WEBVTT - When to walk away, talking divorce with Olivia Rogers

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<v Speaker 1>Life Uncut acknowledges the traditional custodians of country whose lands

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<v Speaker 1>were never seated. We pay our respects to their elders

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<v Speaker 1>past and present.

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<v Speaker 2>Always was, always will be Aboriginal Land. This episode was

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<v Speaker 2>recorded on Drug Wallamuta Land. Hi guys, and welcome back

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<v Speaker 2>to another episode of Life.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm Cut, I'm Laura, and I'm.

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<v Speaker 1>Brittany, and we have a huge episode for you today.

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<v Speaker 1>We are speaking with Olivia Rogers. Now Olivia, she was

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<v Speaker 1>Miss Universe Australia. She's an author, she's a speech pathologist,

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<v Speaker 1>she's an overachiever, She's divine.

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<v Speaker 2>She has also, though, been in the media quite a

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<v Speaker 2>lot recently, and the reasons for that haven't been around

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<v Speaker 2>her successes or the things that she has created for herself,

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<v Speaker 2>of course.

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<v Speaker 1>Not because that would be ridiculous.

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<v Speaker 2>She has been in the media because of her divorce.

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<v Speaker 2>She was married for eight months and it was very

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<v Speaker 2>polarizing the way in which the media spoke about the

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<v Speaker 2>breakdown of her marriage. We wanted to talk to Olivia

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<v Speaker 2>about redefining the breakup narrative and also about an article

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<v Speaker 2>that came out last year which dubbed it the micro marriage,

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<v Speaker 2>and how she felt about seeing her own experience her

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<v Speaker 2>relationship being talked about in such a negative life.

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<v Speaker 1>She also speaks about something pretty important and that is

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<v Speaker 1>surrounding the want and desire to have a baby and

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<v Speaker 1>how maybe that was a bit of a band aid.

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<v Speaker 3>To try and fix the relationship.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, yeah, not a literal band aid, like a baby

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<v Speaker 2>band aid, but we hear it so much right where

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<v Speaker 2>people think that maybe a marriage will fix a broken relationship,

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<v Speaker 2>or having a baby might make the relationship better. And

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<v Speaker 2>the thing I loved about what Olivia spoke about is

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<v Speaker 2>this idea that you might not even realize that you're

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<v Speaker 2>doing it, that they may be the reasons why you

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<v Speaker 2>want something so bad until you're out of the relationship.

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<v Speaker 3>A very very honest, raw and open chat.

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<v Speaker 2>Now we also speak about something that has made quite

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<v Speaker 2>the stir on Instagram, and that is a post by

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<v Speaker 2>Snazzana and Sam Wood.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I feel very strongly about that one. And then you, Laura,

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<v Speaker 1>have a oh I think it's funny. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if I'm hard to laugh. A ridiculously unfortunate story surrounding

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<v Speaker 1>your wedding.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, all that and more, let's get into it. Holy duly,

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<v Speaker 2>it has been a week. What a wild morning and

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<v Speaker 2>it's only Tuesday. It's nine Monday, Okay, I know, but

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<v Speaker 2>people listening to this are gonna think it's Tuesday and

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<v Speaker 2>that it's confusing for them.

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<v Speaker 1>It is Monday morning, nine thirty in the morning when

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<v Speaker 1>we're recording this, and I feel like so much has

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<v Speaker 1>already happened.

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<v Speaker 3>We've been in hysterics all morning.

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<v Speaker 1>There's been boxes of vibrators and Dodos and penis strokers

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<v Speaker 1>floating around.

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<v Speaker 2>We spoke about it on last week's episode, how no

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<v Speaker 2>one ever sends us things, and then someone brought us

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<v Speaker 2>a vibrator and we were really excited about it.

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<v Speaker 3>And now they're coming hot. They're like kidding us in

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<v Speaker 3>the head. They're flying in left, front and center.

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<v Speaker 2>Literally everybody is sending us vibrators right now, and we've

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<v Speaker 2>had enough.

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<v Speaker 3>Keisha's looking at me like we need more.

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<v Speaker 4>No.

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<v Speaker 3>Keisha's like one for you, one for me, one for me,

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<v Speaker 3>one for me, one for you, one for me.

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<v Speaker 2>Keisha's vibrator collection from being the producer of this show

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<v Speaker 2>is out of fucking control.

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<v Speaker 1>Now. There is one that came in that was like

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<v Speaker 1>addressed to Ben. It was like, Brittany can take this

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<v Speaker 1>for Ben. I've never seen it before, and I just want.

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<v Speaker 3>To ask you. Actually I think I know the answer.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's like this little U shape it's called a stroker,

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<v Speaker 1>and the penis, I think, lays in it like a.

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<v Speaker 3>Little glides on it. Do you know what it looks like?

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<v Speaker 3>It'd look like a.

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<v Speaker 1>Hot dog, you know, put your frank fit into the

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<v Speaker 1>hot dog bun.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like a little bun hugger.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a bun hugger. It's a Frankfurt. Do you know

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<v Speaker 2>what hot dogs? I've got a bones pick. Matty also

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<v Speaker 2>has a cock a bone. He's got a penis too.

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<v Speaker 2>Why didn't he get a cop ring?

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<v Speaker 3>Why don't Why.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't he get a it's a hot dog? But my

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<v Speaker 1>question is does matt use that stuff? Because I don't

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<v Speaker 1>feel like he would. Maybe we could do you.

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<v Speaker 3>Know what I'm picturing.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just picturing you laying in bed with a hot

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<v Speaker 1>dog in your hand, and he just has to go

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<v Speaker 1>and put it in there.

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<v Speaker 3>It's probably a good thing he didn't get sent one.

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<v Speaker 3>There's a lot, guys, there is so much to unpack.

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<v Speaker 2>Something else that happened before we get into like the

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<v Speaker 2>real nitty gritty of the episode Another life thing I

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<v Speaker 2>wanted to tell you about, Britt. Last night I received

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<v Speaker 2>our full length of our wedding video.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh that's exciting. Yeah, can I see it? Not yet, Okay.

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<v Speaker 3>So Matt and I are laying in bed together. We

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<v Speaker 3>were like so excited with the hot dog, with that

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<v Speaker 3>hot dog. I was just holding it for them.

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<v Speaker 2>He was just docked in a hot dog, and I

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<v Speaker 2>was like, now's the time for us to romantically watch

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<v Speaker 2>our wedding video together. So we got given a short

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<v Speaker 2>clip of it last week and I put up on

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<v Speaker 2>social media.

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<v Speaker 3>This week, we received the long form version of it,

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<v Speaker 3>any of the teaser, the wedding teas.

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<v Speaker 2>So we lay down in bed to watch the video

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<v Speaker 2>together and it starts playing and it's like quite a

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<v Speaker 2>beautiful song that starts playing, and then all of a sudden,

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<v Speaker 2>in the song is the name of Matt's ex girlfriend.

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<v Speaker 3>What do you mean? I mean like, it's a love

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<v Speaker 3>song that has a name in it.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's like X name, I love you so much,

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<v Speaker 2>X name, I can't live without you X name.

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<v Speaker 3>I knew that. I so say it's Sally. It's like Sally,

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<v Speaker 3>I can live with them.

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<v Speaker 1>Literally, Sally, You're the one Sallo Ruster sala.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 1>So that's the background, that's the tracking music to your

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<v Speaker 1>wedding video is his ex's name.

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<v Speaker 3>It was like a cruel joke. It's like a you

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<v Speaker 3>want candy camera. I thought I was being punked.

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<v Speaker 2>So I don't want to say the X whose name

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<v Speaker 2>it was, because that's just gonna turn into a Daily

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<v Speaker 2>Mount article. But there it is in this beautiful and

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<v Speaker 2>it's a gorgeous video.

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<v Speaker 3>It's so well beautifully put together.

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<v Speaker 2>We look so happy, and there's the backing track, which

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<v Speaker 2>was I will never love anyone like I love You's name.

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<v Speaker 3>Surely it's a stitch up.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I was gonna say, surely, that's like just an oversight.

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<v Speaker 3>You don't pay. You're paying this. It's not like it's

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<v Speaker 3>just no, yeah, you're paying the videographer. It has to

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<v Speaker 3>have been the biggest oversight. You're gonna have to show me.

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<v Speaker 3>Obviously you're not gonna play here, but you're gonna have

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<v Speaker 3>to show me. Okay, here's my question though.

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<v Speaker 2>If you're a videographer and you're creating a wedding video

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<v Speaker 2>for someone, why would you choose a song that has

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<v Speaker 2>a name of someone who's not in the video, like,

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<v Speaker 2>why would you think that that's a good song to choose.

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<v Speaker 2>My name is Laura, his name is Matt, and here

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<v Speaker 2>is a song about Sally and how much Matt loves Sally.

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<v Speaker 1>I am gonna have to hear it to make an

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<v Speaker 1>educated opinion. Can we take a more break out and

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<v Speaker 1>watch it now? Okay, Oh my god, oh my god.

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<v Speaker 1>It is literally that Okay, firstly beautiful video. You look

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<v Speaker 1>very happy and you look like a supermodel. I cannot

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<v Speaker 1>believe this is a like just for you guys playing

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<v Speaker 1>at home, because Laura's never going to play that because

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<v Speaker 1>that would be wild. It's literally like there's only one

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<v Speaker 1>person in the world for me. It's you, Sally, Like

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<v Speaker 1>that's what it is. And I can't wait to be

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<v Speaker 1>with you or forever and if there's no one else

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<v Speaker 1>that I can ever hot dog with except you.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't want to give too much of the lyrics

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<v Speaker 2>away because they also don't want people to go and

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<v Speaker 2>google the song and then to be able to find.

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<v Speaker 3>It out, so I'm gonna pay them all now.

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<v Speaker 2>Basically, they're saying like, I'm never going to fall in

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<v Speaker 2>love again after falling in love with you, like that's

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<v Speaker 2>the lyrics. The lyrics are like it's you, like you're

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<v Speaker 2>the only person I'm going to fall in love with,

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<v Speaker 2>and then he married me.

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<v Speaker 1>What it's sane is what it's saying is Laura is

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<v Speaker 1>the prize at the carnival because I didn't get the

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<v Speaker 1>good prize, Like I couldn't win a big teddy bear,

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<v Speaker 1>which is you?

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<v Speaker 3>So I'm going to take.

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<v Speaker 1>This little skunk. No, I went home with the used

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<v Speaker 1>to showbag instead. No, they're expensive, they're pretty good. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and that's the one you pick, So that's fine, right, No,

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<v Speaker 1>that is so funny. I hope you're not too upset,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's definitely unintentional. I'm going to call it's unintentional.

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<v Speaker 1>I okay, I'm not upset. I'm not upset. I definitely

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<v Speaker 1>for a minute cut in.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm not upset.

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<v Speaker 2>Guys, I am not upset. You know when someone's upset

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<v Speaker 2>and they're trying to convince you everything's fine. I'm fine,

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<v Speaker 2>everything is fine.

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<v Speaker 3>I just stopped talking to me because I'm on the verch.

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<v Speaker 2>I was laying in bed next to Matt and I

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<v Speaker 2>just looked at him and I was like, did that

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<v Speaker 2>just say what I think it's set, and he looked

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<v Speaker 2>at me and was like, yeah, I think it did.

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<v Speaker 3>And I was like, well, this is fucking awkward, isn't it.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you laugh though, or were you just bit like

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<v Speaker 1>I'm actually upse I.

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<v Speaker 3>Haven't laughed yet, but I mean I did. Now that's nice. Okay.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, while we're on the love train, whether it is

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<v Speaker 1>loving your ex'es or your current partner, your current husband.

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<v Speaker 3>Your wife, we need to do a big.

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<v Speaker 1>Congratulations, a big shout out to our good friend Rebel Wilson,

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<v Speaker 1>who just got.

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<v Speaker 3>Engaged this morning.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, she kept that exclusive from us, didn't she. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>she could have dropped it right, She could have sent

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<v Speaker 1>me in. I could have been there, like no, I

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<v Speaker 1>was in Disneyland. I don't know the details. I haven't

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<v Speaker 1>spoken to her. I've left her a voice message, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's really sweet and it's funny because it was only

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<v Speaker 1>ten days ago. Now. We did an episode where we're

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<v Speaker 1>talking about how quickly things are moving and how life can.

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<v Speaker 3>Change so much, and then a week later it's changed again.

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<v Speaker 3>So it's so nice to see. We love love.

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<v Speaker 2>That's the whole reason why we started this podcast, and

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<v Speaker 2>we talk about it.

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<v Speaker 3>Ex boyfriends. Yeah, but you know.

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<v Speaker 2>What, mostly because we love love, all right, there's something

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<v Speaker 2>else that's happened in the media world, in the influence

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<v Speaker 2>of world this week, and we wanted to talk about

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<v Speaker 2>it because we had some polarizing feels about this one.

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<v Speaker 2>And now let me say this first, we kind of

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<v Speaker 2>had a bit of a fight over whether we should

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<v Speaker 2>talk about this. Britt you wanted to speak about I

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<v Speaker 2>like that. I'm bread combing what it is. Basically, it's

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<v Speaker 2>Sam and s Nazana have been in the news recently

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<v Speaker 2>because Da Da Dah. Snazana posted a photo on Valentine's

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<v Speaker 2>Day of their very expensive cars and said him and

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<v Speaker 2>her staying in tonight or something of that effect.

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<v Speaker 1>I think the reason we decided to talk about this

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<v Speaker 1>is for me, it made me quite angry.

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<v Speaker 3>And what made me angry is not Snazzana's post.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not the fact that they're worth seventy million dollars congratulations,

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<v Speaker 1>that's amazing. What made me a bit upset and angry

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<v Speaker 1>is the response from the media and from other people

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<v Speaker 1>over the fact that they have made money and they

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<v Speaker 1>are successful. Now, what we're talking about is on Valentine's Days,

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<v Speaker 1>Nazana put a photo up of some beautiful vehicles that

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<v Speaker 1>she owns out the front of a beautiful house.

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<v Speaker 2>It was a black Mercedes Benz G Class very nice,

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<v Speaker 2>and a white Porsche. I thought it was a king,

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<v Speaker 2>but apparently it's not. That it's something else and a word.

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<v Speaker 2>I think it's a push.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, we don't know because we don't have them. I

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<v Speaker 3>think it's like a kror kr yep. Really we are

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<v Speaker 3>well into the cargage. Yeah, this morning Laura was like,

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<v Speaker 3>what's a king? I was like, what will never own?

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<v Speaker 2>It's like, yeah, we're never gonna own it, okay, But

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<v Speaker 2>just to give you like the information on that, like

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<v Speaker 2>on the types of cars that they are. So the

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<v Speaker 2>Mercedes Benz G Class costs around two hundred and fifty

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<v Speaker 2>thousand dollars, right, and then the Porsche costs around three

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<v Speaker 2>hundred and forty thousand dollars.

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<v Speaker 3>So beautiful luxury cars totally.

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<v Speaker 2>So the combined total of wealth in those two cars

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<v Speaker 2>in that one photo was over six hundred and fifty

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<v Speaker 2>thousand dollars. When you think about it, the average income

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<v Speaker 2>of Australians is ninety thousand dollars, So you know, that's

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<v Speaker 2>six years of someone's entire working ability tied up just

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<v Speaker 2>in cars.

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<v Speaker 1>So off the back of this photo of the luxury

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<v Speaker 1>cars out in the front of what looks like a

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<v Speaker 1>really lovely house, they were receiving some hate and some

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<v Speaker 1>backlash and negativity on the photos. There was a Daily

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<v Speaker 1>Mail article about it, because of course there was a

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<v Speaker 1>Daily Male article about it. But now I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>it's going to just be this thing that's attached to them.

