Speaker 1: Watch up and welcome back to another episode and no
Speaker 1: Sillers podcast with your host. Now funk that with your
Speaker 1: low glasses malone the most toxic things somebody said to you,
Speaker 1: Hockey Uma, sack your ass out. Because I couldn't recover
Speaker 1: from that. He was like, all you kept thinking about, like,
Speaker 1: wait a minute, what did you say? Yeah, I need
Speaker 1: to know why would the niggas ain't gonna sock you?
Speaker 1: Like that's some sick an my hockey of all people,
Speaker 1: come ball Because I was already over the situation. I
Speaker 1: didn't want to have sex, and I was like, no,
Speaker 1: heck your ass out because you don't give me some
Speaker 1: like Rodney some baby boy. He said, rap you in
Speaker 1: front of your son? Just fine. So how many podcasts
Speaker 1: I've done so far? I've done three with her? Three?
Speaker 1: I did four. I did appear by myself you twice
Speaker 1: the first one, three times in the fourth one, and
Speaker 1: then I wanted to extra not did three extras from
Speaker 1: somebody else's podcast too, from Kim and then to one
Speaker 1: from the cup check Pot. What made you want to
Speaker 1: do podcasts? Anyway? One day my friend has been doing
Speaker 1: it like a podcast for over like two years. Is
Speaker 1: about a relationship. She just came to me and was like,
Speaker 1: I want you to be on my podcast, and I
Speaker 1: was like, okay, I'm fine with that. And then when
Speaker 1: we got I was nervous like that. But when we
Speaker 1: got into it, I'm started talking. I started getting I'm
Speaker 1: like I could do this. I could talk to people
Speaker 1: about how I'm feeling. And it actually was theraputic for
Speaker 1: me because I just got out of like an ad
Speaker 1: break up. Why was it bad? Um? I was with
Speaker 1: my daughter father freak levin years and throughout the course
Speaker 1: of the eleven years, um toxic, very toxic, like severely toxic.
Speaker 1: Both yeah, both, I started getting toxic, like it's toxic,
Speaker 1: start rubbing off on me. So I started doing m
Speaker 1: I'm not the victim me, So I started doing things
Speaker 1: out of my not my character. I told you a
Speaker 1: little bit how how he is. You know what it is.
Speaker 1: So I'm gonna tell you about me because she FeelA
Speaker 1: be on my head. But that's not I'm a listener.
Speaker 1: I'm not a hearer, right, So if you tell me something,
Speaker 1: I don't react to how it makes me feel, right, right,
Speaker 1: that's not what I do. I listened to what you
Speaker 1: say and then I asked questions based off of what
Speaker 1: you're saying. Understandable hearing right, hearing. I say this all
Speaker 1: the time. Hearing is like a bodily function. Everybody can
Speaker 1: hear if you're not deaf right, so you can act
Speaker 1: to how something makes you feel when you hear it. Listen.
Speaker 1: Listen is a skill, like I listen. That's my skill.
Speaker 1: So if you say something to me, I'm listening to you,
Speaker 1: and then I'm gonna ask questions based off me listening.
Speaker 1: Here most people don't listen. She's a heart like, that's
Speaker 1: just me. But we were both toxic because we were.
Speaker 1: First of all, we were young. What's the most toxic
Speaker 1: thing that you did too? Said to him. Yeah, go
Speaker 1: to a club that he invited me to. He invited
Speaker 1: me to a club and his all his friends was
Speaker 1: out there. But but it was me because I'm the
Speaker 1: one that's not I started because I didn't have to
Speaker 1: go to the club doing that. But I went to
Speaker 1: the club with my feelings on my shoulder. And when
Speaker 1: I walk in the club, it's like women in front
Speaker 1: of him. Mind you, he's smoking and with his friends
Speaker 1: or whatever, but it's women in front of him and
Speaker 1: they just dancing all on him, and my quick reaction
Speaker 1: was like, what the fuck, And that's what I did.
Speaker 1: I did a reaction like that because I'm going off
Speaker 1: a pass hurt from what he did and I'm not
Speaker 1: over it, but but we're still together in a relationship,
Speaker 1: knowing I should have probably got out of the relationship
Speaker 1: because the past hurt was just like way too much
Speaker 1: to get over, and they just you know, when you
Speaker 1: try to forgive somebody and they keep doing the same
Speaker 1: thing over and over again, and you're just putting a
Speaker 1: band aid on it. You're just suppressing it because you're
Speaker 1: not really over because how can you be over it
Speaker 1: when they keep doing the same thing over and over again,
Speaker 1: even though they're saying sorry, But you're the crazy one
Speaker 1: because you still say it in it. So I have
Speaker 1: to fight myself because I went in the club start
Speaker 1: acting the food. Both of us got kicked out, dragged
Speaker 1: out the club by security. I lost my shoes, my
Speaker 1: cousin lost her phone, was getting ready to fight these women.
Speaker 1: Other dudes thought that he was trying to fight me,
Speaker 1: and they started trying to attack him because they thinking
Speaker 1: that they're trying to protect me, But it really was
Speaker 1: me I'm the one that's heard it. I started that.
Speaker 1: So you're just scared that whatever happened in the past
Speaker 1: was gonna happen with these new girls dancing on him.
Speaker 1: Um kia right, I'm assumed kill that you called him
Speaker 1: cheating he had a baby? Did y'all break up? Like?
Speaker 1: Was it the kind of relationship where kid, y'all broke up,
Speaker 1: like y'all be on and off, where y'are not talking
Speaker 1: for a couple of days in the weeks and that
Speaker 1: kind of cheating or like literally y'all in a happy
Speaker 1: home and the first time we were um in a
Speaker 1: happy home. The second time we broke up for like
Speaker 1: a week and he got somebody pregnant. He got his
Speaker 1: ex pregnant. So now my daughter has a I was
Speaker 1: listening to you more where you said that was him?
Speaker 1: Is that something that's a big thing, like gon need
Speaker 1: somebody dancing on your guy? Me personally, but she was
Speaker 1: younger at the time, So for me, I was in
Speaker 1: my my experiences to somebody else to the club with me.
Speaker 1: My experiences were relationships and things I've learned and been
Speaker 1: around my like guy cousins. After I got out of
Speaker 1: my relationship, I learned things and was able. I'm more
Speaker 1: able to understand things and look at at it from
Speaker 1: a different perspective than my mind at thirty two and
Speaker 1: thirty three. We have an understand of what we have
Speaker 1: and I know women are gonna react. You know, men
Speaker 1: is going to react. So as long as it's not disrespectful.
Speaker 1: We know what we're doing and we know what it is,
Speaker 1: and we have this understanding because this is what we
Speaker 1: talked about prior to getting in the relationship or how
Speaker 1: we get down with each other. It's just certain things, no,
Speaker 1: but that doesn't mean what she believe in is not
Speaker 1: right or wrong. You know, everybody has their own but
Speaker 1: now no, certain little things like and it also depends
Speaker 1: on dancing, like you know how they were dancing there away.
Speaker 1: Somebody can dance while you're in a relationship. That's too far,
Speaker 1: even though it's just dancing. She had on a white dress.
Speaker 1: The dress stopped like here. Does it matter though, because
Speaker 1: it's like, but the dress don't but her assholes out
Speaker 1: and it was all on his But does that really matter?
Speaker 1: It's not really like it was just like I don't know,
Speaker 1: abody grinding my man? Are you invited me here? While
Speaker 1: we're not about to grind on my man. And then
Speaker 1: I don't think y'all just that's a bit much. Have
Speaker 1: some brandy, okay with somebody grinding on your dick, I
Speaker 1: don't know. I mean, I hope don't do it. Don't don't,
Speaker 1: don't try to go out, but don't. But would you
Speaker 1: even allow that to happen? I mean, I think my
Speaker 1: personality comes. I mean I've had girls grind on me
Speaker 1: in the relationship. Like I don't think I looked at
Speaker 1: it nothing. I saw somebody dancing, but you was there
Speaker 1: by yourself or your woman was there? Did you invite
Speaker 1: your woman? Because I feel like because he invited me,
Speaker 1: he could have did that by yourself. You know what,
Speaker 1: you don't It's all different. A man, I'm gonna do
Speaker 1: certain things when any probably wasn't worth life. I probably
Speaker 1: wasn't worried about too much of the dancing I brought past.
