WEBVTT - Pride Will Be Your Downfall 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:03.120 Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 0:00:03.240 --> 0:00:21.120 and the Black Effects, And just like that, we're back 0:00:21.120 --> 0:00:23.720 on the air. Welcome back to yet another carefully Reckless 0:00:23.760 --> 0:00:26.000 episode with your Girl just hilarious. Now listen, I'm by 0:00:26.040 --> 0:00:29.000 myself today and I have something very important to express 0:00:29.040 --> 0:00:32.000 and to talk about because this is actually going on 0:00:32.120 --> 0:00:35.839 in a lot of people's lives, both men and women. Pride. 0:00:36.440 --> 0:00:39.519 There is no story time. I just want to speak now. 0:00:39.600 --> 0:00:42.559 There is nothing wrong with having pride, pride false hand 0:00:42.600 --> 0:00:45.680 in hand with dignity as a woman. As a man, yes, 0:00:45.760 --> 0:00:48.159 you need both of those. But too much pride can 0:00:48.240 --> 0:00:53.920 hinder you from opportunities. It can hinder you from great relationships. 0:00:53.920 --> 0:00:58.160 It can hinder you from um bonding with family, healthy relationships, 0:00:58.200 --> 0:01:01.560 healthy friendships. It can hinder or you from job opportunities 0:01:01.560 --> 0:01:07.480 as well, anything that requires you to have a humble mind. 0:01:08.000 --> 0:01:12.080 And that just means open to everything. Honestly, if there's 0:01:12.160 --> 0:01:16.000 no no significant definition of humble other than just being 0:01:16.120 --> 0:01:20.520 open and down to earth, that's what humble is to me. However, 0:01:20.560 --> 0:01:23.160 other people always getting sucked up, But that's exactly what 0:01:23.240 --> 0:01:26.320 humble is to me, down the earth and open right 0:01:27.200 --> 0:01:31.920 pride and humble usually don't mix. Listen. I was in 0:01:31.959 --> 0:01:36.080 a position once where I was dating someone and I 0:01:36.280 --> 0:01:38.559 just blew up like I had just gotten the Fox 0:01:38.600 --> 0:01:41.680 Show and all of that ship. I was dating somebody. 0:01:41.720 --> 0:01:45.800 You know, understand what I'm saying. He felt like, I'm 0:01:45.800 --> 0:01:49.160 not gonna treat you like a celebrity because you're on Fox. 0:01:49.200 --> 0:01:54.720 I'm not gonna treat you differently because you are on 0:01:54.760 --> 0:01:58.240 a Fox show. You're the same girl that I knew 0:01:58.280 --> 0:02:00.760 when I was younger. You're the same blah blah blah, 0:02:00.760 --> 0:02:03.840 blah blah. You're the same. So don't come around here 0:02:03.880 --> 0:02:06.800 with that Hollywood ship. You're gonna be the same bitch 0:02:06.840 --> 0:02:08.399 that I knew that I went to school with blah 0:02:08.400 --> 0:02:12.760 blah blah. Now listen. And that event, his pride and 0:02:12.840 --> 0:02:16.520 his ego would not let him see me as an 0:02:16.520 --> 0:02:19.799 evolved woman from the hood. Now, I'm not gonna sit 0:02:19.800 --> 0:02:21.920 here and say I came from nothing because my parents 0:02:21.919 --> 0:02:24.960 worked damn hard to keep lights on, and me and 0:02:25.000 --> 0:02:28.160 my brother had every single thing that we wanted if 0:02:28.240 --> 0:02:31.120 we earned it. Even if my parents didn't have it, 0:02:31.160 --> 0:02:33.280 which is something I found out when I was an adult, 0:02:33.639 --> 0:02:36.840 they still scrounged up in and and and made it 0:02:36.880 --> 0:02:40.079 happen for us. However, they didn't have it all