WEBVTT - #201 Does This Feeling Make Me Selfish? 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:03.840 Does it make me selfish for wanting him back down 0:00:03.880 --> 0:00:17.759 here with us. What's up, guys, Welcome back to the podcast, 0:00:17.920 --> 0:00:21.480 episode two hundred and one, and thank you for being here. 0:00:21.520 --> 0:00:25.000 I've got a I'm actually sitting almost exactly in the 0:00:25.040 --> 0:00:28.560 same spot that I have been sitting for about one 0:00:28.640 --> 0:00:32.839 hundred episodes or more, but I'm turned a little bit. 0:00:32.880 --> 0:00:36.400 So if you're watching this on YouTube or other apps 0:00:36.400 --> 0:00:40.880 that allows you to watch the podcast, I've been messing 0:00:40.880 --> 0:00:44.159 around today with a different setup. I'm like, ah, you 0:00:44.159 --> 0:00:48.960 know what, two hundred plus episodes, Maybe I'll change the 0:00:49.080 --> 0:00:52.159 setting around a little bit. Maybe I'll change the scenery 0:00:52.440 --> 0:00:55.560 around just a little bit. So comment below, especially if 0:00:55.560 --> 0:00:59.000 you're on YouTube. Comment below, say I like the new setup, 0:00:59.200 --> 0:01:02.600 or come on, man, I missed the old setup, which 0:01:02.640 --> 0:01:06.440 is literally just turning everything this direction. The wall on 0:01:06.480 --> 0:01:10.600 my left is usually straight behind me. Awesome. Yeah, yeah, 0:01:10.640 --> 0:01:14.160 So trying some new things, trying to change it up 0:01:14.160 --> 0:01:17.280 a little bit, and I like it. I'm actually comfortable. 0:01:17.280 --> 0:01:20.360 I'm in a more comfortable chair, So that's good. What 0:01:20.440 --> 0:01:22.040 I do on this podcast. If you're new here is 0:01:22.080 --> 0:01:26.919 I answer your questions. You email me Granger Smith Podcast 0:01:27.080 --> 0:01:31.080 at gmail dot com. And I answered them. Now, lately, 0:01:31.360 --> 0:01:33.360 I've been talking about my book Like a River, which 0:01:33.400 --> 0:01:37.640 came out on August first, and just been so encouraged 0:01:37.680 --> 0:01:40.840 by so many people getting that book and either listening 0:01:40.920 --> 0:01:43.640 to the audiobook or are reading on Kendle or the 0:01:43.680 --> 0:01:48.920 hardcover itself, and so much so that we've had a 0:01:48.960 --> 0:01:52.480 supply chain issue for a second. We're back doing great again. 0:01:53.080 --> 0:01:56.080 Amazon's like on a two day delivery like normal. But 0:01:56.200 --> 0:01:58.640 for a while there was like a four day period 0:01:58.680 --> 0:02:02.600 where Amazon was out of books. So the publishers getting 0:02:02.640 --> 0:02:05.160 them books because they just they went out faster than 0:02:05.280 --> 0:02:08.639 people thought. Yeah, praise God for that, and praise God 0:02:08.680 --> 0:02:12.080 for so many listeners that are that are hungry for 0:02:12.280 --> 0:02:16.440 a book like that, a book that helps navigate grief 0:02:16.720 --> 0:02:21.239 and loss and suffering in a way where you know 0:02:21.360 --> 0:02:24.600 that there is there's hope, and there's joy, and there's 0:02:24.680 --> 0:02:27.560 peace and there's rest and there's purpose on the other 0:02:27.600 --> 0:02:32.120 side of that kind of pain. So I say that 0:02:32.520 --> 0:02:36.280 to introduce a different kind of questioning. We're still the 0:02:36.280 --> 0:02:41.320 same old podcast, but I'm almost encouraging questions from the 0:02:41.320 --> 0:02:45.680 book itself because I think it's it's only appropriate that 0:02:45.720 --> 0:02:47.600 if anyone reads the book