Speaker 1: The Best Bits of the Week with Morgan.
Speaker 2: Part one behind the scene with a member of the show.
Speaker 1: Here we are. It is part one this weekend of
Speaker 1: Best Bits and Eddie is joining me.
Speaker 2: Hi, Eddie.
Speaker 1: I just told Eddie before we came on, I have
Speaker 1: absolutely nothing planned for this because, honestly, like I am
Speaker 1: in a mode right now where I'm just surviving. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and I'm doing the bare minimum. Normally That's not my
Speaker 1: personality at all, but it's the only way I'm able
Speaker 1: to survive.
Speaker 2: Ran Yeah, same here.
Speaker 3: I mean, one step at a time, one day at
Speaker 3: a time, right, Like, it's just kind of what you do.
Speaker 1: Yeah, how are you? How? Like how's the family? Like,
Speaker 1: give me a little check in if you can.
Speaker 3: Yeah, the family's good. I mean we, like I said,
Speaker 3: it's just one day at a time. Some days are good,
Speaker 3: some days are better than others, you know. Just to
Speaker 3: kind of catch people up. At the start of August,
Speaker 3: my brother had a stroke. My brother, my older brother,
Speaker 3: he's been in this podcast. He's on the he called
Speaker 3: in talk about his feedex days he was he's fifty
Speaker 3: one years old, and he had a stroke and it's
Speaker 3: a little brain brain bleed in his head and it
Speaker 3: paralyzed the left side of his body mainly limbs, not
Speaker 3: so much his his face.
Speaker 1: Or anything like his speat or anything.
Speaker 3: Just like his left arm he couldn't move it, his
Speaker 3: left leg couldn't move it and really had a hard
Speaker 3: time just moving.
Speaker 2: So that happened, and then.
Speaker 3: Two three three days later, my dad had a freak accident,
Speaker 3: fell down some stairs, and you know, he ended up
Speaker 3: passing away. And it was just kind of like a boom.
Speaker 3: It was a huge bomb in my life because everything
Speaker 3: was just so sudden, like, yeah.
Speaker 1: None of it was planned for nothing.
Speaker 3: You could be nothing nothing, So yeah, it's it's that was.
Speaker 3: It's been a few weeks and we've kind of I
Speaker 3: have personally kind of just gone back into the routine
Speaker 3: of my life, which is chaotic and busy. My brother
Speaker 3: his whole rehab and like his recovery was kind of
Speaker 3: priority one after my dad passed, Like, all right, so
Speaker 3: Dad's gone, what do we do with my brother? Like
Speaker 3: we got to figure his stuff out because he didn't
Speaker 3: have health insurance and.
Speaker 2: That was a whole other deal.
Speaker 3: And luckily my sister and I we were kind of
Speaker 3: we're wired differently, my sister and I her and I
Speaker 3: are wired the same, but weird wired differently than the
Speaker 3: rest of our family, where like, all right, we got
Speaker 3: to get crap done.
Speaker 2: Let's get it done.
Speaker 1: So he kind of went into action versus the emotional
Speaker 1: side of things.
Speaker 3: Yes, we went into like how do how do we
Speaker 3: get through this? My mom obviously has been a wreck,
Speaker 3: and and my mom and my sister are really close,
Speaker 3: so my mom's like, let me take care of mom.
Speaker 3: You take care of bro, got it? Those are our
Speaker 3: assignments and so so yeah, so my brother other, you know,
Speaker 3: didn't have health insurance, so immediately we had to just
Speaker 3: kind of go like, how are we going to pay
Speaker 3: for this stuff? And we kind of got our money
Speaker 3: together and we're like, well, that's not gonna that's not
Speaker 3: going to do anything. So my sister kind of made
Speaker 3: the hard, hard decision to be like should we do
Speaker 3: a GoFundMe? Like it's just not our style, and I said,
Speaker 3: you do whatever you think we need to do, and
Speaker 3: she's like okay, So she set up a GoFundMe and
Speaker 3: Morgan the amount of money that we were able to
Speaker 3: raise from that GoFundMe, I mean just from friends and
Speaker 3: family and the B Team Facebook page, which I didn't
Speaker 3: even know it made it to the B Team Facebook
Speaker 3: page like it had gotten on there somehow. And then
Speaker 3: my sister texted me, She's like, hey, we're getting like
Speaker 3: a lot of money from B Team members. Did you
Speaker 3: say something? And I'm like, what were I say? Said
Speaker 3: something like I haven't even gone on Instagram. I haven't
Speaker 3: said anything, and she's just like, well, it's like B
Speaker 3: Team stepping up.
Speaker 2: Yeah, And I was like, oh my gosh, this is
Speaker 2: a maze.
Speaker 3: So it was a huge, huge, huge, huge blessing in
Speaker 3: that time where we really didn't know what we're gonna
Speaker 3: do too, where like, holy crap, this is actually possible
Speaker 3: where my brother can get some good treatment. And because
Speaker 3: he's all alone, he's not married, he doesn't have family,
Speaker 3: he's all alone in Pennsylvania.
Speaker 2: And so that happened. And then my cousin who lives
Speaker 2: in Florida.
Speaker 3: He was there for my dad. He's very close to
Speaker 3: our family and he was there for my dad when
Speaker 3: he passed and he said, listen, man, like my wife
Speaker 3: is a occupational therapist, so what she does for a living,
Speaker 3: he's going to need some occupational therapy after a stroke. Aunt,
Speaker 3: just send it to Florida with me and we'll kind
Speaker 3: of set up what he needs, physical therapy, cognitive therapy,
Speaker 3: occupational therapy. Like my wife knows all these people, so
Speaker 3: let's just do it that way. That way you can
Speaker 3: get back to work and mom can get back to
Speaker 3: Texas and we can kind of figure everything out. I'm
Speaker 3: telling you, man, I'm getting emotional just thinking about it, because.
Speaker 2: It was in a hard, hard time.
Speaker 3: It was a light a very very dark time, and
Speaker 3: we're just so thankful for the way everything's playing out,
Speaker 3: Like it's just great.
Speaker 1: You just had a lot of people stepping up and
Speaker 1: showing up for you. Huge when you're in such a
Speaker 1: dark moment and you see people showing up and you're like,
Speaker 1: where are you coming from? Why are you here? You
Speaker 1: don't have to be It's okay, Like we'll figure it out, yeah,
Speaker 1: you know, but you were like no, we're you know,
Speaker 1: people were like, no, we're going to step in and
Speaker 1: we're going to do this right because you guys deserve that.
Speaker 1: That's so awesome. And I remember you telling me that
Speaker 1: story when when you had first gotten back, and I
Speaker 1: think it's so awesome of your cousin who have stepped
Speaker 1: up and done that. So is your brother's recovery going well?
