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Speaker 1: I want to say welcome back, because we've done this before.

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Speaker 1: But I have my friend Amory here. Hello. Hello. You

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Speaker 1: might be near to her because you didn't get to

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Speaker 1: hear the beautiful podcast that we recorded in November because

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Speaker 1: I deleted it. Not on purpose. It was wonderful, but

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Speaker 1: sometimes that happened, and of any human I could have

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Speaker 1: done that too. I'm so happy with you because your

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Speaker 1: response was great. What did I even say? I forget it,

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Speaker 1: said something like I feel so bad or so much

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Speaker 1: to do it again. And you said, well, this is perfect.

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Speaker 1: This is what a therapist needed to hear it. You said,

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Speaker 1: I can't tell you how to feel, but I really

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Speaker 1: to be a therapist. Okay, great, it was exactly what

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Speaker 1: I needed to hear. Amory is all things were all things.

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Speaker 1: And I met her how many years ago? Would this be?

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Speaker 1: Probably six? Five, six years ago? Because I met you

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Speaker 1: before I knew you because I would go to your class,

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Speaker 1: So we'll talk about all of this. But she was

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Speaker 1: an instructor at a what would you call it without

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Speaker 1: saying the name of it at international boutique fitness studio

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Speaker 1: that I used to go to, and I would only

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Speaker 1: go to her class because this is so great. And

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Speaker 1: then she started teaching other places and we kept in

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Speaker 1: beautiful story of coming into herself her body, fitness and

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Speaker 1: what that means, and she has a lot of great

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Speaker 1: again because it's worth being heard. So thanks for doing

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Speaker 1: it again, of course, and we'll probably do this fifty

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Speaker 1: times because the last episode was like two hours, so

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Speaker 1: we're gonna shove it up for you guys. So I

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Speaker 1: thought it would be great for you just to walk

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Speaker 1: us through in your own way of how you even

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Speaker 1: got into fitness, knowing that that started before fitness was

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Speaker 1: in your Yeah, well thanks for having me back, yes,

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Speaker 1: of course. And like I said, it's probably things were

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Speaker 1: just want again, well fitness. You know, I grew up

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Speaker 1: That was just the life of being East Coast and Midwest,

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Speaker 1: It was back when like step aerobics were a thing,

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Speaker 1: But they were so fun too. Yeah, knowing you, yeah, now,

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Speaker 1: would I do that? Absolutely not, but we have it

430
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Speaker 1: is part of paying your dude. When I started as

431
00:20:12,880 --> 00:20:15,439
Speaker 1: a therapist, I would see clients at seven am and

432
00:20:15,480 --> 00:20:20,760
Speaker 1: seven pm because I wanted that job bad enough that Okay,

433
00:20:20,840 --> 00:20:23,240
Speaker 1: if this is the only time this client can see me,

434
00:20:23,280 --> 00:20:25,879
Speaker 1: I'll make it work. Now. Do I do that? No?

435
00:20:26,359 --> 00:20:29,120
Speaker 1: But I did it for probably three years. That's yeah,

436
00:20:29,160 --> 00:20:32,199
Speaker 1: it's a long time to do that. And also I

437
00:20:32,359 --> 00:20:35,360
Speaker 1: have the belief, as being somebody who's trained a lot

438
00:20:35,400 --> 00:20:38,159
Speaker 1: of trainers, that you should be able to play to

439
00:20:38,200 --> 00:20:40,480
Speaker 1: a five am crowd just like you played to a

440
00:20:40,560 --> 00:20:42,639
Speaker 1: five pm crowd, just like you played to a ten

441
00:20:42,720 --> 00:20:45,439
Speaker 1: am crowd on Saturday. That's part of being a good

442
00:20:45,520 --> 00:20:48,320
Speaker 1: group fitness trainer is being able to put on the

443
00:20:48,359 --> 00:20:51,160
Speaker 1: quote unquote show no matter what hour of the day

444
00:20:51,200 --> 00:20:53,800
Speaker 1: it is. And so when people are like, oh I'm tired,

445
00:20:53,840 --> 00:20:55,920
Speaker 1: I'm like, let's talk about tired. I'll tell you about tired,

446
00:20:55,960 --> 00:20:58,120
Speaker 1: but I'll tell you that high cheered, go home. We're

447
00:20:58,160 --> 00:21:01,000
Speaker 1: practice at by like eleven min I and was making

448
00:21:01,000 --> 00:21:03,680
Speaker 1: playlists because good lord, that takes time till one two

449
00:21:03,680 --> 00:21:05,760
Speaker 1: am when we get up at Ford to teach. Did

450
00:21:05,800 --> 00:21:08,440
Speaker 1: I choose that? Yes, I don't blame on anybody. That's

451
00:21:08,480 --> 00:21:10,920
Speaker 1: the life I chose, but like, that's part of the process.

452
00:21:11,480 --> 00:21:13,439
Speaker 1: And I went from when I started the five they

453
00:21:13,480 --> 00:21:15,760
Speaker 1: at Berries, there would be like two or three people

454
00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:18,240
Speaker 1: there by the time I left Berries five years later,

455
00:21:18,480 --> 00:21:20,919
Speaker 1: and I've sold out five ams and I built my

456
00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:23,879
Speaker 1: entire career on five ams. Because what people who are

457
00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:26,439
Speaker 1: starting the industry fail to realize is that you have

458
00:21:26,520 --> 00:21:28,800
Speaker 1: some of your most consistent and dedicated clients at five

459
00:21:28,840 --> 00:21:30,920
Speaker 1: am and six am in the morning, because they are

460
00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:34,560
Speaker 1: your people who have are very good with routine, good

461
00:21:34,600 --> 00:21:37,320
Speaker 1: with dedication, and a lot of them that's the only

462
00:21:37,320 --> 00:21:38,879
Speaker 1: time a day they have to do their workout, and

463
00:21:38,880 --> 00:21:41,000
Speaker 1: it means a lot to them, means a lot that

464
00:21:41,040 --> 00:21:43,280
Speaker 1: this is literally the only hour a day that I

465
00:21:43,280 --> 00:21:45,960
Speaker 1: have to myself before my kids wake up, before I

466
00:21:45,960 --> 00:21:48,120
Speaker 1: have to go work a twelve hour shift at the hospital.

467
00:21:48,160 --> 00:21:50,359
Speaker 1: Like that's I still stand by. Those are some of

468
00:21:50,359 --> 00:21:52,320
Speaker 1: the most dedicated clients the once who come that early

469
00:21:52,320 --> 00:21:54,840
Speaker 1: in the morning because they literally chose to get up

470
00:21:54,880 --> 00:21:57,239
Speaker 1: to be there. I built my whole career off of that,

471
00:21:57,640 --> 00:21:59,080
Speaker 1: and I want to trade that forever. You know. I

472
00:21:59,359 --> 00:22:01,880
Speaker 1: did five five ams Monday through Friday for the first

473
00:22:01,920 --> 00:22:05,200
Speaker 1: year working at Berries and then yeah, that's when you're

474
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Speaker 1: just looking back now, I'm like, that's but you were

475
00:22:08,600 --> 00:22:12,159
Speaker 1: ten years younger. Your body at different, I guess, but

476
00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:15,000
Speaker 1: I think it's ten years younger. I was hungry for it,

477
00:22:15,080 --> 00:22:17,919
Speaker 1: and I I just learned so much and it was

478
00:22:17,960 --> 00:22:20,440
Speaker 1: generally so excited about it because when you're really living

479
00:22:20,440 --> 00:22:24,000
Speaker 1: out your passion, you just feel pure joy no matter

480
00:22:24,040 --> 00:22:26,320
Speaker 1: when you do it. And like for me to get

481
00:22:26,359 --> 00:22:29,320
Speaker 1: up getting upset getting up sex now at eight am,

482
00:22:29,359 --> 00:22:31,960
Speaker 1: now with like getting up sex like at seven am,

483
00:22:32,040 --> 00:22:34,160
Speaker 1: it doesn't matter what time you get up. For me,

484
00:22:34,680 --> 00:22:36,840
Speaker 1: the first ten seconds are always like, this is awful.

