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Speaker 1: Hello, Hey, Hi, what's your name?

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Speaker 2: My name is Jillian.

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Speaker 1: Well what's up, Jillian? How you what you would you

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Speaker 1: want to talk about?

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Speaker 2: I don't know. I guess I have a couple of

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Speaker 2: things we could talk about.

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Speaker 3: It would just depends.

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Speaker 2: Currently, am like thirty five weeks pregnant with someone that

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Speaker 2: I met, Like, well, I got pregnant when I knew

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Speaker 2: them for like five months. I'm old. I'm not old old,

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Speaker 2: but I'm thirty one, so too old be making mistakes

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Speaker 2: like that. So about to give birth. And then in

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Speaker 2: the middle of all that, my dad went to prison.

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Speaker 2: So just kind of a lot of stuff going on.

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Speaker 1: I guess that is that is totally a lot of

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Speaker 1: stuff going on. That is absolutely a lot of stuff

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Speaker 1: going on. So you okay, So you you're you knew

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Speaker 1: this guy for about five months and you got it.

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Speaker 1: You accidentally got pregnant. Is this your first time being pregnant?

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Speaker 2: No, it's actually my third time. I have one child.

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Speaker 2: So I lost a baby and twenty nineteen and I

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Speaker 2: subsequently lost one of my Filippian tubes and I already

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Speaker 2: had like some fertility issues, so I genuinely and everyone

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Speaker 2: kept telling me, like, if you want to have another baby.

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Speaker 4: It's gonna be really hard.

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Speaker 2: Da da da da. I got my birth control taken

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Speaker 2: out and I was already pregnant, so it was a

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Speaker 2: little bit of a shocker for everybody involved. So while

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Speaker 2: I did make a mistake, it was definitely a one

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Speaker 2: mistake is a harsh word, but you know, it was

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Speaker 2: a little bit of an accident. So I definitely like, shocker.

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Speaker 1: How old is your kid? How old is your kid?

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Speaker 2: I have an eight year old?

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Speaker 1: You have an eight year old? Okay? And then where

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Speaker 1: this guy that you met five months ago? Where'd you had?

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Speaker 2: You meet him on tender So we're all the true love?

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Speaker 1: What's sure? Sure? And is he gonna help? Is he

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Speaker 1: gonna help out and do stuff? Do you think?

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Speaker 5: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Like honestly, so if I accidentally got pregnant with anybody's babies,

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Speaker 2: he's probably the best person accidentally get pregnant with. Uh,

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Speaker 2: he's great. Like, we both work at a place that

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Speaker 2: you dress like I used to he still does.

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Speaker 1: And well it's you both. You both work at a

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Speaker 1: place that I dress like you work? Where do you not?

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Speaker 4: Everyone like?

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Speaker 2: Because well I used to work at I don't want

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Speaker 2: to say the company name, but it's is.

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Speaker 1: It A is it A Is it a auto insurance company?

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Speaker 6: It might be, it might be lots of really great place.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so no, he currently maybe works there. I don't anymore.

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Speaker 2: I'm actually in grad school. So I stopped working when

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Speaker 2: I was too sick to keep working because I was

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Speaker 2: throwing up. Well, it turns out you get sick in

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Speaker 2: some pregnancies. I did not with my daughter. But no,

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Speaker 2: he's like super great. He just like was excited when

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Speaker 2: he found out tracker and then his family was like

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Speaker 2: very supportive immediately. And I obviously don't have like this

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Speaker 2: wonderful backing. I'm just gonna hear a by myself. So

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Speaker 2: it's been like this introduction to a family unit. And

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Speaker 2: I guess which is is wonderful for me?

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Speaker 1: Are you sorry? You and this guy that you met

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Speaker 1: on Tinder five months ago? Are you guys dating? Do

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Speaker 1: you like each other? Are you let's do it?

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Speaker 7: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Well so we were like had just become official and

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Speaker 2: now it's just like feels like normal life. I guess

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Speaker 2: I feel like I've known him forever, like you know,

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Speaker 2: like I don't know, everything's fine, I do. I feel

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Speaker 2: like it's very atypical because I would never recommend somebody

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Speaker 2: who like, like, if I had known me, I would

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Speaker 2: have been like, hey, maybe you should think about your option,

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Speaker 2: you know, but just just not how it turned out.

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Speaker 6: I don't know, sure a little bit.

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Speaker 1: I'm sorry. Just now you said. If I had known me,

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Speaker 1: or if I had known.

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Speaker 2: Him from like an outside perspective, like if I my

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Speaker 2: friend seeing what was happening, I would have been like, hey,

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Speaker 2: maybe you should think about your options, you know. I

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Speaker 2: just like never considered it, I guess because sure everything

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Speaker 2: seemed fine, and sure it has been fine.

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Speaker 5: Oddly enough.

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Speaker 1: Does this guy have any other kids? Or is this

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Speaker 1: his first?

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Speaker 5: No?

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Speaker 2: No, this is his first child. Now this is his

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Speaker 1: How old child?

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Speaker 2: He is younger than me? So he's twenty seven.

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Speaker 1: I'm thirty one, and so are you? Is he like

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Speaker 1: is he your boyfriend?

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Speaker 6: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, he's like yeah like you, No, he's definitely

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Speaker 2: it's official.

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Speaker 6: It's definitely opecial.

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Speaker 1: Cool. How are you feeling about uh? All this?

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Speaker 6: Like the idea?

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Speaker 1: Well?

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Speaker 2: I never I didn't really want to have any more kids.

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Speaker 6: The only reason I had.

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Speaker 2: Gotten my birth control taken out was because I was

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Speaker 2: like having issues with it.

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Speaker 6: It was the club.

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Speaker 2: Next one month, it goes in your arm and I

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Speaker 2: had broken in half, and so I was gonna go

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Speaker 2: on the pill. And then I just didn't even have

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Speaker 2: a chance to because I was already pregnant. So anyway,

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Speaker 2: I didn't. Yeah, I didn't plan on having kids. I

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Speaker 2: didn't really like want to have more kids. I love

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Speaker 2: my daughter, we have like a great dynamic. I was

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Speaker 2: going to be like child free by the time I

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Speaker 2: was like in my early forties, so like whatever great

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Speaker 2: situation that would be to just live my life, I guess.

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Speaker 2: And then I was starting grad school, so I was

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Speaker 2: like it just wasn't in the cards for anybody because

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Speaker 2: it just didn't make any sense to do that, I guess.

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Speaker 2: But I don't know, after like losing my second child,

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Speaker 2: like it was, it's like, I don't know, It's just

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Speaker 2: one of those things where this weird miracle baby came

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Speaker 2: out of nowhere. So why didn't I just keep it

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Speaker 2: and let it? You know, of it's life. IM a situation.

