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Speaker 1: like say the night, you can just pull up and

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Speaker 1: it will it will be It's like there will be workshops,

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Speaker 1: but they will al also be playing, because you know,

439
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Speaker 1: these two bitches believe in play. So make sure you

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Speaker 1: click the link in this episode description and put you

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Speaker 1: down your deposit, because this.

442
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Speaker 3: Retreat will sell out.

443
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Speaker 2: It's not like our other retreats where we have like

444
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Speaker 2: twenty five spots and multiple retreats happening.

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Speaker 1: One weekend, one house, one weekend, one house. I think

446
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Speaker 1: maybe ten spots. Yeah, And this is the only retreat

447
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Speaker 1: that so far is not sold out in twenty twenty four.

448
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Speaker 2: So I'm excited because it's just a different vibe, it's

449
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Speaker 2: a different energy, and I have some ideas too that

450
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Speaker 2: I need some input in, so come through and join

451
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Speaker 2: us in Atlanta Mother's Day weekend, which is what weekend

452
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Speaker 2: is that?

453
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Speaker 1: So the retreats may tenth through the twelfth. It's a quickie.

454
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Speaker 1: It's a weekend retreat. We release you right before Mother's Day.

455
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Speaker 1: On Mother's Day, you'll be rejuvenated. It's in Atlanta, it's

456
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Speaker 1: centrally located. You don't need a passport. It's affordable, and

457
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Speaker 1: really it's an investment in your creative juices that will

458
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Speaker 1: create million dollar ideas.

459
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Speaker 3: Bam baby.

460
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Speaker 2: Speaking of which, speaking of creative juices and just manifesting

461
00:25:04,560 --> 00:25:09,160
Speaker 2: and energy, Hagany Taro sent me the cutest motherfucking deck

462
00:25:09,200 --> 00:25:12,959
Speaker 2: I've ever seen. How all and tiny this deck is.

463
00:25:13,119 --> 00:25:15,800
Speaker 2: It's like, have you seen a cuter deck? I don't

464
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Speaker 2: think so.

465
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Speaker 1: It's a travel deck for your purse, so you can

466
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Speaker 1: bust it out as like I'd like to bust out

467
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Speaker 1: mine as a party trick at parties, like, oh god,

468
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Speaker 1: I have in my purse it's so cute. Look and

469
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Speaker 1: then I pull out Biddy Taro because I don't remember

470
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Speaker 1: all seventy two.

471
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Speaker 2: Well, I promised the tribe that after our first season

472
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Speaker 2: is over, we will be Taro queens and we won't

473
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Speaker 2: use biddy and we've The way we're gonna do this

474
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Speaker 2: is we're going to divide and conquer.

475
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Speaker 1: Fifth thirty six each.

476
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Speaker 2: Miila's gonna learn half, I'm learn half, and then we'll

477
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Speaker 2: seventy courses card.

478
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Speaker 1: If we're not together, we're fucked. We're just gonna have

479
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Speaker 1: a call, say, are you busy? I have a question.

480
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Speaker 1: I'm at a party during my party trick, but I

481
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Speaker 1: don't I don't know this card. It's not my suit.

482
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Speaker 3: Okay, so should we pick one the High Priestess?

483
00:26:12,440 --> 00:26:15,440
Speaker 1: She looks balanced the High Priestess.

484
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Speaker 3: I don't know if you can see it because she's

485
00:26:16,760 --> 00:26:20,080
Speaker 3: so tiny and petite. She's a little baby.

486
00:26:23,040 --> 00:26:25,080
Speaker 2: But we'll get back to that at the end of

487
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Speaker 2: the episode. See what that energy is trying to tell us.

488
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Speaker 2: Speaking of episodes and first first episode, So our first

489
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Speaker 2: episode of our show was called sex, Apps and Kids,

490
00:26:41,920 --> 00:26:43,560
Speaker 2: and that's.

491
00:26:43,440 --> 00:26:46,000
Speaker 1: What we talked about. Yeah, I talked about sex, we

492
00:26:46,000 --> 00:26:48,600
Speaker 1: talked about our kids, and we talked about dating apps.

493
00:26:50,280 --> 00:26:53,399
Speaker 2: And it's so funny because it's so funny full circle

494
00:26:53,440 --> 00:26:58,320
Speaker 2: moments how they go because I'm back on apps, still

495
00:26:58,359 --> 00:27:02,960
Speaker 2: have my kid because I kept her alive somehow and

496
00:27:03,440 --> 00:27:06,160
Speaker 2: sex is I don't know. I don't know what sex

497
00:27:06,280 --> 00:27:09,159
Speaker 2: is right now, but I was thinking about the title

498
00:27:09,160 --> 00:27:10,959
Speaker 2: of that and like where I'm at now, and like

499
00:27:11,280 --> 00:27:14,360
Speaker 2: you're back. I'm back on sex apps and kids and

500
00:27:14,920 --> 00:27:18,960
Speaker 2: how my perspective on dating apps is vastly different than

501
00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:21,680
Speaker 2: it was when we started our show because.

502
00:27:22,280 --> 00:27:25,239
Speaker 1: I was totally.

503
00:27:26,600 --> 00:27:31,440
Speaker 2: Traumatized from my relationship, and so apps were perfect because

504
00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:33,720
Speaker 2: I was just looking to have casual sex.

505
00:27:34,040 --> 00:27:36,639
Speaker 1: Like I only wanted like pretty.

506
00:27:36,440 --> 00:27:40,000
Speaker 2: Much one night stands or just like maybe like little

507
00:27:40,040 --> 00:27:42,960
Speaker 2: flings for four month periods.

508
00:27:42,640 --> 00:27:44,520
Speaker 1: At a time. I just wanted to feel pretty. I

509
00:27:44,560 --> 00:27:49,920
Speaker 1: want to I wanted to feel yeah, yeah, you want

510
00:27:49,960 --> 00:27:52,040
Speaker 1: to feel at tension. I mean we both were there.

511
00:27:52,080 --> 00:27:54,479
Speaker 1: And that's the crazy part about this podcast. And just

512
00:27:54,520 --> 00:27:58,159
Speaker 1: like every stage and evolution, every fuck up, every cycle,

513
00:27:58,200 --> 00:28:01,560
Speaker 1: every long cycle, it was just like in the beginning,

514
00:28:01,560 --> 00:28:06,880
Speaker 1: we were just on some let's fuck, no strings attached,

515
00:28:07,320 --> 00:28:09,760
Speaker 1: you know. It was very clear, like we're going on dates,

516
00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:11,280
Speaker 1: and we're gonna go on dates, We're gonna fuck, and

517
00:28:11,280 --> 00:28:12,160
Speaker 1: we're gonna have fun.

518
00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:14,080
Speaker 3: We're gonna talk about we're gonna talk about.

519
00:28:13,840 --> 00:28:16,399
Speaker 1: It about every single one on the Hinge. There was

520
00:28:16,440 --> 00:28:19,640
Speaker 1: a whole season. We were just screenshotting hinged accounts and

521
00:28:19,800 --> 00:28:22,640
Speaker 1: sharing them like fuck that people had faces.

522
00:28:22,880 --> 00:28:25,520
Speaker 3: There was no close friends then no, so we were.

523
00:28:25,440 --> 00:28:29,440
Speaker 1: Just like ha, we were kind of mean. We'd talking

524
00:28:29,440 --> 00:28:31,639
Speaker 1: about dates and like dates. He went on that they

525
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:34,679
Speaker 1: didn't want to pay for valet, like we were very particular.

526
00:28:35,359 --> 00:28:38,160
Speaker 1: Men with roommates, men with dogs. And then we dated

527
00:28:38,200 --> 00:28:40,000
Speaker 1: a nigga with the dog. And we dated all of

528
00:28:40,040 --> 00:28:43,000
Speaker 1: those people. After we talked about all of them, after

529
00:28:43,040 --> 00:28:45,520
Speaker 1: we knew that those are not our people, we still

530
00:28:46,000 --> 00:28:47,000
Speaker 1: dated a nigga with a.

531
00:28:47,040 --> 00:28:49,920
Speaker 3: Dog, dated niggas with roommates.

532
00:28:50,440 --> 00:28:52,000
Speaker 1: All types of shit, all types of shit were saying,

533
00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:54,400
Speaker 1: we're gonna do dated people who are just not compatible

534
00:28:54,400 --> 00:28:56,480
Speaker 1: in a lot of ways. But like his dick will

535
00:28:56,520 --> 00:29:00,880
Speaker 1: work soon. It's gonna work soon, it's gonna come. It's

536
00:29:00,920 --> 00:29:06,560
Speaker 1: not me. We we try to be lesbian. You try

537
00:29:06,600 --> 00:29:11,040
Speaker 1: to be lesbian. I did that. We we tried some threesomes,

538
00:29:12,080 --> 00:29:14,560
Speaker 1: We had goddess experience. We started a couple of businesses.

539
00:29:15,680 --> 00:29:17,160
Speaker 1: But you know what I was thinking the other day,

540
00:29:17,280 --> 00:29:22,560
Speaker 1: I was just thinking about time and like, even as

541
00:29:23,040 --> 00:29:27,440
Speaker 1: I think people get this interesting perception of women, free women,

542
00:29:27,680 --> 00:29:31,560
Speaker 1: you know, and that were just wild, that we're reckless,

543
00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:34,000
Speaker 1: that we just are hoes. You want to fuck everything.

544
00:29:34,360 --> 00:29:36,719
Speaker 1: And I'm just just coming to this like wild conclusion

545
00:29:36,800 --> 00:29:39,719
Speaker 1: that like I have a free woman, I am a

546
00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:42,440
Speaker 1: sexual woman, like I'm a sexual being. I'm okay with

547
00:29:42,560 --> 00:29:44,479
Speaker 1: leading with that. It doesn't mean I want to fuck everyone,

548
00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:48,320
Speaker 1: But at this age in my life, a lot of

549
00:29:48,360 --> 00:29:54,240
Speaker 1: times like if you were doing it mindfully, sex, if

550
00:29:54,280 --> 00:29:57,840
Speaker 1: you evolve emotionally and spiritually, sex is a part of that,

551
00:29:58,080 --> 00:30:01,280
Speaker 1: you know, if you're mindful about all things that encompass you.

552
00:30:01,640 --> 00:30:03,800
Speaker 1: And I just realized, like how frustrating it is. I

553
00:30:03,800 --> 00:30:05,600
Speaker 1: mean not for me, like I'm in a very sex

554
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:10,600
Speaker 1: step relationship, but just in general for women. I was

555
00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:12,920
Speaker 1: just thinking for women like me that may not be

556
00:30:12,960 --> 00:30:16,280
Speaker 1: in relationships, and who I would be right now if

557
00:30:16,320 --> 00:30:18,000
Speaker 1: I wasn't in a relationship. You guys, I've been in

558
00:30:18,000 --> 00:30:21,760
Speaker 1: a relationship for almost two years, which is a fucking wow.

