1 00:00:01,240 --> 00:00:04,360 Speaker 1: All right, welcome to episode twenty two of The Bobby 2 00:00:04,400 --> 00:00:07,640 Speaker 1: Cast with Me is my friend and I don't use 3 00:00:07,640 --> 00:00:11,280 Speaker 1: that term loosely. Lauren Lena, Hi, Lauren, Hi, Hey, So 4 00:00:11,360 --> 00:00:13,440 Speaker 1: I was reading you used to work at CCI's Pizza? 5 00:00:13,880 --> 00:00:16,759 Speaker 1: Did the SEC's used to be awesome because you could 6 00:00:16,800 --> 00:00:20,119 Speaker 1: go and get the buffet and play the games. But 7 00:00:20,160 --> 00:00:23,000 Speaker 1: the buffet was like a two nine and you could 8 00:00:23,040 --> 00:00:27,120 Speaker 1: just go crazy. Now, they didn't have the absolute best pizza, 9 00:00:27,160 --> 00:00:28,920 Speaker 1: but that didn't matter because you get to eat so 10 00:00:29,040 --> 00:00:33,040 Speaker 1: much of it. Yes, it was people love CC's, guys. 11 00:00:33,080 --> 00:00:35,559 Speaker 1: You do not understand. I used to going to see 12 00:00:35,680 --> 00:00:37,479 Speaker 1: all the time because I could afford it, Like That's 13 00:00:37,479 --> 00:00:39,080 Speaker 1: why I would go to Cecy's. What did you do 14 00:00:39,120 --> 00:00:42,400 Speaker 1: at Ceci's Pizza? Dropped pizza on the floor every day 15 00:00:42,400 --> 00:00:44,320 Speaker 1: of my life? I was the worst. I don't know 16 00:00:44,360 --> 00:00:46,479 Speaker 1: why they I was just nice to the customers, so 17 00:00:46,520 --> 00:00:48,600 Speaker 1: I think they kept me around because I was friendly. 18 00:00:48,760 --> 00:00:53,480 Speaker 1: Were you a waitress? Sort of? They don't really have waitresses. Um. 19 00:00:53,560 --> 00:00:56,080 Speaker 1: I stuck to the buffet and then when people would 20 00:00:56,080 --> 00:00:59,560 Speaker 1: like make special orders, I would care, I would carry 21 00:00:59,600 --> 00:01:02,560 Speaker 1: them out. I dropped more than I delivered, honestly, how 22 00:01:02,600 --> 00:01:05,720 Speaker 1: long did you work at CC's probably about a year. 23 00:01:06,360 --> 00:01:08,960 Speaker 1: That's a long time. How old were you so, like 24 00:01:09,000 --> 00:01:12,640 Speaker 1: your first paycheck job? Yeah, that's called first page. Jobs 25 00:01:12,640 --> 00:01:15,640 Speaker 1: are awesome. I worked there when I auditioned for American Idol. 26 00:01:16,280 --> 00:01:19,200 Speaker 1: That was my job. So as you were auditioning or 27 00:01:19,240 --> 00:01:23,119 Speaker 1: as you're waiting, or like you work there until American Idol. Yeah, 28 00:01:23,160 --> 00:01:25,840 Speaker 1: well I've never really quit, so I guess I still 29 00:01:25,880 --> 00:01:29,560 Speaker 1: kind of worked there. Never resigned now if I need 30 00:01:29,600 --> 00:01:33,119 Speaker 1: to go back and learning that. We're just talking about 31 00:01:33,120 --> 00:01:36,640 Speaker 1: our spray tans. You you just got here on my 32 00:01:37,040 --> 00:01:39,280 Speaker 1: I have a spray tan lady who comes every week. 33 00:01:40,160 --> 00:01:42,679 Speaker 1: And I'm telling you got upgrade because you go to 34 00:01:43,680 --> 00:01:47,480 Speaker 1: a strip mall plays go away chain, you go to 35 00:01:47,520 --> 00:01:50,360 Speaker 1: it chain. My lady spray the perfectly. She knows like 36 00:01:50,400 --> 00:01:56,040 Speaker 1: my armpits. He it's my contours now if I want them. 37 00:01:56,280 --> 00:01:58,800 Speaker 1: I feel cheating though if I do that, because like 38 00:01:58,840 --> 00:02:00,160 Speaker 1: I go to the gym and I work all and 39 00:02:00,240 --> 00:02:02,600 Speaker 1: I feel like if someone paints abbs on me, why 40 00:02:02,600 --> 00:02:05,760 Speaker 1: should I even work out? I totally just got abbs 41 00:02:05,840 --> 00:02:07,800 Speaker 1: for the first time. Who did it on you? Like 42 00:02:08,320 --> 00:02:10,959 Speaker 1: like I didn't? By doing a lot of working out. 43 00:02:11,160 --> 00:02:13,960 Speaker 1: Oh you mean you literally got a Yeah, I mean 44 00:02:14,000 --> 00:02:17,960 Speaker 1: they're not like I just have the outer line and 45 00:02:18,000 --> 00:02:20,480 Speaker 1: then like the middle line. I don't really the first 46 00:02:20,480 --> 00:02:23,079 Speaker 1: time in a long time, you can see stelling muscles. Yeah, 47 00:02:23,120 --> 00:02:28,280 Speaker 1: that's exciting. I'm so excited because and you're shrinking like 48 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:31,040 Speaker 1: you are ever and again, I actually see Lauren more 49 00:02:31,040 --> 00:02:34,079 Speaker 1: than I see most artists because again Laura and I 50 00:02:34,280 --> 00:02:36,160 Speaker 1: want to Lauren's birthday party last week. I don't go 51 00:02:36,200 --> 00:02:37,600 Speaker 1: to parties, I don't go to people. I don't get 52 00:02:37,600 --> 00:02:39,840 Speaker 1: to artist stuff. But like, Lauren's a friend of mine, 53 00:02:40,160 --> 00:02:44,320 Speaker 1: and so I've watched you shrink over the best four 54 00:02:44,360 --> 00:02:48,960 Speaker 1: months or so. I thinks I'm trying. I'm almost my 55 00:02:49,040 --> 00:02:55,440 Speaker 1: goal away, eleven pounds away. What's your goal away? Say? Oh, 56 00:02:55,520 --> 00:02:58,040 Speaker 1: you can, but if you can't expect me not to 57 00:02:58,120 --> 00:03:00,560 Speaker 1: follow up, it's every bit of a hunt. Your pounds 58 00:03:01,280 --> 00:03:08,680 Speaker 1: so pounds great. I'm not where I want to be yet, 59 00:03:09,240 --> 00:03:12,120 Speaker 1: but I feel way better than I did. For sure. 60 00:03:12,800 --> 00:03:15,760 Speaker 1: I just, um, I had severe I had an eating 61 00:03:15,800 --> 00:03:18,920 Speaker 1: disorder for a really long time, and I had a 62 00:03:19,000 --> 00:03:22,760 Speaker 1: really bad relationship with food and exercise in any of that. 63 00:03:23,120 --> 00:03:27,920 Speaker 1: Um So I got help about three years ago and 64 00:03:27,960 --> 00:03:32,680 Speaker 1: I gained like so much weight. I mean, I was, um, 65 00:03:32,720 --> 00:03:38,440 Speaker 1: I was pounds underweight. I waged. I'll tell you, I'm 66 00:03:38,440 --> 00:03:40,080 Speaker 1: not going to tell you how much I weighed, but 67 00:03:40,120 --> 00:03:42,000 Speaker 1: I'll tell you that I weighed thirty pounds less than 68 00:03:42,000 --> 00:03:43,920 Speaker 1: I do right now when I was my worst, like 69 00:03:44,000 --> 00:03:47,839 Speaker 1: my sickest, and so I just had to completely give 70 00:03:47,960 --> 00:03:51,040 Speaker 1: up that lifestyle of like dieting or whatever and just 71 00:03:51,160 --> 00:03:53,280 Speaker 1: kind of stripped myself of it. So I gained quite 72 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:55,800 Speaker 1: a bit of weight. And then I've I've finally got 73 00:03:55,920 --> 00:03:58,040 Speaker 1: into a place where I'm like, I can do this, 74 00:03:58,080 --> 00:04:00,360 Speaker 1: and I work out like six days a week. I 75 00:04:00,440 --> 00:04:02,880 Speaker 1: let myself have one day off and I just eat 76 00:04:03,000 --> 00:04:06,080 Speaker 1: really clean. Like of the time. I did not have 77 00:04:06,160 --> 00:04:08,480 Speaker 1: any cookie cake. And my birthday party, and you know what, 78 00:04:08,600 --> 00:04:10,240 Speaker 1: here's the thing too, it's your birthday party. I was 79 00:04:10,280 --> 00:04:12,160 Speaker 1: waiting for the first person to cut the cookie cakes 80 00:04:12,160 --> 00:04:14,680 Speaker 1: so I can have a being nobody cut it, and 81 00:04:14,720 --> 00:04:16,360 Speaker 1: then we were there and then how to go it? 82 00:04:16,440 --> 00:04:20,239 Speaker 1: Did it work? And I never got cookie cake because 83 00:04:20,320 --> 00:04:22,360 Speaker 1: nobody cut the cookie cake and I couldn't be the 84 00:04:22,440 --> 00:04:25,240 Speaker 1: first one to get into Lawrence. Cookie cake you should have. 85 00:04:25,720 --> 00:04:28,240 Speaker 1: So I'm gonna say that. So Amy my co host 86 00:04:28,320 --> 00:04:30,600 Speaker 1: on the morning show, and we've talked about this publicly, 87 00:04:30,640 --> 00:04:32,520 Speaker 1: so she wouldn't care me talking about it. Should blieve 88 00:04:32,520 --> 00:04:34,560 Speaker 1: me for a long time, that's what okay. And so 89 00:04:34,760 --> 00:04:38,920 Speaker 1: she would talk about how she actually gained weight while 90 00:04:39,000 --> 00:04:42,039 Speaker 1: she had blimia, which it's all different for every person. 91 00:04:42,320 --> 00:04:44,280 Speaker 1: You know, when you have eating disorder, it's different every person. 92 00:04:44,440 --> 00:04:47,359 Speaker 1: And you know, for her there were emotional reasons that 93 00:04:47,440 --> 00:04:49,760 Speaker 1: she was doing it, and you know, she's spoken about it, 94 00:04:49,800 --> 00:04:52,400 Speaker 1: and it's brave to talk about it eating disorder. But 95 00:04:52,440 --> 00:04:54,440 Speaker 1: it's also something that I've learned that a lot of 96 00:04:54,440 --> 00:04:56,760 Speaker 1: people go through and because people don't talk about it, 97 00:04:56,760 --> 00:04:59,840 Speaker 1: they feel very alone until someone does talk about it. 98 00:05:00,120 --> 00:05:02,200 Speaker 1: Have you felt that since you've talked about it, more 99 00:05:02,200 --> 00:05:04,680 Speaker 1: people have come out and said thank you so much 100 00:05:04,760 --> 00:05:07,080 Speaker 1: for at least shining a light on something that I'm 101 00:05:07,120 --> 00:05:11,320 Speaker 1: going through privately. Yeah, I um, it was really scary 102 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:16,239 Speaker 1: for me to speak out about it, like i'd never, um, 103 00:05:16,279 --> 00:05:18,640 Speaker 1: I never. My dad didn't know when I spoke out 104 00:05:18,640 --> 00:05:20,320 Speaker 1: about it. My dad did not know that I had 105 00:05:20,320 --> 00:05:21,760 Speaker 1: had him eating this. Did you go to him first 106 00:05:21,760 --> 00:05:23,279 Speaker 1: and say, Hey, I'm about to talk about this no, 107 00:05:23,520 --> 00:05:26,680 Speaker 1: I didn't because and I normally would, but I was 108 00:05:26,760 --> 00:05:29,479 Speaker 1: just in this interview and they were talking to me 109 00:05:29,520 --> 00:05:34,800 Speaker 1: about how I how I seemed so confident and how 110 00:05:34,839 --> 00:05:37,320 Speaker 1: they really admire that and what do I do to 111 00:05:37,360 --> 00:05:39,520 Speaker 1: be confident? And I was literally sitting there thinking, oh, 112 00:05:39,560 --> 00:05:42,640 Speaker 1: my lord, if you only knew, like, I'm an extremely 113 00:05:42,640 --> 00:05:46,520 Speaker 1: insecure person about certain things like when I'm on stage 114 00:05:46,600 --> 00:05:49,440 Speaker 1: or in an interview or in my element, I am 115 00:05:49,480 --> 00:05:52,160 Speaker 1: super confident. But if I'm having to try on dresses 116 00:05:52,240 --> 00:05:55,640 Speaker 1: for the c m as, that's like a nightmare for me. Um, 117 00:05:55,680 --> 00:05:57,880 Speaker 1: so I was. I didn't want to say, oh, I'm 118 00:05:57,880 --> 00:06:00,479 Speaker 1: like super confident, and it just came him out. I 119 00:06:00,520 --> 00:06:03,640 Speaker 1: was like, well, I have believe mea for five years, 120 00:06:04,560 --> 00:06:08,240 Speaker 1: and I almost like I was really sick. I got 121 00:06:08,240 --> 00:06:10,839 Speaker 1: really sick, and that's the only reason I got better. Um, 122 00:06:10,880 --> 00:06:15,200 Speaker 1: it's because you said that. And then no, no, no no, no, 123 00:06:15,320 --> 00:06:19,200 Speaker 1: oh no, I would have never for admitted it when 124 00:06:19,200 --> 00:06:22,240 Speaker 1: I was sick. What was the turning point? My hair 125 00:06:22,360 --> 00:06:27,440 Speaker 1: started falling out because you just were so unhealthy and 126 00:06:29,320 --> 00:06:33,640 Speaker 1: I looked sick, and UM, believe me. I mean, you 127 00:06:33,680 --> 00:06:37,440 Speaker 1: know it's not it's throwing up your face. So it's 128 00:06:37,440 --> 00:06:39,800 Speaker 1: not good for a singer, and it really messed up 129 00:06:39,839 --> 00:06:42,680 Speaker 1: my vocal cords. Um, and I went to the I 130 00:06:42,760 --> 00:06:47,159 Speaker 1: was having severe vocal core problems because of lots of reasons. 131 00:06:47,160 --> 00:06:51,080 Speaker 1: I never took voice lessons or learned how to properly 132 00:06:51,080 --> 00:06:53,040 Speaker 1: warm up my voice or how to take care of it. 133 00:06:53,760 --> 00:06:56,320 Speaker 1: And I was throwing up five times a day or 134 00:06:56,320 --> 00:06:58,599 Speaker 1: whatever I was doing. So it was just And I 135 00:06:58,640 --> 00:07:01,560 Speaker 1: was on American idol where seeing twelve hours a day, 136 00:07:01,720 --> 00:07:03,599 Speaker 1: like they just make you saying all day on every 137 00:07:03,600 --> 00:07:05,840 Speaker 1: single So it's just I was young. I didn't I 138 00:07:05,960 --> 00:07:08,200 Speaker 1: wasn't taking care of myself. And it's a muscle, and 139 00:07:08,600 --> 00:07:11,680 Speaker 1: muscles if you don't rest them, if you don't warm 140 00:07:11,760 --> 00:07:14,680 Speaker 1: them up or take care of them, you know, they 141 00:07:14,720 --> 00:07:17,080 Speaker 1: give up. And so I went to the doctor, the 142 00:07:17,160 --> 00:07:22,200 Speaker 1: vocal court doctor, and I had lost um like forty 143 00:07:22,240 --> 00:07:26,520 Speaker 1: five pounds from the time I was on idol. Wow, Um, 144 00:07:26,520 --> 00:07:29,160 Speaker 1: I lost like forty five pounds and about two months 145 00:07:29,400 --> 00:07:35,920 Speaker 1: because of idol. Do you think and the pressures of idol. Uh, 146 00:07:36,160 --> 00:07:38,160 Speaker 1: I hadn't believe me of before I went on idol. 147 00:07:38,440 --> 00:07:40,880 Speaker 1: So it wasn't an idol, but I had only done 148 00:07:40,880 --> 00:07:43,480 Speaker 1: it a couple of times when I would eat really bad. 149 00:07:44,200 --> 00:07:46,360 Speaker 1: I got to the point where I was eating healthy, 150 00:07:46,480 --> 00:07:49,840 Speaker 1: healthy food and throwing it. I was like, really, it 151 00:07:49,920 --> 00:07:52,640 Speaker 1: was sad, and I had management at the time that 152 00:07:52,920 --> 00:07:58,040 Speaker 1: um put pressure on you that I need to feel 153 00:07:58,120 --> 00:08:02,280 Speaker 1: like at that age. But you're a kid, you know. 154 00:08:02,800 --> 00:08:04,120 Speaker 1: I mean, you're a kid and you don't listen to 155 00:08:04,160 --> 00:08:06,600 Speaker 1: any of the Sometimes I still feel like a kid 156 00:08:06,600 --> 00:08:09,080 Speaker 1: and I'm twenty two. You like, it's so weird, Laren. 157 00:08:09,120 --> 00:08:11,560 Speaker 1: Here's the weird thing about you is that I feel 158 00:08:11,600 --> 00:08:13,840 Speaker 1: like you're me, Like I feel like you and I 159 00:08:13,920 --> 00:08:17,280 Speaker 1: can have a conversation because but you're like kids do 160 00:08:17,360 --> 00:08:24,600 Speaker 1: the darnest things. It's like you're we're holding out Holy crown. 161 00:08:25,560 --> 00:08:29,000 Speaker 1: You're so much older than that, and like conversation and 162 00:08:29,040 --> 00:08:31,679 Speaker 1: like person. You are one of the warmest, nicest people. 163 00:08:32,280 --> 00:08:34,080 Speaker 1: And I don't warm up to people quick at all. 164 00:08:34,480 --> 00:08:36,120 Speaker 1: I have that reputation. I don't know if you know, 165 00:08:38,040 --> 00:08:39,840 Speaker 1: but I have the reputation I'm not warming up to 166 00:08:39,880 --> 00:08:43,960 Speaker 1: anybody ever. But you're so warm and so wonderful. Oh, 167 00:08:44,120 --> 00:08:46,840 Speaker 1: You're just like a pillow of bubble gum. I don't 168 00:08:46,840 --> 00:08:49,040 Speaker 1: want to get in like laying the pillow and into 169 00:08:49,120 --> 00:08:53,680 Speaker 1: it all of Yeah, you haven't called a pillow of 170 00:08:53,679 --> 00:08:56,480 Speaker 1: bubble gum. I've never not the first time. I'll never 171 00:08:56,600 --> 00:08:58,800 Speaker 1: forget it. Let me talk about this for a second. 