WEBVTT - THE PILONIDAL CYST

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, Hello, Hey, what's up?

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<v Speaker 2>Hey? How you doing as this?

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<v Speaker 1>Nathan?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Yeah, yeah, it is methan.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh Nathan, what are you? What are you doing?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>Nothing much. I'm just just just hanging out with my family.

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<v Speaker 4>Uh.

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<v Speaker 2>I just decided to call in about uh, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>like you know, you know, I've been having this gas

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<v Speaker 2>since I was a kid, and you know it's it's

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<v Speaker 2>it's put a damper on some of my relationships.

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<v Speaker 1>Gas. What kind of gas? You mean? Like flatulence?

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<v Speaker 2>Like ass gas? Yeah, flatulence?

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<v Speaker 1>Ask Okay, listen before I need to know this before

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<v Speaker 1>we get and it's okay. If the answer is yes,

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<v Speaker 1>we can still have the conversation. But I just need

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<v Speaker 1>to know before we dive into this. Are you fucking

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<v Speaker 1>with me?

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<v Speaker 2>No? I'm not, No, not at all.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you promise I swear, I swear swear you're not

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<v Speaker 1>with me.

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<v Speaker 2>I promise I'm not fucking with you?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, because I read the whole family recognized your whole

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<v Speaker 1>family is what.

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<v Speaker 2>They've They've called it a problem of mine as well,

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<v Speaker 2>even some of my teachers throughout school.

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<v Speaker 1>Where are you right now? Do you live alone?

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<v Speaker 2>No? No, at the moment, I'm living with my mom my,

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<v Speaker 2>sister and my niece.

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<v Speaker 1>Can I talk to your mom?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Yeah, he wantn't.

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<v Speaker 5>Talk to you.

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<v Speaker 6>Hello?

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 7>My name is Mace's mom. I probably can.

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<v Speaker 1>Double m Your son tells me that he has a

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<v Speaker 1>flatulence problem? Would you say that that is accurate?

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<v Speaker 8>No?

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<v Speaker 7>I got it is perfectly your accurate and then some

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<v Speaker 7>And honestly, I think this could be maintained with diet control.

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<v Speaker 7>But he just loves to eat all the crappy foods.

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<v Speaker 1>What does he eat?

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<v Speaker 7>Oh, we're talking ice cream, dairy burgers, all the things

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<v Speaker 7>that cheese, all these things that just really irritates his

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<v Speaker 7>bowels more. And you know it's it. Sometimes he can

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<v Speaker 7>clear a room house.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually what now, I'm kind of now hold on all right,

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<v Speaker 1>so and just bear with me on this. You know

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<v Speaker 1>how your farts smell kind of good, not good, but

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<v Speaker 1>like you you know what I mean, you know what

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<v Speaker 1>I mean. I do have to explain this.

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<v Speaker 7>They're acceptable to me. I think that's okay.

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<v Speaker 1>Right. So the fact that so, like when my mom farts,

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<v Speaker 1>it smells bad, But is there a thing where like

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<v Speaker 1>because I don't know, is there a thing that like,

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<v Speaker 1>because your son came out of you and has similar

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<v Speaker 1>biology whatever, chromosome, you know, all that stuff. Is it possible?

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<v Speaker 1>Does do any do his farts? Not one hundred percent,

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<v Speaker 1>but at least half of them smell good to you?

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<v Speaker 2>Not at all, not at all.

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<v Speaker 7>In fact, sometimes I can't stand my own I am

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<v Speaker 7>very conscientious and mindful about what I eat, specifically for

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<v Speaker 7>that reason.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, the call screener when they were writing down notes

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<v Speaker 1>on Mason, they wrote that Mason told them that he

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<v Speaker 1>farts at least what does it fit? Hold on, hold on,

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<v Speaker 1>let me pull this up real quick. Uh, wait a minute,

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<v Speaker 1>he said fifteen times a day. That's not that bad.

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<v Speaker 1>He far He's got a far way more than fifteen

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<v Speaker 1>times a day.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I think that is some some I think that's

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<v Speaker 7>simply super modest.

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<v Speaker 1>Honest, he's uh, he's fudging the numbers one.

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<v Speaker 7>Big times, big time.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, yeah, okay, So have you talked to Mason about

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<v Speaker 1>a you know, I don't know, eating better or oh.

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<v Speaker 7>Definitely eating When he was younger, you know, I would

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<v Speaker 7>try and control the onches we packed and the kind

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<v Speaker 7>of food ta And now that he's older, it's just

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<v Speaker 7>it's it's ridiculous. I mean, he does what he wants.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you guys have a yard or or a front

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<v Speaker 1>porch or something somewhere, some space that Mason could claim

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<v Speaker 1>as his own to fart in, and a deal everyone

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<v Speaker 1>would stay out of that space and leave him alone

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<v Speaker 1>in that space. But he can fart.

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<v Speaker 7>There, absolutely that. I think timeliness is the problem. Getting

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<v Speaker 7>from point A to point B in a timely manner,

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<v Speaker 7>that's the problem.

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<v Speaker 1>So the farts that he can't even hold them in,

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<v Speaker 1>they just rock it out of his ass against his

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<v Speaker 1>own will.

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<v Speaker 6>Yes, yes, yes.

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<v Speaker 1>And has he been doing this since he was a

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<v Speaker 1>young child or is this a recent thing? Oh?

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, no, no, no, this has always been always This

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<v Speaker 7>is just one of those things. I think he's lactose intolerant.

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<v Speaker 7>I don't think beef and meats agree with his He

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<v Speaker 7>is diet well, I don't know. Definitely the dairy though,

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<v Speaker 7>that's a huge factor.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, missus mom, thank you very much for talking to

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<v Speaker 1>me about this. I'm gonna I'm gonna wrap.

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<v Speaker 8>Up real question.

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<v Speaker 3>Yep, yep.

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<v Speaker 1>Here he is Mason. Hello, Mason, would you look man here,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to level with you here because I you know,

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<v Speaker 1>all the stuff that your mom says that you shouldn't

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<v Speaker 1>be eating is like, I mean, she described my diet

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<v Speaker 1>as well. So I'm not gonna you know, I'm not

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<v Speaker 1>going to preach to you.

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<v Speaker 2>So do you have a guest too?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? Extremely? Would you have you ever farted in your

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<v Speaker 1>mom's face?

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<v Speaker 2>No? No, no, but like I farted like bad enough

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<v Speaker 2>to where it was like like it punched her in

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<v Speaker 2>the face, Like I did.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, would you concede to at least going outside

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<v Speaker 1>next time you fart so that she doesn't have to

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<v Speaker 1>deal with it? Would you do that for your mom?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Yeah, you know I've tried doing that. You know

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<v Speaker 2>what is you know what about when I'm sleeping?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, okay, you can get a pass when you're sleeping,

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<v Speaker 1>But I mean, how far away are you guys's.

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<v Speaker 2>Bedrooms downstairs and upstairs and it's just like a straight channel?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah all right?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh, I mean, look, it seems like a problem that

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<v Speaker 1>can be solved by you sort of claiming your own

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<v Speaker 1>territory farting and hopefully respecting that territory.

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<v Speaker 2>That's true, that's true. I guess I just gotta, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>take that that extra time and not be lazy and

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<v Speaker 2>just kind of take other people's senses, you know, such

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<v Speaker 2>a smell into consideration before I decide to you know, fart.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, absolutely, I'm glad we could come to a breakthrough here, Mason.

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you calling in. You have good rest of

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<v Speaker 1>the night.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes, you too, got go.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I believe Mason's mom when she says that

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<v Speaker 1>Mason's farts don't smell good to her. But it kind

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<v Speaker 1>of bums me out that I my scientific analysis wasn't right,

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<v Speaker 1>because it's sounds right like if I feel like it

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<v Speaker 1>would make sense that if you bear a child, the

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<v Speaker 1>child's farts would smell good to you in the same

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<v Speaker 1>way that your farts smell. Okay, maybe as as his

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<v Speaker 1>mom said, tolerable. Maybe maybe good is too much of

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<v Speaker 1>a word. But I don't know that would make sense,

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<v Speaker 1>and it bothers me that it's probably not true.

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<v Speaker 4>Yo.

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<v Speaker 1>One of my fucking ah God, sorry, if I look

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<v Speaker 1>like common pain, one of my toes is uh like

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<v Speaker 1>it won't go up, like there's some sort of muscular

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<v Speaker 1>atrophy in my toe. It won't. You know, how you

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<v Speaker 1>can take your toe and you can like go like that,

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<v Speaker 1>whether you can lift I can't lift up my toe.

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<v Speaker 1>Any medical experts in the chat know how long I

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<v Speaker 1>have left to live with this toe thing. I should

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<v Speaker 1>get it cut off? Well, that would solve the problem.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess. Let's sick A phone call? Hello, Hey, Hi,

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<v Speaker 1>is this Chase? That's me?

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<v Speaker 8>How are you doing?

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<v Speaker 1>Get Chase? I'm doing pretty well. Actually my toe thing

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<v Speaker 1>has gotten mildly better, although I need to see a

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<v Speaker 1>doctor because I've I've been eating very shittily and it

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<v Speaker 1>could be diabetes. But who knows enough about me and

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<v Speaker 1>my things? What's going on with you? Chase?

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<v Speaker 8>So I got pretty hurt a few years ago. I

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<v Speaker 8>got I with a little context. I play Alert. It's

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<v Speaker 8>a full contact sport. We play with like big foam swords,

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<v Speaker 8>and it's kind of like Lord of the Rings, but

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<v Speaker 8>you know, with foam and broke my nose had two

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<v Speaker 8>really black eyes, to the point where I couldn't see

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<v Speaker 8>for about a day and a half because they were

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<v Speaker 8>I lost a lot of my memory, like my short

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<v Speaker 8>term memory is it's garbage, and I've lost about eight

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<v Speaker 8>years of my life, like my childhood. I can't remember.

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<v Speaker 8>And I want to get back to playing the game again.

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<v Speaker 8>But every time I pick up a sword, it's just

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<v Speaker 8>like I'm in that moment again, and I'm not sure.

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<v Speaker 8>I'm not sure how to get past that.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting you lost eight years of memory, so when the

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<v Speaker 1>accident happens, you can no longer remember eight years of

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<v Speaker 1>your childhood.

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<v Speaker 8>Approximately between ages eight to well, now I would say

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<v Speaker 8>they're like ten to fourteen. No, I'm sorry, my math

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<v Speaker 8>is bad.

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<v Speaker 9>Eight to sixteen?

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<v Speaker 1>Eight to sixteen? And did the accident happen when you

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<v Speaker 1>were sixteen?

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<v Speaker 8>It happens when I was Oh gosh, how old am

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<v Speaker 8>I twenty one?

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<v Speaker 1>Have your twilet? That's so interesting that the accident affected

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<v Speaker 1>such a specific age range.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, so I worked with a neurologist for maybe two

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<v Speaker 8>or three months. That doesn't really sound like too long,

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<v Speaker 8>but you know, they did mririse and they looked through

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<v Speaker 8>and they're like, hey, I mean you look all right.

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<v Speaker 8>There's definitely a little bit of damage, but as long

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<v Speaker 8>as you don't get hit like that, you'll be all right.

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<v Speaker 8>And then when I asked about my memory, they kind

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<v Speaker 8>of shrugged and it's like, well, you know, maybe it'll

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<v Speaker 8>come back, maybe it won't. Okay, cool, awesome.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, look on the bright side, I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>there's a lot of people out there that wish that

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<v Speaker 1>they couldn't remember the ages of you know, twelve to fourteen,

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<v Speaker 1>and at the very least, you know, that's totally fair.

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<v Speaker 8>I'm sure there are a blunch of things, like there

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<v Speaker 8>are definitely some things that people have told me who

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<v Speaker 8>knew me around that time, like in middle and high school,

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<v Speaker 8>where they're like, oh, yeah, no, I did this one

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<v Speaker 8>like embarrassing or terrible thing, Like well, I mean if

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<v Speaker 8>I did anything like that, you.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't even remember. That's pretty good. You don't remember the

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<v Speaker 1>embarrassing stuff that you did when you were.

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<v Speaker 8>Twelve exactly exactly, and we all do embarrassing things when

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<v Speaker 8>we're that age.

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<v Speaker 1>So do what about? So I'm curious, So did you

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<v Speaker 1>attempt to put the pieces back together of ages eight

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<v Speaker 1>to sixteen by talking to other people in your life?

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<v Speaker 1>Did they help you remember things from that time?

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<v Speaker 8>So I'm not in contact with many people that I

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<v Speaker 8>went to school with, Like some of the people that

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<v Speaker 8>I did go to school with do play the same game,

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<v Speaker 8>And I have asked them a few questions and they've

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<v Speaker 8>helped fill a few gaps. I've asked my mom. Apparently

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<v Speaker 8>I was a little uh, I was a rebellious child apparently,

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<v Speaker 8>and which I totally believe. So my mom's like, oh, yeah,

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<v Speaker 8>you never really told me anything. I don't really remember

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<v Speaker 8>anything around then except for what happened around me.

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<v Speaker 9>Which is totally fair.

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<v Speaker 8>I did ask her if my memory was always as

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<v Speaker 8>bad because for a few years, because I asked her

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<v Speaker 8>this very recently, like last month, like, Hey, has my

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<v Speaker 8>memory always just been this bad? Like no, absolutely not,

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<v Speaker 8>which is a little concerning in itself. But I've you know,

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<v Speaker 8>let's put together a few things like I was in theaters,

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<v Speaker 8>which like I do remember snippets and I do like

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<v Speaker 8>I've been working with a human therapist for the past

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<v Speaker 8>few months for this as well as a few other things,

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<v Speaker 8>and we've been we've been able to kind of re

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<v Speaker 8>kind of excavate some of the memories.

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<v Speaker 1>What is it? What does that process of excavation look like?

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<v Speaker 8>So what they do is they'll ask very general questions like, Hey,

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<v Speaker 8>where did you go to school and what did you

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<v Speaker 8>like to like how did you dress? And what were

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<v Speaker 8>your friends like stuff like that, like what did you

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<v Speaker 8>do in your spare time? And depending on my answer,

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<v Speaker 8>she would go a little little deeper, like where did

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<v Speaker 8>I get the clothes? And like who bought them for me?

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<v Speaker 1>Stuff like interesting? So very like, I mean, these are like,

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<v Speaker 1>these are very very specific questions. Like even if I,

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<v Speaker 1>even if I didn't have memory loss, probably couldn't answ

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<v Speaker 1>or some of these questions about certain times.

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<v Speaker 8>That's fair.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't remember what the fuck I wore, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>two days ago.

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<v Speaker 8>Ah, now that I think about it, I don't think

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<v Speaker 8>I did either. Probably the same thing I'm wearing now,

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<v Speaker 8>not to sound like gross, like not the exactly the same. Oh,

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<v Speaker 8>look something similar, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Look I've been wearing. This is not a joke, This

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<v Speaker 1>is not a lie. This is a reality of my life.

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<v Speaker 1>I think I've been wearing the same pair of jeans

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<v Speaker 1>every day for at least a month.

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<v Speaker 8>Okay, So I was actually recently told that that is

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<v Speaker 8>actually the point of denam. So if anybody tells you

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<v Speaker 8>that you're gross for wearing the same pair of jeans

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<v Speaker 8>for like over a month, and tell them that that's

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<v Speaker 8>just how they keep their.

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<v Speaker 1>Shape, you might be my favorite caller in the history

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<v Speaker 1>of this entire stream.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh, I'm so glad to hear that, But thank you

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<v Speaker 8>very much for saying that.

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<v Speaker 1>That's that's the most incredibly rare sharing because I it

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<v Speaker 1>took I was considering not not telling anyone that because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not joking, right, I mean, I mean I acknowledge

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<v Speaker 1>that it's funny, but I it's might be over a month.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean it's the same pair. I guess I only

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<v Speaker 1>got one pair of jeans that that fits me now,

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<v Speaker 1>so it's I've been wearing that one for at least

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<v Speaker 1>a month and a half. I mean, if it.

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<v Speaker 8>If it makes you I know you said you were

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<v Speaker 8>already reassured, but if it does make you feel better,

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<v Speaker 8>I don't wear them consecutively, but I definitely yes, chat

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<v Speaker 8>is gonna be really gross. I try to wear my

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<v Speaker 8>jeans at least three or four times before they're washed,

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<v Speaker 8>or if they just get like really snowy, I will

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<v Speaker 8>wash them. But you know, you gotta you gotta keep

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<v Speaker 8>their you gotta keep their shape.

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<v Speaker 7>Man.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, what's your opinion on underwear? How many times in

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<v Speaker 1>a row can you wear a pair of underwear?

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<v Speaker 8>It depends, it really really depends. Like I train at

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<v Speaker 8>the gym, I cannot rewear those. That's just that's just

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<v Speaker 8>a one way street to east infections. But if say,

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<v Speaker 8>like you know, you put on a pair of pants

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<v Speaker 8>or excusing part underwear and you're just lazing about being

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<v Speaker 8>bed for a day and then you have like work

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<v Speaker 8>the next day.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's a changing you put it.

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<v Speaker 8>You can take a shower, like I highly recommend changing him.

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<v Speaker 8>But like you know, it's okay as long as you

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<v Speaker 8>don't sweat. As long as they don't smell you's good.

