:25,719 --> 00:37:30,320 Speaker 2: feel so grateful. I just feel so happy. I honestly, 622 00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:33,279 Speaker 2: I feel like I'm about to cry just thinking of 623 00:37:33,440 --> 00:37:37,680 Speaker 2: how happy I am that she's here and she's okay 624 00:37:38,200 --> 00:37:42,040 Speaker 2: and we're together, and I don't know, she's just perfect. 625 00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:47,040 Speaker 2: She's an actual angel baby. And I know this is normal, 626 00:37:47,040 --> 00:37:49,160 Speaker 2: but I just like sit and look at her all day. 627 00:37:49,560 --> 00:37:53,040 Speaker 2: I just breastfeed her, look at her, and I'm just obsessed. 628 00:37:53,320 --> 00:37:58,600 Speaker 2: And it's crazy because when I got pregnant I really 629 00:38:00,200 --> 00:38:06,399 Speaker 2: was intentional about scripting exactly what I'm telling you and 630 00:38:06,480 --> 00:38:10,040 Speaker 2: being like, I remember writing in my journal. Actually, let 631 00:38:10,080 --> 00:38:14,439 Speaker 2: me see if I can find because I often put 632 00:38:14,520 --> 00:38:19,480 Speaker 2: things in my notes as my journal, and let me 633 00:38:19,719 --> 00:38:25,960 Speaker 2: actually read out a journal piece for you. Okay, So 634 00:38:26,080 --> 00:38:31,520 Speaker 2: this is a journal piece I wrote from June twenty ninth. Yeah, 635 00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:35,160 Speaker 2: June twenty ninth. So it's like what twelve days before 636 00:38:35,160 --> 00:38:38,719 Speaker 2: I gave birth? So I just wrote, you know, I'm 637 00:38:38,719 --> 00:38:41,680 Speaker 2: so grateful I get to rest before I get to 638 00:38:41,719 --> 00:38:45,120 Speaker 2: rest from home before our C section birth. I love 639 00:38:45,200 --> 00:38:48,360 Speaker 2: spending so much time with Ivy Girl and feeling so 640 00:38:48,560 --> 00:38:53,359 Speaker 2: rested and calm blah blah blah, and so I say, 641 00:38:54,680 --> 00:38:58,160 Speaker 2: the first moments of seeing baby Girl is like nothing 642 00:38:58,280 --> 00:39:02,919 Speaker 2: I've ever experienced. It is pure magic. We are so 643 00:39:03,000 --> 00:39:08,000 Speaker 2: well rested. Baby girl is so calm, love snuggles and 644 00:39:08,160 --> 00:39:12,720 Speaker 2: is so easy. She latches straight away, easily, finding feeding 645 00:39:12,960 --> 00:39:16,560 Speaker 2: natural and normal. I feel so calm and at peace. 646 00:39:17,120 --> 00:39:21,040 Speaker 2: My recovery is easier than I expected. I feel so healthy, 647 00:39:21,680 --> 00:39:25,120 Speaker 2: so full of energy, and so ready for the newborn nights. 648 00:39:25,600 --> 00:39:28,840 Speaker 2: The newborn knights are easy too. I notice her cues, 649 00:39:28,920 --> 00:39:32,600 Speaker 2: I pick up on them and she's so settled and 650 00:39:33,160 --> 00:39:38,000 Speaker 2: feeds easily and sleeps so well. We are so grateful. 