1 00:00:00,240 --> 00:00:03,920 Speaker 1: So basically I spoke to the little soul and I 2 00:00:03,960 --> 00:00:10,000 Speaker 1: was just like, I just was like, it's okay, you 3 00:00:10,039 --> 00:00:15,080 Speaker 1: can leave, Like I don't need you to stay, because 4 00:00:15,080 --> 00:00:18,320 Speaker 1: I think sometimes like you can kind of hold energy 5 00:00:18,360 --> 00:00:22,239 Speaker 1: there because you feel attached to it. And so I 6 00:00:22,239 --> 00:00:25,599 Speaker 1: almost I almost just like gave this sort of soul 7 00:00:25,680 --> 00:00:29,640 Speaker 1: permission to leave and to like, you know, go off. 8 00:00:29,640 --> 00:00:33,440 Speaker 1: And I also remember saying something like, you know, like 9 00:00:33,600 --> 00:00:48,720 Speaker 1: come back to me when it's the right time. Welcome 10 00:00:48,800 --> 00:00:51,840 Speaker 1: back to the Rise and Conquer Podcast. I'm your host, 11 00:00:51,920 --> 00:00:57,120 Speaker 1: Georgie Stevenson, former lawyer turned entrepreneur, social media personality and 12 00:00:57,240 --> 00:01:01,560 Speaker 1: personal development junkie. This podcast is for my girl gang 13 00:01:01,600 --> 00:01:05,280 Speaker 1: who want to feed their mind with positive and expansive 14 00:01:05,360 --> 00:01:08,560 Speaker 1: thoughts to help them step into their power and live 15 00:01:08,600 --> 00:01:12,200 Speaker 1: their most authentic life. We chat a variety of topics 16 00:01:12,280 --> 00:01:17,880 Speaker 1: including mindset, business, relationships, health, and so much more. Basically, 17 00:01:18,000 --> 00:01:20,720 Speaker 1: wherever you are on your journey, I want to help 18 00:01:20,760 --> 00:01:24,480 Speaker 1: you feel inspired and empowered to rise up and conquer 19 00:01:24,520 --> 00:01:27,320 Speaker 1: your next bold move. I know that's going to look 20 00:01:27,360 --> 00:01:30,360 Speaker 1: different for everyone, but just no, I'm right here by 21 00:01:30,400 --> 00:01:33,880 Speaker 1: your side and that you have the RNC community behind you. 22 00:01:34,560 --> 00:01:44,480 Speaker 1: Let's do this. Hey guys, I just want to start 23 00:01:44,520 --> 00:01:48,000 Speaker 1: this episode with a trigger warning. In this episode, I 24 00:01:48,080 --> 00:01:53,160 Speaker 1: do talk about my miscarriage and loss. You know, if 25 00:01:53,160 --> 00:01:57,320 Speaker 1: you're currently experiencing this, first of all, sending you so 26 00:01:57,480 --> 00:02:01,240 Speaker 1: much love and so much support, But this might be 27 00:02:01,280 --> 00:02:03,560 Speaker 1: a bit of a hard episode to listen to if 28 00:02:03,600 --> 00:02:06,360 Speaker 1: it's super fresh for you. Yeah, just wanted to put 29 00:02:06,360 --> 00:02:10,400 Speaker 1: a trigger warning in there, and yeah, send you hips 30 00:02:10,440 --> 00:02:14,040 Speaker 1: a love. Hello, and welcome back to the Rise and 31 00:02:14,120 --> 00:02:19,120 Speaker 1: Conquer Podcast. It is your host, Georgie Stevenson, and today 32 00:02:19,280 --> 00:02:24,000 Speaker 1: I have a solo episode for you. You probably already 33 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:27,880 Speaker 1: know by the title it is. It's a sensitive one 34 00:02:28,200 --> 00:02:31,480 Speaker 1: and I've honestly been meaning to do this for a 35 00:02:31,560 --> 00:02:34,440 Speaker 1: while and then, like every time, I kind of just 36 00:02:36,200 --> 00:02:39,600 Speaker 1: can't bring myself to do it. But I did realize 37 00:02:41,560 --> 00:02:44,560 Speaker 1: it is it's either now it's coming up in a 38 00:02:44,560 --> 00:02:50,359 Speaker 1: few days that it's six months since I personally had 39 00:02:50,520 --> 00:02:54,440 Speaker 1: my miscarriage, and I do have an episode on that 40 00:02:54,639 --> 00:02:58,440 Speaker 1: right at the start that I recorded. Honestly can't remember 41 00:02:58,480 --> 00:03:02,000 Speaker 1: what I said, but I guess I just wanted to 42 00:03:02,080 --> 00:03:07,680 Speaker 1: do an episode because, like I said in my first podcast, 43 00:03:07,720 --> 00:03:11,919 Speaker 1: I think it's something that happens to a lot of women, 44 00:03:12,480 --> 00:03:15,400 Speaker 1: but it's not necessarily something that we talk about. I 45 00:03:15,480 --> 00:03:18,880 Speaker 1: think there's a lot of shame around the topic, and 46 00:03:18,919 --> 00:03:21,239 Speaker 1: I think women, you know, have to deal with this 47 00:03:21,960 --> 00:03:25,800 Speaker 1: almost by themselves. And I really want to speak on 48 00:03:25,840 --> 00:03:29,160 Speaker 1: it because, yeah, I want more people to be aware. 49 00:03:29,400 --> 00:03:32,680 Speaker 1: I want to validate your feelings if you are going 50 00:03:32,680 --> 00:03:37,760 Speaker 1: through something similar. And also this episode might be helpful 51 00:03:37,840 --> 00:03:41,160 Speaker 1: if maybe you aren't going through something like this but 52 00:03:41,280 --> 00:03:45,600 Speaker 1: you have a friend, because my friends and family at 53 00:03:45,640 --> 00:03:49,320 Speaker 1: the time were so crucial to know how I coped. 54 00:03:49,360 --> 00:03:51,120 Speaker 1: So it's just going to be a bit of an episode, 55 00:03:51,840 --> 00:03:54,000 Speaker 1: almost like a bit of closure on the topic. I 56 00:03:54,000 --> 00:03:56,120 Speaker 1: feel like I can speak on it a bit more 57 00:03:56,200 --> 00:03:58,920 Speaker 1: in depth now that it's you know, it's still fresh. 