WEBVTT - The Comeback Mindset with Maddy Schaffrick

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, everyone, Welcome to mind Over Mountain with me Cheryl Strade.

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<v Speaker 1>This week my guest is pro snowboarder Matti Shaffrick. She's

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<v Speaker 1>fresh off the US Women's Olympic team, where she competed

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<v Speaker 1>in the halfpipe, and fresh off an amazing comeback. Mattie

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<v Speaker 1>went pro at fourteen, retired by twenty, had a little

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<v Speaker 1>foray as a plumber's assistant, and then became a coach

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<v Speaker 1>before making that amazing comeback. In our conversation, we talk

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<v Speaker 1>about all the high points and low points and the

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<v Speaker 1>healing in between. Let's listen to our conversation.

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<v Speaker 2>Mattie Shaffrick. Welcome to mind Over Mountain.

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<v Speaker 3>Thank you, Cheryl. I'm so happy to be here.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I am really excited to talk to you.

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<v Speaker 1>We have tons of stuff to talk about. You went

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<v Speaker 1>pro as a snowboarder at age fourteen, by twenty you

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<v Speaker 1>had retired, and then nine years later you may this

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<v Speaker 1>amazing comeback. And I have to say I'm one of

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<v Speaker 1>the many, many people who were riding and sailing and

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<v Speaker 1>flying along with you through really the glorious comeback you've

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<v Speaker 1>had recently.

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<v Speaker 2>On Instagram, I follow you like so many others.

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<v Speaker 1>You said that this past season was a season for

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<v Speaker 1>the books because of course it included the Olympics in Milan, Cartino,

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<v Speaker 1>where you were a member of the women's snowboard team,

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<v Speaker 1>and also very recently you took second in the women's

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<v Speaker 1>snowboard half fife at the Snowboard World Cup. What was

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<v Speaker 1>this amazing comeback season or these last couple of years

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<v Speaker 1>like for you as a snowboarder.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, there's it's hard to like put in a few

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<v Speaker 4>short sentences what the last couple of years have men

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<v Speaker 4>and this whole comeback journey I've been on. So last

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<v Speaker 4>winter season was my first season back competing since twenty fifteen,

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<v Speaker 4>And yeah, it was nine years and eight months I'd

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<v Speaker 4>taken off from competition and you know, had tried different careers.

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<v Speaker 4>But like, my main approach in making this comeback, or

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<v Speaker 4>like the reason I wanted to do it was to

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<v Speaker 4>do it differently and to do it authentically and do

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<v Speaker 4>it in a way that was very connected to who

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<v Speaker 4>I am.

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<v Speaker 3>And how I want to be in the sewer career.

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<v Speaker 4>And and yeah, it's been very high highs and very

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<v Speaker 4>low lows, like challenges I was expecting. And also challenges

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<v Speaker 4>that I couldn't have predicted.

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<v Speaker 5>That.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, It's funny you get what you ask for,

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<v Speaker 4>like I wanted to. I wanted to see what I

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<v Speaker 4>was truly capable of in this comeback in all ways physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.

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<v Speaker 4>Like that was one of my main whys for coming back,

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<v Speaker 4>was what I was truly capable of. And I feel

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<v Speaker 4>like I.

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<v Speaker 3>Got pushed to the edge of.

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<v Speaker 4>In all of those realms and was challenged and really

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<v Speaker 4>like I was required to rise to the occasion in

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of different areas, which yeah, has been fun

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<v Speaker 4>and purposeful and also yeah, a wild journey of just

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<v Speaker 4>self exploration and getting to know myself way more and

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<v Speaker 4>believing in myself.

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<v Speaker 1>I also wonder if a piece of that, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>finding your why again, in finding your way back to

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<v Speaker 1>snowboarding goes way back to when you were a child

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<v Speaker 1>and at first falled in love with a sport.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it absolutely has.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, like you said, I first joined the US

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<v Speaker 4>team and became a professional snowboarder at fourteen. I loved snowboarding,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, like that was my why leading up to that,

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<v Speaker 4>that US Team nomination back then and all of yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>and at fourteen, no one knows who they are at fourteen,

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<v Speaker 4>and my entire all of my teenage years and my

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<v Speaker 4>entire high school experience, I was. I was on the

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<v Speaker 4>road with kids much older than me. I was the

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<v Speaker 4>youngest on the US team by three years at that

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<v Speaker 4>time and remained the youngest for several years. But I

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<v Speaker 4>was trying to figure out who I was during a

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<v Speaker 4>time that, you know, in a.

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<v Speaker 3>Very adult world where.

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<v Speaker 4>I had external expectations and pressures as far as like

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<v Speaker 4>US team expectations, sponsor contracts, agents, and a lot of support.

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<v Speaker 4>That was all so helpful and I needed it or

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<v Speaker 4>someone in that position, it's that's very helpful to have

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<v Speaker 4>all the support and being a teenager trying to also

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<v Speaker 4>just like yeah, figure out who.

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<v Speaker 3>And how I wanted to be in this world.

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<v Speaker 4>It was it was a lot, and I didn't have

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<v Speaker 4>the coping skills yet.

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<v Speaker 1>Really tell me, you know, fourteen, What always amazes me

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<v Speaker 1>about your your experience is that, yeah, as you said,

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<v Speaker 1>who at fourteen knows who they are? The whole situation

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<v Speaker 1>with being fourteen, it's like it's your job not to

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<v Speaker 1>know yet, right, It's your job to go on that

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<v Speaker 1>journey full of like mistakes and victories and all kinds

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<v Speaker 1>of things. It's to be in the spot like the

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<v Speaker 1>way you were to be before that, to be called

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<v Speaker 1>a child prodigy, it's just an immense amount of pressure.

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<v Speaker 2>What was that you know?

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<v Speaker 1>What was that like for you when you were among

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<v Speaker 1>the people who I imagine like these other snowboarders in

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<v Speaker 1>the field, who were like your idols. What was that

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<v Speaker 1>like for you as a child to be among the

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<v Speaker 1>people who are older, making, you know, being their peer

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<v Speaker 1>or their colleague.

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<v Speaker 4>I think there were a lot of like facets to that,

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<v Speaker 4>because the reason I started snowboarding when I was seven

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<v Speaker 4>years old was because I watched Gretchen Bleiler on the

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<v Speaker 4>TV during X Games. I forget what season it was,

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<v Speaker 4>but I remember I was I was six when I

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<v Speaker 4>saw her on TV, and I just remember she was

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<v Speaker 4>in all yellow. I don't think it was a one piece,

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<v Speaker 4>but it was an all yellow outfit, and I remember

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<v Speaker 4>that so clearly, and I remember watching her and her

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<v Speaker 4>run and knowing that's what I wanted to do. I

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<v Speaker 4>was always into sports. I've always been an athletic kid.

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<v Speaker 4>But I saw her compete in X Games in snowboarding,

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<v Speaker 4>half fype and I was like, that's what I want

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<v Speaker 4>to do.

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<v Speaker 3>Then fast forward.

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<v Speaker 1>But wait, why what was it about seeing her do that?

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<v Speaker 3>That's a good question.

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<v Speaker 4>I would have to like, I know, I'd have to

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<v Speaker 4>tap back into my six year old brain then.

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<v Speaker 3>But maybe it was.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know, Maybe it was just I think it

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<v Speaker 4>was probably just the energy she was admitting that I

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<v Speaker 4>was feeling, and.

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<v Speaker 2>You're like, I want to be that in the world.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, totally.

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<v Speaker 4>And all of those women were like having so much

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<v Speaker 4>fun and pushing each other and supporting each other and doing.

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<v Speaker 3>Really cool things. That looks so cool.

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<v Speaker 4>And I, yeah, I was. I was drawn to it.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm imagining you know, when you get such high validation

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<v Speaker 1>and praise, Yeah, being called a child broto d You're

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<v Speaker 1>at fourteen turning pro and you know, joining the team

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<v Speaker 1>that you'd only dreamed of being on.

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<v Speaker 2>It's both positive.

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<v Speaker 1>It's incredibly validating, right, You're like, oh my, all of

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<v Speaker 1>my dreams have come true. Yeah, and it's also strangely

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<v Speaker 1>depleting and diminishing.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm going totally totally.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, yeah, it was fast forward eight years from

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<v Speaker 4>watching Gretchen on TV.

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<v Speaker 3>I was on the team.

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<v Speaker 4>With her, and yeah, and being called a child prodigy

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<v Speaker 4>and having a lot of eyes on me, and absolutely

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<v Speaker 4>it was validating, and it was so fun and all

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<v Speaker 4>of my dreams were coming true.

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<v Speaker 3>And how do you you know, uphold that? How do

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<v Speaker 3>you maintain it? And I don't know. I just I

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<v Speaker 3>felt the pressure.

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<v Speaker 4>And though, here's the thing. The first two years I

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<v Speaker 4>was on the team, from age fourteen to sixteen, I

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<v Speaker 4>had a really great time. I did not feel that

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<v Speaker 4>much pressure. The best analogy I can say for it

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<v Speaker 4>is I felt like I was on a wave and

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<v Speaker 4>the wave was pushing me. I was just riding that wave.

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<v Speaker 4>When I was sixteen, I had a really big knee

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<v Speaker 4>injury and a hip injury, just big fall in New

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<v Speaker 4>Zealand and I was going into my junior year of

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<v Speaker 4>high school and I had it was my third knee

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<v Speaker 4>surgery at that time, but it was the biggest one

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<v Speaker 4>I had ever had.

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<v Speaker 2>And third knee surgery by sixteen.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, out I know, and and so I'd been Yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>I'd been through injury before, but I had never experienced

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<v Speaker 4>that big of an injury, injury.

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<v Speaker 3>At that level.

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<v Speaker 4>With all the eyes on me yet, or being on

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<v Speaker 4>the US team yet.

