WEBVTT - Act Your Age 0:00:01.920 --> 0:00:05.359 Wind Down with Janet Kramer and I'm Heeart Radio Podcast. 0:00:06.480 --> 0:00:11.760 Yay's thanks all back, Thank god, my captain's here. You're 0:00:11.840 --> 0:00:13.920 welcome back. Things are a little rough. 0:00:13.960 --> 0:00:16.120 You guys, don't have to put the phones out, Saday. 0:00:16.400 --> 0:00:18.280 You can just come in and sit down. 0:00:18.440 --> 0:00:21.000 We just trust your eye too much when we have 0:00:21.079 --> 0:00:22.960 to do it. There's no trust in each other room, 0:00:23.280 --> 0:00:24.079 like wait, did you pust? 0:00:24.160 --> 0:00:24.599 Did you do this? 0:00:24.680 --> 0:00:25.759 Airplane mode? I don't know. 0:00:26.040 --> 0:00:28.080 And then I also go back into like that mode 0:00:28.080 --> 0:00:29.800 of when you have like a like a boss and 0:00:29.800 --> 0:00:32.159 you don't want to disappoint someone like it would be 0:00:32.280 --> 0:00:33.640 my luck that I wouldn't push. 0:00:33.760 --> 0:00:37.080 We would take that hour out of her literally no time, 0:00:37.240 --> 0:00:38.720 and then we would record it and then we would 0:00:38.720 --> 0:00:40.720 have bested up, and it would just made me just 0:00:40.840 --> 0:00:42.640 really sad. Welcome back to night. 0:00:43.000 --> 0:00:45.120 We're glad to have you, glad to be here. 0:00:45.280 --> 0:00:46.520 Have you like gotten back on. 0:00:46.479 --> 0:00:50.880 A I got it Saturday night. I slept like ten 0:00:50.920 --> 0:00:53.559 hours and it was amazing love A ten. 0:00:53.680 --> 0:00:54.880 We're so good. I mean I went to bed at 0:00:54.880 --> 0:00:57.480 eight thirty. That's nice? Is that a girl? Yeah? It 0:00:57.600 --> 0:00:58.640 was so nice? Good. 0:00:58.880 --> 0:01:01.200 Yeah, So it's been good and I'm yeah slowly getting 0:01:01.240 --> 0:01:03.360 back into the the sleep. 0:01:03.480 --> 0:01:07.880 Are we feeling all supported on the home front coming back? Yes, good, 0:01:08.360 --> 0:01:09.320 laundry was done. 0:01:10.800 --> 0:01:13.600 I need to know. I've been just dying to money. 0:01:13.640 --> 0:01:15.720 You should say that, Cat, I need to know. Ye 0:01:16.240 --> 0:01:16.640 was done. 0:01:16.720 --> 0:01:19.000 And No, it was one of those where it's like 0:01:19.080 --> 0:01:22.720 where the kids bag's unpacked from the trip. No, you 0:01:22.720 --> 0:01:25.560 know what I mean. Things So but it's fine. It 0:01:25.600 --> 0:01:28.000 was a greenhouse. I didn't even care. I came back 0:01:28.120 --> 0:01:30.920 just like very joyful and to be unhappy. Yeah, to 0:01:30.920 --> 0:01:33.520 get home because it was a long one. Yeah, and 0:01:33.560 --> 0:01:35.680 I'm sad that you weren't able to come out on 0:01:35.720 --> 0:01:38.360 this one because it was you would have loved it. Yeah, 0:01:38.400 --> 0:01:39.600 this is this is a good one. 0:01:39.680 --> 0:01:42.400 It ended up being interesting because Emmy ended up being sick. 0:01:42.720 --> 0:01:43.040 That's home. 0:01:43.080 --> 0:01:44.600 When we were gone, she had like one hundred and 0:01:44.600 --> 0:01:45.000 two fever. 0:01:45.120 --> 0:01:46.480 That's where I'm at right now today. 0:01:46.640 --> 0:01:48.800 It's it's a thing. It's a viral thing. We tested 0:01:48.800 --> 0:01:50.400 twice for everything. Weird. 0:01:50.560 --> 0:01:53.120 The baby had it Saturday, love has it today. 0:01:53.240 --> 0:01:54.920 So she was really sick. So I would it would 0:01:54.920 --> 0:01:56.400 have It would have been a struggle for me to 0:01:56.520 --> 0:01:59.920 leave because she's usually fine. But like her fever got 0:02:00.000 --> 0:02:02.440 pretty so I would have felt it so it worked out. Yeah, 0:02:02.480 --> 0:02:04.920 I was bummed, but it worked out like well, of course. 