1 00:00:00,040 --> 00:00:02,640 Speaker 1: I would like to acknowledge the traditional owners of the 2 00:00:02,720 --> 00:00:06,279 Speaker 1: land on which this episode is being recorded, the Combomb 3 00:00:06,320 --> 00:00:11,080 Speaker 1: Merry people. They've been having conversations and telling stories on 4 00:00:11,119 --> 00:00:14,280 Speaker 1: this land for thousands of years, and we show our 5 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:19,240 Speaker 1: gratitude and respect for their contribution to our environment and culture. 6 00:00:25,560 --> 00:00:31,480 Speaker 1: This is Rise and Conquer, the podcast where we strive 7 00:00:31,680 --> 00:00:37,480 Speaker 1: to become the highest version of ourselves through curious conversations, 8 00:00:37,800 --> 00:00:43,080 Speaker 1: healthy mindsets, laughter, connection, and a deep desire to evolve. 9 00:00:44,200 --> 00:00:50,800 Speaker 1: I'm your host, Georgie Stevenson. Join me as we explore parenthood, business, manifestation, 10 00:00:51,080 --> 00:00:54,800 Speaker 1: and so much more. It's positive, it's practical, and it's 11 00:00:54,800 --> 00:00:58,320 Speaker 1: about putting you in the driver's seat of your own life. 12 00:00:58,720 --> 00:00:59,840 Speaker 2: Are you ready? 13 00:01:01,920 --> 00:01:05,680 Speaker 1: Hello, my loves, and welcome back to the podcast. It 14 00:01:05,800 --> 00:01:09,280 Speaker 1: is your host Georgie Stevenson, and today we have a 15 00:01:09,520 --> 00:01:15,920 Speaker 1: very vulnerable episode where I am opening up and chatting 16 00:01:15,959 --> 00:01:21,200 Speaker 1: to you guys about me and Tim's second trying to 17 00:01:21,319 --> 00:01:25,959 Speaker 1: Conceive IVF journey. So I am going to do two 18 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:30,360 Speaker 1: podcasts and I'm going to do this podcast that's all 19 00:01:30,400 --> 00:01:34,800 Speaker 1: about like the trying to conceive the infertility, and then 20 00:01:35,560 --> 00:01:38,840 Speaker 1: I am going to do another podcast that is answering 21 00:01:38,880 --> 00:01:42,480 Speaker 1: your questions that will be more focused on the pregnancy. 22 00:01:42,720 --> 00:01:46,040 Speaker 1: So if you're listening to that and that one, the 23 00:01:46,080 --> 00:01:49,080 Speaker 1: second one isn't out yet, that one will be coming out, 24 00:01:49,120 --> 00:01:52,240 Speaker 1: And that's more kind of like answering questions at this 25 00:01:52,400 --> 00:01:56,480 Speaker 1: moment in time, twenty weeks pregnant, Whereas what you're about 26 00:01:56,560 --> 00:02:02,200 Speaker 1: to hear is literally live audio from our year long 27 00:02:02,320 --> 00:02:05,560 Speaker 1: trying to conceive journey. And I think it's really important 28 00:02:05,600 --> 00:02:08,800 Speaker 1: to open up and talk about this because when you 29 00:02:08,880 --> 00:02:12,240 Speaker 1: are trying to conceive, especially if you haven't told anyone 30 00:02:12,280 --> 00:02:16,560 Speaker 1: about it, it can feel very isolating, and especially if 31 00:02:16,600 --> 00:02:19,800 Speaker 1: you have friends and family around you who are getting 32 00:02:19,880 --> 00:02:25,320 Speaker 1: pregnant so easily, it can really be such a heavy 33 00:02:25,560 --> 00:02:30,120 Speaker 1: time emotionally. But it's also so normal, Like I've had 34 00:02:31,000 --> 00:02:36,320 Speaker 1: more than half of my girlfriends have experienced some form 35 00:02:36,400 --> 00:02:39,720 Speaker 1: of infertility, so it's so normal, but I think we 36 00:02:40,040 --> 00:02:42,519 Speaker 1: don't talk about it enough. So I just wanted to 37 00:02:42,560 --> 00:02:46,760 Speaker 1: open up the conversation and you'll hear in these clips 38 00:02:46,800 --> 00:02:50,280 Speaker 1: I'm going to go through. I started in January twenty 39 00:02:50,400 --> 00:02:53,840 Speaker 1: twenty four, and I just wanted to document myself and 40 00:02:53,880 --> 00:02:58,080 Speaker 1: my mental health because in our first trying to conceive journey. 41 00:02:58,240 --> 00:03:02,360 Speaker 1: I honestly struggled so much and it wasn't good, and 42 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:06,640 Speaker 1: I really wanted this journey to be different. Look, it 43 00:03:06,800 --> 00:03:09,960 Speaker 1: still was tricky, and I say about to get into it. 44 00:03:10,320 --> 00:03:12,359 Speaker 1: We did end up having to do IVF, and we 45 00:03:12,480 --> 00:03:15,880 Speaker 1: had lots of issues with IVF, but look, I am 46 00:03:15,919 --> 00:03:20,280 Speaker 1: currently twenty weeks pregnant, so it all worked out, so 47 00:03:20,400 --> 00:03:23,399 Speaker 1: let's get straight into it. Also, this audio is from 48 00:03:23,440 --> 00:03:26,720 Speaker 1: a YouTube video, so I do have a YouTube video 49 00:03:27,400 --> 00:03:30,880 Speaker 1: if you prefer to watch this instead of listen, and 50 00:03:30,960 --> 00:03:33,480 Speaker 1: we will link it in the show notes. Yeah, I 51 00:03:33,560 --> 00:03:35,080 Speaker 1: really want you to hear the kind of like the 52 00:03:35,120 --> 00:03:38,400 Speaker 1: live documentation of it, because you can kind of feel 53 00:03:38,400 --> 00:03:40,200 Speaker 1: it in the energy. You can hear it in my 54 00:03:40,280 --> 00:03:43,560 Speaker 1: voice how I'm going. And I just want to normalize infertility. 55 00:03:43,600 --> 00:03:46,640 Speaker 1: I want to normalize, you know, trying to conceive journeys. 56 00:03:46,680 --> 00:03:56,560 Speaker 1: So let's get into it. My Loves January twenty twenty four, 57 00:03:57,160 --> 00:04:03,320 Speaker 1: twelve months before we found out pregnant. So Tim and 58 00:04:03,360 --> 00:04:06,960 Speaker 1: I are trying to type a baby. I thought I 59 00:04:07,000 --> 00:04:12,480 Speaker 1: would like record my thoughts, feelings, emotions, all the things 60 00:04:13,120 --> 00:04:14,400 Speaker 1: as we go on the journey. 61 00:04:15,880 --> 00:04:17,360 Speaker 3: Last time, it took us. 62 00:04:17,240 --> 00:04:22,840 Speaker 4: Over twelve months we had a miscarriage. 63 00:04:22,960 --> 00:04:27,120 Speaker 3: It was so much heartache and so challenging. 64 00:04:27,200 --> 00:04:30,920 Speaker 5: It was so hard, and I'm so determined for this 65 00:04:31,520 --> 00:04:35,960 Speaker 5: experience to be different from my mindset to be different, 66 00:04:37,080 --> 00:04:38,400 Speaker 5: so I'm going to document it. 67 00:04:38,760 --> 00:04:41,000 Speaker 1: So this is the very first month. The way we're 68 00:04:41,040 --> 00:04:44,920 Speaker 1: going about it right now, I've always tracked my cycle 69 00:04:45,880 --> 00:04:49,960 Speaker 1: and we're just having a lot of fun, keeping things 70 00:04:50,000 --> 00:04:51,560 Speaker 1: super spicy. 71 00:04:51,720 --> 00:04:53,200 Speaker 3: Things are going to be different this time. 72 00:04:53,600 --> 00:04:57,720 Speaker 1: Previously it was very like I'm ovulating, let's have sex as. 73 00:04:57,720 --> 00:05:01,200 Speaker 3: Much just weak that, and it just did not make 74 00:05:01,279 --> 00:05:02,120 Speaker 3: for a great experience. 75 00:05:02,200 --> 00:05:04,560 Speaker 1: You think it sounds fun until you've been doing it 76 00:05:04,600 --> 00:05:05,719 Speaker 1: for twelve months. 