the time, 0:02:40.120 --> 0:02:42.320 but they ended up getting it for us. So I'm 0:02:42.320 --> 0:02:44.680 not gonna say I didn't come from nothing right because 0:02:44.680 --> 0:02:48.240 my parents always made something out of there nothing. So 0:02:48.280 --> 0:02:51.160 I'm gonna say that. But one thing that I can 0:02:51.280 --> 0:02:55.000 vouch for absolutely is no, I didn't have much. I 0:02:55.120 --> 0:02:59.040 was still you know, urban, I was still raising the hood. 0:02:59.040 --> 0:03:00.920 I still lived on a bloh where you know, you 0:03:01.000 --> 0:03:03.359 have crag kids walking up in the street, People get 0:03:03.440 --> 0:03:05.720 killed and and people are selling drugs right in front 0:03:05.720 --> 0:03:08.320 of your face. As a kid, I've seen transactions and 0:03:08.360 --> 0:03:11.640 I've seen ship then no kids should ever have to see. 0:03:12.040 --> 0:03:15.360 But that all made me who I am today. Now. 0:03:16.160 --> 0:03:18.640 Have I evolved from that? Hell? Yeah? Do I want 0:03:18.680 --> 0:03:21.280 my son in that position? No? I do not, and 0:03:21.320 --> 0:03:24.160 I am blessed enough not to have to put him 0:03:24.160 --> 0:03:26.880 through that. You know, although I had a great life, 0:03:26.919 --> 0:03:29.359 my childhood years were the best years of my life. 0:03:29.400 --> 0:03:31.880 I can say that. But I didn't know that there 0:03:31.919 --> 0:03:34.240 was a better way to live because that's how I 0:03:34.280 --> 0:03:36.720 was raised. So you don't know anything but what you 0:03:36.760 --> 0:03:39.960 were raised around. You don't know anything else when you're 0:03:39.960 --> 0:03:42.840 being raised, except for how you're being raised. I didn't 0:03:42.840 --> 0:03:44.520 know that there was a county. I didn't know that 0:03:44.560 --> 0:03:46.800 there were rich bitches. I didn't know any of that. 0:03:46.920 --> 0:03:49.360 I did not know that I didn't even know Beverly 0:03:49.440 --> 0:03:53.640 Hills existed. So this guy that I was dating, I 0:03:53.680 --> 0:03:56.240 was talking to and and trust me, it didn't go 0:03:56.280 --> 0:03:58.960 any further than just a couple of conversations. And maybe 0:03:59.320 --> 0:04:01.200 I cooked him in at one time and that ship. 0:04:01.200 --> 0:04:03.320 That's so, I was gonna say dinner, but it wouldn't 0:04:03.320 --> 0:04:06.720 even go out. This motherfucker was so hung up on 0:04:07.960 --> 0:04:11.400 not treating me a certain way because of how he 0:04:11.520 --> 0:04:15.000 knew me when we grew up together that he wasn't 0:04:15.040 --> 0:04:17.200 even really thinking about the woman that I had grown 0:04:17.279 --> 0:04:18.719 up to be. And he wasn't even looking at the 0:04:18.720 --> 0:04:22.920 fact that I picked you. You better be fucking lucky 0:04:22.960 --> 0:04:28.640 that I came back to this fucking hood to get you. Motherfucker. Now, listen, 0:04:28.839 --> 0:04:30.520 y'all can say what y'all want, y'all can say, oh, no, 0:04:30.680 --> 0:04:33.599 that's low, that's dirty, but y'all have to understand something. 