0:02:04.800 --> 0:02:06.480 It would have. It definitely would have been a fun 0:02:06.480 --> 0:02:08.600 one though. Yeah. Oh, I can't wait to see you. 0:02:08.760 --> 0:02:11.360 It's so good. I'm so excited. There's a few things 0:02:11.400 --> 0:02:14.240 that I'm real proud of in it good. Yeah, it's 0:02:14.240 --> 0:02:17.359 a little jockey. It was out of you. I was 0:02:17.400 --> 0:02:21.040 a trainer, oh not a jockey trainer. Proud of that too, 0:02:23.680 --> 0:02:27.200 thanks girl, girl. Yeah, that's that though. 0:02:27.240 --> 0:02:29.920 Guys. We're just happy you're back. It feels weird when 0:02:31.080 --> 0:02:33.680 and it was like, a, really this is so sentimental 0:02:33.720 --> 0:02:37.120 and ridiculous, but that's my role, right, that's what I do. 0:02:37.280 --> 0:02:37.400 Right. 0:02:38.720 --> 0:02:41.120 I just like being here though, Like I felt like 0:02:41.160 --> 0:02:43.200 far away from you, so it just felt like good 0:02:43.280 --> 0:02:45.040 to just even be like in your space. 0:02:45.440 --> 0:02:46.959 It was definitely the way to do it. It was 0:02:47.000 --> 0:02:48.760 sweet and not psycho what I just said, because like, 0:02:48.840 --> 0:02:51.120 my house isn't set up for it. It always doesn't 0:02:51.160 --> 0:02:52.920 sound good, it doesn't look good. It was just so 0:02:53.040 --> 0:02:55.079 much better to just be here. We could be here, 0:02:55.160 --> 0:02:57.320 the setup, we could see you, well, it was it 0:02:57.360 --> 0:02:58.239 was perfect. 0:02:58.480 --> 0:03:03.200 Yay, yay, don't ever leave again. Let's me do that again. Well, 0:03:03.240 --> 0:03:05.280 I might have a few coming up. But anyways, that's fine. 0:03:05.320 --> 0:03:10.359 I mean, that's good, kine. 0:03:11.160 --> 0:03:16.520 So any life updates? Did the in laws come? What's happening? 0:03:16.680 --> 0:03:18.960 No? In laws didn't come? You said, did you? 0:03:19.000 --> 0:03:21.680 Oh? You kept saying what if that's what you want? 0:03:21.880 --> 0:03:24.799 That's right? And it ended up just shaking out good 0:03:25.480 --> 0:03:26.640 I am guys? 0:03:26.680 --> 0:03:26.880 Are you? 0:03:26.919 --> 0:03:29.600 And I hope you're proud of this. I'm trying really 0:03:29.639 --> 0:03:32.000 hard to use the word surrender over and over and 0:03:32.040 --> 0:03:35.640 over again. Yeah, not a doormat, but just to know 0:03:35.800 --> 0:03:39.440 what will be, will be sure, because I find myself 0:03:39.480 --> 0:03:46.520 anchoring in these little nooks of nervousness or anxious overworrying. 0:03:47.160 --> 0:03:49.760 It does me no good, it does my body no good. 0:03:49.960 --> 0:03:52.080 And so I'm just trying to continue, like when I 0:03:52.120 --> 0:03:55.560 tell you it's minute to minute back re surrendering, really 0:03:55.720 --> 0:03:59.680 sing surrendering. So I thought, you know, what, if they 0:03:59.800 --> 0:04:02.560 want want to come, it will be what it will be. 0:04:04.120 --> 0:04:08.120 And what do you know? Just over here other side 0:04:08.120 --> 0:04:13.160 of having my husband home for five days and no hosting, great, Hey, 0:04:13.360 --> 0:04:15.440 So I do want to set the record straight that 0:04:15.520 --> 0:04:17.680 I do like to host because I found a lot. 0:04:19.360 --> 0:04:21.600 I got a lot of support. They're like, I stress 0:04:21.600 --> 0:04:23.880 about having people over to Okay, I got. 0:04:23.680 --> 0:04:25.880 A lot of support. People were like, and I said, 0:04:26.279 --> 0:04:30.240 I'm just nervous. I'm coming off like, yeah, got