WEBVTT - EP 347: Danger Behind The Wheel (Ft. Jody) 0:00:02.560 --> 0:00:04.200 Guess what decision we're about to make. 0:00:04.680 --> 0:00:05.760 Horrible decision? 0:00:09.280 --> 0:00:11.360 What it is? What's up? 0:00:12.320 --> 0:00:16.800 Welcome to horrible decision. Let's restart why he said you 0:00:16.840 --> 0:00:17.480 hate the song? 0:00:17.600 --> 0:00:18.200 I love it? 0:00:18.239 --> 0:00:21.160 I hate I love it. It's all my mama, bitch. 0:00:21.600 --> 0:00:22.520 I feel good? 0:00:23.320 --> 0:00:26.000 All right, Okay, just say we want her on the show, 0:00:26.480 --> 0:00:27.680 and do and her Man. 0:00:27.720 --> 0:00:30.560 I want her and her Man on the show. Anyways, guys, 0:00:30.600 --> 0:00:31.680 welcome to Horrible Lady. 0:00:32.920 --> 0:00:38.160 I'm your girl, Mandy b aka Full corpor'ms aka that bitch. 0:00:38.200 --> 0:00:42.839 What's the hope? What? What's up? 0:00:42.920 --> 0:00:46.120 Y'all? I'm weasy. Welcome back to another episode. We have 0:00:46.200 --> 0:00:50.040 a guest in the building today that came highly recommended 0:00:50.800 --> 0:00:53.120 from a Wolf who's one of our engineers at WCF, 0:00:53.159 --> 0:00:55.680 and he literally was like, she gonna fit in with y'all. 0:00:55.680 --> 0:01:00.280 And I'm like, what do you mean by that? Not? 0:01:01.040 --> 0:01:03.440 What do you mean by that? Said? We have Jody 0:01:03.440 --> 0:01:05.000 in the building, and Jody, I want to ask you 0:01:05.240 --> 0:01:06.480 what do he mean by that? 0:01:08.480 --> 0:01:14.759 I think he means that I'm amazing and cleaning it up. 0:01:15.120 --> 0:01:18.920 Yeah, I think he means that I'm amazing, I'm honest 0:01:19.720 --> 0:01:23.120 about my experiences and I ain't gonna. 0:01:22.920 --> 0:01:24.920 Hold you, Jody. You sounded like the emails that we 0:01:25.080 --> 0:01:27.600 be getting when they be like, I want to come 0:01:27.640 --> 0:01:30.320 on the podcast because I'm just awesome. Me and my 0:01:30.360 --> 0:01:35.240 friends we do cool shit. So really get into the ship. 0:01:35.319 --> 0:01:36.959 Why the fuck you on the podcast? 0:01:37.360 --> 0:01:37.720 Yeah? 0:01:37.920 --> 0:01:40.880 So I want to say that he probably said that 0:01:41.360 --> 0:01:43.880 I would fit in because he heard me talk about 0:01:43.880 --> 0:01:48.240 some of my stories and he was like wait what 0:01:48.400 --> 0:01:48.760 he did? 0:01:48.800 --> 0:01:50.800 What? He basically called you a whror? 0:01:51.120 --> 0:01:53.680 Basically yeah, I mean, but I call myself a whore. 0:01:54.040 --> 0:01:56.520 I like, like, I know who I am. 0:01:56.720 --> 0:01:58.720 I embrace that, don't we all? 0:01:59.120 --> 0:01:59.320 Now? 0:01:59.400 --> 0:02:00.440 On your flat form? 0:02:00.520 --> 0:02:02.680 Like you have like a sex positive platform on I G. 0:02:02.880 --> 0:02:04.080 So what kind of stuff do you do? 0:02:05.680 --> 0:02:14.360 I am a throtologist, oh girl these days? 0:02:14.400 --> 0:02:17.760 Okay, thronologist. 0:02:18.040 --> 0:02:20.760 Yes, I'm a throtologist. 0:02:20.840 --> 0:02:23.000 Yes, throtologists nctrician. 0:02:24.560 --> 0:02:26.200 What do you mean? What do you mean about? 0:02:26.560 --> 0:02:26.800 Yeah? 0:02:26.919 --> 0:02:29.680 Like I really I really be sucking dick like I 0:02:29.760 --> 0:02:30.760 enjoyed real bad. 0:02:30.919 --> 0:02:34.880 Where'd you learn how to suck dick? I actually studied 0:02:34.919 --> 0:02:35.520 sucking dick? 0:02:36.760 --> 0:02:37.960 Where I would like to know? 0:02:38.160 --> 0:02:38.440 Yeah? 0:02:38.560 --> 0:02:43.760 So university was that I would like to see it. 0:02:42.240 --> 0:02:43.239 Wasn't a university. 