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<v Speaker 1>Right right at this level where people actually weren't just

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<v Speaker 1>concerned for your health. They were like, well, we want

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<v Speaker 1>her to perform. We had expectations of her.

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<v Speaker 4>Right, I needed to fulfill contracts, right.

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<v Speaker 3>But Yeah, that injury and.

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<v Speaker 4>I took eleven months off of snow and went back

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<v Speaker 4>to high school to say, at a desk with all

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<v Speaker 4>of my peers that I had grown up with here

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<v Speaker 4>in Steamoat, Colorado. And the last time I had sat

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<v Speaker 4>at a desk, you know, was like seventh grade for

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<v Speaker 4>the entire school year.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow.

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<v Speaker 4>And I didn't know how to really relate to kids

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<v Speaker 4>my age anymore. All of my friends that I used

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<v Speaker 4>to play soccer with were doing totally different things.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, they had a different life totally.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, And so that was a hard year just mentally

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<v Speaker 4>and emotionally, you could imagine.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, how did you I mean, how was it hard?

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<v Speaker 1>Was it was it hard finding friends again or having

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<v Speaker 1>authentic connections with people?

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<v Speaker 2>What did your peers think of you? Were they like,

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<v Speaker 2>she's the snowboarding star?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>I mean they thought I was cool, but we didn't

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<v Speaker 4>know each other anymore. And the things that they were

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<v Speaker 4>interested in or you know, pursuing, I didn't. I didn't

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<v Speaker 4>know how to connect to that anymore. And then all

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<v Speaker 4>of my you know, friends who had spent the last

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<v Speaker 4>couple of years with they were still traveling the world busy,

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<v Speaker 4>and you know, I.

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<v Speaker 2>Doing the things that you thought you were supposed to

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<v Speaker 2>be doing.

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<v Speaker 4>Right, And I'd say, like, you know, those first two

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<v Speaker 4>years on the US team, I was riding that wave.

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<v Speaker 4>And then after that injury, I fell off that wave.

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<v Speaker 4>And that's when it felt like the awareness of the contracts,

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<v Speaker 4>the pressures, the expectations, that's when all of that came

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<v Speaker 4>in and hit me so hard in a way that

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<v Speaker 4>I didn't I didn't know what to do with it.

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<v Speaker 1>In my own life too, when I've been overwhelmed with

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<v Speaker 1>grief or sorrow or whatever, you know, fill in the

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<v Speaker 1>dark hard word, you do, you do something with it.

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<v Speaker 1>It can be self destructive or not.

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<v Speaker 2>And I mean, what did you do?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it means all fairly destructive.

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<v Speaker 4>And I started building like self sabotaging behaviors.

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<v Speaker 5>And.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, it was It wasn't only in you know,

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<v Speaker 4>there's an element to snowboarding. Used to be an element

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<v Speaker 4>to snowboarding that was like there was a very much

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<v Speaker 4>a party culture involved it. That's not really the case anymore,

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<v Speaker 4>especially in the high level competition, which is definitely for

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<v Speaker 4>the best. But I leaned into that side way more

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<v Speaker 4>than I ever had before. But also, you know, speaking

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<v Speaker 4>about those women that I was teammates with, that I

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<v Speaker 4>looked up to so much, I started comparing myself to

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<v Speaker 4>them in a way that was not helpful.

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<v Speaker 1>It never is any like I have never been from

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<v Speaker 1>comparing myself to anyone else. Totally, No, it only it

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<v Speaker 1>only makes you feel less than. What's always crazy too,

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<v Speaker 1>is little do we know they're probably doing the same,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, totally us, And it's it's like it's like

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<v Speaker 1>a shame building machine, that comparison.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's the past joy as they say, yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, And it becomes a habit yeah, and a pattern

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<v Speaker 4>that you know, if you go deep enough into it,

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<v Speaker 4>it takes it very intentional work to come out of

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<v Speaker 4>and bring that habit.

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<v Speaker 2>So how did you do that?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, not just the comparison part, but this era

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<v Speaker 1>you're describing where you got pretty dark, Like, how how.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you find your way out? What did you do?

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<v Speaker 3>I left?

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<v Speaker 4>I Yeah, I retired when I was twenty, and I

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<v Speaker 4>retired so full of anger and resentment and blame.

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<v Speaker 1>And who were you angry at and resentful tour?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I've the industry, coaches, sponsors, I was that whole,

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<v Speaker 4>real one that yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Everything on the outside.

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<v Speaker 4>I was angry at competition itself, Like I felt competition

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<v Speaker 4>had taken this thing. I loved snowboarding, this passion I

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<v Speaker 4>was so connected to and tainted it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you fell out of love with snowboarding, not so

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<v Speaker 1>much for snowboarding itself, but everything that surrounded it exactly.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>So when I when I announced my retirement at twenty

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<v Speaker 4>in twenty fifteen, I swore I would never touch another

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<v Speaker 4>snowboard again. I really thought I was never gonna turn back.

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<v Speaker 3>In any way, even recreationally.

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, I'm so done.

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<v Speaker 2>What did you do with your snowboards?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you have like a bonfire in the backyard?

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<v Speaker 3>I think I gave a lot of them away.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah I still have, Like I think I have three

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<v Speaker 4>snowboards from huh that era of my life, And I

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<v Speaker 4>honestly don't know what I did with the rest.

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<v Speaker 1>They were like out in the back for this garage

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<v Speaker 1>or something. I don't really So then you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>understand you. When you retired at twenty, you did what

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<v Speaker 1>many many twenty year olds have done, including my own

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<v Speaker 1>twenty year old right now, retreated to their parents' house. Right, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>and you grew up writing steam Boat Springs, Colorado.

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<v Speaker 2>So you moved back in with your folks.

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<v Speaker 3>Yep, moved back in into the basement. It was good.

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<v Speaker 3>It was where.

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<v Speaker 4>I needed to be to just you know, they created

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<v Speaker 4>a safe space for me to break down and just

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<v Speaker 4>drop everything and yeah, you know, hit an emotional rock

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<v Speaker 4>bottom and not.

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<v Speaker 3>Know where to go next.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, the great thing about rock bottom, though, because

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<v Speaker 1>I know this is the next part of your story,

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<v Speaker 1>is like, once you get to the bottom, there's the

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<v Speaker 1>only direction to go is up.

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<v Speaker 2>And it sounds like, I mean, it.

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<v Speaker 1>Might take a while, but and it might look different

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<v Speaker 1>than maybe most of us imagine, but from there we

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<v Speaker 1>do begin to rise.

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<v Speaker 2>So what happened to you next?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, one part of my story that people really love

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<v Speaker 4>this here during the Olympics.

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<v Speaker 2>But I know what's coming.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I moved back into my parents house. I was

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<v Speaker 3>in the basement.

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<v Speaker 4>They gave me a few months to you know, sulk

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<v Speaker 4>around and I don't even know what I was doing,

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<v Speaker 4>but they my dad was finally like, all right, if

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<v Speaker 4>you're going to live here. You need to pay some

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<v Speaker 4>rent or help us buy some food.

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<v Speaker 3>The food you're eating you just need. Yeah, so get

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<v Speaker 3>a job.

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<v Speaker 4>And and I had a family friend in town here

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<v Speaker 4>that owned a plumbing and heating business. I asked him

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<v Speaker 4>one day because I knew, you know, I hadn't gone

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<v Speaker 4>to college. I hadn't the last time I went to

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<v Speaker 4>school was like I just didn't connect with it. I

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<v Speaker 4>had no motivation and so it was not very like

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<v Speaker 4>healthy environment for me.

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<v Speaker 3>And I had no.

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<v Speaker 4>Other like work experience besides snowboarding, and I knew I

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<v Speaker 4>had emotional stuff I needed to work through in my body.

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<v Speaker 4>So I was like, I want to use my hands.

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<v Speaker 4>I want to use my body. I don't want to

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<v Speaker 4>sit behind a desk. I asked my friend Joe, Joe

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<v Speaker 4>the plumber.

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<v Speaker 5>Joe.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like he's even got the name.

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<v Speaker 5>I know.

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<v Speaker 4>When I asked him, I was like, do you have

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<v Speaker 4>any friends in the trade, you know, industry that need help.

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<v Speaker 4>I want to learn something new and I want to

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<v Speaker 4>keep moving, and he goes, yeah, you can start for

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<v Speaker 4>me on Monday. So I became Joe the Plumber's apprentice.

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<v Speaker 1>Made thought that I had, but please tell me that

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<v Speaker 1>your other coworkers were named Earl Bob, and Frank.

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<v Speaker 3>Was Dallas.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh no, that's no, that's.

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<v Speaker 1>Not a plumber name. I don't know you think Dallas

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<v Speaker 1>is a plumber name.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>He was. He's a good plumber.

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<v Speaker 2>To be Dallas.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like he's like he's like an actor. He's not

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<v Speaker 1>like Broadway or yeah, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>The thing is I love about this is it's it

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<v Speaker 1>is both totally unlikely and also I will say I

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<v Speaker 1>actually think it's it's most of us have that kind

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<v Speaker 1>of story at one point or another in our lives

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<v Speaker 1>where we're like, Okay, I was lost and then I

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<v Speaker 1>just decided to do this like totally out of nowhere

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<v Speaker 1>thing and it helped me be found. And you knew

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<v Speaker 1>instinctually that you had to work with your body, make

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<v Speaker 1>something do, make something happen with your hands, and you

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<v Speaker 1>trusted that girl, and that is like, that is golden

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<v Speaker 1>and that is healing right there. So you were beginning

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<v Speaker 1>even when you asked that question of Joe the plumber,

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<v Speaker 1>So well done, Yeah things.

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<v Speaker 2>How did why are you not a plumber?

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<v Speaker 3>Now?

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<v Speaker 2>So how'd that plumbing career go? Okay?

