WEBVTT - Let's Talk About It 0:00:00.400 --> 0:00:02.600 Forever. 0:00:03.680 --> 0:00:08.119 We are here. We're here, We're queer. We're here, and 0:00:08.160 --> 0:00:09.879 we are queer, and we're gonna be a little bit 0:00:09.920 --> 0:00:13.200 mean this year. No, I want to I want to 0:00:13.240 --> 0:00:15.120 step back. I don't want to be mean no more. 0:00:15.560 --> 0:00:17.840 You can have it, everybody can have it. I don't 0:00:17.840 --> 0:00:19.160 want to be mean anymore. I just want to be 0:00:19.239 --> 0:00:20.280 a good, nice person. 0:00:20.440 --> 0:00:21.880 Okay, so what steps are gonna take to be a 0:00:21.920 --> 0:00:23.120 nice person. Let's talk about it. 0:00:24.480 --> 0:00:29.200 I think I just technically can't be a nice person anymore. 0:00:29.960 --> 0:00:31.640 I think that I've gotten to the age where I'm 0:00:31.640 --> 0:00:33.960 just setting my ship. And I was just like, I'm 0:00:34.040 --> 0:00:39.200 not gonna do more than I'm supposed to anymore. Yeah, 0:00:39.200 --> 0:00:41.280 you're gonna do it a bare minimum. I'm just not 0:00:41.400 --> 0:00:47.600 gonna go out of my way like that anymore. It's 0:00:47.680 --> 0:00:51.559 just it's just too much. Yeah, it's like I'm tired, 0:00:51.840 --> 0:00:55.280 I'm exhausted. I have my own shit going on, and before, like, 0:00:55.520 --> 0:00:58.800 I don't know, four years ago, I could dedicate more 0:00:58.880 --> 0:01:03.200 time to helping out friends or being there or oh 0:01:03.240 --> 0:01:04.319 you reclaiming your time. 0:01:04.520 --> 0:01:07.640 Yeah, I just don't have it. I don't have anymore. 0:01:08.560 --> 0:01:10.880 And you know, that's the cool thing about getting older 0:01:11.040 --> 0:01:14.360 is you become aware of what you no longer have 0:01:14.480 --> 0:01:17.680 time for, things that you no longer go entertain, right, Like, 0:01:17.720 --> 0:01:21.480 I feel like when we're younger, we want to please everybody. 0:01:21.560 --> 0:01:22.920 You want to be friends with everybody, you want to 0:01:22.959 --> 0:01:23.640 be out all the time. 0:01:23.680 --> 0:01:25.360 And then you get a little bit older and you're like, actually, 0:01:25.400 --> 0:01:29.240 I'm gonna stay home tonight and I feel good here, 0:01:29.640 --> 0:01:32.520 or you're like, m this person doesn't bring anything of 0:01:32.600 --> 0:01:35.080 value to my life, so I'm not gonna call them 0:01:35.280 --> 0:01:38.840 because they only talk about themselves for an hour, you know, 0:01:40.040 --> 0:01:40.479 oh oh. 0:01:40.560 --> 0:01:43.679 Oh no oh. I mean I don't feel like that 0:01:43.800 --> 0:01:46.080 with us. I feel like it's very balanced. But it's 0:01:46.120 --> 0:01:49.880 also like, I mean, we just I have too many 0:01:49.880 --> 0:01:50.720 comedian friends. 0:01:51.600 --> 0:01:53.200 I need you, you gotta get you, gotta dump some 0:01:53.200 --> 0:01:54.800 of them, funny them, funny friends. 0:01:55.200 --> 0:01:58.040 No, it's just like we're we're very like into ourselves 0:01:58.040 --> 0:02:01.880 and very narcissistic, and you know, we're always performing and 0:02:01.920 --> 0:02:04.920 it's always a bid and it's always and it's just like, yeah, 0:02:04.960 --> 0:02:08.400 people who are not in this, they just are there better. 0:02:08.960 --> 0:02:12.079 They can be there for you because this is their night, 0:02:12.200 --> 0:02:15.880 this is their thing, Like they're into you. But in 0:02:15.919 --> 0:02:19.280 comedy we can't necessarily be as obsessed with each other 0:02:19.320 --> 0:02:21.200 because I'm like, I'm trying to be obsessed with myself. 