559
00:30:23,640 --> 00:30:25,800
Speaker 1: Me and Orlando have known each other from three years

560
00:30:26,360 --> 00:30:30,200
Speaker 1: meeting in a podcast. But like, if I don't if

561
00:30:30,200 --> 00:30:32,160
Speaker 1: this wasn't for this relationship, I don't think i'd be

562
00:30:32,240 --> 00:30:34,120
Speaker 1: pressed about a relationship. Maybe I would want one, but

563
00:30:34,160 --> 00:30:39,320
Speaker 1: I'm not the type to like prioritize that, but I

564
00:30:39,360 --> 00:30:42,760
Speaker 1: was thinking about being a spiritually evolved woman, a woman

565
00:30:42,800 --> 00:30:46,240
Speaker 1: and also a sexual woman. It's hard out here because

566
00:30:46,240 --> 00:30:48,440
Speaker 1: you could be free and you could really be like

567
00:30:48,560 --> 00:30:51,120
Speaker 1: I do want to fuck, but you want to have

568
00:30:51,320 --> 00:30:55,160
Speaker 1: at least this one good conversation. I need to know

569
00:30:55,200 --> 00:30:57,600
Speaker 1: that you have a little smart and like the fucked

570
00:30:57,640 --> 00:30:59,360
Speaker 1: up thing is there's not a lot of smart people

571
00:30:59,600 --> 00:31:02,160
Speaker 1: and so prevents us from being hose anyway. So people

572
00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:04,160
Speaker 1: are on the internet like you're a slut, and it's

573
00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:07,720
Speaker 1: like I wish, but the niggas are too dumb, you know.

574
00:31:07,800 --> 00:31:09,360
Speaker 1: It's like I don't even like certain people don't even

575
00:31:09,440 --> 00:31:13,080
Speaker 1: need a lot. But it's like the basics. So many

576
00:31:13,240 --> 00:31:21,280
Speaker 1: men are missing, just basic shit like conversation, interest, Can

577
00:31:21,360 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 1: you be interesting? Can you have a job? Can you

578
00:31:25,880 --> 00:31:26,280
Speaker 1: not lie?

579
00:31:26,640 --> 00:31:28,760
Speaker 2: No? But I think I think it's like if they

580
00:31:28,760 --> 00:31:31,240
Speaker 2: have a job, then that's that's their claim to fame.

581
00:31:32,040 --> 00:31:34,320
Speaker 1: I have a car and a job, right, everything is

582
00:31:34,360 --> 00:31:38,880
Speaker 1: soapd I don't hit women who sign me up, Jake, Like,

583
00:31:39,000 --> 00:31:42,160
Speaker 1: what the fuck? It's so crazy? Like the bar is

584
00:31:42,280 --> 00:31:45,200
Speaker 1: hella lo for niggas and as a like, women evolve

585
00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:47,760
Speaker 1: faster anyway. And if you're like the women are waking

586
00:31:47,840 --> 00:31:49,960
Speaker 1: up right now, so we are. If you so choose,

587
00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:53,520
Speaker 1: if you were like listening remotely to your intuition, if

588
00:31:53,600 --> 00:31:57,560
Speaker 1: you start to choose intention and mindfulness, even being a

589
00:31:57,640 --> 00:32:03,040
Speaker 1: liberated and sexual woman, it's hard out here. You can't

590
00:32:03,040 --> 00:32:05,320
Speaker 1: even be liberated. You could just be lib. You can

591
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:06,880
Speaker 1: live lib, just like you could just live.

592
00:32:06,960 --> 00:32:08,600
Speaker 2: Either you're gonna be lib or you're gonna be rated.

593
00:32:08,960 --> 00:32:13,040
Speaker 2: You're probably gonna be rated, be rated rated. One thing's

594
00:32:13,080 --> 00:32:14,080
Speaker 2: for sures you're gonna be rated.

595
00:32:14,160 --> 00:32:16,240
Speaker 1: And it's so crazy. It's just because like there's so

596
00:32:16,280 --> 00:32:18,800
Speaker 1: many assumptions about women and how they carry themselves and

597
00:32:18,840 --> 00:32:20,680
Speaker 1: what they should do with their bodies that no one

598
00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:23,040
Speaker 1: else owns but us, and how issues are pussies and

599
00:32:23,040 --> 00:32:26,080
Speaker 1: if we're worthy, and like the amount of comments I

600
00:32:26,120 --> 00:32:30,720
Speaker 1: got on this fucking dick, sucking, fucking one sentence from

601
00:32:30,760 --> 00:32:33,200
Speaker 1: the book every day I read it, and I'm like,

602
00:32:33,360 --> 00:32:35,640
Speaker 1: oh my god, I don't every day this come up?

603
00:32:35,800 --> 00:32:38,680
Speaker 1: Like the men. We give the people context, So I

604
00:32:38,720 --> 00:32:40,920
Speaker 1: say in the there's a chapter in the book where

605
00:32:40,920 --> 00:32:43,680
Speaker 1: I talk about like being like three weeks postpartum, and

606
00:32:44,160 --> 00:32:47,960
Speaker 1: it was like a very like clear moment for me

607
00:32:48,040 --> 00:32:50,160
Speaker 1: because I was holding my baby. I was like not

608
00:32:50,240 --> 00:32:52,720
Speaker 1: knowing who the fuck I was, and my fucking baby

609
00:32:52,800 --> 00:32:56,120
Speaker 1: daddy was like basically like can I give him some head?

610
00:32:56,560 --> 00:32:58,240
Speaker 1: And at that moment, I was like, what the fuck

611
00:32:58,240 --> 00:33:01,520
Speaker 1: are you talking about? Like that's I just felt. I

612
00:33:01,560 --> 00:33:04,800
Speaker 1: felt like at that point the purpose of being a

613
00:33:04,840 --> 00:33:07,560
Speaker 1: woman was to give yourself to other people. I was

614
00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:10,160
Speaker 1: milking a child, I just pushed her through my pussy,

615
00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:12,160
Speaker 1: and this nigga was asking me for head. So I

616
00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:14,720
Speaker 1: just didn't feel like I existed. And so it's a

617
00:33:14,880 --> 00:33:18,440
Speaker 1: very like thirty second clip. But the nigga is in

618
00:33:18,480 --> 00:33:21,360
Speaker 1: the comments is like, I'm not saying all men are

619
00:33:21,400 --> 00:33:25,600
Speaker 1: like this, but it's a really clear indication. I'm just

620
00:33:25,600 --> 00:33:28,440
Speaker 1: gonna go right and say it. The mental illness that's

621
00:33:28,560 --> 00:33:33,440
Speaker 1: running rampant amongst men, and like they're blatant disregard for

622
00:33:33,560 --> 00:33:37,400
Speaker 1: women and for our feelings and really for our humanity.

623
00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:38,400
Speaker 3: And like they're.

624
00:33:39,880 --> 00:33:47,160
Speaker 2: There authority or this faux authority they feel over our

625
00:33:47,240 --> 00:33:50,520
Speaker 2: bodies and the access they feel like they should have

626
00:33:50,560 --> 00:33:54,520
Speaker 2: to our bodies because we've chosen to have a baby

627
00:33:54,560 --> 00:33:57,720
Speaker 2: with them, or we've chosen a relationship partnership with.

628
00:33:57,640 --> 00:33:59,600
Speaker 1: Them, but they don't know what partnership means. That means

629
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:03,120
Speaker 1: serve me with your mouth and you're pussy and if

630
00:34:03,120 --> 00:34:05,360
Speaker 1: you don't, I'll get an So many people were like, oh, well,

631
00:34:05,520 --> 00:34:07,800
Speaker 1: just just cheat on her like everybody else, I'll just

632
00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:10,799
Speaker 1: this nigga was like, somebody else will do it. I

633
00:34:10,800 --> 00:34:12,399
Speaker 1: looked at the picture of the nigga. I said, Nigga,

634
00:34:12,440 --> 00:34:15,279
Speaker 1: nobody's sucking your dick, not a single bit. I mean,

635
00:34:15,320 --> 00:34:19,680
Speaker 1: that's always that's justly the case. But I also would

636
00:34:19,920 --> 00:34:23,839
Speaker 1: I also know for sure that a lot of those

637
00:34:23,840 --> 00:34:27,520
Speaker 1: people that were commenting would never in a million years

638
00:34:27,760 --> 00:34:31,440
Speaker 1: say that shit to their partner's face. Would never like

639
00:34:31,560 --> 00:34:33,719
Speaker 1: they are perpetrating on the GRAM and.

640
00:34:35,560 --> 00:34:39,160
Speaker 2: Putting on this mask for their partner of this supportive

641
00:34:39,640 --> 00:34:42,920
Speaker 2: baby daddy or whatever the fuck. And at the end

642
00:34:42,960 --> 00:34:45,360
Speaker 2: of the day, people just want to have opinions.

643
00:34:45,560 --> 00:34:47,920
Speaker 1: I don't even know if some of these people really.

644
00:34:47,640 --> 00:34:48,319
Speaker 3: Feel this way.

645
00:34:48,320 --> 00:34:49,719
Speaker 1: No, I no, no, I think they do. I think

646
00:34:49,760 --> 00:34:51,800
Speaker 1: some of them do. But I do think that people

647
00:34:51,920 --> 00:34:55,080
Speaker 1: just like to just have an apillarizing opinion. Yeah, I

648
00:34:55,120 --> 00:34:57,120
Speaker 1: just like to have an opinion. The scary part is

649
00:34:57,160 --> 00:34:59,239
Speaker 1: I think they wholeheardly believe it. And the scarier part

650
00:34:59,320 --> 00:35:01,520
Speaker 1: is I looked at some of those polarphiles. Some of

651
00:35:01,560 --> 00:35:04,719
Speaker 1: those niggas had kids and wives, and that's even scarier.

