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Speaker 1: Hello, Hey, what's up man? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: Michael Man? How are you?

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Speaker 1: Michael, Michael Myers, Mike No Bateman. That's a guy I

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Speaker 1: went to college with. Uh, Mike Myers. Mike Myers is

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Speaker 1: the Saturday Night Live was he was Mike Myers on

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Speaker 1: Saturday Night Live.

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Speaker 2: I don't even know him.

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Speaker 1: He's like, uh, yeah, he played the cat in the

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Speaker 1: Hat and the Hat film.

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Speaker 2: Did he did the Doctor Evil stuff?

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Speaker 1: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: This is crazy. I'm like, I'm like I've been obviously,

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Speaker 2: I watched, like most people listen to it, but I

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Speaker 2: think I'm a unique listener because I listened to you

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Speaker 2: when I go to bed. Oh, You're like my You're

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Speaker 2: like my nightly routine.

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Speaker 3: You become my nay routine.

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Speaker 2: So every night it would be like, instead of instead

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Speaker 2: of scrolling and like bleeding my eyes out on Instagram

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Speaker 2: because you know how long those doom scrolls could be,

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Speaker 2: I would just put on a liile, put a fifteen

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Speaker 2: minute timer and then listen to other people's problems and

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Speaker 2: it helps me to set my own.

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Speaker 1: Awesome, awesome, thanks man, I appreciate I'm truly I'm honored

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Speaker 1: to hear that I could be a part of your

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Speaker 1: nightly routine. Brother, I appreciate it.

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Speaker 2: M Yeah, you're like.

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Speaker 1: Mike Myers, man, it's cool.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I don't know if you read the message. It's

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Speaker 2: it's funny because I always listened to you, like whether

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Speaker 2: I put you on on my way home or and

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Speaker 2: or go to go into bed, but I never really

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Speaker 2: had I'm like, damn, I want to speak to him

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Speaker 2: because I fuck with him, but I never had something

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Speaker 2: real to talk about. But now I do. Now It's

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Speaker 2: like I feel like this is like a perfect conversation

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Speaker 2: to have with the get go. So I'm like I've

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Speaker 2: manifested it, like I just I'm like, okay, I got

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Speaker 2: to get this guy on live. So I just followed

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Speaker 2: you on Instagram. And then you're like, okay, I didn't

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Speaker 2: know how it worked.

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Speaker 4: I didn't know.

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Speaker 2: I don't watch live themes. I found you on clips

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Speaker 2: like most people three years ago, and I just watched

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Speaker 2: them Spotify, so I didn't know how it worked. And

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Speaker 2: then I just you posted on Instagram. I was like, okay,

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Speaker 2: let me just span this guy. No, you probably should

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Speaker 2: put like the one and then your number because a

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Speaker 2: lot of people probably don't know that.

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Speaker 1: So hit us with the thing man, would you want

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Speaker 1: to talk about anyways?

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Speaker 2: So well, the punchline is I dated a legal immigrant

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Speaker 2: for the past two years and I went against everyone's

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Speaker 2: advice and then we broke up, and I guess I

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Speaker 2: just want to start off with like the idea of,

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Speaker 2: like I'm twenty four, I'm fairly young. I have everything

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Speaker 2: kind of provided for me. My family immigrated to Canada

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Speaker 2: like in the sixties, like most Italian families, and like

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Speaker 2: my grandparents set like their life up, and my parents

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Speaker 2: set my life up, so I'm like their generation, and

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Speaker 2: everything was like, everything's going well in my life. So

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Speaker 2: I just recently got out of a breakup, like in

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Speaker 2: twenty twenty three, in January, and that was because during

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Speaker 2: COVID obviously, like it was a hard time for everybody,

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Speaker 2: but I was like, I just I felt like the

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Speaker 2: need for a relationship because I wasn't messing with my

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Speaker 2: friends at the time. So thankfully I finally got into

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Speaker 2: like some sort of relationship that was organic that lasted,

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Speaker 2: you know, two and a half years, three years, first

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Speaker 2: love kind of thing. It was good. But the thing

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Speaker 2: with this girl was she was always spoiled and stuff,

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Speaker 2: and I didn't fuck with it. So I just had

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Speaker 2: to move on right. She was bratty. But then comes

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Speaker 2: like a month later, I'm over here. I'm like, okay,

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Speaker 2: you know what, I don't want to rebound. I don't

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Speaker 2: want to go to a party school and just fuck girls,

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Speaker 2: hook up, do whatever. So I went to God. Obviously.

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Speaker 2: I was like, hey, you know what, I got Saint

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Speaker 2: Michael on my arm. Let me see if I could

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Speaker 2: find God right now, let me do this right, join

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Speaker 2: the join the what's it called. I don't even know

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Speaker 2: what it's called? Angelic a jelous. I'm sort of church

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Speaker 2: that was like Bible studies. It was cool until they

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Speaker 2: like told me like get baptized again. And I was like, okay,

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Speaker 2: i'm a.

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Speaker 2: I'm a. I'm okay with being a non disciple for now.

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Speaker 2: Like I'll take God for what I think he is

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Speaker 2: and create my own relationship. These guys are like my

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Speaker 2: car broke down and my bills are not paid, but

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Speaker 2: but God's on my side. I'm like, all right, dude,

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Speaker 2: I'm I'm gonna get out of here now. So I

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Speaker 2: just got out of that and then I'm like, you

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Speaker 2: know what, you know, I tried God tried the rebound.

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Speaker 2: This not working, let me just go with my guys.

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Speaker 2: So ironically, I went out with these guys. We went

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Speaker 2: to we went out for like a bar the drinks,

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Speaker 2: and I found my my friends from high school that

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Speaker 2: I haven't talked to in years, and we went out

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Speaker 2: one night. And then I found this girl. And I

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Speaker 2: didn't want to get into another relationship, but after my

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Speaker 2: first one, I honestly just wanted to travel the world

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Speaker 2: I found this girl, and you know, I connected with her.

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Speaker 2: And she like she's from Mexico, and she barely spoke

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Speaker 2: I felt like this connection and as you could see,

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Speaker 2: like I really enjoy talking. You'll get a lot from

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Speaker 2: this call, but so coming off anytime you have a question.

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Speaker 2: But and she obviously didn't speak like full sentences, but

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Speaker 2: I had like this connection with her, so I thought,

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Speaker 2: I thought it was like like God or something, right,

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Speaker 2: So I just went out with this girl a couple

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Speaker 2: of times. And at first it was just for fun.

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Speaker 2: It was just you know, going out dating scene. Like

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Speaker 2: it's always like the best phase when you kind of

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Speaker 2: meet a girl when you connect with them and you

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Speaker 2: do the dates and all that stuff. And this girl

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Speaker 2: taught me that, like, oh I could love again, because

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Speaker 2: like a week before this, I was like, you know,

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Speaker 2: curled up like damn man, like I've just missed this,

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Speaker 2: my accent, this and that. Like but over over the time,

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Speaker 2: like three months or so, I had the best time

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Speaker 2: pure euphoric. It was like pure fairy tale like most

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Speaker 2: early relationships. I never asked her out though, because I

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Speaker 3: And then June came along.

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Speaker 2: We spent so much time together, like we it was

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Speaker 2: probably every other day. My parents were like who's this girl?

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Speaker 2: And then every persons like Michael, what are you doing

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Speaker 2: And I'm like, well, you just leave me alone. Just

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Speaker 2: And then she told me in after June like it

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Speaker 2: and it was like really everything was going good, and

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Speaker 2: I was like, Okay, you know what, maybe I might

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Speaker 2: try with this girl. She told me she's moving across

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Speaker 2: the country for work in the summer, and I sat

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Speaker 2: I could clearly just say all right, cool, that was

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Speaker 2: like I gotta try with this girl. I gotta see you.

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Speaker 2: It's like because in my previous relationship I spent I

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Speaker 2: would say, too much time with my ex girlfriend. It's

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Speaker 2: way too much time. So this one, I'm like, you

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Speaker 2: know what, maybe this is good. Maybe this is good

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Speaker 2: because if someone's away from me, I'm able to know

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Speaker 2: I work a lot in the summer, I'm able to

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Speaker 2: work and I have like that companionship through text or

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Speaker 2: through call, and then maybe I could go and visit

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Speaker 2: throughout the summer. So I so I just asked her

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Speaker 2: let's shy it out and let's do this. So obviously

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Speaker 2: doing this? Like this is this nothing seems right. I'm

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Speaker 2: telling everyone about it, and they're all like, Michael, what

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Speaker 2: really like this girl? Like you have yourr you got everything,

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Speaker 2: you don't need to like settle down and that that

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Speaker 2: that's kind of a theme that carried out throughout this relationship.

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Speaker 2: A lot of people thought I was like settling down

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Speaker 2: less than because obviously she doesn't have paperwork and all

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Speaker 2: this shit. But fast forward, I spend the summer. Summer

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Speaker 2: bumped because of my first long distance relationship, and I said, okay,

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Speaker 2: ended up going spending like three weeks in at this place,

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Speaker 2: and we traveled and we did a bunch, We just

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Speaker 2: I left for Spain and it was like the hardest,

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Speaker 2: probably the hardest thing in my life where I love wise,

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Speaker 2: place it was Vancouver, and we went to Vancouver, and honestly,

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Speaker 2: on tours. I don't like Vancouver, like.

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Speaker 1: Like Vancouver, Vancouver is a nice place.

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Speaker 2: I think it's it's I think North Vancouver is great.

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Speaker 2: I'm in Toronto, and I don't know. Maybe it's just

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Speaker 2: I just I went down East has things. I took

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Speaker 3: I was like, damn, man, mich what are you doing?

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Speaker 2: Like this is not where you want to be, Like

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Speaker 2: I don't want to go to Vancouver, move to Vancouver

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Speaker 2: and and pay like all this rent and like try

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Speaker 2: to make it work and I have everything set up

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Speaker 2: in front of Why would I do that? To myself.

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Speaker 2: You know, North Vancouver was beautiful, like Client's Bay, squamish,

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Speaker 2: like we did a bleunch of hikes there, but I

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Speaker 2: don't know, like I think I was a little homesick.

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Speaker 2: So I remember leaving her. I remember telling her on

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Speaker 2: the boardwalk. It was like the first kind of argument

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Speaker 2: we had. And yeah, I left her on the boardwalk

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Speaker 2: and we I just told her straight up, I'm like, look,

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Speaker 2: I don't want to move here, like I don't want

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Speaker 2: to I don't want this place, like I'm whether it's homesick,

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Speaker 2: I don't feel comfortable this and that, And it was

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Speaker 2: like the first type of like argument, not argument, but

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Speaker 2: this this this silent treatment, which is like a pattern

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Speaker 2: but like every other kind of relationship, you know, when

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Speaker 2: You have your own problems. I clearly have my life

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Speaker 2: But August Taman went, it was really hard for me

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Speaker 2: just wanted, as you know, cantrafund your flights. If you

431
00:19:13,040 --> 00:19:15,719
Speaker 2: still want to come, I'd rather that seat be with

432
00:19:15,800 --> 00:19:18,200
Speaker 2: you instead of being empty. And I'm like, oh my god, man,

433
00:19:18,400 --> 00:19:21,200
Speaker 2: you have no idea how much this helped me. Right now,

434
00:19:21,600 --> 00:19:23,840
Speaker 2: took that gig, had the time of my life filming everything.

435
00:19:24,800 --> 00:19:28,080
Speaker 2: And and then she called me. She called me. I

436
00:19:28,119 --> 00:19:30,960
Speaker 2: was thinking about her after a birthday because I didn't

437
00:19:30,960 --> 00:19:32,439
Speaker 2: say happy birthday. I was really wanted to do it,

438
00:19:32,440 --> 00:19:34,040
Speaker 2: but I said, no, don't do it. Don't do it.

439
00:19:34,400 --> 00:19:37,159
Speaker 2: She called me to Comber first, and I was I

440
00:19:37,200 --> 00:19:39,439
Speaker 2: was like, fucking in between the seats on the plane,

441
00:19:39,480 --> 00:19:41,760
Speaker 2: fucking bawling, writing a love letter in my notes, like

442
00:19:41,880 --> 00:19:46,560
Speaker 2: just trying to like figure out this shit. And in

443
00:19:46,600 --> 00:19:48,880
Speaker 2: that night she called me and it's like what the fuck,

444
00:19:48,960 --> 00:19:51,120
Speaker 2: Like there's there's a guy out there, Like there's no way,

445
00:19:51,160 --> 00:19:54,640
Speaker 2: there's no way, right, A coincidential face for for most people,

446
00:19:54,680 --> 00:19:56,399
Speaker 2: but for me, it was like, yeah, spiritual.

447
00:19:56,040 --> 00:19:58,959
Speaker 1: Shit, So call me. You were so you were you

448
00:19:58,960 --> 00:20:01,840
Speaker 1: were thinking about her and write this love letter and

449
00:20:01,880 --> 00:20:02,600
Speaker 1: then she called.

450
00:20:02,440 --> 00:20:06,320
Speaker 2: You so no, I was. I was out on a

451
00:20:06,359 --> 00:20:10,119
Speaker 2: plane in the in between going from freaking Switzerland to

452
00:20:10,440 --> 00:20:13,160
Speaker 2: Paris or something, and I was just writing this ship

453
00:20:13,200 --> 00:20:14,920
Speaker 2: because I was sad, like I was in the mountains

454
00:20:14,920 --> 00:20:16,719
Speaker 2: and stuff, I was filming. It was like it's the

455
00:20:16,760 --> 00:20:18,520
Speaker 2: best thing in my world. And I'm like, dude, like

456
00:20:18,680 --> 00:20:20,639
Speaker 2: I was thinking about it, and I'm like, yo, she

457
00:20:20,840 --> 00:20:23,399
Speaker 2: was gonna make me miss this? Like what type of

458
00:20:23,600 --> 00:20:26,159
Speaker 2: like what type of person was I to like miss

459
00:20:26,320 --> 00:20:30,639
Speaker 2: this amazing opportunity for my career for her? Like I

460
00:20:30,680 --> 00:20:32,880
Speaker 2: was like, I was like so happy. But then a

461
00:20:32,880 --> 00:20:35,359
Speaker 2: phase like I you know, BC, we went to we

462
00:20:35,400 --> 00:20:37,879
Speaker 2: went to Yukon too, like we did the mountains and

463
00:20:37,920 --> 00:20:41,520
Speaker 2: everything and and the Rockies and every time it was

464
00:20:41,520 --> 00:20:43,439
Speaker 2: in the mountains. It just reminded me of her, So

465
00:20:43,480 --> 00:20:44,960
Speaker 2: I was like I was going through it, but I

466
00:20:45,000 --> 00:20:47,560
Speaker 2: also like pivoted with like I was doing what I loved.