0:02:21.440 --> 0:02:24.919 Okay, okay, I am my own biggest fan. Yeah, truly, 0:02:25.360 --> 0:02:28.200 truly you are. Yeah, I don't know. This big was 0:02:28.280 --> 0:02:31.440 rough for me though, I don't I don't know. 0:02:31.840 --> 0:02:34.960 I yes, we have to be our own biggest fans, 0:02:34.960 --> 0:02:37.720 but also we're our own harshest critics too, yeah, because 0:02:37.760 --> 0:02:41.600 we are with ourselves all the time, right, And I 0:02:41.600 --> 0:02:44.079 have nothing but time to sit in my brain. Right, 0:02:44.320 --> 0:02:48.120 So you know, I have some shows and I am 0:02:48.160 --> 0:02:52.680 somebody who is very good at not being prepared for stuff, 0:02:52.720 --> 0:02:54.280 because that's kind of what my brand is. 0:02:54.320 --> 0:02:57.160 It's like, well, I'll figure it out. I'll figure it out. 0:02:57.280 --> 0:03:01.359 And I have been lucky enough that like that sustained 0:03:01.400 --> 0:03:03.880 me for this long. I just like I don't really 0:03:03.960 --> 0:03:06.720 be ready, but like it works out, and like I'm 0:03:06.760 --> 0:03:10.600 funny enough and I'm pretty enough and I'm mean enough 0:03:10.720 --> 0:03:12.160 and blah blah blah enough. 0:03:12.600 --> 0:03:16.400 But like this week, I half asked it for. 0:03:16.400 --> 0:03:17.760 Like most of the shows that I was on, and 0:03:17.800 --> 0:03:20.760 it was very obvious, and I don't like how I feel, 0:03:21.320 --> 0:03:26.440 but I also don't want to be in this cycle 0:03:26.480 --> 0:03:28.840 that I'm in right now for much longer. 0:03:29.000 --> 0:03:31.000 Like, yeah, Marie text me some shit. I was like, 0:03:31.080 --> 0:03:32.720 do you need me to call you right now? Like 0:03:32.800 --> 0:03:35.080 I will leave my colleagues. 0:03:34.560 --> 0:03:37.600 And call you. She just didn't sound like herself. I 0:03:37.640 --> 0:03:39.960 was like, you like a crazy person. 0:03:40.120 --> 0:03:43.240 I was like, is this insanity that I'm still doing 0:03:43.640 --> 0:03:45.360 this thing that I've been doing for like the last 0:03:45.440 --> 0:03:47.800 six six and a half six years. 0:03:47.840 --> 0:03:48.440 You know what I mean. 0:03:48.760 --> 0:03:52.040 It's just like this is not like I want to 0:03:52.040 --> 0:03:52.840 do something else. 0:03:52.960 --> 0:03:55.920 Yeah, I want to grow, I want to keep making money, 0:03:55.920 --> 0:03:58.040 but I also want I feel like I'm not challenging 0:03:58.080 --> 0:03:58.880 myself because I'm not. 0:03:59.400 --> 0:03:59.760 I'm not. 0:04:00.640 --> 0:04:02.840 It's not challenging for me to do comedy because I'm 0:04:02.880 --> 0:04:04.600 not really trying that hard. 0:04:04.680 --> 0:04:07.720 Does that make sense? Yeah, Like I'm not fully committed 0:04:07.760 --> 0:04:08.120 to it. 0:04:08.200 --> 0:04:11.120 I've never fully been committed to any job I've had, 0:04:11.360 --> 0:04:13.200 So like, if I stop doing comedy. 0:04:12.840 --> 0:04:16.640 I ain't got no skills. I can't go anywhere else. 0:04:16.720 --> 0:04:19.160 I can't get an office journey. You have skills. 0:04:19.240 --> 0:04:23.080 I think that it's true about applying yourself and and 0:04:23.279 --> 0:04:26.000 that's the crazy thing about being at this job is 0:04:26.040 --> 0:04:29.960 like you need to write jokes. Like we are funny people, 0:04:29.960 --> 0:04:33.680 but to write a joke is an actual skill and 0:04:33.720 --> 0:04:36.880 it's not easy. And I try every fucking day, and 0:04:36.920 --> 0:04:39.840 I be in these pitch meetings like, oh, here's a joke, 0:04:39.920 --> 0:04:42.159 here's it, you know, I do like four or five 0:04:42.240 --> 0:04:44.440 jokes in it, and like it'll be topical on it. 0:04:44.440 --> 0:04:47.320 It's stuff that I don't care about. And that's what's 0:04:47.360 --> 0:04:50.479 so annoying is I have the opportunity to do jokes 0:04:50.480 --> 0:04:53.360 about stuff that I care about, and I still half 0:04:53.440 --> 0:04:54.960 assed as shit too. And it's just like you have 0:04:55.040 --> 0:04:57.880 to be passionate regardless because it's going to get you 0:04:57.920 --> 0:04:58.640 to the next thing. 