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Speaker 1: Welcome back to two Notting Dads. My name is Mattie J. Wow.

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Speaker 1: Is that too much back? Come back?

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Speaker 2: Okay, let me try that one my time. My name

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Speaker 2: is Matti J. Hi, Matt is that more than somewhere

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Speaker 2: in between? Next episode I'll do a better job. And

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Speaker 2: this is a podcast all about parenting. It is the good,

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Speaker 2: it is the.

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Speaker 1: Bad and the relatable. And I'm also ash. I'm so sorry,

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Speaker 1: I'm so thinking sorry forgive me. I'm on holidays.

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Speaker 3: Dude.

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Speaker 1: That's okay, you're out, You're out of the swing. I

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Speaker 1: get it, get it. But do you know what's right

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Speaker 1: in the swing? What's best of episodes? It's a cracker

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Speaker 1: absolutely c say the best to last, I would say.

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Speaker 1: We talk about my diagnosed severe ADHD, which was no

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Speaker 1: surprise to anybody. Severe in bold we also talk about ADHD.

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Speaker 1: By the way, that's it going.

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Speaker 4: It's flaring.

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Speaker 1: Matt and his sister do a little dress up a

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Speaker 1: flashback from the past.

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Speaker 2: We've got that photo. It's up on the fridge. I

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Speaker 2: don't know if you saw it when you went to

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Speaker 2: get a glass on water.

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Speaker 4: I've got a.

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Speaker 1: Copy of it. Worry, it's sexy.

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Speaker 2: A list of question is a mum of a one

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Speaker 2: year old fighting with her partner. PSA to dads out there,

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Speaker 2: just remember, guys, just remember life is not difficult. All

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Speaker 2: you have to do is clean the freaking house.

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Speaker 1: That a chure player gets everyone across the line, doesn't it.

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Speaker 1: We also talk about if you do. Recall Matt was

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Speaker 1: in the jungle, so we had a guest on which

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Speaker 1: happened to be my wife, and I reveal April's sleep routine.

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Speaker 1: Are we talking about your sex life again? All right?

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Speaker 1: We can talk about that in private, but for this episode,

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Speaker 1: we're talking about meditation and specifically sex. The nonsense that

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Speaker 1: is chakra. Is there sex in this episode?

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Speaker 2: Is it because I wasn't here, I didn't listen to

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Speaker 2: there's no sex in this jests giving me the sign

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Speaker 2: for sex? It is sexy time we talk about the

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Speaker 2: chakras like kma citra.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, all right, let's just get into it. I'm

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Speaker 1: going to listen to it. Okay. I can't wait to

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Speaker 1: find out about you in April.

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Speaker 4: Nice, you're fine.

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Speaker 1: Well, I'm not, actually, and I have a story about that.

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Speaker 1: Not fine. Hemorrhoids hemorrhoids about the hemorrhoids were vicious while

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Speaker 1: you were gone, and that was from stress. It was

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Speaker 1: stressed about you. I was worried about you, not about

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Speaker 1: me or my terrible lifestyle and my horrible habits had

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Speaker 1: nothing to do with that. It's all stress. But we

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Speaker 1: have some answers Matthew to why I am like the

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Speaker 1: way that I am. Okay, that's formal. So we always joke.

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Speaker 1: We joke a lot on these podcasts about the poster

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Speaker 1: boy for a particular. It's a disorder. Disorder, yeah it is.

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Speaker 1: There's got enough d's in there that out of disorder.

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Speaker 1: It's a disorder. I have formerly been diagnosed by a

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Speaker 1: psych hiatress as a severe let me finish a severe

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Speaker 1: case of adult ADHD. We class. Look, I didn't know

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Speaker 1: what to do. I was like, I can't say I'm surprised.

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Speaker 1: I'm not surprising. We all knew. Now that I know,

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Speaker 1: it's it's way worse. I'm just like I found myself yesterday.

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Speaker 1: It's better the disorder. You don't know. Yeah, I found

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Speaker 1: myself yesterday. We're at the PM's house for that thing

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Speaker 1: you're doing, and I was like staring off into the

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Speaker 1: like into no man's landlight and then I'll be like

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Speaker 1: oh fuck ship if someone's like talking, was like, ash,

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Speaker 1: just this echo. It's quite a long process. I thought,

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Speaker 1: Matt'scarl of the Jungle and pulled my finger out and

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Speaker 1: do something for myself off here, and can I ask,

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Speaker 1: Can I ask what made you want to get tested?