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Speaker 2: I'm just more scared about, like the complication that comes

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Speaker 2: with childbirth because of my previous experiences.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, sure, have you these that? Well, first of all,

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Speaker 1: I mean, it's great that both of you guys are

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Speaker 1: like are into it? You know, there's not like a

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Speaker 1: out good. So that's yeah. Well, so did you have

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Speaker 1: you spoken to like a doctor about like, uh, you know, hey,

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Speaker 6: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Definitely go to a doctor regularly. I was also born

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Speaker 2: the doctor a lot just because my medicine it's not

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Speaker 2: it does not impact the pregnancy at all, but I

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Speaker 2: have to like regularly get my medication, like my levels,

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Speaker 2: I don't know what it is. You probably don't either, anyway,

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Speaker 2: regularly monitored so that like I can move sure. I

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Speaker 2: was like sixteen on the pregnancy, and then of course

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Speaker 2: I go to an ob but I feel like in

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Speaker 4: And stuff and like normal stuff.

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Speaker 2: I have to go every week for the next like

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Speaker 2: five weeks, which is kind of annoying because it's thirty

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Speaker 2: minutes away, but you know, it makes sense.

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Speaker 1: I would say, what are you in grad school for?

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Speaker 2: Actually social work? Funny enough, I feel like I'm like

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Speaker 2: a shining example of like what not to do. But

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Speaker 2: at the same time, no, no, no. Through religious experiences, I

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Speaker 2: feel like, you know, we know a little bit more

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Speaker 2: about I don't know life and what you know, you

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Speaker 2: don't really know what's out there if you've never seen

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Speaker 2: it or experienced it yourself. You know, you either have

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Speaker 2: to read about it, experience it, or you go through it.

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Speaker 1: What so, where is your daughter's dad? What's his deal?

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Speaker 2: I he was locally. That's actually why I live here,

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Speaker 2: because I wasn't going to just like like I don't

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Speaker 2: I'm not from here. I've lived like in all over

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Speaker 6: Blah blah blah.

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Speaker 2: I ended up staying here and he's very involved. We

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Speaker 2: have fifty fifty cuffie oh cool, And I try to

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Speaker 2: keep it that way because I want, you know, you

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Speaker 2: in that situation, you want, you know, dad to be

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Speaker 1: I mean, shit, that sounds like a pretty like solid

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Speaker 1: because you've got to raise a fucking whole baby now,

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Speaker 2: I guess it makes me kind of sad because it's

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Speaker 2: the choices that we make as an adult, like with relationships,

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Speaker 2: So you know, it will be easier, and like, that's

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Speaker 1: I mean, so my what eight year? How the fuck old?

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Speaker 1: I think my thent my parents' divorce? What I pretty

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Speaker 1: grew up with divorced parents. My parents didn't have like

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Speaker 1: like it's kind of a similar situation. Like I they

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Speaker 1: were both growing up both with my parents. They didn't

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Speaker 1: But it's but also like but I don't think my

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Speaker 1: more unhappy, you know. So like right, so like it's like,

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Speaker 1: it's okay, it's good, it's all I think. The like,

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Speaker 1: you know, if you're the whole like staying together for

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Speaker 1: You know. I really feel I really wish I've I

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Speaker 2: To see it through because you're getting yourself with the

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Speaker 1: Well maybe maybe they'll probably be more in ten in

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Speaker 2: Well, I'm just saying, like, you know, if you're gonna

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Speaker 1: Well, listen, what's your name again? Hold on? Is it? Sorry?

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Speaker 1: What is it?

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Speaker 2: I know I've always wanted to participate in the name

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Speaker 2: which is fine. It's Jillian.

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Speaker 1: Jillian. Well, Jillian, good luck, keep trying your best to

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Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

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Speaker 2: I think so I guess, keep doing your best, and

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Speaker 1: highest whatever. Thank you, Jillian.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, how can I say, have a nice night.

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Speaker 1: Yeah? I really do. Sometimes I'm like, sometimes I'm talking

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Speaker 1: I guess I'm vaguely responsible to myself and the fact

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Speaker 1: that I shouldn't. I shouldn't like give myself diabetes. But

438
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Speaker 1: I just I'm just have this feeling I don't and again,

439
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Speaker 1: I don't want to do it for a long time.

440
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Speaker 1: I don't plan on doing it for for a long time,

441
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Speaker 1: but I just have this feeling that like, once you're

442
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Speaker 1: like responsible for another human being, like your whole your

443
00:23:24,200 --> 00:23:28,840
Speaker 1: life shifts to your perspective shifts and some I feel like,

444
00:23:29,000 --> 00:23:31,240
Speaker 1: in twenty years, I'm gonna look back at this podcast

445
00:23:31,280 --> 00:23:33,399
Speaker 1: and be like, why was I having these I was

446
00:23:33,440 --> 00:23:41,399
Speaker 1: having these conversations with such a a dwarfed I'm gonna

447
00:23:41,440 --> 00:23:46,439
Speaker 1: call it a dwarfed perspective. But this is this is

448
00:23:46,440 --> 00:23:48,879
Speaker 1: what happened. I started doing this show. I started fucking

449
00:23:48,880 --> 00:23:52,639
Speaker 1: doing this when I was twenty two, which is like nothing.

450
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Speaker 1: And now I don't know. Maybe I'll come back and

451
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Speaker 1: maybe I'll do this again in twenty years. I don't No,

452
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Speaker 1: I don't know. We'll see, we'll see what happens, but

453
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Speaker 1: or either either that oasis, We'll see.

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Speaker 6: Hello, Hi, what's up man?

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Speaker 1: Not much man? What's what's your name?

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Speaker 6: My name's Barney.

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Speaker 1: Her name's what.

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Speaker 6: Barney like the Purple Dinosaur.

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Speaker 1: Barney like the Purple Dinosaur. Well, Barney like the purple dinosaur.

460
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Speaker 1: What's up? How's it hanging?

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Speaker 6: It's it's hanging pretty good. I was just doing some laundry,

462
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Speaker 6: you know, folding some clothes.

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Speaker 1: Very exciting stuff, very exciting stuff. Is there anything you

464
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Speaker 1: have to talk about?

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Speaker 6: Barney? I'm actually I wanted to talk. I feel like

466
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Speaker 6: I'm kind of becoming somewhat of a snake hitler.

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Speaker 1: You feel like you're becoming somewhat of a snake hitler. Yeah, okay, yeah,

468
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Speaker 1: tell me more. All right.