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<v Speaker 1>I agree. I agree A day is a man made

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<v Speaker 1>concept and it doesn't have any actual effect on the

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<v Speaker 1>underwear itself. So I agree with you that unless if

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<v Speaker 1>there was strenuous activity that you know, uh, drenched the

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<v Speaker 1>underwear and sweat, then you know you should be able

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<v Speaker 1>to wear it for as long as you know, until

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<v Speaker 1>it wears out. Anyway, what the what if you don't

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<v Speaker 1>mind me asking what was the accident? I know you don't,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, do you do? You do you even know? Oh?

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<v Speaker 8>Absolutely so. It was actually out of practice for the

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<v Speaker 8>larp we were lined up. It was about I think

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<v Speaker 8>we had like twelve ish people at the practice. There

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<v Speaker 8>are about five people on each side in what's called

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<v Speaker 8>a line fight or a ditch. I was my partner

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<v Speaker 8>at the time, and I were training to you know,

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<v Speaker 8>like kind of be you know, partners on field. We

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<v Speaker 8>were working on teamwork. So I was at one side

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<v Speaker 8>of his and I was trying a new kit so

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<v Speaker 8>like a sword in a shield, and he had a

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<v Speaker 8>two handed sword. And I had gotten a wound on

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<v Speaker 8>my leg like in game. So when you get a

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<v Speaker 8>wound on your leg, you either you stand in one

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<v Speaker 8>place or you kneel. So I decided to kneel. I

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<v Speaker 8>was going to protect his flank with my sword or

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<v Speaker 8>excuse me, with my shield, and he would protect my

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<v Speaker 8>sword side. He throws a shot that kind of goes

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<v Speaker 8>in a U shape, so it goes down and then

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<v Speaker 8>like through the other side, his sword goes a little

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<v Speaker 8>too far down, ricochets off the off of the grass

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<v Speaker 8>and just straight into my snaws like booger machine broke.

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<v Speaker 1>You know.

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<v Speaker 8>At that point, I had no idea what had happened.

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<v Speaker 8>One one minute, I was holding this barred sword and shield.

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<v Speaker 8>Next time, the next thing I knew, I was looking

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<v Speaker 8>at my lacrosse gloves and they were, you know, covered

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<v Speaker 8>in blood, and I remember thinking like, oh, I don't

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<v Speaker 8>remember this having blood when I bought them at the

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<v Speaker 8>plate again. And then we had a an E. M. T.

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<v Speaker 8>Who was also playing with us.

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<v Speaker 10>And he.

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<v Speaker 8>Kind of like he kind of like strolls up to

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<v Speaker 8>He's like, hey man, he's good. I look out up

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<v Speaker 8>at him.

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<v Speaker 9>I was like, yeah, I'm good.

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<v Speaker 8>He needs to take a weights for me, and he's like,

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<v Speaker 8>maybe you should go sit down. So I go sit

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<v Speaker 8>down on the bench. He you know, does his whole

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<v Speaker 8>like triage, like, hey, how many fingers am I holding up?

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<v Speaker 8>We ears it, all that good stuff, and you know,

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<v Speaker 8>answered his questions and he's like, all right, I can't

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<v Speaker 8>do anything here. I don't have any of my equipment.

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<v Speaker 8>You should go to an urgent care. So the people

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<v Speaker 8>I went with drove me to an urgent care. They

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<v Speaker 8>were it was maybe six pm at this point. We

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<v Speaker 8>rolled up. They were just about the clothes and they're like,

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<v Speaker 8>hey man, we gotta go home. We're real tired. Go

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<v Speaker 8>to the ear. And at this point I'm extremely delirious,

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<v Speaker 8>very concussed, no real awareness of how can cussed I am.

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<v Speaker 8>So I was like, okay, yeah, sure, whatever you say.

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<v Speaker 10>So at this.

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<v Speaker 8>Point I don't remember who contacted my parents. I think

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<v Speaker 8>it was my partner because they were pretty close at

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<v Speaker 8>the time too, and so they picked me up. They

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<v Speaker 8>dropped me off at the ER. I don't exactly remember

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<v Speaker 8>what happened at the ER. I just remember them saying like, hey,

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<v Speaker 8>you should probably get your your nose set so your

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<v Speaker 8>septum doesn't mess with you in the future. Like, okay, cool,

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<v Speaker 8>are you guys going to do that?

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<v Speaker 9>They were supposed to.

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<v Speaker 8>They didn't.

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<v Speaker 1>They just didn't do it.

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<v Speaker 8>No, so now I have made in this.

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<v Speaker 1>Sorry, you're having a lot more trouble than I would

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<v Speaker 1>have hoped finding medical attention.

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<v Speaker 8>They didn't do too terribly much. They just kind of

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<v Speaker 8>looked at me and they're like, yep, that's broken, and

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<v Speaker 8>then sent me home. Wow, and then they take me

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<v Speaker 8>like fifteen hundred dollars or something.

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<v Speaker 1>Really, they just looked at you and they build you

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<v Speaker 1>fifteen hundred.

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<v Speaker 8>Bucks basically, so hold on.

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<v Speaker 1>So, just to reiterate apologies for the graphic content. Warning,

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<v Speaker 1>uh do do? Did the fucking sword just went up

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<v Speaker 1>your nose?

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<v Speaker 11>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>What? What? Where was the impact?

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<v Speaker 8>The impact was about it's across the bridge of my nose.

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<v Speaker 8>Where about Like imagine a line from the corner of

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<v Speaker 8>your right eye up towards your left temple, So it's

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<v Speaker 8>right smack dab on the bridge of my sholes. Wow,

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<v Speaker 8>and I have I actually have a little uh nerve damage.

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<v Speaker 8>Like I can feel when things like poke, say, like

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<v Speaker 8>the feet. It was like the tip of my nose

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<v Speaker 8>all the way up the bridge to a litttle bit

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<v Speaker 8>of my left eyebrow. I just I can't really. I

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<v Speaker 8>can feel when things touch it, but that's that's about it.

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<v Speaker 8>Like the and feel cold or hot. I can feel

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<v Speaker 8>a little bit of the tangle when it's supposed to hurt, but.

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<v Speaker 5>That's about it.

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<v Speaker 1>And you're you can barely breathe through.

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<v Speaker 8>Your nuts, so it's like a twenty eighty favoring the

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<v Speaker 8>right nostril.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, did your partner feel and your partner was his

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<v Speaker 1>sword that struck you?

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>How did he feel about this? Was he like?

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<v Speaker 5>Was he?

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<v Speaker 1>Does he feel guilty?

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<v Speaker 2>Like?

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<v Speaker 1>What are his thoughts? Are you still with him?

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<v Speaker 8>No, so we're still it's a little complicated with him.

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<v Speaker 8>I still care about him. I consider him one of

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<v Speaker 8>my like I still care about him a lot. I

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<v Speaker 8>know he still cares about me. At the time, Oh

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<v Speaker 8>my gosh, he felt so freaking dad. I felt I

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<v Speaker 8>felt bad for how bad he felt. One of his

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<v Speaker 8>main concerns was, uh, he's like Oh my god, your

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<v Speaker 8>dad's gonna hate me all of this. And I looked

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<v Speaker 8>at him like, buddy, boy, my dad's gonna think it's hilarious.

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<v Speaker 8>And he did.

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<v Speaker 1>He thought it was he thought it was funny.

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<v Speaker 9>Oh my god.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah. I mean it is like I'm out here playing

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<v Speaker 8>dork swords, you know, based off of Lord of the Rings.

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<v Speaker 1>And face gets rocked.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah. Like, that's one of the funniest things. I cherished,

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<v Speaker 8>this memory. That's one of the funniest things that's ever

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<v Speaker 8>happened to me.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I'm glad that you have a good attitude about it.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, all all positives, you get a funny story,

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<v Speaker 1>you get to forget what it was like when you

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<v Speaker 1>were a stupid kid. Yeah. I guess the only thing

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<v Speaker 1>is that you have this. I guess you could call

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<v Speaker 1>it PTSD whatever from from LARPing. Do you think the

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<v Speaker 1>you will larp again? Or are you or have you retired?

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<v Speaker 8>So I do still go to events, like I keep

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<v Speaker 8>I keep active as much as I can, Like I

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<v Speaker 8>sew a lot, so I make garb like tunics and

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<v Speaker 8>cloaks and quilt and stuff like that. But when it

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<v Speaker 8>comes to fighting, I think I've only fought at an

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<v Speaker 8>event maybe twice since then, it's been about I want

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<v Speaker 8>to stay with five six years since I broke my nose,

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<v Speaker 8>and I can spar like there's it depends on who

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<v Speaker 8>I'm sparring like. I can't spar certain people, but there

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<v Speaker 8>are some times where I can just suck it up

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<v Speaker 8>and be like, all right, I do want to fight.

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<v Speaker 8>I want to get on field. I want to be

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<v Speaker 8>this bad ass like warrior chick.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, Well, it's cool that you got the Oh

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<v Speaker 1>I was just gonna say, it's cool that you've got

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<v Speaker 1>the whole the sewing thing because you get to stay

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<v Speaker 1>involved with the community even though and not at the fight.

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<v Speaker 12>Oh.

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<v Speaker 8>Absolutely, And I'm very I'm very thankful for that, and

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<v Speaker 8>it's one of my It's one of my favorite pastimes.

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<v Speaker 9>Like I sew.

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<v Speaker 8>Almost every day now, even if it's just like practicing

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<v Speaker 8>selling straight lines.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, watch out for that needle. What did you say

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<v Speaker 1>your name was?

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<v Speaker 8>My name is Chase.

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<v Speaker 1>Chase. Thank you very much for sharing your story. Is

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<v Speaker 1>there anything else you want to say before we Before

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<v Speaker 1>we go?

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<v Speaker 8>I hope you have a great night, and I enjoy

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<v Speaker 8>I enjoy the way that your podcast is edited. I

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<v Speaker 8>think it's quite lovely, and your screener is very lovely

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<v Speaker 8>as well.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you very much for all the kind words. I

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<v Speaker 1>will try my best to have a good evening and

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<v Speaker 1>you do as well. Chase have a good name.

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<v Speaker 11>Thank you.

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<v Speaker 5>You two guys.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name?

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<v Speaker 6>My name is Will?

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<v Speaker 1>Will? What's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 12>Will?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me everything?

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<v Speaker 13>Thing?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me nothing?

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<v Speaker 6>Ah well, well, I've been calling since the beginning of

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<v Speaker 6>the stream tonight and I want to talk about a

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<v Speaker 6>little bit of a medical issue that I recently went through.

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<v Speaker 6>Apparently it's pretty common, That's what everyone's been telling me.

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<v Speaker 3>And I don't know.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm not looking at the chat right now. I know

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<v Speaker 6>how you feel about that. Sure, it's called a PI.

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<v Speaker 1>I I have had a pollen iidyl cyst. I have

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<v Speaker 1>had You had a pollenidyl cysty. It's a little fucking

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<v Speaker 1>it's a cyst that's not inside of your asshole, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's like right on the top, yes, right, it's right

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<v Speaker 1>at the crest of your ass.

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<v Speaker 6>Okay, Well, oh my god, So it is pretty common then.

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<v Speaker 1>Huh, I've had I had, I had one right at

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<v Speaker 1>the crest of your ass. Itels like you have like

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<v Speaker 1>a like a big fucking like lump. You can't you

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<v Speaker 1>can barely sit down with it. It's no, it's it's

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<v Speaker 1>not fun.

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<v Speaker 6>Yes, well, mine had an uh an ab set m

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<v Speaker 6>that that I had to get like surgically cut like

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<v Speaker 6>lant and removed. M hm did you have Did you

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<v Speaker 6>have to go through that too?

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<v Speaker 1>I got lucky. I. I just took a bunch of

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<v Speaker 1>antibiotics and it went away on its own. I I I.

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<v Speaker 1>I was told I might have to go in for surgery,

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<v Speaker 1>but if the antibiotics didn't work. But the antibiotics ended

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<v Speaker 1>up working.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, Yeah, you definitely got lucky.

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<v Speaker 6>So I had to make my way to a like

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<v Speaker 6>a priority character type place.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 6>Now I did a little research mm hmm, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>pulled it up like on my phone, showed them exactly

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<v Speaker 6>what I had, and yeah, they had to, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>go ahead and and cut me open lance it. They said,

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<v Speaker 6>the doctor said it was probably about like two cups

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<v Speaker 6>of like puffs and blood that came out.

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<v Speaker 1>But that was who you said? Two cups of blood?

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<v Speaker 6>About two cups of puffs and blood?

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<v Speaker 1>Did he say how did he say, like the percentage

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<v Speaker 1>of what percent was puss and what percent was blood.

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<v Speaker 6>Not exactly. I'd probably say about seventy thirty plus the blood.

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<v Speaker 1>Ratio seventy thirty in favor of puss, Yeah, probably favorite

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<v Speaker 1>in favorite puss. Where did where do? Where do you

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<v Speaker 1>even dispose of that much puss and blood? It's like

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<v Speaker 1>two cups?

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<v Speaker 2>Is well?

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<v Speaker 6>You know, like when you go to the doctor, there's

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<v Speaker 6>always that little bin like the bio hazard been when

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<v Speaker 6>I was, I was in so much trauma, Like okay,

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<v Speaker 6>so the cutting of it open wasn't that bad, Like

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<v Speaker 6>it was more of a relief, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I bet that. I bet getting that fucker

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<v Speaker 1>drained felt pretty good.

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<v Speaker 3>That felt great.

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<v Speaker 6>But the worst is that with the access they have

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<v Speaker 6>to pack it with with disinfectant gauze. They have to

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<v Speaker 6>pack the wounds. So just to paint a picture for you, yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>I'm laying on this chair belly down, uh ask out,

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<v Speaker 6>asked as exposed, and this doctor of you know I've

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<v Speaker 6>never met in my life is just stuffing this open

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<v Speaker 6>wound with with disinfectant gauze and is the most excruciating

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<v Speaker 6>pain in my life, like traumatizing m And keep in

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<v Speaker 6>mind this is that like a priority care type place,

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<v Speaker 6>so there's like people in the waiting room, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>and I'm in there just hollering, just like in so

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<v Speaker 6>much pain.

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<v Speaker 1>And they could probably hear you out there.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh oh yeah, yeah, they could hear me.

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<v Speaker 1>That probably was very unnerving for them.

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<v Speaker 6>I would I would assume it was on my way out,

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<v Speaker 6>like after uh, you know, leaving the place, I feel

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<v Speaker 6>great afterwards, after the fact that.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like, yeah, okay, so after everything, after the most

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<v Speaker 1>excrucious so the gauze it sounded like, was the horrible part,

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<v Speaker 1>but the after everything is said and done, you feel good.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 6>On my way out, I'm like, you know, I'm strutting

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<v Speaker 6>out of this place, but you know, I'm getting all

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<v Speaker 6>these crazy stares from all the people in the waiting

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<v Speaker 6>room there.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, but you got this, but you also you

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<v Speaker 1>got this big smile on your face, right, so they're like,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know what he was doing in there, but

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<v Speaker 1>I want that.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah yeah, yeah, probably a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah.

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<v Speaker 6>So so you know, they say, like, you know, leave

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<v Speaker 6>the packing in for like two days and then come

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<v Speaker 6>back and you know.

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<v Speaker 3>We'll see what's up with it. Go back two days.

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<v Speaker 6>Later, and I'm like, okay, they're gonna take it out

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<v Speaker 6>and then everything's gonna be good.

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<v Speaker 1>Right, Yep, that didn't happen.

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<v Speaker 3>Nope, They're like, oh, we have to pack it again.

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<v Speaker 6>And my stomach just turned inside out just thinking like

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<v Speaker 6>oh my god.

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<v Speaker 3>Like I have to go through that again.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, similar thing like yeah, I mean they're screaming like

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<v Speaker 6>it hurts, Like hell.

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<v Speaker 1>Why does it hurt so much that they are packing?

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<v Speaker 1>Gall Is it like a hole in your ass? Crest?

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<v Speaker 1>Or like what are they packing?

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<v Speaker 2>Pretty much?

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<v Speaker 6>They have to because if they let the wound close

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<v Speaker 6>up with the abscessed, like when the syst is an abscessed,

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<v Speaker 6>then it'll just come back and they'll just have to

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<v Speaker 6>cut it open again and.

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<v Speaker 3>Repeat the process.

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<v Speaker 6>So they have to pack it to keep the.

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<v Speaker 3>Wound open.

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<v Speaker 6>So that it can continue to drain and then yeah,

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<v Speaker 6>so so won't come back.

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<v Speaker 1>M So now wait a minute. So when they cut

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<v Speaker 1>it open though, when they cut it open, did they

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<v Speaker 1>put you to sleep?

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<v Speaker 3>Nope?

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<v Speaker 6>Because this was kind of like does that cost extra?

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<v Speaker 3>Like I had to get this thing cut out? Like

0:34:21.680 --> 0:34:22.399
<v Speaker 3>it was so bad?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, you know, I mean he like did look like

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<v Speaker 6>he injected it with like a numbing type of thing.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>What exactly it is. I'm not a doctor, you.

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<v Speaker 1>Know, novacane perhaps something like that, but he said it's

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<v Speaker 1>really not going to have any effect because of how

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<v Speaker 1>deep it was, Like I'm gonna be in pain regardless,

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<v Speaker 1>mm hmm. And so okay, So how is how is

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<v Speaker 1>your ass doing?