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Speaker 1: Because you've you're now in your about one hundred and

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Speaker 1: seventeen episodes of this podcast. I listened back to all them.

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Speaker 1: I was like, fuck, that guy.

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Speaker 2: Needs to help, because you kind of think you've come

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Speaker 2: this far. You're in your mid thirties, you come this far.

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Speaker 2: You know surely, surely you know you're fine.

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Speaker 1: No, it's getting worse. It's getting progressively worse. Really in

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Speaker 1: what way? Look, I know I know that I've always

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Speaker 1: you don't I'm happy? Shut up? And honestly it was

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Speaker 1: What was Oscar doing that? He can't focus on me,

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Speaker 1: I just refresh your memory?

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Speaker 2: And I you know this, But for the listeners, Ash,

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Speaker 2: I don't know what it was. But he was like,

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Speaker 2: I'm really into Pokemon cards and I was like, what

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Speaker 1: Locked in still bro, I am locked in. Actually I

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Speaker 1: It is, and I'm an adult who like should be

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Speaker 1: learn a new skill like Rubik's Cube. Took me one

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Speaker 1: And it's progressively getting worse to the point where like

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Speaker 2: It must have been like six months ago we had

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Speaker 1: That's a common concern they say it because it's like

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Speaker 1: And I've gotten to the point where I'm doing that

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Speaker 2: And it's tough because obviously, your sister's going to be

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Speaker 1: But I guess other people might be like fuck ash,

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Speaker 1: like that's rude. Men. So many people and I feel

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Speaker 2: So what was the process? Because I remember you saying

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Speaker 1: So this is the second time I've been down because

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Speaker 1: So stuff like there's a lot of like cognitive testing,

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Speaker 1: You've got to they say that you need to provide

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I think it would have been so easy to

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Speaker 5: Let's so he was like the he was always the

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Speaker 1: Oh my god. What? And so for like one evening,

431
00:23:18,800 --> 00:23:22,520
Speaker 1: I get a sister. Yeah you did. I was called Ntricia.

432
00:23:22,680 --> 00:23:28,080
Speaker 1: Is that sick? Is it redularly? Probably? Probably any foundation,

433
00:23:28,240 --> 00:23:34,199
Speaker 1: any roofe, Muma's makeup? Wow, very good? Have you got

434
00:23:34,200 --> 00:23:35,560
Speaker 1: a sports praer on? Under that?

435
00:23:37,080 --> 00:23:39,120
Speaker 5: The only thing I would say is that he wasn't

436
00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:41,120
Speaker 5: the only brother I dressed most dress.

437
00:23:41,400 --> 00:23:43,359
Speaker 1: Yeah, I did dressed most. You wanted to be like

438
00:23:43,359 --> 00:23:44,280
Speaker 1: the Spice girls.

439
00:23:45,320 --> 00:23:47,479
Speaker 5: David did ask most of the time to be dressed up.

440
00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:51,720
Speaker 1: Wow, he did aspect you look great? You do look good.

441
00:23:52,080 --> 00:23:56,240
Speaker 1: Thank you. Yeah, you look like you look like someone

442
00:23:56,240 --> 00:24:02,560
Speaker 1: who always tries to get out of pe just like

443
00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:07,040
Speaker 1: a lit the beer boxes in the back, cheepers, good boobs,

444
00:24:07,240 --> 00:24:09,840
Speaker 1: good graces at the camps. Can I keep this? God

445
00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:10,679
Speaker 1: knows what you'll do with it?

446
00:24:11,040 --> 00:24:13,560
Speaker 5: Matt stress up as a woman plenty of times in

447
00:24:13,640 --> 00:24:14,280
Speaker 5: recent times.

448
00:24:14,320 --> 00:24:17,080
Speaker 1: It's in a while. I'm true. For one, I reckon,

449
00:24:17,119 --> 00:24:21,400
Speaker 1: you need to recreate this. That's a great, great week.

450
00:24:21,520 --> 00:24:25,600
Speaker 1: Thank you so much. Listen to questions, Listen to questions.

