WEBVTT - Reid My Lips with Tara Reid 0:00:01.880 --> 0:00:05.359 Wind Down with Janet Kramer and I'veheart Radio podcast. 0:00:06.760 --> 0:00:13.240 Did you guys watch American Pie? Yeah? Are you even American? 0:00:13.320 --> 0:00:16.440 If you haven't watched American Pie? Have you watched the remakes? 0:00:17.320 --> 0:00:17.400 No? 0:00:17.920 --> 0:00:20.040 I have either. I feel like you really can't remake 0:00:20.079 --> 0:00:20.520 that one. 0:00:20.600 --> 0:00:21.239 There's a remakes. 0:00:21.280 --> 0:00:24.239 I didn't even know they had. I think so hopefully. 0:00:24.920 --> 0:00:27.800 I'm pretty sure consult Google. I just would they remake 0:00:27.880 --> 0:00:31.360 a classic? I'm pretty sure old we were when we watched. 0:00:31.800 --> 0:00:34.560 He's not old enough because, like, I think about that now, 0:00:35.200 --> 0:00:35.720 when did it. 0:00:35.640 --> 0:00:38.240 Come out in nineteen ninety nine it came out? Oh yeah, 0:00:38.240 --> 0:00:39.680 we were old up, were in high school? 0:00:39.760 --> 0:00:41.720 Yeah, I know, But I think about that now and 0:00:41.760 --> 0:00:45.560 I'm like, I don't know, I'm uncomfortable thinking about my 0:00:45.640 --> 0:00:47.839 kids watching it a little bit. 0:00:48.040 --> 0:00:51.479 It was so inappropriate, But that's why it was awesome. 0:00:52.240 --> 0:00:54.240 I know, it like made a history in that way. 0:00:54.520 --> 0:00:57.400 It pushed the envelope. The funny thing was as I 0:00:57.440 --> 0:00:59.440 googled it, do you know the number one image that 0:00:59.480 --> 0:01:00.680 comes up when I google it? 0:01:02.720 --> 0:01:02.880 No? 0:01:03.160 --> 0:01:09.039 Is that rhyme with ripple? No? What the ripple one? Nothing? Okay, 0:01:10.520 --> 0:01:14.720 that's that's the Varsity Blues nipple and when she sprayed 0:01:14.720 --> 0:01:16.560 them and I'm like, does it rhyme with ripple? And 0:01:16.600 --> 0:01:20.679 You're like, nipple rhyme with it? That's it, okay? And 0:01:20.720 --> 0:01:22.319 I just you say it and I don't. I just 0:01:22.319 --> 0:01:28.399 think that's funny. No the pie remember, Oh yes, that 0:01:28.400 --> 0:01:31.400 that was strange in my brain. Well that's like the 0:01:31.400 --> 0:01:36.520 main thing strange, Like is it strange? Like do the 0:01:36.560 --> 0:01:42.199 whole thing? Like boys don't don't know you have teenage. 0:01:43.120 --> 0:01:45.640 But we have a little for our special guest of 0:01:45.680 --> 0:01:49.520 the week. We have Tara Reid coming on. She's got 0:01:49.560 --> 0:01:54.760 a new movie out called Doctor Quarantine, and we're gonna 0:01:54.920 --> 0:01:59.760 chat all things American pie, what's new and what's the 0:02:00.120 --> 0:02:02.280 back in the day, what she wants us to know. 0:02:02.360 --> 0:02:17.520 So let's take a break and get her on. Hi girl, Hi, 0:02:18.560 --> 0:02:19.440 I'm good. How are you. 0:02:19.880 --> 0:02:21.080 I'm good good. 0:02:21.240 --> 0:02:26.320 I'm Jana Catherine Kristen. So you got the girls today? Girl, Hi, 0:02:26.919 --> 0:02:29.280 So we are very excited to chat with you. You 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:35.320 were definitely our era of movies and actress because we 0:02:35.320 --> 0:02:37.840 were all I believe the same ish age. 0:02:38.200 --> 0:02:38.720 Yeah. 0:02:38.919 --> 0:02:43.120 So yes, I'm like, I don't know you were just 0:02:43.800 --> 0:02:45.720 you were Tara Reid, and like you were you're the 0:02:45.760 --> 0:02:48.880 hot one I wanted to be with you. I was 0:02:48.960 --> 0:02:51.080 like in a back brace and going like, how do 0:02:51.160 --> 0:02:55.960 I be like Tara Reid? You were like, well, you 0:02:56.000 --> 0:02:58.840 were pretty and sexy and confident, and I just wanted 0:02:58.840 --> 0:03:01.440 to do that and I was not those things. 