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<v Speaker 8>Now?

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<v Speaker 1>Like all all said and done, after it's all over,

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<v Speaker 1>How's how is the crest of your ass?

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<v Speaker 3>You know, the crest of my ass is is much better?

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<v Speaker 6>I mean, uh, no pain, no gain, you know, like.

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<v Speaker 1>I better beautiful.

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<v Speaker 6>And uh you know, the act of care was pretty

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<v Speaker 6>crazy because my fiance had to uh help me like

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<v Speaker 6>take care of it, you know what I mean, like

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<v Speaker 6>putting like covering it up and everything.

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<v Speaker 3>With cream and bless her, Yeah, yeah, did.

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<v Speaker 1>She's a hero. You've given me, Well, listen, you've given

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<v Speaker 1>me a because I had a pollenidal sista, I'm you've

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<v Speaker 1>given me a greater appreciation for those antibiotics. Did you

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<v Speaker 1>did you try you? Did you try the antibiotics before

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<v Speaker 1>they did the whole thing with the gaze and all that, Like.

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<v Speaker 6>After they had cut it out and everything, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>they prescribed me antibiotics so that would prevent it from

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<v Speaker 6>like from coming back.

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<v Speaker 1>And will will well, well, thank you very much for

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<v Speaker 1>for sharing. Uh is is there anything else that you

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<v Speaker 1>want to say before we go?

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<v Speaker 6>I just want to shout out everyone in the chat.

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<v Speaker 6>I want to shout out, uh you lyle geg. You

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<v Speaker 6>know it's crazy. I feel blessed because it's it's my

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<v Speaker 6>first night joining the stream and calling in and everyone

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<v Speaker 6>who's been trying to call in. I just say, uh,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, don't give up like.

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<v Speaker 3>Like you guys.

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<v Speaker 6>You guys got this and you know I love you

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<v Speaker 6>all and I hope the best for everyone, beautiful.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you very much for the kind words. Will you

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<v Speaker 1>have a good rest of the.

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<v Speaker 3>Night, are you too? Thanks?

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<v Speaker 12>Hello?

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<v Speaker 1>I Hey, can you hear me? Oh? Yeah, what's up?

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name?

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<v Speaker 10>My name is Gree.

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<v Speaker 1>Your name is Brie. What's up, Brie? How's mm hmm?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry my it's the foot thing again. I'll figure

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<v Speaker 1>it out. Oh what were you gonna say?

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<v Speaker 10>I think I know what Uh, I think I know

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<v Speaker 10>what somebody was talking about in the chat. Neuropathy sometimes

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<v Speaker 10>bad circulation.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I'll I'll just cut it off tomorrow. What's going

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<v Speaker 1>on with you?

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<v Speaker 12>Bree?

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<v Speaker 1>Enough about me and my stupid body.

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<v Speaker 10>Not my I actually also just hurt my little body.

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<v Speaker 10>I didn't hurt my foot, though I burned my arm

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<v Speaker 10>making a case idea.

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<v Speaker 1>You burned your arm making a case idea I did. Indeed,

0:38:02.480 --> 0:38:06.960
<v Speaker 1>how often and how often do you make case ideas?

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<v Speaker 10>I made one yesterday and I made one today. It's

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<v Speaker 10>been about a month since I made kase idia since.

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<v Speaker 1>Then, And isn't it amazing the human brain? You can

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<v Speaker 1>go off full month without making case ideas, and yet

0:38:18.800 --> 0:38:20.560
<v Speaker 1>when and then when you go to make them again,

0:38:21.120 --> 0:38:24.919
<v Speaker 1>you you still remember how to make them.

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<v Speaker 10>I am pretty shocked by that, because I I do

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<v Speaker 10>not remember a lot of things.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't remember a lot of things. Do you remember

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<v Speaker 1>the last thing you forgot?

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<v Speaker 10>Shockingly? I do, because it was important?

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<v Speaker 1>M What was it?

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<v Speaker 10>I had until the fourth to call in and get

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<v Speaker 10>a service protection agreement signed for a car that I

0:38:52.200 --> 0:38:57.719
<v Speaker 10>recently got, and I realized as I was leaving to

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<v Speaker 10>get into my car today that it was the first

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<v Speaker 10>that I only had a couple more days to do that.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh well, I mean you got it done though, right, Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>You know? Look, I don't what's your name again, Brie?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't blame you, Brie. Life demands far too much

0:39:18.280 --> 0:39:23.719
<v Speaker 1>of us. I myself can only be bothered to do

0:39:24.920 --> 0:39:29.360
<v Speaker 1>one thing a day, So that's three hundred and sixty

0:39:29.400 --> 0:39:31.840
<v Speaker 1>five things a year, which is a lot, I think.

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<v Speaker 1>But I mean no, I don't blame you for forgetting

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<v Speaker 1>that I have parking tickets that I haven't paid from,

0:39:43.800 --> 0:39:48.600
<v Speaker 1>like you know twenty nineteen. Oh man, You know how

0:39:48.600 --> 0:39:51.160
<v Speaker 1>they say to you know how they say to build

0:39:51.239 --> 0:39:55.840
<v Speaker 1>multiple streams of income. Yeah, I do, so I do

0:39:55.920 --> 0:40:00.680
<v Speaker 1>the opposite with multi I have multiple streams of idea

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<v Speaker 1>of outcome from various parking tickets that I have not

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<v Speaker 1>yet paid.

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<v Speaker 10>I just don't agree with parking tickets.

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<v Speaker 1>Why are stupid?

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<v Speaker 10>You know, I used to live in like a college

0:40:15.920 --> 0:40:19.839
<v Speaker 10>town and you couldn't park on the on the road

0:40:19.840 --> 0:40:21.680
<v Speaker 10>at all, but that was like the only place to park.

0:40:22.440 --> 0:40:26.720
<v Speaker 10>And I didn't get a I almost got a parking ticket,

0:40:26.719 --> 0:40:29.319
<v Speaker 10>but I got my car, my mom's car booted, not

0:40:29.400 --> 0:40:32.359
<v Speaker 10>even mine, a boot on my mom's car. They made

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<v Speaker 10>me pay like one hundred dollars to get it off

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<v Speaker 10>when it was somewhere that I was allowed to park.

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<v Speaker 10>But I guess they informed people, not me, that they

0:40:41.600 --> 0:40:44.960
<v Speaker 10>were doing construction. So nobody was allowed to park there,

0:40:45.719 --> 0:40:48.280
<v Speaker 10>and I just thought that was unnecessary.

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<v Speaker 1>So on the call screening, you said that you were

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<v Speaker 1>training to be a mortician.

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<v Speaker 10>I did, I did say that.

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<v Speaker 1>And how's that going?

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<v Speaker 10>You know, it's going pretty well. I don't know. When

0:41:06.680 --> 0:41:08.279
<v Speaker 10>I started, I didn't think I was going to go

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<v Speaker 10>to college, and then I ended up going to college

0:41:10.560 --> 0:41:13.840
<v Speaker 10>because this is what I really wanted to do, and

0:41:13.880 --> 0:41:15.239
<v Speaker 10>it's been it's been pretty good.

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<v Speaker 1>You Actually, I have two questions prompted about what you

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<v Speaker 1>just said. You why do you initially not want to

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<v Speaker 1>go to college?

0:41:24.920 --> 0:41:25.040
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 10>I thought I thought it was worthless and that it

0:41:28.680 --> 0:41:30.600
<v Speaker 10>would be a waste of my time because I'm not

0:41:31.040 --> 0:41:38.480
<v Speaker 10>I wouldn't consider consider myself a very uh yeah, smart,

0:41:40.200 --> 0:41:41.600
<v Speaker 10>gifted with knowledge.

0:41:41.480 --> 0:41:47.600
<v Speaker 1>Books, smart type of person, sure study studious academicalists. So

0:41:47.600 --> 0:41:53.120
<v Speaker 1>so uh to bring me on a journey through the

0:41:53.120 --> 0:41:58.200
<v Speaker 1>mind of somebody who actively desires to become a mortician?

0:41:58.719 --> 0:42:00.760
<v Speaker 1>Where does that? Where does that desire come from?

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<v Speaker 10>So weirdly enough, I started looking into kind of like.

0:42:10.480 --> 0:42:11.600
<v Speaker 12>The death field.

0:42:11.719 --> 0:42:15.239
<v Speaker 10>When I was a young, a young kid, a young lad.

0:42:16.840 --> 0:42:19.719
<v Speaker 10>I was probably nine, and I wanted to do forensics

0:42:19.760 --> 0:42:27.240
<v Speaker 10>really bad, and I went to a college in Illinois

0:42:27.440 --> 0:42:32.399
<v Speaker 10>for an open house. Yeah, called went for an open

0:42:32.440 --> 0:42:36.359
<v Speaker 10>house and talked to some of the people who had

0:42:36.400 --> 0:42:40.759
<v Speaker 10>just graduated and some of the professors, and they were like, yeah,

0:42:40.800 --> 0:42:43.439
<v Speaker 10>we can't get fucking jobs. We've been doing this for

0:42:43.960 --> 0:42:47.560
<v Speaker 10>like fourteen years and I'm just a professor. And I

0:42:47.600 --> 0:42:49.080
<v Speaker 10>was like, oh, okay.

0:42:48.920 --> 0:42:49.520
<v Speaker 11>That's cool.

0:42:50.120 --> 0:42:52.600
<v Speaker 10>I've wasted most of my life wanting to do this.

0:42:54.040 --> 0:42:56.439
<v Speaker 10>And then when I was leaving, this guy like kind

0:42:56.440 --> 0:42:59.080
<v Speaker 10>of beckoned me and he was like, hey, do you

0:42:59.160 --> 0:43:03.000
<v Speaker 10>want to you want to mess with dead people? You

0:43:03.000 --> 0:43:06.280
<v Speaker 10>should look into this deeper. And it's only four years

0:43:06.320 --> 0:43:09.200
<v Speaker 10>instead of a million. I was like, oh, okay, that

0:43:09.280 --> 0:43:10.520
<v Speaker 10>sounds that sounds nice.

0:43:11.040 --> 0:43:13.680
<v Speaker 1>When you're talking about a man beckoning you from like

0:43:13.760 --> 0:43:16.279
<v Speaker 1>a dark alley or something, I imagine he says to

0:43:16.280 --> 0:43:18.120
<v Speaker 1>you something like I heard that you like death.

0:43:19.880 --> 0:43:21.880
<v Speaker 10>Actually he was weird.

0:43:22.320 --> 0:43:24.360
<v Speaker 1>Really that's what he said, he said, I That's what

0:43:24.400 --> 0:43:26.320
<v Speaker 1>he said verbatim. He said, I heard that you like death.

0:43:27.920 --> 0:43:28.200
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 10>It was very creepy because it was kind of like

0:43:30.840 --> 0:43:34.120
<v Speaker 10>dimly lit in his area. So he like very like

0:43:34.760 --> 0:43:36.879
<v Speaker 10>quickly and quietly approached me, and he's like, I got

0:43:36.880 --> 0:43:40.680
<v Speaker 10>something to show you, and I was like, uh, I

0:43:40.680 --> 0:43:43.360
<v Speaker 10>don't know if I should follow you, but I'm in

0:43:43.480 --> 0:43:45.759
<v Speaker 10>a I'm in a well populated space, so I.

0:43:45.760 --> 0:43:46.640
<v Speaker 5>Guess that's fine.

0:43:47.040 --> 0:43:48.799
<v Speaker 1>So you're hanging out with dead people all the.

0:43:48.760 --> 0:43:52.520
<v Speaker 10>Time, I am, I actually live in a funeral home.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you ever develop crushes on them? Like you find

0:43:56.480 --> 0:43:59.279
<v Speaker 1>a dead guy that you think is cute and you're like,

0:43:59.320 --> 0:44:01.040
<v Speaker 1>I wish I got to know this guy.

0:44:03.040 --> 0:44:04.720
<v Speaker 10>So far that has not happened.

0:44:05.440 --> 0:44:08.319
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. Is that, like, I'm curious? Is that like

0:44:08.360 --> 0:44:12.520
<v Speaker 1>a breach of like code or something?

0:44:14.840 --> 0:44:21.239
<v Speaker 10>Uh, you know, probably moral code sure for me. I

0:44:21.280 --> 0:44:23.680
<v Speaker 10>don't know how many people would mind that.

0:44:25.160 --> 0:44:29.359
<v Speaker 1>I would like, oh, what have you heard?

0:44:31.480 --> 0:44:32.040
<v Speaker 12>Uh?

0:44:33.080 --> 0:44:33.279
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:44:33.360 --> 0:44:37.200
<v Speaker 10>Man oh, I don't know if I could actually Yeah, okay,

0:44:37.200 --> 0:44:40.520
<v Speaker 10>I'll just go ahead. There was this kid at school

0:44:40.800 --> 0:44:44.280
<v Speaker 10>we got we usually get in older people at school,

0:44:45.400 --> 0:44:48.040
<v Speaker 10>like man, I bet he was a stallion back in

0:44:48.080 --> 0:44:48.399
<v Speaker 10>the day.

0:44:49.120 --> 0:44:49.480
<v Speaker 1>M hmm.

0:44:49.800 --> 0:44:52.080
<v Speaker 10>I was like, you know, I'm seeing this man and

0:44:52.120 --> 0:44:55.399
<v Speaker 10>I just I couldn't imagine saying that. I'm thinking about

0:44:55.440 --> 0:44:56.040
<v Speaker 10>that right now.

0:44:56.680 --> 0:45:00.200
<v Speaker 1>So there was a there was another student at your

0:45:00.239 --> 0:45:06.439
<v Speaker 1>school studying death and they brought in cadavers, right, yes, yeah,

0:45:06.480 --> 0:45:14.000
<v Speaker 1>And the kid was looking at the cadavers, penis, he

0:45:14.160 --> 0:45:14.840
<v Speaker 1>was just looking.

0:45:14.640 --> 0:45:17.120
<v Speaker 10>At all of him. We have a modesty cloth that

0:45:17.200 --> 0:45:21.040
<v Speaker 10>we have to put on them, Okay, so I will

0:45:21.120 --> 0:45:24.840
<v Speaker 10>or not. I will not say if that modesty class

0:45:25.040 --> 0:45:25.759
<v Speaker 10>was on or off.

0:45:26.400 --> 0:45:28.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't know. I feel like, look, if I'm a

0:45:28.520 --> 0:45:32.239
<v Speaker 1>dead body and I'm on my way out like to never,

0:45:32.320 --> 0:45:33.839
<v Speaker 1>I mean because look, if you're a dead body, you're

0:45:33.840 --> 0:45:37.000
<v Speaker 1>on your way out to never being your body never

0:45:37.040 --> 0:45:40.920
<v Speaker 1>gets seen again. So you know, I mean just me personally,

0:45:41.920 --> 0:45:45.840
<v Speaker 1>me personally, if somebody said that about my dead body,

0:45:45.880 --> 0:45:48.080
<v Speaker 1>I'll be like, look good, let me get a couple

0:45:48.200 --> 0:45:51.000
<v Speaker 1>more compliments to take to the grave with me for

0:45:51.040 --> 0:45:53.640
<v Speaker 1>the road, because it's that's the end. That was the

0:45:53.719 --> 0:45:57.520
<v Speaker 1>that's the last guy to compliment that guy's dead body

0:45:57.800 --> 0:45:58.959
<v Speaker 1>before it's in the ground.

0:45:59.000 --> 0:46:02.239
<v Speaker 10>For its thinking about too lately. I'm like, I don't know.

0:46:03.040 --> 0:46:10.640
<v Speaker 10>I just came to the realization yesterday actually that people

0:46:10.760 --> 0:46:15.000
<v Speaker 10>who I don't intend to hear me are always watching me.

0:46:15.640 --> 0:46:18.799
<v Speaker 10>I have a class of about fifty people, and I

0:46:18.880 --> 0:46:23.759
<v Speaker 10>sit like right up front, and I was like, man,

0:46:24.239 --> 0:46:28.880
<v Speaker 10>if people are perceiving me like this in life, you know,

0:46:29.640 --> 0:46:33.200
<v Speaker 10>when I die and if I get cremated or buried

0:46:33.280 --> 0:46:36.040
<v Speaker 10>or something so ever, handling my body is also going

0:46:36.080 --> 0:46:40.520
<v Speaker 10>to have like an idea or thought about me as

0:46:40.560 --> 0:46:44.600
<v Speaker 10>I'm going. And that has been something that has like

0:46:45.200 --> 0:46:48.520
<v Speaker 10>really confused me because I've always thought, I don't know why,

0:46:49.400 --> 0:46:52.680
<v Speaker 10>it's like an object, permanent spring. I guess that only

0:46:52.719 --> 0:46:56.120
<v Speaker 10>my intended targets could hear me.

0:46:57.440 --> 0:46:58.120
<v Speaker 8>And I realized that.

0:46:58.320 --> 0:47:02.320
<v Speaker 1>Only people that you and tend to perceive you actually

0:47:02.360 --> 0:47:04.319
<v Speaker 1>are the ones that perceive you, when in reality it

0:47:04.400 --> 0:47:06.560
<v Speaker 1>is it's far not the case.