Speaker 1: I brought her to the It was a trigger for
Speaker 1: I brought that made you feel some type of way.
Speaker 1: No seilings, gl I got some really great people from
Speaker 1: a podcast that we started, uh Cocktails with Kia and Mahogany.
Speaker 1: Kia say hi, so everybody say Hi, So everybody, Okay,
Speaker 1: So what exactly is toxic? When you say that? Like,
Speaker 1: what does that really? Like? You know, there's a thousand
Speaker 1: words why you got a new song I'll called toxic
Speaker 1: and toxic? What actually is toxic? Like? What are we
Speaker 1: saying it's toxic? Just so we have like a real
Speaker 1: conversation about whatever you think it is. Did you hear
Speaker 1: the lyrics song? I don't know if cheating is a
Speaker 1: toxic relationship, like that's what I'm saying. I don't think.
Speaker 1: I think cheating is pretty much nothing to do with toxic.
Speaker 1: That's like past toxic. I mean, that's not even toxic,
Speaker 1: Like your relationship is. You're not in a committed relationship
Speaker 1: if somebody's cheating on you, So what's really disrespect? Cheating
Speaker 1: is not disrespect, that's past disrespect, you know, I mean
Speaker 1: that's toxic. Yeah, that's that's not even I don't I don't.
Speaker 1: I would like to believe cheating is not toxic. Like
Speaker 1: that's that's over. I mean, you you if somebody fucking
Speaker 1: somebody else, right, y'all pretty much got a real problem,
Speaker 1: that ain't y'all don't even have a relationship because at
Speaker 1: that at that point, you have violated the mutual agreement
Speaker 1: of exclusivetivity the relationship. I understand now if we're saying toxic,
Speaker 1: we're talking about things that can pollute the relationship. Is
Speaker 1: a violation your relationship is pretty much if the thought
Speaker 1: was you're in a monogamous relationship, you're pat like cheating yourself,
Speaker 1: you fuck that up, right, So I'm saying what is toxic? Right?
Speaker 1: And no, I'm just saying we like what's toxic? And
Speaker 1: like what's disrespectful? Like you know, verbal abuse, calling each
Speaker 1: other out each other names, calling calling the female a
Speaker 1: bit you know, even calling the man a nigga. And
Speaker 1: and this is daily just talking to each other like that.
Speaker 1: I think that's a toxic environmental being so um verbal,
Speaker 1: I mean it's basically toxic to me, is like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm not having any type of respect for each other.
Speaker 1: Like what if you grew up in situations right where
Speaker 1: that's just how you talk, Like, right, we all know somebody.
Speaker 1: We are from the environments where we know women who
Speaker 1: call each other bitches and that's how they talk to
Speaker 1: each other. I talk like that. I'll come from the
Speaker 1: environment like I'm from l A. I'll come from that
Speaker 1: that what you wanna call it ghetto? I don't want
Speaker 1: to really say ghetto environments. Would you be offended if
Speaker 1: your dude called you his bitch, Like right now, he's
Speaker 1: not talking to you, right, but he talking to his
Speaker 1: boys and be like, hey, that's your bitch. Like, yeah,
Speaker 1: that's my bitch. And they don't be speaking on my bitch. No,
Speaker 1: I don't get offended for that. That's all because I'm
Speaker 1: like about no sentlers, no sinners. If he calls you,
Speaker 1: if he walks up to you and be like, look, bitch,
Speaker 1: that's different. That's different. That's different. And I don't know
Speaker 1: why it's like that, but it's just like culturally, we
Speaker 1: grow up in space to where you know where certain
Speaker 1: terms can be endeared me terms like nigga and we talked,
Speaker 1: that can be a term of endearment. You could feel
Speaker 1: the most love when somebody be like, oh that's my nigga.
Speaker 1: That's like the most love you could get in our coaching, right,
Speaker 1: I can get it. But I prefer my man not
Speaker 1: to do that, Like I prefer him not to do that,
Speaker 1: even though he don't mean it by any disrespect, like
Speaker 1: it like this my brighter die. That's my partner, like,
Speaker 1: that's my bitch, but I prefer for my men not
Speaker 1: to So let me ask you a question. Let's say
Speaker 1: if y'all together somewhere right to you and cousins somewhere,
Speaker 1: and some dudes start talking to you crazy, he like
Speaker 1: getting that you foul over something like yeah, yeah, yeah,
Speaker 1: some some some something like he's talking crazy, and your
Speaker 1: nigga step up, like hold up, why so are you
Speaker 1: talking to my bit my nigga? Are you upset that
Speaker 1: he stood up for you later on what you talked
Speaker 1: to him? Like yo, bro, Like yeah, I know you
Speaker 1: were standing enough for me, but you referenced me in
Speaker 1: that negative manner like where does it? Where will you be? Like,
Speaker 1: I'm okay with that. I wouldn't say anything at the moment,
Speaker 1: but I would be like baby um at home later
Speaker 1: in the car of babe dang thank you, but damn yeah,
Speaker 1: I probably would. But it's a certain okay. That all
Speaker 1: depends on what type of due you have exactly that,
Speaker 1: And I don't think you cannot change a dude talks
Speaker 1: with his homeboys. Now, if you got like one of
Speaker 1: those little white collared dudes, you know, I don't know
Speaker 1: I don't even gonna SAYBOT be different or something. But
Speaker 1: when you got one of the I feel like, dude,
Speaker 1: that's that's that's how they talk. But I feel like
Speaker 1: anyone that is with me the way I represent who
Speaker 1: I am, wouldn't even say that. They would know they
Speaker 1: just wouldn't get a guy that talks like that basically
Speaker 1: because that's what you're gonna have to do because that's
Speaker 1: how they talk. I wouldn't say I wouldn't get a
Speaker 1: guy like that because I'm more open now with experience,
Speaker 1: So um, I wouldn't say I wouldn't get with someone
Speaker 1: like that, but um, a simple conversation. But I feel
Speaker 1: like just how I would represent myself, then he probably
Speaker 1: wouldn't even feel like he would even have that slip
Speaker 1: his lips. Okay, So back to this dancing thing. So
Speaker 1: that's toxic because of you felt it was disrespectful, like
Speaker 1: you here and it's girls dancing on you. I felt
Speaker 1: like it was toxic because it's like, you already know
Speaker 1: what we've been through, you are know what we're going through,
Speaker 1: and you invite me out somewhere and you want me
Speaker 1: to see this, and you know that he didn't want
Speaker 1: you to see, I don't know what he wanted. I
Speaker 1: don't know what. I don't know, but he invited me,
Speaker 1: and you knew I was coming to himself. Like you
Speaker 1: know what, like these girls are just dancing on me
Speaker 1: the man, right, and girls are dancing on me at
Speaker 1: the club. Yeah, I'm just asking, right, because I don't
Speaker 1: I'm thinking about it, right, How would I feel if
Speaker 1: some girls dancing on me? Or if Brandy was dancing
Speaker 1: on something, girl on something? Dude? Right, I'm thinking about it, right?
Speaker 1: Could I be upset? Sure? What I feel is disrespectful?
Speaker 1: Maybe my feelings would feel that way. But then am
Speaker 1: I act? Like when people are at the club dancing, right?
Speaker 1: And I know how people dance. You're in an environment,
Speaker 1: so it's not surprised, right. I don't think that the
Speaker 1: dancing was more of toxic. I think the reaction of
Speaker 1: what we did and what we were doing was toxic.
Speaker 1: When were fighting, we was actually fist fighting in the club.