Speaker 3: Then, So while we record this in a couple of days,
Speaker 3: I'm going to pick him up in Florida and we're
Speaker 3: going to take him back home because he's made significant improvements.
Speaker 3: He's been able to walk on his own without a
Speaker 3: walker his uh, he's able to write and do everything
Speaker 3: or not right because he's right handed, but you know everything,
Speaker 3: he's got motion. He's got motion. You can move his limbs,
Speaker 3: he can kind of he's a little slower, he can't
Speaker 3: do everything at full speed. But he's been cleared to
Speaker 3: go back home, which he has stairs, and again he's
Speaker 3: by himself, so he's gonna have to drive places. And
Speaker 3: they've cleared him. Like, Okay, I think we're at the moment,
Speaker 3: we're at the point where he's able to do all
Speaker 3: that stuff a little bit.
Speaker 2: Yeah, So I'm gonna take him back and once.
Speaker 1: Set them up, ready to go back to or is
Speaker 1: he like he's so.
Speaker 2: Ready to go back?
Speaker 1: Okay?
Speaker 3: I mean he has two cats, Oh he hasn't and
Speaker 3: they weren't able to come with him. Yeah, So the
Speaker 3: like priority one for him is like I need to
Speaker 3: get back to my cats and we're like, Priority one
Speaker 3: is you need to get walking and driving again, Like
Speaker 3: that's what you need to.
Speaker 1: Get somebody out there to take care imagine again.
Speaker 3: And he's been telling me about his neighbors and his
Speaker 3: friends that are like, man, everyone's stepping up. Everyone's been
Speaker 3: able to go to.
Speaker 2: The house, they take videos of the cats, they hang
Speaker 2: out with them.
Speaker 3: He's like, it's just everything everyone's just been doing being
Speaker 3: so great to us at this moment, and we're just
Speaker 3: very very thankful for everyone.
Speaker 1: Well, I think it's really hard to like when you
Speaker 1: you go in day to day life and you get
Speaker 1: used to your life right and something just comes and
Speaker 1: blows it up, and you're like, I have to lean
Speaker 1: on people that I haven't been leaning on because life
Speaker 1: was just working for all of us, you know, the
Speaker 1: motion was happening. I didn't need anything or they didn't
Speaker 1: need anything. And then when you see like the community
Speaker 1: that you have around you, that you did build along
Speaker 1: the way of your life start to show up for you.
Speaker 1: When that moment does come, because it's inevitably going to
Speaker 1: like that's insane, that feeling and that experience emits something
Speaker 1: really dark, You're like, Okay, I really want to cry
Speaker 1: right now, but like thank you at the same time,
Speaker 1: and like my heart feels happy, but like it's not. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's a weird emotion too.
Speaker 3: It is, it is, And you're right, you do see
Speaker 3: you see it from a different perspective because we're all
Speaker 3: just a little selfish and we live our life just
Speaker 3: thinking of you know, what I do every day and
Speaker 3: how am I going to do this every day? And
Speaker 3: but when something like that happens and you have no
Speaker 3: control and you're just like I have no control, and
Speaker 3: everyone steps up, you start saying like, wow, we have
Speaker 3: created a community of people. We have affected people in
Speaker 3: different ways where they want to help us. And after
Speaker 3: this is done, I'm going to look at that differently
Speaker 3: when someone else, when someone needs help, it's like, guys,
Speaker 3: we need to all step in and help them.
Speaker 2: Now.
Speaker 3: It's a beautiful thing. And unfortunately it takes something really
Speaker 3: really bad in our lives for us to realize that.
Speaker 3: And I hate that part, but we kind of need
Speaker 3: it for it to happen for us to even think
Speaker 3: about that.
Speaker 1: So well, And I don't know if you're like this too,
Speaker 1: but I don't like asking for help.
Speaker 3: I don't And that's what I'm saying. My sister and
Speaker 3: I were like I don't want to do this, Like
Speaker 3: I really don't. Is there any way we can get
Speaker 3: a credit card and pay for all this stuff? And
Speaker 3: my sister's like, we can, but we want to do that,
Speaker 3: and like Mom's gonna need help too after this, and like, oh,
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 1: And it becomes overwhelming and you become so overwhelmed that
Speaker 1: you're like, Okay, I don't have any other option but
Speaker 1: to utilize option like my resources that I have. Yeah,
Speaker 1: it is that, Like it's certainly an overwhelming feeling to
Speaker 1: be like, my life is really hard, but I know
Speaker 1: your life is really hard, and I don't want to
Speaker 1: ask you for anything, and I don't want you to
Speaker 1: stop what you're doing to fix me or to do
Speaker 1: things for me, like I'll figure it out. That's a
Speaker 1: constant thing that I battle whenever I'm in like a
Speaker 1: really hard places, like I can't ask for help. I'm
Speaker 1: not good at it. Yeah, people just kind of have
Speaker 1: to force it. Like I had a girlfriend literally force
Speaker 1: for me a grilled cheese or sitting in the Sonic
Speaker 1: parking lot eat the freaking girl cheese. I'm like, I
Speaker 1: don't want to, Like there's no part of me that
Speaker 1: wants to. And she's like, just eat it please, and
Speaker 1: like that's the stuff that like people show up to do.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Sure, And you're laughing in the moment, but you're like,
Speaker 1: what is wrong with me? You know, I don't know
Speaker 1: if you had any of those that have happened to
Speaker 1: you recently where you're like, what is going on with
Speaker 1: my brain and my body?
Speaker 3: You know, it's funny because yes, I don't know. I
Speaker 3: don't really know how to like grieve. Obviously no one
Speaker 3: really does, but and I don't normally do this.
Speaker 2: It was just weird.
Speaker 3: And it was at the hospital in Pennsylvania because so
Speaker 3: the hospital my brother lives in Pennsylvania, like maybe an
Speaker 3: hour outside of Philadelphia, and so a lot of Philadelphia
Speaker 3: Eagles fans and we had been in the hospital for
Speaker 3: four days, like just back and forth. My brother was
Speaker 3: on the seventh floor, my dad was on the second floor,
Speaker 3: and it was just just every day, back and forth,
Speaker 3: back and forth, crying a lot, and joking a little
Speaker 3: bit with family, crying again, and it's just like it.
Speaker 2: Was just that kind of like week.
Speaker 3: And one day I decided to wear a Dallas Cowboy
Speaker 3: shirt in Philadelphia Eagles territory, and I just thought it
Speaker 3: would be funny.
Speaker 2: And I'm Morgan. I would never do this ever.
Speaker 1: Ever.