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<v Speaker 4>So I I apprenticed for a little over a year,

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<v Speaker 4>learned a lot, and one of the main things I

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<v Speaker 4>learned was that I do not want to split spend

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<v Speaker 4>my life plumbing.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, I don't want to be a plumber. I respect

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<v Speaker 3>the trade so much.

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<v Speaker 4>And I will say too that one year of plumbing

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<v Speaker 4>was harder on my body than seven years of professional sommarty.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my gosh, like mad respect.

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<v Speaker 2>Are you serious?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I'm serious, because you're like on your knees under

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<v Speaker 4>a sing or cabinet right, or you're in a crawl

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<v Speaker 4>space in some contorted position, or you're like fun scaffolding

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<v Speaker 4>hoping of holding a pipe over your head.

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<v Speaker 3>It was so hard on my joints.

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<v Speaker 1>I imagine early twenties, Like imagine you're like some old guy,

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<v Speaker 1>yeah or Dallas or whatever. Also, you have to wear

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<v Speaker 1>really baggy pants so they fall down totally.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm about to throw all your belts.

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<v Speaker 1>I hope, I hope somebody saw your butt track at

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<v Speaker 1>some point, Maddie, I'm sure. I come on, well, but

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<v Speaker 1>you were just an apprentice, so like maybe you didn't

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<v Speaker 1>reach the full plumber of you know, wardrobe malfunction level.

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<v Speaker 3>But I'm true.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, but my burning question that I have for you

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<v Speaker 1>about your your short career, but short but informative career

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<v Speaker 1>and physically challenging career and plumbing is I know you're

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<v Speaker 1>you're not interested in being a plumber. Now do you

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<v Speaker 1>do your own home repairs? Like if things get moving

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<v Speaker 1>a little slow, like you know how to fix it?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah? I do.

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<v Speaker 3>I've done like the little like external repairs if it's

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<v Speaker 3>in a wall. I called somebody.

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<v Speaker 5>I called Joe.

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<v Speaker 2>Joe, you guys are still passed.

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<v Speaker 1>I bet yeah, Okay, what did What did Joe think

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<v Speaker 1>of you when you're like, you know, I mean going

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<v Speaker 1>to the Olympics and stuff. I bet that I met

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<v Speaker 1>The Plumbers Association of America is very proud of you.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh that's so funny.

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<v Speaker 3>He has been so supportive.

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<v Speaker 4>And so he has three kids that are all younger

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<v Speaker 4>than me, and uh huh, I lived with them my

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<v Speaker 4>junior year of high school when I was back during

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<v Speaker 4>that time. So yeah, they I mean those kids at

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<v Speaker 4>that time too. The oldest was eight and the youngest

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<v Speaker 4>was maybe two. And now this is twenty three.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you have you taught them snow snowboarding or taken

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<v Speaker 1>them out on the snow at all.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I mean looking back when I was in high school,

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<v Speaker 4>when they were young.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh okay, they were all they're all rippers.

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<v Speaker 6>They all chose skiing now, but whatever, I'm not gonna

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<v Speaker 6>judge them. But yeah, they've all been so proud and

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<v Speaker 6>it's been funny too because.

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<v Speaker 3>Joe I was uh, let's just I wasn't the best

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<v Speaker 3>plumber either.

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<v Speaker 2>I wasn't wade for it.

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<v Speaker 1>He's not.

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<v Speaker 3>Let me forget that where he goes.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, you're getting a lot of attention for that time plumbing,

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<v Speaker 4>but they don't know how bad you were.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I know, like that word prodigy only applies an

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<v Speaker 1>area of your life, not too exactly, only snowboarding, not

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<v Speaker 1>not plumbing.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm glad to do that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm glad we set the record straight here on mind

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<v Speaker 1>Over Mountain. Yeadi Chaprack is not a prodigious plumber.

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<v Speaker 3>No I'm not.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't call me, don't call called Joe so Ya. But

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<v Speaker 1>so then you have your moment of truth, you know, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>at twenty you're like, I'm done with snowboarding. A few

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<v Speaker 1>years later you're like, I'm done with plumbing. What happened next?

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<v Speaker 1>How did you find your way back to snowboarding.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, so you know, it's funny and makes sense when

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<v Speaker 5>I declared at twenty years old, I was never going

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<v Speaker 5>to snowboard again.

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<v Speaker 4>It didn't last that long because I came home to

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<v Speaker 4>Steamboat and spent like basically the rest of the summer

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<v Speaker 4>in Steamboat, or I had some extra time in Salt

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<v Speaker 4>Lake City. But then I uh started plumbing, and we're

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<v Speaker 4>approaching the ski season again, and I had some friends

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<v Speaker 4>coming back home, and everyone I knew in Steamboat was

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<v Speaker 4>getting season passes for the report, right, And so I

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<v Speaker 4>was like, all right, I'm going to be so bored.

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<v Speaker 3>If I don't.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm if all I'm doing is plumbing, sleeping, like, get

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<v Speaker 4>an activity. There's not a lot to do in Steamboat

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<v Speaker 4>in the winter besides skier, snowboard or some sort of

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<v Speaker 4>winter activity.

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<v Speaker 3>So I reached out to.

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<v Speaker 4>A friend of mine who was directing the snowboard program,

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<v Speaker 4>the youth snowboard program here in Steamboat for Steamboat Springs

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<v Speaker 4>Winter Sports Club, and asked her if she had any

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<v Speaker 4>volunteer positions available where I could get a free season pass.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh cool, and so yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>That that twenty sixteen summer or winter, I guess it's

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<v Speaker 4>twenty fifteen twenty sixteen winter, I volunteered with a group

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<v Speaker 4>of like seven to nine year olds and it was

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<v Speaker 4>only seven hours a week.

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<v Speaker 3>It was one day a week after.

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<v Speaker 4>My plumbing and then on Saturdays, and I was teaching

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<v Speaker 4>this group of kids how to snowboard for the first

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<v Speaker 4>time ever, just how to turn and how to strap

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<v Speaker 4>on their snowboard day one, and.

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<v Speaker 1>Which is the same age you were. I just want

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<v Speaker 1>to point out that you said I want to do

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<v Speaker 1>that totally. It's a really exastaing return. And just for

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<v Speaker 1>the record, I want to say, if if I went

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<v Speaker 1>to the mountain, I would need to be in that

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<v Speaker 1>group with the seven to nine year olds. I would

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<v Speaker 1>probably never graduate off of whatever level they were at.

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<v Speaker 4>You would, you would, And at a surtain age we

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<v Speaker 4>recommend butt pads and risk guards.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, I would need just like maybe full body like

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<v Speaker 1>sort of bubble wrap.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, that is the thing I want to ask you.

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<v Speaker 1>About this because I think that you know what you're

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<v Speaker 1>talking about is when you teach absolute beginners, whether they're

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<v Speaker 1>seven and nine or fifty, you know, what you yourself

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<v Speaker 1>are doing is in some ways returning to those essentials

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<v Speaker 1>and those like those first steps and those first times

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<v Speaker 1>that you're like, oh my gosh, Like I thought I

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<v Speaker 1>couldn't do this thing, and then I did it, and wow,

0:26:14.960 --> 0:26:18.639
<v Speaker 1>that was thrilling. Am I just projecting this like with

0:26:18.680 --> 0:26:21.520
<v Speaker 1>some of with some of this resonating with you when

0:26:21.560 --> 0:26:23.879
<v Speaker 1>you were teaching the kids, were you remembering why you

0:26:23.920 --> 0:26:25.159
<v Speaker 1>loved snowboarding again?

0:26:25.720 --> 0:26:29.480
<v Speaker 3>I mean, that was it. You just named it perfectly.

0:26:30.200 --> 0:26:34.440
<v Speaker 4>That's exactly what happened, and it I mean, it brought

0:26:34.440 --> 0:26:36.359
<v Speaker 4>me back to the basics in a way that I

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<v Speaker 4>had I hadn't thought about how to turn.

0:26:39.720 --> 0:26:42.480
<v Speaker 3>My snowboard in years.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and so it felt completely different than what I

0:26:48.720 --> 0:26:53.400
<v Speaker 4>was doing in competition and like training and learning tricks

0:26:53.440 --> 0:26:54.760
<v Speaker 4>and learning how to fall and.

0:26:54.720 --> 0:26:55.879
<v Speaker 3>Get back up and all that.

0:26:56.000 --> 0:26:56.240
<v Speaker 5>It was.

0:26:57.640 --> 0:26:59.520
<v Speaker 3>I mean, it was learning how to fall and.

0:26:59.440 --> 0:27:02.199
<v Speaker 4>Get back up and try to explain that to the

0:27:02.280 --> 0:27:02.800
<v Speaker 4>kids too.

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<v Speaker 3>But it was so.

0:27:07.920 --> 0:27:10.719
<v Speaker 4>It reframed snowboarding for me in a way that I

0:27:10.760 --> 0:27:13.159
<v Speaker 4>really needed, and it was it had nothing to do

0:27:13.240 --> 0:27:17.640
<v Speaker 4>with competition. And I was watching in real time those

0:27:17.760 --> 0:27:23.080
<v Speaker 4>kids figure out their love for snowboarding and their passion

0:27:23.240 --> 0:27:26.160
<v Speaker 4>and can and discover it for the first time ever.

0:27:26.280 --> 0:27:28.359
<v Speaker 3>And it was so fun.

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<v Speaker 4>Wow, and it literally probably it was maybe in the

0:27:32.400 --> 0:27:37.719
<v Speaker 4>first two weeks that I could feel within myself like

0:27:38.880 --> 0:27:40.159
<v Speaker 4>this is healing me.

0:27:40.960 --> 0:27:43.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. I mean, the body is such a great teacher,

0:27:43.640 --> 0:27:43.960
<v Speaker 2>isn't it.