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<v Speaker 1>We've spoken about it before with Zoe Foster Blake. When

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<v Speaker 1>a woman becomes very successful, all of a sudden, everything

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<v Speaker 1>is about what they're wearing, how much money they've got.

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<v Speaker 3>What they're doing.

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<v Speaker 1>Has nothing to do with that, right, The articles have

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<v Speaker 1>nothing to do with it. But this article that has come

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<v Speaker 1>out after this.

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<v Speaker 3>Photo, it's a photo.

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<v Speaker 1>So Nazana just has a photo, a selfie in the

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<v Speaker 1>mirror in the bathroom. There's nothing in the bathroom like

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<v Speaker 1>it's just a clean bathroom, and it's a photo of

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<v Speaker 1>her just she just looks hot. And the headline is

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<v Speaker 1>Sam Wood's wife's Nazana uses ninety two dollar designer soap

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<v Speaker 1>after sparking backlash for humble brag posts about her luxury cars,

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<v Speaker 1>and then later on in the article they talk about

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<v Speaker 1>how much the perfume is worth, because all that's in

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<v Speaker 1>this photo is in at the perfume and the soap,

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<v Speaker 1>So they've talked in the headline about how much the

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<v Speaker 1>soap is. They've talked in the article about how much

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<v Speaker 1>the perfume is. But the thing that really grinds my

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<v Speaker 1>gears is that the headline, in big bold writings says,

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<v Speaker 1>did you forget that you used to be a single mum?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm pretty sure you don't ever forget your past and

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<v Speaker 1>moments like that, especially if there have been times of struggling,

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<v Speaker 1>which I'm making an assumption. I don't know Snazanna world,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'm assuming when you're a single mom, there's.

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<v Speaker 3>Always going to be tough moments. I don't think that's

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<v Speaker 3>something that you would forget. I guess.

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<v Speaker 2>One of the things that I have a real issue

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<v Speaker 2>with is how the media once a woman becomes successful

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<v Speaker 2>and is in the category of having so much money

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<v Speaker 2>that the wealth is almost unbelievable.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm talking in the millions and millions of dollars.

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<v Speaker 2>The types of articles that are written are written in

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<v Speaker 2>a way to characterize them as though they're bad people

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<v Speaker 2>because they have a lot of money, like look at

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<v Speaker 2>them step out in their Gucci shoes, and then we

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<v Speaker 2>like to kind of itemize the amount of money that

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<v Speaker 2>someone has spent on clothing, which I think it tries

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<v Speaker 2>to imply that that person is vacuous or that they're materialistic,

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<v Speaker 2>and it creates a persona, It creates a character around

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<v Speaker 2>that person. Whereas Sam and Snazzana have always been super relatable,

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<v Speaker 2>super likable people, and I think that people have followed

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<v Speaker 2>them from their bachelor journey where's Aa was a single mum,

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<v Speaker 2>Sam was a guy who had a fitness thing you

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<v Speaker 2>know that he was doing, and they have evolved into

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<v Speaker 2>this immense wealth, both incredibly lovely people, both people who

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<v Speaker 2>I think that their general followers have followed and feel

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<v Speaker 2>like they can relate to because maybe they saw a

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<v Speaker 2>bit of themselves in them, or they saw their family

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<v Speaker 2>as being aspirational. Now, I think that there's two parts

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<v Speaker 2>of this conversation that's pretty interesting. One is the way

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<v Speaker 2>that media like to latch onto something ie money, and

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<v Speaker 2>create that sort of characterization that I just mentioned. But

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<v Speaker 2>also I think the tides have changed with social media.

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<v Speaker 2>People don't want to look at people's immense wealth like

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<v Speaker 2>I saw the post because I know that it was

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<v Speaker 2>Valentine's dafflicted past it and for a second I was

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<v Speaker 2>kind of like, oh wow, that's.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, I don't even know what that car is.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know how to say the name.

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<v Speaker 2>But that pepper that looks expensive, and I think reason

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<v Speaker 2>why it makes people get their guard up about it

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<v Speaker 2>some people and I'm playing Devil's advocate here, Increasingly people

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<v Speaker 2>don't want to see on Instagram things that make them

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<v Speaker 2>feel bad. They want to see on Instagram things that

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<v Speaker 2>they relate to. Going to say, it doesn't mean that

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<v Speaker 2>we should be up in arms about it. What you

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<v Speaker 2>should do is you should just unfollow and move on.

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<v Speaker 2>But I do understand why there are some people who

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<v Speaker 2>feel as though and it comes from a place of

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<v Speaker 2>not having, It comes from a place of jealousy, It

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<v Speaker 2>comes from a place of torp poppy syndrome. But I

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<v Speaker 2>understand why that post maybe miss the mark in this

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<v Speaker 2>current climate.

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<v Speaker 1>I understand too, But I disagree with you when you

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<v Speaker 1>say people don't want to see that wealth. I think

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<v Speaker 1>the opposite. People are obsessed with people that live a

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<v Speaker 1>life they can't imagine. That's why the Kardashians are the

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<v Speaker 1>most followed people in the world. They're all billionaires, three

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<v Speaker 1>of the four billionaires. True, we love to see how

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<v Speaker 1>the other half live. But the problem with this is

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<v Speaker 1>Snazana and Sam's followers weren't those people. But if Snazana

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<v Speaker 1>and Sam are evolving and they do want to start

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<v Speaker 1>to post these kind of things and the luxury things,

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<v Speaker 1>that is so okay. All that means is their audience

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<v Speaker 1>can change.

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<v Speaker 2>What you mean is that their followers weren't following them

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<v Speaker 2>for that content. They've isolated their followers because their follower

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<v Speaker 2>are there for like the relatable family posts, not for

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<v Speaker 2>the west super wealthy posts.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, they got to tap into the Kardashian space, but.

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<v Speaker 1>I think that's okay. I think that this is what

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<v Speaker 1>happens you at the end of the day. Us as

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<v Speaker 1>a consumer, we're in charge if you want to press

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<v Speaker 1>that follow or that unfollowed button. I don't like the

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<v Speaker 1>fact that like people then feel the need to go

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<v Speaker 1>and pile on and bombard and abuse and bully someone.

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<v Speaker 1>There is absolutely no need for it. And some of

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<v Speaker 1>the comments that were on this post, like this is

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<v Speaker 1>just she just posted a photo of her cars. At

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<v Speaker 1>the end of the day, Some of the comments were,

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<v Speaker 1>you were a No. One single mother that joined the

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<v Speaker 1>Bachelor TV show, Stay grounded. Someone else said, can't stand

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<v Speaker 1>shelf posts like this. If I wanted posts like this,

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<v Speaker 1>I'd follow the Kardashians. Geez, money changes people. Someone else said,

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<v Speaker 1>good to see your husband's fortune, Now whar's yours?

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<v Speaker 3>Wow? I just think and like, there's a.

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<v Speaker 2>Multitude me off as a mum because I'm like, the

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<v Speaker 2>sacrifices she has made to raise their children has allowed

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<v Speaker 2>for that fortune.

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<v Speaker 3>Do not get me started on that conversation.

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<v Speaker 1>A lot of the fitness posts have been back after pregnancy,

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<v Speaker 1>getting the body back to your strength and fitness, which

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<v Speaker 1>is Snazzanna as well.

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<v Speaker 2>I totally Snazanna's actually been when you think about it,

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<v Speaker 2>like that, she's the pin up of their brand. Like

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<v Speaker 2>the entire twenty eight Days as a concept has been,

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<v Speaker 2>and I shouldn't say entire, A big part of the

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<v Speaker 2>twenty eight Days branding has evolved around Snazzana's ability to

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<v Speaker 2>have this incredible body after having babies, and I think

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<v Speaker 2>that without her being like the flagship of the brand,

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<v Speaker 2>it wouldn't have grown as immensely. She is so imperative

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<v Speaker 2>to what twenty eight days is So that makes me

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<v Speaker 2>annoyed because I'm like, you can't extrapolate the two of.

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<v Speaker 3>Them, exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think there's one person out there any of

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<v Speaker 1>these people that are writing these bullying comments. Any of them,

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<v Speaker 1>I can guarantee you if they have made seventy million dollars,

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<v Speaker 1>they go and buy a nice car as well.

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<v Speaker 2>So my thing isn't so much about the individual comments,

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<v Speaker 2>because I think on an individual basis, it comes from

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<v Speaker 2>a place of her Like I said, it comes from

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<v Speaker 2>a place of tall poppy syndrome. The issue I have

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<v Speaker 2>is how the media perpetuates it and encourages it.

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<v Speaker 3>It's very, very steeped.

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<v Speaker 2>In misogyny because we never ever see articles that say, hey,

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<v Speaker 2>look at this man and the expensive suit he's wearing

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<v Speaker 2>and the expensive car. Carl Sandelanz drives a Rolls Royce,

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<v Speaker 2>and you never see the things that he owns itemized out.

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<v Speaker 3>You never see it done to a man.

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<v Speaker 2>You only see it done to the likes of incredibly

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<v Speaker 2>successful women like Zoe Foster Blake and Snazana.

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<v Speaker 3>Exactly, which is why I have steam coming out of

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<v Speaker 3>my brain right now.

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<v Speaker 2>I think with this whole situation, and the reason why

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<v Speaker 2>it has blown up in the way that it has. Ultimately,

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<v Speaker 2>people don't want to feel like they're being looked down

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<v Speaker 2>on social media. They don't want to feel like they're

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<v Speaker 2>having somebody else's success pushed into their face or flaunted

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<v Speaker 2>into their face, especially when the reason why you have

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<v Speaker 2>followed someone is because of their relatability. Am I saying

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<v Speaker 2>that they shouldn't post these things. Absolutely not. They can

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<v Speaker 2>live their life and do whatever they want to, And

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<v Speaker 2>I don't think that they did anything wrong whatsoever. But

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<v Speaker 2>do I think that maybe it was a mismatch in

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<v Speaker 2>what the expectations that their followers have. Absolutely I think

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<v Speaker 2>that that post was to the wrong audience. And I

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<v Speaker 2>think you have to when you have a social media following,

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<v Speaker 2>you have to know your audience. You have to cater

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<v Speaker 2>to the people who have loved and supported you for

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<v Speaker 2>so long because they're part of your brand, they're part

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<v Speaker 2>of your business, they're part of what has made you

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<v Speaker 2>get to the point that you're at. Well. I guess

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<v Speaker 2>then the question is like nobody's posting a photo of

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<v Speaker 2>a trailer and a torago next to each other and

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<v Speaker 2>being like but then him and her staying in tonight.

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<v Speaker 1>But then do you not ever evolve and change just

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<v Speaker 1>because you had an audience from ten years ago? That's

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<v Speaker 1>my question. It is not relatable. But that's also okay,

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<v Speaker 1>Well enough about that, Enough about the cars. We probably

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<v Speaker 1>never will have enoughing about Australia's Kardashians. Good on him,

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<v Speaker 1>I say, I want to talk about an accidentally unfiltered

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<v Speaker 1>that has something to do with Tony May.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, it's your brain. How are you like? What

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<v Speaker 3>have I done?

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<v Speaker 4>Hey?

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<v Speaker 2>Ww dot Tony May dot com dot. You just launched

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<v Speaker 2>a bridal collection and have a look.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, what's funny? You say? Bridal collection? Oh shit, what's happened?

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<v Speaker 3>How do you have an accidentally unfiltered about this? Somebody

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<v Speaker 3>just swallowed it and then shout it out. Bust them.

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<v Speaker 1>A friend of mine, let's call her Beth, has been

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<v Speaker 1>in a lot Sally Beth, a friend of mine, let's

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<v Speaker 1>call it Beth, has been in a long term relationship

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<v Speaker 1>for years. A few months ago, her partner was in

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<v Speaker 1>a car accident. He was completely fine, but there was

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<v Speaker 1>an accident and he had to get a replacement car. Now,

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<v Speaker 1>he had purchased a Tony May engagement ring to propose

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<v Speaker 1>with and he decided to store it in the car

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<v Speaker 1>so that she would never find it. Yes, a bold decision,

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<v Speaker 1>I know what you're thinking. Oh. He kept in there

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<v Speaker 1>for the two weeks that he had the car, and

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<v Speaker 1>then the day came that he had to return the

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<v Speaker 1>higher vehicle.

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<v Speaker 3>Now, I don't know why this guy's vehicle. Let's not

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<v Speaker 3>jump on this bandwagon, because I'm sure he's feeling it nice.

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<v Speaker 3>He put an engagement ring in a higher car.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, he is a typical trade and had rubbish everywhere.

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<v Speaker 1>He was in such a rush, so he quickly grabbed

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<v Speaker 1>everything and just threw.

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<v Speaker 3>It all in the bin. Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 1>Little did he know he had thrown out the engagement

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<v Speaker 1>ring too. By the time he realized it was too late,

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<v Speaker 1>the ring was so far gone. He ended up telling

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<v Speaker 1>Beth that he was going to propose a month later,

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<v Speaker 1>and then he accidentally threw it out.

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<v Speaker 3>They still aren't engaged.

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<v Speaker 5>Oh my god, or she responded with In this moment,

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<v Speaker 5>she looked at him blankly and said, you are the

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<v Speaker 5>reason we don't own a house.

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<v Speaker 3>He literally is.

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<v Speaker 2>What do I do in that instance if someone emails

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<v Speaker 2>me and says, hey, I'm sorry, I threw my engage

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<v Speaker 2>ring in.

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<v Speaker 3>The bin, like, do I give them a discount for

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<v Speaker 3>a second? Well, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>But what you're doing now is probably setting yourself up

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<v Speaker 1>to give a lot of discounts because a lot.

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<v Speaker 3>Of emails are going to come in, Like I left

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<v Speaker 3>it in a car. So my thing here is right.

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<v Speaker 1>Like the first thing my brain gravitates too, is I

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<v Speaker 1>wouldn't be telling Beth that story until I had actually proposed.

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<v Speaker 1>So I would have sauced a ring somehow proposed and

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<v Speaker 1>then said, want an all funny story, you don't rub.

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<v Speaker 3>It in their face and said guess what almost happened?

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<v Speaker 2>But now it's not well, I mean he probably has

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<v Speaker 2>to save up to buy another one, which could be

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<v Speaker 2>bloody you.

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<v Speaker 1>Even how much worse is it to say you almost

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<v Speaker 1>got engaged, fy but not?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I think I just expect him to propose, but

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<v Speaker 2>without a ring, get a burger ring?

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<v Speaker 3>Just proposed to me, you can get really nice rings.

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<v Speaker 2>Just thought you're about to say you can get really

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<v Speaker 2>nice burger rings. You can.

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<v Speaker 3>I love a burger ing. All right, let's get into

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<v Speaker 3>the chat with Olivia.

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<v Speaker 1>Joining us on the podcast today is former Miss Universe,

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<v Speaker 1>Australia author of Find Your Light and just in case

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<v Speaker 1>that's not enough, she's also a speech pathologist. Olivia Rogers,

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<v Speaker 1>Welcome to Life Uncut.

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<v Speaker 4>Thanks girls, I'm so excited to be on as a

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<v Speaker 4>fan of the podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>Olivia, you are a bit of a woman at the moment,

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<v Speaker 1>at the moment, aren't you?

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<v Speaker 3>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think this one morning that I wake up

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<v Speaker 1>at the cracker dawn, roll over in bed, open the

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<v Speaker 1>daily mail and I do not see an article on you.

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<v Speaker 4>What a way to start the day.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I know.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, There's been a bit going on the past few months.