651 00:39:38,200 --> 00:39:41,640 Speaker 2: I feel so amazing in my body and in my mind, 652 00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:47,400 Speaker 2: and in this new season, I've never been happier. So 653 00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:49,839 Speaker 2: that's what I wrote in my notes, and I can 654 00:39:50,080 --> 00:39:54,640 Speaker 2: truly say that's how I feel despite everything happening with 655 00:39:54,680 --> 00:39:59,439 Speaker 2: the birth. And again, you guys know, everything only has 656 00:39:59,480 --> 00:40:02,640 Speaker 2: a meaning if you put on that like, put that 657 00:40:02,760 --> 00:40:07,560 Speaker 2: meaning onto it. So even though quote unquote my birth 658 00:40:07,640 --> 00:40:11,560 Speaker 2: you know, could be called traumatic and you could label 659 00:40:11,600 --> 00:40:15,840 Speaker 2: it a whole host of things, I really just don't 660 00:40:15,840 --> 00:40:19,359 Speaker 2: feel that way. Like it was full on and it 661 00:40:19,440 --> 00:40:24,160 Speaker 2: really required a new level of growth and resilience and 662 00:40:24,239 --> 00:40:28,760 Speaker 2: capacity from me, but it honestly was like the most 663 00:40:28,760 --> 00:40:33,000 Speaker 2: incredible thing because not only did it birth Lacey, who 664 00:40:33,080 --> 00:40:36,439 Speaker 2: was just I just yeah, obviously obsessed, so in love, 665 00:40:36,880 --> 00:40:41,960 Speaker 2: but it birthed and new me and I feel so different. 666 00:40:42,239 --> 00:40:46,040 Speaker 2: I feel so much more me. I don't know if 667 00:40:46,080 --> 00:40:50,360 Speaker 2: that's even if I'm articulating things right, but I just 668 00:40:50,400 --> 00:40:53,279 Speaker 2: feel so much more me. And the way I can 669 00:40:53,360 --> 00:40:56,480 Speaker 2: explain it is, I'm like it was perfect. It was 670 00:40:56,520 --> 00:40:58,520 Speaker 2: all meant to go that way. We were meant to 671 00:40:58,560 --> 00:41:02,359 Speaker 2: go through that because how I feel right now is 672 00:41:03,120 --> 00:41:08,880 Speaker 2: so connected to Lacey, so connected to myself, so at peace. 673 00:41:09,280 --> 00:41:12,960 Speaker 2: I feel so safe in my body. I feel like 674 00:41:13,000 --> 00:41:19,360 Speaker 2: I just have this deep knowing that everything, like everything 675 00:41:19,560 --> 00:41:23,879 Speaker 2: that has happened up until now, was bringing us to 676 00:41:23,960 --> 00:41:28,000 Speaker 2: this point. And I just feel I don't know, I 677 00:41:28,040 --> 00:41:30,959 Speaker 2: just feel pure bliss. I feel pure happiness. I feel 678 00:41:31,040 --> 00:41:37,319 Speaker 2: so content. It's just right. And I hope I'm articulating 679 00:41:37,360 --> 00:41:44,240 Speaker 2: that well. But yeah, so that is the wild story. Again, 680 00:41:44,360 --> 00:41:49,560 Speaker 2: this is just my experience. And like I said, despite 681 00:41:49,800 --> 00:41:53,400 Speaker 2: like if someone you know is probably hearing this, probably thinking, 682 00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:57,600 Speaker 2: holy shit, that's wild. It was, but also, yeah, it 683 00:41:57,680 --> 00:42:01,279 Speaker 2: was so perfect for us. And now you know, I 684 00:42:01,360 --> 00:42:06,640 Speaker 2: am about two months postpartum. We're finding our croove, she's 685 00:42:06,680 --> 00:42:10,240 Speaker 2: sleeping really well, we're just feeding on demand. We're getting 686 00:42:10,360 --> 00:42:13,840 Speaker 2: a couple of long stretches at night. And it's funny. 