and they think, oh, I've 0:02:47.600 --> 0:02:50.440 got I've got a question about that, Or there's something 0:02:50.480 --> 0:02:52.520 he said in there, there's a certain line he said, 0:02:52.639 --> 0:02:55.200 or or how does he know that's biblical? Like he 0:02:55.320 --> 0:02:57.680 said that, but how does he know that's right? Or 0:02:57.720 --> 0:03:01.200 is that just his opinion. If you want to ask 0:03:01.240 --> 0:03:05.160 those kind of questions, certainly that's great. Grangersmith Podcast at 0:03:05.160 --> 0:03:07.399 gmail dot com. Or if you just want to ask 0:03:07.639 --> 0:03:11.840 a question about something else, like you know, a relationship 0:03:11.960 --> 0:03:14.960 or a work issue, I'm gonna answer it like I'm 0:03:14.960 --> 0:03:17.480 sitting in a comfy chair, sitting with you in the 0:03:17.520 --> 0:03:20.320 living room and we're just walking through something, you know, 0:03:21.080 --> 0:03:23.079 two buddies in the cab of a truck, two people 0:03:23.120 --> 0:03:24.800 sitting around a campfire, and you say, hey, may can 0:03:24.800 --> 0:03:27.280 I run something by you? Well, that's how we're gonna 0:03:27.320 --> 0:03:29.280 that's how we're gonna talk about it. So let's jump in. 0:03:30.080 --> 0:03:35.000 And the first question comes from Josh and the subject 0:03:35.000 --> 0:03:39.600 line says advice. The email says, Hello Granger. I'm Josh. 0:03:39.920 --> 0:03:42.760 Life has been rough this year. I lost my grandpa 0:03:42.920 --> 0:03:45.840 back in March, and the night of this funeral, I 0:03:45.880 --> 0:03:50.160 lost my uncle. Life hasn't been the same since I 0:03:50.200 --> 0:03:54.560 lost my grandpa. He was my rock, my go to 0:03:54.680 --> 0:03:59.840 person for everything, rather it be advice or just to talk. 0:04:00.280 --> 0:04:05.640 We talked about everything day. We talked every day about everything. 0:04:05.880 --> 0:04:09.360 Visited often. It seems like no matter what I do, 0:04:09.480 --> 0:04:11.400 I can't seem to get over the bump in the 0:04:11.480 --> 0:04:17.040 road to heal my losing him. I visit his gravesite often, 0:04:17.440 --> 0:04:19.760 as often as I can. I know he's up in 0:04:19.760 --> 0:04:22.440 heaven with my Grandma and my dad. Does it make 0:04:22.520 --> 0:04:26.320 me selfish for wanting him back down here with us? 0:04:27.040 --> 0:04:30.719 Any advice for me to help with this pain? Thanks 0:04:30.760 --> 0:04:33.800 in advance. PS. I went to your show in Clearfield. 0:04:34.160 --> 0:04:35.800 Was hands down the best concert I've ever been to. 0:04:36.600 --> 0:04:40.960 Been following you for ten years. Josh, thank you, buddy, 0:04:41.000 --> 0:04:44.560 and I'm so sorry about your grandpa. I didn't know 0:04:44.600 --> 0:04:49.800 your grandpa, but you did, and you loved him, so 0:04:49.880 --> 0:04:52.360 I say, I wish I could have known him. He 0:04:52.440 --> 0:04:55.279 sounds like a great man. And it's not lost on 0:04:55.360 --> 0:04:59.240 me that you also mentioned the fact that you've also 0:04:59.320 --> 0:05:05.599 lost your dad, so I'm imagining that this is the 0:05:05.640 --> 0:05:10.919 loss of your grandpa is also in a way stacked 0:05:10.920 --> 0:05:15.839 on top of the loss of your dad, probably leaving 0:05:15.880 --> 0:05:21.200 you as the head mail of your family, and if 0:05:21.240 --> 0:05:26.640 you're anything like me. When that happened to me, at 0:05:26.640 --> 0:05:30.279 being the oldest child and losing my dad in twenty fourteen, 0:05:30.320 --> 0:05:34.080 already had lost my grandpa, I felt like an overwhelming 