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<v Speaker 2>You have been so successful. You authored your book last year.

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<v Speaker 2>But something that has been making headlines and something we've

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<v Speaker 2>spoken about quite a bit on the podcast is the

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<v Speaker 2>fact that recently you had to come out publicly to

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<v Speaker 2>say that you walked away from your marriage after eight

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<v Speaker 2>months of being married. Now, we want to get into

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<v Speaker 2>that conversation because for us and in terms of we

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<v Speaker 2>talk about relationships so much on this podcast, but one

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<v Speaker 2>of the things we really wanted to talk about was

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<v Speaker 2>reclaiming your identity post a breakup, and it's something that

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<v Speaker 2>you have done with incredible grace in the public eye

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<v Speaker 2>and sexiness and sexiness as you do better, just truly

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<v Speaker 2>something that you should be so proud of. Before we

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<v Speaker 2>get into unpacking what has been happening in your life

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<v Speaker 2>over the past year. There is something that we do

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<v Speaker 2>with all of our guests, and I know that you're

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<v Speaker 2>very familiar with it since you do listen to the podcast.

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<v Speaker 2>It's accidentally unfiltered. So bear your soul live. What is

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<v Speaker 2>the most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you?

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<v Speaker 3>I love what you just said. Before we get into

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<v Speaker 3>unpacking your grace, Let's unpack your just like come from

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<v Speaker 3>the lows, and then we can build it back up.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh see, I had a conversation with my sister yesterday

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<v Speaker 4>because I was thinking about what to tell you guys.

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<v Speaker 4>And it's not to say there's not embarrassing moments in

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<v Speaker 4>my life. There's so many. But I feel like when

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<v Speaker 4>someone asks you directly, it's like I don't know, Like

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<v Speaker 4>I have like a mental blank. So I said, my sister,

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<v Speaker 4>of all people, will happily share many, many tidbits from

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<v Speaker 4>my life. And I messaged her to say, hey, do

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<v Speaker 4>you have any embarrassing moments for me? And she's like,

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<v Speaker 4>about you, You've come to me for this. I was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>She's like, I've literally been waiting my whole life for

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<v Speaker 4>this moment.

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<v Speaker 3>So she she's like, it's my time to shine. Should

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<v Speaker 3>I phone in?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 4>There were so many things that I think I'd squashed

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<v Speaker 4>down and they all just came out. I was like, Jesus,

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<v Speaker 4>I've opened the can of worms here. She just didn't stop.

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<v Speaker 4>They just kept coming. So they're very There's you know,

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<v Speaker 4>little embarrassing moments and then there's like a big embarrassing moment.

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<v Speaker 4>And I know that you guys love the big embarrassing moments.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, we really do, don't something kind of like bread

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<v Speaker 2>Crumbus and teesus with the little things you got to

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<v Speaker 2>go for gold.

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<v Speaker 4>Oh it's pretty embarrassing, but okay, we're gonna do it.

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<v Speaker 4>This will be a Daily Mail article. You just wait.

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<v Speaker 4>So my sister and I both got invited to a

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<v Speaker 4>formal So this is many years ago. I was in

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<v Speaker 4>year eleven, she was in year twelve. We had a

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<v Speaker 4>few drinks, which was naughty, obviously underage drinking. I do

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<v Speaker 4>not recommend it, but that's what we were doing. We

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<v Speaker 4>had a really fun night. We were the last to leave

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<v Speaker 4>the after party. The DJ dropped us home, and it

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<v Speaker 4>was the middle of winter, and I went to bed

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<v Speaker 4>with trackies on, a jumper, on a really big dressing gown, socks,

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<v Speaker 4>like so many clothes because I was freezing.

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<v Speaker 3>Did you just say that DJ dropped you home?

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<v Speaker 4>Sorry, the DJ dropped us home? I know.

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<v Speaker 1>We just skewed it over that piece of information.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, oh, yeah, and I thought that DJ

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<v Speaker 3>drop you home.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know because my sister and I were stayers,

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<v Speaker 4>like we didn't want to leave. He was like, guys,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm wrapping up, like let's go.

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<v Speaker 1>He's like carried his equipment out and he's like, man,

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<v Speaker 1>you need to leave.

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<v Speaker 4>But anyway, we had a fun night, is my point.

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<v Speaker 4>So yeah, I went to bed with all these clothes on.

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<v Speaker 4>I woke up in the morning in my bed with

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<v Speaker 4>the dressing gown on, my jumper is still on, my

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<v Speaker 4>socks still on, but my pants were off, and I

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<v Speaker 4>was like, the DJ dropped us home. He did not

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<v Speaker 4>come in. This is not what I'm getting out. So

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<v Speaker 4>I'm like, what is going on here? Why are my

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<v Speaker 4>pants off? I look at the end of the side

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<v Speaker 4>of my bed and my pants and my undies are

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<v Speaker 4>neatly on the floor, just like I'd taken them off

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<v Speaker 4>and stepped out of them and felt around and the

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<v Speaker 4>side of my bed was wet.

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<v Speaker 3>You've wet the bed?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh, I think sort of sleep walked. I suppose because

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<v Speaker 4>I obviously stood up, took my pants down, sat on

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<v Speaker 4>the side of my bed.

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<v Speaker 3>It felt like a toilet in the middle of the night, did.

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<v Speaker 4>A little WI and then lay back down and went

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<v Speaker 4>to sleep.

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<v Speaker 2>At least she stood up for it. I want to

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<v Speaker 2>like when people do this. This is my question. When

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<v Speaker 2>you're like sleep walking and you wee like in a

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<v Speaker 2>drawer or on your bed or wherever it is, is

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<v Speaker 2>there not a moment when you're asleep and you're like,

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<v Speaker 2>where's the toilet paper?

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<v Speaker 1>Like?

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<v Speaker 3>What are you using?

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<v Speaker 4>I can't answer that question. Low.

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<v Speaker 1>I think if you're wetting yourself, you don't think where's

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<v Speaker 1>the toilet paper? Like if you're wean the bed, you're

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<v Speaker 1>not like, oh, where is my wet wife?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean you would think that, but you've had enough

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<v Speaker 2>consciousness to get up, to walk away, to pull your

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<v Speaker 2>pants out, like you've done all the steps.

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<v Speaker 3>Surely you do, a wife.

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<v Speaker 4>But I obviously missed a few steps because I didn't

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<v Speaker 4>get my back up.

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<v Speaker 3>She didn't step anyway.

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<v Speaker 4>And then I was so embarrassed and I was like,

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<v Speaker 4>I cannot tell my mom this, like she's going to

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<v Speaker 4>disown me. So she came past my room and I'm

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<v Speaker 4>cleaning up. She's like, what are you doing. I was like, Oh,

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<v Speaker 4>I think we had a Jack Rosser called Buster. I

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<v Speaker 4>was like, so weird. I think.

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<v Speaker 3>She was straight through that line. And now she listened

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<v Speaker 3>to lafe on cut and she'll know the truth.

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<v Speaker 4>My sister. And the message was like, I remember that

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<v Speaker 4>you thought it was a dog. I was like, no,

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<v Speaker 4>I always knew it wasn't the dog.

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<v Speaker 3>I just do you know I have never hand on heart.

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<v Speaker 3>I have never wet the bed. I mean besides when

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, you know, you're a better person than

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<v Speaker 3>both living.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, not from being drunk, but just as an adult.

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<v Speaker 3>I had a dream that I get out of it.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I had a dream that I was in a pool,

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<v Speaker 2>which is even worse because who pisses in a pool

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<v Speaker 2>and doesn't.

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<v Speaker 3>Get out of the pool. But I burn Apparently, I had.

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<v Speaker 2>A dream that I was floating around in a pool.

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<v Speaker 2>I was not drunk, I was not hungover, and then

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<v Speaker 2>I woke up as an adult just wetting the bed.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, this is wild a lot.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, well you made me feel better. I appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 4>That's exactly what this episode and Britt, if it ever changes,

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<v Speaker 4>let us know, Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>It happened, It happens.

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<v Speaker 2>Well live we are talking, like I said, about identity today,

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<v Speaker 2>and I mean, you have been so many things throughout

0:27:19.920 --> 0:27:22.879
<v Speaker 2>your life, you Miss Australia. You have been a speech

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<v Speaker 2>speech pathologist, geez I need one as well? Might you

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<v Speaker 2>have been an author? For you in terms of identity, Like,

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<v Speaker 2>how has each of these transitions been in your life?

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<v Speaker 4>It's been interesting. I love that you guys are talking

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<v Speaker 4>about this because it's such a difficult thing to pinpoint

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<v Speaker 4>for a lot of people what your identity is. And

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<v Speaker 4>I think we feel a lot of pressure to have

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<v Speaker 4>one and to stick with it. But for me, and

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<v Speaker 4>I think for you girls as well, like it changes

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<v Speaker 4>over the years so much and you sort of get

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<v Speaker 4>attached to one sort of identity, but then it's so transient.

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<v Speaker 4>And I think when you when you want to do

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<v Speaker 4>a whole lot of different things, it can be so

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<v Speaker 4>many things at once as well. I felt very weird

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<v Speaker 4>about becoming Miss Universe when my goal was to be

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<v Speaker 4>a speech pathologist, and so much of my identity growing

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<v Speaker 4>up was to do with my academics and my brain,

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<v Speaker 4>and then suddenly I was put into this position where

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<v Speaker 4>it didn't have so much to do with that. I mean,

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<v Speaker 4>I think Miss Universe does, like they care a lot

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<v Speaker 4>about your personality and you know, the messages you want

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<v Speaker 4>to share, but it is a lot to do with

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<v Speaker 4>how you look. And so I'd gone from having this

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<v Speaker 4>strong identity of being a speech pathologist and feeling like

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<v Speaker 4>when I told people that they respected me, to then

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<v Speaker 4>being Miss Universe and you know, becoming an influencer and

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<v Speaker 4>people have this instant judgment that's very different to when

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<v Speaker 4>you say you have a degree or a career in

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<v Speaker 4>something that people respect more.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel like you needed to start with your

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<v Speaker 1>sentences with like, yes, i am Miss Universe Australia, but

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<v Speaker 1>I'm also a speech pathologist.

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<v Speaker 3>Like did you have to handle that?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>As in like yeah, as if you were going to

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<v Speaker 1>gain more respect from that. But how did you if

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<v Speaker 1>that was the case and you're just so deep in

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<v Speaker 1>your studies, how did you find yourself competing for Miss

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<v Speaker 1>Universe Australia.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, i'd actually finished my degree at that point. I

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<v Speaker 4>had been practicing as a speech pathologist for about a

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<v Speaker 4>year and I was about to move from Adelaide to Melbourne.

0:29:19.520 --> 0:29:22.040
<v Speaker 4>And I got scouted to do Miss Universe. And that

0:29:22.160 --> 0:29:24.320
<v Speaker 4>sounds like such a big thing, but I think, you know,

0:29:24.360 --> 0:29:28.560
<v Speaker 4>they scout girls every year via Instagram, email, in person,

0:29:28.920 --> 0:29:31.280
<v Speaker 4>it happens a lot. But I yeah, At first I

0:29:31.320 --> 0:29:33.560
<v Speaker 4>said no because I'd had kind of a bad experience

0:29:33.560 --> 0:29:35.960
<v Speaker 4>with modeling and that sort of thing. I'd ended up

0:29:36.000 --> 0:29:38.200
<v Speaker 4>with an eating disorder and I was just coming out

0:29:38.200 --> 0:29:39.920
<v Speaker 4>of that, you know, I felt like I was sort

0:29:39.960 --> 0:29:43.320
<v Speaker 4>of finally becoming more comfortable within myself and I thought

0:29:43.360 --> 0:29:46.360
<v Speaker 4>putting myself out there like that probably wasn't a great idea.

0:29:46.480 --> 0:29:49.920
<v Speaker 4>So initially I said no, and then they were quite persistent,

0:29:50.640 --> 0:29:53.160
<v Speaker 4>and so I ended up doing it. I didn't think

0:29:53.200 --> 0:29:55.160
<v Speaker 4>anything was going to come over it. And I sort

0:29:55.160 --> 0:29:57.640
<v Speaker 4>of went in with this idea that if they told

0:29:57.640 --> 0:29:59.120
<v Speaker 4>me to do something I didn't want to do, or

0:29:59.560 --> 0:30:01.920
<v Speaker 4>it was a what I wanted it to be, then

0:30:01.960 --> 0:30:05.160
<v Speaker 4>I would just pull the pin and end it. So anyway,

0:30:05.160 --> 0:30:08.040
<v Speaker 4>long story short, I moved to Melbourne, but I got

0:30:08.080 --> 0:30:11.280
<v Speaker 4>through as a state finalist for South Australia, and then

0:30:11.480 --> 0:30:15.080
<v Speaker 4>I went to the National final and ended up winning,

0:30:15.720 --> 0:30:18.560
<v Speaker 4>and I did not expect to win at all. Like

0:30:18.840 --> 0:30:21.640
<v Speaker 4>you could see from the footage, they cut some out

0:30:21.680 --> 0:30:23.280
<v Speaker 4>because the first thing I said when I won was

0:30:23.320 --> 0:30:23.800
<v Speaker 4>what the fuck?

0:30:23.840 --> 0:30:25.880
<v Speaker 3>I was looking out one of them, like we're taking

0:30:25.880 --> 0:30:28.560
<v Speaker 3>that back. She would not a lady, This is not

0:30:28.680 --> 0:30:30.280
<v Speaker 3>Ladylike bring this weird a out.

0:30:30.440 --> 0:30:33.120
<v Speaker 4>Oh my god. They were like no, like stop saying that.

0:30:33.320 --> 0:30:34.800
<v Speaker 4>I was looking at one of the judges because I

0:30:34.840 --> 0:30:38.680
<v Speaker 4>was just so surprised and so shook, and I was

0:30:38.960 --> 0:30:40.920
<v Speaker 4>just so convinced that that was not how about night

0:30:41.040 --> 0:30:43.120
<v Speaker 4>was going to play out. And I was okay with that,

0:30:43.240 --> 0:30:45.360
<v Speaker 4>Like I had a really good experience. I met all

0:30:45.360 --> 0:30:47.640
<v Speaker 4>these girls from across Australia. But the way that I

0:30:47.680 --> 0:30:50.360
<v Speaker 4>saw my life going was very much that I would

0:30:50.480 --> 0:30:52.600
<v Speaker 4>continue to live in Melbourne but be a speech pathologist

0:30:52.680 --> 0:30:54.480
<v Speaker 4>and maybe do a bit of like modeling and stuff

0:30:54.480 --> 0:30:57.239
<v Speaker 4>on the side. I had a small Instagram following at

0:30:57.240 --> 0:31:00.120
<v Speaker 4>that point, like I maybe ten thousand followers or something,

0:31:00.400 --> 0:31:02.560
<v Speaker 4>so I never saw that as a pathway either. It

0:31:02.640 --> 0:31:06.440
<v Speaker 4>was just something fun to do. This universe and yeah,

0:31:06.480 --> 0:31:08.760
<v Speaker 4>it ended up that night really changed my life.

0:31:09.160 --> 0:31:11.680
<v Speaker 2>Well, speaking of how it changed your life, you are

0:31:11.840 --> 0:31:14.640
<v Speaker 2>someone who does have a huge following on social media,

0:31:15.040 --> 0:31:17.480
<v Speaker 2>and part of that following, and I guess part of

0:31:17.520 --> 0:31:20.640
<v Speaker 2>the kind of the curse and also the joy of

0:31:20.680 --> 0:31:22.760
<v Speaker 2>being an influence on social media is that you share

0:31:22.800 --> 0:31:24.760
<v Speaker 2>so much of your personal life. You share so much

0:31:24.760 --> 0:31:28.000
<v Speaker 2>of the highlight reel of your life, which is also

0:31:28.120 --> 0:31:31.840
<v Speaker 2>why I guess in your case, your relationship was really public.

