WEBVTT - QLS Celebrates Womens History Month Part 2

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<v Speaker 1>Quest Love Supreme is a production of iHeartRadio. Welcome back

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<v Speaker 1>to Quest Love Supreme, y'all, and this is a tradition

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<v Speaker 1>for us. At March, we are celebrating Women's History Month

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<v Speaker 1>with some special programming drawing from nearly a decade of

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<v Speaker 1>shows and conversations.

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<v Speaker 2>This is part two.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, it goes without saying that despite where we

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<v Speaker 1>are currently in present day times, it is important to

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<v Speaker 1>be an ally to women to lift up their voices. Frankly,

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<v Speaker 1>I believe that they are the leaders of now. We

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<v Speaker 1>as men need to take a back seat, and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>all for that. So despite what you hear in the

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<v Speaker 1>news as far as like how businesses are run, I

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<v Speaker 1>will continue to keep that promise to elevate. And you

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<v Speaker 1>clearly see, like with my staff, my management, the artists

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<v Speaker 1>that I choose to highlight, it's all about allyship and

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<v Speaker 1>that's what we're about here. Being raised by my mother,

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<v Speaker 1>my mother was always quick to pull me aside if

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<v Speaker 1>she ever felt that the seeds of anything toxic was

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<v Speaker 1>about to start coming down the pike. And you know,

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<v Speaker 1>she would quickly remind me that, you know, you better

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<v Speaker 1>learn from this situation that when you're grown up you know,

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<v Speaker 1>a woman's not going to tolerate this type of behavior.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, she kept me in a constant practice, not

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<v Speaker 1>just when your mom's around you start, you know, acting up.

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<v Speaker 1>But she taught me early about the importance of this

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<v Speaker 1>and so women are not a threat. They deserve agency

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<v Speaker 1>and are full support. Here's Shaka Khan from twenty seventeen.

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<v Speaker 1>The clip is only a few minutes long, but it

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<v Speaker 1>says a lot. Shaka touches on pivoting outside of rufus

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<v Speaker 1>and some of the judgments and complications she felt as

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<v Speaker 1>a pregnant.

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<v Speaker 2>Artist at the time.

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<v Speaker 1>She also speaks about her reluctance to sing I'm every woman,

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<v Speaker 1>Shaka on behalf of everybody. We're very glad you did, though,

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<v Speaker 1>do you explain to your guys like, Okay, well I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna do the soul project real quick, but I'll be back,

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<v Speaker 1>or like where was it?

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<v Speaker 3>Well, you know, I got pregnant in the until of

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<v Speaker 3>the beginning of that situation Otis Smith. You know, he

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<v Speaker 3>was trying to trap me up and everything. God bless you, ODIs,

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<v Speaker 3>But I'm telling the truth. He thought, you know, he

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<v Speaker 3>was trying to have me and I got pregnant. By

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<v Speaker 3>my husband. And he told me, he said, I'm how

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<v Speaker 3>am I gonna make a star to you if you're

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<v Speaker 3>gonna be having babies? I said, let me tell you something.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna be what I'm gonna be with you or

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<v Speaker 3>without you, around you or under you. You have nothing

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<v Speaker 3>to say about this.

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<v Speaker 4>That's crazy because how many female singers have that same story,

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<v Speaker 4>Like pregnancy is like.

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<v Speaker 3>Cat make a start. I said, I'm not you know,

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<v Speaker 3>a pin up. I'm an artist, you know when I'm

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<v Speaker 3>pregnant or not.

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<v Speaker 2>So so coming to the soccer project.

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<v Speaker 1>You work with, I mean, ar If is one of

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<v Speaker 1>my idols because for me, like the band that I

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<v Speaker 1>worshiped the most when I was a kid was the

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<v Speaker 1>average white man. Yeah, and so to see those names

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<v Speaker 1>on the credits, I was like, oh, this is gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be awesome.

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<v Speaker 2>What was it? What was it like working with him? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh he was like my uncle father. Really, he took

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<v Speaker 3>care of me. He put when I got my.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you see him first or did they come to you?

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<v Speaker 3>Like okay they put us together.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, who did you initially?

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<v Speaker 1>Because by that point I forgot you did sounds and

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<v Speaker 1>stuff like that too with Quincy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well Quincy seventy six.

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<v Speaker 1>Was he ever in the running for a second? I

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<v Speaker 1>mean before Master Jam, but I mean like.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, you know, I don't know what happened behind the

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<v Speaker 3>scenes and stuff with that with him not working with

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<v Speaker 3>I think he might have been working with Michael around

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<v Speaker 3>that time.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, he was.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, he was so iraf and I I liked if

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<v Speaker 3>a lot because he had produced Aretha Franklin.

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<v Speaker 2>That's right.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, I love what you did with Donnie Hathaway, right,

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<v Speaker 3>and you know, so I was like, yeah, this is good,

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<v Speaker 3>this is good. And I mean he bought the blinds

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<v Speaker 3>from my apartment, he put the carpet, you know, he

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<v Speaker 3>took care of me like like his daughter. Well, and

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<v Speaker 3>you know, I was his spiritual daughter. And he told

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<v Speaker 3>everybody that you and told me all the time you

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<v Speaker 3>were my instrument. Really, you have my instrument. You can

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<v Speaker 3>play anything that I hear that I want.

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<v Speaker 1>So, how did you I mean, by that point, by

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<v Speaker 1>that point, you're just in full fledge of control of

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<v Speaker 1>your instrument, your arrangements and background.

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<v Speaker 3>The songs I wanted. Then, Yeah, so.

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<v Speaker 1>Did they write I'm every nick value right, A lot

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<v Speaker 1>of scientifically, Yeah, what made you choose that song?

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<v Speaker 3>I'll actually talked me into it because I felt like it.

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<v Speaker 3>I felt awkward saying the words I'm every woman. I didn't.

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<v Speaker 3>I thought, how dare somebody say that they're every woman?

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<v Speaker 3>I would just just not, you know, mentally there yet,

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<v Speaker 3>not saying the anthem that it will be a song.

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<v Speaker 2>That you because I'm a woman. I'm a backphone.

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<v Speaker 1>See I'm thinking in terms of like you're singing like

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<v Speaker 1>feminist anthems and those things.

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<v Speaker 2>That was just in line with you, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>No your womanhood and making us respect that.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, you know, I wouldn't think about womanhood at all.

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<v Speaker 3>I was singing songs that meant something to mean lyrics

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<v Speaker 3>like I'm a woman on a back on a backbone.

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<v Speaker 3>Your Smile was written by a woman named Lalonei Washburn.

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<v Speaker 3>She wrote those songs. And but when I'm every woman,

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<v Speaker 3>I had to grow into it. I just well, maybe

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<v Speaker 3>in the last ten years something got comfortable singing that

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<v Speaker 3>because I understood then what she was saying, you know

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<v Speaker 3>what they were they were writing.

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<v Speaker 5>I just shood, what did Whitney singing it mean to you?

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<v Speaker 3>She's of all the people that have covered by songs.

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<v Speaker 3>I had to ask her after she did it? I said, uh,

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<v Speaker 3>did you use my background? Or that you that's like it?

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<v Speaker 3>She's she's great, she was a great, great artist.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you do was I'm every Woman first? Or was

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<v Speaker 2>Clouds first? Which one.

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<v Speaker 1>Clouds is on the second album on because that's the

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<v Speaker 1>first song.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I love that song.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and you know what's doing. Whenever it's time to

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<v Speaker 3>make us the record, we would get our put the

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<v Speaker 3>word out. We would get boxes and boxes of cassettes

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<v Speaker 3>and we would sit and listen to songs, listening sessions,

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<v Speaker 3>and we would mark which songs we did were good,

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<v Speaker 3>and when we came down to it, he would go

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<v Speaker 3>on the track and write it out.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh you don't want to ask what were your feelings

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<v Speaker 2>on Snaps the Power? Uh? I got the Power specifically?

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<v Speaker 3>Well that was a Penny. Yeah, actually that was my gig.

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<v Speaker 3>I was living in England.

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<v Speaker 2>They for you.

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<v Speaker 3>They called me and asked me to come and do

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<v Speaker 3>this stuff with him with them, but you know, I

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<v Speaker 3>was having too much fun and I said a Penny.

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<v Speaker 3>I told him I was sick of some But I said,

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<v Speaker 3>pity you go to that because she Penny is one

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<v Speaker 3>of my students as well.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh you sent her to do it.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah. I said you could have that, you go do

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<v Speaker 3>it really? Yeah, and then I slapping myself on the

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<v Speaker 3>back of my head.

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<v Speaker 2>Was a monster. Yeah, it's so basically why Snaps.

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<v Speaker 3>Really the group snap?

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<v Speaker 2>You got it?

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<v Speaker 4>In the context, Penny was the one who was saying

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<v Speaker 4>I got the power.

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<v Speaker 2>But that's not the part that we're referring to. Put

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<v Speaker 2>you on the game.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just saying the whole he could break my heart

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<v Speaker 1>part from I Got the Power.

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<v Speaker 3>Love left my brother on bass, yes.

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<v Speaker 5>Like your brother.

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<v Speaker 2>Yes.

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<v Speaker 3>And it sped up. It got faster fast. You could

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<v Speaker 3>tell that that was a heart song. And Steven he

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<v Speaker 3>was kicking on the damn drunk, I'm mean. And somebody said,

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<v Speaker 3>well it gets fast. I said, the little hearts when

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<v Speaker 3>they're excited.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just saying I thought we.

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<v Speaker 1>Had a moment because I don't looking at me like

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<v Speaker 1>humble practice.

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<v Speaker 2>Three two. Yes, I own the snare drum that so

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<v Speaker 2>on some love, thank you very much.

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<v Speaker 3>Was it a pickolop?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Steve, Steve, I've stalk note drummer in life more

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<v Speaker 1>than Steve Ronie.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I'm literally his Yeah, I'm saying I'm in air

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<v Speaker 2>parent more than Clyde Stubble or any other drummer.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm Steve Fron's double and he as a gesture, he

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<v Speaker 1>gave me, uh his black and white snare that he's used, Wow,

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<v Speaker 1>all records.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh fantastic, But you don't. Miles gave me one of

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<v Speaker 3>his his trumpets, the blue one. But you don't what

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<v Speaker 3>his nephew that I could kill him.

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<v Speaker 2>He took it back.

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<v Speaker 3>I could kill him. Excuse me, almostcuse me, who can't

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<v Speaker 3>take it? Okay, But I'm telling you after after he

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<v Speaker 3>died in his in his will, he gave it to me,

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<v Speaker 3>and the boy kept. Every time I see him, he

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<v Speaker 3>shrinks and tries to hide and say, I'm gonna get

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<v Speaker 3>it to you. I swear I'm gonna get to you. Well,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm done with it now. You know what I'm saying,

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<v Speaker 3>because what Miles David said is your your voice sounds

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<v Speaker 3>just like my own. That was enough for me.

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<v Speaker 2>You have trumpet, that's enough for me.

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<v Speaker 3>The new the trumpet. See, I don't like usually like trumpet,

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<v Speaker 3>only this muted. What's that sexy? I'll make trumpet? Make sexty,

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<v Speaker 3>yeah baby.

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<v Speaker 1>In twenty twenty two, Quest Stuff Supreme recorded of Black

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<v Speaker 1>episodes in Atlanta, where our iHeart Partners.

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<v Speaker 2>Are located and based.

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<v Speaker 1>One of the highlights of that trip were speaking to

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<v Speaker 1>Stacy Abram, the politician, author and activist. Wasn't a race

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<v Speaker 1>to become the first black woman governor of the state,

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<v Speaker 1>and my role call then I called for Stacy to

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<v Speaker 1>run for president in twenty twenty eight, and I stand

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<v Speaker 1>by those words still. We asked her about the origin

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<v Speaker 1>of her leadership, and she explained, back when you were

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<v Speaker 1>in college where what were your lofty.

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<v Speaker 2>Goals in life?

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<v Speaker 1>Like are you imagining that some fifteen sixteen years later

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<v Speaker 1>that you'll be in the position that.

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<v Speaker 2>You are now? Or were you just like, Okay, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>gonna be a lawyer or da da da da, Or.

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<v Speaker 6>I had like twenty seven majors in college. I was

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<v Speaker 6>physics and philosophy, with a minor in theater. It turns

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<v Speaker 6>out I liked star trek but not differential calculus. And

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<v Speaker 6>when you can't stay awaken in pistemology, it's probably not

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<v Speaker 6>the thing to do when there are only four people

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<v Speaker 6>in the classroom. I like acting, but not enough to

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<v Speaker 6>make it my life's work, and so I flitted through

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<v Speaker 6>a bunch of other things. But What was the through

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<v Speaker 6>line for me was activism. The pivotal moment for me

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<v Speaker 6>when I realized that it wasn't just an inherited property

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<v Speaker 6>from my parents, It was part of my DNA. When

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<v Speaker 6>the Rodney King decision came down in nineteen ninety two,

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<v Speaker 6>I was a freshman at Spelman. I organized students to protest.

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<v Speaker 6>They locked down our campus. I was at the AUC

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<v Speaker 6>and if you if you know Atlanta, they locked down

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<v Speaker 6>I twenty so you could not get off of the

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<v Speaker 6>interstate and come to the University center. So it Spellman, Moorhouse,

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<v Speaker 6>Clark Atlanta, Morris Brown, ITC and our School of Medicine.

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<v Speaker 6>And then they tear gassed us. They tear gas the

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<v Speaker 6>entire area. And this was under a black mayor.

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<v Speaker 5>And this is Spelman and Mors.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow.

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<v Speaker 6>But the schools were juxtaposed next to some of the

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<v Speaker 6>oldest housing developments in the nation. And so the issue

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<v Speaker 6>was we weren't, you know, elite students and poor communities.

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<v Speaker 6>We were all black, and we were all basically accused

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<v Speaker 6>of the same anger. And the problem was the protests

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<v Speaker 6>were real because the pain was real. And so I

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<v Speaker 6>helped organize students actually got into an argument with then

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<v Speaker 6>Mayor Maynard Jackson. He won the argument, but because he

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<v Speaker 6>couldn't argue and I was like, my cleanest tea shirts

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<v Speaker 6>were my nicest jeans.

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<v Speaker 3>But he still won.

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<v Speaker 6>But he later hired me to work in the newly

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<v Speaker 6>created Office of Youth Services.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, let me ask something, because you know, I did

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<v Speaker 1>not go to college, like immediately got a record deal

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<v Speaker 1>and had a career. Always wanted to know when we

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<v Speaker 1>protest on a college campus, like what's the goal, especially

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<v Speaker 1>when like the issue is three thousand miles away in

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<v Speaker 1>Los Angeles, Like how does that trickle to?

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<v Speaker 6>So two things. One, what Rodney Kings with the verdict

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<v Speaker 6>was evocative of was the lack of justice from police,

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<v Speaker 6>and that was happening in Atlanta, that was happening in Georgia.

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<v Speaker 6>And part of it was where poverty exists, where racism exists,

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<v Speaker 6>you were going to find police misconduct. And there was

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<v Speaker 6>also the larger issue of simply the evidence of our

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<v Speaker 6>eyes being denied. Those things. Well, Rodney King was emblematic

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<v Speaker 6>of it was but he was only one example. He

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<v Speaker 6>was the first example that got caught on tape. But

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<v Speaker 6>people had those experiences everywhere, and that's why it was

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<v Speaker 6>so inflammatory the protests I organized. We started this moment wetched.

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<v Speaker 6>We marched from the AUC all the way to City Hall.