0:04:33.960 --> 0:04:37.479 When you elevate, so does everything else in your life. 0:04:37.839 --> 0:04:40.320 I just didn't know how to elevate the status of 0:04:40.400 --> 0:04:43.159 men that I was dating, so I would keep dating 0:04:43.200 --> 0:04:46.200 hood niggas, hood niggas, a soul drugs, because that's all 0:04:46.240 --> 0:04:48.960 I knew. I didn't know how to elevate that ship 0:04:49.080 --> 0:04:53.320 at first. But once you start paying attention to yourself 0:04:53.320 --> 0:04:55.480 and you start realizing what you're worth and and and 0:04:55.520 --> 0:04:57.520 who you are and who you used to be, and 0:04:57.560 --> 0:04:59.520 how far you've come and how you're not going to 0:04:59.600 --> 0:05:02.280 let where you come from make you for the rest 0:05:02.320 --> 0:05:06.400 of your life or depict your life or dictate how 0:05:06.480 --> 0:05:09.960 you can live, then you can see a better future 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:13.480 for yourself. Then you can start elevating everything else that 0:05:13.520 --> 0:05:17.320 comes with I started getting money, I started shopping. I 0:05:17.360 --> 0:05:19.599 started looking better. Now, when I say looking better, a 0:05:19.600 --> 0:05:21.400 bitch ain't never been ugly. I'm gonna just sit here 0:05:21.400 --> 0:05:23.200 on this podcast and tell you all this real ship. 0:05:23.400 --> 0:05:27.359 A bitch ain't never been ugly. Okay. Always had full lips, 0:05:27.400 --> 0:05:30.039 always had a nice little plump ass. Okay, I had 0:05:30.080 --> 0:05:33.039 some little alterations done. But I never had hips. Okay, 0:05:33.080 --> 0:05:35.839 I was Gina Waters from Martin. I never had hips. 0:05:35.960 --> 0:05:37.760 I always had a nice little cuff in my ass. 0:05:37.800 --> 0:05:40.799 Believe that never had titties. Okay, me and Trade Songs 0:05:40.839 --> 0:05:43.560 had the same chest for years, but it's fine. It 0:05:43.720 --> 0:05:47.240 was fine with me, but with money I same flaws. 0:05:47.279 --> 0:05:51.400 I corrected. I started eating different, I started thinking different. 0:05:51.839 --> 0:05:54.320 Now this does not mean that I elevated to be 0:05:54.320 --> 0:05:58.400 better than anyone, but I wanted to be better for myself. 0:05:58.800 --> 0:06:01.360 That's just all that is. And that guy couldn't get 0:06:01.400 --> 0:06:03.960 past that. So I had to leave that alone. His 0:06:04.200 --> 0:06:07.839 pride would not let him see the woman that I've 0:06:07.839 --> 0:06:11.000 grown into, b or that I was growing into, because 0:06:11.040 --> 0:06:14.800 I've even grown since then. Another example of pride. I 0:06:14.839 --> 0:06:17.680 have a friend homeboy close right. He just went through 0:06:17.680 --> 0:06:21.239 a situation where he was in a relationship. His girlfriend 0:06:21.320 --> 0:06:23.920 cheated on him badly, and she cheated with somebody who 0:06:23.960 --> 0:06:27.360 she knew, somebody that she was dealing with before. Now, 0:06:27.880 --> 0:06:32.280 this guy, my friend, he's a millionaire. Okay, I'm talking 0:06:32.320 --> 0:06:34.120 about deals on the table here and there. No not 0:06:34.240 --> 0:06:37.159 that money makes you know, it does not. Now, I'm 0:06:37.200 --> 0:06:39.760 just telling all this ship for a reason. He makes money. 0:06:40.200 --> 0:06:42.200 He doesn't come from money. He actually comes from the 0:06:42.240 --> 0:06:45.760 street as well. But he turned legit hasn't sold a 0:06:45.800 --> 0:06:49.159 piece of drugs for years now. I'm talking about he 0:06:49.200 --> 0:06:52.600 found an honest, legitimate way to make his money without 0:06:52.640 --> 0:06:55.680 having to turn back to the streets. Right. People know 0:06:55.800 --> 0:06:59.840 him everything. He met this girl beautiful and she's from 0:06:59.839 --> 0:07:02.560 the her too. They were together for a couple of years. 