Speaker 3: I'm not that kind of fan to go up to
Speaker 3: a Rando stranger and be like, hey, look at my shirt.
Speaker 3: But there was a guy walking towards me. And the
Speaker 3: hospital is not a place to joke like, it's just not.
Speaker 3: But for some reason, I was like, watch this, this
Speaker 3: will be funny. And I was with my whole family
Speaker 3: and I had my cow underneath my sweatshirt. I had my
Speaker 3: cowboy shirt and there was a guy walking with an
Speaker 3: Eagle's shirt and I say, hey, man, watch this.
Speaker 2: And my whole family's like, what is that he doing?
Speaker 2: And the guy is like, what are you doing?
Speaker 3: And so I pick up my sweatshirt and it's the
Speaker 3: Cowboys star and I go boom and he goes okay,
Speaker 3: I don't care, and he walks off, and my whole
Speaker 3: family's like, what's wrong with you?
Speaker 2: And I said, I don't know, honestly, I don't know
Speaker 2: why I did that.
Speaker 3: And then my cousin goes bro that wasn't even a
Speaker 3: Philadelphia Eagles shirt. I think that was like an elementary school,
Speaker 3: you know, So it.
Speaker 1: Was like, that's probably why he didn't understand what with that?
Speaker 2: No, we had no idea.
Speaker 3: And in my mind, I'm like, and my sister, I think,
Speaker 3: is the one that said, you know what, just pain
Speaker 3: makes you do weird things. So yes, that was my
Speaker 3: moment of like what am I doing? I feel like
Speaker 3: I don't have no control over my body right now?
Speaker 1: Yeah, like out of body experience.
Speaker 2: Yes, it was so weird, Morgan, you know what it is.
Speaker 1: And I want us to take a quicker little break here,
Speaker 1: but when we come back, I'm gonna ask you, like,
Speaker 1: how how the grieving process has been going for Okay,
Speaker 1: because we can get to my grieving too.
Speaker 2: It's been interesting. Okay.
Speaker 1: We have the two parallels here, right, You are grieving
Speaker 1: somebody very important to you that's no longer here, my dad.
Speaker 1: I'm grieving somebody that's still alive that I'm probably never
Speaker 1: going to speak to again.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: Both grief just different kinds.
Speaker 3: Different ways, right, It's life, just different ways of doing things.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and grief comes in a whole lot of different forms.
Speaker 2: That's right.
Speaker 1: How have you has your process of been grieving?
Speaker 2: Go?
Speaker 1: Like, maybe there's been funny moments, sad moments, like what
Speaker 1: has that grieving process been like for you so far?
Speaker 3: Gosh, I don't know if I have completely grieved. I
Speaker 3: think that the process of, well, my dad was in
Speaker 3: the hospital for five days, you know, just nothing was
Speaker 3: getting better was the main grieving process, because it's like
Speaker 3: so much sadness but fun to see family members. Then
Speaker 3: sat again, and just the roller coaster ride of like
Speaker 3: I think I said bye to my dad, probably I
Speaker 3: don't know, twenty times, you know, and then and then
Speaker 3: the nurses would come in and be like, hey, his
Speaker 3: heart beats getting strong again, like okay, okay, and then
Speaker 3: I would come back, you know, a few hours later
Speaker 3: and like, no, it's not.
Speaker 2: It's getting worse.
Speaker 1: Roller coaster ride of like not knowing what's.
Speaker 2: Going to happen, morgan.
Speaker 3: And it was like that for five days, and so
Speaker 3: maybe even seven days, use I don't remember. But so
Speaker 3: I think at the end of it there was a
Speaker 3: big feeling of peace of like, Okay, he's no longer suffering.
Speaker 3: What happened has happened, and he's in a better place,
Speaker 3: and so many things kind of came together, you know.
Speaker 3: There's a weird part of all this that was that
Speaker 3: just kind of resonated in me while it was happening,
Speaker 3: was that my mom told me when my brother was
Speaker 3: in the hospital after he had a stroke. My mom
Speaker 3: said that my dad said, you know what he told
Speaker 3: my brother. He said, for some reason, I feel like
Speaker 3: Eddie's going to come and see you. And my brother
Speaker 3: was like you think and he's like, yeah, I don't know.
Speaker 3: Something's telling me that Eddie's going to come visit you. No,
Speaker 3: and not one there wasn't one thought in my mind
Speaker 3: here in Nashville thinking like I'm going to go see
Speaker 3: my brother because I knew he was in stable condition
Speaker 3: and that he was just he was okay, yeah, and
Speaker 3: that all he needed was therapy to get back to normal.
Speaker 3: So I thought like, maybe I'll go see him in
Speaker 3: a month or so, but not I didn't even think
Speaker 3: about coming to visit him in the hospital.
Speaker 1: Oh my gosh.
Speaker 3: But somehow my dad knew that I was going to
Speaker 3: be there, and so there was also that feeling of
Speaker 3: like like, look, look how it's all kind of coming together.
Speaker 3: Dad knew that I needed to be here. I didn't
Speaker 3: know that I needed to be here. Now we're all here,
Speaker 3: and so that's.
Speaker 1: Also hard because it's not the reason you wanted.
Speaker 3: To be there, absolutely not. But it's almost like my
Speaker 3: dad knew and I do. I do believe that God
Speaker 3: tells us things and we don't know what they mean
Speaker 3: at the time, but he knows. And by my dad
Speaker 3: saying that, it's like God was telling him, like, this
Speaker 3: is going to happen, but it's going to be a
Speaker 3: good thing because your family's going to get together. And
Speaker 3: my family we've always been just we were close at
Speaker 3: the beginning, and then as we got older, I moved
Speaker 3: to Nashville. My sister lived in Texas, and my brother
Speaker 3: lived in Pennsylvania, so just we kind of separated a
Speaker 3: little bit, and I would talk to my parents maybe twice,
Speaker 3: maybe once every two or three weeks, but not as
Speaker 3: much as I wanted to.
Speaker 2: My dad and I didn't talk that that much. I
Speaker 2: would text him.
Speaker 3: We would text each other little things back and forth,
Speaker 3: but never like real good conversations for a lot. That
Speaker 3: just wasn't our thing. So like, I think my dad
Speaker 3: always wanted us to be closer, you know. I think
Speaker 3: he always wanted us to be a close family, live
Speaker 3: close together, help each other out.
Speaker 2: Because he would say that too, just like.
Speaker 3: Why don't you guys, Like, why don't you guys move
Speaker 3: like in the same town so you guys can be
Speaker 3: there for each other and.
Speaker 2: Be like, Nah, Dad, I live in Nashville. Are you
Speaker 2: talking about? Like?
