WEBVTT - RIDICULOUS GECKO PRANKS 0:00:00.640 --> 0:00:04.439 Never Weekend goes on the line making your phone calls. 0:00:04.200 --> 0:00:08.319 Every night, every week goes Today Night's teaching you in 0:00:08.400 --> 0:00:09.240 the mid of your life. 0:00:09.680 --> 0:00:17.279 Money's not ready an expert. Hey, folks, how you doing. 0:00:17.360 --> 0:00:20.440 It's me, It's Lyle, It's the get go guy. And 0:00:20.480 --> 0:00:22.920 I am so happy to finally tell you guys that 0:00:23.360 --> 0:00:28.280 after months and months and months of just releasing this 0:00:28.440 --> 0:00:31.160 podcast whenever the hell I felt like it, I have 0:00:31.320 --> 0:00:36.239 combated my indecisiveness and made a decision to release this 0:00:36.400 --> 0:00:41.280 podcast every Monday. This will be a every Monday podcast 0:00:41.360 --> 0:00:43.519 from now on. 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And all right, I'm happy 0:01:50.160 --> 0:01:54.280 to be on track, I'm happy to be alive, I'm 0:01:54.280 --> 0:01:56.720 happy to be green, and I'm ready to get into it. 0:01:57.240 --> 0:01:58.640 Let's do some calls, baby. 0:01:58.960 --> 0:02:04.400 All from Constance two conference. 0:02:06.480 --> 0:02:13.600 It's constant constance, yes, like the state of consistency. 0:02:13.880 --> 0:02:14.280 Yes. 0:02:15.200 --> 0:02:17.760 Do you feel like you as a person are consistent. 0:02:19.400 --> 0:02:20.200 At points? 0:02:20.360 --> 0:02:20.680 Yes? 0:02:21.080 --> 0:02:22.320 If I have enough renovation. 0:02:24.760 --> 0:02:25.760 What gives you motivation? 0:02:27.720 --> 0:02:28.760 That is a good question. 0:02:29.720 --> 0:02:30.760 Most of have nothing. 0:02:31.120 --> 0:02:33.200 It just comes in random starts. 0:02:34.400 --> 0:02:36.040 What do you do when you get a random spirit 0:02:36.040 --> 0:02:36.560 of motivation? 0:02:38.200 --> 0:02:39.920 Schoolwork a lot of it. 0:02:41.680 --> 0:02:43.000 Are you in college? 0:02:44.440 --> 0:02:44.560 Uh? 0:02:44.760 --> 0:02:45.160 Yes? 0:02:46.800 --> 0:02:47.520 What do you study? 0:02:48.880 --> 0:02:51.280 I'm currently just doing my first two years. I go 0:02:51.400 --> 0:02:54.560 to a community college, so I'm just trying to get 0:02:54.560 --> 0:02:56.639 my first two years over the basics. 0:02:57.200 --> 0:02:59.639 Constant sounds like the name of a fortune teller. 0:03:01.520 --> 0:03:06.239 Yeah, it's uh. I can't remember where it originated from. 0:03:06.280 --> 0:03:07.959 I used to study my name a lot. 0:03:08.240 --> 0:03:11.600 If that sounds to you, I don't know, Constance. Are 0:03:11.639 --> 0:03:13.960 you ridiculous? 0:03:14.200 --> 0:03:14.680 I am not. 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:19.120 I think I'm very level minded, and it weirds people out. 0:03:20.280 --> 0:03:21.480 It weirds people out. 0:03:21.639 --> 0:03:27.040 You say yes, because a lot of people, when put 0:03:27.080 --> 0:03:31.440 in certain situations, will become very emotional, and I don't 0:03:31.440 --> 0:03:31.720 do that. 0:03:35.800 --> 0:03:38.160 Tell me about a situation in which others are usually 0:03:38.160 --> 0:03:39.200 emotional but you are not. 0:03:42.040 --> 0:03:45.240 This is very extreme. But whenever I was eleven, my 0:03:45.400 --> 0:03:49.160 mother passed away and I just thought about it as 0:03:49.280 --> 0:03:51.560 I can't do anything about it, and I just kind 0:03:51.560 --> 0:03:54.480 of have to move on with my life and hope 0:03:54.480 --> 0:03:57.280 for the best and work on myself. And my dad 0:03:57.320 --> 0:03:58.600 thought I was a sociopath. 