469
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Speaker 6: So for my job, I'm mow grass and you know,

470
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Speaker 6: chop a lot of shit up, and unfortunately quite a

471
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Speaker 6: few snakes they get caught up in the mix. I

472
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Speaker 6: just feel so bad for him, you know, like I

473
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Speaker 6: feel like I'm genociding these damn snakes out here and

474
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Speaker 6: they don't deserve it.

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Speaker 2: Man.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, that's so. How many snakes do you think you

477
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Speaker 1: kill per lawnmowing session?

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Speaker 5: Ah? Fuck?

479
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Speaker 6: Per like per day? You think?

480
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Speaker 1: Sure? Yeah?

481
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Speaker 6: Per day? Like I probably kill like five snakes at

482
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Speaker 6: least to day. And that's just what I know about.

483
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Speaker 6: Like I can't imagine, ah, Like you know, the little

484
00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:05,600
Speaker 6: tiny baby snakes that are like the size of a worm. Yeah,

485
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Speaker 6: like those poor fuckers. I don't even like notice I have.

486
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Speaker 1: I have a lot of questions. Where what state are

487
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Speaker 1: you in where there's this this many snakes in people's lawns?

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Speaker 6: I live in Colorado, man, I didn't know there's this

489
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Speaker 6: many snakes out here but there?

490
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Speaker 1: And how many lawns are you mowing? Per day?

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Speaker 6: Uhmo? Around like thirty lawns a day.

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Speaker 1: That's a ship. How the fuck do you mow thirty

493
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Speaker 1: lawns a day? That's like how long is it take

494
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Speaker 1: you to a lawn?

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Speaker 6: It depends on the size of the but I mean

496
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Speaker 6: we're pretty fast. But it's me and one other guy.

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Speaker 1: And they are these like suburban homes or like commercial businesses.

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Speaker 6: Mostly like suburban homes.

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Speaker 1: Okay, so one in every okay, so thirty what's what's

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Speaker 1: so one in every six lawns has a snake in it?

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Speaker 2: Uh?

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Speaker 6: Yeah, at least dude, Like, I'd be seeing a lot

503
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Speaker 6: more snakes too, and I'm not running them over.

504
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Speaker 1: Yeah, well, I think about this. I think about this

505
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Speaker 1: a lot because, like, uh, you know, there's well, think

506
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Speaker 1: about the exterminator. You call an exterminator. He goes into

507
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Speaker 1: your house, he gets rid of all the bugs and

508
00:27:41,359 --> 00:27:45,840
Speaker 1: the mice and the vermin. Right, it's not really their

509
00:27:45,960 --> 00:27:51,719
Speaker 1: fault that they're there. They're not they like a like

510
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Speaker 1: a rat, is not in your house due to any

511
00:27:56,720 --> 00:28:00,200
Speaker 1: kind of active hostility. It's not being a dick. It's

512
00:28:00,200 --> 00:28:05,359
Speaker 1: not morally in the wrong for being there. But we

513
00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:09,480
Speaker 1: have all come to accept that that they have when

514
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Speaker 1: they encroach upon our territory. We are allowed and encouraged

515
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Speaker 1: and justified and murdering them. And I agree wholeheartedly. If

516
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Speaker 1: a snake or a rat or a skunk is in

517
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Speaker 1: my house, I'm calling a guy to come over and

518
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Speaker 1: kill it full scent. Absolutely, I'm part.

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Speaker 6: Of these snakes.

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Speaker 1: They're not.

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Speaker 6: You did not violate any any property rights or something.

522
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Speaker 6: You know, They're just mining their own damn business. Where

523
00:28:40,400 --> 00:28:44,160
Speaker 6: are they supposed to live when we build fucking suburbs

524
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Speaker 6: all over the place?

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Speaker 1: Could you not do you have time to if you

526
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Speaker 1: want to de snake the lawn? Could you? Could you

527
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Speaker 1: just shove the snake out with a broom before you

528
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Speaker 1: mow it over?

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Speaker 6: Well, yeah, I don't purposely run this snake, so if

530
00:29:00,880 --> 00:29:04,000
Speaker 6: I if I notice them, I'll kick him out of

531
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Speaker 6: the way first. But like, I don't know. We're just

532
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Speaker 6: going for efficiency all day, so I'm not like going

533
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Speaker 6: slow and like eyeball on the ground looking for snakes.

534
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Speaker 6: I just try to like avoid them when I catch them, you.

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Speaker 1: Know, Okay, all right? You, By the way, I think

536
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Speaker 1: here's why I think you're a little bit better than

537
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Speaker 1: Hitler is because Hitler. Hitler didn't have really have any sympathy.

538
00:29:28,960 --> 00:29:31,840
Speaker 1: I don't think for the people that he was killing.

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00:29:32,120 --> 00:29:35,520
Speaker 1: You seem as though, at least you, but you would

540
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Speaker 1: like to not kill snakes. Hitler, I think he likes

541
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Speaker 1: I think he liked to kill. I think he enjoyed

542
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Speaker 1: the process of killing everyone that he killed. So that's

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Speaker 1: why I think you're a little bit better than Hitler.

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Speaker 6: Is that's a fair point.

545
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Speaker 1: Do you do you like snakes?

546
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Speaker 6: I fuck with them. I think they're pretty cool. I

547
00:30:02,680 --> 00:30:05,640
Speaker 6: mean I had one of them try to like bite me,

548
00:30:06,080 --> 00:30:08,920
Speaker 6: But besides that, they're pretty chill.

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Speaker 1: I this is kind of like the I please please

550
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Speaker 1: forgive me if I've gone on this rant on the

551
00:30:14,680 --> 00:30:19,800
Speaker 1: podcast before. But uh, you know how there's all these

552
00:30:19,840 --> 00:30:22,960
Speaker 1: like PSAs, like if you see a spotted lantern fly,

553
00:30:23,080 --> 00:30:28,400
Speaker 1: you should kill it. Yeah, it's like, well, why that's

554
00:30:28,600 --> 00:30:31,760
Speaker 1: I think that's kind of fucked up because they didn't

555
00:30:31,760 --> 00:30:36,360
Speaker 1: do anything. They're just doing what they do naturally. You know,

556
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:39,720
Speaker 1: they're just fucking bugs. They don't understand our universe or

557
00:30:39,720 --> 00:30:44,240
Speaker 1: a delicate ecosystem. They're just being bugs, and we're gonna

558
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Speaker 1: kill them because because why because why?

559
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Speaker 6: It's a good question, I guess because we value our

560
00:30:54,880 --> 00:31:00,280
Speaker 6: ecosystem over the lives of these few bugs.