0:02:43.320 --> 0:02:47.280 But I am a sexpert. So I went through sexpert 0:02:47.320 --> 0:02:49.920 consultants and I learned that part of it. And I 0:02:49.960 --> 0:02:57.160 also studied under doctor Rachel's she has a sexologist uh program. 0:02:57.560 --> 0:02:59.440 I studied under her as well. So you have a 0:02:59.480 --> 0:03:02.320 certificate like in texology. Really okay, interesting? 0:03:02.360 --> 0:03:03.440 Wait, so what's it like? 0:03:03.440 --> 0:03:04.600 Like? What's class Like? 0:03:04.639 --> 0:03:05.600 Are you like on zoom? 0:03:05.639 --> 0:03:07.080 Do you sit down? Do you have a pencil? 0:03:07.200 --> 0:03:07.280 Like? 0:03:07.320 --> 0:03:10.920 What's it like? So you got a pencil and my. 0:03:10.880 --> 0:03:15.480 Notebook and I even outside of that, I'm someone where 0:03:15.480 --> 0:03:17.880 it's like I love sex so much that I'm always 0:03:17.960 --> 0:03:20.640 studying and wanting to know more about it. 0:03:20.720 --> 0:03:24.680 So yeah, taking that Like while studying, you were like, 0:03:25.040 --> 0:03:26.480 oh my god, I never knew. 0:03:26.320 --> 0:03:29.400 This semen has melotonin in it? 0:03:30.080 --> 0:03:33.359 What I could believe it puts you to sleep? Yeah, bitch, 0:03:33.680 --> 0:03:35.640 you swallowed some not you be tied, you be ready. 0:03:36.240 --> 0:03:42.640 So I don't believe it look enough to put you 0:03:42.680 --> 0:03:43.080 to sleep. 0:03:43.200 --> 0:03:46.920 I don't think there there are it's traceable. 0:03:47.080 --> 0:03:49.560 So we're sitting here thinking it's putting us to sleep, 0:03:49.600 --> 0:03:50.600 but it's it's. 0:03:55.320 --> 0:03:58.280 What, bitch, don't do this. I don't be knowing. I 0:03:58.320 --> 0:04:00.720 was supposed to just know what serotonin is makes you happy? 0:04:00.960 --> 0:04:05.280 Yeah, so I mean Oxytocin makes you feel I thought 0:04:05.320 --> 0:04:07.200 that one made you feel happy like love. 0:04:07.600 --> 0:04:10.080 Oxytosin like release you feel love? Sound crazy? 0:04:10.120 --> 0:04:13.360 Yeah it's oxy no no no. Serotonin is like the happiness. 0:04:13.360 --> 0:04:15.960 That's what when you're taking any s SR eyes like 0:04:16.000 --> 0:04:18.320 a pill. It boosts up the serotonin for you, like 0:04:18.320 --> 0:04:21.200 if you're on an antidepressant. Oxytocin is the chemical that 0:04:21.240 --> 0:04:25.240 releases when you're like feeling when. That's how I fall 0:04:25.279 --> 0:04:25.920 in love with niggas. 0:04:26.040 --> 0:04:28.279 Yeah you're happy. 0:04:28.440 --> 0:04:30.760 I ain't got that in me. Oxytoastin don't exist, Yes 0:04:30.760 --> 0:04:35.919 you do, babe, podcast. The last three years, I've pissed 0:04:35.960 --> 0:04:40.000 it all up. Okay, so we got all the tens 0:04:40.040 --> 0:04:41.559 in it and then what else? 0:04:42.440 --> 0:04:45.200 So for me again, because I feel like when I 0:04:45.240 --> 0:04:48.720 started studying this, it made me like sucking it even more. 0:04:48.760 --> 0:04:52.240 I'm like, oh, this might be so happy okay. 0:04:52.200 --> 0:04:55.039 Like for me, it's really like, yeah, you're getting like 0:04:55.080 --> 0:04:57.320 the things that you need out of seamen to horder, 0:04:57.480 --> 0:04:58.520 because I'm sure you have more. 0:04:58.880 --> 0:05:01.080 We want to know right now, were on it. Tell 0:05:01.160 --> 0:05:04.240 me some things that are not redundant, like the twisting 0:05:04.320 --> 0:05:06.919 your hand or pressing the front of him. Tell me 0:05:07.000 --> 0:05:09.120 tell me some things you've learned or you do sucking 0:05:09.120 --> 0:05:12.320 dick that you know, maybe something we may not have 0:05:12.360 --> 0:05:14.159 seen yet that y'all. 0:05:14.080 --> 0:05:16.359 May not have seen it. I know for me, I 0:05:16.520 --> 0:05:18.159 like to use like my rolls. 