frigid, 0:04:30.520 --> 0:04:33.920 you know, Like I do enjoy it. I think I'm 0:04:33.920 --> 0:04:35.760 just in a season where I'm hosting three of the 0:04:35.760 --> 0:04:37.640 people I gave birth to, and that's enough for me. 0:04:37.720 --> 0:04:41.600 It doesn't make you a frigid bitch, you know what 0:04:41.640 --> 0:04:43.440 I mean. Like every personality is different, and that's what 0:04:43.480 --> 0:04:45.600 I'm learning. I always kind of thought that about myself 0:04:45.680 --> 0:04:48.000 because I seem like kind of cold and stuff like that. 0:04:48.400 --> 0:04:50.680 But now I'm realizing through this and people reaching out 0:04:50.720 --> 0:04:53.400 like that's my personality too, and that's okay. Yeah, Like 0:04:53.440 --> 0:04:55.320 there's a lot of people like that. Like a lot 0:04:55.320 --> 0:04:57.960 of people would prefer to go to someone else's house 0:04:58.240 --> 0:04:59.800 then hosted their house, Like that's. 0:04:59.680 --> 0:05:01.320 Not a yeah. 0:05:01.480 --> 0:05:04.680 I'll just say this though too, Like when I met you, Catherine, 0:05:05.279 --> 0:05:06.960 my first impression wasn't you were cold? 0:05:07.240 --> 0:05:09.360 Or that you were right? 0:05:09.360 --> 0:05:11.120 You know, I'm just thinking back, Yeah, like when I 0:05:11.160 --> 0:05:13.919 met you, I wouldn't have become friends with you if 0:05:13.960 --> 0:05:15.080 I thought you were old, right? 0:05:15.320 --> 0:05:17.400 You know well, and I think too, you have a 0:05:17.400 --> 0:05:21.359 good personality for me in that situation. If someone is 0:05:21.400 --> 0:05:24.839 also like me, it's harder. It's harder for both of 0:05:24.920 --> 0:05:27.159 us because we're fine once we get to know each other. 0:05:27.200 --> 0:05:28.520 One of the other girls that it was kind of 0:05:28.520 --> 0:05:31.280 in another acquaintance group where it's then you guys just 0:05:31.320 --> 0:05:33.000 like stand next to each other and don't say anything 0:05:33.040 --> 0:05:34.280 because it's. 0:05:33.400 --> 0:05:34.200 Not who it is. 0:05:34.480 --> 0:05:37.359 Yes, I can already just say yeah, a lot for 0:05:37.440 --> 0:05:38.040 you when we met. 0:05:38.200 --> 0:05:40.560 That's what I'm saying. Y'all's personalities make it easier for 0:05:40.680 --> 0:05:44.880 me because if you're like me and it's hard Channa 0:05:44.880 --> 0:05:48.600 and I like Velcrow two, well, yeah, and that can 0:05:48.680 --> 0:05:51.520 work too. But again, I remember meeting Jane. I was like, oh, 0:05:51.520 --> 0:05:55.000 this is easy because she remembers and I don't remember 0:05:55.040 --> 0:05:56.320 feeling like you were closed off at all. 0:05:56.560 --> 0:05:58.080 But again, you'll make it easier for me. 0:05:58.440 --> 0:06:02.560 Yeah, if someone is also right, but it's awesome, kind nice, 0:06:03.200 --> 0:06:05.400 awkward at first, then we're just awkward and we don't 0:06:05.400 --> 0:06:06.720 know what to do. We don't have to until we 0:06:06.760 --> 0:06:07.960 get to know each other and then we're fine. 0:06:08.080 --> 0:06:12.120 Okay, do has your has that changed for you? 0:06:13.600 --> 0:06:18.960 What being in because I've noticed me shifting a bit. 0:06:19.920 --> 0:06:22.080 The surrendering or the being in people's space. 