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Speaker 1: Man, you kill five snakes a day, that's crazy.

562
00:31:07,080 --> 00:31:09,719
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's fucked up, man, fucked up. I had to

563
00:31:09,760 --> 00:31:12,000
Speaker 6: put one out of his misery the other day. It

564
00:31:12,040 --> 00:31:14,960
Speaker 6: was the first time I grew the balls to do it,

565
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Speaker 6: because most of the time, like I mean, sometimes you

566
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Speaker 6: like chop their head clean off. You know, there's no

567
00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:24,920
Speaker 6: coming back from that. But sometimes, you know, it just

568
00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:28,000
Speaker 6: like clips them a little bit, and like they're at

569
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Speaker 6: a point where like they're fucked up, but they're still alive,

570
00:31:31,200 --> 00:31:34,120
Speaker 6: you know, and they're not gonna make it out in nature.

571
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Speaker 6: I never really had the balls before to like put

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Speaker 6: them out of their misery, you know, Like I was like, god, man,

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Speaker 6: I'm sorry, but you're just gonna have to suffer. Someone

574
00:31:45,440 --> 00:31:47,480
Speaker 6: else has got to do you in I can't do it.

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Speaker 6: But you know, recently I've decided that, you know, I've

576
00:31:53,000 --> 00:31:55,400
Speaker 6: killed so many the least I can do is, like,

577
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Speaker 6: you know, stop their homies from suffering a little bit.

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Speaker 1: That's that's noble of you. I don't think Hitler would

579
00:32:07,000 --> 00:32:09,120
Speaker 1: have would have referred to the people he was killing

580
00:32:09,120 --> 00:32:12,840
Speaker 1: as homies either, So that's another reason why I think

581
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Speaker 1: ye did this? Did it make you feel better to

582
00:32:19,280 --> 00:32:20,320
Speaker 1: talk about this at least?

583
00:32:23,160 --> 00:32:28,640
Speaker 6: Yeah, it's nice talk about it a little bit like.

584
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Speaker 1: Go ahead? What go ahead? You were saying something.

585
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Speaker 6: I was just saying, I'm feeling a bit less, like

586
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Speaker 6: snake Hitler.

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Speaker 1: That's good. Is there anything else you want to say

588
00:32:51,920 --> 00:32:54,600
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go? Snake Hitler?

589
00:32:57,880 --> 00:33:01,800
Speaker 6: Yeah? You know, guys, just watch out for snakes, you know,

590
00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:07,360
Speaker 6: the cool with you slithering around? It's pretty funny when

591
00:33:07,400 --> 00:33:09,520
Speaker 6: they try to run for their lives. They're just like

592
00:33:09,800 --> 00:33:11,040
Speaker 6: slithering across the ground.

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Speaker 1: That's that. That is That is a little snake hitlery

594
00:33:16,800 --> 00:33:18,520
Speaker 1: to laugh at their pain. That is a little snake

595
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Speaker 1: hit all right.

596
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Speaker 6: Wait, they go with the concrete and then they like

597
00:33:23,520 --> 00:33:26,240
Speaker 6: can't give any grip. They're just like sliding across the

598
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Speaker 6: ground in one spot. It's pretty fun, all right.

599
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Speaker 1: I think you like killing these ns?

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Speaker 6: All right? No, no, no, no, no, all right. If

601
00:33:38,960 --> 00:33:41,720
Speaker 6: they're running for their lives, that's a good thing, because

602
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Speaker 6: then I won't kill them.

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Speaker 1: That's dark.

604
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Speaker 6: I also had a snake jump out of the way

605
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Speaker 6: I want That was pretty badass.

606
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Speaker 1: What's your real name?

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Speaker 6: My real name is Barney manur Oh yeah, I forgot

608
00:34:06,160 --> 00:34:06,520
Speaker 6: about that.

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Speaker 1: Take care Byarnie, thank you for coming.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, pretty yeah, I have a good one. Gay love

611
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Speaker 6: your streams.

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Speaker 1: Thank you brother. You know what's funny, I actually would

613
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Speaker 1: I like, I know, Hitler he killed a lot of people.

614
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Speaker 1: I bet there was some. I bet some animals slipped

615
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Speaker 1: in there with him. I bet he probably I would.

616
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Speaker 1: I don't know why. I just get this feeling, like,

617
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Speaker 1: I mean, with all the like crazy crap he was doing,

618
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Speaker 1: and you know, I mean he was in charge of

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Speaker 1: I don't know, he he led the German army during

620
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Speaker 1: World War two. Right, there was like a lot of

621
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Speaker 1: stuff going on in World War Two, and I I

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Speaker 1: I'll love what I'm getting at. I'm no history buff or,

623
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Speaker 1: and I don't know a whole lot about Hitler, but

624
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Speaker 1: I part of me thinks it's quite possible that Hitler

625
00:34:59,400 --> 00:35:06,360
Speaker 1: actually more snakes than this guy did. I wouldn't be

626
00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:11,760
Speaker 1: surprised if Hitler killed at least ten snakes, even if indirectly,

627
00:35:12,400 --> 00:35:16,840
Speaker 1: just as a result of all the World War II stuff.

628
00:35:16,880 --> 00:35:21,799
Speaker 1: I bet some snakes died as a result of World

629
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Speaker 1: War two. And I bet it's quite possible that Hitler

630
00:35:26,239 --> 00:35:31,319
Speaker 1: is Hitler's actions indirectly resulted in the deaths of more

631
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Speaker 1: snakes than this guy's actions did. And that's another reason

632
00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:39,480
Speaker 1: I think he's he's a little bit better than Hitler.

633
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Speaker 1: Proan Michael, Hello, Hello, Hey, what's.

634
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Speaker 5: Up so much?

635
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Speaker 6: Thank you for taking my goal?

636
00:35:47,880 --> 00:35:50,640
Speaker 1: Oh, of course, of course, thank you for calling. How's

637
00:35:50,680 --> 00:35:53,319
Speaker 1: it going, brother, it's going well.

638
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Speaker 6: I'm just starting the workday for a while and watching

639
00:35:55,640 --> 00:35:57,400
Speaker 6: your stream, loving every second of it.

640
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Speaker 1: Thanks man. What uh? What's what's going on? Is there

641
00:36:01,560 --> 00:36:02,800
Speaker 1: a thing you wanted to talk about?

642
00:36:04,400 --> 00:36:06,000
Speaker 6: Well, it depends on how deep you want to go.