0:27:44.000 --> 0:27:47.159
<v Speaker 1>You're out there explaining I got chills when you just

0:27:47.160 --> 0:27:50.240
<v Speaker 1>said what you said, which is to teach people how

0:27:50.240 --> 0:27:53.239
<v Speaker 1>to fall down and get back up, you know. And

0:27:53.280 --> 0:27:56.560
<v Speaker 1>of course when when you're doing that with your body,

0:27:56.600 --> 0:28:00.359
<v Speaker 1>you end up doing that inside yourself as well. It

0:28:00.480 --> 0:28:03.800
<v Speaker 1>ends up being you know, that that healing act, and

0:28:04.280 --> 0:28:06.840
<v Speaker 1>especially sharing that with others because of course if you're

0:28:06.920 --> 0:28:10.560
<v Speaker 1>telling somebody else listen, you're gonna follow. It might hurt,

0:28:10.640 --> 0:28:12.560
<v Speaker 1>but no worries. You can get right back up and

0:28:12.600 --> 0:28:16.760
<v Speaker 1>go again and try again, always, always, always like you

0:28:16.800 --> 0:28:18.800
<v Speaker 1>can't help it, but here that yourself.

0:28:19.880 --> 0:28:31.679
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, yeah, it's true.

0:28:32.000 --> 0:28:34.560
<v Speaker 1>What about coaching, I mean you you were coaching the

0:28:34.600 --> 0:28:37.800
<v Speaker 1>little kids and instructing really more, I guess.

0:28:38.080 --> 0:28:38.320
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

0:28:38.480 --> 0:28:41.680
<v Speaker 1>Then you know, did you that drew you back in

0:28:41.680 --> 0:28:44.400
<v Speaker 1>in a deeper level? I understand you continued, Then you

0:28:44.440 --> 0:28:46.560
<v Speaker 1>got hired to actually be a.

0:28:46.480 --> 0:28:48.840
<v Speaker 2>Coach, yeah, at the club.

0:28:49.600 --> 0:28:49.920
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>So so that first season back in Steamboat, I was

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<v Speaker 4>plumbing and doing the volunteer position with the young kids

0:28:57.600 --> 0:29:01.080
<v Speaker 4>and then got to a place with plumbing where I

0:29:01.160 --> 0:29:02.760
<v Speaker 4>needed I didn't want to.

0:29:02.680 --> 0:29:03.440
<v Speaker 2>Do it anymore.

0:29:05.040 --> 0:29:12.960
<v Speaker 3>I quit that and going into that following season, I yeah.

0:29:13.000 --> 0:29:16.360
<v Speaker 4>I went to the director, my friend Tori, and was like,

0:29:17.520 --> 0:29:19.280
<v Speaker 4>I want to do this full time. Is there a

0:29:19.320 --> 0:29:25.880
<v Speaker 4>position for it? And I became head coach of what

0:29:26.080 --> 0:29:28.960
<v Speaker 4>was called the Junior and Senior teams at Sema Springs

0:29:29.000 --> 0:29:35.240
<v Speaker 4>Winner Sports Club, which was basically a group of nine

0:29:35.720 --> 0:29:40.320
<v Speaker 4>to nineteen year olds that competed in all the different

0:29:40.360 --> 0:29:45.480
<v Speaker 4>disciplines of snowboarding, so you know giant Solomon, slalom, border cross,

0:29:45.600 --> 0:29:50.360
<v Speaker 4>slope style, halfpipe, rail jams, all the different disciplines. We

0:29:50.520 --> 0:29:52.560
<v Speaker 4>just had a big group of kids and I was

0:29:52.640 --> 0:29:55.840
<v Speaker 4>the head coach of that that had a couple of

0:29:55.880 --> 0:30:02.040
<v Speaker 4>coaches under me that we work together to like, yeah,

0:30:02.120 --> 0:30:04.280
<v Speaker 4>bring these kids to competition.

0:30:03.760 --> 0:30:06.880
<v Speaker 3>And help them. You know, when they're younger, you.

0:30:06.920 --> 0:30:10.640
<v Speaker 4>Help them discover well, you want to have them try

0:30:10.680 --> 0:30:13.760
<v Speaker 4>everything and have them support them in doing everything. And

0:30:13.800 --> 0:30:18.480
<v Speaker 4>then as they were getting older and you know those sixteen, seventeen, eighteen,

0:30:18.560 --> 0:30:22.600
<v Speaker 4>nineteen year olds, we were it was very specialized training

0:30:22.760 --> 0:30:26.080
<v Speaker 4>in whatever discipline they were specializing in.

0:30:26.680 --> 0:30:30.040
<v Speaker 2>What did you learn about like being a good coach.

0:30:30.160 --> 0:30:33.480
<v Speaker 1>I mean, you had always been coached, but what what

0:30:33.560 --> 0:30:35.800
<v Speaker 1>was it like for you to be in that other position.

0:30:38.000 --> 0:30:43.720
<v Speaker 4>It was challenging in a whole new way. And what

0:30:43.800 --> 0:30:48.240
<v Speaker 4>was interesting was once I got named to that position,

0:30:48.320 --> 0:30:51.200
<v Speaker 4>I was really excited and I knew I had things

0:30:51.240 --> 0:30:56.160
<v Speaker 4>to share with the athletes. But then going back to

0:30:56.240 --> 0:31:00.360
<v Speaker 4>my first competitions as a coach, even though they were

0:31:00.400 --> 0:31:10.200
<v Speaker 4>like small regional events in Colorado, it was a weird

0:31:09.560 --> 0:31:13.080
<v Speaker 4>I still had lingering resentment for competition.

0:31:13.600 --> 0:31:16.080
<v Speaker 1>You mean, going back literally to places that where you

0:31:16.160 --> 0:31:19.320
<v Speaker 1>had competed. Yeah, so it's almost like you, I mean

0:31:19.320 --> 0:31:21.959
<v Speaker 1>you had memories like, well, okay, four years ago, I

0:31:22.000 --> 0:31:23.600
<v Speaker 1>was here and I did this on this mountain.

0:31:24.360 --> 0:31:29.040
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, and even just I mean it was different mountains sometimes,

0:31:29.080 --> 0:31:35.080
<v Speaker 4>but just bringing kids into the world of competition when

0:31:35.240 --> 0:31:40.680
<v Speaker 4>I still blamed competition for taking away my love of

0:31:40.720 --> 0:31:43.880
<v Speaker 4>the sport, which in the last twelve months or whatever,

0:31:43.960 --> 0:31:47.400
<v Speaker 4>I had just regained. I just figured out how to

0:31:47.440 --> 0:31:49.640
<v Speaker 4>love snowboarding again and connect to it in.

0:31:49.600 --> 0:31:50.400
<v Speaker 3>A whole new way.

0:31:50.840 --> 0:31:53.560
<v Speaker 4>And then I was bringing kids into the world that

0:31:53.880 --> 0:31:56.640
<v Speaker 4>I believed took that love away from me.

0:31:57.120 --> 0:32:00.200
<v Speaker 1>How did you reconcile those those mixed feelings.

0:32:00.880 --> 0:32:09.480
<v Speaker 4>It is challenging. And what ended up happening was I

0:32:09.760 --> 0:32:14.600
<v Speaker 4>learned or I came to believe that there is no

0:32:15.240 --> 0:32:19.640
<v Speaker 4>one way an athlete connects to their sport. There is

0:32:19.680 --> 0:32:25.320
<v Speaker 4>no one avenue and it is honestly, the coaches are

0:32:26.760 --> 0:32:28.760
<v Speaker 4>The coaches are the last people that should tell an

0:32:28.800 --> 0:32:31.600
<v Speaker 4>athlete how they connect to their sport. It's up to

0:32:31.680 --> 0:32:37.240
<v Speaker 4>a coach to help an athlete discover how they themselves

0:32:37.280 --> 0:32:42.920
<v Speaker 4>connect to their sport and then support them in creating

0:32:43.720 --> 0:32:49.920
<v Speaker 4>environments that like pave that path and give them opportunities

0:32:49.960 --> 0:32:55.200
<v Speaker 4>to like stay connected to their that avenue that they need.

0:32:55.480 --> 0:33:00.239
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I think another way of thinking about that in

0:33:00.320 --> 0:33:04.200
<v Speaker 1>a broader scope. I think even outside of snowboarding or

0:33:04.360 --> 0:33:06.240
<v Speaker 1>skiing or the sports world at all, it's.

0:33:06.120 --> 0:33:07.720
<v Speaker 2>Like, you know, you kind of can't.

0:33:07.760 --> 0:33:10.400
<v Speaker 1>You know one thing I've written a sercrets you can't

0:33:10.400 --> 0:33:13.800
<v Speaker 1>fake the core like you cannot you cannot fake what's

0:33:13.840 --> 0:33:16.120
<v Speaker 1>like truly within you. And of course for you to

0:33:16.200 --> 0:33:20.560
<v Speaker 1>be like a pro athlete, you have to have your

0:33:20.560 --> 0:33:23.360
<v Speaker 1>own We began our conversation saying like you had to

0:33:23.400 --> 0:33:26.080
<v Speaker 1>have your why, right, That's how you come back was about,

0:33:26.320 --> 0:33:30.040
<v Speaker 1>and in some ways also what your retirement was about

0:33:30.400 --> 0:33:31.760
<v Speaker 1>is that, like you lost your why.

0:33:31.960 --> 0:33:33.240
<v Speaker 2>You're like, what am I doing here?

0:33:33.280 --> 0:33:36.280
<v Speaker 1>I'm hurting, I'm injuring myself, I'm resentful, I'm stressed out

0:33:36.280 --> 0:33:40.440
<v Speaker 1>about other people outshining me or feeling competitive with them.