467
00:20:47,680 --> 00:20:51,040
Speaker 2: So it was just a weird, weird emotion. And I mean,

468
00:20:51,200 --> 00:20:54,240
Speaker 2: I know that you're film major as well, but there's

469
00:20:54,320 --> 00:20:56,800
Speaker 2: a I really get like doping rushes when I film,

470
00:20:56,920 --> 00:20:59,359
Speaker 2: and then it's like kind of coming off Molly, like

471
00:20:59,359 --> 00:21:01,679
Speaker 2: when you were like finish a project or finish everything,

472
00:21:01,680 --> 00:21:04,919
Speaker 2: you're just like, fuck, it's done, like it's over, and

473
00:21:04,960 --> 00:21:06,480
Speaker 2: you get kind of sad. So I was kind of

474
00:21:06,520 --> 00:21:08,879
Speaker 2: sad about it being over, and then on top of it,

475
00:21:08,920 --> 00:21:11,119
Speaker 2: I was sad because it was her birthday, and I

476
00:21:11,200 --> 00:21:13,600
Speaker 2: was just an emotional wreck and a point because I

477
00:21:13,640 --> 00:21:15,119
Speaker 2: knew I had to come back. And usually when I

478
00:21:15,160 --> 00:21:16,679
Speaker 2: come back to these things, you know, when I went

479
00:21:16,720 --> 00:21:19,040
Speaker 2: to go travel, I love calling her and telling her

480
00:21:19,040 --> 00:21:21,600
Speaker 2: about everything and my experiences, and I'm like, damn, I

481
00:21:21,640 --> 00:21:25,840
Speaker 2: can't do that. So that night she called me and

482
00:21:25,880 --> 00:21:27,440
Speaker 2: I got to like, I was like, what the heck,

483
00:21:27,520 --> 00:21:29,680
Speaker 2: Like it kind of got into my prayers, so I thought,

484
00:21:29,880 --> 00:21:32,520
Speaker 2: right for then and there I'm like, Okay, this girl,

485
00:21:33,320 --> 00:21:35,639
Speaker 2: this girl is going to this girl special like I

486
00:21:35,640 --> 00:21:38,200
Speaker 2: don't know, the energy is still there. It came back.

487
00:21:38,440 --> 00:21:41,760
Speaker 2: Let's try again, Let's try again. And important thing to

488
00:21:41,800 --> 00:21:44,640
Speaker 2: notice in my previous relationship, I got into like some

489
00:21:44,680 --> 00:21:46,159
Speaker 2: sort of like you know, big kind of fight or

490
00:21:46,280 --> 00:21:48,800
Speaker 2: argument and dispute and to a point where it left

491
00:21:48,840 --> 00:21:53,280
Speaker 2: me like like heartless in a way. And then we

492
00:21:53,359 --> 00:21:56,520
Speaker 2: tried again. We tried again, the same idea, but it

493
00:21:56,560 --> 00:21:58,720
Speaker 2: was never the same she and the difference between this

494
00:21:58,760 --> 00:22:01,640
Speaker 2: girl she was she never forgave the girl that I'm

495
00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:04,879
Speaker 2: with or was with now my second ex girlfriend, she

496
00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:08,280
Speaker 2: forgave a lot, but she didn't forgive what she did.

497
00:22:08,720 --> 00:22:13,240
Speaker 2: Instead of holding the grudge, she would just like boil

498
00:22:13,280 --> 00:22:15,680
Speaker 2: like she would let everything boil in and she would

499
00:22:15,680 --> 00:22:18,520
Speaker 2: never tell me anything, so I would never know.

500
00:22:18,760 --> 00:22:20,840
Speaker 1: And this is the Mexican girl that you're talking about

501
00:22:20,920 --> 00:22:23,240
Speaker 1: or the other Yeah yeah, okay, okay.

502
00:22:23,080 --> 00:22:25,040
Speaker 2: So there's an Italian girl and a Mexican girl which

503
00:22:25,040 --> 00:22:28,600
Speaker 2: is referred that refer to that those two. Okay, so yeah,

504
00:22:28,680 --> 00:22:31,080
Speaker 2: so the Mexican girl forgave a lot, but she never

505
00:22:31,160 --> 00:22:33,680
Speaker 2: really forgave. I always thought she was emotionally strong, because

506
00:22:33,720 --> 00:22:35,879
Speaker 2: the Italian girl wasn't emotionally strong she was always kind

507
00:22:35,880 --> 00:22:39,200
Speaker 2: of ratty, but the Mexican girl was very emotionally strong,

508
00:22:39,320 --> 00:22:42,280
Speaker 2: I thought, I thought, but usually I think it was

509
00:22:42,320 --> 00:22:46,359
Speaker 2: just based off. She just was like like Sylvie, like

510
00:22:46,440 --> 00:22:48,760
Speaker 2: just freaking live the life and we'll figure it out

511
00:22:48,800 --> 00:22:52,800
Speaker 2: as we go. So anyways, we called each other and

512
00:22:52,880 --> 00:22:55,000
Speaker 2: like we really just like I don't know, like we felt.

513
00:22:55,000 --> 00:22:57,240
Speaker 2: I felt that connection that we felt that I felt

514
00:22:57,800 --> 00:23:01,040
Speaker 2: throughout the years. And I'm like, all right, like this

515
00:23:01,080 --> 00:23:02,720
Speaker 2: is this is gonna be scary to bring it up

516
00:23:02,720 --> 00:23:05,119
Speaker 2: to everybody again, but this has to be God, this

517
00:23:05,160 --> 00:23:06,720
Speaker 2: has to do energy, this has to this, this is

518
00:23:06,720 --> 00:23:09,359
Speaker 2: aligning with what I thought, and let's try it out.

519
00:23:09,400 --> 00:23:12,679
Speaker 2: Let's do it. So I went to go. When I

520
00:23:12,720 --> 00:23:16,879
Speaker 2: came back from from France, I we went out together.

521
00:23:18,160 --> 00:23:21,320
Speaker 2: And even the first time we went out, like I

522
00:23:21,359 --> 00:23:24,080
Speaker 2: was like, oh shit, like I'm trying to like, I

523
00:23:24,200 --> 00:23:26,199
Speaker 2: just really wanted it loud. I really wanted it to

524
00:23:26,200 --> 00:23:28,080
Speaker 2: be like, Okay, we both love each other right now,

525
00:23:28,280 --> 00:23:30,359
Speaker 2: let's just you know, let's go back, let's pick up

526
00:23:30,359 --> 00:23:30,959
Speaker 2: where we left off.

527
00:23:31,000 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 3: Let's that's it. But it wasn't.

528
00:23:34,200 --> 00:23:35,920
Speaker 2: It wasn't like that. It was it was it was

529
00:23:35,960 --> 00:23:38,080
Speaker 2: all right. It was all right, but you know, we

530
00:23:38,119 --> 00:23:41,760
Speaker 2: talked about everything and uh we we we mentioned like

531
00:23:42,240 --> 00:23:44,600
Speaker 2: our problems with each other and what happened and what

532
00:23:44,640 --> 00:23:46,480
Speaker 2: we did and how we felt throughout the lunch, and

533
00:23:46,480 --> 00:23:48,439
Speaker 2: I kind of showed her like, hey, like I know

534
00:23:48,520 --> 00:23:51,199
Speaker 2: I didn't. I know you think I wasn't thinking about you,

535
00:23:51,240 --> 00:23:54,240
Speaker 2: but like here's like what I did for you. Like

536
00:23:54,280 --> 00:23:57,959
Speaker 2: I showed all like these notes stuff and yeah, and

537
00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:00,720
Speaker 2: then it just it worked out. It was fine. It

538
00:24:00,760 --> 00:24:02,320
Speaker 2: was fine for like a month, but she kind of

539
00:24:02,359 --> 00:24:04,440
Speaker 2: just told me, like Michael, we have to work it

540
00:24:04,640 --> 00:24:07,160
Speaker 2: slowly because it can't be quick. If it's quick, it's

541
00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:09,480
Speaker 2: gonna go up and down. I'm like, all right, and

542
00:24:09,520 --> 00:24:12,119
Speaker 2: I feel like lyle like in August, I felt like

543
00:24:12,160 --> 00:24:14,840
Speaker 2: shit because I was I'm a very sweet guy. I

544
00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:18,800
Speaker 2: would say I didn't let her down easy. I really

545
00:24:18,840 --> 00:24:20,760
Speaker 2: just read. I just read like I said, I try

546
00:24:20,800 --> 00:24:22,480
Speaker 2: to let her down easy. And then she tried to

547
00:24:22,520 --> 00:24:25,000
Speaker 2: coming back, and I said, Paul it, I don't like

548
00:24:25,040 --> 00:24:26,600
Speaker 2: I really, I just don't love you anymore, like I

549
00:24:26,880 --> 00:24:30,000
Speaker 2: just I straight up. I remember we broke up beautifully.

550
00:24:30,080 --> 00:24:31,920
Speaker 2: And then I saw at the gym a week later

551
00:24:31,960 --> 00:24:35,280
Speaker 2: and I just couldn't couldn't figure out a way to

552
00:24:35,359 --> 00:24:37,639
Speaker 2: like just leave her because she was constantly in my brain.

553
00:24:38,119 --> 00:24:39,639
Speaker 2: And I told her like in the car, straight up,

554
00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:41,800
Speaker 2: im like look, maybe we're not soul mates, maybe I

555
00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:43,320
Speaker 2: never loved you in the first place. Like I just

556
00:24:43,480 --> 00:24:45,919
Speaker 2: fucking ripped on her. It was so bad because I

557
00:24:45,960 --> 00:24:48,119
Speaker 2: needed to I needed to tell myself that like this.

558
00:24:49,960 --> 00:24:53,760
Speaker 1: This is you said, you said this in the car.

559
00:24:53,880 --> 00:24:57,280
Speaker 1: This is after the reconciliation. This after she calls you again.

560
00:24:58,840 --> 00:25:03,119
Speaker 2: Uh know, this is so this is August. It is

561
00:25:03,160 --> 00:25:06,280
Speaker 2: a week one of August. We broke up. Week two

562
00:25:06,800 --> 00:25:10,080
Speaker 2: it was I saw at the gym, and so week

563
00:25:10,119 --> 00:25:12,119
Speaker 2: one was like amazing, it was a good breakup. It

564
00:25:12,160 --> 00:25:14,120
Speaker 2: was like okay, and she just kind of still said

565
00:25:14,119 --> 00:25:16,639
Speaker 2: don't forget about me, like like don't don't give up

566
00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:18,920
Speaker 2: on me, this and that, and it was still like

567
00:25:19,080 --> 00:25:20,879
Speaker 2: in her brain like it might work out. But for

568
00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:23,359
Speaker 2: me it was like no, I gotta move on. And

569
00:25:23,400 --> 00:25:25,359
Speaker 2: then I went to like a music festival. I did

570
00:25:25,359 --> 00:25:27,040
Speaker 2: all this shit, and it was I kind of was

571
00:25:27,080 --> 00:25:29,600
Speaker 2: living life, went to concert solo, like I was trying

572
00:25:29,600 --> 00:25:32,919
Speaker 2: my best to just move on effectively. And then a

573
00:25:32,920 --> 00:25:35,920
Speaker 2: week later I saw at the gym, and I said fuck,

574
00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:38,119
Speaker 2: Like I thought it was like, okay, we're good. I

575
00:25:38,240 --> 00:25:41,080
Speaker 2: just could say hi to you and just move on.

576
00:25:41,160 --> 00:25:42,560
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, I'm never gonna be in the gym

577
00:25:42,560 --> 00:25:51,359
Speaker 2: at the nighttime again. And that's it. But but yeah,

578
00:25:51,400 --> 00:25:55,680
Speaker 2: so where was that. Yeah, So in September, we tried

579
00:25:55,720 --> 00:25:57,760
Speaker 2: our best. We really tried our best. I kind of

580
00:25:57,760 --> 00:26:01,360
Speaker 2: slowly introduced it one by one family members, one by one.

581
00:26:01,520 --> 00:26:05,000
Speaker 2: My mom was first, and then my my closest my

582
00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:09,480
Speaker 2: oldest brother, and then my grandparents and then my second

583
00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:12,720
Speaker 2: closest brother, you know, like I was just slowly introducing

584
00:26:12,720 --> 00:26:14,200
Speaker 2: it to my family because it was a scary thing,

585
00:26:14,240 --> 00:26:16,760
Speaker 2: you know, like like it's not easy for for for

586
00:26:16,800 --> 00:26:18,520
Speaker 2: me to say, like, hey, like I'm going to choose

587
00:26:18,560 --> 00:26:20,680
Speaker 2: myself and my love and I'm gonna I'm going to

588
00:26:20,720 --> 00:26:22,040
Speaker 2: tell me who to love and I'm not going to

589
00:26:22,040 --> 00:26:25,199
Speaker 2: be influenced by anyone else. And everyone was accepting, you know,

590
00:26:25,280 --> 00:26:27,560
Speaker 2: like they was like, all right, Michael, you're happy that

591
00:26:27,600 --> 00:26:28,160
Speaker 2: was the big thing.

592
00:26:28,880 --> 00:26:30,840
Speaker 1: You're telling everyone that you're trying again.

593
00:26:32,000 --> 00:26:35,840
Speaker 4: Trying again, right, Yeah, okay, all right, trying again. So

594
00:26:35,880 --> 00:26:38,399
Speaker 4: I just told them and they were all accepting, like everyone.