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<v Speaker 6>So to your point, I didn't go to a college,

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<v Speaker 6>We're protesting at the college. Made a lot sense because

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<v Speaker 6>we all pretty much agreed the most effective protests leave

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<v Speaker 6>the safe spaces and go into the public spaces. So

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<v Speaker 6>we made sure that march went past the housing projects,

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<v Speaker 6>went past the liquor stores, all the way down to

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<v Speaker 6>city Hall. That's how I ended up getting into the

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<v Speaker 6>tet a.

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<v Speaker 3>Tet with the mayor.

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<v Speaker 6>But to your point, there are some campuses where protest

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<v Speaker 6>on campus is it's effective because if you're at Harvard,

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<v Speaker 6>you're talking about billions of dollars in economic influence. If

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<v Speaker 6>you're an AEC the numeric the monetary effect is the smaller,

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<v Speaker 6>but the salutary effect is bigger because you have people

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<v Speaker 6>who may have been conditioned to think that they were

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<v Speaker 6>the exceptions to the rule, who have to remind themselves

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<v Speaker 6>that they are part of the same fabric that people

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<v Speaker 6>don't ask you, They don't investigate did you go to Spelman,

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<v Speaker 6>Why are you in the AUC, Why are you in

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<v Speaker 6>Southwest Atlanta? They just see someone who looks like something

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<v Speaker 6>they've been taught to be afraid of or taught to disregard.

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<v Speaker 6>And this is true for a lot of different communities

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<v Speaker 6>of color. It's true based on your economic situation and

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<v Speaker 6>where protests comes in as protest moves beyond the space

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<v Speaker 6>that you inhabit, and it tells the rest of the

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<v Speaker 6>world you've got to pay attention.

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<v Speaker 2>It's a bullhorn exactly.

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<v Speaker 1>So do you consider that moment you're or first footprint

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<v Speaker 1>in political action.

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<v Speaker 6>It was my parents will tell you, because my mom

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<v Speaker 6>and dad were in grad school here uh in Georgia.

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<v Speaker 6>They hadn't moved back to Mississippi at and I gave

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<v Speaker 6>out my phone number to tell people, you know, during

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<v Speaker 6>the protest, I'm like, if you're if you want to

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<v Speaker 6>join us. I didn't think through the fact that I

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<v Speaker 6>was giving my parents home number out, yah know. And

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<v Speaker 6>and they pointed that out to me later on as

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<v Speaker 6>the phone started to ring. But for me, it was

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<v Speaker 6>it was it was both in a moment of empowerment

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<v Speaker 6>but a moment of ownership that I I wanted to

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<v Speaker 6>be a voice for people who didn't know they deserve

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<v Speaker 6>to be in that march that didn't know that they

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<v Speaker 6>deserve to have better and who'd been lulled into thinking

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<v Speaker 6>that because you had leadership that looked like you, that

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<v Speaker 6>they shared all of the same issues that you shared.

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<v Speaker 6>And that's just never true. That that notion of monolithic

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<v Speaker 6>power is just not real. And so even within space,

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<v Speaker 6>I mean, Mayor Jax is extraordinary mayor. But in this issue,

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<v Speaker 6>when it came to youth poverty, he had not done

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<v Speaker 6>what I thought needed to be done. So my job

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<v Speaker 6>was to push that. And so for me it was

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<v Speaker 6>it was a moment of reckoning, Like did I actually

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<v Speaker 6>believe the things I was saying when I was safely

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<v Speaker 6>on campus? And turns out yes, I did.

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<v Speaker 1>So at the time, were you like student body president

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<v Speaker 1>or like I don't know what the president's system is

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<v Speaker 1>for college now, like I used to be president in

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<v Speaker 1>my ninth grade class, But.

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<v Speaker 6>I mean, like for you, so I wasn't then I

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<v Speaker 6>eventually did. I was at that point. I was just

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<v Speaker 6>an annoying freshman in college who was.

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<v Speaker 2>And you were a freshman.

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<v Speaker 1>I was my freshman year, So how did you, like,

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<v Speaker 1>isn't it hard for a freshman to get the respect

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<v Speaker 1>in the I was relentless and were people like afraid

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<v Speaker 1>of being suspended or kicked off campus or.

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<v Speaker 6>Yes, so one thing that happened part of I kind

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<v Speaker 6>of short shortcuted the story, but it was a few

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<v Speaker 6>phases when they were tear gassing the campus. This is

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<v Speaker 6>before social media, this is before cell phones, and this

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<v Speaker 6>is when you only had the television stations, the broadcastations.

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<v Speaker 6>So I organized students in my dorm to call all

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<v Speaker 6>the broadcast stations. They were lying saying that we were

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<v Speaker 6>running amok. I'm like, no, we are angry and protesting

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<v Speaker 6>both on the campus and out in the community, but

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<v Speaker 6>this isn't a riot, and they were miscommunicating what was happening.

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<v Speaker 6>So I had a bunch of friends call all the

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<v Speaker 6>stations and flood the stations, and the stations got wise

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<v Speaker 6>to us and said, well, who's calling, and so I said,

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<v Speaker 6>just tell them you're me. So you had like seventy

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<v Speaker 6>five Stacy Abrams is calling and that amplified my voice. Again,

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<v Speaker 6>didn't think through the consequences when they sent the police

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<v Speaker 6>to come and get me to take me to this event.

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<v Speaker 6>I wasn't being arrested, but I was invited to the

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<v Speaker 6>simulcast because all of the television stations in Atlanta came

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<v Speaker 6>together because this was a crisis, and so the mayor

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<v Speaker 6>was there and I was invited as one of the

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<v Speaker 6>students to be there, and so that sort of that

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<v Speaker 6>lifted my platform a bit more than I expected.

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<v Speaker 7>I ask.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm so curious, just on as a student as we're

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<v Speaker 4>in this Spellman moment, I'm curious, did you what we

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<v Speaker 4>your full experience was in college? Was it all work

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<v Speaker 4>and no play and activism or but at a pivotal

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<v Speaker 4>time in Atlanta period like olymp post Olympics maybe, So

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<v Speaker 4>I was right before the Olympics, right before Okay, so

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<v Speaker 4>right before the Olympics. So can you talk about like

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<v Speaker 4>what kind of student you were in that way, like

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<v Speaker 4>did you have fun.

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<v Speaker 6>Social Because I was a nerd and I'm an introvert,

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<v Speaker 6>so I heard this.

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<v Speaker 3>That's why I was surprised.

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<v Speaker 4>Firstman year, you went all out and started.

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<v Speaker 2>Well I was that was happy left supreme right, A

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<v Speaker 2>bunch of nerds and introvis. You mentioned star treks.

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<v Speaker 6>So that was the well next generation was out. So

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<v Speaker 6>your peak card girl, the card je Waite, Look, I

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<v Speaker 6>do the whole universe, so.

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<v Speaker 5>Turn out card is everything like us Luke who Jean Luca.

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<v Speaker 1>Every day I find this person, I've known him for

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<v Speaker 1>thirty plus years.

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<v Speaker 2>Go ahead, even though she's still nineteen. That's good.

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<v Speaker 6>So I this is probably the best example. When I

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<v Speaker 6>became student by the president, part of your job is

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<v Speaker 6>to make sure that they're social at I got two

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<v Speaker 6>of my best friends. I created a position called the

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<v Speaker 6>Social Activity Coordinator so I wouldn't.

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<v Speaker 3>Have to go to parties.

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<v Speaker 5>So you wouldn't have to go.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, So they would set up the parties. They would

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<v Speaker 6>I would come at the beginning to say hi, and

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<v Speaker 6>I would come at the end to make sure nobody

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<v Speaker 6>stole anything. Otherwise I was back in my dorms.

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<v Speaker 2>You would not go to.

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<v Speaker 4>Everybody was trying to get to go out, and you

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<v Speaker 4>were like, I have meaningful to do.

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<v Speaker 6>I never went on spring break? What well, why would

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<v Speaker 6>you pay money to go sit in somebody else's hotel.

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<v Speaker 6>I mean, like I was, I had a dorm, I

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<v Speaker 6>could read anywhere.

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<v Speaker 2>Like okay, So you said something, and I think you know.

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<v Speaker 1>I try to pull as much personal inspiration information from

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<v Speaker 1>our guests that come on this show. But I'll ask

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<v Speaker 1>you yes, sir, because I feel like the one small

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<v Speaker 1>task that I'm holding myself back from actually crossing the

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<v Speaker 1>line to where you are, despite the fact that I'm

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<v Speaker 1>hosting my own podcast and do other things. How do

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<v Speaker 1>you get over the fear of speaking, because I've seen

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<v Speaker 1>you speak before, and you know, for an introvert, you

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<v Speaker 1>project well, I guess it's the acting help.

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<v Speaker 6>But so, yeah, I grew up in the church, so

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<v Speaker 6>we had to do you know, easter programs, manspation, proclamature programs.

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<v Speaker 6>Never liked any of it. I'm not afraid of you

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<v Speaker 6>had to read all of the stuff right, you name it,

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<v Speaker 6>we did it. My fear isn't public speaking. I'm reticent

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<v Speaker 6>about being around lots of people. So when I was

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<v Speaker 6>in high school, I joined the debate team. I had

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<v Speaker 6>a psychosomatic case of laryngitis because it occurred to me

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<v Speaker 6>that I couldn't be I wouldn't be debating by myself,

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<v Speaker 6>that other people would see me do it. And suddenly

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<v Speaker 6>my voice didn't work. And went to see the.

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<v Speaker 2>Nurse and she's like, there's nothing wrong with you.

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<v Speaker 6>And that's when I also learned what psychosomatic because what

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<v Speaker 6>psychomedia look like.

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<v Speaker 1>Artist do that, and that's often an issue on the

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<v Speaker 1>show like when people self sabotage their progress or whatever.

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<v Speaker 2>The Great Kathleen.

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<v Speaker 1>Hannah and I had a one on one conversation last year.

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<v Speaker 1>She is the pioneer of the Riot Girl movement and

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<v Speaker 1>a true feminist. Her memoir was Why We Spoke, and

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<v Speaker 1>you can hear how she wanted her story to redirect

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<v Speaker 1>some curse. Review of her impact and legacy and the

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<v Speaker 1>whole interview is like this clip, but it still captures

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<v Speaker 1>Kathleen's spirit. She's a powerful leader to women everywhere. But

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<v Speaker 1>as I told her in this particular conversation, her work

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<v Speaker 1>and the punk scene helped inspire the roots to build

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<v Speaker 1>a community in Philly at my house, which was called

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<v Speaker 1>the Black Lil. What is the first step in realizing

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<v Speaker 1>that you're going to overspill and share with us your

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<v Speaker 1>life and how does that affect the people that you

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<v Speaker 1>write about.

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<v Speaker 8>I never thought about it. I just sat down and wrote.

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<v Speaker 8>I really just sat down and wrote and wrote and wrote.

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<v Speaker 9>It was really for me.

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<v Speaker 8>I didn't think about an audience at all, Like when

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<v Speaker 8>I first started writing, which was like, you know, years ago,

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<v Speaker 8>and I knew it was a book, Like I wrote

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<v Speaker 8>the introduction like ten years ago and then ended up

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<v Speaker 8>I changed it all, of course, but I was just

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<v Speaker 8>sort of writing it a little bit and I didn't

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<v Speaker 8>have a publisher or whatever. And then finally I was like,

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<v Speaker 8>I just need to do this to get to the

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<v Speaker 8>next stage of my life, you know how like there's

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<v Speaker 8>different like things that you've made that you're known by,

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<v Speaker 8>Like you know, people walk up to you on the

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<v Speaker 8>street and they're like, you know, this is the thing,

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<v Speaker 8>and it's annoying because you're like, I don't want to

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<v Speaker 8>talk about that. Actually, my real love is directing, or

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<v Speaker 8>my real love is you know what I mean. It's

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<v Speaker 8>like you get known as you know, if you're in

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<v Speaker 8>a commercial and someone's like you were in that VW

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<v Speaker 8>commercial for the rest of your life. And it's like

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<v Speaker 8>I was sort of like really trapped in this like riot.

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<v Speaker 10>Girl thing and like the like you wrote this exteen

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<v Speaker 10>spirit line or you know, other like weird mini scandals

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<v Speaker 10>I was involved in, and I was like, you know,

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<v Speaker 10>I just kind of want to like not talk about

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<v Speaker 10>that anymore.

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<v Speaker 8>And part of that is me getting over stuff that

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<v Speaker 8>I never dealt with. And so I really kind of

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<v Speaker 8>wrote it just to get it all out on the page,

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<v Speaker 8>and I wasn't I knew that I got to edit

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<v Speaker 8>it later. You know, I'm an adult. I've done like

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<v Speaker 8>a lot of projects, so like, I know, I'm not

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<v Speaker 8>writing this and everybody's going to see it, and having

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<v Speaker 8>the same confidence that I had with it that I

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<v Speaker 8>have with my journal, where it's like, no one's going

0:24:29.320 --> 0:24:31.120
<v Speaker 8>to read this, so I can write whatever I want,

0:24:31.960 --> 0:24:33.119
<v Speaker 8>and I had fun with it. I was like I

0:24:33.160 --> 0:24:36.280
<v Speaker 8>would think of a title like Benjamin Franklin's Glasses, and

0:24:36.320 --> 0:24:39.440
<v Speaker 8>then you know, you have like catchphrases in your life

0:24:39.480 --> 0:24:41.160
<v Speaker 8>that you use to talk to your friends with, where

0:24:41.440 --> 0:24:44.760
<v Speaker 8>like for me, like the smells like teen Spirit story,

0:24:45.119 --> 0:24:48.119
<v Speaker 8>which is like I wrote Kurt smells eighteen Spirit on

0:24:48.160 --> 0:24:49.960
<v Speaker 8>his wall and then he used as a song like

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<v Speaker 8>people have asked me about that a lot, right, and

0:24:51.680 --> 0:24:54.840
<v Speaker 8>so it's I started calling it the you know smells

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<v Speaker 8>like Benjamin Franklin's Glasses, and I would be like, it's

0:24:57.680 --> 0:25:00.040
<v Speaker 8>like I found Benjamin Franklin's glasses in the trash, and

0:25:00.119 --> 0:25:03.120
<v Speaker 8>Everybody's like, ooh, there's the girl who found Benjamin Franklin's

0:25:03.480 --> 0:25:05.320
<v Speaker 8>you know, glasses in the trash. And I was like,

0:25:05.800 --> 0:25:08.200
<v Speaker 8>I'm actually like a feminist artist who's been working for

0:25:08.280 --> 0:25:10.159
<v Speaker 8>thirty five years and like, I have a lot of

0:25:10.200 --> 0:25:12.000
<v Speaker 8>projects i'd love to talk to you about, but they're like,

0:25:12.040 --> 0:25:16.440
<v Speaker 8>but tell me about Benjamin Frank. So I didn't specifically

0:25:16.520 --> 0:25:20.160
<v Speaker 8>actually write that story like to you know, get people

0:25:20.200 --> 0:25:23.960
<v Speaker 8>off my back or whatever. But I did write everything,

0:25:24.960 --> 0:25:28.000
<v Speaker 8>like everything, and then I edited it later and that's

0:25:28.040 --> 0:25:29.600
<v Speaker 8>when I thought about it and I changed. I did

0:25:29.720 --> 0:25:32.320
<v Speaker 8>change names. I changed almost everybody's names unless they were

0:25:32.359 --> 0:25:33.320
<v Speaker 8>in a positive light.

0:25:34.240 --> 0:25:35.920
<v Speaker 2>And so they were okay, okay.