0:33:40.520 --> 0:33:42.840
<v Speaker 1>And you know, I think that that's such a core

0:33:42.840 --> 0:33:46.880
<v Speaker 1>and essential truth of the human experience, right. We always

0:33:46.960 --> 0:33:49.280
<v Speaker 1>have to know why we're doing something, especially when it

0:33:49.320 --> 0:33:51.800
<v Speaker 1>demands so much from us to do exactly.

0:33:52.160 --> 0:33:56.800
<v Speaker 4>Yes, yeah, I couldn't say it better. And so yeah,

0:33:56.840 --> 0:34:01.920
<v Speaker 4>being a coach healed me in so many ways, and.

0:34:01.840 --> 0:34:07.240
<v Speaker 5>It my why as a coach became helping others.

0:34:06.920 --> 0:34:12.120
<v Speaker 4>Find their why and learning there is no wrong why

0:34:12.760 --> 0:34:16.680
<v Speaker 4>right for somebody, and you know, as long as it's

0:34:16.680 --> 0:34:17.799
<v Speaker 4>like healthy and doesn't hurt.

0:34:17.880 --> 0:34:18.879
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well have healthy why.

0:34:19.400 --> 0:34:23.280
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, a healthy why. But that was really magical.

0:34:23.440 --> 0:34:26.520
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you know, like I want to continue talking to

0:34:26.520 --> 0:34:28.839
<v Speaker 1>you about your journey, but like I can't help at

0:34:28.840 --> 0:34:31.279
<v Speaker 1>this juncture and our conversation where we're talking about whys

0:34:31.320 --> 0:34:33.200
<v Speaker 1>and helping other people find their why. I actually have

0:34:33.239 --> 0:34:35.640
<v Speaker 1>a dear Sugar letter that I want you to help

0:34:35.680 --> 0:34:36.160
<v Speaker 1>me answer it.

0:34:36.200 --> 0:34:37.759
<v Speaker 2>That's kind of adjacent to this.

0:34:38.040 --> 0:34:39.440
<v Speaker 1>So can we just pause and I'll read it to you,

0:34:39.480 --> 0:34:42.600
<v Speaker 1>and we'll give this this pers of advice, and then

0:34:42.640 --> 0:34:45.200
<v Speaker 1>we're going to go back to a great comeback of

0:34:45.280 --> 0:34:46.080
<v Speaker 1>Mattie Shaffrick.

0:34:46.160 --> 0:34:47.319
<v Speaker 2>Okay, I'll read it to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, deer, Sugar, I'm twenty four and I still have

0:34:51.719 --> 0:34:54.320
<v Speaker 1>no idea what I want to do with my life.

0:34:54.880 --> 0:34:56.600
<v Speaker 2>Shouldn't I have figured that out by now.

0:34:57.080 --> 0:35:00.320
<v Speaker 1>I graduated college nearly two years ago, and after trying

0:35:00.280 --> 0:35:02.319
<v Speaker 1>in a bit with friends, I moved back in with

0:35:02.360 --> 0:35:04.359
<v Speaker 1>my parents and got a job at a high end

0:35:04.400 --> 0:35:07.520
<v Speaker 1>thrift store. I still live with my parents, and that's

0:35:07.560 --> 0:35:10.680
<v Speaker 1>not the problem. We like living together, and rent in

0:35:10.680 --> 0:35:14.200
<v Speaker 1>our city is insanely expensive. The problem is I feel

0:35:14.200 --> 0:35:17.720
<v Speaker 1>like I'm just drifting along, not really going in any direction.

0:35:18.520 --> 0:35:20.840
<v Speaker 1>My job is fine and even fun at times, but

0:35:20.880 --> 0:35:23.520
<v Speaker 1>it's not where I see myself in five years. My

0:35:23.640 --> 0:35:25.799
<v Speaker 1>issue is when I think about five years from now,

0:35:25.920 --> 0:35:28.359
<v Speaker 1>I can't imagine what I'll be doing because I don't

0:35:28.400 --> 0:35:30.960
<v Speaker 1>know what I want to do. This seems like such

0:35:30.960 --> 0:35:33.640
<v Speaker 1>a whiny letter, I know, But will you please give

0:35:33.640 --> 0:35:36.960
<v Speaker 1>me some advice, Sugar? How do I create a meaningful life?

0:35:37.480 --> 0:35:39.279
<v Speaker 1>How do I find that thing inside of me that

0:35:39.320 --> 0:35:42.080
<v Speaker 1>will make me feel passionate about a particular career path.

0:35:42.640 --> 0:35:44.560
<v Speaker 1>I envy my friends who already know what they want

0:35:44.600 --> 0:35:47.160
<v Speaker 1>to do, but so far I just don't have that.

0:35:47.760 --> 0:35:50.280
<v Speaker 1>How do people like me find their life's purpose?

0:35:50.440 --> 0:35:54.560
<v Speaker 2>Thanks? Signed Drifter? Okay, do you see why?

0:35:55.000 --> 0:35:57.080
<v Speaker 1>Like it is kind of adjacent this thing of all

0:35:57.160 --> 0:36:00.759
<v Speaker 1>totally this person she's really asking like, what's my why

0:36:01.000 --> 0:36:03.480
<v Speaker 1>have I'm lost in drifting totally?

0:36:04.239 --> 0:36:07.600
<v Speaker 4>And I, yeah, I feel like that's so common.

0:36:08.360 --> 0:36:08.880
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:36:09.000 --> 0:36:10.600
<v Speaker 1>First, I want to say to Drifter, and I think

0:36:10.600 --> 0:36:15.560
<v Speaker 1>Maddie's going to agree with me. Twenty four is very young. Yeah,

0:36:15.560 --> 0:36:18.760
<v Speaker 1>And so first of all, let's dispense with that self shame,

0:36:18.960 --> 0:36:20.839
<v Speaker 1>like shouldn't I have figured it out by now? And

0:36:20.880 --> 0:36:23.480
<v Speaker 1>I want to say to you, Drifter, like, at every

0:36:23.520 --> 0:36:26.799
<v Speaker 1>age you know, people say shouldn't I already fill in

0:36:26.800 --> 0:36:28.960
<v Speaker 1>the blank? And the answer is always know, because of

0:36:28.960 --> 0:36:33.399
<v Speaker 1>course we evolve and grow all the time, and you know,

0:36:33.520 --> 0:36:37.120
<v Speaker 1>a sense of seeking in bewilderment is almost always part

0:36:37.160 --> 0:36:39.919
<v Speaker 1>of our lives in different ways over all of our lives.

0:36:39.920 --> 0:36:41.680
<v Speaker 2>So stop lambasting yourself for.

0:36:41.719 --> 0:36:43.640
<v Speaker 1>Not figuring it out by now. You're only twenty four.

0:36:44.440 --> 0:36:45.399
<v Speaker 1>Do you back me up on that.

0:36:45.400 --> 0:36:52.879
<v Speaker 4>Maddie, absolutely, one hundred percent. Yeah, I think it's it's

0:36:52.920 --> 0:36:56.920
<v Speaker 4>hard when, Yeah, our society kind of creates an expectation

0:36:57.000 --> 0:37:00.359
<v Speaker 4>that you should know what you want to do with

0:37:00.400 --> 0:37:04.520
<v Speaker 4>your life, especially yeah, at twenty four or at like

0:37:04.760 --> 0:37:05.520
<v Speaker 4>any age.

0:37:05.600 --> 0:37:06.680
<v Speaker 3>There are so many.

0:37:06.400 --> 0:37:10.440
<v Speaker 4>People I feel like that are also doing things that

0:37:10.920 --> 0:37:14.720
<v Speaker 4>they don't connect with because they like jumped into something

0:37:14.760 --> 0:37:19.040
<v Speaker 4>before they yeah they wanted or you know, I know

0:37:19.080 --> 0:37:23.480
<v Speaker 4>it's hard than there's so many different circumstances and that

0:37:23.520 --> 0:37:24.200
<v Speaker 4>people deal with.

0:37:24.239 --> 0:37:27.440
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, be kind to yourself with that one.

0:37:27.520 --> 0:37:30.400
<v Speaker 4>Drifter, I think you're I'm in that boat with you

0:37:30.560 --> 0:37:31.319
<v Speaker 4>sometimes too.

0:37:31.360 --> 0:37:34.520
<v Speaker 1>Still, yeah, you know, I mean, I think that you

0:37:34.560 --> 0:37:37.719
<v Speaker 1>make a really good point because it's actually for me,

0:37:37.960 --> 0:37:40.840
<v Speaker 1>I feel like sort of hidden beneath the way that

0:37:40.920 --> 0:37:44.479
<v Speaker 1>drifter thinks about her life. And it is a woman

0:37:44.520 --> 0:37:48.319
<v Speaker 1>who wrote I always ask their pronouns and she said,

0:37:48.360 --> 0:37:53.120
<v Speaker 1>you see her. So I think that what's really interesting

0:37:53.600 --> 0:37:57.160
<v Speaker 1>is that the fact that you're even asking about how

0:37:57.200 --> 0:38:00.719
<v Speaker 1>to find your sense of purpose and meaning tells me

0:38:00.800 --> 0:38:03.400
<v Speaker 1>that like, you aren't just you aren't just drifting, you know,

0:38:03.560 --> 0:38:05.680
<v Speaker 1>because just like you said, Maddie, like a lot of people,

0:38:05.719 --> 0:38:08.480
<v Speaker 1>they just followed the path. They graduate high school, they

0:38:08.480 --> 0:38:10.880
<v Speaker 1>graduate college, they get the job that's quote unquote in

0:38:10.920 --> 0:38:14.200
<v Speaker 1>their field, and they don't have that sense of purpose

0:38:14.239 --> 0:38:17.040
<v Speaker 1>and meaning. And so Drifter, what you're doing is like

0:38:17.120 --> 0:38:19.440
<v Speaker 1>you're not just leaping in the direction of like whatever

0:38:19.560 --> 0:38:22.319
<v Speaker 1>your family or society tells you you should do. You're

0:38:22.360 --> 0:38:25.239
<v Speaker 1>actually searching your soul and saying, what do I want?