77 00:05:06,040 --> 00:05:09,160 Speaker 4: And so for example, this month, something that's difference is 78 00:05:09,200 --> 00:05:14,240 Speaker 4: like sitting in this energy of like unbothered, undas I 79 00:05:14,320 --> 00:05:17,320 Speaker 4: know what I've won, I'm clear on what I want. 80 00:05:17,800 --> 00:05:20,640 Speaker 1: I know my body is meant to create. I know 81 00:05:20,720 --> 00:05:23,880 Speaker 1: the little beautiful soul is there and it's going to 82 00:05:23,960 --> 00:05:25,040 Speaker 1: come in, and that. 83 00:05:25,080 --> 00:05:25,480 Speaker 6: Is the vibe. 84 00:05:25,520 --> 00:05:29,080 Speaker 1: And I get to enjoy this journey and I have 85 00:05:29,160 --> 00:05:32,400 Speaker 1: this beautiful connection with my husband and this beautiful time 86 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:35,000 Speaker 1: with Ivy, and that is what's going to be different 87 00:05:35,080 --> 00:05:38,240 Speaker 1: about this time around. And I'm sure there's going to 88 00:05:38,279 --> 00:05:42,720 Speaker 1: be emotions and highs and lows, but that's okay. The 89 00:05:42,839 --> 00:05:46,040 Speaker 1: end of January twenty twenty four, so I caught up 90 00:05:46,080 --> 00:05:51,320 Speaker 1: with my bestie and she's pregnant, and I really sat 91 00:05:51,360 --> 00:05:54,880 Speaker 1: in the feeling of festival, so happy for her because 92 00:05:54,960 --> 00:05:57,560 Speaker 1: previously she had to go through IVF and it was 93 00:05:57,640 --> 00:06:00,920 Speaker 1: natural and it was months two, So happy for her. 94 00:06:00,960 --> 00:06:05,320 Speaker 1: But I really sat on the energy of, like, if 95 00:06:05,360 --> 00:06:09,920 Speaker 1: she can do it naturally, so can I. And previously 96 00:06:10,240 --> 00:06:13,680 Speaker 1: when we're trying to conceive things like that, you know, 97 00:06:14,000 --> 00:06:15,000 Speaker 1: could have triggered me. 98 00:06:15,640 --> 00:06:17,120 Speaker 3: But I am really sitting the. 99 00:06:17,160 --> 00:06:19,280 Speaker 1: Energy of like, if she can do it, I can 100 00:06:19,320 --> 00:06:25,720 Speaker 1: do it too, and like how magical. February twenty twenty four. 101 00:06:25,839 --> 00:06:32,000 Speaker 6: Just got my parent feelings kind of neutral, not too worried. 102 00:06:32,880 --> 00:06:36,480 Speaker 6: I just did some journaling this morning where I did 103 00:06:36,520 --> 00:06:42,239 Speaker 6: the affirmations that my body is healed. My thyroid is healed, 104 00:06:42,440 --> 00:06:42,680 Speaker 6: so I. 105 00:06:42,640 --> 00:06:46,520 Speaker 7: Have issues with that, and my body is the perfect 106 00:06:47,080 --> 00:06:50,920 Speaker 7: vessel for a baby to come through, and it is 107 00:06:51,000 --> 00:06:53,120 Speaker 7: coming through in present tense. 108 00:06:54,520 --> 00:07:01,560 Speaker 1: March twenty twenty four, Month two obviously disappointed, sad, but 109 00:07:01,680 --> 00:07:08,719 Speaker 1: also I keep getting a vision of them, can see 110 00:07:08,960 --> 00:07:09,600 Speaker 1: their face. 111 00:07:09,880 --> 00:07:13,520 Speaker 8: I can see the curls, I can see the personality. 112 00:07:13,680 --> 00:07:16,160 Speaker 9: It just is like filling me up, and I'm like, 113 00:07:16,440 --> 00:07:17,680 Speaker 9: I know it's close. 114 00:07:17,880 --> 00:07:20,280 Speaker 8: I know they're there. So it's like I don't have 115 00:07:20,320 --> 00:07:23,120 Speaker 8: to worry. They're they're they're coming. I just get to 116 00:07:23,200 --> 00:07:26,120 Speaker 8: trust and enjoy this process. It actually gets to be 117 00:07:27,280 --> 00:07:28,920 Speaker 8: so beautiful. 118 00:07:29,320 --> 00:07:32,160 Speaker 9: It doesn't have to be hard, it doesn't have to 119 00:07:32,200 --> 00:07:34,480 Speaker 9: be difficult. 120 00:07:34,520 --> 00:07:38,440 Speaker 1: The end of March twenty twenty four, gonna lie feeling 121 00:07:38,480 --> 00:07:43,080 Speaker 1: a little bit of sadness, like doubt, like is this 122 00:07:43,160 --> 00:07:43,560 Speaker 1: then to be? 123 00:07:44,640 --> 00:07:48,680 Speaker 10: Especially because everyone around me is getting pregnant like everyone 124 00:07:49,440 --> 00:07:52,280 Speaker 10: and like very quickly, which I love and. 125 00:07:52,320 --> 00:07:55,160 Speaker 1: Adore, and it's so like expanding for me. But I've 126 00:07:55,200 --> 00:07:58,480 Speaker 1: been doing like a spirit baby meditation. She's being really beautiful. 127 00:07:58,520 --> 00:08:01,360 Speaker 1: I've been like walking in with the soul and I 128 00:08:01,560 --> 00:08:07,760 Speaker 1: just like I can feel them. I'm just like trusting this. 129 00:08:08,000 --> 00:08:10,960 Speaker 1: I've been like really connecting with the soul and they 130 00:08:11,000 --> 00:08:13,720 Speaker 1: need to come in at the perfect time. Like Ivy 131 00:08:13,720 --> 00:08:16,880 Speaker 1: felt like chaotic, she was like a well wind, She's 132 00:08:16,920 --> 00:08:19,920 Speaker 1: a sage. It makes sense, and this baby feels really 133 00:08:19,960 --> 00:08:23,160 Speaker 1: grounded and like really like I'm gonna come in at 134 00:08:23,160 --> 00:08:25,800 Speaker 1: the perfect time. I'm gonna be like the glue for family, 135 00:08:26,080 --> 00:08:29,200 Speaker 1: and I'm just trusting they know where to come in. 136 00:08:29,320 --> 00:08:33,079 Speaker 1: They know this season, they feel so like wise, and 137 00:08:33,200 --> 00:08:36,840 Speaker 1: I'm just really trusting and being present and having fun 138 00:08:36,960 --> 00:08:39,560 Speaker 1: and enjoying myself and it feels good. 139 00:08:40,840 --> 00:08:41,520 Speaker 6: It feels good. 140 00:08:42,040 --> 00:08:52,280 Speaker 1: April twenty twenty four, Let's just see. 141 00:08:52,640 --> 00:08:57,480 Speaker 3: I don't think I am not to break me. 142 00:08:58,320 --> 00:08:59,920 Speaker 10: I just wanted to check because I'm about to go. 143 00:09:00,280 --> 00:09:05,280 Speaker 10: And it's been a hot minute since I upticked. 144 00:09:05,360 --> 00:09:08,640 Speaker 1: You guys, we kind of just like I wanted to 145 00:09:08,720 --> 00:09:09,920 Speaker 1: chill for a couple of months. 146 00:09:10,280 --> 00:09:11,560 Speaker 3: I'm whispering because I just. 147 00:09:13,040 --> 00:09:14,959 Speaker 10: I just wanted to chill for a couple of months. 148 00:09:15,040 --> 00:09:18,560 Speaker 10: And we went to Europe and it was amazing, and 149 00:09:18,720 --> 00:09:22,760 Speaker 10: it has felt really good to just surrender and lean back. 150 00:09:23,600 --> 00:09:26,440 Speaker 10: I'm really proud of myself for how I'm showing come 151 00:09:26,480 --> 00:09:27,120 Speaker 10: during this time. 152 00:09:28,200 --> 00:09:32,679 Speaker 1: July twenty twenty four, it's literally my thirtieth birthday in 153 00:09:32,720 --> 00:09:36,559 Speaker 1: like two days on Saturday, and I'm just so excited 154 00:09:36,600 --> 00:09:39,520 Speaker 1: to be thirty and like call in this like new era, 155 00:09:39,679 --> 00:09:41,640 Speaker 1: this like softness, being a. 156 00:09:41,640 --> 00:09:45,440 Speaker 11: Mom to two babies, maybe even three, and just like 157 00:09:46,679 --> 00:09:52,280 Speaker 11: such a new way of doing things surrendered, detached is flow. 158 00:09:53,200 --> 00:09:54,600 Speaker 3: I know it's all on its way. 159 00:09:55,120 --> 00:09:57,199 Speaker 2: I just get to wait and I get to enjoy. 