0:31:31.920 --> 0:31:34.240
<v Speaker 2>But then that also then means that the breakdown of

0:31:34.240 --> 0:31:36.720
<v Speaker 2>a relationship becomes public, even if you don't want it

0:31:36.720 --> 0:31:38.800
<v Speaker 2>to be, even if you don't put it on social media.

0:31:39.120 --> 0:31:41.440
<v Speaker 2>It's almost like because people are invested in the good times,

0:31:41.440 --> 0:31:43.400
<v Speaker 2>they feel like they have a right to know the

0:31:43.480 --> 0:31:45.840
<v Speaker 2>bad times as well. Can you tell us a little

0:31:45.840 --> 0:31:49.000
<v Speaker 2>bit about the last year and a half your relationship?

0:31:49.240 --> 0:31:53.000
<v Speaker 2>And I guess more so like what this last eight

0:31:53.040 --> 0:31:54.120
<v Speaker 2>months has been like for you.

0:31:55.040 --> 0:31:58.680
<v Speaker 4>Yeah. So it's funny timing that we're recording today because

0:31:58.920 --> 0:32:01.320
<v Speaker 4>yesterday would have been a year since I got married.

0:32:01.600 --> 0:32:03.880
<v Speaker 3>How does that feel live? I was about to say,

0:32:03.920 --> 0:32:05.040
<v Speaker 3>like a happy anniversary.

0:32:05.080 --> 0:32:07.880
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if you can say that to come

0:32:07.880 --> 0:32:10.360
<v Speaker 1>out even though you know the situation. I feel like

0:32:10.440 --> 0:32:12.360
<v Speaker 1>it's a funny day.

0:32:12.760 --> 0:32:15.240
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, it's been hard, like it's been very, very hard

0:32:15.360 --> 0:32:20.440
<v Speaker 4>in many ways. And the public interest and scrutiny is

0:32:20.480 --> 0:32:24.200
<v Speaker 4>probably the hardest part because you know, it is such

0:32:24.200 --> 0:32:26.320
<v Speaker 4>a private thing, but people expect so much of you

0:32:26.760 --> 0:32:29.760
<v Speaker 4>from you when you put yourself out there, and people said,

0:32:29.760 --> 0:32:31.840
<v Speaker 4>you know, you were so public with your relationship, so

0:32:32.280 --> 0:32:36.400
<v Speaker 4>why won't you be public with your breakup? But when

0:32:36.400 --> 0:32:38.240
<v Speaker 4>you really look back at it, I actually wasn't that

0:32:38.280 --> 0:32:40.800
<v Speaker 4>public about my relationship, Like, yes, he was on my socials,

0:32:41.200 --> 0:32:43.600
<v Speaker 4>but I wasn't every day saying this is where we're at,

0:32:43.600 --> 0:32:45.640
<v Speaker 4>this is what we're doing. We had a fight last night.

0:32:45.720 --> 0:32:48.440
<v Speaker 4>We you know, I wasn't sharing all the ins and outs,

0:32:48.520 --> 0:32:50.600
<v Speaker 4>and that would be weird if I did, and it

0:32:50.600 --> 0:32:53.160
<v Speaker 4>would be weird if anyone did. I don't think anybody

0:32:53.200 --> 0:32:56.200
<v Speaker 4>does that. Like, yes, you see glimpses of people's relationships

0:32:56.200 --> 0:32:58.640
<v Speaker 4>on socials, but you never truly know what's going on.

0:32:59.200 --> 0:33:00.960
<v Speaker 4>And I think I think part of it was, like

0:33:01.080 --> 0:33:04.320
<v Speaker 4>my wedding was very public, and I get that, and

0:33:04.360 --> 0:33:07.000
<v Speaker 4>I think that's why people expected more from me when

0:33:07.000 --> 0:33:09.479
<v Speaker 4>it came to the relationship. Breakdown. But it's all well

0:33:09.520 --> 0:33:11.080
<v Speaker 4>and good for me to share what I want to share.

0:33:11.440 --> 0:33:13.120
<v Speaker 4>But at the end of the day of relationships to

0:33:13.240 --> 0:33:17.640
<v Speaker 4>people and whatever I'm sharing about my ex, you know,

0:33:17.880 --> 0:33:20.480
<v Speaker 4>he hasn't said okay to that, and he wasn't in

0:33:20.520 --> 0:33:23.920
<v Speaker 4>the public eye. So it's not really fair to take

0:33:23.960 --> 0:33:26.560
<v Speaker 4>two people through that kind of thing when it's just

0:33:26.600 --> 0:33:28.680
<v Speaker 4>one of you that's put yourself in that position. I

0:33:28.680 --> 0:33:30.920
<v Speaker 4>think it's very different if both people are in the

0:33:30.920 --> 0:33:32.760
<v Speaker 4>public eye in a similar way.

0:33:32.840 --> 0:33:33.880
<v Speaker 3>That's a really good point.

0:33:34.000 --> 0:33:36.480
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, But even then I think, like it's not it's

0:33:36.520 --> 0:33:38.600
<v Speaker 4>no one's business, and you share what you want to share,

0:33:38.640 --> 0:33:41.760
<v Speaker 4>and you have to be also ready to share it.

0:33:41.840 --> 0:33:43.760
<v Speaker 4>So like I'm excited to have this conversation with you

0:33:43.800 --> 0:33:46.560
<v Speaker 4>guys today, I feel like the dust has settled a

0:33:46.560 --> 0:33:49.640
<v Speaker 4>little and I can maybe say more than I have previously.

0:33:50.160 --> 0:33:52.560
<v Speaker 4>But even still, I think I've always got to be careful.

0:33:52.760 --> 0:33:54.960
<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean, so much of it comes down to processing,

0:33:55.040 --> 0:33:58.160
<v Speaker 2>because I think that for anybody when something is happening,

0:33:58.720 --> 0:34:00.760
<v Speaker 2>you know, with any break you know, we don't know

0:34:00.800 --> 0:34:03.440
<v Speaker 2>the specifics around your breakup, but there can be feelings

0:34:03.520 --> 0:34:06.880
<v Speaker 2>of anger or betrayal or frustration, or those feelings are

0:34:06.920 --> 0:34:09.880
<v Speaker 2>so big and they're so raw when they very first happen,

0:34:10.040 --> 0:34:12.080
<v Speaker 2>and it's almost like you need to get through those

0:34:12.080 --> 0:34:15.239
<v Speaker 2>initial feelings to really understand how you actually feel. And

0:34:15.280 --> 0:34:17.759
<v Speaker 2>if you say things in the moment of anger, then

0:34:17.800 --> 0:34:19.520
<v Speaker 2>they're out there for the whole world to see. And

0:34:19.560 --> 0:34:21.880
<v Speaker 2>then once the dust does settle and your feelings do settle,

0:34:21.920 --> 0:34:24.640
<v Speaker 2>you're like, well, I don't feel as angry as I did,

0:34:24.719 --> 0:34:27.239
<v Speaker 2>and I wish that I had maybe phrased that differently.

0:34:27.680 --> 0:34:30.160
<v Speaker 4>Absolutely, Yeah, And once it's out there, you can't take

0:34:30.160 --> 0:34:32.279
<v Speaker 4>it back, especially when people are hanging on to every

0:34:32.280 --> 0:34:34.480
<v Speaker 4>word you say and wanting to make an article out

0:34:34.520 --> 0:34:36.640
<v Speaker 4>of everything. Yeah. My dad had always said to me,

0:34:37.280 --> 0:34:39.919
<v Speaker 4>don't write a message in anger. Yeah, And I think

0:34:39.960 --> 0:34:41.880
<v Speaker 4>that's on a bigger scale when you are in the

0:34:41.880 --> 0:34:42.560
<v Speaker 4>public eye.

0:34:42.719 --> 0:34:44.960
<v Speaker 2>Can we go back a bit, I mean and speaking

0:34:44.960 --> 0:34:47.200
<v Speaker 2>about when things were great for the two of you,

0:34:47.520 --> 0:34:49.640
<v Speaker 2>What was your wedding like? What was your wedding day like?

0:34:49.800 --> 0:34:51.960
<v Speaker 2>Because that is something that you've shared a little bit

0:34:52.000 --> 0:34:55.520
<v Speaker 2>of on social media since, but for you now reflecting back,

0:34:56.000 --> 0:34:57.040
<v Speaker 2>how was your wedding?

0:34:57.239 --> 0:34:59.560
<v Speaker 4>My wedding was fun. It was a really good day.

0:34:59.640 --> 0:35:01.759
<v Speaker 4>But I I would say it wasn't a good day

0:35:01.800 --> 0:35:04.160
<v Speaker 4>because of him. It was a good day despite him.

0:35:04.360 --> 0:35:06.319
<v Speaker 4>That's probably going to sound a little harsh, but we

0:35:06.320 --> 0:35:08.200
<v Speaker 4>weren't actually in a good place when we got married,

0:35:09.480 --> 0:35:12.719
<v Speaker 4>which also is probably going to be interesting for people

0:35:12.760 --> 0:35:16.040
<v Speaker 4>to hear because it looked like such a happy day.

0:35:16.400 --> 0:35:19.120
<v Speaker 4>I genuinely was happy on the day because I was

0:35:19.160 --> 0:35:22.480
<v Speaker 4>surrounded by all of my favorite people, and I had

0:35:22.480 --> 0:35:26.800
<v Speaker 4>put so much time and effort and money and everything

0:35:26.800 --> 0:35:28.799
<v Speaker 4>into this day being the best day that it could be.

0:35:29.440 --> 0:35:33.040
<v Speaker 4>And it was beautiful weather, everything was going to plan.

0:35:33.200 --> 0:35:36.839
<v Speaker 4>There was no drama, so all of those things were good.

0:35:36.920 --> 0:35:39.840
<v Speaker 4>But I found it really challenging to write my vowels

0:35:39.920 --> 0:35:42.400
<v Speaker 4>because we had, in the lead up to the wedding

0:35:42.440 --> 0:35:44.040
<v Speaker 4>hadn't been in a good place.

0:35:44.680 --> 0:35:47.400
<v Speaker 1>Was there a part of you that thought on that

0:35:47.520 --> 0:35:49.600
<v Speaker 1>day or leading up to the day, that maybe you

0:35:49.600 --> 0:35:52.640
<v Speaker 1>shouldn't do it, but you get caught up in this

0:35:52.800 --> 0:35:55.360
<v Speaker 1>snowball effect of well, we've been together and we've planned

0:35:55.360 --> 0:35:57.680
<v Speaker 1>it and everyone expects it and it's happening and we'll

0:35:57.719 --> 0:35:58.719
<v Speaker 1>work through whatever it is.

0:35:59.000 --> 0:36:00.520
<v Speaker 3>Or was there a part of you this life I

0:36:00.600 --> 0:36:01.759
<v Speaker 3>just really shouldn't be doing this?

0:36:02.200 --> 0:36:06.239
<v Speaker 4>Both I. Yeah, I had had my doubts along the way.

0:36:06.480 --> 0:36:11.840
<v Speaker 4>I think COVID made it hard because we postponed it

0:36:11.840 --> 0:36:14.319
<v Speaker 4>a couple of times because of COVID, And in a way,

0:36:14.400 --> 0:36:16.880
<v Speaker 4>I thought, this gives us more time to sort our

0:36:17.239 --> 0:36:20.080
<v Speaker 4>stuff out so that we're in a good spot before

0:36:20.080 --> 0:36:22.120
<v Speaker 4>the wedding. But there were times along the way where

0:36:22.160 --> 0:36:24.239
<v Speaker 4>Mum and I had had conversations and she was like,

0:36:24.320 --> 0:36:26.520
<v Speaker 4>you know, you don't need to do this. But I

0:36:26.560 --> 0:36:29.080
<v Speaker 4>also kind of felt like I made my bed and

0:36:29.120 --> 0:36:31.400
<v Speaker 4>I had to lie in it. And you know, there

0:36:31.440 --> 0:36:33.120
<v Speaker 4>was so much interest around the wedding and then I

0:36:33.200 --> 0:36:35.719
<v Speaker 4>sort of leant into that, and I think it is

0:36:35.760 --> 0:36:37.560
<v Speaker 4>easy to get caught up in it all, in planning

0:36:37.600 --> 0:36:40.000
<v Speaker 4>it all, and then it felt like I had too

0:36:40.080 --> 0:36:42.759
<v Speaker 4>much to lose, Like it felt like too much to

0:36:42.800 --> 0:36:45.280
<v Speaker 4>pull away from if I was to change my mind

0:36:45.400 --> 0:36:48.000
<v Speaker 4>or cancel the day. And I also knew that the

0:36:48.000 --> 0:36:51.480
<v Speaker 4>public interest in that would be enormous. And then I

0:36:51.600 --> 0:36:54.319
<v Speaker 4>wasn't sure if you know, if I was going to

0:36:54.360 --> 0:36:57.200
<v Speaker 4>cancel the wedding, if down the track, I would change

0:36:57.200 --> 0:36:59.719
<v Speaker 4>my mind and we would still get married. I felt

0:36:59.760 --> 0:37:03.520
<v Speaker 4>like that was also a massive call to make, so

0:37:03.760 --> 0:37:06.520
<v Speaker 4>I kind of just forced all those feelings down and

0:37:06.640 --> 0:37:08.520
<v Speaker 4>just was like, Okay, no, I'm doing this. I've made

0:37:08.560 --> 0:37:10.359
<v Speaker 4>my mind up and I'm going to stick it out.

0:37:10.680 --> 0:37:13.360
<v Speaker 2>And was there big issues in the relationship or was

0:37:13.360 --> 0:37:14.759
<v Speaker 2>it a communication issue?

0:37:14.960 --> 0:37:18.680
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I think I with the day that I split

0:37:18.800 --> 0:37:20.759
<v Speaker 4>up with my ex, I called my sister, or the

0:37:20.880 --> 0:37:23.360
<v Speaker 4>day that I was sort of I suppose making the decision,

0:37:23.960 --> 0:37:27.439
<v Speaker 4>I called my sister, and my sister said, for one,

0:37:27.560 --> 0:37:29.560
<v Speaker 4>She's like, God, if you're calling me, then you must

0:37:29.640 --> 0:37:32.040
<v Speaker 4>be serious about this because she's always going to give

0:37:32.080 --> 0:37:34.440
<v Speaker 4>me a very honest opinion. You know. We discussed a

0:37:34.480 --> 0:37:36.200
<v Speaker 4>lot of things, and I said, I feel like an

0:37:36.239 --> 0:37:39.640
<v Speaker 4>idiot because we haven't been married for very long. And

0:37:39.680 --> 0:37:42.080
<v Speaker 4>she said, You're not an idiot, You're an optimist. And

0:37:42.960 --> 0:37:45.160
<v Speaker 4>you know you've been trying at this for almost five years.

0:37:45.200 --> 0:37:48.040
<v Speaker 4>It's not just the period of the marriage. And yeah,

0:37:48.080 --> 0:37:50.919
<v Speaker 4>there were a lot of big issues. So I think too,

0:37:51.040 --> 0:37:54.280
<v Speaker 4>Like someone said to me, you know, obviously all relationships

0:37:54.320 --> 0:37:56.960
<v Speaker 4>have problems, but I think the difference is when you

0:37:57.040 --> 0:38:00.200
<v Speaker 4>have a good, healthy relationship, if something comes up, can

0:38:00.239 --> 0:38:03.680
<v Speaker 4>work on it as a team, discuss it. You might argue,

0:38:04.000 --> 0:38:06.000
<v Speaker 4>but then you're going to try and get through that.