0:38:25.840 --> 0:38:27.680
<v Speaker 1>And you know, my first piece of advice it's kind

0:38:27.760 --> 0:38:30.640
<v Speaker 1>of adjacent to to something you said earlier, you know,

0:38:30.680 --> 0:38:35.480
<v Speaker 1>like going back out there teaching these little kids who

0:38:35.480 --> 0:38:37.080
<v Speaker 1>were you know, the same agency when you fell in

0:38:37.080 --> 0:38:39.560
<v Speaker 1>love with snowboard snowboarding, like how to how to snowboard.

0:38:40.000 --> 0:38:42.600
<v Speaker 1>It's like you're going back into this thing you love

0:38:42.800 --> 0:38:45.200
<v Speaker 1>at the at the juncture that you most loved it,

0:38:45.520 --> 0:38:48.160
<v Speaker 1>which is that when you first were like excited about it.

0:38:48.239 --> 0:38:49.960
<v Speaker 1>And so my first bit of a Bysdrifter is like,

0:38:50.480 --> 0:38:51.960
<v Speaker 1>you know, make a list right now, get out a

0:38:51.960 --> 0:38:54.520
<v Speaker 1>piece of paper. I'm a huge fanatic for list when

0:38:54.520 --> 0:38:57.000
<v Speaker 1>it comes to solving all of your life's problems. I

0:38:57.040 --> 0:38:58.200
<v Speaker 1>can't help it. I'm a virgo.

0:38:58.400 --> 0:39:01.520
<v Speaker 2>I like to live things. But all the things you

0:39:02.080 --> 0:39:03.359
<v Speaker 2>just love to do.

0:39:03.800 --> 0:39:06.520
<v Speaker 1>It can be everything from like you know, watching seventeen

0:39:06.560 --> 0:39:08.759
<v Speaker 1>episodes of murder she wrote and wrote, or you know

0:39:09.040 --> 0:39:12.319
<v Speaker 1>like reading books or you know whatever it is, you know,

0:39:12.360 --> 0:39:14.640
<v Speaker 1>going running, like all the things you love to do,

0:39:15.239 --> 0:39:19.680
<v Speaker 1>and then think about ways that you could find deeper

0:39:19.719 --> 0:39:22.279
<v Speaker 1>meaning maybe in work that is somehow connected to those things,

0:39:22.320 --> 0:39:25.120
<v Speaker 1>Like just start to think about you know, begin with

0:39:25.200 --> 0:39:27.759
<v Speaker 1>that place of what do I like and love?

0:39:28.800 --> 0:39:31.279
<v Speaker 3>Yeah? Yeah, I like that?

0:39:31.360 --> 0:39:33.920
<v Speaker 4>And also what comes to mind for me is like

0:39:35.760 --> 0:39:40.080
<v Speaker 4>she mentioned, she when she envisions five years from now,

0:39:40.200 --> 0:39:41.680
<v Speaker 4>she doesn't know what she wants to do.

0:39:44.000 --> 0:39:46.719
<v Speaker 3>What's been helpful for me?

0:39:46.760 --> 0:39:48.840
<v Speaker 4>And I can get into this later, but I guess

0:39:48.840 --> 0:39:52.880
<v Speaker 4>my advice would be when you envision yourself in five years,

0:39:53.280 --> 0:39:55.759
<v Speaker 4>maybe you don't envision what you want to do or

0:39:55.800 --> 0:39:57.320
<v Speaker 4>what you're doing, but who.

0:39:57.160 --> 0:40:00.239
<v Speaker 3>You want to be and how you want to be.

0:40:00.200 --> 0:40:02.880
<v Speaker 7>And what what's.

0:40:02.360 --> 0:40:05.680
<v Speaker 3>What values do you want to live by?

0:40:06.000 --> 0:40:11.360
<v Speaker 4>And like what strength do you want to have that

0:40:11.360 --> 0:40:15.400
<v Speaker 4>that push you? And then yeah, and then maybe with

0:40:15.480 --> 0:40:18.560
<v Speaker 4>that list of of things that you love that you

0:40:18.640 --> 0:40:24.239
<v Speaker 4>connect with, like what in that what in that list

0:40:24.600 --> 0:40:27.600
<v Speaker 4>support the vision of who you want to be and

0:40:27.680 --> 0:40:29.320
<v Speaker 4>how you want to be in this world.

0:40:29.560 --> 0:40:30.680
<v Speaker 2>Oh that's so beautiful.

0:40:31.040 --> 0:40:35.200
<v Speaker 1>Okay, Mattie, I think we just solved an incredible human

0:40:35.520 --> 0:40:39.160
<v Speaker 1>struggle just right here, very concisely, because it is what

0:40:39.280 --> 0:40:41.759
<v Speaker 1>do you love and who do you want to be?

0:40:43.360 --> 0:40:45.759
<v Speaker 1>You put those two together, that is that is a

0:40:45.800 --> 0:40:46.520
<v Speaker 1>meaningful life.

0:40:46.880 --> 0:40:48.000
<v Speaker 2>That is a meaningful life.

0:40:48.040 --> 0:40:51.880
<v Speaker 1>You know what what qualities do you want to you know,

0:40:52.000 --> 0:40:57.200
<v Speaker 1>live out in your life? For me, like, it's kindness,

0:40:57.280 --> 0:41:01.399
<v Speaker 1>it's generosity, it's it's love, you know, And then how

0:41:01.520 --> 0:41:04.279
<v Speaker 1>you know, how can I be a conduit for that?

0:41:04.800 --> 0:41:05.000
<v Speaker 4>You know?

0:41:05.280 --> 0:41:07.480
<v Speaker 1>Almost always the answer is like by by you know,

0:41:07.520 --> 0:41:09.560
<v Speaker 1>if you gravit, if you if you do the things

0:41:09.560 --> 0:41:11.480
<v Speaker 1>you love, you end up being pretty good at it,

0:41:12.120 --> 0:41:15.200
<v Speaker 1>right you usually, I mean there's a reason you weren't

0:41:15.200 --> 0:41:19.160
<v Speaker 1>a good plumber and you're a really good snowboarder exactly.

0:41:20.880 --> 0:41:26.160
<v Speaker 1>So like trust that drifter and we wish you good luck.

0:41:26.360 --> 0:41:30.720
<v Speaker 3>Right, yeah, you will find your way. You're going to

0:41:30.719 --> 0:41:32.360
<v Speaker 3>be asking yeaheah, You're.

0:41:32.200 --> 0:41:35.000
<v Speaker 1>Going to drift you down that river into a beautiful,

0:41:35.040 --> 0:41:35.759
<v Speaker 1>beautiful life.

0:41:35.760 --> 0:41:36.759
<v Speaker 2>I know that for sure.

0:41:38.040 --> 0:41:41.600
<v Speaker 1>So back to your beautiful life, miss Maddie.

0:41:41.880 --> 0:41:44.959
<v Speaker 2>We left off you were you were coaching, and you also.

0:41:44.760 --> 0:41:49.320
<v Speaker 1>Then went on to coach the US Ski and Snowboard team.

0:41:49.480 --> 0:41:50.000
<v Speaker 2>Is that right?

0:41:50.040 --> 0:41:52.400
<v Speaker 1>You you advanced as a coach, if you will, And

0:41:52.440 --> 0:41:55.080
<v Speaker 1>I think it was there that you really came to

0:41:55.120 --> 0:41:57.480
<v Speaker 1>that decision to come back to snowboarding yourself. Can you

0:41:57.520 --> 0:42:00.680
<v Speaker 1>tell us about that, like brought that on?

0:42:01.480 --> 0:42:03.560
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, totally, So, Yeah I did.

0:42:03.640 --> 0:42:07.319
<v Speaker 4>I coached at the club level for seven years and

0:42:07.560 --> 0:42:10.680
<v Speaker 4>the last two of those seven years I was directing

0:42:10.680 --> 0:42:15.640
<v Speaker 4>the snowboard program and that role led me to US

0:42:15.680 --> 0:42:24.399
<v Speaker 4>team coach job opening and I I started, I got

0:42:24.400 --> 0:42:28.239
<v Speaker 4>back on the road and I started being in that

0:42:28.360 --> 0:42:32.960
<v Speaker 4>like World Cup circuit, international competitions again for the first

0:42:33.000 --> 0:42:35.680
<v Speaker 4>time since I.

0:42:35.600 --> 0:42:36.600
<v Speaker 3>Was competing in them.

0:42:36.880 --> 0:42:37.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:42:37.600 --> 0:42:43.120
<v Speaker 4>And I think just being back in that environment, It's

0:42:43.160 --> 0:42:46.520
<v Speaker 4>funny because the seven years I was coaching at the

0:42:46.560 --> 0:42:51.040
<v Speaker 4>club level two I did, I learned so much about myself.

0:42:51.160 --> 0:42:53.960
<v Speaker 3>I really I healed so much of my.

0:42:55.960 --> 0:42:59.439
<v Speaker 4>You know, the the negative experiences or beliefs I had

0:42:59.480 --> 0:43:03.600
<v Speaker 4>around snowboarding. I really felt like all of that had healed.

0:43:04.239 --> 0:43:08.120
<v Speaker 4>And then I went back into that environment and was like.

0:43:10.280 --> 0:43:14.360
<v Speaker 3>Instantly kind of realized. I was like, oh, there's I

0:43:14.480 --> 0:43:15.240
<v Speaker 3>still felt.

0:43:15.760 --> 0:43:20.120
<v Speaker 4>What onearthed in me was regret.

0:43:20.640 --> 0:43:21.440
<v Speaker 2>Regret, What.