0:05:34.160 --> 0:05:39.359 feeling of man, I didn't sign up for this, like 0:05:39.600 --> 0:05:43.400 I didn't. I wasn't ready to be the head man 0:05:43.480 --> 0:05:46.560 of the house, you know, I wasn't ready to beat 0:05:46.560 --> 0:05:50.240 the patriarch, if you want to use that term. That's Dad. 0:05:50.240 --> 0:05:51.800 He's still had a lot of time left in him. 0:05:53.120 --> 0:05:57.719 And sometimes these these positions, these roles in our life, 0:05:58.520 --> 0:06:01.160 are put on us when we don't feel qualified, and 0:06:01.200 --> 0:06:05.760 we don't certainly don't feel ready, but nonetheless, here it is. 0:06:07.240 --> 0:06:09.560 So what are you gonna do with it? This is 0:06:09.600 --> 0:06:15.880 the hand that you were dealt. You have said here 0:06:16.040 --> 0:06:19.400 that it's been within a year. I don't know the 0:06:19.440 --> 0:06:23.960 time frame. No, you said, yeah, there is a time frame. 0:06:23.960 --> 0:06:27.159 I lost my grandpa in March, then you lost your uncle, 0:06:27.240 --> 0:06:31.400 so that it's been this is a recent email. So 0:06:31.440 --> 0:06:34.800 this you know, it's been within the last four or 0:06:34.839 --> 0:06:39.200 five six months that you have realized I am I'm 0:06:39.240 --> 0:06:45.120 the head guy. Now. I want to tell you a 0:06:45.160 --> 0:06:48.760 couple of things. The first thing I'm gonna tell you 0:06:48.760 --> 0:06:54.080 first and foremost is whatever you're feeling right now, in 0:06:54.120 --> 0:06:56.680 this time, you're still in the ground zero period, as 0:06:56.680 --> 0:06:59.760 I call it. Whatever you're feeling right now is totally 0:06:59.800 --> 0:07:04.000 norm what's okay? So you're like, man, I feel guilty, 0:07:04.160 --> 0:07:10.560 I feel selfish, I feel sad, I feel I feel 0:07:10.600 --> 0:07:16.520 like indifferent about everything. Whatever you're feeling is okay. You 0:07:16.560 --> 0:07:20.960 have permission to feel whatever you want to feel because 0:07:21.000 --> 0:07:24.280 you're in ground zero right now. If this was six, seven, 0:07:24.280 --> 0:07:26.400 eight years down the road, I'd say, bro, we got 0:07:26.400 --> 0:07:28.800 to talk about some things. You talk about these feelings 0:07:28.840 --> 0:07:33.160 you're having right But that's not the case. This is 0:07:33.240 --> 0:07:36.320 still recent. What is that March, April, May, June, July, August. 0:07:36.640 --> 0:07:40.240 You're six months in Okay, you haven't gone through the 0:07:40.320 --> 0:07:44.000 round of all the first yet. Like you're going to 0:07:44.080 --> 0:07:47.240 have your first Thanksgiving coming up, that's a tough one. 0:07:48.120 --> 0:07:53.560 First Christmas, your grandpa's birthday, your dad's birthday, the day 0:07:53.600 --> 0:07:57.880 you lost him. That's a tough anniversary. So until you 0:07:57.920 --> 0:08:01.600 get through, really through all of those, then it's still 0:08:01.640 --> 0:08:06.480 not time to discuss the appropriate emotions that you're having 0:08:06.520 --> 0:08:08.680 in response to this kind of grief. Okay. So first 0:08:08.720 --> 0:08:11.320 I want to give you permission to say whatever you're 0:08:11.320 --> 0:08:14.640 feeling is okay, and that includes let's get specific here, 0:08:15.920 --> 0:08:20.320 that includes this feeling down here where you say, does 0:08:20.360 --> 0:08:25.120 it make me selfish for wanting him back down here 0:08:25.160 --> 0:08:31.320 with us? Okay? So you have permission to have a feeling, 0:08:31.520 --> 0:08:34.440 and I'm gonna include selfishness in that. But let's unpack