0:06:23.360 --> 0:06:27.080 Not being like even within work situations normally be like 0:06:27.120 --> 0:06:29.520 I'm a hugger, like I'm a lot more like highness 0:06:29.560 --> 0:06:32.560 to meet you, like I'm more I'm not as. 0:06:33.120 --> 0:06:36.480 You're more reserved. Now for sure, I would, I definitely am. 0:06:36.600 --> 0:06:38.480 I think a lot of that changed with marriage, depressed 0:06:38.480 --> 0:06:43.479 into because we kind of the irony of like the 0:06:43.600 --> 0:06:45.960 roles that you play and just like I had a 0:06:45.960 --> 0:06:47.599 really good boss actually when I worked at the record 0:06:47.640 --> 0:06:48.840 label and we kind of had a talk where he 0:06:48.920 --> 0:06:51.000 was like, listen, as I've always been the hugger, and 0:06:51.040 --> 0:06:53.600 he's like that could be perceived as not professional at times, 0:06:53.600 --> 0:06:56.600 and I'm like, oh, you know, broke my little Michigan heart, 0:06:56.720 --> 0:06:57.240 and I feel like. 0:06:57.240 --> 0:06:59.240 We come from a state of hugger. When I was 0:06:59.240 --> 0:07:05.000 doing my radio to Yeah, the label like basically said 0:07:05.000 --> 0:07:07.800 because I would hug the program directors. So some liked 0:07:07.839 --> 0:07:10.760 it and others were like they didn't add my song 0:07:10.920 --> 0:07:13.520 because I was like hugging them, or like because I 0:07:13.560 --> 0:07:15.200 was too friendly. I was like, I was just giving 0:07:15.200 --> 0:07:16.960 them a hug. I'm just a Michigan. A note like 0:07:17.320 --> 0:07:19.760 I'm frankly that was. 0:07:19.800 --> 0:07:23.480 So interesting, but a little bit in the label's defense, 0:07:23.960 --> 0:07:27.520 these radio guys would think because you gave them a 0:07:27.560 --> 0:07:29.800 hug that they were going to score, and when they 0:07:29.800 --> 0:07:31.880 did not score, I'm just going to be flat out 0:07:31.880 --> 0:07:33.600 honest with you, then they were like, f you, I'm 0:07:33.600 --> 0:07:34.320 not adding the song. 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:37.480 So that was a same discussion, and that's bad. 0:07:37.680 --> 0:07:40.720 It's so messed up. And it literally we basically had 0:07:40.760 --> 0:07:43.280 to tell you to not be yourself because these men 0:07:44.000 --> 0:07:47.000 would get it in their head after a hug. And 0:07:47.040 --> 0:07:49.680 I remember once you walked past a radio guy not 0:07:49.840 --> 0:07:52.080 realizing it. I'll never forget this. I think we were 0:07:52.080 --> 0:07:54.440 in Vegas, okay. I just remember being told because I 0:07:54.480 --> 0:07:56.000 was with you, and I was like, we did not 0:07:56.160 --> 0:07:58.840 I did not see him, but he was mad that 0:07:58.880 --> 0:08:00.840 we walked past and did not. 0:08:00.880 --> 0:08:03.559 Say hello, then didn't play my song because we don't 0:08:03.560 --> 0:08:04.280 have enough TI. 0:08:05.880 --> 0:08:08.800 I just want to defend that, Like it was not like, hey, 0:08:08.920 --> 0:08:11.120 just don't be a hugger. It was these radio guys. 0:08:11.160 --> 0:08:14.840 I'm sorry. They made it really hard for artists to 0:08:14.880 --> 0:08:15.600 beat themselves. 0:08:16.160 --> 0:08:18.480 Well. I remember getting side hugged ones by a pastor 0:08:19.040 --> 0:08:21.360 because I was a hugger. Right, And then that's an 0:08:21.400 --> 0:08:24.080 awkward moment too, you know, like I just assumed everyone's 0:08:24.080 --> 0:08:26.400 a hugger and I went to be like, thank you 0:08:26.440 --> 0:08:29.760 so much. And that's a completely cool difference sided me. 0:08:30.120 --> 0:08:32.880 I understand it. Yeah, but at the time, I was like, well, 0:08:32.920 --> 0:08:37.679 that's weird. You know. I'm definitely super lovely still with women, 0:08:38.040 --> 0:08:40.800 not even as much. I feel like, I'm just I 0:08:40.840 --> 0:08:43.080 hate this word, but I am a little more guarded 0:08:44.000 --> 0:08:47.320 in general, and it's not closed off. I'm just I 0:08:47.360 --> 0:08:50.000 think as we get older, the filter and the scanner 0:08:50.000 --> 0:08:51.360 and the discernment gets a little sharper. 