0:43:23.320 --> 0:43:29.080
<v Speaker 4>About my time in that in that industry and at

0:43:29.080 --> 0:43:29.640
<v Speaker 4>that place.

0:43:33.360 --> 0:43:36.520
<v Speaker 1>You mean regret that you had competed at that level

0:43:36.560 --> 0:43:39.560
<v Speaker 1>at such a young age when you weren't really emotionally

0:43:39.760 --> 0:43:42.200
<v Speaker 1>ready for it, or regret that you had done that

0:43:42.280 --> 0:43:42.600
<v Speaker 1>at all.

0:43:43.280 --> 0:43:46.520
<v Speaker 3>It was it was regret in how I had done it.

0:43:47.560 --> 0:43:52.319
<v Speaker 3>I felt as though I didn't do it well.

0:43:52.480 --> 0:43:55.960
<v Speaker 4>I felt as though I had wasted all of my opportunities.

0:43:56.000 --> 0:43:57.520
<v Speaker 3>I had wasted my talent.

0:43:57.760 --> 0:44:02.240
<v Speaker 4>I did not regret being in that position and being

0:44:02.360 --> 0:44:05.719
<v Speaker 4>in that environment, but I regretted, Yeah, how I went

0:44:05.840 --> 0:44:09.680
<v Speaker 4>through it. I regretted those like last few years when

0:44:09.760 --> 0:44:14.560
<v Speaker 4>things were dark and when I yeah, when I looked

0:44:14.719 --> 0:44:19.120
<v Speaker 4>to partying, or when I compared myself to everyone else,

0:44:19.320 --> 0:44:23.799
<v Speaker 4>or when I like talked so negatively to myself and

0:44:23.880 --> 0:44:26.680
<v Speaker 4>I did not believe in myself at all.

0:44:26.840 --> 0:44:28.879
<v Speaker 3>Those last few years of competition.

0:44:30.040 --> 0:44:34.080
<v Speaker 4>I yeah, I just straight up I didn't believe in myself,

0:44:34.080 --> 0:44:34.880
<v Speaker 4>and I regretted.

0:44:35.440 --> 0:44:37.240
<v Speaker 3>I regretted giving up on myself.

0:44:38.440 --> 0:44:42.080
<v Speaker 1>So part of this move, this decision to come back,

0:44:42.800 --> 0:44:46.120
<v Speaker 1>was it born of this idea that you could do

0:44:46.160 --> 0:44:49.280
<v Speaker 1>it differently this time because you were healed exactly?

0:44:50.400 --> 0:44:51.520
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I.

0:44:53.120 --> 0:44:57.400
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I saw there could be a possibility to do

0:44:57.440 --> 0:45:01.400
<v Speaker 4>it differently and to do it in a way where

0:45:02.280 --> 0:45:05.760
<v Speaker 4>I believed in myself. And that's where what I mentioned

0:45:05.800 --> 0:45:09.000
<v Speaker 4>at the beginning of our conversation with me wanting to

0:45:09.040 --> 0:45:12.680
<v Speaker 4>see what I was truly capable of. That are you

0:45:12.719 --> 0:45:17.480
<v Speaker 4>capable of anything I want? Is what I've learned. If

0:45:17.520 --> 0:45:21.200
<v Speaker 4>I really want it, if I really if I have

0:45:23.480 --> 0:45:25.840
<v Speaker 4>that energy going that way, if I want.

0:45:25.680 --> 0:45:27.040
<v Speaker 3>It, I can make it happen.

0:45:27.080 --> 0:45:30.120
<v Speaker 4>And it is not going to be easy, but I

0:45:30.160 --> 0:45:32.360
<v Speaker 4>can make it through hard times.

0:45:32.920 --> 0:45:35.239
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I can push myself.

0:45:35.320 --> 0:45:38.640
<v Speaker 4>And I because I believe in myself for the first time,

0:45:38.760 --> 0:45:42.759
<v Speaker 4>and that that has been my greatest gift of all

0:45:42.800 --> 0:45:45.600
<v Speaker 4>of this. Like, yes, going to the Olympics was awesome

0:45:45.680 --> 0:45:49.399
<v Speaker 4>and that was a dream come true. And what has

0:45:49.480 --> 0:45:53.279
<v Speaker 4>felt like more of an achievement is learning how to

0:45:53.320 --> 0:45:57.000
<v Speaker 4>believe in myself over and over again. And I'm re

0:45:58.239 --> 0:46:03.120
<v Speaker 4>wiring my brain and rewriting. You know.

0:46:03.160 --> 0:46:05.520
<v Speaker 3>We talked about like the patterns and like.

0:46:06.960 --> 0:46:11.400
<v Speaker 1>You know, the yeah, just stories that tell ourselves like

0:46:11.440 --> 0:46:15.120
<v Speaker 1>who we're out there feeling afraid and ashamed and less

0:46:15.120 --> 0:46:19.919
<v Speaker 1>than and and and small inside telling yourself here, Yeah,

0:46:19.960 --> 0:46:22.080
<v Speaker 1>and that's that you're you're repeating and then you become

0:46:22.160 --> 0:46:24.399
<v Speaker 1>that way right and true too.

0:46:24.440 --> 0:46:27.120
<v Speaker 2>When you what do you what do you tell yourself?

0:46:27.120 --> 0:46:30.600
<v Speaker 1>I mean, do you actually have like a mantra or

0:46:30.760 --> 0:46:32.239
<v Speaker 1>certain self talk that you use.

0:46:33.040 --> 0:46:34.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, when you're competing.

0:46:34.640 --> 0:46:39.520
<v Speaker 4>It changes almost competition of competition it changes.

0:46:40.200 --> 0:46:40.839
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:46:40.920 --> 0:46:46.759
<v Speaker 4>And I've been grateful for the awareness within myself and

0:46:46.800 --> 0:46:52.360
<v Speaker 4>the presence it's taken to like listen in each in

0:46:52.440 --> 0:46:55.359
<v Speaker 4>each new competition, each new week, each new training day

0:46:55.400 --> 0:46:58.040
<v Speaker 4>to really figure out what I need to tell myself

0:46:58.080 --> 0:47:00.160
<v Speaker 4>that day that's going to resonate and help me.

0:47:00.960 --> 0:47:04.279
<v Speaker 1>And what about comparison? I mean, you you said that

0:47:04.280 --> 0:47:06.080
<v Speaker 1>that was a big problem for you before, is that

0:47:06.080 --> 0:47:09.280
<v Speaker 1>you would look at other people and be feel less

0:47:09.280 --> 0:47:12.759
<v Speaker 1>then because they were achieving something you wanted. How do

0:47:12.800 --> 0:47:15.880
<v Speaker 1>you view your your competitors now?

0:47:17.120 --> 0:47:20.160
<v Speaker 4>Well, I'll say that like none of it has gone

0:47:20.320 --> 0:47:26.960
<v Speaker 4>away completely because I mean I created some deep trenches

0:47:27.040 --> 0:47:28.480
<v Speaker 4>for those thought patterns.

0:47:29.040 --> 0:47:32.000
<v Speaker 1>Oh, I love it, real talk.

0:47:32.040 --> 0:47:33.800
<v Speaker 2>I'm not totally healed, Yeah.

0:47:33.960 --> 0:47:35.120
<v Speaker 3>No, absolutely not.

0:47:35.360 --> 0:47:37.160
<v Speaker 2>But hey, this is the thing A mind never mand me.

0:47:37.280 --> 0:47:39.520
<v Speaker 1>Like, you don't get to the mountaintop, you know at

0:47:39.560 --> 0:47:41.040
<v Speaker 1>the beginning, You've got to keep walking.

0:47:41.120 --> 0:47:42.960
<v Speaker 2>You know, it's a life. It's a lifelong.

0:47:42.640 --> 0:47:47.319
<v Speaker 4>Journey exactly, exactly, And so yeah, the comparison thing is

0:47:47.360 --> 0:47:51.800
<v Speaker 4>still real for me. The negative self talk is still

0:47:51.800 --> 0:47:54.520
<v Speaker 4>real for me, Like it comes up and sometimes it's

0:47:54.600 --> 0:48:00.440
<v Speaker 4>it feels like my default to go there first. But

0:48:00.560 --> 0:48:06.160
<v Speaker 4>what's been different is now I can recognize it, yeah,

0:48:06.200 --> 0:48:07.799
<v Speaker 4>and I hear it, and I see it for what

0:48:07.880 --> 0:48:11.479
<v Speaker 4>it is, and I know even if it feels really

0:48:11.600 --> 0:48:14.880
<v Speaker 4>true or I know it's not helpful.

0:48:15.000 --> 0:48:17.759
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, or it's just like a member of what I

0:48:17.800 --> 0:48:20.400
<v Speaker 1>do in writing, you know, fear and anxiety is always

0:48:20.400 --> 0:48:22.680
<v Speaker 1>a part of writing for me and for most writers.

0:48:23.480 --> 0:48:26.080
<v Speaker 1>What I've come to realize is like, oh, okay, you're

0:48:26.120 --> 0:48:28.560
<v Speaker 1>just like one of the voices at the table, and

0:48:28.719 --> 0:48:31.000
<v Speaker 1>you're you're the one who's not going to be my ruler,

0:48:31.280 --> 0:48:33.800
<v Speaker 1>Like I'm going to say thank you for your input,

0:48:33.920 --> 0:48:35.080
<v Speaker 1>now sit down and shut.

0:48:34.920 --> 0:48:36.319
<v Speaker 2>Up, and I'm going to get to work.

0:48:36.920 --> 0:48:39.359
<v Speaker 1>And I think that what you're describing kind of can

0:48:39.400 --> 0:48:42.040
<v Speaker 1>be similar where you're never maybe ever going to purge

0:48:42.040 --> 0:48:45.680
<v Speaker 1>that sense of like that comparison that can be really depleting,

0:48:45.800 --> 0:48:47.120
<v Speaker 1>but you're not going to let.