0:47:08.080 --> 0:47:11.359
<v Speaker 10>Yeah, especially like right now, I'm just thinking, I'm having

0:47:11.520 --> 0:47:14.680
<v Speaker 10>a one on one chat with you, and there's there's

0:47:14.680 --> 0:47:15.640
<v Speaker 10>a lot of people watching.

0:47:16.400 --> 0:47:18.360
<v Speaker 1>No, I don't look I mean with something like this,

0:47:18.520 --> 0:47:22.879
<v Speaker 1>it's like I mean, ultimately probably with the podcast whatever,

0:47:22.920 --> 0:47:28.160
<v Speaker 1>there's probably whatever it's you know, yeah, sure there's a

0:47:28.160 --> 0:47:30.880
<v Speaker 1>couple of thousands of people listening to this voice right now,

0:47:30.920 --> 0:47:33.279
<v Speaker 1>but it doesn't I don't know. They're not they're not

0:47:33.640 --> 0:47:36.240
<v Speaker 1>in they're not with us right now. They're computer people.

0:47:36.239 --> 0:47:37.280
<v Speaker 1>They're not even real.

0:47:38.600 --> 0:47:41.560
<v Speaker 10>That's true. That is true in real I think.

0:47:43.920 --> 0:47:45.600
<v Speaker 1>No, in real life it is way worse. That's why

0:47:45.640 --> 0:47:49.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm you know, that's why it's so easy to drown

0:47:49.120 --> 0:47:51.560
<v Speaker 1>it out when you know. It's like you look at

0:47:51.560 --> 0:47:53.600
<v Speaker 1>the twitch thing and you look at the podcast thing

0:47:53.640 --> 0:47:55.279
<v Speaker 1>and you see the numbers, and you're like, this is

0:47:55.320 --> 0:47:59.160
<v Speaker 1>computer people. You know, this is the Internet. It's not real.

0:48:02.600 --> 0:48:06.680
<v Speaker 1>What did you say? Your name was, Brie brid It's

0:48:06.680 --> 0:48:08.200
<v Speaker 1>been a pleasure talking to yours. Anything else that you

0:48:08.200 --> 0:48:09.400
<v Speaker 1>want to say to the people before.

0:48:09.160 --> 0:48:13.279
<v Speaker 10>We go, I just want to say thank you so much.

0:48:14.200 --> 0:48:16.640
<v Speaker 10>You know you hear all the time, but what you're

0:48:16.680 --> 0:48:21.080
<v Speaker 10>doing is wonderful. We love you, we support you, and

0:48:21.160 --> 0:48:24.120
<v Speaker 10>one day I hope that one of us could be

0:48:24.239 --> 0:48:25.280
<v Speaker 10>your therapy.

0:48:24.920 --> 0:48:29.399
<v Speaker 1>Deckom Well, thank you very much for the kind words, Britt.

0:48:29.600 --> 0:48:33.080
<v Speaker 1>I appreciate that very much. And thank you for all

0:48:33.160 --> 0:48:40.600
<v Speaker 1>the good that you do for dead people with big penises.

0:48:43.040 --> 0:48:43.440
<v Speaker 5>Thank you.

0:48:44.280 --> 0:48:45.080
<v Speaker 1>I have aggress the night.

0:48:45.560 --> 0:48:46.919
<v Speaker 5>Hi you too.

0:48:47.880 --> 0:48:53.160
<v Speaker 1>It is an interesting thing being perceived, you know what.

0:48:53.320 --> 0:48:56.279
<v Speaker 1>But it's and people mentioned this with the podcast right

0:48:56.360 --> 0:48:59.560
<v Speaker 1>or in the show. They're like, oh, I'm being you know,

0:48:59.600 --> 0:49:02.560
<v Speaker 1>people all in and they're like nervous because they're being

0:49:02.800 --> 0:49:05.960
<v Speaker 1>they feel themselves being perceived. And when I'm here right now,

0:49:06.000 --> 0:49:07.799
<v Speaker 1>the whole time I'm here and I'm talking I don't

0:49:07.840 --> 0:49:09.560
<v Speaker 1>know what it is. I can't describe it. I don't

0:49:09.560 --> 0:49:12.640
<v Speaker 1>know if it's a I felt this way when there

0:49:12.719 --> 0:49:14.200
<v Speaker 1>was no one watching this, and I feel this way

0:49:14.239 --> 0:49:20.120
<v Speaker 1>when there's people. I feel very at ease while I'm

0:49:20.120 --> 0:49:22.680
<v Speaker 1>streaming for whatever reason, with all these peop I feel

0:49:22.800 --> 0:49:29.880
<v Speaker 1>very at ease in this very very specific situation in

0:49:30.000 --> 0:49:33.240
<v Speaker 1>which I am wearing a gecko costume and live streaming

0:49:33.239 --> 0:49:36.120
<v Speaker 1>on the internet in this chair, in this room, feel

0:49:36.200 --> 0:49:40.520
<v Speaker 1>very at ease. But if I'm walking down a fucking

0:49:40.719 --> 0:49:49.200
<v Speaker 1>sidewalk and one person is walking towards me, but they're

0:49:49.320 --> 0:49:54.200
<v Speaker 1>very far away, but they're walking in my direction, I start.

0:49:54.320 --> 0:49:56.440
<v Speaker 1>I don't know why, but I'll get nervous. I'll try

0:49:56.480 --> 0:50:02.160
<v Speaker 1>to I'll feel too perceived by this one guy or

0:50:02.760 --> 0:50:05.080
<v Speaker 1>or lady with a dog, whatever it is, and I'll

0:50:05.120 --> 0:50:08.400
<v Speaker 1>try to move to the other side of the street,

0:50:08.440 --> 0:50:12.760
<v Speaker 1>of the streets. But this and that, for whatever reason,

0:50:12.840 --> 0:50:15.440
<v Speaker 1>that makes me feel like I'm being perceived too much.

0:50:15.440 --> 0:50:18.520
<v Speaker 1>But this, you know, I mean, I'm alone in my

0:50:18.600 --> 0:50:21.239
<v Speaker 1>house right now, talking into a stick at the end

0:50:21.239 --> 0:50:24.759
<v Speaker 1>of the day, So I don't know. Maybe there's some

0:50:24.800 --> 0:50:27.680
<v Speaker 1>sort of I don't know, maybe some there's some psychological

0:50:27.719 --> 0:50:28.560
<v Speaker 1>explanation for that.

0:50:28.719 --> 0:50:32.760
<v Speaker 10>But hello, Hello, I'm gonna shit myself.

0:50:34.239 --> 0:50:35.880
<v Speaker 1>Why are you going to ship yourself?

0:50:37.120 --> 0:50:41.000
<v Speaker 9>Because I'm excited, Bro. You were on my top spotify wrapp.

0:50:41.040 --> 0:50:42.760
<v Speaker 9>I've been listening to your shitting non stop.

0:50:43.239 --> 0:50:48.799
<v Speaker 1>Thank you, man, I appreciate that very much. Hmm. What

0:50:48.960 --> 0:50:53.520
<v Speaker 1>is your name, Ketam and how did you get that name?

0:50:53.520 --> 0:50:55.280
<v Speaker 1>Were you born with that name or did you acquire

0:50:55.280 --> 0:50:56.120
<v Speaker 1>it later in your life?

0:50:57.360 --> 0:50:58.160
<v Speaker 9>I've acquired it?

0:50:59.120 --> 0:50:59.960
<v Speaker 1>And how did you acquire?

0:51:02.040 --> 0:51:04.719
<v Speaker 9>I hung out with a bunch of wooks. Are you

0:51:04.719 --> 0:51:05.879
<v Speaker 9>familiar with the phrase wok?

0:51:06.640 --> 0:51:09.600
<v Speaker 1>I'm slightly familiar with the phrase. Look. I used to

0:51:11.239 --> 0:51:13.120
<v Speaker 1>I had a brief phase. And when I say brief,

0:51:13.120 --> 0:51:16.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm talking like like in the like the span of

0:51:16.560 --> 0:51:20.239
<v Speaker 1>a couple of weeks where I was into you know,

0:51:20.440 --> 0:51:25.080
<v Speaker 1>jam bands or whatever, like the Grateful over in the

0:51:25.200 --> 0:51:29.600
<v Speaker 1>in the Donnie and the Ween and all that. And

0:51:29.440 --> 0:51:32.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm pretty sure a wook is somebody who's really into

0:51:32.320 --> 0:51:33.600
<v Speaker 1>those bands. Is that?

0:51:35.160 --> 0:51:35.200
<v Speaker 8>What?

0:51:35.360 --> 0:51:37.360
<v Speaker 1>Accurate and accurate statement?

0:51:38.000 --> 0:51:40.280
<v Speaker 9>I would take that out as an accurate description, although

0:51:40.320 --> 0:51:42.840
<v Speaker 9>nowadays I feel like it also leans more towards the

0:51:44.239 --> 0:51:45.600
<v Speaker 9>US ed M people.

0:51:47.000 --> 0:51:50.400
<v Speaker 1>Interesting because I feel like E ed M and jam

0:51:50.440 --> 0:51:53.440
<v Speaker 1>band people. Well, not no, not the people. The music

0:51:54.440 --> 0:51:55.080
<v Speaker 1>is very.

0:51:54.920 --> 0:51:58.080
<v Speaker 6>Different, that's very true.

0:51:58.080 --> 0:52:01.520
<v Speaker 9>But there's overlappingness within both categories.

0:52:02.239 --> 0:52:04.719
<v Speaker 1>Interesting, and what would you say? That overlappingness is.

0:52:07.520 --> 0:52:08.880
<v Speaker 9>Probably drugs and dancing.

0:52:09.960 --> 0:52:13.839
<v Speaker 1>Drugs and dancing. What kind of drugs are we talking

0:52:13.880 --> 0:52:14.359
<v Speaker 1>about here?

0:52:15.800 --> 0:52:18.920
<v Speaker 9>I mean your average things. You got your m DMA,

0:52:19.840 --> 0:52:23.279
<v Speaker 9>you got your kedemy, you got your I don't know

0:52:23.360 --> 0:52:25.680
<v Speaker 9>all the good things test, all the things test.

0:52:25.719 --> 0:52:31.200
<v Speaker 1>It's only now ketamine. I don't know a lot about ketamine,

0:52:31.640 --> 0:52:34.799
<v Speaker 1>but I've heard that it's similar. I've heard it's like

0:52:34.840 --> 0:52:37.880
<v Speaker 1>a horse tranquilizer. That might be wrong. I don't know

0:52:37.920 --> 0:52:41.080
<v Speaker 1>anything about anything, but is that Is it a horse tranquilizer.

0:52:41.280 --> 0:52:47.080
<v Speaker 9>It's a horse tranquilizer, so I have there's so many

0:52:47.080 --> 0:52:49.400
<v Speaker 9>fun jokes to be made about that. It's very popular

0:52:49.440 --> 0:52:52.440
<v Speaker 9>down in the South, so we got horses and horse trangquilizers.

0:52:52.600 --> 0:52:54.799
<v Speaker 9>A lot of people like justifying it by saying that

0:52:54.840 --> 0:52:57.680
<v Speaker 9>it helps with like depression, because there are medical like

0:52:57.719 --> 0:53:01.279
<v Speaker 9>depression treatments with ketemy which are super cool. But these

0:53:01.280 --> 0:53:03.839
<v Speaker 9>bitches ain't using it medically. They're turning up on.

0:53:03.800 --> 0:53:12.239
<v Speaker 1>Tuesdays, They're turning up on tuesdays. Yep, I have. I

0:53:12.280 --> 0:53:15.239
<v Speaker 1>have heard that it could be used medically for like

0:53:15.320 --> 0:53:16.320
<v Speaker 1>depression and stuff.

0:53:17.760 --> 0:53:20.759
<v Speaker 9>It's very helpful for chronic pain. I can attest it.

0:53:21.440 --> 0:53:28.239
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. So how often are you out doing doing ketamine?

0:53:28.560 --> 0:53:32.560
<v Speaker 9>Oh? Never anymore? Everyone else do sit there?

0:53:33.120 --> 0:53:34.000
<v Speaker 1>Okay, so you quit.

0:53:35.600 --> 0:53:39.560
<v Speaker 9>Yeah, we had the fun period, but I almost died partying.

0:53:39.719 --> 0:53:41.880
<v Speaker 9>So I got over it and now I just go

0:53:41.960 --> 0:53:42.720
<v Speaker 9>out and go to shows.

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<v Speaker 1>SOB that's good to hear. So well. Okay, So at

0:53:47.160 --> 0:53:49.880
<v Speaker 1>one point you were doing ketamine enough to have earned

0:53:49.920 --> 0:53:59.200
<v Speaker 1>the moniker of ketamine of a look. Yeah, absolutely, So

0:53:59.280 --> 0:54:02.400
<v Speaker 1>tell me about the night that you almost died. What happened?

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<v Speaker 9>That was fun? So that was actually on Mollie. So

0:54:09.080 --> 0:54:12.040
<v Speaker 9>I have a heart condition, don't do drugs or park

0:54:12.520 --> 0:54:17.239
<v Speaker 9>start yep, it's a great place to start. So I

0:54:17.280 --> 0:54:19.440
<v Speaker 9>think I did, like, did a bunch of Molly out

0:54:19.480 --> 0:54:22.120
<v Speaker 9>of ed m concert, got back to a shitty hotel

0:54:22.160 --> 0:54:25.239
<v Speaker 9>and started turning blue from losing but circulation to my

0:54:25.239 --> 0:54:27.440
<v Speaker 9>whole body. So that was fun.

0:54:27.800 --> 0:54:28.000
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 9>I ended up dislocating a few ribs in my chest

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<v Speaker 9>permanently from it. So that's lit.

0:54:33.440 --> 0:54:36.799
<v Speaker 1>You dislocated in your chest like did you?

0:54:37.239 --> 0:54:37.479
<v Speaker 8>Yeah?

0:54:38.000 --> 0:54:38.600
<v Speaker 1>Was was it?

0:54:38.719 --> 0:54:38.799
<v Speaker 12>Was?

0:54:38.840 --> 0:54:42.080
<v Speaker 1>It like the Molly disloke went into your body and

0:54:42.120 --> 0:54:46.480
<v Speaker 1>took your Let me like what happened.

0:54:48.040 --> 0:54:51.400
<v Speaker 9>So basically, there's a few things that play here. There's

0:54:51.520 --> 0:54:55.279
<v Speaker 9>a collagen disorder that makes your joints dislocate every single day.

0:54:55.400 --> 0:54:58.480
<v Speaker 9>That's a thing that people live with, just a thing interesting.

0:54:58.480 --> 0:55:01.040
<v Speaker 9>It's a genic disorder, and the also a heart condition.

0:55:01.600 --> 0:55:04.680
<v Speaker 9>So basically you see in horror movies how you see

0:55:04.680 --> 0:55:08.440
<v Speaker 9>people's veins pop out of their bodies like like a alien.

0:55:08.800 --> 0:55:11.719
<v Speaker 9>That's what happened to my whole body. Yeah, I could

0:55:11.719 --> 0:55:13.600
<v Speaker 9>see like all of the veins in my whole body.

0:55:13.600 --> 0:55:16.040
<v Speaker 9>I'm pretty sure I didn't go to the hospital because

0:55:16.680 --> 0:55:19.160
<v Speaker 9>bad bitch didn't want to call medical help. Always call

0:55:19.280 --> 0:55:20.200
<v Speaker 9>for medical help.

0:55:20.719 --> 0:55:22.399
<v Speaker 1>Huh, you didn't want to go Why do you want

0:55:22.440 --> 0:55:25.000
<v Speaker 1>to call for medical help? Were you embarrassed that they

0:55:25.000 --> 0:55:27.600
<v Speaker 1>would make fun of you for your broken rib cage?

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<v Speaker 9>I mean, partially, I think I was afraid of getting

0:55:32.040 --> 0:55:35.080
<v Speaker 9>in trouble with the law. Do the scenario, and also

0:55:35.239 --> 0:55:38.399
<v Speaker 9>was like, just like my brain was like, don't send

0:55:38.440 --> 0:55:40.200
<v Speaker 9>me to rehab. Don't send me to rehab.

0:55:41.640 --> 0:55:44.600
<v Speaker 1>So okay, but so now you no longer. You now

0:55:44.680 --> 0:55:46.040
<v Speaker 1>no longer do Catman.

0:55:47.320 --> 0:55:49.600
<v Speaker 9>Yeah, I don't do anything, And then I also go

0:55:49.680 --> 0:55:52.600
<v Speaker 9>to shows and am able to still surround myself with

0:55:52.640 --> 0:55:55.120
<v Speaker 9>it and say no, which I think is pretty badass.

0:55:55.320 --> 0:55:58.040
<v Speaker 1>I think that's pretty nice too, because a lot of

0:55:58.080 --> 0:55:59.759
<v Speaker 1>the time, I feel like if you're trying to quit,

0:55:59.800 --> 0:56:03.240
<v Speaker 1>some you gotta. I mean, everyone's sort of built different

0:56:03.320 --> 0:56:06.759
<v Speaker 1>with their ability, their their willpower and whatnot. But I

0:56:06.800 --> 0:56:10.440
<v Speaker 1>feel like it's a whole thing to be able to

0:56:11.400 --> 0:56:16.520
<v Speaker 1>go into into the environment constantly again where where the

0:56:16.560 --> 0:56:19.719
<v Speaker 1>drugs are being done, and still be able to not

0:56:19.800 --> 0:56:23.560
<v Speaker 1>only resist doing them but also have a good time

0:56:24.200 --> 0:56:25.359
<v Speaker 1>without them.