Speaker 3: But I think he wanted us to be closer, and
Speaker 3: this has definitely brought us all closer. Not a great way,
Speaker 3: not the ideal way. But I talk to my brother
Speaker 3: every day now, twice a day, three times a day.
Speaker 2: My sister and I talk.
Speaker 3: Way more than we've ever talked, you know, my mom,
Speaker 3: I'm like, come on, come stay with us for three weeks.
Speaker 3: I stayed with for three months. I don't care, you know,
Speaker 3: So I don't know. It's just a lot of the
Speaker 3: grieving process has been thinking that this happened for a reason.
Speaker 1: How long did it take you to be like this
Speaker 1: happened for a reason.
Speaker 2: I would say pretty quick. I would say pretty quick.
Speaker 3: I mean the shock of what had happened and kind
Speaker 3: of just being there for that. There was a lot
Speaker 3: of confusion, why did this happen? Like I don't understand,
Speaker 3: like what doesn't make any sense? But then once you
Speaker 3: passed and everyone started telling stories, I'll be like, you know,
Speaker 3: your dad said this, and then my sister sayings like
Speaker 3: you know Dad always said this, and you know, like
Speaker 3: there were too many stories, and even when my cousins
Speaker 3: came in, they were just like, did you know your
Speaker 3: dad like said this. We're like, ah, this is all
Speaker 3: making sense a little bit. You know, in the darkness
Speaker 3: of all this, a lot of stuff is making sense here.
Speaker 3: So with that, I think it's brought a lot of
Speaker 3: us a lot of peace. My mom is having the
Speaker 3: hardest hardest time because she's lost her a little you know,
Speaker 3: her partner.
Speaker 2: And she's all alone and she doesn't know.
Speaker 3: What to do, and so she has her days where
Speaker 3: she's just like, really, you know what, it's I'm having
Speaker 3: a good day. I saw my sister, she came to
Speaker 3: visit me, and then later on that night she's like,
Speaker 3: I'm having such a hard time.
Speaker 2: It's just tough.
Speaker 1: Those ups and downs. Man, when you think you're doing
Speaker 1: really well and then it just comes out of nowhere,
Speaker 1: yeah and hits you and you're like, I was fine,
Speaker 1: why why is this happening in this moment right now?
Speaker 1: And you're like you want to be mad at yourself
Speaker 1: because you're like, no, no, no, no, we're moving forward, right,
Speaker 1: But then you're like, Okay, well some reason I have
Speaker 1: to feel that I don't like it. Does it feel good?
Speaker 1: Go away?
Speaker 2: And that's that's the thing too.
Speaker 3: When I talk to my mom, it's like I want
Speaker 3: to tell her, like, Mom, it's gonna be okay, Like
Speaker 3: you're gonna be good. It's just it's gonna take time,
Speaker 3: but you're gonna eventually know how to do things by
Speaker 3: yourself and it's gonna feel okay and it's gonna feel normal.
Speaker 3: But she doesn't understand that right now, and she doesn't
Speaker 3: need to understand that right now. She's going through her
Speaker 3: thing and it's really really hard, and all we can
Speaker 3: do is just be there for her well in her.
Speaker 1: The heartache of that. Like, if there's something that I
Speaker 1: wish as humans we never experienced, it's heartache, I know,
Speaker 1: you know, Like you want to talk about one of
Speaker 1: the worst feelings in the world that you have zero
Speaker 1: control over and your whole body feels it. Is heartache
Speaker 1: of any kind, whether you've lost somebody in your life,
Speaker 1: lost a partner, lost a pet, like the heartache of
Speaker 1: losing because you can't the only thing that mends it
Speaker 1: is time, and time never comes fast enough. When you're hurting,
Speaker 1: you can know in your mind that two years down
Speaker 1: the road, this will be a blip on my radar,
Speaker 1: I'll be okay, and I'll be able to move past this.
Speaker 1: But in that moment, in like the suck of all
Speaker 1: of it, you can't even see two feet in front
Speaker 1: of you, let alone think that this is going to
Speaker 1: get over anytime soon.
Speaker 2: Impossible.
Speaker 1: And that's what's the hardest part about any type of heartache.
Speaker 1: Like I genuinely just wish as humans we didn't have
Speaker 1: to experience, but we have to in order to know
Speaker 1: what's good and to your point, what is important, what matters,
Speaker 1: and how to appreciate those things. We have to have
Speaker 1: loss to appreciate the things that are in our lives.
Speaker 1: And that sucks.
Speaker 2: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I don't know that there's anything that will ever make
Speaker 1: it okay in my mind.
Speaker 2: Isn't it weird that the heart hurts?
Speaker 1: Yeah?
Speaker 3: Like, how does the heart hurt? Why does the heart hurt?
Speaker 3: But it really does feel like your heart is breaking.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, And they do say people die of heartbreak.
Speaker 2: That's what I worry about my mom.
Speaker 1: I think because you guys are surrounding her with so
Speaker 1: much love. It will be different for her. But I
Speaker 1: do think that exists with those couples who they're the
Speaker 1: only two they have left. It's just them and one
Speaker 1: of them is left behind. And I think that's when
Speaker 1: that happens. I think when there's family involved and you
Speaker 1: have a community around you, it makes it really hard
Speaker 1: for that to happen because you have so many people
Speaker 1: pushing to be like checking in, are you okay? How's today?
Speaker 1: And I can't not think. I can't not respond because
Speaker 1: I want to make sure they know that like I'm here.
Speaker 1: I'm just I'm not great, but I'm here. Yeah, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. Having support is everything, and so like,
Speaker 1: on that further extensive level, it's like those people who
Speaker 1: don't have support and experience.
Speaker 3: That I do want to say this too, you know,
Speaker 3: because I had a buddy of mine who lost a son,
Speaker 3: I don't know, four years ago or so somewhere around there,
Speaker 3: and I remember thinking I don't know what to say
Speaker 3: to him, I don't know what to do for him.
Speaker 3: And now being on this kind of this end of it,
Speaker 3: it shouldn't be an awkward thing when anyone still today
Speaker 3: comes and says, oh my gosh, I'm so sorry. How's
Speaker 3: everything going, Like, how's your brother doing, I'm so sorry
Speaker 3: about your dad, how's your mom doing?
Speaker 2: All this stuff?
Speaker 3: It's it actually feels good to talk about it and
Speaker 3: not forget it and be like thanks for asking. Like
Speaker 3: she is, she's doing okay, she still has hard time
Speaker 3: whatever it is. But I remember thinking like I don't
Speaker 3: know what to say, and I think now I understand
Speaker 3: what to say, Like just check to see how they're doing,
Speaker 3: because anyone going through that really does not want to
Speaker 3: feel alone.