643
00:36:06,080 --> 00:36:07,920
Speaker 6: I could talk about the fact that my mother passed

644
00:36:07,920 --> 00:36:10,200
Speaker 6: away last year, where I could talk about the depression

645
00:36:10,239 --> 00:36:11,480
Speaker 6: I'm currently trying to deal with.

646
00:36:13,640 --> 00:36:14,719
Speaker 1: Why are you depressed?

647
00:36:16,920 --> 00:36:18,400
Speaker 6: You know, I'm trying to figure that out. I'm not

648
00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:21,640
Speaker 6: really sure. I'm actually like seeking I'll say, quote unquote

649
00:36:21,680 --> 00:36:24,480
Speaker 6: real therapy. I'm not really sure, you know, I just

650
00:36:24,480 --> 00:36:25,400
Speaker 6: financial struggles.

651
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Speaker 1: I think I don't think you have to put quotes

652
00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:35,000
Speaker 1: around real therapy. I think that's understandable. How old are you.

653
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Speaker 6: Twenty eight?

654
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Speaker 1: Twenty eight? Okay, we're about similar ages. Ish, Uh, what

655
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Speaker 1: do you do?

656
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Speaker 6: I'm a purchasing agent for a casino resort?

657
00:36:49,320 --> 00:36:50,640
Speaker 1: What is a purchasing agent?

658
00:36:52,239 --> 00:36:54,080
Speaker 6: So I just handle all the purchasing needs for the

659
00:36:54,120 --> 00:36:57,240
Speaker 6: casino whatever they need, different things.

660
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Speaker 1: What is like you buy like like a velvet rope?

661
00:37:04,640 --> 00:37:07,200
Speaker 6: I do, yeah, if they want it? Yeah, or flat

662
00:37:07,280 --> 00:37:12,440
Speaker 6: machine paper or sometimes it's a lot of soda. Surprisingly sure?

663
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Speaker 1: Sure? Well, I mean sure, yeah, man? What do you want?

664
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Speaker 1: What do you want to get in zoo?

665
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Speaker 6: Well? Do you got any relationship advice? I've been really

666
00:37:24,280 --> 00:37:26,279
Speaker 6: irritable and I just don't know how to deal with that.

667
00:37:26,640 --> 00:37:29,640
Speaker 1: No, I have. I am I'm terrible at relationship advice.

668
00:37:29,640 --> 00:37:36,800
Speaker 1: I'm sorry. What did you say? I interrupted you by saying, no.

669
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Speaker 6: No, don't worry about it. I just I'm so irritable,

670
00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:38,719
Speaker 6: and I just don't know what to do to like

671
00:37:39,080 --> 00:37:41,040
Speaker 6: catch it when it starts happening. You know, I can

672
00:37:41,120 --> 00:37:44,040
Speaker 6: feel like like I feel myself getting angry, and then

673
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Speaker 6: I just don't know how to handle that emotion.

674
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Speaker 1: Oh okay, So are you in a relationship?

675
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Speaker 6: I am? You know, I've been married for six years?

676
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Speaker 1: Oh wow? Oh uh, and you're like, feel okay, so

677
00:37:55,760 --> 00:37:58,400
Speaker 1: you're telling me you're you have been married for six years?

678
00:37:59,239 --> 00:38:02,359
Speaker 1: And you feel your self getting irritable, and you're like,

679
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Speaker 1: I so don't want to like yell at my spouse,

680
00:38:08,920 --> 00:38:13,120
Speaker 1: but my I'm just getting really angry and frustrated.

681
00:38:14,239 --> 00:38:16,680
Speaker 6: Exactly exactly. Yeah, And I don't and I just don't

682
00:38:16,719 --> 00:38:19,200
Speaker 6: know how to handle that because I don't mean to

683
00:38:19,239 --> 00:38:21,120
Speaker 6: be mean to the people that I love, but it's

684
00:38:21,160 --> 00:38:22,520
Speaker 6: just what comes out of my mouth.

685
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Speaker 1: All right, So are you okay? First of all, you

686
00:38:26,480 --> 00:38:31,760
Speaker 1: should definitely go talk to a real therapist about this issue.

687
00:38:33,200 --> 00:38:37,040
Speaker 1: No quote, but uh, no quotes, no quotes. You should

688
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Speaker 1: talk to a I'm gonna bold it actually instead of

689
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Speaker 1: quoting it, I'm gonna bold and italicized real therapist for this.

690
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Speaker 1: But uh why okay? But so you here's that you

691
00:38:50,120 --> 00:38:53,200
Speaker 1: know that you're not mad at your spouse. You're just

692
00:38:53,360 --> 00:38:57,960
Speaker 1: mad about in life. Your brain is just firing off

693
00:38:58,680 --> 00:39:02,800
Speaker 1: and you're gonna take energy and dispense it in whatever

694
00:39:02,880 --> 00:39:07,200
Speaker 1: direction is it wants to go.

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00:39:09,120 --> 00:39:11,960
Speaker 6: Exactly yeah, because it's just like like you're saying, you know,

696
00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:13,759
Speaker 6: it just starts coming at me and I can feel it,

697
00:39:14,040 --> 00:39:17,200
Speaker 6: and then it's just like it's hard to stop it.

698
00:39:18,960 --> 00:39:20,520
Speaker 1: Why are you mad?

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Speaker 6: I don't know? And and you know my wife asked

700
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Speaker 6: me that question. Also, I really don't know. I just

701
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Speaker 6: I just get so irritable and irritated by anything.

702
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Speaker 1: Okay, so let me you have a You have a job, right,

703
00:39:35,920 --> 00:39:39,839
Speaker 1: your's your job? Are you a W two employee at

704
00:39:39,840 --> 00:39:40,360
Speaker 1: this job?

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Speaker 6: Yeah? Two jobs?

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00:39:43,000 --> 00:39:43,320
Speaker 5: Yes?

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Speaker 1: Do they offer you health insurance?

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Speaker 6: I do have health insurance, and that's where I'm that's

709
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Speaker 6: how I'm getting my therapy.

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Speaker 1: Okay, let me so look, man, I'm a crazy person

711
00:39:58,200 --> 00:40:00,800
Speaker 1: on the internet. I'm not a therapist. I'm not pretending

712
00:40:00,800 --> 00:40:02,960
Speaker 1: to be a therapist. This is not an advice show.

713
00:40:03,080 --> 00:40:06,960
Speaker 1: This is just I'm just a fucking guy, and I

714
00:40:07,080 --> 00:40:09,759
Speaker 1: have and I think about things, and these are my thing.