0:04:59.120 --> 0:05:00.000 And people can tell. 0:05:00.000 --> 0:05:04.320 When you half fast, when you don't really put the effort, 0:05:04.360 --> 0:05:06.440 Like I had twenty minutes on the show last night. 0:05:07.240 --> 0:05:09.359 Sis, when I tell you, I went in there, like. 0:05:09.560 --> 0:05:12.880 Hay, it was like, and you did what you needed 0:05:12.920 --> 0:05:15.240 to do or you thought you had enough prepared and 0:05:15.279 --> 0:05:16.840 they were like and you're like, I still have time. 0:05:17.680 --> 0:05:19.880 They were looking like, yeah, somebody, this is funny. But 0:05:19.920 --> 0:05:21.800 a lot of this is unprepared. 0:05:21.440 --> 0:05:23.440 Because you're like working on new stuff and you're like 0:05:23.480 --> 0:05:25.479 trying to get thoughts together and you're yeah, but I 0:05:25.520 --> 0:05:25.800 could have. 0:05:25.920 --> 0:05:26.560 I could have done it. 0:05:26.720 --> 0:05:28.960 So the next show I went to IO, I was 0:05:29.000 --> 0:05:31.120 doing my set list. I was actually trying to write 0:05:31.160 --> 0:05:33.279 stuff out and I was like, take your time, what 0:05:33.320 --> 0:05:34.680 are you actually saying? 0:05:34.839 --> 0:05:37.800 And then the next show it was like, fucking fantastic. 0:05:37.880 --> 0:05:40.720 It was only eight minutes, it wasn't twenty, So of 0:05:40.800 --> 0:05:43.480 course I'm going to grand slam that. Yeah, but it 0:05:44.080 --> 0:05:48.760 is truly about applying yourself. And I just to have 0:05:48.839 --> 0:05:51.640 the drive is so annoying because I'll be at work 0:05:51.640 --> 0:05:53.800 and I'm like, damn, what the fuck are they working on? 0:05:53.920 --> 0:05:56.599 Like oh, it looks like they like it and they don't. 0:05:56.720 --> 0:05:59.400 But it's just you just have to get yourself in 0:05:59.520 --> 0:06:03.440 that wee okay, this is this is writing, this is 0:06:03.480 --> 0:06:07.080 a joke, this is comedy, this is work, blah blah blah. 0:06:07.120 --> 0:06:10.680 And I'm like, I want to get there. That's how 0:06:10.720 --> 0:06:12.520 you grow, you know what I mean. That's how you 0:06:12.600 --> 0:06:15.279 sell something. You can't you can't sell something on the 0:06:15.320 --> 0:06:18.680 first try. You gotta like rewrite, so you gotta fucking 0:06:18.760 --> 0:06:19.360 know how to write. 0:06:19.480 --> 0:06:22.080 And so I tell y'all stuff. 0:06:21.760 --> 0:06:24.120 That this is all stuff that that I know, This 0:06:24.160 --> 0:06:26.680 is all stuff that we know. But like Also it's 0:06:26.760 --> 0:06:31.040 like I don't know, like when I had that, when 0:06:31.040 --> 0:06:33.320 I had that show on Vice, it was that was 0:06:33.360 --> 0:06:34.839 what my job was. I had a thing that I 0:06:34.880 --> 0:06:38.920 was doing Monday through Thursday. I knew what my date 0:06:39.160 --> 0:06:41.919 look was, right, and then Fridays I had off. That 0:06:42.000 --> 0:06:43.120 was the first day of the week that I would 0:06:43.160 --> 0:06:44.960 take the subway. I was like, all these poor people 0:06:45.000 --> 0:06:48.359 taking like that was my week. And then that was 0:06:48.600 --> 0:06:51.200 twelve weeks of my life and I had a taste 0:06:51.240 --> 0:06:53.880 of Oh, I can make money as a funny person 0:06:54.120 --> 0:06:56.840 and I don't have to be in a bar or 0:06:56.920 --> 0:06:59.880 the back room of some theater blah blah blah, like 0:07:00.400 --> 0:07:04.480 all night making people laugh that I don't know, I'm 0:07:04.520 --> 0:07:07.279 on TV with only seven people watching. 