0:38:06.560 --> 0:38:08.640
<v Speaker 4>But when it's the same things that keep coming up

0:38:08.680 --> 0:38:11.080
<v Speaker 4>over and over and over again, you're like flogging a

0:38:11.120 --> 0:38:14.040
<v Speaker 4>dead horse, and there's only so many times you can

0:38:14.080 --> 0:38:15.880
<v Speaker 4>do that. And I had I felt like I just

0:38:15.920 --> 0:38:17.319
<v Speaker 4>didn't have anything left to give.

0:38:17.680 --> 0:38:21.640
<v Speaker 2>I think socially, there's this perspective that when a marriage

0:38:21.960 --> 0:38:24.480
<v Speaker 2>ends early on, that it's a failure, you know, like,

0:38:24.520 --> 0:38:26.640
<v Speaker 2>how can you only be married for eight months? That

0:38:26.680 --> 0:38:29.480
<v Speaker 2>there's this perception of, like weoll then maybe you didn't

0:38:29.480 --> 0:38:31.520
<v Speaker 2>try hard enough, or you shouldn't have gotten married in

0:38:31.520 --> 0:38:34.880
<v Speaker 2>the first place. But I genuinely think, and I remember

0:38:34.920 --> 0:38:37.759
<v Speaker 2>when we read this article around micro marriages, it was

0:38:37.760 --> 0:38:40.120
<v Speaker 2>like they'd coined a term, like it was a new trend.

0:38:40.360 --> 0:38:43.360
<v Speaker 2>How angry it made me feel for you, especially because

0:38:43.840 --> 0:38:46.320
<v Speaker 2>I think it takes an incredible amount of courage to

0:38:46.440 --> 0:38:50.439
<v Speaker 2>walk away from a short lived marriage, because a part

0:38:50.480 --> 0:38:53.080
<v Speaker 2>of you would be thinking, well, what if I try harder,

0:38:53.360 --> 0:38:55.520
<v Speaker 2>what if I stay longer? What are people going to

0:38:55.600 --> 0:38:58.480
<v Speaker 2>think of this being such a short period of time.

0:38:58.880 --> 0:39:01.000
<v Speaker 2>Do you think for yourself that the fact that it

0:39:01.040 --> 0:39:03.799
<v Speaker 2>was eight months made it harder to live? Or were

0:39:03.840 --> 0:39:06.719
<v Speaker 2>you like I cannot invest any more time in this relationship.

0:39:06.960 --> 0:39:09.799
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, a bit of both. I called my dad the

0:39:09.840 --> 0:39:11.719
<v Speaker 4>same day that I called my sister. I had all

0:39:11.760 --> 0:39:16.959
<v Speaker 4>these you know, heavy conversations, and I guess I wanted

0:39:17.000 --> 0:39:18.560
<v Speaker 4>to make sure that everyone was going to be on

0:39:18.640 --> 0:39:21.520
<v Speaker 4>my team when I made the call. But I literally,

0:39:21.640 --> 0:39:24.000
<v Speaker 4>up until that day had been doing fertility treatment. So

0:39:24.280 --> 0:39:26.400
<v Speaker 4>it was on the same day that I decided, like,

0:39:26.480 --> 0:39:29.120
<v Speaker 4>I need to cancel this treatment and I need to

0:39:29.440 --> 0:39:32.400
<v Speaker 4>end this relationship. And I said to my dad. The

0:39:32.520 --> 0:39:35.680
<v Speaker 4>exact words I said were, do you think I should

0:39:35.680 --> 0:39:37.719
<v Speaker 4>wait until it's been a year, just so that it's

0:39:37.760 --> 0:39:41.719
<v Speaker 4>been a year. And he said, don't be ridiculous, like

0:39:41.800 --> 0:39:44.600
<v Speaker 4>how are you feeling in the marriage? And I said,

0:39:44.640 --> 0:39:47.200
<v Speaker 4>I'm miserable. And he said that it's not a way

0:39:47.239 --> 0:39:50.000
<v Speaker 4>to live. And he said, you know, the thing with

0:39:50.040 --> 0:39:52.960
<v Speaker 4>a short marriage is that people know that you don't

0:39:52.960 --> 0:39:57.239
<v Speaker 4>just change your mind, and people know that there must

0:39:57.320 --> 0:39:59.520
<v Speaker 4>be something really wrong if you have to end it

0:39:59.560 --> 0:40:00.719
<v Speaker 4>after that amount of time.

0:40:01.040 --> 0:40:03.319
<v Speaker 1>We said that as friends in a discussion to each

0:40:03.360 --> 0:40:06.200
<v Speaker 1>other off camera. We just said, you don't get married

0:40:06.239 --> 0:40:08.560
<v Speaker 1>for fun and then walk away for no reason. Something

0:40:08.600 --> 0:40:11.400
<v Speaker 1>has happened in their relationship and it's really no one's business,

0:40:11.440 --> 0:40:13.800
<v Speaker 1>but it's even a discussion between friends, and there's a

0:40:13.840 --> 0:40:15.479
<v Speaker 1>part of us that sort of is like, I hate

0:40:15.480 --> 0:40:18.399
<v Speaker 1>we're talking about it because it's another woman going through something.

0:40:18.440 --> 0:40:20.759
<v Speaker 1>But it was more of a in defense of you

0:40:20.960 --> 0:40:22.839
<v Speaker 1>saying people don't just get up and be like, oh,

0:40:22.880 --> 0:40:25.920
<v Speaker 1>well I'm done, Like if you're doing that, you've tried.

0:40:26.160 --> 0:40:28.480
<v Speaker 2>But also on that brit as well, like that was

0:40:28.520 --> 0:40:30.680
<v Speaker 2>the thing that I think is so important because you know,

0:40:30.760 --> 0:40:33.440
<v Speaker 2>for one, live, we're so grateful for you sharing this

0:40:33.560 --> 0:40:36.200
<v Speaker 2>because we know how incredibly personal it is, and also

0:40:36.239 --> 0:40:37.640
<v Speaker 2>that it's, you know, one of the first times you've

0:40:37.640 --> 0:40:41.520
<v Speaker 2>spoken about this in detail in public. But it is

0:40:41.560 --> 0:40:44.880
<v Speaker 2>so empowering to people who are in relationships that are

0:40:44.920 --> 0:40:47.359
<v Speaker 2>not healthy that they don't feel like they can leave.

0:40:47.480 --> 0:40:51.200
<v Speaker 4>There was a lot of feedback online from people saying, oh,

0:40:51.280 --> 0:40:53.360
<v Speaker 4>you know, she just wanted the big marriage, or she

0:40:53.480 --> 0:40:55.879
<v Speaker 4>just wanted the attention of a marriage or something along

0:40:55.880 --> 0:40:59.080
<v Speaker 4>those lines, or got too caught up in the idea

0:40:59.120 --> 0:41:02.239
<v Speaker 4>of a marriage. That's not the case, but I do

0:41:02.280 --> 0:41:05.279
<v Speaker 4>think that there's something to say about thinking that a

0:41:05.360 --> 0:41:08.279
<v Speaker 4>marriage is going to be a solution. In a way,

0:41:08.600 --> 0:41:11.680
<v Speaker 4>it's like I thought all of these issues that we had,

0:41:11.960 --> 0:41:13.799
<v Speaker 4>I'm like, he's made this commitment to me, and he's

0:41:13.840 --> 0:41:15.880
<v Speaker 4>going to make this commitment to me on that day,

0:41:16.320 --> 0:41:20.239
<v Speaker 4>So surely from that day onwards things will improve. And

0:41:20.280 --> 0:41:22.880
<v Speaker 4>I think in most and I can't speak for everyone,

0:41:22.960 --> 0:41:25.560
<v Speaker 4>but I would say that there's probably a common denominator

0:41:25.719 --> 0:41:29.080
<v Speaker 4>within short marriages that whatever you hope is going to

0:41:29.160 --> 0:41:32.680
<v Speaker 4>change once you say I do, when it doesn't, you're like, oh, Okay,

0:41:33.719 --> 0:41:35.840
<v Speaker 4>it was just a big day. It was not like

0:41:35.920 --> 0:41:39.160
<v Speaker 4>this momentous thing that was going to suddenly like heal everything.

0:41:39.600 --> 0:41:43.239
<v Speaker 2>How do you when you go through a breakup like this,

0:41:43.760 --> 0:41:46.960
<v Speaker 2>because this isn't just, you know, a typical breakdown of

0:41:47.000 --> 0:41:49.719
<v Speaker 2>a relationship. This is you know, you were thinking that

0:41:49.760 --> 0:41:51.920
<v Speaker 2>you were on track for trying for a baby, you

0:41:52.040 --> 0:41:54.360
<v Speaker 2>had everything in place, you'd bought a new house together,

0:41:54.800 --> 0:41:57.160
<v Speaker 2>all the things that tick all those big life boxes

0:41:57.160 --> 0:42:00.239
<v Speaker 2>of where you think your life is going. How do

0:42:00.280 --> 0:42:04.800
<v Speaker 2>you deal with the identity whiplash with thinking everything is

0:42:04.840 --> 0:42:07.360
<v Speaker 2>heading in one direction and then making that huge decision

0:42:07.360 --> 0:42:08.880
<v Speaker 2>that life is going to go in a very very

0:42:08.960 --> 0:42:09.720
<v Speaker 2>different direction.

0:42:10.160 --> 0:42:13.239
<v Speaker 4>I would say that's probably been the hardest part, because yeah,

0:42:13.280 --> 0:42:16.440
<v Speaker 4>I think my identity was wrapped up in being a

0:42:16.480 --> 0:42:20.560
<v Speaker 4>wife then also wanting to be a mum, and we

0:42:20.560 --> 0:42:24.720
<v Speaker 4>were trying for probably about ten months, maybe a little

0:42:24.719 --> 0:42:27.719
<v Speaker 4>bit longer. We'd been doing fertility treatment, Like I said,

0:42:27.800 --> 0:42:30.560
<v Speaker 4>up until that day that I made the decision, and

0:42:31.080 --> 0:42:33.600
<v Speaker 4>I was so set on the idea of being a mum,

0:42:33.760 --> 0:42:36.000
<v Speaker 4>you know, behind closed doors, because I hadn't actually shared.

0:42:36.000 --> 0:42:37.880
<v Speaker 4>I'd shared that I wanted to have children, but I

0:42:37.920 --> 0:42:40.080
<v Speaker 4>hadn't shared what we were going through at that time

0:42:40.120 --> 0:42:43.360
<v Speaker 4>because it was so raw and difficult. It was a

0:42:43.360 --> 0:42:46.720
<v Speaker 4>big part of my identity behind closed doors, and I

0:42:46.880 --> 0:42:49.440
<v Speaker 4>was sort of preparing myself for that next stage of

0:42:49.440 --> 0:42:51.680
<v Speaker 4>my life. And I've always wanted to be a mum,

0:42:51.960 --> 0:42:53.799
<v Speaker 4>and I'm sure one day that will happen. I think

0:42:53.800 --> 0:42:56.160
<v Speaker 4>I just sort of came to the realization that I

0:42:56.200 --> 0:42:58.359
<v Speaker 4>would be better doing it on my own, and maybe

0:42:58.360 --> 0:43:00.080
<v Speaker 4>I will, I don't know, but yeah, I think that

0:43:00.120 --> 0:43:02.719
<v Speaker 4>was the hardest thing because on that day I made

0:43:02.760 --> 0:43:04.960
<v Speaker 4>the call. I said to my sister, I don't know

0:43:04.960 --> 0:43:07.319
<v Speaker 4>what to do about this fertility treatment, and she said, well,

0:43:07.320 --> 0:43:09.040
<v Speaker 4>how would you feel if you found out tomorrow that

0:43:09.120 --> 0:43:11.080
<v Speaker 4>you were pregnant? And I said, I would be terrified,

0:43:11.680 --> 0:43:14.360
<v Speaker 4>and she said, well, there's your answer. So I was

0:43:14.400 --> 0:43:17.880
<v Speaker 4>grieving that probably the most when that week that I

0:43:17.920 --> 0:43:20.040
<v Speaker 4>made the decision. Yeah, there were days where I couldn't

0:43:20.080 --> 0:43:21.880
<v Speaker 4>get out of bed because I was just so upset.

0:43:22.440 --> 0:43:24.600
<v Speaker 4>I think the thing I want to say is because

0:43:24.600 --> 0:43:27.799
<v Speaker 4>again people have said, and I've seen commentary around how

0:43:27.800 --> 0:43:30.240
<v Speaker 4>can you go so suddenly from wanting to be pregnant

0:43:30.280 --> 0:43:33.719
<v Speaker 4>with someone to then breaking up? But in hindsight, and

0:43:33.760 --> 0:43:37.080
<v Speaker 4>I've spoken to my sych a lot about this, I

0:43:37.120 --> 0:43:40.200
<v Speaker 4>think the reasons that I wanted a baby were similar

0:43:40.239 --> 0:43:42.000
<v Speaker 4>to how I thought that the marriage was maybe going

0:43:42.040 --> 0:43:44.440
<v Speaker 4>to make things better, which is so bad because I

0:43:44.520 --> 0:43:46.680
<v Speaker 4>know and like I said before, I've wanted kids for

0:43:46.760 --> 0:43:49.240
<v Speaker 4>my whole life, but I've never up until this point

0:43:49.680 --> 0:43:52.680
<v Speaker 4>or that point when we were still together, been so

0:43:52.800 --> 0:43:55.960
<v Speaker 4>desperate to have a baby. And I can see it

0:43:56.000 --> 0:43:59.480
<v Speaker 4>really clearly now that I was trying to feel an

0:43:59.520 --> 0:44:02.799
<v Speaker 4>emotional I think by having a baby, like I think again,

0:44:02.840 --> 0:44:06.240
<v Speaker 4>I thought, Okay, well if the marriage hasn't changed things,

0:44:06.280 --> 0:44:09.040
<v Speaker 4>then maybe it'll be me being pregnant that will change

0:44:09.040 --> 0:44:12.200
<v Speaker 4>it or something like that. But you know, I know now,

0:44:12.320 --> 0:44:14.680
<v Speaker 4>thank and I'm so grateful I think I'm really blessed

0:44:14.680 --> 0:44:17.200
<v Speaker 4>that I didn't feel pregnant, because you know, adding a

0:44:17.200 --> 0:44:20.080
<v Speaker 4>baby into the mix would make things so much more complicated.

0:44:21.920 --> 0:44:25.120
<v Speaker 4>You think that those big moments, those big public moments

0:44:25.160 --> 0:44:28.439
<v Speaker 4>as well, will give you that sort of security. Yeah,

0:44:28.480 --> 0:44:30.680
<v Speaker 4>because it's like it's like them saying, Okay, I am

0:44:30.800 --> 0:44:33.319
<v Speaker 4>choosing you, and you sort of think it's going to

0:44:33.400 --> 0:44:36.080
<v Speaker 4>then counteract all the other stuff, but doesn't.