58 00:03:58,960 --> 00:04:01,840 Speaker 1: I guess six months isn't that long. But I definitely 59 00:04:01,840 --> 00:04:05,960 Speaker 1: do feel like a completely different person too late last year, 60 00:04:06,200 --> 00:04:11,080 Speaker 1: so I guess the backstory. And again, I don't think 61 00:04:11,120 --> 00:04:13,320 Speaker 1: I spoke about this on the podcast. I think I 62 00:04:13,400 --> 00:04:16,960 Speaker 1: kind of asked everyone just to like not ask me 63 00:04:17,080 --> 00:04:21,239 Speaker 1: questions about it, and I was just probably very vague, 64 00:04:21,279 --> 00:04:26,440 Speaker 1: And that's just because Tim and me always just wanted 65 00:04:26,480 --> 00:04:28,919 Speaker 1: to you know, I share so much with you guys. 66 00:04:28,960 --> 00:04:31,919 Speaker 1: I share so much of my personal life on Instagram 67 00:04:32,000 --> 00:04:35,040 Speaker 1: and here in YouTube, and I love it and that's 68 00:04:35,120 --> 00:04:38,480 Speaker 1: my choice. And it's not like I don't want to 69 00:04:38,520 --> 00:04:42,320 Speaker 1: do that, but they're just ask certain things that I 70 00:04:42,320 --> 00:04:45,760 Speaker 1: guess I just don't feel. It's not so much comfortable, 71 00:04:45,960 --> 00:04:48,760 Speaker 1: but it's like there's just certain things I want to, 72 00:04:49,120 --> 00:04:52,520 Speaker 1: you know, we want to deal with, and yeah, be 73 00:04:52,640 --> 00:04:55,000 Speaker 1: in private. You get the gist. I feel like I 74 00:04:55,040 --> 00:04:59,000 Speaker 1: don't have to explain that, so I guess the first thing, 75 00:04:59,080 --> 00:05:03,200 Speaker 1: and honestly, I don't. I don't think it matters either way. 76 00:05:03,440 --> 00:05:07,240 Speaker 1: I think a miscarriage is such a huge loss and 77 00:05:07,279 --> 00:05:10,440 Speaker 1: such a trauma that it doesn't matter if you were 78 00:05:10,480 --> 00:05:15,320 Speaker 1: trying or not. Personally, me and Tim were trying, which 79 00:05:15,360 --> 00:05:19,920 Speaker 1: is something I didn't really tell anyone. So I guess 80 00:05:19,920 --> 00:05:22,800 Speaker 1: a bit of a backstory is me and Tim had 81 00:05:22,839 --> 00:05:26,480 Speaker 1: been trying for quite some time, and I know when 82 00:05:26,520 --> 00:05:28,560 Speaker 1: I did record the podcast, I kind of said that 83 00:05:28,800 --> 00:05:32,760 Speaker 1: it was a surprise, and it was and that's just 84 00:05:32,800 --> 00:05:36,000 Speaker 1: because you know, me and Tim had been trying for 85 00:05:36,080 --> 00:05:40,719 Speaker 1: some time and it wasn't happening. And I'm I'm a 86 00:05:40,800 --> 00:05:45,280 Speaker 1: very proactive person. As you can probably imagine, and so I, 87 00:05:45,760 --> 00:05:49,600 Speaker 1: you know, it wasn't happening, and so I went for 88 00:05:49,640 --> 00:05:51,720 Speaker 1: like six months or so, let's just say. And then 89 00:05:51,800 --> 00:05:54,440 Speaker 1: so I went to the doctors, you know, just to 90 00:05:54,480 --> 00:05:58,320 Speaker 1: get some tests done. And that's actually when I found 91 00:05:58,360 --> 00:06:02,960 Speaker 1: out about my order immune condition, which is called Hashi motos, 92 00:06:03,560 --> 00:06:07,280 Speaker 1: which is basically an audio immune condition of the thyroid, 93 00:06:08,120 --> 00:06:11,919 Speaker 1: and it just means I had undirected thyroid. I also 94 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:16,560 Speaker 1: had really high antibodies, which is something that live in 95 00:06:16,600 --> 00:06:20,560 Speaker 1: your body that kind of attack your immune system or 96 00:06:20,680 --> 00:06:23,839 Speaker 1: just attack random things in your body because it thinks 97 00:06:24,400 --> 00:06:29,200 Speaker 1: it's like yeah, like it's in an immune response. And 98 00:06:29,240 --> 00:06:32,560 Speaker 1: so what was happening is my thyroid was getting attacked 99 00:06:33,600 --> 00:06:35,839 Speaker 1: and it's like, clearly my thiroid is part of my body, 100 00:06:35,839 --> 00:06:41,680 Speaker 1: but my body was commune confused and that's an autoimmune reaction. Wow, 101 00:06:41,839 --> 00:06:45,000 Speaker 1: tongue died. So that's when I found out about that, 102 00:06:45,400 --> 00:06:47,600 Speaker 1: and that actually made so much sense because I had 103 00:06:47,640 --> 00:06:49,720 Speaker 1: all the symptoms for years and no one could really 104 00:06:49,760 --> 00:06:55,560 Speaker 1: figure it out. And so from that point, I you know, 105 00:06:55,640 --> 00:07:01,480 Speaker 1: went and saw doctors had a whole sorry, from that point, 106 00:07:01,600 --> 00:07:04,159 Speaker 1: I went and saw specialists and was looking into it 107 00:07:04,560 --> 00:07:07,320 Speaker 1: and you know, a couple of weeks before we found 108 00:07:07,320 --> 00:07:11,200 Speaker 1: out we were pregnant, I actually had been told by 109 00:07:11,880 --> 00:07:16,680 Speaker 1: an endocrinologist, which is a hormone specialist, that I was infertile. 110 00:07:16,920 --> 00:07:21,520 Speaker 1: So she just said, look, your body would not be 111 00:07:21,680 --> 00:07:25,120 Speaker 1: able to you know, produce a baby, hold a baby 112 00:07:26,080 --> 00:07:31,320 Speaker 1: because my hormones were crazy and yeah, it's just like 113 00:07:32,080 --> 00:07:36,400 Speaker 1: my thyroid wasn't producing the right hormones and it was underactive. 