595
00:26:38,480 --> 00:26:40,119
Speaker 4: Everyone said the same thing. If I love my family

596
00:26:40,119 --> 00:26:42,240
Speaker 4: so much, they just said, as long as you're happy,

597
00:26:42,280 --> 00:26:44,560
Speaker 4: as long as you're happy, whatever.

598
00:26:43,560 --> 00:26:46,800
Speaker 2: Do what makes you happy. And if whatever comes out

599
00:26:46,800 --> 00:26:48,920
Speaker 2: of this, as long as you're happy, you're fine. I

600
00:26:48,960 --> 00:26:50,960
Speaker 2: don't care. You know, it's your life. And that's why

601
00:26:51,200 --> 00:26:53,040
Speaker 2: I appreciate my family because they let me go through

602
00:26:53,080 --> 00:26:54,879
Speaker 2: these emotions. They don't kind of dictate it, even if

603
00:26:54,920 --> 00:26:58,320
Speaker 2: they know it's better best for me. So I pretty

604
00:26:58,359 --> 00:27:01,919
Speaker 2: much we tried for but the thing was, she was

605
00:27:02,000 --> 00:27:04,440
Speaker 2: just she was slow. It was slow for her, very slow,

606
00:27:04,480 --> 00:27:06,400
Speaker 2: and for me, it was just like, dude, we gotta

607
00:27:06,480 --> 00:27:08,840
Speaker 2: we gotta start doing things together again. We gotta like

608
00:27:08,880 --> 00:27:11,720
Speaker 2: revive our relationship again, Like we gotta go to go

609
00:27:11,760 --> 00:27:15,359
Speaker 2: out to dinner, go out. Do we really like rocked

610
00:27:15,359 --> 00:27:18,080
Speaker 2: our phase one of our relationship. Phase one was like

611
00:27:18,720 --> 00:27:22,560
Speaker 2: May twenty twenty three to like August twenty twenty four.

612
00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:24,680
Speaker 2: Like Phase one was fire, and that's why I was

613
00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:27,359
Speaker 2: sad about phase one. Phase two was September twenty twenty four,

614
00:27:27,920 --> 00:27:32,760
Speaker 2: and then we'll keep going. So in October she was

615
00:27:33,640 --> 00:27:36,119
Speaker 2: she focused on herself more, and I think that's what

616
00:27:36,200 --> 00:27:39,560
Speaker 2: I realized in between the two phases. Her Phase one

617
00:27:40,280 --> 00:27:44,960
Speaker 2: was her constantly doing things for me to please meet

618
00:27:45,119 --> 00:27:46,840
Speaker 2: And I loved it, no wonder, I fucking loved it

619
00:27:46,840 --> 00:27:49,600
Speaker 2: because she was kind of like selfless for me. She

620
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:52,600
Speaker 2: did everything that I wanted. She enjoyed everything too, don't

621
00:27:52,600 --> 00:27:54,960
Speaker 2: get me wrong, Like I planned things. I told her, like,

622
00:27:55,000 --> 00:27:56,439
Speaker 2: do you want to do anything? She was, no, No, just

623
00:27:56,440 --> 00:27:57,560
Speaker 2: plan whatever. I'll just join you.

624
00:27:57,600 --> 00:27:57,960
Speaker 3: It's fun.

625
00:27:58,480 --> 00:28:01,639
Speaker 2: And I too. She did a lot for herself. She

626
00:28:01,760 --> 00:28:04,280
Speaker 2: worked a lot. She went this girl is really a

627
00:28:04,400 --> 00:28:06,600
Speaker 2: hard worker in a sense because she needs it. Man Like,

628
00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:09,440
Speaker 2: it's hard to get a job out there, and it's

629
00:28:09,440 --> 00:28:12,359
Speaker 2: hard to keep one because of everyone's just getting paid

630
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:14,840
Speaker 2: less and less and less. Right, So she works Monday

631
00:28:14,840 --> 00:28:18,520
Speaker 2: to Friday from not like eight thirty in the morning

632
00:28:18,560 --> 00:28:21,520
Speaker 2: to like six pm, sits in traffic for an hour,

633
00:28:21,920 --> 00:28:25,720
Speaker 2: then goes to school from like seven, six thirty to five.

634
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:28,280
Speaker 2: My lad, She goes work from five eight thirty five,

635
00:28:28,520 --> 00:28:30,480
Speaker 2: sits in traffic for an hour, goes to school from

636
00:28:30,520 --> 00:28:33,359
Speaker 2: six to nine, and then god for like, hopefully we

637
00:28:33,400 --> 00:28:35,600
Speaker 2: get a gym session together at nighttime. And that was

638
00:28:35,640 --> 00:28:38,280
Speaker 2: her schedule and the only time she had was Sundays

639
00:28:38,640 --> 00:28:42,320
Speaker 2: and Sundays was like her errand day. So I was like,

640
00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:44,920
Speaker 2: holy fuck, Michael, is ship you want? You know, like

641
00:28:44,960 --> 00:28:47,959
Speaker 2: why do you what relationships you have? Like she's just

642
00:28:48,000 --> 00:28:51,120
Speaker 2: either working all the time we're in school, and I

643
00:28:51,200 --> 00:28:53,320
Speaker 2: was just like, okay, I still love this girl. I

644
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:55,800
Speaker 2: still love this school. I admire her hard work, and honestly,

645
00:28:55,880 --> 00:28:58,760
Speaker 2: while she motivated me to work harder because I had everything,

646
00:28:59,000 --> 00:29:01,200
Speaker 2: but I felt like the need. I'm like, okay, I

647
00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:03,840
Speaker 2: can't make any excuses because look at my girlfriend, Like

648
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:06,920
Speaker 2: look at her working so hard. I'm an excuse because

649
00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:08,880
Speaker 2: I don't want to edit to one am Like fuck that, Like,

650
00:29:08,960 --> 00:29:12,200
Speaker 2: come on, look at your girl. She's doing everything for

651
00:29:12,360 --> 00:29:14,360
Speaker 2: and to keep herself afloat and you got everything and

652
00:29:14,400 --> 00:29:17,120
Speaker 2: you can't. You can't grind for another couple hours. So

653
00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:18,880
Speaker 2: she was motivating me in a way and that's why

654
00:29:18,880 --> 00:29:22,440
Speaker 2: I kept her around so long. And then in October

655
00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:25,920
Speaker 2: she's pretty much I pretty much like we met up

656
00:29:26,560 --> 00:29:29,560
Speaker 2: and I wanted her to come to like this Halloween

657
00:29:29,600 --> 00:29:33,360
Speaker 2: party of mine. And ironically, if there's anyone listens from Toronto,

658
00:29:33,440 --> 00:29:36,400
Speaker 2: like the World Series Game seven from with the Blue

659
00:29:36,480 --> 00:29:40,680
Speaker 2: Jays was on Halloween night and it's sabotaged my whole

660
00:29:40,720 --> 00:29:44,080
Speaker 2: Halloween party because everyone was watching the game. And then

661
00:29:44,120 --> 00:29:47,720
Speaker 2: when the Blue Jays lost, everyone left and like the

662
00:29:48,040 --> 00:29:50,040
Speaker 2: other people that didn't care about baseball came. So it's

663
00:29:50,120 --> 00:29:52,280
Speaker 2: just like it was such a it was whatever, it

664
00:29:52,280 --> 00:29:55,200
Speaker 2: doesn't matter. I was just some community for any Blue

665
00:29:55,240 --> 00:29:58,320
Speaker 2: Jay stands. But yeah, like I went to she didn't

666
00:29:58,320 --> 00:30:00,640
Speaker 2: come to that Halloween party. I really wanted to come

667
00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:02,200
Speaker 2: because I wanted It was the first time that she

668
00:30:02,320 --> 00:30:05,520
Speaker 2: was around me with everybody, and she didn't want to

669
00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:07,520
Speaker 2: come because well, she had a reason too. She had

670
00:30:07,560 --> 00:30:09,560
Speaker 2: to work. I like, she got a job, a big

671
00:30:09,640 --> 00:30:12,320
Speaker 2: job at like the following day at like six am,

672
00:30:12,520 --> 00:30:15,440
Speaker 2: was like a twelve hour shift and it paid her

673
00:30:15,480 --> 00:30:17,560
Speaker 2: well and she needs the money, so she had to

674
00:30:17,600 --> 00:30:19,520
Speaker 2: like not come and I understood that, but it was

675
00:30:19,560 --> 00:30:21,440
Speaker 2: just like fuck, man, I feel like she's dodging all

676
00:30:21,440 --> 00:30:23,160
Speaker 2: the stuff. But I'm like, no, no, no, it's okay.

677
00:30:23,400 --> 00:30:25,160
Speaker 2: She has worked. You kind of gotta to understand, you know,

678
00:30:25,280 --> 00:30:27,240
Speaker 2: she's not like everyone else. I could just take it

679
00:30:27,280 --> 00:30:29,640
Speaker 2: off and you know, get another job. Like she needs

680
00:30:29,640 --> 00:30:33,480
Speaker 2: to take all these opportunities as they come. And but

681
00:30:33,560 --> 00:30:35,760
Speaker 2: that was not the first time she kind of denied

682
00:30:35,800 --> 00:30:39,760
Speaker 2: something and then I don't. I just I just felt like, okay,

683
00:30:39,760 --> 00:30:43,320
Speaker 2: you know what this relationship is going self, I need

684
00:30:43,320 --> 00:30:45,280
Speaker 2: to revive this. I'm not doing what I did last

685
00:30:45,320 --> 00:30:47,880
Speaker 2: relationship with the Italian girl and just letting it supply.

686
00:30:48,120 --> 00:30:49,720
Speaker 2: I got to tell her how I feel right now.

687
00:30:50,040 --> 00:30:52,000
Speaker 2: So I met up with her again. You know, we

688
00:30:52,040 --> 00:30:55,120
Speaker 2: went out finally, we like got a day going because

689
00:30:55,320 --> 00:30:58,960
Speaker 2: of with her schedule, and we went out for dessert

690
00:30:58,960 --> 00:31:00,400
Speaker 2: and stuff and it was it was fun, but there

691
00:31:00,480 --> 00:31:01,800
Speaker 2: was the was just tension. I was like, what the

692
00:31:01,800 --> 00:31:02,480
Speaker 2: fuck's going on?

693
00:31:02,520 --> 00:31:02,720
Speaker 3: Man?

694
00:31:03,040 --> 00:31:04,680
Speaker 2: And I'm like, I told her straight up, but like, look,

695
00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:08,719
Speaker 2: if you want this to thing to work, I need more.

696
00:31:09,400 --> 00:31:11,640
Speaker 2: I need more from you, Like I can't just I

697
00:31:11,680 --> 00:31:16,080
Speaker 2: can't just be like you're you're upon in your life

698
00:31:16,120 --> 00:31:17,760
Speaker 2: like I want to. I need to feel something. I

699
00:31:17,800 --> 00:31:19,480
Speaker 2: don't feel anything, Like what's the point of being in

700
00:31:19,520 --> 00:31:22,120
Speaker 2: a relationship if you can't have a feeling for each other?

701
00:31:22,720 --> 00:31:25,160
Speaker 2: And she pretty much like told me straight up like

702
00:31:26,080 --> 00:31:27,240
Speaker 2: I'm like, look, I just want you to be my

703
00:31:27,240 --> 00:31:28,720
Speaker 2: girlfriend again, Like I just want to go back to

704
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,840
Speaker 2: where we were because I can't. I don't feel anything.

705
00:31:30,960 --> 00:31:33,680
Speaker 2: I feel like i'm constantly seeking approval, and I'm like,

706
00:31:33,720 --> 00:31:35,600
Speaker 2: this sucks. You know. That's not what it was before.

707
00:31:35,640 --> 00:31:37,280
Speaker 2: This's not what I signed up for. This is not

708
00:31:37,320 --> 00:31:39,600
Speaker 2: what I expected when you called me in September. So

709
00:31:39,640 --> 00:31:44,040
Speaker 2: I told her straight up in November and I said,

710
00:31:44,080 --> 00:31:49,680
Speaker 2: look like I need you to to settle down and

711
00:31:49,720 --> 00:31:51,479
Speaker 2: just be like do you do you want this or not?

712
00:31:52,200 --> 00:31:54,120
Speaker 2: And she goes like I want it. I just I'm like,

713
00:31:54,120 --> 00:31:55,479
Speaker 2: what do you think of me? And she said like

714
00:31:55,680 --> 00:31:58,120
Speaker 2: an X or something, and I'm like, an ex, I'm

715
00:31:58,160 --> 00:32:01,080
Speaker 2: a fucking ex. Like I'm like, holy sh dude. I'm like, dude,

716
00:32:01,120 --> 00:32:03,960
Speaker 2: I'm not your ex boyfriend. I'm not you. I'm not

717
00:32:04,080 --> 00:32:07,040
Speaker 2: I'm not a person to like to sign up for

718
00:32:07,040 --> 00:32:09,800
Speaker 2: a relationship to be an ex boyfriend. Like no, yeah, Like,

719
00:32:09,840 --> 00:32:11,960
Speaker 2: I'm putting a lot of energy into you, and I'm

720
00:32:12,000 --> 00:32:14,560
Speaker 2: doing things that I never did for any girl. Every

721
00:32:14,600 --> 00:32:17,120
Speaker 2: relationship I needed, I needed a girl to love me

722
00:32:17,360 --> 00:32:19,040
Speaker 2: as much as I love them, and if they didn't,

723
00:32:19,080 --> 00:32:21,080
Speaker 2: then I would just match their energy. I was doing

724
00:32:21,120 --> 00:32:24,080
Speaker 2: something like that. I did something I'd never done before

725
00:32:24,200 --> 00:32:27,160
Speaker 2: for any any person. And I love someone without THEMB

726
00:32:27,280 --> 00:32:30,160
Speaker 2: reciprocating that back. So I just pretty much told her.