652
00:35:05,080 --> 00:35:07,680
Speaker 1: The scarier part is you are procreating me with someone

653
00:35:07,880 --> 00:35:10,719
Speaker 1: and there's a bitch dumbino. I mean, let me go back,

654
00:35:10,760 --> 00:35:13,320
Speaker 1: because I'm the bitch of dumb enough haha, that would

655
00:35:13,320 --> 00:35:16,920
Speaker 1: actually be me. Bitch is dumb enough to have kids

656
00:35:17,239 --> 00:35:21,520
Speaker 1: with people who are disregarding of them as humans. And

657
00:35:21,719 --> 00:35:23,799
Speaker 1: I just say this all because yes, I was one

658
00:35:23,840 --> 00:35:25,480
Speaker 1: of those people. I had a child with someone I

659
00:35:25,560 --> 00:35:27,319
Speaker 1: knew for a very long time. But that was not

660
00:35:27,440 --> 00:35:30,719
Speaker 1: nice to me, and that was disrespectful and was completely

661
00:35:30,760 --> 00:35:33,120
Speaker 1: oblivious of anything that I was saying. I think we

662
00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:35,799
Speaker 1: were speaking two different languages, honestly. But the point is,

663
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:38,719
Speaker 1: it's just like I wish it. I mean, obviously, I

664
00:35:38,760 --> 00:35:40,359
Speaker 1: had a baby when I'm twenty seven. I'm thirty five

665
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:42,799
Speaker 1: years old, and the things I know now because I've

666
00:35:42,800 --> 00:35:45,279
Speaker 1: had this experience, I would have never known then. But

667
00:35:45,360 --> 00:35:49,279
Speaker 1: I just like, I hope our podcast is fun and

668
00:35:49,360 --> 00:35:52,320
Speaker 1: it's free and we play and we joke and we're silly,

669
00:35:52,400 --> 00:35:55,920
Speaker 1: we really are. But overall, our goal when we started

670
00:35:55,920 --> 00:35:59,799
Speaker 1: this was a to do whatever the fuck you want

671
00:36:00,000 --> 00:36:01,839
Speaker 1: because the niggas are going to judge you anyway. Bitches

672
00:36:01,880 --> 00:36:04,880
Speaker 1: are going to judge you too, But also like prioritize

673
00:36:04,960 --> 00:36:06,759
Speaker 1: who the fuck you are and what you want to

674
00:36:06,800 --> 00:36:09,640
Speaker 1: do for you so that some guy that you think

675
00:36:09,680 --> 00:36:12,720
Speaker 1: you're in love with can't come give you fifty percent

676
00:36:12,760 --> 00:36:14,680
Speaker 1: of your needs and then you accept it as a

677
00:36:14,680 --> 00:36:17,400
Speaker 1: gold when it's shit. And I think that is the

678
00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:20,480
Speaker 1: message is like the value we have in ourselves. You

679
00:36:20,600 --> 00:36:25,480
Speaker 1: cannot ask someone else to value you and then abide

680
00:36:25,560 --> 00:36:27,719
Speaker 1: by that. It is only up to you to appraise

681
00:36:28,480 --> 00:36:33,680
Speaker 1: your existence and what your level of respect and what

682
00:36:33,719 --> 00:36:35,400
Speaker 1: a relationship looks like to you. Because I see a

683
00:36:35,440 --> 00:36:38,799
Speaker 1: lot of bitches being with the niggas just to have

684
00:36:38,840 --> 00:36:43,160
Speaker 1: a warm body, And it's scary because that's how you die.

685
00:36:43,520 --> 00:36:46,000
Speaker 1: While you're still alive, share a bed or a house

686
00:36:46,200 --> 00:36:49,160
Speaker 1: or close proximity with a nigga or a person who

687
00:36:49,200 --> 00:36:53,160
Speaker 1: doesn't really care about your evolution and doesn't care about

688
00:36:53,160 --> 00:36:55,759
Speaker 1: their own evolution, and you will see yourself become sick.

689
00:36:55,960 --> 00:36:57,839
Speaker 2: Yeah, well, they don't care about your feelings, they don't

690
00:36:57,880 --> 00:37:01,080
Speaker 2: care about your experience they haven't even done the research

691
00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:04,319
Speaker 2: to even try to understand what that experience could possibly be,

692
00:37:04,560 --> 00:37:08,320
Speaker 2: especially like with the act of like pregnancy and birth.

693
00:37:08,360 --> 00:37:12,919
Speaker 2: I feel like men really missed the mark there, and

694
00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:16,719
Speaker 2: they don't take the time to really educate themselves or

695
00:37:16,760 --> 00:37:20,959
Speaker 2: ask any questions. They're just so and happy that their

696
00:37:21,239 --> 00:37:23,840
Speaker 2: semen worked and now it's.

697
00:37:23,680 --> 00:37:26,600
Speaker 1: Time to go provide or whatever the fuck. And even

698
00:37:27,200 --> 00:37:28,759
Speaker 1: God's questionable.

699
00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:32,320
Speaker 2: You know, to really understand, like what is this transition

700
00:37:32,360 --> 00:37:33,920
Speaker 2: that my partner is going to go through after this?

701
00:37:34,120 --> 00:37:41,200
Speaker 2: Like she's literally building population humans and it's an act

702
00:37:41,200 --> 00:37:46,600
Speaker 2: of God. Like our wombs are portals for real, you guys,

703
00:37:46,880 --> 00:37:51,600
Speaker 2: Like for real, Like, if you're a man listening and

704
00:37:51,640 --> 00:37:54,360
Speaker 2: you are with your woman, you are sitting next to

705
00:37:54,560 --> 00:37:57,960
Speaker 2: a goddess with a portal inside of her fucking body.

706
00:37:58,120 --> 00:38:02,200
Speaker 2: Please inquire about that. Please inquire about what that feels

707
00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:05,879
Speaker 2: like for her, how her body, how her emotions might

708
00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:10,280
Speaker 2: change or shifts as her body starts to create another

709
00:38:10,440 --> 00:38:13,600
Speaker 2: human who possibly also might be a portal for the

710
00:38:13,640 --> 00:38:17,880
Speaker 2: next generation as well. Like it's just it's just a

711
00:38:17,960 --> 00:38:22,160
Speaker 2: lack of respect I think for just who women are

712
00:38:22,360 --> 00:38:24,719
Speaker 2: in this society, and you know, and that's not to

713
00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:28,040
Speaker 2: take away from like the man's role, because you're the

714
00:38:28,120 --> 00:38:30,560
Speaker 2: men are obviously very important.

715
00:38:30,120 --> 00:38:34,440
Speaker 1: Too, And it's just we have to both respect and

716
00:38:34,520 --> 00:38:37,640
Speaker 1: acknowledge our roles. There's a balance. It's the yin and

717
00:38:37,680 --> 00:38:39,640
Speaker 1: the yang, and we cannot have one without the other.

718
00:38:39,760 --> 00:38:41,680
Speaker 1: But it does not work if one is thinking they're

719
00:38:41,719 --> 00:38:45,640
Speaker 1: support superior or an ownership of the other. There is

720
00:38:45,680 --> 00:38:48,960
Speaker 1: a level of respect and freedom that has to exist

721
00:38:49,120 --> 00:38:54,320
Speaker 1: in order for us to alchemize and manifest in birth

722
00:38:55,360 --> 00:39:01,960
Speaker 1: healthy shit. And yeah, it's just I know in that

723
00:39:02,000 --> 00:39:04,160
Speaker 1: first episode we were trying to figure out what the

724
00:39:04,160 --> 00:39:06,120
Speaker 1: fuck or why we were starting a podcast, and it

725
00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:11,279
Speaker 1: was about single motherhood and now I'm not single. But

726
00:39:12,400 --> 00:39:15,879
Speaker 1: the message overall is I think we weren't really we weren't.

727
00:39:15,880 --> 00:39:17,680
Speaker 1: We were had an idea, but we were like, let's

728
00:39:17,680 --> 00:39:19,880
Speaker 1: start first and figure it out later. And what we

729
00:39:19,960 --> 00:39:24,080
Speaker 1: figured out is that actually figured it out that we

730
00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:32,600
Speaker 1: are visual examples of giving permission to be and maybe

731
00:39:32,600 --> 00:39:35,160
Speaker 1: you need some woman needed like the visual or the

732
00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:40,560
Speaker 1: audio expression of what zero fucks given looks like when

733
00:39:40,600 --> 00:39:43,160
Speaker 1: it comes to outside opinion. And even we are, you know,

734
00:39:43,200 --> 00:39:46,520
Speaker 1: plagued by being human and sometimes we question ourselves and

735
00:39:46,600 --> 00:39:48,440
Speaker 1: if we're doing too much or if that can come

736
00:39:48,480 --> 00:39:48,960
Speaker 1: off smart.

737
00:39:49,440 --> 00:39:55,360
Speaker 2: I think that like everyone including us, need visual examples.

738
00:39:55,680 --> 00:39:56,640
Speaker 1: Or else you don't know exist.

739
00:39:56,760 --> 00:40:02,040
Speaker 2: It's like I'm still like I'm in awe of particular

740
00:40:02,120 --> 00:40:04,960
Speaker 2: women that I've unlocked things that I have yet to unlock.

741
00:40:05,120 --> 00:40:06,719
Speaker 3: Do you know what I mean? Like it doesn't just

742
00:40:06,800 --> 00:40:07,880
Speaker 3: stop here.

743
00:40:08,520 --> 00:40:11,880
Speaker 2: And I think about our first episode, and like the

744
00:40:11,880 --> 00:40:16,680
Speaker 2: fact that you're single and you're not single and I

745
00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:19,440
Speaker 2: am single, And I think about where I was as

746
00:40:19,440 --> 00:40:23,680
Speaker 2: a single mom in twenty eighteen versus where I'm at

747
00:40:23,719 --> 00:40:27,560
Speaker 2: as a single mom in twenty twenty three, and where

748
00:40:27,560 --> 00:40:31,600
Speaker 2: my mindset is, and how vastly different I think.

749
00:40:31,680 --> 00:40:35,680
Speaker 1: But also like some of the core values that I've.

750
00:40:35,560 --> 00:40:38,799
Speaker 2: Always had I always knew that I wanted there still exists.

751
00:40:39,239 --> 00:40:40,480
Speaker 1: But what.

752
00:40:42,280 --> 00:40:46,520
Speaker 2: I'm willing to, how I'm willing to, I guess a

753
00:40:49,160 --> 00:40:53,800
Speaker 2: share myself with people is completely different. Like me dating

754
00:40:53,840 --> 00:40:57,000
Speaker 2: now versus me dating then is completely different. The value

755
00:40:57,080 --> 00:41:00,640
Speaker 2: that I have for my body and my womb and

756
00:41:01,040 --> 00:41:05,320
Speaker 2: energetic exchange, the energetic exchange that happens is vastly different.

757
00:41:05,640 --> 00:41:07,640
Speaker 2: Back then, I didn't really give a fuck.

758
00:41:07,880 --> 00:41:10,439
Speaker 1: Well, because you've cultivated a weark. It was a fuck given,

759
00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:11,800
Speaker 1: like I gave some fucks.

760
00:41:12,040 --> 00:41:15,480
Speaker 2: Yeah, but I was more so ready for the I

761
00:41:15,560 --> 00:41:17,640
Speaker 2: was so I was ready for the experience.

762
00:41:17,680 --> 00:41:20,040
Speaker 3: I just wanted the experience. It wasn't even.

763
00:41:19,880 --> 00:41:23,279
Speaker 2: About like the love or anything, and eventually it grew

764
00:41:23,320 --> 00:41:25,759
Speaker 2: into that, but I just wanted the experience because I

765
00:41:25,800 --> 00:41:29,920
Speaker 2: needed to feel something, because I felt so fucking numb

766
00:41:30,320 --> 00:41:34,600
Speaker 2: coming into our show. And that's really what the journey

767
00:41:34,640 --> 00:41:38,759
Speaker 2: has been, is the unnumbing. You've literally watched me and

768
00:41:38,840 --> 00:41:43,960
Speaker 2: Jamila like dethaw ourselves out like I was a numb

769
00:41:44,000 --> 00:41:48,200
Speaker 2: ass bitch then and young, and I love I love

770
00:41:48,239 --> 00:41:51,360
Speaker 2: that version of myself and I hear our episodes like

771
00:41:52,400 --> 00:41:54,520
Speaker 2: it makes me smile, like I don't feel like any

772
00:41:54,560 --> 00:41:56,680
Speaker 2: sort of sadness about it. I'm like, Wow, look at

773
00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:59,680
Speaker 2: this woman about to fucking transform this shit.