114 00:07:36,680 --> 00:07:39,200 Speaker 1: And basically she was like, look, your body would never 115 00:07:39,360 --> 00:07:43,000 Speaker 1: allow a pregnancy because it's kind it's like, you know, barely, 116 00:07:43,600 --> 00:07:46,280 Speaker 1: it's barely surviving itself. It's not going to be able 117 00:07:46,320 --> 00:07:51,600 Speaker 1: to yeah, host survivor pregnancy. So that's what I had 118 00:07:51,640 --> 00:07:56,440 Speaker 1: been told, and so I kind of completely shifted my 119 00:07:56,640 --> 00:08:02,640 Speaker 1: mind away from yeah, any thoughts of trying or anything 120 00:08:02,800 --> 00:08:06,480 Speaker 1: like that, and really focused on the health issues. That's 121 00:08:06,520 --> 00:08:11,000 Speaker 1: also when I started to look into you know, breast 122 00:08:11,040 --> 00:08:15,360 Speaker 1: implant illness, and I saw so many ladies who developed 123 00:08:15,440 --> 00:08:19,920 Speaker 1: autoimmune conditions then got their implants out and were so 124 00:08:20,080 --> 00:08:24,280 Speaker 1: much healthier. And so that's when I had really like 125 00:08:24,440 --> 00:08:26,400 Speaker 1: set into motion that I was going to get my 126 00:08:26,440 --> 00:08:30,800 Speaker 1: implants out. So I booked a consultation. I booked my 127 00:08:30,880 --> 00:08:33,520 Speaker 1: surgery and they actually had a cancelation so I could 128 00:08:33,559 --> 00:08:37,360 Speaker 1: get in literally within two weeks, and so that was like, 129 00:08:37,480 --> 00:08:42,160 Speaker 1: you know, my current reality. And then we found out 130 00:08:43,880 --> 00:08:50,120 Speaker 1: we were pregnant, and so you can imagine my mental 131 00:08:50,160 --> 00:08:54,000 Speaker 1: state of going through this whirlwind of a year of 132 00:08:54,080 --> 00:08:57,920 Speaker 1: really wanting a pregnancy, trying so hard, then finding out 133 00:08:58,200 --> 00:09:01,880 Speaker 1: I was infertile at that point and you know, there's 134 00:09:01,920 --> 00:09:05,040 Speaker 1: no point, and then literally a couple weeks later finding 135 00:09:05,080 --> 00:09:09,160 Speaker 1: out I was in fact pregnant. It really felt like 136 00:09:09,200 --> 00:09:11,920 Speaker 1: a mirror, like a miracle, Like it really felt like, 137 00:09:13,360 --> 00:09:16,160 Speaker 1: you know, we were given this thing and it was 138 00:09:16,200 --> 00:09:19,679 Speaker 1: so special and it wasn't meant to happen, but it 139 00:09:19,720 --> 00:09:25,880 Speaker 1: had happened for us that sort of scenario. So I 140 00:09:25,920 --> 00:09:29,080 Speaker 1: wasn't very far along when I miscarried. I think it 141 00:09:29,120 --> 00:09:33,160 Speaker 1: was only you know, like seven weeks. But in saying 142 00:09:33,200 --> 00:09:36,079 Speaker 1: that too, that's something else I really want to validate 143 00:09:36,880 --> 00:09:40,040 Speaker 1: is it does not matter how far along you are. 144 00:09:40,200 --> 00:09:42,320 Speaker 1: I think when you find out you're pregnant and you 145 00:09:42,320 --> 00:09:46,199 Speaker 1: know you do want that pregnancy, it's like it sparks 146 00:09:46,480 --> 00:09:50,120 Speaker 1: this like and especially because I'm like a planner and 147 00:09:50,160 --> 00:09:53,920 Speaker 1: a visionary sort of person, like I had already planned 148 00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:57,880 Speaker 1: my whole fucking next couple of years and envision what 149 00:09:57,920 --> 00:10:00,120 Speaker 1: life would be like, and you know, in vision and 150 00:10:00,120 --> 00:10:03,679 Speaker 1: to him as a father and all these things, like 151 00:10:03,760 --> 00:10:07,800 Speaker 1: you just you kind of do it instantly, And miscarriages 152 00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:13,679 Speaker 1: really wasn't something that were talked about for me personally. 153 00:10:13,720 --> 00:10:16,560 Speaker 1: I actually had my best friend had a miscarriage, so 154 00:10:16,679 --> 00:10:21,520 Speaker 1: I didn't know about it. But I also, like my family, 155 00:10:21,640 --> 00:10:24,679 Speaker 1: I have three older brothers who all have like three kids, 156 00:10:24,840 --> 00:10:27,000 Speaker 1: who had kids, you know, when they were twenty one, 157 00:10:27,760 --> 00:10:30,400 Speaker 1: who have like or had you know what I know 158 00:10:30,520 --> 00:10:36,679 Speaker 1: of healthy pregnancies or fallen pregnant very fast. So I 159 00:10:36,800 --> 00:10:40,800 Speaker 1: kind of didn't even think about, you know, miscarriage being 160 00:10:40,840 --> 00:10:42,920 Speaker 1: a possibility, and it's not like something you really want 161 00:10:42,960 --> 00:10:46,440 Speaker 1: to think about. But yeah, so when you know, we 162 00:10:46,480 --> 00:10:52,000 Speaker 1: did find out we were miscarrying, because I wasn't as 163 00:10:52,040 --> 00:10:55,320 Speaker 1: far as long it could just all happen naturally, so 164 00:10:55,400 --> 00:10:57,839 Speaker 1: I didn't have to get a DNC or anything like that. 165 00:11:00,160 --> 00:11:03,360 Speaker 1: But still it was just like one of the most 166 00:11:04,120 --> 00:11:11,600 Speaker 1: traumatic and hard experiences I have ever been through. And still, 167 00:11:11,960 --> 00:11:15,000 Speaker 1: you know, still to this day, it gets me upset, 168 00:11:15,000 --> 00:11:18,200 Speaker 1: and I think that's why I have put off you 169 00:11:18,240 --> 00:11:21,719 Speaker 1: know this podcast, but in saying that, I think it's 170 00:11:21,760 --> 00:11:25,120 Speaker 1: really important to talk about it because I chose to 171 00:11:25,160 --> 00:11:31,400 Speaker 1: share this on my social media and the like, the like, 172 00:11:31,480 --> 00:11:36,080 Speaker 1: the love and support I received was so huge, and 173 00:11:36,120 --> 00:11:40,680 Speaker 1: it was like it was really it was really helpful 174 00:11:40,720 --> 00:11:43,360 Speaker 1: for me at that time because not only, you know, 175 00:11:43,440 --> 00:11:45,839 Speaker 1: did I receive a lot of love and support, but 176 00:11:46,600 --> 