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Speaker 2: The human spirit is my business. Their madness, their passion,

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Speaker 2: the wonderful and monstrous ways they burn out their brief candle.

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Speaker 2: I regret to tell you that very many American.

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Speaker 3: Lives in love.

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Speaker 1: Was heard to shouts from the car. He's dead. Whether

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Speaker 2: I am here in the in between, to collect their

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Speaker 4: This road is not on any map.

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Speaker 2: It spans the thresholds between their most forbidden desires and

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Speaker 1: All I ask for.

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Speaker 2: In payment is a tale and accounting of their lives

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Speaker 2: and the great temporary that is the land we're living.

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Speaker 4: These are their stories.

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Speaker 5: This is the passage.

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Speaker 2: We've arrived early to pick up this next passenger, to

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Speaker 2: bear witness to the end of this chapter before shepherding

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Speaker 2: him forth. America came of age during an industrial revolution,

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Speaker 2: nuclear family, TV dinners the suburbs. Into this age of

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Speaker 2: conformity burst our passenger, Timothy Leary.

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Speaker 5: He spent his.

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Speaker 2: Life escaping breaking out of being another cog in society,

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Speaker 4: Of prisons physical and mental.

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Speaker 2: No institution could contain him be a military, academic, marital,

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Speaker 2: the Kid would salute first and foremost. Timothy Leary was

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Speaker 2: a student of consciousness, a psychologist, and then the trip

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Speaker 2: in Mexico, he was introduced to mushrooms containing the psychedelic

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Speaker 2: compound psilocybin. This introduction redirected the course of his life

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Speaker 2: in at first to psychedelia, first exploring it as a

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Speaker 2: the waves of infinite interconnectedness, he returned to coax others

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Speaker 2: the captain of the Psychonauts, the High Priests of LSD.

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Speaker 2: What little unity that had held this nation together after

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Speaker 2: fractured on ideological lines old verse, young, poor, verse, rich, liberal, conservative,

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Speaker 2: fueled by a cultural revolution, fueled by a collective awakening,

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Speaker 6: Why why why not?

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Speaker 6: Follow me? Not? Damn? Okay? What's the deal here? Man?

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Speaker 6: Are you the angel of death come to shove me

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Speaker 6: I am the very spirit of the nineteen sixties itself,

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Speaker 6: limits of the human nervous system. Hell, I figured that's

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Speaker 4: Now tell me what story will you pay me? With scientists?

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Speaker 6: Hmm, I've only ever asked where did we come from?

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Speaker 6: And where are we going? Friend? You know, like Galileo,

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Speaker 6: I was found guilty of corrupting the minds of the youth.

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Speaker 6: nineteen fifties, I received my doctorate in psychology. It was

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Speaker 6: to treat mental illness, and well he confided in me

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Speaker 6: Shortly after Tricky Dick decided that I was the most

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Speaker 6: Charlie made it clear that he had been expecting me.

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Speaker 6: That's the point I don't. I don't want to impose

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Speaker 7: That's not what the woman in your sale says when

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Speaker 6: Like I said, he wanted to get inside my head

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Speaker 6: You know, it was my father who gave me my

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Speaker 6: I'm not the Okay. Yeah, looks like California out there. Huh.

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Speaker 6: So I guess it could be either heaven or hell.

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Speaker 6: You know, I haven't decided yet if this is real, yeah,

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Speaker 4: Yeah, Yeah, it doesn't matter.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, I guess not. No, I did it. I escaped

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Speaker 6: I escaped life. But I guess I can't escape death.

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Speaker 8: Uh As in life, I step into death a man

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Speaker 6: Wait, what is that? Mary am Mary Anne? No, No, no, no.

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Speaker 3: No, no, Ferryman, you can't leave me here, Ferryman, Please,

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Speaker 3: you can't be real.

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Speaker 6: You can't leave me here.

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Speaker 8: You can't you can't here. You can't do that.

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Speaker 6: No.

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Speaker 2: No, even gurus of their inner demons, no matter how

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Speaker 4: The you that is most you of guilty conscious.

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Speaker 7: First assistant director, script supervisor and production coordinator Sarah Klein.

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Speaker 7: Music by Ben Lovitt, additional music by Alexander Rodriguez. Casting

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Speaker 7: design by Dan Bush. Dialogue editing and sound mixing by

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Speaker 7: Jan Campos. Additional sound editing by Racket Sound. Our supervising

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Speaker 7: producer is Josh Than. Created by Dan Bush and Nicholas Dakowski.

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Speaker 7: Produced by Dan Bush. The passages of production of iHeartRadio

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Speaker 7: and Cycopia Pictures