774
00:42:00,160 --> 00:42:03,439
Speaker 1: Get her about to just.

775
00:42:03,239 --> 00:42:08,400
Speaker 2: Make all the bad make all the bad choices, but

776
00:42:08,600 --> 00:42:14,960
Speaker 2: ultimately rise and create a life that she could have

777
00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:20,319
Speaker 2: never imagined that she'd create, all because she said, I

778
00:42:20,320 --> 00:42:21,920
Speaker 2: don't really care. I'm just going to say the thing.

779
00:42:21,960 --> 00:42:25,840
Speaker 2: I'm not going to cradle anyone's ego except my own. Really,

780
00:42:26,640 --> 00:42:29,000
Speaker 2: and even like the unmasking of what that is and

781
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:31,680
Speaker 2: like the questioning of my own ego and just and

782
00:42:31,680 --> 00:42:33,440
Speaker 2: that's what I'm talking about when we're talking about the

783
00:42:33,480 --> 00:42:39,920
Speaker 2: integration that we need to do transitioning into doing seasons

784
00:42:40,160 --> 00:42:43,799
Speaker 2: is like, yeah, Like, there's been a lot that has

785
00:42:43,960 --> 00:42:48,680
Speaker 2: happened on this show that has really changed my perspective,

786
00:42:49,320 --> 00:42:53,720
Speaker 2: and I owe it to myself to really allow myself

787
00:42:53,760 --> 00:42:56,040
Speaker 2: to go I want to go back through I'm going

788
00:42:56,120 --> 00:42:58,759
Speaker 2: to go back through our show and really listen to

789
00:42:58,840 --> 00:43:01,480
Speaker 2: the to myself and to you and to our guests,

790
00:43:02,120 --> 00:43:06,560
Speaker 2: and give myself that time to really take in the

791
00:43:06,600 --> 00:43:11,440
Speaker 2: medicine that we accidentally gave so many people, including ourselves.

792
00:43:12,480 --> 00:43:15,480
Speaker 1: You know, there's an embodiment that has to happen. Sometimes

793
00:43:15,520 --> 00:43:19,480
Speaker 1: we're just it's logical, you know, it's intellectual. We're processing information,

794
00:43:19,600 --> 00:43:22,680
Speaker 1: but we're not embodying it, and we're not truly Like

795
00:43:22,760 --> 00:43:25,640
Speaker 1: when you get fed a lot of information, it's hard

796
00:43:25,680 --> 00:43:29,200
Speaker 1: sometimes to actually put that into practice, and so it's necessary.

797
00:43:29,360 --> 00:43:33,120
Speaker 1: But nonetheless, like there has been a shit ton of

798
00:43:33,160 --> 00:43:36,439
Speaker 1: embodiment because there's been so much growth.

799
00:43:36,160 --> 00:43:38,440
Speaker 3: It's been embodiment beyond I think even our control.

800
00:43:38,640 --> 00:43:40,160
Speaker 1: Oh y, honest, when you sit.

801
00:43:40,080 --> 00:43:43,840
Speaker 2: In the energies and the frequencies of people and guests.

802
00:43:43,920 --> 00:43:45,319
Speaker 3: You automatically, it.

803
00:43:45,280 --> 00:43:48,480
Speaker 2: Just rubs off, and you keep agreeing every week to

804
00:43:48,560 --> 00:43:51,080
Speaker 2: sit down and question and talk and share.

805
00:43:51,880 --> 00:43:52,560
Speaker 3: It just happens.

806
00:43:52,600 --> 00:43:55,160
Speaker 1: It's the intention, the intention that I'm going to commit

807
00:43:55,200 --> 00:43:57,480
Speaker 1: to doing something that I'm interested in, that I can

808
00:43:57,560 --> 00:44:01,280
Speaker 1: gain it knowledge and education from and things that really

809
00:44:01,320 --> 00:44:04,600
Speaker 1: ignite me, you know, like this whole Like I'm saying

810
00:44:04,600 --> 00:44:08,080
Speaker 1: this not because we're super huge fucking glowed up, like

811
00:44:08,200 --> 00:44:09,360
Speaker 1: we glew up and.

812
00:44:09,200 --> 00:44:13,080
Speaker 3: We I ain't even done all the glow up yet.

813
00:44:13,160 --> 00:44:16,440
Speaker 1: No, it's lowd. This is like thirty percent, and I'm

814
00:44:16,440 --> 00:44:18,520
Speaker 1: proud of the thirty percent. These are things And I

815
00:44:18,560 --> 00:44:22,880
Speaker 1: was like, oh shit, However, it took a long time,

816
00:44:23,440 --> 00:44:24,880
Speaker 1: and I don't want anyone to look at this and

817
00:44:24,880 --> 00:44:26,360
Speaker 1: be like, oh these been Like you really got to

818
00:44:26,360 --> 00:44:28,200
Speaker 1: go back on the all three hundred thesepisodes because there's

819
00:44:28,200 --> 00:44:32,960
Speaker 1: a lot of mistakes happening habitually. This particularly for me,

820
00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:38,200
Speaker 1: and like that self worth, that self love that like

821
00:44:38,600 --> 00:44:41,400
Speaker 1: listening to your gut. You fuck up a lot, you know,

822
00:44:41,880 --> 00:44:44,360
Speaker 1: you fuck up a lot, but even in the fucking

823
00:44:44,400 --> 00:44:47,759
Speaker 1: app I'm still choosing. I'm like I chose I fucked up,

824
00:44:47,760 --> 00:44:49,440
Speaker 1: and I chose to fuck up, but I still know

825
00:44:49,840 --> 00:44:53,120
Speaker 1: what I really want is that like that version of me,

826
00:44:53,200 --> 00:44:54,960
Speaker 1: And even if I continue to fuck up, I'm never

827
00:44:55,000 --> 00:45:00,440
Speaker 1: gonna stop aiming for that part, you know. And I

828
00:45:00,080 --> 00:45:02,160
Speaker 1: I was just there was things I was just doing

829
00:45:02,320 --> 00:45:04,160
Speaker 1: just to do it. Like I was bored. I didn't

830
00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:06,719
Speaker 1: have the baby, and I was trying to feel you know,

831
00:45:06,800 --> 00:45:09,000
Speaker 1: and I didn't want to feel alone, and I didn't

832
00:45:09,000 --> 00:45:12,000
Speaker 1: want to admit that I was feeling lonely, so instead

833
00:45:12,040 --> 00:45:17,520
Speaker 1: I just over killed with people that didn't mean shit,

834
00:45:18,160 --> 00:45:21,080
Speaker 1: not you know, but just like weren't just didn't mean shit,

835
00:45:21,800 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 1: just being bored and on some fuck shit numbing. And

836
00:45:25,160 --> 00:45:26,440
Speaker 1: it took me a really long time to get out

837
00:45:26,440 --> 00:45:28,080
Speaker 1: of that process. And you probably hear me cry about

838
00:45:28,080 --> 00:45:30,400
Speaker 1: this like four hundred times in the last three hundred episodes.

839
00:45:31,080 --> 00:45:33,960
Speaker 1: But it's really nice to see that once you really

840
00:45:34,160 --> 00:45:37,160
Speaker 1: even the commitment to it, even though there's some bumps

841
00:45:37,160 --> 00:45:41,040
Speaker 1: in the road that there is, when you're consistent about

842
00:45:41,280 --> 00:45:47,680
Speaker 1: who the fuck you are, it shows up. Yeah, it is,

843
00:45:47,960 --> 00:45:48,319
Speaker 1: it is.

844
00:45:50,800 --> 00:45:55,680
Speaker 2: I do want whoever's listening to really know that it's

845
00:45:55,760 --> 00:45:59,520
Speaker 2: like this shit, It didn't happen fast, and it's still

846
00:45:59,560 --> 00:46:04,480
Speaker 2: not happened fast. You know, like be patient with yourself

847
00:46:04,520 --> 00:46:07,840
Speaker 2: and your evolution and just as long as you show

848
00:46:07,920 --> 00:46:11,080
Speaker 2: up and you it's in the doing. And that's like

849
00:46:11,120 --> 00:46:13,560
Speaker 2: been the I think the magic of like this in

850
00:46:13,600 --> 00:46:17,319
Speaker 2: particular has allowed me to realize that I just have

851
00:46:17,400 --> 00:46:19,319
Speaker 2: to keep doing it. If I just keep doing it,

852
00:46:19,400 --> 00:46:21,120
Speaker 2: I'm going to do something.

853
00:46:21,160 --> 00:46:22,920
Speaker 1: I'm going to figure it out. Yeah, something are going

854
00:46:22,960 --> 00:46:23,359
Speaker 1: to get done.

855
00:46:23,480 --> 00:46:25,800
Speaker 2: Yeah, whether that's I'm going to keep doing this relationship

856
00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:27,239
Speaker 2: over and over and over until I finally I'm like,

857
00:46:27,239 --> 00:46:28,839
Speaker 2: all right, this is done. I'm going to keep doing

858
00:46:28,880 --> 00:46:31,040
Speaker 2: this task over and over and over until I know

859
00:46:31,080 --> 00:46:34,160
Speaker 2: how to do that better than I did before. I'm

860
00:46:34,200 --> 00:46:36,799
Speaker 2: going to keep doing podcasting and talking over and over

861
00:46:36,840 --> 00:46:39,440
Speaker 2: and over again until I feel like I finally resolve

862
00:46:39,480 --> 00:46:42,600
Speaker 2: whatever that thing is I hadn't said out loud ever,

863
00:46:43,719 --> 00:46:48,280
Speaker 2: Like it's in the doing, and I'm just so happy

864
00:46:48,360 --> 00:46:49,840
Speaker 2: that we did.

865
00:46:49,680 --> 00:46:51,759
Speaker 1: It and that we've continued to do it.

866
00:46:52,960 --> 00:47:00,839
Speaker 2: And as women and nurturers, it's so important to acknowledge that,

867
00:47:01,000 --> 00:47:03,320
Speaker 2: acknowledge all the things that you've been able to create

868
00:47:04,040 --> 00:47:08,160
Speaker 2: and take a second and really dive into what that

869
00:47:08,280 --> 00:47:12,680
Speaker 2: means for you and check in and have people around

870
00:47:12,719 --> 00:47:15,560
Speaker 2: you that are going to be able to help push

871
00:47:15,640 --> 00:47:18,319
Speaker 2: you forward and have the frequency that you need in

872
00:47:18,400 --> 00:47:21,200
Speaker 2: order to make better choices, because I could have just

873
00:47:21,280 --> 00:47:24,360
Speaker 2: continued to make bad choices. But the people that held

874
00:47:24,400 --> 00:47:26,680
Speaker 2: me and the people that we've interviewed over the last

875
00:47:26,719 --> 00:47:29,560
Speaker 2: five years, me and Jamila just like being together and

876
00:47:29,600 --> 00:47:31,560
Speaker 2: then also going out into the world and coming back

877
00:47:31,560 --> 00:47:35,360
Speaker 2: with new information and sharing. Those have been the things

878
00:47:35,440 --> 00:47:37,920
Speaker 2: that I think have and will continue.