0:03:58.800 --> 0:04:02.440 But you know, see, this. 0:04:02.480 --> 0:04:05.760 Is interesting because this seems like one of those things 0:04:05.760 --> 0:04:10.320 that's both a blessing and a curse. You know, Like, obviously, 0:04:11.400 --> 0:04:15.440 you know when you don't feel as hard as other 0:04:15.440 --> 0:04:18.279 people do, you avoid all the bad stuff. But do 0:04:18.320 --> 0:04:20.320 you think that that also causes you to avoid all 0:04:20.360 --> 0:04:23.200 the good stuff there is about being emotional? 0:04:24.440 --> 0:04:24.600 Uh? 0:04:24.960 --> 0:04:28.400 Yes, most definitely. I'll see my friends get worked up 0:04:28.400 --> 0:04:31.600 over things, are really excited over certain things like us 0:04:31.600 --> 0:04:34.880 hanging out. But to me, I just I'm like, it's 0:04:34.920 --> 0:04:41.720 just another day. I don't feel excited or anything. 0:04:44.200 --> 0:04:48.400 How do you feel about your stoic nature? Do you 0:04:48.440 --> 0:04:51.599 wish that you were more emotional? Are you envious of 0:04:51.640 --> 0:04:53.719 your friends? Or do you like the way that you operate? 0:04:55.080 --> 0:04:58.240 Well, there's been times where I've wished that I was 0:04:58.279 --> 0:05:03.360 more emotional, But I have had moments whenever I do 0:05:03.440 --> 0:05:06.360 become extremely emotional, and I hate it so much. I 0:05:07.080 --> 0:05:10.600 honestly would just prefer how I am now. It's just 0:05:10.640 --> 0:05:11.760 so much easier on me. 0:05:12.600 --> 0:05:15.240 What do you hate about it? 0:05:15.240 --> 0:05:18.560 It just stresses me out so bad. I have so 0:05:18.680 --> 0:05:19.960 much anxiety over it. 0:05:21.839 --> 0:05:24.120 Does he give anxiety over it because it's not something 0:05:24.160 --> 0:05:34.040 you're used to, I would say so. Yes, There's lots 0:05:34.040 --> 0:05:36.320 of ways that I feel like you could take u 0:05:36.440 --> 0:05:41.080 stoicism to your advantage because and again I'm not a 0:05:41.120 --> 0:05:43.640 real therapist, but I do find this particular thing very 0:05:43.640 --> 0:05:46.479 interesting because this is like one of those things where 0:05:46.480 --> 0:05:48.440 you could either be like, all right, I'm gonna work 0:05:48.520 --> 0:05:51.000 really hard to change this about myself or I'm gonna 0:05:51.000 --> 0:05:53.920 work really hard to just accept this about myself and 0:05:53.960 --> 0:05:57.000 make the best of my life that I can, accepting 0:05:57.040 --> 0:05:59.359 that I'm just by my own nature for whatever reason. 0:05:59.360 --> 0:06:06.599 A very stowe person, right right, Yeah, it kind of 0:06:06.720 --> 0:06:10.680 sucks overall, because, like I said, I don't really get 0:06:10.720 --> 0:06:12.560 excited over things, or I don't. 0:06:12.320 --> 0:06:16.680 Really get angry or any of those. But whenever I'm 0:06:16.920 --> 0:06:22.400 forced into something I'm not used to or I'm doing 0:06:22.440 --> 0:06:26.120 something that I don't usually do, I get really stressed 0:06:26.120 --> 0:06:31.240 out and my anxiety is crazy or the roof and 0:06:31.279 --> 0:06:32.799 I don't know what to do with myself. 