Speaker 1: He pulled my pony's hil That's why security. How did
Speaker 1: that even start? Though? Like, how did you get we
Speaker 1: got that far? Because we were just going at it going,
Speaker 1: I mean, so the girls dancing on him, he got
Speaker 1: all he got some girls around him, and I went
Speaker 1: over and I pushed everybody, why because that's just me.
Speaker 1: That was me back then, Like back then, that was me. Y'
Speaker 1: don't do that now. I don't know, not if I'm there, No,
Speaker 1: I don't know. I just pushed everybody, like what are
Speaker 1: y'all doing? Like, what's what's up? What's going on? Okay,
Speaker 1: let's say it's today right now that you don't have
Speaker 1: the history of whatever, because was doing right? You just
Speaker 1: you got a new guy, right, and y'all cool? And
Speaker 1: he at the club and the girl backing it up
Speaker 1: on him, you know, juvenile back that ass up. Come on,
Speaker 1: and she working with some mash yeah cash, yeah, making
Speaker 1: Nia spin his last year. She backing it up on him, right,
Speaker 1: he dancing with her, They just partying. I probably wouldn't
Speaker 1: react as bad as I did with would you say
Speaker 1: something to him about it? Probably after what would that
Speaker 1: conversation sound like? You just be jealous? Jealous, be just jealous,
Speaker 1: like what are you doing? Like why would you that
Speaker 1: warm here? But it wouldn't be the way that not happened.
Speaker 1: That was something toxic one oh one type of ship relationship. Yeah,
Speaker 1: the whole relationship was just done. It was being done,
Speaker 1: and we were just still holding on to each other.
Speaker 1: It's also different, if you know, you can look at
Speaker 1: it different. If the man is just over there and
Speaker 1: minding his business and a woman come up, that's different,
Speaker 1: you know, and just started dancing on him. So what
Speaker 1: if he go ask a woman to dance? She might
Speaker 1: be thick, But why would you do that when I'm here?
Speaker 1: Because they're at a club. So at the point of
Speaker 1: going to a club is to dance with people? Is
Speaker 1: this because is this about when I'm like not there,
Speaker 1: whether you're there or not. Just listen, I get the
Speaker 1: traditional ways that we think. Now I'm just thinking past
Speaker 1: those traditional kind of silly ways right where because we
Speaker 1: want to go to the club and take our significant
Speaker 1: other to the club and think everybody's supposed to be
Speaker 1: all lies on you. That's just dumb. How the fun
Speaker 1: would you go somewhere with all these bitches and I'm
Speaker 1: just looking at you. That's just crazy. That don't even
Speaker 1: make sense. That's just a bad idea from the start.
Speaker 1: So yeah, because so this is right right now today,
Speaker 1: you know, we still have to talk because obviously I
Speaker 1: have a child with him. He's like I would never
Speaker 1: take any woman i'm with to the club every again
Speaker 1: in life. That's always because the horrible idea. Though I
Speaker 1: don't know why clubs are for single people, the worst
Speaker 1: type of human beings try to bring their relationship to
Speaker 1: the club. That's ship dumbboys and dude, I'm like, man,
Speaker 1: that's the dumbest that's that's that's single life. Clubs are
Speaker 1: for single That's like, you bring your old lady to
Speaker 1: the strip club. She's killing the dream You're like, a
Speaker 1: strip club is about selling the dream of you sleeping
Speaker 1: with some woman that is super exotic about you. You know,
Speaker 1: you're dreaming of sleeping with this woman is super exotic
Speaker 1: and she wants you and you feeling a little bit better. Right,
Speaker 1: It's all fantasy. Right, So if you and your old
Speaker 1: lady you already sucking the family stiff right when you
Speaker 1: step up in this smither You're right. So what I'm
Speaker 1: saying is right. What I'm saying is, once we unplugged
Speaker 1: from all of the bullshit, what are we really saying
Speaker 1: is toxic? Like, what's really disrespectful? Okay, disrespectful is some
Speaker 1: girl like you and want to give you her number, right, Okay,
Speaker 1: I can that that makes sense, right, Okay, you take
Speaker 1: her number. That's disrespectful. Yeah, that's disrespect But I feel
Speaker 1: like toxic is the way you react to certain things,
Speaker 1: like how you react to it, like all the cusin, fighting,
Speaker 1: holland screaming, calling people off their names. When you got
Speaker 1: to get to that point in your relationship, I believe
Speaker 1: your relationship is toxic. Like, shoot, am I allowed to
Speaker 1: say blue face? Okay, blue face and her and that.
Speaker 1: I can't think of a girl named rock or something
Speaker 1: that that's toxic. One oh two one one one o
Speaker 1: three the four. So that's toxic, y'all? Fighting in public?
Speaker 1: You're pulling out her hair, she got a ball spot
Speaker 1: in the bag, she knows that you sleep with your
Speaker 1: baby mama. Still that's toxic to me. That's beyond crazy.
Speaker 1: That don't even make sense. So you do you think
Speaker 1: your relationship is healthy when you're doing all that in public?
Speaker 1: I don't care if it's a pelic at home abuse, abuses,
Speaker 1: toxic national chains off each other neck, that's I think
Speaker 1: that situation. Blue facing, what's that the way they act?
Speaker 1: I mean, I think it's a marketing to it, for sure.
Speaker 1: But I also think they'd be drunk. I think the
Speaker 1: problem is right, right, so we use these times right
Speaker 1: toxic right. Toxic is a real word that is not
Speaker 1: much to do with human beings, but we've implemented it
Speaker 1: into our world. But most of the time we act
Speaker 1: that way when we poisoned, right, And I think they're
Speaker 1: both poison I think something outside of just the trauma, right,
Speaker 1: because there's the trauma that's that's that kind of poison, right.
Speaker 1: But then there's also most of all our problems and
Speaker 1: relationships come from drinking. Yeah, because we all be faded.
Speaker 1: We start making different decisions when you're drinking, right, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean you drinking and then also a person that
Speaker 1: just have I believe it can also happen without alcohol.
Speaker 1: You know, I used to be in a toxic relationship
Speaker 1: because this individual was toxic. They grew up in a
Speaker 1: toxicon when they were a child and they had to
Speaker 1: you know, they've seen their mother get beat on by
Speaker 1: their stepdad. So as he became a man or whatever
Speaker 1: you want to call him, um, he had the choice
Speaker 1: of I'm not gonna do women like this, or I
Speaker 1: am gonna do women like this. I'm gonna be at
Speaker 1: the difference, And you don't have to be an alcoholic
Speaker 1: because that's what you grew up in, so sometimes you
Speaker 1: still toxic. There's ever a reason why a man should
Speaker 1: hit a one me, Like, do you think you say
Speaker 1: something that should probably get you slapped across your face?
Speaker 1: I don't believe. And nobody putting their hands on nobody,
Speaker 1: no one either, I think the party. Who are you
Speaker 1: to feel that it's okay to put your hands on me?
Speaker 1: So I don't need to put my hands on you,
Speaker 1: and you don't need to put your hands on me.
Speaker 1: You don't think verbal abuse or like you disrespecting or
Speaker 1: insulting somebody with what comes out of your mouth. Can
Speaker 1: let's say like, because I've always had a problem with this, Right,
Speaker 1: is the fact that witty people right, the fact that
Speaker 1: witty need more, the fact that witty people use their
Speaker 1: mental weapon, right, their brain to insult and made people
Speaker 1: feel lower, and they do it on purpose, right, And
Speaker 1: then they use their brain on purpose and then think
Speaker 1: somebody that's not as witty should have to take it
Speaker 1: because you have this is your skill set, your flex
Speaker 1: Is you insulting or bullying somebody mentally, right versus somebody
Speaker 1: physically fucking you up because they can't match your wittiness.