172 00:08:58,800 --> 00:09:01,119 Speaker 1: I've been I go Blue Apron, who's a sponsor of 173 00:09:01,160 --> 00:09:05,480 Speaker 1: our podcast here, and so not all ingredients are created equal, 174 00:09:05,559 --> 00:09:07,839 Speaker 1: and high quality ingredients make the best food. So you 175 00:09:07,840 --> 00:09:09,600 Speaker 1: want to know where your food comes from Blue Apron, 176 00:09:09,840 --> 00:09:12,280 Speaker 1: I've used it forever. Males come right to your door 177 00:09:12,600 --> 00:09:14,480 Speaker 1: and they're in a box and their preportion, and you 178 00:09:14,559 --> 00:09:16,439 Speaker 1: cook went home, and you look like a like a chef, 179 00:09:16,480 --> 00:09:18,040 Speaker 1: and if you don't tell anybody, look like any even 180 00:09:18,040 --> 00:09:21,000 Speaker 1: better chef. And so you cook with incredible ingredients. It 181 00:09:21,000 --> 00:09:24,240 Speaker 1: could be you know, Japanese ramen noodles, all right. Where 182 00:09:24,240 --> 00:09:25,920 Speaker 1: I grew up in Arganist, we say Raymond noodles, and 183 00:09:25,960 --> 00:09:28,120 Speaker 1: I would say that all the time, so do I 184 00:09:28,200 --> 00:09:30,880 Speaker 1: and everybody on the show may fun of me. Listen, 185 00:09:30,880 --> 00:09:36,079 Speaker 1: We're from the South, wrong, right, It's not ramen. I 186 00:09:36,080 --> 00:09:39,600 Speaker 1: mean it's not, it's not. I know. And I said 187 00:09:39,640 --> 00:09:41,319 Speaker 1: that one day and people were like, why are you 188 00:09:41,400 --> 00:09:44,360 Speaker 1: saying Raymond? I went to a lot of accent school, 189 00:09:44,600 --> 00:09:47,280 Speaker 1: like I took speech mythology for three years because I 190 00:09:47,360 --> 00:09:50,880 Speaker 1: knew that for me to work in broadcasting, I would 191 00:09:50,920 --> 00:09:54,000 Speaker 1: never lose all of my accent, but I could lose it. 192 00:09:54,080 --> 00:09:55,880 Speaker 1: I don't feel like you have a super strong act 193 00:09:56,000 --> 00:09:58,280 Speaker 1: because you have a super strong accent. That's what I did. 194 00:09:58,920 --> 00:10:01,200 Speaker 1: So do you sound like me? I sound exactly like 195 00:10:01,240 --> 00:10:03,360 Speaker 1: because my eyes were like this and then there's no geese, 196 00:10:03,480 --> 00:10:07,280 Speaker 1: all hunting, fishing and eating. Yes, I sounded like you. 197 00:10:07,880 --> 00:10:09,320 Speaker 1: So I said Raymond noodles on the yar, and they 198 00:10:09,360 --> 00:10:12,640 Speaker 1: gave me the worst time. Anyway, a lot of variety, flexibility. 199 00:10:12,679 --> 00:10:14,200 Speaker 1: It's easy to make. So you can check out and 200 00:10:14,200 --> 00:10:16,600 Speaker 1: get three free meals. And this is something I've had 201 00:10:16,640 --> 00:10:19,600 Speaker 1: trouble with two saying the word meals because I say meal, 202 00:10:20,520 --> 00:10:24,360 Speaker 1: I say meal like I don't. I don't differentiate any 203 00:10:24,400 --> 00:10:31,640 Speaker 1: of those weird they're the same thing too. And with 204 00:10:31,720 --> 00:10:36,559 Speaker 1: this carcial, it's blue Apron dot com slash Bobby Meals 205 00:10:36,720 --> 00:10:39,160 Speaker 1: and you get your first three smales free Bobby meals 206 00:10:39,160 --> 00:10:41,000 Speaker 1: and people would go Bobby m I l s. That's 207 00:10:41,000 --> 00:10:43,480 Speaker 1: not right. It's not Bobby mills like a sawmill. It's 208 00:10:43,520 --> 00:10:47,319 Speaker 1: Bobby mules. Never help you with you blue Apron dot 209 00:10:47,320 --> 00:10:50,880 Speaker 1: com slash Bobby Mills, and so there is that there, 210 00:10:51,160 --> 00:10:54,040 Speaker 1: and so I want to play your song right now, road. 211 00:10:54,120 --> 00:10:55,680 Speaker 1: Let's travel, not the whole song, but some of it. 212 00:10:55,760 --> 00:11:18,439 Speaker 1: Here here we go. This is so just going back 213 00:11:18,480 --> 00:11:20,720 Speaker 1: to a tweet, and it's actually climbed since you tweeted 214 00:11:20,720 --> 00:11:21,839 Speaker 1: this last thing. Did you know where your song is? 215 00:11:24,840 --> 00:11:27,720 Speaker 1: It's the highest ever write a song. But Lauren tweeted 216 00:11:28,600 --> 00:11:30,880 Speaker 1: she was you were playing a show and everybody had 217 00:11:30,880 --> 00:11:34,239 Speaker 1: their phones up and you were like five felt singles 218 00:11:34,720 --> 00:11:37,840 Speaker 1: and hard work and determination and I've hit the top 219 00:11:37,920 --> 00:11:41,520 Speaker 1: twenty five in country radio. And I was like, holy crap, 220 00:11:41,600 --> 00:11:45,640 Speaker 1: I'm so proud of this tweet, and so I retweeted it, 221 00:11:45,640 --> 00:11:47,480 Speaker 1: but I was like, I still remember, I remember it. 222 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:49,800 Speaker 1: I don't remember tweets. Tweets fly by like a bird 223 00:11:49,840 --> 00:11:52,319 Speaker 1: in the sky. And I was like, I'm so proud 224 00:11:52,480 --> 00:11:55,160 Speaker 1: of you. We spent and I spent a lot of 225 00:11:55,160 --> 00:11:57,080 Speaker 1: time in my life, either here or on the radio 226 00:11:57,080 --> 00:12:01,120 Speaker 1: show or speaking to people and talking about adversity and 227 00:12:01,360 --> 00:12:05,920 Speaker 1: how you fail. It all depends on what you do next. 228 00:12:06,800 --> 00:12:11,800 Speaker 1: And you wrote it in your tweet, five failed singles, 229 00:12:13,040 --> 00:12:15,800 Speaker 1: and you just kept on and now you have a 230 00:12:15,800 --> 00:12:18,160 Speaker 1: song at twenty one and it's still climbing, and it's 231 00:12:18,160 --> 00:12:21,440 Speaker 1: still climbing. I can't believe it. I'm so proud of 232 00:12:21,480 --> 00:12:24,520 Speaker 1: you and proud for you, and so here you are 233 00:12:25,040 --> 00:12:27,920 Speaker 1: speak on it. Thank you. I think if I hadn't 234 00:12:27,960 --> 00:12:30,920 Speaker 1: had the first five fail, I don't know that there 235 00:12:30,960 --> 00:12:33,319 Speaker 1: would have been that sixth one, you know what I mean. 236 00:12:33,360 --> 00:12:38,320 Speaker 1: It's like I um, I feel like until now in 237 00:12:38,440 --> 00:12:42,000 Speaker 1: my career, I've always almost been there, you know, Like 238 00:12:42,320 --> 00:12:45,320 Speaker 1: I got second on Idol, I've been up for a 239 00:12:45,320 --> 00:12:50,440 Speaker 1: few awards. I won one award like on UM one 240 00:12:50,520 --> 00:12:52,760 Speaker 1: of the award shows, but it's not the one. They 241 00:12:52,760 --> 00:12:54,920 Speaker 1: don't have it anymore. So it was just like one 242 00:12:55,000 --> 00:12:56,400 Speaker 1: of that that's not the best of word to win 243 00:12:56,480 --> 00:12:58,320 Speaker 1: on the show that doesn't exist, you know what I mean. 244 00:12:58,440 --> 00:13:02,800 Speaker 1: It's like nice just go from Georgia goes to It 245 00:13:02,920 --> 00:13:06,920 Speaker 1: was the A M, A C. A S or something 246 00:13:07,840 --> 00:13:09,400 Speaker 1: and it was in Vegas. They had it for like 247 00:13:09,440 --> 00:13:16,280 Speaker 1: three or four years Best New Artists UM and I 248 00:13:16,720 --> 00:13:19,880 Speaker 1: I don't know, I just feel like I've almost had 249 00:13:20,000 --> 00:13:22,920 Speaker 1: hits and I've almost this, and I almost had that, 250 00:13:22,960 --> 00:13:27,679 Speaker 1: and it's always been kind of like I feel. I 251 00:13:27,720 --> 00:13:31,360 Speaker 1: feel so encouraged that finally after I would I would 252 00:13:31,360 --> 00:13:35,840 Speaker 1: have done another ten years of ten more failed singles 253 00:13:35,880 --> 00:13:37,760 Speaker 1: like it. There was never there was never going to 254 00:13:37,840 --> 00:13:39,400 Speaker 1: be a point where I was like, Okay, well this 255 00:13:39,520 --> 00:13:44,280 Speaker 1: just isn't gonna work. Um, But I just I'm so excited, 256 00:13:44,480 --> 00:13:48,320 Speaker 1: and I would go through all of that a million 257 00:13:48,320 --> 00:13:51,120 Speaker 1: times to have pictures like that picture and to have 258 00:13:51,280 --> 00:13:53,959 Speaker 1: a room full of lots like that and people singing 259 00:13:54,000 --> 00:13:56,679 Speaker 1: it back to me and not having to teach it, 260 00:13:56,880 --> 00:14:02,439 Speaker 1: like they actually, you're okay, this is how but they 261 00:14:02,520 --> 00:14:05,480 Speaker 1: like sing it already. You know, I do this really 262 00:14:05,520 --> 00:14:08,880 Speaker 1: cool broken down part in the middle. I've road. I 263 00:14:09,000 --> 00:14:10,800 Speaker 1: like how you call your own part cool. She's like, 264 00:14:11,000 --> 00:14:15,720 Speaker 1: it is a baller. It is awesome because that's when 265 00:14:15,760 --> 00:14:17,760 Speaker 1: the lights go up, and that's when we have that 266 00:14:17,840 --> 00:14:21,040 Speaker 1: moment of like, oh my gosh, and it's just gotten 267 00:14:21,080 --> 00:14:25,400 Speaker 1: better and better, even in the smallest venues or the 268 00:14:25,440 --> 00:14:28,680 Speaker 1: biggest It's like people singing the verse to your song, 269 00:14:29,800 --> 00:14:32,000 Speaker 1: not just the chorus is like the best thing ever. 270 00:14:32,320 --> 00:14:37,040 Speaker 1: And I just I'm excited. I've had a crazy few years, 271 00:14:37,120 --> 00:14:40,360 Speaker 1: you know, a lot of personal battles and a lot 272 00:14:40,400 --> 00:14:43,920 Speaker 1: of things that I had to kind of sort out, 273 00:14:43,960 --> 00:14:47,400 Speaker 1: and I feel like everything happens for a reason. It's crazy, 274 00:14:47,480 --> 00:14:50,280 Speaker 1: how I mean, at one point I was like, what 275 00:14:50,480 --> 00:14:53,800 Speaker 1: is I've just I've got it wrong. I'm not It's 276 00:14:53,800 --> 00:14:58,000 Speaker 1: not gonna happen. And I don't accused just because nothing 277 00:14:58,080 --> 00:14:59,920 Speaker 1: was happening in the right way that you would expected 278 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,080 Speaker 1: it too. Were you just completely confused? Yeah? I mean 279 00:15:02,120 --> 00:15:04,760 Speaker 1: I hate to say this, but I don't can really 280 00:15:05,560 --> 00:15:08,440 Speaker 1: be confusing? Well, yeah, because when you were on it, 281 00:15:08,440 --> 00:15:12,119 Speaker 1: it was a huge show. Everybody knew the biggest writings 282 00:15:12,160 --> 00:15:15,880 Speaker 1: ever you were. You came off that super famous, and 283 00:15:15,920 --> 00:15:17,840 Speaker 1: as a kid, when you're super famous, I bet it's 284 00:15:17,840 --> 00:15:20,600 Speaker 1: like the world is right here. Yeah, and you're excited 285 00:15:20,680 --> 00:15:25,960 Speaker 1: and then your singles don't work and then things don't 286 00:15:26,000 --> 00:15:28,520 Speaker 1: happen the way that you think they're going to. But 287 00:15:28,600 --> 00:15:30,200 Speaker 1: it was the best thing that ever happened to me, 288 00:15:30,240 --> 00:15:34,720 Speaker 1: I mean, losing those singles and realizing I'm actually not 289 00:15:35,400 --> 00:15:39,200 Speaker 1: like important. We're all important in our own way, but 290 00:15:39,680 --> 00:15:43,160 Speaker 1: it I was not ready as a sixteen year old girl, 291 00:15:43,480 --> 00:15:46,240 Speaker 1: or for what I have now. Were you ready for 292 00:15:46,280 --> 00:15:49,800 Speaker 1: Idle and what happened to Yeah? I mean I didn't. 293 00:15:49,880 --> 00:15:52,000 Speaker 1: I just try it out for my favorite TV show. 294 00:15:52,360 --> 00:15:54,560 Speaker 1: You know, I love to saying I love to write music. 295 00:15:54,800 --> 00:15:58,520 Speaker 1: It was my favorite show. Where did you audition Nashville? 296 00:15:58,920 --> 00:16:01,400 Speaker 1: So you came? You aren't living in Nashville the time. Now, 297 00:16:01,400 --> 00:16:04,480 Speaker 1: I'm from Rossville, Georgia. It's right outside of like Chattanoogas. 298 00:16:04,520 --> 00:16:06,440 Speaker 1: It's about a two and a half hour drive, So 299 00:16:06,440 --> 00:16:08,120 Speaker 1: you drive to Nashville. Did you do the thing where 300 00:16:08,120 --> 00:16:10,640 Speaker 1: you waited for hours? Because the show was huge, the 301 00:16:10,840 --> 00:16:15,760 Speaker 1: hours and hours and hours we waited. What was your process? 302 00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:19,880 Speaker 1: Because I've been to auditions and you go up with 303 00:16:20,000 --> 00:16:21,920 Speaker 1: other people and you three or four people and you 304 00:16:21,960 --> 00:16:23,520 Speaker 1: sing in front of the table. Is that how it happened? 305 00:16:24,120 --> 00:16:27,240 Speaker 1: So you horrible and and it's an arena full of 306 00:16:27,280 --> 00:16:29,840 Speaker 1: them and you're hearing a thousand people singing because they 307 00:16:29,840 --> 00:16:32,560 Speaker 1: have booths set up, but all that's separating them is 308 00:16:32,600 --> 00:16:36,640 Speaker 1: like this curtain. And oh my gosh, I was certain 309 00:16:36,680 --> 00:16:38,920 Speaker 1: I wasn't going to make it because in Chattanooga they 310 00:16:39,000 --> 00:16:41,240 Speaker 1: have is like Chattanooga Idol, and if you win it, 311 00:16:41,320 --> 00:16:43,200 Speaker 1: you don't have to wait in line. And the guy 312 00:16:43,200 --> 00:16:47,200 Speaker 1: who I got like fourth place and then yeah, like 313 00:16:47,240 --> 00:16:49,240 Speaker 1: the fourth or fifth place I didn't even make it 314 00:16:49,280 --> 00:16:55,160 Speaker 1: in They're like, isn't that fellars Um? But thanks chattauga 315 00:16:55,840 --> 00:16:59,400 Speaker 1: Um the guy who won. I watched him not make it, 316 00:16:59,680 --> 00:17:03,040 Speaker 1: like I watched him not make it, and I was like, 317 00:17:03,920 --> 00:17:07,440 Speaker 1: that's funny. And I was like, didn't motivate you, no 318 00:17:07,680 --> 00:17:10,800 Speaker 1: at all, not a little bit. I was like crying, 319 00:17:10,920 --> 00:17:12,159 Speaker 1: and I was like, I want to go home. I 320 00:17:12,200 --> 00:17:15,520 Speaker 1: was a kid, how old? Yeah. Mom was like, you're not, 321 00:17:15,600 --> 00:17:17,520 Speaker 1: like this is all you've talked about your whole life. 322 00:17:17,520 --> 00:17:19,560 Speaker 1: You at least have to try. You can't. Your mom 323 00:17:19,680 --> 00:17:22,679 Speaker 1: lived you the whole time. That's awesome. Yeah, I mean 324 00:17:22,720 --> 00:17:24,320 Speaker 1: because I was a minor, so she stayed with me, 325 00:17:24,880 --> 00:17:27,239 Speaker 1: she loved you, and because she's the best. Yes, I mean, 326 00:17:27,280 --> 00:17:30,199 Speaker 1: it really is like the best moment ever. So you 327 00:17:30,320 --> 00:17:33,040 Speaker 1: sing in front of them and they say immediately you're 328 00:17:33,040 --> 00:17:36,440 Speaker 1: good or do they go no immediately, And no one 329 00:17:36,480 --> 00:17:38,800 Speaker 1: else in my group made it. They called me forward 330 00:17:38,840 --> 00:17:40,800 Speaker 1: and everybody else kept sin away, and I was like, 331 00:17:42,320 --> 00:17:44,960 Speaker 1: so what happens then? So then they take you back 332 00:17:45,000 --> 00:17:47,480 Speaker 1: in this room and get all kinds of information from you, 333 00:17:47,600 --> 00:17:49,639 Speaker 1: and then you have to go through like three more rounds. 334 00:17:49,680 --> 00:17:55,760 Speaker 1: But they just keep like that day it has been. 335 00:17:55,760 --> 00:17:59,400 Speaker 1: It's it's almost been seven years. I think one more 336 00:17:59,480 --> 00:18:03,920 Speaker 1: round that day and then another day. It's like four 337 00:18:04,000 --> 00:18:06,600 Speaker 1: days total before you actually get in front of the judges. 338 00:18:07,320 --> 00:18:09,520 Speaker 1: Whenever you got in front of I'm assuming it was 339 00:18:09,600 --> 00:18:12,480 Speaker 1: Simon Paul and Randy. No, I was the first year 340 00:18:12,520 --> 00:18:18,439 Speaker 1: after them. Uh it was Randy, Jennifer Lopez, and Steven Tyler. 341 00:18:18,720 --> 00:18:22,080 Speaker 1: Oh wow, are you on the Jennifer Steven Tyler? Why? 342 00:18:22,119 --> 00:18:23,879 Speaker 1: I didn't know that. Okay, so you go up in 343 00:18:23,920 --> 00:18:28,000 Speaker 1: your front of do you even know who Steven Tyler? 344 00:18:28,400 --> 00:18:31,359 Speaker 1: It was who I was most excited about. My dad 345 00:18:31,400 --> 00:18:36,000 Speaker 1: like raised me on all rock music, So that was 346 00:18:36,080 --> 00:18:39,440 Speaker 1: like the I didn't even care about. I mean I did, 347 00:18:39,520 --> 00:18:44,560 Speaker 1: but I was like, and he like, after my audition, 348 00:18:44,600 --> 00:18:46,359 Speaker 1: which I didn't know until I watched it, said that 349 00:18:46,400 --> 00:18:48,240 Speaker 1: I was going to win and I was his favorite 350 00:18:48,280 --> 00:18:51,560 Speaker 1: the whole season, And there was like, no nothing cooler 351 00:18:51,600 --> 00:18:54,320 Speaker 1: than that for me because I loved him so much 352 00:18:54,359 --> 00:18:56,240 Speaker 1: and I got to sing with him in my audition. 