451
00:24:26,280 --> 00:24:29,800
Speaker 1: Do you want to start this? Start you start? Okay?

452
00:24:30,119 --> 00:24:34,240
Speaker 1: This one's from anonymous strange names this week. Mum of

453
00:24:34,320 --> 00:24:37,199
Speaker 1: a one year old here, huge fight with my partner

454
00:24:37,280 --> 00:24:40,560
Speaker 1: last night. He says we spend no time together, our

455
00:24:40,600 --> 00:24:43,879
Speaker 1: relationship is non existent, and we no longer have fun.

456
00:24:44,560 --> 00:24:47,800
Speaker 1: He's not wrong in some ways, we've both been focusing

457
00:24:47,840 --> 00:24:51,080
Speaker 1: on getting back to ourselves after becoming parents, or or so.

458
00:24:51,240 --> 00:24:55,399
Speaker 1: I thought. Do you have any rituals for spending time

459
00:24:55,560 --> 00:25:01,600
Speaker 1: with your rituals sex, I'm a child. I'm just a

460
00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:03,560
Speaker 1: child first and foremost. Go on.

461
00:25:06,600 --> 00:25:11,520
Speaker 2: I think it is very natural as parents with any

462
00:25:11,600 --> 00:25:15,000
Speaker 2: number of children, that you have periods where you feel

463
00:25:15,040 --> 00:25:16,000
Speaker 2: a bit disconnected.

464
00:25:16,000 --> 00:25:19,400
Speaker 1: From your partner like a roommate, like a roommate face.

465
00:25:20,119 --> 00:25:22,120
Speaker 2: Do you know how old the kids are? No, that's

466
00:25:22,320 --> 00:25:23,760
Speaker 2: one year old? Did you say one year old?

467
00:25:24,359 --> 00:25:24,600
Speaker 1: Yes?

468
00:25:27,280 --> 00:25:32,399
Speaker 2: Fuck like dude, can you remember how hard it was

469
00:25:32,440 --> 00:25:33,280
Speaker 2: with a one year old?

470
00:25:33,560 --> 00:25:33,879
Speaker 1: Yeah?

471
00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:36,080
Speaker 2: Do you know what I forgot? I had to do

472
00:25:36,480 --> 00:25:39,120
Speaker 2: disinfect like the teats of bottles?

473
00:25:39,160 --> 00:25:42,800
Speaker 1: Do you remember that shit? I didn't know? God? Oh

474
00:25:42,960 --> 00:25:44,480
Speaker 1: not by hand. Did you put in one of those

475
00:25:44,480 --> 00:25:47,480
Speaker 1: things and checked in the microwave? You're putting plastic in

476
00:25:47,480 --> 00:25:50,080
Speaker 1: the microwave? No, they go in like a special. They

477
00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:52,800
Speaker 1: go in a special. Parents will back me up. I

478
00:25:52,920 --> 00:25:56,399
Speaker 1: swear to god, google it. It's like a It's like

479
00:25:56,440 --> 00:25:58,679
Speaker 1: a container. You put a little bit of water and

480
00:25:58,720 --> 00:26:01,359
Speaker 1: it's steroloite. You chuck it in the microwave, heats up

481
00:26:01,359 --> 00:26:04,840
Speaker 1: and it's sterilized. It like boiling water. Microplastics. Does that

482
00:26:04,880 --> 00:26:09,240
Speaker 1: mean anything to you? Obviously not, bro. My My kids

483
00:26:09,240 --> 00:26:11,359
Speaker 1: are just full of microplastics. They're going to get their

484
00:26:11,359 --> 00:26:14,280
Speaker 1: blood filtered one day. Sorry, I shouldn't attack it. I

485
00:26:14,359 --> 00:26:17,520
Speaker 1: mean attacking you this day. Yeah, I appreciate it. I

486
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:21,080
Speaker 1: keeps me on my toes. I've acknowledged it so first

487
00:26:21,119 --> 00:26:23,200
Speaker 1: and foremost continue one year old.

488
00:26:23,200 --> 00:26:25,119
Speaker 2: It's like that is that you're in the eye of

489
00:26:25,160 --> 00:26:28,159
Speaker 2: the storm. That is a tricky position to be in.