0:07:07.440 --> 0:07:08.320 But like I wasn't. 0:07:09.160 --> 0:07:13.120 I wasn't thinking like it's I wasn't proving myself to 0:07:13.160 --> 0:07:14.400 people that I could see. 0:07:14.560 --> 0:07:15.320 Does that make sense. 0:07:15.480 --> 0:07:18.880 Yeah, So coming out of that and then having to 0:07:18.920 --> 0:07:20.880 get back into comedy was a little bit rough for 0:07:20.920 --> 0:07:22.720 me because I was like, I don't really want to 0:07:22.760 --> 0:07:25.560 be here, but like it's like an ends to a mean, 0:07:25.680 --> 0:07:26.560 a means to an end whatever. 0:07:26.560 --> 0:07:27.920 I don't even know what both of those things mean. 0:07:28.040 --> 0:07:31.360 Yeah. Uh, so, uh, then when I was in Europe 0:07:31.360 --> 0:07:34.040 for them three weeks, I wasn't on stage, I wasn't 0:07:34.080 --> 0:07:34.800 doing comedy. 0:07:34.960 --> 0:07:35.720 And then I came back. 0:07:35.760 --> 0:07:38.960 You're living your fucking life and having things to talk about. 0:07:39.200 --> 0:07:40.000 I mean, ray ho. 0:07:40.320 --> 0:07:42.920 But but I'm back here and I'm not really talking 0:07:42.920 --> 0:07:45.760 about the stuff that happened to me when I was going. Okay, 0:07:45.760 --> 0:07:47.520 I've talked about like a couple of things on stage, 0:07:47.520 --> 0:07:51.000 but I'm not using everything that happened to me in Europe. 0:07:51.240 --> 0:07:53.400 That's not what my material is about. Okay, So so 0:07:53.440 --> 0:07:55.280 what else happened that we don't know about? I'm just 0:07:55.320 --> 0:07:57.680 satting all I'm talking. You've seen the set that I've 0:07:57.680 --> 0:07:59.880 been doing since i've been back. I'm talking about the 0:08:00.120 --> 0:08:01.840 the dude in the wheelchair, and I'm talking about the. 0:08:01.880 --> 0:08:03.600 Dude whose card got to Clyde. Yeah, you know what 0:08:03.640 --> 0:08:03.880 I mean. 0:08:03.920 --> 0:08:06.960 So, but a bunch of other things happened, and I 0:08:07.120 --> 0:08:09.840 just I don't I don't know. I didn't show the 0:08:09.880 --> 0:08:11.960 other day and the crowd wasn't really reacting to me 0:08:12.000 --> 0:08:13.480 the way that I felt like I needed them to, 0:08:13.720 --> 0:08:15.920 and I was like, I don't care about these people 0:08:16.080 --> 0:08:18.920 and they don't care about me, Like why am I here? 0:08:19.000 --> 0:08:20.000 Did you say no? 0:08:20.080 --> 0:08:22.800 I thought that so loud in my head that I 0:08:22.840 --> 0:08:26.360 thought I said it out loud. But it's like, like, like, 0:08:26.440 --> 0:08:29.400 what is the purpose of this for me? The purpose? 0:08:30.320 --> 0:08:32.480 For me, the purpose has always been do comedy until 0:08:32.480 --> 0:08:33.400 it turns it to something else. 0:08:33.559 --> 0:08:35.839 Yeah, right, because I'm not in it. 0:08:35.880 --> 0:08:38.280 I'm not in it stand up forever. Like I'm not 0:08:38.960 --> 0:08:42.480 trying to be on my my Kevin Hart. I'm trying 0:08:42.480 --> 0:08:45.400 to be on my Eddie Murphy do it pop, never 0:08:45.440 --> 0:08:48.200 come back, come back for after twenty five years of 0:08:48.240 --> 0:08:51.920 not doing it, make seventy million dollars like that goals. 