WEBVTT - Goodbye Forever 0:00:00.600 --> 0:00:03.520 Be in the circle of the people that you feel 0:00:03.760 --> 0:00:06.680 the most comfortable being you. And we were talking about 0:00:06.680 --> 0:00:09.000 this with our friend last night and she was saying, 0:00:09.000 --> 0:00:13.399 how a Joshua treat This is her this was her 0:00:13.720 --> 0:00:15.440 visual of it. She's like, I felt like, you know 0:00:15.480 --> 0:00:18.440 those you know, those animals with no hair, like those 0:00:18.600 --> 0:00:22.760 those furless cats. That's how I felt, like no armor 0:00:23.440 --> 0:00:26.040 like bear. And she's like, and I can't think of 0:00:26.079 --> 0:00:28.120 any other place where I could have been that way, 0:00:28.560 --> 0:00:30.479 but with you, you know, but with you all, like 0:00:30.520 --> 0:00:34.080 our group of friends and people will say in relationships 0:00:34.080 --> 0:00:38.000 French platonic relationships too, that you're not energized by you 0:00:38.000 --> 0:00:40.239 don't be you're not fulfilled by, you know. And I 0:00:40.280 --> 0:00:43.000 was thinking, like, it is powerful to be able to 0:00:43.040 --> 0:00:49.839 congregate in emotional support and spiritual support and together asking 0:00:50.159 --> 0:00:53.280 the ancestors to guide us and to acknowledge the things, 0:00:53.400 --> 0:00:58.400 and like that is what's important. Cultivating the group that 0:00:58.520 --> 0:01:01.040 makes you be able to do that personally and so 0:01:01.160 --> 0:01:27.000 you feel confident taking that out into the world. 0:01:27.360 --> 0:01:30.640 Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and 0:01:30.680 --> 0:01:31.360 I'm Miela. 0:01:33.520 --> 0:01:35.679 You guys, you. 0:01:35.680 --> 0:01:38.480 Know, I normally start my day off singing with the 0:01:38.520 --> 0:01:42.119 Wednesdays and things. But if you're watching on YouTube right now, 0:01:42.480 --> 0:01:44.040 then you know where the fuck we are right now. 0:01:44.680 --> 0:01:49.440 And if you're an OG listener, then you absolutely know 0:01:49.880 --> 0:01:52.280 where the fuck we are right now. 0:01:52.800 --> 0:01:55.160 We had to throw it back for the good old 0:01:55.280 --> 0:01:59.840 days because soon Erica is departing from this house and 0:02:00.520 --> 0:02:03.640 this is the house in which Good Moms was built, 0:02:04.000 --> 0:02:10.800 was born, built, and nurtured and grown manifested here in 0:02:10.840 --> 0:02:11.280 this house. 0:02:12.040 --> 0:02:13.080 It's bittersweet. 0:02:13.400 --> 0:02:18.480 I mean, we haven't recorded here in years at this point, 0:02:19.480 --> 0:02:22.640 but this dining table actually wasn't even this dining table, 0:02:22.680 --> 0:02:23.120 I've got it. 0:02:23.760 --> 0:02:26.480 No, it was a wood one I've since upgraded. 0:02:26.880 --> 0:02:31.720 But this room is where the magic happened. 0:02:31.760 --> 0:02:33.040 Amila became best friend. 0:02:33.760 --> 0:02:36.400 This is where I heard so many stories for the 0:02:36.400 --> 0:02:38.560 first time, where I shared so many things for the 0:02:38.600 --> 0:02:40.000 first time, where you. 0:02:40.000 --> 0:02:41.640 Watched our kids grow up. 0:02:42.320 --> 0:02:46.160 And if you remember the elevator music we'd play every 0:02:46.200 --> 0:02:47.320 time they interrupted us. 0:02:47.440 --> 0:02:50.600 They were two and three when we started and they're 0:02:50.600 --> 0:02:51.520 about to be nine. 0:02:52.400 --> 0:02:53.000 That's wild. 0:02:53.160 --> 0:02:59.720 It's absolutely wild. I don't think I've realized we've onward progress. 0:03:00.160 --> 0:03:03.320 We left here, and I just don't think until sitting 0:03:03.360 --> 0:03:07.360 here how much I realized how much shit we've done, 0:03:07.400 --> 0:03:09.280 and how much how far we've come, and how much 0:03:09.280 --> 0:03:12.560 we've grown, and so many memories in this house. 