0:03:01.600 --> 0:03:06.280 Just so we're clear, No, that's really the street of you. Guys. 0:03:06.680 --> 0:03:10.440 You started at six years old, So looking back, is 0:03:10.440 --> 0:03:14.440 that do you think you were too young to start 0:03:14.600 --> 0:03:18.320 or did you like growing up being I don't. 0:03:18.639 --> 0:03:21.040 It was the kind of thing that I didn't plan 0:03:21.080 --> 0:03:24.760 on starting that young. I actually planned on acting at all. 0:03:25.440 --> 0:03:25.960 Uh. 0:03:26.080 --> 0:03:29.079 I was actually I lived in New Jersey and one 0:03:29.160 --> 0:03:31.800 day I was in the food court with my brother 0:03:31.880 --> 0:03:34.560 and my mom and she was getting his pizza, and 0:03:34.639 --> 0:03:37.560 this talent agent for children just happen to be sitting 0:03:37.560 --> 0:03:39.760 next to us, and she was visiting her daughter in 0:03:39.760 --> 0:03:42.680 New Jersey, but she lived in New York City, and 0:03:42.880 --> 0:03:44.840 she saw me and my brother kind of goofing around, 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:47.560 and she went up to my mom. She goes, your 0:03:47.640 --> 0:03:50.040 daughter is perfect for this movie. It's this new Stephen 0:03:50.080 --> 0:03:52.760 King movie that's coming out, and they can't find the girl. 0:03:53.120 --> 0:03:54.560 My mom's like, well, she doesn't even. 0:03:54.480 --> 0:03:56.680 Know how to act like, you know, I'm just like, tey, 0:03:56.720 --> 0:03:57.280 do you want to ask? 0:03:57.320 --> 0:03:58.520 And I said, I don't know what I'm doing, you 0:03:58.560 --> 0:03:59.080 know what I mean. 0:03:59.240 --> 0:04:01.800 So they gave us the lines and we went in 0:04:01.840 --> 0:04:03.880 the next day and I auditioned for it and I 0:04:03.920 --> 0:04:07.040 got it. So I kind of just never got forced 0:04:07.040 --> 0:04:08.600 into doing it. It kind of just kind of fell 0:04:08.640 --> 0:04:11.760 in my lap. From there, we just kept getting commercials 0:04:11.800 --> 0:04:15.240 and different stuff and TV shows, and then all of 0:04:15.240 --> 0:04:17.919 a sudden got into movies and so now I'm sitting 0:04:17.920 --> 0:04:19.839 here with you guys, Well. 0:04:19.800 --> 0:04:22.520 I'm always curious because my daughter, she was in a 0:04:22.520 --> 0:04:24.040 movie that I did last year, and so that kind 0:04:24.040 --> 0:04:25.839 of gave her the acting bug. And she's nine, and 0:04:25.880 --> 0:04:28.159 so we had this thing over the weekend where she 0:04:28.200 --> 0:04:32.080 had an audition for a really big show that's about 0:04:32.120 --> 0:04:34.600 to be you know, remade. And it was one of 0:04:34.640 --> 0:04:36.599 the things where I never want to force. I'm like, 0:04:36.600 --> 0:04:38.000 do you want to read this one? Do you want 0:04:38.000 --> 0:04:40.120 to pass? Do not want to? Because I never want 0:04:40.120 --> 0:04:41.520 to be the mom that's like, all right, you need 0:04:41.600 --> 0:04:44.560 to do you know, all these auditions or whatever, and 0:04:44.600 --> 0:04:51.960 so she said no, But I'm like, but so funny, 0:04:52.080 --> 0:04:54.160 like it was so hard to be like, Okay, we 0:04:54.360 --> 0:04:56.600 need to collide the audition, but I really did go 0:04:56.960 --> 0:04:59.200 You're one hundred percent positive you don't want to be 0:04:59.279 --> 0:05:04.480 Laura the bonnet from your Amazon car, you know. But 0:05:04.560 --> 0:05:06.440 I think it's you know, that's sweet that your mom 0:05:06.560 --> 0:05:09.279 wasn't like, you know, forcing you into things, which is good. 0:05:09.400 --> 0:05:11.359 I think that makes a big difference of you know, 0:05:11.480 --> 0:05:14.560 kind of child actors if their mom is like the 0:05:14.600 --> 0:05:16.720 stage mom and forcing them to do stuff and then 0:05:16.760 --> 0:05:18.679 they don't get the part and they start to cry 0:05:18.800 --> 0:05:21.480 and they kind of message with their you know, they're 0:05:21.520 --> 0:05:24.120 being insecure and stuff like that. So I think you 0:05:24.160 --> 0:05:25.000 actually did really. 