160 00:09:57,040 --> 00:09:57,959 Speaker 1: When I'm waiting for it. 161 00:09:58,240 --> 00:10:04,240 Speaker 12: At the end of July four just did another meditation 162 00:10:04,960 --> 00:10:12,000 Speaker 12: connecting to baby and saying how disappointed and upset I 163 00:10:12,200 --> 00:10:19,000 Speaker 12: was that they didn't come through this month, but also 164 00:10:19,920 --> 00:10:20,959 Speaker 12: how grateful. 165 00:10:20,600 --> 00:10:22,960 Speaker 1: I am and how excited I am, and how I 166 00:10:23,000 --> 00:10:26,240 Speaker 1: know it's all gonna happen in the perfect timing, and 167 00:10:26,400 --> 00:10:30,840 Speaker 1: also that it's okay, come through in the perfect timing, 168 00:10:30,840 --> 00:10:34,760 Speaker 1: and I'm trusting and I'm surrendering, and I can be disappointed, will. 169 00:10:34,800 --> 00:10:38,520 Speaker 9: Also being so grateful for what's to come. 170 00:10:38,920 --> 00:10:42,079 Speaker 1: And then I also tapped into like my higher self 171 00:10:42,480 --> 00:10:45,400 Speaker 1: when I'm about forty, I do this like timeline thing. 172 00:10:46,800 --> 00:10:50,600 Speaker 1: And the wisdom that came through was stay in the frequency, 173 00:10:51,440 --> 00:10:54,280 Speaker 1: stay in the vibe. You know what you want, Stay 174 00:10:54,520 --> 00:10:59,400 Speaker 1: in the frequency, and it's all coming to you, and surrender, 175 00:11:00,120 --> 00:11:02,920 Speaker 1: not trying to control, and it's going to happen in 176 00:11:02,960 --> 00:11:04,600 Speaker 1: the perfect timing, and it's got to be better than 177 00:11:04,600 --> 00:11:09,480 Speaker 1: you could have imagined. August twenty twenty four, It is 178 00:11:09,520 --> 00:11:13,440 Speaker 1: safe for me to be a mother of two. It 179 00:11:13,520 --> 00:11:15,920 Speaker 1: is safe for me to be a mother of two. 180 00:11:17,520 --> 00:11:22,160 Speaker 1: I welcome in my second baby August twenty twenty four, 181 00:11:22,640 --> 00:11:28,199 Speaker 1: So it has been about eight months of trying and 182 00:11:28,760 --> 00:11:30,960 Speaker 1: me and Tim made the decision. We're like, let's just 183 00:11:31,000 --> 00:11:33,640 Speaker 1: go get the tests the things you have to do, 184 00:11:33,760 --> 00:11:37,480 Speaker 1: the scans and whatnot. And so we went and saw 185 00:11:37,520 --> 00:11:40,280 Speaker 1: the doctor that we used last time to do aUI 186 00:11:40,320 --> 00:11:41,320 Speaker 1: because he was really good. 187 00:11:41,679 --> 00:11:43,880 Speaker 2: We did aUI got ivied the first. 188 00:11:43,600 --> 00:11:47,360 Speaker 1: Time, and I UI is this like the basically the 189 00:11:47,360 --> 00:11:50,520 Speaker 1: same chances as getting pregnant as like doing it naturally. 190 00:11:50,600 --> 00:11:55,920 Speaker 2: You just think turkey baseduff. So he scanned my. 191 00:11:55,920 --> 00:11:58,880 Speaker 1: Ovaries and for the day that I'm supposed to be 192 00:11:58,920 --> 00:12:03,760 Speaker 1: on my period, he said, my ovaries are showing polycystic. 193 00:12:04,679 --> 00:12:06,160 Speaker 2: They're polycystic ovaries. 194 00:12:06,240 --> 00:12:12,120 Speaker 1: So he said it is highly unlikely that I would 195 00:12:12,120 --> 00:12:14,359 Speaker 1: have a spontaneous pregnancy. 196 00:12:14,800 --> 00:12:15,720 Speaker 2: Weird language. 197 00:12:16,760 --> 00:12:21,320 Speaker 1: He said, my lining is very thin and my ovaries 198 00:12:21,320 --> 00:12:24,320 Speaker 1: are polycystic, so they have like heaps of follicles but 199 00:12:24,520 --> 00:12:27,800 Speaker 1: not a dominant. So he said, probably over you know, 200 00:12:27,840 --> 00:12:31,880 Speaker 1: the last whatever months, you probably even though I'm getting 201 00:12:31,920 --> 00:12:36,240 Speaker 1: symptoms of ovulating, I'm probably not even releasing an egg 202 00:12:36,840 --> 00:12:39,600 Speaker 1: or if I am, the lining probably wouldn't be thick 203 00:12:39,720 --> 00:12:41,079 Speaker 1: enough to like catch. 204 00:12:40,840 --> 00:12:44,720 Speaker 2: It interesting. 205 00:12:45,920 --> 00:12:50,000 Speaker 1: Look, and it's kind of the exact same things last time, 206 00:12:50,040 --> 00:12:53,040 Speaker 1: so I wasn't not expecting yet. 207 00:12:53,679 --> 00:12:56,360 Speaker 2: But yeah, so that's the update. So I think we're 208 00:12:56,400 --> 00:13:00,440 Speaker 2: just gonna go straight into EUI because why not. Why 209 00:13:00,520 --> 00:13:05,360 Speaker 2: keep waiting? And it feels really good. I feel really excited. 210 00:13:05,920 --> 00:13:08,920 Speaker 2: So I just got a whole bunch of blood tests. 211 00:13:09,800 --> 00:13:12,720 Speaker 2: See how we go. Yeah, I don't know, I feel like, 212 00:13:13,440 --> 00:13:16,120 Speaker 2: feel really good. I feel really excited. It feels good 213 00:13:16,160 --> 00:13:22,080 Speaker 2: because I'm like, it makes sense. I'm not going quizy. 214 00:13:22,240 --> 00:13:24,160 Speaker 2: I'm not going to Lulu at. 215 00:13:24,000 --> 00:13:30,760 Speaker 1: The end of August twenty twenty four jokes. So we 216 00:13:30,840 --> 00:13:36,720 Speaker 1: got some test results back and tim sperm is not at. 217 00:13:36,640 --> 00:13:40,360 Speaker 3: A great point, and so basically. 218 00:13:40,160 --> 00:13:44,640 Speaker 1: The doctor's like, with my ovary's and tim sperm quality, 219 00:13:45,520 --> 00:13:48,120 Speaker 1: IUY would not be possible. 220 00:13:47,760 --> 00:13:52,800 Speaker 2: And we have to go straight to IVF. There's nothing 221 00:13:52,800 --> 00:13:55,440 Speaker 2: wrong with IVF. I have a lot of friends and 222 00:13:55,520 --> 00:13:58,800 Speaker 2: family who have done it again, all the work I 223 00:13:58,920 --> 00:14:01,199 Speaker 2: teach the how. It's not my responsibility. 224 00:14:02,280 --> 00:14:06,079 Speaker 3: The end goal of the vision is beautiful, healthy baby. 225 00:14:06,720 --> 00:14:08,800 Speaker 1: So I don't know, We're just gonna have We'll think 226 00:14:08,840 --> 00:14:10,679 Speaker 1: of that see how it sits. 227 00:14:11,800 --> 00:14:12,560 Speaker 2: I go from there. 228 00:14:19,040 --> 00:14:25,960 Speaker 1: September twenty twenty four, period is fifteen days late, not pregnant, 229 00:14:26,680 --> 00:14:27,960 Speaker 1: don't know what the fuck's going on. 230 00:14:28,720 --> 00:14:31,920 Speaker 2: Usually so regular, lots of fun. 231 00:14:33,240 --> 00:14:37,760 Speaker 12: Going to get acupunta because you know what, whatever whatever. 232 00:14:38,000 --> 00:14:40,840 Speaker 1: At the end of September twenty twenty four, I'm feeling 233 00:14:40,920 --> 00:14:46,000 Speaker 1: really frustrated because as soon as I got the Piers diagnosis. 234 00:14:46,520 --> 00:14:49,960 Speaker 2: Previous to that, my cycle was always on point. 