0:07:03.160 --> 0:07:06.040 They got a house together. He took her child and 0:07:06.320 --> 0:07:08.920 like it was his child and all that ship. I'm 0:07:08.920 --> 0:07:10.840 talking about what he knows their family. They met each 0:07:10.840 --> 0:07:13.640 other's families, like they bonded. They ended up being like 0:07:14.160 --> 0:07:18.560 best friends before they were just like you know, boyfriend 0:07:18.600 --> 0:07:20.840 and girlfriend, like they were goals. You know what I'm saying, 0:07:20.840 --> 0:07:22.840 because y'all know you'll like to put goals on motherfucker's 0:07:22.880 --> 0:07:25.800 You know, she ended up cheating on him, Okay, she 0:07:25.920 --> 0:07:29.600 ended up getting caught as well by him. Do you 0:07:29.640 --> 0:07:34.920 know her pride was so big and pride false hand 0:07:34.920 --> 0:07:36.880 in hand with ego as well. I want you to 0:07:36.960 --> 0:07:40.160 know that it can either be pride and dignity or 0:07:40.200 --> 0:07:45.520 pride and ego. Pride can hinder you from healthy relationships, 0:07:45.600 --> 0:07:49.360 Pride can hinder you from your future. She was so 0:07:50.800 --> 0:07:54.520 used to her previous relationships where niggas do nothing but 0:07:54.760 --> 0:07:58.200 depend on her, like she would take care of niggas 0:07:58.240 --> 0:08:00.160 and and this, that and the other, and I've been 0:08:00.200 --> 0:08:02.200 there as well. But she is this is what she 0:08:02.360 --> 0:08:05.720 is used to. She's done that and basically all of 0:08:05.720 --> 0:08:09.440 her relationships before the one with my homeboy. Right, she's 0:08:09.520 --> 0:08:11.400 used to be in the control. She's used to creeping 0:08:11.440 --> 0:08:13.000 around on it is that she take care of. Because 0:08:13.000 --> 0:08:14.320 what then are you gonna say if I be all 0:08:14.320 --> 0:08:15.680 the bills? What then are you gonna say if I 0:08:15.680 --> 0:08:17.520 put you in a predicament to to do what you 0:08:17.560 --> 0:08:21.080 do even though it's not right. But that's the type 0:08:21.080 --> 0:08:23.520 of alpha female that a lot of guys deal with 0:08:24.360 --> 0:08:26.200 because a lot of guys are living off of women 0:08:26.200 --> 0:08:28.600 these days. Let's not act like they're not, and they are. 0:08:29.240 --> 0:08:32.120 You know, I've had a few myself. So that's the thing. Right, 0:08:32.640 --> 0:08:36.400 she gets caught and she plays the victim. You haven't 0:08:36.400 --> 0:08:38.640 been in a position where you catch somebody doing something 0:08:38.679 --> 0:08:41.320 and they get mad because you caught them. They get 0:08:41.320 --> 0:08:44.280 mad at you because you're mad at them about something 0:08:44.320 --> 0:08:49.240 that you fucking did. Yeah. Yeah, that's pride, that's ego. 0:08:49.360 --> 0:08:52.560 That's when you think you're too big to get in trouble. 0:08:52.600 --> 0:08:54.360 That's when you think you so slick and that you 0:08:54.360 --> 0:08:57.120 don't owe anybody any explanation, and you're so used to 0:08:57.160 --> 0:08:59.520 moving like you've been moving where you don't even know 0:08:59.559 --> 0:09:01.880 what gets in trouble means because you've never had to 0:09:02.000 --> 0:09:07.720 answer for your actions to any nigga. So for a second, 0:09:08.360 --> 0:09:11.080 she made him feel like, you need to get me back, 0:09:11.160 --> 0:09:13.400 nigga because I ain't do ship, and that's exactly what 0:09:13.480 --> 0:09:15.680 he did. And now me, as the home girl that 0:09:15.800 --> 0:09:19.320 I am, I'm like, nigga, do you not understand you 0:09:19.320 --> 0:09:22.320 didn't do this? She did this? She did this? Why 0:09:22.400 --> 0:09:25.160 are you buying flowers? And why are you popping up 0:09:25.200 --> 0:09:26.920 at her house? Why are you still paying for ship? 0:09:26.920 --> 0:09:29.400 Why are you begging her to be back with you 0:09:29.920 --> 0:09:33.720 when her pride won't even allot you a fucking apology. 