490
00:26:28,440 --> 00:26:30,960
Speaker 1: I think it's their coming out of the trickiest position,

491
00:26:30,960 --> 00:26:33,200
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, because that's what you're saying. Yeah,

492
00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:36,359
Speaker 1: like that that age. Yes, don't get me wrong, still tricky,

493
00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:39,520
Speaker 1: and for some it's trickier that whole leading up to one.

494
00:26:40,040 --> 00:26:42,000
Speaker 1: No wonder, you're not fucking hanging out with each other.

495
00:26:42,040 --> 00:26:44,920
Speaker 1: You probably hate each other everyone on the surface.

496
00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:48,040
Speaker 2: Yes, did everyone with a one year old. Every couple

497
00:26:48,080 --> 00:26:50,560
Speaker 2: hates each other at that period of life, and.

498
00:26:50,440 --> 00:26:54,040
Speaker 1: If they don't, they're fucking lying. No one is thriving.

499
00:26:54,800 --> 00:26:56,919
Speaker 2: You may thrive for the blink of an eye, but

500
00:26:57,000 --> 00:27:00,240
Speaker 2: then the majority of the time you just try to

501
00:27:00,240 --> 00:27:00,720
Speaker 2: stay alive.

502
00:27:00,880 --> 00:27:04,119
Speaker 1: Yeah, you just get your head above water. That's the reality.

503
00:27:04,480 --> 00:27:07,080
Speaker 2: I think anyone who was like, oh wow, I don't

504
00:27:07,119 --> 00:27:11,240
Speaker 2: really have, like my relationship is not cranking with one

505
00:27:11,280 --> 00:27:13,280
Speaker 2: year old, I'm like, it should that shouldn't.

506
00:27:13,359 --> 00:27:16,200
Speaker 1: It shouldn't be cranking. If it's cranking, that kid's been neglected.

507
00:27:16,240 --> 00:27:20,879
Speaker 1: It's hungry, all right, keep controld alive. I think also,

508
00:27:20,960 --> 00:27:22,840
Speaker 1: and we say we're not going to give it any advice.

509
00:27:22,880 --> 00:27:25,119
Speaker 1: But we're both married, we both have two kids. I

510
00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:27,600
Speaker 1: think we're both in a position we could give a

511
00:27:27,600 --> 00:27:30,160
Speaker 1: little bit of advice that has worked potentially for us.

512
00:27:30,320 --> 00:27:35,200
Speaker 1: I'm ready for it. Give yourselves a fucking break. Yeah, sorry,

513
00:27:35,840 --> 00:27:40,000
Speaker 1: continue shut you. Don't go so hard on yourselves, and

514
00:27:40,080 --> 00:27:42,399
Speaker 1: don't put too much pressure. There's so much time for

515
00:27:42,480 --> 00:27:45,720
Speaker 1: you to get that back. Is that? Am I wrong? Yes?

516
00:27:47,200 --> 00:27:50,480
Speaker 1: Go on, okay, put more pressure in yourself.

517
00:27:50,560 --> 00:27:51,520
Speaker 6: Is that what you say?

518
00:27:51,920 --> 00:27:58,480
Speaker 1: Get get ready? Yeah, give the mom a break? Okay, yes, okay?

519
00:27:58,520 --> 00:28:03,280
Speaker 2: Because I I I was shit with a one year old.

520
00:28:03,320 --> 00:28:06,639
Speaker 2: I was still in that mindset of like, oh, mum's

521
00:28:06,680 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 2: got it, you know, because newborn's up until three four months.

522
00:28:10,240 --> 00:28:12,720
Speaker 2: Mum and newborn they are attached at the hip slash

523
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:20,240
Speaker 2: boob and one year old boo there we one year

524
00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:22,879
Speaker 2: old is when dads like that can really start taking

525
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:25,119
Speaker 2: on a lot more true, And so I think I

526
00:28:25,160 --> 00:28:29,679
Speaker 2: think it's hard to think about being sexy and romantic

527
00:28:29,720 --> 00:28:32,040
Speaker 2: and wanting to have all that type of business going

528
00:28:32,080 --> 00:28:34,639
Speaker 2: on when you know the house is a mess and

529
00:28:34,640 --> 00:28:36,720
Speaker 2: you're trying to deal with a little child. So my

530
00:28:36,840 --> 00:28:42,320
Speaker 2: best advice is any dad's out there who think, oh,

531
00:28:42,360 --> 00:28:46,160
Speaker 2: my relationship is not being prioritized. Just like, clean that house, dude,

532
00:28:46,640 --> 00:28:48,680
Speaker 2: take a day off work, call and sink to work

533
00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:51,320
Speaker 2: and just like clean the house, do the washing, mop

534
00:28:51,360 --> 00:28:52,640
Speaker 2: the vacuum, mop the floor.