0:25:36.160 --> 0:25:39.680
<v Speaker 8>And there were people there's a particular person who who

0:25:40.560 --> 0:25:42.879
<v Speaker 8>is really messed up in the book and basically commits

0:25:42.920 --> 0:25:47.960
<v Speaker 8>crime and against me. And I called that person and said,

0:25:47.960 --> 0:25:49.520
<v Speaker 8>I'm going to tell this story and you need to

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<v Speaker 8>get a therapist and be prepared. I changed your name,

0:25:52.760 --> 0:25:54.280
<v Speaker 8>but some of our friends are going to know its you,

0:25:54.720 --> 0:25:57.440
<v Speaker 8>So I want you to prepare yourself. And I don't

0:25:57.440 --> 0:25:59.159
<v Speaker 8>want aybody kill themselves, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>What was his reaction?

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<v Speaker 8>You know, I wish I wouldn't have called. That's all

0:26:03.760 --> 0:26:08.480
<v Speaker 8>I can say. I mean, he was like, he's like,

0:26:08.760 --> 0:26:10.399
<v Speaker 8>you know, it's your story and you can tell it.

0:26:10.520 --> 0:26:12.080
<v Speaker 8>I can't stop you. But it was like a big

0:26:12.160 --> 0:26:14.920
<v Speaker 8>pity party of things in his life that have gone wrong,

0:26:15.040 --> 0:26:17.600
<v Speaker 8>and that you know, he had a whole new story

0:26:17.680 --> 0:26:20.280
<v Speaker 8>for why the bad incident happened. I was like, I

0:26:20.359 --> 0:26:22.760
<v Speaker 8>can't rewrite it. I already wrote it. So the story

0:26:22.760 --> 0:26:24.240
<v Speaker 8>answer is I didn't think about it. I got my

0:26:24.280 --> 0:26:26.040
<v Speaker 8>butt in the chair and I worked, and then I

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<v Speaker 8>would have these long periods of time where I just

0:26:27.760 --> 0:26:29.680
<v Speaker 8>worked and worked and worked and work, and then I

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<v Speaker 8>would have periods of time where I had a nervous

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<v Speaker 8>breakdown and went to crisis counseling, like for three days

0:26:34.600 --> 0:26:36.440
<v Speaker 8>a week, and then I would get back to work.

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<v Speaker 1>That's what I was going to ask you, because the

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<v Speaker 1>thing is is that unlike my movement, you know, the

0:26:42.240 --> 0:26:46.320
<v Speaker 1>Neo Soul movement, both of our movements, I would say,

0:26:46.440 --> 0:26:51.680
<v Speaker 1>start with the the quote the idea of I'm certain

0:26:51.720 --> 0:26:57.639
<v Speaker 1>there was an actual Seattle movement or Northwest movement, but I,

0:26:57.840 --> 0:27:01.520
<v Speaker 1>you know, pretty much even I knew that we were

0:27:01.680 --> 0:27:06.920
<v Speaker 1>responding to the idea of what we thought the Seattle

0:27:07.000 --> 0:27:11.520
<v Speaker 1>movement was things move on and things subside and things

0:27:11.560 --> 0:27:13.800
<v Speaker 1>are in your rear view mirror. How did it feel

0:27:13.880 --> 0:27:17.639
<v Speaker 1>to have to unpack that period in your life? Because like,

0:27:17.840 --> 0:27:21.720
<v Speaker 1>literally chapter after chapter. It's one thing to keep a

0:27:21.840 --> 0:27:25.200
<v Speaker 1>band together, but it's a whole other thing where you

0:27:25.480 --> 0:27:30.800
<v Speaker 1>also have to keep yourself together and protect your sanity,

0:27:30.920 --> 0:27:36.159
<v Speaker 1>but also like organize a movement. And I'll say the

0:27:36.280 --> 0:27:41.000
<v Speaker 1>main difference between you and I, luckily because of the

0:27:41.680 --> 0:27:45.880
<v Speaker 1>development of the Internet. For me at least ninety eight

0:27:46.080 --> 0:27:48.840
<v Speaker 1>ninety nine, you know, I thought it was all unique,

0:27:49.600 --> 0:27:51.879
<v Speaker 1>like the only person in music who allows this fan

0:27:51.960 --> 0:27:54.640
<v Speaker 1>base to curse him out or criticize him or say

0:27:54.680 --> 0:27:55.720
<v Speaker 1>whatever the fuck they want to.

0:27:56.359 --> 0:27:59.960
<v Speaker 2>But that's contained in like this world on the Internet.

0:28:00.720 --> 0:28:05.000
<v Speaker 1>Whereas because you're eight years before you know, you're dealing

0:28:05.080 --> 0:28:10.199
<v Speaker 1>with newsletters and actual people coming You've essentially a pre

0:28:10.440 --> 0:28:15.000
<v Speaker 1>social media pioneer, although it wasn't invented yet because you

0:28:15.119 --> 0:28:18.000
<v Speaker 1>came out so damn early. But all the things that happened,

0:28:18.040 --> 0:28:22.440
<v Speaker 1>like the idea of people spewing out their opinions mid show,

0:28:23.400 --> 0:28:26.800
<v Speaker 1>you know, all all the toxic energy you had to have.

0:28:27.680 --> 0:28:30.520
<v Speaker 1>You're juggling like four or five things at once, and

0:28:30.680 --> 0:28:34.640
<v Speaker 1>you're learning lessons. You're learning lessons about feminism, you're learning

0:28:34.720 --> 0:28:38.400
<v Speaker 1>lessons about yourself, you're learning lessons about your health. Like

0:28:38.520 --> 0:28:42.680
<v Speaker 1>all these things but to really put yourself in that

0:28:42.800 --> 0:28:46.640
<v Speaker 1>position to go back and revisit how taxing was that

0:28:46.800 --> 0:28:49.680
<v Speaker 1>on you today, to revisit those periods.

0:28:50.600 --> 0:28:52.600
<v Speaker 8>The way I would say when I would get home

0:28:52.640 --> 0:28:55.040
<v Speaker 8>from work was I'd be like I just created my

0:28:55.120 --> 0:28:58.440
<v Speaker 8>face with the cheese grater for eight hours. That's what

0:28:58.560 --> 0:29:00.680
<v Speaker 8>it felt like. If I really felt well, I was

0:29:00.800 --> 0:29:04.240
<v Speaker 8>like my face was blank, I was dead behind the eyes,

0:29:04.480 --> 0:29:07.880
<v Speaker 8>like I was going in and out of being present.

0:29:08.080 --> 0:29:13.280
<v Speaker 8>Like it was awful. Awful, but so is crisis counseling,

0:29:14.520 --> 0:29:17.640
<v Speaker 8>I mean, And it was basically like I was. I

0:29:17.840 --> 0:29:23.160
<v Speaker 8>saved myself a lot of therapy because I actually sat

0:29:23.200 --> 0:29:25.800
<v Speaker 8>there and wrote down stuff I'd never even admitted to myself,

0:29:26.360 --> 0:29:28.200
<v Speaker 8>and a lot of it didn't There's three hundred extra pages.

0:29:28.240 --> 0:29:30.120
<v Speaker 8>It didn't end up in the book because it originally

0:29:30.240 --> 0:29:34.000
<v Speaker 8>was like Ryacral Hobbit and they were six center pages long.

0:29:36.400 --> 0:29:38.640
<v Speaker 8>You might get it in a different form, but yeah,

0:29:38.720 --> 0:29:40.200
<v Speaker 8>a lot a lot of the stories I cut out

0:29:40.200 --> 0:29:42.280
<v Speaker 8>were because they were more visual, like it was like

0:29:42.360 --> 0:29:44.360
<v Speaker 8>that you had to be there, kind of stories where

0:29:44.400 --> 0:29:47.320
<v Speaker 8>it's like, you know, we're on acid and we're like

0:29:47.440 --> 0:29:49.960
<v Speaker 8>running towards the sky in the park looks like he's juggling.

0:29:50.000 --> 0:29:51.880
<v Speaker 8>We're like, it's a clown. And then we get close

0:29:51.920 --> 0:29:54.120
<v Speaker 8>to him and we're like, oh shit, he has not

0:29:54.280 --> 0:29:57.440
<v Speaker 8>a ninja. It's an ninja turn around, like you know

0:29:57.480 --> 0:30:00.240
<v Speaker 8>what I mean, Like it doesn't really work in a book. Yeah,

0:30:00.280 --> 0:30:01.960
<v Speaker 8>it was horrible, That's all I can say. It was

0:30:02.080 --> 0:30:04.600
<v Speaker 8>absolutely awful because it was like excavating all of the

0:30:04.640 --> 0:30:07.360
<v Speaker 8>stuff that you know, I had also suppressed and pushed

0:30:07.400 --> 0:30:09.480
<v Speaker 8>down to keep going to the next project. And that

0:30:09.720 --> 0:30:12.280
<v Speaker 8>was part of the reason why I worked so much,

0:30:12.880 --> 0:30:14.719
<v Speaker 8>you know what I mean. And I didn't turn out

0:30:14.760 --> 0:30:17.400
<v Speaker 8>like a kazilion albums, but I was constantly doing projects.

0:30:17.440 --> 0:30:19.160
<v Speaker 8>Even when I went through a long period while I

0:30:19.200 --> 0:30:21.400
<v Speaker 8>was pretty sick, I was still like, I wrote a

0:30:21.720 --> 0:30:24.880
<v Speaker 8>pilot for a TV show, and you know, I could

0:30:24.920 --> 0:30:27.320
<v Speaker 8>tell you twenty other things that I did while I

0:30:27.480 --> 0:30:29.800
<v Speaker 8>was still ill, because I just had even if it

0:30:29.880 --> 0:30:31.640
<v Speaker 8>was from bed, if I had one good day, I

0:30:31.760 --> 0:30:33.600
<v Speaker 8>had to use it. And part of that is just

0:30:33.680 --> 0:30:35.240
<v Speaker 8>like I grew up as a kid and I felt

0:30:35.320 --> 0:30:38.360
<v Speaker 8>like I was really a zombie, Like I had to

0:30:38.440 --> 0:30:41.360
<v Speaker 8>turn myself off to live in my household. And so

0:30:42.680 --> 0:30:44.960
<v Speaker 8>when I kind of came to when I moved out

0:30:45.720 --> 0:30:48.280
<v Speaker 8>when I was seventeen, I was like living with vengeance.

0:30:48.400 --> 0:30:51.640
<v Speaker 8>Like I was like, I have to pack as much

0:30:51.760 --> 0:30:55.400
<v Speaker 8>stuff into this one life as possible. And also all

0:30:55.400 --> 0:30:57.400
<v Speaker 8>the people you know that I've lost along the way

0:30:57.520 --> 0:31:03.000
<v Speaker 8>to like drugs, suicide aids, you know, it's hard not

0:31:03.080 --> 0:31:04.680
<v Speaker 8>to feel like you're living for them, Like you know,

0:31:04.800 --> 0:31:06.800
<v Speaker 8>every day you have a part of their character with

0:31:06.920 --> 0:31:09.120
<v Speaker 8>you that comes out and you're like, I want to

0:31:09.200 --> 0:31:12.600
<v Speaker 8>let that part of this person shying today, you know, Like,

0:31:13.440 --> 0:31:16.520
<v Speaker 8>but then that can become this weird like toxically positive

0:31:17.120 --> 0:31:19.200
<v Speaker 8>bullshit that then you have to contend with that. So

0:31:19.960 --> 0:31:21.800
<v Speaker 8>I just try to be in the present as much

0:31:21.840 --> 0:31:24.920
<v Speaker 8>as humanly possible, and writing the book, the whole point

0:31:24.960 --> 0:31:26.560
<v Speaker 8>of it was to get me into the present. Was

0:31:26.600 --> 0:31:29.320
<v Speaker 8>to be like, I'm going to grapple with this thirty

0:31:29.400 --> 0:31:31.640
<v Speaker 8>five years or even you know, my whole life. I'm

0:31:31.640 --> 0:31:33.920
<v Speaker 8>going to grapple with that, and then I'm going to

0:31:33.960 --> 0:31:36.400
<v Speaker 8>be like I did that, and now here I am.

0:31:36.600 --> 0:31:38.760
<v Speaker 8>And sure I still like have bad memories of stuff

0:31:38.920 --> 0:31:41.560
<v Speaker 8>or like whatever. But the thing that was really kind

0:31:41.560 --> 0:31:44.280
<v Speaker 8>of miraculous was I just realized how much I lead

0:31:44.360 --> 0:31:45.880
<v Speaker 8>with the negative you know what I mean, Like a

0:31:45.960 --> 0:31:49.040
<v Speaker 8>lot it was so easy. It wasn't easy, but it

0:31:49.160 --> 0:31:51.120
<v Speaker 8>was like I went straight for the juggler. Like I

0:31:51.240 --> 0:31:52.960
<v Speaker 8>was like, I went to all the worst moments in

0:31:53.040 --> 0:31:55.280
<v Speaker 8>my life really quick. And part of it was because

0:31:55.280 --> 0:31:58.440
<v Speaker 8>I needed to. I really needed to do that. But

0:31:58.560 --> 0:32:01.640
<v Speaker 8>then I was like, whoa, no one's going to read this.

0:32:01.840 --> 0:32:03.600
<v Speaker 8>This is going to make people just throw up, Like

0:32:03.840 --> 0:32:06.560
<v Speaker 8>I got to put some joy in here. And then

0:32:06.600 --> 0:32:09.800
<v Speaker 8>I just started being like they started popping out like

0:32:09.920 --> 0:32:12.560
<v Speaker 8>you know, Jack in the Box style, like just like joy,

0:32:12.680 --> 0:32:14.520
<v Speaker 8>Joy Joy, And I was like, oh yeah, that guy

0:32:14.600 --> 0:32:17.240
<v Speaker 8>in Minneapolis who like said I'll record your band in

0:32:17.320 --> 0:32:20.040
<v Speaker 8>my garage. I love what you're doing and I and

0:32:20.160 --> 0:32:22.600
<v Speaker 8>that made me feel like accepted in the punk scene,

0:32:23.320 --> 0:32:24.680
<v Speaker 8>you know what I mean. Like and it was just

0:32:24.760 --> 0:32:27.160
<v Speaker 8>a tiny gesture from this one person that probably they

0:32:27.200 --> 0:32:29.440
<v Speaker 8>didn't even I don't think that guy even read the

0:32:29.480 --> 0:32:32.720
<v Speaker 8>book or knows or remembers. But this guy to Max

0:32:32.800 --> 0:32:35.120
<v Speaker 8>said I'll record you and you know, record us and

0:32:36.120 --> 0:32:39.880
<v Speaker 8>my first touring band, Vivachnevl And it meant the world

0:32:39.960 --> 0:32:42.400
<v Speaker 8>to me, you know, remembering the first time that I

0:32:42.520 --> 0:32:47.960
<v Speaker 8>heard my vocals sounding good in headphones like literally, as

0:32:48.040 --> 0:32:50.120
<v Speaker 8>I was writing it, I was remembering it for the

0:32:50.160 --> 0:32:54.360
<v Speaker 8>first time, and I was sitting in that garage listening

0:32:54.400 --> 0:32:57.400
<v Speaker 8>to my voice with reaverb on it and going, oh,

0:32:57.480 --> 0:32:59.240
<v Speaker 8>my god, this is what I want to do forever.

0:33:00.320 --> 0:33:00.480
<v Speaker 2>Right.