485
00:22:36,840 --> 00:22:38,320
Speaker 1: I want to go back today. I did not come

486
00:22:38,359 --> 00:22:42,960
Speaker 1: to your five ams, it's okay, but sim so I

487
00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:45,480
Speaker 1: went to your six ams and I would rather I

488
00:22:45,480 --> 00:22:48,200
Speaker 1: could work out at night, but I just didn't enjoy it.

489
00:22:48,400 --> 00:22:51,080
Speaker 1: But I didn't work out every single day at Berrys.

490
00:22:51,400 --> 00:22:53,359
Speaker 1: When I would go at six am, I would go

491
00:22:53,520 --> 00:22:57,480
Speaker 1: specifically to your class. I appreciate that well, and I

492
00:22:57,480 --> 00:22:59,879
Speaker 1: want to talk about why because we're talking a cent

493
00:23:00,119 --> 00:23:03,479
Speaker 1: about like hustling and I don't believe and like hustle culture,

494
00:23:03,640 --> 00:23:05,360
Speaker 1: but I do believe that like you have to put

495
00:23:05,359 --> 00:23:07,720
Speaker 1: hard work in, yes, you also have to take care

496
00:23:07,720 --> 00:23:10,080
Speaker 1: of yourself. And like you said, I was teaching five

497
00:23:10,160 --> 00:23:12,360
Speaker 1: am s Monday through Friday for a year. You couldn't

498
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Speaker 1: do that for ten years. I will want to make

499
00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:16,560
Speaker 1: a note really fast. It was after that first year

500
00:23:16,960 --> 00:23:19,639
Speaker 1: where I was like, I cannot do this anyway, and

501
00:23:19,640 --> 00:23:21,919
Speaker 1: where I did have a conversation with my boss about

502
00:23:22,160 --> 00:23:24,760
Speaker 1: how can I grow to not do this anymore? Because

503
00:23:24,800 --> 00:23:26,439
Speaker 1: part of it is I was just doing it. I

504
00:23:26,480 --> 00:23:28,800
Speaker 1: was successful at it. There was nobody forcing me to

505
00:23:28,880 --> 00:23:31,680
Speaker 1: do that, and it a lot of times we think

506
00:23:31,760 --> 00:23:34,600
Speaker 1: that that's what we have to do, and yeah, you

507
00:23:34,640 --> 00:23:36,600
Speaker 1: have to pay your dues, but like if if it's

508
00:23:36,600 --> 00:23:38,639
Speaker 1: starting to affect your life, speak up and say something

509
00:23:38,800 --> 00:23:40,800
Speaker 1: and acknowledge it. And I did, and like a lot

510
00:23:40,840 --> 00:23:42,560
Speaker 1: of people are too scared to say something because they

511
00:23:42,560 --> 00:23:43,919
Speaker 1: don't want to lose their job. And I was like,

512
00:23:43,960 --> 00:23:46,880
Speaker 1: no to your point. Yeah, so that I just wanted

513
00:23:46,920 --> 00:23:48,920
Speaker 1: to make that point because it's not like you're doing

514
00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:51,240
Speaker 1: that currently, but you did do it because it was

515
00:23:51,280 --> 00:23:54,399
Speaker 1: something that opposite. That's like how interns work for free,

516
00:23:54,520 --> 00:23:57,399
Speaker 1: like everyone expects to hand out now. So that is

517
00:23:57,400 --> 00:24:00,440
Speaker 1: that conversation. But the reason that it came to your

518
00:24:00,440 --> 00:24:03,920
Speaker 1: class because any gym can be toxic. Any gym, there

519
00:24:04,080 --> 00:24:08,399
Speaker 1: is an essence of Jim's like Berries, where it is

520
00:24:08,480 --> 00:24:10,960
Speaker 1: what you described, like there's fitness models on the wall,

521
00:24:11,240 --> 00:24:15,359
Speaker 1: their instructors are taking their shirts off and like showing

522
00:24:15,400 --> 00:24:18,240
Speaker 1: off their abs and talking about some of the things

523
00:24:18,320 --> 00:24:21,400
Speaker 1: I heard, and not just Berries, but just in that

524
00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:26,760
Speaker 1: era of time in fitness studios was devastating. And so

525
00:24:27,160 --> 00:24:30,680
Speaker 1: specifically went to your class because it was a very

526
00:24:30,760 --> 00:24:35,520
Speaker 1: much happy like everybody was welcome. You were never going

527
00:24:35,600 --> 00:24:38,159
Speaker 1: to tell me that I was going too slow, and

528
00:24:38,200 --> 00:24:40,560
Speaker 1: if I modified something, you wouldn't ask me to leave,

529
00:24:40,680 --> 00:24:44,160
Speaker 1: which people do that in certain places, like certain instructors.

530
00:24:44,160 --> 00:24:46,080
Speaker 1: That's kind of fitness instructor they want to be. I

531
00:24:46,160 --> 00:24:47,840
Speaker 1: want to say that's fine, but it's not really fine.

532
00:24:48,400 --> 00:24:51,240
Speaker 1: But you it's not fine. You were not that, And

533
00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:54,520
Speaker 1: I want to know what got you to be like that,

534
00:24:54,720 --> 00:24:56,680
Speaker 1: because I think part of it's just who you are,

535
00:24:56,960 --> 00:24:59,720
Speaker 1: and part of it is your experience as a human

536
00:24:59,760 --> 00:25:02,560
Speaker 1: who was walking into this, and your experience in the

537
00:25:02,640 --> 00:25:05,479
Speaker 1: cheerleading world and your own experience with your body and

538
00:25:05,680 --> 00:25:09,200
Speaker 1: feelings of being judged by other people. And I think

539
00:25:09,200 --> 00:25:12,719
Speaker 1: that there are more people like you in big studios

540
00:25:12,760 --> 00:25:16,879
Speaker 1: like that which sex cells. And so everybody wants these

541
00:25:16,960 --> 00:25:21,080
Speaker 1: pictures and Instagram posts and ads where like everybody's bodies,

542
00:25:21,400 --> 00:25:25,480
Speaker 1: it's a false reality of what people. Even pictures that

543
00:25:25,560 --> 00:25:28,680
Speaker 1: you see, companies will always retouch them. Most companies will

544
00:25:28,680 --> 00:25:31,000
Speaker 1: always retouch them when you're when you're talking about that

545
00:25:31,119 --> 00:25:34,520
Speaker 1: niche that's not into full body acceptance, when they're into

546
00:25:34,960 --> 00:25:39,840
Speaker 1: selling a product, because they know people desire for that look,

547
00:25:40,080 --> 00:25:42,600
Speaker 1: whatever that look. Maybe because most people aren't going to

548
00:25:42,720 --> 00:25:46,480
Speaker 1: that gym to feel good and take care of themselves.

549
00:25:46,480 --> 00:25:48,399
Speaker 1: A lot of it's an image thing, and that's a

550
00:25:48,440 --> 00:25:52,040
Speaker 1: culture thing. That's a culture issue. I at that point

551
00:25:52,160 --> 00:25:55,199
Speaker 1: was coming out of a neating disorder where I was

552
00:25:55,320 --> 00:26:00,080
Speaker 1: working out carefully choosing what workouts I did because I

553
00:26:00,119 --> 00:26:03,160
Speaker 1: had to switch my mindset and going to a place

554
00:26:03,240 --> 00:26:06,160
Speaker 1: like Berries, which was probably shouldn't have been going there,

555
00:26:06,720 --> 00:26:08,760
Speaker 1: but I went to your class. It was helpful. So

556
00:26:08,920 --> 00:26:11,080
Speaker 1: that was a very long winded way to say, how

557
00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:13,840
Speaker 1: did you get to be that way? And walk me

558
00:26:13,880 --> 00:26:16,639
Speaker 1: through the struggle, because I'm a therapist that works with

559
00:26:16,640 --> 00:26:19,399
Speaker 1: eating disorder and body image and I wasn't always like this.