Speaker 1: And that's why I don't think there's ever a reason
Speaker 1: why I say people shouldn't hit people. I won't. Did
Speaker 1: you sound like you disagree with that? Listen? I will
Speaker 1: punch a bit lights out. Damn Yeah, I'm not above anything.
Speaker 1: I'm not. I'm just saying I've never never happened to me,
Speaker 1: but I'm sure I will, and there's will be reas that.
Speaker 1: What if she took off on me? A lot of
Speaker 1: people have a lot of people have been involding that.
Speaker 1: My mom, prime example. I grew up in a house
Speaker 1: where my mom had real hands. I watched her beat
Speaker 1: niggers upright because she had an attitude she can fight,
Speaker 1: so she beat niggers up. Shit, I can't let nobody
Speaker 1: with my ass. I got to let you know you
Speaker 1: can't whoop me. Now, I'm not going to respond physically
Speaker 1: because somebody's verbally insulting me. But I'm also witty, right,
Speaker 1: so like I can match you with for with, But
Speaker 1: if you're picking on somebody who don't have the type
Speaker 1: of wit which a lot of guys are not as
Speaker 1: witty and as intelligent as women, and you bullying them
Speaker 1: verbally and they want to defend themselves. It may come
Speaker 1: with a physical stand. That happened to me, it happens
Speaker 1: to most people. Most people be saying some crazy Ship.
Speaker 1: I'm thinking they're supposed to just get it off, and
Speaker 1: you're gonna make somebody look bad. You start talking about
Speaker 1: some nigger, telling him as dick little and trying to
Speaker 1: to grade him and Ship, I don't know if his
Speaker 1: solution is just leave. I'm not one of those people
Speaker 1: that say the solution all the time is just to leave.
Speaker 1: I think sometimes the fight consultition Ship because sometimes we
Speaker 1: don't have a true understanding of what's happening what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: Like if I'm talking to Mike Tyson and it's Mike Tyson.
Speaker 1: Eventually I got to realize this's Mike Tyson. Now if
Speaker 1: I keep working with him, you feel me. I can't
Speaker 1: back on you heavyweight champion. You know you should have
Speaker 1: knew you could whoop me. But I'm talking Ship though
Speaker 1: I'm called him a little bit, y'all. You got a
Speaker 1: little list for you, blah blah blower, just that the
Speaker 1: third or just that the third, and then I think
Speaker 1: he's as a man because he's the champion, headweight champion
Speaker 1: of the world, he's supposed to just take it. I
Speaker 1: understand what you're saying, but you know, for me personally,
Speaker 1: I don't. I just I don't want anyone feeling like
Speaker 1: they can put their hands on me. But I think
Speaker 1: that's the point, right, That's what I'm saying. I think
Speaker 1: as long as you don't verbally assault somebody, like it
Speaker 1: depends on what somebody's defending, I should be able to
Speaker 1: say whatever I want to know. So he's saying it
Speaker 1: like I'm responded, I'm responding. I'm responding. I can say
Speaker 1: what I want you you cannot say people. That's that
Speaker 1: one thing I love about the streets. They teach you
Speaker 1: right off the rip. You cannot say what you want
Speaker 1: to say. Well, they don't think you're about to get
Speaker 1: into a fight. I'm always if you're gonna talk, be
Speaker 1: prepared to fight, and don't allow nobody to punk you.
Speaker 1: The same thing, because if you allow somebody to punk,
Speaker 1: they're gonna keep on punking, and then you got to
Speaker 1: show what you about. Yeah, I'm just not with I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna lie. See I know everybody get on there.
Speaker 1: I never hear a woman. I won't never say that.
Speaker 1: I don't quite know. I can honestly say I've never
Speaker 1: hit a woman to this day, but ship tomorrow might
Speaker 1: bring something different to fire. Somebody, shut up? What does
Speaker 1: she like? Not get it? Though? You got me thinking
Speaker 1: like I wish you know, like you you'd be wishing
Speaker 1: you could talk a neg like yeah, but you but
Speaker 1: you know you can't. Man, So what you do is
Speaker 1: you start picking on them verbally. I've donet do stuff
Speaker 1: like that. I haven't had to do stuff like that,
Speaker 1: but I get what you're saying. If you call a
Speaker 1: man a bit, he's gonna get mad. He probably supped
Speaker 1: to slap your ship up. At least if the first
Speaker 1: time he's not supposed to trip. But if you like,
Speaker 1: if he ignored you the first time and then you
Speaker 1: like double down on it like little bitch, ask nigger,
Speaker 1: he eventually posed to probably show you to some degree
Speaker 1: he's not a bit chass nick because there's some confusion
Speaker 1: on who's the bitch and but what are you called
Speaker 1: putting your hands on a woman a bitch as no,
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, no, a man putting his hands on like
Speaker 1: really putting his hands on her like dude, you're a
Speaker 1: whole man up over here. That's only if a man's
Speaker 1: putting his hands on you, just put your ass just
Speaker 1: just because the coffee, yeah, or the bed was made, Okay, Okay,
Speaker 1: because I don't think they're all relationships right where motherfucker's
Speaker 1: is getting bullied. Women are getting bullied because the food
Speaker 1: is not prepared, the coffee is that's a bit. He's
Speaker 1: a bully, right, But it's different if men are responding
Speaker 1: to you verbally assaulting them because you don't like something,
Speaker 1: you hit him. Okay, you're hitting him to Its different
Speaker 1: Like if a woman slap me, I'm not gonna fighter.
Speaker 1: That's a woman punch. That's a woman hit. Slap me, cool,
Speaker 1: slap me. I'm gonna just block your ass. Right, you
Speaker 1: punched me with a closed fist. I'm gonna ask you,
Speaker 1: old up, what are you doing? Don't you know that
Speaker 1: I'm gonna beat you? Yeah, because he's walked around and
Speaker 1: knocked me, y'all, what did you throw a shot? Knock me? Yea?
Speaker 1: Now she thought she with my ass in the relationship
Speaker 1: and it's all fun. Right. If I ever knocked something,
Speaker 1: imagine you knocking the out. How do you keep that
Speaker 1: relationship going after you, No, you wake him or he
Speaker 1: wake up? And ship and oh and oh and I
Speaker 1: that's why I see you knock something? How do you
Speaker 1: keep that relationship going? How do you think this nigg
Speaker 1: is gonna protect you? You You didn't knocked him out. That's
Speaker 1: why I'm not advocating for me and to hit women.
Speaker 1: That's not what I'm navicating. I would like to believe.
Speaker 1: I would like to believe there's no reason, right. I
Speaker 1: would like to believe there are no reasons why people
Speaker 1: should have to fight. But I don't. The world I
Speaker 1: live in will not let that be true. Won't not
Speaker 1: this world. I don't get it. I guess when you
Speaker 1: break it down. And again, I don't want to sound
Speaker 1: like I'm advocated for me and fighting women being fighting women,
Speaker 1: fighting women. I'm just saying I know how ship can go,
Speaker 1: and it could be some ship, right, it can be
Speaker 1: some ship. And I'm not fucking around right right, I
Speaker 1: feel to be whooping my ass around my now. I
Speaker 1: need to be asking you for money. How do you?
Speaker 1: How do I look you in the face? You look
Speaker 1: at him again, you're knocking cold like he's sleeping. You're
Speaker 1: just standing over you're just knocking my cold. Imagine that
Speaker 1: as a lady, you just knock your nigg out. You
Speaker 1: just standing over him, sleep cold like out. How do
Speaker 1: you recover? How do you look at him the next
Speaker 1: day like, oh, I just knocked at Give me some go,
Speaker 1: get me some tea? Now, I said, now, now, now
Speaker 1: you're talking big ship. Give me give me all your buddy.
Speaker 1: That's sad, drop trulls godly thing. You never happened to me.