727
00:32:30,160 --> 00:32:32,720
Speaker 2: I said like, look, I'm like I need you to like,

728
00:32:33,200 --> 00:32:34,920
Speaker 2: I'm not your ex I don't even honestly, I'm kind

729
00:32:34,960 --> 00:32:36,600
Speaker 2: of forgetting a little bit, which means I'm healing. But

730
00:32:37,360 --> 00:32:39,320
Speaker 2: then that that happened, it was really it was kind

731
00:32:39,320 --> 00:32:41,240
Speaker 2: of rough, and I was really upset about that. I

732
00:32:41,320 --> 00:32:43,480
Speaker 2: just wanted her to, like I invited her to another

733
00:32:43,520 --> 00:32:44,960
Speaker 2: like event. I wanted to go out with her, and

734
00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:46,680
Speaker 2: she goes, no, I don't want to do this. And

735
00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:48,520
Speaker 2: the thing with her allle is because she's in Mexican.

736
00:32:48,680 --> 00:32:52,000
Speaker 2: She grew up in Mexico. Winter sucks, Like winter sucks

737
00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:54,080
Speaker 2: for everybody. I love winter, my birth days in winter.

738
00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:56,600
Speaker 2: Like I'm a Canadian, so like winter is fun for me,

739
00:32:56,760 --> 00:33:00,400
Speaker 2: like skiing and all that shit. But for her, winter sucks.

740
00:33:00,520 --> 00:33:03,160
Speaker 2: Winter always sucks because Christmas time she's away from her family.

741
00:33:03,200 --> 00:33:05,200
Speaker 2: Her parents are in Mexico. She doesn't have a lot

742
00:33:05,240 --> 00:33:07,920
Speaker 2: of immediate family here. She can't go back. She's stuck

743
00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:11,760
Speaker 2: in limbo in Canada. And I feel for her, so

744
00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:14,600
Speaker 2: I want to make it like enlightening for him, like yeah,

745
00:33:14,640 --> 00:33:16,760
Speaker 2: let's go out, let's let's go party, let's you know,

746
00:33:16,920 --> 00:33:18,840
Speaker 2: come over, let's watch movies, let's do all this shit,

747
00:33:20,040 --> 00:33:21,680
Speaker 2: but she wasn't having it because she didn't have any

748
00:33:21,680 --> 00:33:23,960
Speaker 2: fucking time. Well, she doesn't have time for relationship. And

749
00:33:23,960 --> 00:33:26,120
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, you know what, fuck it whatever, let

750
00:33:26,160 --> 00:33:27,840
Speaker 2: her be, let her heal. She'll come back to you

751
00:33:27,920 --> 00:33:30,720
Speaker 2: if it's meant to be. And then December came. I

752
00:33:30,800 --> 00:33:32,760
Speaker 2: really wanted her to come for over for Christmas dinner.

753
00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:35,200
Speaker 2: Like that was huge because last Christmas she didn't come

754
00:33:35,240 --> 00:33:37,560
Speaker 2: for Christmas dinner because she got sick. I think I

755
00:33:37,560 --> 00:33:39,680
Speaker 2: had to do with some sort of stress or something.

756
00:33:39,720 --> 00:33:42,920
Speaker 2: It's always like this every single year. So I wanted

757
00:33:42,920 --> 00:33:44,120
Speaker 2: her to come for Christmas dinner because I was like,

758
00:33:44,200 --> 00:33:46,400
Speaker 2: this is it. My family's gonna see her again, She's

759
00:33:46,440 --> 00:33:48,840
Speaker 2: gonna She came over for dinner one time with my

760
00:33:48,880 --> 00:33:50,560
Speaker 2: other brother's girlfriend and that was nice. I was like,

761
00:33:50,560 --> 00:33:52,480
Speaker 2: fuck yeah, let's do that more like that felt good.

762
00:33:53,080 --> 00:33:54,960
Speaker 2: She didn't come for dinner. She was kind of I

763
00:33:55,040 --> 00:33:57,040
Speaker 2: say she had a breakdown on Christmas Eve with her family.

764
00:33:57,440 --> 00:33:59,640
Speaker 2: I think what ended up happening was her family. She

765
00:33:59,680 --> 00:34:03,480
Speaker 2: tried to open up to her family about me, and

766
00:34:03,520 --> 00:34:05,720
Speaker 2: they shut it down so quickly because I think I

767
00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:08,759
Speaker 2: heard her so much in August that she just blacklisted

768
00:34:08,840 --> 00:34:11,040
Speaker 2: me for her whole family, and everyone of her family

769
00:34:11,040 --> 00:34:14,920
Speaker 2: fucking probably hated me, and she couldn't. She was scared

770
00:34:14,920 --> 00:34:17,160
Speaker 2: to open up, and she never did, and she kind

771
00:34:17,160 --> 00:34:18,879
Speaker 2: of shied away from it. And I think her her

772
00:34:18,960 --> 00:34:22,400
Speaker 2: friend probably influenced it, because she kind of fucked someone

773
00:34:22,400 --> 00:34:26,120
Speaker 2: over for paperwork, Like she literally got paperwork from this

774
00:34:26,200 --> 00:34:28,400
Speaker 2: guy for three years and then ended up having a

775
00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:30,680
Speaker 2: baby with another dude and just fucking used him for

776
00:34:31,000 --> 00:34:33,320
Speaker 2: like it was fucked up, fucked up situation.

777
00:34:33,000 --> 00:34:33,879
Speaker 3: And that was her best friend.

778
00:34:34,360 --> 00:34:38,040
Speaker 1: And oh my god, this I'm sorry this woman did that.

779
00:34:39,560 --> 00:34:41,440
Speaker 2: No, no, no, this is her. This is the Mexican

780
00:34:41,480 --> 00:34:42,000
Speaker 2: girl's friend.

781
00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:45,560
Speaker 3: Okay, yes, yeah, so it was not her, but.

782
00:34:45,600 --> 00:34:48,040
Speaker 2: I was like, damn kind of fucked up, Like I

783
00:34:48,640 --> 00:34:50,640
Speaker 2: didn't know, I can't do anything, like you know, it

784
00:34:50,680 --> 00:34:52,279
Speaker 2: is what it is. Like, just don't get influenced by that.

785
00:34:52,320 --> 00:34:56,080
Speaker 2: I don't think that's how it works. But anyways, so yeah,

786
00:34:56,320 --> 00:34:59,520
Speaker 2: she after Christmas, we were gonna spend New Year's together,

787
00:34:59,600 --> 00:35:02,239
Speaker 2: like I a book to Chalet. We were gonna have

788
00:35:02,239 --> 00:35:04,880
Speaker 2: all four all of my brothers their girlfriends, you know,

789
00:35:05,239 --> 00:35:08,600
Speaker 2: my girlfriend, as I thought two in New Year's because

790
00:35:08,640 --> 00:35:10,160
Speaker 2: last year I spend New Years with her family and

791
00:35:10,160 --> 00:35:12,160
Speaker 2: her her cousins and brothers and stuff. I didn't get

792
00:35:12,160 --> 00:35:13,439
Speaker 2: to spend it with mine. So it's like, yeah, maybe

793
00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:14,960
Speaker 2: she'll she'll do it fine, and this will be a

794
00:35:15,000 --> 00:35:18,680
Speaker 2: good kind of telling if she's if she's tucking with it,

795
00:35:18,719 --> 00:35:21,160
Speaker 2: you know, because in December she goes, yeah, let's do it.

796
00:35:21,160 --> 00:35:23,480
Speaker 2: It'll be fun. And then she kind of, I guess

797
00:35:23,520 --> 00:35:26,600
Speaker 2: maybe had that whole episode on Christmas and figured, Okay,

798
00:35:26,880 --> 00:35:28,399
Speaker 2: I can't even I don't even know how to tell

799
00:35:28,440 --> 00:35:30,040
Speaker 2: my family that I'm going to go spend New Years

800
00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:32,440
Speaker 2: with this guy. So she told me, like straight up,

801
00:35:32,480 --> 00:35:35,319
Speaker 2: she goes, I can't, I'm not going to go, and

802
00:35:35,360 --> 00:35:37,840
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh my gosh, here we go again, Like why,

803
00:35:38,000 --> 00:35:40,239
Speaker 2: Like do you know how many times I'm defending you

804
00:35:40,280 --> 00:35:42,239
Speaker 2: from my family, Like you're not making it easier. I

805
00:35:42,360 --> 00:35:44,960
Speaker 2: just need you to to like show that you've loved

806
00:35:44,960 --> 00:35:47,160
Speaker 2: me so I could just like be free if reminded

807
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:49,560
Speaker 2: from everyone telling me, like Michael, give up on this girl.

808
00:35:51,120 --> 00:35:52,799
Speaker 2: And she just we just kind of and she just

809
00:35:52,800 --> 00:35:54,880
Speaker 2: broke up. She gave up again, and it was like

810
00:35:54,880 --> 00:35:58,200
Speaker 2: the same cycle. In August and I'm like, I told myself,

811
00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:00,000
Speaker 2: I'm like, Michael, what did I What did I do wrong?

812
00:36:00,080 --> 00:36:02,480
Speaker 2: In August, I said, Okay, I gave up with her

813
00:36:02,480 --> 00:36:04,359
Speaker 2: so quickly. I said, Okay, that's not what I'm gonna

814
00:36:04,360 --> 00:36:05,520
Speaker 2: do now. I'm gonna I'm not doing that. I'm not

815
00:36:05,520 --> 00:36:07,000
Speaker 2: gonna give up on her. I'm gonna try because I

816
00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:08,800
Speaker 2: think that she's just going through a little episode or

817
00:36:08,800 --> 00:36:11,200
Speaker 2: a little phase. And I tried to remind her. I

818
00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:12,880
Speaker 2: try to be like, oh I remember those times, remember this,

819
00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:15,040
Speaker 2: remember that. And she was so stern. She was like, nah,

820
00:36:15,520 --> 00:36:18,680
Speaker 2: I can't do this, like it's I'm gonna go back

821
00:36:18,680 --> 00:36:20,360
Speaker 2: to Mexico. I missed my family, this and that, this

822
00:36:20,440 --> 00:36:22,799
Speaker 2: and that. And I'm like no, no, no, no, no, I'm

823
00:36:22,800 --> 00:36:24,560
Speaker 2: not doing this like I'm gonna fight because last time

824
00:36:24,560 --> 00:36:26,520
Speaker 2: I didn't fight. So I text her like I left her.

825
00:36:26,800 --> 00:36:29,400
Speaker 2: We left in tears whatever we were ending last episode,

826
00:36:29,560 --> 00:36:31,880
Speaker 2: the second last episode of Stranger Things that comes to

827
00:36:32,000 --> 00:36:35,480
Speaker 2: the story later because we watched Strange Things together and

828
00:36:35,680 --> 00:36:38,200
Speaker 2: she pretty much said like I gave her all the

829
00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:42,080
Speaker 2: stuff that she gave me throughout the relationship as like

830
00:36:42,280 --> 00:36:43,680
Speaker 2: a way of love, because she used to send me

831
00:36:43,760 --> 00:36:46,000
Speaker 2: like letters when she was in BC, like she used

832
00:36:46,000 --> 00:36:48,120
Speaker 2: to she used to send me like paint, like little

833
00:36:48,160 --> 00:36:50,000
Speaker 2: things that she did a little scrapboard she sent me

834
00:36:50,040 --> 00:36:52,359
Speaker 2: over like a really sweet stuff that I kept and

835
00:36:52,400 --> 00:36:54,920
Speaker 2: I for I sent the mental value and I just

836
00:36:54,960 --> 00:36:56,720
Speaker 2: gave it all to her. And I'm like, look, remember

837
00:36:57,120 --> 00:37:01,480
Speaker 2: remember this, oh shit, and he believes that out remember

838
00:37:01,520 --> 00:37:05,520
Speaker 2: this person, Remember this person? What where were you in

839
00:37:05,520 --> 00:37:07,800
Speaker 2: this space? And I try to like that's what that was.

840
00:37:07,840 --> 00:37:11,759
Speaker 2: My attempt just makes you believe about that name. But anyways,

841
00:37:11,920 --> 00:37:15,799
Speaker 2: then then uh uh. A week went by and like

842
00:37:15,840 --> 00:37:18,319
Speaker 2: I said, once I'm out of this relationship, I'm out

843
00:37:18,320 --> 00:37:20,920
Speaker 2: of this relationship. Like I texted her the night of

844
00:37:21,160 --> 00:37:23,239
Speaker 2: I was really really like lost. I was like, what

845
00:37:23,280 --> 00:37:24,920
Speaker 2: the fuck is going on? Like what do I do?

846
00:37:24,920 --> 00:37:26,520
Speaker 2: Did I just lose? Did I just lose this girl?

847
00:37:26,600 --> 00:37:28,160
Speaker 2: Did I just lose this girl? Like I don't even

848
00:37:28,160 --> 00:37:30,560
Speaker 2: know what happened, Like everything happened so quickly. And I

849
00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:33,479
Speaker 2: texted her and I pretty much told her. I said,

850
00:37:35,040 --> 00:37:37,440
Speaker 2: don't give up on us or whatever, like whatever she

851
00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:39,160
Speaker 2: told me, because I try to like be poetic with

852
00:37:39,200 --> 00:37:42,439
Speaker 2: this ship. And then a week went by, two weeks

853
00:37:42,440 --> 00:37:45,279
Speaker 2: went by and I'm like, all right, I don't know

854
00:37:45,280 --> 00:37:47,520
Speaker 2: if she's gonna like New Year's one buy New Years

855
00:37:47,520 --> 00:37:48,880
Speaker 2: was pretty hard? Like New Years was fun because I

856
00:37:48,880 --> 00:37:50,319
Speaker 2: got to spend it with all my brothers, and I

857
00:37:50,360 --> 00:37:51,799
Speaker 2: saved a lot of money because I would have paid

858
00:37:51,960 --> 00:37:54,279
Speaker 2: a lot for her to like stay and ski and

859
00:37:54,280 --> 00:37:54,759
Speaker 2: all that ship.

860
00:37:56,360 --> 00:37:57,480
Speaker 1: What's What's what's your name?

861
00:37:57,520 --> 00:37:57,719
Speaker 2: Man?

862
00:37:57,760 --> 00:37:58,399
Speaker 1: What's your name?

863
00:37:59,160 --> 00:37:59,560
Speaker 2: Michael?

864
00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:06,279
Speaker 1: Michael Michael. I've actually been quite quite engrossed in your story.