0:06:35.760 --> 0:06:37.840 Have you spoken to a real therapist about any of this? 0:06:39.360 --> 0:06:41.719 I have not, but because of a lot of things 0:06:41.760 --> 0:06:45.359 that I've gone through as a child, that's my plan. 0:06:45.480 --> 0:06:46.960 That's what I want to major, and I want to 0:06:46.960 --> 0:06:47.960 major in psychology. 0:06:52.080 --> 0:06:58.800 This is interesting because I wonder if your lack of 0:06:58.960 --> 0:07:02.760 feeling is emotion and all those other people will help 0:07:02.839 --> 0:07:09.000 you or hinder you in attempting to help them with 0:07:09.040 --> 0:07:11.440 their emotions. What do you think about that? 0:07:13.560 --> 0:07:18.280 Well, I've had the same worries before, and something I 0:07:18.320 --> 0:07:21.480 looked into before deciding that I wanted to go to 0:07:21.480 --> 0:07:22.800 school to become a therapist. 0:07:23.160 --> 0:07:23.920 Was that. 0:07:25.720 --> 0:07:31.200 A lot of times your professors will force you to 0:07:31.440 --> 0:07:34.000 go and take therapy because you have to know what 0:07:34.040 --> 0:07:35.640 it's like to be in. 0:07:35.480 --> 0:07:38.040 The other seat. You have to know what it's like 0:07:38.040 --> 0:07:38.960 to be that patient. 0:07:39.480 --> 0:07:40.120 Absolutely, But. 0:07:41.960 --> 0:07:43.120 I don't know. 0:07:44.320 --> 0:07:47.400 I feel like it'll help me more because I won't 0:07:48.480 --> 0:07:50.400 in a way I'll understand how they're feeling, but I 0:07:50.480 --> 0:07:54.680 also won't get overly emotional, and I'll be able to 0:07:54.680 --> 0:07:57.120 listen to them and help them maybe think more logically 0:07:57.200 --> 0:07:59.600 about those things and make them feel more comfortable. 0:08:00.520 --> 0:08:04.320 I don't know, see all right, that right there is 0:08:04.520 --> 0:08:08.080 sort of what I was talking about. Right, How if 0:08:08.160 --> 0:08:12.840 you're like a really you know, stoic, logic thinking person 0:08:12.880 --> 0:08:16.000 who's not very driven by emotion, instead of looking at 0:08:16.040 --> 0:08:19.520 that as a weakness, you know, you're looking at it 0:08:19.560 --> 0:08:22.440 as more of a strength, and you're like, okay, well 0:08:22.520 --> 0:08:26.320 how can I use this as a strength. And that's 0:08:26.360 --> 0:08:28.480 an example, you know, if you were to go into 0:08:29.560 --> 0:08:32.800 becoming a therapist and saying, well, I think very logically, 0:08:32.840 --> 0:08:34.959 and maybe I would pair up well with clients who 0:08:34.960 --> 0:08:39.160 are more emotional and I could help them think more 0:08:39.240 --> 0:08:42.760 logically and stoically, and then you know, you do that 0:08:43.160 --> 0:08:45.080 and it works, and you're like, oh shit, this thing 0:08:45.200 --> 0:08:48.040 that you know possibly people who have been telling me 0:08:48.120 --> 0:08:50.920 there's something wrong with me, I'm actually harnessing it as 0:08:50.960 --> 0:08:54.040 a important tool of mind to help other people. 0:08:56.200 --> 0:08:59.640 Right there, there was a lot. 0:09:00.720 --> 0:09:04.480 Yeah, a lot of my family thinks it's pretty cool. 0:09:04.559 --> 0:09:08.640 I've been through so many different mindsets and changes on. 0:09:08.800 --> 0:09:09.680 What I want to be. 0:09:10.240 --> 0:09:12.960 I get one point, I wanted to be a surgeon, 0:09:13.240 --> 0:09:15.080 and then I wanted to be a doctor, and then 0:09:15.080 --> 0:09:17.160 a nurse, and then a teacher, and. 0:09:17.120 --> 0:09:18.439 Now I'm going to be a therapist. 