560
00:26:19,560 --> 00:26:22,320
Speaker 1: I used to really care about having a flat stomach

561
00:26:22,520 --> 00:26:25,320
Speaker 1: and weighing this amount and being able to do run

562
00:26:25,359 --> 00:26:27,800
Speaker 1: this fast. It's not how I am anymore. But I

563
00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:29,760
Speaker 1: learned that the hard way. Well, it's where we placed

564
00:26:29,760 --> 00:26:33,240
Speaker 1: our value, and our value grows and what we determined

565
00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:35,919
Speaker 1: valuable as we go through our journeys. And for me,

566
00:26:36,000 --> 00:26:39,640
Speaker 1: because my journey never came from a place of having

567
00:26:39,680 --> 00:26:42,359
Speaker 1: a flat stomach, never came from a place of parents

568
00:26:42,480 --> 00:26:45,000
Speaker 1: being like, all right, we're gonna go do family workouts

569
00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:47,359
Speaker 1: every day. Like it came from a place of hey,

570
00:26:47,440 --> 00:26:49,560
Speaker 1: I'm just an individual trying to be my best self.

571
00:26:49,640 --> 00:26:51,240
Speaker 1: And for me, that was my fitness journey, and it

572
00:26:51,320 --> 00:26:54,359
Speaker 1: just so happened that I got smaller along the way,

573
00:26:54,400 --> 00:26:58,480
Speaker 1: But it was never about for me. The internal shift

574
00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:01,400
Speaker 1: and the internal dyna ammic of your journey was way

575
00:27:01,400 --> 00:27:04,399
Speaker 1: more important than what happened externally. And that's when I

576
00:27:04,400 --> 00:27:08,199
Speaker 1: started teaching. As a good group instructor, you're able to

577
00:27:08,240 --> 00:27:10,600
Speaker 1: look at each of your client's faces in a room

578
00:27:10,640 --> 00:27:13,320
Speaker 1: of forty plus people, and you can tell just by

579
00:27:13,320 --> 00:27:16,240
Speaker 1: their face and their demeanor the struggle that they're going through.

580
00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:20,720
Speaker 1: And what I wish we all understood in general is

581
00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:23,600
Speaker 1: that we are all struggling for something. Even those people

582
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:26,040
Speaker 1: who show up and like looking like they have their

583
00:27:26,160 --> 00:27:30,200
Speaker 1: sh a t together, it's they are struggling. And that's

584
00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:32,199
Speaker 1: when I knew, almost from day one, this journey for

585
00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:34,000
Speaker 1: me as a teacher was not about going to be like,

586
00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:36,239
Speaker 1: all right, who can run the fastest, because I've never

587
00:27:36,280 --> 00:27:38,560
Speaker 1: been the fastest runner, who can lift the strongest way,

588
00:27:38,600 --> 00:27:41,600
Speaker 1: I've never been the strongest lifter. I'm good at those things,

589
00:27:41,600 --> 00:27:43,560
Speaker 1: but I'm not great. So it was never about that

590
00:27:43,640 --> 00:27:47,720
Speaker 1: for me, because I never put my own self on

591
00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:51,959
Speaker 1: a podium on a platter above anybody else. That's not

592
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:54,160
Speaker 1: to say you can't value yourself and you can't think

593
00:27:54,240 --> 00:27:57,479
Speaker 1: highly of yourself. But I never put myself greater than

594
00:27:57,480 --> 00:28:00,520
Speaker 1: anybody else. And that's the difference between a lot of

595
00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:02,960
Speaker 1: group fitness instructors and a lot of personal trainers who

596
00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:05,679
Speaker 1: put themselves on this pedestal and it's rise up to

597
00:28:05,720 --> 00:28:07,119
Speaker 1: me and it was like, no, I'm going to co

598
00:28:07,200 --> 00:28:09,639
Speaker 1: meet you where you are. Well, that's the issue with

599
00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:13,119
Speaker 1: like self esteem and how people get it these days,

600
00:28:13,240 --> 00:28:18,639
Speaker 1: because self esteem has traditionally been created by outside validation

601
00:28:19,400 --> 00:28:22,080
Speaker 1: and so okay, to have self esteem, I have to

602
00:28:22,119 --> 00:28:24,680
Speaker 1: look like that trainer, be as fast as that trainer,

603
00:28:24,840 --> 00:28:27,119
Speaker 1: or be the best in class, when like you can

604
00:28:27,160 --> 00:28:29,200
Speaker 1: have self esteem from showing up to a class and

605
00:28:29,240 --> 00:28:32,040
Speaker 1: even just like walking. Yeah, because I would hear way

606
00:28:32,080 --> 00:28:34,600
Speaker 1: more comments from people over my first couple of years

607
00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:36,359
Speaker 1: at barriers of like oh I'm not fit enough to

608
00:28:36,359 --> 00:28:39,960
Speaker 1: go to class yet. Oh Ever, those comments get me

609
00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:41,440
Speaker 1: more than anything else. I'm like, what do you think

610
00:28:41,440 --> 00:28:44,120
Speaker 1: a gym is for? Right? But the sad reality is

611
00:28:44,480 --> 00:28:46,600
Speaker 1: that's the truth for a lot of these classes. And

612
00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:49,040
Speaker 1: so for me setting the tone of I don't want

613
00:28:49,040 --> 00:28:51,360
Speaker 1: anybody to come into my class saying oh my gosh,

614
00:28:51,400 --> 00:28:53,160
Speaker 1: I'm not fit enough to be in this class. A

615
00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:56,080
Speaker 1: good trainer should be able to apply what they're teaching

616
00:28:56,120 --> 00:28:58,680
Speaker 1: to every single person in that class. And so you

617
00:28:58,720 --> 00:29:01,560
Speaker 1: find motivational tools, you've fine way to program, you find

618
00:29:01,560 --> 00:29:04,680
Speaker 1: way to pump up people as a general whole, but

619
00:29:04,760 --> 00:29:06,880
Speaker 1: still be able to speak to each indi visual person

620
00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:09,240
Speaker 1: with your words, with your motivation and all that stuff

621
00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:12,200
Speaker 1: that just also organically happened because that's just who I

622
00:29:12,280 --> 00:29:14,320
Speaker 1: am as a person. I don't put people on pedestals.

623
00:29:14,840 --> 00:29:17,160
Speaker 1: I don't think somebody is greater than they. Also, I

624
00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:20,080
Speaker 1: think we're all on individual journeys, and that's why I've

625
00:29:20,120 --> 00:29:23,120
Speaker 1: also so I was at Berries for five years, also

626
00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:26,400
Speaker 1: started to know that my time was almost done with

627
00:29:26,440 --> 00:29:29,880
Speaker 1: Berries because maybe it was the culture there I still

628
00:29:29,880 --> 00:29:31,680
Speaker 1: think super highly in the company, or maybe it was

629
00:29:31,760 --> 00:29:34,240
Speaker 1: just social media being entered into the game, because thank

630
00:29:34,280 --> 00:29:37,640
Speaker 1: god I started before social media, before Instagram post Instagram

631
00:29:37,640 --> 00:29:39,800
Speaker 1: stories worth a thing. I mean, Instagram like was the

632
00:29:39,880 --> 00:29:41,560
Speaker 1: thing when I first started. But you took a picture

633
00:29:41,560 --> 00:29:43,440
Speaker 1: of like your new tennis shoes and put like a

634
00:29:43,480 --> 00:29:46,520
Speaker 1: really heavy filter on them, like that was your Instagram post.

635
00:29:47,080 --> 00:29:50,640
Speaker 1: So many pictures of like running shoes on my Instagram yeah,

636
00:29:50,760 --> 00:29:52,880
Speaker 1: and we're like pictures of my plot but like the

637
00:29:53,000 --> 00:29:58,160
Speaker 1: national filter. Yeah yeah, like that's like that's what Instagram was.

638
00:29:58,600 --> 00:30:00,800
Speaker 1: Thank god, that's what it was when I first started.