0:03:14.960 --> 0:03:18.560 This was like a lot of late nights because when 0:03:18.600 --> 0:03:22.280 Meila and I started our show, we would record like 0:03:22.360 --> 0:03:26.240 the night before a Wednesday drop, And actually I think 0:03:26.240 --> 0:03:28.600 we started dropping on Monday at first, and then we 0:03:28.639 --> 0:03:29.480 switched to Wednesdays. 0:03:29.480 --> 0:03:30.959 That's it only happened like once or twice. 0:03:33.400 --> 0:03:34.760 But we would be in. 0:03:34.680 --> 0:03:36.640 Here while the kids were playing the other room, while 0:03:36.680 --> 0:03:40.360 they were asleep, because they weren't even in school yet. 0:03:40.800 --> 0:03:42.440 We weren't in school yet. They were two and three. 0:03:42.680 --> 0:03:44.280 What were they just we would just make them lay down. 0:03:44.480 --> 0:03:44.880 Yeah, I. 0:03:47.720 --> 0:03:52.680 I guess they started TK. Sorry, I think they started 0:03:52.720 --> 0:03:58.120 TK and like shortly after you guys, yeo, like they 0:03:58.160 --> 0:04:01.360 were they were two and three. They were literally babysitting 0:04:01.440 --> 0:04:04.800 themselves through these glass doors. Because we were doing a 0:04:04.800 --> 0:04:06.200 lot of things in here. We didn't really know what 0:04:06.200 --> 0:04:08.520 we got into. We just like setting up a cell phone, 0:04:08.600 --> 0:04:11.320 set up some cheap Amazon mics, and we didn't know 0:04:11.360 --> 0:04:14.200 each other, and we're like, fuck it, let's do it. 0:04:15.120 --> 0:04:18.000 Really because of Eric's calling to the podcast world, because 0:04:18.000 --> 0:04:20.960 I wasn't thinking about a fucking podcast, and I was 0:04:21.000 --> 0:04:23.479 just excited. I was in a transitional place in my life, 0:04:23.520 --> 0:04:26.040 and I was super excited to have a new friend 0:04:26.120 --> 0:04:27.880 and a new friend who had a baby, and that 0:04:27.960 --> 0:04:29.840 she was inviting me over and wanted to do stuff. 0:04:31.120 --> 0:04:32.880 I think by the time we started the show, I 0:04:32.920 --> 0:04:36.440 was a newly single and so I was really I 0:04:36.520 --> 0:04:40.000 really needed someone who understood where I was at. And 0:04:40.600 --> 0:04:43.000 I think that blind faith of like not knowing a 0:04:43.000 --> 0:04:45.680 bit at all and just saying, Okay, let's start a 0:04:45.839 --> 0:04:52.600 podcast aka business. And I don't know, like so much 0:04:52.680 --> 0:04:54.799 has happened since then. 0:04:54.839 --> 0:05:00.440 So much, so much has happened, and so much is 0:05:00.480 --> 0:05:01.119 still the same. 0:05:02.320 --> 0:05:05.960 This is a fact, you know, like we are still 0:05:06.320 --> 0:05:07.400 We're different but the same. 0:05:07.640 --> 0:05:11.440 Yeah, And if you just heard that airplane fly by, 0:05:11.520 --> 0:05:14.320 I'm having flashback moments of just the late nights and 0:05:14.400 --> 0:05:17.320 the airplanes flying by, and the gardeners and. 0:05:17.520 --> 0:05:21.720 All every time the gardeners would come when we started recording, 0:05:21.880 --> 0:05:24.400 the kids would fight and we would just tell them 0:05:24.440 --> 0:05:26.719 to figure it out. Even though there are two So 0:05:26.800 --> 0:05:34.200 many veggie tacos were made, so many vegetarian tacos, And 0:05:34.320 --> 0:05:36.120 remember that stage room to. We went to like an 0:05:36.160 --> 0:05:39.919 impossible burger stage and also a Portobello Burger for like 0:05:39.960 --> 0:05:44.880 one yeah, I like two weeks of burgers. We had COVID, 0:05:46.000 --> 0:05:49.880 which I spent most of my time here, and we 0:05:49.880 --> 0:05:51.960 were like thinking the world was gonna end, but also 0:05:52.080 --> 0:05:54.160 this is all we had, you know, we were thinking 0:05:54.160 --> 0:05:56.160 the world was going to end and the zombie apocalypse 0:05:56.240 --> 0:05:58.400 was happening. But for some reason we said, fuck it, 0:05:59.040 --> 0:06:03.320 let's just podcasts until the zombies come. 0:06:06.160 --> 0:06:10.080 Oh my god, if you are listening, I want to 0:06:10.120 --> 0:06:12.000 encourage you to go on YouTube so that you can 0:06:12.080 --> 0:06:13.800 take a gander. 