0:09:18.440 --> 0:09:21.320 So who knows, maybe I'll change my mind. 0:09:21.679 --> 0:09:23.160 Maybe I won't. 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:27.520 Thank you so much for calling in constance of course, 0:09:27.559 --> 0:09:30.000 of course you have a good rest of the night. 0:09:30.040 --> 0:09:32.120 Thank you for sharing you too. 0:09:32.200 --> 0:09:43.880 Bye all from dark Dark Dark. 0:09:46.800 --> 0:09:48.600 That was a kind of cool noise dark. 0:09:49.880 --> 0:09:56.320 Hey, Hey, how are you doing? 0:09:56.400 --> 0:09:56.720 Gek? 0:10:00.160 --> 0:10:01.160 Are you ridiculous? 0:10:03.400 --> 0:10:05.400 You know I thought about this question the last time 0:10:05.440 --> 0:10:09.360 you asked it, and I was like, I think I 0:10:09.400 --> 0:10:12.480 am because I have a tendency to laugh at things 0:10:12.480 --> 0:10:22.120 that are just wildly inappropriate, like what so today, for example, 0:10:22.720 --> 0:10:25.160 i walk into my wife's store, she works at a 0:10:25.200 --> 0:10:30.280 coffee shop, and I'm like, I see your boss walk 0:10:30.280 --> 0:10:32.920 out and she has one of those like clear masks on, 0:10:34.040 --> 0:10:36.520 and I'd never seen one of those before, and I 0:10:36.960 --> 0:10:39.240 just started laughing because I thought it was so weird 0:10:39.280 --> 0:10:40.360 to see someone's face. 0:10:44.160 --> 0:10:46.760 So you're just laughing at your wife's face. 0:10:47.920 --> 0:10:49.760 No, no, my wife's boss face. 0:10:50.800 --> 0:10:53.440 Oh does he have a fri Let me ask you 0:10:53.520 --> 0:11:03.240 something forgetting about the absurdity of a clear mask? Did 0:11:03.320 --> 0:11:10.040 this guy have just in general a funny looking face? 0:11:12.000 --> 0:11:14.680 Kind of because you don't get the nose and you 0:11:14.720 --> 0:11:18.320 get like all the lips and it's kind of like 0:11:18.400 --> 0:11:20.560 out of context. So you see their eyes and then 0:11:20.600 --> 0:11:22.880 you see a pair of lips and then just like 0:11:22.920 --> 0:11:24.199 a black cloth around it. 0:11:27.200 --> 0:11:28.240 Do you know what his name was? 0:11:29.160 --> 0:11:30.439 Oh, it's actually a girl. 0:11:30.760 --> 0:11:32.079 Her boss's a girl. 0:11:35.559 --> 0:11:37.160 And sh hara funny face. 0:11:38.120 --> 0:11:38.440 Yes. 0:11:41.800 --> 0:11:43.359 Where did you meet your wife? 0:11:44.120 --> 0:11:45.360 I met my wife on Twitter? 0:11:46.440 --> 0:11:47.120 On Twitter? 0:11:47.920 --> 0:11:50.520 Yeah, she lived in Ohio and I lived in Arizona. 0:11:54.040 --> 0:11:56.199 Did it start in a DM or in a public thread? 0:11:57.240 --> 0:11:58.360 It started in a DM? 0:11:58.640 --> 0:12:01.480 Actually, what did you DM? 0:12:01.559 --> 0:12:02.359 Her? 0:12:02.920 --> 0:12:04.440 I said that I liked her style. 0:12:07.400 --> 0:12:11.640 Wow, I'm really happy here. That worked out for you. 0:12:13.000 --> 0:12:15.040 Yeah, now we got a Now we got a three 0:12:15.120 --> 0:12:17.160 year old and we're married. 0:12:22.000 --> 0:12:22.920 Do you like being married? 0:12:23.920 --> 0:12:25.040 I absolutely love it. 0:12:29.240 --> 0:12:30.920 What else do you laugh at that's inappropriate? 