0:44:35.840 --> 0:44:38.120
<v Speaker 2>Work like that, well, especially when it's been so many

0:44:38.239 --> 0:44:41.160
<v Speaker 2>years of even though you're in a relationship together, so

0:44:41.239 --> 0:44:44.960
<v Speaker 2>many years of being wanted to be chosen, like you know,

0:44:45.520 --> 0:44:48.359
<v Speaker 2>them choosing the nights out or choosing the partying, or

0:44:48.600 --> 0:44:51.320
<v Speaker 2>choosing to be unfaithful, whatever it is that they're choosing

0:44:51.360 --> 0:44:54.960
<v Speaker 2>over you. It's like you have been so conditioned for

0:44:55.040 --> 0:44:57.560
<v Speaker 2>so long to want to be chosen, and it's like,

0:44:57.640 --> 0:45:01.680
<v Speaker 2>finally you are being chosen in being propos that you think, well,

0:45:01.920 --> 0:45:04.120
<v Speaker 2>surely this is a sign that things are only going

0:45:04.120 --> 0:45:07.240
<v Speaker 2>to get better from here. But going back to something

0:45:07.440 --> 0:45:10.200
<v Speaker 2>that you shared recently Live and we both just thought

0:45:10.200 --> 0:45:12.200
<v Speaker 2>it was so powerful and fucking awesome of you.

0:45:12.360 --> 0:45:14.320
<v Speaker 3>We were like, get a girl, you.

0:45:14.239 --> 0:45:18.440
<v Speaker 2>Rewrite that narrative you shared your wedding video. Yeah, and

0:45:18.719 --> 0:45:21.399
<v Speaker 2>it was a very It was a very special edit

0:45:21.440 --> 0:45:24.400
<v Speaker 2>of your wedding video. And what you wrote on Instagram

0:45:24.520 --> 0:45:26.680
<v Speaker 2>was I recently received my wedding video and it was

0:45:26.719 --> 0:45:29.680
<v Speaker 2>hard to watch with everything that's happened. I asked for

0:45:29.719 --> 0:45:32.080
<v Speaker 2>them to do an edit that only included my family,

0:45:32.160 --> 0:45:34.600
<v Speaker 2>my friends, and me, so now I can remember the

0:45:34.600 --> 0:45:36.520
<v Speaker 2>happiest parts of that day with the people that I

0:45:36.560 --> 0:45:38.920
<v Speaker 2>love the most in the world. Here's a glimpse of

0:45:39.040 --> 0:45:42.120
<v Speaker 2>ninety seconds of the Olivia edit. What did that mean

0:45:42.160 --> 0:45:44.799
<v Speaker 2>to you to put together your video of your day

0:45:45.360 --> 0:45:46.719
<v Speaker 2>of just the people that you love.

0:45:46.880 --> 0:45:49.319
<v Speaker 3>It was so boss. Oh thank you?

0:45:49.600 --> 0:45:51.560
<v Speaker 4>I think, oh god, it caused more of a stir

0:45:51.640 --> 0:45:52.480
<v Speaker 4>than I'd intended.

0:45:53.120 --> 0:45:54.520
<v Speaker 3>It was fucking great. It was Ara.

0:45:55.080 --> 0:45:57.600
<v Speaker 2>It's just because people haven't seen it before, and also

0:45:57.640 --> 0:46:00.720
<v Speaker 2>because people expect you to be miserable. They don't expect

0:46:00.800 --> 0:46:03.759
<v Speaker 2>you to be almost powerful in that moment, you know,

0:46:03.880 --> 0:46:06.520
<v Speaker 2>to reclaim this idea of a breakup is something that

0:46:06.560 --> 0:46:07.680
<v Speaker 2>we don't see very often.

0:46:08.040 --> 0:46:11.680
<v Speaker 4>Oh thank you. It's funny because I obviously I mentioned

0:46:11.719 --> 0:46:14.040
<v Speaker 4>I see a sich. I was seeing him weekly for

0:46:14.120 --> 0:46:17.680
<v Speaker 4>a period during the breakup, which was amazing. He's been

0:46:18.040 --> 0:46:22.000
<v Speaker 4>such a great support to me, and he'd said to me,

0:46:22.719 --> 0:46:25.840
<v Speaker 4>you need to stop distracting yourself, because I'm sure anyone

0:46:25.880 --> 0:46:28.160
<v Speaker 4>who follows me may have noticed. I was very very busy,

0:46:28.800 --> 0:46:32.200
<v Speaker 4>and I think I've figured out in maybe the first

0:46:32.600 --> 0:46:36.520
<v Speaker 4>thirteen weeks or something that I'd only spent something like

0:46:36.680 --> 0:46:39.280
<v Speaker 4>six nights on my own because my friends and family

0:46:39.280 --> 0:46:41.200
<v Speaker 4>had just been so amazing and I'd go and stay

0:46:41.200 --> 0:46:44.200
<v Speaker 4>with friends in Adelaide or my sister, my mum, or

0:46:44.239 --> 0:46:46.880
<v Speaker 4>they would come and visit here. My best friend Paul

0:46:47.239 --> 0:46:49.480
<v Speaker 4>was over all the time, and like, I would have

0:46:49.520 --> 0:46:50.880
<v Speaker 4>a night where I was like, oh, I'm just going

0:46:50.920 --> 0:46:52.960
<v Speaker 4>to cook dinner for myself, and then I would have

0:46:53.040 --> 0:46:54.200
<v Speaker 4>enough food for two. I'm like, do you want to

0:46:54.200 --> 0:46:57.480
<v Speaker 4>come over? And I think it was a subconscious thing.

0:46:57.520 --> 0:47:00.640
<v Speaker 4>I don't think I was intentionally trying to not be alone. Anyway,

0:47:00.960 --> 0:47:03.319
<v Speaker 4>long story short, my sych said spend some more time

0:47:03.320 --> 0:47:04.759
<v Speaker 4>on your own, and I was like, Okay, I'm going

0:47:04.800 --> 0:47:07.120
<v Speaker 4>to do that. So tonight, this was back in December.

0:47:07.239 --> 0:47:08.600
<v Speaker 4>So I'm going to be by myself. I'm going to

0:47:08.640 --> 0:47:11.160
<v Speaker 4>cook myself dinner, I'm going to watch some TV. And

0:47:11.200 --> 0:47:17.000
<v Speaker 4>then I got an email at nine fifteen PM saying Hey, Olivia,

0:47:17.000 --> 0:47:20.400
<v Speaker 4>here's your wedding video, and people think, oh, and of

0:47:20.400 --> 0:47:21.239
<v Speaker 4>course I watched it.

0:47:21.360 --> 0:47:22.360
<v Speaker 3>Oh, I mean of course.

0:47:23.600 --> 0:47:28.040
<v Speaker 4>Oh that was a weird moment. I in that moment,

0:47:28.880 --> 0:47:30.719
<v Speaker 4>was like, I don't actually know how I'm gonna feel

0:47:30.719 --> 0:47:33.400
<v Speaker 4>about this. They had told me that they'd stopped editing

0:47:33.400 --> 0:47:38.960
<v Speaker 4>the video back in September because they didn't really know

0:47:39.040 --> 0:47:40.919
<v Speaker 4>if we were going to still want it. But then

0:47:41.280 --> 0:47:45.200
<v Speaker 4>she contacted me in November and said do you still

0:47:45.239 --> 0:47:47.400
<v Speaker 4>want this? And I said, well, I mean there was

0:47:47.400 --> 0:47:49.479
<v Speaker 4>so there were so many good moments on that day,

0:47:49.520 --> 0:47:52.480
<v Speaker 4>and my dad spoke so beautifully, and my maid of

0:47:52.520 --> 0:47:56.560
<v Speaker 4>honor spoke so beautifully, and I had so many special

0:47:56.600 --> 0:47:59.680
<v Speaker 4>people there, and I know these videographers are amazing. So

0:47:59.719 --> 0:48:02.080
<v Speaker 4>I was like, yeah, I kind of want to see

0:48:02.080 --> 0:48:02.520
<v Speaker 4>it still.

0:48:02.680 --> 0:48:05.560
<v Speaker 1>Well also like paid, I would be like, I'm sorry,

0:48:05.560 --> 0:48:06.960
<v Speaker 1>but I look hot as fuck.

0:48:07.200 --> 0:48:10.200
<v Speaker 3>I am neither looking is good again, my makeup is done.

0:48:10.160 --> 0:48:12.920
<v Speaker 1>My dressing God point my hands one point, like I

0:48:13.000 --> 0:48:14.080
<v Speaker 1>want to immortalize that.

0:48:14.160 --> 0:48:16.000
<v Speaker 3>I would want that video of myself as well.

0:48:17.960 --> 0:48:21.280
<v Speaker 4>It's good tonight. So yeah, I had i'd said, please

0:48:21.320 --> 0:48:23.200
<v Speaker 4>do still send it to me I just wasn't expecting

0:48:23.520 --> 0:48:25.400
<v Speaker 4>to get it on that night when I was by myself.

0:48:25.440 --> 0:48:27.640
<v Speaker 4>But anyway, I watched it and I sent a photo

0:48:27.640 --> 0:48:29.000
<v Speaker 4>to a few friends and I was like, oh God,

0:48:29.040 --> 0:48:31.400
<v Speaker 4>look what I just received. And then they were panicking,

0:48:31.440 --> 0:48:34.440
<v Speaker 4>calling me like you're okay. I got emotional, but the

0:48:34.480 --> 0:48:37.319
<v Speaker 4>things that made me emotional weren't the moments of my

0:48:37.400 --> 0:48:40.520
<v Speaker 4>ex and I. They were the moments of my dad

0:48:40.640 --> 0:48:43.400
<v Speaker 4>saying his speech and my maid of honor speaking and

0:48:43.880 --> 0:48:47.240
<v Speaker 4>saying all these beautiful things and how happy everyone looked.

0:48:47.920 --> 0:48:50.520
<v Speaker 4>And that made me sad because I'm like, well, what

0:48:50.520 --> 0:48:51.440
<v Speaker 4>do I do with this video?

0:48:51.520 --> 0:48:51.719
<v Speaker 2>Now?

0:48:51.920 --> 0:48:54.440
<v Speaker 4>Just get rid of it and never show anyone, and

0:48:54.760 --> 0:48:57.440
<v Speaker 4>it feels like such a waste. So straight away I

0:48:57.520 --> 0:49:00.640
<v Speaker 4>emailed back and I said, thanks for the video, hard

0:49:00.680 --> 0:49:03.200
<v Speaker 4>to watch. I'm wondering if I can pay you to

0:49:03.280 --> 0:49:06.920
<v Speaker 4>do a version that just doesn't have my eggs in it,

0:49:07.200 --> 0:49:10.640
<v Speaker 4>you know, to keep for myself. And she responded straight

0:49:10.680 --> 0:49:14.160
<v Speaker 4>away and was like, that's a great idea. Don't worry

0:49:14.200 --> 0:49:16.200
<v Speaker 4>about paying me, we'll do it. We'll just do it

0:49:16.200 --> 0:49:19.160
<v Speaker 4>for you. Like she's so nice, so so nice, and

0:49:19.200 --> 0:49:21.520
<v Speaker 4>they're so talented, so yeah, she said, do you have

0:49:21.520 --> 0:49:23.880
<v Speaker 4>any preferences of music, and I said, probably just something

0:49:23.880 --> 0:49:27.239
<v Speaker 4>that's not romantic would be good. And then yeah, she

0:49:27.320 --> 0:49:30.920
<v Speaker 4>sent it to me on Christmas Eve, so I don't know.

0:49:30.960 --> 0:49:33.120
<v Speaker 4>People were funny about the timing and everything. The reason

0:49:33.160 --> 0:49:34.920
<v Speaker 4>I posted it on Boxing Day was because I got

0:49:34.960 --> 0:49:37.640
<v Speaker 4>it on Christmas Eve, and I didn't share it for

0:49:37.680 --> 0:49:41.319
<v Speaker 4>any other reason than I think it's a happy video.

0:49:41.640 --> 0:49:44.279
<v Speaker 4>And yeah, like you said, I guess I kind of

0:49:44.320 --> 0:49:46.480
<v Speaker 4>did want to rewrite the narrative and have something that

0:49:46.520 --> 0:49:49.280
<v Speaker 4>I can look back on and feel good about because

0:49:49.320 --> 0:49:53.080
<v Speaker 4>it doesn't remind me of our relationship. It just reminds

0:49:53.120 --> 0:49:55.520
<v Speaker 4>me of the amazing friends and family that I have

0:49:55.600 --> 0:49:57.479
<v Speaker 4>in my life, and I'm so lucky to have those

0:49:57.520 --> 0:49:59.919
<v Speaker 4>people around me. I hope it does empower other women

0:49:59.920 --> 0:50:02.880
<v Speaker 4>to do the same thing, because it was empowering and

0:50:02.880 --> 0:50:05.320
<v Speaker 4>it's special, Like, I'm glad I have the whole Olivia

0:50:05.440 --> 0:50:09.280
<v Speaker 4>edit is four minutes long, so I still have, yeah,

0:50:09.320 --> 0:50:13.040
<v Speaker 4>some great memories from that day. It's just an edited version.

0:50:13.040 --> 0:50:13.560
<v Speaker 3>You know, Olivia.

0:50:13.560 --> 0:50:15.720
<v Speaker 2>We touched on this a little bit earlier, this idea

0:50:15.760 --> 0:50:20.680
<v Speaker 2>that society has around relationship breakdowns being a failure. How

0:50:20.719 --> 0:50:23.600
<v Speaker 2>do you see the breakdown of your marriage. How do

0:50:23.640 --> 0:50:24.800
<v Speaker 2>you view it for yourself.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't see it as a failure. It was a

0:50:27.360 --> 0:50:32.680
<v Speaker 4>big lesson. I've learned a lot about myself. I think

0:50:32.719 --> 0:50:36.960
<v Speaker 4>the thing about having a toxic relationship is that it

0:50:37.040 --> 0:50:40.400
<v Speaker 4>forces you to look at things about yourself, about the

0:50:40.440 --> 0:50:42.520
<v Speaker 4>other person, but also about yourself. And there was a

0:50:42.520 --> 0:50:45.000
<v Speaker 4>while there where I was convinced that every issue that

0:50:45.040 --> 0:50:47.759
<v Speaker 4>we had was my fault. So I did a lot

0:50:47.800 --> 0:50:50.960
<v Speaker 4>of work on myself, and the best part about that

0:50:51.160 --> 0:50:54.120
<v Speaker 4>is then coming out on the other side, I am

0:50:54.239 --> 0:50:56.680
<v Speaker 4>in a really good spot, Like I feel like I'm

0:50:56.760 --> 0:50:59.919
<v Speaker 4>the most secure. I think this comes with age as well,

0:51:00.239 --> 0:51:03.760
<v Speaker 4>but yeah, more secure and comfortable in my own skin.

0:51:04.000 --> 0:51:06.359
<v Speaker 4>And I feel like I'm getting to know myself more

0:51:06.920 --> 0:51:10.840
<v Speaker 4>now being on my own and it's been really powerful.

0:51:10.920 --> 0:51:13.000
<v Speaker 4>So I don't see it as a failure. I see

0:51:13.040 --> 0:51:15.120
<v Speaker 4>it as a very big lesson, and I feel like

0:51:15.520 --> 0:51:18.920
<v Speaker 4>all relationships are you know, obviously, every relationship I've had

0:51:19.040 --> 0:51:21.479
<v Speaker 4>until this point could be seen as a failure because

0:51:21.520 --> 0:51:24.000
<v Speaker 4>they didn't work out. But that's such a depressing way

0:51:24.000 --> 0:51:26.240
<v Speaker 4>to look at things. I think all of my ex'es

0:51:26.239 --> 0:51:28.640
<v Speaker 4>have taught me something. Sometimes you have to like look

0:51:28.680 --> 0:51:31.240
<v Speaker 4>a little bit deeper to see what they've taught you. Totally,

0:51:31.360 --> 0:51:34.200
<v Speaker 4>but yeah, I think all of those situations teach you

0:51:34.239 --> 0:51:37.319
<v Speaker 4>something and make you learn more about yourself and more

0:51:37.360 --> 0:51:39.680
<v Speaker 4>about what you will and won't put up with. And

0:51:39.719 --> 0:51:42.720
<v Speaker 4>I think I plan on taking those lessons into future

0:51:42.760 --> 0:51:46.400
<v Speaker 4>relationships and hopefully it means that I'll be able to

0:51:46.600 --> 0:51:48.479
<v Speaker 4>see red flags easier next time.