0:09:33.840 --> 0:09:38.160 Her pride won't even let her give you the decency 0:09:38.240 --> 0:09:40.560 of saying I'm sorry, I fucked up. I know what 0:09:40.679 --> 0:09:44.720 we're gonna do. Instead, she's lashing out and she's angry 0:09:44.760 --> 0:09:47.040 at you because you caught her, you quot her, and 0:09:47.040 --> 0:09:48.880 you don't want to be with her, so like your 0:09:48.880 --> 0:09:51.760 pride can hinder you. Now, we got a commercial and 0:09:51.760 --> 0:09:53.640 if you click off of this podcast, I swear I'm 0:09:53.640 --> 0:09:59.840 gonna beat your ass. Listen, I'm gonna give you another 0:10:00.320 --> 0:10:04.160 example of pride. My aunt is raising my seventeen year 0:10:04.160 --> 0:10:07.200 old cousin right now, that's her son. I need for 0:10:07.240 --> 0:10:10.640 you all to understand. My cousin is a is a 0:10:10.640 --> 0:10:13.720 problem and child all right now. He has been four years. 0:10:13.840 --> 0:10:17.319 It's fine. His father's in jail. Fine. He's taller than 0:10:17.360 --> 0:10:20.160 my aunt, so he feels like you can't beat me. 0:10:20.320 --> 0:10:22.400 Beating him is out of the question. But you're still 0:10:22.440 --> 0:10:25.360 living my fucking house. She's gonna follow my rules as 0:10:25.360 --> 0:10:27.600 long as I can make you follow them. But she 0:10:27.640 --> 0:10:29.440 can't do nothing with him. Now, this is the thing. 0:10:30.000 --> 0:10:33.679 My aunt got a phone call from his school. He 0:10:33.760 --> 0:10:37.960 was watching porn during art class. His teacher caught him. 0:10:38.240 --> 0:10:41.400 Sent to the office. They called his mom. Now, my aunt, 0:10:41.760 --> 0:10:44.240 she's at work. Oh, he was watching such and such. 0:10:44.360 --> 0:10:46.440 When she got home from work, she planned to take 0:10:46.440 --> 0:10:48.720 his phone. She got home, she tried to take his phone. 0:10:49.240 --> 0:10:51.240 He wouldn't give it to her. She was like, give 0:10:51.280 --> 0:10:53.760 me your fucking phone. You have no business watching porn 0:10:53.960 --> 0:10:56.600 in school. You know you watch it. I get it, 0:10:56.640 --> 0:10:58.679 but not in school. You gotta know. There's a time 0:10:58.679 --> 0:11:01.800 in the place for everything. That the that the mother's speech, 0:11:01.920 --> 0:11:04.920 because she's exactly right, nigga, there's a time and place 0:11:04.960 --> 0:11:07.400 for everything. Why the funk are you watching porn in 0:11:07.559 --> 0:11:10.520 live class right now? And this ain't even virtual, nigga, 0:11:10.600 --> 0:11:13.480 This y'are back in school, y'all on campus? Why are 0:11:13.480 --> 0:11:16.920 you watching porn? He says to her. I'm not giving 0:11:16.920 --> 0:11:19.760 you my phone. I just can't. Like it's I can't. 0:11:19.760 --> 0:11:22.160 That'll be giving up my power, Like I'm not gonna 0:11:22.160 --> 0:11:24.200 give you my phone, like no woman is ever gonna 0:11:24.200 --> 0:11:26.560 go on my phone. That's just like giving up a 0:11:26.559 --> 0:11:28.480 piece to me. Like I'll never give you my phone. 