0:08:52.360 --> 0:08:54.360 So I don't know, I just feel like a hamster 0:08:54.440 --> 0:08:54.960 on a wheel. 0:08:55.160 --> 0:08:56.840 That's what this is what this week has felt like 0:08:56.840 --> 0:08:59.080 to me, Like since this is what we're doing still 0:08:59.440 --> 0:09:00.240 this know? 0:09:00.480 --> 0:09:03.360 I mean you're do you have a show tonight? 0:09:03.520 --> 0:09:05.720 And so the shows that you were the reason why 0:09:05.720 --> 0:09:07.600 you said yes to the shows is because you were like, oh, 0:09:07.720 --> 0:09:10.480 let me kind of be preps for like but but 0:09:11.240 --> 0:09:13.520 and I know then you wrote me that You're like, 0:09:13.559 --> 0:09:14.960 I don't really I was like, yeah, but I but 0:09:15.040 --> 0:09:16.120 I but I don't know. 0:09:16.080 --> 0:09:18.120 If I spoke to you or to Carolina about this. 0:09:18.240 --> 0:09:20.080 When they were asking me to do the show, I 0:09:20.120 --> 0:09:22.520 didn't want to do it, so and I was and 0:09:22.559 --> 0:09:25.280 I kept letting the dates that they were sending me 0:09:26.360 --> 0:09:28.880 go away. Yeah, and they'd be like, oh, it's already booked, 0:09:28.880 --> 0:09:30.720 and I'd be like, oh darn, and then they would 0:09:30.800 --> 0:09:33.440 just give me new dates to come. And I was like, 0:09:33.480 --> 0:09:36.480 I don't want to go, and Carolina, I thought it 0:09:36.520 --> 0:09:39.079 was you, but Carolina was like, you should just go. 0:09:39.240 --> 0:09:41.559 You're gonna have a good time. You've done that theater before, Like, 0:09:41.600 --> 0:09:43.280 you're gonna have a good time. And I was like, 0:09:43.360 --> 0:09:45.640 I don't really Yeah, you didn't talk to me about it, 0:09:45.760 --> 0:09:48.840 forcing myself to do this longer you talk about twenty 0:09:48.880 --> 0:09:51.160 minutes less than yeah, to do forty five minutes or 0:09:51.160 --> 0:09:51.560 an hour. 0:09:51.640 --> 0:09:53.560 And it's like, but I don't really, Like I'm not 0:09:53.600 --> 0:09:56.200 even in love with comedy right now, yeah, and now. 0:09:56.120 --> 0:09:59.360 I gotta do this thing that I don't really want it. 0:09:59.360 --> 0:10:01.319 And it's like, but since what else you're gonna do? 0:10:01.520 --> 0:10:04.079 You wanna sit home? It's not like you want something 0:10:04.080 --> 0:10:05.600 else to keep you busy. 0:10:05.760 --> 0:10:08.440 That's what happened to me. I truly, I was. I 0:10:08.440 --> 0:10:10.480 had booked that thing for Boston and. 0:10:11.840 --> 0:10:14.560 At an hour, yes, and I was like, oh, I'm 0:10:14.600 --> 0:10:16.680 gonna get on a I'm gonna get a ride. And 0:10:16.720 --> 0:10:19.160 then my job was like, oh, you got to be 0:10:19.200 --> 0:10:22.640 at work. So I spent my money to take a 0:10:22.679 --> 0:10:26.160 plane to Boston. I remember that stupid, like I couldn't believe. 0:10:26.200 --> 0:10:28.920 I was like, do I love stand up this much? 0:10:29.000 --> 0:10:30.320 But I was like, Oh, I don't want to be 0:10:30.360 --> 0:10:33.080 that person that cancels and I do actually want to 0:10:33.120 --> 0:10:36.280 work on all this new material. Right I get on 0:10:36.320 --> 0:10:38.080 the plane. I'm on the plane. I was like, this 0:10:38.120 --> 0:10:42.200 is so dumb, like out of all the decisions that 0:10:42.240 --> 0:10:44.360 you make, this is stupid, Like why are you spending 0:10:44.360 --> 0:10:47.160 your pay to come there? So then you spent the 0:10:47.200 --> 0:10:50.080 money that they're paying you to perform to get there. 