that. 0:08:35.440 --> 0:08:40.080 Let's unpack that I'm trying to see in here. If 0:08:40.120 --> 0:08:43.480 there's a reference to God, if there's a reference to 0:08:43.640 --> 0:08:48.439 your faith, there's not, I don't think besides heaven. You 0:08:48.800 --> 0:08:55.280 mentioned heaven. That doesn't do anything for me. No, you're 0:08:55.360 --> 0:08:57.880 just curious. That doesn't mean anything. I'm just trying to 0:08:57.880 --> 0:09:01.600 get a baseline here. What I want to do is 0:09:01.600 --> 0:09:06.720 I want to talk about many times death in this situation, 0:09:06.800 --> 0:09:16.120 specifically death, It opens up a longing within us that 0:09:16.160 --> 0:09:19.959 we might not have recognized before. It gives us a 0:09:21.120 --> 0:09:26.320 certain kind of home sickness. Right, and you've kind of 0:09:26.320 --> 0:09:29.480 mentioned that with he's up there with Grandpa and grandma 0:09:29.520 --> 0:09:33.240 and Dad. Well, that gives you a sense that, well, 0:09:33.320 --> 0:09:39.360 I I'm not with my family anymore like Grandma, Uncle, Dad, Grandpa, 0:09:39.440 --> 0:09:43.480 They're all in another place and I'm here, So I 0:09:43.520 --> 0:09:47.920 feel disconnected from my family. And that, in a sense 0:09:48.000 --> 0:09:53.680 gives you a feeling of homesickness, right, And it gives 0:09:53.720 --> 0:09:57.439 you a yearning and a longing in a way that 0:09:57.480 --> 0:09:59.439 you might not have felt before. And I'm going to 0:09:59.559 --> 0:10:02.439 argue with with you that that's a good thing. It's 0:10:02.480 --> 0:10:06.720 a good thing that you have this, this longing for home. 0:10:07.640 --> 0:10:10.800 What does that do for you? Though? Like? Where does that? 0:10:11.800 --> 0:10:14.000 Where does that drive you to? Does that drive you 0:10:14.040 --> 0:10:21.160 to a feeling of resentment and stress and anxiety and 0:10:21.960 --> 0:10:24.840 you're gonna going to go off the deep end and 0:10:24.920 --> 0:10:27.800 get stuff out of your system and rebel against society? 0:10:27.840 --> 0:10:31.440 Is that where you're going? Or are you saying I 0:10:31.480 --> 0:10:34.360 have a longing for home, I have a longing for 0:10:34.520 --> 0:10:38.560 this in your case, here in this email heaven where 0:10:38.600 --> 0:10:41.880 I no longer feel at home. Here, I feel a 0:10:42.000 --> 0:10:46.080 longing like I don't. This isn't my forever home. It's 0:10:46.080 --> 0:10:47.520 what I would say in like a river of the book. 0:10:48.720 --> 0:10:52.160 And so would that drive you to be a rebel? No, 0:10:52.440 --> 0:10:55.559 it would drive you to learn more about your creator, 0:10:56.520 --> 0:11:00.480 to want to know who God is, as revealed in 0:11:00.520 --> 0:11:03.280 the Bible and the scriptures, because the more you get 0:11:03.280 --> 0:11:06.320 to know him, the more you get to know your Creator, 0:11:06.800 --> 0:11:11.240 the more comfortable you are with your forever home, and 0:11:11.320 --> 0:11:15.080 the more hope you have of being there with him, 0:11:15.559 --> 0:11:19.559 not with Grandpa and Dad, but with your Creator, the 0:11:20.280 --> 0:11:23.200 giver of the gift. Like your dad and your grandpa 0:11:23.320 --> 0:11:27.320 and your grandma and your uncle were gifts. Imagine being 0:11:27.360 --> 0:11:32.560 with eternally, spending time with in the presence of the 0:11:32.600 --> 0:11:37.559 giver of the gift. What I want this feeling, this 0:11:37.800 --> 0:11:41.200 selfish feeling to do. What I want this selfish feeling 0:11:41.200 --> 0:11:46.880 to eventually do is