715
00:40:09,960 --> 00:40:17,160
Speaker 1: This is these are my thoughts. So, like, I think

716
00:40:17,440 --> 00:40:20,919
Speaker 1: the best thing you can do is just like take

717
00:40:20,960 --> 00:40:24,440
Speaker 1: a second, take a second and go into and with

718
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Speaker 1: therapy and psychiatry and all these things that your health

719
00:40:27,520 --> 00:40:30,320
Speaker 1: insurance is going to pay for from these jobs. You

720
00:40:30,360 --> 00:40:34,200
Speaker 1: go into yourself and you go, Okay, this is a problem.

721
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Speaker 1: I am identifying that this is a problem. I'm going

722
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Speaker 1: to try my best to work on this problem, and

723
00:40:41,560 --> 00:40:47,279
Speaker 1: like go go from there. You know, that's the best.

724
00:40:47,280 --> 00:40:49,040
Speaker 1: That sounds like the best thing you can do for

725
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Speaker 1: your for your family.

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Speaker 6: Yeah, I appreciate that. That's exactly what I'm trying to do.

727
00:40:54,520 --> 00:40:58,080
Speaker 6: You know. Definitely, it's just hard to catch yourself, but yeah,

728
00:40:58,120 --> 00:40:58,880
Speaker 6: I'm definitely trying.

729
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Speaker 1: You're like, I mean, how many movies are there about

730
00:41:01,840 --> 00:41:05,879
Speaker 1: like a guy who's possessed and she's about to kill

731
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Speaker 1: someone and the person's like, what's your name again? My

732
00:41:11,160 --> 00:41:14,200
Speaker 1: name is Michael, like Michael, the real Michael. I'm talking

733
00:41:14,200 --> 00:41:16,799
Speaker 1: to the real Michael here. And the guy's like, I

734
00:41:16,960 --> 00:41:20,680
Speaker 1: must fight the demon. You gotta do it. You gotta

735
00:41:20,680 --> 00:41:23,120
Speaker 1: fight the demon. I mean, hopefully you're not pointing a

736
00:41:23,160 --> 00:41:24,200
Speaker 1: gun in anyone.

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Speaker 6: But no, definitely, nothing physical. It's just I just I

738
00:41:27,840 --> 00:41:31,520
Speaker 6: just ye know, and you know, storm off into my

739
00:41:31,640 --> 00:41:32,480
Speaker 6: room like a child.

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00:41:33,120 --> 00:41:37,520
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm mm hmm. Yeah. I don't know, man, Maybe

741
00:41:37,800 --> 00:41:40,279
Speaker 1: God I shouldn't be telling people this, but maybe it's

742
00:41:40,440 --> 00:41:42,759
Speaker 1: meds or I don't I don't know, I don't know.

743
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Speaker 6: Well, I will say that's what a real psychiatrist is for. Yes,

744
00:41:46,280 --> 00:41:48,280
Speaker 6: definitely figure that go to a real.

745
00:41:48,239 --> 00:41:51,840
Speaker 1: Go to a real psychiatry. Well do you can? I

746
00:41:51,960 --> 00:41:55,279
Speaker 1: you asked me for relationship advice. I'm not good. I'm

747
00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:58,400
Speaker 1: I don't I can I Is there any other aspect

748
00:41:58,480 --> 00:41:59,960
Speaker 1: of this you want to you want to talk about?

749
00:42:00,680 --> 00:42:02,680
Speaker 1: I guess before before we go, I think you should

750
00:42:02,719 --> 00:42:07,879
Speaker 1: totally go to a real psych therapist person. You don't

751
00:42:07,920 --> 00:42:13,399
Speaker 1: sound like a bad guy. You sound like you know

752
00:42:13,520 --> 00:42:15,680
Speaker 1: that you have some problems and that you're gonna try

753
00:42:15,719 --> 00:42:16,840
Speaker 1: to fix them.

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00:42:17,320 --> 00:42:19,200
Speaker 6: Yeah. I definitely am trying to fix some I just

755
00:42:19,320 --> 00:42:21,359
Speaker 6: I uh, you know, thank you for taking my call.

756
00:42:21,440 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 6: And and if anything, I would say to the people

757
00:42:24,080 --> 00:42:26,040
Speaker 6: of the internet, you know, just stay strong no matter

758
00:42:26,080 --> 00:42:28,160
Speaker 6: what I'm I'm going through a lot, but you just

759
00:42:28,200 --> 00:42:30,640
Speaker 6: have to stay strong. There's no other choice.

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00:42:31,200 --> 00:42:32,480
Speaker 1: Hey, take care man, and good luck.

761
00:42:33,560 --> 00:42:34,640
Speaker 6: Thank you. I appreciate you.

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00:42:40,719 --> 00:42:44,239
Speaker 1: He buys diet coke for the casino. That's cool. If

763
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Speaker 1: I did that job, you know what I would do.

764
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Speaker 1: I would fucking order I would like take the company

765
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Speaker 1: credit card and I would order a bunch of diet coke.

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Speaker 1: I would get fired from that job because I would

767
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Speaker 1: use it to siphon off free diet coke or maybe

768
00:43:00,320 --> 00:43:03,280
Speaker 1: or maybe not maybe you know what, look the casino,

769
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Speaker 1: you order a palette, Well, how many palt you order?

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Speaker 1: Like ten pallettes? A diet coke. I'd take a couple

771
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Speaker 1: off the truck. I would take a couple of palettes

772
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Speaker 1: off the truck of diet coke off the truck. They're

773
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Speaker 1: not going to notice a couple of diet cokes out

774
00:43:18,560 --> 00:43:20,560
Speaker 1: of like, well, how many diet cokes are in a palette,

775
00:43:20,600 --> 00:43:23,799
Speaker 1: like a bunch. They're not going to notice a couple

776
00:43:24,080 --> 00:43:28,239
Speaker 1: diet cokes missing. And that's an issue I'm not going

777
00:43:28,320 --> 00:43:32,440
Speaker 1: to work on. I'm not. I'm this guy, this caller,

778
00:43:32,960 --> 00:43:35,400
Speaker 1: he was like, I've identified that I have an issue,

779
00:43:35,400 --> 00:43:40,319
Speaker 1: and I'm going to go work on it and try

780
00:43:40,320 --> 00:43:43,279
Speaker 1: to solve it. I'm not gonna do that with my

781
00:43:43,360 --> 00:43:46,760
Speaker 1: diet coke addiction. I've identified. I'm not even gonna identify

782
00:43:46,800 --> 00:43:51,160
Speaker 1: that it's a problem. I'm just gonna suck on that

783
00:43:52,840 --> 00:43:59,759
Speaker 1: diet teat until I die. Hello. Hello, Hi, what's your name?

784
00:44:01,160 --> 00:44:01,600
Speaker 3: Borsa?