353 00:18:56,720 --> 00:18:59,840 Speaker 1: I was dead last. I was the very last contestant 354 00:19:00,080 --> 00:19:03,240 Speaker 1: Nashville to audition, and so I brought my I said, 355 00:19:03,280 --> 00:19:05,320 Speaker 1: since I'm last, can I bring my family? Into me. 356 00:19:06,440 --> 00:19:11,320 Speaker 1: Stephen's basically what I said, yeah, and so I brought 357 00:19:11,359 --> 00:19:15,680 Speaker 1: him in and then my parents song was I don't 358 00:19:15,720 --> 00:19:19,400 Speaker 1: want to miss a thing like their love songs there, yeah, 359 00:19:19,440 --> 00:19:21,440 Speaker 1: and so like I sang it with him in front 360 00:19:21,480 --> 00:19:24,520 Speaker 1: of him. But you probably at that point, just from 361 00:19:24,600 --> 00:19:27,600 Speaker 1: knowing you you had again even as a kid, established 362 00:19:27,600 --> 00:19:30,720 Speaker 1: that confidence in those quick, brief moments and you're like, Okay, 363 00:19:30,840 --> 00:19:34,240 Speaker 1: I'm just gonna be Lauren. Yeah. If I'm on stage, 364 00:19:34,280 --> 00:19:38,240 Speaker 1: you're like in any situation where I'm performing in any way, 365 00:19:38,640 --> 00:19:42,360 Speaker 1: there are no like, I have no problem. It's that's 366 00:19:42,359 --> 00:19:45,040 Speaker 1: a pretty it. Don't take this the wrong way because 367 00:19:45,040 --> 00:19:47,320 Speaker 1: I'm the same way. Like, I'm completely insecure everywhere I go, 368 00:19:47,359 --> 00:19:49,080 Speaker 1: except for when I'm in front of microphone or on 369 00:19:49,160 --> 00:19:52,440 Speaker 1: stage doing stand up comedy or whatever. That's where that's 370 00:19:52,480 --> 00:19:54,840 Speaker 1: the only place I'm comfortable in my own skin. And 371 00:19:54,840 --> 00:19:57,159 Speaker 1: I'm getting better at being human. Like I went to 372 00:19:57,200 --> 00:19:59,600 Speaker 1: your birthday party. I don't like, I don't do social things, 373 00:20:00,080 --> 00:20:02,040 Speaker 1: thank you. I haven't put on a breaking too too, 374 00:20:02,200 --> 00:20:07,960 Speaker 1: by the way, he looked red too too. It was 375 00:20:08,160 --> 00:20:12,520 Speaker 1: Laurence twenty two birthday to birthday, and I went in 376 00:20:12,600 --> 00:20:13,960 Speaker 1: and I was in the elevator with Lauren's dad and 377 00:20:13,960 --> 00:20:15,840 Speaker 1: he was on a camouflage too too, and we were 378 00:20:15,840 --> 00:20:17,440 Speaker 1: going up and I was like, what are those guys 379 00:20:17,440 --> 00:20:19,679 Speaker 1: on a camouflage that he made it? My dad. I 380 00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:23,520 Speaker 1: watched FaceTime make that too too with a hot glue 381 00:20:23,520 --> 00:20:26,919 Speaker 1: gun and like actual like hunting netting. It was like, 382 00:20:27,280 --> 00:20:29,919 Speaker 1: you know how they My dad is super southern. I 383 00:20:29,960 --> 00:20:32,679 Speaker 1: don't know you, right, You don't say Lauren, I mean you. 384 00:20:32,760 --> 00:20:36,639 Speaker 1: I mean it's you. He's like white works in me, 385 00:20:36,800 --> 00:20:39,520 Speaker 1: Like I don't know where he got that camouflage stuff, 386 00:20:39,560 --> 00:20:42,240 Speaker 1: but he was like cutting up this netting, and I 387 00:20:42,280 --> 00:20:46,840 Speaker 1: mean it was unbelievable. I'm super crafty. And I was like, oh, Dad, okay, 388 00:20:46,960 --> 00:20:49,640 Speaker 1: well that's where I got it. So we're going up 389 00:20:49,720 --> 00:20:52,600 Speaker 1: and this, to me was kind of my favorite part 390 00:20:52,640 --> 00:20:54,239 Speaker 1: of your birthday party. Don't you don't care about talk 391 00:20:54,240 --> 00:20:59,199 Speaker 1: about your birthday party? Right? Was that? Lauren? She you 392 00:20:59,240 --> 00:21:01,000 Speaker 1: have something about you that I don't that I don't 393 00:21:01,040 --> 00:21:03,040 Speaker 1: have about me yet. And it's a struggle for me, 394 00:21:03,080 --> 00:21:06,080 Speaker 1: and it's to feel loved. I have a trouble with 395 00:21:06,080 --> 00:21:08,679 Speaker 1: that because I'm very it's very heart beat, vulnerable. But 396 00:21:08,760 --> 00:21:12,200 Speaker 1: you were like I feel so loved right now because 397 00:21:12,240 --> 00:21:16,040 Speaker 1: there was a room full of people grown ups, yeah 398 00:21:16,119 --> 00:21:18,320 Speaker 1: grown not seven year old that little cousins of yours, 399 00:21:19,080 --> 00:21:21,000 Speaker 1: a bunch of grown up that had on two twos 400 00:21:21,680 --> 00:21:25,000 Speaker 1: because we all cared about you and you were like, 401 00:21:25,080 --> 00:21:27,919 Speaker 1: I feel so and I was just was like it 402 00:21:28,040 --> 00:21:31,359 Speaker 1: was really special for me to see you feel that, 403 00:21:31,960 --> 00:21:35,879 Speaker 1: because I was like, that's awesome. I've actually really struggled 404 00:21:35,920 --> 00:21:41,560 Speaker 1: with that too, feeling left, um, my dad's an alcoholic 405 00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:44,360 Speaker 1: and where it was my whole life and and then 406 00:21:44,880 --> 00:21:46,560 Speaker 1: not that I didn't think he loved me, but I 407 00:21:46,560 --> 00:21:50,239 Speaker 1: think if you grow up in a home where there's um, 408 00:21:50,280 --> 00:21:53,280 Speaker 1: where there are problems, which we all do, but it 409 00:21:53,560 --> 00:21:55,600 Speaker 1: affects how you feel as a grown up. And I've 410 00:21:55,720 --> 00:21:58,879 Speaker 1: I've overcome like not feeling good enough and not and 411 00:21:59,000 --> 00:22:01,680 Speaker 1: like I take the blame for everything, like I usually 412 00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:06,160 Speaker 1: blame myself for everything that happens, um, And I think 413 00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:09,199 Speaker 1: that that's something I really worked on and I like 414 00:22:09,320 --> 00:22:13,120 Speaker 1: always especially now that I do this, you know, am 415 00:22:13,160 --> 00:22:15,399 Speaker 1: I I'm a singer and I'm on the road and 416 00:22:15,440 --> 00:22:19,600 Speaker 1: I'm gone. I always feel like life goes on and 417 00:22:19,680 --> 00:22:21,800 Speaker 1: I'm not there and I'm not a part of it, 418 00:22:21,880 --> 00:22:24,160 Speaker 1: so people don't think about me and people don't miss 419 00:22:24,200 --> 00:22:25,639 Speaker 1: me or you know what I mean, because I'm not 420 00:22:25,720 --> 00:22:29,399 Speaker 1: there to know that. And then I've really, I really 421 00:22:29,440 --> 00:22:34,600 Speaker 1: got super I had some serious, like emotional problems a 422 00:22:34,600 --> 00:22:36,919 Speaker 1: few years ago, right around like that turning point with 423 00:22:36,960 --> 00:22:40,440 Speaker 1: my eating disorder and everything, and I finally had to 424 00:22:40,480 --> 00:22:43,320 Speaker 1: be like people do, like people love me. And that 425 00:22:43,440 --> 00:22:45,880 Speaker 1: was a good night for me to have that reminder 426 00:22:45,920 --> 00:22:51,240 Speaker 1: because I don't. I do miss my nephew's birthday party, 427 00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:53,960 Speaker 1: and I do miss Thanksgiving and I miss all of 428 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:56,400 Speaker 1: these things. But that doesn't make my family love me less. 429 00:22:56,400 --> 00:22:58,199 Speaker 1: They know that I'm like not doing that out of 430 00:22:58,920 --> 00:23:01,439 Speaker 1: not wanting to be there. And it was just I 431 00:23:01,440 --> 00:23:02,760 Speaker 1: don't get to see a lot of the people that 432 00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:04,800 Speaker 1: were in that room very often. My dad. I never 433 00:23:04,840 --> 00:23:08,080 Speaker 1: see my dad or my aunt came and people drove 434 00:23:08,119 --> 00:23:09,879 Speaker 1: three and a half hours to wear it too too 435 00:23:09,920 --> 00:23:12,320 Speaker 1: to be at that party, you know. So it just 436 00:23:12,359 --> 00:23:14,439 Speaker 1: made me feel really good. And I don't get to 437 00:23:14,480 --> 00:23:16,639 Speaker 1: be home very often, so it's a super special night 438 00:23:16,720 --> 00:23:19,000 Speaker 1: for me. And we just all like sat in that 439 00:23:19,080 --> 00:23:22,760 Speaker 1: room into days and take pictures and dreamed about eating 440 00:23:22,760 --> 00:23:27,280 Speaker 1: cookie cake that got cut way too late, and I 441 00:23:27,400 --> 00:23:30,480 Speaker 1: was there for almost two hours. Never got cut that sucker, 442 00:23:30,800 --> 00:23:32,960 Speaker 1: and I kept walking over to it, Lauren looking at it, 443 00:23:33,000 --> 00:23:36,080 Speaker 1: like has anyone because you can't start the cake cutting. 444 00:23:36,359 --> 00:23:39,240 Speaker 1: You can't. You just can't your birthday and you know 445 00:23:39,280 --> 00:23:42,760 Speaker 1: what the best part is my boyfriend. So this is 446 00:23:42,800 --> 00:23:45,679 Speaker 1: gonna be so surprising. The people who decorated that party 447 00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:49,199 Speaker 1: were my boyfriend and my father, the two men in 448 00:23:49,240 --> 00:23:52,399 Speaker 1: my life decorated. It did not look right. Men decorated it, 449 00:23:52,440 --> 00:23:54,359 Speaker 1: did it? It was like, no, it didn't. And you 450 00:23:54,480 --> 00:23:57,359 Speaker 1: were yelling the whole night. You'll never guess who decorated 451 00:23:57,440 --> 00:24:01,479 Speaker 1: death Row. I was like, my dad's made it too too. 452 00:24:01,600 --> 00:24:03,800 Speaker 1: What is going on here? Your boyfriend had on the 453 00:24:03,840 --> 00:24:07,879 Speaker 1: Captain America like my dad, and it's like weiner was 454 00:24:07,920 --> 00:24:10,360 Speaker 1: like poking out of it, and I was like, not 455 00:24:10,359 --> 00:24:12,160 Speaker 1: not out of it, fully, but it was like so tight. 456 00:24:12,200 --> 00:24:15,199 Speaker 1: It was like tights, you know, people were something on 457 00:24:15,359 --> 00:24:18,560 Speaker 1: trying to take it. I don't know. I was just like, dude, 458 00:24:18,760 --> 00:24:20,720 Speaker 1: he was like, you know what, I'm just here for 459 00:24:20,760 --> 00:24:22,600 Speaker 1: the for the for the birthday party. Well, here's the 460 00:24:22,600 --> 00:24:24,840 Speaker 1: best part of My dad bought that outfit and said 461 00:24:24,880 --> 00:24:26,560 Speaker 1: he had to wear it, and it was like this 462 00:24:26,800 --> 00:24:30,200 Speaker 1: these little bloomers that women get to try to look 463 00:24:30,240 --> 00:24:35,359 Speaker 1: sexy for Halloween, like a sparking too too, So he 464 00:24:35,480 --> 00:24:38,639 Speaker 1: had glitter falling off of him all night. And he 465 00:24:38,800 --> 00:24:41,680 Speaker 1: only were that because my dad was like, are you 466 00:24:41,760 --> 00:24:44,880 Speaker 1: scared of deathing my dad? And You're like, oh, I'm 467 00:24:44,880 --> 00:24:48,080 Speaker 1: gonna wear this. Oh my dad is scary. Oh, absolutely 468 00:24:48,119 --> 00:24:51,919 Speaker 1: a scary dad. I mean he like prides himself on 469 00:24:52,080 --> 00:24:56,199 Speaker 1: making boyfriend's fear him. Alex has lasted four years, so 470 00:24:56,240 --> 00:24:58,560 Speaker 1: he's obviously not as scared of him. But Alex really 471 00:24:58,600 --> 00:25:00,480 Speaker 1: respects my dad, and my dad wanted him to wear 472 00:25:00,520 --> 00:25:02,919 Speaker 1: that too too, So you saw he was there in 473 00:25:02,960 --> 00:25:06,800 Speaker 1: that tattoo, and it was it was a great night 474 00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:10,720 Speaker 1: for sure. But Alex forgot the candles for the cake. 475 00:25:10,880 --> 00:25:15,440 Speaker 1: For the cake, so they had these like decorative candles, 476 00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:18,400 Speaker 1: battery operated, and I just held one up and pretended 477 00:25:18,440 --> 00:25:21,959 Speaker 1: to boat it out. I wasn't a real candle. That 478 00:25:22,040 --> 00:25:23,960 Speaker 1: was like the part of it. But that's like the 479 00:25:24,640 --> 00:25:28,080 Speaker 1: that's just what it is. It's it's an awesome puzzle 480 00:25:28,160 --> 00:25:31,639 Speaker 1: that happens to somehow fit together. And then it was 481 00:25:32,200 --> 00:25:33,480 Speaker 1: like I had a lot of fun I don't have 482 00:25:33,480 --> 00:25:34,800 Speaker 1: a lot of funny things. I have a lot of 483 00:25:34,800 --> 00:25:38,320 Speaker 1: fun and a little bit I went, you know, I 484 00:25:38,320 --> 00:25:40,880 Speaker 1: went to therapy for a long time. I also come 485 00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:43,480 Speaker 1: from I don't know my real dad. I never knew him. 486 00:25:43,680 --> 00:25:45,400 Speaker 1: He was gone, I was five whatever. My mom died 487 00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:48,240 Speaker 1: of drugs and alcohol um in her forties, and so 488 00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:52,000 Speaker 1: I felt and and have trouble with that too, Like 489 00:25:52,040 --> 00:25:54,280 Speaker 1: I never had a relationship with my parents ever. I 490 00:25:54,400 --> 00:26:00,960 Speaker 1: never had a conversation with my parents, And so I understand, 491 00:26:01,200 --> 00:26:03,040 Speaker 1: and I think that's why it just struck me so 492 00:26:03,080 --> 00:26:07,199 Speaker 1: hard to see you vocally and not like you're just 493 00:26:07,240 --> 00:26:09,200 Speaker 1: someone who feels love all the time. You could tell. 494 00:26:09,280 --> 00:26:11,760 Speaker 1: It was like you're really appreciating the moment. And from 495 00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:14,119 Speaker 1: someone who also struggles with that, I could tell, and 496 00:26:14,160 --> 00:26:15,840 Speaker 1: I was like, this is such a special moment at 497 00:26:15,960 --> 00:26:19,600 Speaker 1: night where I was I'm so happy again. I don't 498 00:26:19,600 --> 00:26:20,960 Speaker 1: know why I get so happy for you. I guess 499 00:26:20,960 --> 00:26:24,119 Speaker 1: because I just genuinely, genuinely enjoy you as as a human. 500 00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:27,480 Speaker 1: Because we've been we've done all I mean, we've done 501 00:26:27,480 --> 00:26:29,520 Speaker 1: a lot of shows. We've done shows, we've written together, 502 00:26:29,680 --> 00:26:33,199 Speaker 1: we've hung out as I'm just happy I'm happy for you. 503 00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:34,919 Speaker 1: I hope you're in a place in your life right now. 504 00:26:35,240 --> 00:26:37,040 Speaker 1: And this is whatever he says to me, and I'm 505 00:26:37,040 --> 00:26:38,840 Speaker 1: said hypocrit for saying this back to you. I hope 506 00:26:38,840 --> 00:26:40,280 Speaker 1: you're in a place right now where you're starting to 507 00:26:40,400 --> 00:26:44,320 Speaker 1: enjoy things. I am trying to let myself. I'm such 508 00:26:44,359 --> 00:26:47,520 Speaker 1: a like a worker, and I get busy, and I 509 00:26:47,560 --> 00:26:49,240 Speaker 1: have goals and I want to meet the goals, and 510 00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:51,639 Speaker 1: I get like so caught up in that it sometimes 511 00:26:52,080 --> 00:26:56,479 Speaker 1: I don't I don't stop to to enjoy it, you know, 512 00:26:56,840 --> 00:26:59,520 Speaker 1: because there's always something else that I'm thinking about that 513 00:26:59,560 --> 00:27:02,359 Speaker 1: I needed doing. And that night I just tried to 514 00:27:02,400 --> 00:27:04,200 Speaker 1: let go of all of that and have a good time. 515 00:27:04,280 --> 00:27:08,440 Speaker 1: And I think that's important because you know, any anything 516 00:27:08,480 --> 00:27:11,480 Speaker 1: you do in life is hard. Any anybody's job is hard. 517 00:27:11,560 --> 00:27:13,879 Speaker 1: No one has like the easiest. Well, some people probably 518 00:27:13,880 --> 00:27:15,920 Speaker 1: have easier jobs that born in the money. We weren't 519 00:27:15,920 --> 00:27:19,800 Speaker 1: that lucky. I worked at the c seas dropping the 520 00:27:19,800 --> 00:27:23,760 Speaker 1: pizza listen. I was hobby lobby bobby for many years. 521 00:27:23,920 --> 00:27:30,840 Speaker 1: So so man, that's cool. So what's the goal? What's 522 00:27:30,840 --> 00:27:32,760 Speaker 1: my Don't say number one yet because I could be 523 00:27:32,800 --> 00:27:35,040 Speaker 1: the big what's the next step? Goal? Because I always 524 00:27:35,040 --> 00:27:37,440 Speaker 1: put goals into what's the matter? Like I was talking 525 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:39,160 Speaker 1: my last podcast, I think I could be the president 526 00:27:39,160 --> 00:27:41,400 Speaker 1: of the United States. Now I do. I swear to God, 527 00:27:41,640 --> 00:27:44,560 Speaker 1: in my mind, I could be the president United States. 528 00:27:44,880 --> 00:27:47,760 Speaker 1: You can laugh all you want, and that's the best part. 529 00:27:48,480 --> 00:27:50,800 Speaker 1: But whenever I do not want that kind of pressure. 530 00:27:51,040 --> 00:27:53,160 Speaker 1: Nothing Whenever I said I want to be the biggest 531 00:27:53,160 --> 00:27:57,879 Speaker 1: syndicated country morning stual in the history of radio, Like, okay, 532 00:27:58,200 --> 00:27:59,760 Speaker 1: if I didn't have that goal in mind, I couldn't 533 00:27:59,760 --> 00:28:02,040 Speaker 1: never to this point. But I think I can be 534 00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:03,960 Speaker 1: the president. I want to know your big goal and 535 00:28:03,960 --> 00:28:06,840 Speaker 1: I want to know your next step. Okay, like with 536 00:28:06,920 --> 00:28:09,679 Speaker 1: the single what what's the next time? I love to 537 00:28:09,720 --> 00:28:11,960 Speaker 1: write down my goals because I think there's something about 538 00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:14,680 Speaker 1: like writing them down and looking at them and thinking 539 00:28:14,760 --> 00:28:18,160 Speaker 1: it's spending time thinking about him. And probably a year 540 00:28:18,160 --> 00:28:21,080 Speaker 1: and a half ago, I wrote down thirty goals and 541 00:28:21,200 --> 00:28:24,280 Speaker 1: I have literally reached pretty much every one of them. 542 00:28:24,320 --> 00:28:29,080 Speaker 1: I wanted to lose twenty pounds, I wanted to start acting. 