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<v Speaker 9>That's the real struggle. Bus But I work a lot

0:56:28.480 --> 0:56:32.000
<v Speaker 9>of shows now and I spin fire at shows and perform,

0:56:32.160 --> 0:56:33.520
<v Speaker 9>So you got to be sober to do that.

0:56:37.080 --> 0:56:39.359
<v Speaker 1>See, I don't know if I could do that. You know,

0:56:39.400 --> 0:56:42.160
<v Speaker 1>there's certain here's let me ask you before we go.

0:56:42.200 --> 0:56:44.080
<v Speaker 1>Before we go, I actually need to know a question

0:56:44.160 --> 0:56:46.719
<v Speaker 1>from you. Do you think if you if there's a

0:56:46.719 --> 0:56:50.640
<v Speaker 1>certain genre of music or a certain or I wouldn't

0:56:50.640 --> 0:56:54.279
<v Speaker 1>even limit this to music, a thing, any activity that

0:56:54.920 --> 0:56:58.680
<v Speaker 1>not that you enjoy better when you're under the influence

0:56:58.719 --> 0:57:03.000
<v Speaker 1>of drugs. But that you only enjoy under the influence

0:57:03.040 --> 0:57:06.200
<v Speaker 1>of drugs. Do you believe that you truly enjoy that activity?

0:57:08.400 --> 0:57:10.719
<v Speaker 9>Do I believe that I truly enjoy it sober? Or

0:57:10.719 --> 0:57:13.920
<v Speaker 9>do you believe that you can truly only Ah, that's

0:57:13.960 --> 0:57:17.400
<v Speaker 9>a big question there, GaX. Will you rephrase it for me?

0:57:19.760 --> 0:57:21.720
<v Speaker 1>What I'm saying is if you have an activity that

0:57:21.760 --> 0:57:23.880
<v Speaker 1>you like, but you only like it when you're impaired,

0:57:24.400 --> 0:57:27.240
<v Speaker 1>not you like it more? Like like I like going

0:57:27.280 --> 0:57:30.080
<v Speaker 1>to the movies, but I like it more when I'm stoned,

0:57:30.360 --> 0:57:33.280
<v Speaker 1>But I don't only like it when I'm stoned. But

0:57:33.480 --> 0:57:35.360
<v Speaker 1>if you have a thing that you only like when

0:57:35.400 --> 0:57:37.400
<v Speaker 1>you're impaired, do you like it?

0:57:38.920 --> 0:57:40.880
<v Speaker 9>My big thing is if you have people that only

0:57:40.880 --> 0:57:42.520
<v Speaker 9>want to hang out with you when you're fucked up,

0:57:42.560 --> 0:57:44.160
<v Speaker 9>they're not your friends. And if you can only do

0:57:44.240 --> 0:57:46.200
<v Speaker 9>something when you're fucked up, then it's not really fun.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, there we go. Thanks for calling ketebin.

0:57:49.400 --> 0:57:52.439
<v Speaker 9>Yeah, no problem, gak be Well.

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0:58:02.600 --> 0:58:06.440
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0:58:48.080 --> 0:58:48.560
<v Speaker 1>what's up?

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<v Speaker 12>Hello? Wait? Am I?

0:58:54.680 --> 0:58:55.000
<v Speaker 1>Yes?

0:58:55.160 --> 0:58:55.960
<v Speaker 14>Am I actually on?

0:58:56.560 --> 0:59:01.400
<v Speaker 1>You're on? Holy holy crap, what's going on? Dude?

0:59:01.760 --> 0:59:07.360
<v Speaker 14>That's uh. I've been trying to call in for like

0:59:07.400 --> 0:59:08.320
<v Speaker 14>a month and a half.

0:59:08.360 --> 0:59:12.760
<v Speaker 1>Now, oh my god, this is it. This is the moment.

0:59:13.760 --> 0:59:14.760
<v Speaker 1>There's a lot of pressure.

0:59:15.120 --> 0:59:18.680
<v Speaker 10>Yes, no, well I don't need pressure.

0:59:19.320 --> 0:59:23.880
<v Speaker 1>No no, no, Look, well, Gabby, can I ask you

0:59:24.240 --> 0:59:27.480
<v Speaker 1>before we go into this, because you you know, I mean,

0:59:27.880 --> 0:59:32.640
<v Speaker 1>what if, okay, if this call in your mind went

0:59:32.960 --> 0:59:36.280
<v Speaker 1>perfectly right, what would that I mean, what would that

0:59:36.360 --> 0:59:36.960
<v Speaker 1>even look like?

0:59:40.080 --> 0:59:43.000
<v Speaker 14>Honestly, just being on the call itself, It's just perfect.

0:59:43.920 --> 0:59:46.560
<v Speaker 1>That's perfect because That's the thing is people I people

0:59:46.600 --> 0:59:47.840
<v Speaker 1>all the time. They come in here, they're like, I

0:59:47.840 --> 0:59:50.120
<v Speaker 1>don't want to fuck this up. And there's no objective,

0:59:51.000 --> 0:59:54.120
<v Speaker 1>there's no goal, there's nothing to fuck up. So you've

0:59:54.160 --> 0:59:56.680
<v Speaker 1>already won and lost at the same time because there's

0:59:56.680 --> 1:00:03.280
<v Speaker 1>no game. Yeah, what's going on, Gabby? What did you

1:00:03.320 --> 1:00:04.120
<v Speaker 1>call on to talk about?

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<v Speaker 14>Oh? Just honestly to get like a perspective on something

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<v Speaker 14>I'm happy in my life from somebody that doesn't know me.

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<v Speaker 1>Sure. Sure.

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<v Speaker 14>So I work at a job that I put in

1:00:21.360 --> 1:00:23.600
<v Speaker 14>my two weeks already, but it's it paid.

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<v Speaker 10>Me really well.

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<v Speaker 14>I'm taking it like eighteen an hour. But the only

1:00:27.560 --> 1:00:29.800
<v Speaker 14>thing about it was the job itself wasn't bad.

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<v Speaker 8>It was the people.

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<v Speaker 14>And like I've been very anxious because, like you know,

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<v Speaker 14>like I said, I put in my two weeks, I'm

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<v Speaker 14>going to a lower paying job, and like I can't

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<v Speaker 14>tell it was a bad idea or not, because it

1:00:43.560 --> 1:00:47.760
<v Speaker 14>is going to make financial everything a little rough doing that.

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<v Speaker 1>So you went from a higher paying job to a

1:00:55.000 --> 1:00:59.600
<v Speaker 1>lower paying job primarily because you you couldn't stand with

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<v Speaker 1>the people you were working with at that higher paying job. Yeah, Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think that's a bad decision at all, because

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<v Speaker 1>you know, look, work is like what one hundred percent

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<v Speaker 1>of your time something like that. You know, you're just

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<v Speaker 1>there for hours and hours and hours. If you've got

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<v Speaker 1>to be somewhere for hours and hours and hours, you

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<v Speaker 1>know you shouldn't you should you should enjoy being there,

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<v Speaker 1>or at the very least you can't get there. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>that's that's the whole place to want to get to

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<v Speaker 1>enjoying being there, right, but at the very bare minimum,

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<v Speaker 1>you shouldn't absolutely fucking hate being there.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you absolutely fucking hate being there? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 14>I I honestly there. I've been mornings before I went

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<v Speaker 14>to my job to put my two weeks in that

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<v Speaker 14>I just kind of cried before.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh you did the right Gabby, you did the right thing. Uh,

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<v Speaker 1>what's the new gig? Tell me about the new gig?

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<v Speaker 8>Though?

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<v Speaker 1>What's what was so appealing about the new gig.

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<v Speaker 14>It's a smaller store, it's a lot more friendlier, Like

1:02:14.120 --> 1:02:17.080
<v Speaker 14>they're kind of built on the actual like being a

1:02:17.120 --> 1:02:19.680
<v Speaker 14>family working together, communicating.

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<v Speaker 9>And it's a lot less strick than all of the rules.

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<v Speaker 14>So like, if I don't want to take a fifteen

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<v Speaker 14>minute break two hours into my shift. That's okay. As

1:02:30.200 --> 1:02:32.040
<v Speaker 14>long as I eventually get to a break, I want

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<v Speaker 14>to get yelled at for it. And the expectations are

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<v Speaker 14>a lot less.

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<v Speaker 1>So you like the rule that you don't have to

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<v Speaker 1>take breaks?

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<v Speaker 14>Yeah, because sometimes it messes up my flow. Whenever I'm

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<v Speaker 14>like going at it and then I have to stop

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<v Speaker 14>take a break, then it takes me a while to

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<v Speaker 14>want to get back to work.

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<v Speaker 1>You know. Well, it sounds like you're an employer's dream, I.

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<v Speaker 14>Like to think.

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<v Speaker 1>So, yeah, are there any other like rules that you

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<v Speaker 1>hated about the old place that you like about the

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<v Speaker 1>new one that they don't have or whatever?

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<v Speaker 14>Mostly the fact of it wasn't like a set rule,

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<v Speaker 14>but the way the management was set up it was

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<v Speaker 14>very strict, like you couldn't even look at your manager

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<v Speaker 14>wrong without being up for coaching or firing, which was

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<v Speaker 14>just no fun.

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<v Speaker 1>Gabby. You know, I'm glad that you know. I mean, look,

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<v Speaker 1>take solace and uh no, it was a good decision.

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<v Speaker 1>If you're crying before you are going into work, you

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<v Speaker 1>should fucking quit. Yeah, is there anything else you want

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<v Speaker 1>to talk about, Gabby before we go?

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<v Speaker 9>Not?

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<v Speaker 1>Really?

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<v Speaker 14>That was that was kind of all I know it's

1:03:46.640 --> 1:03:48.160
<v Speaker 14>kind of lame, but you know it did.

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you think I'm really curious, actually, why do

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<v Speaker 1>you think that's lame?

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<v Speaker 14>I've been listening to your podcast since you started it.

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<v Speaker 14>I didn't really have time to watch your streams as much,

1:04:03.640 --> 1:04:05.840
<v Speaker 14>and like, there's just so many interesting calls, and then

1:04:05.880 --> 1:04:07.920
<v Speaker 14>I just call in about like, oh, did I make

1:04:07.960 --> 1:04:11.400
<v Speaker 14>a right decision about me in quitting my job type thing?

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<v Speaker 1>No? I mean, I mean I think this is interesting.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, look, it's it's it's not like an epic tale,

1:04:19.760 --> 1:04:24.840
<v Speaker 1>but it's reflective of a common human experience that people

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<v Speaker 1>have all the time. So it had it had it

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<v Speaker 1>was valuable to share in of that, I believe.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And it's.

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<v Speaker 14>Definitely like a hard decision. But I feel like because

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<v Speaker 14>my boyfriend's done some of the things, he's quit workplaces

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<v Speaker 14>that weren't like the best situation management was ass and

1:04:47.840 --> 1:04:50.880
<v Speaker 14>stuff like that, and it's it's it's harder for some people,

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<v Speaker 14>but I feel like when you get confirmation that was

1:04:55.320 --> 1:04:57.720
<v Speaker 14>a good idea and you're able to move forward, it

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<v Speaker 14>does help a lot. So stress can make you physically

1:05:01.840 --> 1:05:02.320
<v Speaker 14>sit sick.

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<v Speaker 7>I've learned that.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I'm glad to hear you made the right decision,

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<v Speaker 1>Gabby and appreciate you call.

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<v Speaker 12>Of course.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello Bobby.

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<v Speaker 9>Whoa, Oh my gosh.

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, how are you, Bobby?

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<v Speaker 8>I'm good.

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<v Speaker 13>Oh my god, this is my first time calling in.

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<v Speaker 13>I can't fucking believe it.

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<v Speaker 12>How are you?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing pretty good.

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<v Speaker 5>Uh.

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<v Speaker 13>This is like so real. I heard myself you saying like,

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<v Speaker 13>hi Bobby, and like the other room where we're watching it.

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<v Speaker 1>What uh, what's going on with you, Bobby?

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<v Speaker 13>Oh my gosh, gek. Well I recently, well fairly recently

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<v Speaker 13>got like my big girl job. I graduated college and everything.

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<v Speaker 13>So I got my bigger job and everything, and so

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<v Speaker 13>I have to, like the new people have to like

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<v Speaker 13>work on weekends, which isn't like normal. And one of

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<v Speaker 13>my coworkers is either like after we take our lunch

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<v Speaker 13>break is either coming in extremely high or extremely drunk,

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<v Speaker 13>and I am stuck on what the heck to do

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<v Speaker 13>about it because I'm not exactly a snitch. But at

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<v Speaker 13>the same time, this is like the type of guy

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<v Speaker 13>that when they get drunk, he gets kind of confrontational.

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<v Speaker 13>So I'm like, what the fuck do I do?

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<v Speaker 7>Right?

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<v Speaker 1>That's what I was gonna ask, is to what degree

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<v Speaker 1>does his intoxication do you believe affect his ability to

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<v Speaker 1>perform his job or actually, more importantly, your ability to

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<v Speaker 1>perform your job.

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<v Speaker 13>I mean I can he's my so our work has

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<v Speaker 13>this stupid thing where they don't believe in like closed

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<v Speaker 13>off cubicles. So the so like our office is entirely open,

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<v Speaker 13>like there's no privacy whatsoever. We can hear everything like

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<v Speaker 13>the person next to us does. And like it's meant

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<v Speaker 13>so that like whenever a new person comes in they

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<v Speaker 13>can easily like ask questions and shit like that. It's

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<v Speaker 13>supposed to be like more welcoming, but it's kind of

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<v Speaker 13>more awkward. So he so like anytime something happens, I

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<v Speaker 13>can easily like hear it and everything, and it's just

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<v Speaker 13>kind of awkward hearing hearing him like talk to customers

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<v Speaker 13>on the phone and being like like you know, like

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<v Speaker 13>the typical slurring shit like the drunk people do or

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<v Speaker 13>high people do of like just can't say any sort

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<v Speaker 13>of words. And like there was one, because I worked

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<v Speaker 13>a lot of weekends, there was one weekend where he

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<v Speaker 13>was like stumbling to go to the fucking bathroom even

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<v Speaker 13>and we were all just like, oh my god, it's

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<v Speaker 13>so in so like drunk or something.

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<v Speaker 1>And I'm kind of curee. So, like, is your supervisor

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<v Speaker 1>not there? Like is there? Never? Is he never drunk

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<v Speaker 1>when like somebody uh is around that would have a

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<v Speaker 1>problem with that.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, so whenever our supervisor is pretty much never there

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<v Speaker 13>on the weekends, so like he's not really going to

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<v Speaker 13>ever get caught unless someone like brings it up pretty much.

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<v Speaker 13>So that's like the other thing is like unless like

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<v Speaker 13>he'll know if like I bring it up or someone

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<v Speaker 13>else does, because there's only like a few of us

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<v Speaker 13>that are ever there like in the office with him

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<v Speaker 13>when he's doing this ship.

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<v Speaker 1>So you have a problem where you don't want to

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<v Speaker 1>be a snitch, but you're like it's probably not good.

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<v Speaker 13>Honestly, Like it's such a boring fucking job that I

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<v Speaker 13>would love to get drunk during it, like as soon

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<v Speaker 13>as like whenever I have my hour lunch break.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, hey, now you know that you can do it

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<v Speaker 1>and not get fired.

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<v Speaker 13>That's true. I know that, like none of us are

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<v Speaker 13>snitches after.

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<v Speaker 1>This is that's one of that's Look, that's that is

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, look, I'm not saying it's the correct to

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<v Speaker 1>take away from this I'm not saying that there even

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<v Speaker 1>is a correct takeaway from this, but it is a

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<v Speaker 1>potential takeaway from this that you now have have seen

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<v Speaker 1>proof that you can get fucking hammered, go into the

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<v Speaker 1>bank and do your gig and nobody gives a shit

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<v Speaker 1>kind of power. It's actually, I mean, this guy, he's

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<v Speaker 1>actually kind of inspirational in that sense. If that's how

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<v Speaker 1>you want to.

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<v Speaker 13>Look at it, I wish I could. It's just like

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<v Speaker 13>I said, or like maybe like I didn't like emphasize

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<v Speaker 13>it enough. It's just like the fact that he gets

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<v Speaker 13>kind of confrontational while he is.

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<v Speaker 1>Does he get confrontational towards the customers or does he

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<v Speaker 1>does he get confrontational towards you?

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<v Speaker 13>Towards us?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Tell me tell me specifically, what was the last confrontation

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<v Speaker 1>that you had with him while he was drunk.

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<v Speaker 13>This was like whenever I I didn't really think that

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<v Speaker 13>he was drunk because I couldn't fathom, like I've been

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<v Speaker 13>working like retail jobs all my life up until like

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<v Speaker 13>I graduated and got this job, so like I couldn't

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<v Speaker 13>even like it didn't like cross my mind that people

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<v Speaker 13>would actually get drunk like during like you know, like

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<v Speaker 13>a professional job and shit like that.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh it's wait wait what what tell me? Tell me

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<v Speaker 1>I'm brigetting like side true. What was the last confrontation

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<v Speaker 1>you had with him? Specifically?