639
00:30:00,840 --> 00:30:03,320
Speaker 1: Because the sad reality is, yes, I was a professional

640
00:30:03,400 --> 00:30:05,880
Speaker 1: cheerleader and all this stuff, but like I've never been

641
00:30:05,920 --> 00:30:08,280
Speaker 1: a let me just post all these pictures on me

642
00:30:08,320 --> 00:30:11,000
Speaker 1: and two pieces around like it's yeah, And I want

643
00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:13,320
Speaker 1: to talk about this because I actually talked about this

644
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Speaker 1: on Amy Brown and Lisa Haimes podcast called Outweigh And

645
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Speaker 1: it's a podcast it's all about It's on the Amy

646
00:30:19,120 --> 00:30:21,680
Speaker 1: Brown Network. It's all about disordered eating and how a

647
00:30:21,760 --> 00:30:24,800
Speaker 1: life outside of that outweighs everything else. And we were

648
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Speaker 1: talking about celebrity diets. Girl. Yeah yeah. And one of

649
00:30:29,240 --> 00:30:31,680
Speaker 1: the points I made was, like, in which you kind

650
00:30:31,680 --> 00:30:34,200
Speaker 1: of touched on this earlier, is it makes no sense

651
00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:39,320
Speaker 1: for me to follow the training plan and the diet

652
00:30:39,440 --> 00:30:42,600
Speaker 1: of let's say Tom Brady, because he is a professional

653
00:30:42,640 --> 00:30:46,440
Speaker 1: athlete and that is his job. Now, I'm not saying

654
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Speaker 1: that whatever he does is good for him and healthy

655
00:30:48,720 --> 00:30:50,920
Speaker 1: because I don't know really what he does and he

656
00:30:50,960 --> 00:30:54,040
Speaker 1: has professionals that are helping him do that or incredible

657
00:30:54,040 --> 00:30:56,760
Speaker 1: things but he has a team, yes, or like Giselle,

658
00:30:56,960 --> 00:30:59,040
Speaker 1: I know they have some kind of like weird diet

659
00:30:59,120 --> 00:31:02,520
Speaker 1: that they're not weird, just probably extreme. She is a

660
00:31:02,880 --> 00:31:04,640
Speaker 1: I don't know if she still has Victoria's secret model,

661
00:31:04,680 --> 00:31:06,360
Speaker 1: which is a whole another issue that we're not going

662
00:31:06,400 --> 00:31:08,520
Speaker 1: to talk about. That is her career and her job

663
00:31:08,760 --> 00:31:12,240
Speaker 1: to have a body. Her life is revolved around maintaining that.

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Speaker 1: How in the world would that make sense for me

665
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:17,440
Speaker 1: to want to aspire to look like either of those

666
00:31:17,480 --> 00:31:20,280
Speaker 1: people and to do what they do. It just doesn't

667
00:31:20,360 --> 00:31:22,960
Speaker 1: make sense. Or like Olympic athletes, I don't need to

668
00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:26,760
Speaker 1: train like an Olympic athlete because I'm not. The reality

669
00:31:26,840 --> 00:31:29,880
Speaker 1: is I'm not. I like fitness, love it. I love

670
00:31:29,920 --> 00:31:32,760
Speaker 1: being able to like see myself get stronger and all that,

671
00:31:32,880 --> 00:31:35,920
Speaker 1: but it just doesn't make sense my job. I'm a therapist,

672
00:31:36,240 --> 00:31:39,800
Speaker 1: and so I think there becomes a huge for you.

673
00:31:40,000 --> 00:31:43,640
Speaker 1: Part of your job was being a professional athlete. So

674
00:31:43,840 --> 00:31:47,320
Speaker 1: it is hard because people see you and they're like, oh,

675
00:31:47,400 --> 00:31:49,239
Speaker 1: I want to be like Aunt Marie, but it's like

676
00:31:49,520 --> 00:31:52,560
Speaker 1: your job was to be a professional athlete. That's not

677
00:31:52,600 --> 00:31:54,920
Speaker 1: to say everything you were doing was good for You're healthy, No,

678
00:31:55,080 --> 00:31:59,000
Speaker 1: that's a whole another podcast. So that's that's that's that thing.

679
00:31:59,080 --> 00:32:01,520
Speaker 1: But I'm doing everything I can to even make it

680
00:32:01,560 --> 00:32:04,120
Speaker 1: to a six am workout, and then I'm feeling bad

681
00:32:04,120 --> 00:32:06,520
Speaker 1: about myself because I don't look like the person who

682
00:32:06,600 --> 00:32:10,040
Speaker 1: is the professional athlete that's on my job. And I

683
00:32:10,080 --> 00:32:13,719
Speaker 1: think that is a huge issue in the fitness world,

684
00:32:13,960 --> 00:32:17,560
Speaker 1: is we compare ourselves to either trainers or just like

685
00:32:17,720 --> 00:32:21,080
Speaker 1: people that like their world revolves around that. I would

686
00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:24,440
Speaker 1: have to give up so much to create that for myself,

687
00:32:24,640 --> 00:32:27,480
Speaker 1: and I wish that we could just like own that, Like, yeah,

688
00:32:27,720 --> 00:32:30,680
Speaker 1: so and so might have this body and it looks

689
00:32:30,720 --> 00:32:32,840
Speaker 1: like this, but that's because that's their job. And look

690
00:32:32,880 --> 00:32:34,719
Speaker 1: at all the things that I have because of my

691
00:32:34,800 --> 00:32:38,239
Speaker 1: job or my life. We don't see that as much. Well,

692
00:32:38,240 --> 00:32:41,680
Speaker 1: there's a disconnect that happens with the with the fitness

693
00:32:41,720 --> 00:32:46,200
Speaker 1: field internal work work versus external work, and people show

694
00:32:46,320 --> 00:32:48,640
Speaker 1: up wanting to look like their trainer, wanting to look

695
00:32:48,720 --> 00:32:51,400
Speaker 1: like this athlete or what have you, but they don't

696
00:32:51,440 --> 00:32:54,040
Speaker 1: realize that You've got to do the internal work first.

697
00:32:54,560 --> 00:32:58,240
Speaker 1: You've got to fix disordered habits, you got to work

698
00:32:58,360 --> 00:33:02,560
Speaker 1: on maybe work on creating consistency and habits, like you

699
00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:05,160
Speaker 1: got to focus on those things before you can even

700
00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:07,400
Speaker 1: start to work on the external work. So yeah, it's

701
00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:09,560
Speaker 1: great to work out and all this stuff, but it's

702
00:33:09,800 --> 00:33:11,560
Speaker 1: move your body every day in some form of fashion,

703
00:33:11,600 --> 00:33:13,480
Speaker 1: whether it's walking down the street or whether it's going

704
00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:15,560
Speaker 1: to a hard, heavy workout. But a lot of these

705
00:33:15,560 --> 00:33:19,000
Speaker 1: people show up to group fitness very disordered and their

706
00:33:19,040 --> 00:33:21,880
Speaker 1: thinking period because they think that outside work is going

707
00:33:21,880 --> 00:33:25,080
Speaker 1: to fixed the inside. And I was part of that

708
00:33:25,360 --> 00:33:28,120
Speaker 1: for a very long time and not a very long time.

709
00:33:28,120 --> 00:33:29,680
Speaker 1: I was part of that, and then all of a sudden,

710
00:33:29,960 --> 00:33:33,440
Speaker 1: I tuned back into my initial thoughts of I'm getting

711
00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:37,440
Speaker 1: into fitness more because it really makes me feel good internally.

712
00:33:38,240 --> 00:33:41,760
Speaker 1: I feel like I have clearer thoughts. I feel like

713
00:33:41,800 --> 00:33:45,120
Speaker 1: I have more competence. I feel like I am able

714
00:33:45,160 --> 00:33:47,840
Speaker 1: to set goals from myself more when I'm when I'm

715
00:33:47,840 --> 00:33:52,520
Speaker 1: moving my body. And what we're selling is what somebody

716
00:33:52,560 --> 00:33:56,000
Speaker 1: looks like versus their internal mental health. Yes, and I

717
00:33:56,160 --> 00:34:00,440
Speaker 1: just started teaching again cycling at a different studio I

718
00:34:00,560 --> 00:34:03,040
Speaker 1: used to have. I'm sure they'll come up more again.

719
00:34:03,280 --> 00:34:06,800
Speaker 1: Conversations with clients about and just people in the world,

720
00:34:07,080 --> 00:34:10,120
Speaker 1: I have never and let well in my eating disorders.

721
00:34:10,120 --> 00:34:12,920
Speaker 1: Maybe this is also triggering probably to say, but like

722
00:34:13,040 --> 00:34:16,920
Speaker 1: quote unquote, the typical trainer, fitness instructor body never have

723
00:34:16,960 --> 00:34:19,480
Speaker 1: had that unless I was in a needing disorder active

724
00:34:19,800 --> 00:34:23,160
Speaker 1: very active. Same. So okay, so I had to do

725
00:34:23,239 --> 00:34:27,040
Speaker 1: extreme behaviors to look the part of something that I

726
00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:30,600
Speaker 1: can do now just fine without those extremes actually probably better.