0:06:14.400 --> 0:06:16.640 I don't even know if all the very very very 0:06:16.640 --> 0:06:19.839 beginning episodes are visual, but there are. There's definitely a 0:06:19.880 --> 0:06:25.800 bunch of us in this in this room on an iPhone, yeah, 0:06:25.839 --> 0:06:28.839 with one mic, oh yeah, one blue mic. First we 0:06:28.839 --> 0:06:31.760 had two Amazon mics, and the eventually gradge Nisha bought 0:06:31.800 --> 0:06:34.760 us one nice mic until it wasn't so nice anymore. 0:06:34.800 --> 0:06:37.839 And then we had you do you have to record 0:06:38.800 --> 0:06:42.880 that cord be sucking up? And then we moved to 0:06:42.960 --> 0:06:46.599 Eric because Mom's office because she had an empty room. 0:06:46.600 --> 0:06:48.919 But we can only go there on certain days and 0:06:48.960 --> 0:06:51.560 we can only smoke on certain days and that was 0:06:51.560 --> 0:06:54.479 the f grade. But we were also moving furniture every day, 0:06:54.920 --> 0:06:59.360 like couches and desks and in order to record there. 0:06:59.760 --> 0:07:01.600 And and that was like when we kind of got 0:07:01.600 --> 0:07:05.800 a team aka David, and we were there for like 0:07:06.839 --> 0:07:09.200 a year and a half. Yeah, we're there for a minute, 0:07:09.400 --> 0:07:11.680 I think. I think in twenty twenty we decided to 0:07:11.680 --> 0:07:13.120 go over there because there was not many people in 0:07:13.120 --> 0:07:15.640 the office. And then we stayed there until last year. 0:07:16.600 --> 0:07:19.600 And now we have been in our studio for one year, 0:07:20.280 --> 0:07:23.680 the studio that we own, Yes Good Good Media, Good 0:07:23.680 --> 0:07:27.480 Good Protections dot Com and it is our studio and 0:07:27.480 --> 0:07:30.520 it's the studio for you know, our podcast family that 0:07:30.560 --> 0:07:35.760 comes through. And I don't know, but bitches have grown. 0:07:35.880 --> 0:07:39.120 Bitch things have happened. Bitches have grown. We got a 0:07:39.160 --> 0:07:43.040 book and this is our old sign that was in 0:07:43.160 --> 0:07:46.480 all of our episode. We took this fucking sign everywhere everywhere, 0:07:46.520 --> 0:07:49.080 every day, El to Rito, We took it to the 0:07:49.080 --> 0:07:50.560 beach where we had to meet up one time. It 0:07:50.560 --> 0:07:53.760 doesn't even light up. It stopped lighting up like five 0:07:53.800 --> 0:07:55.680 minutes after we bought it, but that didn't stop us 0:07:55.680 --> 0:07:59.480 from bringing it everywhere. Oh my god, do you remember 0:07:59.480 --> 0:08:01.720 that time. What the fuck? I don't know what the 0:08:01.760 --> 0:08:03.480 event was, but we were doing some kind of arts 0:08:03.520 --> 0:08:05.440 and crafts and living room like a GMBO. Was that 0:08:05.520 --> 0:08:07.440 our first live show and thed like flowers on it? 0:08:07.520 --> 0:08:12.880 Oh yeah, we were making our own props. But you 0:08:12.920 --> 0:08:14.960 know what I will say, for two bitches, we didn't 0:08:14.960 --> 0:08:18.080 know each other very much, and we really obviously I 0:08:18.120 --> 0:08:20.040 just listened to a piece of that first episode. We 0:08:20.080 --> 0:08:21.400 didn't know what the fuck we were doing or what 0:08:21.440 --> 0:08:24.760 direction we were going on. We're like, yeah, we're single moms, 0:08:25.120 --> 0:08:27.160 and yeah, what are we gonna talk about? What are 0:08:27.160 --> 0:08:28.960 we gonna talk about? Oh? Yeah, I were moms and 0:08:29.000 --> 0:08:30.080 we're dating and stuff. 