0:05:18.000 --> 0:05:21.440 On him, like while I'm sucking, like putting it like 0:05:21.480 --> 0:05:22.080 on the gouch. 0:05:22.480 --> 0:05:26.640 The vibration. Girl, we knew that. I'm pretty sure I 0:05:26.680 --> 0:05:28.479 speaking that we talked about vibrators. I don't know about 0:05:28.520 --> 0:05:30.120 rolls on the go. I haven't heard that. You. 0:05:30.200 --> 0:05:31.520 Oh, that's just a specific toy. 0:05:31.560 --> 0:05:36.080 But it's the vibration, well, vibrating, it's sucking, That's what's 0:05:36.680 --> 0:05:39.960 what you're saying. Okay, So and it's focusing on second 0:05:40.320 --> 0:05:42.839 that's interesting. Okay, Yeah, what are you be doing day 0:05:42.920 --> 0:05:44.760 kicking and screaming? No, Like. 0:05:47.600 --> 0:05:50.240 I actually just recently did it this week and it 0:05:50.279 --> 0:05:52.800 was cool, Like and this is like someone where he 0:05:53.080 --> 0:05:56.039 like he a hood nick so. 0:05:55.880 --> 0:05:58.719 He'd be like, no, you can't really do this, but then. 0:05:58.720 --> 0:06:01.520 With that but didn't but then motherfucker and do it 0:06:02.120 --> 0:06:03.800 like he definitely opened. 0:06:03.480 --> 0:06:08.640 And yeah, like I was like no, so it was no, 0:06:08.960 --> 0:06:09.320 it was no. 0:06:09.560 --> 0:06:12.279 So I'm gonna go through a few things and I 0:06:12.360 --> 0:06:15.159 want you to tell me if it matters yes or no? 0:06:15.279 --> 0:06:18.919 Okayco no, I agree? 0:06:18.960 --> 0:06:25.120 No, Dick's size yes, yes, here too, bank account yes yes, 0:06:25.560 --> 0:06:33.120 marital status no. 0:06:32.360 --> 0:06:34.640 Same okay, So then we gotta pause that. 0:06:34.760 --> 0:06:40.840 So let's talk about Dick's size. I've recently been sleeping 0:06:40.839 --> 0:06:45.760 with someone that I realized maybe sleeping with too many 0:06:45.760 --> 0:06:48.919 other people, and I think his body count is actually 0:06:48.960 --> 0:06:50.720 affecting our sex life. Here's why. 0:06:51.279 --> 0:06:54.040 Maybe body count is too specific of like a term. 0:06:54.080 --> 0:06:58.279 However, he's been saying ship like how he doesn't he 0:06:58.360 --> 0:07:00.800 tries to preserve come and he's try not to come 0:07:01.400 --> 0:07:08.520 or like whatever you would come. Canceler is crazy. He 0:07:08.640 --> 0:07:10.880 was like, yeah, you're not just be trying to hold it. 0:07:10.920 --> 0:07:13.600 IM just trying to be reserved it. And then I realized, like, oh, 0:07:13.680 --> 0:07:16.480 you're fucking that many bitches. You're probably exhausted. Yeah. 0:07:16.720 --> 0:07:19.080 Oh, And so it's been like. 0:07:19.040 --> 0:07:22.560 A common theme right where like he keeps like holding 0:07:22.600 --> 0:07:24.520 it or can't or whatever, and I'm like, I know 0:07:24.560 --> 0:07:27.960 it's supposed to good, starting to realize interesting. 0:07:27.840 --> 0:07:30.480 Are you are? Did he share how many other women 0:07:30.520 --> 0:07:31.440 there are? No? 0:07:31.560 --> 0:07:34.400 I didn't ask how many others, but I know there 0:07:34.440 --> 0:07:39.080 are others, right, And so that particular thing that hit me. 0:07:39.120 --> 0:07:41.600 I was like, that's it, Like he actually can't he 0:07:41.640 --> 0:07:43.960 doesn't have the bandwidth, And so I realized there is 0:07:44.000 --> 0:07:46.320 a point where body count it's probably too much, like 0:07:46.400 --> 0:07:49.080 if your dick is being so spread