879
00:47:38,440 --> 00:47:40,520
Speaker 3: Please God to.

880
00:47:42,680 --> 00:47:49,360
Speaker 2: Make us feel and be successful in every regard, whatever

881
00:47:49,400 --> 00:47:50,600
Speaker 2: that means to you or to me.

882
00:47:50,840 --> 00:48:02,120
Speaker 1: And also I think the vulnerability, the commitment to undressing

883
00:48:02,320 --> 00:48:06,160
Speaker 1: and laying down the layers in front of people, not

884
00:48:06,200 --> 00:48:08,560
Speaker 1: really in front of people, because thankfully there's really no

885
00:48:08,640 --> 00:48:13,080
Speaker 1: people to people. But we don't understand. I don't think

886
00:48:13,120 --> 00:48:16,840
Speaker 1: we have a clear visual of how many people are

887
00:48:16,880 --> 00:48:19,400
Speaker 1: listening to us say the things we say. And it

888
00:48:19,480 --> 00:48:22,200
Speaker 1: wasn't always this many people, so there was a comfort

889
00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:27,560
Speaker 1: level and no fucks left that said I'm gonna come up,

890
00:48:27,719 --> 00:48:30,680
Speaker 1: I'm gonna show up honest and as I am. And

891
00:48:30,719 --> 00:48:35,520
Speaker 1: I think for some people, a lot of women feel

892
00:48:35,520 --> 00:48:40,000
Speaker 1: like you can only be certain things and if I

893
00:48:40,040 --> 00:48:42,360
Speaker 1: delve into this, I'm gonna be too much and I

894
00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:44,080
Speaker 1: can't take up space, or I have to be really

895
00:48:44,080 --> 00:48:46,279
Speaker 1: good at this, or else I'm not valuable here, or

896
00:48:46,280 --> 00:48:48,439
Speaker 1: I have to go to college and clock into this job.

897
00:48:48,520 --> 00:48:53,280
Speaker 1: Like we are so multifaceted, we have to stop worrying

898
00:48:53,280 --> 00:48:56,760
Speaker 1: about how other people will perceive it, because the creator

899
00:48:56,840 --> 00:49:00,000
Speaker 1: made us as multifaceted and as beautiful and this whole

900
00:49:00,080 --> 00:49:03,080
Speaker 1: as we are. And it's in the embodying and embracing

901
00:49:03,120 --> 00:49:05,279
Speaker 1: that without the care of other people. I think where

902
00:49:05,320 --> 00:49:09,720
Speaker 1: the beauty comes in. Because this is a very untraditional

903
00:49:10,480 --> 00:49:14,399
Speaker 1: claim to fame, a very untraditional message in this time.

904
00:49:14,480 --> 00:49:17,840
Speaker 1: You know, Western society has kind of like put women

905
00:49:17,880 --> 00:49:20,520
Speaker 1: on the back burner and kind of put us all

906
00:49:20,560 --> 00:49:22,920
Speaker 1: in this category that we have to show up a

907
00:49:22,920 --> 00:49:28,080
Speaker 1: certain way, especially as mothers. And it's just important to

908
00:49:28,120 --> 00:49:32,560
Speaker 1: remember you only when when you were completely comfortable with

909
00:49:32,600 --> 00:49:36,360
Speaker 1: being you. Do you think your ancestors did all this

910
00:49:36,440 --> 00:49:38,440
Speaker 1: shit for you to just behalf of you?

911
00:49:38,840 --> 00:49:41,400
Speaker 2: I feel like whenever when well, the things you hear

912
00:49:41,440 --> 00:49:45,560
Speaker 2: people say when they're about to die or just in

913
00:49:45,680 --> 00:49:48,399
Speaker 2: like whether that they're old or about to die, it's

914
00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:52,440
Speaker 2: always like I wish I just said yes more. I

915
00:49:52,560 --> 00:49:54,920
Speaker 2: always wish I just didn't really give a fuck what

916
00:49:54,960 --> 00:49:57,400
Speaker 2: other people thought. I really wish that I just like

917
00:49:58,000 --> 00:50:02,080
Speaker 2: did that idea, I said, fuck it. You know, it's

918
00:50:02,120 --> 00:50:05,360
Speaker 2: never like I wish I played small. I really wish

919
00:50:05,440 --> 00:50:07,440
Speaker 2: that I let Bobby tell me who the fuck I

920
00:50:07,480 --> 00:50:11,480
Speaker 2: should be. He was right, like, not even I know,

921
00:50:11,719 --> 00:50:16,399
Speaker 2: but like it's like, it's that, it's it's always that.

922
00:50:16,480 --> 00:50:21,880
Speaker 2: It's the same shit every fucking time. Listen to your elders.

923
00:50:22,040 --> 00:50:25,080
Speaker 2: Listen to if you have a grandparent that is on

924
00:50:25,320 --> 00:50:28,440
Speaker 2: her deathbed, go ask her some shit for real, because

925
00:50:28,480 --> 00:50:33,200
Speaker 2: I really feel like we play so small and are

926
00:50:33,480 --> 00:50:36,680
Speaker 2: and like there's no there's no reason to. It's all

927
00:50:36,760 --> 00:50:39,959
Speaker 2: out of fear of judgment of people that you don't

928
00:50:40,080 --> 00:50:43,600
Speaker 2: leave this earth with, that will might leave this earth

929
00:50:43,640 --> 00:50:45,920
Speaker 2: before you, and you've allowed them to tell you who

930
00:50:45,960 --> 00:50:46,279
Speaker 2: you are.

931
00:50:46,760 --> 00:50:50,760
Speaker 1: Well, that's why it's important to be in the circle

932
00:50:50,960 --> 00:50:54,520
Speaker 1: of the people that you feel the most comfortable being you.

933
00:50:54,960 --> 00:50:56,719
Speaker 1: And we were talking about this with our friend last

934
00:50:56,800 --> 00:51:00,239
Speaker 1: night and she was saying, how and Joshua treat she

935
00:51:00,600 --> 00:51:03,920
Speaker 1: this is her this was her visual of it. She's like,

936
00:51:03,960 --> 00:51:06,080
Speaker 1: I felt like, you know, those you know, those animals

937
00:51:06,080 --> 00:51:10,080
Speaker 1: with no hair, like those those furless cats. That's how

938
00:51:10,080 --> 00:51:14,480
Speaker 1: I felt, like no armor like bear. And she's like

939
00:51:14,560 --> 00:51:16,120
Speaker 1: and I can't think of any other place where I

940
00:51:16,120 --> 00:51:18,799
Speaker 1: could have been that way. But with you, you know,

941
00:51:18,880 --> 00:51:22,120
Speaker 1: but with you all, like our group of friends, and

942
00:51:22,160 --> 00:51:26,279
Speaker 1: we do like we give ourselves this like divine like

943
00:51:26,880 --> 00:51:29,759
Speaker 1: freedom to show up in all the ways, support us

944
00:51:29,760 --> 00:51:32,279
Speaker 1: through that and like also be human, you know. And

945
00:51:32,320 --> 00:51:34,839
Speaker 1: it's like not a lot of people people will say

946
00:51:34,840 --> 00:51:39,240
Speaker 1: in relationships French platonic relationships too, that you're not energized

947
00:51:39,239 --> 00:51:41,440
Speaker 1: by you don't be you're not fulfilled by, you know.

948
00:51:41,480 --> 00:51:44,120
Speaker 1: And I was thinking, like it is powerful to be

949
00:51:44,160 --> 00:51:49,800
Speaker 1: able to congregate in emotional support and spiritual support and

950
00:51:50,440 --> 00:51:54,200
Speaker 1: together asking the ancestors to guide us and to acknowledge

951
00:51:54,280 --> 00:51:59,279
Speaker 1: the things, and like that is what's important. Cultivating the

952
00:51:59,320 --> 00:52:01,920
Speaker 1: group that makes you be able to do that personally

953
00:52:02,320 --> 00:52:05,239
Speaker 1: and so you feel confident taking that out into the world. Right,

954
00:52:05,520 --> 00:52:07,400
Speaker 1: if you have friends or parents or whatever that you

955
00:52:07,440 --> 00:52:10,640
Speaker 1: are constantly around or planning seeds of doubt about who

956
00:52:10,680 --> 00:52:13,360
Speaker 1: you are, you're going to be insecure when you go

957
00:52:13,440 --> 00:52:14,120
Speaker 1: out into the world.

958
00:52:14,160 --> 00:52:15,799
Speaker 2: We have to have people that will allow you to

959
00:52:15,840 --> 00:52:20,799
Speaker 2: stretch right and like and sometimes it's stretching. Is that

960
00:52:20,800 --> 00:52:22,920
Speaker 2: that's what That's the funny thing about elasticity is that

961
00:52:23,000 --> 00:52:25,520
Speaker 2: sometimes it comes back. You know, you're not you might

962
00:52:25,520 --> 00:52:27,439
Speaker 2: expand and be like, you know what, Like, actually, I've

963
00:52:27,480 --> 00:52:28,360
Speaker 2: realized that that's not for me.

964
00:52:28,400 --> 00:52:29,279
Speaker 1: I'm going to come back here.

965
00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:30,880
Speaker 2: And I think it's important for your friend, you to

966
00:52:30,920 --> 00:52:33,960
Speaker 2: have friends that allow you to play in that space,

967
00:52:34,080 --> 00:52:37,480
Speaker 2: to play in the stretch and decide this is where

968
00:52:37,520 --> 00:52:40,680
Speaker 2: I want to be today and actually change your mind.

969
00:52:40,880 --> 00:52:43,880
Speaker 1: I'm this, I'm this today, and know that that is

970
00:52:43,920 --> 00:52:46,759
Speaker 1: your right and that is okay. We are malleable and

971
00:52:46,920 --> 00:52:49,680
Speaker 1: like trusting me. There's plenty of shit we said in

972
00:52:49,719 --> 00:52:53,160
Speaker 1: these last three hundred episodes that we probably would be like,

973
00:52:53,200 --> 00:52:54,719
Speaker 1: what the fuck are we talking about? I don't know

974
00:52:54,719 --> 00:52:57,319
Speaker 1: why I said that. We were open relationship, we were

975
00:52:57,360 --> 00:52:59,680
Speaker 1: poly we had all types of we were ethical sluts.

976
00:53:00,200 --> 00:53:02,720
Speaker 1: We but the thing is we were willing to play

977
00:53:02,719 --> 00:53:05,400
Speaker 1: and explore and to learn and be like and to

978
00:53:05,480 --> 00:53:08,239
Speaker 1: try and then be like, no, that's not for me.