535
00:28:53,120 --> 00:28:54,640
Speaker 1: A little bit of your player is going to go

536
00:28:54,720 --> 00:28:58,400
Speaker 1: a long way. I refer to the twenty and twenty

537
00:28:58,400 --> 00:28:59,520
Speaker 1: three calendar that we did.

538
00:28:59,440 --> 00:29:00,240
Speaker 2: Go plug.

539
00:29:01,680 --> 00:29:05,200
Speaker 1: Very much out of date. That's my advice. I think

540
00:29:05,240 --> 00:29:08,360
Speaker 1: that's that's pretty solid. But I would just attack on

541
00:29:08,520 --> 00:29:12,400
Speaker 1: the top of that that if you are mum, don't

542
00:29:12,440 --> 00:29:15,240
Speaker 1: try and force that advice onto them because it could

543
00:29:15,440 --> 00:29:17,080
Speaker 1: you know what I mean, Like if you're like, why

544
00:29:17,120 --> 00:29:19,160
Speaker 1: don't you clean the house anymore? It might make it worse.

545
00:29:20,320 --> 00:29:23,160
Speaker 1: You fucking talent to clean the house? Are you going

546
00:29:23,160 --> 00:29:26,320
Speaker 1: with your going with full tellent? I think by what

547
00:29:26,400 --> 00:29:29,360
Speaker 1: I like what you said was then if your dad right,

548
00:29:30,160 --> 00:29:33,760
Speaker 1: just just go and do it. Yes, yes, yes, I

549
00:29:33,840 --> 00:29:37,680
Speaker 1: like that. Be proactive, be proactive. There he is. That's

550
00:29:38,200 --> 00:29:42,080
Speaker 1: to hear because it's it's like for me personally, if

551
00:29:42,680 --> 00:29:46,840
Speaker 1: I would prefer to be proactive and do those sort

552
00:29:46,880 --> 00:29:50,040
Speaker 1: of things, then to be told go and do it,

553
00:29:50,080 --> 00:29:51,960
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? No one enjoys a gift

554
00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:54,400
Speaker 1: they asked for, not that doing exactly. There you go,

555
00:29:54,800 --> 00:29:57,240
Speaker 1: You're just full of good words right now. I'm not

556
00:29:57,240 --> 00:30:00,800
Speaker 1: going to stop it. You got was the apple juice.

557
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:07,200
Speaker 1: It's out of date. Okay, question for you again. Don't

558
00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:09,760
Speaker 1: put too much pressure on the relationship right yes, because

559
00:30:09,760 --> 00:30:12,440
Speaker 1: no one is no I know, we joke, we laugh.

560
00:30:13,240 --> 00:30:15,680
Speaker 1: Everyone fucking hates each other at that stage. Life with

561
00:30:15,760 --> 00:30:18,080
Speaker 1: a two year old is a lot better than life

562
00:30:18,080 --> 00:30:20,560
Speaker 1: for the one year old. Yeah, for sure. They're given

563
00:30:20,600 --> 00:30:22,600
Speaker 1: back way more. Give me a toddler any day of

564
00:30:22,680 --> 00:30:29,840
Speaker 1: the week. Boards. It's funny, like with white noise, we

565
00:30:29,840 --> 00:30:33,120
Speaker 1: were a white noise house and something. Matt's never had

566
00:30:33,160 --> 00:30:35,960
Speaker 1: white noise in their house or anything else ever, No,

567
00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:40,120
Speaker 1: And it's like what, like why, I said to him why,

568
00:30:40,160 --> 00:30:43,360
Speaker 1: and he was like, we just never. It's the best,

569
00:30:43,480 --> 00:30:45,160
Speaker 1: like the lightning, the storms.