0:51:48.800 --> 0:51:52.879
<v Speaker 1>Does the idea now when you say that a future relationship,

0:51:53.600 --> 0:51:56.319
<v Speaker 1>does that scare you or do you feel excited by

0:51:56.480 --> 0:51:58.239
<v Speaker 1>the fact that now that you've learned a bit more

0:51:58.280 --> 0:52:00.719
<v Speaker 1>about what you want and who you are and what

0:52:00.760 --> 0:52:04.400
<v Speaker 1>your boundaries are, are you excited to dip your toes

0:52:04.440 --> 0:52:04.719
<v Speaker 1>back in?

0:52:05.120 --> 0:52:05.600
<v Speaker 3>Uh?

0:52:05.640 --> 0:52:06.120
<v Speaker 4>Not yet.

0:52:06.280 --> 0:52:09.480
<v Speaker 3>I feel like, no, I'm such traumatized. It's a scary.

0:52:09.480 --> 0:52:13.719
<v Speaker 4>Well now then, oh, it's so scary. I'm going through phases.

0:52:13.800 --> 0:52:15.920
<v Speaker 4>I feel like I had a period where I was like,

0:52:16.000 --> 0:52:19.279
<v Speaker 4>oh my god, so repulsed by men in general, and

0:52:19.719 --> 0:52:23.520
<v Speaker 4>thankfully that's calmed down. I have been on a couple

0:52:23.520 --> 0:52:26.200
<v Speaker 4>of dates with some really lovely guys and it didn't

0:52:26.239 --> 0:52:28.640
<v Speaker 4>lead anywhere, but it just reminded me that there are

0:52:28.680 --> 0:52:31.040
<v Speaker 4>good guys out there, and they're not They're not all

0:52:31.080 --> 0:52:34.239
<v Speaker 4>going to be the same, but yeah, I feel like

0:52:34.280 --> 0:52:36.080
<v Speaker 4>I need a solid amount of time on my own

0:52:36.640 --> 0:52:39.080
<v Speaker 4>and I'm enjoying being on my own. And to be honest,

0:52:39.200 --> 0:52:41.319
<v Speaker 4>I think it's the first time because I am in

0:52:41.360 --> 0:52:44.879
<v Speaker 4>a good spot mentally and I do feel secure. It's

0:52:44.920 --> 0:52:48.879
<v Speaker 4>the first time after a breakup that I haven't been

0:52:48.920 --> 0:52:51.839
<v Speaker 4>desperate to find the next person, which is a cool

0:52:51.880 --> 0:52:53.920
<v Speaker 4>place to be because I don't know. I don't think

0:52:53.960 --> 0:52:56.239
<v Speaker 4>I've realized. It's only with hindsight that I can see

0:52:56.239 --> 0:52:58.799
<v Speaker 4>it now that I was a serial monogamist and I,

0:52:59.360 --> 0:53:02.120
<v Speaker 4>you know, from boyfriend a boyfriend, So I think I

0:53:02.200 --> 0:53:04.839
<v Speaker 4>often just ended up with someone that was convenient rather

0:53:04.880 --> 0:53:07.160
<v Speaker 4>than someone that I was like, you are the best

0:53:07.200 --> 0:53:09.480
<v Speaker 4>person that I know, and that's what I want now.

0:53:09.719 --> 0:53:11.920
<v Speaker 4>I don't want to be with anyone unless they make

0:53:11.920 --> 0:53:15.160
<v Speaker 4>my life better. And yeah, so I'm pretty happy with

0:53:15.239 --> 0:53:15.879
<v Speaker 4>my own for now.

0:53:16.480 --> 0:53:19.040
<v Speaker 3>Well live you wrote a book and it is called

0:53:19.080 --> 0:53:19.759
<v Speaker 3>Find Your Life.

0:53:19.840 --> 0:53:20.000
<v Speaker 1>Now.

0:53:20.480 --> 0:53:22.640
<v Speaker 2>For somebody who's written a book all about self love

0:53:22.719 --> 0:53:26.799
<v Speaker 2>and courage and confidence, we know how easy it is

0:53:27.000 --> 0:53:29.200
<v Speaker 2>to give advice and how hard it can sometimes be

0:53:29.239 --> 0:53:30.839
<v Speaker 2>to take your own advice. But yeah, I never take

0:53:30.920 --> 0:53:33.320
<v Speaker 2>you know that whole like practice what you preach situation.

0:53:33.920 --> 0:53:36.319
<v Speaker 2>Did you find the fact that you have written a

0:53:36.320 --> 0:53:37.880
<v Speaker 2>lot about self love, the fact that this is a

0:53:37.920 --> 0:53:40.200
<v Speaker 2>topic that is of true interest to you, that you

0:53:40.400 --> 0:53:43.799
<v Speaker 2>know the tools. Did you almost feel more pressure to

0:53:44.440 --> 0:53:46.400
<v Speaker 2>kind of live up to your own teachings when it

0:53:46.400 --> 0:53:49.239
<v Speaker 2>comes to your relationships or were you sometimes like, fuck,

0:53:49.280 --> 0:53:50.520
<v Speaker 2>I know the right thing to do.

0:53:50.560 --> 0:53:52.400
<v Speaker 3>I don't want to do it, but my heart doesn't want.

0:53:52.280 --> 0:53:54.399
<v Speaker 2>To do that, so I'm going to do this, And

0:53:54.760 --> 0:53:57.120
<v Speaker 2>you know, I just think that sometimes it's so hard

0:53:57.160 --> 0:53:57.959
<v Speaker 2>to practice.

0:53:57.600 --> 0:53:58.120
<v Speaker 3>What we preach.

0:53:58.400 --> 0:54:01.400
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I definitely agree with that, because my book was

0:54:01.440 --> 0:54:04.840
<v Speaker 4>a lot to do with my eating disorder and my

0:54:04.920 --> 0:54:09.520
<v Speaker 4>relationship with my body and food, which I think I

0:54:09.560 --> 0:54:11.120
<v Speaker 4>when I look back on when I wrote it, I

0:54:11.200 --> 0:54:13.960
<v Speaker 4>was genuinely feeling good about that, and I still am.

0:54:14.400 --> 0:54:17.120
<v Speaker 4>I'm in a good place with my recovery and that's okay.

0:54:17.600 --> 0:54:20.320
<v Speaker 4>So I don't feel differently about that part of the book.

0:54:20.320 --> 0:54:21.959
<v Speaker 4>But there were parts in the book that I wrote

0:54:21.960 --> 0:54:25.240
<v Speaker 4>about my ex and I do think even in the moment,

0:54:25.360 --> 0:54:28.920
<v Speaker 4>I felt like they weren't quite right. But yeah, I

0:54:28.920 --> 0:54:31.400
<v Speaker 4>did feel pressured to sort of I mean, you're not

0:54:31.440 --> 0:54:35.000
<v Speaker 4>going to spill out all of your dirty laundry into

0:54:35.040 --> 0:54:38.719
<v Speaker 4>something that is permanent, like that, I would like to

0:54:38.719 --> 0:54:39.880
<v Speaker 4>do an edited version.

0:54:41.480 --> 0:54:43.319
<v Speaker 3>You go to the publishers, You're like, look, I edited

0:54:43.440 --> 0:54:47.280
<v Speaker 3>my wedding video. Would also change for the second print?

0:54:47.320 --> 0:54:49.840
<v Speaker 2>Copeege, can we please change all these paragraphs and just

0:54:49.920 --> 0:54:50.719
<v Speaker 2>do a delete.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, there's a lot that I've learned in the past,

0:54:53.360 --> 0:54:57.200
<v Speaker 4>you know. I think going through something big and stressful

0:54:57.840 --> 0:55:01.960
<v Speaker 4>teaches you a lot in a quick period. And I

0:55:02.000 --> 0:55:03.959
<v Speaker 4>do feel like over the last six months, I've learned

0:55:03.960 --> 0:55:06.000
<v Speaker 4>a lot about myself and a lot that I would

0:55:06.080 --> 0:55:09.200
<v Speaker 4>like to share. But again, yeah, it's tricky. It's hard

0:55:09.239 --> 0:55:11.800
<v Speaker 4>to sort of, I don't know, walk the line between

0:55:12.040 --> 0:55:14.240
<v Speaker 4>how much to share as someone who has a public

0:55:14.280 --> 0:55:17.160
<v Speaker 4>profile and someone who I like to be open, like

0:55:17.200 --> 0:55:19.880
<v Speaker 4>I genuinely like to share my life with people, but

0:55:20.040 --> 0:55:24.600
<v Speaker 4>now having just constant criticism or just constant commentary on

0:55:25.160 --> 0:55:27.520
<v Speaker 4>everything I do, Yeah, it's a hard spot to be.

0:55:27.600 --> 0:55:30.640
<v Speaker 4>And there's a lot more that I would like to share,

0:55:30.840 --> 0:55:33.960
<v Speaker 4>and we'll see, like over the years, because I feel

0:55:34.000 --> 0:55:37.120
<v Speaker 4>like there's so much that I experience that could help

0:55:37.520 --> 0:55:41.799
<v Speaker 4>other women. And generally, when I'm sharing something vulnerable. That

0:55:41.960 --> 0:55:45.000
<v Speaker 4>is My intention is not to hurt anybody in my life.

0:55:45.080 --> 0:55:48.520
<v Speaker 4>It's only ever to help other people. And I think

0:55:48.520 --> 0:55:50.560
<v Speaker 4>that's how we all learn and grow is from other

0:55:50.560 --> 0:55:53.480
<v Speaker 4>people sharing their stories. So, yeah, I don't know if

0:55:53.480 --> 0:55:55.360
<v Speaker 4>I answered your question. That was a real tangent.

0:55:56.360 --> 0:55:59.920
<v Speaker 1>There's a real theme with our listeners, and I think

0:56:00.160 --> 0:56:03.600
<v Speaker 1>with women in general, it's around surviving a breakup.

0:56:03.280 --> 0:56:04.440
<v Speaker 3>And how do you do it.

0:56:04.520 --> 0:56:07.080
<v Speaker 1>We get so many questions about how do you pull

0:56:07.120 --> 0:56:09.920
<v Speaker 1>yourself out of bed, how do you get back on track?

0:56:10.120 --> 0:56:12.279
<v Speaker 1>How do you become the person you want to be?

0:56:12.640 --> 0:56:14.359
<v Speaker 1>What are some of the things that you went through

0:56:14.360 --> 0:56:16.359
<v Speaker 1>and experience and some of the things that helped you

0:56:16.680 --> 0:56:19.799
<v Speaker 1>get back on track. Because right now you are absolutely

0:56:20.360 --> 0:56:21.640
<v Speaker 1>I don't know how you are on the inside, but

0:56:21.680 --> 0:56:23.880
<v Speaker 1>on the outside you're absolutely beaning like you seem like

0:56:23.920 --> 0:56:26.120
<v Speaker 1>you've gotten yourself to a really beautiful place.

0:56:26.800 --> 0:56:28.200
<v Speaker 3>What are your tools?

0:56:28.480 --> 0:56:30.560
<v Speaker 1>What would you tell someone right now that's laying in

0:56:30.600 --> 0:56:33.080
<v Speaker 1>bed being like, I don't know where the light at

0:56:33.080 --> 0:56:33.960
<v Speaker 1>the end of the tunnel is.

0:56:34.360 --> 0:56:36.880
<v Speaker 4>It's probably just you've got to feel it, like you

0:56:36.960 --> 0:56:40.800
<v Speaker 4>have to go through those really yucky moments and days,

0:56:40.840 --> 0:56:43.960
<v Speaker 4>and you know, sometimes it takes people more than more

0:56:44.040 --> 0:56:47.480
<v Speaker 4>days than others to get out of bed. But you

0:56:47.520 --> 0:56:49.960
<v Speaker 4>do need to sort of process those feelings because if

0:56:49.960 --> 0:56:52.800
<v Speaker 4>you just want to go out and party or distract yourself,

0:56:52.840 --> 0:56:54.239
<v Speaker 4>it's not going to help. Like you're going to have

0:56:54.239 --> 0:56:57.160
<v Speaker 4>to deal with those emotions at some point anyway, So

0:56:57.440 --> 0:56:59.759
<v Speaker 4>trying to deal with them head on, getting as much

0:57:00.280 --> 0:57:02.880
<v Speaker 4>as you can, whether that's with a professional or with

0:57:02.920 --> 0:57:05.600
<v Speaker 4>your friends and family or both. I definitely lean on

0:57:05.719 --> 0:57:07.520
<v Speaker 4>both a lot. Like I said, I was seeing my

0:57:07.560 --> 0:57:10.759
<v Speaker 4>psych weekly at the start, and I was on the

0:57:10.760 --> 0:57:15.520
<v Speaker 4>phone to friends and family constantly. And if that's what

0:57:15.520 --> 0:57:16.840
<v Speaker 4>you've got to do, that's what you've got to do.

0:57:17.080 --> 0:57:19.360
<v Speaker 4>It's hard to give advice for people who maybe don't

0:57:19.400 --> 0:57:21.680
<v Speaker 4>have such a strong support network. I'm very lucky that

0:57:21.720 --> 0:57:25.320
<v Speaker 4>I do. And if you don't, then professionals. You know,

0:57:25.360 --> 0:57:26.640
<v Speaker 4>it might be a psych or it might be a

0:57:26.680 --> 0:57:30.480
<v Speaker 4>counselor there's online resources, just so many things out there

0:57:30.520 --> 0:57:32.920
<v Speaker 4>that you can find if you're looking for it, So

0:57:33.360 --> 0:57:36.360
<v Speaker 4>just try to look for it. Listening to podcasts about

0:57:36.400 --> 0:57:38.680
<v Speaker 4>people going through similar things. I know that that really helps,

0:57:38.760 --> 0:57:41.000
<v Speaker 4>because I think when you're living something like that, you

0:57:41.040 --> 0:57:43.080
<v Speaker 4>feel like it's just you and you feel really alone.

0:57:43.760 --> 0:57:46.120
<v Speaker 4>So finding other people going through a similar thing, but

0:57:46.200 --> 0:57:49.200
<v Speaker 4>also just little self care things like I had a

0:57:49.240 --> 0:57:52.000
<v Speaker 4>period there where I just did not feel like eating,

0:57:52.440 --> 0:57:54.800
<v Speaker 4>I didn't feel like exercising. My heart rate was through

0:57:54.800 --> 0:57:57.200
<v Speaker 4>the roof, so I found it hard to exercise. I

0:57:57.200 --> 0:57:59.520
<v Speaker 4>couldn't watch TV because I was just two in my head.

0:57:59.520 --> 0:58:02.400
<v Speaker 4>I couldn't listen to podcasts and I love podcasts, but

0:58:02.480 --> 0:58:04.280
<v Speaker 4>so finding things that work for you. So for a

0:58:04.320 --> 0:58:06.600
<v Speaker 4>while I couldn't run because my heart rate was too high,

0:58:06.680 --> 0:58:08.920
<v Speaker 4>so I would just walk. Couldn't listen to podcasts, so

0:58:08.920 --> 0:58:11.000
<v Speaker 4>I would just listen to like breakup music.