0:12:34.040 --> 0:12:37.240 One time, like I was in like a lobby of 0:12:37.240 --> 0:12:41.680 the place, and this customer starts like throwing like the 0:12:41.960 --> 0:12:47.360 typical like Karen stink, and I just started laughing. And 0:12:47.400 --> 0:12:49.480 it's like kind of like an uncontrollable thing, like a 0:12:49.559 --> 0:12:52.400 tick that comes out, and I just started laughing. And 0:12:52.440 --> 0:12:55.440 then the lady started getting mad at me for laughing 0:12:55.480 --> 0:12:59.440 at her, like yelling at like this person who was 0:12:59.480 --> 0:13:00.559 just trying to make their food. 0:13:02.600 --> 0:13:04.520 I understand why you would laugh at that. I mean, 0:13:04.559 --> 0:13:06.600 there's a lot of content out on the Internet of 0:13:06.640 --> 0:13:10.280 people yelling, and people do find it funny, So I 0:13:10.400 --> 0:13:12.200 understand why you would find it funny in real life 0:13:14.160 --> 0:13:16.959 because it is kind of ridiculous that the person is yelling. 0:13:18.240 --> 0:13:20.920 Yeah, maybe maybe it's not like me being ridiculous, but 0:13:21.040 --> 0:13:24.000 me being seen in a ridiculous area. 0:13:26.240 --> 0:13:27.640 Thank you for calling Michael. 0:13:29.080 --> 0:13:29.640 Wait Way. 0:13:32.720 --> 0:13:36.720 All from to accept Press. 0:13:37.640 --> 0:13:43.760 Hello, are you there is that anyone? 0:13:43.760 --> 0:13:44.080 There? 0:13:44.520 --> 0:13:49.160 Are we alone in the universe? Is there life outside 0:13:49.200 --> 0:13:53.880 of Earth? And if if there was, would they like us? 0:13:55.120 --> 0:13:57.760 What if if there was a whole other race of 0:13:57.800 --> 0:14:00.440 intelligent life. I'm here. If there was a whole race 0:14:00.440 --> 0:14:03.560 of intelligent life and they didn't like us, would we care? 0:14:03.640 --> 0:14:05.800 Would we be all like upset that they don't like 0:14:05.840 --> 0:14:08.560 that the aliens don't think that we're that we're cringe? 0:14:09.440 --> 0:14:10.720 What do you what do you think? 0:14:13.960 --> 0:14:17.679 I I honestly do think aliens be ashamed of the 0:14:17.760 --> 0:14:18.360 human race. 0:14:19.040 --> 0:14:19.680 Really why? 0:14:20.920 --> 0:14:24.040 I mean, all of the. 0:14:24.040 --> 0:14:27.960 Videos on the YouTube space and means and it's just 0:14:28.200 --> 0:14:29.080 our shitty humor. 0:14:31.080 --> 0:14:31.640 I don't know. 0:14:32.400 --> 0:14:33.280 I just don't. 0:14:33.600 --> 0:14:35.720 But we wouldn't be judged. We would be judged by 0:14:35.760 --> 0:14:38.400 our best We would be judged by like Mark Twain 0:14:38.600 --> 0:14:41.000 or whatever. We don't I think that like the human race, 0:14:41.080 --> 0:14:44.000 if we had like a we had to present ourselves, 0:14:44.040 --> 0:14:45.880 I don't think we would. We got to pick, we 0:14:45.920 --> 0:14:50.120 would probably pick. We probably wouldn't pick internet memes. We 0:14:50.120 --> 0:14:52.640 would show them you're probably not wrong. 