727
00:34:31,160 --> 00:34:34,200
Speaker 1: And you know, at first, I was like, I want

728
00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:35,759
Speaker 1: to be I don't know if you had this, but

729
00:34:35,800 --> 00:34:37,400
Speaker 1: I was like, I want to be somebody who like

730
00:34:37,719 --> 00:34:40,080
Speaker 1: shows other people that, like, you don't have to look

731
00:34:40,160 --> 00:34:42,640
Speaker 1: that way to do this thing, that all bodies are welcome.

732
00:34:43,000 --> 00:34:45,680
Speaker 1: And now I almost like, don't even like that saying

733
00:34:45,680 --> 00:34:47,640
Speaker 1: because I just wanted to be normal. I don't want

734
00:34:47,680 --> 00:34:50,040
Speaker 1: there to be a conversation about like the thing like

735
00:34:50,080 --> 00:34:52,400
Speaker 1: it's so brave of you or you have so much courage.

736
00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:55,520
Speaker 1: I'm like, why, I'm just I'm just my best self.

737
00:34:55,640 --> 00:34:59,040
Speaker 1: We need to look at individually. It is that persons

738
00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:01,920
Speaker 1: their best selves. I also don't buy into the culture

739
00:35:01,920 --> 00:35:05,319
Speaker 1: of literally just like eat whatever ship you want to like.

740
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:08,240
Speaker 1: I don't buy into that fully because it's proven science

741
00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:11,600
Speaker 1: that there are certain foods that literally can affect your

742
00:35:11,640 --> 00:35:14,080
Speaker 1: brain function, can affect the way you operate. So it's

743
00:35:14,239 --> 00:35:16,840
Speaker 1: I try to take the approach of encouraging everybody to

744
00:35:17,160 --> 00:35:20,480
Speaker 1: truly tune into what their best self looks like. And

745
00:35:20,520 --> 00:35:22,680
Speaker 1: a lot of people we don't even know half of

746
00:35:22,680 --> 00:35:24,400
Speaker 1: what our best self is supposed to look like or

747
00:35:24,480 --> 00:35:27,640
Speaker 1: feel like, because we've never created the space for that

748
00:35:27,680 --> 00:35:30,480
Speaker 1: to figure that out, because we're chasing other people's best selves.

749
00:35:30,719 --> 00:35:33,239
Speaker 1: Which I'm so glad you said that, because what is

750
00:35:33,280 --> 00:35:35,319
Speaker 1: the best way for one person to eat and move

751
00:35:35,840 --> 00:35:39,000
Speaker 1: can be totally different than somebody else. Somebody might not

752
00:35:39,080 --> 00:35:41,600
Speaker 1: be able to have these foods over here because they

753
00:35:41,640 --> 00:35:43,600
Speaker 1: do this to their body. That doesn't mean that you

754
00:35:43,640 --> 00:35:46,440
Speaker 1: can't that just because you can't have these things and

755
00:35:46,480 --> 00:35:49,600
Speaker 1: you you incorporate this movement into your your lifestyle, doesn't

756
00:35:49,640 --> 00:35:52,480
Speaker 1: mean that person has to. Like it's different for everybody.

757
00:35:52,560 --> 00:35:55,799
Speaker 1: And even if I did do Tom Brady's diet in

758
00:35:55,840 --> 00:35:59,120
Speaker 1: his workouts, I wouldn't end up looking like him because

759
00:35:59,160 --> 00:36:02,440
Speaker 1: we're different and five foot four, very very German and

760
00:36:02,480 --> 00:36:06,640
Speaker 1: Swedish heritage, Like, yeah, we they make them different than

761
00:36:06,680 --> 00:36:09,200
Speaker 1: they make Tom Brady and he's done. That's who I

762
00:36:09,239 --> 00:36:12,239
Speaker 1: always use a very. It's a very. He's lived his

763
00:36:12,320 --> 00:36:15,440
Speaker 1: life very out loud, especially with his success. I mean,

764
00:36:15,640 --> 00:36:17,920
Speaker 1: you can hate the Patriots raised his hand over here,

765
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:21,160
Speaker 1: but like or hate now buccaneers, but you have to

766
00:36:21,320 --> 00:36:25,040
Speaker 1: acknowledge that he is an incredible athlete. But he has

767
00:36:25,080 --> 00:36:27,640
Speaker 1: done a lot of work that which is a whole

768
00:36:27,640 --> 00:36:30,279
Speaker 1: another topic that we're not don't have access to as

769
00:36:30,320 --> 00:36:33,399
Speaker 1: a general public. He's done a lot of work that

770
00:36:33,760 --> 00:36:36,439
Speaker 1: my mother and father, who are over seventy and still

771
00:36:36,480 --> 00:36:38,839
Speaker 1: work their butts off in the middle of America, never

772
00:36:38,880 --> 00:36:42,319
Speaker 1: had access to that kind of information or support that

773
00:36:42,360 --> 00:36:44,560
Speaker 1: he's given. So that's where a lot of the disconnect

774
00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:48,000
Speaker 1: with that comes from. But you know, when I I

775
00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:50,520
Speaker 1: started to see the fitness go down to this route

776
00:36:50,520 --> 00:36:52,960
Speaker 1: where clients would come into my classes. And then so

777
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:55,520
Speaker 1: I left Berry's opened a studio here in Nashville, and

778
00:36:55,520 --> 00:36:59,720
Speaker 1: almost immediately within I think there was four months maybe

779
00:36:59,800 --> 00:37:02,040
Speaker 1: or five months between when I left Berries and when

780
00:37:02,040 --> 00:37:04,400
Speaker 1: the studio opened. It was the middle two thousand eighteen.

781
00:37:04,480 --> 00:37:07,560
Speaker 1: This big shift happened, and I started to realize that

782
00:37:07,880 --> 00:37:09,719
Speaker 1: so like the amount of people that would come in

783
00:37:09,760 --> 00:37:12,480
Speaker 1: the studio who were so focused on getting that right

784
00:37:12,520 --> 00:37:16,399
Speaker 1: Instagram post or getting that right, what have you? This

785
00:37:16,400 --> 00:37:18,359
Speaker 1: person that did this workout, so I'm gonna come in

786
00:37:18,400 --> 00:37:22,120
Speaker 1: Like it seemed to really kind of accelerate full force.

787
00:37:22,160 --> 00:37:25,279
Speaker 1: Two thousands of the eighteen Fitness became less of like

788
00:37:25,680 --> 00:37:28,480
Speaker 1: fitness and more of like a scene too that you

789
00:37:28,480 --> 00:37:30,719
Speaker 1: want to be make sure that you get photographed at

790
00:37:30,840 --> 00:37:33,560
Speaker 1: social scene. It was like National Elf itself was going

791
00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:36,440
Speaker 1: through this explosion of every person would come for the

792
00:37:36,480 --> 00:37:38,279
Speaker 1: weekend and have a really fun Batchelort party and be like,

793
00:37:38,320 --> 00:37:40,040
Speaker 1: I want to move there. And so we had all

794
00:37:40,080 --> 00:37:43,600
Speaker 1: these people moving here and I just that studio opened,

795
00:37:44,000 --> 00:37:47,359
Speaker 1: and literally I was like, this is I know, like

796
00:37:47,600 --> 00:37:51,880
Speaker 1: I can't. This is not the type of fitness industry

797
00:37:51,920 --> 00:37:55,880
Speaker 1: that I feel comfortable operated in and I feel comfortable

798
00:37:56,360 --> 00:37:59,600
Speaker 1: being a part of. And this is why I believe

799
00:37:59,600 --> 00:38:01,360
Speaker 1: in the unit verse and God and everything happens for

800
00:38:01,400 --> 00:38:04,320
Speaker 1: a reason. Soon thereafter, I found out I was pregnant

801
00:38:04,400 --> 00:38:07,840
Speaker 1: with my daughter, and that was the only thing that

802
00:38:07,880 --> 00:38:10,480
Speaker 1: I could have gotten me away from the fitness world.