0:10:50.720 --> 0:10:54.320 So then I'm there and I'm like writing out all 0:10:54.360 --> 0:10:55.960 this stuff that I want to talk about, and I'm like, 0:10:56.080 --> 0:10:56.880 is this important? 0:10:57.000 --> 0:10:59.640 Like what is this? What am I saying? What? 0:10:59.640 --> 0:11:02.319 What's funny about this? This is what I'm writing NOWT 0:11:02.320 --> 0:11:03.280 And I was like, oh, this is. 0:11:03.400 --> 0:11:05.640 This is gonna go bad. This is gonna be a 0:11:05.640 --> 0:11:07.000 bad set. I don't even know. 0:11:07.720 --> 0:11:09.679 And then it was the show and then I got 0:11:09.760 --> 0:11:12.280 up there and honestly. 0:11:13.480 --> 0:11:15.240 Fucking one of the best sets I've had. 0:11:15.280 --> 0:11:17.400 And I was like, oh, we because I was like, 0:11:17.440 --> 0:11:20.360 I have to apply myself. When I just go up 0:11:20.360 --> 0:11:23.160 there and I'm gonna wing it with no purpose, then yeah, 0:11:23.200 --> 0:11:24.160 it's gonna be bad. 0:11:24.640 --> 0:11:26.520 And I think that's just like life in general. 0:11:26.720 --> 0:11:29.680 Like when I was waitressing, I was doing the same 0:11:29.720 --> 0:11:31.319 thing and I was making money and it was. 0:11:31.800 --> 0:11:33.640 It looked like it was good. 0:11:33.720 --> 0:11:36.880 But what am I doing? What is my purpose? What 0:11:37.320 --> 0:11:40.400 am I here for? And so but that's such a 0:11:40.640 --> 0:11:41.640 real question. 0:11:41.880 --> 0:11:44.880 Yeah, right, every day you get up and you have 0:11:45.000 --> 0:11:47.360 twenty four hours, and what are you doing in the 0:11:47.440 --> 0:11:48.160 twenty four hours? 0:11:48.559 --> 0:11:51.880 Like for me since I got back, not really that. 0:11:51.960 --> 0:11:55.000 Much, right because I don't have a day job, and 0:11:55.080 --> 0:11:57.400 if I have stuff to do throughout the week, it's 0:11:57.400 --> 0:12:01.120 so spread out that most of my day I'm just like, 0:12:02.080 --> 0:12:06.160 essentially what is my purpose? Like not on some like 0:12:06.320 --> 0:12:09.680 sad like suicidal type stuff, just like since like you 0:12:09.880 --> 0:12:12.599 just this whole what did you do today? 0:12:12.800 --> 0:12:13.000 Right? 0:12:13.360 --> 0:12:15.720 Is your whole day? This show that you're doing tonight 0:12:15.800 --> 0:12:19.559 for these people that aren't even really engaged. 0:12:19.080 --> 0:12:22.040 With you right now, Like that's what I've been feeling 0:12:22.040 --> 0:12:24.720 this week, and it's like I've since got to find 0:12:24.720 --> 0:12:29.240 some hobbies or like some type of creative outlet where 0:12:29.280 --> 0:12:34.640 I can learn something or like just grow as a 0:12:34.720 --> 0:12:35.319 human being. 0:12:35.360 --> 0:12:36.240 Because the. 0:12:37.840 --> 0:12:42.200 Because at the end, like if I died tomorrow, it'd 0:12:42.200 --> 0:12:43.720 be like that was the last week of my life. 0:12:43.760 --> 0:12:46.040 This past week was the last week of my life. 0:12:46.400 --> 0:12:47.199 I didn't even. 0:12:47.120 --> 0:12:51.319 Do anything, right, but I was out every day quote 0:12:51.360 --> 0:12:55.000 unquote doing stuff, but like I didn't actually do anything. 0:12:55.640 --> 0:12:58.920 So but I do feel like, again, we're very hard 0:12:58.960 --> 0:13:01.120 on ourselves because there's like months where it's like, oh, 0:13:01.120 --> 0:13:04.760 we're working, working, working, with no time, no time to ourselves, 0:13:04.760 --> 0:13:05.480 no time to think. 