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<v Speaker 8>What a gift that I had to go through. I

0:33:03.040 --> 0:33:04.920
<v Speaker 8>had to kind of, like, you know, dig myself out

0:33:04.960 --> 0:33:07.280
<v Speaker 8>with a shovel. I kept seeing in my head when

0:33:07.320 --> 0:33:10.080
<v Speaker 8>I was writing, like a kind of a newly dug grave,

0:33:10.320 --> 0:33:12.560
<v Speaker 8>like the soil and stuff, and I felt like my

0:33:12.640 --> 0:33:14.720
<v Speaker 8>hand was just sticking out and I had to reach it,

0:33:14.880 --> 0:33:16.760
<v Speaker 8>pull my hand and get me out of the grave.

0:33:16.840 --> 0:33:20.000
<v Speaker 8>And once I dug myself out, I was like, Oh,

0:33:20.120 --> 0:33:23.240
<v Speaker 8>look at all this awesome stuff that happened that maybe

0:33:23.280 --> 0:33:25.800
<v Speaker 8>you didn't fully appreciate in the moment, and I'm able

0:33:25.800 --> 0:33:27.960
<v Speaker 8>to appreciate it now, and in a lot of cases

0:33:28.040 --> 0:33:30.920
<v Speaker 8>I did. I had a great time, like I've had

0:33:30.960 --> 0:33:32.120
<v Speaker 8>an awesome life.

0:33:39.280 --> 0:33:42.120
<v Speaker 1>And last week's Women's Month celebration episode, you heard from

0:33:42.120 --> 0:33:45.120
<v Speaker 1>Faith and Newman and Lisa Cortez, who were some of

0:33:45.240 --> 0:33:47.680
<v Speaker 1>the first women at Depth Jam Records. We had another

0:33:47.760 --> 0:33:50.600
<v Speaker 1>prominent figure from the nineteen eighties New York hip hop

0:33:50.720 --> 0:33:54.160
<v Speaker 1>scene on the show. Heather Hunter maybe first start of

0:33:54.240 --> 0:33:57.640
<v Speaker 1>her work in the adult industry, but she was also

0:33:58.080 --> 0:34:00.920
<v Speaker 1>a staff member at the Latin Quarter and a close

0:34:00.960 --> 0:34:03.680
<v Speaker 1>friend to many hip hop stars at the time. And

0:34:03.800 --> 0:34:07.400
<v Speaker 1>I cherished this interview because Heather is still a great

0:34:07.480 --> 0:34:11.960
<v Speaker 1>storyteller and a great friend, and because she also speaks

0:34:12.000 --> 0:34:14.960
<v Speaker 1>so free. Heather touches on her transition from New York

0:34:15.440 --> 0:34:18.920
<v Speaker 1>to hip hop to la in the adult industry, and

0:34:19.440 --> 0:34:22.840
<v Speaker 1>there are meaningful reflections about experience as a woman and

0:34:23.000 --> 0:34:25.840
<v Speaker 1>the sexism she faced in both of us.

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<v Speaker 7>As when I was growing up in the club. Even

0:34:31.400 --> 0:34:35.200
<v Speaker 7>though this genres even like saw all of them can

0:34:35.320 --> 0:34:40.600
<v Speaker 7>even definitely can relate to this. We were be girls,

0:34:41.200 --> 0:34:43.759
<v Speaker 7>do you know what I mean? So it seems like

0:34:43.880 --> 0:34:47.440
<v Speaker 7>the bee girl had that error versus now we had

0:34:47.520 --> 0:34:52.240
<v Speaker 7>so much respect. They treated us like they gave us respect.

0:34:52.400 --> 0:34:56.359
<v Speaker 7>The men in hip hop it was like they put

0:34:56.400 --> 0:34:59.759
<v Speaker 7>you on a pedestal versus now it's not like that,

0:35:00.239 --> 0:35:03.719
<v Speaker 7>you know. And my whole thing is like bringing something back.

0:35:03.719 --> 0:35:05.960
<v Speaker 7>I really wish I could bring back the big girl essence,

0:35:07.080 --> 0:35:10.320
<v Speaker 7>you know, and make men and hip hop recognized that

0:35:10.680 --> 0:35:13.320
<v Speaker 7>versus in the eighty and nineties, how they treated girls

0:35:13.440 --> 0:35:15.720
<v Speaker 7>I mean, it's it's so different.

0:35:15.760 --> 0:35:17.600
<v Speaker 2>I wish they bring back hip hop.

0:35:19.200 --> 0:35:19.560
<v Speaker 5>Period.

0:35:21.200 --> 0:35:24.480
<v Speaker 7>Yes, it's bad because you know, my god, you know,

0:35:24.560 --> 0:35:26.000
<v Speaker 7>I'm so happy I was a big girl.

0:35:26.239 --> 0:35:30.840
<v Speaker 1>So when you graduated New York or did you what

0:35:30.960 --> 0:35:33.120
<v Speaker 1>did you feel like that you were outgrowing New York?

0:35:33.200 --> 0:35:34.840
<v Speaker 2>Like what called you to Los Angeles?

0:35:35.560 --> 0:35:35.759
<v Speaker 5>Poor?

0:35:38.120 --> 0:35:40.400
<v Speaker 9>Don't avoid it, just get it, don't avoid it.

0:35:40.560 --> 0:35:46.440
<v Speaker 2>Just get it. Just don't you wait? What are you

0:35:46.640 --> 0:35:47.120
<v Speaker 2>talking about?

0:35:48.040 --> 0:35:49.759
<v Speaker 4>I was like, just get out the Latin Court and

0:35:49.880 --> 0:35:51.319
<v Speaker 4>go into them because that's where she went.

0:35:51.480 --> 0:35:54.319
<v Speaker 5>That's where she went. And then when I got back,

0:35:54.400 --> 0:35:56.680
<v Speaker 5>it was when I get back then it was a tunnel.

0:35:57.360 --> 0:36:01.440
<v Speaker 2>You know things. Yeah, it went from that was my era.

0:36:01.680 --> 0:36:05.120
<v Speaker 7>It went from Irving Plaza to tunnel and things were changing.

0:36:05.400 --> 0:36:08.840
<v Speaker 7>Now you know that was my era too, because.

0:36:08.600 --> 0:36:09.960
<v Speaker 5>I did a lot. I was a promoter a lot

0:36:10.040 --> 0:36:12.400
<v Speaker 5>for tunnel, didn't you do?

0:36:12.640 --> 0:36:14.160
<v Speaker 2>So let's tackle that issue.

0:36:15.680 --> 0:36:20.080
<v Speaker 1>As all right, So you go to Los Angeles, like,

0:36:20.400 --> 0:36:24.160
<v Speaker 1>how did you How do you get into the industry?

0:36:24.280 --> 0:36:28.920
<v Speaker 1>How does one get into the industry, especially when the

0:36:29.000 --> 0:36:31.400
<v Speaker 1>time period that you were in the industry.

0:36:34.080 --> 0:36:36.520
<v Speaker 2>You know, I'm certain that porn is.

0:36:36.480 --> 0:36:39.239
<v Speaker 1>Probably one of the most racist cultures of all time,

0:36:40.000 --> 0:36:42.640
<v Speaker 1>Like the titles I would see it was like again

0:36:42.719 --> 0:36:44.560
<v Speaker 1>like fried Chicken and fucking all that.

0:36:46.040 --> 0:36:48.359
<v Speaker 2>All the stuff in my no like nah I got

0:36:49.000 --> 0:36:49.760
<v Speaker 2>my uncle had.

0:36:51.200 --> 0:36:56.799
<v Speaker 1>Like Ray Victory and barbecue f three Like it was, Yeah,

0:36:56.960 --> 0:37:03.880
<v Speaker 1>So how do you navigate your way to the status

0:37:03.960 --> 0:37:07.719
<v Speaker 1>that you became because as far as I'm concerned, like

0:37:07.880 --> 0:37:11.840
<v Speaker 1>you were, at least from my point of view, you

0:37:12.520 --> 0:37:16.440
<v Speaker 1>kind of were equal billing of the white actresses of

0:37:17.080 --> 0:37:21.000
<v Speaker 1>the of the time right on coverage. Ye, you weren't

0:37:21.120 --> 0:37:23.080
<v Speaker 1>doing like super derogatory and ship.

0:37:23.680 --> 0:37:26.040
<v Speaker 5>It was because I had a really good manager. He

0:37:26.200 --> 0:37:29.319
<v Speaker 5>had a magical idea when we kicked me off.

0:37:29.840 --> 0:37:32.280
<v Speaker 2>The magical is like, let's treat you with dignity.

0:37:32.480 --> 0:37:40.040
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, let's not tell them what your colored skin is.

0:37:40.480 --> 0:37:42.279
<v Speaker 7>We're gonna put your first movie out and it's gonna

0:37:42.280 --> 0:37:47.440
<v Speaker 7>be Heather. And it was like we're going to ignore

0:37:48.600 --> 0:37:52.279
<v Speaker 7>that you're no, no, no, I'm saying as in, when

0:37:52.320 --> 0:37:56.040
<v Speaker 7>you're doing promo, before you're doing promo to put out

0:37:56.080 --> 0:37:59.040
<v Speaker 7>for adult like promo goes out. So the whole team

0:37:59.160 --> 0:38:02.680
<v Speaker 7>was like throwing out Heather and then my face was

0:38:02.760 --> 0:38:07.160
<v Speaker 7>so shown and then that's when I started standing up for.

0:38:07.160 --> 0:38:11.160
<v Speaker 2>Everything, But what what's promo in the adult world back then?

0:38:11.280 --> 0:38:15.000
<v Speaker 7>Promo adult world was like okay AVN when you had

0:38:15.040 --> 0:38:17.800
<v Speaker 7>the ABN's back then, so they would give flyers, you

0:38:17.800 --> 0:38:18.680
<v Speaker 7>would promote things.

0:38:18.800 --> 0:38:20.800
<v Speaker 5>It was mostly like street teaming stuff, you know.

0:38:21.880 --> 0:38:25.360
<v Speaker 7>And then you know, the Internet was only created for

0:38:25.520 --> 0:38:28.600
<v Speaker 7>porn back then, so if you were on the Internet

0:38:28.600 --> 0:38:30.279
<v Speaker 7>at that time, you knew exactly what was going on,

0:38:30.520 --> 0:38:33.240
<v Speaker 7>at least with in the adult world.

0:38:33.160 --> 0:38:33.320
<v Speaker 4>You know.

0:38:35.800 --> 0:38:38.360
<v Speaker 7>And then I stood up for every right From there on,

0:38:38.719 --> 0:38:42.320
<v Speaker 7>I refused to be treated. I want to be treated

0:38:42.440 --> 0:38:45.239
<v Speaker 7>no matter what color my skin is. So I really

0:38:46.200 --> 0:38:48.640
<v Speaker 7>stood up. I broke through a lot of color barriers.

0:38:49.320 --> 0:38:52.680
<v Speaker 7>I stayed to my convictions. And it's really about knowing

0:38:52.719 --> 0:38:54.440
<v Speaker 7>your worth and sticking to it.

0:38:54.560 --> 0:38:55.960
<v Speaker 11>You know, how oldre you When you did your first

0:38:56.000 --> 0:38:57.279
<v Speaker 11>movie eighteen eight.

0:38:57.239 --> 0:38:58.120
<v Speaker 5>I did it on my birthday?

0:38:59.000 --> 0:38:59.280
<v Speaker 2>Wow?

0:39:00.000 --> 0:39:02.080
<v Speaker 5>What was October first?

0:39:02.560 --> 0:39:09.400
<v Speaker 2>Okay, what was the first? What was that experience? Like

0:39:09.560 --> 0:39:11.040
<v Speaker 2>just your first time on camera?

0:39:11.200 --> 0:39:11.920
<v Speaker 5>Oh, it's crazy.

0:39:12.360 --> 0:39:14.960
<v Speaker 7>It was really crazy because I realized how wild the

0:39:15.000 --> 0:39:16.640
<v Speaker 7>people were in the business, you know what I mean,

0:39:17.239 --> 0:39:19.400
<v Speaker 7>And I was like, wow, this is crazy. It seemed

0:39:19.440 --> 0:39:21.920
<v Speaker 7>like I danced through it, like I was kind of

0:39:22.600 --> 0:39:25.920
<v Speaker 7>like an auto out of body experience, you know, do

0:39:26.000 --> 0:39:27.080
<v Speaker 7>you know what to expect?

0:39:27.520 --> 0:39:28.480
<v Speaker 5>I had no clue.

0:39:28.760 --> 0:39:31.279
<v Speaker 7>And then when this girl pulled out this back then,

0:39:31.360 --> 0:39:32.880
<v Speaker 7>it was really no dial though she put out one

0:39:32.880 --> 0:39:34.000
<v Speaker 7>of these big massages.

0:39:40.320 --> 0:39:43.960
<v Speaker 5>She was vibe you know massage. Yes, yes, Spencers.

0:39:44.280 --> 0:39:47.160
<v Speaker 7>God, that was actually the first time I actually was

0:39:47.200 --> 0:39:51.279
<v Speaker 7>with on camera first time, the very first time.

0:39:51.560 --> 0:39:53.359
<v Speaker 2>So the first time was with the girl. It wasn't

0:39:53.400 --> 0:39:53.919
<v Speaker 2>with the guy.

0:39:54.480 --> 0:39:57.360
<v Speaker 7>It was it was a guy, but it was my

0:39:57.440 --> 0:39:59.960
<v Speaker 7>first time actually having a girl. Oh okay, I mean

0:40:00.200 --> 0:40:01.759
<v Speaker 7>I was attracted to girls, but it was my first

0:40:01.800 --> 0:40:03.160
<v Speaker 7>time really going all the way in.

0:40:04.719 --> 0:40:09.840
<v Speaker 1>So I mean, how are you not self conscious about it? Like,

0:40:10.320 --> 0:40:14.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm pretty sure that some part of porn is scientific,

0:40:14.760 --> 0:40:18.200
<v Speaker 1>as in, okay, stop cut, we need this angle right here,

0:40:18.280 --> 0:40:25.200
<v Speaker 1>and and you know there's no manual to guide you

0:40:25.360 --> 0:40:28.640
<v Speaker 1>through that or any training. So how do you you

0:40:28.800 --> 0:40:30.359
<v Speaker 1>just you got to catch on quick and man.

0:40:30.520 --> 0:40:33.800
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, yeah, honestly, I say, you know, that's why the

0:40:33.880 --> 0:40:39.000
<v Speaker 7>difference between now, how everybody's really over top with their

0:40:39.040 --> 0:40:43.120
<v Speaker 7>sexuality and not really understanding it. When in the porn

0:40:43.200 --> 0:40:46.080
<v Speaker 7>business you really have to be a professional. You have

0:40:46.160 --> 0:40:48.000
<v Speaker 7>to have that professional state of mind, because if you

0:40:48.120 --> 0:40:51.440
<v Speaker 7>don't and you just dip in, you can lose it

0:40:51.880 --> 0:40:53.319
<v Speaker 7>along the way, you know what I mean.

0:40:54.000 --> 0:40:55.600
<v Speaker 5>So oh yeah, I could lose it a long way.

0:40:57.040 --> 0:41:01.359
<v Speaker 5>So you have to already be natural freak. I think

0:41:01.400 --> 0:41:04.319
<v Speaker 5>it has to be already in you have no inhibitions,

0:41:04.719 --> 0:41:07.279
<v Speaker 5>you know, comfortable with sexuality. But did you know how

0:41:07.360 --> 0:41:10.000
<v Speaker 5>much of a freak you were? Like oh yeah, age, yeah, yeah,

0:41:10.520 --> 0:41:11.320
<v Speaker 5>because you still.