979
00:53:08,400 --> 00:53:11,840
Speaker 1: And I did say those things that Probabishan said, But

980
00:53:12,080 --> 00:53:14,520
Speaker 1: I'm not an expert and I'm a human as are

981
00:53:14,560 --> 00:53:17,319
Speaker 1: all of you. We are flawed and you're allowed to

982
00:53:17,400 --> 00:53:20,239
Speaker 1: fuck up. And I never thought that my whole job

983
00:53:20,280 --> 00:53:22,560
Speaker 1: would be telling people that they're allowed to fuck up,

984
00:53:23,040 --> 00:53:26,600
Speaker 1: because duh, but here we are thank God, I mean

985
00:53:26,640 --> 00:53:29,160
Speaker 1: not thank God. More people just need to wake up. Yeah,

986
00:53:29,200 --> 00:53:32,120
Speaker 1: but like you know, like the judgment, the shame, the

987
00:53:32,160 --> 00:53:37,439
Speaker 1: beating up of yourself, the you know, the questioning, love

988
00:53:37,440 --> 00:53:41,160
Speaker 1: yourself like you love God. Be gentle with yourself, the

989
00:53:41,160 --> 00:53:46,560
Speaker 1: way you're gentle with your child. It's okay. You are

990
00:53:46,600 --> 00:53:49,160
Speaker 1: not perfect. You are allowed to say the wrong thing.

991
00:53:49,719 --> 00:53:52,000
Speaker 1: You are allowed to suck the wrong dick. It will happen.

992
00:53:52,040 --> 00:53:54,360
Speaker 1: It is inevitable. If you're sucking dick, you're going to

993
00:53:54,440 --> 00:53:55,160
Speaker 1: suck the wrong one.

994
00:53:55,640 --> 00:53:56,800
Speaker 3: You know, you got to start somewhere.

995
00:53:58,040 --> 00:54:01,160
Speaker 1: But it's in the fucking up and the fucking, the

996
00:54:01,160 --> 00:54:04,440
Speaker 1: sucking in the that you start to hopefully want to

997
00:54:05,320 --> 00:54:05,759
Speaker 1: set the.

998
00:54:05,719 --> 00:54:07,440
Speaker 2: Right dick, that the right dick, or maybe you don't

999
00:54:07,440 --> 00:54:09,200
Speaker 2: want to set dick at all, suck, maybe dick is

1000
00:54:09,200 --> 00:54:09,799
Speaker 2: not even your thing.

1001
00:54:09,960 --> 00:54:12,440
Speaker 1: Maybe like pussy, you know what, but you should You

1002
00:54:12,760 --> 00:54:14,239
Speaker 1: don't never know until you try it.

1003
00:54:14,440 --> 00:54:17,480
Speaker 3: Absolutely, this is a life metaphor.

1004
00:54:18,360 --> 00:54:21,520
Speaker 1: It is amusing sexual and windows. But this is for everything.

1005
00:54:22,280 --> 00:54:25,240
Speaker 2: But it's true on all fronts, whether you're dick sucking

1006
00:54:25,640 --> 00:54:29,279
Speaker 2: or fucking choosing a job or fucking moving out of

1007
00:54:29,280 --> 00:54:31,880
Speaker 2: the country and saying, fuck this place. I'm changing my

1008
00:54:31,920 --> 00:54:32,840
Speaker 2: whole life tomorrow.

1009
00:54:33,080 --> 00:54:37,280
Speaker 1: Like you gotta try it, You gotta try it. Nothing

1010
00:54:37,640 --> 00:54:42,759
Speaker 1: ever came to a dream or but a dream make moves.

1011
00:54:43,960 --> 00:54:46,200
Speaker 1: It's Mike Tyson, weed is this is Mike Tyson?

1012
00:54:46,880 --> 00:54:49,040
Speaker 3: Can we address the elephant in the room.

1013
00:54:49,160 --> 00:54:52,800
Speaker 2: I don't know if anyone's I don't know if anyone's noticed here,

1014
00:54:53,320 --> 00:54:56,239
Speaker 2: but Jamila and I are wearing matching outfits but in

1015
00:54:56,280 --> 00:54:59,640
Speaker 2: different colors. And no, this is not our shop, this

1016
00:54:59,719 --> 00:55:01,720
Speaker 2: is not These are not our clothes. These are actually

1017
00:55:01,719 --> 00:55:05,960
Speaker 2: our friends clothes. And you should check out Vintage Souls

1018
00:55:06,080 --> 00:55:08,719
Speaker 2: because it's a woman owned and her shit is really

1019
00:55:08,760 --> 00:55:11,760
Speaker 2: bombed and it's luxury and it's bougie.

1020
00:55:11,760 --> 00:55:15,680
Speaker 1: But more importantly, I don't know. I'll tell you what happened.

1021
00:55:15,719 --> 00:55:17,120
Speaker 1: I came in here with my aphod on and she

1022
00:55:17,120 --> 00:55:19,840
Speaker 1: said should I put mine on too? I came in

1023
00:55:19,880 --> 00:55:21,839
Speaker 1: here with my apod on and she said, I'm gonna

1024
00:55:21,840 --> 00:55:24,960
Speaker 1: put mine on too, and proceeded too. And I said whatever.

1025
00:55:25,040 --> 00:55:27,200
Speaker 2: We came out, We're like, we asked, everyone, is this weird?

1026
00:55:27,239 --> 00:55:29,680
Speaker 2: And then they all said no, no, like perfect.

1027
00:55:30,800 --> 00:55:32,040
Speaker 1: Shout out to vintage.

1028
00:55:31,680 --> 00:55:33,560
Speaker 2: Souls, because we knew if they said it was weird,

1029
00:55:33,560 --> 00:55:35,319
Speaker 2: we still were going to wear it. So they just said,

1030
00:55:35,560 --> 00:55:37,319
Speaker 2: let me just know, let me disagree, because they're gonna

1031
00:55:37,320 --> 00:55:39,000
Speaker 2: do it anyway, and if I say no, they're gonna curse.

1032
00:55:38,840 --> 00:55:41,919
Speaker 1: Me out going to No one's changing. So I don't

1033
00:55:41,960 --> 00:55:43,720
Speaker 1: even know why we asked. I don't know why bitches

1034
00:55:43,719 --> 00:55:45,560
Speaker 1: do that. Why do we ask people when we know

1035
00:55:45,600 --> 00:55:48,359
Speaker 1: what the answer is. You want someone to agree with us?

1036
00:55:49,239 --> 00:55:49,560
Speaker 1: You know what?

1037
00:55:49,640 --> 00:55:51,160
Speaker 2: You know how to make the wrong decision, ask a

1038
00:55:51,160 --> 00:55:53,320
Speaker 2: bunch of motherfuckers. That's how you make the wrong decision,

1039
00:55:53,600 --> 00:55:55,440
Speaker 2: asking people too many fucking questions.

1040
00:55:55,480 --> 00:55:57,680
Speaker 1: I wrote that in my book, Yeah, a good Mom's

1041
00:55:57,680 --> 00:55:59,879
Speaker 1: guy to making bad choices. I say something like that,

1042
00:56:00,920 --> 00:56:04,640
Speaker 1: Oh it's true. Yeah, so use our code g NBC

1043
00:56:04,800 --> 00:56:10,839
Speaker 1: if you want to be a triplet with this. She's

1044
00:56:10,880 --> 00:56:13,879
Speaker 1: like the official good Mom's wardrobes. We were a lot

1045
00:56:13,880 --> 00:56:18,200
Speaker 1: of her ship. Good thing you have famous friends. I'm oh,

1046
00:56:18,200 --> 00:56:21,000
Speaker 1: my god, speaking of famous, I'm just joking. But I

1047
00:56:21,040 --> 00:56:24,200
Speaker 1: went to breakfast with my mom over the weekend. I

1048
00:56:24,200 --> 00:56:26,560
Speaker 1: looked like shit, I literally just rolled out of the bed.

1049
00:56:27,560 --> 00:56:29,480
Speaker 1: Did we do something the other night? I had make up?

1050
00:56:29,520 --> 00:56:34,320
Speaker 1: Maybe it was just our episode. I think it is recorded.

1051
00:56:35,520 --> 00:56:38,080
Speaker 1: I don't know, but anyway, were I drink wine? I

1052
00:56:38,080 --> 00:56:42,160
Speaker 1: don't know. I went to Black House in North Hollywood.

1053
00:56:42,280 --> 00:56:45,799
Speaker 1: It's the black owned restaurants and like brunches. The most

1054
00:56:45,800 --> 00:56:47,399
Speaker 1: black people I seen in the valley at one time.

1055
00:56:48,320 --> 00:56:50,319
Speaker 1: So the hostess is there and she's like with my

1056
00:56:50,360 --> 00:56:51,920
Speaker 1: mom and like, do you have a reservation? And I

1057
00:56:52,000 --> 00:56:54,839
Speaker 1: was like no. The girl was like, are you from

1058
00:56:54,880 --> 00:57:00,680
Speaker 1: that podcast? And I was like I was like, yeah,

1059
00:57:00,960 --> 00:57:03,520
Speaker 1: she's a good Mom's that choices? She said, I saw

1060
00:57:03,600 --> 00:57:06,120
Speaker 1: it Dallas podcast movement. I love you guys. I was like,

1061
00:57:06,120 --> 00:57:07,719
Speaker 1: thank you. I hugged her, and when we sat down,

1062
00:57:07,760 --> 00:57:11,160
Speaker 1: my mom was like she so she was like, oh

1063
00:57:11,239 --> 00:57:17,600
Speaker 1: my god, down, you know, it's like a FRINDI your mom.

1064
00:57:17,600 --> 00:57:20,880
Speaker 1: I'm like, you know, she'd say, how does it feel?

1065
00:57:20,960 --> 00:57:24,920
Speaker 1: I was like I don't know, but I was. I was,

1066
00:57:24,960 --> 00:57:26,080
Speaker 1: you know, it's kind of happy when you're with your

1067
00:57:26,080 --> 00:57:27,400
Speaker 1: mom and then she feels like you made it, even

1068
00:57:27,440 --> 00:57:28,840
Speaker 1: if it's, you know, just one person.

1069
00:57:28,880 --> 00:57:29,400
Speaker 3: Sure, Oh my god.

1070
00:57:29,440 --> 00:57:31,120
Speaker 2: When that happened, my mom all the ship, she talked

1071
00:57:31,120 --> 00:57:33,040
Speaker 2: about my show and then someone recognized me publicly.

1072
00:57:33,080 --> 00:57:37,720
Speaker 1: You couldn't wait for me to be like what you say?

1073
00:57:38,000 --> 00:57:39,480
Speaker 3: I just try to act like nothing happened.

1074
00:57:41,440 --> 00:57:44,160
Speaker 1: I was like, yeah, and I's just oh, that happens sometimes. Yeah,

1075
00:57:44,160 --> 00:57:51,000
Speaker 1: I just you know, around the world sometimes, you know, Mexico, London, same,

1076
00:57:52,320 --> 00:57:54,640
Speaker 1: this New World, you know, whatever, and just nothing crazy,

1077
00:57:54,800 --> 00:58:04,120
Speaker 1: just black house at school, I don't know, just a

1078
00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:05,760
Speaker 1: few places. We're huge in Malaysia.

1079
00:58:05,880 --> 00:58:08,480
Speaker 3: But wait, do you know that?

1080
00:58:08,560 --> 00:58:10,560
Speaker 2: Like I looked on our Instagram, we had a huge

1081
00:58:10,600 --> 00:58:14,160
Speaker 2: boost in Iran. It's like this is like a month ago,

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00:58:14,280 --> 00:58:16,560
Speaker 2: and I was like, why are we popping in Iran

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00:58:16,680 --> 00:58:17,160
Speaker 2: this week?