0:58:10.760 --> 0:58:13.200
<v Speaker 2>Oh like Adele, And that was the first thing that

0:58:13.240 --> 0:58:14.800
<v Speaker 2>came to mind as well, just Adel.

0:58:15.720 --> 0:58:18.520
<v Speaker 4>She was great, but also like the really empowering ones

0:58:18.600 --> 0:58:22.360
<v Speaker 4>like you know, Lizzo and Beyonce and yeah all the

0:58:22.360 --> 0:58:24.000
<v Speaker 4>girls Tata tell us with she.

0:58:24.720 --> 0:58:25.960
<v Speaker 3>I love we got me through.

0:58:26.480 --> 0:58:28.800
<v Speaker 4>It was funny actually, when when all of this came out,

0:58:28.840 --> 0:58:32.560
<v Speaker 4>someone screenshot my recently played on Spotify and that was

0:58:32.600 --> 0:58:34.640
<v Speaker 4>in all the articles and I was like, oh my god.

0:58:34.560 --> 0:58:36.560
<v Speaker 2>But you know what, like fuck, give a girl a break,

0:58:36.640 --> 0:58:38.920
<v Speaker 2>like something bad, but that's what you do. You go

0:58:39.000 --> 0:58:40.960
<v Speaker 2>through a breakup and you need to listen to stuff

0:58:40.960 --> 0:58:43.240
<v Speaker 2>that just either you know, sometimes you need to listen

0:58:43.280 --> 0:58:45.240
<v Speaker 2>to stuff that like makes you cry, because it's part

0:58:45.240 --> 0:58:47.000
<v Speaker 2>of the process. You need to listen to stuff that

0:58:47.080 --> 0:58:49.520
<v Speaker 2>makes you be like, yeah, that fuck you, Like that's

0:58:49.560 --> 0:58:51.240
<v Speaker 2>my fuck you song like we all had that was

0:58:51.240 --> 0:58:54.320
<v Speaker 2>Selena Gomez back in twenty seventeen eight repe but like

0:58:54.360 --> 0:58:56.720
<v Speaker 2>you need that stuff, And I think, like, yeah, you know,

0:58:56.760 --> 0:59:00.480
<v Speaker 2>it's part of the healing process. And I think anybody

0:59:00.520 --> 0:59:03.200
<v Speaker 2>who's like, haha, look like you know they're going through or.

0:59:03.200 --> 0:59:05.560
<v Speaker 3>They're listening to this, like, of course you are. Because

0:59:05.600 --> 0:59:06.480
<v Speaker 3>you are in the public light.

0:59:06.520 --> 0:59:08.520
<v Speaker 2>You're always going to have people that have comments or

0:59:08.840 --> 0:59:10.640
<v Speaker 2>try and make you feel shameful for the way that

0:59:10.680 --> 0:59:13.160
<v Speaker 2>you're going about your life. But I think it's really

0:59:13.240 --> 0:59:15.120
<v Speaker 2>empowering how you speak about it and how you are

0:59:15.240 --> 0:59:17.960
<v Speaker 2>vulnerable and how you're open to sharing because I just

0:59:18.000 --> 0:59:20.320
<v Speaker 2>know so many people going through shitty breakups. We'll listen

0:59:20.320 --> 0:59:23.760
<v Speaker 2>to this and will be like, Okay, somebody as like

0:59:24.000 --> 0:59:27.520
<v Speaker 2>seemingly perfect as you are from the outset is still

0:59:27.520 --> 0:59:28.840
<v Speaker 2>going through these really tough times.

0:59:29.000 --> 0:59:29.640
<v Speaker 3>I did kind a.

0:59:29.560 --> 0:59:34.440
<v Speaker 1>Bit to everyone rex, you know, like.

0:59:33.320 --> 0:59:35.760
<v Speaker 3>A couple of yel days, and then I had a

0:59:35.760 --> 0:59:37.360
<v Speaker 3>couple of like real X days.

0:59:38.640 --> 0:59:41.040
<v Speaker 4>But I think that's the other thing too. I shared

0:59:41.080 --> 0:59:43.400
<v Speaker 4>a video on TikTok there was it was a joke,

0:59:43.520 --> 0:59:45.560
<v Speaker 4>but people thought I was serious, but they usually do.

0:59:45.920 --> 0:59:48.080
<v Speaker 4>It was one of those ones where it's playing like

0:59:48.160 --> 0:59:50.800
<v Speaker 4>upbeat music and it's like when you're going through a divorce,

0:59:51.040 --> 0:59:53.160
<v Speaker 4>and you know, some days you're like this and you're

0:59:53.200 --> 0:59:55.120
<v Speaker 4>like loving life on your own, and then next minute

0:59:55.120 --> 0:59:57.360
<v Speaker 4>you're like feeling all the feelings that was me at

0:59:57.400 --> 0:59:59.480
<v Speaker 4>the start. I haven't felt like that in a while,

0:59:59.760 --> 1:00:01.880
<v Speaker 4>but I think knowing that it is a wave and

1:00:01.880 --> 1:00:03.600
<v Speaker 4>you've got to ride the wave. And some days you

1:00:03.640 --> 1:00:06.880
<v Speaker 4>will feel amazing and you're like, yeah, I'm an independent

1:00:06.920 --> 1:00:09.280
<v Speaker 4>woman and I can buy myself flowers and I feel good,

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<v Speaker 4>and then the next day you're like, what is my

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<v Speaker 4>life and what have I done? And it's scary, Like

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<v Speaker 4>it's it is scary, for sure, but I think you've

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<v Speaker 4>got to lean into the positive moments and write them down.

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<v Speaker 4>I think like journaling is also amazing. I found it

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<v Speaker 4>hard to journal when I was feeling really low because

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, I don't actually want this stuff to

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<v Speaker 4>come out. But my site was like, that's when you're

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<v Speaker 4>supposed to do it, So okay, so doing your homework.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, I think knowing that time does really heal.

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<v Speaker 4>And I know it's such a cliche, but it's true.

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<v Speaker 4>And surrounding yourself with good people, doing the things that

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<v Speaker 4>bring you joy and knowing that you don't have to

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<v Speaker 4>do anything for anybody else is quite empowering. So cooking

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<v Speaker 4>whatever food you want to cook, and I don't know,

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<v Speaker 4>watching whatever you want to watch, like I'm loving just

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<v Speaker 4>watching just girly things that you know, just for me.

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<v Speaker 1>I wish I could remember who taught me this and

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<v Speaker 1>where I heard it from, because I definitely this is

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<v Speaker 1>not mine. I heard it from someone else, but it

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<v Speaker 1>really resonated with me. And that's this idea of when

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<v Speaker 1>you're making a big decision, a life decision, should I

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<v Speaker 1>leave my husband of eight months? You know, there's this

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<v Speaker 1>idea of thinking to ourselves, I don't want to start again.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't start again. I don't want to go back

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<v Speaker 1>to scratch. I've failed all this negativity. But redefining that

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<v Speaker 1>thought process of I get to start again, I get

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<v Speaker 1>to recreate what I want. I get to take these

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<v Speaker 1>lessons that I've learned and go out into the future.

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<v Speaker 1>I get to have new experiences and it's literally a

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<v Speaker 1>reshaping of your mind and a perspective instead of looking

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<v Speaker 1>at it like it's the worst thing to ever happen

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<v Speaker 1>to you and how you're ever going to survive it.

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<v Speaker 1>It's a joyous moment in a way because you've told

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<v Speaker 1>yourself there are all these opportunities out there now that

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<v Speaker 1>I never would have touched and I get the chance

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<v Speaker 1>to go.

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<v Speaker 4>And do that now, absolutely, And I think when you

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<v Speaker 4>go into things with that mindset, then good things are

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<v Speaker 4>going to come your way. Like I've definitely felt that.

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<v Speaker 4>I think since everything happened, it's opened so many new

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<v Speaker 4>doors for me that weren't even there before. And I

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<v Speaker 4>do feel like I'm very open minded now and very

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<v Speaker 4>open to things that are coming my way and saying

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<v Speaker 4>yes to a lot of things. And yeah, I feel

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<v Speaker 4>really grateful for that. So yeah, I think going into

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<v Speaker 4>it feeling that way, or trying to feel that way,

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<v Speaker 4>because even if you're not there yet, trying to trick

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<v Speaker 4>yourself into feeling positive it helps. And yeah, knowing that

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<v Speaker 4>you are grateful, you get to meet new different people

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<v Speaker 4>and try different things and travel. And that's kind of

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<v Speaker 4>the rule that I've made for myself this year, is

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<v Speaker 4>to do all of the things that I probably wouldn't

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<v Speaker 4>have done if I had stayed on the path that

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<v Speaker 4>I was previously on.

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<v Speaker 3>Live. Do you feel like you have any regrets at all?

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<v Speaker 4>I wish that I didn't, because I think it's bad

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<v Speaker 4>to have regrets. I think I regret not listening to

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<v Speaker 4>my gut sooner, and yeah, I wish it hadn't taken

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<v Speaker 4>me quite as long as it took me to put

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<v Speaker 4>myself first. But I think I don't completely regret it

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<v Speaker 4>because I think, in a way, I had to get

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<v Speaker 4>to that point on my own and I had to

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<v Speaker 4>go through everything that I went through to figure it

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<v Speaker 4>all out. So so maybe I don't regret anything.

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<v Speaker 2>I think sometimes you can regret what you have to

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<v Speaker 2>go through, but the end lessons are something that you know.

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<v Speaker 2>It just means that eventually, when you do enter into

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<v Speaker 2>your next relationship, the standard for which you'll accept for

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<v Speaker 2>yourself is so much higher.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, this next person has to be bloody amazing.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, I have no doubt that they will be.

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<v Speaker 2>Time for our suck and our sweet Brittany, what is

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<v Speaker 2>your You had a great weekend durran Port Maccrory.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh so wholesome. I had some.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh so I was like family barbecues, you babies, it

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<v Speaker 1>was my nana was there.

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<v Speaker 3>It was amazing little babies. Oh my brother, how was bet?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>My brother had bear. I'm just gonna call him right now.

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<v Speaker 1>I met him for the first time. He's I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I should know two weeks ten days, you should know

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<v Speaker 1>what's around it to two weeks newborn. Oh so cute,

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<v Speaker 1>but he didn't do anything like his eyes. I think

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<v Speaker 1>I only saw an eyeball once.

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<v Speaker 2>Brittany sent me a for and it was just this tiny,

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<v Speaker 2>little like nugget of human flesh with a vomit all

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<v Speaker 2>over it.

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<v Speaker 3>And I was like, cute, you were a classic mum.

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<v Speaker 3>I sent you a photo.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, oh my god, here he is was

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<v Speaker 1>me holding him, and he did have vomit all over

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<v Speaker 1>him and me, and that.

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<v Speaker 3>Was all you commented on. I was like, he's also cute,

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<v Speaker 3>but this vomit everywhere. It's the first thing you see

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<v Speaker 3>someone clean this baby.

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<v Speaker 1>So my suck this week is I just before I

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<v Speaker 1>was coming back from Port mcquarie. Literally, I was supposed

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<v Speaker 1>to be from Port to Sydney and I got a

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<v Speaker 1>huge screw in my tire so I couldn't anyway. I

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<v Speaker 1>called around to a mechanic and he fit me in irrelevant,

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<v Speaker 1>but I wasn't gonna be able to drive, so that

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<v Speaker 1>just was a really annoying My suite was meeting Bear

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<v Speaker 1>for the first time, and I went to the Royal

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<v Speaker 1>National Park in Sydney, which I haven't I've been It's

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<v Speaker 1>on my list right for so long to go back,

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<v Speaker 1>and I haven't been there in like ten years. And

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<v Speaker 1>I finally went back there on Sunday and it was incredible.

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<v Speaker 1>Sunday afternoon. I was like, I'm going to go down

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<v Speaker 1>and meet a friend have a dip. It was incredible.

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<v Speaker 1>It was like I was in another world, the North One,

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<v Speaker 1>all the I don't know, there's one and there's it's

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<v Speaker 1>like past Cronulla. Oh yes, beautiful, insane. If anyone is

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<v Speaker 1>Sydney people are visiting, it is just divine. So I reckon,

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<v Speaker 1>then my suck's there?

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<v Speaker 3>My sweet did you go jump off the jump rock

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<v Speaker 3>that's there? The wedding cake rock, Now that's the dangerous one.

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, there's like a little there's like a little pond

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<v Speaker 2>area jump. Anyone who's from Canala is gonna know what

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<v Speaker 2>I'm talking about. Anybody else from anywhere else in Australia

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<v Speaker 2>is gonna be like, what the fuck that?

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<v Speaker 3>No, we went to this private beach.

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<v Speaker 2>It was superl Did you go there in your Porsche?

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<v Speaker 3>My cane Pepper? I definitely did not have a porch.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, my suck for the week, My suck for the

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<v Speaker 2>week was probably my wedding video.

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<v Speaker 3>To be honest, like that wasn't great. That's so funny

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<v Speaker 3>to me. Yeah, that's I'm glad.

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<v Speaker 1>But now because we can laugh together, Yeah with her,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not there yet.

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<v Speaker 2>I would say, I know that it's a repetitive content

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<v Speaker 2>and I should have come up with something else, but

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna tick with it. My suck is probably that

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<v Speaker 2>my wedding video had Matt's ex girlfriend's name in it

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<v Speaker 2>over the top of my happy face. Yeah, it just

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<v Speaker 2>really hit me somewhere away and expect to be hit and.

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<v Speaker 3>Then oh, your sweet's getting her hood dog and my.

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<v Speaker 2>Sweet is not the hot dog. My sweet is is

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<v Speaker 2>that it was Lola's birthday.

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<v Speaker 3>She's two. I don't know how it happened.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know how she's too, but it is and

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<v Speaker 2>she's just the happiest, funniest little chunk of a human.

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<v Speaker 2>We had a birthday party for her on the weekend.

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<v Speaker 2>It made me really realize just how much things go

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<v Speaker 2>down in your level of expectation, your level of effort,

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<v Speaker 2>your level of everything just goes down with the second child.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, because like this is the first birthday party

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<v Speaker 2>that Lola's ever had, because it's been COVID and so

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<v Speaker 2>you're like, she's two. But it was meant to be

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<v Speaker 2>like a real big one. And I was like, Oh,

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<v Speaker 2>get the cake from Woolies, Oh, get the decorations from Kmart.

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<v Speaker 3>I reckon. We spent about seventy bucks and had the

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<v Speaker 3>best time.

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<v Speaker 1>But the old Smarties on a Wooly's cake is underrated,

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<v Speaker 1>totally nostalgia.

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<v Speaker 3>I say that because it was like my cake every

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<v Speaker 3>d you do.

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<v Speaker 4>You know what.

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<v Speaker 3>I actually had this argument with Matt.

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<v Speaker 2>I would say it's more effort because I bought a

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<v Speaker 2>really expensive cake for Maley's first birthday, cost me two

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<v Speaker 2>hundred and fifty dollars. All I did was send an email.

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<v Speaker 2>I had to decorate that little fuck up. I had

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<v Speaker 2>to stand there and pick out all the pink Smarties

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<v Speaker 2>and I had to go to Woolies and buy the

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<v Speaker 2>ten dollar cake. The effort that that took me good saving,

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<v Speaker 2>unsurpassed in today's economy.

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<v Speaker 3>Very important.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, the cake cost me about thirteen dollars and

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<v Speaker 2>it got devoured.

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<v Speaker 3>Coals and Woolies' mudcakes underrated now. It was the rainbow

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<v Speaker 3>cake from Woolies.

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<v Speaker 2>Highly recommend If you got a kid's party, that's my

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<v Speaker 2>recommendation for Thursday's episode.

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