235 00:14:50,120 --> 00:14:54,200 Speaker 1: I thought I was always ovulating mid cycle, and then 236 00:14:54,240 --> 00:14:57,520 Speaker 1: now it's like my brain knows, for example, this cycle 237 00:14:57,920 --> 00:15:01,160 Speaker 1: has been thirty eight days and that has like never 238 00:15:01,200 --> 00:15:03,800 Speaker 1: happened to me. So I'm feeling like a bit frustrated 239 00:15:03,800 --> 00:15:06,960 Speaker 1: because I'm like, has my cycle actually you know what 240 00:15:07,000 --> 00:15:09,880 Speaker 1: I mean? Like, have I cyched myself out with the 241 00:15:09,920 --> 00:15:15,320 Speaker 1: diagnosis and now my cycle's like playing up, But she's 242 00:15:15,360 --> 00:15:22,800 Speaker 1: still doing her spirit baby visualizations, doing my affirmations. Trusting 243 00:15:23,440 --> 00:15:27,560 Speaker 1: I've told the universe what I want, healthy baby, and 244 00:15:27,680 --> 00:15:30,120 Speaker 1: obviously if it's not happening this month, it's because that 245 00:15:30,440 --> 00:15:34,440 Speaker 1: wouldn't be the outcome. So I'm absolutely trusting everything is 246 00:15:34,480 --> 00:15:37,480 Speaker 1: going to plan, falling a place in the perfect timing 247 00:15:38,360 --> 00:15:39,400 Speaker 1: that is my lesson. 248 00:15:39,640 --> 00:15:41,720 Speaker 2: That is all I have to do. I don't have 249 00:15:41,800 --> 00:15:42,680 Speaker 2: to worry about the how. 250 00:15:43,480 --> 00:15:45,480 Speaker 1: So that is the vibe I just like I have 251 00:15:45,560 --> 00:15:48,400 Speaker 1: to remind myself of course I have human moments, but 252 00:15:48,560 --> 00:15:52,440 Speaker 1: also that's what we're here for. September twenty twenty four, 253 00:15:53,160 --> 00:15:58,560 Speaker 1: my period is twenty days late. Definitely not pregnant, but 254 00:15:59,600 --> 00:16:02,800 Speaker 1: ignore that. But this is the new vibe moving forward. 255 00:16:03,040 --> 00:16:06,240 Speaker 1: I've had the epiphanies, I've worked. 256 00:16:05,880 --> 00:16:06,640 Speaker 2: Through my shit. 257 00:16:06,960 --> 00:16:10,640 Speaker 1: There was actually quite a few like things work I 258 00:16:10,720 --> 00:16:13,120 Speaker 1: had to do, which I can share at another time. 259 00:16:14,880 --> 00:16:17,640 Speaker 1: Basically like blocks, Like the work that I teach is 260 00:16:17,680 --> 00:16:23,160 Speaker 1: like manifesting, and when you can't get to something, it 261 00:16:23,480 --> 00:16:26,680 Speaker 1: is a block of like okay, so why do you 262 00:16:26,680 --> 00:16:27,720 Speaker 1: think you can't get there? 263 00:16:28,280 --> 00:16:34,000 Speaker 2: And for me, it was a lot to do with I'm. 264 00:16:33,800 --> 00:16:38,280 Speaker 9: Not healthy enough, you know, all the stuff of my thyroid. 265 00:16:40,520 --> 00:16:43,960 Speaker 1: Am I going to be able to have enough time 266 00:16:44,040 --> 00:16:47,840 Speaker 1: for the next baby and continue to work. 267 00:16:47,640 --> 00:16:50,960 Speaker 2: On my businesses? Honestly a lot of the same shit. 268 00:16:50,840 --> 00:16:53,760 Speaker 1: I had with IVY and I didn't even realize, but 269 00:16:53,800 --> 00:16:55,440 Speaker 1: I had to like work through that. So I've been 270 00:16:55,440 --> 00:16:58,000 Speaker 1: doing that the last couple of weeks and just being 271 00:16:58,000 --> 00:16:59,479 Speaker 1: like really. 272 00:16:59,240 --> 00:17:02,360 Speaker 9: Honest with my like if I was giving a. 273 00:17:02,280 --> 00:17:06,600 Speaker 1: Baby right now, what would my nervous system do, Like 274 00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:08,119 Speaker 1: why would I freak out? 275 00:17:08,480 --> 00:17:13,159 Speaker 2: What would be like the very first thoughts and working 276 00:17:13,200 --> 00:17:13,520 Speaker 2: through that. 277 00:17:14,040 --> 00:17:16,199 Speaker 1: So I've been doing that behind the scenes and I 278 00:17:16,200 --> 00:17:18,120 Speaker 1: can definitely share more of that work if you guys 279 00:17:18,119 --> 00:17:18,560 Speaker 1: want me to. 280 00:17:19,240 --> 00:17:20,359 Speaker 2: But the next. 281 00:17:20,119 --> 00:17:23,800 Speaker 1: Stage of this is like I'm going to be sitting 282 00:17:24,600 --> 00:17:25,840 Speaker 1: in a new. 283 00:17:25,760 --> 00:17:29,720 Speaker 2: State of de Lulu again. This is work I teach. 284 00:17:29,480 --> 00:17:34,200 Speaker 1: Where basically I'm going to be telling my subconscious brain 285 00:17:34,600 --> 00:17:38,280 Speaker 1: at any point I can that I am pregnant, that 286 00:17:38,400 --> 00:17:42,440 Speaker 1: my body can hold a pregnancy, that I am attracting 287 00:17:42,520 --> 00:17:47,919 Speaker 1: that sperm, that I have the most perfect uterus, that 288 00:17:48,119 --> 00:17:52,600 Speaker 1: I cannot wait to have this baby, that my work 289 00:17:53,000 --> 00:17:58,000 Speaker 1: is perfect to have another baby, that like all the circumstances, 290 00:17:58,320 --> 00:18:01,520 Speaker 1: I'm like, it's perfect to have a baby, and just 291 00:18:01,560 --> 00:18:06,560 Speaker 1: like absolutely like sitting in like I am pregnant, Like 292 00:18:06,680 --> 00:18:10,320 Speaker 1: I'm currently pregnant right now, Like I am pregnant, and 293 00:18:10,359 --> 00:18:14,080 Speaker 1: it's perfect. My body is perfect, the baby is perfect. 294 00:18:14,560 --> 00:18:16,840 Speaker 1: The sperm just got up there and it got into 295 00:18:16,920 --> 00:18:19,960 Speaker 1: the egg and it was perfect and it worked so 296 00:18:20,040 --> 00:18:25,679 Speaker 1: well because I have a perfect body for pro creating. 297 00:18:26,359 --> 00:18:28,720 Speaker 1: That's what my body was meant to do, and that's 298 00:18:28,720 --> 00:18:32,600 Speaker 1: what it did. It did, not what it's going to do. 299 00:18:32,720 --> 00:18:36,800 Speaker 1: It did anyway. So I'm gonna sit in this state of. 300 00:18:36,800 --> 00:18:40,240 Speaker 2: Delulu for the next couple of weeks. I am doing a. 301 00:18:40,240 --> 00:18:44,560 Speaker 9: Meditation every morning and every night, and just like, yeah. 302 00:18:44,400 --> 00:18:45,840 Speaker 2: Sitting a new state of Delulu. 303 00:18:45,960 --> 00:18:49,040 Speaker 1: So the only thing with the state of Delulu again, 304 00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:52,280 Speaker 1: there can't be any of those like blocks they spoke 305 00:18:52,280 --> 00:18:53,000 Speaker 1: about previously. 306 00:18:53,040 --> 00:18:55,800 Speaker 9: So you need to work through that first because otherwise, 307 00:18:55,840 --> 00:18:56,160 Speaker 9: if you. 308 00:18:56,119 --> 00:18:59,000 Speaker 1: Say I am pregnant, but then you've still got this 309 00:18:59,040 --> 00:19:01,080 Speaker 1: block of like, oh but it's going to fuck up 310 00:19:01,359 --> 00:19:04,639 Speaker 1: my career, your subconscious is not actually gonna believe it. 311 00:19:04,760 --> 00:19:09,159 Speaker 2: So you have to do those block before. But this is, yeah, 312 00:19:09,240 --> 00:19:10,920 Speaker 2: I don't know. I feel different. 313 00:19:11,240 --> 00:19:15,800 Speaker 1: And also I'm like no, like baby, baby's so close, 314 00:19:16,280 --> 00:19:19,840 Speaker 1: baby's here, Like I'm breagnant, Like this is I've jumped 315 00:19:19,840 --> 00:19:23,080 Speaker 1: onto the new timeline like it's happening and not like 316 00:19:23,600 --> 00:19:25,560 Speaker 1: let's see how it goes like it's happening. 