00:11:50,559 Speaker 1: I also could talk to other females who had gone 177 00:11:50,600 --> 00:11:53,560 Speaker 1: through what I had gone through because I don't know 178 00:11:53,640 --> 00:11:56,720 Speaker 1: the feelings that you feel. It's like and this is 179 00:11:56,920 --> 00:11:59,280 Speaker 1: also something I want to touch on and I could 180 00:11:59,320 --> 00:12:01,600 Speaker 1: literally do a whole Another episode is like, you know, 181 00:12:01,640 --> 00:12:05,800 Speaker 1: when you're trying to get pregnant and it's not happening 182 00:12:06,280 --> 00:12:10,840 Speaker 1: and you're seeing all these other pregnancy announcement like one 183 00:12:10,840 --> 00:12:14,320 Speaker 1: of my pet hates, like Presley was like you would 184 00:12:14,360 --> 00:12:18,439 Speaker 1: hear other influencers literally say it took them one try, 185 00:12:18,720 --> 00:12:21,280 Speaker 1: like the first month and they were pregnant, and you're 186 00:12:21,320 --> 00:12:25,360 Speaker 1: just sitting there going are you fucking serious? Like it 187 00:12:25,480 --> 00:12:31,240 Speaker 1: was the most triggering thing for me. 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If it sounds like something 222 00:14:56,800 --> 00:15:00,120 Speaker 1: you need, I also have a sneaky discount for you. 223 00:15:00,120 --> 00:15:03,840 Speaker 1: You can just enter Rise and Conquer Podcasts at checkout 224 00:15:04,240 --> 00:15:08,360 Speaker 1: that is spelled completely out, no symbols, and I will 225 00:15:08,400 --> 00:15:11,000 Speaker 1: put a link in the show notes and the code 226 00:15:11,040 --> 00:15:15,200 Speaker 1: and the show notes. But enough about wellness. Let's get 227 00:15:15,240 --> 00:15:20,920 Speaker 1: back into the show and like to be completely honest, 228 00:15:20,960 --> 00:15:23,960 Speaker 1: like when you're trying and it's not happening, like you 229 00:15:24,000 --> 00:15:27,600 Speaker 1: can feel like shame around that because it's kind of like, 230 00:15:27,680 --> 00:15:29,600 Speaker 1: you know, this is what I'm this is what my 231 00:15:29,640 --> 00:15:32,360 Speaker 1: body is meant to do. And yeah, like I said, 232 00:15:32,360 --> 00:15:35,840 Speaker 1: that's a whole nother podcast in itself. So then when 233 00:15:35,840 --> 00:15:39,400 Speaker 1: it does happen and it doesn't work out, there's just 234 00:15:39,440 --> 00:15:44,040 Speaker 1: so many feelings of shame. What did I do? You know, 235 00:15:44,440 --> 00:15:48,880 Speaker 1: why can't my body hold this pregnancy? And it's really 236 00:15:50,200 --> 00:15:53,040 Speaker 1: I guess it's really validating when you speak to other 237 00:15:53,160 --> 00:15:57,960 Speaker 1: people and their feelings, which really helped me. And so 238 00:15:58,360 --> 00:16:01,800 Speaker 1: obviously you know you have to feel completely comfortable, but 239 00:16:01,840 --> 00:16:05,480 Speaker 1: I do encourage you to reach out to other people 240 00:16:05,760 --> 00:16:09,280 Speaker 1: or talk about it. It was, Yeah, it was really 241 00:16:09,720 --> 00:16:14,080 Speaker 1: helpful for me personally to kind of I guess just 242 00:16:14,120 --> 00:16:17,000 Speaker 1: like no other people are in the same boat, go 243 00:16:17,080 --> 00:16:20,520 Speaker 1: through the same things. And for me, what was very 244 00:16:20,560 --> 00:16:23,120 Speaker 1: helpful is like to see people say like, you know, 245 00:16:23,480 --> 00:16:29,360 Speaker 1: they got through it, They're okay now. So yeah, I 246 00:16:29,400 --> 00:16:32,360 Speaker 1: think also like a huge thing that helped me was 247 00:16:32,440 --> 00:16:34,760 Speaker 1: just like I'm a huge introvert, so I love being 248 00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:38,160 Speaker 1: by myself. Is like I just took a couple of 249 00:16:38,200 --> 00:16:41,000 Speaker 1: weeks off, well I kind of had to because I 250 00:16:41,120 --> 00:16:44,600 Speaker 1: then had my implant removal surgery literally I think a 251 00:16:44,640 --> 00:16:48,640 Speaker 1: week later, which was honestly kind of good because I 252 00:16:48,680 --> 00:16:51,880 Speaker 1: was recovering from that also. And so I think sometimes 253 00:16:52,680 --> 00:16:56,480 Speaker 1: with a miscarriage, you know, it can just feel like 254 00:16:56,960 --> 00:17:00,680 Speaker 1: mental but it's like you need to take time off, 255 00:17:00,720 --> 00:17:06,679 Speaker 1: you need to feel your feelings. And yeah, so I 256 00:17:06,680 --> 00:17:09,960 Speaker 1: really encourage you to like feel your feelings, take time off, 257 00:17:10,000 --> 00:17:12,720 Speaker 1: like take time off work. I saw the other day 258 00:17:12,760 --> 00:17:18,280 Speaker 1: that just Cinder the New Zealand, I think prime minister, 259 00:17:18,359 --> 00:17:20,600 Speaker 1: I think that's what they call well, I'm so bad 260 00:17:20,600 --> 00:17:24,040 Speaker 1: with politics. They have just implemented a new rule where 261 00:17:24,080 --> 00:17:28,280 Speaker 1: it's like anyone who has a miscarriage is entitled to 262 00:17:28,560 --> 00:17:32,920 Speaker 1: leave off work. And yes, it's so important because when 263 00:17:32,920 --> 00:17:35,400 Speaker 1: you're trying to deal with your feelings and then it'll 264 00:17:35,440 --> 00:17:39,000 Speaker 1: also like show up normal for other people, it's like 265 00:17:39,160 --> 00:17:42,800 Speaker 1: you just can't. So it was really helpful. Just the 266 00:17:42,840 --> 00:17:46,280 Speaker 1: first couple of weeks is I literally did no work. 267 00:17:46,440 --> 00:17:51,000 Speaker 1: I just was at home. I really you know, relished 268 00:17:51,080 --> 00:17:56,240 Speaker 1: in being by myself. And yeah, I guess like feeling 269 00:17:56,280 --> 00:17:58,959 Speaker 1: the feelings was huge for me because I think sometimes 270 00:17:59,000 --> 00:18:02,000 Speaker 1: you know, any sort of feelings, we don't necessarily want 271 00:18:02,000 --> 00:18:05,000 Speaker 1: to feel them, but if we don't feel them, like 272 00:18:05,080 --> 00:18:07,280 Speaker 1: we're not going to deal with them and we're just 273 00:18:07,320 --> 00:18:09,399 Speaker 1: going to push them down and they're going to come 274 00:18:09,560 --> 00:18:15,639 Speaker 1: out in other ways like anxiety and depression and whatnot. 