0:05:24.880 --> 0:05:25.360 The right thing. 0:05:27.040 --> 0:05:29.640 So did it just like come naturally to you, Like 0:05:29.680 --> 0:05:31.560 you just went in and did lines and it was like, 0:05:31.560 --> 0:05:33.680 oh wait, I can actually do this, I can actually 0:05:33.720 --> 0:05:35.719 act and I'm good at this or did you have 0:05:35.760 --> 0:05:37.720 to kind of work at it still to get there? 0:05:37.880 --> 0:05:40.279 No, it was it kind of just came naturally to me, 0:05:40.360 --> 0:05:42.800 because I mean, I think kids are actually better actors 0:05:42.839 --> 0:05:45.400 than adults are because they don't have they don't put 0:05:45.440 --> 0:05:46.400 up all these like. 0:05:46.880 --> 0:05:48.040 Borders or walls. 0:05:48.200 --> 0:05:51.560 You know, it does come naturally to them because they 0:05:51.640 --> 0:05:54.200 kind of just play make believe in their head. And 0:05:54.320 --> 0:05:56.559 all kids, as we know, are great at make believe, 0:05:57.160 --> 0:05:59.279 so I think they could do it. So when you 0:05:59.320 --> 0:06:01.640 tell kids a crow or acted this, or be mad 0:06:01.760 --> 0:06:04.120 or be said, they're the best. You know, they're very 0:06:04.200 --> 0:06:08.400 dramatic kids. So it kind of came Natsha. I didn't 0:06:08.480 --> 0:06:09.760 learn any bad habits. 0:06:09.520 --> 0:06:17.600 Yet growing up without social media, Like through your stardom 0:06:17.680 --> 0:06:21.680 and your fame. I feel like though you didn't have 0:06:21.760 --> 0:06:27.360 social media being bullying and aggressive, you had the media. 0:06:28.880 --> 0:06:29.159 Yeah. 0:06:29.200 --> 0:06:31.599 Absolutely, And so I feel like, do you kind of 0:06:31.640 --> 0:06:34.720 think back like, Yay, you didn't have social media being 0:06:36.440 --> 0:06:39.400 jerks and bullying and stuff, but you but I feel 0:06:39.440 --> 0:06:43.839 like you definitely got the a lot of bullying from paparazzis, 0:06:44.240 --> 0:06:48.080 proparazzi and just the magazines and all of that. 0:06:48.960 --> 0:06:52.200 Oh, I definitely agree with that. I'm glad social media 0:06:52.279 --> 0:06:56.039 did not exist back then. I think it's really hard. 0:06:56.040 --> 0:06:58.599 But kids have to go through social media. And also 0:06:58.640 --> 0:07:01.680 there's addicted to their phone where we were addicted to 0:07:01.720 --> 0:07:04.400 our phones. You know, we actually went out and called 0:07:04.400 --> 0:07:05.640 people up on the phone and said, hey, do you 0:07:05.680 --> 0:07:07.159 want to come over and play? You know, like the 0:07:07.240 --> 0:07:10.600 old ways. You just don't see that anymore. I think 0:07:10.720 --> 0:07:14.160 kids are missing that too, you know, I definitely do believe, 0:07:14.160 --> 0:07:16.720 Like later on in my life when the TMZ started 0:07:16.720 --> 0:07:20.280 coming out and the Perez Hilton's and like the bullying 0:07:20.520 --> 0:07:24.440 that was pretty awful. Now it's just like people get bad, 0:07:24.480 --> 0:07:26.400 you know, if you find out one person said something 0:07:26.400 --> 0:07:28.240 bad about you, like I heard your feelings, Like why 0:07:28.280 --> 0:07:28.960 did you they say that? 0:07:29.000 --> 0:07:30.640 Why did they think about me like that? Like that's 0:07:30.640 --> 0:07:31.200 not nice. 0:07:31.280 --> 0:07:33.880 But when it's like millions of people, you're like, this 0:07:33.960 --> 0:07:36.440 is so messed up. And when they don't get stories right, 0:07:36.520 --> 0:07:39.400 and they just bully for everything, for you're wearing, for 0:07:39.440 --> 0:07:41.600 how you look, or you know, your weight, or your 0:07:41.600 --> 0:07:44.200 clothes or just anything you do, or the guys you 0:07:44.280 --> 0:07:45.480 date or just anything. 