0:08:31.800 --> 0:08:35.320 Well, you know, this is the last real episode of 0:08:35.360 --> 0:08:39.880 the year, and so it felt it feels very full 0:08:39.920 --> 0:08:43.400 circle to be having this episode here. 0:08:44.200 --> 0:08:46.600 It's also our three hundredth episode. 0:08:46.640 --> 0:08:53.040 Three hundred times we sat down and spilled our guts. 0:08:53.240 --> 0:08:56.200 That's at least four hundred hours of I Met. I 0:08:56.240 --> 0:08:58.520 told you those four hundred hours I'm a fucking license 0:08:59.160 --> 0:09:01.520 podcast period. 0:09:02.679 --> 0:09:03.760 On top of this. 0:09:03.800 --> 0:09:14.000 Being our three hundredth episode, we are also transitioning next 0:09:14.040 --> 0:09:16.080 year and we've been talking about it with you guys 0:09:16.120 --> 0:09:20.320 for a while that we're going into seasons next year, 0:09:21.480 --> 0:09:26.880 which is crazy, Like we sat down every single week 0:09:26.960 --> 0:09:30.839 with you guys and chatted and learned so many things 0:09:30.840 --> 0:09:35.400 from so many people, and it's bittersweet, like bittersweet moment 0:09:35.760 --> 0:09:37.640 moving out of this house which I've lived in for 0:09:37.679 --> 0:09:39.480 the last nine years, and you guys have heard me 0:09:39.520 --> 0:09:42.440 talk about like just wanting to move on from this 0:09:42.520 --> 0:09:45.199 space and like feeling like I couldn't, feel like I 0:09:45.240 --> 0:09:48.320 couldn't afford it, and just now being in a different 0:09:48.320 --> 0:09:52.079 position where I can afford it because of sitting down 0:09:52.120 --> 0:09:56.400 here every single week and also knowing that like things 0:09:56.400 --> 0:09:58.679 have to change in that space as well, so that 0:09:58.880 --> 0:10:00.600 you know, we talked about this when we first announced 0:10:00.600 --> 0:10:03.000 this as like this integration that I'm excited to do. 0:10:03.080 --> 0:10:05.839 I've learned so many things. 0:10:06.200 --> 0:10:09.040 That I feel like I've yet to all the way 0:10:09.120 --> 0:10:12.320 be able to apply into my life because we're always 0:10:12.440 --> 0:10:16.080 like onto the next episode, in the next conversation. So 0:10:17.840 --> 0:10:20.880 it's like this bittersweet moment of like we've done this 0:10:21.000 --> 0:10:24.560 over and over and over again, and things are changing. 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:29.520 We've grown, our community has grown. You guys have literally 0:10:29.600 --> 0:10:34.960 grown individually listening to the show in your own lives, 0:10:35.040 --> 0:10:38.080 listening to other people's shows, maybe following some of the 0:10:38.120 --> 0:10:41.800 guests that we've introduced you to on the show, and 0:10:43.559 --> 0:10:47.280 it's just crazy to think about. It's like kind of emotional. 0:10:47.480 --> 0:10:48.840 Actually, I feel like. 0:10:48.800 --> 0:10:52.080 It's the evolution, the natural evolution of us just being 0:10:52.120 --> 0:10:54.199 aware and it's like we have put in a lot 0:10:54.200 --> 0:10:57.040 of work, in a lot of hours and just realizing, 0:10:57.120 --> 0:10:59.360 like in the beginning, it was about building, it was 0:10:59.400 --> 0:11:02.720 about expands, it was about getting the message out, and 0:11:02.760 --> 0:11:06.680 I think we've come to this realization that we've done 0:11:06.679 --> 0:11:10.600 a lot and in order to truly in order to 0:11:10.640 --> 0:11:13.680 truly like integrate all of the information and all of 0:11:13.720 --> 0:11:16.480 the things that we've done, we have to take some 0:11:16.640 --> 0:11:19.880 time for ourselves. And the only way we can do 0:11:19.920 --> 0:11:22.960 that is we stopped doing this every fucking week. It's 0:11:23.400 --> 0:11:28.840 quite literally impossible to completely think straight and be completely 0:11:28.840 --> 