275 00:18:15,800 --> 00:18:18,280 Speaker 1: I think a huge feeling that I felt that I 276 00:18:18,440 --> 00:18:23,439 Speaker 1: very much want to validate is like hopelessness, like you know, 277 00:18:24,480 --> 00:18:27,160 Speaker 1: and oh my god, if you if you know someone 278 00:18:27,160 --> 00:18:29,600 Speaker 1: who's going through this, the worst thing you can say 279 00:18:29,880 --> 00:18:33,480 Speaker 1: is like, you know, don't worry, you can keep you 280 00:18:33,520 --> 00:18:37,280 Speaker 1: can try. You know, you can try again. This is 281 00:18:37,320 --> 00:18:40,560 Speaker 1: a good sign. Means you're fertile. Like I was literally 282 00:18:40,600 --> 00:18:44,800 Speaker 1: just like shut the fuck up, like don't don't say 283 00:18:44,800 --> 00:18:48,000 Speaker 1: any of that, like or even and this is like 284 00:18:48,080 --> 00:18:49,679 Speaker 1: I know I say this all the time, but like, 285 00:18:49,720 --> 00:18:52,760 Speaker 1: you know, everything happens for a reason, and don't get 286 00:18:52,760 --> 00:18:56,879 Speaker 1: me wrong. Now I can look back that one hundred 287 00:18:56,960 --> 00:19:02,520 Speaker 1: percent happened for a reason, and yeah, like if I 288 00:19:02,520 --> 00:19:05,240 Speaker 1: hadn't had the miscarriage, I wouldn't been able to get 289 00:19:05,240 --> 00:19:08,959 Speaker 1: the surgery and just a whole you know, list of things. 290 00:19:09,000 --> 00:19:12,480 Speaker 1: So now that I'm like six months past, it is like, yeah, 291 00:19:12,600 --> 00:19:15,080 Speaker 1: I can see the bigger picture and I can see that, 292 00:19:15,119 --> 00:19:17,320 Speaker 1: but when you're in it, it's like the worst thing 293 00:19:17,440 --> 00:19:20,679 Speaker 1: that people just being like, oh, you know, like everything 294 00:19:20,720 --> 00:19:23,040 Speaker 1: happens for a reason, like obviously it wasn't meant to be, 295 00:19:23,720 --> 00:19:27,080 Speaker 1: and you're literally like shut the fuck up. So if 296 00:19:27,160 --> 00:19:32,359 Speaker 1: you're someone's friend, like don't do that. And yeah, you 297 00:19:32,400 --> 00:19:34,520 Speaker 1: go through a lot of feelings, like there's shock and 298 00:19:34,600 --> 00:19:37,359 Speaker 1: denial and I guess like the stages of grief like 299 00:19:37,440 --> 00:19:42,720 Speaker 1: anger and guilt and depression to spare hopelessness, like feel 300 00:19:42,720 --> 00:19:46,200 Speaker 1: of those feelings go through it. No, they are so valid, 301 00:19:46,359 --> 00:19:50,000 Speaker 1: And like I said, it does not matter if it 302 00:19:50,359 --> 00:19:54,880 Speaker 1: was four weeks, if it was you know, a small 303 00:19:54,880 --> 00:19:58,359 Speaker 1: amount of time is like a pregnancy really signifies this 304 00:19:58,560 --> 00:20:02,479 Speaker 1: like hope, this new beginning, this new chance, and then 305 00:20:02,520 --> 00:20:05,800 Speaker 1: when that is taken it away, it's yeah, it's really 306 00:20:07,560 --> 00:20:09,560 Speaker 1: it's really hard. It doesn't matter how early on in 307 00:20:09,600 --> 00:20:12,760 Speaker 1: the pregnancy. Like don't get me wrong, I could imagine 308 00:20:12,800 --> 00:20:15,840 Speaker 1: how fucking hard it would be if I was further along. 309 00:20:16,720 --> 00:20:18,920 Speaker 1: But I also want to make sure I validate people 310 00:20:19,240 --> 00:20:22,719 Speaker 1: who you know or even someone maybe you weren't trying 311 00:20:22,960 --> 00:20:25,480 Speaker 1: and you had a miscarriage, Like that's still going to 312 00:20:25,520 --> 00:20:28,080 Speaker 1: be so extremely hard because I'm sure there was a 313 00:20:28,119 --> 00:20:30,359 Speaker 1: stage there where you you know, decided that you did 314 00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:35,440 Speaker 1: want to keep it, and I think, you know, make sure, 315 00:20:35,560 --> 00:20:38,160 Speaker 1: like talk to your partner. It was a little hard 316 00:20:38,200 --> 00:20:41,199 Speaker 1: with me and Tim because Tim isn't a huge talker, 317 00:20:41,440 --> 00:20:44,160 Speaker 1: and I feel like, you know, males are a little 318 00:20:44,200 --> 00:20:48,879 Speaker 1: bit different. They're not carrying something inside them. Their body 319 00:20:48,920 --> 00:20:51,919 Speaker 1: doesn't change, like they don't get the symptoms like I remember, 320 00:20:51,960 --> 00:20:57,679 Speaker 1: I got pregnancy symptoms hardcore, like smell was making me 321 00:20:57,720 --> 00:21:01,800 Speaker 1: feel sick and I was feeling very unware. Well, to 322 00:21:01,880 --> 00:21:04,240 Speaker 1: be completely honest, it wasn't didn't seem like it was 323 00:21:04,280 --> 00:21:06,280 Speaker 1: going to be a great pregnancy because I was so 324 00:21:06,359 --> 00:21:10,800 Speaker 1: sick even right at the start. And yeah, so I 325 00:21:10,800 --> 00:21:12,760 Speaker 1: think it was a little bit hard for Tim to resonate, 326 