0:41:11.160 --> 0:41:13.040
<v Speaker 4>Have to become more of a freak, you know what

0:41:13.080 --> 0:41:16.000
<v Speaker 4>I mean, Like eighteen freak Heather is different than ten

0:41:16.120 --> 0:41:16.560
<v Speaker 4>years later.

0:41:16.880 --> 0:41:19.880
<v Speaker 7>I'm more freakier now, but I'm a domestic freak now.

0:41:20.040 --> 0:41:22.719
<v Speaker 7>I got a man, you know, I'm home, you know,

0:41:24.520 --> 0:41:27.319
<v Speaker 7>you know, but it's a different it's different dynamic now.

0:41:27.440 --> 0:41:29.920
<v Speaker 7>But I think the older you get, you get more freakier,

0:41:30.160 --> 0:41:30.320
<v Speaker 7>you know.

0:41:31.239 --> 0:41:39.800
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm looking at you to leave this conversation.

0:41:39.960 --> 0:41:45.239
<v Speaker 11>But what is the difference between sex on camera and

0:41:46.280 --> 0:41:48.879
<v Speaker 11>or rather, how do you differentiate between sex on camera

0:41:48.960 --> 0:41:52.439
<v Speaker 11>and like you say, like domestic sex or sensitizing?

0:41:52.800 --> 0:41:55.080
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like how do you how do you how do

0:41:55.160 --> 0:41:55.320
<v Speaker 2>you have?

0:41:55.480 --> 0:41:56.840
<v Speaker 11>Like you is it like you have a scene with

0:41:56.920 --> 0:41:59.200
<v Speaker 11>somebody and it's like, oh, great job and let's hook

0:41:59.239 --> 0:42:00.920
<v Speaker 11>up later or is.

0:42:00.920 --> 0:42:01.480
<v Speaker 2>It just a line?

0:42:01.560 --> 0:42:03.719
<v Speaker 5>It's like that was that and now we're well that's

0:42:03.760 --> 0:42:03.920
<v Speaker 5>the thing.

0:42:03.960 --> 0:42:06.360
<v Speaker 7>When I was in porn, I only dated porn starts,

0:42:06.440 --> 0:42:10.000
<v Speaker 7>male porn starts. I wouldn't date somebody out I call

0:42:10.120 --> 0:42:10.800
<v Speaker 7>y'all civilians.

0:42:10.800 --> 0:42:11.240
<v Speaker 5>I wouldn't.

0:42:14.560 --> 0:42:16.680
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I wouldn't do it because honestly, I would like,

0:42:16.920 --> 0:42:19.759
<v Speaker 7>why you want to date me? I'm doing porn, you know,

0:42:20.440 --> 0:42:22.480
<v Speaker 7>because I wouldn't want to date me, you know. So

0:42:23.239 --> 0:42:27.080
<v Speaker 7>I had this thing, now date male porn starts. So yeah,

0:42:27.400 --> 0:42:29.359
<v Speaker 7>I got to pick all my men because I worked

0:42:29.400 --> 0:42:32.640
<v Speaker 7>for Vivid, so it was yeah, we would go from

0:42:32.680 --> 0:42:36.279
<v Speaker 7>there and then we would have awkward sex in front

0:42:36.320 --> 0:42:38.640
<v Speaker 7>of the camera and everybody telling you to do something.

0:42:38.760 --> 0:42:41.200
<v Speaker 5>It's just like you can't even enjoy it.

0:42:41.520 --> 0:42:44.279
<v Speaker 7>So you would go back into the bathroom after your

0:42:44.280 --> 0:42:46.600
<v Speaker 7>scene was done, and then y'all could actually have and

0:42:46.680 --> 0:42:48.600
<v Speaker 7>get it in if y'all were together, if.

0:42:48.520 --> 0:42:49.239
<v Speaker 5>You felt like it.

0:42:50.600 --> 0:42:54.120
<v Speaker 2>So it is acting. How much of that is acting? Oh?

0:42:54.200 --> 0:42:55.879
<v Speaker 5>It's acting. It's hard.

0:42:56.120 --> 0:42:56.759
<v Speaker 9>How can you act?

0:42:57.440 --> 0:42:59.960
<v Speaker 5>Your body has to respond because.

0:42:59.760 --> 0:43:02.480
<v Speaker 7>It's it's like, okay, perfect example, I was watching a

0:43:02.520 --> 0:43:05.279
<v Speaker 7>porn I just had this discussion with somebody was just

0:43:05.360 --> 0:43:08.080
<v Speaker 7>watching porn. And like I say, if I meet a

0:43:08.120 --> 0:43:10.000
<v Speaker 7>guy when I was single, if I met a guy

0:43:10.480 --> 0:43:15.160
<v Speaker 7>and he's like wants to pound pound, he's doing everything

0:43:15.600 --> 0:43:20.279
<v Speaker 7>like a porno movie, and no, it's like that in't good,

0:43:20.520 --> 0:43:23.719
<v Speaker 7>you know, No, no, no it's not good because like

0:43:23.800 --> 0:43:26.600
<v Speaker 7>when you're watching the porn, even when we're having sex

0:43:26.719 --> 0:43:29.600
<v Speaker 7>on camera, we got to speed up so it looks

0:43:29.640 --> 0:43:30.720
<v Speaker 7>exciting for the viewer.

0:43:31.880 --> 0:43:32.360
<v Speaker 12>We have to.

0:43:34.360 --> 0:43:37.080
<v Speaker 7>We have to do everything to make it look so exciting.

0:43:37.520 --> 0:43:40.799
<v Speaker 7>And then when we're about exciting and into it, they like, cut, okay,

0:43:40.800 --> 0:43:42.839
<v Speaker 7>we gotta do this, turn the angle, go this way,

0:43:43.200 --> 0:43:47.080
<v Speaker 7>all right, heather, da da you gotta you know, So

0:43:47.200 --> 0:43:47.560
<v Speaker 7>we got a.

0:43:47.560 --> 0:43:52.120
<v Speaker 1>Whole new generation that watches porn and repeats it and yeah.

0:43:53.480 --> 0:43:58.439
<v Speaker 2>And all they ain't need to go down. I see. Yeah,

0:43:58.760 --> 0:44:02.279
<v Speaker 2>I know you said so disappointed.

0:44:04.800 --> 0:44:07.439
<v Speaker 5>Because they professional entertainers. That's what we're doing.

0:44:07.560 --> 0:44:08.080
<v Speaker 2>That's a problem.

0:44:08.160 --> 0:44:11.400
<v Speaker 5>Men watch porn and think sometimes no, it's not that

0:44:11.760 --> 0:44:12.600
<v Speaker 5>it is it.

0:44:12.760 --> 0:44:15.800
<v Speaker 1>I would imagine that for the male performer, it's almost

0:44:15.840 --> 0:44:19.799
<v Speaker 1>there's a bigger pressure to instantly perform because I mean,

0:44:19.840 --> 0:44:23.440
<v Speaker 1>women can fake orgasms like nobody's.

0:44:22.719 --> 0:44:25.680
<v Speaker 5>Visit but now they got viagra. Like in my error,

0:44:25.840 --> 0:44:27.440
<v Speaker 5>it was hard, you know.

0:44:27.800 --> 0:44:29.719
<v Speaker 1>Now the guys are just yeah, I'm just saying like

0:44:29.880 --> 0:44:32.680
<v Speaker 1>just like on que, like okay, let's go hurry up.

0:44:33.200 --> 0:44:38.000
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, Ray Victory, perfect sample. He could not come unless

0:44:38.040 --> 0:44:39.800
<v Speaker 5>you had Red High heels on.

0:44:40.040 --> 0:44:40.320
<v Speaker 2>Shut.

0:44:41.560 --> 0:44:44.279
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, he was banging so much. He could not come.

0:44:46.000 --> 0:44:48.000
<v Speaker 5>He did not care who you were.

0:44:48.760 --> 0:44:50.640
<v Speaker 7>I remember I had a scene with them and I

0:44:50.760 --> 0:44:53.839
<v Speaker 7>had my little you know, because I was so very girl.

0:44:53.960 --> 0:44:56.279
<v Speaker 7>Next story, I had my little skippies on.

0:44:56.400 --> 0:44:58.400
<v Speaker 2>He was like, that ain't gonna get it.

0:44:58.440 --> 0:45:00.719
<v Speaker 5>They ain't gonna do it. That's not going to do it.

0:45:00.760 --> 0:45:03.600
<v Speaker 5>They had to go get me. Yeah, Red High Hill.

0:45:03.880 --> 0:45:08.200
<v Speaker 2>I was gonna say, I'm kind of like the the

0:45:08.600 --> 0:45:12.320
<v Speaker 2>the the yoga era of porn and this whole like

0:45:12.440 --> 0:45:14.520
<v Speaker 2>what was the yoga era? The yoga era? I mean,

0:45:14.600 --> 0:45:16.440
<v Speaker 2>I mean they have different things. They have like a lot.

0:45:16.920 --> 0:45:20.640
<v Speaker 2>It's always the same backup. Like it's like it's either

0:45:21.360 --> 0:45:23.359
<v Speaker 2>the pizza delivery scene.

0:45:25.400 --> 0:45:27.920
<v Speaker 5>Oh now there's yoga class or whatever.

0:45:28.440 --> 0:45:32.320
<v Speaker 2>In my head, yes, yes, I don't know. The sports

0:45:32.440 --> 0:45:37.480
<v Speaker 2>gym look is not oh it's not hot. It's it's

0:45:37.600 --> 0:45:39.080
<v Speaker 2>not personally sexy to me.

0:45:39.440 --> 0:45:46.799
<v Speaker 4>Okay, but you know it's love, isn't just to get

0:45:47.000 --> 0:45:48.440
<v Speaker 4>get you out of your your hole. You're going into

0:45:49.680 --> 0:45:52.520
<v Speaker 4>porn one of the only one of the only industries

0:45:52.560 --> 0:45:54.600
<v Speaker 4>where the men is inequality between the men and the

0:45:54.640 --> 0:45:56.520
<v Speaker 4>women in pay where the men get paid less or is.

0:45:56.520 --> 0:45:59.239
<v Speaker 7>That yeah, the men get paid less. Certain guys, if

0:45:59.239 --> 0:46:01.560
<v Speaker 7>you're a star guy, you could probably make more money

0:46:01.600 --> 0:46:04.319
<v Speaker 7>than the girls. But if you're engay porn, they make

0:46:04.400 --> 0:46:07.239
<v Speaker 7>more money. They make money just like the women. Yeah,

0:46:07.480 --> 0:46:11.400
<v Speaker 7>so it's you know, I have a lot of colleagues

0:46:11.400 --> 0:46:13.520
<v Speaker 7>that are in the business that I've been out of

0:46:13.520 --> 0:46:16.240
<v Speaker 7>the business for twenty eight years now. I've been retired,

0:46:16.800 --> 0:46:19.279
<v Speaker 7>so it's been a long time. I kind of keep

0:46:19.320 --> 0:46:21.600
<v Speaker 7>in touch with certain people because I certain people I

0:46:21.680 --> 0:46:24.080
<v Speaker 7>do like that's still in the business, or like I

0:46:24.200 --> 0:46:24.959
<v Speaker 7>like Missy Stone.

0:46:25.000 --> 0:46:26.080
<v Speaker 5>I think she's a good person.

0:46:27.480 --> 0:46:31.040
<v Speaker 4>So mentoring a little bit, how do you mentor a

0:46:31.080 --> 0:46:31.400
<v Speaker 4>little bit?

0:46:31.800 --> 0:46:36.000
<v Speaker 5>My whole life is a mint essure every day right now?

0:46:37.640 --> 0:46:41.360
<v Speaker 7>You know, my every day is you know, it's interesting.

0:46:41.440 --> 0:46:44.160
<v Speaker 7>It comes to my my uh rings on my phone

0:46:44.200 --> 0:46:50.920
<v Speaker 7>every day, questions everything. So I think the business itself

0:46:51.000 --> 0:46:54.800
<v Speaker 7>and I still and I think people look at me

0:46:54.880 --> 0:46:57.719
<v Speaker 7>and I'm not anti porn. You know, a lot of

0:46:57.760 --> 0:47:00.640
<v Speaker 7>people think, wow, she's not porn. She feels My only

0:47:01.000 --> 0:47:02.920
<v Speaker 7>view about porn is that I just really wish that

0:47:02.960 --> 0:47:04.160
<v Speaker 7>they would practice safe sex.

0:47:05.920 --> 0:47:07.959
<v Speaker 2>How scary was it that bothered I left?

0:47:08.040 --> 0:47:12.000
<v Speaker 7>Because I wasn't gonna I was wearing condoms anyway, as

0:47:12.000 --> 0:47:14.440
<v Speaker 7>soon as I came about, I was wearing condoms.

0:47:14.480 --> 0:47:16.320
<v Speaker 5>But after I do, I was telling I tell this

0:47:16.400 --> 0:47:16.879
<v Speaker 5>all the time.

0:47:17.320 --> 0:47:19.400
<v Speaker 7>When I did a movie in Hawaii for Vivid, and

0:47:20.560 --> 0:47:23.760
<v Speaker 7>I was doing a scene in a non erupting volcano.

0:47:23.920 --> 0:47:28.280
<v Speaker 7>It was down inside the volcano with Vince Vince somebody foyer,

0:47:29.160 --> 0:47:33.840
<v Speaker 7>and I'm like, why am I down here? Because after taxes,

0:47:33.880 --> 0:47:38.000
<v Speaker 7>it's not gonna be worth it, between my health taxes,

0:47:38.880 --> 0:47:40.480
<v Speaker 7>I can't do this no more, you know what I mean.

0:47:40.600 --> 0:47:43.960
<v Speaker 7>It's just just I think I started growing up, you know,

0:47:44.080 --> 0:47:46.560
<v Speaker 7>I started kind of waking up and realizing, you know,

0:47:46.680 --> 0:47:49.319
<v Speaker 7>there's more things that are important, which is your health

0:47:49.400 --> 0:47:51.640
<v Speaker 7>and making sure you stay on this earth. Because that

0:47:51.880 --> 0:47:55.239
<v Speaker 7>business is like going into war. You can come out

0:47:55.520 --> 0:48:00.520
<v Speaker 7>a soldier unscathed, or you can come out and you

0:48:00.560 --> 0:48:02.040
<v Speaker 7>can really die, you know what I mean.

0:48:02.239 --> 0:48:06.320
<v Speaker 1>How thorough are they as far as making sure that

0:48:07.120 --> 0:48:09.279
<v Speaker 1>I had my papers and I'm tested, and.

0:48:09.920 --> 0:48:12.120
<v Speaker 2>Like its just someone always on the set. That's like okay,

0:48:12.200 --> 0:48:16.440
<v Speaker 2>let me and someone could lie about it. In Detroit.

0:48:16.640 --> 0:48:20.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah yeah, Brazil, Yeah it was Darren James was him.

0:48:21.800 --> 0:48:25.800
<v Speaker 1>It sounds familiar. I just know that you went to

0:48:25.880 --> 0:48:29.720
<v Speaker 1>Brazil and he got infected. I know that the industry

0:48:29.800 --> 0:48:32.200
<v Speaker 1>had to shut down for a month or so, Like

0:48:32.680 --> 0:48:37.320
<v Speaker 1>who who are the police dogs that enforces that? And

0:48:37.640 --> 0:48:40.600
<v Speaker 1>like in the age that it is now crazy, it's

0:48:40.640 --> 0:48:41.880
<v Speaker 1>almost like pull out the iPhone.