0:07:45.480 --> 0:07:46.240 It's just like. 0:07:46.920 --> 0:07:50.600 They find something mean or wrong about it all the time. 0:07:50.800 --> 0:07:53.040 You know, not so much anymore. It's really came down 0:07:53.200 --> 0:07:55.240 as I got older, But when I was on my 0:07:55.480 --> 0:07:57.240 younger days, it was just pretty brutal. 0:07:57.760 --> 0:07:59.800 Well, I feel like they kind of targeted you as 0:07:59.840 --> 0:08:02.800 this party girl. But it's like you were going out 0:08:02.840 --> 0:08:04.520 to the clubs just like everyone else was going out 0:08:04.520 --> 0:08:06.920 to the clubs, you know, and they just then do 0:08:06.960 --> 0:08:08.600 you feel like they just put that label on you, 0:08:08.640 --> 0:08:10.800 and that was just okay, that's who Tera Reid is, 0:08:10.880 --> 0:08:12.760 even though that's not who Tara Reid was. 0:08:13.120 --> 0:08:14.560 Yeah, I mean I think you now is it right 0:08:14.600 --> 0:08:16.760 on the head. I mean that was the age that 0:08:16.800 --> 0:08:19.160 everyone was going on anyway. So I wasn't doing anything 0:08:19.200 --> 0:08:21.680 wrong that everyone else was doing. I was having fun, 0:08:22.160 --> 0:08:24.560 But I never got it confused with my acting, like 0:08:24.600 --> 0:08:26.720 I never was late to a set or do no 0:08:27.120 --> 0:08:29.880 you know lines, or I've never done anything wrong, like 0:08:29.920 --> 0:08:32.440 but I never been arrested. I never got it, you know, 0:08:33.240 --> 0:08:35.480 in trouble. I've never got a speeding ticket in my life. 0:08:35.520 --> 0:08:38.280 So I think I was really targeted, like I was 0:08:38.320 --> 0:08:42.040 this wild child and and you know, completely crazy. And 0:08:42.600 --> 0:08:44.440 I did go out, I did dance on tables. I 0:08:44.480 --> 0:08:47.440 did have fun, but like who didn't at that age? 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:50.880 It mean me, like they so typecast me. It was 0:08:51.000 --> 0:08:53.840 really hard to get rolls again, you know, and it 0:08:53.880 --> 0:08:55.840 wasn't fair because you see, you know, guys doing all 0:08:55.840 --> 0:08:58.400 this stuff and it's fine, and now you see all 0:08:58.440 --> 0:09:01.360 these girls that were doing all stuff and like they're 0:09:01.360 --> 0:09:03.840 blowing off and you're just like, what side do you 0:09:03.880 --> 0:09:07.200 feel that you know that they still the target me 0:09:07.240 --> 0:09:10.960 in a certain way, and it's still hard to to 0:09:11.080 --> 0:09:12.840 get that titlement over with. 0:09:13.360 --> 0:09:15.720 What do you think they what do you wish they 0:09:15.720 --> 0:09:20.400 would have taken, you know, or got from from you 0:09:20.480 --> 0:09:23.839 instead of what they gave? You know, everybody what? 0:09:23.960 --> 0:09:24.160 You know? 0:09:24.200 --> 0:09:27.800 What the what? The what they showed the media as 0:09:27.800 --> 0:09:30.960 opposed to like, you know who Tara is and was 0:09:31.040 --> 0:09:32.880 back then, where it's like, I feel like in a 0:09:32.920 --> 0:09:35.560 way they robbed you of things that you shouldn't have 0:09:35.559 --> 0:09:38.280 been robbed of because of their narrative. 