00:21:12,800 --> 00:21:16,840 Speaker 1: but he was obviously so supportive. But you know, make 327 00:21:16,880 --> 00:21:20,800 Speaker 1: sure you're leaning on your partner, talking to them and yeah, 328 00:21:20,840 --> 00:21:23,520 Speaker 1: like I said, just like no, it's like I think 329 00:21:23,560 --> 00:21:26,560 Speaker 1: it's like the statistic it's like one in four pregnancies 330 00:21:26,720 --> 00:21:32,160 Speaker 1: and in miscarriage. So I guarantee you there's people around you. 331 00:21:32,680 --> 00:21:35,120 Speaker 1: And that's like when I did the post on Instagram, 332 00:21:35,200 --> 00:21:37,800 Speaker 1: there were so many people who I knew had experienced it, 333 00:21:37,960 --> 00:21:40,480 Speaker 1: who I you know, didn't know how to experienced it. 334 00:21:42,400 --> 00:21:44,600 Speaker 1: Speaking about it really helped me, but obviously that's such 335 00:21:44,640 --> 00:21:49,840 Speaker 1: a personal choice. And then just like I know this 336 00:21:50,040 --> 00:21:53,359 Speaker 1: is like so hard, but know that it's like time 337 00:21:53,600 --> 00:21:57,800 Speaker 1: does heal all. For me, it was just about focusing 338 00:21:58,119 --> 00:22:03,800 Speaker 1: on focusing on feeling my feelings, feeling it all, but 339 00:22:04,000 --> 00:22:09,080 Speaker 1: also knowing that you know, I will feel happier one day. 340 00:22:09,240 --> 00:22:12,919 Speaker 1: I will kind of get there. I just needed to 341 00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:17,280 Speaker 1: go through this shitty part. And then also what I 342 00:22:17,359 --> 00:22:20,280 Speaker 1: wanted to touch on. That's something that really helped me. 343 00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:25,280 Speaker 1: So when me and him were trying, I was reading 344 00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:31,000 Speaker 1: this book called Spirit Babies. Let me just google the author. Okay, 345 00:22:31,040 --> 00:22:33,439 Speaker 1: So the book is called Spirit Baby is How to 346 00:22:33,560 --> 00:22:37,919 Speaker 1: Communicate with the Children Child You're Meant to Have And 347 00:22:37,960 --> 00:22:43,439 Speaker 1: it's by Walter Mick Hitchen and he is a clairvoyant. 348 00:22:44,760 --> 00:22:47,679 Speaker 1: So super woo woo book. But you know, do you 349 00:22:47,720 --> 00:22:51,120 Speaker 1: expect anything less from me? And so I had been 350 00:22:51,560 --> 00:22:55,840 Speaker 1: recommended to read it, and I think I was listening 351 00:22:55,880 --> 00:22:59,679 Speaker 1: to a podcast saying and she recommended it, and I 352 00:22:59,720 --> 00:23:02,439 Speaker 1: do highly recommend, like if you are someone who is 353 00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:05,640 Speaker 1: either trying and it's not happening, or going from a miscarriage. 354 00:23:06,680 --> 00:23:09,840 Speaker 1: It was a really good book. So what I had 355 00:23:09,880 --> 00:23:16,879 Speaker 1: been doing previously to you know what happened. I was 356 00:23:16,920 --> 00:23:20,960 Speaker 1: doing these spirit baby meditations and look bet with me, 357 00:23:21,359 --> 00:23:25,440 Speaker 1: And basically there were just meditations where I would connect 358 00:23:25,720 --> 00:23:29,040 Speaker 1: with black I guess the soul of my future child 359 00:23:30,119 --> 00:23:33,360 Speaker 1: and draw them in and just like establish that connection. 360 00:23:33,640 --> 00:23:37,200 Speaker 1: So when it was time, you know, for the soul 361 00:23:37,359 --> 00:23:40,680 Speaker 1: to come down and whatnot, it would all happen anyway. 362 00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:43,040 Speaker 1: So in this book he just goes through all these 363 00:23:43,040 --> 00:23:46,919 Speaker 1: scenarios of like, you know, people who were trying and 364 00:23:46,960 --> 00:23:49,840 Speaker 1: what they needed to do differently, or if someone was 365 00:23:49,880 --> 00:23:56,399 Speaker 1: having pregnancy complications and whatnot. And also in the book 366 00:23:56,440 --> 00:24:00,240 Speaker 1: he explains that you know, everyone's on every soul on 367 00:24:00,280 --> 00:24:04,520 Speaker 1: their carmic journey, so if the pregnancy does end in 368 00:24:04,560 --> 00:24:09,040 Speaker 1: a miscarriage, that is what that soul has chosen and 369 00:24:09,080 --> 00:24:11,560 Speaker 1: it's nothing to do with you. And I think that 370 00:24:11,680 --> 00:24:17,560 Speaker 1: was just very helpful for me because because I felt 371 00:24:17,920 --> 00:24:21,479 Speaker 1: like the pregnancy you know, didn't happen because of my 372 00:24:21,960 --> 00:24:25,639 Speaker 1: thyroid issues, I just had a lot of guilt. It's like, 373 00:24:26,200 --> 00:24:29,399 Speaker 1: you know, guilt that my body couldn't hold the pregnancy 374 00:24:29,480 --> 00:24:33,960 Speaker 1: like I couldn't you know, hold the baby, and so 375 00:24:34,240 --> 00:24:37,800 Speaker 1: it just it was just a lot, and so you know, 376 00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:43,280 Speaker 1: to have that other perspective was just very helpful for me. 377 00:24:44,119 --> 00:24:45,960 Speaker 1: And then the last thing I want to touch on 378 00:24:46,440 --> 00:24:52,959 Speaker 1: and I'm definitely gonna cry even more because it's just 379 00:24:53,000 --> 00:24:57,160 Speaker 1: like it was such a surreal experience. But something else 380 00:24:57,200 --> 00:25:00,760 Speaker 1: that I very much encourage. And I was dming my 381 00:25:00,920 --> 00:25:05,760 Speaker 1: friend Chloe Zepp on Instagram and she was open about 382 