Speaker 1: But they're gonna push everything away because they're hurting. It's
Speaker 1: natural to push everything away because you just you want
Speaker 1: to You're barely getting out of the bed in the morning,
Speaker 1: you're barely eating the food, putting your clothes on, brushing
Speaker 1: your hair, brushing your teeth, existing as a day to
Speaker 1: day human, yeah, let alone wanting to bother anybody with
Speaker 1: that much heaviness. Yeah, you know, besides the direct people
Speaker 1: like I'm sure your wife and kids have been great
Speaker 1: support and distraction for you, for sure, but like they're
Speaker 1: still existing with you in day to day and like,
Speaker 1: how do we manage this with him every day and
Speaker 1: make sure that he knows like we're here, but also
Speaker 1: trying to not make him talk about it all the time.
Speaker 1: You know, it's that delicate balance. But back to your
Speaker 1: point of like, just just reach out. It doesn't have
Speaker 1: to be anything special to say hi.
Speaker 2: It really doesn't, like I'm here, Hi, and and too.
Speaker 3: I always wonder, like, oh, do we want to talk
Speaker 3: about him anymore? But I love talking about my dad.
Speaker 3: I love thinking about my dad. I love it when
Speaker 3: people tell me, like, man, your dad one time he
Speaker 3: did this and it was so funny, like it, I
Speaker 3: love it.
Speaker 2: I love that.
Speaker 3: And I think that when you're on the other side
Speaker 3: of it, you're don't you really don't even know?
Speaker 2: Do we want to talk about him or her?
Speaker 1: You want to keep their memory alive?
Speaker 2: You really do?
Speaker 3: I love it, Like I love hearing stories about my
Speaker 3: dad now from people.
Speaker 1: Do you have any of your stories you want to
Speaker 1: share about him? Oh?
Speaker 3: Man, I mean my dad was just a jokes jokester.
Speaker 3: I think one of the stories that always sticks out
Speaker 3: is I don't even know if I can say this, because.
Speaker 1: I don't know what that means.
Speaker 2: We're going. He was just I don't even know if
Speaker 2: I can say this.
Speaker 3: He would take an awkward situment, situation and put a
Speaker 3: spotlight on it and be like this is funny. I'm
Speaker 3: going to take advantage of it. We were all, oh,
Speaker 3: my gosh, I don't even know if I can say,
Speaker 3: I will say it. We were at a Japanese restaurant
Speaker 3: and you know where they cook in front of you. Yeah,
Speaker 3: and the guy that was cooking had a very thick accent,
Speaker 3: and one of us at the table didn't even realize
Speaker 3: that we had repeated what the chef said in that accent.
Speaker 2: No, and we were like, what did you just say?
Speaker 3: And the person didn't realize they said it, Oh my gosh,
Speaker 3: Oh my gosh, I can't believe I said that out loud.
Speaker 3: And so my dad was like, this is great. So
Speaker 3: my dad got the waiter, the server and said, hey,
Speaker 3: I will pay you, you know, twenty bucks if you
Speaker 3: can come back to the table and tell this person
Speaker 3: that the cook heard you and he wants a verbal apology.
Speaker 3: And so so the server came back and said, did
Speaker 3: somebody mock our our cook? And the person's like, yes,
Speaker 3: I did. No, yeah, he heard you and he would
Speaker 3: like for you to apologize to him. And like the
Speaker 3: person was like, okay, just tell me, where do I
Speaker 3: go to the kitchen? Yeah, follow me to the kitchen.
Speaker 3: And they started walking to the kitchen till the start
Speaker 3: was like, I'm just joking your dad, Your dad, you know,
Speaker 3: he faded to do this or whatever, and it's like,
Speaker 3: oh my god, and my dad was cracking up.
Speaker 2: That's the kind of stuff he would do all the time.
Speaker 3: He's like, I'm just going to make so much fun
Speaker 3: out of this, and he would like I think every
Speaker 3: time anyone talks about my dad, like, oh my gosh,
Speaker 3: he's just that type. At the time he did this,
Speaker 3: it's ridiculous. It was so dumb, but we all laugh.
Speaker 3: We've been laughing for years about it.
Speaker 1: Like he was just always making people laugh different.
Speaker 2: That's what he did. He was a jokester. He was
Speaker 2: just a big clown.
Speaker 1: So he did And that's hard. That's it. That's a
Speaker 1: big personality. Especially for your mom. Oh yeah, you know,
Speaker 1: she had this huge light in her life and to
Speaker 1: fill that is going to be really difficult.
Speaker 3: What's really cool is that my dad towards the when
Speaker 3: he was younger, I would say maybe when he was
Speaker 3: like thirty or forty, he had bought a children's home
Speaker 3: in South Texas and this was like an orphanage in
Speaker 3: South Texas.
Speaker 2: I didn't know this. I had no idea.
Speaker 3: I was still young back then, so I had no
Speaker 3: idea that he did this. But he had enough money
Speaker 3: to buy a children's home and he would go and
Speaker 3: like hang out with the kids and do whatever, play
Speaker 3: games with them. And there was a kid that he
Speaker 3: kind of just connected with all the time. Well he
Speaker 3: grew up, and I guess they never really saw each
Speaker 3: other anymore. It was just kind of one of those
Speaker 3: things like I remember him, he was cool. Well, later on,
Speaker 3: like i'd say, like ten years ago or five years ago,
Speaker 3: my dad had to stay he had kind of like
Speaker 3: goes in financial problems, financial trouble, and him and my
Speaker 3: mom had to stay at a hotel. They didn't have
Speaker 3: a lot of money, so they're like, we need to
Speaker 3: stay at a hotel. Well, the manager of that hotel
Speaker 3: was one of the kids that was at the children's home,
Speaker 3: and he says, Oh, my gosh, I don't know if
Speaker 3: you remember me.
Speaker 2: I'm so and so, and he's like, yeah, I remember you,
Speaker 2: of course.
Speaker 3: And it's just like wow, this is so crazy staying
Speaker 3: here at the hotels, Like yeah, we may be staying
Speaker 3: here for a while. Don't really know what our situation is.
Speaker 3: And so the guy was like, you know what, you
Speaker 3: stay here as long.
Speaker 2: As you want.
Speaker 3: Like I'm the manager of this hotel. I run this hotel,
Speaker 3: like you have a place to stay. Wow, it's stuff
Speaker 3: like that where it's just like, God, one, I didn't
Speaker 3: know Dad had bought a children's home, Like that's crazy.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm surprised him or your mom never like.
Speaker 2: No, I lied that, never talked about that.
Speaker 3: And I'm like, Dad, no, wonder you liked when I
Speaker 3: adopted when I was a foster parent, Like he would
Speaker 3: always be like this is awesome, But I've never told
Speaker 3: me that this is what he enjoyed that and that
Speaker 3: was like something that he liked to do too.