570
00:30:45,280 --> 00:30:48,240
Speaker 7: Yeah, they haven't noticed it well in saying that we've

571
00:30:48,280 --> 00:30:50,520
Speaker 7: had the fan on and that's probably naisier than the

572
00:30:50,520 --> 00:30:51,000
Speaker 7: white noise.

573
00:30:51,080 --> 00:30:53,960
Speaker 1: But I find that like I'm so accustomed and used

574
00:30:53,960 --> 00:30:57,760
Speaker 1: to it now, it's just like it's part of our house.

575
00:30:57,840 --> 00:30:59,680
Speaker 1: I feel like when we lose it, I'll be sad.

576
00:31:00,320 --> 00:31:02,480
Speaker 7: Yeah, when they don't, when they say they don't want

577
00:31:02,520 --> 00:31:03,000
Speaker 7: it anymore.

578
00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:05,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's kind of like, well, hang on, we've listened

579
00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:10,080
Speaker 1: to the same song, same noise, yeah, every night for

580
00:31:10,240 --> 00:31:12,520
Speaker 1: five and a half years so far, it'll be the

581
00:31:12,560 --> 00:31:15,520
Speaker 1: end of an era. Very good. I think that's a hack.

582
00:31:15,760 --> 00:31:17,840
Speaker 1: Anything that gets a kid to sleep, I'm sweet with.

583
00:31:18,160 --> 00:31:21,440
Speaker 7: It's almost as good as our two meditations competing against

584
00:31:21,480 --> 00:31:21,800
Speaker 7: each other.

585
00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:25,200
Speaker 1: They each yeah, so averyone along with the white noises

586
00:31:25,200 --> 00:31:28,800
Speaker 1: in our house. April and I both have sleep music.

587
00:31:28,920 --> 00:31:32,680
Speaker 1: I think we just adopted it from having the white

588
00:31:32,720 --> 00:31:35,800
Speaker 1: noise on because we had we lived in units for

589
00:31:35,920 --> 00:31:39,760
Speaker 1: so long with Oscar, mainly that the whole house just

590
00:31:39,920 --> 00:31:43,960
Speaker 1: was like you walk into a house all the time.

591
00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:47,720
Speaker 1: It's just it's like an AM radio station. And then

592
00:31:47,760 --> 00:31:49,720
Speaker 1: we were like, oh, you know, do some sleep music.

593
00:31:49,720 --> 00:31:52,400
Speaker 1: I think for a while there we had one where

594
00:31:52,400 --> 00:31:56,360
Speaker 1: we just shared it. And then you've gone more into

595
00:31:57,760 --> 00:32:04,920
Speaker 1: the meditation chakras. Oh god, it's and mine's more just

596
00:32:04,960 --> 00:32:09,360
Speaker 1: like piano sleep music. But the thing is your meditation

597
00:32:09,600 --> 00:32:13,240
Speaker 1: lasts for an hour, it's three hours. What for the

598
00:32:13,320 --> 00:32:15,880
Speaker 1: talking only last for an hour? Talking for an hour,

599
00:32:15,960 --> 00:32:18,480
Speaker 1: but you're out cold in like two, You're like, it's

600
00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:21,920
Speaker 1: sleeping next to a dead body, and you are out,

601
00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:24,280
Speaker 1: And so I've got to spend the next hour listening

602
00:32:24,320 --> 00:32:29,920
Speaker 1: to this woman carry on about different energy chakras. But

603
00:32:29,960 --> 00:32:34,240
Speaker 1: also I find with those those people. Also I find

604
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:37,720
Speaker 1: with people who are really into that and the chakras

605
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:43,040
Speaker 1: like me, they really in depthly describe where your chakra is, Like,

606
00:32:43,120 --> 00:32:44,920
Speaker 1: no one's going to if they don't, no one's going

607
00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:45,560
Speaker 1: to believe them.

608
00:32:45,600 --> 00:32:49,560
Speaker 3: So here's an example. They're like, So, she's like, and

609
00:32:49,600 --> 00:32:57,000
Speaker 3: your third chakra is in your stup just below the

610
00:32:57,080 --> 00:33:02,719
Speaker 3: breast bone, in between both victorial muscles, slightly underneath the

611
00:33:02,760 --> 00:33:05,080
Speaker 3: cartilage of the humanness.