00:25:05,800 --> 00:25:09,560 Speaker 1: having a miscarriage briefly, so we were dming. We have 383 00:25:09,600 --> 00:25:12,520 Speaker 1: been friends for years because I know her sister Amy, 384 00:25:13,119 --> 00:25:15,800 Speaker 1: and so we were dming and she was saying something 385 00:25:15,840 --> 00:25:19,960 Speaker 1: that really helped her was getting a womb clearing, like 386 00:25:20,040 --> 00:25:23,600 Speaker 1: an energy clearing by like an energy worker. I guess, 387 00:25:23,600 --> 00:25:25,439 Speaker 1: like I think it's called Riki. I don't know if 388 00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:28,800 Speaker 1: it's the same. So I had this girl called Danny 389 00:25:28,880 --> 00:25:32,520 Speaker 1: do it, and oh my god, it was definitely needed 390 00:25:32,560 --> 00:25:36,240 Speaker 1: and also helpful for me. And I'll put Danny's details 391 00:25:36,320 --> 00:25:42,240 Speaker 1: in the show notes. She's obviously Gold Coast based, so 392 00:25:42,320 --> 00:25:45,399 Speaker 1: if you're on the Gold Coast. But anyway, so I 393 00:25:45,560 --> 00:25:48,639 Speaker 1: got a womb c and also, guys, that's not like 394 00:25:48,640 --> 00:25:51,119 Speaker 1: a like a shout out or anything like that like 395 00:25:51,160 --> 00:25:53,679 Speaker 1: obviously paid for her services. She was very good. But 396 00:25:53,800 --> 00:25:55,840 Speaker 1: obviously if you need it, I think it would be 397 00:25:55,920 --> 00:26:02,040 Speaker 1: super helpful where basically she goes in and she just 398 00:26:02,280 --> 00:26:06,879 Speaker 1: clears any stagnant energy in your womb, if the spirit 399 00:26:07,280 --> 00:26:11,600 Speaker 1: you know is still there, and any blocks, and that 400 00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:16,320 Speaker 1: just helps you deal with you know, deal with the 401 00:26:16,359 --> 00:26:18,760 Speaker 1: grief and deal with it so you can move on. 402 00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:24,440 Speaker 1: So I probably got this done probably like four weeks 403 00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:26,919 Speaker 1: after my miscarriage, so it wasn't like straight away. I 404 00:26:27,000 --> 00:26:32,480 Speaker 1: definitely you know, left some time to feel and whatnot. Yeah, 405 00:26:32,520 --> 00:26:36,840 Speaker 1: So she did this like energy womb healing, and since 406 00:26:36,880 --> 00:26:40,280 Speaker 1: I've had that, I've actually had other energy clearings done 407 00:26:40,280 --> 00:26:42,720 Speaker 1: because I just found it so helpful when you are 408 00:26:42,760 --> 00:26:48,040 Speaker 1: feeling stagnant or stop sorry, stuck and like you do 409 00:26:48,160 --> 00:26:51,240 Speaker 1: have a block in your body, getting someone to like 410 00:26:51,320 --> 00:26:53,960 Speaker 1: clear the energy. Yeah, it can be good if you're 411 00:26:53,960 --> 00:26:57,320 Speaker 1: into that sort of thing. So in this womb healing, 412 00:26:57,440 --> 00:27:00,359 Speaker 1: she you know, she did some massive she did some things, 413 00:27:00,359 --> 00:27:04,719 Speaker 1: but something that was really impactful for me is during 414 00:27:04,840 --> 00:27:10,840 Speaker 1: she did this like visulation visualization exercise where I pictured 415 00:27:13,080 --> 00:27:19,440 Speaker 1: I guess like speaking to the soul and also giving 416 00:27:19,640 --> 00:27:25,359 Speaker 1: it permission to go all right, guys, I'm so sorry. 417 00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:31,400 Speaker 1: Let's just power through this because it's yeah. So basically 418 00:27:32,280 --> 00:27:34,719 Speaker 1: I spoke to the little soul and I was just 419 00:27:34,800 --> 00:27:41,520 Speaker 1: like I just was like, it's okay, you can leave, 420 00:27:42,520 --> 00:27:46,320 Speaker 1: Like I don't need you to stay, because I think 421 00:27:46,359 --> 00:27:49,920 Speaker 1: sometimes like you can kind of hold energy there because 422 00:27:50,000 --> 00:27:53,959 Speaker 1: you feel attached to it, and so I almost I 423 00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:57,680 Speaker 1: almost just like gave this little soul permission to leave 424 00:27:58,680 --> 00:28:01,560 Speaker 1: and to like, you know, go off. And I also 425 00:28:01,640 --> 00:28:05,119 Speaker 1: remember saying something like, you know, like come back to 426 00:28:05,200 --> 00:28:10,199 Speaker 1: me when it's the right time. And I felt so 427 00:28:11,200 --> 00:28:13,600 Speaker 1: much better after that because I think, like I said, 428 00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:17,320 Speaker 1: I was just holding onto a lot of guilt around 429 00:28:18,119 --> 00:28:21,399 Speaker 1: not being able to hold the pregnancy and feeling like 430 00:28:21,520 --> 00:28:24,760 Speaker 1: really bad about that. And I think it's like, you know, 431 00:28:24,920 --> 00:28:27,320 Speaker 1: even if you don't believe in like souls or anything else, 432 00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:32,960 Speaker 1: like it was almost it was very freeing. It's almost 433 00:28:33,040 --> 00:28:37,800 Speaker 1: like I was forgiving myself and like kind of letting 434 00:28:37,840 --> 00:28:41,880 Speaker 1: myself be lack. It's okay, you can leave, we can 435 00:28:41,920 --> 00:28:48,080 Speaker 1: move on. You tried your best sort of situation, and yeah, 436 00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:52,880 Speaker 1: so that was super that was really helpful for me, 437 00:28:54,760 --> 00:28:58,600 Speaker 1: and I know I'm like crying and