Speaker 1: But like, Dad, talk to me like you missed a
Speaker 1: whole chapter of y'all's life that he never Yeah unformed. Yeah, wow, Okay,
Speaker 1: that's a really cool story. And those are some really
Speaker 1: really good stories to share, Eddie.
Speaker 2: Thank you, Yeah, thank you, Mary.
Speaker 1: I'm glad we could have have it. On a on
Speaker 1: a positive note, We're going to take a quick break
Speaker 1: and then I think I need your help.
Speaker 3: Come on, I'm here for you after these two here
Speaker 3: we're here for each other.
Speaker 1: Like you're going through the most difficult thing you've been
Speaker 1: through and you're okay and you're not emotional, And I'm
Speaker 1: sitting over here just like emotional. Right, how are you
Speaker 1: doing it?
Speaker 2: Like?
Speaker 1: I like, if I'm being honest with you any today.
Speaker 2: It's been so hard I could tell.
Speaker 1: I could tell like I can't even tell you that
Speaker 1: without crying. Yeah, Like, I'll just go to the bathroom.
Speaker 1: You guys make fun of our couch in the bathroom.
Speaker 1: This time we have couches in the bathroom.
Speaker 2: Couch.
Speaker 1: I didn't lay down, but I sat there and I
Speaker 1: just cried in the bathroom instead of having to sit
Speaker 1: on a toilet because I don't It just comes out
Speaker 1: of nowhere. And like, but you're going you went through
Speaker 1: so much and you're you're doing so incredible with how
Speaker 1: strong you are, And I don't know that this is
Speaker 1: such a stupid thing to feel so sad about, like
Speaker 1: because it was somebody who just said, you know this
Speaker 1: isn't going to work.
Speaker 3: Well, one, it's not stupid. Two you are you went
Speaker 3: all in and that's that's a hard thing for you
Speaker 3: to go all in into. Something and then it not
Speaker 3: work and it be it blindside slight side you too,
Speaker 3: like something to blindside you like that is you don't
Speaker 3: know how to prepare yourself for it, and that's why
Speaker 3: it's going to take you a while.
Speaker 1: You know.
Speaker 2: It was It's like.
Speaker 3: My dad, like, if it would have been cancer, I
Speaker 3: guess I could have really just like known that this
Speaker 3: was coming or it was something like that. But since
Speaker 3: it was just an accident, I wasn't ready for this.
Speaker 3: None of us were ready for this. Same with you.
Speaker 3: You were blindsided. You weren't ready for this, and you
Speaker 3: had opened up everything. You're like, I haven't heard you
Speaker 3: on Caroline Hobbies podcast, you know, like yeah, you're like
Speaker 3: all out, this is the best thing in the world,
Speaker 3: like he is blah blah blah blah blah. But and
Speaker 3: that just came to a quick halt. Yeah, that's not
Speaker 3: gonna be easy, Morgan. It's not gonna be easy. And
Speaker 3: you're not stupid for feeling this way or acting like this.
Speaker 3: This is completely understandable.
Speaker 1: No, But I also just you know, you get mad
Speaker 1: at yourself. You're like, why do I care that much?
Speaker 1: You know, like it's one of those where I'm like,
Speaker 1: just stop. Just he did it. Why can't you do it?
Speaker 1: You know, like other people can just turn it on
Speaker 1: and off. And I'm sitting here like, Okay, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: be a little blubber mess because I don't know how
Speaker 1: else to get all these feelings out. This is how
Speaker 1: I exist in the world, and it makes me mad
Speaker 1: at myself. So then I'm like sad, and then I'm
Speaker 1: mad on top of it, you know, like I should
Speaker 1: be able to just talk about these things and be.
Speaker 3: Okay, No, no, you shouldn't be. You shouldn't be. And
Speaker 3: we're all different, you know, we're all different.
Speaker 1: But you are so strong in everything that's going on,
Speaker 1: and I'm like, you're literally looking at me, and I
Speaker 1: look like I'm a kid that somebody just like really
Speaker 1: hurt my dog. Basically, what's what it feels like.
Speaker 3: Min Own is a different, complete, different situation. Like if
Speaker 3: you would have seen me three weeks ago, two weeks ago, yeah,
Speaker 3: I wouldn't have been like this. But I've prayed really
Speaker 3: really hard, and I've.
Speaker 2: You know, I just.
Speaker 3: Like I said, I've just I've come. I feel a
Speaker 3: complete piece with all of it. I don't like it,
Speaker 3: but I'm at peace with it. You're gonna be there too.
Speaker 3: You will get there. You will get there too. And
Speaker 3: this is so hard right now. And you know what,
Speaker 3: our job is really hard when you're going through something
Speaker 3: like this, which is I'm so thankful to Bobby and
Speaker 3: Scuba and everyone letting me have my time, because there's
Speaker 3: no way I could have even thought about coming back
Speaker 3: or even doing videos because I thought about while I
Speaker 3: was over there. I was like, let me text Morgan
Speaker 3: to see you know what, there's a lot of downtime.
Speaker 3: I don't need to be hanging out with my brother
Speaker 3: for this long, Like, let me just step away and
Speaker 3: do videos for two hours. But then really, when it
Speaker 3: came down and I'm like, I'm gonna cry over this keyboard,
Speaker 3: I'm not gonna do a video like one of the
Speaker 3: spell stuff.
Speaker 1: The emotional capacity like it wasn't there.
Speaker 3: It wasn't there, you know. So like our job, while
Speaker 3: you're going through something like this is hard. You have
Speaker 3: to sit there tell your opinion about something where you're
Speaker 3: like like you know, like you really do care when
Speaker 3: all you're thinking about is my life is crumbled right now.
Speaker 1: Yeah, Like I just want to be crying in the
Speaker 1: bathroom please don't ask me what I feel about this time? Right,
Speaker 1: And I think Bobby does send some of that, which
Speaker 1: is really awesome about him. They'll like, look, I'm just
Speaker 1: like down. I'm like, please don't come to me, Please
Speaker 1: don't come to me, because I might just cry and
Speaker 1: it's not even a crying subject.
Speaker 3: Does Lunchbox help you, you know with his ridiculous questions
Speaker 3: and does he help you laugh a little bit about that?