0:11:34.680 present when you have a full blown production, self funded production, 0:11:35.360 --> 0:11:41.600 being produced every week for independent podcasters five years. And 0:11:41.679 --> 0:11:45.200 that's the thing we are. We're independent podcasters. So I'd 0:11:45.200 --> 0:11:47.559 like to give us a pat on the back because 0:11:48.240 --> 0:11:53.880 we created this, we designed it, we branded it, we 0:11:53.920 --> 0:11:59.319 marketed it, we built it, we expanded it. It grew 0:11:59.600 --> 0:12:05.600 and that was all because of our marketing pr efforts 0:12:05.640 --> 0:12:09.040 and truly are like the fire and the desire that 0:12:09.280 --> 0:12:12.920 like something telling us to keep going and a lot 0:12:13.120 --> 0:12:15.600 of you know, first of all, podcasting is a very 0:12:15.600 --> 0:12:19.600 competitive space. You know, it's very difficult. There's millions of podcasts, 0:12:19.640 --> 0:12:22.120 and it's very difficult to become the top one percent 0:12:22.200 --> 0:12:24.840 or pop or top point five percent. Not to mention 0:12:24.960 --> 0:12:27.360 being black, not to mention being women. This is a 0:12:27.840 --> 0:12:33.200 definitely a predominantly white male industry and a lot of 0:12:33.200 --> 0:12:35.800 the podcasts that are successful are coming from people who 0:12:35.840 --> 0:12:39.040 are celebrities and have passed you know, influences or whatever 0:12:39.040 --> 0:12:43.520 the fuck. And a lot of those podcasts have support 0:12:43.559 --> 0:12:48.480 of networks and we don't. And we did one year 0:12:48.559 --> 0:12:50.960 like in the beginning, and it just didn't serve us. 0:12:50.960 --> 0:12:52.880 And so we've kind of like grassroots to it and 0:12:52.920 --> 0:12:55.720 we've grown this organically. And I think that's the most like, 0:12:55.760 --> 0:12:59.040 that's the most the most the thing I'm most proud of. 0:12:59.480 --> 0:13:01.400 You know, like we a lot of times it's hard 0:13:01.440 --> 0:13:03.400 to commit to some shit. I'm not a commitment type 0:13:03.400 --> 0:13:05.840 of bitch, but this is the most consistent I've ever 0:13:05.920 --> 0:13:07.600 showed up for anything in my life. 0:13:08.000 --> 0:13:10.560 I don't think that's true. Why I think that you 0:13:10.600 --> 0:13:12.400 are a commitment type of bitch. You've committed to a 0:13:12.440 --> 0:13:15.280 lot of things in the span of my time knowing you. 0:13:15.440 --> 0:13:18.760 Like I admitted to Tantra school, You've committed to a relationship, 0:13:18.880 --> 0:13:22.839 You've committed to podcasting, you've committed to being a good mom, 0:13:23.360 --> 0:13:26.280 You've committed, you've committed to your trades. Like you are, 0:13:26.679 --> 0:13:28.000 you are committed type of bitch. 0:13:28.200 --> 0:13:31.120 Okay, thinks yeah, but this is like when I think, 0:13:31.120 --> 0:13:33.800 sometimes there's not like a you're not gonna go to 0:13:33.840 --> 0:13:36.880 jail if your kid doesn't make it, or there's not 0:13:37.000 --> 0:13:41.199 an immediate If there's not an immediate how do you say, 0:13:41.320 --> 0:13:45.280 like an instant gratification, then sometimes it's hard to follow through. 0:13:45.760 --> 0:13:47.240 And it's been hard for me to follow through. And 0:13:47.240 --> 0:13:49.320 I guess, I guess there's things I've done that I 0:13:49.320 --> 0:13:52.080 haven't felt as passionate about, you know, because I did. 0:13:52.080 --> 0:13:53.520 I went to esthetician. I have a lot of trades, 0:13:53.520 --> 0:13:57.040 you guys. I'm a Jamaican. I went to ESTHETI I'm 0:13:57.080 --> 0:13:59.480 a licensed aesthetician. It started a business, but like and 0:13:59.520 --> 0:14:02.080 I loved it, but I just didn't feel super fulfilled 0:14:02.120 --> 0:14:05.480 doing that, you know, And yeah, motherhood, there's really not 0:14:05.520 --> 0:14:06.679 a lot of choices, even though there's a lot of 0:14:06.720 --> 0:14:09.760 there's a lot of eight shape parents, so yeah, choices. 