thin, and I 0:07:49.080 --> 0:07:51.720 get it, like you're finding it's good that you can't 0:07:52.080 --> 0:07:53.760 fuck me the way I want to be fucked because 0:07:54.080 --> 0:07:56.840 I like the nut. Oh, now you're using a word 0:07:56.920 --> 0:08:01.240 that look as you're turning into me right before my try. No, 0:08:01.480 --> 0:08:02.880 but like that's the thing, you know what I'm saying, 0:08:02.920 --> 0:08:05.000 Like I want to see it right and I really 0:08:05.040 --> 0:08:06.800 like I feel like that's a part of the sex 0:08:06.840 --> 0:08:07.560 that turns me on. 0:08:08.000 --> 0:08:09.760 So the fact that he can't even deliver at this point, 0:08:09.800 --> 0:08:10.280 it's kind of. 0:08:10.240 --> 0:08:14.840 Like i'd be curious if that's the experience though with 0:08:14.920 --> 0:08:17.280 the other partners, Like maybe it's not the body count, 0:08:17.360 --> 0:08:21.600 Maybe there's some other psychological factor keeping him from doing it, 0:08:21.720 --> 0:08:24.520 or maybe he likes to edge. Maybe maybe. 0:08:26.000 --> 0:08:28.200 Like he might enjoy doing that. And I know that 0:08:28.240 --> 0:08:31.440 we've talked about really but were. 0:08:30.680 --> 0:08:32.679 Trying to open your brain and now we're trying to 0:08:32.720 --> 0:08:34.679 open our brain. I don't think he's that smart. 0:08:34.920 --> 0:08:36.679 No, edging doesn't take that they're going. 0:08:36.640 --> 0:08:38.600 To be smart being like very like, I'm not trying 0:08:38.640 --> 0:08:41.040 to be insulting, like I think edging is a conscious 0:08:41.080 --> 0:08:43.280 thing that you're trying to in order to please yourself. 0:08:43.280 --> 0:08:45.000 And I don't believe that he's thinking that deeply. 0:08:45.160 --> 0:08:49.320 I don't think that that's really something that takes it's 0:08:49.360 --> 0:08:51.680 the dick like man are not, Like, it doesn't take 0:08:51.800 --> 0:08:55.199 intelligence for a man to realize I like holding this. 0:08:55.200 --> 0:08:57.560 This It does because if you know that you're doing 0:08:57.640 --> 0:09:00.720 it for your own pleasure, like yeah, I do think. 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:03.280 You won't say it like yeah. 0:09:03.480 --> 0:09:06.400 Like men again, they're simple. 0:09:06.520 --> 0:09:08.840 So if he say like, na, like I really like 0:09:08.880 --> 0:09:11.800 holding my nut, it don't take too much to say. 0:09:12.800 --> 0:09:16.360 But my thing is too though. I just think that 0:09:17.160 --> 0:09:19.360 a lot of men are not honest in the fact 0:09:19.400 --> 0:09:21.960 that they have sex to please themselves. So knowing that 0:09:22.400 --> 0:09:25.120 you are really maybe sexual and you clearly want to 0:09:25.160 --> 0:09:27.839 be pleased, if he knows that this is something that 0:09:27.960 --> 0:09:30.439 you that isn't pleasing you, I think it would make 0:09:30.520 --> 0:09:33.440 him like stop, Like, I think you have to voice 0:09:33.440 --> 0:09:36.160 it to him, Hey, I really like the action and 0:09:36.559 --> 0:09:46.520 where you were at that point, you knows, But. 0:09:44.679 --> 0:09:48.120 Mattering how small is too small for you she might 0:09:48.200 --> 0:09:50.080 like small. How big is to I said this, dick 0:09:50.120 --> 0:09:52.560 sizes matter and you both said yes, right, So it 0:09:52.600 --> 0:09:56.160 could mean she might not. She might, but I don't 0:09:56.200 --> 0:09:59.959 feel that. I don't like Okay, Okay, I wasn't. 0:09:59.800 --> 0:10:03.400 Taking you know, Yeah, I definitely know. That's not what 0:10:03.440 --> 0:10:03.840 I mean. 0:10:03.960 --> 0:10:07.280 I say that it definitely it matters, but it doesn't 0:10:07.440 --> 0:10:11.200 have to be the end all be all, Okay, So 0:10:11.600 --> 0:10:14.640 it matters only to the extent that you actually know 0:10:14.720 --> 0:10:18.360 how to use what you have. So the average dick 0:10:18.480 --> 0:10:23.520 size is five and a half inches, that's this average. 