Speaker 1: Yeah, you know, the comedic relief, especially at the end
Speaker 1: of the announcement really helped, cause I was just like,
Speaker 1: it's also like I'm back in therapy and I'm like,
Speaker 1: having to relive it in my head is what I
Speaker 1: think is hard because I'm like I just keep getting
Speaker 1: more sad and then more angry, and those those keep
Speaker 1: the emotions keep paling on. And so like when you
Speaker 1: when that happens, you feel so emotionally exhausted after having
Speaker 1: to share that much of who you are, and so
Speaker 1: like when lunch Fox comes in and makes a joke,
Speaker 1: I'm like, Okay, I can breathe for a second, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean, Like, is he probably making find Yeah, sure,
Speaker 1: and just give it on me right now. But like
Speaker 1: it at least allows, I think, my heart to breathe
Speaker 1: from the vulnerability that I'm exposing myself to.
Speaker 2: How hard was that for you to come on here
Speaker 2: and tell everyone what was going on?
Speaker 1: So hard? Any I wanted to like literally cry a river,
Speaker 1: but so much of my healing, Like the only way
Speaker 1: that I was going to move on, or at least
Speaker 1: start my process moving on, was to tell everybody, because
Speaker 1: I had already shared multiple times like this is a
Speaker 1: guy that I cared so much about and now that's
Speaker 1: not happening. So like, I had people that were in
Speaker 1: my damns, like kind people who were like, you're so
Speaker 1: happy You're glowing over the weekend of like the breakup
Speaker 1: that happened, and I was like, oh god, yeah, I
Speaker 1: was like, this is so bad. I can't keep getting
Speaker 1: these messages because I'm not I'm like literally not okay.
Speaker 1: And I was like, I have to share this so
Speaker 1: that I can they can move on with me, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean? Because I had led him into
Speaker 1: that part. I hadn't shown him and I you know,
Speaker 1: nobody knew his name or anything, but like I had
Speaker 1: posted about him and I had shared really happy stories
Speaker 1: about all of that. So of course they were going
Speaker 1: to think that I was continually to be happy until
Speaker 1: I told.
Speaker 2: Him I wasn't.
Speaker 1: So I was like, regardless of how much this is
Speaker 1: going to suck, I have, I have to stop this
Speaker 1: because I can't move on and I can't process this
Speaker 1: until I'm no longer getting messages of like I'm so
Speaker 1: happy for you and you you finally found it. You
Speaker 1: know what I mean?
Speaker 3: Is that a big part of your process to just
Speaker 3: be open with everyone, tell everyone what's up, and get
Speaker 3: rid of everything and just clear him from your life?
Speaker 1: I think so, because I don't. It's this is also
Speaker 1: so unique, Eddie. I've never exited a relationship that wasn't horrible.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, that's a good point. I didn't think about that.
Speaker 1: So, like all of them have, I've had a reason.
Speaker 1: I had good reasons to get out, to hate them,
Speaker 1: to be mad, to be and just like move forward.
Speaker 2: This one was like what the no?
Speaker 1: And this one I'm still trying to understand and come
Speaker 1: out of. So like I get that, I don't think
Speaker 1: my body even knows how to process what I'm going through.
Speaker 1: So that's also like an extra layer on that. But yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean, I if I don't be open and vulnerable.
Speaker 1: I will shut down and I will legitimately be depressed.
Speaker 2: Like we're not going to do that.
Speaker 1: I'm trying not to like not doing that. I'll text
Speaker 1: my friends. I'm like, I am not doing great right now.
Speaker 1: Please put something on my schedule so I don't go
Speaker 1: here because.
Speaker 2: Oh no, Broadway Morgan's Oh gosh, no.
Speaker 1: That I refuse to go to. I'm not drinking Eddie,
Speaker 1: like I haven't. I haven't drank anything since because I
Speaker 1: know that it's going to make this worse.
Speaker 2: Good call, good job, Good for you, that's awesome.
Speaker 1: Like one, I'll this is so mature of you. Well
Speaker 1: because also I don't. I'm not super hungry anyway, and
Speaker 1: I'm not I don't even want to like drink water.
Speaker 1: So like I'm just like, okay, I need to not
Speaker 1: be adding alcohol to this process.
Speaker 2: We've got to work on that part. Though. I know
Speaker 2: you need your friend to feed you.
Speaker 1: It's more forced Jesus. But yeah, it's like I'll just go.
Speaker 1: I will literally go into a depression. And so I
Speaker 1: realized the only way I don't is if it's like
Speaker 1: I have people holding me accountable. So if I'm so
Speaker 1: open and honest, about it. I can't lie to myself,
Speaker 1: you know, I can't lie that this isn't happening, and
Speaker 1: I can't take it back. So if I just tell everybody,
Speaker 1: then everybody's going to be around me and say, hey,
Speaker 1: how you doing today? And I have to face it
Speaker 1: because I will. You know, I live by myself. I
Speaker 1: have my dog and my cab. But like I live
Speaker 1: by myself, I could go into a hole if I
Speaker 1: wanted to.
Speaker 3: Oh my gosh, this is the same thing I was
Speaker 3: talking about with when someone loses a loved one, like
Speaker 3: check on you. You want people to check on you.
Speaker 3: You need people to check on you again. But I
Speaker 3: sit right next to you and you walk in and
Speaker 3: I'm like, oh no, Morgan's having a bad day. Do
Speaker 3: I leave her alone? Like really, I think, like, do
Speaker 3: I leave her alone? And I've you noticed I tapped
Speaker 3: you kind of on the shoulder, rubbed, just give you
Speaker 3: a little love tap on your shoulder, a little bit
Speaker 3: heelty if everynoun now and then because I know that
Speaker 3: like I don't have the words right now. Again, I
Speaker 3: don't have the words for you, but I want you
Speaker 3: to know that I'm here for you.
Speaker 1: It's like even just you doing that. I was like, Okay,
Speaker 1: it was like a call.
Speaker 3: Mean, yeah, you know what I mean. But again, most
Speaker 3: people think, like, let me just give her a space.
Speaker 3: Morgan does need your space, Morgan needs the love.
Speaker 1: Yeah, and I did. I mean just to your point
Speaker 1: you were talking about earlier, how you just felt like
Speaker 1: you just felt so much around you. And I have,
Speaker 1: I mean people have shown up. I have. I've had
Speaker 1: multiple people stay the night with me. I've had neighbors
Speaker 1: dropping off wine dudes, no, go forst It's good, all right, No, no, no,
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm not spiraling an alcohol hooking up. And
Speaker 1: I'm not. Even the idea of dating again literally makes
Speaker 1: me sick to my stomach. I can imagine. So I have.
Speaker 1: I've had people surrounding me. But like when you have
Speaker 1: a history of depression, it's going to come back no
Speaker 1: matter what you want to do. You know, you can
Speaker 1: have the whole world around you and you're still going
Speaker 1: to be like, yeah, no, I want to you know,
Speaker 1: John off a cliff real quick.