manifest itself into a hunger for 0:11:46.880 --> 0:11:51.240 forever home, a hunger to drive yourself in a way 0:11:52.160 --> 0:11:57.520 to appreciate what you have here in one sense, and 0:11:58.040 --> 0:12:01.440 learn who your Creator is in another, so that you 0:12:01.520 --> 0:12:07.800 can be connected with that feeling of this place, the 0:12:07.880 --> 0:12:11.280 place that you know you do finally belong, and death 0:12:11.320 --> 0:12:14.800 has the way of just uncovering that for us, and 0:12:14.840 --> 0:12:22.320 it's amazing. So, Josh, you're in ground zero. Use this. 0:12:22.320 --> 0:12:25.280 This is like this wind beneath your wings right, use 0:12:25.320 --> 0:12:29.320 this wind to drive you to towards God, as revealed 0:12:29.320 --> 0:12:33.920 in the Scriptures, As revealed in your local church and 0:12:34.000 --> 0:12:37.920 not against him, because if you go against him and 0:12:37.960 --> 0:12:42.520 you choose a different path of rebelling, you will feel 0:12:42.600 --> 0:12:47.600 further and further from Grandpa and Dad and uncle. I 0:12:47.840 --> 0:12:56.160 promise you, I promise you. Next question, subjectline says your 0:12:56.240 --> 0:12:59.000 dad's old truck. Hey Granger, I'm a huge fan and 0:12:59.080 --> 0:13:01.400 loving the book so far. Or I had a couple 0:13:01.440 --> 0:13:05.160 of cries today. I started reading this morning and I 0:13:05.240 --> 0:13:08.480 just can't put it down. Anyway, you talked about how 0:13:08.480 --> 0:13:11.480 you rolled your dad's truck over. Then you mentioned that 0:13:11.520 --> 0:13:14.640 the driver's door is missing. How did you do that? 0:13:15.800 --> 0:13:17.959 Love the show and all your wisdom. God bless Justin 0:13:18.760 --> 0:13:23.280 from Big Rapids Michigan. Never heard of Big Rapids. I've 0:13:23.280 --> 0:13:25.360 heard a Grand Rapids Michigan, but never heard a Big 0:13:25.440 --> 0:13:30.920 Rapids Michigan. That's interesting. Yeah, So for those of you 0:13:30.960 --> 0:13:36.120 that might know Earl Dibbles, this is in all the 0:13:36.160 --> 0:13:42.160 original Earl Dibbles music videos and the original Country Boy 0:13:42.160 --> 0:13:46.240 Part one, Earl Dibbles is driving this pickup truck that's 0:13:46.280 --> 0:13:49.880 missing a door and earle. You would think that Earl 0:13:49.920 --> 0:13:51.760 made it famous, but actually it was my dad. As 0:13:51.800 --> 0:13:54.040 I talked about in the book, like a river. It 0:13:54.200 --> 0:13:57.880 was my dad that would drive this one door truck 0:13:59.520 --> 0:14:02.760 with a rolled up you know, looked like a smash 0:14:02.880 --> 0:14:06.160 coke can roof on this truck. And he would drive 0:14:06.200 --> 0:14:11.680 it through town with no shame. That's just what he did, 0:14:12.360 --> 0:14:14.520 and so people recognized him like there's the one door 0:14:14.600 --> 0:14:18.240 truck guy, you know. And the truck itself wasn't pretty itself. Anyway, 0:14:18.280 --> 0:14:22.520 I'll explain what happened. I rolled it over when I 0:14:22.600 --> 0:14:27.640 was probably eighteen seventeen something like that, maybe sixteen, somewhere 0:14:27.680 --> 0:14:33.600 around those three years. And I was ironically, I was 0:14:33.640 --> 0:14:36.160 at Earl Devil's house, the house that we filmed in 0:14:36.200 --> 0:14:39.920 front of, and we were cleaning that out. Tyler Parker 0:14:40.120 --> 0:14:43.080 and I and I went down there with the truck. 