Speaker 1: I knock nobody else. I ain't man because I don't
Speaker 1: want to man such me. But you was fighting the
Speaker 1: nigga in the club. Was he fighting you? Or was
Speaker 1: he just really like, get your stupid ass and just
Speaker 1: man handling you. Because it's different somebody trying to funk
Speaker 1: you up and somebody man handling you. He was man
Speaker 1: handling you, putting you by your tip, stupid push it
Speaker 1: and shove it in. Yeah, hear you know that about me?
Speaker 1: You know you know he already does. Okay, So what
Speaker 1: else is this list of rules that your nigga can't do?
Speaker 1: So your nigga can't dance with a girl while y'all
Speaker 1: at the club. I personally don't like cheating, like I
Speaker 1: don't like it, Like if we're not talking about you said,
Speaker 1: the nigga dancing at the club with a girl who
Speaker 1: got a short skirt, big old ass putting her. Here
Speaker 1: we go, we on his waist. But it's not cheating,
Speaker 1: it's just dancing. I mean, that's like the oldsman in
Speaker 1: the club. I mean, and of course no number with him.
Speaker 1: But but since that's the situation, of course no number
Speaker 1: getting but giving out numbers that I'm okay. If my
Speaker 1: man want to buy women a drink, that's fine. What
Speaker 1: about liking pictures on Instagram? Oh hell no, I don't care.
Speaker 1: You could like whatever pictures you don't I don't It
Speaker 1: don't bother me. I personally don't like it. I don't care,
Speaker 1: like I don't like it. Toxic really polluting your relationship?
Speaker 1: I feel like it's polluting. I don't know about toxic. Now,
Speaker 1: why would it pollute your relationship when you're doing it
Speaker 1: like assessively. Let's say he just followed all these thick
Speaker 1: bitches on Instagram just like their pictures. So what I
Speaker 1: will say is when you're not licking mind, but you're
Speaker 1: liking their's that's what I feel like. It's if he
Speaker 1: likes all of y'alls, and what I can speak on
Speaker 1: that I can't Remega, that's your man pure. He in
Speaker 1: the bed like the picture y'all in the bed. See
Speaker 1: this happened to me, this true story. What happened Like literally,
Speaker 1: I used to be sleeping in the bed. Would be
Speaker 1: like four or five o'clock in the morning. I used
Speaker 1: to be sleep in the bed, knocked out, and I
Speaker 1: will roll over in the light on the phone will
Speaker 1: be just and I can look over and see your
Speaker 1: on Instagram at five a m. What are you doing? Well?
Speaker 1: He has the what's his Instagram time? What's the Yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't about to say what our time, but it
Speaker 1: was like, yeah, what's the hours? What's his instagrams? Ain't
Speaker 1: know hours? It was just like what do you do?
Speaker 1: But see, okay, it might be different. It's different with
Speaker 1: different dudes. Like with this one, I knew exactly what
Speaker 1: he was doing, what was doing because this is how
Speaker 1: he gets women. It's my Instagram liking the pictures. He
Speaker 1: started liking them, and then he started being at d
Speaker 1: M and the next thing you know, they following each
Speaker 1: other and the next thing you know, he's talking to him.
Speaker 1: This is how he gets women, so maybe it's different
Speaker 1: from me saying that about him. That's your experience and stuff,
Speaker 1: that's why you feel that's go that way. So I
Speaker 1: can't say that about every dude, but I just know
Speaker 1: my experience from that. So really, like the looking ship,
Speaker 1: what that experience is that how you are currently? I
Speaker 1: don't really care about that. Well, you know, think a
Speaker 1: little deeper because if you're honest with yourself, you could
Speaker 1: really get somewhere. So really does that body a little bit?
Speaker 1: A little bit, just just a tad bit, not not
Speaker 1: as much, especially because you can't use that pass relationship
Speaker 1: into the next one. So I can't say, oh, he's
Speaker 1: doing the same thing, so that's what you're gonna do anyway.
Speaker 1: But I agree I shouldn't, but I kind of did.
Speaker 1: But you know how that else but human being, Yeah,
Speaker 1: it's like you I'm already probab think they learned something
Speaker 1: about people because they was in this relationship. Is like,
Speaker 1: now you learned about that, right, that's it? But yeah,
Speaker 1: just a tabbit it really, don't you know? You learned
Speaker 1: about that individual and you also learned how to deal
Speaker 1: with whatever that's a situation may have been. What follow
Speaker 1: girls on only fans. Oh, that means you have a
Speaker 1: whole account, right account supports our local he supports our local.
Speaker 1: He supports three or four of our local sex workers
Speaker 1: where he watches their videos on only fans. Is that toxic?
Speaker 1: That's almost like the same as having a chatter bait.
Speaker 1: It's like a strip club charter. It was called chatter bait.
Speaker 1: It's like going to a virtual strip club, so they're
Speaker 1: fully clothes or a club. It's even it's a strip
Speaker 1: club mixing paint. It's a strip club mix with weren't
Speaker 1: right where you could I would imagine you see naked
Speaker 1: girls and then some neked girls having sex and they
Speaker 1: actually pay six nine a month like Hulu. Oh it's
Speaker 1: only six chasing that's a bit much. Is that? Is
Speaker 1: that toxic? That's not cheating? Is it? That's not cheating?
Speaker 1: It's toxic. It's toxic. Why I think it's like watching
Speaker 1: porn live poorns, watching porn toxic. No, keep whatever you feel,
Speaker 1: it's fine. You're gonna realize more people agree with you
Speaker 1: than you could imagine about what you feel. That's the
Speaker 1: one thing about Okay, I feel like when you are
Speaker 1: paying to see naked ship I feel like that's toxic
Speaker 1: to me. Well, not toxic, just disrespect. I guess that's toxic, right,
Speaker 1: that's proluding your relationship because why are you paying to
Speaker 1: be on chatter bait and all that difference up? You're
Speaker 1: paying to see women when you're a woman is right
Speaker 1: next to you? What are you? What are you paying
Speaker 1: for it? Do you think that free? But do you
Speaker 1: think that one woman? You think when somebody loves you, right,
Speaker 1: do you think that they lose their desire for everybody else?
Speaker 1: They don't? So then why does it Why would it
Speaker 1: really be? Why do you feel the need that Okay,
Speaker 1: he can't actually act like women exist or he can't
Speaker 1: be you know, now what are you actually doing on there?
Speaker 1: Are you actually just watching or are you actually indulging
Speaker 1: into it to like film chilming yourself? And no, he
Speaker 1: doesn't have an only fans. He subscribes to other girls
Speaker 1: only fans. Let me not bring this, Let me leave
Speaker 1: that over there, okay, because that's not what I'm talking about,
Speaker 1: the only fans. Let me lead that over there. Oh
Speaker 1: that's but that isn't a weird question because because I'm
Speaker 1: thinking about chatter Bay, I think chatter Bay that when
Speaker 1: you have to pay for that too, and you see
Speaker 1: live porn, but you also have to put the camera
Speaker 1: on yourself too. Yeah, is that cheating if it's virtually done?
Speaker 1: I feel like it is. You're on the camera with
Speaker 1: a woman that's on her camera. You guys are both
Speaker 1: nikki and you are jacking off. You're doing that's not okay.
Speaker 1: That is not okay, and you're paying for that subscription
Speaker 1: every month and your woman what if he sleeps with
Speaker 1: you too? Though? But he has fantasy of he has
Speaker 1: a fantasy of fantasy women. I think that that's a
Speaker 1: bit much. I can't. I think that because he was
Speaker 1: into something else, man will be man and you really
Speaker 1: can't control. I think that that turns into something else,
Speaker 1: the virtual thing or that chatterbox stuff that's you know, No,
Speaker 1: that's the definitely not of of of the video of
Speaker 1: the man and the woman and y'all he possibly jacking
Speaker 1: off or whatever. No, that would you be jealous if
Speaker 1: you're we're not jealous? Is that toxic? If you're man
Speaker 1: like Jack's off the porn. No, he's a being aroused,
Speaker 1: that's why he's watching that. I'm sure you could be jealous.
Speaker 1: That makes sense. But I'm asking like, is that toxic?