0:14:53.520 --> 0:14:58.840 But at the same time, it's like, you know, UFO 0:14:59.000 --> 0:15:01.680 sightings and everything like that, probably been just observing us 0:15:02.040 --> 0:15:03.880 for a while at time when. 0:15:03.800 --> 0:15:05.880 They stepped in, Why haven't they come to kill us? 0:15:06.760 --> 0:15:08.160 See how stupid we are? 0:15:09.360 --> 0:15:12.520 They're like, yeah, so if a human has sex with 0:15:12.560 --> 0:15:15.040 an animal, it can't it doesn't make a baby. But 0:15:15.040 --> 0:15:17.680 if a human had sex with another intelligent life form, 0:15:18.120 --> 0:15:21.280 an alien, that could make another sort of species of 0:15:21.320 --> 0:15:23.160 intelligent life form. Like if there what if there was 0:15:23.200 --> 0:15:25.160 like another like breed. 0:15:25.600 --> 0:15:27.880 Of intelligence aliens. 0:15:28.320 --> 0:15:30.880 Yes, if we interbreeded with aliens and we formed a 0:15:30.920 --> 0:15:34.240 whole new integrated society and then those alien and then 0:15:34.720 --> 0:15:38.080 they they had said, well I guess if I guess 0:15:38.120 --> 0:15:40.000 if they had sex, if the two babies had sex 0:15:40.040 --> 0:15:43.840 with each other, then it would just make or it would. 0:15:43.640 --> 0:15:45.720 It make a I feel like it would make I 0:15:45.720 --> 0:15:47.920 don't think they would be intelligent. I feel like that's 0:15:47.960 --> 0:15:51.160 going down like the inbreeding path between humans where you 0:15:51.200 --> 0:15:52.680 know they get really fussed up. 0:15:53.360 --> 0:15:55.560 Well okay, well then if that's the thing, then if 0:15:55.600 --> 0:15:59.240 you go back through humanity, at some point there was it, 0:15:59.240 --> 0:16:02.240 we had the inbreed. 0:16:01.200 --> 0:16:05.840 There was, right, Yeah, but like that's what causes like uh, 0:16:06.240 --> 0:16:10.840 degenerative like stuff like you know, you know what I'm saying. 0:16:11.960 --> 0:16:16.480 Are you ridiculous? Uh? 0:16:17.320 --> 0:16:19.720 I don't think so. I don't want Why not? 0:16:19.800 --> 0:16:21.640 You don't want? All right? So you think that you are, 0:16:21.680 --> 0:16:22.680 but you do not want to be? 0:16:23.560 --> 0:16:23.840 Yeah? 0:16:23.880 --> 0:16:25.240 Probably all right? 0:16:25.280 --> 0:16:26.480 What makes you think that you are? 0:16:30.080 --> 0:16:33.280 Some of the things I say sometimes just get like 0:16:34.880 --> 0:16:36.680 weird looks. I don't know, like I have shipped something 0:16:36.760 --> 0:16:39.360 humor too. That's why I think aliens wouldn't like us, 0:16:39.400 --> 0:16:42.000 Like my sense of humor is pretty terrible. So's but 0:16:42.120 --> 0:16:43.600 I was going off home, so I. 0:16:43.560 --> 0:16:45.720 Think, all right, so you're kind of I think you 0:16:45.760 --> 0:16:51.360 think aliens wouldn't like you specifically, Yeah, probably even race. 0:16:53.280 --> 0:16:53.800 Probably. 0:16:54.000 --> 0:16:54.240 Yeah. 0:16:54.400 --> 0:16:56.480 I mean I was basing off myself. 0:16:58.760 --> 0:16:59.920 So you wish you were less for the. 0:17:02.000 --> 0:17:02.400 Yeah. 0:17:02.480 --> 0:17:04.240 Yeah, I'm one of those people that don't want to 0:17:04.240 --> 0:17:06.600 be perceived in any way, shape or form. 0:17:06.880 --> 0:17:13.080 So I'm curious what uh so you called into this stream? Uh? 0:17:13.119 --> 0:17:15.960 And there are like thousands of people perceiving you right now. 0:17:16.640 --> 0:17:18.919 Yeah, but they can't like keep my face and attach it, 0:17:18.960 --> 0:17:21.320 like right now, I'm just kind of a disembodied voice. 0:17:23.200 --> 0:17:26.320 It's true, but you are identified as a as a 0:17:26.400 --> 0:17:27.800 human being that lives on earth. 