865
00:38:06,400 --> 00:38:08,480
Speaker 1: I truly have. I appreciate you sharing all of this

866
00:38:08,520 --> 00:38:11,720
Speaker 1: with us. I've let you go on for a while

867
00:38:11,760 --> 00:38:13,440
Speaker 1: because I kind of started to feel like I was

868
00:38:13,520 --> 00:38:15,719
Speaker 1: listening to my own podcast, which is a good thing.

869
00:38:17,239 --> 00:38:20,000
Speaker 1: You've told a very interesting story so far. But I'm

870
00:38:20,000 --> 00:38:23,640
Speaker 1: gonna go ahead and ask you to cut to the end.

871
00:38:23,760 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 2: Please do so. This is the end actually, so January,

872
00:38:30,239 --> 00:38:32,560
Speaker 2: I was in I went away and she called me,

873
00:38:32,760 --> 00:38:37,120
Speaker 2: and I told her, like, look, that's that's pretty much.

874
00:38:37,960 --> 00:38:40,200
Speaker 2: I get that's it. It is what it is. And

875
00:38:40,239 --> 00:38:44,280
Speaker 2: throughout the story, holy shit, forty minutes is crazy. Throughout

876
00:38:44,280 --> 00:38:48,279
Speaker 2: the story. When I was away, she tried to get

877
00:38:48,280 --> 00:38:50,040
Speaker 2: me back, trying to get me back, and I said, no,

878
00:38:50,200 --> 00:38:52,840
Speaker 2: that's it. I'm not doing this again, and I was

879
00:38:52,840 --> 00:38:54,359
Speaker 2: really like sentimental with it. I'm like, you know what,

880
00:38:54,440 --> 00:38:56,080
Speaker 2: like I'm gonna call you. I want closure, and I

881
00:38:56,080 --> 00:38:57,560
Speaker 2: think this is like the biggest thing that I want

882
00:38:57,560 --> 00:38:59,840
Speaker 2: your advice on. I need closure with stuff like this,

883
00:39:00,400 --> 00:39:02,279
Speaker 2: and the closure that I had was she called me

884
00:39:02,360 --> 00:39:04,239
Speaker 2: a couple of times. I said, no, I sent her.

885
00:39:04,239 --> 00:39:06,040
Speaker 2: I made some videos of the way to like kind

886
00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:08,680
Speaker 2: of cope with it. I wanted to like danker for relationships.

887
00:39:08,719 --> 00:39:12,359
Speaker 2: I didn't want to be too you know. I didn't

888
00:39:12,360 --> 00:39:13,879
Speaker 2: want to let her down hard like I did last time,

889
00:39:13,880 --> 00:39:16,080
Speaker 2: because that was guilty for me. So I told her

890
00:39:16,120 --> 00:39:18,160
Speaker 2: straight up, I said, you know what.

891
00:39:17,680 --> 00:39:23,759
Speaker 1: What what Okay, okay, okay, all right now now now

892
00:39:23,800 --> 00:39:26,200
Speaker 1: I'm gonna make this a conversation instead of you telling

893
00:39:26,239 --> 00:39:26,680
Speaker 1: me a story.

894
00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:29,359
Speaker 2: Yes, please, Yeah, it was too long. It's long.

895
00:39:30,080 --> 00:39:31,960
Speaker 1: No, it's I'm glad. I'm glad you told it. I

896
00:39:32,040 --> 00:39:33,080
Speaker 1: enjoyed listening to it.

897
00:39:33,080 --> 00:39:33,120
Speaker 2: It.

898
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:36,359
Speaker 1: Uh, it's definitely there's a lot of relatable things in

899
00:39:36,400 --> 00:39:40,480
Speaker 1: there about Uh. I'm you're not the only one who

900
00:39:41,200 --> 00:39:48,000
Speaker 1: I think navigates treacherous waters in this in this way.

901
00:39:48,120 --> 00:39:50,120
Speaker 1: But how long how long has it been since you

902
00:39:50,160 --> 00:39:51,120
Speaker 1: last talked to this person.

903
00:39:53,280 --> 00:39:56,240
Speaker 2: It's been end of January, and I think the hardest

904
00:39:56,239 --> 00:39:59,000
Speaker 2: part was I thought I came back and I said,

905
00:39:59,000 --> 00:40:01,480
Speaker 2: I'm gonna see you again because we left off on FaceTime.

906
00:40:01,480 --> 00:40:03,799
Speaker 2: We actually watched last episode of Stranger Things together and

907
00:40:03,840 --> 00:40:05,080
Speaker 2: I said, Okay, I'm gonna see you at the end

908
00:40:05,120 --> 00:40:07,680
Speaker 2: of February. And I just collect my things because I had,

909
00:40:07,760 --> 00:40:09,880
Speaker 2: like I gave her computer, some money for for some

910
00:40:10,000 --> 00:40:12,480
Speaker 2: ship that's showsing, and then some sweaters and stuff. I'm

911
00:40:12,480 --> 00:40:14,600
Speaker 2: gonna see you one last time and then that's it.

912
00:40:14,680 --> 00:40:16,920
Speaker 2: I thought, I really just needed that last kind of

913
00:40:17,719 --> 00:40:20,359
Speaker 2: break the stick and move on. Didn't get that.

914
00:40:23,520 --> 00:40:25,640
Speaker 1: So how do you feel now? Do you miss her?

915
00:40:25,800 --> 00:40:26,160
Speaker 1: Are you?

916
00:40:26,880 --> 00:40:26,960
Speaker 3: Like?

917
00:40:26,960 --> 00:40:27,600
Speaker 1: What's your deal?

918
00:40:29,360 --> 00:40:29,640
Speaker 3: Lyle?

919
00:40:30,360 --> 00:40:33,880
Speaker 2: I'm free, dude, Like I am. I have everything I

920
00:40:33,920 --> 00:40:37,520
Speaker 2: need in my life. I have my my career is

921
00:40:37,560 --> 00:40:40,440
Speaker 2: taking off right now. I got so many good people

922
00:40:40,440 --> 00:40:43,399
Speaker 2: around me, I got good family. I'm like, I don't

923
00:40:43,400 --> 00:40:47,319
Speaker 2: feel guilty for my success anymore. I don't feel I

924
00:40:47,320 --> 00:40:50,000
Speaker 2: don't want her back. I just wanted to put a

925
00:40:50,040 --> 00:40:53,440
Speaker 2: bow on this fairy tale we had. And I'm just

926
00:40:54,360 --> 00:40:55,359
Speaker 2: I believe in her right.

927
00:40:55,600 --> 00:41:02,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, stop real quick, there's no but dude, dude, what's

928
00:41:02,560 --> 00:41:04,800
Speaker 1: your name again? I'm sorry you told me a billion times.

929
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:07,520
Speaker 2: Michael, Michael, Michael.

930
00:41:06,880 --> 00:41:10,000
Speaker 1: Michael Myers, Michael Myers, Dude, we've been talking for so long.

931
00:41:10,040 --> 00:41:16,560
Speaker 1: I thought that was a different call. Okay, Michael Myers, Dude,

932
00:41:17,040 --> 00:41:19,319
Speaker 1: you want clo First of all, closure is not real.

933
00:41:19,360 --> 00:41:22,000
Speaker 1: That's not a real thing that exists. Okay. You you had,

934
00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:24,320
Speaker 1: First of all, the story you told me had about

935
00:41:24,320 --> 00:41:27,239
Speaker 1: eight different moments of closure. And the truth is there's

936
00:41:27,280 --> 00:41:29,959
Speaker 1: no such thing as closure. Life doesn't have a neat

937
00:41:29,960 --> 00:41:32,200
Speaker 1: bow at the end, even at the even when you die,

938
00:41:32,280 --> 00:41:33,879
Speaker 1: it's like you just die, you know what I mean,

939
00:41:34,120 --> 00:41:38,120
Speaker 1: Like you're it's grief, right, it's grief. It doesn't have closure.

940
00:41:38,520 --> 00:41:40,840
Speaker 1: That's the hard thing is that there's no closure. It

941
00:41:41,000 --> 00:41:41,560
Speaker 1: just ended.

942
00:41:42,239 --> 00:41:42,480
Speaker 3: You know.

943
00:41:42,840 --> 00:41:45,520
Speaker 1: That's and I know it's a bummer take. But you

944
00:41:45,600 --> 00:41:49,200
Speaker 1: got out good man. I mean, Jesus, Christ, Jesus, what

945
00:41:49,200 --> 00:41:52,760
Speaker 1: do you want closure for? Dude? You got out good?

946
00:41:52,880 --> 00:41:55,479
Speaker 1: You feet you you don't want her back. You seem

947
00:41:55,560 --> 00:41:58,359
Speaker 1: like you feel great about life. You seem like you

948
00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:00,480
Speaker 1: feel like you have great friends, like you have a

949
00:42:00,520 --> 00:42:02,839
Speaker 1: great You're twenty four. You have a great life, dude,

950
00:42:02,880 --> 00:42:06,520
Speaker 1: what do you want? Club? You have a great life, dude,

951
00:42:06,680 --> 00:42:08,480
Speaker 1: you have a From what you're telling me, you have

952
00:42:08,520 --> 00:42:12,239
Speaker 1: a great life. You have this uh way of existing

953
00:42:12,280 --> 00:42:14,600
Speaker 1: and being that is coming off to me as we're

954
00:42:14,640 --> 00:42:18,640
Speaker 1: having this conversation that feels as though you you you

955
00:42:18,640 --> 00:42:20,680
Speaker 1: have a lust for life. You're an optimist, you know

956
00:42:20,719 --> 00:42:25,200
Speaker 1: how to do shit. You know, you're twenty four. Like dude,

957
00:42:25,520 --> 00:42:31,359
Speaker 1: just I I I I don't. I think if you

958
00:42:31,400 --> 00:42:34,040
Speaker 1: really want my honest take, after listening to your entire

959
00:42:34,160 --> 00:42:36,839
Speaker 1: story and hearing you say everything you just said right now,

960
00:42:37,200 --> 00:42:42,320
Speaker 1: I think this fucking thing ended the best possible way

961
00:42:42,560 --> 00:42:46,120
Speaker 1: that it could for you. Okay, don't ask for anything else.

962
00:42:46,360 --> 00:42:48,799
Speaker 1: Don't don't, don't don't ask for anything else. What do

963
00:42:48,840 --> 00:42:52,239
Speaker 1: you want? There's nothing else for There's nothing else for

964
00:42:52,360 --> 00:42:55,920
Speaker 1: you to get, Dude, your career is taken off. You

965
00:42:55,920 --> 00:42:59,320
Speaker 1: have great friends. You don't You're not you're not drowning

966
00:42:59,360 --> 00:43:02,839
Speaker 1: in the feeling. You're not feeling woe is me, You're

967
00:43:02,880 --> 00:43:05,399
Speaker 1: not like you like your life. You're not wondering, you're

968
00:43:05,440 --> 00:43:07,759
Speaker 1: not worrying, You're just like, just what do you What

969
00:43:08,120 --> 00:43:09,520
Speaker 1: the fuck do you want? What do you mean? When

970
00:43:09,640 --> 00:43:12,920
Speaker 1: closure go live your life, dude, there is no closures.

971
00:43:12,960 --> 00:43:15,440
Speaker 1: Go live, you go live the life that you're telling

972
00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:17,440
Speaker 1: me right now that if you mean it, if you

973
00:43:17,440 --> 00:43:19,720
Speaker 1: mean what you're saying, that you really do love your life,

974
00:43:20,000 --> 00:43:22,719
Speaker 1: just live to live the life. Man, what are you talking?

975
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:26,279
Speaker 1: I can't fathom what you're missing. If that, if you

976
00:43:26,320 --> 00:43:28,319
Speaker 1: were telling me, right, here's the thing, right, if you were,

977
00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:31,040
Speaker 1: if you were getting all sad sack on me, if

978
00:43:31,080 --> 00:43:32,319
Speaker 1: you were getting all sad sack on me and you

979
00:43:32,320 --> 00:43:33,440
Speaker 1: were like, oh I miss her. I don't know what

980
00:43:33,480 --> 00:43:35,360
Speaker 1: to do. I'm worrying, I'm dwelling, I'm this and anything.

981
00:43:35,560 --> 00:43:37,080
Speaker 1: But dude, but the fact that you're coming out of

982
00:43:37,120 --> 00:43:40,640
Speaker 1: here and you're like, oh, life is great. I'm actually

983
00:43:40,920 --> 00:43:43,319
Speaker 1: I don't miss her at all. I I don't want

984
00:43:43,360 --> 00:43:45,319
Speaker 1: her back, Like, but what what do you want? I

985
00:43:45,320 --> 00:43:46,319
Speaker 1: don't understand what you want?

986
00:43:46,360 --> 00:43:48,400
Speaker 2: Man. I think I'm more so. I think I'm just

987
00:43:48,560 --> 00:43:52,719
Speaker 2: more more so disappointed and the character like she's shown me,

988
00:43:52,760 --> 00:43:54,640
Speaker 2: and I'm just like, why couldn't I think? Why couldn't

989
00:43:54,640 --> 00:43:56,680
Speaker 2: I see that before? Like you know, like why did

990
00:43:56,760 --> 00:43:57,200
Speaker 2: she have to?

991
00:43:57,719 --> 00:44:01,600
Speaker 1: Why couldn't you see that? But because you you couldn't

992
00:44:01,600 --> 00:44:04,600
Speaker 1: see that before? Because you live life forwardly with the

993
00:44:04,640 --> 00:44:07,320
Speaker 1: information that you have at the time in which you're living,

994
00:44:07,680 --> 00:44:10,200
Speaker 1: and then you don't know You don't know anything until.

995
00:44:10,400 --> 00:44:12,239
Speaker 1: You couldn't see that before because you don't have a

996
00:44:12,320 --> 00:44:14,680
Speaker 1: crystal fucking ball that tells you the future. You only

997
00:44:14,680 --> 00:44:18,800
Speaker 1: have your gut and whatever experience you have at the time,

998
00:44:19,000 --> 00:44:21,760
Speaker 1: which sounds like it wasn't a lot because you only

999
00:44:21,800 --> 00:44:24,080
Speaker 1: have so much time that you'd lived on the earth.