785
00:44:02,840 --> 00:44:09,240
Speaker 1: Larissa? Yeah, that's fine, Larissa. What's up, Larissa? How's how's life?

786
00:44:10,880 --> 00:44:12,320
Speaker 4: That's great? How about you?

787
00:44:13,400 --> 00:44:13,520
Speaker 5: Uh?

788
00:44:13,920 --> 00:44:18,840
Speaker 1: Life's good? Uh, it's Sonny out. I'm doing. It's eleven

789
00:44:19,120 --> 00:44:23,480
Speaker 1: thirty four in the in the morning. Where I am.

790
00:44:23,520 --> 00:44:26,840
Speaker 1: I feel good, I feel caffeinated, I feel awake, I

791
00:44:26,880 --> 00:44:30,560
Speaker 1: feel ready to talk. What's up with? What's give you

792
00:44:30,600 --> 00:44:33,359
Speaker 1: the rundown? Larissa? What's what's going on? What brings you

793
00:44:34,239 --> 00:44:37,400
Speaker 1: to uh to life today?

794
00:44:38,840 --> 00:44:40,080
Speaker 3: Yeah?

795
00:44:40,239 --> 00:44:44,080
Speaker 5: Well, I'm fighting the urge to cuss out my supervisor today.

796
00:44:44,200 --> 00:44:48,879
Speaker 1: So I'm fighting the urge to cuss out your supervisor.

797
00:44:48,920 --> 00:44:53,759
Speaker 5: Why is that he has a serious pokemonngo it Dish

798
00:44:53,880 --> 00:44:58,799
Speaker 5: network and we are getting loaded with his work so

799
00:44:58,880 --> 00:45:00,480
Speaker 5: he can play umoo.

800
00:45:01,239 --> 00:45:04,360
Speaker 1: Really he's he's slacking off and the work's being pushed

801
00:45:04,360 --> 00:45:10,200
Speaker 1: onto you. Yeah, what what is? What do you do?

802
00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:14,759
Speaker 5: I work at a hospital.

803
00:45:14,960 --> 00:45:19,480
Speaker 3: We do like, oh, our instrumentation. It's called sterile processing.

804
00:45:20,160 --> 00:45:25,120
Speaker 3: But yeah, he is super lazy and he's supposed to

805
00:45:25,120 --> 00:45:33,160
Speaker 3: be doing his job and he just pop amongo's all day.

806
00:45:33,840 --> 00:45:36,359
Speaker 1: Do you ever have you talked to him and been like, hey,

807
00:45:36,360 --> 00:45:39,080
Speaker 1: can you stop doing that? Oh?

808
00:45:39,160 --> 00:45:42,120
Speaker 5: Yeah, like we'll call him out. We just did it yesterday.

809
00:45:42,320 --> 00:45:47,800
Speaker 5: We actually gotting into a huge group chat like argument,

810
00:45:47,880 --> 00:45:51,920
Speaker 5: debate about it. But we're getting a talking to tonight.

811
00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:55,480
Speaker 5: I work night shift, so we'll see what I get

812
00:45:55,520 --> 00:45:56,320
Speaker 5: talked to about.

813
00:45:56,440 --> 00:45:59,000
Speaker 4: But yeah, we are like, hey, can you like.

814
00:45:59,000 --> 00:45:59,440
Speaker 2: Not do that.

815
00:45:59,480 --> 00:46:00,239
Speaker 3: We'll have like.

816
00:46:00,320 --> 00:46:05,160
Speaker 5: Daily meetings and he'll be playing it actively and we're like, hey,

817
00:46:05,200 --> 00:46:07,000
Speaker 5: can you get off that? He goes no, like I

818
00:46:07,040 --> 00:46:09,800
Speaker 5: do it all the time, Like he actually has a problem,

819
00:46:10,160 --> 00:46:11,359
Speaker 5: Like so so you.

820
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Speaker 1: Got, I'm so I'm curious, so you got. So you

821
00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:16,319
Speaker 1: work at a hospital. So if his work doesn't get

822
00:46:16,360 --> 00:46:19,759
Speaker 1: if his work doesn't get done, who suffers? Is it

823
00:46:19,840 --> 00:46:21,799
Speaker 1: like a company or is it or like do.

824
00:46:21,800 --> 00:46:26,319
Speaker 5: People get as a whole? So we he's supposed to

825
00:46:26,320 --> 00:46:31,359
Speaker 5: be ordering stuff like we do, like trauma cases. If

826
00:46:31,400 --> 00:46:33,400
Speaker 5: we have any hands and they get a little like

827
00:46:33,440 --> 00:46:36,239
Speaker 5: screws in their hands, those are gone. So he's got

828
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Speaker 5: to reorder those parts. And now we're having to do

829
00:46:40,719 --> 00:46:46,040
Speaker 5: his job because they're not having enough pieces to go

830
00:46:46,080 --> 00:46:49,359
Speaker 5: in their sets for emergency cases. So it's a big

831
00:46:49,400 --> 00:46:52,000
Speaker 5: deal and he's just gonna put it on us.

832
00:46:52,360 --> 00:46:56,400
Speaker 3: That way, he doesn't have to worry about it.

833
00:46:56,440 --> 00:46:59,040
Speaker 1: Is he How close is he to catching a mewtwo

834
00:46:59,440 --> 00:47:02,200
Speaker 1: or or hello, I.

835
00:47:02,120 --> 00:47:06,120
Speaker 5: Have no I to you? Okay, I have friends that

836
00:47:06,200 --> 00:47:08,400
Speaker 5: play it and I don't play Pokemon go at all.

837
00:47:08,440 --> 00:47:11,640
Speaker 5: I'm like, can you please like come wreck him at

838
00:47:11,640 --> 00:47:13,560
Speaker 5: work and just like ruin him?

839
00:47:13,920 --> 00:47:15,279
Speaker 1: Do Yeah, that's what you got to do. You got

840
00:47:15,480 --> 00:47:17,920
Speaker 1: you gotta you gotta get one of your friends to go.

841
00:47:18,280 --> 00:47:20,360
Speaker 1: You gotta do it like Pokemon, where you have to

842
00:47:20,400 --> 00:47:23,759
Speaker 1: defeat him in battle to get him to do his job.

843
00:47:23,920 --> 00:47:25,920
Speaker 5: We could get his work done right.

844
00:47:26,120 --> 00:47:28,120
Speaker 1: Well, who's his who's his boss? Do you know who

845
00:47:28,200 --> 00:47:30,359
Speaker 1: his bosses? Yeah?