0:10:23.880 --> 0:10:26.439 Yeah, I'm not gonna run if it's a true five 0:10:26.480 --> 0:10:28.840 and a half, it's not as bad if you know 0:10:28.880 --> 0:10:29.520 how to stroke is. 0:10:29.720 --> 0:10:34.240 Exactly because a lot, I feel like a lot of 0:10:34.280 --> 0:10:38.520 women's ideas of what a like size is it's kind 0:10:38.520 --> 0:10:39.240 of like skewed. 0:10:39.600 --> 0:10:41.560 So if we know that the G. 0:10:41.640 --> 0:10:45.400 Spot is only like two three inches in fight, you 0:10:45.400 --> 0:10:47.000 could technically if that's what you. 0:10:47.000 --> 0:10:48.679 Want, yeah, because you can reach it with a finger 0:10:48.840 --> 0:10:49.600 exactly like. 0:10:49.640 --> 0:10:51.480 And then if you moan it off a finger, but 0:10:51.480 --> 0:10:54.040 then you like, no small dick, It's like, come. 0:10:55.080 --> 0:10:55.760 That's a good point. 0:10:55.880 --> 0:10:59.199 It's giving hypocrite, right, like, Okay. 0:10:58.880 --> 0:11:01.560 So for me, it's like you all, and here's the 0:11:01.600 --> 0:11:04.400 thing is, well, you run into someone with a big 0:11:04.440 --> 0:11:06.040 dick that don't know how to use it as well. 0:11:06.120 --> 0:11:09.280 So then then and it's like, all right, you say 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:11.439 size matters, So it's like if you just go with a. 0:11:11.400 --> 0:11:13.760 Big dick, man, I think the big dick issue that 0:11:13.800 --> 0:11:15.600 I realized when men don't know how to use it 0:11:16.280 --> 0:11:17.839 because I've been sleeping with someone who has a big 0:11:17.880 --> 0:11:21.560 dick for years, right, and what I realized is more 0:11:21.600 --> 0:11:24.640 to his benefit than men that have larger dicks, I 0:11:24.640 --> 0:11:28.760 mean have dick's size, is he understands that long strokes 0:11:28.800 --> 0:11:33.200 can be painful. And when you're long stroking and you're 0:11:33.240 --> 0:11:36.160 like doing that way too much, like that like kind 0:11:36.160 --> 0:11:37.840 of like I need you to let the dick milk 0:11:37.920 --> 0:11:39.920 for a second, you know what I'm saying for real, 0:11:39.960 --> 0:11:42.959 Because if you don't like just kind of like ease 0:11:43.000 --> 0:11:45.199 into it and let someone's pussy stretch, I feel like 0:11:45.280 --> 0:11:49.640 sexy red it really like can be painful. So I think, 0:11:49.760 --> 0:11:52.360 like once he's now that we've even known each other 0:11:52.400 --> 0:11:54.040 for so long and been able to fucking get it 0:11:54.400 --> 0:11:56.679 them long strokes come right to the end. Bitch, you 0:11:56.760 --> 0:11:58.640 know what I mean, Like he takes his time and 0:11:58.840 --> 0:12:02.640 definitely slower push is it. But you and I also 0:12:02.720 --> 0:12:06.160 know this from even fucking women. You gotta almost feel 0:12:06.200 --> 0:12:07.680 a point where the pussy starts to open. 0:12:07.960 --> 0:12:12.959 I was just then to get to that because Chicago, 0:12:14.880 --> 0:12:19.120 so a lot of people have sex before they're all 0:12:19.120 --> 0:12:22.720 the way around or all the way right. And you 0:12:22.720 --> 0:12:25.000 know you have the people out there like, no for playing, 0:12:25.040 --> 0:12:28.199 only go the last fat ten minutes. If you wait 0:12:28.320 --> 0:12:32.240 until that pussy is robbing, that's when you're gonna get 0:12:32.240 --> 0:12:36.040 the ultimal that's the that's the that's the optimal. 