0:14:10.880 --> 0:14:14.760 But I am really just in awe of all that 0:14:14.800 --> 0:14:17.160 we've created. It feels really good to be sitting in 0:14:17.160 --> 0:14:20.680 this space friend, where we started this, and like even 0:14:20.720 --> 0:14:24.480 on some personal shit, like I we and I individually 0:14:24.520 --> 0:14:29.680 together have been through some shit in this house. Literally 0:14:30.000 --> 0:14:35.520 cried and hugged and laughed and mushroomed and really like 0:14:35.600 --> 0:14:38.840 fell apart and built each other back up and melted 0:14:38.920 --> 0:14:42.200 down again, broke up with niggas and cheated on him 0:14:42.240 --> 0:14:45.680 and had a fucking fake relationship. Coach try and coach it. 0:14:47.320 --> 0:14:51.120 So many things, you know, but like COVID was dark 0:14:51.640 --> 0:14:54.720 for us, but then it was light. You know. I 0:14:54.720 --> 0:14:57.600 had a car repossessed out front, like the first year 0:14:57.640 --> 0:14:59.520 I knew Erica, and I was like, oh my god, 0:15:00.200 --> 0:15:02.240 and I like, I I didn't even like I couldn't 0:15:02.240 --> 0:15:04.200 even like I knew you, but I was like, ugh, 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:06.960 you know, like certain things do black people like, certain 0:15:07.000 --> 0:15:08.640 things in your business and your private But I didn't 0:15:08.640 --> 0:15:10.560 really have a choice but to react because bitch I'm 0:15:10.640 --> 0:15:13.720 right here. It's just so many things. I've slept in 0:15:13.760 --> 0:15:18.360 this bed, so many times together, so many naked outside 0:15:18.600 --> 0:15:25.160 fucking hangouts, just so many holidays, Mother's days. It's just 0:15:25.240 --> 0:15:28.640 been a fucking ride. 0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:32.320 And you know, for those listening, don't freak out. We're 0:15:32.320 --> 0:15:35.520 not like disappearing. We've prepared. We're prepared. 0:15:35.760 --> 0:15:37.160 You're going to see us on Patreon. 0:15:37.240 --> 0:15:40.280 You're going to get episodes still, it's just you're not 0:15:40.320 --> 0:15:44.000 going to get them on the regular platforms because they're 0:15:44.000 --> 0:15:44.480 not going. 0:15:44.360 --> 0:15:47.320 To be recorded weekly like we do now. 0:15:49.400 --> 0:15:52.400 So if you are a patron, I love you, and 0:15:52.480 --> 0:15:54.600 if you are not, I encourage you to go over 0:15:54.640 --> 0:15:56.400 there because that's really where we're going to be hanging 0:15:56.400 --> 0:15:58.160 out during the off season. That's where we're going to 0:15:58.200 --> 0:16:01.560 be having a lot more episodisodes, a lot more vulnerable 0:16:01.640 --> 0:16:04.120 conversations that you're not going to always hear on the 0:16:04.160 --> 0:16:09.280 regular pod. So if you've heard us talk about Patreon, 0:16:09.880 --> 0:16:11.920 this is the time, this is the time to join, 0:16:12.040 --> 0:16:16.000 because after December we're going into seasons, and then after 0:16:16.040 --> 0:16:19.760 that season is done, we're not going to be talking to. 0:16:19.720 --> 0:16:22.760 You live weekly and for free, for free. 0:16:22.960 --> 0:16:25.840 It's it's and it's a low ask. It's ten dollars 0:16:25.880 --> 0:16:28.520 a month for you to have access to. 0:16:29.120 --> 0:16:31.080 Our whole motherfucking line, our. 0:16:30.920 --> 0:16:35.360 Whole catalog, are all the bonus episodes, all of the 0:16:35.400 --> 0:16:37.440 more bonus episodes that we're going to be contributing to 0:16:37.440 --> 0:16:39.800 you guys, all of our blog posts that you didn't 0:16:39.800 --> 0:16:41.600 even know we were writing over there. But I've written 0:16:41.640 --> 0:16:43.200 a lot of shit over there. I've been crying a 0:16:43.200 --> 0:16:44.040 lot on Patreon. 