0:08:51.480 --> 0:08:54.600 So we're I think mine came from like, yes, we 0:08:54.679 --> 0:08:58.960 are Midwest girls, and that was I feel like we 0:08:58.960 --> 0:09:02.520 were it. If I wasn't that way, then I wouldn't 0:09:02.559 --> 0:09:05.840 be liked or I wouldn't be perceived as this really 0:09:06.040 --> 0:09:10.160 easy going, fun Midwestern girl, and so I felt like 0:09:10.200 --> 0:09:14.000 I had to And then but it was like almost 0:09:14.040 --> 0:09:16.000 like a not an overkill because it is my personality. 0:09:16.040 --> 0:09:19.160 I do would rather hug than shake someone's hand, and 0:09:20.320 --> 0:09:24.040 I'm more reserved now, yeah, because I don't. I would 0:09:24.080 --> 0:09:27.240 almost did too much then because I was trying to 0:09:27.280 --> 0:09:30.960 portray this like easy free loving person. 0:09:31.160 --> 0:09:35.360 Absolutely, I would agree. Yeah, and I think. 0:09:35.200 --> 0:09:38.600 It's okay to you know, I think it's okay either way. 0:09:38.800 --> 0:09:40.760 I mean, your personality is your personality. But if you 0:09:40.840 --> 0:09:44.000 feel more comfortable not having to overcompensate, not having to 0:09:44.000 --> 0:09:46.680 be overly and by all means be more reserved, you know, 0:09:46.800 --> 0:09:48.080 would everybody be themselves? 0:09:48.480 --> 0:09:51.679 Yeah? I love you. I want to hug you right now. 0:09:51.679 --> 0:09:54.320 It's hard for me. Hard for me, I would though 0:09:54.800 --> 0:09:58.439 there wasn't two microphones. Oh yeah, I love how you 0:09:58.480 --> 0:10:02.760 guys just like look back to me. So happy your bag? No, 0:10:03.240 --> 0:10:05.040 I know there's not smiling. 0:10:05.480 --> 0:10:08.319 Oh my updates are literally I feel like I'm getting old. 0:10:08.360 --> 0:10:08.560 Oh. 0:10:08.679 --> 0:10:10.600 Also, when I was could have been at the movie 0:10:10.640 --> 0:10:12.520 I threw my back out for the first time ever 0:10:12.679 --> 0:10:16.280 Welcome to forty. It was awful and I could not walk. 0:10:16.320 --> 0:10:16.960 How'd you do it? 0:10:17.120 --> 0:10:19.680 You tried to crawl? Nothing, that's the thing. 0:10:20.040 --> 0:10:20.840 What are you bending over? 0:10:21.320 --> 0:10:24.120 I was making food and I like walked to the 0:10:24.160 --> 0:10:25.280 pantry and all of a sudden, I was like, oh, 0:10:25.360 --> 0:10:27.760 my back hurts. I was like, uh a, nick, I 0:10:27.800 --> 0:10:30.440 can't walk? Did it just like seas up? I guess 0:10:30.559 --> 0:10:32.040 I do not know what happened. It was like two 0:10:32.160 --> 0:10:33.520 days of barely being able to walk. 0:10:33.720 --> 0:10:35.000 It was awful. 0:10:35.080 --> 0:10:36.800 And then this morning I woke up and have a 0:10:36.840 --> 0:10:38.600 freaking crook in my neck and I was like, what 0:10:38.800 --> 0:10:39.280 is wrong? 0:10:39.640 --> 0:10:44.720 Like that just falling apart. We got perimenopas, broken bags, 0:10:44.760 --> 0:10:47.959 like as I got my tailbhone drama back. So I'm 0:10:48.000 --> 0:10:50.520 really in case. This isn't good posture. This is me 0:10:51.200 --> 0:10:54.280 my backside. We're changing the name from wind Down the 0:10:54.320 --> 0:10:54.920 forties and. 0:10:55.200 --> 0:10:57.760 That's the problem is that's my Worry's my wine about it? 0:10:57.880 --> 0:10:59.000 Maybe it's wind down. 0:10:58.840 --> 0:11:02.280 And can't get up? Maybe that's the new title. 