0:48:42.600 --> 0:48:45.920
<v Speaker 7>It's impossible to I mean you have your set companies

0:48:45.960 --> 0:48:49.399
<v Speaker 7>that still the other protocol you take get tested every

0:48:49.440 --> 0:48:53.120
<v Speaker 7>time you do a movie. Uh, these people still choose to.

0:48:53.360 --> 0:48:55.480
<v Speaker 7>They don't want you to wear condoms, but if you

0:48:55.600 --> 0:48:58.040
<v Speaker 7>want to, you have to really insist it. Sometimes you

0:48:58.040 --> 0:49:00.800
<v Speaker 7>won't get hired because you just want with condoms. So

0:49:02.120 --> 0:49:04.120
<v Speaker 7>I was a Vivid, So I was contract girls. I

0:49:04.280 --> 0:49:05.560
<v Speaker 7>was able to wear condoms.

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<v Speaker 5>I choose to.

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<v Speaker 2>Was that the highest honer back then, like to be

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<v Speaker 2>a Vivid.

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<v Speaker 5>Like now oh yeah, even to this days, to be

0:49:12.360 --> 0:49:13.040
<v Speaker 5>a Vivid girl.

0:49:13.239 --> 0:49:14.640
<v Speaker 2>There's still yeah.

0:49:15.120 --> 0:49:17.279
<v Speaker 5>I mean Kim and ray J took them to another level,

0:49:17.320 --> 0:49:18.680
<v Speaker 5>right and then it just went back.

0:49:19.160 --> 0:49:19.719
<v Speaker 2>That was vivid.

0:49:19.840 --> 0:49:21.680
<v Speaker 5>That was vivid, right right?

0:49:22.719 --> 0:49:27.120
<v Speaker 2>You said that in alacrity, like that was the empire built?

0:49:28.520 --> 0:49:30.360
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, that was the Kardashian empire.

0:49:30.440 --> 0:49:32.680
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, and me and I was probably a Vivid girl.

0:49:32.719 --> 0:49:33.239
<v Speaker 5>I always will.

0:49:33.320 --> 0:49:37.360
<v Speaker 7>It's something that I'm not gonna, uh forget up my

0:49:37.480 --> 0:49:39.720
<v Speaker 7>life because it was. They were a great company.

0:49:40.440 --> 0:49:44.759
<v Speaker 2>Were your peers as nice to you? And or that thing?

0:49:44.880 --> 0:49:48.080
<v Speaker 2>Or was it like was it caddy?

0:49:48.320 --> 0:49:51.719
<v Speaker 5>As far as know, all my the Vivid girls, I

0:49:51.880 --> 0:49:53.720
<v Speaker 5>was cool with one I punched in the face.

0:49:55.040 --> 0:49:55.440
<v Speaker 2>Who was that?

0:49:58.719 --> 0:49:59.719
<v Speaker 5>That's hilarious.

0:50:00.719 --> 0:50:01.560
<v Speaker 9>I just want to know what she did?

0:50:01.600 --> 0:50:03.359
<v Speaker 5>And one it was one I punched in the face.

0:50:03.520 --> 0:50:04.239
<v Speaker 2>Who do you have the punch?

0:50:04.239 --> 0:50:06.800
<v Speaker 5>Who was I'm not going to say, why did you

0:50:06.840 --> 0:50:07.279
<v Speaker 5>have the punch?

0:50:07.520 --> 0:50:07.680
<v Speaker 7>Huh?

0:50:07.760 --> 0:50:08.160
<v Speaker 2>What'd she do?

0:50:09.840 --> 0:50:11.839
<v Speaker 5>We were all on set waiting for her.

0:50:12.000 --> 0:50:13.560
<v Speaker 7>All the Vivid girls were on step waiting for I

0:50:13.719 --> 0:50:17.759
<v Speaker 7>was really sick, and she decides that she showed up

0:50:17.840 --> 0:50:22.880
<v Speaker 7>like four hours later. She went to go get her

0:50:22.920 --> 0:50:25.239
<v Speaker 7>hair bleached, and I was sick, and then she came

0:50:25.320 --> 0:50:27.880
<v Speaker 7>in just like I could do what evan, what.

0:50:27.920 --> 0:50:29.640
<v Speaker 5>You gonna do with it? Not just socked?

0:50:31.239 --> 0:50:33.359
<v Speaker 2>What you going to do? Did she still do the same.

0:50:33.760 --> 0:50:40.320
<v Speaker 7>My Keisha came out and that socked and now.

0:50:39.040 --> 0:50:41.120
<v Speaker 5>And then they sit they sent her home and I

0:50:41.200 --> 0:50:43.480
<v Speaker 5>finished the shoot. You know, her face was fucked up.

0:50:44.040 --> 0:50:45.840
<v Speaker 5>Her face was fucked No. After that she became like

0:50:45.920 --> 0:50:47.600
<v Speaker 5>she really wanted to be my best friend. From there on.

0:50:48.440 --> 0:50:49.400
<v Speaker 2>She didn't want to get posted.

0:50:49.480 --> 0:50:53.480
<v Speaker 7>It's funny, it's funny, but yeah, no, everybody's always respectful.

0:50:53.680 --> 0:50:54.680
<v Speaker 7>We were like the Brady Bunch.

0:50:55.800 --> 0:50:59.640
<v Speaker 1>For the environment you grew up in as a New

0:50:59.719 --> 0:51:02.319
<v Speaker 1>york and the time that you grew up and as

0:51:02.360 --> 0:51:07.640
<v Speaker 1>a New Yorker, you're very nurturing and not necessarily like

0:51:08.000 --> 0:51:12.000
<v Speaker 1>usually there's a hard exterior or a defensive exterior, and

0:51:12.120 --> 0:51:15.400
<v Speaker 1>most New Yorkers, I know, like I've yet to hear

0:51:15.440 --> 0:51:20.719
<v Speaker 1>you say what happened or like any Brooklyn sort of

0:51:21.040 --> 0:51:24.200
<v Speaker 1>terminology that lets me know that you're like you've been

0:51:24.360 --> 0:51:25.960
<v Speaker 1>through shit and lived through shit.

0:51:26.239 --> 0:51:26.719
<v Speaker 2>Deadass.

0:51:27.120 --> 0:51:31.719
<v Speaker 7>But that's that's when I said Keisha come, that's my

0:51:31.760 --> 0:51:33.800
<v Speaker 7>middle name. That's when Keisha comes out, you know what

0:51:33.840 --> 0:51:34.120
<v Speaker 7>I mean?

0:51:35.120 --> 0:51:38.319
<v Speaker 2>Wait a minute, what is your real name?

0:51:38.400 --> 0:51:39.799
<v Speaker 5>My name is Heather A Kisha Hunter.

0:51:40.040 --> 0:51:42.040
<v Speaker 2>Okay, what made you go into your real name?

0:51:42.280 --> 0:51:44.960
<v Speaker 5>My father he said, be proud of your name. You

0:51:45.000 --> 0:51:45.920
<v Speaker 5>have a powerful name.

0:51:46.480 --> 0:51:48.000
<v Speaker 2>So when he found out you were doing Paul, what

0:51:48.120 --> 0:51:48.600
<v Speaker 2>was his reaction?

0:51:48.800 --> 0:51:50.880
<v Speaker 5>He was like he was not shocked. It was more

0:51:51.000 --> 0:51:51.319
<v Speaker 5>or less.

0:51:51.360 --> 0:51:53.600
<v Speaker 7>My father always I could rob a bank, and my

0:51:53.760 --> 0:51:55.760
<v Speaker 7>dad was like, she's the best bank robber.

0:51:57.640 --> 0:51:58.560
<v Speaker 5>I could do no wrong in.

0:51:58.600 --> 0:52:01.360
<v Speaker 7>My father's eyes, which is beautiful because that helped me,

0:52:01.719 --> 0:52:03.480
<v Speaker 7>you know, you know along the way.

0:52:04.080 --> 0:52:06.799
<v Speaker 2>You know your mother in the picture as well.

0:52:07.040 --> 0:52:09.040
<v Speaker 5>My mom to my mom, still don't get it. She

0:52:09.160 --> 0:52:11.719
<v Speaker 5>looked at me like, what did you do.

0:52:15.719 --> 0:52:16.160
<v Speaker 2>So get it?

0:52:16.280 --> 0:52:17.320
<v Speaker 5>You know, she's still don't get it.

0:52:17.360 --> 0:52:18.960
<v Speaker 2>Do you have a large family? Do you have cousins?

0:52:19.000 --> 0:52:19.800
<v Speaker 5>A huge family?

0:52:21.120 --> 0:52:25.560
<v Speaker 1>Because you are the krim of? I mean, your name

0:52:25.680 --> 0:52:30.600
<v Speaker 1>is is pop culture reference in many of hip hop's rhymes.

0:52:31.920 --> 0:52:33.600
<v Speaker 1>Is it weird for your cousins or whatever?

0:52:33.880 --> 0:52:36.000
<v Speaker 2>Like to like how.

0:52:37.320 --> 0:52:39.840
<v Speaker 7>Well my sisters? I have to you know, it's interesting

0:52:39.920 --> 0:52:51.680
<v Speaker 7>my younger sisters. All right, okay, yeah, my my younger sister.

0:52:51.840 --> 0:52:53.920
<v Speaker 7>You know, I knew it was gonna be hard for

0:52:54.040 --> 0:52:59.000
<v Speaker 7>them because they're both beautiful, they attractive. But what I

0:52:59.080 --> 0:53:03.200
<v Speaker 7>loved about them they raise so strong, good head on

0:53:03.280 --> 0:53:08.160
<v Speaker 7>their shoulders that no matter what comes away, or if

0:53:08.239 --> 0:53:10.080
<v Speaker 7>somebody was like, oh you have to have the sister

0:53:10.280 --> 0:53:13.359
<v Speaker 7>or something. They really handle it, you know, they never

0:53:13.480 --> 0:53:16.759
<v Speaker 7>wanted to stray away from it, you know. And then

0:53:16.880 --> 0:53:19.480
<v Speaker 7>my male cousins all of them use my name like,

0:53:19.520 --> 0:53:20.680
<v Speaker 7>oh I could get pussy.

0:53:26.239 --> 0:53:26.439
<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

0:53:26.640 --> 0:53:27.800
<v Speaker 5>So it's it's interesting.

0:53:27.960 --> 0:53:30.080
<v Speaker 4>What about all those those mcs that you mentioned that

0:53:30.160 --> 0:53:31.759
<v Speaker 4>you came up with La and Quarter, Like, at what

0:53:31.920 --> 0:53:35.480
<v Speaker 4>point was everybody well receiving of your career or was

0:53:35.680 --> 0:53:37.320
<v Speaker 4>anybody like, all right, let me come talk to you

0:53:37.400 --> 0:53:37.799
<v Speaker 4>in a corner.

0:53:37.800 --> 0:53:43.120
<v Speaker 7>You know, I have a few, like a few. Thank god.

0:53:44.239 --> 0:53:48.400
<v Speaker 7>I've been the same all my life. My character, everything

0:53:48.440 --> 0:53:53.120
<v Speaker 7>about me, I've never changed. So you have a few

0:53:53.160 --> 0:53:56.160
<v Speaker 7>people that have thrown off. You know, definitely a few

0:53:56.200 --> 0:53:59.880
<v Speaker 7>people have thrown off, But then they got used to

0:53:59.920 --> 0:54:02.800
<v Speaker 7>it because I think it came with the respect that

0:54:02.840 --> 0:54:07.120
<v Speaker 7>I already had within my community, my street, my friends.

0:54:07.239 --> 0:54:08.359
<v Speaker 5>It was just already there.

0:54:09.040 --> 0:54:09.200
<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:54:09.360 --> 0:54:10.560
<v Speaker 5>I really respect people.

0:54:10.920 --> 0:54:15.520
<v Speaker 2>And something just hit me right now, like literally, when

0:54:15.560 --> 0:54:18.080
<v Speaker 2>she said that, something hit me. I'm sorry it sounded

0:54:18.160 --> 0:54:19.400
<v Speaker 2>like it. Wait a minute.

0:54:20.920 --> 0:54:22.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if you know this about me, Heather,

0:54:22.640 --> 0:54:28.000
<v Speaker 1>but I am probably the third most knowledgeable person of

0:54:28.239 --> 0:54:30.520
<v Speaker 1>anything soul trained porn.

0:54:33.440 --> 0:54:35.160
<v Speaker 5>Oh my god, so trained.

0:54:35.320 --> 0:54:38.520
<v Speaker 2>You danced on soul Train. Yeah, I believe that was you.

0:54:38.600 --> 0:54:41.920
<v Speaker 1>I was gonna say, like, even then, I didn't put

0:54:41.920 --> 0:54:43.440
<v Speaker 1>two and two together that that was you.

0:54:44.200 --> 0:54:45.879
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I wasn't porn at that time.

0:54:46.160 --> 0:54:49.520
<v Speaker 2>Wow, I was going to say you were on you

0:54:49.640 --> 0:54:52.080
<v Speaker 2>were a soul trained dancer as Heather Hunter.

0:54:52.239 --> 0:54:54.600
<v Speaker 7>I snuck in on the line. I used my mother's name,

0:54:55.040 --> 0:54:59.080
<v Speaker 7>so I got online. They let me in as soon

0:54:59.120 --> 0:55:00.680
<v Speaker 7>as I was on the floor, I guess because I

0:55:00.800 --> 0:55:01.759
<v Speaker 7>dance like I'm New York.

0:55:02.080 --> 0:55:03.200
<v Speaker 2>They were like, oh my god.

0:55:03.960 --> 0:55:05.319
<v Speaker 4>And the.

0:55:06.880 --> 0:55:10.920
<v Speaker 7>Asian girl with the long hair, yeah, she was retiring

0:55:11.160 --> 0:55:14.680
<v Speaker 7>and I had long hair, so they immediately threw me

0:55:14.760 --> 0:55:18.239
<v Speaker 7>up on the stage. So now I'm on stage, I'm like, oh,

0:55:18.320 --> 0:55:19.640
<v Speaker 7>this is bad, this is great.

0:55:22.239 --> 0:55:23.760
<v Speaker 5>My boy who had the cane?

0:55:23.960 --> 0:55:24.319
<v Speaker 2>I forgot.

0:55:27.000 --> 0:55:32.279
<v Speaker 5>It took like about five shows for I was going to.

0:55:32.280 --> 0:55:35.440
<v Speaker 2>Say, you were only on for seven episodes? What happened?

0:55:35.600 --> 0:55:38.240
<v Speaker 7>Eric Cassim, who was the manager who was the production

0:55:38.760 --> 0:55:41.920
<v Speaker 7>that he knew after he realized it's like, oh my god,

0:55:42.120 --> 0:55:45.560
<v Speaker 7>sat the Hunter, you know, And even Louis pointed to

0:55:45.600 --> 0:55:47.719
<v Speaker 7>the cane, Oh my god, it's the Hunter. So they

0:55:47.840 --> 0:55:51.959
<v Speaker 7>kind of hid me from from Don Cornelius for a while,

0:55:54.160 --> 0:55:56.319
<v Speaker 7>and they threw me down. Eric kept throwing me down

0:55:56.400 --> 0:55:58.120
<v Speaker 7>the soul train line. Okay, this gets you down the

0:55:58.120 --> 0:55:59.680
<v Speaker 7>soul train line. Let's get you down. We're gonna get

0:55:59.680 --> 0:56:03.719
<v Speaker 7>all these down. And then out of nowhere, someone contacted

0:56:04.840 --> 0:56:10.719
<v Speaker 7>the Don Cornelius and say that you have a point

0:56:10.800 --> 0:56:12.359
<v Speaker 7>started gyrating.

0:56:13.280 --> 0:56:14.560
<v Speaker 5>Twirling down the line.