0:16:44.080 --> 0:16:44.760 You didn't even know it. 0:16:44.760 --> 0:16:46.320 Because they don't post it on the regular feet. 0:16:46.320 --> 0:16:47.960 Because I'm a Scorpio. 0:16:50.440 --> 0:16:54.440 And it's ten dollars, and I think that you can 0:16:54.440 --> 0:16:57.560 do that, and I think that you'll feel really enriched 0:16:57.600 --> 0:16:59.200 by it, and I feel like you'll be really happy 0:16:59.240 --> 0:17:02.200 that you did it. And I'm really excited to expand 0:17:02.280 --> 0:17:04.879 our tribe over there because we have such an amazing 0:17:04.880 --> 0:17:06.119 Discord community already. 0:17:06.160 --> 0:17:08.160 Shout out to our tribe on Discord. 0:17:08.040 --> 0:17:12.000 Who you know are meeting up, who are connecting, who 0:17:12.040 --> 0:17:16.399 are sharing, who are educating, who are empowering one another, 0:17:17.080 --> 0:17:19.959 who are holding space for one another, holding space for 0:17:20.040 --> 0:17:22.280 us over there as well. When we're going through things 0:17:22.280 --> 0:17:24.840 and we need to ask the collective, YO, what the 0:17:24.880 --> 0:17:28.560 fuck do I do about this. There's so much value 0:17:28.560 --> 0:17:31.320 over there, So I hope that you'll join us over 0:17:31.320 --> 0:17:35.000 there during our off seasons, and I'm really excited for 0:17:35.840 --> 0:17:38.959 just the next the next news, the next second season. 0:17:39.040 --> 0:17:41.479 I guess that's it. Is it like season two? Like 0:17:41.560 --> 0:17:43.040 this is never ending? 0:17:43.160 --> 0:17:46.800 Long ass season one episodes. 0:17:47.080 --> 0:17:49.400 Maybe we did to break them down by year one is. 0:17:49.320 --> 0:17:53.760 Three hundred episodes and two is fifteen. 0:17:55.480 --> 0:18:00.280 Yeah, eleven a little uneven, But I mean, in shit, 0:18:00.400 --> 0:18:03.119 if you don't come on Patreon, you've got three hundred 0:18:03.119 --> 0:18:06.680 motherfucking episodes to go reference and when you're done with those, 0:18:06.720 --> 0:18:10.600 then you can come on over. But I don't. Yeah, 0:18:10.680 --> 0:18:14.560 I think there's going to be just a limited amount 0:18:14.560 --> 0:18:19.159 of access unless you are on Patreon, just because you know, 0:18:19.240 --> 0:18:21.119 not that I have any regrets by any means, but 0:18:21.280 --> 0:18:25.760 we've given a lot of ourselves just on the sake 0:18:25.840 --> 0:18:30.159 of like somebody will understand, and you know, there's a 0:18:30.160 --> 0:18:32.560 little bit, there's some scrutiny and there's some judgment, which 0:18:32.600 --> 0:18:36.560 always happens. But I wouldn't even go so far as 0:18:36.560 --> 0:18:38.560 to say as to the expense of our mental health, 0:18:38.600 --> 0:18:41.600 because we don't really give a fuck. I would like 0:18:41.680 --> 0:18:45.840 to say just the expense of our mental health. But 0:18:45.880 --> 0:18:48.239 it's not even it because boy, oh boy, are we 0:18:48.320 --> 0:18:51.560 some zero fucks given type of bitches. Wait, I'm like 0:18:51.640 --> 0:19:00.199 slipping Jesus. Okay, but yeah, I think all things this 0:19:00.280 --> 0:19:03.639 must come to a semi end. And so we're really 0:19:03.800 --> 0:19:07.359 kindly asking inviting you to evolve with us to the 0:19:07.440 --> 0:19:12.280 next you know, the next stage, because there are a 0:19:12.280 --> 0:19:16.600 lot of things happening. We are continuing to evolve, and 0:19:17.200 --> 0:19:19.600 if you don't join Patreon, you have the opportunity to 0:19:19.680 --> 0:19:22.640 maybe catch us on a retreat in twenty twenty five, 0:19:22.760 --> 0:19:27.080 because all the twenty twenty four ones are sold. 0:19:26.320 --> 0:19:34.520 Out except bright our first domestic retreat. Yes, we're finally 0:19:34.560 --> 0:19:37.280 bringing a retreat to ghetto ass America. 