0:11:02.480 --> 0:11:03.200 It was so. 0:11:03.240 --> 0:11:05.960 Badly agree that you get it? 0:11:06.040 --> 0:11:07.480 Yeah, because now I get it because I've never had 0:11:07.480 --> 0:11:07.760 a back. 0:11:08.080 --> 0:11:10.680 Yeah, I got promotion. You will always. 0:11:11.000 --> 0:11:14.360 It's like you are always maybe always, but you might 0:11:14.400 --> 0:11:16.720 have just tweaked it a bit. But this is this 0:11:16.880 --> 0:11:21.640 the beginning, This is the beginning of then friend on 0:11:21.800 --> 0:11:26.760 this uplift, I'm I'm getting a back oblation, speaking of. 0:11:26.760 --> 0:11:27.760 Back, so what is that? 0:11:28.040 --> 0:11:29.360 Yeah? I feel scary. 0:11:29.960 --> 0:11:32.120 So I was going to get it done before the movie, 0:11:32.160 --> 0:11:34.880 but you have to do these ablasion tests so you can't. 0:11:35.160 --> 0:11:38.480 They basically they put a needle in your back. So 0:11:38.520 --> 0:11:39.959 I went to the back doctor finally because I'm like, 0:11:40.000 --> 0:11:42.960 I can't sleep, it hurts, it's a constant looking pain, 0:11:43.520 --> 0:11:46.160 and I need to know about this bellow our back. 0:11:46.240 --> 0:11:48.600 So I've I'm here. I had an L three L 0:11:48.640 --> 0:11:51.440 four dis bulge that I've been dealing with. I finally 0:11:51.600 --> 0:11:54.320 a year almost a year later, because it happened in August. 0:11:54.920 --> 0:11:56.640 I went to the back doctor a couple of months 0:11:56.679 --> 0:12:00.160 ago and I was like, I can't sleep, I'm I'm 0:12:00.200 --> 0:12:03.080 just in pain, and I'm this is so uncomfortable every 0:12:03.080 --> 0:12:06.959 time I feel it. Every time I'm going to my 0:12:07.080 --> 0:12:08.920 right side in my back and it shoots down my leg. 0:12:09.280 --> 0:12:10.800 So he takes the X ray, he looks at my 0:12:11.000 --> 0:12:14.280 MRI and he's like, I actually think it's because it's 0:12:14.360 --> 0:12:16.240 connected to the you know, it's the nerve. He's like, 0:12:16.280 --> 0:12:18.640 I think it's this is what your problem is. And 0:12:19.120 --> 0:12:22.760 they're they're very good with not doing because once you 0:12:22.760 --> 0:12:25.559 have a back surgery, you're just it's not good. 0:12:26.080 --> 0:12:30.400 So I know this is yes, resident rod Toading back. 0:12:31.480 --> 0:12:32.880 So he's like, I think you'd be a really good 0:12:32.880 --> 0:12:35.520 candidate for an ablationon. So what they do They do 0:12:35.559 --> 0:12:37.480 two tests where they're going to put a needle in 0:12:37.520 --> 0:12:39.480 my back to where the nerve is, and they're going 0:12:39.559 --> 0:12:41.880 to put light a cane in it. If that works, 0:12:42.520 --> 0:12:45.800 that's what the problem is. And then what happens is 0:12:45.840 --> 0:12:47.480 I do one more test of light a caine with 0:12:47.520 --> 0:12:51.280 a needle. If my symptoms are seventy to eighty percent better, 0:12:51.360 --> 0:12:53.559 then they'll go forward with the full ablazion, which they 0:12:53.600 --> 0:12:56.080 go in with this needle and this thing, and they 0:12:56.120 --> 0:13:00.200 fry off my nerve. So I essentially I lose that 0:13:00.360 --> 0:13:03.680 nerve to go and I'm like, great, like something needs 0:13:03.720 --> 0:13:06.680 to be done. So I have that oblazion rescheduled for 0:13:06.720 --> 0:13:08.360 the tester and a weak or so, so I'll let 0:13:08.400 --> 0:13:09.079 you know how that goes. 0:13:10.520 --> 0:13:11.840 Sounds really painful to me. 0:13:12.240 --> 0:13:14.360 I but I just don't, you know, I mean, like 0:13:14.440 --> 0:13:18.400 I don't even care. But it's basically like an epidural 0:13:18.440 --> 0:13:21.360 thing going in there, and like again, so probably can't 0:13:21.400 --> 0:13:21.640 get it. 0:13:22.360 --> 0:13:25.560 Hopefully not. Okay, So right now I'm in I'm like, 0:13:25.720 --> 0:13:27.640 I can't sleep, you guys. First of all, as if, 0:13:27.840 --> 0:13:31.040 as if in our ripe forties we needed any other 0:13:31.080 --> 0:13:33.840 reasons to lose sleep, you know, Like I'm already three 0:13:33.840 --> 0:13:37.000 o'clock in the morning, you know, but it's like it's 0:13:37.080 --> 0:13:40.080 hurting so bad. It's like burning the tailbone. And I 0:13:40.120 --> 0:13:42.679 think it might be from four flights and forty eight 0:13:42.720 --> 0:13:45.600 hours when I did that key West quick trip. But 0:13:46.120 --> 0:13:49.839 that's also really ridiculous, and that what's wrong with your tailbone? Well, 0:13:49.880 --> 0:13:53.280 it's just after the baby. It's brained after delivery. But 0:13:53.280 --> 0:13:55.640 I got myself back to a pretty good position, I thought. 0:13:55.640 --> 0:13:59.160 But now we're it's like hurting it keeping me awake. Oh, 0:13:59.240 --> 0:14:01.800 I know. I'm interested to know your back, doctor is. 0:14:02.000 --> 0:14:06.040 We're gonna do it great. Over in Nashville, Franklin, I 0:14:06.120 --> 0:14:10.680 hit Bonum Blaze. It's Ablazion is really aggressive. It's like 0:14:10.679 --> 0:14:14.120 outer space to me. I don't know why. Yea anyways, 0:14:14.960 --> 0:14:15.640 So that's. 0:14:15.480 --> 0:14:18.960 Our So that's that's the haven we figure out if 0:14:18.960 --> 0:14:20.080 you're a menopause yet. 0:14:20.360 --> 0:14:24.040 Stay tuned. I did my blood work yesterday with Nate. 0:14:24.160 --> 0:14:27.479 So I walked in there and I'm like, hey, buddy, 0:14:28.000 --> 0:14:29.480 how you say every day? 0:14:29.560 --> 0:14:31.880 Yeah? Hey buddy, I was like, what is going on? 0:14:32.480 --> 0:14:32.600 Uh? 0:14:32.800 --> 0:14:36.680 Yes, so TVD mine mine's back today too. Okay, that 0:14:36.720 --> 0:14:40.760 means I'm next. Yeah, so let's move on to wine 0:14:40.800 --> 0:14:41.280 about it. 0:14:42.720 --> 0:14:47.760 Every time that was my whine about. 0:14:50.480 --> 0:14:57.120 Yeah, I did get a promotional package in the male 0:14:57.200 --> 0:14:58.520 promotional package. 0:14:58.240 --> 0:14:59.880 Not a promotional package from one of our favorite b 0:15:00.520 --> 0:15:08.400 our our I was like, and you, guys, I almost 0:15:08.440 --> 0:15:12.320 sent you the picture. It literally is all It's not 0:15:12.360 --> 0:15:16.920 just perimenopausal support, it's literally menopause important. And I thought 0:15:16.960 --> 0:15:18.680 it was sweet when they reached out because I'm an 0:15:18.720 --> 0:15:22.080 a you know, I'm an ant client of theirs and 0:15:22.160 --> 0:15:25.200 they send it to me and I was like, Okay, 0:15:25.080 --> 0:15:27.800 they really we're really just into a whole other chapter. 0:15:28.080 --> 0:15:31.040 Like I mean, all of it is literally the support, 0:15:31.120 --> 0:15:33.800 and I thought this is something I know. I know. 0:15:46.480 --> 0:15:48.280 Are you guys struggling with getting older? 0:15:49.760 --> 0:15:54.280 I mean, besides my body hurting, no, I don't want 0:15:54.280 --> 0:15:56.280 my body to fall apart, but besides that. 0:15:56.520 --> 0:15:57.080 Not really. 