543 00:28:29,320 --> 00:28:32,640 Speaker 1: I just finished a movie I wanted. The only one 544 00:28:32,680 --> 00:28:35,040 Speaker 1: I have not achieved is I wanted to be the 545 00:28:35,119 --> 00:28:38,440 Speaker 1: youngest member ever. Um of the Grand A lotprey that 546 00:28:38,840 --> 00:28:42,080 Speaker 1: age stuff and who's who's the youngest member. I don't know, 547 00:28:42,160 --> 00:28:43,800 Speaker 1: but it's not going to be me now because they 548 00:28:43,800 --> 00:28:47,120 Speaker 1: were probably somebody from like the sixties. It was a 549 00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:51,719 Speaker 1: long time. Age stuff. You started signing goals with ages. 550 00:28:52,080 --> 00:28:53,640 Speaker 1: That's where you get into trouble because I used to 551 00:28:53,680 --> 00:28:55,480 Speaker 1: do that too, like I'm gonna be the youngest this 552 00:28:55,520 --> 00:28:57,640 Speaker 1: one because I was always the youngest to do everything. 553 00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:00,520 Speaker 1: And then then you start to get normal and you're like, man, 554 00:29:00,560 --> 00:29:03,080 Speaker 1: I shouldn't have signed age to Yeah, I'm gonna stop 555 00:29:03,120 --> 00:29:05,920 Speaker 1: doing that because then i may reach that goal five 556 00:29:05,960 --> 00:29:07,760 Speaker 1: years from now and I'm just gonna be just as 557 00:29:07,800 --> 00:29:12,320 Speaker 1: excited as I would have been at twenty one, you know. Um. 558 00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:13,920 Speaker 1: But yeah, I definitely want to be a member of 559 00:29:13,960 --> 00:29:17,120 Speaker 1: the grandel Opry. I want, I want. I just was 560 00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:19,720 Speaker 1: thinking about it the other day because, like I said, 561 00:29:19,720 --> 00:29:21,440 Speaker 1: I reached a lot of those goals. I just wanted 562 00:29:21,680 --> 00:29:24,480 Speaker 1: a talk. I think thirty hit that's what I wrote 563 00:29:24,480 --> 00:29:29,320 Speaker 1: on that list. Um, I don't really want to put 564 00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:30,760 Speaker 1: a number on where I want them to go on 565 00:29:30,800 --> 00:29:32,840 Speaker 1: the charts, because some of the best songs I've ever heard. 566 00:29:32,960 --> 00:29:37,000 Speaker 1: Weren't number one absolutely just not just an example, Girl 567 00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:40,719 Speaker 1: Crush never hit number one. I covered that song almost 568 00:29:40,760 --> 00:29:42,880 Speaker 1: every show. It's one of my favorite songs ever played 569 00:29:42,880 --> 00:29:45,520 Speaker 1: on country radio. But it wasn't a number one year. 570 00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:48,720 Speaker 1: The general public doesn't They don't know, they don't care. 571 00:29:48,760 --> 00:29:51,760 Speaker 1: I really don't know. My Church wasn't a number one. 572 00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:54,080 Speaker 1: Such a great song, she Don't Love You, Eric Passley, 573 00:29:54,120 --> 00:29:57,440 Speaker 1: wasn't a number may ever again like one of the 574 00:29:57,520 --> 00:30:00,000 Speaker 1: best things ever probably. Eric came in and we talked 575 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:02,640 Speaker 1: talked about that, and Eric said the same chair and said, 576 00:30:03,160 --> 00:30:05,240 Speaker 1: you know, I'm just I just love and it's so 577 00:30:05,360 --> 00:30:08,640 Speaker 1: proud of that song that he should be that in 578 00:30:08,680 --> 00:30:10,560 Speaker 1: the end, he was disappointed at first, but it's like 579 00:30:10,840 --> 00:30:13,160 Speaker 1: I put something that I wrote that I felt so 580 00:30:13,240 --> 00:30:15,360 Speaker 1: strongly about and love it, and now I just love 581 00:30:15,400 --> 00:30:17,880 Speaker 1: it. It It doesn't matter where landed on the shot. Well. 582 00:30:17,920 --> 00:30:22,440 Speaker 1: I think my my goal overall moving forward now would 583 00:30:22,440 --> 00:30:26,040 Speaker 1: be in the next like five years, I want to 584 00:30:26,080 --> 00:30:28,800 Speaker 1: be able to headline my own tour, and that does 585 00:30:28,840 --> 00:30:32,600 Speaker 1: not mean but I'd like to be able to do 586 00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:35,680 Speaker 1: probably theaters by myself, and be able to take an 587 00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:37,920 Speaker 1: opener and be able to afford to take an opener, 588 00:30:38,640 --> 00:30:42,000 Speaker 1: and as a woman, I think that there aren't there 589 00:30:42,040 --> 00:30:45,480 Speaker 1: are a few women able to headline and um that 590 00:30:45,600 --> 00:30:48,160 Speaker 1: a rotate background, and you're you're part of that, but 591 00:30:48,480 --> 00:30:51,120 Speaker 1: I don't, so I'm not the same. It's going to 592 00:30:51,240 --> 00:30:53,560 Speaker 1: rotate background. Well, I think, you know, with people like 593 00:30:53,640 --> 00:30:56,840 Speaker 1: Kelsey and Marin and Camp. I mean there are lots 594 00:30:56,840 --> 00:31:00,280 Speaker 1: of women that are now kind of starting to help 595 00:31:00,560 --> 00:31:02,880 Speaker 1: turn that for all of the rest of the women. 596 00:31:02,920 --> 00:31:05,120 Speaker 1: I think if there are a few of us that 597 00:31:05,160 --> 00:31:07,520 Speaker 1: are really doing well, people will be more up into 598 00:31:07,600 --> 00:31:11,000 Speaker 1: it because people think that at some point, I heard 599 00:31:11,000 --> 00:31:14,600 Speaker 1: someone say that country fans or radio listeners don't want 600 00:31:14,600 --> 00:31:17,440 Speaker 1: to hear women. That is so false. It's not there 601 00:31:17,520 --> 00:31:21,000 Speaker 1: was one listen at that time. No, No, here's the thing. 602 00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:23,840 Speaker 1: At that time, this was what the article was. And 603 00:31:23,840 --> 00:31:28,600 Speaker 1: I've always been a huge but what happened was directly 604 00:31:28,640 --> 00:31:32,240 Speaker 1: from a program director. But yes, that at the time. 605 00:31:32,960 --> 00:31:38,720 Speaker 1: What's happened is is that record labels over the past 606 00:31:38,760 --> 00:31:41,440 Speaker 1: five years, they've seen what people have been buying, and 607 00:31:41,480 --> 00:31:45,800 Speaker 1: so because that everyone's copying the same sound and that 608 00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:48,360 Speaker 1: sound has been successful, they're like, we don't need to 609 00:31:48,360 --> 00:31:51,000 Speaker 1: develop a minor league, and that minor league a lot 610 00:31:51,040 --> 00:31:53,840 Speaker 1: of times female and male and different kinds of So 611 00:31:53,880 --> 00:31:56,760 Speaker 1: they just completely neglected anything but the current, the current 612 00:31:56,800 --> 00:32:00,520 Speaker 1: cold sound, and now that sound is dying and everyone's 613 00:32:00,520 --> 00:32:03,120 Speaker 1: trying to transition out of it, even those that created it. 614 00:32:03,760 --> 00:32:05,760 Speaker 1: And at the time when that was said, even when 615 00:32:05,760 --> 00:32:08,400 Speaker 1: and listen, most program director knock weds, they really are 616 00:32:08,600 --> 00:32:10,520 Speaker 1: you don't, don't don't. You're not in this car. This 617 00:32:10,560 --> 00:32:14,280 Speaker 1: is me talking most programmed directors and knock weds um 618 00:32:14,440 --> 00:32:16,320 Speaker 1: and they still hold on to things that it was 619 00:32:16,320 --> 00:32:20,640 Speaker 1: twenty years ago, it was ten years ago. But everything 620 00:32:20,720 --> 00:32:25,640 Speaker 1: is cyclical in life, everything from close to music to 621 00:32:26,680 --> 00:32:30,240 Speaker 1: movies and what they're about. Everything is always changing, I mean, 622 00:32:30,360 --> 00:32:34,040 Speaker 1: and everyone has their different opinion on why it should 623 00:32:34,200 --> 00:32:36,880 Speaker 1: or should it be changing. That's just the way life goes, 624 00:32:37,080 --> 00:32:40,480 Speaker 1: you know. It's like everything no one. Everyone isn't always 625 00:32:40,520 --> 00:32:42,400 Speaker 1: going to be happy, and everyone is always going to 626 00:32:42,480 --> 00:32:44,160 Speaker 1: think the way you think. So that's the hard thing 627 00:32:44,200 --> 00:32:48,000 Speaker 1: about getting music out there is not everyone likes it, 628 00:32:48,200 --> 00:32:51,040 Speaker 1: you know, and it's your art and they just won't. 629 00:32:51,160 --> 00:32:53,600 Speaker 1: It's just I don't like every song I hear. Ever, 630 00:32:53,800 --> 00:32:58,640 Speaker 1: if you do anything creative, great if you do anything creative, 631 00:32:58,680 --> 00:33:01,280 Speaker 1: that's great, you're gonna have some people that hate it. 632 00:33:01,320 --> 00:33:04,600 Speaker 1: Because to be completely loved, you have the people that 633 00:33:04,680 --> 00:33:07,120 Speaker 1: love you so much. They love you for a reason, 634 00:33:07,120 --> 00:33:08,800 Speaker 1: and that same reason, they're gonna be so many people 635 00:33:08,840 --> 00:33:10,760 Speaker 1: that are like, I just can't stand this, and to 636 00:33:10,880 --> 00:33:13,840 Speaker 1: be great, you've got to accept that a large faction 637 00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:16,080 Speaker 1: of people just do not get what you're doing. They 638 00:33:16,080 --> 00:33:17,720 Speaker 1: don't have to get what you're doing. They do not 639 00:33:17,840 --> 00:33:20,920 Speaker 1: like what I struggle with this me too, so bad. 640 00:33:21,040 --> 00:33:24,480 Speaker 1: I want I loved him like. I'm a people pleaser, 641 00:33:24,680 --> 00:33:27,360 Speaker 1: and I don't like when people when people don't like me, 642 00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:30,440 Speaker 1: I can't handle that. I'm not a people pleaser. I 643 00:33:30,480 --> 00:33:32,520 Speaker 1: can't handle people not liking me. You're the one, and 644 00:33:32,560 --> 00:33:36,040 Speaker 1: you're very likable, and thank you. That's not always the case. 645 00:33:36,160 --> 00:33:38,320 Speaker 1: You think that, but some people don't. It's not like 646 00:33:38,680 --> 00:33:41,280 Speaker 1: it really bothers me. Why they don't. I wonder if 647 00:33:41,320 --> 00:33:44,480 Speaker 1: they think you're an act. I don't know. I feel 648 00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:48,280 Speaker 1: like I'm pretty straightforward. I don't feel like you ever 649 00:33:48,320 --> 00:33:50,320 Speaker 1: have to get what I'm thinking. I agree with you, 650 00:33:50,400 --> 00:33:52,000 Speaker 1: and I tell you. One of the one of the 651 00:33:52,040 --> 00:33:56,920 Speaker 1: moments when we first started to kind of be friendly was. 652 00:33:57,400 --> 00:33:58,800 Speaker 1: I had you come out and do a show with 653 00:33:58,880 --> 00:34:01,000 Speaker 1: us in Hot Springs, Arkansas, and there are about four 654 00:34:01,000 --> 00:34:02,920 Speaker 1: thousand people that came to our show that night, and 655 00:34:02,960 --> 00:34:04,800 Speaker 1: I didn't really know Lauren that well. Lauren came off 656 00:34:04,840 --> 00:34:06,800 Speaker 1: stage and I don't know if you remember saying this 657 00:34:08,160 --> 00:34:11,160 Speaker 1: and no, no, no at the stage. Listen, you were 658 00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:15,120 Speaker 1: so self defer, also putting me down while no no, 659 00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:17,439 Speaker 1: while being complimentary at both of us at the same time. 660 00:34:17,640 --> 00:34:20,240 Speaker 1: But it was the most honest thing that I've ever heard. 661 00:34:20,520 --> 00:34:22,399 Speaker 1: And that's when I knew that, like, you were for real. 662 00:34:23,400 --> 00:34:27,920 Speaker 1: And you came off stage and you were like because 663 00:34:27,960 --> 00:34:30,799 Speaker 1: we and you say, like, it's crazy because we get 664 00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:32,960 Speaker 1: to go to theaters and and sell at theaters as 665 00:34:32,960 --> 00:34:38,320 Speaker 1: a crazy little band, and it's it's amazing. It's amazing. 666 00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:39,960 Speaker 1: You want to talk about me every single day on 667 00:34:40,000 --> 00:34:43,480 Speaker 1: your show, you can. It's love to do that. So 668 00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:45,680 Speaker 1: we go and we played this big show in Arkansas 669 00:34:45,920 --> 00:34:49,759 Speaker 1: and Lauren opens and she comes off and she goes, Hm, 670 00:34:50,560 --> 00:34:53,440 Speaker 1: I'm a really good singer and I can't sell fifty 671 00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:56,000 Speaker 1: people in a bar, but you can sell this. And 672 00:34:56,040 --> 00:34:58,960 Speaker 1: I thought to myself, She's like, this is so honest. 673 00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:03,320 Speaker 1: She's a really good singer, and she's also being self deprecating. 674 00:35:03,360 --> 00:35:06,839 Speaker 1: I'm like, I can't sell a room right now, and you, 675 00:35:07,080 --> 00:35:12,800 Speaker 1: who are not a good singer, you can do this. 676 00:35:13,160 --> 00:35:17,600 Speaker 1: I'm so dumb. I can't believe I loved it. And 677 00:35:17,640 --> 00:35:20,520 Speaker 1: that's when I realized, Okay, she's the real deal because 678 00:35:20,520 --> 00:35:22,560 Speaker 1: she just said exactly what was on her mind and 679 00:35:22,600 --> 00:35:24,680 Speaker 1: in her heart right there, and that's all I care about. 680 00:35:24,960 --> 00:35:27,319 Speaker 1: Like I just in this industry, you just you can't 681 00:35:27,320 --> 00:35:31,000 Speaker 1: trust people until you can trust them. The general feeling is, 682 00:35:31,040 --> 00:35:33,920 Speaker 1: don't trust anybody until you can trust them, and then 683 00:35:33,960 --> 00:35:35,520 Speaker 1: you can, then you have to latch onto those people. 684 00:35:35,640 --> 00:35:37,520 Speaker 1: It's like in life. Don't trust people until you know 685 00:35:37,560 --> 00:35:40,239 Speaker 1: you can trust them. That's why I feel now me 686 00:35:40,320 --> 00:35:42,680 Speaker 1: I have again, I don't want I don't warm up quickly. 687 00:35:43,200 --> 00:35:46,360 Speaker 1: I have very few people over to my house. Um, 688 00:35:46,520 --> 00:35:48,799 Speaker 1: you know, at my old place. Until we started doing this, 689 00:35:49,280 --> 00:35:51,000 Speaker 1: you weren't the only people I would have over because 690 00:35:51,000 --> 00:35:52,520 Speaker 1: you would come what we wrote a song for the 691 00:35:52,560 --> 00:35:55,600 Speaker 1: kids album together, Um you know we come over, we 692 00:35:55,640 --> 00:35:58,480 Speaker 1: do slip and slide. That was fine, Uh, there's no 693 00:35:58,520 --> 00:36:02,000 Speaker 1: slip and slide. But I like your honesty, and I 694 00:36:02,040 --> 00:36:04,200 Speaker 1: hope people hear you and realize it's not act. There 695 00:36:04,200 --> 00:36:05,680 Speaker 1: are some people where it's act. I know it, I 696 00:36:05,719 --> 00:36:07,879 Speaker 1: get it, and I'm fine with it because I don't 697 00:36:07,920 --> 00:36:09,640 Speaker 1: have be friends. Everybody just come on the show and 698 00:36:09,680 --> 00:36:13,000 Speaker 1: do a good job and let's entertain and you're and 699 00:36:13,040 --> 00:36:15,960 Speaker 1: you're a lot too. I think that's why people don't 700 00:36:16,000 --> 00:36:17,840 Speaker 1: like me is because I have such a strong person, 701 00:36:18,080 --> 00:36:23,040 Speaker 1: very strong um and I think I'm very opinionated, and 702 00:36:23,080 --> 00:36:26,680 Speaker 1: if I feel strongly about something, I can sometimes be overbearing, 703 00:36:26,760 --> 00:36:29,839 Speaker 1: probably and people that don't have to save opinion don't 704 00:36:29,920 --> 00:36:32,719 Speaker 1: like that. But I think people but I'm understanding that 705 00:36:32,800 --> 00:36:35,040 Speaker 1: people don't have the same views of me. I just 706 00:36:35,840 --> 00:36:38,720 Speaker 1: I don't know. You put me down in that statement. 