803
00:38:10,719 --> 00:38:12,880
Speaker 1: And that's why I like things under your life when

804
00:38:12,880 --> 00:38:15,879
Speaker 1: they're supposed to happen, and from the boutique fitness group

805
00:38:15,880 --> 00:38:17,600
Speaker 1: fitness world that is that got me away from it

806
00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:20,919
Speaker 1: and had my daughter, and then decided a year later

807
00:38:20,960 --> 00:38:24,120
Speaker 1: that I needed to move on because I, especially now

808
00:38:24,239 --> 00:38:28,480
Speaker 1: having a female to raise, I am so hyper aware

809
00:38:28,760 --> 00:38:32,120
Speaker 1: of the environment that I put myself in and that

810
00:38:32,120 --> 00:38:35,920
Speaker 1: that I bring her around, and it's even interesting. So

811
00:38:35,960 --> 00:38:39,240
Speaker 1: now I'm I'm training fully on this virtual training basis

812
00:38:39,280 --> 00:38:41,239
Speaker 1: for the Lage Fitness method, but also i do have

813
00:38:41,320 --> 00:38:44,200
Speaker 1: some in person clients, and I'm grateful that I'm ten

814
00:38:44,280 --> 00:38:47,200
Speaker 1: years into this, and that can be very selective with

815
00:38:47,280 --> 00:38:49,520
Speaker 1: the people I choose to bring in person, because I

816
00:38:49,719 --> 00:38:52,719
Speaker 1: bring those people around to desire the same things I

817
00:38:52,719 --> 00:38:54,359
Speaker 1: do and are on the same page mentally and are

818
00:38:54,400 --> 00:38:56,200
Speaker 1: willing to work on their mental health in order to

819
00:38:56,200 --> 00:38:58,920
Speaker 1: get their physical health. But I'm even now starting to

820
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:01,160
Speaker 1: get connected with other training ners across the country again

821
00:39:01,200 --> 00:39:03,400
Speaker 1: because in the virtual space now you can appeal to

822
00:39:03,480 --> 00:39:05,799
Speaker 1: people over the country, which I think are all over

823
00:39:05,840 --> 00:39:07,680
Speaker 1: the world. Actually, I think is a beautiful thing about

824
00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:10,440
Speaker 1: the virtual space, and I've met some really awesome people.

825
00:39:10,600 --> 00:39:12,759
Speaker 1: But I will tell you I've gotten close with some

826
00:39:12,840 --> 00:39:15,759
Speaker 1: of these trainers and they've been having discussions all week

827
00:39:15,840 --> 00:39:18,759
Speaker 1: about how this person didn't repost that or didn't repost this,

828
00:39:18,880 --> 00:39:21,239
Speaker 1: And I'm like putting on the brakes big time because

829
00:39:21,239 --> 00:39:24,520
Speaker 1: I'm like you, guys, we can't as trainers keep seeking

830
00:39:24,600 --> 00:39:28,040
Speaker 1: external validation from other people, and then our clients are

831
00:39:28,040 --> 00:39:30,879
Speaker 1: seeking validation from us. It's like the cyclical wheel that

832
00:39:30,960 --> 00:39:33,520
Speaker 1: never stops. It's like we have to be so strong

833
00:39:33,640 --> 00:39:35,680
Speaker 1: and keep focused and stay the course on the product

834
00:39:35,800 --> 00:39:39,720
Speaker 1: that we have and on our beliefs as trainers, are

835
00:39:39,920 --> 00:39:42,440
Speaker 1: our healthy thoughts as trainers, and it's law of attraction.

836
00:39:42,719 --> 00:39:44,520
Speaker 1: The right people who are meant to come into your

837
00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:47,840
Speaker 1: life will you will track the clients you want to

838
00:39:47,880 --> 00:39:52,080
Speaker 1: attract based on just being your true, authentic self and

839
00:39:52,120 --> 00:39:54,120
Speaker 1: not worrying about this two piece and ware, and not

840
00:39:54,120 --> 00:39:57,040
Speaker 1: worrying about somebody reposted this, not worrying about oh my god,

841
00:39:57,080 --> 00:39:58,920
Speaker 1: my post only got so many likes. I read the

842
00:39:58,960 --> 00:40:01,759
Speaker 1: most brilliant thing other day and it was like, just

843
00:40:01,840 --> 00:40:04,440
Speaker 1: because somebody doesn't like your post doesn't mean they're not watching.

844
00:40:04,640 --> 00:40:06,839
Speaker 1: Oh I just got chill bumps in my body. And

845
00:40:06,960 --> 00:40:09,800
Speaker 1: that is what I swear. Like a d percent of the

846
00:40:09,760 --> 00:40:11,839
Speaker 1: the time, people will like my posts about my daughter

847
00:40:11,920 --> 00:40:13,759
Speaker 1: way more than my fitness posts. And I love that

848
00:40:13,840 --> 00:40:16,600
Speaker 1: because I love my daughter and she's awesome, and I

849
00:40:16,640 --> 00:40:18,680
Speaker 1: love that people are paying more attention to like family

850
00:40:18,719 --> 00:40:22,000
Speaker 1: stuff rather than this fitness stuff. And I'm okay, but

851
00:40:22,320 --> 00:40:24,520
Speaker 1: I know a hund percent that people are also watching

852
00:40:24,560 --> 00:40:26,920
Speaker 1: just because they don't like to do it like and

853
00:40:26,960 --> 00:40:29,040
Speaker 1: that's why we've established a world based on likes. And

854
00:40:29,040 --> 00:40:30,959
Speaker 1: I'm like, people are watching no matter what you're doing,

855
00:40:31,680 --> 00:40:34,680
Speaker 1: they are watching. They're watching, And so when you put

856
00:40:34,719 --> 00:40:38,319
Speaker 1: your value into only these many followers, are only these

857
00:40:38,320 --> 00:40:40,920
Speaker 1: many likes, are only these many re shares, It doesn't matter.

858
00:40:41,400 --> 00:40:44,239
Speaker 1: People are watching period. I'm so glad you said that,

859
00:40:44,440 --> 00:40:46,359
Speaker 1: thank you, because it's work that I'm doing right now

860
00:40:46,719 --> 00:40:50,160
Speaker 1: being in a virtual space. It's definitely like, I know

861
00:40:50,200 --> 00:40:51,880
Speaker 1: it's the work I need to be in because I

862
00:40:51,920 --> 00:40:54,799
Speaker 1: despise social media so much but also love it at

863
00:40:54,840 --> 00:40:57,560
Speaker 1: the same time. And I know it's not going anywhere.

864
00:40:57,560 --> 00:40:59,759
Speaker 1: It might shape, it might shift into different forms, but

865
00:40:59,800 --> 00:41:01,840
Speaker 1: it's not going anywhere. It's the It's the part of

866
00:41:01,880 --> 00:41:04,440
Speaker 1: businesses now, like you need to have some kind of

867
00:41:04,480 --> 00:41:06,839
Speaker 1: presidents for the most part to help get your word

868
00:41:06,840 --> 00:41:09,160
Speaker 1: out there, especially when I'm a national trying to build

869
00:41:09,160 --> 00:41:11,279
Speaker 1: a business worldwide. So I like, I know, this is

870
00:41:11,280 --> 00:41:12,799
Speaker 1: the self work I need to do right now. How

871
00:41:12,800 --> 00:41:15,240
Speaker 1: to have a healthy relationship with social media. It's possible.

872
00:41:15,680 --> 00:41:18,520
Speaker 1: I don't believe in going to extremes of shutting yourself

873
00:41:18,560 --> 00:41:21,040
Speaker 1: off social media forever. I don't believe in extremes of

874
00:41:21,200 --> 00:41:24,800
Speaker 1: removing cookies from your diet forever. Like, you have to

875
00:41:24,840 --> 00:41:27,200
Speaker 1: develop a healthy relationship, and that looks different for everybody.