0:09:39.240 --> 0:09:41.920 I really agree with what you said, and I'm glad 0:09:41.920 --> 0:09:43.840 that you see that, because I don't think that that 0:09:43.960 --> 0:09:46.920 many all the people like that see how you see 0:09:46.960 --> 0:09:50.760 it so fairly. You know, for me, it was just 0:09:52.160 --> 0:09:54.480 it was tough because once I kind of got that 0:09:54.559 --> 0:09:57.520 label on me, then to get parts I was kind 0:09:57.520 --> 0:10:00.160 of getting denied them. And I'm like, for what, just 0:10:00.160 --> 0:10:02.000 because I went out, you know, that didn't take anything 0:10:02.000 --> 0:10:04.920 away from me from acting or the opportunities I wanted 0:10:05.000 --> 0:10:07.440 to get or continue to get. And I think that 0:10:07.480 --> 0:10:09.400 really slowed me down in a lot, like a lot 0:10:09.400 --> 0:10:12.120 of ways, and I felt like I was getting punished 0:10:12.160 --> 0:10:14.720 for a crime that I didn't do. So that was, 0:10:14.920 --> 0:10:17.560 you know, a problem, you know. But then I think 0:10:17.960 --> 0:10:19.840 then I started not to go out anymore, not to 0:10:19.920 --> 0:10:21.560 do this and not to do that, and you know, 0:10:21.720 --> 0:10:24.800 just try to be really careful. And so I think 0:10:24.840 --> 0:10:27.760 that really helped a lot, you know, but there's still 0:10:27.880 --> 0:10:29.360 there's still a lot of judgment there. 0:10:29.800 --> 0:10:30.000 You know. 0:10:30.040 --> 0:10:32.720 I'm just I'm just kind of used to it and 0:10:32.800 --> 0:10:35.560 now like creating my own projects and creating my own 0:10:35.640 --> 0:10:38.640 narrative and not waiting for me to get a job 0:10:38.720 --> 0:10:40.880 or for these people to say yes or no to me. 0:10:41.000 --> 0:10:41.200 You know. 0:10:41.320 --> 0:10:44.480 Like so I'm creating like my own scripts and producing 0:10:44.520 --> 0:10:47.280 my own stuff. So I'm giving myself the parts that 0:10:47.520 --> 0:10:50.400 I've been kind of not being allowed to play. So 0:10:50.480 --> 0:10:53.120 now people are like noticing and they're like, oh wait, wow, 0:10:53.480 --> 0:10:55.520 she can't act, or well she's doing this. 0:10:55.640 --> 0:10:57.280 Oh what, she's smarter than I thought. 0:10:57.040 --> 0:10:58.880 You know, Like like I think a lot of people 0:10:58.880 --> 0:11:01.680 decided it was just like kind of dumb blonde you know, 0:11:01.760 --> 0:11:04.240 that didn't you know, the party girl that didn't don't 0:11:04.280 --> 0:11:06.520 know anything or care, and that was like, you know, 0:11:06.600 --> 0:11:08.719 you look at girls like even like Jennifer Lawrence, She's 0:11:08.760 --> 0:11:10.920 always drinking and they find fun and funny. You know, 0:11:11.040 --> 0:11:13.840 she drinks some shows and stuff like that, like you know, 0:11:13.960 --> 0:11:16.960 falling down like all the time, and they don't care. 0:11:17.120 --> 0:11:18.679 It's like, why do you guys care so much when 0:11:18.720 --> 0:11:20.360 I did something like that? You know, I think I 0:11:20.400 --> 0:11:24.360 had like I think it was just really hardly like 0:11:24.600 --> 0:11:26.480 really hard judgment on me. 0:11:26.559 --> 0:11:28.480 And yeah it was hard. You know, it did hurt 0:11:28.520 --> 0:11:29.080 my feelings. 