707 00:36:38,760 --> 00:36:40,759 Speaker 1: But I enjoyed it because it was so honest. Like 708 00:36:40,800 --> 00:36:43,520 Speaker 1: I like honesty more than I like being coddled. I 709 00:36:43,600 --> 00:36:46,480 Speaker 1: like on even with every way that I work, I like, 710 00:36:46,680 --> 00:36:48,440 Speaker 1: let's get a point A to be the fastest. Do 711 00:36:48,520 --> 00:36:50,719 Speaker 1: not codd on me, do not come in and go, hey, 712 00:36:50,920 --> 00:36:52,719 Speaker 1: you're doing great at this, but let's talk about Like 713 00:36:52,800 --> 00:36:54,359 Speaker 1: if we have something bad to talk about, let's get 714 00:36:54,440 --> 00:36:56,080 Speaker 1: right to it. Because I want to be the best, 715 00:36:56,120 --> 00:36:59,600 Speaker 1: the fastest way. Don't come and use little soft gloves 716 00:36:59,600 --> 00:37:02,120 Speaker 1: on me and work. My bosses know this too. If 717 00:37:02,120 --> 00:37:04,520 Speaker 1: there's a problem, come right to me with the problem 718 00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:06,440 Speaker 1: and let's fix it, because I don't need to be 719 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:09,399 Speaker 1: all you know what. I don't like that either, No, don't. 720 00:37:09,960 --> 00:37:13,680 Speaker 1: You're not the comy get passive. We might not agree, 721 00:37:13,760 --> 00:37:15,440 Speaker 1: but we're going to talk about it. I don't like 722 00:37:15,480 --> 00:37:18,040 Speaker 1: passive aggressive either. I'm not a big fan of that. 723 00:37:18,080 --> 00:37:23,920 Speaker 1: I'm just gonna I'm aggressive aggressive. You're aggressive aggressive, I'm 724 00:37:23,920 --> 00:37:26,080 Speaker 1: gonna tell you right, man. And I just think some 725 00:37:26,080 --> 00:37:27,960 Speaker 1: people don't operate that way. And those are the people 726 00:37:27,960 --> 00:37:30,880 Speaker 1: who were like, oh, she's too much. Did you and 727 00:37:31,040 --> 00:37:33,560 Speaker 1: Scotty McCoury every day while you're on that show? Do 728 00:37:33,600 --> 00:37:35,040 Speaker 1: you know they made that a whole story, like, oh 729 00:37:35,040 --> 00:37:36,680 Speaker 1: my gosh, yes, and they taught us to play along. 730 00:37:36,800 --> 00:37:40,520 Speaker 1: Oh they did, No, I know, listen, I know how 731 00:37:40,520 --> 00:37:43,160 Speaker 1: TV works. I produced TV shows myself. Well, they just 732 00:37:43,160 --> 00:37:46,239 Speaker 1: told us to use it to our absolutely because love 733 00:37:46,320 --> 00:37:48,239 Speaker 1: that we they thought we loved each other, and we 734 00:37:48,320 --> 00:37:51,640 Speaker 1: do well. I mean, we're friends, but there's nothing like 735 00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:56,080 Speaker 1: romance now, I don't know, no, not really, hold on, 736 00:37:56,840 --> 00:38:00,800 Speaker 1: hold on WHOA. Maybe did you guys your kids remember 737 00:38:00,800 --> 00:38:03,000 Speaker 1: your kids and if you're together and around another kid 738 00:38:03,080 --> 00:38:05,719 Speaker 1: who's also has the same interest, you probably have like 739 00:38:05,920 --> 00:38:08,080 Speaker 1: minds and you like each other. Was there a time 740 00:38:08,080 --> 00:38:10,160 Speaker 1: where you guys were kind of like boyfriend girlfriend? We 741 00:38:10,200 --> 00:38:12,799 Speaker 1: were never boyfriend and girlfriend, but I think there was 742 00:38:12,840 --> 00:38:14,800 Speaker 1: like this weird moment where I was kind of thinking, 743 00:38:14,840 --> 00:38:19,200 Speaker 1: should I like him? Kissed him? Oh? I kissed him 744 00:38:19,239 --> 00:38:21,680 Speaker 1: at the finale on the cheek and the angle looked 745 00:38:21,680 --> 00:38:23,840 Speaker 1: like I smacked him right on the lips, and like 746 00:38:23,920 --> 00:38:28,200 Speaker 1: that was this whole story. But um no, I mean 747 00:38:28,239 --> 00:38:30,880 Speaker 1: we spent a lot of time together, but it was 748 00:38:30,920 --> 00:38:34,480 Speaker 1: never romantic. You know, it's like we're just if you 749 00:38:34,520 --> 00:38:37,480 Speaker 1: know him and you know me, were very different human beings, 750 00:38:38,120 --> 00:38:41,759 Speaker 1: like total I think we're total opposites on a one 751 00:38:41,800 --> 00:38:44,400 Speaker 1: to ten scale. How do you guys ever talk now? 752 00:38:44,960 --> 00:38:49,640 Speaker 1: On one to ten scale? Often we talk? Two? Yeah. 753 00:38:49,760 --> 00:38:53,640 Speaker 1: One that picture that I posted I think might have 754 00:38:53,640 --> 00:38:57,040 Speaker 1: been in a Raleigh and he was his friend there 755 00:38:57,360 --> 00:38:58,799 Speaker 1: and he texted me and said HeLa had a lot 756 00:38:58,840 --> 00:39:00,480 Speaker 1: of friends the show and that that it was a 757 00:39:00,480 --> 00:39:03,400 Speaker 1: great shop. So we I mean, we'd communicate in that way, 758 00:39:03,440 --> 00:39:05,680 Speaker 1: but do I call him once a week and see 759 00:39:05,680 --> 00:39:08,600 Speaker 1: how he's doing. Now, I don't, do you call me 760 00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:15,520 Speaker 1: more than him? Yeah, I definitely talked to you more 761 00:39:15,560 --> 00:39:17,760 Speaker 1: than I talked to you. Yeah. I haven't seen Scotty 762 00:39:17,800 --> 00:39:22,040 Speaker 1: in a while either. Yeah, I haven't seen him. I mean, 763 00:39:22,120 --> 00:39:24,439 Speaker 1: and he doesn't does he didn't live here? Does he? 764 00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:26,319 Speaker 1: He does not lives in North Carolina? He lived here 765 00:39:26,360 --> 00:39:27,920 Speaker 1: for a second, Yeah, I think. And you know what 766 00:39:28,000 --> 00:39:30,480 Speaker 1: that hurts an artist who's new and if you're not 767 00:39:30,560 --> 00:39:35,120 Speaker 1: available all the time, it's definitely to your disadvantage. Well, um, 768 00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:38,520 Speaker 1: I think it's different for everyone. I'm obviously not super 769 00:39:38,560 --> 00:39:42,800 Speaker 1: far away from home, which I never go home, But um, 770 00:39:42,840 --> 00:39:46,880 Speaker 1: I moved out of my parents house age, so you 771 00:39:46,960 --> 00:39:49,960 Speaker 1: moved where. I got an apartment in Chatanooga, and then 772 00:39:50,280 --> 00:39:53,080 Speaker 1: after idle, you didn't move stright to Nashville. So I 773 00:39:53,120 --> 00:39:55,960 Speaker 1: did a six month plan where I lived by myself 774 00:39:56,160 --> 00:39:59,520 Speaker 1: fifteen minutes away from my parents while I figured it out, 775 00:39:59,760 --> 00:40:02,880 Speaker 1: and and I moved right when I right after I 776 00:40:02,920 --> 00:40:05,120 Speaker 1: turned eighteen. When you come to Nashville, what do you 777 00:40:05,160 --> 00:40:10,239 Speaker 1: learn immediately? Um? Gosh, I've learned so much. And the 778 00:40:10,480 --> 00:40:12,160 Speaker 1: first thing that you get to Nashville. You probably top 779 00:40:12,160 --> 00:40:13,799 Speaker 1: of the world, like I'm about to dominate. I just 780 00:40:13,840 --> 00:40:17,680 Speaker 1: come off a huge TV show. But Nashville people just 781 00:40:17,760 --> 00:40:20,680 Speaker 1: as they're ten people around you, just as talented as 782 00:40:20,719 --> 00:40:23,000 Speaker 1: you in any room, at any time, at all times. 783 00:40:23,120 --> 00:40:28,120 Speaker 1: It's crazy, right, Yeah, it's like it's really it really 784 00:40:28,160 --> 00:40:30,080 Speaker 1: makes you step it up and figure out what about 785 00:40:30,120 --> 00:40:32,160 Speaker 1: you is different in what how you need to showcase 786 00:40:32,239 --> 00:40:35,279 Speaker 1: that because we're all different. But there they're talent. They're 787 00:40:35,280 --> 00:40:37,920 Speaker 1: just as talented in a different way. It's crazy. You 788 00:40:37,960 --> 00:40:41,440 Speaker 1: can walk down Broadway, which is the street that the 789 00:40:41,520 --> 00:40:43,920 Speaker 1: tourists come to, and there will be people playing bars 790 00:40:44,400 --> 00:40:48,000 Speaker 1: and they sound so good. Yeah, and you're like, what 791 00:40:48,080 --> 00:40:50,160 Speaker 1: the why are you? Why aren't you in a bar? 792 00:40:50,560 --> 00:40:52,160 Speaker 1: But then you go to the next bar and there's 793 00:40:52,200 --> 00:40:55,840 Speaker 1: somebody that sounds so good. It's a very talented town 794 00:40:56,000 --> 00:41:00,719 Speaker 1: from the bottom to talk. I mean, it's there's no 795 00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:05,680 Speaker 1: lack of talent in this town. It's and it's inspiring. Really. 796 00:41:05,760 --> 00:41:08,600 Speaker 1: It for me made me want to get better because 797 00:41:08,600 --> 00:41:11,480 Speaker 1: I was like, oh no, like for a long time, 798 00:41:12,160 --> 00:41:15,960 Speaker 1: as confident as I am in rights and stuff like that, 799 00:41:16,000 --> 00:41:18,680 Speaker 1: I felt really insecure and like I didn't need to 800 00:41:18,680 --> 00:41:21,000 Speaker 1: speak up because I was working with people who had 801 00:41:21,000 --> 00:41:25,040 Speaker 1: written hits after hits and we're super successful, and people 802 00:41:25,080 --> 00:41:27,640 Speaker 1: that I've just dreamed of being as talented as and 803 00:41:27,680 --> 00:41:29,719 Speaker 1: now I'd go into those rooms with those people and 804 00:41:29,760 --> 00:41:33,080 Speaker 1: I understand that if you're if you don't do your thing, 805 00:41:34,080 --> 00:41:37,080 Speaker 1: you have no voice, you know, and and as talent 806 00:41:37,120 --> 00:41:39,440 Speaker 1: as that, you use their talent to help your talent. 807 00:41:39,640 --> 00:41:43,120 Speaker 1: And look at you being all adult and knowing you've 808 00:41:43,120 --> 00:41:44,680 Speaker 1: been to the struggle. It doesn't matter what age you are. 809 00:41:44,719 --> 00:41:46,480 Speaker 1: After you go to the struggle, the struggles where you 810 00:41:46,640 --> 00:41:52,160 Speaker 1: learn gosh, yeah, I mean, yeah, I had I had 811 00:41:52,200 --> 00:41:56,240 Speaker 1: a lot. I wasn't. I've just recently gotten to this point. 812 00:41:56,440 --> 00:41:58,040 Speaker 1: Um in the last probably a year and a half, 813 00:41:58,080 --> 00:42:02,000 Speaker 1: two years. Uh, you do realize, right, I know. I 814 00:42:02,160 --> 00:42:05,000 Speaker 1: forget that a lot. People tell me all the time, 815 00:42:05,560 --> 00:42:08,040 Speaker 1: like I'll be so frustrated about something, or I'll be 816 00:42:08,040 --> 00:42:10,600 Speaker 1: disappointed in myself because I didn't make the rat choice 817 00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:14,240 Speaker 1: or whatever, and they'll say, you remember that you're twenty two. 818 00:42:14,560 --> 00:42:17,759 Speaker 1: And then when people say that, I really don't, Well, 819 00:42:17,800 --> 00:42:19,600 Speaker 1: you've been at it for a long time. I really 820 00:42:19,640 --> 00:42:21,680 Speaker 1: don't think of myself as people my age, Like when 821 00:42:21,719 --> 00:42:24,560 Speaker 1: I talk to people that are my age that I 822 00:42:24,640 --> 00:42:27,760 Speaker 1: meet that I don't realize in my age, I become 823 00:42:27,800 --> 00:42:30,000 Speaker 1: like a mentor or something where I'm like, well, you 824 00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:32,799 Speaker 1: just have to, but not in not in a way 825 00:42:32,800 --> 00:42:35,080 Speaker 1: of me trying to tell someone what to do, just 826 00:42:35,120 --> 00:42:39,239 Speaker 1: in a way of like, yeah, I started years I 827 00:42:39,280 --> 00:42:42,200 Speaker 1: think it danced. I would yeah, I would think that, 828 00:42:42,239 --> 00:42:44,759 Speaker 1: Like I feel like you're older, like I can have it, 829 00:42:44,800 --> 00:42:49,040 Speaker 1: but I'm I can be super amature, absolutely absolutely two 830 00:42:49,080 --> 00:42:50,880 Speaker 1: in a lot of ways. I agree with that in 831 00:42:50,880 --> 00:42:54,280 Speaker 1: a lot of ways. But I mean I have birthday 832 00:42:54,320 --> 00:42:57,920 Speaker 1: parties where everyone has to wear two tis. So just 833 00:42:58,040 --> 00:43:00,000 Speaker 1: answer quickly with this. I want to. I want to 834 00:43:00,000 --> 00:43:03,040 Speaker 1: an immediate answer. Who do you write with where you're like, Wow, 835 00:43:03,040 --> 00:43:08,520 Speaker 1: this person is fantastic Emily wise band because she's my 836 00:43:08,600 --> 00:43:12,399 Speaker 1: age and she's unbelievably talented, And a lot of people 837 00:43:12,440 --> 00:43:14,239 Speaker 1: that I write with that are as talented as her 838 00:43:14,840 --> 00:43:18,520 Speaker 1: are ten years older than her and have been designing 839 00:43:18,520 --> 00:43:22,160 Speaker 1: that craft and perfecting that craft for ten more years 840 00:43:22,160 --> 00:43:24,760 Speaker 1: since she has. And that's been inspiring to me because 841 00:43:24,760 --> 00:43:26,799 Speaker 1: we are the same age. And if I'm looking at 842 00:43:26,800 --> 00:43:30,400 Speaker 1: someone twenty three, if I'm looking at someone that's that age, 843 00:43:30,440 --> 00:43:33,319 Speaker 1: and she's that talented, and she's able to mold to 844 00:43:33,360 --> 00:43:36,120 Speaker 1: whoever or whatever artist she works with or whatever she's 845 00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:38,719 Speaker 1: doing at the time like that, I want to I 846 00:43:38,719 --> 00:43:40,680 Speaker 1: want people to feel that way about me. You know 847 00:43:41,080 --> 00:43:43,359 Speaker 1: what artists do you look at and it go man, 848 00:43:43,640 --> 00:43:49,359 Speaker 1: that's what I want to be. None, Okay, go ahead. Um. 849 00:43:49,400 --> 00:43:51,440 Speaker 1: I mean, I'm inspired by lots of different people, but 850 00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:53,920 Speaker 1: I think we're all unique in our artistry is all different. 851 00:43:54,040 --> 00:43:56,719 Speaker 1: I don't I don't want to limit myself to what 852 00:43:56,800 --> 00:43:59,680 Speaker 1: someone else has done. I want to be like my 853 00:44:00,080 --> 00:44:02,440 Speaker 1: Now that sounds stupid, but there's no wrong answer, and 854 00:44:02,520 --> 00:44:04,560 Speaker 1: nothing sounds I mean, there are a lot of people 855 00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:07,800 Speaker 1: that I look up to, like Dolly Parton. I love 856 00:44:08,320 --> 00:44:12,960 Speaker 1: that she's gotten her hands on everything she can, I mean, 857 00:44:13,080 --> 00:44:16,400 Speaker 1: and and she is a businesswoman, and she's smart, and 858 00:44:16,480 --> 00:44:19,960 Speaker 1: she's a songwriter and she's written songs for other people, 859 00:44:20,480 --> 00:44:24,160 Speaker 1: and she's just done such a beautiful job with her 860 00:44:25,560 --> 00:44:29,160 Speaker 1: artistry and everything around that. And if I could, like 861 00:44:29,480 --> 00:44:32,240 Speaker 1: really look up to someone, I would never own probably 862 00:44:32,280 --> 00:44:35,799 Speaker 1: an amusement park. But I love how she's done other 863 00:44:35,880 --> 00:44:38,960 Speaker 1: things with her gifts and her talents and and the 864 00:44:39,000 --> 00:44:42,160 Speaker 1: opportunities that she's been given, but I don't. There's not 865 00:44:42,280 --> 00:44:46,200 Speaker 1: one artist that I like desire to be just like, 866 00:44:46,560 --> 00:44:49,439 Speaker 1: because I think that we all have different when you start, 867 00:44:49,480 --> 00:44:51,680 Speaker 1: I think when you start wanting to be like someone else, 868 00:44:51,680 --> 00:44:53,160 Speaker 1: like I've spent a long time wanting to be a 869 00:44:53,200 --> 00:44:56,200 Speaker 1: lot like Carrie. She and I are completely different human 870 00:44:56,200 --> 00:44:59,239 Speaker 1: beings and we have completely different ways we do things. 