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00:58:17,280 --> 00:58:18,040
Speaker 1: What happened?

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Speaker 3: Who?

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00:58:18,440 --> 00:58:21,600
Speaker 2: What Iranian influencer shared us? And I couldn't find it

1087
00:58:21,640 --> 00:58:23,280
Speaker 2: and I just had to know. And then I was like, wow,

1088
00:58:23,400 --> 00:58:23,960
Speaker 2: you find it?

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00:58:24,280 --> 00:58:26,840
Speaker 1: No, the internet. Internet is a crazy place.

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Speaker 3: So I got out to our Irani and listeners love you.

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Speaker 1: World, ride baby, We're so good. Yeah. I felt pretty proud.

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00:58:42,080 --> 00:58:45,720
Speaker 1: So if you see me with my mom, just please

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00:58:45,760 --> 00:58:49,440
Speaker 1: say hi, because specifically, if you see us with our moms, specifically,

1094
00:58:49,520 --> 00:58:52,720
Speaker 1: we have a point to prove we need to let

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00:58:52,720 --> 00:58:54,720
Speaker 1: them know we made the right choice. We still have

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Speaker 1: to tell them five years later.

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Speaker 3: And also have you see us with their kids?

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00:58:57,880 --> 00:59:01,320
Speaker 2: Yeah yeah, Mom's kids definitely say hello to us. Make

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00:59:01,360 --> 00:59:03,440
Speaker 2: it a big deal, like go crazy and like we

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Speaker 2: love it for it.

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Speaker 1: I'll find just swink later, I'll know it's that I

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00:59:08,520 --> 00:59:14,240
Speaker 1: told you. But you know, come on, come on, oh

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00:59:14,280 --> 00:59:18,000
Speaker 1: my god, but it does feel cool, and this feel cool,

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Speaker 1: especially out of state, to be like you talking to me, Yeah,

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00:59:23,000 --> 00:59:28,560
Speaker 1: I do have a podcast, you know about it crazy?

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Speaker 2: Well to more of that, I'm more so happy that

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00:59:31,560 --> 00:59:34,560
Speaker 2: you know that you've listened and that like hopefully you

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00:59:35,240 --> 00:59:38,360
Speaker 2: received something from it, because sometimes that can be so fleeting,

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Speaker 2: Like it's one thing to recognize someone that actually offers

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00:59:40,840 --> 00:59:43,080
Speaker 2: you no value to your life, right, but I would

1111
00:59:43,200 --> 00:59:47,960
Speaker 2: rather be recognized because you listened and you gained something

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Speaker 2: from the conversation.

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Speaker 1: That was had. And more times, that's what we can.

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Speaker 2: Always like that feels even better than any sort of fucking,

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00:59:56,680 --> 00:59:59,520
Speaker 2: any sort of fame or acolte.

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Speaker 1: Right because we've we've had an energetic exchange that is

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Speaker 1: of some benefit to you. You know.

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Speaker 2: That's how we felt like after our book came out

1119
01:00:06,440 --> 01:00:07,920
Speaker 2: and we did all that that press tour and it

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Speaker 2: was like this is like this is like it felt

1121
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Speaker 2: almost like a disservice, not a disservice, but like you

1122
01:00:14,760 --> 01:00:16,360
Speaker 2: can't really get in there that fast.

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Speaker 1: No, it's like you need to like, hi, thirty minutes, yeah,

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Speaker 1: thirty minutes. Here, I can't do it in thirty seconds.

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01:00:22,160 --> 01:00:25,280
Speaker 1: I'll say everything in two minutes. And Dan don't say

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Speaker 1: bitch fuck. But it's like not generic, but a little

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01:00:30,720 --> 01:00:34,080
Speaker 1: bit it's surface. It's it's a little too wrapped up.

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Speaker 1: And you know, the point is, we don't have an

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Speaker 1: elevator pitch. It takes a long time to dig into

1130
01:00:37,840 --> 01:00:40,040
Speaker 1: us because we're not for everybody. There's a lot of layers.

1131
01:00:40,040 --> 01:00:41,280
Speaker 1: You may not like us at first, but if you

1132
01:00:41,320 --> 01:00:47,080
Speaker 1: dig a little, what kind of smart Yeah, it's true. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: m hmmm. The last episode in the dining room, I'm

1134
01:00:55,760 --> 01:00:58,880
Speaker 1: gonna miss you. I will miss you. I'm grateful, thank

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01:00:58,920 --> 01:01:05,800
Speaker 1: you held us, carried us and cultivated this thing. Lots

1136
01:01:05,800 --> 01:01:09,120
Speaker 1: of work in this dynagum, this whole house. Thank you.

1137
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Speaker 1: But I'm ready to leave, let it go, ready to go.

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Speaker 2: I'm ready for this new energy. Baby going to twenty

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Speaker 2: twenty four. I'm just so excited for this next year.

1140
01:01:22,160 --> 01:01:28,240
Speaker 2: I feel like it is going to be juicy, but

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01:01:28,480 --> 01:01:30,640
Speaker 2: I feel like for me specifically, I can only speak

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01:01:30,640 --> 01:01:33,000
Speaker 2: for myself. I know that I'm going to be challenged.

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01:01:33,040 --> 01:01:35,640
Speaker 2: I've been being challenged, but I feel like I'm going

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01:01:35,680 --> 01:01:44,400
Speaker 2: in more energized, more prepared, healthier, lighter, and more even

1145
01:01:44,400 --> 01:01:48,240
Speaker 2: more self aware. Like I've learned so much this year

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01:01:48,480 --> 01:01:54,440
Speaker 2: in so many spaces, especially in love, and I'm happy

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01:01:54,480 --> 01:01:57,160
Speaker 2: for that lesson. I'm happy to be able to integrate

1148
01:01:58,040 --> 01:02:00,200
Speaker 2: whatever it is that I needed to learn this year

1149
01:02:00,320 --> 01:02:05,480
Speaker 2: in the past year and make better choices, make good choices,

1150
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Speaker 2: be more, forgiving, be more, but not at the expense

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Speaker 2: of my happiness and energy.

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Speaker 1: You know the balance. And you can have compassion for

1153
01:02:18,400 --> 01:02:21,120
Speaker 1: somebody and forgive them and not and also not do

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01:02:21,200 --> 01:02:22,360
Speaker 1: not be in your space.

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Speaker 2: And and I also know wholeheartedly that when something you

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01:02:32,880 --> 01:02:39,120
Speaker 2: know transitions through your life, people experiences like it only

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01:02:39,160 --> 01:02:41,720
Speaker 2: makes room for new So I'm just kind of excited.

1158
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Speaker 1: I'm like, Damn, life is so good.

1159
01:02:43,600 --> 01:02:48,040
Speaker 2: Like you just constantly get to like re experience more,

1160
01:02:48,080 --> 01:02:52,800
Speaker 2: experience similar experiences with different people and different places and

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Speaker 2: all the things, but there's always a new twist on it,

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Speaker 2: and that's why it's exciting. And you kind of, yes

1163
01:02:59,360 --> 01:03:01,320
Speaker 2: you are, you're part of the story, but you don't

1164
01:03:01,800 --> 01:03:04,160
Speaker 2: really get to write your story. And that's the beauty

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Speaker 2: of life because I think that's the narrati people say

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01:03:06,240 --> 01:03:07,400
Speaker 2: you write your own story.

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Speaker 1: Kind of but not really and you kind of just

1168
01:03:09,760 --> 01:03:12,600
Speaker 1: got to let it need you write. This is my theory.

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01:03:12,680 --> 01:03:15,160
Speaker 1: You do write your own story. And you can only

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01:03:15,240 --> 01:03:19,640
Speaker 1: write your own story if you are surrendered completely to yourself,

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01:03:20,000 --> 01:03:22,400
Speaker 1: right to who you are and in which case, and

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01:03:22,440 --> 01:03:25,520
Speaker 1: that's there's a power. There's much power in the letting go.

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Speaker 1: And when you let go on you you exist as

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01:03:27,640 --> 01:03:31,920
Speaker 1: you are. Then you're like, oh, I'm being myself and

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01:03:31,960 --> 01:03:34,480
Speaker 1: this feels good, even if it doesn't appease everyone. But

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Speaker 1: that's how the universe responds. And so that's when you

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Speaker 1: write your own story when you were living in your

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Speaker 1: one hundred percent truth.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it's true.

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Speaker 2: It's like what the world would be if everyone was untouched?

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01:03:47,160 --> 01:03:49,160
Speaker 3: Like what would that be like? You'll never know.

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01:03:49,400 --> 01:03:51,760
Speaker 2: But the only thing you can know to actually have

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01:03:51,800 --> 01:03:53,960
Speaker 2: some sort of insight or answer to that is to

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Speaker 2: just be yourself and not allow other people to tell

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Speaker 2: you who you are.

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01:04:01,280 --> 01:04:04,120
Speaker 1: We resist that, and then it fucks up the story.

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01:04:04,560 --> 01:04:07,680
Speaker 1: You resist that, then it becomes some other shit that

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01:04:07,760 --> 01:04:09,720
Speaker 1: was never intended to begin with. And you fucking be

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Speaker 1: really fucking with God because God made you who you are,

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01:04:12,360 --> 01:04:13,480
Speaker 1: to be who you are. And if you don't be

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Speaker 1: who you are and let some nigga tell you who

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01:04:14,920 --> 01:04:16,400
Speaker 1: you are and you don't wear that skirt and then

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01:04:16,560 --> 01:04:20,160
Speaker 1: everything goes downhill, You're.

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Speaker 3: Not living as God's child.

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Speaker 1: You know.

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Speaker 3: This is our sermon. Welcome to the good mom.

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Speaker 1: See. The only way it'll be God's child is if

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Speaker 1: you be yourself, all of it. God made the full

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Speaker 1: scope of you. Sexy, sexual, feminine, divine, seductive, nasty, kind, compassionate.

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Speaker 1: Those are all qualities that you got from the from

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01:04:42,760 --> 01:04:46,640
Speaker 1: the divine source. Don't hide them. Don't let some man

1202
01:04:46,760 --> 01:04:51,800
Speaker 1: made anything, or man or Western society or programming tell

1203
01:04:51,840 --> 01:04:54,800
Speaker 1: you what is good and bad and who and how

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Speaker 1: you should exist. Amen, Hellelujah.

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Speaker 3: Amen.

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01:05:00,560 --> 01:05:04,200
Speaker 1: I'd like you to refer to Second Jamila three eleven

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Speaker 1: in the New New Testament.

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01:05:09,000 --> 01:05:13,000
Speaker 2: No, what is that actually called the oh Revelation?

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01:05:13,120 --> 01:05:13,880
Speaker 3: The revelations?

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Speaker 1: Can you refer to Mela Revelations, Chapter two, verse seven.

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01:05:20,400 --> 01:05:21,840
Speaker 1: Oh my god, what if you wrote the book and

1212
01:05:21,880 --> 01:05:24,360
Speaker 1: it had like the numbers on each Why do we

1213
01:05:24,520 --> 01:05:29,040
Speaker 1: think that? So I could say that the book of revelations,

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01:05:29,040 --> 01:05:30,440
Speaker 1: what is the other one that should have been?