317 00:19:25,960 --> 00:19:28,800 Speaker 2: It's done. It's done. 318 00:19:29,040 --> 00:19:34,480 Speaker 1: October twenty twenty four, so we're going straight to IVF 319 00:19:35,080 --> 00:19:39,280 Speaker 1: And I got my bods this morning. I got my medication, 320 00:19:42,000 --> 00:19:46,639 Speaker 1: but I feel so emotional because. 321 00:19:49,000 --> 00:19:50,200 Speaker 2: I just feel like a bit of. 322 00:19:50,160 --> 00:19:52,719 Speaker 9: A pity party moment. 323 00:19:54,440 --> 00:19:59,359 Speaker 1: I am also my apperiens sence, but you know, just 324 00:19:59,400 --> 00:20:02,680 Speaker 1: like the thoughts like I thought this time was gonna 325 00:20:02,720 --> 00:20:08,720 Speaker 1: be different, like why does it have to be such 326 00:20:08,760 --> 00:20:13,119 Speaker 1: a process, And so you see other people who just 327 00:20:13,119 --> 00:20:20,639 Speaker 1: like instantly get pregnant, and you're just like, but also. 328 00:20:21,440 --> 00:20:21,760 Speaker 6: I know. 329 00:20:23,160 --> 00:20:24,240 Speaker 1: I just on the phone to. 330 00:20:24,280 --> 00:20:28,080 Speaker 13: Tim having a good crime to him and he's like, 331 00:20:28,680 --> 00:20:32,320 Speaker 13: bab if this is our, if this is the thing 332 00:20:32,320 --> 00:20:35,160 Speaker 13: in life that we need to struggle with, it's okay. 333 00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:36,320 Speaker 2: We can do it together. 334 00:20:37,520 --> 00:20:39,920 Speaker 9: There's solutions, like it's gonna be okay. 335 00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:43,479 Speaker 1: And I'm no, He's so good at making me realize that, 336 00:20:43,840 --> 00:20:48,240 Speaker 1: and it's like, again, we all have shit we deal. 337 00:20:48,080 --> 00:20:53,280 Speaker 2: With in life. This is ours and it's okay. And 338 00:20:53,320 --> 00:20:56,040 Speaker 2: I like, you guys know, like I am. 339 00:20:56,400 --> 00:20:59,240 Speaker 1: Throughout this whole journey, I have been trying to be 340 00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:02,600 Speaker 1: so positive, but also I am human and I have 341 00:21:02,680 --> 00:21:06,760 Speaker 1: human emotions or I'm just like I don't know, I 342 00:21:06,920 --> 00:21:09,240 Speaker 1: just have like weird feelings, and I'm like, is this 343 00:21:09,320 --> 00:21:10,240 Speaker 1: the right thing to do? 344 00:21:10,480 --> 00:21:11,120 Speaker 9: Should we just. 345 00:21:11,119 --> 00:21:14,399 Speaker 2: Like wait longer? I just I feel a bit like 346 00:21:16,000 --> 00:21:16,879 Speaker 2: conflicted about it. 347 00:21:16,920 --> 00:21:19,520 Speaker 1: I think I also feel like quite overwhelmed because it's 348 00:21:19,560 --> 00:21:24,919 Speaker 1: literally like this cycle, it could all happen, and it's like, 349 00:21:25,800 --> 00:21:31,120 Speaker 1: I don't know, I just feeling all the feels about it. 350 00:21:31,640 --> 00:21:35,399 Speaker 1: But I'm gonna go do my visualization. I've been doing 351 00:21:35,480 --> 00:21:41,119 Speaker 1: my visualization like hypnosis thing I read myself every morning 352 00:21:41,119 --> 00:21:44,479 Speaker 1: and night and it just puts me in like the 353 00:21:44,480 --> 00:21:45,119 Speaker 1: best vibe. 354 00:21:45,160 --> 00:21:46,800 Speaker 2: So I'm gonna go do that. 355 00:21:47,640 --> 00:21:50,600 Speaker 1: The end of October twenty twenty four. So in the 356 00:21:50,640 --> 00:21:53,119 Speaker 1: next couple of days, we are doing our egg retrieval, 357 00:21:53,200 --> 00:21:56,240 Speaker 1: which is very exciting. We did have some issues with 358 00:21:57,080 --> 00:21:58,119 Speaker 1: my bloods all. 359 00:21:58,280 --> 00:21:58,880 Speaker 2: It looks like. 360 00:21:58,880 --> 00:22:03,119 Speaker 1: I was going to ovulate naturally, so he had to 361 00:22:03,119 --> 00:22:07,040 Speaker 1: do some extra injections. But I got my results back 362 00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:09,560 Speaker 1: from my doctor and he said it looks good for 363 00:22:09,680 --> 00:22:13,600 Speaker 1: egg retrieval, so we're very excited. I'm definitely feeling like 364 00:22:13,880 --> 00:22:20,639 Speaker 1: just a bit bloated, but I keep affirming these you know, 365 00:22:21,200 --> 00:22:24,439 Speaker 1: I'll do whatever I need to do for baby, always 366 00:22:24,440 --> 00:22:28,919 Speaker 1: happy to do it. And this is like me being 367 00:22:29,480 --> 00:22:32,800 Speaker 1: this is us being one step closer to baby. So 368 00:22:33,560 --> 00:22:37,160 Speaker 1: feeling really good, feeling really positive, putting all the positive 369 00:22:37,560 --> 00:22:40,639 Speaker 1: vibes out there, and no baby's. 370 00:22:40,320 --> 00:22:41,359 Speaker 2: Coming so soon. 371 00:22:42,359 --> 00:22:48,439 Speaker 1: November twenty twenty four, No, not pregnant, even though I 372 00:22:48,520 --> 00:22:54,240 Speaker 1: feel so bloaded. So we basically got too many eggs. 373 00:22:54,440 --> 00:22:58,960 Speaker 1: I had twenty four eggs, twenty were able to be 374 00:22:59,320 --> 00:23:04,879 Speaker 1: like actually used, and then thirteen have been fertilized. So 375 00:23:04,880 --> 00:23:08,719 Speaker 1: we have thirteen little babies, thirteen little Tim and Georgy's. 376 00:23:09,280 --> 00:23:12,840 Speaker 1: But because there was so many eggs, their wonder might 377 00:23:12,880 --> 00:23:17,040 Speaker 1: be hyper stimulated, so we can't do a fresh transfer. 378 00:23:17,080 --> 00:23:19,400 Speaker 1: They're going to get frozen and we're going to try 379 00:23:19,720 --> 00:23:23,560 Speaker 1: next month. So like super disappointing. 380 00:23:23,640 --> 00:23:25,720 Speaker 9: I also feel you can see the bruiser. 381 00:23:26,320 --> 00:23:33,040 Speaker 3: I also feel like quite sick, just so bloated and 382 00:23:33,359 --> 00:23:39,440 Speaker 3: like a bit constipated and just like not great. But luckily, 383 00:23:39,560 --> 00:23:41,680 Speaker 3: because we have so many little babies, I won't ever 384 00:23:41,800 --> 00:23:46,320 Speaker 3: have to do those injections or that procedure probably again, 385 00:23:46,760 --> 00:23:47,639 Speaker 3: like I would hope. 386 00:23:48,320 --> 00:23:53,240 Speaker 14: So yeah, now we're just waiting for my period, waiting 387 00:23:53,240 --> 00:23:53,960 Speaker 14: another month. 388 00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:58,320 Speaker 1: Tim's response was, of course, we have to wait another month, 389 00:23:58,480 --> 00:24:00,960 Speaker 1: like of course, but we're not doing that. 390 00:24:01,240 --> 00:24:02,520 Speaker 9: We're not in victim mentality. 391 00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:08,480 Speaker 1: So anyway, really exciting you're gonna have at the end 392 00:24:08,560 --> 00:24:14,000 Speaker 1: of November twenty twenty four. Today was supposed to be 393 00:24:14,160 --> 00:24:20,080 Speaker 1: our embryo transfer, and twenty minutes before I was supposed 394 00:24:20,119 --> 00:24:21,800 Speaker 1: to be at the doctors, my doctor called and said, 395 00:24:21,880 --> 00:24:24,640 Speaker 1: come to his office, not like the vitilia office. And 396 00:24:27,240 --> 00:24:29,919 Speaker 1: basically he said, you know, there's a ten percent chance 397 00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:32,640 Speaker 1: that you thow out the embryo and it doesn't survive. 