0:56:15.760 --> 0:56:18.520
<v Speaker 2>I produced Pam Brown. It was Pam Brown. It probably

0:56:21.520 --> 0:56:22.680
<v Speaker 2>she was a wow.

0:56:23.480 --> 0:56:26.160
<v Speaker 7>Don was like, pulled me to the side. When I

0:56:26.200 --> 0:56:30.120
<v Speaker 7>came back next time, he could not. This is how

0:56:30.760 --> 0:56:34.360
<v Speaker 7>great this was. Because I would see Don at Stringfellows

0:56:34.480 --> 0:56:36.480
<v Speaker 7>at the club in La So He's like, who is

0:56:36.560 --> 0:56:39.560
<v Speaker 7>this girl? How'd she get into Stringfellas? I'm there with

0:56:39.880 --> 0:56:43.080
<v Speaker 7>Marvin Gay Jr. All of them, and how is she

0:56:43.280 --> 0:56:43.640
<v Speaker 7>in here?

0:56:43.840 --> 0:56:44.000
<v Speaker 2>You know?

0:56:44.880 --> 0:56:47.000
<v Speaker 5>And then it clicked and he found out who I was,

0:56:47.440 --> 0:56:50.120
<v Speaker 5>and then he couldn't uh.

0:56:50.440 --> 0:56:50.719
<v Speaker 2>I got.

0:56:50.840 --> 0:56:53.279
<v Speaker 7>I love Don for this because he didn't want to

0:56:53.840 --> 0:56:58.080
<v Speaker 7>tell me that I couldn't be on the show because

0:56:58.120 --> 0:56:59.560
<v Speaker 7>he thought it was not right to do.

0:57:00.080 --> 0:57:03.279
<v Speaker 5>You can't do that, you know what I mean? Yeah, right,

0:57:03.640 --> 0:57:07.120
<v Speaker 5>So I gave him a break and I did it for.

0:57:07.239 --> 0:57:09.400
<v Speaker 7>Him, you know, what I mean, really, yeah, I gave

0:57:09.480 --> 0:57:11.440
<v Speaker 7>it to it and then I used to and then

0:57:12.080 --> 0:57:14.759
<v Speaker 7>I said, said, I get it. You know, I'm just

0:57:14.800 --> 0:57:17.000
<v Speaker 7>happy that I had experience to actually do this. And

0:57:17.120 --> 0:57:20.520
<v Speaker 7>he was like, you could still hang and come down,

0:57:20.680 --> 0:57:22.680
<v Speaker 7>and that exactly why I would do. I go and

0:57:22.880 --> 0:57:25.720
<v Speaker 7>chill and I would hang out because I worked with

0:57:25.880 --> 0:57:29.960
<v Speaker 7>Eric as well, and Don was just the coolest and

0:57:30.040 --> 0:57:32.960
<v Speaker 7>then a by that time, you know, I'm friends, and

0:57:34.160 --> 0:57:36.840
<v Speaker 7>I had to respect him because you know, he couldn't

0:57:36.920 --> 0:57:38.560
<v Speaker 7>do it. You know, he couldn't say, hey, you can't

0:57:38.560 --> 0:57:40.280
<v Speaker 7>be I only had to. So I was like, Okay,

0:57:40.280 --> 0:57:42.040
<v Speaker 7>I'm gonna go. And then we did a pornal movie

0:57:42.080 --> 0:57:43.320
<v Speaker 7>called Get On a Real Soul Trade.

0:57:54.760 --> 0:57:55.120
<v Speaker 2>So back.

0:57:55.200 --> 0:57:58.800
<v Speaker 1>When we interviewed lunch Back in twenty sixteen, Fante asked

0:57:58.800 --> 0:58:02.960
<v Speaker 1>a really interesting question just about her sisterhood with Beyonce,

0:58:03.160 --> 0:58:05.280
<v Speaker 1>based on a lyric Let's listen.

0:58:05.160 --> 0:58:10.440
<v Speaker 11>Back one lyric that I always wanted to ask you about.

0:58:10.800 --> 0:58:11.480
<v Speaker 2>Uh it was.

0:58:11.920 --> 0:58:14.400
<v Speaker 11>It was a It was a Beyonce lyric where she says,

0:58:14.840 --> 0:58:17.760
<v Speaker 11>and pardon me if I butchered, But you're saying.

0:58:17.560 --> 0:58:20.080
<v Speaker 2>You know, my my sister taught me to speak my mind.

0:58:20.440 --> 0:58:26.800
<v Speaker 2>If I'm okay, I got it all right. Where what

0:58:27.560 --> 0:58:30.960
<v Speaker 2>explain that? Like, what influence did you play or do

0:58:31.000 --> 0:58:33.040
<v Speaker 2>you do you think you played on her in that way?

0:58:33.560 --> 0:58:35.520
<v Speaker 9>I mean, I don't know.

0:58:35.840 --> 0:58:38.400
<v Speaker 13>I didn't know that that lyric was gonna come out,

0:58:38.520 --> 0:58:42.040
<v Speaker 13>so I was just a sucp surprised as everybody else.

0:58:43.000 --> 0:58:46.880
<v Speaker 13>But I think that our relationship is really cool because

0:58:47.960 --> 0:58:52.000
<v Speaker 13>since we've been younger, we've both been very very protective

0:58:52.040 --> 0:58:55.000
<v Speaker 13>of each other, and we both have pushed each other

0:58:55.200 --> 0:58:59.240
<v Speaker 13>in the boundaries and our ways of communicating through just

0:58:59.400 --> 0:59:04.880
<v Speaker 13>humans and women, but also as artists. And I think

0:59:04.960 --> 0:59:09.240
<v Speaker 13>everyone who's around me, friends, family, my son, his friends.

0:59:09.640 --> 0:59:13.880
<v Speaker 13>I'm a huge, you know, advocate for people getting to

0:59:14.040 --> 0:59:16.560
<v Speaker 13>live in their honesty and their truth. I think we

0:59:16.760 --> 0:59:20.640
<v Speaker 13>all deserve that. And even when I think back to

0:59:21.040 --> 0:59:25.720
<v Speaker 13>my SNL performance, like, you know, just the feeling of.

0:59:27.200 --> 0:59:28.760
<v Speaker 5>Being able to say.

0:59:29.120 --> 0:59:32.280
<v Speaker 13>That everything that we do as humans is not going

0:59:32.360 --> 0:59:35.080
<v Speaker 13>to be perfect and it's going to be flawed, and

0:59:35.240 --> 0:59:39.120
<v Speaker 13>to be able to own those imperfections and speak up

0:59:39.160 --> 0:59:45.440
<v Speaker 13>on them and not feel hindered or you know that

0:59:46.120 --> 0:59:51.440
<v Speaker 13>I would like to think that maybe you know, just

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<v Speaker 13>as family, that I have played a role and also

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<v Speaker 13>constantly telling her that as well. You know, I tell

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<v Speaker 13>all of my especially my black women friends, like we

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<v Speaker 13>have to operate in the world so so heavily and

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<v Speaker 13>carrying so much weight on a daily basis, the black

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<v Speaker 13>woman in America, and I think that we're not told

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<v Speaker 13>like it's okay to be flawed and to not be

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<v Speaker 13>so strong all the time.

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<v Speaker 2>And Okay, I know you're mad regular. I don't even

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<v Speaker 2>know if I'm allowed to see that.

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<v Speaker 8>I am.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm pretty I'm.

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<v Speaker 13>Like, you know, that's very funny. A lot of my

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<v Speaker 13>friends describe me as that way, and I'm like, I

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<v Speaker 13>don't know, what.

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<v Speaker 2>Is it like that? Well, that's when I knew you

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<v Speaker 2>would be cool. Okay, but you know, at the beginning,

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<v Speaker 2>it's okay to an outsider.

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<v Speaker 1>Because the perception of the dynasty it's so gleamingly blinding

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<v Speaker 1>that again people don't But what I'm saying is that

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<v Speaker 1>do you still feel I know that you fight for

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<v Speaker 1>your private life, and you fight, well, not fight just.

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<v Speaker 3>To you you protected, well, not even protected, just you're.

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<v Speaker 2>Gonna do what you're gonna do.

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<v Speaker 1>And sometimes you just want mad normal moments, and you

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<v Speaker 1>guys indulged in mad regular normal hey.

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<v Speaker 2>The you know, the the noles.

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<v Speaker 11>Just like when I saw her, when I saw Miss

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<v Speaker 11>Tina and mister Lawson posing in the parking lot of Costco,

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<v Speaker 11>I was like, yo, data realist niggas out like.

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<v Speaker 2>God, Like I'm like, yo, she real for that, and

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<v Speaker 2>she was happy to get the savings.

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<v Speaker 13>Like, oh my god, she's so serious about those mic downs.

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<v Speaker 1>But I mean, do you at what point did you

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<v Speaker 1>collectively all of you decide like I'm done, I'm tired,

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<v Speaker 1>like we could just be regular. I mean, because some

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<v Speaker 1>of y'all are super heroes to some people, and then

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<v Speaker 1>you want to be regular.

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<v Speaker 2>So at what point do you just decide like I

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<v Speaker 2>gotta be regular and I'm gonna just be me.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 13>I think I personally have always operated from a space

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<v Speaker 13>of like you said, like what, I'm drawn to the

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<v Speaker 13>things that bring me the most joy, and I try

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<v Speaker 13>to nurture them, whatever that is. And I've also lived

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<v Speaker 13>in places that have allowed me to do that safely,

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<v Speaker 13>Like living in New Orleans is a huge part of that.

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<v Speaker 2>And why did you choose New Orleans?

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<v Speaker 3>I love New Orleans.

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<v Speaker 5>I just loved the city.

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<v Speaker 3>I love the people, I love the culture.

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<v Speaker 4>Did you kind of break up with New York because

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<v Speaker 4>I read something like that you kind of got tired

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<v Speaker 4>of certain aspects in New York or East Coast eliteism

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<v Speaker 4>liberally like that.

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<v Speaker 9>That was definitely a part of it.

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<v Speaker 13>That was definitely a part of it.

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<v Speaker 2>But I think we were not so good in Brooklyn.

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<v Speaker 9>How do you do all that gentrification in Brooklyn?

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<v Speaker 4>And it's a lot it happens, It's happening, Yeah, but

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<v Speaker 4>it's everywhere.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you still have those house parties in New Orleans?

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<v Speaker 1>Her last night in Brooklyn was was really cool, Like

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<v Speaker 1>I had not even had a house party in my house.

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<v Speaker 2>Like when I do a party, I gotta do it

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<v Speaker 2>somewhere that's not in my house. Ship. Yeah, but it

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<v Speaker 2>was like it was like a cool house party.

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<v Speaker 4>DJ on Earth, it's been twenty years. Can I just

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<v Speaker 4>add on this to something that you said. I wanted

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<v Speaker 4>to ask you, you know, Amir said something about just

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<v Speaker 4>the perception of you, but I feel like Solange fans

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<v Speaker 4>have a different.

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<v Speaker 9>Perception of you, and yeah, like I feel like, in

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<v Speaker 9>kind of going.

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<v Speaker 4>Back to what Fante said, because I said to Fante

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<v Speaker 4>when we first were talking about having you on the show,

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, you know, Solange is like she's free,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, and I.

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<v Speaker 2>Think you called me the male Solange.

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<v Speaker 3>Who else?

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<v Speaker 4>He said, what does that mean to you? And I said, well,

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<v Speaker 4>to me, it means that whatever she does and whichever

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<v Speaker 4>way she decides to do it, people who love her

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<v Speaker 4>will follow it. And that fuck with you. And you

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<v Speaker 4>don't have any leashes or any fences around you, like

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<v Speaker 4>and the ways you said, it's so easily, like you know,

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<v Speaker 4>I get.

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<v Speaker 5>To say all these things that I want to say

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<v Speaker 5>and do all these things I want to do. That's

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<v Speaker 5>like freedom. Do you know that?

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<v Speaker 4>Do you know your fans look at you as kind

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<v Speaker 4>of like the free?

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<v Speaker 13>Yeah, I mean, it's it's it's it's a lot that

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<v Speaker 13>comes with that, because I think even just the design

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<v Speaker 13>of the term like care free black girl, parts of

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<v Speaker 13>that I embrace and then parts of that I reject

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<v Speaker 13>because I do have a lot of care.

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<v Speaker 9>I don't know what care.

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<v Speaker 6>I know, well, you know that's.

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<v Speaker 2>To care for you. That's the new Twitter term.

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<v Speaker 4>What is a care free black girl?

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<v Speaker 14>There's no such thing, but you well, the idea of

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<v Speaker 14>if we claim that, and we we claim that as

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<v Speaker 14>our names, that people are not allowed to see black.

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<v Speaker 13>Women as care free individuals. They see us as angry

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<v Speaker 13>black women.

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<v Speaker 9>As you know, very wellful.

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<v Speaker 2>This just turned into an episode.

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<v Speaker 4>Can I just as men like what you just said,

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<v Speaker 4>I feel all the time, y'all. Don't that doesn't just

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<v Speaker 4>make you tire.

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<v Speaker 2>Just might be real A hundred This this is like

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<v Speaker 2>black healing time.

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<v Speaker 11>No, No, that was real because because what she said,

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<v Speaker 11>because sometimes she took the words out of my mouth

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<v Speaker 11>when she was talking about like strong black women. And

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<v Speaker 11>that's something that I've always what I think is like,

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<v Speaker 11>you know, kind of the gift and the curse so

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<v Speaker 11>to speak of black women is that that's like the

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<v Speaker 11>first thing that black women always described as she's so strong,

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<v Speaker 11>she's so strong, so strong, And so when you do that,

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<v Speaker 11>it's like, yeah, they're strong in the sense of like

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<v Speaker 11>what we've had to endure as people and how like

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<v Speaker 11>women have been the backbone of the family and all

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<v Speaker 11>the boys, right, but it wasn't a choice. And too,

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<v Speaker 11>when you characterize something as always being strong, you don't

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<v Speaker 11>ever give it a chance to be delicate. So you

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<v Speaker 11>don't ever get you know, a black black woman, men

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<v Speaker 11>get to be soft or vulnerable or delicate or fragile.

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<v Speaker 2>You know what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 11>You never get to see them in that way. So again,

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<v Speaker 11>that was just one of the things I liked about

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<v Speaker 11>your album. It gives a full portrait of just a black.

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<v Speaker 9>Friend to the black woman.

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<v Speaker 1>Next, we're gonna hear from Oscar winning director Catherine Bielow,

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<v Speaker 1>and she's gonna explain why she chosen to resist conversations

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<v Speaker 1>about the smaller circle of women directors than men. Catherine

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<v Speaker 1>directed Zero, Dark, thirty and The Original, Point Break and

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<v Speaker 1>The Boobye Detroit.

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<v Speaker 4>Is there a female director collective like.

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<v Speaker 15>Well, there's there's a kind of a kind of like

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<v Speaker 15>that at the TCA Director Skilled of America, the Steering Committee,

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<v Speaker 15>And I mean, you you know, I suppose my feeling

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<v Speaker 15>is I've always resisted a conversation about your woman doing.

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<v Speaker 15>You know, I think that kind of ghettoizes women, you know,

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<v Speaker 15>in other words, that actually prevents a perceptual in other words,

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<v Speaker 15>it it siloizes them. And so, you know, I think

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<v Speaker 15>of myself as a filmmaker, I don't think of myself

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<v Speaker 15>as a woman director.

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<v Speaker 2>So there's no Sundays with Sophia and.