0:13:05.920 --> 0:13:06.319 And so. 0:13:07.840 --> 0:13:11.920 It's okay to be in the moment and say, hey, 0:13:11.960 --> 0:13:15.440 I'm not really doing much. Something is gonna come, but 0:13:15.520 --> 0:13:18.679 we have to work towards what's that next thing? And 0:13:18.800 --> 0:13:22.720 so women are saying hard as a comic, yeah, because 0:13:22.840 --> 0:13:28.880 you know, freelance, I work for myself, right, And some 0:13:28.920 --> 0:13:30.800 of the people that I'm like, they're not that good, 0:13:31.040 --> 0:13:33.320 but they working for themselves and that's why they are 0:13:33.360 --> 0:13:36.520 where they are. And so whenever somebody's like, ah, that 0:13:36.559 --> 0:13:39.680 person's not funny or not talented like Nigga, they went, 0:13:39.920 --> 0:13:41.839 they did something to get to where they are. 0:13:42.120 --> 0:13:44.760 You don't just get it. They're not funny, they're not talented. 0:13:44.800 --> 0:13:47.480 Well they're working. What were you doing while they were not? 0:13:47.520 --> 0:13:50.440 Your unfunny ass is sitting here with me, so or 0:13:50.480 --> 0:13:52.319 your funny ass is sitting here with me, you know 0:13:52.360 --> 0:13:52.760 what I mean. 0:13:52.840 --> 0:13:58.000 So I think I do think that we individually or together, 0:13:58.080 --> 0:14:00.000 we need to do more shows that's for our people, 0:14:00.200 --> 0:14:03.920 because then that is a purpose. Or are going out 0:14:03.960 --> 0:14:07.280 and working on stuff that's like, oh, these people are 0:14:07.280 --> 0:14:09.600 coming out for us, So it's gonna it's gonna go. 0:14:10.120 --> 0:14:10.640 It's a hit. 0:14:11.320 --> 0:14:14.320 And so when like people go on tour, like two 0:14:14.400 --> 0:14:16.760 friends go on tour and they go to these different shows, 0:14:17.160 --> 0:14:18.679 I mean for the most part, they're like. 0:14:19.320 --> 0:14:20.840 Half of the people are gonna be for them. 0:14:21.320 --> 0:14:23.760 So even half, if half of the room is there 0:14:24.600 --> 0:14:29.040 that who genuinely like you, you already are doing something 0:14:29.040 --> 0:14:32.760 that feels like, oh this is working, right. I know 0:14:32.800 --> 0:14:35.960 some comedians who will not go to shows because they're like, 0:14:36.080 --> 0:14:37.520 I don't need that energy. 0:14:38.000 --> 0:14:40.840 Which is good. That's self caress. 0:14:41.640 --> 0:14:44.000 If I like, if I know that I'm gonna show 0:14:44.040 --> 0:14:47.200 up somewhere and it's the host is gonna be like 0:14:47.320 --> 0:14:49.520 not able to keep the crowd together. The crowd's not 0:14:49.560 --> 0:14:51.920 gonna be into what I'm saying. It's gonna be a 0:14:52.000 --> 0:14:55.920 rowdy kind of unruly situation. I'm yeah, look, I can't 0:14:55.920 --> 0:14:58.960 make it out on a triple book tonight. Yeah look, 0:14:59.560 --> 0:15:01.680 where'd you say Queens? You know I'm not gonna make 0:15:01.680 --> 0:15:04.320 it to Queens tonight. But this is why I think 0:15:04.480 --> 0:15:07.880 the podcast. When I asked you guys on the Instagram 0:15:07.880 --> 0:15:09.800 where y'all are from? We need to know that. So 0:15:09.880 --> 0:15:12.920 we need to know where we can go because like 0:15:13.080 --> 0:15:16.280 we got people in Arizona. We got straight married white 0:15:16.320 --> 0:15:19.840 ladies in Arizona. We got lesbian black women in Texas. 0:15:19.920 --> 0:15:21.320 We got people in. 0:15:21.320 --> 0:15:24.680 All our holes in Toronto, a bunch of hoes in Toronto, 0:15:24.720 --> 0:15:27.720 but we got people in Saint Louis and in Miami. 