398 00:24:33,440 --> 00:24:36,760 Speaker 1: It does happen. And he said, we thought out like 399 00:24:36,840 --> 00:24:40,000 Speaker 1: the first one and it didn't survive. So we thought 400 00:24:40,040 --> 00:24:43,119 Speaker 1: out a second one and it didn't survive. And then 401 00:24:43,200 --> 00:24:45,800 Speaker 1: he's like, so we thought out our third one and 402 00:24:45,840 --> 00:24:49,520 Speaker 1: it didn't survive. And he said, it's just not normal. 403 00:24:51,080 --> 00:24:54,840 Speaker 1: He actually said, never in his career has that happened. 404 00:24:56,240 --> 00:25:01,080 Speaker 1: And so they looked further into it, and there scientists, 405 00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:08,840 Speaker 1: like the fucking IVS scientists after our eggs. He didn't like, 406 00:25:09,040 --> 00:25:12,040 Speaker 1: I don't know if it's seemed they didn't put a 407 00:25:12,080 --> 00:25:16,440 Speaker 1: certain solution on it. So when they froze the eggs, 408 00:25:16,480 --> 00:25:22,600 Speaker 1: like basically they cooked it and none of them are 409 00:25:22,680 --> 00:25:30,240 Speaker 1: viable because I'm just like human error. My doctor said, like, 410 00:25:30,480 --> 00:25:34,639 Speaker 1: never in his career has this happened. Were patient, and 411 00:25:34,680 --> 00:25:37,119 Speaker 1: he just feels so devastated for us because he's like, 412 00:25:37,359 --> 00:26:00,159 Speaker 1: I just like this is it's happened. Oh so anyway, 413 00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:04,520 Speaker 1: he said, like the fucking director signist director will be 414 00:26:04,560 --> 00:26:06,480 Speaker 1: like calling us to like let us know what the 415 00:26:06,520 --> 00:26:10,199 Speaker 1: fuck happened, and like, obviously we're gonna get compensated for 416 00:26:10,280 --> 00:26:16,880 Speaker 1: this cycle and stuff. And is that really good feeling 417 00:26:17,000 --> 00:26:21,119 Speaker 1: that I really wanted it that happened. And then it 418 00:26:21,200 --> 00:26:25,040 Speaker 1: was like I don't have to go through those like 419 00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:29,600 Speaker 1: injections again because it made me so seeck and so on. 420 00:26:29,720 --> 00:26:31,600 Speaker 2: Well, and now I have to go through the whole 421 00:26:31,640 --> 00:26:32,600 Speaker 2: fucking thing again. 422 00:26:34,840 --> 00:26:40,359 Speaker 1: We had eight embryos. It's so many. 423 00:26:45,480 --> 00:26:46,359 Speaker 4: Oh fuck. 424 00:26:48,040 --> 00:26:50,119 Speaker 1: We're also going away soon, so I don't even know 425 00:26:50,160 --> 00:26:51,399 Speaker 1: if we can do it next cycle. 426 00:26:57,400 --> 00:26:57,840 Speaker 2: So that's the. 427 00:26:57,880 --> 00:27:06,160 Speaker 1: Update December twenty twenty four. You know what no one 428 00:27:06,200 --> 00:27:14,040 Speaker 1: tells you, the IVF bloat. I'm not pregnant, definitely. 429 00:27:14,359 --> 00:27:15,560 Speaker 2: We just did. 430 00:27:15,480 --> 00:27:21,240 Speaker 1: Our egg retrieval and I have been like, that's like hard. 431 00:27:21,920 --> 00:27:22,720 Speaker 3: I looked like this one. 432 00:27:22,760 --> 00:27:27,200 Speaker 1: I was six month six months pregnant, and it's been 433 00:27:27,200 --> 00:27:30,000 Speaker 1: like this for almost a week. I did have hyperstimulation, 434 00:27:31,000 --> 00:27:33,320 Speaker 1: but like I had to go to work today and 435 00:27:33,520 --> 00:27:37,240 Speaker 1: literally say to the girls, oh, I'm just really bloated 436 00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:40,440 Speaker 1: like that. 437 00:27:40,640 --> 00:27:41,400 Speaker 2: I'm not even. 438 00:27:41,280 --> 00:27:47,600 Speaker 1: Joking, guys, Like no one talks about this. As you 439 00:27:47,680 --> 00:27:53,480 Speaker 1: can see, it was an emotional rollercoaster. So the last 440 00:27:54,080 --> 00:27:59,040 Speaker 1: video that I actually didn't film, but after my second transfer, 441 00:27:59,600 --> 00:28:04,720 Speaker 1: my second an egg retrieval, after the IVF scientists basically 442 00:28:04,840 --> 00:28:09,320 Speaker 1: killed our fertilized eggs, I went through an egg retrieval 443 00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:15,360 Speaker 1: and then what's wild is we got seventeen eggs and 444 00:28:16,400 --> 00:28:19,320 Speaker 1: my bloods did indicate I was like quite high on 445 00:28:19,400 --> 00:28:23,800 Speaker 1: my estrogen. So when I was at the egg retrieval, 446 00:28:23,880 --> 00:28:26,520 Speaker 1: like after when you wake up from the gas, my 447 00:28:26,640 --> 00:28:31,760 Speaker 1: doctor said, it looks like you're, you know, quite overstimulated, 448 00:28:32,200 --> 00:28:34,240 Speaker 1: which happened the first time, which is why they had 449 00:28:34,240 --> 00:28:36,560 Speaker 1: to freeze the eggs and I couldn't get a fresh transfer, 450 00:28:37,119 --> 00:28:39,040 Speaker 1: and so he said, it looks like it's happened again, 451 00:28:40,200 --> 00:28:45,720 Speaker 1: so most likely you'll have to do a frozen transfer 452 00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:50,280 Speaker 1: in a month. And that was literally December, and I 453 00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:52,680 Speaker 1: worked it out and it's like it would have been 454 00:28:52,720 --> 00:28:57,600 Speaker 1: around Christmas time, which my fertility clinic was shut, and 455 00:28:57,680 --> 00:28:58,160 Speaker 1: I just. 456 00:28:58,120 --> 00:29:02,280 Speaker 14: Like spiraled and I was so upset because I was 457 00:29:02,320 --> 00:29:04,840 Speaker 14: like no, I thought, like I thought would have a 458 00:29:04,840 --> 00:29:07,360 Speaker 14: bait like I thought we'd be pregnant this year, and 459 00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:10,000 Speaker 14: so I actually posted on social. 