846
00:47:30,440 --> 00:47:33,680
Speaker 5: Like he he's there too in the meeting. He'll see

847
00:47:33,719 --> 00:47:37,359
Speaker 5: him doing it, and he goes. Well. His argument is, well,

848
00:47:37,400 --> 00:47:39,440
Speaker 5: we go on our phones. We don't go on our phones.

849
00:47:39,520 --> 00:47:42,000
Speaker 5: We have earbuds in and we listened. I listened to

850
00:47:42,000 --> 00:47:43,960
Speaker 5: you all day to get through my day. So just

851
00:47:44,000 --> 00:47:46,480
Speaker 5: so you know, I'm cleaning blood and guts and gore

852
00:47:46,560 --> 00:47:49,960
Speaker 5: out of DUTs while I'm listening to you all day.

853
00:47:50,320 --> 00:47:51,000
Speaker 4: That's all I do.

854
00:47:51,440 --> 00:47:53,480
Speaker 1: Beautiful, That's what this is meant for. That's what this

855
00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:54,040
Speaker 1: was meant for.

856
00:47:55,760 --> 00:47:56,840
Speaker 5: You get me through Monday.

857
00:47:57,440 --> 00:48:01,279
Speaker 1: Well, god, damn, I don't know. I don't know. This

858
00:48:01,360 --> 00:48:04,680
Speaker 1: is a tricky This is a it is a tricky

859
00:48:04,680 --> 00:48:08,120
Speaker 1: one because like, you can't you like I'm always of

860
00:48:08,160 --> 00:48:09,960
Speaker 1: the opinion, I'm kind of the opinion. You can't like

861
00:48:10,080 --> 00:48:13,480
Speaker 1: make fucking anyone like do anything.

862
00:48:14,640 --> 00:48:15,840
Speaker 5: Oh no, you can't.

863
00:48:16,320 --> 00:48:18,400
Speaker 1: But you talk to him about it. You talk to

864
00:48:18,440 --> 00:48:24,200
Speaker 1: the supervisor about it, yeah, and no one cares.

865
00:48:25,160 --> 00:48:27,880
Speaker 5: Everyone knows. They just laugh about it and it's like okay,

866
00:48:27,920 --> 00:48:33,000
Speaker 5: but it's affecting us now. So today I'm gonna like

867
00:48:33,120 --> 00:48:35,960
Speaker 5: let them know. I'm going to higher ups if they

868
00:48:35,960 --> 00:48:38,920
Speaker 5: don't take care of it. I guess. So when Pokemon

869
00:48:39,080 --> 00:48:41,800
Speaker 5: first came out, like POKEMONO.

870
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Speaker 6: There was issues where they had.

871
00:48:44,239 --> 00:48:48,160
Speaker 5: To contact like the POKEMONO creators and help get it

872
00:48:48,239 --> 00:48:52,280
Speaker 5: banned from hospitals because all the workers and like people

873
00:48:52,440 --> 00:48:55,759
Speaker 5: from like the woodworks would come out park in the

874
00:48:55,800 --> 00:48:58,520
Speaker 5: hospital parking and there wouldn't be any room for emergency

875
00:48:59,000 --> 00:48:59,920
Speaker 5: like people to come in.

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00:49:00,640 --> 00:49:02,520
Speaker 4: So I guess you can get it banned.

877
00:49:02,680 --> 00:49:09,200
Speaker 5: Pokemon go like primarily banned from.

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Speaker 4: Hospitals, So we are looking into doing that next because

879
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Speaker 4: it'd be so funny to watch him try to play

880
00:49:16,480 --> 00:49:19,240
Speaker 4: and he's like, no, I can't play.

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Speaker 1: I mean that sounds like a good I don't think

882
00:49:21,360 --> 00:49:23,800
Speaker 1: that people. Yeah, I mean it sounds because I remember

883
00:49:23,840 --> 00:49:27,000
Speaker 1: in like the I forget what fucking summer was, like

884
00:49:27,000 --> 00:49:29,920
Speaker 1: it's twenty sixteen or seventeen or whatever, where like everyone

885
00:49:29,960 --> 00:49:31,520
Speaker 1: was obsessed with it and you would go out and

886
00:49:31,520 --> 00:49:36,480
Speaker 1: like everyone would like rush the places that had the

887
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Speaker 1: legendary Pokemon, and I think having a legendary Pokemon spawned

888
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Speaker 1: at a fuck at a hospital probably sounds like a

889
00:49:43,239 --> 00:49:43,800
Speaker 1: bad idea.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, it is a bad idea. Yeah, there was a

891
00:49:47,640 --> 00:49:51,200
Speaker 5: lot of issues. There had a been this. They had

892
00:49:51,200 --> 00:49:54,319
Speaker 5: to block it from there. Yeah, it was crazy. I

893
00:49:54,360 --> 00:49:59,080
Speaker 5: didn't know about this until yesterday because we talked about solutions.

894
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Speaker 5: I just want to take his Pokemon and crush them.

895
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Speaker 5: I think that's going to be my first step. Is

896
00:50:06,600 --> 00:50:08,520
Speaker 5: I'm going to become a Pokemon master.

897
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Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean that's the only Sorry I'm not I

898
00:50:12,480 --> 00:50:17,080
Speaker 1: have no advice for you, not that this is an advice.

899
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Speaker 5: I want to talk about how ridiculous it was.

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Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, why don't you download Poke? Why don't you

901
00:50:24,239 --> 00:50:27,239
Speaker 1: download Pokemon Go? And maybe you can get really good

902
00:50:27,280 --> 00:50:29,080
Speaker 1: at it and beat him and that's how you can

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Speaker 1: get his attention.

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Speaker 5: That'd be great, I think. I think that's what my

905
00:50:34,880 --> 00:50:35,279
Speaker 5: thing is.

906
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Speaker 1: Yeah, well, Larissa, is there anything else you want to

907
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Speaker 1: say to the people of the computer before we go?

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Speaker 5: Uh? If you were at a hospital, please don't play

909
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Speaker 5: Pokemon goe.

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Speaker 1: Alright, Bye, I've been told I kind of look like

911
00:50:52,239 --> 00:50:55,960
Speaker 1: a tree co nobody's told me that I just came

912
00:50:56,040 --> 00:50:59,200
Speaker 1: to that conclusion. I came to that conclusion on my own.

913
00:50:59,800 --> 00:51:03,440
Speaker 1: But looking at pictures of Treco, there Repket goes on

914
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Speaker 1: the line, taking your phone.

915
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Speaker 3: Calls every night.

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Speaker 1: There repin Can goes doing to ride. He's teaching you

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Speaker 1: cloud and your life, but he's not really an expert.