871 00:44:59,320 --> 00:45:02,560 Speaker 1: And while we're both like really powerful singers and we 872 00:45:02,680 --> 00:45:08,480 Speaker 1: sing songs were similar, our styles aren't the same. But 873 00:45:08,800 --> 00:45:11,840 Speaker 1: people think of us as the same just because because 874 00:45:11,880 --> 00:45:14,719 Speaker 1: you're the A plus vocalist. That's the only reason I 875 00:45:14,760 --> 00:45:18,239 Speaker 1: feel bad to say that. I mean, I'm not saying that. 876 00:45:18,280 --> 00:45:21,320 Speaker 1: I'm thank you, but people compare us a lot because 877 00:45:21,320 --> 00:45:23,359 Speaker 1: she's I've been compared to her a lot because she's 878 00:45:23,400 --> 00:45:26,000 Speaker 1: a strong singer, and I used to do that a 879 00:45:26,040 --> 00:45:29,360 Speaker 1: lot to compare myself to her, and it like it 880 00:45:29,440 --> 00:45:31,360 Speaker 1: made me feel like I wasn't good enough, you know. 881 00:45:31,400 --> 00:45:34,439 Speaker 1: It made me feel like I'm never gonna be carry 882 00:45:34,480 --> 00:45:37,279 Speaker 1: Underwood and I'm not. I don't. I'm gonna be Lauren 883 00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:39,400 Speaker 1: Elena and what I do is not gonna be what 884 00:45:39,520 --> 00:45:42,080 Speaker 1: Carrie did and not gonna be what Dolly did, or 885 00:45:42,440 --> 00:45:45,879 Speaker 1: anyone that I adore and love, and I think they've 886 00:45:45,920 --> 00:45:49,080 Speaker 1: done a great job. It just inspires me too. I 887 00:45:49,120 --> 00:45:51,680 Speaker 1: don't want to do exactly what they did. I just 888 00:45:51,760 --> 00:45:54,360 Speaker 1: want to look and see if you work hard and 889 00:45:54,360 --> 00:45:58,600 Speaker 1: you're talented enough, and you believe it, and you try 890 00:45:58,600 --> 00:46:01,440 Speaker 1: as hard as you can and sacrifice what you have 891 00:46:01,480 --> 00:46:03,520 Speaker 1: to sacrifice and still take care of yourself along the way, 892 00:46:03,560 --> 00:46:05,360 Speaker 1: you can have what you want. You just have to 893 00:46:05,400 --> 00:46:08,239 Speaker 1: stick it out. You know who in the industry do 894 00:46:08,320 --> 00:46:12,520 Speaker 1: you go to for advice? Oh, Tricia McClanahan. She's my 895 00:46:12,600 --> 00:46:15,520 Speaker 1: manager and she managed her but for a really long time, 896 00:46:15,680 --> 00:46:22,560 Speaker 1: like twenty years with her husband. She managed. She actually 897 00:46:22,600 --> 00:46:25,640 Speaker 1: managed Kelly Clarkson for a while, and she I mean, 898 00:46:25,760 --> 00:46:28,160 Speaker 1: she's just been a manager for a really long time. 899 00:46:28,560 --> 00:46:31,600 Speaker 1: But she is the most connected human being. I mean 900 00:46:31,800 --> 00:46:35,400 Speaker 1: anywhere we go. We can go to the Kroger on 901 00:46:35,680 --> 00:46:39,080 Speaker 1: Eighth Avenue and Trisia will run into fifteen people in 902 00:46:39,160 --> 00:46:42,239 Speaker 1: town that I know who she is because she cares 903 00:46:42,239 --> 00:46:45,200 Speaker 1: about what she does. She knows how important it is 904 00:46:45,239 --> 00:46:47,879 Speaker 1: to maintain relationships in Nashville and to be a good 905 00:46:47,920 --> 00:46:49,840 Speaker 1: person and to care about what you do and be 906 00:46:49,880 --> 00:46:53,560 Speaker 1: passionate and she took me on when I had nothing 907 00:46:53,600 --> 00:46:56,600 Speaker 1: to offer her. When when Tricia decided to work with 908 00:46:56,600 --> 00:47:00,760 Speaker 1: me we started working together two years ago, people probably 909 00:47:00,800 --> 00:47:03,759 Speaker 1: thought she was dumb. I hadn't had a record out 910 00:47:03,760 --> 00:47:07,319 Speaker 1: in four years, three years, whatever it was. Then I 911 00:47:07,520 --> 00:47:10,879 Speaker 1: just had vocal cord surgery. I could not sing. When 912 00:47:10,880 --> 00:47:13,760 Speaker 1: she started working with me, I was not singing yet. 913 00:47:14,480 --> 00:47:17,720 Speaker 1: But we just clicked and I told her my goals 914 00:47:17,760 --> 00:47:21,719 Speaker 1: and she understood them and has helped me achieve every 915 00:47:21,840 --> 00:47:23,759 Speaker 1: We sat down and made that list together, and she 916 00:47:23,800 --> 00:47:27,319 Speaker 1: has helped me achieve every goal on that list and 917 00:47:27,360 --> 00:47:29,640 Speaker 1: now wants me to make a new list. And so 918 00:47:29,760 --> 00:47:33,200 Speaker 1: she's just that person that has like really she I 919 00:47:33,200 --> 00:47:35,640 Speaker 1: would say, you know, lots of things have changed in 920 00:47:35,680 --> 00:47:38,239 Speaker 1: my career in the past two years that I've started 921 00:47:38,920 --> 00:47:42,680 Speaker 1: helping me to be in this different position that I'm 922 00:47:42,680 --> 00:47:45,319 Speaker 1: working on now, and I think that a lot of 923 00:47:45,320 --> 00:47:47,640 Speaker 1: it has to do with her, Like I owe her 924 00:47:47,800 --> 00:47:51,200 Speaker 1: so much because she on days when I was like, 925 00:47:51,239 --> 00:47:54,560 Speaker 1: I can't do this anymore, this isn't gonna work, she believed, 926 00:47:54,760 --> 00:47:58,320 Speaker 1: And days when I was like I can't, I can't 927 00:47:58,360 --> 00:48:01,920 Speaker 1: do another free show and pay for my rent. I 928 00:48:02,000 --> 00:48:06,000 Speaker 1: can't because people think you're like rich if you if 929 00:48:06,000 --> 00:48:08,200 Speaker 1: you're an American, people think you're rich. You're not rich. 930 00:48:08,320 --> 00:48:11,080 Speaker 1: Did you make money off at all? Very little? Really? 931 00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:13,880 Speaker 1: And I mean yeah, well I made more money than 932 00:48:13,960 --> 00:48:16,279 Speaker 1: I thought. I was mega rich, but I didn't have 933 00:48:16,320 --> 00:48:19,640 Speaker 1: any good spending habits. I grew up super poor. So 934 00:48:19,760 --> 00:48:21,719 Speaker 1: when I first got money, I spent all of it. 935 00:48:21,760 --> 00:48:23,680 Speaker 1: I gave it all away. I gave it. I would 936 00:48:23,680 --> 00:48:26,640 Speaker 1: go to dinner with my family and buy thirty people's dinner. 937 00:48:26,840 --> 00:48:29,200 Speaker 1: I mean, I was just like and then all of 938 00:48:29,239 --> 00:48:33,440 Speaker 1: a sudden have anymore. And I had a manager still 939 00:48:33,520 --> 00:48:37,080 Speaker 1: a lot of money from me. Um, which I I've 940 00:48:37,080 --> 00:48:42,440 Speaker 1: never spoken out about. But how do you find that out? Though? Well? 941 00:48:43,840 --> 00:48:45,640 Speaker 1: When I had vocal coret surgery, I had to clear 942 00:48:45,719 --> 00:48:49,479 Speaker 1: my schedule for six months. And I have never talked 943 00:48:49,520 --> 00:48:55,160 Speaker 1: about this before. Do you want to not? UM? I 944 00:48:55,200 --> 00:48:58,399 Speaker 1: can tell you it's fine. UM, I probably want talk 945 00:48:58,440 --> 00:49:02,120 Speaker 1: in detail. But UM, anyway, I'd scared. I'd cleared my 946 00:49:02,160 --> 00:49:06,759 Speaker 1: schedule and this person had an American Express card in 947 00:49:06,840 --> 00:49:10,080 Speaker 1: my name under my business and would use it to 948 00:49:10,120 --> 00:49:14,040 Speaker 1: book travel or whatever needed to be booked. And I 949 00:49:14,080 --> 00:49:18,080 Speaker 1: got a call about two weeks after surgery, I had 950 00:49:18,120 --> 00:49:20,799 Speaker 1: been in bed, I had not left the house. I 951 00:49:20,840 --> 00:49:23,560 Speaker 1: wasn't able to speak for an entire month. That is 952 00:49:23,640 --> 00:49:25,799 Speaker 1: torture for me. So I was not going to go 953 00:49:25,840 --> 00:49:29,080 Speaker 1: out into the world and try to do that. And 954 00:49:29,440 --> 00:49:32,640 Speaker 1: I got a call from my business manager and said, hey, 955 00:49:32,680 --> 00:49:35,000 Speaker 1: we've had to clear the schedule for six months. I 956 00:49:35,080 --> 00:49:37,319 Speaker 1: just want you to be mindful of that. You don't 957 00:49:37,360 --> 00:49:39,239 Speaker 1: need to be spending a ton of money. We just 958 00:49:39,280 --> 00:49:41,560 Speaker 1: got a statement for this month, and and I was like, 959 00:49:42,480 --> 00:49:47,120 Speaker 1: I haven't spent any money. I've been home and my 960 00:49:47,200 --> 00:49:49,719 Speaker 1: mom was taking care of me and bought everything for 961 00:49:49,800 --> 00:49:53,480 Speaker 1: me at that time. And so I looked into it 962 00:49:53,640 --> 00:49:59,120 Speaker 1: and it was four years worth of charges. And I 963 00:49:59,200 --> 00:50:02,160 Speaker 1: was a kid. You didn't notice it until you were 964 00:50:02,480 --> 00:50:05,760 Speaker 1: a kid. Yeah, I was a sixteen year old girl, 965 00:50:06,360 --> 00:50:08,759 Speaker 1: and so it was like three years of charges. I 966 00:50:08,800 --> 00:50:13,399 Speaker 1: guess because I worked with that person for three years. 967 00:50:13,840 --> 00:50:16,879 Speaker 1: That happens to a lot of kids, kids who come 968 00:50:16,960 --> 00:50:19,520 Speaker 1: from a background where they even their parents don't know 969 00:50:20,040 --> 00:50:21,920 Speaker 1: to watch because I, like, you had no idea what 970 00:50:21,960 --> 00:50:24,879 Speaker 1: to do with money. Yeah, I mean, I have great 971 00:50:24,880 --> 00:50:27,920 Speaker 1: spending habits now, but it's because I've learned it as 972 00:50:27,920 --> 00:50:30,560 Speaker 1: an adult on my own, like, there are two kinds 973 00:50:30,600 --> 00:50:35,440 Speaker 1: of people that and I now am able to have money. 974 00:50:35,719 --> 00:50:39,400 Speaker 1: I've worked hard, and when I first started, I remember 975 00:50:39,560 --> 00:50:42,279 Speaker 1: the first time I was making fifty dollars a year. 976 00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:44,920 Speaker 1: I was like, oh my god, I'm so rich because 977 00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:46,600 Speaker 1: when where I grew up, we were food stamp and 978 00:50:46,600 --> 00:50:48,560 Speaker 1: welfare and lucky to have it. We didn't need three meals. 979 00:50:48,560 --> 00:50:49,719 Speaker 1: We had too. We get to pick with two of 980 00:50:49,760 --> 00:50:52,160 Speaker 1: the three most of the time, so it was you 981 00:50:52,200 --> 00:50:58,279 Speaker 1: pick the I was in the school program, and so 982 00:50:58,320 --> 00:51:01,080 Speaker 1: it was I wanted it, and I still have a 983 00:51:01,080 --> 00:51:03,000 Speaker 1: bit of this in me now, and I shouldn't. I 984 00:51:03,000 --> 00:51:06,839 Speaker 1: felt I felt guilty. So and then you're either really 985 00:51:06,880 --> 00:51:08,520 Speaker 1: generous when you come from that and you get money, 986 00:51:08,600 --> 00:51:11,960 Speaker 1: or you're really stingy because of how you grew up. 987 00:51:12,560 --> 00:51:14,200 Speaker 1: And so I was generous because I was like, man, 988 00:51:14,239 --> 00:51:16,680 Speaker 1: people took care of me. I definitely get on a 989 00:51:16,760 --> 00:51:18,960 Speaker 1: Christmas tree and let everybody just come and pull out. 990 00:51:19,800 --> 00:51:21,719 Speaker 1: I mean, seriously, my mom was like, Lauren, you have 991 00:51:21,880 --> 00:51:23,680 Speaker 1: got to stop giving your money away. I would take 992 00:51:23,680 --> 00:51:26,680 Speaker 1: all of my friends to the movie and just pay 993 00:51:25,400 --> 00:51:28,480 Speaker 1: for because I felt bad that I had money. And 994 00:51:28,520 --> 00:51:31,160 Speaker 1: they didn't. It's a guilt thing. Yeah, it is. And 995 00:51:31,520 --> 00:51:35,160 Speaker 1: whenever I got a business manager, which is someone who 996 00:51:35,200 --> 00:51:37,640 Speaker 1: manages the money, and because I have like five or 997 00:51:37,680 --> 00:51:40,720 Speaker 1: six different businesses from like books and music and touring, 998 00:51:41,200 --> 00:51:43,160 Speaker 1: and she was like, listen, we had to talk because 999 00:51:43,200 --> 00:51:44,960 Speaker 1: I don't know anything about money. Like I don't know 1000 00:51:45,080 --> 00:51:48,400 Speaker 1: anything about money. I just hire great people. And she 1001 00:51:48,480 --> 00:51:50,880 Speaker 1: was like, listen, here's the thing that you do. And 1002 00:51:50,920 --> 00:51:54,160 Speaker 1: she told me, you have to stop overpaying your bills 1003 00:51:54,800 --> 00:51:57,040 Speaker 1: because what scares me is I think any day I'm 1004 00:51:57,040 --> 00:51:59,360 Speaker 1: gonna be fired and lose all my money. And I 1005 00:51:59,400 --> 00:52:01,239 Speaker 1: can over my bills like ten bucks a month. I'll 1006 00:52:01,280 --> 00:52:03,080 Speaker 1: have a buffer for a couple of minds that I 1007 00:52:03,120 --> 00:52:06,120 Speaker 1: can use God for me. It won't be a problem 1008 00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:08,040 Speaker 1: in poor Agan because I know how to do it. Yeah, 1009 00:52:08,480 --> 00:52:12,839 Speaker 1: Like that's what I'm actually good at. Like I'm good 1010 00:52:12,880 --> 00:52:16,359 Speaker 1: at Hamburger helper with no Hamburger. Like I'm I'm good 1011 00:52:16,360 --> 00:52:20,839 Speaker 1: at man with a light spaghetti with catch up. Yeah, 1012 00:52:20,880 --> 00:52:24,759 Speaker 1: I'm good instealing the packets from Burger king to put 1013 00:52:24,760 --> 00:52:29,560 Speaker 1: the spaghetti on the catchup. So I man, it's like 1014 00:52:29,600 --> 00:52:31,719 Speaker 1: I'm talking like a mirror. I'm listening to you, and 1015 00:52:31,719 --> 00:52:33,600 Speaker 1: I'm just like, man, I feel it. And I think 1016 00:52:33,640 --> 00:52:35,440 Speaker 1: that's why whenever we were together and you said that, 1017 00:52:35,480 --> 00:52:37,600 Speaker 1: I was like, man, it was like I just felt 1018 00:52:37,640 --> 00:52:41,680 Speaker 1: all those emotions and understood and not sympathize, because I 1019 00:52:41,680 --> 00:52:44,319 Speaker 1: do not feel sorry for you, but I empathized. I 1020 00:52:44,440 --> 00:52:48,000 Speaker 1: understood even the love thing you should feel serve me. 1021 00:52:48,960 --> 00:52:52,200 Speaker 1: I do for you period, because I think through all 1022 00:52:52,239 --> 00:52:55,279 Speaker 1: of this adversity, it makes you stronger, you know more, 1023 00:52:55,400 --> 00:52:59,480 Speaker 1: and most importantly, you can help other people. That's been 1024 00:52:59,520 --> 00:53:01,680 Speaker 1: the best hard about this new music. It's when I 1025 00:53:01,719 --> 00:53:03,759 Speaker 1: mean my parents, my dad's an alcoholic and you went 1026 00:53:03,800 --> 00:53:06,680 Speaker 1: to rehab, and then my parents got divorced and my 1027 00:53:06,719 --> 00:53:09,280 Speaker 1: mom married a family friend, and like, my dad married 1028 00:53:09,320 --> 00:53:11,480 Speaker 1: someone that's eight years older than me. And it was 1029 00:53:11,520 --> 00:53:14,360 Speaker 1: just like all of these things. At Vocal Court Surgery, 1030 00:53:14,440 --> 00:53:17,840 Speaker 1: my manager stole that's money from me. I was super 1031 00:53:17,840 --> 00:53:20,520 Speaker 1: famous and then I wasn't. I mean, I just had 1032 00:53:20,560 --> 00:53:23,600 Speaker 1: all of these things that made me go, what are 1033 00:53:23,719 --> 00:53:28,680 Speaker 1: you doing with your life? And I wrote gosh, two 1034 00:53:29,000 --> 00:53:33,360 Speaker 1: d songs for this album and really decided what I 1035 00:53:33,360 --> 00:53:35,120 Speaker 1: wanted to say and what parts of my life I 1036 00:53:35,120 --> 00:53:36,879 Speaker 1: wanted to share and what parts I wanted to keep 1037 00:53:36,880 --> 00:53:39,520 Speaker 1: to myself and what I thought could be helpful and 1038 00:53:39,560 --> 00:53:44,480 Speaker 1: what couldn't. And Um, I spoke out about my bolimia 1039 00:53:44,560 --> 00:53:46,879 Speaker 1: and my dad and that was scary too, because that's 1040 00:53:46,880 --> 00:53:48,719 Speaker 1: not my story. It's part of my store, but it's 1041 00:53:48,719 --> 00:53:51,279 Speaker 1: also his. So I'd have like all these conversations with 1042 00:53:51,320 --> 00:53:53,440 Speaker 1: my family and say, as a songwriter, I've got to 1043 00:53:53,440 --> 00:53:55,319 Speaker 1: be honest and can you guys let me do that? 1044 00:53:56,040 --> 00:53:58,360 Speaker 1: And it's been a process, but I have songs about 1045 00:53:59,440 --> 00:54:01,720 Speaker 1: my parents divorced. I have this song called doing Fine 1046 00:54:02,080 --> 00:54:04,840 Speaker 1: that I opened the record with that is super like. 1047 00:54:04,880 --> 00:54:09,319 Speaker 1: The first lines of the song are, um, daddy at 1048 00:54:09,360 --> 00:54:13,160 Speaker 1: sober Mom, I got his best friend. And that's my story. 1049 00:54:13,360 --> 00:54:17,880 Speaker 1: And it's really cool because I do. I do those 1050 00:54:17,920 --> 00:54:21,720 Speaker 1: songs live and I do. I sing road Less Traveled 1051 00:54:21,719 --> 00:54:24,520 Speaker 1: about my eating disorder and about overcoming that and ignoring 1052 00:54:24,560 --> 00:54:26,919 Speaker 1: people who don't get it and ignoring the people who 1053 00:54:26,920 --> 00:54:30,280 Speaker 1: are like, you can't do this, you can't do that. Um, 1054 00:54:30,320 --> 00:54:32,200 Speaker 1: you need to be smaller, you need to be prettier, 1055 00:54:32,280 --> 00:54:33,920 Speaker 1: you need to be smarter, you need to be this, 1056 00:54:34,080 --> 00:54:36,000 Speaker 1: you need to be that. Those people don't matter because 1057 00:54:36,000 --> 00:54:39,399 Speaker 1: they don't already get it. You're already there. And that's 1058 00:54:39,440 --> 00:54:41,920 Speaker 1: been the coolest thing with this new music. And I 1059 00:54:41,960 --> 00:54:44,600 Speaker 1: feel like maybe that's why it's doing better than anything 1060 00:54:45,000 --> 00:54:47,759 Speaker 1: I've ever had, is because I was finally honest. I 1061 00:54:47,840 --> 00:54:50,840 Speaker 1: was finally telling the truth and people. It makes a difference, 1062 00:54:50,880 --> 00:54:54,400 Speaker 1: and it makes me better. It makes me a better person. 