1000
00:44:24,560 --> 00:44:25,839
Speaker 1: So why couldn't you see that before?

1001
00:44:25,880 --> 00:44:25,920
Speaker 2: It?

1002
00:44:26,000 --> 00:44:29,399
Speaker 1: Because that's like, that's like saying why couldn't I see

1003
00:44:29,440 --> 00:44:32,560
Speaker 1: that before? That's like if you were like, uh, that's

1004
00:44:32,560 --> 00:44:35,840
Speaker 1: like if you turned around and you saw a tree

1005
00:44:36,600 --> 00:44:38,880
Speaker 1: and you were like, why couldn't I see that tree before?

1006
00:44:39,480 --> 00:44:41,640
Speaker 1: It's like because you couldn't see you weren't facing the

1007
00:44:41,680 --> 00:44:44,520
Speaker 1: direction of the tree. It's like it's like if you

1008
00:44:44,560 --> 00:44:47,000
Speaker 1: stare at a wall. It's like if it's like if

1009
00:44:47,040 --> 00:44:49,680
Speaker 1: you it's like if you were at home staring at

1010
00:44:49,680 --> 00:44:52,520
Speaker 1: a wall and then you went to the Empire State

1011
00:44:52,560 --> 00:44:55,040
Speaker 1: Building and you were like, why couldn't I Why couldn't

1012
00:44:55,040 --> 00:44:56,759
Speaker 1: I see the Empire State Building before when I was

1013
00:44:56,800 --> 00:45:00,719
Speaker 1: staring at the wall? It's because you weren't looking. It's

1014
00:45:00,800 --> 00:45:05,759
Speaker 1: just it's a stupid thing, you know, So like just live,

1015
00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:08,400
Speaker 1: just live, keep living your life, man, that don't you

1016
00:45:08,440 --> 00:45:11,200
Speaker 1: don't need anything more. Just keep living life forward, don't

1017
00:45:11,239 --> 00:45:14,600
Speaker 1: don't if if if, if you're not in, if you're

1018
00:45:14,640 --> 00:45:20,759
Speaker 1: not deeply uh shadowed by a pain that's forcing you

1019
00:45:20,880 --> 00:45:25,640
Speaker 1: to spiral and dwell, then then don't just live your life. Man.

1020
00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:29,920
Speaker 1: That's all I got to say about it.

1021
00:45:30,000 --> 00:45:30,440
Speaker 3: Sick man.

1022
00:45:30,520 --> 00:45:33,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like, I mean I kind of had like a

1023
00:45:33,440 --> 00:45:35,160
Speaker 2: that that thought of mine. I think it was just

1024
00:45:35,160 --> 00:45:38,279
Speaker 2: more so like I felt like we deserve a better

1025
00:45:38,400 --> 00:45:40,880
Speaker 2: ending in a way. And uh, that's what I'm kind

1026
00:45:40,880 --> 00:45:43,279
Speaker 2: of holding on too. It's like we had and I

1027
00:45:43,360 --> 00:45:45,480
Speaker 2: think a part of me is thinking I could have

1028
00:45:45,560 --> 00:45:48,239
Speaker 2: had that kind of nice ending that I had, and

1029
00:45:48,280 --> 00:45:50,360
Speaker 2: I had it on a phone call with her, but

1030
00:45:50,560 --> 00:45:52,600
Speaker 2: I didn't have it in person because I was I

1031
00:45:52,680 --> 00:45:54,600
Speaker 2: was away, and I could have had it if there

1032
00:45:54,640 --> 00:45:57,239
Speaker 2: was like a snowstorm. It's all these like what if But.

1033
00:45:58,160 --> 00:46:01,880
Speaker 1: Dude, dude, dude, dude, just first of all, right, listen,

1034
00:46:02,040 --> 00:46:06,600
Speaker 1: you got you got the Sopranos season finale of this relationship.

1035
00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:08,080
Speaker 1: You don't know what that means?

1036
00:46:08,160 --> 00:46:12,360
Speaker 2: Due, Yeah, that's a good prep best ending ever. I

1037
00:46:12,360 --> 00:46:13,439
Speaker 2: didn't watch the show, and I.

1038
00:46:13,320 --> 00:46:13,680
Speaker 3: Just know that.

1039
00:46:14,320 --> 00:46:18,040
Speaker 1: I also only know that anyway, whatever you got, just

1040
00:46:18,040 --> 00:46:21,520
Speaker 1: pit by that dude. Just fuck the dude. Endings are stupid.

1041
00:46:22,320 --> 00:46:25,240
Speaker 1: I really think they're stupid. Just you had great middles.

1042
00:46:25,320 --> 00:46:28,840
Speaker 1: Just pick a middle and have that be them ending. Mentally,

1043
00:46:29,200 --> 00:46:32,239
Speaker 1: why is why you obsessed with an ending? Like you know,

1044
00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:35,560
Speaker 1: endings stupid buildings.

1045
00:46:36,600 --> 00:46:40,680
Speaker 2: A good ending makes everything. A good ending makes everything better.

1046
00:46:40,719 --> 00:46:44,920
Speaker 1: What's your what's your name? Again? Man, Michael Michael, I'm

1047
00:46:44,920 --> 00:46:46,560
Speaker 1: sorry I did ten times.

1048
00:46:47,440 --> 00:46:49,560
Speaker 2: It's okay. I watched the podcast enough. I feel honored

1049
00:46:49,600 --> 00:46:52,160
Speaker 2: for you asking me what my name is. It makes

1050
00:46:52,160 --> 00:46:54,600
Speaker 2: you feel like, you know, listen back to this, yeah.

1051
00:46:54,880 --> 00:46:58,480
Speaker 1: Michael Michael. Michael's speaking of endings. I appreciate you sharing

1052
00:46:58,480 --> 00:46:59,359
Speaker 1: this whole story with us.

1053
00:46:59,360 --> 00:46:59,759
Speaker 2: This was.

1054
00:47:01,440 --> 00:47:06,759
Speaker 1: This was nice. I think almost I almost feel like

1055
00:47:06,800 --> 00:47:09,160
Speaker 1: the way in which I'm ending this call is similar

1056
00:47:09,200 --> 00:47:11,319
Speaker 1: to the way in which the relationship ended, where it's like,

1057
00:47:11,360 --> 00:47:14,120
Speaker 1: we don't have a nice bow to wrap this up in.

1058
00:47:14,200 --> 00:47:16,719
Speaker 1: It's just we heard the story and I gave my

1059
00:47:16,719 --> 00:47:20,279
Speaker 1: feedback and it's over. But that's life. You know, life

1060
00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:22,719
Speaker 1: doesn't end with the bow. It's not you know, you're

1061
00:47:22,760 --> 00:47:25,879
Speaker 1: a filmmaker. You make stuff. You try to end things

1062
00:47:25,880 --> 00:47:28,280
Speaker 1: with a bow, but it just doesn't. It just keeps going.

1063
00:47:29,680 --> 00:47:31,920
Speaker 1: But that's not something to grieve. You know. You have

1064
00:47:32,000 --> 00:47:35,560
Speaker 1: your own little ways in which you can wrap things

1065
00:47:35,640 --> 00:47:37,680
Speaker 1: up with a bow and live your life. But like dude,

1066
00:47:37,800 --> 00:47:40,000
Speaker 1: I don't have to tell you you know any more times,

1067
00:47:40,000 --> 00:47:43,640
Speaker 1: but just go go live your life. Man. I'm I'm

1068
00:47:44,000 --> 00:47:46,399
Speaker 1: proud of you after hearing this whole story, I'm proud

1069
00:47:46,440 --> 00:47:49,080
Speaker 1: of you, Mike. I think you should keep living your life.

1070
00:47:49,080 --> 00:47:52,440
Speaker 1: I'm rooting for you. So you know your story is

1071
00:47:52,480 --> 00:47:56,480
Speaker 1: still being written. Nothing's you know, you're not dead man,

1072
00:47:56,800 --> 00:47:57,960
Speaker 1: Just just keep going all right?

1073
00:47:59,520 --> 00:48:01,160
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I'm then is there.

1074
00:48:01,120 --> 00:48:02,360
Speaker 1: Anything else do I say to the people of the

1075
00:48:02,360 --> 00:48:03,239
Speaker 1: computer before we go?

1076
00:48:07,000 --> 00:48:10,520
Speaker 2: I think the most important thing is, like a young teenager,

1077
00:48:10,640 --> 00:48:13,680
Speaker 2: is to have good role models, to found yourself with

1078
00:48:13,719 --> 00:48:17,280
Speaker 2: good role models, whether you're consuming content with good role models,

1079
00:48:17,320 --> 00:48:21,920
Speaker 2: and because it always helps you guide yourself through life.

1080
00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:26,040
Speaker 2: And uh, Jake holds the goat. So yeah, it's about it.

1081
00:48:26,800 --> 00:48:29,400
Speaker 1: Awesome. Hey, thank you, Mike, I appreciate you for sharing.

1082
00:48:30,920 --> 00:48:33,040
Speaker 3: Thanks Chole, Hey have a good night, man.

1083
00:48:34,480 --> 00:48:41,480
Speaker 1: But that was Mike and I. I and I don't

1084
00:48:41,480 --> 00:48:44,399
Speaker 1: have any post call thoughts. We left, well, I left,

1085
00:48:44,400 --> 00:48:50,600
Speaker 1: I left all my thoughts in the call. Hello, yep,

1086
00:48:50,880 --> 00:48:51,520
Speaker 1: what's your name?

1087
00:48:51,560 --> 00:48:51,799
Speaker 2: Brother?

1088
00:48:51,840 --> 00:48:52,359
Speaker 1: How you doing?

1089
00:48:53,160 --> 00:48:53,799
Speaker 3: I'm pretty good.

1090
00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:59,520
Speaker 1: My name is Simon, Simon, Simon and Garfuncles, Simon the

1091
00:48:59,719 --> 00:49:04,640
Speaker 1: the Tertiary Chipmunk from Alvin and the Chipmunks. Simon Cowell.

1092
00:49:06,200 --> 00:49:07,600
Speaker 3: Oh, Simon cow is a good one.

1093
00:49:07,680 --> 00:49:11,600
Speaker 1: Simon says, who is the Simon? And Simon says, let's

1094
00:49:11,600 --> 00:49:13,440
Speaker 1: look that up right now and then we'll get to

1095
00:49:13,600 --> 00:49:16,160
Speaker 1: whatever it is you wanted to talk about. Hold On Simon.

1096
00:49:15,920 --> 00:49:20,319
Speaker 3: Said, said, I honestly have no fucking clue. I have

1097
00:49:20,440 --> 00:49:23,839
Speaker 3: no clue. I never understood what Simon said. And if

1098
00:49:23,840 --> 00:49:27,200
Speaker 3: he says something, where.

1099
00:49:27,040 --> 00:49:31,480
Speaker 1: Does it come from? What's the uh? What's I thought?

1100
00:49:31,600 --> 00:49:33,600
Speaker 3: You know? If it's an American thing, isn't it?

1101
00:49:36,120 --> 00:49:39,520
Speaker 1: I didn't know? It says it's Irish? Actually, no way.

1102
00:49:40,360 --> 00:49:43,360
Speaker 1: You know what's interesting is that? Actually? Okay? No, In

1103
00:49:43,400 --> 00:49:46,879
Speaker 1: Ireland the game is called O'Grady says, which is kind

1104
00:49:46,920 --> 00:49:50,840
Speaker 1: of a I don't I don't think that plays very well. Uh.

1105
00:49:51,440 --> 00:49:54,319
Speaker 1: On The Wikipedia page for Simon says there is no

1106
00:49:54,360 --> 00:49:57,120
Speaker 1: information about the origin of it.

1107
00:49:58,440 --> 00:49:58,960
Speaker 2: What the hell?

1108
00:50:00,200 --> 00:50:08,319
Speaker 1: I probably someone named fucking Simon who wanted power. That's

1109
00:50:08,320 --> 00:50:10,719
Speaker 1: what I asked. The best Uh, that's the best part

1110
00:50:10,719 --> 00:50:16,520
Speaker 1: of being Simon is all the power. Uh, Simon, what

1111
00:50:16,640 --> 00:50:20,160
Speaker 1: did you want to talk about today? Uh?

1112
00:50:21,040 --> 00:50:22,880
Speaker 3: Well, I don't know, obviously, I don't know if you

1113
00:50:23,080 --> 00:50:26,680
Speaker 3: uh where the text messages? But uh, you know, life

1114
00:50:26,719 --> 00:50:31,200
Speaker 3: has been crazy. LiF's being a kid life. Uh kids

1115
00:50:31,200 --> 00:50:35,800
Speaker 3: from being crazy and just never proved me wrong every

1116
00:50:35,800 --> 00:50:36,399
Speaker 3: fucking day.

1117
00:50:37,200 --> 00:50:41,920
Speaker 1: Well, how is it crazy? I don't know.

1118
00:50:42,000 --> 00:50:45,840
Speaker 3: I feel like things I've moved to the state, I've

1119
00:50:47,160 --> 00:50:49,799
Speaker 3: I've experienced new stuff that I thought I would never

1120
00:50:49,880 --> 00:50:52,839
Speaker 3: experience before. I've done stuff that I thought I've never

1121
00:50:52,880 --> 00:50:55,040
Speaker 3: don do before. And I don't want to have to

1122
00:50:55,080 --> 00:50:57,239
Speaker 3: be necessarily the fact that me we copy here. It's

1123
00:50:57,280 --> 00:50:59,960
Speaker 3: that it's just a matter of me meet my own person.

1124
00:51:00,080 --> 00:51:03,240
Speaker 3: So in my own person, I would never I wouldn't

1125
00:51:03,239 --> 00:51:07,480
Speaker 3: have thought about trying new things like this in the country.

1126
00:51:08,800 --> 00:51:11,160
Speaker 1: Where where are you from?

1127
00:51:12,400 --> 00:51:13,120
Speaker 3: I'm prom italy?

1128
00:51:13,960 --> 00:51:15,319
Speaker 1: Oh why did you come here?