687 00:42:13,840 --> 00:42:17,000 Speaker 2: I was telling Jamie this morning, I, you know, wore 688 00:42:17,040 --> 00:42:19,359 Speaker 2: my whoop when I was pregnant, and I just want 689 00:42:19,360 --> 00:42:23,040 Speaker 2: to say to my pregnant mammas, like, newborn tired is 690 00:42:23,280 --> 00:42:27,640 Speaker 2: not as bad as pregnancy tired. When I was pregnant 691 00:42:27,680 --> 00:42:30,960 Speaker 2: and wearing my whoop, I literally could not get out 692 00:42:31,040 --> 00:42:34,360 Speaker 2: of the orange or red because it will give you, like, 693 00:42:34,760 --> 00:42:37,040 Speaker 2: you know, green. If you're in the green, you're good 694 00:42:37,040 --> 00:42:39,600 Speaker 2: to go, and then it goes down to orange and 695 00:42:39,600 --> 00:42:42,880 Speaker 2: then red and red obviously means like do nothing today 696 00:42:42,920 --> 00:42:46,400 Speaker 2: because you're exhausted. And when I was pregnant with Lacey, 697 00:42:46,520 --> 00:42:49,720 Speaker 2: I was always in the orange and red despite having 698 00:42:49,800 --> 00:42:53,680 Speaker 2: like an eight nine hour sleep. Obviously the insomnia wasn't helping. 699 00:42:54,320 --> 00:42:59,680 Speaker 2: But like I'm waking up, you know, probably twice a 700 00:42:59,800 --> 00:43:03,640 Speaker 2: night at the moment, with her being eight weeks on 701 00:43:03,680 --> 00:43:06,600 Speaker 2: a rare occasion just once, but mostly twice a night, 702 00:43:07,280 --> 00:43:11,680 Speaker 2: and I'm still in the green. And I think it's 703 00:43:11,800 --> 00:43:16,120 Speaker 2: just because recovery is going so much. Recovery is going 704 00:43:16,160 --> 00:43:19,520 Speaker 2: really well with the C section. I am really onto 705 00:43:19,960 --> 00:43:23,960 Speaker 2: all my supplements. If you haven't listened to the postpartum 706 00:43:23,960 --> 00:43:27,399 Speaker 2: Glow Up episode where I talk about what I'm doing postpartum, 707 00:43:27,719 --> 00:43:29,919 Speaker 2: I actually recorded that when I was pregnant, but I 708 00:43:30,000 --> 00:43:33,040 Speaker 2: had a plan in place. I'm doing everything in that 709 00:43:33,120 --> 00:43:36,120 Speaker 2: plan in regards to the supplements I'm taking, the water 710 00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:41,600 Speaker 2: I'm drinking and everything like that. And yeah, newborn tired, 711 00:43:42,080 --> 00:43:44,680 Speaker 2: not as bad like I wake up twice a night, 712 00:43:45,000 --> 00:43:47,520 Speaker 2: and the wake ups are about forty five minutes to 713 00:43:47,560 --> 00:43:49,640 Speaker 2: an hour. That's how long it takes to feed her. 714 00:43:50,040 --> 00:43:54,120 Speaker 2: And honestly like, fine, Obviously I have my days and 715 00:43:54,160 --> 00:43:58,200 Speaker 2: I can get a bit agitated and whatnot, but honestly fine. 716 00:43:58,239 --> 00:44:00,520 Speaker 2: And so if you're pregnant and you're like, oh my god, 717 00:44:00,760 --> 00:44:02,400 Speaker 2: especially if you have a toddline and you're like, I 718 00:44:02,400 --> 00:44:04,560 Speaker 2: don't know how I'm going to do this, trust me 719 00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:07,640 Speaker 2: when I say newborn tired is not as bad as 720 00:44:07,680 --> 00:44:12,840 Speaker 2: pregnancy tired. So yes, despite everything, I am feeling so good, 721 00:44:13,040 --> 00:44:19,000 Speaker 2: so happy, and just really loving this current season. Thank 722 00:44:19,040 --> 00:44:21,360 Speaker 2: you so much for listening to this episode of the 723 00:44:21,440 --> 00:44:25,080 Speaker 2: Rise and Conquer podcast. 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