0:14:44.000 --> 0:14:46.320 We drove down there and it's a little bit on 0:14:46.400 --> 0:14:50.120 a little bit of an incline and the truck is 0:14:50.160 --> 0:14:52.960 a standard three in the tree and I put it 0:14:53.000 --> 0:14:57.360 in neutral, didn't put the emergency brake on because it 0:14:57.440 --> 0:14:59.640 wasn't moving, you know. I rolled up the house at 0:14:59.680 --> 0:15:02.520 the bray, got out of the truck. It wasn't moving. 0:15:03.680 --> 0:15:08.040 About thirty minutes later, a stiff breeze rolled in right 0:15:09.400 --> 0:15:11.320 and kicks in the back of that truck a little bit, 0:15:11.680 --> 0:15:14.280 just enough, just enough of an edge, and it starts 0:15:14.400 --> 0:15:16.800 moving that truck. By the time I looked out of 0:15:16.840 --> 0:15:19.480 the window of that old house, I saw the truck 0:15:19.600 --> 0:15:22.640 just inching along, just barely moving down this dirt road. 0:15:23.440 --> 0:15:27.200 I thought, whoops, ran out there. But by the time 0:15:27.240 --> 0:15:29.400 I ran out to the porch, it had picked up 0:15:29.440 --> 0:15:31.200 speed and it was going too fast for me to 0:15:31.240 --> 0:15:34.760 catch it. And it went right into the fence, the 0:15:34.840 --> 0:15:39.040 cattle fence, and that front left tire rolled up on 0:15:39.120 --> 0:15:42.840 that cattle panel and it was like a little ramp 0:15:42.880 --> 0:15:46.240 for it, and it just flipped it right on its top, 0:15:46.960 --> 0:15:49.240 like slow motion. To me, because I'm running behind it, 0:15:49.320 --> 0:15:51.760 I just see this truck flip and I thought, oh no, 0:15:53.400 --> 0:15:56.680 what My first thought is, I gotta call Dad. I 0:15:56.680 --> 0:15:58.800 don't want to call Dad, but I got to call him, 0:15:59.160 --> 0:16:02.280 you know, that's the first thought. And I remember walking out. 0:16:02.320 --> 0:16:04.080 You know. The first thing I did, of course, is 0:16:04.320 --> 0:16:07.120 Tyler and Parker and I put our hands on the 0:16:07.160 --> 0:16:11.280 side and try to try to possibly push it over. 0:16:11.840 --> 0:16:14.200 That didn't work. I saw oil coming out of the 0:16:14.200 --> 0:16:18.920 front grill, just dripping down. You know, trucks upside down, well, 0:16:19.880 --> 0:16:23.680 we see these these linemen driving by these they're going 0:16:23.720 --> 0:16:26.360 to fix it some kind of telephone pole. And they 0:16:26.400 --> 0:16:28.600 had a truck with a big winch on it. Right 0:16:28.640 --> 0:16:30.640 around this time. I go running out of there out 0:16:30.720 --> 0:16:33.160 to the county road and to flag them down. And 0:16:33.200 --> 0:16:36.040 then they stopped and they came over and and I 0:16:36.120 --> 0:16:38.080 was like, hey, man, I flipped this truck. And they're 0:16:38.080 --> 0:16:40.080 like you okay? Are you okay? Man? I was like, 0:16:40.320 --> 0:16:43.440 I wasn't in it. Long story, I wasn't in it. 0:16:43.880 --> 0:16:45.520 And they were like, yeah, we'll help you. So they 0:16:45.600 --> 0:16:48.800 pulled that truck over there and hooked up the cable 0:16:48.840 --> 0:16:52.760 to the bottom of it, and they said, man, this 0:16:52.840 --> 0:16:55.560 winch will turn it over, but we can't guarantee that 0:16:55.600 --> 0:16:58.120 by the time these wheels hit the ground it doesn't 0:16:58.160 --> 0:17:03.000 just break the axles. And we're like, yeah, well, it's 0:17:03.040 --> 0:17:05.600 too late for worrying about that now. So they hooked 0:17:05.600 --> 0:17:07.680 it up and just as slow as they could, they 0:17:07.720 --> 0:17:10.720 tilted that truck and just once it got to straight 0:17:10.800 --> 0:17:13.840 up ninety degrees, it just started falling and went bam, 0:17:14.560 --> 0:17:18.120 landed on all four tires, balanced a little bit blew 0:17:18.160 --> 0:17:22.240 out of shock, but I didn't care, and it actually Uh, 0:17:22.320 --> 0:17:24.719 it started right up. The engine started right up. So 0:17:24.800 --> 0:17:29.520 that was that. And then your question was you mentioned 0:17:29.520 --> 0:17:33.280 the doors driver's door is missing, So that around that 0:17:33.359 --> 0:17:36.760 same time, I had a little puppy in the back 0:17:36.800 --> 0:17:41.359 of my truck, a little dog, and that dog was 0:17:41.400 --> 0:17:43.159 in the bed of the truck when I was in 0:17:43.240 --> 0:17:45.600 the barn and I was pulling out of the barn, 0:17:46.720 --> 0:17:49.359 and I had the door open, the driver's side door open, 0:17:49.760 --> 0:17:52.720 and that dog was jumping up and down, and I thought, Dad, 0:17:52.760 --> 0:17:55.000 gumm it, I don't want this dog to jump out 0:17:55.680 --> 0:17:58.239 of the truck, and I'm gonna run over it, you know. 0:17:58.680 --> 0:18:02.960 So I've got my head turned around and I'm looking 0:18:03.000 --> 0:18:05.280 behind me as I'm backing out of the barn. Totally 0:18:05.320 --> 0:18:11.240 forgot that the door was open, and that door just 0:18:11.240 --> 0:18:16.480 just slowly bent into the barn, and I stopped real quick, 0:18:16.640 --> 0:18:19.680 realized what I did, pulled forward. But then after that 0:18:19.720 --> 0:18:25.359 the door the hinges were bent, and it was Anybody 0:18:25.400 --> 0:18:27.359 that's ever seen anything like that knows that once you 0:18:27.480 --> 0:18:31.399 bend those hinges it's near impossible to ever get it 0:18:31.440 --> 0:18:33.400 back to the original shape again. So the door never 0:18:33.440 --> 0:18:35.960 closed right. It always had a gap in it always 0:18:35.960 --> 0:18:38.959 had an air gap and water gap. So Dad just 0:18:39.240 --> 0:18:41.360 you know, he was mad at me, but he ended 0:18:41.440 --> 0:18:43.640 up just said, let's just take the door off. It'd 0:18:43.640 --> 0:18:47.080 be much better. 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We've been talking a lot lately 0:21:33.000 --> 0:21:36.240 about my book Like a River, and if you haven't 0:21:36.240 --> 0:21:37.840 gotten a copy yet, you can find it wherever you 0:21:37.880 --> 0:21:40.800 love to buy books, including Amazon, Barnes Andnoble dot com, 0:21:41.240 --> 0:21:45.919 Barnes and Nobles physically in the store Walmart Walmart dot com. 0:21:46.520 --> 0:21:49.600 I typically say, and I don't get any kickbacks or anything, 0:21:49.640 --> 0:21:52.520 but I think Amazon is super easy because you could 0:21:52.600 --> 0:21:54.960 order it and then it arrives in two days. A 0:21:55.000 --> 0:21:57.919 lot of people are listening to the audiobook, which is 0:21:58.200 --> 0:22:01.720 cool to me. I'm the one that read it. Yes, 0:22:02.760 --> 0:22:05.520 and a lot of people can get that knocked out 0:22:05.920 --> 0:22:09.200 while they're driving to work and commutes. A couple commutes 0:22:09.200 --> 0:22:13.080 and it's done. If you're a book person, you like 0:22:13.119 --> 0:22:17.639 the paper pages, you could do that too. Let's get 0:22:17.680 --> 0:22:20.560 to these emails Grangersmith podcast at gmail dot com. First 0:22:20.640 --> 0:22:24.840 question here on the second break subject, Cline says broken, 0:22:25.160 --> 0:22:32.000 hurt people period Like a River. Email says, Wow, Granger, 0:22:32.080 --> 0:22:35.359 your book was an amazing testimony. I binge read that 0:22:35.400 --> 0:22:37.960 book in just two short sittings. I could relate so 0:22:38.119 --> 0:22:42.080 much to the book. I've purchased five copies and I'm 0:22:42.119 --> 0:22:45.080 passing them out to people I know that are struggling 0:22:45.359 --> 0:22:48.679 and hungry for purpose. Honestly, I feel like I'm going 0:22:48.760 --> 0:22:51.440 to be buying more sooner than later. People are broken 0:22:51.480 --> 0:22:53.439 and looking for an answer. Just want to say thank you, 0:22:53.440 --> 0:22:56.200 thank you for your podcast, social media and yeeee ambassadors. 