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<v Speaker 13>It was me like jokingly being like because he like

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<v Speaker 13>stumbled a little bit over his feet, and I was like, okay,

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<v Speaker 13>I'm clumsy, like I do that shit too. So I

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<v Speaker 13>jokingly was like, oh my god, blank, are you drunk

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<v Speaker 13>or something? And he was just like straight up to

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<v Speaker 13>me like fuck you. Of course I'm not, like, but.

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<v Speaker 1>He's also openly denying it.

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, but the entire time, like while he's saying that,

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<v Speaker 13>he's like luring his words heavily, and I'm like, okay, yeah, sure,

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<v Speaker 13>Well what you say.

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<v Speaker 1>Your name was Bobby. Bobby, listen, Bobby, take a day,

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<v Speaker 1>do like you know, do like a shot. I mean

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<v Speaker 1>what you said. You you said it's your dream to

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<v Speaker 1>get drunk at work. You wish you could do what

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<v Speaker 1>he does. Take a shot before word. No, take a

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<v Speaker 1>shot before you go into the work. See how you feel.

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<v Speaker 1>Don't actually do this. See how you feel, and then

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<v Speaker 1>if you can, if you can handle that, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>next time you take two, don't actually don't actually do

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<v Speaker 1>this and then if you can handle that, take four

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<v Speaker 1>and see. Just find your limits. Okay, absolutely, don't actually

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<v Speaker 1>do this. Get high, get cross faded next time. See

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<v Speaker 1>if you can handle that. You might improve your your

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<v Speaker 1>your day to day life. You know it may make work.

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<v Speaker 13>Have someone teach me how to like smoke weed every

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<v Speaker 13>time I've tried, like I just well.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you very much for calling Bobby the.

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<v Speaker 13>Point that like, I throw up so.

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<v Speaker 1>And I appreciate you sharing. You have a wonder for

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<v Speaker 1>us to night.

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<v Speaker 13>Thank you, thank you. I appreciate it.

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<v Speaker 1>Grateful to be alive. Not everyone's alive. Most people are dead.

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<v Speaker 1>How does it make me feel that most people are dead?

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's good that most people are dead, not

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<v Speaker 1>because they were bad people or anything like that. It's good.

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<v Speaker 1>It's good that we all die because, look, you really

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<v Speaker 1>want to do this forever. And I say that I

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<v Speaker 1>love being alive. I really do. I love being alive.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm excited that I get to continue to be alive

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<v Speaker 1>for many more years. That sounds I'm a static. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>thinking I'm gonna think of deep. I'm gonna think a

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<v Speaker 1>breath right now. That felt good, It's good stuff. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna touch my body. I'm a I'm a whole guy.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a person exists in the world. I'm chilling. It's

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<v Speaker 1>nice to be alive, but I don't want to do

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<v Speaker 1>this forever. I don't want to be alive being a

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<v Speaker 1>I would rather I would rather die right now than

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<v Speaker 1>live forever. Think about that. Would you rather die right

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<v Speaker 1>now or live forever? Living forever would just be too

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<v Speaker 1>just be too much. It'd be depressing. Everyone else died,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what, Because here's the thing about living forever.

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<v Speaker 1>Everyone else died, everyone else dies. You're like the If

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<v Speaker 1>you live for you'd be the only one ever in

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<v Speaker 1>the history. You wouldn't just be the only GI, You'd

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<v Speaker 1>be the only organism ever to not fucking die. You

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to be the guinea pig of that experiment.

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<v Speaker 1>I will take the tried, true, tested way of leaving

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<v Speaker 1>this earth. Death easily over, you know because because that's

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<v Speaker 1>been tested, that's been ran through the the the gamut

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<v Speaker 1>by billions of things already. It's a tested way method

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<v Speaker 1>of die, of leaving, but living forever it's too much. Hello, Well,

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<v Speaker 1>how are you uh?

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<v Speaker 11>All right?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm okay, I'm I'm I'm uh chilling out in overtime.

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<v Speaker 11>What's what's new with you?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 11>Leonard? But you know, first of all, I got to say,

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<v Speaker 11>did you hire you've hired a woman to answer calls

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<v Speaker 11>now or something?

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<v Speaker 1>That's that's that's got one of the all right, that's

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<v Speaker 1>doing an excellent job.

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<v Speaker 11>A new thing, yeah, a new thing. Also. I like

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<v Speaker 11>the ominous music that you've been putting on as well.

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<v Speaker 1>I tried to change it to something less, but I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know how to use the computer.

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<v Speaker 11>No, I like it. It's good, it's good.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you. What's going on, Leonard?

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, uh, not too much. Just working on a painting

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<v Speaker 11>right now. Been listening throughout the night.

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<v Speaker 1>You had a specific thing that I that I saw

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<v Speaker 1>that you wanted to talk.

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<v Speaker 8>About, right right?

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah? Recently, UH found out like pretty much, I broke

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<v Speaker 11>up a marriage. Apparently this is some girl that apparently

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<v Speaker 11>had children and a family and all that.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, Yeah, you broke up a marriage.

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, yeah, this this girl she had a dating app

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<v Speaker 11>And I don't really take any of that too seriously, right,

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<v Speaker 11>And so I was just hanging out with one girl

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<v Speaker 11>and her husband. Apparently he was following me for a

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<v Speaker 11>while on my socials and I would bring it up

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<v Speaker 11>to her, like who is this guy? Because I see

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<v Speaker 11>a lot of photos of you guys together and everything.

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<v Speaker 11>And one minute she's like, Oh, that's my coworker, that's

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<v Speaker 11>my friend, my ex. You know. She would say all

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<v Speaker 11>these excuses, and I was just like, okay, whatever, you know,

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<v Speaker 11>because I wasn't trying to get in a relationship with her,

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<v Speaker 11>but yeah, she like wanted to get in a relationship

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<v Speaker 11>with me, which was kind of interesting. And so you know,

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<v Speaker 11>every once in a while, uh kind of have her

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<v Speaker 11>over through the rotation, and you know, she would always

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<v Speaker 11>want to, you know, have sex and such, and I

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<v Speaker 11>was and.

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<v Speaker 1>So wait a minute. So her husband, which you don't

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<v Speaker 1>know that it's her husband at this point, is following

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<v Speaker 1>you on social at the time, you didn't and he's

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<v Speaker 1>following you on social media.

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, yeah, I have like an our Instagram's Yeah he

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<v Speaker 11>was following all that, and uh yeah, and where did

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<v Speaker 11>he find them together?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, but so I understand, So how did all right?

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<v Speaker 1>So this this married woman is on dating apps looking

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<v Speaker 1>to have an effect. She finds you, You guys start

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<v Speaker 1>hanging out at why why is her husband? You'll see

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<v Speaker 1>her instagram? You see her with a guy. Well, how

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<v Speaker 1>does he start? How does he even find out about

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<v Speaker 1>you and start following you? How does that make doesn't

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<v Speaker 1>I have no idea?

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<v Speaker 11>He well, he must have been suspicious or maybe it

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<v Speaker 11>happened before where he was just looking through her followers

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<v Speaker 11>maybe or something. And uh yeah, he was kind of

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<v Speaker 11>just following me and looking at my stuff apparently. And

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<v Speaker 11>she always told me it was like her acts or

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<v Speaker 11>a coworker or whatever. Right, So I was just kind

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<v Speaker 11>of like whatever, you know, hm, because you know, I

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<v Speaker 11>wasn't trying to get in a relationship or it didn't

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<v Speaker 11>really mean much to me.

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<v Speaker 1>So so how did you you know? Okay, so there's

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<v Speaker 1>sort of signs, there's suspicions, but you're brushing them off

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<v Speaker 1>and and at what point does everything come to a head.

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah. So then one night, you know, I'm painting and

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<v Speaker 11>I get a bunch of direct messages from this guy

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<v Speaker 11>saying are you sleeping with this girl? And uh I

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<v Speaker 11>was like yeah, you know sometimes, I mean I've done

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<v Speaker 11>it in the past, not really recently, Like she slept

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<v Speaker 11>with me and she comes over and uh yeah, like

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<v Speaker 11>she would like buy me food, she would bring me

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<v Speaker 11>over food, take me to like doctor's appointments and.

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<v Speaker 1>Ship like just taking you to doctor's appointments.

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<v Speaker 11>Well, I thought I had COVID. Yeah, well I had

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<v Speaker 11>pink eye, and yeah I was hold on holding that

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<v Speaker 11>I had no.

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<v Speaker 1>Idea on hold on, hold on, hold on. You're making

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<v Speaker 1>absolutely no sense to me right now. Okay, you thought

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<v Speaker 1>you had pink.

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<v Speaker 11>Ey, No, I did. From it. This other girl gave

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<v Speaker 11>me a pink eye and she didn't tell me. A

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<v Speaker 11>bunch of girls not telling me what's going on, all right,

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<v Speaker 11>So hold on.

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<v Speaker 1>Here's what I don't understand is you say you're not

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<v Speaker 1>looking for a relationship. You said you're you're basically like

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<v Speaker 1>hooking up with this girl that you met on a

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<v Speaker 1>dating app. But yet, yeah, you think you have pink guy.

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<v Speaker 1>You think a very contagious disease, and so you call

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<v Speaker 1>the girl you've been hooking up with ask her to

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<v Speaker 1>drive you to the doctor.

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<v Speaker 11>Well, the pink I had was not contagious.

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<v Speaker 1>But you didn't know. No, I'm but Leonard, I'm speaking

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<v Speaker 1>upon the knowledge you had at the time. You at

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<v Speaker 1>the time have the knowledge you have pink eye. So

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<v Speaker 1>you call this lady. I don't I don't even know.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even know if we have time to understand. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>well this is dynamic.

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<v Speaker 11>No, so listen, this girl, I already went to the

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<v Speaker 11>doctors and had medicine and I was taking the medicine.

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<v Speaker 11>All right. She comes over again after that and she's like, yeah, sure,

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<v Speaker 11>I'll take you over there. And it wasn't contagious and

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<v Speaker 11>that you knew.

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<v Speaker 1>At the time. All right, So you go to the

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think you have pink eye? You go to

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<v Speaker 1>the doctor. The doctor says, yeah, you do, but it's

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<v Speaker 1>not the pages and You're like, great, I can keep

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<v Speaker 1>working out with this lady.

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<v Speaker 11>I mean pretty much. She just always wanted to hang

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<v Speaker 11>out with me, So I was like, you know, sure,

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<v Speaker 11>I'm down to hang out.

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<v Speaker 1>I just needed to clarify that. Leonard, Leonard, you gotta

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<v Speaker 1>meet me halfway on some of this.

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<v Speaker 11>H No, I get you, I feel you, Okay, So.

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<v Speaker 1>What happened and what is what? What sort of happens

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<v Speaker 1>after that?

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<v Speaker 11>Pretty much? She was or she was like is she's

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<v Speaker 11>sleeping with you? And I was like who are you?

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<v Speaker 11>And he was like, I'm married to this girl. We

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<v Speaker 11>have kids. She told me that she had a what

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<v Speaker 11>do you call it?

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<v Speaker 1>Affair?

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<v Speaker 11>She was having people. She was having people rent out

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<v Speaker 11>her apartment and they had kids, but those were actually

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<v Speaker 11>her kids. So he was like, we have children, were married,

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<v Speaker 11>blah blah blah. And I was like, well, this is

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<v Speaker 11>news to me. I had no idea. I you know,

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<v Speaker 11>she told me you were this and that blah blah blah. Right,

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<v Speaker 11>And I was like, yeah, you know in the past, yeah,

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<v Speaker 11>we've like slept together and everything. And he was so.

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<v Speaker 1>How did he he respond? Did he was he upset

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<v Speaker 1>with you? Or did you explain that you did not know?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, I was just like, I had no idea. This

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<v Speaker 11>is news to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Man.

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<v Speaker 11>I was like, I'm sorry you're having a go through this,

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<v Speaker 11>you know, but uh but yeah, you know, we we

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<v Speaker 11>have slept together in the past. I'm not really interested

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<v Speaker 11>in all that anymore and whatnot.

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<v Speaker 1>And he was so, I mean, look to kind of

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<v Speaker 1>to kind of wrap things up and get to where

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<v Speaker 1>we are right now. Are you have you made contact

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<v Speaker 1>with this woman ever? Again?

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<v Speaker 11>Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>No?

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<v Speaker 11>I told him to uh to pretty much like press

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<v Speaker 11>her on this, and she she blocked so, which I

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<v Speaker 11>mean I didn't want to talk to her anyways.

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<v Speaker 1>But so, how are you feeling about this because when

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<v Speaker 1>we first picked up that, when I first started talking

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<v Speaker 1>to you ten minutes ago, you seemed like you seemed

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<v Speaker 1>like like you had some some guilt.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, yeah, I feel well.

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<v Speaker 11>I mean I told him, I was like, man, I

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<v Speaker 11>feel bad, like sorry, you have to go through this,

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<v Speaker 11>you know. But yeah, you know, I don't know. I

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<v Speaker 11>was lied to throughout the whole thing. If you don't know,

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<v Speaker 11>you didn't know, but I do, you know, Yeah, but

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<v Speaker 11>I don't know kind of I don't know how. That's

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<v Speaker 11>what I wanted to call and talk to you, is

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<v Speaker 11>like I don't know how to really like think about it,

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<v Speaker 11>you know, because uh, well I.

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<v Speaker 4>Feel like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean I think, I mean, I mean, look, we'll

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta move on.

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<v Speaker 11>But yeah, no, I feel you well no, well no.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean look, it sounds like you already have the

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<v Speaker 1>right mentality about it, right, which is like, I mean,

1:26:01.960 --> 1:26:05.120
<v Speaker 1>you were deceived. You know, you didn't act with any

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<v Speaker 1>sort of intentional malice, So I don't think you guilty

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<v Speaker 1>about it. I think, I mean, if anything, I mean, look,

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<v Speaker 1>if anything, you're you know, you know, one of her

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<v Speaker 1>little you know, you've been pawned, like you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>you you were you.

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<v Speaker 11>Know, taking advantage of kind of, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I think you were, you were taking advantage of you know,

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<v Speaker 1>we were lied to. Yeah, you know, so I wouldn't

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<v Speaker 1>feel bad. I don't think And by the way, here's

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<v Speaker 1>another thing, is like, you know, look, she just decided

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<v Speaker 1>to use you, but if she was gonna cheat, she

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<v Speaker 1>would have used you know, anyone else. So you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry to hear that you got swept up in

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<v Speaker 1>this whole fucking thing, but I don't think you need

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<v Speaker 1>to feel any guilt about it as long as you're

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<v Speaker 1>telling the truth that you had.

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<v Speaker 11>No idea, you know, Yeah, well I didn't have any

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<v Speaker 11>Like the whole relationship wasn't serious or whatever. It was

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<v Speaker 11>just kind of you know, like.

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<v Speaker 1>Hang out and well whether you're the relationships whatever. But

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<v Speaker 1>but but.

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, it's a shitty feeling. So I just want to

1:27:08.520 --> 1:27:11.679
<v Speaker 11>kind of you're, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sorry to hear that you got caught.

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<v Speaker 11>Up a long night for you, and I don't think

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<v Speaker 11>that you need to.

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<v Speaker 1>Feel I don't think you need to feel guilty about that.

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<v Speaker 11>For sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 11>Not to take life too seriously and uh, I don't

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<v Speaker 11>really know, Uh, relationships aren't really. I don't really know

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<v Speaker 11>if they're fit for our generation anymore.

1:27:43.280 --> 1:27:45.320
<v Speaker 1>If you want to go ahead and be a single

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<v Speaker 1>guy and do whatever you're gonna do and do it

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<v Speaker 1>until it no longer, well.

1:27:51.240 --> 1:27:54.599
<v Speaker 11>I know you're like that. The single life is definitely

1:27:54.600 --> 1:27:57.519
<v Speaker 11>the life to live. But a lot of callers you

1:27:57.600 --> 1:28:03.120
<v Speaker 11>have call in about like relationship advice, and uh, I

1:28:03.160 --> 1:28:06.479
<v Speaker 11>think everyone should just everyone seems and everyone's really young

1:28:06.479 --> 1:28:08.800
<v Speaker 11>when they're calling in to you about this kind of

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<v Speaker 11>ship and you and me were the same age, and

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<v Speaker 11>it's just kind of like, yo, don't take life too seriously.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what you tell them.

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<v Speaker 11>I mean, I've been listening to you, we've we've actually

1:28:24.160 --> 1:28:26.719
<v Speaker 11>chatted in the past before about art and such.

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<v Speaker 5>But uh, yeah, but.

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<v Speaker 1>Be honest, thank you for calling and Sharon, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>sorry that that happened to you, and I'll talk to

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<v Speaker 1>you again in another life.

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<v Speaker 11>Yeah, there's nothing to be sorry about. But uh, have

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<v Speaker 11>a good night, man. You to get some good calls.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, hello, Hey, hey, I heard that that was your name, Ryan, Ryan.

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<v Speaker 1>I heard you have a test of some kind that

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<v Speaker 1>you would like to share with the the listeners.

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, of course, So I actually have a. Basically, I

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<v Speaker 4>believe that I love cars, I love driving, and my

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<v Speaker 4>philosophy really is that people should be able to go

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<v Speaker 4>as fast as they can handle and have proven they

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<v Speaker 4>can handle handle.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. Okay, So it's a test or a philosophy.