Speaker 2: Your therapist good.
Speaker 1: Yeah, she's amazing, But like it's just still hard. It's
Speaker 1: it's fine. You have to find your own ways to
Speaker 1: manage it.
Speaker 3: So yeah, because it's just like, you know, you go
Speaker 3: to church, go to therapist, whatever it is. You know,
Speaker 3: you feel good at that moment, or you're learning so
Speaker 3: much that moment, but you're gonna walk out those doors
Speaker 3: and you're gonna face it again. Yeah, back to real
Speaker 3: life waiting for you. So that's where you need to
Speaker 3: take over.
Speaker 1: You have to. You have to find ways to manage
Speaker 1: it because otherwise you don't exist. I wouldn't be at work,
Speaker 1: I wouldn't be coming in every day if I didn't.
Speaker 1: So I'm managing it good, but it hurts, like hell yeah,
Speaker 1: like just like I want to take a pay away
Speaker 1: the pain for you that you felt and that you're feeling,
Speaker 1: like I take that on from everybody else, but for mine,
Speaker 1: I just let it stay there, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: And why I do that to myself, I don't know,
Speaker 1: but that's just what it is. It's good. I suppose
Speaker 1: the healing will come quicker that way.
Speaker 2: But it'll take time. It just takes time.
Speaker 1: Time is the one thing I don't like, I know.
Speaker 1: I don't like that we get older. I don't like
Speaker 1: that we lose people. I don't like that time is
Speaker 1: the thing that heals all the wounds. There's this component
Speaker 1: of our lives time that we literally can't control.
Speaker 3: It's really patience because all that's going to happen, Everything
Speaker 3: that we've talked about is just going to happen to everyone.
Speaker 3: I literally taught thought about a year ago. I was like, wow, man,
Speaker 3: I really haven't lost anyone in my life because I've
Speaker 3: seen like a lot of my friends lately kind of
Speaker 3: just like, oh, my parents, my dad passed, and we're
Speaker 3: just at that I'm at that age where like our
Speaker 3: parents are getting older, they're getting to that age.
Speaker 2: It's funny.
Speaker 3: My dad would talk a lot too about all his buddies, Like, man,
Speaker 3: all my buddies are dying around me. You would wake up,
Speaker 3: look at the obituarys and be like, God, I lost
Speaker 3: another buddy. Like that's just kind of the age he
Speaker 3: was at and he wasn't that old. But you know,
Speaker 3: if you just you're at that time where you're like,
Speaker 3: this is just going to happen everyone, and we're never
Speaker 3: gonna be ready for it.
Speaker 2: But it's just this life.
Speaker 1: I know. I've kind of suck sometimes, doesn't it does?
Speaker 2: It does?
Speaker 3: My sister and I were saying that a lot. We
Speaker 3: were saying that a lot.
Speaker 1: The only thing that I can say to be like,
Speaker 1: you know, it's just it's hard.
Speaker 2: It's hard.
Speaker 1: Being a human is hard, really really hard, like the
Speaker 1: whole human experience. It's just and we choose to do
Speaker 1: it every day. Yep, isn't that crazy?
Speaker 2: It is crazy. But we're good. We're good, Morgan, Yeah
Speaker 2: we are.
Speaker 1: We're knocking feet right now. Thank you for coming on
Speaker 1: Eddie of course and crying with me and opening up
Speaker 1: about your family and stuff.
Speaker 3: You know, I hadn't really talked about it really, you know,
Speaker 3: you can't talk about on the show. That's part of
Speaker 3: it too, right, Like my job here is not to
Speaker 3: be sad like and I like being happy. Like, don't
Speaker 3: get me wrong, I'm not acting happy. I like being happy.
Speaker 3: I like feeling happy, and I really couldn't wait to
Speaker 3: get back to feel happy with everyone, with all you guys,
Speaker 3: because that's just a part of I Just when there's
Speaker 3: a stressful situation or a negative situation, I don't like it.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I want to get out well because it out
Speaker 1: is healing. Yeah, you know, you stay in it, there's
Speaker 1: no healing.
Speaker 3: Yeah, So I like we're playing games again. I like
Speaker 3: winning easy trivia rude.
Speaker 1: I like all that you had to throw that one
Speaker 1: in there. You just came back and why I had to,
Speaker 1: I had to, I know, I know. But you also
Speaker 1: deserve to talk about it, you know, because that's also
Speaker 1: something that I had to learn a lot later in
Speaker 1: my life now, within probably the last few years of
Speaker 1: like I can't always put on a grave face. Yeah
Speaker 1: I can't. It was killing me, Like everybody constantly wanted
Speaker 1: to think that I was okay and I wasn't. And
Speaker 1: so you as a human, even though you are happy
Speaker 1: laughing Eddie, just had a really crappy thing happen. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and you get to be sad. You get to come
Speaker 1: in here and like not be okay.
Speaker 2: You know, I might need your couch a few times.
Speaker 1: You can use my couch as much as you want.
Speaker 2: We'll sign out there, like don't go on there, Eddies
Speaker 2: on the couch.
Speaker 1: You can have the couch, like because it's it's going
Speaker 1: to hit you out of nowhere and you can't stop it,
Speaker 1: and you shouldn't stop it. But you deserve to have
Speaker 1: that too. Don't forget that when you're you know, you're
Speaker 1: in here and you're being strong and it does make
Speaker 1: you feel good to be back, like because you feel
Speaker 1: so strong right now. But life just has a funny
Speaker 1: way of making you face your crap.
Speaker 2: Yep, right in the face.
Speaker 1: Don't be too strong, okay, and I'll try and get stronger.
Speaker 2: There we got meet in the mill.
Speaker 1: Yeah, okay, we're good at end this thing.
Speaker 2: Yea, thank you Morgan.
Speaker 1: Thanks for coming on. Of course, it was good to
Speaker 1: have a conversation with you and you know, grief of
Speaker 1: all kinds.
Speaker 2: Sorry, guys, this wasn't the happiest podcast, but.
Speaker 1: That's why Part two and Part three are happy. You're lighthearted.
Speaker 1: I had a feel and I just needed to chat.
Speaker 2: Yeah, we haven't. We haven't chatted.
Speaker 1: I just heard it.
Speaker 2: Other than the videos are in.
Speaker 1: Eddie and I have been on like survival levels of
Speaker 1: just like different proportions. And that's okay, all right, everybody.
Speaker 1: I hope you have a great weekend. Eddie, thank you again.
Speaker 2: Yes, you're so welcome. Everyone have a great weekend. Bye bye.
Speaker 2: That's the best bits of the week with Morgan.
Speaker 1: Thanks for listening. Be sure to check out the other
Speaker 1: two parts this weekend.
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