1063 00:54:54,760 --> 00:54:57,680 Speaker 1: When I'm singing these things and I'm singing about my problems, 1064 00:54:57,719 --> 00:54:59,759 Speaker 1: it makes me want to fix my problems more. When 1065 00:54:59,760 --> 00:55:02,000 Speaker 1: I realized that other people have these problems and we're 1066 00:55:02,040 --> 00:55:04,600 Speaker 1: all kind of we all have our own thing going on, 1067 00:55:04,760 --> 00:55:07,680 Speaker 1: you know. I learned that too when I shared my problems. 1068 00:55:07,760 --> 00:55:10,160 Speaker 1: I realized I wasn't the only one that had them, 1069 00:55:10,280 --> 00:55:14,520 Speaker 1: because I don't want people to know, because then you're 1070 00:55:14,600 --> 00:55:20,480 Speaker 1: all of a sudden, the weirdo that has the problems, 1071 00:55:20,680 --> 00:55:24,640 Speaker 1: you know, but everyone has problems, everyone like. And that's 1072 00:55:24,640 --> 00:55:28,080 Speaker 1: what doing fun is about. The chorus of that song 1073 00:55:28,160 --> 00:55:32,440 Speaker 1: is super universal, versus are specific, very specific to my story, 1074 00:55:32,480 --> 00:55:35,600 Speaker 1: and I just think that's the truth. I mean, no 1075 00:55:35,680 --> 00:55:39,360 Speaker 1: one's perfect. There's only been one perfect person, so the 1076 00:55:39,400 --> 00:55:41,239 Speaker 1: rest of us aren't going to be that. You know. 1077 00:55:42,640 --> 00:55:46,160 Speaker 1: We paused to talk about sleep number beds. I love sleep. 1078 00:55:46,960 --> 00:55:48,560 Speaker 1: I don't get very much of it. Then you should 1079 00:55:48,560 --> 00:55:51,120 Speaker 1: get a sleep number bed. I have two of them. 1080 00:55:51,600 --> 00:55:53,239 Speaker 1: You've heard me talk about my sleep number bed and 1081 00:55:53,239 --> 00:55:55,600 Speaker 1: how it's changed my life. And my sleep number setting 1082 00:55:55,680 --> 00:55:58,359 Speaker 1: us thirty. My sleep I could score last night was 1083 00:55:58,680 --> 00:56:01,319 Speaker 1: I don't know, eight or something. You check your phone. 1084 00:56:01,640 --> 00:56:03,279 Speaker 1: You're good. I'm gonna do a commercial. Check your phone? 1085 00:56:03,320 --> 00:56:07,319 Speaker 1: So texted? You? Are? You obsessed with your text methages? What? 1086 00:56:07,360 --> 00:56:11,520 Speaker 1: How may do you have? Like five? You're so You're 1087 00:56:11,560 --> 00:56:16,839 Speaker 1: so cool, You're so cool. Listen, my friends that sleep 1088 00:56:16,920 --> 00:56:19,080 Speaker 1: number have created a sleep number pillo. It's a comfort 1089 00:56:19,120 --> 00:56:21,920 Speaker 1: fit pillow. I have two of them. It's the perfect 1090 00:56:21,920 --> 00:56:24,120 Speaker 1: combination of comfort and support. And it stays the same 1091 00:56:24,120 --> 00:56:25,720 Speaker 1: way whenever you go to sleep. You like your pillow 1092 00:56:25,760 --> 00:56:28,640 Speaker 1: a certain way, it stays that way. It is super comfortable. 1093 00:56:28,640 --> 00:56:31,960 Speaker 1: It's a comfort fit pillow. My sleep number setting is thirty, 1094 00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:33,680 Speaker 1: and my IQ score I don't even know. I think 1095 00:56:33,680 --> 00:56:35,839 Speaker 1: it was the Hyades. But listen the comfort fi pillar. 1096 00:56:35,880 --> 00:56:38,560 Speaker 1: You get a sleep number store and get one by 1097 00:56:37,640 --> 00:56:41,160 Speaker 1: one off eight D next bed to find the store 1098 00:56:41,200 --> 00:56:44,560 Speaker 1: nearest to wait a second? What it tells you how 1099 00:56:44,560 --> 00:56:46,800 Speaker 1: well you slept? Oh, this is not part of the commercial. 1100 00:56:46,880 --> 00:56:49,000 Speaker 1: Let me tell you about sleep in bed. First of all, 1101 00:56:49,000 --> 00:56:51,000 Speaker 1: you go into the store, right, and you lay on 1102 00:56:51,040 --> 00:56:54,759 Speaker 1: the bed and I'm like, okay, come on, I I've 1103 00:56:54,840 --> 00:57:02,799 Speaker 1: had decent bed, but come on an hotel on the road. 1104 00:57:07,960 --> 00:57:09,680 Speaker 1: So I go into the store and you lay in 1105 00:57:09,719 --> 00:57:12,120 Speaker 1: this bed and it's a computer screen on top and 1106 00:57:12,120 --> 00:57:14,440 Speaker 1: it shows you your body laying on the bed. I'm like, kay, 1107 00:57:14,560 --> 00:57:16,400 Speaker 1: this is not a lie. And it's a computer screen 1108 00:57:16,400 --> 00:57:17,760 Speaker 1: at the side, depending on the store, and it shows 1109 00:57:17,760 --> 00:57:19,160 Speaker 1: your back in your neck and your head and where 1110 00:57:19,160 --> 00:57:21,439 Speaker 1: it's and they're like, oh, here's why when you lay 1111 00:57:21,880 --> 00:57:24,560 Speaker 1: you're not getting your full support. So they adjust the 1112 00:57:24,600 --> 00:57:26,880 Speaker 1: bed your your sleep number, and I was like, this 1113 00:57:27,040 --> 00:57:28,960 Speaker 1: is crazy. And so I got one of the first 1114 00:57:28,960 --> 00:57:30,640 Speaker 1: one like five years ago, and so I got to 1115 00:57:30,640 --> 00:57:33,080 Speaker 1: sleep number. And then now they have sleep by a que. 1116 00:57:33,120 --> 00:57:34,640 Speaker 1: So it's like you eat at seven pm and you 1117 00:57:34,680 --> 00:57:36,840 Speaker 1: don't sleep as well, You'll see your number and you 1118 00:57:36,840 --> 00:57:38,520 Speaker 1: can kind of figure out like when I eat, like 1119 00:57:38,640 --> 00:57:40,720 Speaker 1: my number is not as good when I work. I'm 1120 00:57:40,760 --> 00:57:44,920 Speaker 1: telling you, expence, it's not that crazy, considering we have 1121 00:57:44,960 --> 00:57:47,160 Speaker 1: computers and know what we're doing, and but you just 1122 00:57:47,160 --> 00:57:49,920 Speaker 1: don't ever think about your bed. But think about your bed. 1123 00:57:49,920 --> 00:57:51,920 Speaker 1: It's where you spend the most time. Like for me, 1124 00:57:52,120 --> 00:57:54,720 Speaker 1: time the most time at work in the bed. Could 1125 00:57:54,720 --> 00:57:56,840 Speaker 1: you sleep? And even if I'm not sleeping, I'm in 1126 00:57:56,880 --> 00:57:58,520 Speaker 1: bed and I have crazy anxiety, So I just lay 1127 00:57:58,520 --> 00:58:00,320 Speaker 1: in bed a lot and just stare at the two too. 1128 00:58:00,800 --> 00:58:05,160 Speaker 1: But like, I'm trying to come off a medication and 1129 00:58:05,160 --> 00:58:07,880 Speaker 1: I'm having with draws a bit, like and I had 1130 00:58:08,120 --> 00:58:09,680 Speaker 1: um I talked to us in the last podcast, Like 1131 00:58:09,720 --> 00:58:11,560 Speaker 1: I was on sleeping pills for a long time. And 1132 00:58:11,600 --> 00:58:13,000 Speaker 1: I've never had a drink of our care done a 1133 00:58:13,040 --> 00:58:15,400 Speaker 1: drug because my mom died of it. So it's my 1134 00:58:15,400 --> 00:58:18,160 Speaker 1: whole life. I just decided never gonna do it. Nothing moral. 1135 00:58:18,440 --> 00:58:20,400 Speaker 1: One day, I'm gonna drink and I'm gonna go crazy. 1136 00:58:20,400 --> 00:58:21,920 Speaker 1: I'm gonna I'm gonna love it. I know it. I'm 1137 00:58:21,920 --> 00:58:23,960 Speaker 1: gonna love it. You're waiting for your moment, but I 1138 00:58:24,000 --> 00:58:27,080 Speaker 1: just haven't. Right now. You know, I can't take it. 1139 00:58:27,160 --> 00:58:30,320 Speaker 1: I can't take it. I don't don't admire it because 1140 00:58:30,440 --> 00:58:33,440 Speaker 1: I it's not an admirable thing. It's I can't control it. 1141 00:58:34,360 --> 00:58:39,680 Speaker 1: I just know that if I start, you would drink 1142 00:58:39,680 --> 00:58:43,600 Speaker 1: one would be the best part is you would have 1143 00:58:43,720 --> 00:58:47,959 Speaker 1: no tolerance anything you ever really clean last style as well, 1144 00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:49,840 Speaker 1: and you work out so like your body would be 1145 00:58:49,880 --> 00:58:52,240 Speaker 1: like what, I go to the dentist and get laughing gas. 1146 00:58:52,280 --> 00:58:53,880 Speaker 1: I have to said the thing for an hour because 1147 00:58:53,880 --> 00:58:55,920 Speaker 1: I can't stay. It doesn't clear out of me. I 1148 00:58:56,000 --> 00:58:58,760 Speaker 1: just sit there. So I get on sleeping pills because 1149 00:58:58,880 --> 00:59:01,040 Speaker 1: my anxiety is crazy. My heartbeats through my neck right, 1150 00:59:01,120 --> 00:59:04,160 Speaker 1: it's like hard and they can't control it. So I 1151 00:59:04,480 --> 00:59:06,720 Speaker 1: got off of them and I just stopped called turkey 1152 00:59:06,720 --> 00:59:09,160 Speaker 1: and I went to convulsions and vomiting for days, and 1153 00:59:09,200 --> 00:59:11,240 Speaker 1: like it was the first time I understood what my 1154 00:59:11,320 --> 00:59:13,560 Speaker 1: mom couldn't get through and she was on harder drugs. 1155 00:59:13,600 --> 00:59:15,040 Speaker 1: I was like, for the first time in my life, 1156 00:59:15,080 --> 00:59:19,960 Speaker 1: I get why she couldn't get off the meth. She 1157 00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:24,360 Speaker 1: couldn't stop being an alcoholic. And so I'm coming off 1158 00:59:24,360 --> 00:59:27,000 Speaker 1: anxiety medicine now and I take it and it's not 1159 00:59:27,240 --> 00:59:29,000 Speaker 1: near what the slap pill was, no near what the 1160 00:59:29,000 --> 00:59:31,479 Speaker 1: hard drugs is, but it's it sucks because I always 1161 00:59:31,520 --> 00:59:34,560 Speaker 1: got like a little headache, my hand shake a little bit. 1162 00:59:34,680 --> 00:59:36,680 Speaker 1: Are you just trying to like remove that from your 1163 00:59:36,720 --> 00:59:39,360 Speaker 1: life where you're going to get trying to try out 1164 00:59:39,400 --> 00:59:41,560 Speaker 1: a new one. I'm trying to remove it right now. 1165 00:59:41,800 --> 00:59:44,040 Speaker 1: And I have no problem with people using I'm not 1166 00:59:44,240 --> 00:59:47,720 Speaker 1: don't use medication, guy, because I tried for me, I 1167 00:59:47,720 --> 00:59:51,080 Speaker 1: tried zoloft, I tried dent deepressants didn't do anything for me. 1168 00:59:51,160 --> 00:59:53,480 Speaker 1: So I just stopped taking like it did nothing to me. 1169 00:59:54,000 --> 00:59:57,280 Speaker 1: So I believe that, you know, we all have issues 1170 00:59:57,320 --> 00:59:59,800 Speaker 1: and we all get fixed in different ways. And for me, 1171 01:00:00,640 --> 01:00:03,040 Speaker 1: I am going to try different methods at this point 1172 01:00:03,160 --> 01:00:05,480 Speaker 1: to try to lose my anxiety. I'm gonna start seeing 1173 01:00:05,480 --> 01:00:10,000 Speaker 1: someone more and finding coping Technique's all tools, lots tools, 1174 01:00:10,720 --> 01:00:12,720 Speaker 1: you know, you find the tools I have. I have 1175 01:00:12,800 --> 01:00:15,280 Speaker 1: been on all kinds of medication, and some of them 1176 01:00:15,280 --> 01:00:18,760 Speaker 1: made me crazier, some of them made me non existent, 1177 01:00:19,120 --> 01:00:21,960 Speaker 1: I mean, and then I finally, I'm finally in a 1178 01:00:22,000 --> 01:00:25,840 Speaker 1: place where I don't have to rely on that anymore. Um, 1179 01:00:25,880 --> 01:00:27,920 Speaker 1: I would get so bills and get so messed up 1180 01:00:27,960 --> 01:00:29,880 Speaker 1: the next day that I wouldn't I would remember the 1181 01:00:29,960 --> 01:00:32,400 Speaker 1: day I would part. You have many time I drop 1182 01:00:32,400 --> 01:00:33,800 Speaker 1: off with the gas thing in my car because I 1183 01:00:33,800 --> 01:00:35,840 Speaker 1: just didn't remember a pump gas and drive off and 1184 01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:37,320 Speaker 1: I was like, this is it. I have to stop. 1185 01:00:38,840 --> 01:00:41,400 Speaker 1: I've never taking sleeping pills, but I've taken like they're awesome. 1186 01:00:44,000 --> 01:00:46,000 Speaker 1: But I'm sure that's what people say about any of 1187 01:00:46,040 --> 01:00:49,200 Speaker 1: that stuff. Like I was just like, I've never done coke, 1188 01:00:49,280 --> 01:00:52,040 Speaker 1: it's awesome. There's I've never like I have another people 1189 01:00:52,040 --> 01:00:54,480 Speaker 1: say it's awesome, and I just know I can't. I 1190 01:00:54,520 --> 01:00:57,960 Speaker 1: know I have actually said I'm not a drug person, 1191 01:00:58,360 --> 01:01:00,200 Speaker 1: just not into it either because of my day add 1192 01:01:00,760 --> 01:01:03,880 Speaker 1: I have had alcohol, but it's it's not my thing. 1193 01:01:03,960 --> 01:01:05,600 Speaker 1: I can't imagine you drunk. I hope it takes you 1194 01:01:05,640 --> 01:01:11,480 Speaker 1: down a bit, not up. Um. It is something I 1195 01:01:11,840 --> 01:01:16,520 Speaker 1: like to cry and it makes me emotional. Um. I 1196 01:01:16,640 --> 01:01:19,600 Speaker 1: just try to limit it because it ruined my dad's life, 1197 01:01:20,000 --> 01:01:22,880 Speaker 1: and a lot of it's genetic because I saw my 1198 01:01:23,120 --> 01:01:27,000 Speaker 1: I went to a family when my dad was in rehab. 1199 01:01:27,680 --> 01:01:30,840 Speaker 1: I went to a family counseling where they all these 1200 01:01:30,880 --> 01:01:34,360 Speaker 1: different families were in this room, and everybody's family member 1201 01:01:34,400 --> 01:01:38,840 Speaker 1: had something else wrong with him, but you know, wrong 1202 01:01:39,000 --> 01:01:42,840 Speaker 1: wrong with them. Had another yea, that's you. That's a 1203 01:01:42,840 --> 01:01:48,920 Speaker 1: good point, had a different substance problem, had a difficulty. Yeah, 1204 01:01:49,600 --> 01:01:54,040 Speaker 1: because just because you're an alcoholic. You're not. My dad's 1205 01:01:54,040 --> 01:01:56,680 Speaker 1: a great person, any less of a person. Yeah, it's 1206 01:01:56,720 --> 01:01:58,800 Speaker 1: just you're a broken person. We're all broken people. We 1207 01:01:58,880 --> 01:02:03,120 Speaker 1: just deal with it differently ways. And I learned so 1208 01:02:03,240 --> 01:02:07,320 Speaker 1: much in that about myself. Like if I m AM 1209 01:02:07,360 --> 01:02:10,000 Speaker 1: really close with you and I talked to you regularly, 1210 01:02:10,080 --> 01:02:13,960 Speaker 1: like every day. Like my boyfriend, for example, if I 1211 01:02:14,000 --> 01:02:16,080 Speaker 1: can't get in touch with him and I know he's 1212 01:02:16,080 --> 01:02:18,560 Speaker 1: supposed to be somewhere where I can get in touch 1213 01:02:18,600 --> 01:02:23,640 Speaker 1: with him, I panic because I think something's wrong with him. Instantly. 1214 01:02:23,680 --> 01:02:26,720 Speaker 1: I think he's hurt or not, that he's doing something 1215 01:02:26,760 --> 01:02:32,000 Speaker 1: he shouldn't be doing that he's not. Okay, I'm not jealous, 1216 01:02:32,320 --> 01:02:36,000 Speaker 1: So you're worried. I'm aware. I mean, like, if he's 1217 01:02:36,080 --> 01:02:39,480 Speaker 1: driving to Chattanooga, he's from Chattanooga as well, he's driving 1218 01:02:39,520 --> 01:02:42,040 Speaker 1: home and I can't talk to him, at some point, 1219 01:02:42,360 --> 01:02:44,840 Speaker 1: I think the worse. And I learned that from my mother, 1220 01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:47,280 Speaker 1: and they told me that in this because if my 1221 01:02:47,360 --> 01:02:49,920 Speaker 1: dad had been out drinking and we hadn't heard from 1222 01:02:49,960 --> 01:02:52,040 Speaker 1: him in a while, we would go looking for him, 1223 01:02:52,160 --> 01:02:53,919 Speaker 1: or you know what I mean. So I like learned 1224 01:02:53,960 --> 01:02:57,160 Speaker 1: these behaviors and I didn't know that I didn't know that. 1225 01:02:57,200 --> 01:03:01,320 Speaker 1: I learned that until this like canceling things. So it's crazy. Yeah, 1226 01:03:01,320 --> 01:03:06,080 Speaker 1: I have had I've really done anxiety medication. I mean 1227 01:03:06,160 --> 01:03:08,760 Speaker 1: don't unless you felt like like I used to have 1228 01:03:09,800 --> 01:03:13,200 Speaker 1: panic attacked to the point where I thought I was dying, 1229 01:03:13,520 --> 01:03:15,160 Speaker 1: Like I thought I was having a Harvard heart attack. 