1129
00:51:16,960 --> 00:51:19,560
Speaker 3: I've met my wife on kick a long time ago.

1130
00:51:19,560 --> 00:51:22,960
Speaker 3: I don't know if you remember Kick that messaging.

1131
00:51:23,080 --> 00:51:27,000
Speaker 1: K I K yeah, k I K yeah whatever happened

1132
00:51:27,040 --> 00:51:29,160
Speaker 1: to Kick, bro, I don't know.

1133
00:51:29,239 --> 00:51:32,560
Speaker 3: I know it's still out there doing this thing. Who knows.

1134
00:51:32,760 --> 00:51:34,880
Speaker 3: I tried to get it back just for FUNDI, but

1135
00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:37,680
Speaker 3: it's just not the same anymore.

1136
00:51:38,160 --> 00:51:41,120
Speaker 1: But Kick is like but it's that's like saying I

1137
00:51:41,239 --> 00:51:44,640
Speaker 1: met my wife on Telegram or something, you know what

1138
00:51:44,640 --> 00:51:46,600
Speaker 1: I mean? Like, it's is Kick like a place where

1139
00:51:46,600 --> 00:51:49,080
Speaker 1: you Kick seems like a place where, like a messaging app,

1140
00:51:49,120 --> 00:51:51,080
Speaker 1: where you meet people that you are, where you talk

1141
00:51:51,120 --> 00:51:53,719
Speaker 1: to people who already know No, no.

1142
00:51:53,480 --> 00:51:55,719
Speaker 3: No, you're right, you're right. I mean I met her

1143
00:51:55,760 --> 00:51:59,520
Speaker 3: on Instagram, but then we've switched on Kick and talk

1144
00:51:59,560 --> 00:52:01,799
Speaker 3: started talking each other every day, and then from there

1145
00:52:01,840 --> 00:52:04,160
Speaker 3: we went from a meeting person and all that stuff

1146
00:52:04,200 --> 00:52:07,080
Speaker 3: and then in the end getting married wow and all

1147
00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:07,319
Speaker 3: of it.

1148
00:52:07,920 --> 00:52:12,040
Speaker 1: Wow. So okay, and you are from Italy and where?

1149
00:52:12,040 --> 00:52:12,960
Speaker 1: And she's an American?

1150
00:52:14,120 --> 00:52:15,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, she's an American. Wow.

1151
00:52:15,880 --> 00:52:18,400
Speaker 1: Okay, So you met on Instagram while you were living

1152
00:52:18,600 --> 00:52:20,520
Speaker 1: in where? Where? In Italy?

1153
00:52:21,040 --> 00:52:24,320
Speaker 3: I was living in close close to Naples, in a

1154
00:52:25,080 --> 00:52:26,239
Speaker 3: town close to Naples.

1155
00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:27,359
Speaker 1: And where was she living?

1156
00:52:28,400 --> 00:52:30,040
Speaker 3: She was living here in Florida.

1157
00:52:31,400 --> 00:52:35,680
Speaker 1: Oh okay? And what was the Instagram exchange?

1158
00:52:37,719 --> 00:52:39,439
Speaker 2: Uh?

1159
00:52:39,680 --> 00:52:41,680
Speaker 3: I don't know. You know, back then, back then, I

1160
00:52:41,760 --> 00:52:44,360
Speaker 3: used to be use a big social media guy. I

1161
00:52:44,520 --> 00:52:48,480
Speaker 3: used to I used to post shit about myself from

1162
00:52:48,600 --> 00:52:51,040
Speaker 3: me going to gym, me doing that, me doing that.

1163
00:52:51,320 --> 00:52:54,440
Speaker 3: And of course I was a pretty good, good looking

1164
00:52:54,440 --> 00:52:56,759
Speaker 3: guy back then, at least consider myself pretty good looking.

1165
00:52:56,760 --> 00:52:59,759
Speaker 3: Back then. I was confident enough that I was able

1166
00:52:59,760 --> 00:53:02,719
Speaker 3: to put some girls on that app on Instagram back then,

1167
00:53:02,719 --> 00:53:05,080
Speaker 3: and it was it was easier back then, and.

1168
00:53:06,040 --> 00:53:08,880
Speaker 1: It was it was easy. Why was it easier for

1169
00:53:08,920 --> 00:53:12,080
Speaker 1: you to Was it because of algorithm changes or did

1170
00:53:12,080 --> 00:53:12,680
Speaker 1: you get fat?

1171
00:53:15,719 --> 00:53:16,160
Speaker 2: I don't know.

1172
00:53:16,200 --> 00:53:19,080
Speaker 3: I just I feel like I was confident in myself

1173
00:53:19,120 --> 00:53:20,600
Speaker 3: mostly That's why I it was easier.

1174
00:53:21,200 --> 00:53:25,839
Speaker 1: Did yeah okay, okay, yeah okay, yeah. So you were

1175
00:53:25,840 --> 00:53:27,879
Speaker 1: like a fitness influencer kind of guy.

1176
00:53:28,200 --> 00:53:30,880
Speaker 3: No, no, no, no, no, no no no, I'm just a

1177
00:53:30,920 --> 00:53:34,600
Speaker 3: regular guy. Bro mm hmm, just a regular guy. But anyway,

1178
00:53:34,840 --> 00:53:37,160
Speaker 3: I know nothing even just from there, I just she

1179
00:53:37,320 --> 00:53:41,800
Speaker 3: caught my attention. Just we started talking. She was the one, actually,

1180
00:53:42,440 --> 00:53:44,680
Speaker 3: she was the one was the first thing, the first

1181
00:53:44,800 --> 00:53:47,640
Speaker 3: took the first step and act if we wanted to

1182
00:53:47,680 --> 00:53:49,759
Speaker 3: do something more, and then we went we went from

1183
00:53:49,800 --> 00:53:53,200
Speaker 3: there and then they did for for a couple of

1184
00:53:53,280 --> 00:53:55,680
Speaker 3: years and then go married. We've been married for ten years.

1185
00:53:55,960 --> 00:53:56,960
Speaker 3: It's gonna be ten years.

1186
00:53:57,160 --> 00:53:59,239
Speaker 1: Whoa, you've been married for ten years?

1187
00:53:59,800 --> 00:54:00,640
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1188
00:54:00,719 --> 00:54:02,799
Speaker 1: Holy shit? How how old are you?

1189
00:54:03,800 --> 00:54:04,360
Speaker 3: I'm thirty?

1190
00:54:05,200 --> 00:54:07,160
Speaker 1: Oh well, you guys got married when you were twenty.

1191
00:54:08,160 --> 00:54:09,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, on the early twenties. I know.

1192
00:54:10,080 --> 00:54:12,040
Speaker 1: Jeez, man, I know.

1193
00:54:13,560 --> 00:54:16,680
Speaker 3: Definitely a It's definitely a fucking wild ride. Brother.

1194
00:54:17,560 --> 00:54:20,839
Speaker 1: Wow. So when did you move to America?

1195
00:54:21,160 --> 00:54:23,000
Speaker 3: Moved to America back in twenty sixteen.

1196
00:54:23,800 --> 00:54:26,720
Speaker 1: Wow, so okay, so yeah, right when you got married?

1197
00:54:27,760 --> 00:54:27,960
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1198
00:54:28,040 --> 00:54:30,759
Speaker 3: Yeah. The funny thing is, I was waiting for some

1199
00:54:30,800 --> 00:54:32,840
Speaker 3: stuff for me to come over here in the state

1200
00:54:33,040 --> 00:54:36,799
Speaker 3: legally and stuff. I was I the meantime, I was

1201
00:54:36,960 --> 00:54:38,839
Speaker 3: I really about the tickets. I was already planning to

1202
00:54:38,840 --> 00:54:42,520
Speaker 3: come over here, get the wedding start and everything. And

1203
00:54:43,600 --> 00:54:47,760
Speaker 3: I literally got my paper to come over here literally

1204
00:54:47,920 --> 00:54:51,200
Speaker 3: the couple of days before my wedding. So let's say

1205
00:54:51,239 --> 00:54:53,719
Speaker 3: I didn't get the paper in Italy, I wouldn't be

1206
00:54:53,719 --> 00:54:56,000
Speaker 3: able to come over here and attend my wedding at all,

1207
00:54:56,040 --> 00:54:57,560
Speaker 3: because we planned it over here in the States, not

1208
00:54:57,560 --> 00:54:58,000
Speaker 3: in Italy.

1209
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:02,319
Speaker 1: And is she the same age as you?

1210
00:55:03,360 --> 00:55:05,960
Speaker 3: Yeah? Yeah, she'd say it to me. She's actually four months.

1211
00:55:07,680 --> 00:55:09,040
Speaker 1: Than cool.

1212
00:55:09,120 --> 00:55:09,359
Speaker 2: Cool.

1213
00:55:09,440 --> 00:55:11,960
Speaker 1: Yeah, And so what do you do? How often do

1214
00:55:11,960 --> 00:55:13,239
Speaker 1: you go back to the state. How often do you

1215
00:55:13,239 --> 00:55:14,120
Speaker 1: go back to Italy?

1216
00:55:15,320 --> 00:55:17,879
Speaker 3: I try to go back at least once a year.

1217
00:55:18,160 --> 00:55:21,960
Speaker 3: But we're planning to move there. I feel like it's

1218
00:55:21,960 --> 00:55:24,880
Speaker 3: a little over here. It's becoming a little too crazy

1219
00:55:25,040 --> 00:55:25,719
Speaker 3: for our case.

1220
00:55:26,680 --> 00:55:32,720
Speaker 1: WHOA really Yeah, see, Florida is the most American place,

1221
00:55:33,520 --> 00:55:36,359
Speaker 1: one might say, right, and.

1222
00:55:36,360 --> 00:55:39,239
Speaker 3: Actually, bro, I honestly don't blame you if you don't

1223
00:55:39,239 --> 00:55:43,160
Speaker 3: have any tour down here, because I checked your list

1224
00:55:43,160 --> 00:55:44,840
Speaker 3: and you know you don't have anything down here.

1225
00:55:45,640 --> 00:55:49,600
Speaker 1: Oh in Florida. Oh, there's no particular reason why. I

1226
00:55:49,640 --> 00:55:52,960
Speaker 1: don't know. Maybe I'll add something in Florida. Usually I'll

1227
00:55:53,000 --> 00:55:57,480
Speaker 1: do like Tampa, Orlando or something, or miamid something in Florida.

1228
00:55:57,600 --> 00:56:01,800
Speaker 1: But shit, man, maybe I'll add something in uh in Italy.

1229
00:56:01,960 --> 00:56:03,080
Speaker 1: I was wanting to do Rome.

1230
00:56:04,280 --> 00:56:08,240
Speaker 3: Shit. I know you were there for your schooling stuff, right, yeah.

1231
00:56:08,200 --> 00:56:10,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, Damn. I just can't believe I mentioned that. Yeah

1232
00:56:10,239 --> 00:56:13,319
Speaker 1: I did. I did stand up there like ten years

1233
00:56:13,360 --> 00:56:15,600
Speaker 1: ago something like that, when I was when I was studying.

1234
00:56:17,000 --> 00:56:18,879
Speaker 3: That's crazy. I probably was there at the same time

1235
00:56:18,880 --> 00:56:21,600
Speaker 3: as you and Rome, because by that period in twenty sixteen,

1236
00:56:22,680 --> 00:56:24,920
Speaker 3: I was in Rome as well. I wonder if I

1237
00:56:24,920 --> 00:56:30,480
Speaker 3: have will pass you totally well. Culture, What do I

1238
00:56:30,520 --> 00:56:35,200
Speaker 3: think about Italian culture? Yeah? Culture and food, dude, I.

1239
00:56:35,080 --> 00:56:37,960
Speaker 1: Love I actually I love Italian food. I love the

1240
00:56:38,600 --> 00:56:43,560
Speaker 1: all those pizzerias. I love the Iran Irancini all mine

1241
00:56:43,840 --> 00:56:45,839
Speaker 1: I had. I had a great time in Rome, man,

1242
00:56:45,880 --> 00:56:48,080
Speaker 1: I really did. That was kind of my first time

1243
00:56:48,239 --> 00:56:50,600
Speaker 1: like that. That was That was actually kind of where

1244
00:56:50,640 --> 00:56:52,960
Speaker 1: I first started like falling in love with like traveling

1245
00:56:53,040 --> 00:57:00,200
Speaker 1: and having like weird adventures and stuff. I don't time. Yeah,

1246
00:57:00,200 --> 00:57:02,120
Speaker 1: I missed. I miss uh Italy. I've been back to

1247
00:57:02,120 --> 00:57:04,200
Speaker 1: Europe a bunch of times, like do shows and stuff,

1248
00:57:04,200 --> 00:57:08,680
Speaker 1: but I have never been back to to to Italy since.

1249
00:57:10,520 --> 00:57:11,239
Speaker 3: Oh it's the shame.

1250
00:57:12,040 --> 00:57:14,080
Speaker 1: But people there had a good vibe. People that had

1251
00:57:14,120 --> 00:57:15,440
Speaker 1: a good vibe. I remember. I don't know if this

1252
00:57:15,520 --> 00:57:17,240
Speaker 1: was I don't know if this was like more reflective

1253
00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:20,120
Speaker 1: of like who I was at the time, or if

1254
00:57:20,120 --> 00:57:26,800
Speaker 1: it was more reflective of just like the the vibe

1255
00:57:26,840 --> 00:57:32,200
Speaker 1: of the place rather. But I found that people would

1256
00:57:32,240 --> 00:57:37,919
Speaker 1: talk to each other more on the subway and whatnot? Right?

1257
00:57:37,960 --> 00:57:40,520
Speaker 1: Do you feel that way like people see people in uh,

1258
00:57:40,760 --> 00:57:43,200
Speaker 1: Italy are a little bit more open, it seems th

1259
00:57:43,280 --> 00:57:45,280
Speaker 1: people in America? Is that Do you think that's true?

1260
00:57:45,520 --> 00:57:46,040
Speaker 1: That's true?