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01:05:30,440 --> 01:05:35,080
Speaker 2: Where the those call out quotes were BC, We'll look

1216
01:05:35,080 --> 01:05:35,919
Speaker 2: out for our next mine.

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01:05:36,400 --> 01:05:40,040
Speaker 1: He's got a genius idea. Oh my god. Oh wait,

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01:05:40,120 --> 01:05:44,640
Speaker 1: so yes, you have an affirmation for today? What is

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01:05:44,640 --> 01:05:49,320
Speaker 1: your last affirmation in this dining room? I think there's

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Speaker 1: something cheesy so much? Sorry sorry. Energy flows where attention goes.

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01:06:18,600 --> 01:06:22,680
Speaker 1: Energy flows where attention goes. Okay, what were you going

1222
01:06:22,760 --> 01:06:24,920
Speaker 1: to say? I already Eve lost it?

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01:06:25,120 --> 01:06:25,280
Speaker 2: Hi?

1224
01:06:25,480 --> 01:06:29,240
Speaker 1: Wait what was I going to say? What are you

1225
01:06:29,280 --> 01:06:33,920
Speaker 1: looking for? I had so many thoughts that ran through

1226
01:06:33,920 --> 01:06:36,320
Speaker 1: my mind. Me too, I were saying about like, be yourself,

1227
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Speaker 1: fuck the patriarchy.

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Speaker 2: Intuition got a little violin in my head there for

1229
01:06:40,560 --> 01:06:42,920
Speaker 2: a second, and then I was like, no, follow your intuition.

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Speaker 1: Fuck everybody else, Fuck everybody's opinion of you. Say yes

1231
01:06:46,840 --> 01:06:53,280
Speaker 1: to the unknown. You know, always be authentic, consistency, authenticity

1232
01:06:53,360 --> 01:06:59,600
Speaker 1: is your superpower. Commitment to thyself, Yeah, commitment to thy authentic.

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01:06:59,080 --> 01:07:02,280
Speaker 3: Stuff, your pleasure is a priority.

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01:07:02,360 --> 01:07:08,280
Speaker 1: Your pleasure is a fucking priority. We'll pick one of

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01:07:08,280 --> 01:07:09,000
Speaker 1: those that's something.

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01:07:09,040 --> 01:07:11,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, sorry, Orlando and everyone on the team that's gonna

1237
01:07:11,400 --> 01:07:12,040
Speaker 2: have to decode that.

1238
01:07:13,080 --> 01:07:15,520
Speaker 1: So what the fuck, Let me make a slide at

1239
01:07:15,520 --> 01:07:16,000
Speaker 1: the bunch of.

1240
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Speaker 3: So we pulled the card.

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Speaker 1: The High Priestess and the High Priestess says intuition, sacred knowledge, divine, feminine,

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01:07:33,960 --> 01:07:39,080
Speaker 1: the subconscious mind hmm he fitting. While the magician is

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01:07:39,080 --> 01:07:41,920
Speaker 1: the guardian of the conscious mind and the tangible world,

1244
01:07:42,400 --> 01:07:44,959
Speaker 1: the High Priestess is the guardian of the subconscious mind

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01:07:44,960 --> 01:07:49,480
Speaker 1: and the teacher of sacred knowledge and hidden mysteries. Sitting

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01:07:49,480 --> 01:07:52,280
Speaker 1: at the threshold of the conscious and subconscious mind, the

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01:07:52,360 --> 01:07:55,800
Speaker 1: High Priestess has an innate ability to travel between these

1248
01:07:55,840 --> 01:07:59,480
Speaker 1: realms effortlessly. She teaches you that the world is not

1249
01:07:59,520 --> 01:08:02,640
Speaker 1: always as it seems, and more profound influences are often

1250
01:08:02,680 --> 01:08:08,240
Speaker 1: at play. She ushers you through the thin veil of awareness,

1251
01:08:08,560 --> 01:08:12,680
Speaker 1: offering you a deep, intuitive understanding of the universe and

1252
01:08:12,880 --> 01:08:17,519
Speaker 1: a heightened awareness of secret or hidden information. High priests

1253
01:08:17,520 --> 01:08:22,640
Speaker 1: signifies spiritual enlightenment, inner illumination, divine knowledge and wisdom. She

1254
01:08:22,760 --> 01:08:25,640
Speaker 1: knows up in your tariot cars. She shows up in

1255
01:08:25,640 --> 01:08:27,920
Speaker 1: your tarot readings when the veil between you and the

1256
01:08:28,000 --> 01:08:30,960
Speaker 1: underworld is thin and you have the opportunity to access

1257
01:08:31,000 --> 01:08:33,880
Speaker 1: the knowledge deep within your soul. Now is the time

1258
01:08:34,000 --> 01:08:38,240
Speaker 1: to be still and go on seasons so you can

1259
01:08:38,280 --> 01:08:42,120
Speaker 1: tune into your intuition. The answers you are seeking will

1260
01:08:42,120 --> 01:08:45,920
Speaker 1: come from within, from the deepest truth and knowing. Allow

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01:08:45,920 --> 01:08:48,360
Speaker 1: the high priests to become your guide as you venture

1262
01:08:48,439 --> 01:08:54,160
Speaker 1: deep into your subconscious mind and access the inner wisdom.

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01:08:54,880 --> 01:09:04,240
Speaker 1: Insert spooky music here, mystical music. Yes, connect your higher intuition.

1264
01:09:04,600 --> 01:09:09,000
Speaker 1: Connect your intuition to your higher self through meditation, visualization. Okay,

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01:09:09,040 --> 01:09:14,200
Speaker 1: Tantra shamanic journeying and being part of spiritual communities.

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Speaker 3: Sounds like our retreat. Yeah, sounds like my life.

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01:09:17,400 --> 01:09:17,679
Speaker 1: Yep.

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01:09:20,000 --> 01:09:24,840
Speaker 2: I've slowly finally integrated my retreat life into my everyday.

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01:09:24,400 --> 01:09:28,200
Speaker 1: Life, my friend's circle life, and it's.

1270
01:09:28,080 --> 01:09:28,759
Speaker 3: A way of life.

1271
01:09:29,600 --> 01:09:30,600
Speaker 1: They're into it, they're in.

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Speaker 3: I know, we finally.

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01:09:32,439 --> 01:09:34,479
Speaker 1: I feel like that. I do feel like this is

1274
01:09:34,520 --> 01:09:40,400
Speaker 1: the unlocking of the like millions of dollars. I feel

1275
01:09:40,439 --> 01:09:45,720
Speaker 1: like the spiritual work we do in union is the

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01:09:45,880 --> 01:09:48,719
Speaker 1: like that's the spiritual work that like manifests and pushes

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01:09:48,760 --> 01:09:51,599
Speaker 1: through those manifestations. And we've done a lot of spiritual work.

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01:09:51,960 --> 01:09:53,320
Speaker 3: So the last thing is to make all of our

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01:09:53,360 --> 01:09:53,960
Speaker 3: friends witches.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, got it. We can do bitches of luxury LLC.

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01:10:01,080 --> 01:10:06,360
Speaker 1: So good. I know it's happening. Well, guys, if you

1282
01:10:06,439 --> 01:10:09,120
Speaker 1: want to be part of our Witchy Council, the High

1283
01:10:09,160 --> 01:10:12,000
Speaker 1: Witch Council, make sure you subscribe to our YouTube channel.

1284
01:10:12,880 --> 01:10:15,960
Speaker 1: Make sure you go and rate this episode on Apple

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01:10:16,000 --> 01:10:17,679
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Speaker 3: Please leave a review if you've been listening forever.

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Speaker 2: If you enjoyed this episode and you want more, make

1288
01:10:22,960 --> 01:10:26,280
Speaker 2: sure you go subscribe to our Patreon channel, where we

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01:10:26,400 --> 01:10:29,719
Speaker 2: will be continuing as we always do anyway, putting bonus

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Speaker 2: episodes up there, but even more so, you'll experience us

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Speaker 2: in a different, even more juicy way in twenty twenty four,

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01:10:39,240 --> 01:10:40,360
Speaker 2: so we live very juicy.

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Speaker 1: It so juicy, very juicy live. I'm wet, slippery. I

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Speaker 1: had something to do all five weekends last week, last month,

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Speaker 1: every weekend I was booked and busy. Juicy lives juicy

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Speaker 1: Join close friends.

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Speaker 2: And you can follow me on Instagram at watch Erica.

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Speaker 2: Although I don't know how long to be there for guys.

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Speaker 2: I've had to come to Jesus moment recently. I was like,

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Speaker 2: do I meet Instagram personally?

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Speaker 1: You're so are you Gemini? This bitch is I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: be an influencer. Two weeks later, I'm leaving the Internet.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, time, you're gonna be an influencer or are

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Speaker 1: you gonna love the Internet?

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Speaker 3: Because both?

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Speaker 1: Like I said, we can any one person this week

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Speaker 1: is the other person next seasonal influence. Maybe your influence

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Speaker 1: will be on the seasons. I like that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, yeah, we're onto something here.

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Speaker 1: I like, I do do it. It would be the

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Speaker 1: first seasonal influencers coin that term. Please don't take our

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Speaker 1: ship seasonal influencer. We only do like ski trips, summer vacations,

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Speaker 1: bathing suits. It depends on what season R in season. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: seasonal influencer email us at Nelly I eat. Oh all right, y'all.

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Speaker 2: Well, I hope you guys enjoy the rest of your

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Speaker 2: holiday season, although you'll hear from us before that. But

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Speaker 2: just you know, don't stress out too much, don't put

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Speaker 2: too much pressure on yourself.

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Speaker 3: Ease into twenty twenty four.

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Speaker 2: Reflect on where you're at in twenty twenty three, and

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Speaker 2: you know, Honor that.

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Speaker 1: I love your friend. I love you too much. I'm

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Speaker 1: very grateful to be able to look at our friendship

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Speaker 1: and see how far we've come. I know, I know

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Speaker 1: you like the back of my fucking hand. Now, if

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Speaker 1: you have one friend I haven't heard of, I'm not

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Speaker 1: gonna drive by this house and be like, let's very

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Speaker 1: it can't go inside.

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Speaker 3: Someone else is in there.

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Speaker 1: You can't go in our whole merch studio. What the fuck?

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Speaker 1: I am love of ownership over this house, thirty twenty

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Speaker 1: percent ownership. We just we just want to come by

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Speaker 1: and see our studio.

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Speaker 3: You're gonna make it a museum.

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Speaker 1: I see is the room of good. Mom started it up.

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Speaker 1: I wanted to bring my mom so it made it

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Speaker 1: so crazy. We made my own house a museum because

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Speaker 1: we're so famousn't it? You can airbnb it? Stupid? Oh

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Speaker 1: my god, that's.

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Speaker 2: What it was.

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Speaker 1: Tarded ways to try and impress your mom. You guys

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Speaker 1: were kidding, sort of, Okay, Well, I love y'all. I

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Speaker 1: love you. Bye. M h m hm