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<v Speaker 4>It's there's a test related to it. So I think

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<v Speaker 4>that there should be different levels of driver's licenses that

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<v Speaker 4>you can earn based off of your skill aptitude on

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<v Speaker 4>a test that you can take that measures certain things

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<v Speaker 4>like your ability to drive, your reaction times, and things

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<v Speaker 4>like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm really you know, I'm really trying to be open

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<v Speaker 1>minded about the idea of having different ways. So you're

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<v Speaker 1>telling me you want to enact the system in which

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<v Speaker 1>you can get like a silver driver's license that will

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<v Speaker 1>allow you to go X amount of miles over the

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<v Speaker 1>speed limit CBS exactly, and and okay, so I'm curious,

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<v Speaker 1>and maybe this is where the test aspect of this

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<v Speaker 1>philosophy comes in. How does one prove themselves worthy of

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<v Speaker 1>this higher echelon driver's license?

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<v Speaker 4>I think the best way that I've so far thought of,

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<v Speaker 4>and this is this isn't something I've thought about extensively.

1:30:42.000 --> 1:30:43.479
<v Speaker 4>It's just kind of an idea that popped in my

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<v Speaker 4>head the other day, but I feel like it would

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<v Speaker 4>be something like you take a few laps around the

1:30:49.600 --> 1:30:52.920
<v Speaker 4>track and they like measure how you react to different things.

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<v Speaker 4>And basically just do you know how you do this?

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<v Speaker 4>Like when you drop a ruler, you can measure your

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<v Speaker 4>reaction time.

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<v Speaker 1>I've never heard of that.

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<v Speaker 4>No, Oh, explain its. Basically, they hold the ruler between

1:31:09.640 --> 1:31:12.800
<v Speaker 4>your fingers and then if you and then they drop

1:31:12.840 --> 1:31:14.160
<v Speaker 4>it and you just have to try to catch it

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<v Speaker 4>right when they drop it. I feel stupid, I'm doing

1:31:18.280 --> 1:31:23.000
<v Speaker 4>the physical pinching. But yeah, so you try to catch it,

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<v Speaker 4>and based off of where you catch it, you can

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<v Speaker 4>measure how quickly your brain was able to react see

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<v Speaker 4>it and then respond to the fact that it's dropping.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, I think you know this. It's an interesting theory.

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<v Speaker 1>It's an interesting theory. My problem is, I mean, aside

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<v Speaker 1>from how we're going to test people to see what

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<v Speaker 1>color license they're going to get, is how do I

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<v Speaker 1>mean what the basure is the problem. We have to

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<v Speaker 1>share roads, right, we have to share roads. So the

1:31:57.439 --> 1:32:01.000
<v Speaker 1>the yellow license pe well, are going to be sharing

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<v Speaker 1>roads with the with the green license people, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>and and and shit's gonna get fucked up.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, yeah, yeah, I haven't thought of it that way.

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<v Speaker 4>That makes sense, I guess. I mean I really do

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<v Speaker 4>have a bias standpoint here, because I really.

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<v Speaker 1>Do have it because you would like to go very

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<v Speaker 1>fast I get cars, So you're you're biased about that.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, my brains just romanticizing about this world where that's okay.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh, what's the fastest that you have gone on the highway?

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<v Speaker 4>The fastest I went on the highway was one hundred

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<v Speaker 4>and forty two miles an hour.

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<v Speaker 1>One hundred and forty two miles an hour. Yeah, Jesus Christ,

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<v Speaker 1>did you not you didn't get pulled over?

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<v Speaker 2>No?

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<v Speaker 4>I have been pulled over going ninety and eighty.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, what do you even say? What do you even

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<v Speaker 1>say if you get pulled over after going if if

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<v Speaker 1>there someone clocks you at one hundred and forty two

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<v Speaker 1>miles an hour, what do you even say? You just

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<v Speaker 1>got to throw up your hair. You gotta be like,

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<v Speaker 1>all right, is it? I'm going to jail?

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<v Speaker 14>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 4>Honestly, if you get pulled over going that fast, you're

1:33:17.600 --> 1:33:20.519
<v Speaker 4>going to jail. I was lucky enough both times I

1:33:20.520 --> 1:33:22.759
<v Speaker 4>got pulled over. If you're going over eighty, it's criminal.

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<v Speaker 4>You can get pulled over and go to jail for

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<v Speaker 4>going on anything over eighty.

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<v Speaker 1>Or and what is it if you go over one

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<v Speaker 1>hundred and forty? Does it super criminal?

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's it's yeah, you're you're screwed.

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<v Speaker 1>Well listen, Ryan, Oh, go ahead. The best thing to do,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to hear it.

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<v Speaker 4>The best thing to do if you're getting clocks going

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<v Speaker 4>one hundred and forty is just keep going because they

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<v Speaker 4>can't chase you at that speats for long. They didn't

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<v Speaker 4>get pursuit quickly.

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<v Speaker 1>Hmm. Interesting, you know that makes sense in theory. You

1:33:59.080 --> 1:34:01.320
<v Speaker 1>got all these thoughts. See that makes sense in that

1:34:01.439 --> 1:34:03.720
<v Speaker 1>makes sense in theory because if you go faster they

1:34:03.720 --> 1:34:07.400
<v Speaker 1>cannot catch you. You've got all these thoughts, Ryan, that

1:34:07.479 --> 1:34:12.640
<v Speaker 1>make a lot of sense in theory. And you know,

1:34:12.840 --> 1:34:15.839
<v Speaker 1>keep thinking, Ryan, you have a creative brain. Keep thinking

1:34:15.880 --> 1:34:18.200
<v Speaker 1>on these ideas, and eventually you'll come up with something

1:34:18.240 --> 1:34:22.000
<v Speaker 1>that makes sense in practice, or you'll get yourself and

1:34:22.040 --> 1:34:24.280
<v Speaker 1>a bunch of people killed in the process of doing so.

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<v Speaker 1>But such as must happen for the advancements of new

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<v Speaker 1>ideas in our society.

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<v Speaker 4>Precisely, precisely have a gress on that. Ryan, Yeah you too.

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<v Speaker 1>What car does the caller drive? I don't know. I

1:34:41.600 --> 1:34:43.640
<v Speaker 1>don't know what fucking car can go one hundred and

1:34:43.680 --> 1:34:51.240
<v Speaker 1>forty two miles an hour. I don't fuck with cars, man.

1:34:54.439 --> 1:34:56.960
<v Speaker 1>I wish my ultimate dream is I want to live

1:34:57.000 --> 1:35:00.519
<v Speaker 1>in a walkable city. I don't fuck around with cars

1:35:00.560 --> 1:35:05.120
<v Speaker 1>because it's it's so easy to die. It's so easy

1:35:05.200 --> 1:35:12.040
<v Speaker 1>to die, right, Like, like, all right, what imagine your

1:35:12.120 --> 1:35:15.040
<v Speaker 1>stupid day where you're sitting in a chair for like

1:35:15.160 --> 1:35:18.320
<v Speaker 1>ninety percent of it, you're on the computer, working or

1:35:18.360 --> 1:35:22.120
<v Speaker 1>watching YouTube, whatever the fuck. And then like, like, if

1:35:22.160 --> 1:35:26.439
<v Speaker 1>you're on your computer and you're watching YouTube, the likelihood

1:35:26.479 --> 1:35:30.679
<v Speaker 1>that you're going to die is pretty low. It's like zero,

1:35:30.960 --> 1:35:33.120
<v Speaker 1>it's I think it's pretty close. I think it's pretty

1:35:33.120 --> 1:35:35.200
<v Speaker 1>close to zero percent. I think it's under one percent.

1:35:35.320 --> 1:35:39.040
<v Speaker 1>The likelihood that you're just gonna fucking just die when

1:35:39.080 --> 1:35:42.719
<v Speaker 1>you're sitting at home. When you're walking down the street,

1:35:42.720 --> 1:35:45.120
<v Speaker 1>the likelihood that you're going to die go it goes

1:35:45.200 --> 1:35:47.720
<v Speaker 1>up a little bit. You know, somebody could come and

1:35:47.760 --> 1:35:49.640
<v Speaker 1>shoot you in the face, or you could trip on

1:35:49.720 --> 1:35:52.360
<v Speaker 1>a rock, something could happen. But when you get into

1:35:52.400 --> 1:35:54.840
<v Speaker 1>a car, I mean, the likelihood you're going to die

1:35:55.600 --> 1:36:01.200
<v Speaker 1>goes to probably about seventy five percent chance that you're

1:36:01.240 --> 1:36:05.439
<v Speaker 1>going to die if you're driving a car. I've talked

1:36:05.479 --> 1:36:09.360
<v Speaker 1>to people who say that they have anxiety about driving cars,

1:36:09.400 --> 1:36:12.439
<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, that's that makes sense. You know, there's

1:36:12.479 --> 1:36:14.639
<v Speaker 1>nothing wrong with you. If you have anxiety about driving

1:36:14.680 --> 1:36:20.439
<v Speaker 1>cars is extremely correct thing to be anxious about, because

1:36:20.479 --> 1:36:24.200
<v Speaker 1>you're I mean roads, we're fucking jousting out there.

1:36:24.240 --> 1:36:24.639
<v Speaker 13>It's like.

1:36:26.280 --> 1:36:29.679
<v Speaker 1>I'm just like, one guy's going as fast fifty miles

1:36:29.720 --> 1:36:31.680
<v Speaker 1>an hour down this, and then there's another guy He's

1:36:31.720 --> 1:36:34.439
<v Speaker 1>going to the same way, but there's there's lists little

1:36:34.479 --> 1:36:37.439
<v Speaker 1>amount of fucking space between them or jousting out there.

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<v Speaker 1>Hello Blair from Ohio?

1:36:43.080 --> 1:36:45.559
<v Speaker 5>Hello, what's up?

1:36:45.680 --> 1:36:47.519
<v Speaker 1>Blair from Ohio?

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<v Speaker 12>Oh? Nothing, nic?

1:36:50.120 --> 1:36:50.559
<v Speaker 9>How are you?

1:36:52.720 --> 1:37:02.000
<v Speaker 1>How am I? I am not doing too bad? How

1:37:02.040 --> 1:37:02.280
<v Speaker 1>are you?

1:37:04.920 --> 1:37:07.240
<v Speaker 12>I'm pretty good? Is your toe doing better?

1:37:08.680 --> 1:37:11.040
<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you asking me that my toe is doing

1:37:13.040 --> 1:37:14.560
<v Speaker 1>pretty better? I think.

1:37:17.280 --> 1:37:17.760
<v Speaker 11>That's good.

1:37:19.640 --> 1:37:20.759
<v Speaker 1>So what's going on with you? Blair?

1:37:24.360 --> 1:37:30.600
<v Speaker 12>Nothing? Really? I call takeet some advice about like relationships.

1:37:30.640 --> 1:37:35.800
<v Speaker 1>I guess I'll do my best. What's what's going on

1:37:35.880 --> 1:37:37.680
<v Speaker 1>with you?

1:37:37.400 --> 1:37:40.519
<v Speaker 12>I know, Well, is there like a missus Gecko?

1:37:42.880 --> 1:37:48.040
<v Speaker 1>Is there a missus Gecko? Probably out there somewhere. There's

1:37:48.040 --> 1:37:50.160
<v Speaker 1>all kinds of people with all kinds of names. But

1:37:50.160 --> 1:37:52.120
<v Speaker 1>what's going on in your life?

1:37:53.640 --> 1:37:57.320
<v Speaker 12>Okay? Have you ever seen that movie good Luck Chuck?

1:37:58.920 --> 1:38:02.879
<v Speaker 1>Good Luck Chuck. I've heard of it. I'm familiar.

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<v Speaker 12>Okay, So basically, like this guy, you know, women go

1:38:10.000 --> 1:38:12.200
<v Speaker 12>to him and they get with him and then they

1:38:12.200 --> 1:38:17.559
<v Speaker 12>find like they're forever like saying afterwards, I feel like

1:38:17.760 --> 1:38:19.439
<v Speaker 12>that's kind of my life right now.

1:38:21.080 --> 1:38:23.760
<v Speaker 1>Good Luck. So in Good Luck Chuck, women get with

1:38:23.960 --> 1:38:26.000
<v Speaker 1>Chuck and then they just fall in love with him forever.

1:38:27.479 --> 1:38:30.519
<v Speaker 12>No, they get like, like, so the next boyfriend that

1:38:30.560 --> 1:38:33.000
<v Speaker 12>they get, that's like who they get married to.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh so Chuck is the penultimate lover eternally.

1:38:42.880 --> 1:38:43.240
<v Speaker 5>Yes.

1:38:44.080 --> 1:38:46.240
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, that's his and that's his and that's is that

1:38:46.280 --> 1:38:50.120
<v Speaker 1>an issue for him?

1:38:50.680 --> 1:38:54.040
<v Speaker 12>No? But for me yeah, I'm kind of over it.

1:38:54.960 --> 1:39:00.240
<v Speaker 1>Oh okay, so you are the perpetual penultimate lover before

1:39:00.800 --> 1:39:05.360
<v Speaker 1>the guy finds whoever he actually ends up being with.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah. So, like the last three people I've talked to,

1:39:12.600 --> 1:39:15.080
<v Speaker 12>I've been single for like three years now. So like

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<v Speaker 12>the last three people I kind of got serious with

1:39:17.840 --> 1:39:20.720
<v Speaker 12>have ghosted me, stopped talking to me, and then like

1:39:20.920 --> 1:39:23.680
<v Speaker 12>a week later they have another girlfriend. And it's like

1:39:23.760 --> 1:39:24.760
<v Speaker 12>the weirdest thing.

1:39:24.960 --> 1:39:32.719
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, mmm, interesting, interesting, I.

1:39:34.439 --> 1:39:39.200
<v Speaker 12>No, go ahead, please sorry, I'm actually kind of I

1:39:39.240 --> 1:39:42.040
<v Speaker 12>think I'm talking to someone right now. I don't know

1:39:42.040 --> 1:39:45.040
<v Speaker 12>if I'm being like Homie zone though. It's kind of weird.

1:39:45.439 --> 1:39:47.559
<v Speaker 12>He's a weird relationship.

1:39:47.000 --> 1:39:47.360
<v Speaker 2>That we have.

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<v Speaker 1>Why tell me more about this relationship? Why do you

1:39:50.680 --> 1:39:51.759
<v Speaker 1>think it is? It is weird?

1:39:54.560 --> 1:39:54.880
<v Speaker 8>Uh?

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<v Speaker 12>He just kind of like tells me about dates he

1:39:57.560 --> 1:40:01.880
<v Speaker 12>goes on and like how bad they are. But we

1:40:02.000 --> 1:40:05.720
<v Speaker 12>talked all the time, like it's kind of cute, Like

1:40:05.800 --> 1:40:07.720
<v Speaker 12>he'll have me like who want to talk to me

1:40:07.760 --> 1:40:10.360
<v Speaker 12>on his way home from work? Or like we'll talk

1:40:10.400 --> 1:40:13.800
<v Speaker 12>on the phone before bed and stuff. We've hung out

1:40:13.880 --> 1:40:17.120
<v Speaker 12>a few times. We actually went on a date last

1:40:17.160 --> 1:40:19.960
<v Speaker 12>Friday and it was good. I kind of fucked it

1:40:20.040 --> 1:40:24.040
<v Speaker 12>up though by being late. I didn't mean to. I

1:40:24.120 --> 1:40:27.240
<v Speaker 12>just scrambled for like a babysitter last minute, So we

1:40:27.320 --> 1:40:29.920
<v Speaker 12>missed dinner like he wanted to. But we still did

1:40:30.439 --> 1:40:33.040
<v Speaker 12>the other two things a child.

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<v Speaker 1>I do, Yes, so be honest with me. Has that

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<v Speaker 1>been like a a any any amount of impediment in

1:40:47.920 --> 1:40:50.679
<v Speaker 1>your dating life.

1:40:52.439 --> 1:40:55.920
<v Speaker 12>There's been some people that are like, I don't know.

1:40:56.000 --> 1:40:59.479
<v Speaker 12>I try to keep my home life away from my

1:40:59.560 --> 1:41:03.880
<v Speaker 12>dating life because my son has a dad and he

1:41:03.960 --> 1:41:07.240
<v Speaker 12>sees him, so it's it's no issue. I'm not looking

1:41:07.240 --> 1:41:09.280
<v Speaker 12>for someone for my son, you know, it's for me.

1:41:10.240 --> 1:41:14.599
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmmm. Interesting okay, Uh, it's.

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<v Speaker 12>It is weird because there's a lot of people in

1:41:16.160 --> 1:41:18.280
<v Speaker 12>my age that are like, oh, you have a five

1:41:18.360 --> 1:41:21.800
<v Speaker 12>year old and I'm like, yeah, I don't know. I'm sorry.

1:41:22.120 --> 1:41:24.000
<v Speaker 1>Sure, well, I mean look, regardless of what other people

1:41:24.080 --> 1:41:27.400
<v Speaker 1>your age think about, you know, your life, Like, well,

1:41:27.400 --> 1:41:29.439
<v Speaker 1>how do you meet these these guys? You said, there's

1:41:29.479 --> 1:41:32.479
<v Speaker 1>all these guys who go on like they like they

1:41:32.520 --> 1:41:36.040
<v Speaker 1>go on a few dates with you and then they

1:41:36.080 --> 1:41:38.360
<v Speaker 1>find someone else. Do when you go on a date

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<v Speaker 1>with first of all, we are you meeting these guys?