0:11:28.480 --> 0:11:31.640 I'll pay my own bill. Really, I don't give a 0:11:31.640 --> 0:11:34.280 funk what builds you pay. That's your mother. She's asking 0:11:34.360 --> 0:11:37.400 you to give you her phone. And that's just what 0:11:37.440 --> 0:11:39.360 it is. So when I talked to my little cousin, 0:11:39.360 --> 0:11:41.440 because you know how, she's the auntie that tells all 0:11:41.480 --> 0:11:43.600 their business and ship and outside it is. Black mothers 0:11:43.640 --> 0:11:45.800 tell all their kids business to the rest of the 0:11:45.880 --> 0:11:47.920 family and the neighborhood if they're cool with the bitches 0:11:47.960 --> 0:11:51.840 like that that they call their neighbors. But she told me, now, 0:11:51.880 --> 0:11:54.319 he is my closest little cousin. Of course, he knows 0:11:54.360 --> 0:11:56.440 I'm gonna talk about him on this show. It don't matter. 0:11:56.800 --> 0:11:58.560 I say, Yo, why the funk? When you give your 0:11:58.559 --> 0:12:01.040 mother your phone? Yo, that's like giving up my power. 0:12:01.080 --> 0:12:03.120 I would never I never give him my fire. I 0:12:03.240 --> 0:12:05.319 never let No. I'm not letting no bitch see my phone. 0:12:05.480 --> 0:12:07.839 I said, no, bitch, that's your mother. He said, no, 0:12:07.920 --> 0:12:10.360 I'm not even talking. I'm just talking about females period. 0:12:11.000 --> 0:12:13.360 I said, that's your mother. You came from her. You 0:12:13.360 --> 0:12:15.719 wouldn't be here if it wasn't for your mother. He said, 0:12:15.800 --> 0:12:18.160 y'all understand that. But I paid my own bill. I'm seven. 0:12:18.200 --> 0:12:20.120 Seen she stopped paying my bill when I was sixteen, 0:12:20.800 --> 0:12:22.360 so it saw as I'm concerned. I canna do what 0:12:22.400 --> 0:12:24.320 I want on my phone wherever I want to do it. 0:12:24.600 --> 0:12:27.320 I said, okay, cool, that's your pride talking. But you 0:12:27.320 --> 0:12:30.120 are still to respect your mother, young boy. Come on now, 0:12:30.520 --> 0:12:32.720 he apologized to her. He still don't let us see 0:12:32.720 --> 0:12:35.679 that phone, but he apologized to it. But that is 0:12:36.040 --> 0:12:39.679 literally what I would call a fucking illness. That's a 0:12:39.800 --> 0:12:44.240 fucking condition. Pride. Pride can be a condition because it 0:12:44.280 --> 0:12:46.839 can hinder you from so much in life. You ever 0:12:46.920 --> 0:12:50.080 been on your job and your boss asked you to 0:12:50.240 --> 0:12:53.280 do something that somebody else is supposed to be doing 0:12:53.320 --> 0:12:54.800 but they're not doing it, and you don't want to 0:12:54.800 --> 0:12:57.800 do it because you've already been promoted, or any type 0:12:57.800 --> 0:13:02.120 of other prideful situations you've been in at work where 0:13:02.120 --> 0:13:04.720 you needed to check yourself or somebody had to check you, 0:13:04.840 --> 0:13:07.400 or your boss had to even check you and say, Nigga, 0:13:07.600 --> 0:13:10.720 I promoted you. I need you to do this. You 0:13:10.800 --> 0:13:12.760 think as I gave you a raise that you exempt 0:13:12.800 --> 0:13:15.720 from doing ship that you used to do. That's where 0:13:15.720 --> 0:13:18.200 the fucking promotion came from in the first place. Don't 0:13:18.240 --> 0:13:21.880 get it funked up. I need for y'alls to understand 0:13:22.160 --> 0:13:26.600 pride can hinder you from so much. Pride has hindered 0:13:26.640 --> 0:13:30.240 me from so much. I'm talking about when I first 0:13:30.240 --> 0:13:33.040 started out in this ship. Man. Listen, I'm come from 0:13:33.080 --> 0:13:36.600 Baltimore City. Y'all know that West Baltimore City, to be exact. 