Speaker 1: Does that pollute your relationship? Do you? Okay? So this
Speaker 1: is the thing, right, I was gonna say this to you.
Speaker 1: The hardest part for women, and I think we said that,
Speaker 1: we talked about this before, is to confuse, right, The
Speaker 1: hardest part is to confuse like, um, you think me
Speaker 1: and cheat right because it's about you. You think it's
Speaker 1: you're not good enough or something about you. And the
Speaker 1: hardest part for women to come out of. And I
Speaker 1: blame me and somewhat forward for doing it. It's making
Speaker 1: women feel like it's their fault. It's not. And I
Speaker 1: thought that for years, Right, it's not. It's nothing to
Speaker 1: do with you. It's actually he cheats because of himself. Hello,
Speaker 1: I agree to that. I told you told me that,
Speaker 1: But I always like something you're doing. It's not you
Speaker 1: can't suck big good enough, your pussy can't be good enough.
Speaker 1: It's not none of that because it's a personal conquest.
Speaker 1: It's a personal accomplishment to sleep with a woman. Nothing
Speaker 1: to do with you, nothing, nothing, And that's just the reality.
Speaker 1: The realist part about all that ship is, you know,
Speaker 1: and there's some scumback niggas who will really make you
Speaker 1: feel like it's your fault. And then there's some mentally
Speaker 1: weak guys who will be like, oh, well, like okay,
Speaker 1: my girl that I'm in a relationship with is not
Speaker 1: giving no pussy, so I'm gonna get some pussy. Break
Speaker 1: up with the bitch man, you know what I'm saying,
Speaker 1: break up with her. If you feel like your old
Speaker 1: lady ain't give me no pussy, break up with her.
Speaker 1: She ain't get no pussy. In to hear, break up
Speaker 1: with her. Why are you with her? He definitely, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't know. I mean, eventually something has to happen
Speaker 1: in our year is a long time, a very especially
Speaker 1: especially if if somebody is driven to do it and
Speaker 1: it's not happening. Listen, people being relationships and go without
Speaker 1: years without having sex because they're both you know, not
Speaker 1: pressing a line or it's not really about that. But
Speaker 1: I'm saying, if the reason the man sleeps with another
Speaker 1: woman is not about what his woman, don't do that
Speaker 1: some nigga is really a thing that I'm gonna get
Speaker 1: my dick stuck because she'll suck my dick. That is
Speaker 1: just intellectually lazy and trash. So what is the reasoning
Speaker 1: behind it. Women makes you feel better about yourself, You
Speaker 1: feel accomplished, you feel special. What's crazy is right, out
Speaker 1: of all the niggas y'all sleep with somehow, the next
Speaker 1: nigga don't feel like he got some special? Ain't that crazy?
Speaker 1: You give him some pussy? She got pussy. I'm special
Speaker 1: like you don't get them other niggas pussy repackaged it
Speaker 1: up and served it like it was a fresh new present.
Speaker 1: Another nigga is gonna put that bag on a pedestal,
Speaker 1: and I don't mean that. That sounds a lot more
Speaker 1: negative than sound that py got smiles and treat that
Speaker 1: motherfucker like it's fresh off the line. That Well, niggas
Speaker 1: feel like that all the time, right, They feel like
Speaker 1: that even when they wish somebody right they A nigga
Speaker 1: could be with you, right and I love you to death,
Speaker 1: But if another woman want to give him some pussy,
Speaker 1: oh man, I must be all right? Okay, so right,
Speaker 1: so he feel like he conquered something, not even just conquered.
Speaker 1: It's it's you feel like what you feel like new money?
Speaker 1: You know what I'm keeping it? Being with you? Could
Speaker 1: please keep a hole. The first time I had sex.
Speaker 1: The whole time, I couldn't believe it was happening. I
Speaker 1: could not believe this bitch was giving me no pussy.
Speaker 1: I could not. I was like, wow, I didn't even
Speaker 1: the first time I have sex, I didn't even come.
Speaker 1: It was like forty minutes. I was just so enamored
Speaker 1: that she was giving me some pussy. Right, that's my
Speaker 1: life where I went off. I was enamored, She's give
Speaker 1: me some pussy. Even now, as an adult twenty some
Speaker 1: years later of getting pussy, they're still a moment where
Speaker 1: I'll be like, dad, she's gonna give me some fussy. Yes,
Speaker 1: it don't last, it don't last as long, it don't
Speaker 1: last forty minutes, it may last four seconds, but there's
Speaker 1: still a thing like she's gonna give me some pussy.
Speaker 1: I'm something we like. Men judged themselves based off somebody
Speaker 1: wanting to give him some pussy. You don't judge yourself
Speaker 1: by the wife you have. Like jay Z listen to
Speaker 1: jay z raps he like beyond it's Beyonce's rich, got
Speaker 1: a little body. Hear me said, this country probably cooking
Speaker 1: the bed. And he's still like I cheated a couple
Speaker 1: because he's still Women still will validate show existence until
Speaker 1: you start finding things to replace them. But it's the
Speaker 1: easiest sense of validation. I've had niggas right who like
Speaker 1: niggas will be talking ship, he's funny looking any of
Speaker 1: your hairline fund up, Like nigga bitch is still give
Speaker 1: me pussy though, and that be like the comeback hega,
Speaker 1: I'm good, so he feel like he good. This is
Speaker 1: how accomplished you feel when some woman wants to give
Speaker 1: you pussy. You feel like like, oh, I'm something. I've
Speaker 1: said this another podcast where like it's niggas who will
Speaker 1: sleep trying to sleep with girls that I slept with
Speaker 1: because they feel like this is the quickest way to
Speaker 1: get my validation. Like, ah, we the same. She gave
Speaker 1: us both some pussy. They ain't gotta go to jail
Speaker 1: and fight niggas and not tell and shoot niggas and
Speaker 1: have a low rider and make it out of poverty
Speaker 1: and turn them to some rap ship and signed deals
Speaker 1: and travel the country and doing the show. They don't
Speaker 1: got to do that long. Is this bitch who I
Speaker 1: slept with give him some pussy. I gotta be the
Speaker 1: same thing she gave me some pussy. And that's why
Speaker 1: you don't give your ship up. That's why you keep
Speaker 1: it to yourself. That's really the power of it. That's
Speaker 1: the best thing you can do. That's really the power
Speaker 1: of it. So when you like with your goud right
Speaker 1: that she was with he is there still a sense
Speaker 1: of validation that he gets when some girl wants to
Speaker 1: give him some pussy. That's why he'd be so unhappy,
Speaker 1: because he'd be like, ship, whatever, somebody want to give
Speaker 1: me some pussy. It's not it it's super empowering. It's
Speaker 1: it's lazy. Don't let me wrong. Intellectually it's lazy. But
Speaker 1: you can't help it because it's fundamental, like you have
Speaker 1: to have value if some woman wants to give you pussy.
Speaker 1: I just really personally, what I think is y'all just
Speaker 1: make horrible decisions. Listen to him though you this right here,
Speaker 1: These are the conversations that I had years ago when
Speaker 1: I first broke up with Max. I was around man like,
Speaker 1: so that's why my mental is so different. Like even
Speaker 1: like I probably get crazy. They probably would say, like, damn,
Speaker 1: that's crazy, she said that, But like okay, like who
Speaker 1: do you think you are? Jay Z cheesna be. That's
Speaker 1: what I'll be thinking, like who, who who do you
Speaker 1: think you are? When people be like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: he cheated on me, I used to be the same way.
Speaker 1: I don't care who people being. You know, Mars, it's personal.
Speaker 1: You have to find it within yourself, and you have
Speaker 1: to find validation within yourself. It can't be for nobody else.