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<v Speaker 1>It's like this is this is a tender thing, a

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<v Speaker 1>hinge thing.

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<v Speaker 12>Uh tender and hinge?

1:41:44.800 --> 1:41:45.040
<v Speaker 7>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, And do they do they know off the bat

1:41:47.960 --> 1:41:49.080
<v Speaker 1>that you have a child?

1:41:50.240 --> 1:41:53.360
<v Speaker 12>Yeah? I actually put in my profiles then I'm a mom.

1:41:54.240 --> 1:41:56.240
<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, I think that's I think that's good. Not

1:41:56.560 --> 1:41:59.519
<v Speaker 1>you know, not not because anyone has any right to

1:41:59.520 --> 1:42:01.200
<v Speaker 1>anyone else business. But you know, at the end of

1:42:01.240 --> 1:42:03.080
<v Speaker 1>the day, it makes things easier for you, right because

1:42:03.120 --> 1:42:05.000
<v Speaker 1>you don't want to waste any time, you know with

1:42:05.040 --> 1:42:05.920
<v Speaker 1>anyone who you don't.

1:42:05.760 --> 1:42:06.800
<v Speaker 5>Know is already that.

1:42:08.479 --> 1:42:09.320
<v Speaker 12>Yeah, you don't know.

1:42:12.280 --> 1:42:15.479
<v Speaker 1>Interesting. So so all right, it's talking more about this

1:42:15.479 --> 1:42:17.719
<v Speaker 1>guy who you're talking to right now, because it sounds

1:42:17.720 --> 1:42:20.640
<v Speaker 1>like things are going good with that guy.

1:42:20.840 --> 1:42:26.720
<v Speaker 12>I think so, but like, I don't know, he might

1:42:26.760 --> 1:42:29.120
<v Speaker 12>be watching the stream, so I'm trying to watch what

1:42:29.240 --> 1:42:29.679
<v Speaker 12>I say.

1:42:30.520 --> 1:42:33.000
<v Speaker 1>Did he did you? Did you show him the stream?

1:42:34.000 --> 1:42:34.080
<v Speaker 8>No?

1:42:34.240 --> 1:42:34.439
<v Speaker 1>Oh.

1:42:34.520 --> 1:42:36.479
<v Speaker 12>He tried to call me when I was in the queue,

1:42:36.520 --> 1:42:41.719
<v Speaker 12>and I was like, no, I'm not trying to be rude, Okay,

1:42:41.800 --> 1:42:44.000
<v Speaker 12>I've been like I've been super hype about getting on

1:42:44.040 --> 1:42:47.400
<v Speaker 12>your show for a minute. So like he's always we're

1:42:47.439 --> 1:42:49.679
<v Speaker 12>always talking about it, like oh, He's like, get in there,

1:42:49.720 --> 1:42:50.360
<v Speaker 12>you got.

1:42:50.120 --> 1:42:53.960
<v Speaker 1>It, And so you're always talking about it because you're like,

1:42:54.040 --> 1:42:56.160
<v Speaker 1>you're like, I really want to call this geckos to

1:42:56.240 --> 1:42:57.000
<v Speaker 1>talk about you.

1:42:59.600 --> 1:43:01.439
<v Speaker 12>I have told him. I was like, when I if

1:43:01.439 --> 1:43:03.800
<v Speaker 12>I ever get in I'm talking ship and he said

1:43:03.840 --> 1:43:04.599
<v Speaker 12>he would do the same.

1:43:04.680 --> 1:43:08.080
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, is he Is he on the fucking queue? That's

1:43:08.160 --> 1:43:10.040
<v Speaker 1>conference with motherfucker in Dude.

1:43:11.360 --> 1:43:13.160
<v Speaker 12>I don't I don't know if he's on the cue.

1:43:13.160 --> 1:43:14.599
<v Speaker 12>Do you want me to like, I don't know how

1:43:14.600 --> 1:43:16.679
<v Speaker 12>to do that. I don't know if he's calling.

1:43:17.360 --> 1:43:20.000
<v Speaker 1>No, Well listen, Okay, So you're in this you're in

1:43:20.040 --> 1:43:23.320
<v Speaker 1>this thing where you feel like guys, are you feel

1:43:23.360 --> 1:43:26.240
<v Speaker 1>like you're the you're the you're the you know, always

1:43:26.280 --> 1:43:32.000
<v Speaker 1>whatever being passed over or whatever. But I mean, I

1:43:32.000 --> 1:43:35.000
<v Speaker 1>don't know, I feel like, uh, the the remedy to that,

1:43:35.080 --> 1:43:39.559
<v Speaker 1>if there is one, is like patience, right, and sounds

1:43:39.560 --> 1:43:43.680
<v Speaker 1>like you've been pretty patient, and I don't know, it

1:43:43.720 --> 1:43:46.160
<v Speaker 1>sounds like these things are working out with this guy.

1:43:48.360 --> 1:43:52.040
<v Speaker 12>Yeah, yeah, I do think I need to, Like I

1:43:52.080 --> 1:43:56.360
<v Speaker 12>just get really excited. So it's like like my loveling

1:43:56.400 --> 1:43:59.960
<v Speaker 12>guage is like buying stuff and like giving presents and

1:44:00.120 --> 1:44:03.080
<v Speaker 12>like showing it, you know, like, oh, I like you,

1:44:03.280 --> 1:44:05.040
<v Speaker 12>here's this, I got this for you. So it's like

1:44:05.439 --> 1:44:07.800
<v Speaker 12>I was like, oh my god, I've been trying so

1:44:07.920 --> 1:44:10.320
<v Speaker 12>hard not to buy a bunch of gifts and be like, hey,

1:44:10.400 --> 1:44:12.439
<v Speaker 12>how's it going? Like, but I don't want to like

1:44:12.479 --> 1:44:14.320
<v Speaker 12>scare them away, Like I haven't done that before, but

1:44:14.920 --> 1:44:17.120
<v Speaker 12>this one, I don't know. I feel like it's kind

1:44:17.120 --> 1:44:17.800
<v Speaker 12>of different, so.

1:44:19.760 --> 1:44:26.160
<v Speaker 1>You know, you're kind of my My general thought process

1:44:26.200 --> 1:44:33.559
<v Speaker 1>on like dating is that like you shouldn't ever not

1:44:33.680 --> 1:44:35.280
<v Speaker 1>for And this is not I'm not saying. This is

1:44:35.280 --> 1:44:37.000
<v Speaker 1>not like a cheesy thing. I'm saying, this is like

1:44:37.040 --> 1:44:41.519
<v Speaker 1>a logic. Okay, this is not a motivational speech. You

1:44:41.560 --> 1:44:46.599
<v Speaker 1>shouldn't compromise logically. You should not compromise who you are

1:44:47.640 --> 1:44:50.879
<v Speaker 1>while you are dating because you got to find someone

1:44:51.600 --> 1:44:55.519
<v Speaker 1>who is cool with how you are. And if your

1:44:55.840 --> 1:45:00.760
<v Speaker 1>love languages gifts, now here's now okay, now here's the

1:45:00.760 --> 1:45:04.400
<v Speaker 1>tricky part of what I just said is that if

1:45:04.840 --> 1:45:10.000
<v Speaker 1>your peculiar, or if you act in ways that are

1:45:11.280 --> 1:45:14.320
<v Speaker 1>not how a lot of people act, or if maybe

1:45:14.320 --> 1:45:16.280
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, I don't know anything about you know,

1:45:17.080 --> 1:45:20.200
<v Speaker 1>how many people give gifts as their love language, but whatever,

1:45:20.520 --> 1:45:26.439
<v Speaker 1>then then you have to be a little bit more patient. Yeah,

1:45:26.520 --> 1:45:28.800
<v Speaker 1>if you have high standards, you gotta be a little

1:45:28.800 --> 1:45:30.960
<v Speaker 1>bit more patient, which is okay. I think having high

1:45:31.000 --> 1:45:32.720
<v Speaker 1>standards is good. By the way, I don't know if

1:45:32.720 --> 1:45:36.320
<v Speaker 1>I'm saying.

1:45:37.400 --> 1:45:38.400
<v Speaker 12>He's in the queue.

1:45:39.200 --> 1:45:41.240
<v Speaker 1>But he's in the que name.

1:45:44.120 --> 1:45:46.920
<v Speaker 12>His name's Kane.

1:45:47.640 --> 1:45:50.640
<v Speaker 1>There. There ain't no Cain in this uh in this

1:45:50.800 --> 1:45:51.400
<v Speaker 1>queue right here.

1:45:51.520 --> 1:45:57.080
<v Speaker 12>I don't know his twitch thing is like clutching the scrub.

1:45:58.040 --> 1:46:00.360
<v Speaker 1>He's in the chat, not the cue conference. Confidence, sa, man,

1:46:00.360 --> 1:46:01.840
<v Speaker 1>if you want, if you want, you don't have to

1:46:02.520 --> 1:46:04.280
<v Speaker 1>you know, I don't know what we're going to talk about,

1:46:04.360 --> 1:46:05.200
<v Speaker 1>but we can try it.

1:46:09.240 --> 1:46:11.640
<v Speaker 12>Oh, no, to keep suck to me.

1:46:12.880 --> 1:46:22.360
<v Speaker 1>Listen, listen. What's your name again? Did he you didn't

1:46:22.360 --> 1:46:24.120
<v Speaker 1>confor You're not? What's your Are you there?

1:46:25.680 --> 1:46:26.439
<v Speaker 5>Yeah? What's up?

1:46:27.120 --> 1:46:32.080
<v Speaker 1>Oh? It's both of you guys. Hey, what's that man?

1:46:32.120 --> 1:46:39.680
<v Speaker 1>What's your name? My name is Kane Kin Yeah, like

1:46:39.800 --> 1:46:41.160
<v Speaker 1>Kane and Able from the Bible.

1:46:44.120 --> 1:46:45.160
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, we get that a lot.

1:46:47.640 --> 1:46:48.960
<v Speaker 1>How's your life going, Kane?

1:46:51.520 --> 1:46:55.400
<v Speaker 5>It's good man, dude, you know, getting through.

1:46:55.280 --> 1:46:59.920
<v Speaker 1>The getting through the West. Are you watching TV right now?

1:47:01.920 --> 1:47:02.559
<v Speaker 5>No, I'm not.

1:47:04.840 --> 1:47:06.080
<v Speaker 1>When are you guys watching TV?

1:47:08.720 --> 1:47:10.479
<v Speaker 5>It is not me?

1:47:11.000 --> 1:47:11.519
<v Speaker 7>It was me?

1:47:11.720 --> 1:47:12.360
<v Speaker 5>Sorry?

1:47:12.960 --> 1:47:15.280
<v Speaker 1>Oh no, Worri Wait, so how long have you guys

1:47:15.600 --> 1:47:16.720
<v Speaker 1>been hanging out with each other?

1:47:18.040 --> 1:47:18.479
<v Speaker 9>It was me?

1:47:21.840 --> 1:47:22.040
<v Speaker 8>Wait?

1:47:22.080 --> 1:47:23.640
<v Speaker 5>What would you say, like a couple of weeks?

1:47:24.640 --> 1:47:26.040
<v Speaker 12>Yeah, like a month?

1:47:26.120 --> 1:47:26.360
<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

1:47:26.800 --> 1:47:31.719
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Well listen, it's been about a month. And where'd

1:47:31.720 --> 1:47:33.240
<v Speaker 1>you guys meet? Hinge? Tinder?

1:47:38.840 --> 1:47:44.559
<v Speaker 12>It was, well, we started talking on Hinge, but we met.

1:47:45.040 --> 1:47:46.639
<v Speaker 12>I was like fourteen when we first met.

1:47:47.680 --> 1:47:52.680
<v Speaker 1>Oh really, so this is one of those like, uh,

1:47:53.000 --> 1:47:56.240
<v Speaker 1>you met, you first meet and whatever, middle school, and

1:47:56.240 --> 1:47:58.880
<v Speaker 1>then all of a sudden you're on Hinge and you're like,

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<v Speaker 1>I saw I remember that guy from whatever math class,

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<v Speaker 1>and now you're you're hanging out kah pretty much?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, now I think I was sixteen, she was fourteen

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<v Speaker 5>pretty much. We were both just like school together.

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<v Speaker 1>That school was it as is it was? It was

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<v Speaker 1>it nice to reconnect.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, we vibe is pretty good. Yeah, it was cool.

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<v Speaker 1>Beautiful Cane, Cane, do you even know what what this

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<v Speaker 1>is that we're Do you even know about what this is?

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<v Speaker 5>Uh? Kind of yeah. I I caught a couple of

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<v Speaker 5>your streams on Reddit? Did you start streaming on credit

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<v Speaker 5>before you? With the twitch?

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<v Speaker 1>Everywhere? I'm on my Space, I'm on fucking born Hub

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<v Speaker 1>name it, I'm there bank Bang. You never been to

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<v Speaker 1>spank bang dot com? No, I haven't check it out.

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<v Speaker 5>Chat is blowing up right now. It's so. Yeah, we

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<v Speaker 5>met when we were when we were under age, we

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<v Speaker 5>were both minors, and then in the future where I'm

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<v Speaker 5>twenty six now she's what twenty four? Yeah, so everybuddy's like,

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<v Speaker 5>whoa wait.

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<v Speaker 1>A minute, And how do you feel as though you

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<v Speaker 1>have matured, developed slat or even stayed the same since

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<v Speaker 1>since you since you first rendezvous a decade prior. Oh?

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, man, I don't even know how to answer that. Honestly,

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<v Speaker 5>it's yeah, I feel like I've I've definitely grown up.

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<v Speaker 1>You're definitely grown up.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I mean I would say I definitely a lot,

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<v Speaker 5>matured a bit, pretty much got my life going. I

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<v Speaker 5>don't know, what do you What.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you look for in a partner, Kane?

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<v Speaker 5>Uh, somebody that somebody that gets seen, somebody that I

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<v Speaker 5>can vibe with that I don't know. I don't know, really, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Think that's a sufficient answer. Somebody that vibes with you,

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<v Speaker 1>somebody that gets you. Sufficient answer. I would say, that's

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<v Speaker 1>that's pretty common amongst, uh, amongst most people. Yeah, well, listen,

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<v Speaker 1>Cain and what's your name again?

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<v Speaker 6>Blair?

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<v Speaker 1>Blair Caine and Blair Listen. You could die at any second,

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<v Speaker 1>so live in the moment and enjoy uh the time

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<v Speaker 1>that you've got where you're a young person that can

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<v Speaker 1>talk to people and do things and hold hands and

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<v Speaker 1>all that crazy crap. You know, enjoy it well you can,

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<v Speaker 1>because one day you'll be old and alone and all

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<v Speaker 1>your friends will be dead, or you'll be dead. That's

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<v Speaker 1>really that's the two options.

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<v Speaker 11>So you know, chill, enjoy, enjoy your life.

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<v Speaker 1>Enjoy life, appreciate you, get go. Someone said, ghak is

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<v Speaker 1>going to a dark place? Why is? I don't know, know,

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<v Speaker 1>you know what. Here's the thing, whether or not I

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<v Speaker 1>believe in love. I think I believe in love in

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<v Speaker 1>a general sense. But is love but I don't I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know if I don't know if love is for everyone.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if love is for everyone. I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if it's for me. Dude, class sick line. I thought,

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<v Speaker 1>and look, I thought love was only true in fairy

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<v Speaker 1>tales for somebody else, but not for me. You know

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<v Speaker 1>that's okay? Do you need love? Do you need love?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you need a soul? Me the partner or forever? Whatever?

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<v Speaker 1>The fuck? You know? Can't you just walk around, eat

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<v Speaker 1>food and jerk off in peace and then die? Is

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<v Speaker 1>that not a life well lived? Climb a mountain? Look

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<v Speaker 1>at a leaf, eat a piece of pizza, talk to

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<v Speaker 1>your friend on the phone, and then die. Is there

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<v Speaker 1>anything wrong with that? I don't think so. Am I lonely?

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<v Speaker 1>Actually no, I'm actually feeling pretty good. Well, I've gotten used.

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<v Speaker 1>This is This is a difference between being lonely and

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<v Speaker 1>enjoying being I like, I like, I liked having some

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<v Speaker 1>I like having time to my side. I like I like,

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<v Speaker 1>I like. I like getting high and going to the

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<v Speaker 1>museum alone, getting going to the aquarium alone. Going to

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<v Speaker 1>the aquarium alone is the best. I I got high.

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<v Speaker 1>I went to the Georgia Aquarium alone. I stare at

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<v Speaker 1>a fish for twenty five minutes. You can't do that

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<v Speaker 1>ship If you go to the aquarium with other people,

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<v Speaker 1>you have to keep pace with them as they maneuver

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<v Speaker 1>around the various rooms. There's no time to build connection

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<v Speaker 1>with the fish. And that's why I go to the

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<v Speaker 1>aquarium in the first place, because I'm lonely.

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<v Speaker 4>Literally goes on the line taking your phone calls every night.

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<v Speaker 1>Teaching life expert