0:11:29.120 --> 0:11:31.600 You know, people forget your cuman like you know, you 0:11:31.640 --> 0:11:34.080 cut me, I bleed, so, I mean, you know, and 0:11:34.120 --> 0:11:37.079 that way it was you just had to stay strong 0:11:37.120 --> 0:11:39.480 and just keep believing in yourself. And it wasn't always 0:11:39.520 --> 0:11:42.640 the easiest thing to do, but you know, you just 0:11:42.720 --> 0:11:45.520 get on and you keep doing it and eventually when 0:11:45.559 --> 0:11:46.920 you want something, it will come. 0:11:47.000 --> 0:11:47.760 It will come back to you. 0:11:48.640 --> 0:11:52.280 What what did you do to get to that place 0:11:52.360 --> 0:11:54.600 with your I would I'm gonna call it mental health 0:11:54.640 --> 0:11:56.200 because I feel like when you go through all that, 0:11:56.240 --> 0:11:58.280 it's the anxiety, the depression of all those things that 0:11:58.280 --> 0:11:59.800 could potentially and I'm not I don't want to label 0:11:59.800 --> 0:12:02.280 that you, but that is what just how I would 0:12:02.280 --> 0:12:05.040 feel like the projection of all that would be and 0:12:05.080 --> 0:12:07.480 what I've gone through personally on the smaller scale, but 0:12:07.600 --> 0:12:12.240 what have where? How do you did you go? Did 0:12:12.240 --> 0:12:13.559 you have a great therapist? Did you go to a 0:12:13.600 --> 0:12:14.240 treatment center? 0:12:14.240 --> 0:12:14.760 Like where? 0:12:14.880 --> 0:12:19.400 What did you do to kind of not let that 0:12:19.760 --> 0:12:23.720 run your world and feel that? 0:12:24.559 --> 0:12:26.480 I think it did kind of run my road for 0:12:26.520 --> 0:12:29.600 a while, you know. And I think how I dealt 0:12:29.640 --> 0:12:33.640 with it is just I kind of became, you know, 0:12:33.920 --> 0:12:37.640 more insecure a little bit, you know, and didn't have 0:12:37.679 --> 0:12:42.480 as much confidence anymore, you know. And but I had 0:12:42.520 --> 0:12:44.920 some really good friends around me and good family, so 0:12:45.480 --> 0:12:47.480 I was able to talk it through with my friends 0:12:47.480 --> 0:12:49.959 and be able to speak about it. And I also 0:12:50.000 --> 0:12:51.960 write a lot, so I kind of keep in journal 0:12:52.000 --> 0:12:54.240 and write and that and that that really helps a 0:12:54.280 --> 0:12:57.960 lot too. So I think just getting through it and 0:12:58.000 --> 0:13:00.400 you know, taking it day by day and you know, 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:03.960 getting opportunities again and just you know, doing the best 0:13:04.040 --> 0:13:06.640 you can and you know, eventually, like what comes around 0:13:06.760 --> 0:13:07.200 goes around. 0:13:07.240 --> 0:13:08.600 There's kind of a truth to that. 0:13:21.600 --> 0:13:24.360 Is Doctor Quarantine a show or a movie that you 0:13:24.600 --> 0:13:28.120 put together? Did you were you have your did you 0:13:28.120 --> 0:13:29.840 have your hands in that of putting that one together? 0:13:30.120 --> 0:13:30.280 Oh? 0:13:30.320 --> 0:13:33.520 Yeah, completely so me and my partner Wait Across did it. 0:13:34.160 --> 0:13:38.360 And it was during COVID and then well, the story 0:13:38.400 --> 0:13:41.040 is really about it's about mental health, and it's about 0:13:41.480 --> 0:13:44.560 what the aftermath of what COVID did to so many people, 0:13:44.720 --> 0:13:47.320 Like people were alone, you know, and people got depressed 0:13:47.360 --> 0:13:51.280 and sad, and you know, it really affected so many 0:13:51.280 --> 0:13:53.160 people in so many different ways. And it was a 0:13:53.200 --> 0:13:56.360 global experience. It wasn't just here in America. It was 0:13:56.360 --> 0:13:58.320 like all around the world that people were going through this. 0:13:59.080 --> 0:14:02.720 And my character has mental health in this movie. And 0:14:02.800 --> 0:14:05.920 I think the really important part of this, if Doctor Quarantine, 0:14:05.960 --> 0:14:10.760 is that the aftermath of what people don't realize, like 0:14:10.840 --> 0:14:13.600 how many people like don't go out even to this day, 0:14:13.600 --> 0:14:16.320 don't go out as much anymore. Everyone kind of stays