Speaker 1: Gotta be for yourself. You have to find jay Z
Speaker 1: got some money man all right, still a regular punk
Speaker 1: ass bitch. Still makes him feel accomplished, right, got all
Speaker 1: these plaques, plaques, got liquor, y'all have some of his liquor,
Speaker 1: all this cristy shit. He accomplished. Got a lady, lady,
Speaker 1: they want some Grammys. This lady probably the greatest entertainer today,
Speaker 1: right the top Crim day, like Crim. And he's still
Speaker 1: messing around, not now, probably still right now, probably still
Speaker 1: right now, like hello, and he's still like yeah whatever
Speaker 1: for me? So again is one of those things that
Speaker 1: don't have nothing to do with you. It's a personal
Speaker 1: insecurity that is a real simple solution to make yourself
Speaker 1: feel So do you think that you said you supposed
Speaker 1: to stay with a man that's doing that? I don't know, man,
Speaker 1: because I don't know's that's a really tough thought, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean? Like that that whole ship of
Speaker 1: cheating is a really tough thought. It depends on how
Speaker 1: does it really make you feel like you can't you
Speaker 1: can't stay in something and that continues to happen and
Speaker 1: you really lose your yourself. You you know, you're depressed
Speaker 1: as having all this anxiety. This is making you feel
Speaker 1: like this, and then you have to do what's best
Speaker 1: for you to move on. Yeah, I don't I don't know.
Speaker 1: That's just a really tough thing. Like that's tough. And
Speaker 1: then if it's like you know you it's in your
Speaker 1: face too, like you know what's going on? Yeh see
Speaker 1: what I've also had this conversation and I've been thinking
Speaker 1: about this the difference between cheating and affairs. Men don't
Speaker 1: usually get called cheating. Men get caught having affairs. If
Speaker 1: you actually just cheat, you'd be fine, right, and nobody
Speaker 1: finds out because cheating somebody, right, you wouldn't see that
Speaker 1: and she's at the house. If I just went and
Speaker 1: just knock somebody down, you would have no idea. The
Speaker 1: problem is when you build a relationship when you have
Speaker 1: an affair you start to have, you can look at
Speaker 1: the phone and see taxes back and forth for it
Speaker 1: for a few days. Okay, you are talking to this
Speaker 1: best too much, right, see what I'm an advocate of. Right,
Speaker 1: and you get married and ship, and you're in the
Speaker 1: relationship and ship, I think you have to lose the
Speaker 1: monitor of not paying for pussy. You actually probably need
Speaker 1: to go pay for some pussy at this point, because
Speaker 1: if you pay for some pussy, you're not find out
Speaker 1: in a relationship with the more problem, you were sick
Speaker 1: nick at this point you need to get if you
Speaker 1: got a relationship with if you have an affair with
Speaker 1: the prostitute of money, you need to break up with
Speaker 1: your wife because you are starving for attention from some
Speaker 1: weird way or not. At this point, we got a problem, right,
Speaker 1: but to just get some pussy to feel validated, you
Speaker 1: feel me? Your woman all never know. You woman will
Speaker 1: never know. The problem is when you start to have
Speaker 1: a faish phone calls back and forth, blah blah blah, y'all,
Speaker 1: fucking y'all building a relationship. You got two girlfriends and
Speaker 1: two wives, nigga, So because the other woman got pregnant
Speaker 1: on the first time. So that's how that went. See that.
Speaker 1: But see that's that's that's just rough because um, and
Speaker 1: then they'll condom like man, man, shea did and go
Speaker 1: down on the other way. That's like damn. I mean,
Speaker 1: she shouldn't happen. But man be cheating, like they could
Speaker 1: really trust the woman. Well, they cheat to where they
Speaker 1: can get caught. It's like, how are you gonna go
Speaker 1: down somebody else? And how are you gonna do it
Speaker 1: without a condom? That's just like nasty, Like that's just
Speaker 1: the men are nasty. I'm a women are too, but
Speaker 1: this is just people are nasty. Uh yeah, nasty, not
Speaker 1: just man. I think they had to be having sex
Speaker 1: with somebody without a condom exactly, and they agree to it. Um.
Speaker 1: I don't know, man, I just think that, Um you
Speaker 1: really think about it. Everything is so subjective. It just
Speaker 1: depends on where you at at that time. I think.
Speaker 1: I think that's why the reason I ask you how
Speaker 1: you feel about that, because you know, on numerous occasions
Speaker 1: he always has told me, like you think you do.
Speaker 1: Only woman in the world get you though, And I'm
Speaker 1: looking at him like probably not. But yeah, niggas will say,
Speaker 1: some sick ship shout out to couse, he's a sick nigger.
Speaker 1: He's super sick for that right the coach. Should I
Speaker 1: be hearing that? Niggas be said the girls like, dain't
Speaker 1: nobody else gonna want you? God damn you told her down.
Speaker 1: Ain't something. That's what he's saying, nobody don't want you
Speaker 1: with two kids? That was that was a lie. See
Speaker 1: but but that's my point. That's sick. Niggas will say,
Speaker 1: some sick ship who says that, like, ain't nobody gonna
Speaker 1: won't you? Girl? Like, that's just sounds like some ship
Speaker 1: out the thirtiest. You wanted me, but I don't even
Speaker 1: like you anymore? An nobody wants you no more? Ugly,
Speaker 1: I only won't need you. He said that. He was like,
Speaker 1: shoot you you think you do only works to get you?
Speaker 1: Though she ain't nothing, Why are you taking this offense
Speaker 1: to it? She did ain't nothing. I used to be like, wow, sick,
Speaker 1: just disrespectful beyond you know what's funny? I agree. I
Speaker 1: think the term disrespectful gets thrown around, but I think
Speaker 1: at that point, because they have certain lack of admiration
Speaker 1: for you to ms like I'm just gonna say anything
Speaker 1: he and he, but it's not a it's not as
Speaker 1: much of a representation of you as much as how
Speaker 1: he values things right, it's him. He has issues. You know,
Speaker 1: when an individual have all of these behaviors as saying
Speaker 1: like you, no one will want you, or anything negative
Speaker 1: to try to bring you down, it's a reflection of themselves.
Speaker 1: And I just think like his childhood or whoever, not
Speaker 1: even him, we're not talking about him, just any individual.
Speaker 1: Whatever happened in the childhood effects you know, Like I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 1: who's that? What's crazy? Is? Right? Is? I know niggas
Speaker 1: who really think like that? Like he really don't get
Speaker 1: me wrong. I do think I meet some girls who
Speaker 1: I know some girls I'll be like, you're gonna struggle
Speaker 1: to being a good relationship. But I always think you
Speaker 1: can get a shot. You can always get a shot.
Speaker 1: Every woman can always get a shot. Now are you
Speaker 1: gonna be able to maintain the shot? Is different? Like
Speaker 1: I can see if somebody saying, girl, you ain't gonna
Speaker 1: be able to keep no good relationship because your attitude
Speaker 1: is sucked up, that's a little different than ain't nobody
Speaker 1: gonna want you. Everybody wants somebody women for sure they
Speaker 1: thirst trapped that ship out and slide to the picture
Speaker 1: of the photo shot. Put the Instagram up. It's some
Speaker 1: ni gonna come running the snapchat filters start putting that
Speaker 1: shut up, and you start whatever it takes. Yeah, put
Speaker 1: the clevange out and ship think. It's just like, what's haadening?
Speaker 1: So somebody always gonna won't you. Somebody gonna always be
Speaker 1: in d MS. On that note, how to maintain a relationship.
Speaker 1: Now that's different. That's a whole different program. Right there,
Speaker 1: You felt like this is just crazy. Can't nobody think
Speaker 1: like this? That's what I thought. Oh, um, it's so
Speaker 1: many Lord Jesus, um. I remember I remember when I
Speaker 1: don't know, we got into it, and um he sent
Speaker 1: me a picture of a girl that had graduated from
Speaker 1: UM school, from university and he sent me a picture
Speaker 1: of her and was like, um, and this is why
Speaker 1: you can't talk about her, because she got a degree
Speaker 1: and you don't. And I was like, god damn. I
Speaker 1: was like, okay. So he sent me the whole photo
Speaker 1: of the girl in the cap and gown and everything.
Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, your point, what how did you all
Speaker 1: get into We got into it because I was just
Speaker 1: like I was talking ship and I was saying, like
Speaker 1: you telling him to like you ain't gonna never get
Speaker 1: nobody better than me. And I don't think I said that.
Speaker 1: I just was like I think I was on some
Speaker 1: other ship, like she ugly or something. I said like
Speaker 1: that she ugly. He was like, oh, at least she
Speaker 1: got a degree. Okay. He started defending the bench. Now,
Speaker 1: he done that a lot of time. Wait a minute,
Speaker 1: wasn't this Pottner though, And you're saying that it was
Speaker 1: a girl that like, oh yeah, that's you can't talk
Speaker 1: about the kids mother. Goddamn, hey, it is with it.
Speaker 1: She never cheated on me. Yeah, it is what it is.
Speaker 1: And then, um, I remember I had bought like a
Speaker 1: I had least a BMW X one, like back in
Speaker 1: two thousand and fourteen. He said he hit me a
Speaker 1: picture like and that's why the bitch, I'm fucking gotta
Speaker 1: X three. Okay, he's super immature, super pa, Like what
Speaker 1: the hell. And it sounds like just like one of
Speaker 1: my whole boys. I was. My homeboys wouldn't tell me
Speaker 1: that because they know I'll be on their as. That's
Speaker 1: why she got the ex straight, damn gouse, you're a
Speaker 1: sick nigga. Bro, who cares? He is a sick nigg
Speaker 1: I like that big already, Like I turned him. You
Speaker 1: know seeing this song, right, kid, you're gonna see the
Speaker 1: song get the cake? She got the street kidneys to
Speaker 1: be like this man is crazy here. Oh that was
Speaker 1: just sash. It was. It was. It's funny the most
Speaker 1: toxic things somebody said to you, mahogany toxic. He was like,
Speaker 1: what it was like super polluted, kind of polluted your
Speaker 1: relationships where like it was hard for it to actually
Speaker 1: function correctly. Actually said this, um I'm trying to remember
Speaker 1: the exact words, um masako grass out because I couldn't
Speaker 1: recover from that. He was like, oh you kept thinking
Speaker 1: about what this? Wait a minute, he was like. He
Speaker 1: was like it was like he had whispered it in
Speaker 1: the restaurants. How you feel? He was like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: what they I was like, Oh what happened? What did
Speaker 1: you say to them? What did you say? I need
Speaker 1: to know? Why would niggas ain't gonna sock you? Like
Speaker 1: that's some sick'nack my hockey of all people come ball
Speaker 1: that because I was already over the situation. I didn't
Speaker 1: want to have sex, and I was like no, oh no.
Speaker 1: I was like, you cannot touch my body ever, said
Speaker 1: your ass out because you don't give me some pussy
Speaker 1: like Rodney baby boy in front of your son, Like
Speaker 1: what damn? I know how you reacted to Oh my god, yeah,
Speaker 1: I always you just say to me, okay, so wait
Speaker 1: a minute, you said. So y'all laying down and he's
Speaker 1: trying to get his fills on to get it cracking,
Speaker 1: and he was like, nigger, you could never have this
Speaker 1: no more. I was so sorry over the situation, and
Speaker 1: I was like I already told you we're not doing
Speaker 1: that anymore. And but y'all were still sleeping together. That
Speaker 1: wasn't my fault. That was his choice. So um what
Speaker 1: that was that his choice because he wanted to come
Speaker 1: over and just spend a night okay whatever. Why would
Speaker 1: you say whatever if you have no intentions on giving him? No,
Speaker 1: it wasn't even like that easy. It was like no, no, no,
Speaker 1: can I just come over there and just talked to you? Okay,
Speaker 1: okay to talk turned it just medding night and um
Speaker 1: like no, like no, And you know they got they
Speaker 1: feeling conack your glass out because and he said, because
Speaker 1: it really was like Rodney, so you're gonna just rape
Speaker 1: me in front of my son's that's not funny. It's
Speaker 1: funny now because you are right. But yeah, and it's
Speaker 1: so funny that you do know me because you said, Oh,
Speaker 1: my guys, guys toxic guys handle rejection really bad. Like
Speaker 1: they handed rejection like Nigga, like Nigga's being cars if
Speaker 1: you'd be like, can I get your lemb like no,
Speaker 1: I got somebody fucking bit before. So that's why I'm
Speaker 1: really nice to people now, like, hey, how you doing,
Speaker 1: I'm great, thank you, thank you. They've been dogged out
Speaker 1: so long that they don't know how to deal. I mean,
Speaker 1: like so many people said no that they just feel
Speaker 1: like this is the only way they could get I've
Speaker 1: never been like that. Is that why now guys don't
Speaker 1: really approached women anymore, because they feel like they don't
Speaker 1: want to reject it. It gets ego right now is
Speaker 1: more fragile than historically it's ever been. The mail because
Speaker 1: they've been they don't come up to you no more.
Speaker 1: They'd be like anyway, My facial expressions are very, very
Speaker 1: bad and you gotta go up to them, are you
Speaker 1: you know, I'll be trying to smile. Okay, So what's so,
Speaker 1: what's the most toxic thing you ever said to it? Okay, ship,
Speaker 1: I know he'd asked me this. Yeah, I would like
Speaker 1: to know, because if you just trust me, it ain't
Speaker 1: usually one toxic motherfucker. It's usually too motherfucker trying to
Speaker 1: top each other all the time. And I did try
Speaker 1: to talk, what's the most toxic thing you ever said
Speaker 1: to him? Well, you knew you was thinking yourself like, damn,
Speaker 1: win't gonna never After he was like, I probably shouldn't
Speaker 1: have said that. Win't gonna never be the same way again.
Speaker 1: I'm good for being like, shut your bit ass up.
Speaker 1: You're supposed to beat you up there and said it
Speaker 1: everyway said, but shut up with yourselup blood perfect and
Speaker 1: he's a crip, yep, are just supposed to find yourself.
Speaker 1: What's the most toxic thing you ever said to a guy? Obviously,
Speaker 1: I heard you called somebody some crazy and you definitely
Speaker 1: think you could saying what you want to say, So
Speaker 1: say it the most toxic thing I've ever said to man?
Speaker 1: I don't know. I can't really think right now, I'm
Speaker 1: not really disrespectful like that. See what I'm saying, You
Speaker 1: gotta like bring it out. But um, and then because
Speaker 1: you just said that, due you should have said something.
Speaker 1: I'm glad you did say that because that would have
Speaker 1: been a fight. He was really already broke his hard.
Speaker 1: You already broke his hard. He hooked off the porch.
Speaker 1: Want your ass out because I mean, I guess I didn't.
Speaker 1: I don't. I didn't call the man a bit though.
Speaker 1: I didn't call a man a bit before y'all stopped
Speaker 1: doing that. I want you all to take this, not
Speaker 1: that to get you killed. We will. I'll be seeing
Speaker 1: the fire in their eyes, like because they're looking like
Speaker 1: you are the bitch? Why would you call me? You like,
Speaker 1: not use a bit? Like but you have a vagina? Right?
Speaker 1: Why are you saying I have a vagina? Right? Right?
Speaker 1: It's a pretty I'm really I'm learning, like not to
Speaker 1: say that word. I'd be like, really, buddy, like, don't
Speaker 1: say that word here. So I'm not learning, I know,
Speaker 1: I'm more so, how many guys have you called a bitch?
Speaker 1: Mogany different guys? More than one to really just off
Speaker 1: top literally one literally one that's toxic mm hmm. But
Speaker 1: we grow, we evolve, and so you know, you called
Speaker 1: two dudes bitches. That's it. I'm surprised it's only two. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I only been in two real relationships, both of the
Speaker 1: to me at that point. Good looking out for tuning
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