460 00:29:09,640 --> 00:29:13,320 Speaker 1: Media and it was kind of one of those moments 461 00:29:13,360 --> 00:29:16,400 Speaker 1: where I just became so detached and I was like, 462 00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:21,800 Speaker 1: I just can't carry this heaviness anymore, because it felt 463 00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:25,800 Speaker 1: really heavy. I show up on social media, on podcasts, 464 00:29:25,840 --> 00:29:30,960 Speaker 1: on YouTube's monthly, daily, weekly, and so to carry that 465 00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:34,840 Speaker 1: sort of like burden and heaviness, and you guys not 466 00:29:35,240 --> 00:29:39,120 Speaker 1: know emotionally what I was going through was honestly really 467 00:29:39,160 --> 00:29:42,840 Speaker 1: hard for the whole year of twenty twenty four. So 468 00:29:42,920 --> 00:29:45,760 Speaker 1: when my doctor said that, I literally went home and 469 00:29:45,800 --> 00:29:49,320 Speaker 1: I created that video and I'll put a link in 470 00:29:49,320 --> 00:29:53,000 Speaker 1: the show notes and posted it, and it made me 471 00:29:53,040 --> 00:29:55,720 Speaker 1: feel so much better because I just felt lighter. I 472 00:29:55,760 --> 00:29:58,840 Speaker 1: felt detached, and I was like, you know what, fuck it, 473 00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:02,280 Speaker 1: it's not my year, it's not meant to be. I'm 474 00:30:02,400 --> 00:30:04,600 Speaker 1: not gonna hold it in anymore. And I did find 475 00:30:04,600 --> 00:30:07,880 Speaker 1: it so freeing. I do recommend if you feel ready 476 00:30:07,920 --> 00:30:10,400 Speaker 1: for it, if you're going through trying to conceive journey, 477 00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:14,600 Speaker 1: to open up about it and to talk to the 478 00:30:14,640 --> 00:30:16,800 Speaker 1: people you feel safe about and the people you love. 479 00:30:17,360 --> 00:30:20,120 Speaker 1: I personally have so much love for my community. I 480 00:30:20,160 --> 00:30:23,800 Speaker 1: feel so safe in my community. So when I opened 481 00:30:23,880 --> 00:30:27,960 Speaker 1: up about it, I honestly felt so held and seen 482 00:30:28,120 --> 00:30:31,040 Speaker 1: and supported by you guys, and I felt so much better, 483 00:30:31,080 --> 00:30:34,479 Speaker 1: and I just felt like free, Like it was freeing 484 00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:38,479 Speaker 1: to finally talk about it, and what is crazy? I 485 00:30:38,560 --> 00:30:42,480 Speaker 1: literally posted that and then it was a day later 486 00:30:43,000 --> 00:30:47,280 Speaker 1: my doctor called and he was like, because there is 487 00:30:47,360 --> 00:30:50,000 Speaker 1: like a rule with IVF that it's like if you 488 00:30:50,080 --> 00:30:54,720 Speaker 1: have fifteen to seventeen eggs, anything past that, you're generally 489 00:30:54,880 --> 00:30:56,280 Speaker 1: you have to go straight to frozen. 490 00:30:56,320 --> 00:30:57,440 Speaker 2: You can't do fresh. 491 00:30:57,760 --> 00:31:02,160 Speaker 1: And if you're like estrogen levels too high, and he's like, look, 492 00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:05,560 Speaker 1: you're right on the casp, but because of what happened 493 00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:07,880 Speaker 1: with your other egg retrieval, like. 494 00:31:07,840 --> 00:31:08,560 Speaker 3: I feel so bad. 495 00:31:08,600 --> 00:31:09,040 Speaker 6: Oh my god. 496 00:31:09,080 --> 00:31:12,160 Speaker 1: And then I forgot to say he's retiring. So this 497 00:31:12,240 --> 00:31:16,320 Speaker 1: is like my doctor's last month, which means not only 498 00:31:16,400 --> 00:31:19,280 Speaker 1: will I miss the next cycle because it's Christmas, I 499 00:31:19,360 --> 00:31:22,240 Speaker 1: have to start with a whole new doctor in the 500 00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:24,960 Speaker 1: new year. And that's why I was like so devastated 501 00:31:25,000 --> 00:31:27,680 Speaker 1: and so disappointed. It just felt like such like a 502 00:31:27,720 --> 00:31:28,480 Speaker 1: lot of blows. 503 00:31:29,160 --> 00:31:29,560 Speaker 6: And so. 504 00:31:31,720 --> 00:31:35,040 Speaker 1: He was like, look, your bloods aren't optimal, and you're 505 00:31:35,120 --> 00:31:37,800 Speaker 1: right on the casp, but I'm so sorry for what 506 00:31:37,840 --> 00:31:38,640 Speaker 1: you have been through. 507 00:31:38,680 --> 00:31:39,680 Speaker 2: If you want to. 508 00:31:39,560 --> 00:31:43,160 Speaker 1: Do the fresh transfer, we will do it. I personally 509 00:31:43,200 --> 00:31:46,360 Speaker 1: think it might be a waste of a fertilized egg. 510 00:31:46,920 --> 00:31:52,320 Speaker 1: And I had eight We had sorry, eight fertilized eggs. 511 00:31:52,640 --> 00:31:54,760 Speaker 1: And I spoke to Tim about it and he's like, 512 00:31:54,960 --> 00:31:56,960 Speaker 1: let's just do it, Like we have eight eggs, Like 513 00:31:58,080 --> 00:32:00,000 Speaker 1: let's just do it, and like we'll see what happened. 514 00:32:00,720 --> 00:32:01,760 Speaker 2: And so, no joke. 515 00:32:01,840 --> 00:32:05,600 Speaker 1: I did my transfer five days later because they're five 516 00:32:05,720 --> 00:32:11,040 Speaker 1: day old eggs. They let them like cook for five days, 517 00:32:11,920 --> 00:32:15,560 Speaker 1: had eight eggs, did a fresh transfer, froze the rest, 518 00:32:16,640 --> 00:32:23,040 Speaker 1: and we literally got pregnant. That transfer, the one they 519 00:32:23,120 --> 00:32:25,800 Speaker 1: weren't gonna do, the one they said will probably be 520 00:32:25,920 --> 00:32:29,720 Speaker 1: a waste. And so it was wild because I just 521 00:32:29,720 --> 00:32:33,600 Speaker 1: posted on social media about infertility and then I got pregnant, 522 00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:37,440 Speaker 1: and I was like, oh my god, this is crazy. 523 00:32:37,280 --> 00:32:41,719 Speaker 2: But like so divine all meant to happen. 524 00:32:42,320 --> 00:32:47,400 Speaker 1: But that's my world infertility story, and yeah, just sharing 525 00:32:47,400 --> 00:32:52,480 Speaker 1: it with you guys, being very raw and honest, wild times. 526 00:32:52,600 --> 00:32:58,120 Speaker 1: But look, yeah, if you have any questions, put them below. 527 00:32:58,480 --> 00:33:01,160 Speaker 1: I'm happy to share. Like I said, when I went 528 00:33:01,200 --> 00:33:04,320 Speaker 1: through my first experience, I wish more people had spoken 529 00:33:04,320 --> 00:33:06,440 Speaker 1: about it. And then when I shared it with you 530 00:33:06,480 --> 00:33:09,360 Speaker 1: guys last year, I just felt like a weight has lifted. 531 00:33:09,440 --> 00:33:11,680 Speaker 1: So I want to have this sort of content out 532 00:33:11,720 --> 00:33:14,760 Speaker 1: in the Internet for people to like listen and here 533 00:33:14,960 --> 00:33:18,560 Speaker 1: you can tell where the videos on, like emotions wild, 534 00:33:18,920 --> 00:33:21,000 Speaker 1: but I'm being very vulnerable and being very open. 535 00:33:21,040 --> 00:33:22,040 Speaker 2: I hope you can respect that. 536 00:33:22,720 --> 00:33:25,080 Speaker 3: And obviously, look, we're still it's still early days. 537 00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:29,320 Speaker 2: But I'm just so happy to be pregnant. 538 00:33:29,680 --> 00:33:32,040 Speaker 1: And as much as if it was like a journey, 539 00:33:32,480 --> 00:33:35,680 Speaker 1: of course, I wouldn't change a thing, and your challenges 540 00:33:35,760 --> 00:33:38,520 Speaker 1: shape you. What you go through shapes you. And last 541 00:33:38,600 --> 00:33:40,520 Speaker 1: year was honestly the toughest year. It was like one 542 00:33:40,520 --> 00:33:42,240 Speaker 1: of the toughest years of my life for so many 543 00:33:42,240 --> 00:33:42,920 Speaker 1: other reasons. 