home, 0:14:16.400 --> 0:14:19.800 does their jobs home. I mean, the socialism of it 0:14:19.920 --> 0:14:22.840 and the loneliness of it, it really comes through. And 0:14:22.960 --> 0:14:26.360 there's a paranoia of just touching things, even doors and this. 0:14:26.560 --> 0:14:28.160 And now when you hear someone coughe, you think it's 0:14:28.160 --> 0:14:30.200 something different. You know, it never used to. 0:14:30.080 --> 0:14:30.480 Be like that. 0:14:30.680 --> 0:14:35.120 So there's just you know, a lot of stuff in 0:14:35.160 --> 0:14:37.360 this movie that's really important to me, and I think 0:14:37.400 --> 0:14:39.600 it has a real message to so many people that 0:14:39.960 --> 0:14:41.240 it's important to talk about. 0:14:41.560 --> 0:14:43.120 And mental health is such a big. 0:14:42.960 --> 0:14:45.520 Issue right now, you know, And I think it's really 0:14:45.520 --> 0:14:48.440 great that people are finally able to talk about it 0:14:48.480 --> 0:14:51.480 because so much stuff has been bottled inside of people 0:14:51.600 --> 0:14:53.920 and it was like uncool to talk about if you 0:14:53.920 --> 0:14:56.120 were sad or it didn't feel good. You know, the 0:14:56.200 --> 0:14:58.480 press would overtake it and be like, oh, she's in 0:14:58.560 --> 0:15:00.760 deep depression or she's in this as to that, and 0:15:01.120 --> 0:15:03.000 like that's not true, you know what I mean. So 0:15:03.880 --> 0:15:06.840 when people were making your narrative on on stuff that 0:15:06.840 --> 0:15:08.760 you weren't even doing, or maybe what you could be 0:15:08.800 --> 0:15:11.160 going through but you weren't, it wasn't cool to talk 0:15:11.160 --> 0:15:14.120 about it. And now I think that the doorway is 0:15:14.200 --> 0:15:16.600 open that you could talk about all these things. And 0:15:17.360 --> 0:15:19.560 you'll see that in the movie the Struggle and the 0:15:19.600 --> 0:15:22.880 stuff she goes through, and you know, she starts hallucinating 0:15:23.080 --> 0:15:26.080 and she starts seeing things that aren't there, and there's 0:15:26.120 --> 0:15:28.720 just so much there's so much depth into this character. 0:15:29.320 --> 0:15:33.040 And it's a really proud project. I'm so proud about. 0:15:33.080 --> 0:15:37.240 And you know, my director and there's White Cross and 0:15:37.240 --> 0:15:41.520 she's also my partner, and she's a wonderful director and 0:15:42.920 --> 0:15:45.440 she really got things out of me, like really dark, 0:15:45.600 --> 0:15:47.600 dark things and I think I took I take a 0:15:47.640 --> 0:15:51.000 lot of my energy that I have and I tapped 0:15:51.040 --> 0:15:55.200 in there, you know. So it's like I went to places. 0:15:54.800 --> 0:15:56.640 That I didn't even really know I could go, and 0:15:57.280 --> 0:15:57.760 there'd be. 0:15:57.680 --> 0:15:59.800 Some scenes I was doing and I was just take 0:16:00.280 --> 0:16:03.920 shaking afterwards, like just shaking, like it could stop shaking, 0:16:03.960 --> 0:16:07.200 and like those scenes are just incredible, you know. I mean, 0:16:07.200 --> 0:16:09.960 I got my first award. I got my first Best 0:16:10.000 --> 0:16:10.600 Actress award. 0:16:10.640 --> 0:16:11.520 I don't see. 0:16:12.000 --> 0:16:14.760 Yeah, so that's fun, it's cool, and it's cool that 0:16:15.800 --> 0:16:20.320 and I got another Best Actress words yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:16:20.360 --> 0:16:21.360 so it. 0:16:21.440 --> 0:16:21.960 Was my first. 