1230 01:03:15,320 --> 01:03:17,640 Speaker 1: It's the scariest thing that when my parents went through 1231 01:03:17,640 --> 01:03:21,800 Speaker 1: the divorce, I had them daily, but I was it 1232 01:03:21,920 --> 01:03:24,560 Speaker 1: was like right after my dad had gone through Reyah, 1233 01:03:24,640 --> 01:03:27,480 Speaker 1: and I was so scared because typically they'll give you 1234 01:03:27,520 --> 01:03:29,800 Speaker 1: like xan X or something along those lines, and you 1235 01:03:29,800 --> 01:03:32,280 Speaker 1: can get addicted to them. So I was like so 1236 01:03:32,440 --> 01:03:35,080 Speaker 1: scared to go get medication. And I finally got through that, 1237 01:03:35,120 --> 01:03:38,040 Speaker 1: but it was a dark, dark time in my life. 1238 01:03:38,080 --> 01:03:42,240 Speaker 1: And I just think, yeah, I get that standpoint of 1239 01:03:42,280 --> 01:03:44,520 Speaker 1: like not wanting to do those things. I want to 1240 01:03:44,520 --> 01:03:48,360 Speaker 1: do them. No, no, no, lauren A, I want to 1241 01:03:48,360 --> 01:03:53,160 Speaker 1: do everything. It's not that fun, like that can't be true. 1242 01:03:53,280 --> 01:03:56,680 Speaker 1: That can't be true. It's fun during it, Like I've 1243 01:03:56,800 --> 01:03:59,840 Speaker 1: I've never really been blackout drunk. People get black out, 1244 01:03:59,840 --> 01:04:01,960 Speaker 1: and that's not been something that's happened to me. I 1245 01:04:01,960 --> 01:04:06,560 Speaker 1: would like that. I think would like that, but I've 1246 01:04:06,720 --> 01:04:11,439 Speaker 1: definitely drank probably more alcohol than I should. Like it's 1247 01:04:11,440 --> 01:04:13,920 Speaker 1: just not drinking it responsible. Who cares. It's like I 1248 01:04:13,920 --> 01:04:15,720 Speaker 1: don't smoke weed, but I have no It should be 1249 01:04:15,800 --> 01:04:17,760 Speaker 1: legal in my mind, Like how can something gross from 1250 01:04:17,760 --> 01:04:21,960 Speaker 1: the earth not be legal? People would cancer symptoms and 1251 01:04:22,000 --> 01:04:24,240 Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you bring that up, this is this 1252 01:04:24,280 --> 01:04:27,160 Speaker 1: is a crazy because first of all, I think I'm 1253 01:04:27,200 --> 01:04:31,560 Speaker 1: the person that can go, person can go, and I've 1254 01:04:31,560 --> 01:04:33,080 Speaker 1: never touched it, but I think it should be legal. 1255 01:04:33,880 --> 01:04:36,000 Speaker 1: Now that being said, I'll give you an example. I'm 1256 01:04:36,000 --> 01:04:37,520 Speaker 1: gonna go back to Amy, who's one of my best friends, 1257 01:04:37,560 --> 01:04:41,160 Speaker 1: and her mom Dotty cancer a couple of years ago 1258 01:04:41,600 --> 01:04:44,640 Speaker 1: maybe and she just celebrating any but maybe it's a year. 1259 01:04:45,240 --> 01:04:50,520 Speaker 1: I don't know. Two years ago sounds right, so um, 1260 01:04:50,560 --> 01:04:53,600 Speaker 1: But what happened was Amy is super to the right, 1261 01:04:53,920 --> 01:04:56,680 Speaker 1: super conservative about everything, and her mom got real sick 1262 01:04:56,720 --> 01:04:59,959 Speaker 1: with cancer, and I mean, we all cared about Judy 1263 01:05:00,000 --> 01:05:03,760 Speaker 1: Amy's mom so much and she was in pain, and 1264 01:05:04,080 --> 01:05:07,320 Speaker 1: they started using medical marijuana and Amy was so against it, 1265 01:05:07,360 --> 01:05:08,560 Speaker 1: and then she was like, for the first time, I 1266 01:05:08,560 --> 01:05:11,600 Speaker 1: get it. She was like, it's the only thing that 1267 01:05:11,720 --> 01:05:15,760 Speaker 1: makes my mom's life tolerable to her the only thing, 1268 01:05:16,800 --> 01:05:19,880 Speaker 1: and Amy went, I'm completely on board now because I 1269 01:05:19,920 --> 01:05:24,160 Speaker 1: see firsthand what this medically can do well medically, I 1270 01:05:24,200 --> 01:05:27,920 Speaker 1: think definitely should be Listen whatever makeup, I don't care, 1271 01:05:27,960 --> 01:05:30,120 Speaker 1: make everything legal. Who knows what's gonna happen with Donald Trump? 1272 01:05:30,120 --> 01:05:35,680 Speaker 1: Who knows down the street by some crack called the Day, 1273 01:05:35,760 --> 01:05:39,680 Speaker 1: I Kid, I I Kid Lauren Lena. Um, So if 1274 01:05:39,720 --> 01:05:44,000 Speaker 1: people want to download your music, they can everywhere. Everywhere. 1275 01:05:44,280 --> 01:05:48,840 Speaker 1: It's all download stores. There's a big L and A 1276 01:05:49,400 --> 01:05:52,080 Speaker 1: and a heart painted on a wall. That's the picture, right. Yeah. 1277 01:05:53,920 --> 01:05:55,880 Speaker 1: I just picked out the artwork for the album, but 1278 01:05:55,960 --> 01:06:00,280 Speaker 1: that's not that's not out yet. But I'm saying that 1279 01:06:00,320 --> 01:06:02,400 Speaker 1: they can't get up now. They can't get that now. 1280 01:06:02,440 --> 01:06:04,240 Speaker 1: What I'm saying, what are you thinking about that? When 1281 01:06:04,240 --> 01:06:06,480 Speaker 1: does that in your mind? What do you think of? 1282 01:06:06,520 --> 01:06:10,240 Speaker 1: The album comes out like a time in the monst 1283 01:06:10,280 --> 01:06:13,600 Speaker 1: three months of the year, the first quarter. Yeah, that's cool. 1284 01:06:13,920 --> 01:06:16,480 Speaker 1: So you have an album. Um, they can get your 1285 01:06:16,480 --> 01:06:18,919 Speaker 1: stuff now. And road Less traveled as a single, that's 1286 01:06:19,000 --> 01:06:21,640 Speaker 1: by the way, twenty one. What was your highest song 1287 01:06:21,720 --> 01:06:27,160 Speaker 1: before this one? Do you know? Yeah? Ro ro Let's travel. 1288 01:06:27,280 --> 01:06:40,200 Speaker 1: Here's a little Georgia peaches for you. Here's the song. 1289 01:06:40,280 --> 01:06:43,000 Speaker 1: It was also my nickname in college. Eighteen inches. Here 1290 01:06:43,040 --> 01:06:55,200 Speaker 1: you go. What's it right? That's such a good song. Yeah, 1291 01:06:55,240 --> 01:07:00,120 Speaker 1: I love that song. We were in Oh Preston, I'm 1292 01:07:00,160 --> 01:07:01,760 Speaker 1: loksh were playing some of their older stuff and it 1293 01:07:01,800 --> 01:07:03,480 Speaker 1: was like, God, the song is so good and I 1294 01:07:03,600 --> 01:07:05,760 Speaker 1: was like, and it's you know, there are great songs 1295 01:07:05,840 --> 01:07:09,080 Speaker 1: that sometimes the time just isn't right and if it 1296 01:07:09,160 --> 01:07:11,520 Speaker 1: were to come out at a different time, it would 1297 01:07:11,520 --> 01:07:14,480 Speaker 1: be a complete I Next Boyfriend was a great song 1298 01:07:14,920 --> 01:07:20,000 Speaker 1: and like out streamed out. I mean it was like 1299 01:07:20,600 --> 01:07:23,160 Speaker 1: anything I'd ever done. Here's the thing about streaming, though, 1300 01:07:23,240 --> 01:07:25,880 Speaker 1: if that's pretty political with playlists, they put them on playlists. 1301 01:07:25,880 --> 01:07:28,800 Speaker 1: Everything's political, radio political, streaming political. Well, you can go 1302 01:07:28,880 --> 01:07:31,760 Speaker 1: in and look at how you get the numbers there. 1303 01:07:31,920 --> 01:07:33,920 Speaker 1: That's true. That's a good thing is from an artist, 1304 01:07:34,000 --> 01:07:37,520 Speaker 1: like as an artist on Spotify, are these different places 1305 01:07:37,560 --> 01:07:39,120 Speaker 1: I can go in and see which ones are kind 1306 01:07:39,160 --> 01:07:42,240 Speaker 1: of manufactured and which ones are legitimate and where their legitimate. 1307 01:07:42,520 --> 01:07:46,080 Speaker 1: So that does help. But it outperformed most of my stuff. 1308 01:07:46,440 --> 01:07:49,480 Speaker 1: Ever Where did that one? Did that one chart? It 1309 01:07:49,600 --> 01:07:53,320 Speaker 1: went to like, no, it did chart, but it went 1310 01:07:53,360 --> 01:07:55,600 Speaker 1: to like forty eight or something. Yeah, you know, I 1311 01:07:55,720 --> 01:07:58,560 Speaker 1: just think it was the wrong time. It's the wrong time. 1312 01:07:59,160 --> 01:08:02,000 Speaker 1: Now is the right time. Like I'll take it. Listen, 1313 01:08:02,080 --> 01:08:03,480 Speaker 1: look how you go. I do say all the time. 1314 01:08:03,480 --> 01:08:05,000 Speaker 1: You one of the best vocalists in town. And this 1315 01:08:05,160 --> 01:08:09,040 Speaker 1: is a town with freaking fantastic singers. And I get 1316 01:08:09,040 --> 01:08:10,440 Speaker 1: to be around all of them. I get to be 1317 01:08:10,520 --> 01:08:12,760 Speaker 1: around you guys. And now you know, there's Carrie Who've 1318 01:08:12,800 --> 01:08:14,520 Speaker 1: got to sing with before on stage, which are crazy. 1319 01:08:14,560 --> 01:08:20,280 Speaker 1: She's like alien what she sings. There's Chris Stapleton who 1320 01:08:20,439 --> 01:08:22,320 Speaker 1: sits sit beside me and say, and you're just like, 1321 01:08:22,439 --> 01:08:26,400 Speaker 1: what the You're in that category. You're in that category 1322 01:08:26,520 --> 01:08:30,400 Speaker 1: of of that and with the bread's the bread Eldridge 1323 01:08:30,479 --> 01:08:35,560 Speaker 1: is there. There's a level of of pure vocalists and 1324 01:08:35,600 --> 01:08:38,720 Speaker 1: you're in that A plus vocalist category. And now it's 1325 01:08:38,760 --> 01:08:41,640 Speaker 1: just finding. You're you're just finding your spot. Now, like 1326 01:08:41,760 --> 01:08:43,680 Speaker 1: where are you in that? In that spot? And you're 1327 01:08:44,000 --> 01:08:45,960 Speaker 1: you're finding it. And I think it's honesty. You're find 1328 01:08:46,000 --> 01:08:47,600 Speaker 1: you're finding the honesty is just the way to go. 1329 01:08:48,200 --> 01:08:49,559 Speaker 1: And you know what, here's the thing about honestly. If 1330 01:08:49,560 --> 01:08:52,560 Speaker 1: you lose on honestly, at least you're honest. That's and 1331 01:08:52,640 --> 01:08:54,800 Speaker 1: if you lose on not when you're just putting out crap, 1332 01:08:54,960 --> 01:08:56,800 Speaker 1: you're like, oh man, I should have been honest. If 1333 01:08:56,840 --> 01:08:58,960 Speaker 1: you lose on honesty what I've discovered in my life, 1334 01:08:59,439 --> 01:09:01,680 Speaker 1: you're you're going okay with that because you've done the 1335 01:09:01,720 --> 01:09:06,479 Speaker 1: best you can do well. I will say that when 1336 01:09:06,560 --> 01:09:09,200 Speaker 1: Next Boyfriend didn't work, it hurt me more than the 1337 01:09:09,280 --> 01:09:11,120 Speaker 1: other ones because I didn't write them. But I was 1338 01:09:11,200 --> 01:09:13,080 Speaker 1: also way more proud of it, you know what I mean. 1339 01:09:13,200 --> 01:09:15,519 Speaker 1: And this whole record is that way. If if you 1340 01:09:15,520 --> 01:09:18,639 Speaker 1: read this, Troubled does Tomorrow. It's my highest charting ever 1341 01:09:19,120 --> 01:09:21,320 Speaker 1: and it's one of my favorites ever, and I'm so 1342 01:09:21,520 --> 01:09:24,080 Speaker 1: proud of it. And you've taken a forward step. That's 1343 01:09:24,120 --> 01:09:27,200 Speaker 1: always important. You've taken another forward step. My favorite song 1344 01:09:27,280 --> 01:09:30,280 Speaker 1: that you've ever written was a song called Recess on 1345 01:09:30,400 --> 01:09:33,120 Speaker 1: the Raging Kiddiets records. Yeah, now Lauren didn't sing it 1346 01:09:33,160 --> 01:09:35,320 Speaker 1: on the record, but we set on my couch and 1347 01:09:35,479 --> 01:09:39,120 Speaker 1: wrote this song called Recess but try one of the 1348 01:09:39,200 --> 01:09:41,479 Speaker 1: Raging Kiddiets record and Lauren was singing. I was like, 1349 01:09:41,520 --> 01:09:43,200 Speaker 1: you can't sing it. The High God. I can never 1350 01:09:43,280 --> 01:09:45,400 Speaker 1: sing this, Lauren, so we had to change it. I 1351 01:09:45,520 --> 01:09:55,519 Speaker 1: can I'm staring at o'clock. It's a way too slow. Yeah, swings, 1352 01:09:55,920 --> 01:10:05,559 Speaker 1: gonna drop the rings, gonna clown them all, Cindy marking 1353 01:10:05,720 --> 01:10:13,040 Speaker 1: back the tatters, what we like. I can't wait for it. 1354 01:10:16,080 --> 01:10:17,439 Speaker 1: I remember studying on the couch and I was like, 1355 01:10:17,479 --> 01:10:19,320 Speaker 1: here's I want to ride. We're talking about all these ideas. 1356 01:10:19,360 --> 01:10:21,560 Speaker 1: Recess went back and forth forth, and Lauren starts to go, 1357 01:10:21,840 --> 01:10:24,760 Speaker 1: I can't wait for I'm like, Lan, I could never 1358 01:10:24,840 --> 01:10:30,360 Speaker 1: do that. I can't wait for vs. Hey. I was like, 1359 01:10:30,439 --> 01:10:33,240 Speaker 1: screw this, and not only can I not do it? 1360 01:10:33,680 --> 01:10:35,920 Speaker 1: I got some we no when we pull it back, 1361 01:10:36,000 --> 01:10:37,719 Speaker 1: and then when and got Nikeya to sing it because 1362 01:10:37,720 --> 01:10:42,439 Speaker 1: I still cann't do it. You're possible, Lauren, Lena, You're 1363 01:10:42,520 --> 01:10:45,800 Speaker 1: dear to me. You're dear to me. Thank you for 1364 01:10:45,880 --> 01:10:47,960 Speaker 1: being and I hope you know that is very sincere. 1365 01:10:48,280 --> 01:10:51,719 Speaker 1: Thank you, and I appreciate you've been always been super supportive, 1366 01:10:51,760 --> 01:10:54,560 Speaker 1: and you're super supportive of so many people that need it. 1367 01:10:54,760 --> 01:10:58,719 Speaker 1: And I think that's wonderful because you have a platform 1368 01:10:58,760 --> 01:11:01,559 Speaker 1: to help and you do so I appreciate that. Well 1369 01:11:01,800 --> 01:11:04,120 Speaker 1: tickled me. Pink can call me Willie? How about that? 1370 01:11:04,160 --> 01:11:15,200 Speaker 1: All right, we're Lauren Lena is awesome film. Listen to 1371 01:11:15,280 --> 01:11:16,519 Speaker 1: Laurence dot You' like what a were gonna do? We 1372 01:11:16,560 --> 01:11:17,880 Speaker 1: We're gonna just talk. I was like, yeah, I SA, 1373 01:11:17,920 --> 01:11:19,760 Speaker 1: it's about hour and you just things just come out. 1374 01:11:19,800 --> 01:11:21,599 Speaker 1: You don't expect him too because you're just comfortable. We're 1375 01:11:21,600 --> 01:11:23,960 Speaker 1: just chatting, feel good. What would you do if you're 1376 01:11:24,000 --> 01:11:26,960 Speaker 1: they're like not really your friend and some some aren't 1377 01:11:27,000 --> 01:11:28,880 Speaker 1: my friends, but you know what, we get to know 1378 01:11:29,000 --> 01:11:31,240 Speaker 1: each other through it. I didn't know Ryan Hurt until 1379 01:11:31,280 --> 01:11:32,360 Speaker 1: he came to the house, and I was a fan 1380 01:11:32,439 --> 01:11:34,920 Speaker 1: of Ryan. Yeah he's awesome. Yeah he's awesome. And that's 1381 01:11:35,000 --> 01:11:36,640 Speaker 1: why I was like, dude, come to the house. And 1382 01:11:36,760 --> 01:11:40,040 Speaker 1: Ryan's a very spirit guy, like he the earth is 1383 01:11:40,120 --> 01:11:42,120 Speaker 1: that you know everything in it. And so we would 1384 01:11:42,120 --> 01:11:44,760 Speaker 1: text all the time, just back and forth, and so 1385 01:11:44,800 --> 01:11:46,120 Speaker 1: I was like, you gotta come in because I just 1386 01:11:46,160 --> 01:11:47,960 Speaker 1: want to like get in your brain. We weren't we 1387 01:11:48,080 --> 01:11:50,120 Speaker 1: never met. And he came in and we sat and 1388 01:11:50,200 --> 01:11:52,160 Speaker 1: there's one of these of Ryan and I just talking 1389 01:11:52,200 --> 01:11:54,840 Speaker 1: about music, and he left. I was like, man, that's 1390 01:11:55,400 --> 01:11:57,719 Speaker 1: like I don't like, I don't know him there today, 1391 01:11:58,000 --> 01:12:01,320 Speaker 1: but that talk I was just like that, like I 1392 01:12:01,439 --> 01:12:04,280 Speaker 1: feel I felt connected and so I don't know I've 1393 01:12:04,320 --> 01:12:06,000 Speaker 1: ever had one that we walked out and when it 1394 01:12:06,080 --> 01:12:07,640 Speaker 1: was like I just think you can find that part 1395 01:12:07,680 --> 01:12:09,800 Speaker 1: of a human where you're like, well this is a 1396 01:12:09,880 --> 01:12:12,400 Speaker 1: really cool. I mean we're in the most comfortable chairs, 1397 01:12:12,720 --> 01:12:15,599 Speaker 1: which they don't think that's not on purpose, of course, 1398 01:12:15,840 --> 01:12:18,439 Speaker 1: I'm like going to rock myself. You relax and you 1399 01:12:18,560 --> 01:12:23,479 Speaker 1: hang out and there's a dog running around these like Lauren, 1400 01:12:23,520 --> 01:12:27,479 Speaker 1: You're awesome too. Many many more successes and many of 1401 01:12:27,720 --> 01:12:31,600 Speaker 1: more days of friendship between us. Yes, alright, download Rod 1402 01:12:31,680 --> 01:12:34,479 Speaker 1: left travel please and if Lauren's out, she by the way, 1403 01:12:34,520 --> 01:12:36,920 Speaker 1: she will be at with Martina McBride. Yeah, there was 1404 01:12:36,920 --> 01:12:39,479 Speaker 1: a big announcement that you and Martina are going next year. Yeah, 1405 01:12:39,800 --> 01:12:43,400 Speaker 1: first quarter. So look for Lauren out with Martina and 1406 01:12:43,520 --> 01:12:47,280 Speaker 1: soon enough you'll be headlining. I got no doubt about it. 1407 01:12:47,560 --> 01:12:49,360 Speaker 1: All you need that one song, Like look at Cam 1408 01:12:49,439 --> 01:12:51,120 Speaker 1: she has one song and it was so big though 1409 01:12:51,160 --> 01:12:53,120 Speaker 1: she gets to go and she she's headlining her own 1410 01:12:53,200 --> 01:12:56,000 Speaker 1: tour right now. It's amazing. And so you got it. 1411 01:12:56,120 --> 01:13:00,240 Speaker 1: You're ready, just get pissing this one going, Lauren Anna, 1412 01:13:00,280 --> 01:13:02,200 Speaker 1: thank you for listening to episode twenty two of The 1413 01:13:02,280 --> 01:13:05,920 Speaker 1: Bobby Cast, and that's all we got. See you next time, guys,