0:48:46.960 --> 0:48:48.080
<v Speaker 2>It devour you anymore.

0:48:48.680 --> 0:48:49.200
<v Speaker 3>Exactly.

0:48:59.200 --> 0:49:02.000
<v Speaker 1>In the beginning of our conversation you wrote, I cited

0:49:02.040 --> 0:49:05.799
<v Speaker 1>your your Instagram posts this season for the books. Tell

0:49:05.840 --> 0:49:09.319
<v Speaker 1>me about like what, you know, what has that been like?

0:49:09.440 --> 0:49:13.279
<v Speaker 1>Now out there back at it at a really high

0:49:13.400 --> 0:49:19.520
<v Speaker 1>level and you know, really having some success too. Are

0:49:19.560 --> 0:49:22.680
<v Speaker 1>you feeling you know, deep in your love and snowboarding

0:49:22.760 --> 0:49:24.320
<v Speaker 1>and where you know what is?

0:49:24.480 --> 0:49:26.799
<v Speaker 2>Tell us more about this season you've had.

0:49:27.440 --> 0:49:32.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, I I'll.

0:49:32.760 --> 0:49:35.520
<v Speaker 7>Say that I.

0:49:36.400 --> 0:49:40.920
<v Speaker 4>Last season, my first season back in competition, definitely felt

0:49:40.960 --> 0:49:47.360
<v Speaker 4>like more of the mental like I was. You know,

0:49:47.400 --> 0:49:52.880
<v Speaker 4>we're talking about those negative like default thought patterns. Last

0:49:52.960 --> 0:49:55.920
<v Speaker 4>year was way more consumed by that and trying to

0:49:56.160 --> 0:49:58.040
<v Speaker 4>change them.

0:49:58.320 --> 0:50:03.839
<v Speaker 3>This year was, you know, the Olympic year.

0:50:04.080 --> 0:50:08.799
<v Speaker 4>We had qualification events starting in December that led up

0:50:08.840 --> 0:50:13.080
<v Speaker 4>to the Olympics in February. My goal going into that

0:50:13.400 --> 0:50:17.080
<v Speaker 4>the whole year was just to be present through all

0:50:17.120 --> 0:50:21.479
<v Speaker 4>of it, because I knew if I was present, I'd

0:50:21.480 --> 0:50:24.880
<v Speaker 4>be able to know what I needed in each moment

0:50:25.200 --> 0:50:32.880
<v Speaker 4>in order to perform, and also I to choose what

0:50:33.000 --> 0:50:35.200
<v Speaker 4>I needed to feel the way I wanted to feel

0:50:35.440 --> 0:50:36.120
<v Speaker 4>while doing it.

0:50:36.520 --> 0:50:37.880
<v Speaker 2>What do you want to feel while doing it?

0:50:39.920 --> 0:50:44.759
<v Speaker 4>Freedom and joy and joy in something like that too?

0:50:44.880 --> 0:50:50.480
<v Speaker 4>Is I've recognized is really a choice. Some days are

0:50:50.680 --> 0:50:55.319
<v Speaker 4>it's easier to choose joy than others. But yeah, when

0:50:55.360 --> 0:50:57.840
<v Speaker 4>it's your career and it's a grind or like the

0:50:57.880 --> 0:51:00.200
<v Speaker 4>weather's terrible and you're tired.

0:51:01.480 --> 0:51:03.200
<v Speaker 3>To really like enjoy.

0:51:03.160 --> 0:51:06.319
<v Speaker 4>The process and where you're at in the moment, it's

0:51:07.440 --> 0:51:10.239
<v Speaker 4>is a choice. And yeah, I'm being able to like

0:51:10.239 --> 0:51:12.440
<v Speaker 4>give yourself what you need that those days, which is

0:51:12.480 --> 0:51:15.799
<v Speaker 4>sometimes calling it.

0:51:15.080 --> 0:51:18.040
<v Speaker 1>Like it looks like so much fun even though I

0:51:18.120 --> 0:51:20.760
<v Speaker 1>never ever want to do the halfpipe on a snowboard, Okay,

0:51:20.920 --> 0:51:25.600
<v Speaker 1>it looks it looks so fun. You know, it's I

0:51:25.760 --> 0:51:27.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, you say freedom and joy and it looks

0:51:27.840 --> 0:51:29.960
<v Speaker 1>like that, and of course I know there's so much

0:51:30.000 --> 0:51:34.000
<v Speaker 1>more happening inside your body. It's it's hard, it's technical,

0:51:34.120 --> 0:51:36.840
<v Speaker 1>it's you know, it's a lot of things. But I

0:51:36.960 --> 0:51:39.880
<v Speaker 1>love that you're saying these words freedom and joy because

0:51:40.920 --> 0:51:42.600
<v Speaker 1>that is how it feels to do that.

0:51:43.040 --> 0:51:50.480
<v Speaker 4>Do you sometimes but it's what it's like really going well, yeah,

0:51:50.520 --> 0:51:51.120
<v Speaker 4>and like.

0:51:51.200 --> 0:51:54.439
<v Speaker 3>When I feel those things, that's when I ride my best.

0:51:54.880 --> 0:51:58.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, which I think it's probably about like relaxation, right,

0:51:58.160 --> 0:52:01.400
<v Speaker 1>like you're actually in your body and Jack lacks and

0:52:01.440 --> 0:52:02.200
<v Speaker 1>you know what you.

0:52:02.160 --> 0:52:05.359
<v Speaker 4>Can do and you do it, yes, exactly. Yeah, you

0:52:05.360 --> 0:52:10.640
<v Speaker 4>trust yourself, you trust the process and the movement and everything. Yeah,

0:52:10.800 --> 0:52:14.920
<v Speaker 4>and it's so fun and like that's the feeling I crave.

0:52:16.000 --> 0:52:20.160
<v Speaker 4>And I don't know the exact percent of time that

0:52:20.239 --> 0:52:21.320
<v Speaker 4>I actually feel.

0:52:21.040 --> 0:52:25.400
<v Speaker 3>That, but it's not. Yeah, it's like maybe thirty percent.

0:52:26.080 --> 0:52:30.239
<v Speaker 1>If you had to say the absolute high point of

0:52:30.520 --> 0:52:34.439
<v Speaker 1>your career as a pro snowboarder so far, what would

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<v Speaker 1>it be.

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<v Speaker 4>That's a really good question. I don't know if I

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<v Speaker 4>have that yet. And I'll say.

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<v Speaker 3>Last year.

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<v Speaker 4>Last year, my first World Cup back in almost ten years,

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<v Speaker 4>I got third place and I didn't was not I

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<v Speaker 4>was not expecting that. My goal for that event was

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<v Speaker 4>to just land a run because I, you know, my

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<v Speaker 4>last few years of competition in the past, I didn't

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<v Speaker 4>know how to. I was rarely landing runs because I

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<v Speaker 4>was so like disassociated and just yeah checked out and

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<v Speaker 4>it affected my performance. And so I really just wanted

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<v Speaker 4>to land a run. And I landed a run in

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<v Speaker 4>qualifiers and in finals ended up podiuming and.

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<v Speaker 3>That result was really cool.

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<v Speaker 4>But like that was the hardest competition honestly, besides the Olympics,

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<v Speaker 4>as far as what I felt inside of myself as

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<v Speaker 4>far as nerves and self doubt and all those yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>like negative habits of the past came up and were

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<v Speaker 4>right on the surface, and I chose something different. Wow,

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<v Speaker 4>that's beautiful, and that feels like my high point so far.

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<v Speaker 2>What's next for you?

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<v Speaker 3>Well, I'm not done.

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<v Speaker 4>I feel I have learned far too much about myself

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<v Speaker 4>in the last two years, and especially in the last

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<v Speaker 4>month of the Olympics and everything, and reflecting on my

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<v Speaker 4>Olympic experience, I've learned way too much to stop now,

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<v Speaker 4>and I feel like too the hard work is like

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<v Speaker 4>just click starting to click for me, right, I like

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<v Speaker 4>laughed after the Olympics.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, it's funny.

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<v Speaker 4>I thought I was going to be peaking in a

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<v Speaker 4>year and a half after taking ten years off.

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<v Speaker 3>That's funny. But I think I could just skip up to.

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<v Speaker 4>The top my ability level at that time with that

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<v Speaker 4>amount of time.

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<v Speaker 3>So I want to keep going.

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<v Speaker 4>I do probably need another knee surgery, just because you know,

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<v Speaker 4>my last one was in twenty twelve, but that was

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<v Speaker 4>my fifth knee surgery all before I was eighteen, So

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<v Speaker 4>now my knee is just old. I'm not old. I'm

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<v Speaker 4>turning thirty two in a couple of weeks.

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<v Speaker 2>I know, Maddie, you have the same birthday as my son.

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<v Speaker 1>Really, yeah, you're exactly ten years older than my son Carver.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, what a great day.

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<v Speaker 5>I know.

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<v Speaker 4>I know.

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<v Speaker 2>Torus is unite, right.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, let's go. We're stubborn.

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<v Speaker 2>So there's some What's in your future is some more PT.

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<v Speaker 8>So if you got some good PT some time, some

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<v Speaker 8>good Yeah, I mean I actually I love writing also

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<v Speaker 8>so and it really helps me.

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<v Speaker 4>It's a good outlet for me. So then reconnect to

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<v Speaker 4>that this summer and.

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<v Speaker 3>Go from there.

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<v Speaker 4>But yeah, I've done, and I feel like I'm just

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<v Speaker 4>at the beginning.

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<v Speaker 2>You've only just begun.

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<v Speaker 3>I love it.

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<v Speaker 1>It has been such a fun pleasure to talk to you, Maddie.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you so much for taking the time to be

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<v Speaker 1>on the show. Yeah, thank you, Cheryl. This is awesome.

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