544 00:33:43,840 --> 00:33:46,480 Speaker 2: But we got there. We've got this sweet little baby. 545 00:33:46,520 --> 00:33:50,360 Speaker 1: We don't know the gender yet, so yeah, so, as 546 00:33:50,400 --> 00:33:54,959 Speaker 1: you heard, guys, that was an absolute well wind. I 547 00:33:55,000 --> 00:33:57,080 Speaker 1: just wanted to really open up and share and be 548 00:33:57,120 --> 00:33:59,240 Speaker 1: really honest about it all because I know so many 549 00:33:59,240 --> 00:34:01,240 Speaker 1: people go through and I think people think, oh, you 550 00:34:01,280 --> 00:34:03,240 Speaker 1: just get pregnant and that's it, and it's just not 551 00:34:03,320 --> 00:34:06,600 Speaker 1: the case for some people. And also my advice to 552 00:34:07,240 --> 00:34:11,080 Speaker 1: people who are trying to conceive would be, and I 553 00:34:11,120 --> 00:34:13,880 Speaker 1: know this is so hard and it's so counterintuitive, but 554 00:34:14,840 --> 00:34:20,280 Speaker 1: you need to fill up your life during this period 555 00:34:20,480 --> 00:34:24,560 Speaker 1: so it doesn't consume you. And our first trying to 556 00:34:24,640 --> 00:34:29,000 Speaker 1: conceive journey with IV consumed me for twelve months, like 557 00:34:29,080 --> 00:34:31,440 Speaker 1: I really didn't kind of think of anything else. I 558 00:34:31,480 --> 00:34:34,719 Speaker 1: was like crying every month I wasn't pregnant, because what 559 00:34:34,840 --> 00:34:38,640 Speaker 1: you focus on expands. So if you're focusing on I'm 560 00:34:38,719 --> 00:34:43,319 Speaker 1: not pregnant, negative pregnancy tests, like this isn't happening for me, 561 00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:46,840 Speaker 1: that's what is going to continue. That's what's going to expand. 562 00:34:47,600 --> 00:34:49,840 Speaker 1: And so something that really helped me in my second 563 00:34:49,880 --> 00:34:54,120 Speaker 1: trying to conceive journey was really filling up my life. 564 00:34:54,160 --> 00:34:56,920 Speaker 1: So obviously I have a very full on work schedule, 565 00:34:57,000 --> 00:35:02,479 Speaker 1: so that helps very helpful to have a really made 566 00:35:02,480 --> 00:35:06,080 Speaker 1: sure I was like seeing friends. Last year twenty twenty 567 00:35:06,080 --> 00:35:09,360 Speaker 1: four was actually the year we traveled the most. We 568 00:35:09,440 --> 00:35:11,800 Speaker 1: went to Europe, we did certain things, and I think 569 00:35:11,840 --> 00:35:14,560 Speaker 1: a big thing is when you're trying to conceive, you 570 00:35:14,640 --> 00:35:17,160 Speaker 1: kind of put off your life you're like, oh, well, 571 00:35:17,320 --> 00:35:19,279 Speaker 1: you know, I'm going through IBF. I'm going through this, 572 00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:21,279 Speaker 1: so it's like I can't do this. I can't do that, 573 00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:24,480 Speaker 1: And I would honestly just suggest like, don't do that. 574 00:35:25,280 --> 00:35:28,520 Speaker 1: Do life, fill up your cup, focus on you, focus 575 00:35:28,560 --> 00:35:32,239 Speaker 1: on other things. While also obviously you do have to 576 00:35:32,719 --> 00:35:37,480 Speaker 1: eat well, eat for your hormones. I would also recommend 577 00:35:38,000 --> 00:35:41,799 Speaker 1: after six months, just going to a fertility doctor and 578 00:35:41,840 --> 00:35:44,759 Speaker 1: getting all the tests done because a lot of the 579 00:35:44,800 --> 00:35:47,480 Speaker 1: time it's not even you, it could be your partner sperm. 580 00:35:47,560 --> 00:35:50,799 Speaker 1: It could be you know, like I got diagnosed with PSOs, 581 00:35:50,840 --> 00:35:53,440 Speaker 1: so I had to change my diet and lifestyle. So 582 00:35:53,480 --> 00:35:56,880 Speaker 1: it's like there's no point of like continuing in fertility 583 00:35:56,960 --> 00:35:58,759 Speaker 1: for over a year where you could be helping it 584 00:35:58,800 --> 00:36:02,560 Speaker 1: with supplementation. Doesn't mean you have to go straight into IVF, 585 00:36:02,640 --> 00:36:05,480 Speaker 1: so don't be scared of that. But I would suggest 586 00:36:05,480 --> 00:36:08,840 Speaker 1: getting the test done because again, there could be things 587 00:36:08,920 --> 00:36:13,160 Speaker 1: that you could do to help it along and just 588 00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:16,799 Speaker 1: feel like you're doing something. So I also would recommend that. 589 00:36:16,920 --> 00:36:19,200 Speaker 1: But oh, my loves, I know it's such a tough 590 00:36:19,280 --> 00:36:21,480 Speaker 1: journey if you're going through it, I just I am 591 00:36:21,520 --> 00:36:26,400 Speaker 1: sending you so much love, it's a wild time, but 592 00:36:26,560 --> 00:36:30,280 Speaker 1: also like having the mindset it's not if it will happen, 593 00:36:30,760 --> 00:36:34,160 Speaker 1: it's when it will happen, and really like surrendering to 594 00:36:34,680 --> 00:36:36,720 Speaker 1: if it's on your heart, if it's what your desire, 595 00:36:36,920 --> 00:36:39,120 Speaker 1: it is on its way, it is going to happen, 596 00:36:39,719 --> 00:36:42,640 Speaker 1: But don't put off your life and keep filling up 597 00:36:42,640 --> 00:36:45,920 Speaker 1: your cup, keep filling up you because you don't want 598 00:36:45,920 --> 00:36:49,080 Speaker 1: to look back and like regret focusing on it so 599 00:36:49,160 --> 00:36:51,279 Speaker 1: much or kind of missing out on life. And that's 600 00:36:51,320 --> 00:36:54,080 Speaker 1: honestly how it kind of felt with our first trying 601 00:36:54,120 --> 00:36:57,680 Speaker 1: to conceive journey. So that would be my advice. I 602 00:36:57,680 --> 00:37:00,640 Speaker 1: hope you liked this episode. Like I said, I will 603 00:37:00,640 --> 00:37:02,960 Speaker 1: have a second episode like a pregnancy Q and a 604 00:37:03,200 --> 00:37:05,279 Speaker 1: more of like an update how I'm going now. I 605 00:37:05,320 --> 00:37:08,759 Speaker 1: do have a couple of complications with this pregnancy, which 606 00:37:08,760 --> 00:37:11,319 Speaker 1: has been interesting. I only kind of just found out 607 00:37:11,560 --> 00:37:14,279 Speaker 1: about them. But thank you for listening. Also, if you 608 00:37:14,360 --> 00:37:17,360 Speaker 1: do know someone going through a trying to conceive journey, 609 00:37:17,920 --> 00:37:20,480 Speaker 1: send this episode to them. I'm sure it's going to 610 00:37:20,560 --> 00:37:23,560 Speaker 1: really help. If you want the meditations that I'm talking 611 00:37:23,600 --> 00:37:28,960 Speaker 1: about in the voice recordings we have trying to conceive 612 00:37:29,680 --> 00:37:33,160 Speaker 1: meditations on the Rise app, and we do have a 613 00:37:33,239 --> 00:37:37,160 Speaker 1: free month for people who aren't members, so come, I'll 614 00:37:37,160 --> 00:37:39,840 Speaker 1: put a link in the show notes you can join 615 00:37:39,960 --> 00:37:43,719 Speaker 1: the Rise app and listen to those very helpful to 616 00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:47,600 Speaker 1: kind of just get in that zone of receiving, of 617 00:37:47,719 --> 00:37:50,839 Speaker 1: distressing your body, getting your body ready. So I love 618 00:37:50,880 --> 00:37:52,480 Speaker 1: you guys so much. All the links will be in 619 00:37:52,520 --> 00:37:54,640 Speaker 1: the show notes and I will chat to you in 620 00:37:54,680 --> 00:37:56,000 Speaker 1: the next episode. I