0:15:27.920 --> 0:15:29.840 Like, so we need to know where y'all are so 0:15:29.880 --> 0:15:33.160 when we do decide to do a show, we know 0:15:33.240 --> 0:15:35.560 that we're going there with a purpose and we know 0:15:35.600 --> 0:15:37.640 that we're going to be talking to our people. A 0:15:37.640 --> 0:15:39.560 lot of times we go out in duty shows and 0:15:39.680 --> 0:15:42.360 comics and it's like these people don't know us. They 0:15:42.520 --> 0:15:44.320 they're there maybe for somebody else or maybe for the 0:15:44.360 --> 0:15:46.600 host or maybe for the venue or blah blah blah. 0:15:46.640 --> 0:15:50.280 But you know, for the most part, comedy is something 0:15:50.280 --> 0:15:53.640 that I enjoy doing. But this past week I was like, ah, 0:15:54.040 --> 0:15:55.200 this sucks. 0:15:56.240 --> 0:16:02.440 But again, when I watch people who like just accelerate 0:16:03.200 --> 0:16:06.880 when they people come out, you just constantly getting people 0:16:06.880 --> 0:16:10.120 who are obsessed with you or like obsessed with your work. 0:16:10.360 --> 0:16:13.680 That helps you and you're confidence and then it feeds 0:16:13.720 --> 0:16:14.560 into your crazy. 0:16:14.640 --> 0:16:18.040 Yeah if it's you're crazy. But hey, I feel like 0:16:18.080 --> 0:16:21.320 I got fans. I'm here for the craze. Let's go 0:16:21.960 --> 0:16:24.080 merch merch. I mean, I love it. 0:16:24.120 --> 0:16:26.280 I mean the fact that everybody's been hitting us up 0:16:26.320 --> 0:16:29.120 in the last three weeks it felt great. 0:16:29.200 --> 0:16:30.240 I was like, look at. 0:16:30.080 --> 0:16:33.520 The pod, just just jump starting another career. 0:16:33.760 --> 0:16:36.600 Okay, and everybody has a podcast. Now I know you're 0:16:36.640 --> 0:16:45.200 seen everybody. Okay, everyone, I'm laughing at everybody who thinks 0:16:45.200 --> 0:16:46.040 I'm talking about them. 0:16:46.040 --> 0:16:49.960 Oh my god, their palm trees, so shady trees. Anyway, 0:16:50.040 --> 0:16:51.040 So that's what my week was. 0:16:51.320 --> 0:16:53.880 You went to Boston, you had this awesome show that 0:16:53.960 --> 0:16:56.280 you thought was gonna go badly, and then you took 0:16:56.400 --> 0:16:57.040 the bus back. 0:16:57.760 --> 0:17:01.360 I took my humble lass, took the bus back, and 0:17:01.400 --> 0:17:04.840 then I'm sitting there and I'm just like thinking about like, yeah, 0:17:04.960 --> 0:17:08.480 what what else? And and so this week I've just 0:17:09.280 --> 0:17:12.800 been like, damn, what are you really good at? You know? 0:17:13.040 --> 0:17:15.080 People? Did you make a list? 0:17:15.560 --> 0:17:18.000 I did not make a list, but I definitely the 0:17:18.000 --> 0:17:18.800 top three things? 0:17:18.840 --> 0:17:19.160 Is that? 0:17:19.280 --> 0:17:22.120 Like, because I had an evaluation at work too, because 0:17:22.160 --> 0:17:25.720 like a check in, how did that go? Hey, you're 0:17:25.840 --> 0:17:29.920 valued here, like you work well with others, like your 0:17:30.160 --> 0:17:34.840 your perspective matters, like you're needed. All those things are great. 0:17:35.400 --> 0:17:37.359 The is there a butt because there's. 0:17:37.200 --> 0:17:40.600 No butt, but there's the butt. 0:17:41.240 --> 0:17:43.560 No but but but there's no butt, but but but 0:17:43.560 --> 0:17:44.080 but but but. 0:17:45.160 --> 0:17:47.720 I don't trust people in the industry. 0:17:47.800 --> 0:17:53.600 I don't trust anybody because I've seen, like with my 0:17:53.760 --> 0:17:58.240 bare eyes, someone not laugh at someone's whole shit and 0:17:58.280 --> 0:17:59.440 then they come off to stay. 0:17:59.200 --> 0:18:02.440 You're great, What bitch? How how do you? 0:18:02.520 --> 0:18:04.920