0:12:35.640 --> 0:12:37.600 Version of the pussy that you're going to get. 0:12:37.640 --> 0:12:41.120 But why would you not want optimal pussy? 0:12:39.640 --> 0:12:44.000 Why? Yeah, like optimism exactly like. 0:12:44.320 --> 0:12:47.200 And it goes both ways. But even men like me 0:12:47.280 --> 0:12:48.760 and maybe all right, I'm hard a little bit. I 0:12:48.760 --> 0:12:53.079 don't feel like relax. I want to be as hard 0:12:53.200 --> 0:12:53.959 as they can get. 0:12:54.520 --> 0:12:56.280 I feel like niggas be doing that because they're thinking 0:12:56.280 --> 0:12:58.079 they're gonna get harder while they're in you. No, No, 0:12:58.200 --> 0:13:00.720 that's awesome over Amazon Prime. 0:13:00.840 --> 0:13:03.719 Not too period. 0:13:04.080 --> 0:13:06.880 Now, you did getting into dating just a little bit. 0:13:07.160 --> 0:13:11.280 You said marital status does not fucking matter. Why and 0:13:11.679 --> 0:13:14.520 what are your views on marriage? 0:13:15.480 --> 0:13:21.200 So just based off of what I've experienced so far, 0:13:21.640 --> 0:13:24.480 a lot of people, and it actually kind of scares 0:13:24.520 --> 0:13:27.840 me about marriage. People be marrying people they don't really like, 0:13:28.880 --> 0:13:31.240 valid they be marrying people they don't like, and then 0:13:31.280 --> 0:13:32.079 they end up cheating. 0:13:32.640 --> 0:13:36.080 I wish I could talk about it. I've been having 0:13:36.120 --> 0:13:38.840 so many conversations with friends that are in long term 0:13:38.840 --> 0:13:43.000 marriages same not even friends, but like just it could 0:13:43.000 --> 0:13:45.040 be someone at a bar even right, And I do 0:13:45.080 --> 0:13:47.520 feel that the common theme is they marry that person 0:13:47.640 --> 0:13:52.480 for them on paper. Really are they talking about the 0:13:52.520 --> 0:13:54.760 way that person makes them feel or attributes that they 0:13:54.840 --> 0:13:58.000 like about them that have to do with their character? Yeah, 0:13:58.040 --> 0:14:01.440 but more so like great job, great mom? Great? 0:14:02.800 --> 0:14:06.480 Yeah? Yeah, A lot of times they don't. 0:14:06.600 --> 0:14:09.280 And I know, like even just hearing people talk about 0:14:09.280 --> 0:14:12.599 their spouse, I'm like, oh my god, this is like terrible, 0:14:12.840 --> 0:14:16.480 Like this makes me not want to participate in a 0:14:16.640 --> 0:14:19.240 conventional version of what marriage is. 0:14:19.600 --> 0:14:21.560 Like have you been the side chick to a married man? 0:14:22.120 --> 0:14:26.280 I don't accept that, Okay, Yeah, And by that, I 0:14:26.360 --> 0:14:28.360 mean like, all right, if we do what we do, 0:14:28.600 --> 0:14:30.880 I don't have to You're not gonna label me as 0:14:30.920 --> 0:14:33.280 your side, like you're not going to put that late 0:14:33.360 --> 0:14:35.760 like we friends and we just so happen to fuck. 0:14:38.920 --> 0:14:41.240 But here's the thing too, like you can't hit me up. 0:14:41.160 --> 0:14:43.680 Like you're sagic either, like if I hit it, like 0:14:43.760 --> 0:14:46.320 if its just the lines and we fucked being. 