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<v Speaker 15>I just I just don't think of that, only because

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<v Speaker 15>I think it, Well, I don't think like that because

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<v Speaker 15>I think it perpetuates that inequity.

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<v Speaker 4>But what about from a mentorship standpoint, because they it

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<v Speaker 4>is and I'm guessing that there is an inequity in

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<v Speaker 4>the numbers of the female directors.

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<v Speaker 15>And seven percent you mean that that kind of inequity.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, I don't know, it's that like sixty cents

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<v Speaker 4>to a dollar to me, but facts. But yeah, so

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<v Speaker 4>what about on that note, because there is a dichotomy

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<v Speaker 4>of Okay, I don't want to be the female director,

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<v Speaker 4>but hey, it's not a lot of us.

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<v Speaker 1>So how do I use there an end game where

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<v Speaker 1>you become mureau like do you run? Do you imagine

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<v Speaker 1>like maybe fifteen years from now you will have your

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<v Speaker 1>own paramount where you wow, make sure that again, like again,

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<v Speaker 1>you said that, you already said that you don't want

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<v Speaker 1>to focus on the sex of it, but at least

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<v Speaker 1>from what you know, and I know that you've had

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of mansplanning done in your life and a

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<v Speaker 1>bunch of no's told to you, and you've saw injustice

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<v Speaker 1>where your male counterparts would have gotten that and sure,

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<v Speaker 1>petty shit like well, I think it should be done

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<v Speaker 1>this way.

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<v Speaker 2>And that whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>So is there any desire to I would like to

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<v Speaker 1>open my own production company and.

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<v Speaker 2>Give fellow mes out there a voice or that sort

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<v Speaker 2>of thing.

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<v Speaker 5>Well, I'm.

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<v Speaker 15>Well, I'm working with I do you know, I'm producing

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<v Speaker 15>a couple of things, and I try to you know,

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<v Speaker 15>I try to give back in that way. And I

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<v Speaker 15>suppose also in the world of philanthropy, as I said,

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<v Speaker 15>elephant conservation or any wildlife trafficking conservation, So you try

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<v Speaker 15>to give back in a way that's meaningful. But I

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<v Speaker 15>also am a creative advisor at Sundance, and that's where

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<v Speaker 15>I sort of spend most of my energy of trying.

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<v Speaker 2>To even at the score.

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<v Speaker 15>Well, yeah, to a certain extent. On the other hand,

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<v Speaker 15>I sort of always walk away from that feeling like

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<v Speaker 15>I get way more than anybody else.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 15>It's just I don't know, do you know, kind of

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<v Speaker 15>I don't presume to be able to. I mean, I

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<v Speaker 15>never want to tell somebody what to do. I just

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<v Speaker 15>want to do what I do and hope that inspires

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<v Speaker 15>others to carry on. And I always tell them, don't

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<v Speaker 15>take no for an answer. No, it doesn't exist. World

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<v Speaker 15>in your universe not doesn't exist.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, here's my pal Nelly Furtado speaking about some

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<v Speaker 1>of the issues she encountered as a woman in the

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<v Speaker 1>industreet surrounding her imaging and message.

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<v Speaker 9>Twenty one year old girl, Like all of a sudden,

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<v Speaker 9>like what, like I'm.

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<v Speaker 12>Nominated for Grammy and like my mom's sitting next to

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<v Speaker 12>me and were at the Grammys and I went a grant.

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<v Speaker 9>Like it was all surreal.

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<v Speaker 2>How do you feel when they announced your name that night?

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<v Speaker 2>I think I was there that night when you won

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<v Speaker 2>your your Yeah.

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<v Speaker 9>You were probably there, Yeah, back in the good old days.

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<v Speaker 9>I mean it was amazing.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like, what you kind of I mean you

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<v Speaker 2>expected to win. I mean you were unstoppable.

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<v Speaker 12>I don't know, like it's still cool, Like it's still

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<v Speaker 12>the funny thing that happens is afterwards. I remember I

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<v Speaker 12>was living in it. I remember, actually exactly, because I

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<v Speaker 12>was living in LA for like a year. I remember

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<v Speaker 12>you invited me to a party one night and I

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<v Speaker 12>couldn't go, And I don't remember why.

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<v Speaker 9>I couldn't convince my friend to come out with me

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<v Speaker 9>and I didn't go. My roommate my friend. But around

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<v Speaker 9>that time, I remember starting to.

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<v Speaker 12>Feel like, oh, I got to deal with all the

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<v Speaker 12>other ways I actually feel about this business, you know

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<v Speaker 12>what I mean?

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<v Speaker 9>The starry eyes are gone.

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<v Speaker 12>I'm now wondering does it all come down to wearing

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<v Speaker 12>a pretty dress on the red carpet? And that really

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<v Speaker 12>messes with you when you're only twenty two.

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<v Speaker 5>This is before the second album.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah, it was right when I was about to record

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<v Speaker 9>when you're.

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<v Speaker 2>Worrying that you might become the establishment that you were.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, and that's why my first single on Folklore is

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<v Speaker 12>called Powerless where magically sign of the times.

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<v Speaker 9>They asked me to sing it tomorrow on the Today Show.

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<v Speaker 9>I was like, is this a typo? Do you need ris?

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<v Speaker 2>Like?

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<v Speaker 9>Do you know what I mean? Like people want to

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<v Speaker 9>hear songs.

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<v Speaker 12>Like Powerless now, which was a kind of like a

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<v Speaker 12>protest song at the time.

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<v Speaker 11>The first line says, I mean, look at the time

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<v Speaker 11>we're living in those it's now I think I know,

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<v Speaker 11>but it's.

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<v Speaker 12>Amazing to me that music can live on in that

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<v Speaker 12>way and still inspire people. Because the first line says,

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<v Speaker 12>paint my face in your magazines, make it look whiter

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<v Speaker 12>than it seems. Paint me over with your dreams, shove

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<v Speaker 12>away my ethnicity because his life is too short.

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<v Speaker 9>To live it just for you. But if you feel

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<v Speaker 9>when you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do? Okay,

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<v Speaker 9>I got to learn lyrics before tomorrow. You yeah gonna do?

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<v Speaker 9>So say what you want? But is that true now?

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<v Speaker 12>Like?

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<v Speaker 4>Really, at some point, somebody because your ethnicity is a

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<v Speaker 4>part of yeah sound, So somebody.

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<v Speaker 9>Really came at you in a label type that way

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<v Speaker 9>in photo shoots.

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah, I felt like there was an how do I

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<v Speaker 12>say anglization? Yeah, anglicization on me. I've always had olive skin,

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<v Speaker 12>you know what I mean. I was aware of that

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<v Speaker 12>because I grew up in a small town British colony.

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<v Speaker 12>I was like the only ethnic kid in my class

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<v Speaker 12>in kindergarten, so it's all you know, relative and then

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<v Speaker 12>I and so by the time I was done with

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<v Speaker 12>my first record and I was doing Powerless, I was like, well,

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<v Speaker 12>what about who am I really?

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<v Speaker 9>You know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 12>Like, what what am I really about? And what do

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<v Speaker 12>I want to say on this next record? So I

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<v Speaker 12>started talking about the next record. I have a song

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<v Speaker 12>called like Fresh off the Boat. You know, my parents

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<v Speaker 12>are immigrants. I was born in Canada. I have a

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<v Speaker 12>song called picture Perfect about my dad's like immigrant dream

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<v Speaker 12>of like coming to Canada and how everything looks so

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<v Speaker 12>good in the old seventies photographs when you look at it.

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<v Speaker 9>Right, So anyway, yeah, that's what happened. Yeah, Sometimes I

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<v Speaker 9>would feel like there was a paradigm you needed to

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<v Speaker 9>fit into at the time that didn't always match how

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<v Speaker 9>I felt. Do you know what I mean?

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<v Speaker 12>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, all right.

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<v Speaker 1>So last week we played a clip from Chila and

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<v Speaker 1>I asked her if she felt any pressure as a

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<v Speaker 1>woman playing the drums, And I asked the same about

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<v Speaker 1>Terry Lane Carrington in twenty twenty two. She had a

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<v Speaker 1>real answer too, which not only spoke to her self confidence,

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<v Speaker 1>but to the work she does play in ginger equality

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<v Speaker 1>as an educator.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's listen back.

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<v Speaker 4>I just want to know, you say from the jump,

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<v Speaker 4>jazz was in your life in the sense that like

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<v Speaker 4>no other you weren't even as a kid in school,

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<v Speaker 4>because I mean you said Berkeley when you were eleven.

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<v Speaker 4>So I'm like, did anything else ever getting to the

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<v Speaker 4>householder into your ears outside of the.

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<v Speaker 16>Art, Okay, Yeah, I mean I was. I mean I

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<v Speaker 16>listened to the radio and I listened to you know,

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<v Speaker 16>like my father started me off listening to what he

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<v Speaker 16>would consider more rhythm and blues, which at the time

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<v Speaker 16>we were talking about the early seventies. But for him,

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<v Speaker 16>like he played in horn sections with James Brown and

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<v Speaker 16>Ruth Brown and people like that when he was in college,

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<v Speaker 16>and so that's the kind of music he started me

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<v Speaker 16>off listening to because he thought I would be able

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<v Speaker 16>to relate to that, you know, more than John Coletraine

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<v Speaker 16>and Miles Davis. So I was listening to lots of Oregon,

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<v Speaker 16>you know, lots lots of blues, Jack McDuff, Jimmy McGriff,

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<v Speaker 16>and you know, some rhythm and blues of course, James Brown,

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<v Speaker 16>Ray Charles Raytha Franklin. And those are the records, you know,

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<v Speaker 16>a lot of the records that I remember, you know,

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<v Speaker 16>as a kid.

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<v Speaker 1>Can you tell me the first album that you purchased

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<v Speaker 1>with your own money? Not just that around the house,

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<v Speaker 1>like oh, let me see what Dad's James Brown's album

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<v Speaker 1>are into?

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<v Speaker 16>But like, yeah, you know, like I don't know if

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<v Speaker 16>I purchased it, but I think I must have asked

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<v Speaker 16>my parents to get get it for me, because I'm

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<v Speaker 16>not sure they would have. For whatever reason, I was obsessed.

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<v Speaker 16>And I remember I had one of those kids it

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<v Speaker 16>was green too, one of those kids, uh phonograph players

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<v Speaker 16>that had a little speaker built in.

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<v Speaker 2>Post pre school or whatever, Fisher Price record players. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I feel like I know what this record or what

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<v Speaker 2>was the record?

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<v Speaker 16>Oh no, it was the Fifth Dimension.

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<v Speaker 4>It was.

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<v Speaker 16>I was obsessed with Aquarius. Uh yeah, for some reason,

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<v Speaker 16>the age of the Aquarius, Like are you one? No, no, no,

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<v Speaker 16>I'm a leo.

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<v Speaker 5>Okay, I forget.

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<v Speaker 8>That being the record.

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<v Speaker 2>No no, no, no, no no no, I'm just saying no,

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<v Speaker 2>it's for being a leo.

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<v Speaker 1>Get points if you're a queer for drumming, though, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I know that there's a sect of people whose opinions

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<v Speaker 1>are like, you know, at least for ginger pairing, Like

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<v Speaker 1>there are instruments that it's probably deemed that men should

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<v Speaker 1>use only as far as masculine or feminine whatever, like

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<v Speaker 1>the women on drums really, in my opinion, like an

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<v Speaker 1>adjustment pre nineteen eighties. But at all, did anyone ever

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<v Speaker 1>discourage you, like, well, why don't you try the piano

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<v Speaker 1>or maybe a guitar, violin, yeah, clarinet.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I don't you know.

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<v Speaker 16>I don't know if anybody really ever discouraged me. And

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<v Speaker 16>I was you know, I was confident at a young age,

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<v Speaker 16>so like, I think what tells a story about that?

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<v Speaker 16>For me, the best is when I met Buddy Rich

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<v Speaker 16>for the first time. I was ten. I was a

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<v Speaker 16>guest with Clark Terry, so nice to you. That was

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<v Speaker 16>the thing. Everybody said, stay away from him. He's in

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<v Speaker 16>a really bad mood. And I didn't care, and I

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<v Speaker 16>went up to him anyway. And so then somebody stepped

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<v Speaker 16>in and said, well, let me introduce you to young Terry.

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<v Speaker 16>She's a guest with Clark Terry. And he said, oh, yeah,

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<v Speaker 16>you better not be any good. And I just looked

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<v Speaker 16>at him and said, well, who's going to stop me?

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<v Speaker 5>Ooh? And then he said he kind of took a.

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<v Speaker 16>Step back, and then he said, you want to come

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<v Speaker 16>play with my band?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh you see what I mean? Flax flax? No, but

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<v Speaker 5>well it wasn't that. It was beautiful flax.

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<v Speaker 16>Well yeah, because I think it's how you're raised and

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<v Speaker 16>I was raised that this is my music.

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<v Speaker 3>Where did that.

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<v Speaker 4>Confidence come from, Terry? Like, do you remember, like did

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<v Speaker 4>your parents something say to you, like the impetus of.

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<v Speaker 16>That, Like, I think it's who you are, and that's

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<v Speaker 16>why I do so much gender equity work now because

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<v Speaker 16>every woman shouldn't have to be like me. I would

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<v Speaker 16>go ahead to head with any man, you know what

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<v Speaker 16>I mean, And I'm not intimidated by anyone. I can

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<v Speaker 16>be I can be shy, and I can be insecure.

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<v Speaker 16>Of course, we're all insecure. If I was playing a

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<v Speaker 16>gig next to you, I would be insecure, especially if

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<v Speaker 16>I had to play the groove, I'd be like, oh man,

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<v Speaker 16>he sitting next to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Damn, right now you're talking about sugar Steve and his

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<v Speaker 2>engineering skills.

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<v Speaker 16>What I'm just saying, No, I'm serious, And so I'm

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<v Speaker 16>just saying that doesn't mean I think you can be

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<v Speaker 16>confident and that be a part of your personality, which

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<v Speaker 16>doesn't mean there's these other things that you know aren't

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<v Speaker 16>there as well. But you shouldn't have to be like

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<v Speaker 16>me to make it, you know, you shouldn't have to

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<v Speaker 16>have that kind of personality as a woman to to

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<v Speaker 16>have the opportunity or the access or mentorship or apprenticeships.

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<v Speaker 16>And so that's you know, when I realized that. That's

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<v Speaker 16>when I because I had been looking at women saying, well,

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<v Speaker 16>what do you mean? Just do it?

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<v Speaker 5>You know, like, what do you mean, just later for them,

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<v Speaker 5>you know.

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<v Speaker 16>Like something discourage you, that should give you more infetous

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<v Speaker 16>to you know, And then I realized, you know, they

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<v Speaker 16>have a nervous breakdowns and shit, you know, like so

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<v Speaker 16>I had to look at it differently.

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<v Speaker 4>Because everybody doesn't have a foundation, because you still had

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<v Speaker 4>some type of foundation to let you know that that

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<v Speaker 4>is the way to think, and these women didn't have that.

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<v Speaker 16>So and they don't need to. That's the whole thing.

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<v Speaker 16>We're all different, you know, we don't have to be.

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<v Speaker 16>I was nothing around nothing but men playing, you know,

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<v Speaker 16>for a long time, and so I ended up kind

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<v Speaker 16>of acting like them, you know, and not be you know,

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<v Speaker 16>having a problem being around man all the time. So

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<v Speaker 16>I think that, you know, we should celebrate our differences.

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<v Speaker 16>And what does a woman's aesthetic sound like in the music?

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<v Speaker 16>You know, I think that's the question we should start

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<v Speaker 16>to ask.

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