1261
00:57:46,480 --> 00:57:50,640
Speaker 3: Yeah, yes, yes it is. It's they're more like cordial

1262
00:57:50,760 --> 00:57:53,240
Speaker 3: over there. It's more about it's a lot that you

1263
00:57:53,280 --> 00:57:58,240
Speaker 3: care about, a lot about respect like there obviously always

1264
00:57:58,840 --> 00:58:01,760
Speaker 3: it always. It's also import and how you present yourself

1265
00:58:02,680 --> 00:58:06,360
Speaker 3: and stuff to them, you know, especially the old people

1266
00:58:06,520 --> 00:58:13,000
Speaker 3: over there that really uh you know niche about uh,

1267
00:58:15,160 --> 00:58:17,560
Speaker 3: just people in general. But he you know, I I

1268
00:58:17,600 --> 00:58:20,440
Speaker 3: agree with you, I agree with you, and over there

1269
00:58:20,440 --> 00:58:22,840
Speaker 3: a lot just slow paced. I don't know if you

1270
00:58:22,880 --> 00:58:25,000
Speaker 3: notice way more slow paced?

1271
00:58:26,080 --> 00:58:29,720
Speaker 1: Did did you fucking move from Naples, Italy and to Naples, Florida?

1272
00:58:31,160 --> 00:58:36,000
Speaker 3: Bro Brother? Close close enough, close enough, that's all I

1273
00:58:36,040 --> 00:58:36,520
Speaker 3: gotta say.

1274
00:58:37,240 --> 00:58:43,280
Speaker 1: Okay, that's that. That's a bit of a downgrade for Naples.

1275
00:58:44,560 --> 00:58:47,760
Speaker 3: I know, I don't know. Mama wife. You know, my wife,

1276
00:58:47,760 --> 00:58:49,200
Speaker 3: she shows that shit in my face every day. I

1277
00:58:49,240 --> 00:58:52,760
Speaker 3: don't have to, uh, I know, I know. She always

1278
00:58:52,760 --> 00:58:54,320
Speaker 3: tells me that she wants to get married in Italy.

1279
00:58:54,360 --> 00:58:55,960
Speaker 3: I don't, I don't. I don't blame her, but you know,

1280
00:58:56,000 --> 00:58:57,280
Speaker 3: back then we were sucking young. I don't want to

1281
00:58:57,320 --> 00:59:00,160
Speaker 3: come over here and live some life, live a different life.

1282
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Speaker 1: So you guys are gonna move to Italy. Are you

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Speaker 1: excited about that? Or are you gonna miss America?

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Speaker 3: I don't know. I'm excited because I'm gonna be with

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Speaker 3: my family. My whole family's over there. I'm the only

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Speaker 3: one over here, so that's the positive side. Also, I've

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Speaker 3: been doing more stuff because I've noticed that since I

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00:59:20,640 --> 00:59:24,120
Speaker 3: moved over here, then just the constant of fucking working, working,

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Speaker 3: go go home there, community games, eat dinner, go to gym,

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Speaker 3: fucking go to sleep, repeat, repeat, repeat, every fucking day.

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Speaker 3: I don't know. In Italy, I used to be able

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Speaker 3: to do more stuff. I used to be playing I

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00:59:40,440 --> 00:59:42,600
Speaker 3: used to play soccer a lot with my friends. My

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00:59:42,640 --> 00:59:46,400
Speaker 3: brothers used to go out just you know, for a

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Speaker 3: pizza or something, just to eat it out there on

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Speaker 3: the beach or all these little things. Bro. You know,

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Speaker 3: it makes you makes you miss it, of course, my home.

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Speaker 3: But I would also like it here. I want to

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Speaker 3: say I do like it. It's just it's more definitely

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01:00:03,440 --> 01:00:09,160
Speaker 3: a different, a different thing. It's like black and white.

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Speaker 3: So mm hmmm mm hmmmm.

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Speaker 1: Is your wife gonna work down in uh? Are you

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Speaker 1: guys moving to Naples? Like where in Italy are you going?

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Speaker 3: No, we're moving close to Naples, in a small town

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Speaker 3: where I used to be.

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Speaker 1: Oh, you're gonna you guys are moving to a small

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01:00:27,320 --> 01:00:29,080
Speaker 1: Italian town like your hometown.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that's her. We're not gonna be

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01:00:36,920 --> 01:00:38,640
Speaker 3: We're just gonna be there. We're just gonna be there

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Speaker 3: for the meantime because we're gonna have to steal my

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01:00:41,600 --> 01:00:44,640
Speaker 3: parents at least six months just trying to figure it out.

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Speaker 3: What's my job? But what's my What am I gonna do?

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Speaker 3: Job wise? And if we're gonna get end up getting

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Speaker 3: an apartment or house or anything like that, you know.

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Speaker 3: But she is not going to work over there. She's

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Speaker 3: gonna be a full time mother because we're planning to

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Speaker 3: have a kid over there.

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Speaker 1: Oh cool first one.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, very excited one. I am. I am. I'm

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Speaker 3: always excited about her. I'm excited about myself, and I'm

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Speaker 3: glad that we waited all this time because I feel

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01:01:12,560 --> 01:01:15,080
Speaker 3: like having a kid way too young and getting married

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01:01:15,080 --> 01:01:17,479
Speaker 3: too young is a really is I wat too much?

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01:01:18,360 --> 01:01:21,840
Speaker 3: Per se and having a kid just add more weight

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01:01:21,960 --> 01:01:26,360
Speaker 3: and more responsibilities. I really didn't feel like it wouldn't

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01:01:26,360 --> 01:01:29,040
Speaker 3: be good for us at the beginning. Nothing bad for

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Speaker 3: other people. I'm not just speaking for my own self,

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01:01:32,040 --> 01:01:35,000
Speaker 3: but yeah, but I'm definitely excited about it, and my

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01:01:35,040 --> 01:01:37,600
Speaker 3: wife is ready and I'm ready, and I think we're mature,

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Speaker 3: and you know, it's going to be nice to see

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Speaker 3: a little little Simon or little Ileana walking around house.

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Speaker 3: You know.

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Speaker 1: That'd be nice.

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Speaker 3: Man, mm hmmm.

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Speaker 1: So well, actually, I don't know if we got into this,

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Speaker 1: but did you uh uh mention a specific reason or

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Speaker 1: thing that you wanted to talk about? Are just kind

1338
01:02:01,640 --> 01:02:03,000
Speaker 1: of the ups and downs of life?

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Speaker 3: I just no, just I mean, like I said, it's

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Speaker 3: just it's there was the stuff that I tried over here,

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Speaker 3: and like also doing drugs. That was part of my

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Speaker 3: life too, A little bit of thought I did. And

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Speaker 3: this is my wife. She doesn't know. Luckily she doesn't

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Speaker 3: listen to this podcast. I did cooking. I never ever

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01:02:27,840 --> 01:02:30,320
Speaker 3: thought of my life could be cooking, but I tried it.

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Speaker 3: It was fun and that's it. And currently I'm we're

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Speaker 3: doing just we're just smoking a pan, me and my wife.

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Speaker 3: My wife She was always against this kind of stuff,

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Speaker 3: and now she ends up doing the same thing I do.

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Speaker 3: She kind of accepted it, and she like that now

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01:02:47,120 --> 01:02:48,880
Speaker 3: she enjoyed it. You know, we do it every time

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01:02:49,000 --> 01:02:52,320
Speaker 3: played from art Credit, Fortnite and Night with the Family

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01:02:52,360 --> 01:02:58,160
Speaker 3: and this end of the time. Oh yeah, but yeah,

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Speaker 3: quite quite the new ship.

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Speaker 1: So she doesn't know that you once did cocaine.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmm.

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Speaker 1: No, she will when she she would kill you. How

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Speaker 1: long ago did you do it?

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Speaker 3: How long I was?

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Speaker 2: No?

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Speaker 3: I was not nothing crazy. It was literally just maybe

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Speaker 3: I tried it for like maybe four times in a

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Speaker 3: span of two months.

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Speaker 1: No, I mean how long ago was it? It's not

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Speaker 1: like you did cocaine last Thursday.

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Speaker 3: Oh it was a couple of years ago. It was

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Speaker 3: a couple of years ago. Okay, Yeah, nothing crazy m hm.

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Speaker 1: And yeah, so you guys, you guys are pen hitters.

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Speaker 3: You were were pen hitters. I used to be a

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Speaker 3: I give up. I gave up on the the with

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Speaker 3: that thing that you smoked, the pipe because I end

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01:03:47,400 --> 01:03:51,080
Speaker 3: up getting obliterated on that mother Parker end. And you

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Speaker 3: don't want to see me like that, bro. Honestly, my

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01:03:53,120 --> 01:03:54,800
Speaker 3: wife she's seen enough.

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Speaker 1: Now when you guys, go to Italy, you're gonna have

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Speaker 1: to give up the drugs. I think. I think it's

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Speaker 1: pretty illegal there and know that.

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Speaker 3: You know what, I don't give a fuck. It's whatever

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01:04:07,400 --> 01:04:10,680
Speaker 3: life comes and goes, and honestly, I think it will be.

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Speaker 3: We be better off without it, especially if're gonna planning

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Speaker 3: to have a kid anyway, so kind of gotta be responsible.

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Speaker 1: It's not true, it's true. It's true. It's true.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, what about you. My name is Simon.

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Speaker 1: Simon, Simon Cowell. Dude, cool. Does your wife speak Italian?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, she's actually she's more like uh and uh. She

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01:04:39,800 --> 01:04:41,960
Speaker 3: she understands it more than she speaks it. She can

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Speaker 3: speak it. She's just really shy and she really felt

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Speaker 3: aware of herself. She's like, dude, I started, I started.

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Speaker 3: I do the same fucking thing. I used to do

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01:04:51,040 --> 01:04:54,520
Speaker 3: the same thing with English. I've just got out I

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01:04:54,760 --> 01:04:56,920
Speaker 3: especially when I moved over here. I had to deal

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Speaker 3: with it. I had to start speaking with people, and

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01:04:59,760 --> 01:05:01,840
Speaker 3: she I am, I'm pretty sure you can steak you

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01:05:01,840 --> 01:05:03,840
Speaker 3: a little bit of my accent, but there's nothing I

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01:05:03,840 --> 01:05:04,080
Speaker 3: can do.

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Speaker 1: I thought, I actually I thought you were like Latin American.

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01:05:13,440 --> 01:05:15,000
Speaker 3: Oh boy, even on the phone.

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Speaker 1: Oh no, do you get this a lot?

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01:05:18,280 --> 01:05:19,040
Speaker 2: Oh? My god?

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01:05:19,120 --> 01:05:21,000
Speaker 3: Brother? So they you just look at me, and they

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01:05:21,000 --> 01:05:24,000
Speaker 3: are actually a few matematically domagic Cuban Argentinian.

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01:05:24,560 --> 01:05:27,920
Speaker 1: Well it's well, dude, I mean you're you're you live

1403
01:05:27,960 --> 01:05:31,120
Speaker 1: in fucking Florida. I feel like Italians are not like

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01:05:31,160 --> 01:05:35,240
Speaker 1: I mean, Italian Americans are are rampant amongst America, but

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01:05:35,320 --> 01:05:39,240
Speaker 1: I like Italian Italians are not. Really. Uh oh yeah,

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01:05:39,320 --> 01:05:42,680
Speaker 1: I know, I know around Yeah.

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01:05:43,400 --> 01:05:45,280
Speaker 3: Do you know any curse ward in Italian?

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01:05:47,200 --> 01:05:48,280
Speaker 1: I know Alfan Coulo.

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01:05:49,360 --> 01:05:54,560
Speaker 3: Oh good one. Okay, that's it.

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01:05:54,640 --> 01:05:56,400
Speaker 1: Do you guys, if you want to teach me before

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01:05:56,440 --> 01:05:58,760
Speaker 1: we go, hit me with a couple, I.

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01:05:58,800 --> 01:06:04,680
Speaker 3: Can teach you. Uh thronso Petrda. The worst one is

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01:06:04,720 --> 01:06:08,880
Speaker 3: port cordeo. But that's for people that you know are religious.

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01:06:10,160 --> 01:06:12,840
Speaker 1: That's that's God as a pig, right.

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01:06:13,880 --> 01:06:17,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's got my favorite one. Another lie or cordeo

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01:06:17,400 --> 01:06:18,840
Speaker 3: orc something like that.

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01:06:19,120 --> 01:06:20,280
Speaker 1: Okay, what are the man?

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01:06:21,680 --> 01:06:25,440
Speaker 3: The ocanan means it's basically calling God a.

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01:06:25,040 --> 01:06:27,920
Speaker 1: Dog, pretty much, come of a dog?

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01:06:28,800 --> 01:06:31,080
Speaker 3: No, no, calling God a dog pretty much.

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01:06:32,240 --> 01:06:35,640
Speaker 1: Okay, So these are mainly just curses towards God.

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01:06:37,000 --> 01:06:40,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, bro, in my language, in my dialect, we have

1423
01:06:40,320 --> 01:06:43,320
Speaker 3: so many curse words. We can literally just start cursing

1424
01:06:43,320 --> 01:06:47,000
Speaker 3: your ancestors and your mother's incestors and all that bullshit.

1425
01:06:47,760 --> 01:06:49,160
Speaker 3: It's crazy. My language is crazy.

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01:06:50,120 --> 01:06:57,439
Speaker 1: Well, Simon, personally, I hope your answer. Ancestors are doing great?

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Speaker 2: You bro?

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01:06:58,080 --> 01:07:00,400
Speaker 1: Course, what the fuck is there anything us you want

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Speaker 1: to say to the people of the computer before we go?

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Speaker 3: Ah, enjoy life and just be kind. I thank you

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01:07:09,440 --> 01:07:10,360
Speaker 3: for thinking my call. Brother.

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Speaker 1: Hey, of course, man, get bless yet blessed brother. Yes,

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01:07:14,280 --> 01:07:21,040
Speaker 1: Simon forever, Simon forever. Recon goes on the line taking

1434
01:07:21,120 --> 01:07:25,120
Speaker 1: your phone calls every night. Deacon goes to side. You're

1435
01:07:25,160 --> 01:07:28,760
Speaker 1: just teaching you a loud your life. Monday's not really

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Speaker 1: an expert.