0:19:37.359 --> 0:19:41.080 That's for you, felons and non passport holders. This is 0:19:41.080 --> 0:19:41.359 for you. 0:19:43.160 --> 0:19:46.000 This retreat is for the moms. This one is really 0:19:46.040 --> 0:19:49.480 for the moms. It is a Mother's Day creative retreat. 0:19:50.000 --> 0:19:53.200 Don't worry, we won't capture you on actual Mother's Day. 0:19:53.280 --> 0:19:55.359 You will spend the weekend with us, and then we 0:19:55.400 --> 0:19:58.880 will send you back on Sunday, back to your families 0:19:58.880 --> 0:20:04.240 and your kids. Rejuvenated, reactivated, and inspired, creative, creatively. 0:20:04.880 --> 0:20:07.240 Yes, This is for creative moms. 0:20:07.560 --> 0:20:11.160 So the retreat is going to be Mother's Day weekend 0:20:12.080 --> 0:20:16.160 in Atlanta, our favorite place because we kind of. 0:20:16.080 --> 0:20:17.080 Pop it in Atlantic. 0:20:17.320 --> 0:20:19.120 We are way more than we are in LA. Love 0:20:19.200 --> 0:20:21.439 us in Atlanta, and I love the bitches not so 0:20:21.520 --> 0:20:26.639 much in LA. And it's really a space for you 0:20:26.920 --> 0:20:30.639 to bring your ideas. I think as women, and as 0:20:31.160 --> 0:20:35.360 as as women and as mothers, we are the birthers 0:20:35.359 --> 0:20:35.640 of so. 0:20:35.640 --> 0:20:40.439 Many things, right children, he is. 0:20:42.119 --> 0:20:47.600 Ideas, and I think sometimes we don't give a lot 0:20:47.600 --> 0:20:50.560 of attention to our creative ideas because we're so busy 0:20:50.760 --> 0:20:52.720 nurturing everything else that we've created. 0:20:53.200 --> 0:20:55.360 So this retreat is really for. 0:20:55.600 --> 0:20:58.280 The women that have that idea that they've been sitting 0:20:58.280 --> 0:21:00.199 on for a long time that they've been scared to 0:21:00.240 --> 0:21:03.520 share with their friends or family, or they feel judged. 0:21:03.800 --> 0:21:05.600 This is for the woman that's maybe already started the 0:21:05.640 --> 0:21:08.560 business but needs more help, needs more guidance, needs more support. 0:21:09.359 --> 0:21:13.040 We're going to have some really amazing facilitators and experts 0:21:13.119 --> 0:21:17.440 that will be attending the retreat to support your creativity, 0:21:17.480 --> 0:21:20.680 including us, And of course we're going to do some 0:21:20.840 --> 0:21:24.280 wellness witchy shit, because it wouldn't be a good vibe retreat. 0:21:24.280 --> 0:21:27.840 Without that, well, you can't really be creative if you're 0:21:27.880 --> 0:21:30.520 not well. I don't know if you've noticed, but you 0:21:30.560 --> 0:21:33.000 get creative blocks because you're not taking care of yourself. 0:21:33.040 --> 0:21:35.879 You have to be in a like your nervous system 0:21:35.920 --> 0:21:37.760 needs to be regulated to even start to begin to 0:21:37.800 --> 0:21:40.160 think of ideas or else you're just thinking about survival. 0:21:40.800 --> 0:21:43.840 And a lot of the times the ideas and the 0:21:43.880 --> 0:21:47.879 creative things are the things that manifest the means to survival. 0:21:47.920 --> 0:21:49.680 But you have to be able to be clear enough 0:21:50.160 --> 0:21:52.040 to fucking sit in it to figure it out. And 0:21:52.040 --> 0:21:55.160 sometimes it requires a friend or eight friends or people 0:21:55.200 --> 0:21:58.600 on the same with like minded ideas. You know, it's hard. 0:21:58.720 --> 0:22:01.920 Sometimes people have friends who just don't have the same mentality, 0:22:01.960 --> 0:22:05.040 they're not thinking the same And sometimes it becomes you 0:22:05.119 --> 0:22:07.520 become a product of your environment and of your friends, 0:22:08.040 --> 0:22:12.159 and sometimes you want more. And you know, we we 0:22:12.280 --> 0:22:14.679 do a lot of shit, but it's all based in 0:22:14.720 --> 0:22:16.840