612
00:33:05,360 --> 00:33:07,640
Speaker 1: To listen to my meditation, that's like, what don't you

613
00:33:07,720 --> 00:33:10,280
Speaker 1: just say it's in your chest? Do you think this

614
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:12,160
Speaker 1: one's gonna be? Like, okay, if it's in your chest,

615
00:33:12,200 --> 00:33:12,760
Speaker 1: where is it?

616
00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:16,480
Speaker 7: I'm just going to disagree with you because I quite

617
00:33:16,680 --> 00:33:17,240
Speaker 7: like it.

618
00:33:17,240 --> 00:33:20,960
Speaker 1: It's like they're like, okay, And also how many chakras

619
00:33:20,960 --> 00:33:24,160
Speaker 1: does one person have? I listened to it so many

620
00:33:24,200 --> 00:33:26,920
Speaker 1: times that they're like, and I don't go to sleep

621
00:33:26,960 --> 00:33:29,760
Speaker 1: that easy. It takes me forever. And I'm listening. You're

622
00:33:29,840 --> 00:33:32,880
Speaker 1: welcome you as well. And at the top of your

623
00:33:32,920 --> 00:33:38,080
Speaker 1: head is your twelfth chakra. Like she's just rattling off

624
00:33:38,120 --> 00:33:42,880
Speaker 1: the human anatomy. Essentially, it's great. It's all mindfulness. What

625
00:33:43,080 --> 00:33:48,000
Speaker 1: you're fastest say your story is snoring and I'm listening

626
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:48,800
Speaker 1: to someone and being.

627
00:33:48,640 --> 00:33:52,760
Speaker 6: Like, and your sixth chakra is at the base of

628
00:33:52,800 --> 00:33:58,040
Speaker 6: your buttole and it slightly edges up towards the shaft

629
00:33:58,080 --> 00:33:59,680
Speaker 6: of your penis.

630
00:33:59,200 --> 00:34:03,120
Speaker 1: And I'm like, fuck, king hell, how many chakra energy?

631
00:34:03,160 --> 00:34:05,440
Speaker 1: And they're all energy chakras. And then they finish with

632
00:34:06,040 --> 00:34:10,320
Speaker 1: and if you look up, there is your final chakra

633
00:34:12,239 --> 00:34:16,759
Speaker 1: hovering above you like a guiding light. Definitely doesn't say

634
00:34:16,800 --> 00:34:20,080
Speaker 1: that it does. It doesn't say it must be specific

635
00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:24,960
Speaker 1: to mothers. Oh really, yeah that far? You literally have

636
00:34:25,120 --> 00:34:27,560
Speaker 1: never gotten that far. It gets to a point where

637
00:34:27,600 --> 00:34:30,719
Speaker 1: it's like street noise, traffic noise, nothing will wake you

638
00:34:31,520 --> 00:34:36,400
Speaker 1: except for the sound of your newborn child. I'm like,

639
00:34:36,800 --> 00:34:40,560
Speaker 1: shut up, anyway.

640
00:34:40,239 --> 00:34:43,400
Speaker 6: Your newborn child has fifty five chakras.

641
00:34:43,880 --> 00:34:48,040
Speaker 1: Let's begin, let's begin, or it's like, now started your

642
00:34:48,080 --> 00:34:52,520
Speaker 1: head and work your way down. It's just how you're

643
00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:54,520
Speaker 1: saying it. Maybe I should, maybe you should be the

644
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:59,040
Speaker 1: chakra talker. Maybe this doesn't work out. If this doesn't

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Speaker 1: To as many people as you can. Doesn't matter. If

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Speaker 1: TikTok or YouTube. To Doting Dads the review people, man,

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Speaker 1: we are still on holidays back, but that week back

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Speaker 2: So you man, what a great tread trying to just

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Speaker 2: get off this fucking boat. Two Doting Dads podcast acknowledges

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Speaker 2: the traditional custodians of country throughout Australia and the connections

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Speaker 2: to land, sea and community.

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Speaker 1: We pay our respects to their elders past and present

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Speaker 1: and extend that respect to all Aboriginal and Torrestrate Islander

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Speaker 1: peoples today. This episode was recorded on Gadagal land,