0:17:29.400 --> 0:17:34.199 Yes, but I can distance myself like from who I 0:17:34.240 --> 0:17:37.560 am on the stream and who I am actually you know, 0:17:37.800 --> 0:17:38.320 do you do. 0:17:38.280 --> 0:17:41.480 You feel like you are presenting a personality right now 0:17:41.800 --> 0:17:43.760 that is different from who you actually are. 0:17:45.920 --> 0:17:48.040 No, but they don't know that. 0:17:49.960 --> 0:17:51.280 How do you feel now that they do. 0:17:53.480 --> 0:17:55.320 I mean, I could just one, it could just be 0:17:55.400 --> 0:17:56.119 one eighty in it. 0:17:56.200 --> 0:18:01.400 You know, why are you afraid of being perceived? 0:18:03.840 --> 0:18:15.720 That's a really loaded question. I don't know, Probably because anxiety. 0:18:18.280 --> 0:18:20.840 Do you think that you're unworthy of being perceived? 0:18:22.320 --> 0:18:31.639 Oh my god, this is getting real deep. Probably I don't. Yeah, 0:18:32.200 --> 0:18:35.520 what what makes. 0:18:35.359 --> 0:18:39.840 Someone, in your opinion, worthy of being. 0:18:39.640 --> 0:18:47.919 Perceived, whether or not they actually contribute to society? Like 0:18:48.520 --> 0:18:52.439 I'm I think a lot of people are just like NPCs, 0:18:52.520 --> 0:18:55.600 just walking around, just doing their thing, not really contributing. 0:18:55.600 --> 0:18:57.800 They're just existing. They're not really living. And I feel 0:18:57.800 --> 0:18:58.680 like that's what I'm doing. 0:18:59.480 --> 0:19:02.840 So you think of yourself as an NPC essentially? 0:19:02.960 --> 0:19:04.960 Yeah, I just a day in and day out. 0:19:04.960 --> 0:19:05.600 I just exist. 0:19:05.640 --> 0:19:06.640 I don't really do anything. 0:19:07.680 --> 0:19:09.359 Would you like to do things? 0:19:10.000 --> 0:19:10.520 Probably? 0:19:12.720 --> 0:19:13.640 Would you wait to do? 0:19:16.119 --> 0:19:16.560 Uh? 0:19:16.600 --> 0:19:20.760 Like get an education and help people? 0:19:23.880 --> 0:19:25.560 It's a lot of ways to help people. 0:19:26.359 --> 0:19:31.920 Yeah, there is, but at this point, like I wake up, 0:19:32.160 --> 0:19:34.480 I go to work, I work with waitress that's not 0:19:34.520 --> 0:19:37.200 really helping people in any way, And then I come. 0:19:37.119 --> 0:19:40.040 Home helping people that's absolutely. 0:19:40.600 --> 0:19:46.240 I mean in a meaningful way, like giving someone What do. 0:19:46.240 --> 0:19:47.880 You define as a meaningful way. 0:19:50.440 --> 0:19:52.760 Like a life changing way. I feel like, yeah, like 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:55.320 providing a service is helping someone, but at the same time, 0:19:55.520 --> 0:19:58.919 like not like they do. It's doing something that they 0:19:58.920 --> 0:20:02.200 could do themselves. 0:20:04.000 --> 0:20:05.879 But to say that you don't contribute to society as 0:20:05.880 --> 0:20:08.960 a waitress, I mean you actively contribute to the economy. 0:20:09.080 --> 0:20:12.320 You all right, you get paid money? Right? 