0:15:58.840 --> 0:15:59.440 I don't know. 0:16:00.200 --> 0:16:04.400 Actually, so I would like to say I'm not, but 0:16:04.600 --> 0:16:08.680 I might be a little. Yeah, depends what day of 0:16:08.720 --> 0:16:13.320 the month, right, But I would say, like a few 0:16:13.360 --> 0:16:16.400 weeks ago, I was really struggling because I don't I 0:16:16.560 --> 0:16:20.960 starting to feel it's weird to I don't feel my 0:16:21.080 --> 0:16:24.880 age except for the bust and tipping, but like, you know, 0:16:24.920 --> 0:16:26.600 like I don't I feel like we're I don't know, 0:16:26.640 --> 0:16:29.200 we're just constantly all operating in like this way. I 0:16:29.240 --> 0:16:31.600 don't I feel like we're all very young. We're in shape, 0:16:31.640 --> 0:16:34.120 we're trying, you know, like we're taking supplements and we're 0:16:34.160 --> 0:16:36.840 like we tease that were in the forties. But for 0:16:36.880 --> 0:16:38.640 the most part, I mean, we're all just like little 0:16:38.680 --> 0:16:41.040 go getters. And I just hit this time in the day. 0:16:41.040 --> 0:16:42.120 I looked in the mirror and I was like, well, 0:16:42.120 --> 0:16:45.640 that can't be accurate, you know. So I don't know, 0:16:45.880 --> 0:16:47.760 you I think I'm teetering. 0:16:48.320 --> 0:16:51.880 Yeah, I love I love being in my forties, but 0:16:51.960 --> 0:16:53.680 I know what comes after forties, and I think that 0:16:54.120 --> 0:16:59.360 goes ooh. But I also think there's maybe peace in 0:16:59.440 --> 0:17:06.320 the fifties. Think about it, you know, and so that's yeah, 0:17:06.359 --> 0:17:08.879 but maybe there is, because right now is such a 0:17:08.960 --> 0:17:12.480 I think what I need to kind of focus back 0:17:12.520 --> 0:17:15.840 on is I don't want the forties to go by 0:17:16.200 --> 0:17:21.840 and it be so rushed and chaotic and crazy because 0:17:21.880 --> 0:17:25.320 of the life that we have with the young young 0:17:25.920 --> 0:17:28.320 right and it's just like a So I want to 0:17:28.359 --> 0:17:30.400 try to find like I want to try to find 0:17:30.400 --> 0:17:34.480 a and I do enjoy it, but I also don't 0:17:34.600 --> 0:17:40.320 want to feel like I keep missing just not having 0:17:40.359 --> 0:17:45.080 like honest not having deep conversations in the connection, missing 0:17:45.080 --> 0:17:47.080 the connection that makes sense. 0:17:47.000 --> 0:17:49.160 Way less deep. But I have been like thinking about 0:17:49.160 --> 0:17:51.880 cutting my hair for a long time just because it's 0:17:52.000 --> 0:17:56.520 Pam just cut there and so I but it's weird, 0:17:56.640 --> 0:17:59.560 like it's just a weird thing because I'm like, well, 0:17:59.560 --> 0:18:01.480 you don't want to be the older Yeah, you don't 0:18:01.480 --> 0:18:03.120 want to be the older girl, like right now it's 0:18:03.560 --> 0:18:07.600 crazy long. But I'm also like, I just it's like 0:18:07.720 --> 0:18:10.760 I don't want to be the older girl with way 0:18:10.800 --> 0:18:12.560 too much you know, that's always kind of a creepy 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:17.399 vibe when sorry, I'll just just prepare myself for the 0:18:17.440 --> 0:18:20.120 DM as I say things. But you know, when it's 0:18:20.119 --> 0:18:22.200 like super long and and you're older and it just 0:18:22.240 --> 0:18:24.480 doesn't look as healthy. But then I also I'm like, 0:18:24.520 --> 0:18:26.120 well I'm now at that age or if I cut 0:18:26.160 --> 0:18:28.400 it short, is it hot? Or did I just put 0:18:28.400 --> 0:18:30.640 myself into category? Right? 0:18:31.240 --> 0:18:32.680 M right. 0:18:32.760 --> 0:18:36.480 It's hard tricky times navigating, you know, it's interesting. I 0:18:36.560 --> 0:18:39.119 just did you see that post by Candice Beret? I 0:18:39.160 --> 0:18:41.320 think that's how you say she just cut her too. Yeah, 0:18:41.359 --> 0:18:43.480 but did you see her post about how she gets 0:18:43.520 --> 0:18:45.159 all the DMS about looking old. 0:18:45.200 --> 0:18:46.600 Oh because she doesn't, because she. 0:18:46.600 --> 0:18:48.920