0:14:46.280 --> 0:14:50.080 Cool but not like no, oh yeah, I'm not. 0:14:50.080 --> 0:14:51.640 Feeling where you're going. But I want to know what 0:14:51.680 --> 0:14:56.480 you think the differences you maybe I would say side 0:14:56.560 --> 0:14:57.760 chick maybe gets like. 0:14:59.640 --> 0:15:02.400 See that, maybe sorry to gets the purse. Do you 0:15:02.400 --> 0:15:03.600 feel like you just wanted them? 0:15:04.000 --> 0:15:06.560 Yeah, like if that's just what I want, then that's 0:15:06.560 --> 0:15:07.080 just what I want. 0:15:07.120 --> 0:15:09.720 Don't try to put no label on what we do. 0:15:10.160 --> 0:15:11.720 Not allow me to have a role. 0:15:12.040 --> 0:15:13.600 And now I got like, so you. 0:15:13.600 --> 0:15:16.440 Was like a married man, but you wouldn't be in 0:15:16.520 --> 0:15:19.720 any sort of emotional connection to a man, not even 0:15:19.720 --> 0:15:23.320 transactionally either. Yeah, okay, you just gonna the married man 0:15:23.360 --> 0:15:24.240 and send him on his way. 0:15:24.400 --> 0:15:27.080 Yeah, like to be cool and don't we beat And 0:15:27.320 --> 0:15:30.040 I actually I've only had sex with one married man. 0:15:30.160 --> 0:15:32.560 And this was somebody that I've known like even before 0:15:32.600 --> 0:15:33.160 he was married. 0:15:33.200 --> 0:15:35.440 It just so happened he had sex and then he 0:15:35.600 --> 0:15:37.160 was like hitting me up and I'm like, whoa, wait, 0:15:37.200 --> 0:15:39.800 what are you doing? Like this was like a one 0:15:39.880 --> 0:15:42.600 and done type thing, like I'm kind of it. 0:15:42.640 --> 0:15:43.720 Was all right, it was fun? 0:15:43.920 --> 0:15:44.240 Why not? 0:15:44.640 --> 0:15:46.200 Okay? Why not? What I mean? 0:15:46.240 --> 0:15:48.040 I don't want to have sex with someone marry either, 0:15:48.040 --> 0:15:49.800 But I'm just like a crazy believer in karmel, like 0:15:49.880 --> 0:15:53.680 I feel like so just for some context that anyone, 0:15:53.720 --> 0:15:56.000 for anyone's listening, and another if ever told the story. 0:15:56.560 --> 0:16:02.120 But my first boyfriend was separated when I met him. Well, 0:16:02.120 --> 0:16:04.600 I didn't know he was married. Then he was separated, 0:16:04.640 --> 0:16:06.680 which for sure because I had been in their home 0:16:06.760 --> 0:16:10.960 and they weren't together. But I remember while we were dating. 0:16:10.920 --> 0:16:12.600 And it's crazy. I was eighteen, he was twenty eight. 0:16:12.640 --> 0:16:13.520 That's insane. 0:16:13.680 --> 0:16:18.840 But he got served divorce papers and I remember thinking, oh, 0:16:18.920 --> 0:16:20.800 I'm like the reason for this, even though they weren't 0:16:20.800 --> 0:16:23.880 together when we met, and I had a crazy, abusive 0:16:23.920 --> 0:16:26.680 relationship with him, really bad luck. He was also a cheater, 0:16:27.120 --> 0:16:30.760 and I remember thinking this is my karma. And maybe 0:16:30.760 --> 0:16:33.920 that's not necessarily true, but I believed that because I 0:16:34.000 --> 0:16:37.880 kept pursuing it. And again eighteen, I was like, this 0:16:37.920 --> 0:16:41.240 is my fault. So if I'm engaging with this married person, 0:16:41.800 --> 0:16:44.160 I'm bound to have some fucked up shit happen in 0:16:44.200 --> 0:16:47.800 my relationship or the relationships thereafter, So it was fucking 0:16:47.960 --> 0:16:51.400 terrifying me to do it again. Now niggas with a girlfriend, 0:16:51.560 --> 0:16:55.080 This is fucked up because I haven't really slept with 0:16:55.120 --> 0:16:57.960 many niggas with a girlfriend. But that to me is 0:16:57.960 --> 0:17:01.040 a little more excusable because sometimes reallytionship seems so like 0:17:01.160 --> 0:17:04.440 this marriage, I guess in my brain is way more 0:17:04.480 --> 0:17:09.160 committal and serious. So that's why it's been my hard No, yeah, 0:17:09.440 --> 0:17:11.760 went on that rat because I'm curious to know why 0:17:11.800 --> 0:17:15.879 you would fuck them, but where the emotional comes in, 0:17:16.000 --> 0:17:18.120 like why not just trickle on the niggas? 