876
00:41:27,239 --> 00:41:29,080
Speaker 1: But for me, it's been on social media and not

877
00:41:29,200 --> 00:41:32,000
Speaker 1: judging myself by likes or by how many followers I have,

878
00:41:32,360 --> 00:41:35,719
Speaker 1: which is hard. It's hard, especially when some of my

879
00:41:35,760 --> 00:41:38,160
Speaker 1: best friends have these like hundred thousands of followers, and

880
00:41:38,200 --> 00:41:40,440
Speaker 1: I'm like, listen, you and I sit in our pjs,

881
00:41:40,440 --> 00:41:43,279
Speaker 1: the same amount of time been rough together, Like I know,

882
00:41:43,360 --> 00:41:46,839
Speaker 1: but I people are watching. And That's what I'm trying

883
00:41:46,840 --> 00:41:49,120
Speaker 1: to get across these trainers right now. It's like, don't

884
00:41:49,160 --> 00:41:52,760
Speaker 1: worry about all that stuff. Where your focus goes, energy flows,

885
00:41:53,200 --> 00:41:57,400
Speaker 1: and so if you spend all your time focusing on black,

886
00:41:57,600 --> 00:42:00,840
Speaker 1: what I'm lacking. I'm lacking followers, I'm lacking clients in

887
00:42:00,840 --> 00:42:04,040
Speaker 1: this class. If you literally keep spending your time focusing

888
00:42:04,080 --> 00:42:06,400
Speaker 1: on the black, You're never going to attract what you

889
00:42:06,400 --> 00:42:08,920
Speaker 1: need rather than focusing on what you do have because

890
00:42:08,920 --> 00:42:12,280
Speaker 1: some more, I mean, that's so important in any aspect

891
00:42:12,320 --> 00:42:15,440
Speaker 1: of life. I can relate it to Like my job

892
00:42:15,480 --> 00:42:17,960
Speaker 1: as a therapist. It took me a couple of years

893
00:42:17,960 --> 00:42:20,360
Speaker 1: to build a practice that I felt stable in. But

894
00:42:20,440 --> 00:42:22,560
Speaker 1: if I were to spend all day long worried about

895
00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:25,279
Speaker 1: how many open slots I had, but I don't know

896
00:42:25,320 --> 00:42:27,760
Speaker 1: what would happen. But I just poured into the consistent

897
00:42:27,800 --> 00:42:31,600
Speaker 1: clients I did have. My business works by word of mouth. Yes,

898
00:42:31,800 --> 00:42:33,840
Speaker 1: at the end of the day. That last for Fitness

899
00:42:33,960 --> 00:42:37,120
Speaker 1: World too. So yeah, you might have two people come

900
00:42:37,160 --> 00:42:40,200
Speaker 1: into your class you did at five am, But you

901
00:42:40,320 --> 00:42:43,400
Speaker 1: give those two people everything you have, and you treat

902
00:42:43,440 --> 00:42:46,239
Speaker 1: them like they are special, and you treat them that

903
00:42:46,320 --> 00:42:48,680
Speaker 1: like you would. You're here because they showed up at

904
00:42:48,760 --> 00:42:51,480
Speaker 1: five am. They are going to tell people about it,

905
00:42:51,960 --> 00:42:54,720
Speaker 1: like That's how it works. That's how I've built my

906
00:42:54,719 --> 00:42:57,839
Speaker 1: my business over time. And so that's why creating this

907
00:42:57,880 --> 00:42:59,920
Speaker 1: new space where a lot of people don't know me.

908
00:43:00,080 --> 00:43:01,920
Speaker 1: You go from a market where everybody knows you too,

909
00:43:01,960 --> 00:43:05,080
Speaker 1: now a worldwide market where like we're literally you were

910
00:43:05,200 --> 00:43:08,399
Speaker 1: judged based on how your look first impressions, and I'm like, hey,

911
00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:11,480
Speaker 1: guess what my superpower is actually, you know, not that

912
00:43:11,600 --> 00:43:13,560
Speaker 1: I look I mean I look fine in a two

913
00:43:13,560 --> 00:43:16,160
Speaker 1: piece whatever. And so I'm not saying I'm not saying,

914
00:43:16,160 --> 00:43:17,959
Speaker 1: like anything a gift that I'm not trying to search

915
00:43:18,000 --> 00:43:19,759
Speaker 1: for compliments in that way. But I'm saying I don't

916
00:43:19,760 --> 00:43:23,320
Speaker 1: pride myself in me putting together the fanciest workout outfit

917
00:43:23,400 --> 00:43:25,920
Speaker 1: or something, because I know my energy and attention go

918
00:43:26,120 --> 00:43:29,520
Speaker 1: to the fact that I can channel and I can.

919
00:43:29,840 --> 00:43:32,960
Speaker 1: You're amazing at what you do teach that resonates with

920
00:43:33,000 --> 00:43:35,640
Speaker 1: the whole demographic, whole different different graphics of people. It's

921
00:43:35,680 --> 00:43:38,759
Speaker 1: not just one group of people. And so that's that's

922
00:43:38,760 --> 00:43:40,479
Speaker 1: what you've got to focus on. Like we talked about before,

923
00:43:40,520 --> 00:43:43,839
Speaker 1: that's stress trainer superpowers like we all have. We all

924
00:43:43,880 --> 00:43:46,040
Speaker 1: have gifts, and we want to be in this business

925
00:43:46,120 --> 00:43:48,600
Speaker 1: if we didn't have gifts. So focus on your gifts

926
00:43:48,840 --> 00:43:51,720
Speaker 1: and everything else will follow. That's actually a good place

927
00:43:51,719 --> 00:43:54,759
Speaker 1: to even like round this out, because what I love

928
00:43:54,800 --> 00:43:58,560
Speaker 1: about you is that you are not following the status

929
00:43:58,680 --> 00:44:03,760
Speaker 1: quo of fitting this in Nashville slash America like running

930
00:44:03,760 --> 00:44:06,920
Speaker 1: away from it. Yes, exactly, and you were here before it.

931
00:44:06,960 --> 00:44:09,080
Speaker 1: I'll start, You were in that space and you had

932
00:44:09,120 --> 00:44:12,160
Speaker 1: every opportunity to shift with that, and who knows what

933
00:44:12,200 --> 00:44:13,799
Speaker 1: your life would look like if you would have done that.

934
00:44:13,880 --> 00:44:15,840
Speaker 1: I'm sure if you taught at Barry Still, your classes

935
00:44:15,880 --> 00:44:18,239
Speaker 1: would sell out and have fifty people waiting list like

936
00:44:18,280 --> 00:44:21,359
Speaker 1: I'm sure they would. But there's something in you that

937
00:44:21,440 --> 00:44:26,560
Speaker 1: was more important than looking like the coolest, most successful

938
00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:29,960
Speaker 1: instructor at the coolest gym in the studio. There is

939
00:44:30,120 --> 00:44:33,560
Speaker 1: heart behind it, and I wanted you to even come

940
00:44:33,600 --> 00:44:36,520
Speaker 1: on here just because I see that that's what we need.

941
00:44:36,600 --> 00:44:39,480
Speaker 1: We need people in every aspect. It's not just fitness.

942
00:44:39,719 --> 00:44:43,040
Speaker 1: We need people in every aspect of life who are

943
00:44:43,080 --> 00:44:47,040
Speaker 1: willing to go against what everybody else is doing that

944
00:44:47,080 --> 00:44:49,719
Speaker 1: we all also know is killing us, but we all

945
00:44:49,719 --> 00:44:52,160
Speaker 1: still do it. And so I just think that this

946
00:44:52,320 --> 00:44:56,319
Speaker 1: you're a beautiful picture of that and owning your truth. Now,

947
00:44:57,360 --> 00:44:59,080
Speaker 1: we do need to have you back to talk about

948
00:44:59,239 --> 00:45:01,759
Speaker 1: the there I do want to acknowledge there are very

949
00:45:01,880 --> 00:45:03,680
Speaker 1: there's a lot of layers to the process, and there's

950
00:45:03,680 --> 00:45:06,640
Speaker 1: a lot of layers of me being on medications that

951
00:45:06,760 --> 00:45:10,000
Speaker 1: I definitely needed that, you know, affective process. There's there's

952
00:45:10,120 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 1: layers of eating disorder in there that I've overcome and

953
00:45:12,160 --> 00:45:14,880
Speaker 1: all that, But it's to your point, I've made a

954
00:45:14,880 --> 00:45:17,799
Speaker 1: lot of necessary shifts on my own, Like I look,

955
00:45:18,080 --> 00:45:20,120
Speaker 1: I had to do this when quarantine first started in

956
00:45:20,160 --> 00:45:22,799
Speaker 1: the world shut down, and I was like, uh, what

957
00:45:22,920 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 1: am I doing my life? I'm sure along with other

958
00:45:25,080 --> 00:45:28,080
Speaker 1: seven billion people in this world were like what happens next?