0:16:22.040 --> 0:16:25.360 I got three awards actually on this one, and that 0:16:25.440 --> 0:16:27.760 felt really good because the first movie that like I 0:16:27.840 --> 0:16:30.200 really produced and it was really evolved in and then 0:16:30.360 --> 0:16:33.160 it got noticed. So to me, that was like one 0:16:33.200 --> 0:16:36.840 of the greatest gifts of my career, of my life. 0:16:36.880 --> 0:16:40.320 That that feeling when I was on the stage and thinking, people, 0:16:40.520 --> 0:16:42.240 I can't tell you what that's like. I mean, I 0:16:42.240 --> 0:16:44.960 know it's not an Academy award, but it had that 0:16:45.000 --> 0:16:49.080 feeling of you know, like wow, you know, like it's 0:16:49.120 --> 0:16:51.400 like that speech that you know every girl does in 0:16:51.400 --> 0:16:53.720 the mirror, like I want to think you know, like 0:16:53.800 --> 0:16:55.960 it seem true and it was just like it was 0:16:56.120 --> 0:16:56.800 really awesome. 0:16:57.840 --> 0:17:01.160 I love that. Does that feel like with doctor Quarantine 0:17:01.200 --> 0:17:03.960 and all these words? Because you've always been a dynamite actress, 0:17:04.040 --> 0:17:06.640 like you just always have been so they can party girl, 0:17:06.720 --> 0:17:09.640 label you whatever. You've always shown up and played every 0:17:09.720 --> 0:17:12.680 role to its fullest and everything that I've witnessed, does 0:17:12.720 --> 0:17:16.280 this role feel like it's most redemptive? And where do 0:17:16.440 --> 0:17:18.159 you go from here? 0:17:18.200 --> 0:17:18.320 Like? 0:17:18.800 --> 0:17:20.600 Are you going to do more of these projects? Do 0:17:20.600 --> 0:17:22.960 you want to create more of these? Is this is 0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:27.600 this the tear read like arrival for you in your brain? 0:17:28.080 --> 0:17:28.959 Yeah? I think it is. 0:17:29.040 --> 0:17:32.160 I think it's the kind of the second chance and 0:17:32.680 --> 0:17:35.840 now seeing me as a woman, not this little girl. 0:17:36.560 --> 0:17:37.719 They'll be seeing a lot more of that. 0:17:37.760 --> 0:17:40.520 And I'm producing a bunch of more films with my partner, 0:17:40.680 --> 0:17:43.720 And it's been such a different experience being on the 0:17:43.760 --> 0:17:46.680 other side of the camera as well as producings. Before 0:17:46.680 --> 0:17:49.040 you used to just show up for work to my lines, 0:17:49.280 --> 0:17:51.960 you know, go home, memorize my linds again, go to work, 0:17:52.000 --> 0:17:53.080 you know, the same kind of thing. 0:17:53.440 --> 0:17:55.240 This time, there's so much more thought that. 0:17:55.200 --> 0:17:57.919 Goes into Okay, it's like we've got to find a financing, 0:17:58.080 --> 0:18:00.520 we have to figure out the marketing. You know, the cast, 0:18:00.640 --> 0:18:03.080 you have problems on the set, you know, there's so 0:18:03.200 --> 0:18:07.119 many to play. Both sides was so interesting. I learned 0:18:07.160 --> 0:18:10.640 so much more about movie making and the process of it, 0:18:10.960 --> 0:18:13.399 and it's it's a whole different world. And I really 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:15.400 really respect both sides. 0:18:15.359 --> 0:18:19.240 A lot of times. When you know, especially in these 0:18:19.280 --> 0:18:23.720 kind of roles, they're they're darker, they're you're drawing from 0:18:23.800 --> 0:18:28.720 past experiences and is there something from your past that 0:18:28.840 --> 0:18:32.080 has been kind of that hard moment that you draw 0:18:32.160 --> 0:18:34.040 from a lot within your work. 0:18:36.240 --> 0:18:41.280 I mean this on this movie especially, it was the 0:18:41.359 --> 0:18:44.440 hardest one, but it was the easiest one to tap 0:18:44.480 --> 0:18:48.880 into because I lost both my parents, so I could 0:18:48.920 --> 0:18:53.320 go into that really loneliness of missing them and the sadness. 0:18:53.359 --> 0:18:56.119