0:17:18.720 --> 0:17:22.920 So for me because I compartmentalize sex in a way 0:17:22.960 --> 0:17:25.240 that it's like, if this is just what I want 0:17:25.280 --> 0:17:27.880 to do, then I'm cool with that. I think that's 0:17:27.960 --> 0:17:31.760 also where I'm cool with the out after the fact, right, 0:17:31.960 --> 0:17:33.560 Like a lot of people are like, oh, we just 0:17:33.600 --> 0:17:36.280 did this now, Like, no, it ain't know now what 0:17:36.480 --> 0:17:40.440 because I've already I've accepted that this is just a 0:17:40.480 --> 0:17:46.000 sexual experience. We fulfilled a sexual human need for each other. 0:17:46.240 --> 0:17:48.000 And that that's just what it was. 0:17:48.280 --> 0:17:53.640 So I compartmentalize it, and it works because especially if 0:17:53.640 --> 0:17:56.000 I know where I'm at mentally and I'm not looking 0:17:56.040 --> 0:17:56.920 for anything. 0:17:56.640 --> 0:18:00.359 Serious anyway, why would I. Like, it don't matter you 0:18:00.440 --> 0:18:03.960 gonna you gonna, You're gonna cheat regardless, Like that's the 0:18:04.000 --> 0:18:06.560 thing that's gonna stop someone from cheating is someone that 0:18:06.600 --> 0:18:08.760 does not want to cheat. It does not matter who 0:18:08.800 --> 0:18:11.879 they with, what the situation is that's going on. So 0:18:11.920 --> 0:18:13.760 it's like, all right, you didn't fuck me, You're gonna 0:18:13.760 --> 0:18:14.600 fuck somebody else. 0:18:14.680 --> 0:18:17.000 Like I don't feel no type of way about it. 0:18:18.280 --> 0:18:22.320 Also, I don't think that we do monogamy right, like 0:18:22.400 --> 0:18:25.680 for monogamy to be the standard where we suck at it, 0:18:25.800 --> 0:18:29.159 sucking it up, like we we're terrible at monogamy. So 0:18:29.200 --> 0:18:31.520 maybe we need to rethink what the standard is. 0:18:32.280 --> 0:18:34.760 And we're doing that. Yeah, we're doing it like, you know, 0:18:34.840 --> 0:18:35.720 one step at a time. 0:18:35.760 --> 0:18:39.399 I mean, yeah, there's shows now that like polyamory is 0:18:39.440 --> 0:18:42.440 being talked about more, polygamy is being talked about more, 0:18:42.680 --> 0:18:44.920 and we're seeing it more on our television screen. 0:18:45.040 --> 0:18:48.159 That's the problem though, because now that we're in the 0:18:48.200 --> 0:18:51.960 era of sexual liberation, people have found these different ways 0:18:51.960 --> 0:18:54.560 of relationships and we're now all forced to think that's 0:18:54.600 --> 0:18:58.760 the standard, you know, Like I think that that's what's 0:18:58.880 --> 0:19:03.120 ruining dating to It's not necessarily that people like us 0:19:03.119 --> 0:19:06.000 that me enjoy this type of relationship or sex life 0:19:06.040 --> 0:19:09.960 can't pursue it openly. It's more that now these regular 0:19:10.040 --> 0:19:13.200 niggas they never motherfucker heard of polyamory, are. 0:19:13.160 --> 0:19:15.920 Like, oh, yeah, it is me, and no, if it 0:19:16.000 --> 0:19:17.240 ain't too, you're a liar. 0:19:17.359 --> 0:19:20.120 Yeah, But but actually a bit of me is feeling 0:19:20.160 --> 0:19:22.639 like now they're showing up a little bit more honest, 0:19:23.000 --> 0:19:25.320 I can't just be with just Lee, Like, I don't 0:19:25.320 --> 0:19:28.800 think they're they're necessarily lying. There's this umbrella term that 0:19:28.840 --> 0:19:31.760 maybe they don't fully understand that still comes with boundaries, 0:19:31.760 --> 0:19:34.760 that still comes with respecting your partner, but they're kind 0:19:34.760 --> 0:19:37.760