959
00:45:28,480 --> 00:45:30,360
Speaker 1: And I had this assessment of my life that I

960
00:45:30,360 --> 00:45:31,920
Speaker 1: want to share really fast because I feel like it's

961
00:45:31,920 --> 00:45:36,160
Speaker 1: important that every major job that I've had in life

962
00:45:36,160 --> 00:45:39,960
Speaker 1: for I've left on my own terms because I knew

963
00:45:40,200 --> 00:45:43,480
Speaker 1: I wasn't living my full truth and able to live

964
00:45:43,560 --> 00:45:46,440
Speaker 1: into my best self. And so when I when I

965
00:45:46,480 --> 00:45:48,279
Speaker 1: look back at my life, I could easily look back

966
00:45:48,320 --> 00:45:50,600
Speaker 1: at like, oh I had that job, Why had this?

967
00:45:51,040 --> 00:45:53,239
Speaker 1: Like why did I leave? All that stuff? Like it's

968
00:45:53,280 --> 00:45:55,560
Speaker 1: so easy to look at all these easy not easy

969
00:45:55,600 --> 00:45:57,880
Speaker 1: job but are these really incredible jobs you've had in

970
00:45:57,880 --> 00:46:00,879
Speaker 1: the past. I always have to connect with why, my why,

971
00:46:01,000 --> 00:46:04,320
Speaker 1: like why I left those jobs, and they've always aligned

972
00:46:04,360 --> 00:46:07,200
Speaker 1: with me, never staying with the like what was cool

973
00:46:07,280 --> 00:46:09,640
Speaker 1: or popular. It was always when I started to see

974
00:46:09,719 --> 00:46:12,560
Speaker 1: a dynamic shift happen and for me to know that

975
00:46:12,600 --> 00:46:15,040
Speaker 1: I didn't align with those anymore and that I couldn't

976
00:46:15,080 --> 00:46:17,040
Speaker 1: stay with something. It's almost like a curse I have.

977
00:46:17,600 --> 00:46:19,600
Speaker 1: I can't stay with something when it looks to be

978
00:46:19,800 --> 00:46:22,080
Speaker 1: so popular in the fad because I'm like, this is

979
00:46:22,120 --> 00:46:24,839
Speaker 1: not living my full truth out or not. Because you're

980
00:46:25,320 --> 00:46:28,800
Speaker 1: just doing the popular, cool trendy thing. You have to

981
00:46:28,840 --> 00:46:31,800
Speaker 1: sacrifice there, Yeah, and that's not worth it to you,

982
00:46:32,560 --> 00:46:35,120
Speaker 1: not to say that some people's true selves are the popular,

983
00:46:35,160 --> 00:46:37,080
Speaker 1: cool trendy thing. A lot of that. There's a lot

984
00:46:37,120 --> 00:46:41,640
Speaker 1: of really incredible instructors who teach and they are able

985
00:46:41,719 --> 00:46:44,440
Speaker 1: to do the cool, popular thing. They are able to

986
00:46:44,480 --> 00:46:46,840
Speaker 1: do that. But especially I had to adjust in a

987
00:46:46,920 --> 00:46:49,520
Speaker 1: market like Nashville. You also have to know your market,

988
00:46:49,520 --> 00:46:51,920
Speaker 1: and a market like Nashville which is a much smaller market.

989
00:46:52,040 --> 00:46:54,640
Speaker 1: It's I just I needed to get out because I

990
00:46:54,719 --> 00:46:58,600
Speaker 1: knew that what I felt about health and fitness is

991
00:46:58,880 --> 00:47:01,840
Speaker 1: very deep. It's on a very deep internal level and

992
00:47:01,920 --> 00:47:04,000
Speaker 1: surface is the last thing and it and it's starting

993
00:47:04,040 --> 00:47:05,960
Speaker 1: to flip and surface is very much the first thing

994
00:47:06,000 --> 00:47:08,719
Speaker 1: these days. So I needed to shift and I need

995
00:47:08,760 --> 00:47:11,440
Speaker 1: to now be a stand in this this new space

996
00:47:11,480 --> 00:47:14,200
Speaker 1: that I'm in to keep that same type of vibe

997
00:47:14,239 --> 00:47:16,600
Speaker 1: going and not play into let me try to play

998
00:47:16,640 --> 00:47:18,640
Speaker 1: with all these fancy Instagram posts and let me try

999
00:47:18,680 --> 00:47:20,680
Speaker 1: to just be fake niced to all these people on

1000
00:47:20,719 --> 00:47:23,840
Speaker 1: Instagram just to get them to follow, like keep saying

1001
00:47:23,840 --> 00:47:26,759
Speaker 1: the course law of attraction is a thing. Okay, So

1002
00:47:26,800 --> 00:47:29,920
Speaker 1: I think that's going to wrap up today. Clearly we're

1003
00:47:29,960 --> 00:47:32,759
Speaker 1: having you back. I'm not going to talk to you

1004
00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:35,399
Speaker 1: for as long as you want to talk, but thank

1005
00:47:35,400 --> 00:47:37,480
Speaker 1: you so much, and thank you for saying all the

1006
00:47:37,520 --> 00:47:39,279
Speaker 1: things that you said. I think this is going to

1007
00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:41,799
Speaker 1: hit a lot of people. And thank you for being

1008
00:47:41,800 --> 00:47:46,000
Speaker 1: an instructor who aligns with these tape type of principles too,

1009
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:50,160
Speaker 1: and keep in spurring to others because it's a domino effect. Well,

1010
00:47:50,200 --> 00:47:53,239
Speaker 1: that is it for us today. I will talk to

1011
00:47:53,280 --> 00:47:56,600
Speaker 1: you guys on couch Tucks on Wednesday. But if you

1012
00:47:56,640 --> 00:47:59,520
Speaker 1: have any questions for Anne Marie or you're like, wait

1013
00:47:59,560 --> 00:48:02,399
Speaker 1: a second, I want what she has, what is she doing?

1014
00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:04,239
Speaker 1: How do I reach her? How do they find you

1015
00:48:04,400 --> 00:48:08,040
Speaker 1: on Instagram? I'm at Fit City Pearl so f I

1016
00:48:08,120 --> 00:48:11,319
Speaker 1: T C I T Y P A R L and um.

1017
00:48:11,320 --> 00:48:14,320
Speaker 1: I'm also at fit city World, which is my whole brand.

1018
00:48:14,360 --> 00:48:17,279
Speaker 1: That's another dynamic to it, or fit city world dot com.

1019
00:48:18,120 --> 00:48:22,960
Speaker 1: You're guaranteed pictures of my dogs and my beautiful baby

1020
00:48:23,040 --> 00:48:26,400
Speaker 1: and me. How do people find your workout shows on

1021
00:48:26,560 --> 00:48:30,400
Speaker 1: fit city world dot com? Okay, which are soon expanding

1022
00:48:30,800 --> 00:48:34,040
Speaker 1: to be other than Lagree workouts way yeah, okay, that's

1023
00:48:34,080 --> 00:48:37,200
Speaker 1: great news for breaking news. That's actually great news for

1024
00:48:37,239 --> 00:48:40,799
Speaker 1: everybody because it's it's it's time. Yeah all right, Well

1025
00:48:41,000 --> 00:48:43,399
Speaker 1: go follow her. She's awesome just to like see her

1026
00:48:43,480 --> 00:48:46,880
Speaker 1: child and her animals, and also her other content is

1027
00:48:46,920 --> 00:48:48,720
Speaker 1: great too. But like, if you just want some happiness

1028
00:48:48,719 --> 00:48:50,279
Speaker 1: in your feed, people are there for the dogs and

1029
00:48:50,560 --> 00:48:52,640
Speaker 1: the baby, and I don't I don't mind it whatever,

1030
00:48:52,640 --> 00:49:00,560
Speaker 1: I don't mind it, all right, bye guys. Two