probably upsetting some people, 438 00:28:58,680 --> 00:29:03,680 Speaker 1: but honestly do Like I remember after that feeling so 439 00:29:04,120 --> 00:29:08,440 Speaker 1: at peace, which was huge to me because before that, 440 00:29:08,560 --> 00:29:11,120 Speaker 1: like I just didn't and so that was like a 441 00:29:11,160 --> 00:29:15,080 Speaker 1: really big step for me. That was helpful. And then yeah, 442 00:29:15,240 --> 00:29:19,560 Speaker 1: like even even though I am you know, crying, getting upset, 443 00:29:19,800 --> 00:29:23,440 Speaker 1: I do feel really at peace with what happened. And 444 00:29:23,520 --> 00:29:26,720 Speaker 1: I can now see the bigger picture of you know, 445 00:29:26,800 --> 00:29:29,520 Speaker 1: my saying of life happens for me, not to me, 446 00:29:30,240 --> 00:29:33,640 Speaker 1: And even though it's a really fucking terrible thing, I 447 00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:37,720 Speaker 1: can see and it's also lack nothing had ever happened 448 00:29:37,720 --> 00:29:39,720 Speaker 1: to me like that, Like I've had no one close 449 00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:45,240 Speaker 1: to me pass away or you know, no huge trauma. 450 00:29:45,400 --> 00:29:48,800 Speaker 1: And not that I'm saying we are supposed to have trauma, 451 00:29:48,800 --> 00:29:52,360 Speaker 1: because I do not believe that. But it definitely changed 452 00:29:52,400 --> 00:29:56,000 Speaker 1: me as a person. It definitely made me stronger. I 453 00:29:56,040 --> 00:29:59,960 Speaker 1: definitely could see things a lot more clearly in regards 454 00:30:00,160 --> 00:30:06,640 Speaker 1: to just everything. And yeah, it's like, I don't know, 455 00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:10,480 Speaker 1: like it's a you know, milestone in my life where 456 00:30:10,680 --> 00:30:13,280 Speaker 1: I will always kind of remember. And even though it's 457 00:30:13,320 --> 00:30:16,720 Speaker 1: so painful, I don't like to see it as this 458 00:30:16,960 --> 00:30:20,600 Speaker 1: negative thing. Obviously it's not a fucking positive thing. But 459 00:30:21,760 --> 00:30:24,040 Speaker 1: I don't like to see it as this negative thing 460 00:30:24,160 --> 00:30:27,640 Speaker 1: because yeah, like I said, now, looking back, I can 461 00:30:27,640 --> 00:30:31,400 Speaker 1: see it all happen for a reason, and it very much, Yeah, 462 00:30:31,600 --> 00:30:36,560 Speaker 1: made me stronger and really you know, pulled me and 463 00:30:36,680 --> 00:30:40,040 Speaker 1: him together. We were a lot closer, and I had 464 00:30:40,440 --> 00:30:43,480 Speaker 1: friends like who reached out, who were so supportive, who 465 00:30:43,520 --> 00:30:47,760 Speaker 1: was so there for me, And yeah, anyway, I'm rambling, 466 00:30:48,040 --> 00:30:50,920 Speaker 1: I'm going to finish this episode. I hope that was 467 00:30:51,000 --> 00:30:54,800 Speaker 1: kind of helpful, and I really really hope I did 468 00:30:54,840 --> 00:30:57,959 Speaker 1: not upset anyone. I just really wanted to kind of 469 00:30:58,880 --> 00:31:01,680 Speaker 1: I guess have a close on that because I did 470 00:31:01,720 --> 00:31:03,400 Speaker 1: say I was going to speak about it more and 471 00:31:03,440 --> 00:31:05,520 Speaker 1: then I just couldn't really bring myself to do it 472 00:31:05,640 --> 00:31:10,760 Speaker 1: until now. But yeah, it's six months down the track, 473 00:31:10,960 --> 00:31:16,160 Speaker 1: and I do feel so much more at peace, and yeah, 474 00:31:16,200 --> 00:31:18,479 Speaker 1: like it, like I said, time heals all. And I 475 00:31:18,560 --> 00:31:21,160 Speaker 1: just want to just send so much love and support 476 00:31:21,280 --> 00:31:25,120 Speaker 1: if any anyone is going through something similar or you 477 00:31:25,120 --> 00:31:28,760 Speaker 1: know they know if they are, I know someone who is, 478 00:31:28,840 --> 00:31:31,440 Speaker 1: and if you do know someone who is, like honestly, 479 00:31:31,560 --> 00:31:35,000 Speaker 1: just be there for them, Just be supportive, don't say 480 00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:39,480 Speaker 1: anything fucking stupid uh and you know they will get 481 00:31:39,520 --> 00:31:43,200 Speaker 1: through it. But yeah, thanks for listening, guys, And like 482 00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:46,920 Speaker 1: I said, a big thank you for the huge support 483 00:31:47,640 --> 00:31:51,640 Speaker 1: when I did go through that late last year. My community. 484 00:31:51,680 --> 00:31:54,280 Speaker 1: I say this all the time, but you guys are 485 00:31:54,320 --> 00:31:57,280 Speaker 1: so oh you guys are just so amazing and I 486 00:31:57,280 --> 00:32:00,920 Speaker 1: feel very, very lucky to have you guys. And yeah, 487 00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:04,520 Speaker 1: so I really appreciate it. But enough of that. I'm 488 00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:09,080 Speaker 1: gonna go get things a bit sorted, wipe these eyes, 489 00:32:09,240 --> 00:32:11,239 Speaker 1: and get on my day. And I really hope you 490 00:32:11,240 --> 00:32:14,120 Speaker 1: guys have an amazing day all night. Whatever you're listening. 491 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:18,120 Speaker 1: Thank you for listening for another rn C episode. I 492 00:32:18,200 --> 00:32:21,360 Speaker 1: really appreciate taking the time to be here with me, 493 00:32:21,600 --> 00:32:24,720 Speaker 1: and also for taking the time for yourself. 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