0:13:37.360 --> 0:13:41.480 And one thing about Baltimore City is, uh, we breed 0:13:42.080 --> 0:13:47.160 strong women. Monique, look at her. Everybody thought that her 0:13:47.240 --> 0:13:52.080 pride hindered her. No, y'all getting it fucked up? No, no, no, no, no, 0:13:52.200 --> 0:13:55.079 she just knew her word, she knew her value. Let 0:13:55.080 --> 0:13:59.200 me tell you what pride is. Pride was me not 0:13:59.360 --> 0:14:02.800 even being in the game for a year. My first 0:14:03.440 --> 0:14:09.280 big stage that I touched was Martin Lawrence. My second 0:14:09.320 --> 0:14:13.800 or third time on stage was in front of thirteen 0:14:13.880 --> 0:14:16.280 thousand people, opening up from Martin Lawrence on the What 0:14:16.400 --> 0:14:19.520 Now Tour five years ago. You couldn't tell me ship 0:14:19.640 --> 0:14:23.800 after that. I still didn't know anything about comedy, stand 0:14:23.840 --> 0:14:25.520 up comedy. I didn't know how to write a joke. 0:14:25.680 --> 0:14:28.520 I didn't know how to do ship for myself in 0:14:28.720 --> 0:14:32.880 comedy or in the industry when I got off that stage. 0:14:33.040 --> 0:14:35.720 But all I knew was that I was successful in 0:14:35.760 --> 0:14:38.120 that ship. That ten minutes I was up there, I 0:14:38.200 --> 0:14:41.600 made my mother fucking city laugh. I had thirteen thousand 0:14:41.600 --> 0:14:44.160 people laughing at me. And I can't tell you not 0:14:44.320 --> 0:14:47.160 one joke I told that night. I can't remember one 0:14:47.200 --> 0:14:49.600 thing I even said. I was nervous as fun, but 0:14:49.640 --> 0:14:52.240 I made them laugh. So now when I get off 0:14:52.240 --> 0:14:55.000 that stage, I get a hug from Martin. Martin like 0:14:55.120 --> 0:14:58.040 you sure you sure you've been doing? Remember I told 0:14:58.120 --> 0:15:00.720 y'all backstory. I lied to Martin told Martin, I've been 0:15:00.720 --> 0:15:02.600 doing comedy for a couple of years. That's how I 0:15:02.640 --> 0:15:05.400 got on that stage. Now, listen, this is where a 0:15:05.440 --> 0:15:09.160 pride came in. Everybody started trying to book me after that. 0:15:09.400 --> 0:15:13.080 Right now, I didn't even make a lot of money 0:15:13.120 --> 0:15:16.160 on that show. I didn't. I didn't. I made hardly 0:15:16.800 --> 0:15:19.520 nothing on that show. But you would have thought I 0:15:19.640 --> 0:15:23.960 made fifty dollars the way I carried ship after that show. 0:15:24.320 --> 0:15:26.800 Still not knowing, bitch, there is much more growing that 0:15:26.920 --> 0:15:28.960 you have to do. You think as you touch one 0:15:29.040 --> 0:15:33.920 stage with Martin Lawrence that you can demand a certain price, 0:15:33.960 --> 0:15:36.160 and you can talk to people a certain way, and 0:15:36.200 --> 0:15:39.280 you can turn down ship. Are you really trying to 0:15:39.280 --> 0:15:41.760 be in this industry or are you trying to fade 0:15:41.760 --> 0:15:44.240 out like others? Are you trying to fade out? Are 0:15:44.280 --> 0:15:46.680 you trying to be a one stage hit wonder or 0:15:46.720 --> 0:15:49.360 what I'm telling you? I was crazy with it. People 0:15:49.440 --> 0:15:51.600 was calling me left and right. The book me because 0:15:51.600 --> 0:15:55.400 they had, you know, the word traveled and Instagram and everything. 