0:22:56.600 --> 0:23:00.119 One person in particular, Lake Fulture shout out to her. 0:23:00.200 --> 0:23:04.240 Between your platform and hers, something has flipped a switch 0:23:04.280 --> 0:23:07.360 in my life. I want to help people give them 0:23:07.440 --> 0:23:11.080 hope through God's word. My question is this is the 0:23:11.119 --> 0:23:17.240 book you mentioned reading the Bible and researching everything you read. 0:23:17.840 --> 0:23:20.600 What software or apps did you use for that? Oh? 0:23:20.720 --> 0:23:23.719 Hang on? In the book in Like a River, you 0:23:23.800 --> 0:23:28.440 mentioned reading the Bible and researching everything you read. What 0:23:28.560 --> 0:23:31.480 software or apps did you use for that? Looking forward 0:23:31.520 --> 0:23:36.200 to seeing you preach in Columbus, Ohio. Okay, great, thank you, Drew. 0:23:36.600 --> 0:23:42.679 They came from Drew, and he's talking about in my 0:23:43.680 --> 0:23:45.919 I'm a big believer in reading a Bible plan so 0:23:46.000 --> 0:23:49.120 that so that you could read the Bible in context 0:23:50.040 --> 0:23:56.240 and not necessarily in small quips from devotionals. I think 0:23:56.280 --> 0:24:03.960 devotionals are fine as a supplementary spiritual pick me up, right, 0:24:04.800 --> 0:24:09.320 but not to learn who God is, and not to 0:24:09.520 --> 0:24:12.280 nourish you and fill your soul for what you need 0:24:12.320 --> 0:24:16.119 in the scripture. Devotionals are not good for that. Okay, 0:24:17.040 --> 0:24:20.560 let me say that one more time. Devotionals are great. 0:24:21.520 --> 0:24:24.919 They're fantastic, and I would recommend you have one or 0:24:24.920 --> 0:24:27.520 two or three. I'd recommend you still give one to 0:24:27.560 --> 0:24:32.000 someone for Christmas that you like, Okay, but they are 0:24:32.040 --> 0:24:35.679 not for your They are if in terms of a meal, 0:24:36.359 --> 0:24:39.439 they are more like an appetizer or a dessert. But 0:24:39.520 --> 0:24:41.880 they should never be looked at as the main course 0:24:41.920 --> 0:24:45.119 of the meal. They are not where you get your nourishment, 0:24:45.400 --> 0:24:48.160 if that makes sense. Your nourishment's going to come from 0:24:48.240 --> 0:24:54.240 reading the Bible, the Scripture in context. And so that's 0:24:54.280 --> 0:24:57.800 why I advocate towards some kind of reading plan that 0:24:57.920 --> 0:25:02.240 gets you working in context. What does that mean That 0:25:02.280 --> 0:25:07.639 means you're not searching the Bible for one little line 0:25:08.200 --> 0:25:13.919 or for one section about one subject. Instead, you're reading 0:25:13.920 --> 0:25:16.920 the Bible as a whole so that you could learn 0:25:17.000 --> 0:25:19.040 who God is. And you're like Granger, you always say 0:25:19.040 --> 0:25:27.160 stuff like that, Well, it's fundamental, the scriptures, the Holy Bible. 0:25:28.720 --> 0:25:32.240 The reason we have that is not so that we 0:25:32.320 --> 0:25:37.359 could we could learn what job to take next. It 0:25:37.440 --> 0:25:41.600