0:20:13.000 --> 0:20:13.440 Yes? 0:20:16.600 --> 0:20:18.320 How do you Where does your money come from? Your 0:20:18.320 --> 0:20:22.960 money comes from the restaurant, which people give money to 0:20:23.480 --> 0:20:27.560 because people feel as though the service that the restaurant 0:20:27.560 --> 0:20:33.800 provides is valuable, and so they give them money. And 0:20:33.840 --> 0:20:37.119 so the service that you provide to the restaurant helps 0:20:37.119 --> 0:20:41.480 the restaurant be valuable to people. So you provide value 0:20:41.520 --> 0:20:47.560 to people inherently and people and it is objectively proven 0:20:48.200 --> 0:20:52.359 that you provide value to people because you receive money 0:20:52.400 --> 0:20:56.200 in return for the value that you provide. 0:20:56.400 --> 0:21:00.840 I hadn't looked at it in that late, So I 0:21:01.200 --> 0:21:02.920 mean you're you're right for sure. 0:21:03.680 --> 0:21:06.600 I just feel like, uh, that's what having a job is. 0:21:07.480 --> 0:21:11.240 Yeah, well yeah, I just feel like it just provides 0:21:11.320 --> 0:21:13.800 value to have a little bit like a deeper beating, 0:21:13.840 --> 0:21:16.959 like doctors or teachers or like something like that, like 0:21:17.200 --> 0:21:18.480 life altering in some way. 0:21:20.640 --> 0:21:20.880 See. 0:21:20.920 --> 0:21:24.080 I feel like that's a big myth that like to 0:21:24.119 --> 0:21:26.760 help people or have an impact, you have to be uh, 0:21:27.280 --> 0:21:32.719 you know, a freaking rocket scientist person. You know, you 0:21:32.800 --> 0:21:35.240 help people on a micro scale. 0:21:37.160 --> 0:21:40.320 Yeah, I just like to do something bigger. 0:21:41.560 --> 0:21:43.760 Do you have any ideas of what bigger thing you 0:21:43.760 --> 0:21:44.399 would like to do. 0:21:45.880 --> 0:21:47.840 I would like to enter the medical field some day. 0:21:49.000 --> 0:21:53.359 And by the way, you know, I think it's good 0:21:53.440 --> 0:21:56.760 that you're like aiming higher. It's always good to be 0:21:56.840 --> 0:22:00.000 aiming higher. But I wouldn't look at what you're currently 0:22:00.160 --> 0:22:06.080 doing is not contributing to society. I think that you 0:22:06.160 --> 0:22:09.800 currently contribute to society. You objectively provide value to other people. 0:22:09.840 --> 0:22:15.080 And you are now looking to you currently provide value 0:22:15.119 --> 0:22:18.040 to people, and you're looking, you know, hey, how could 0:22:18.040 --> 0:22:21.240 I provide even more value to society than when I'm 0:22:21.280 --> 0:22:25.720 currently providing? Which is a good struggle to be having. 0:22:28.119 --> 0:22:30.359 Yeah, interesting, I remember really looked at it in that light. 0:22:30.480 --> 0:22:35.199 I always just felt kind of like, not, this is 0:22:35.200 --> 0:22:36.720 going to sound a little harsher than I mean it 0:22:36.760 --> 0:22:41.240 to be, but useless essentially and like great scheme things. 0:22:41.600 --> 0:22:43.320 No, I don't think you're useless. 0:22:43.200 --> 0:22:45.880 And that's not in like a bad way like I'm 0:22:45.920 --> 0:22:48.720 okay with it, like I'm If I wasn't, I would 0:22:48.720 --> 0:22:51.359 already be going to school, like be reinhold and everything 0:22:51.400 --> 0:22:52.000 like that, but. 0:22:53.920 --> 0:22:57.480 Just something to sit with, why haven't you going to school? 0:22:59.040 --> 0:23:05.080 I actually did start school and then I stopped going 0:23:05.760 --> 0:23:08.960 because my ex and I bought a house together at 0:23:08.960 --> 0:23:14.199 the rif old age of nineteen, and then we had 0:23:14.200 --> 0:23:17.000