0:15:55.600 --> 0:15:57.080 They was like, yo, how much you charge? I was 0:15:57.200 --> 0:16:00.520 really really telling it as I charged thirty dollars. Didn't 0:16:00.560 --> 0:16:03.320 even get three thousand dollars from Martin for opening I 0:16:03.400 --> 0:16:06.320 didn't get three on it. You understand what I'm saying. 0:16:06.440 --> 0:16:10.360 I need you all to understand that that pride hurt me. 0:16:10.400 --> 0:16:12.000 I could have made so much money, I could have 0:16:12.040 --> 0:16:15.680 even grown to be better, just you know, certain people 0:16:15.720 --> 0:16:17.440 trying to take me underneath of that wing at that 0:16:17.480 --> 0:16:19.160 and I'm like, nig I opened up from Martin. I 0:16:19.200 --> 0:16:20.480 don't need none of your niggers. Like you know what 0:16:20.480 --> 0:16:23.320 I'm saying, Like that ship hindered me from so much 0:16:23.480 --> 0:16:26.280 that I have never spoke about. And I'm surprised nobody 0:16:26.280 --> 0:16:28.080 else spoke about it because I was mean. I was 0:16:28.200 --> 0:16:30.960 very rude. I thought I made it that night, but no, 0:16:31.560 --> 0:16:34.400 that was a milestone. That was an accolade. It was 0:16:34.400 --> 0:16:38.040 a big accolade. But it wasn't me making it just yet. 0:16:38.480 --> 0:16:40.880 Because I went home and I was still broke. I 0:16:40.920 --> 0:16:44.320 went home. I was still j from Harlem and Dukeland. 0:16:44.320 --> 0:16:46.240 I went home. I was still a hood bitch. I 0:16:46.240 --> 0:16:50.120 had not elevated yet. I went home and ate a 0:16:50.200 --> 0:16:53.920 pack of Rama noodles. Yeah, I went home and got 0:16:54.000 --> 0:16:56.320 ready for work the next day. I need you all 0:16:56.320 --> 0:17:00.280 to understand that my pride hindered me from so much 0:17:00.400 --> 0:17:03.040 that I could have done. It's very important for you 0:17:03.080 --> 0:17:05.520 to catch that ship before anything goes wrong for you 0:17:05.600 --> 0:17:08.120 because of your pride and your ego. Like I said, 0:17:08.119 --> 0:17:10.399 that ship goes hand in hand. Pride and dignity is 0:17:10.480 --> 0:17:16.560 different than pride and ego ego. It's crazy you talk 0:17:16.640 --> 0:17:18.800 down on my fucker's You look at motherfucker's a different way. 0:17:18.840 --> 0:17:22.200 You're judgmental, You act like you're better than everybody. That 0:17:22.600 --> 0:17:25.680 is ego and pride at the same time. I don't 0:17:25.720 --> 0:17:28.440 want to hear anything about no fucking zodiacs. Oh that's 0:17:28.480 --> 0:17:30.800 the cancer cancers do that. Oh, that's what my fucking 0:17:30.840 --> 0:17:35.920 areas like. No, that's the sagittary. No, nigga, No, I'm 0:17:35.920 --> 0:17:38.760 telling you. For every sign out there, there is a 0:17:38.800 --> 0:17:43.960 million motherfuckers in each tribe of signs who are like that. 0:17:43.960 --> 0:17:46.080 That has nothing to do with zodiac signs. I was 0:17:46.119 --> 0:17:49.000 just having this conversation with my trainer earlier. Has nothing 0:17:49.040 --> 0:17:51.879 to do with zodiac signs. That has everything to do 0:17:51.920 --> 0:17:54.159 with who you are as a person, and and a 0:17:54.160 --> 0:17:56.480 lot of it comes from deep rooted issues. Why are 0:17:56.520 --> 0:17:58.760 you so prideful? Why do you get in your own 0:17:58.760 --> 0:18:01.080 way because pride allows you to get in your own 0:18:01.119 --> 0:18:04.320 way with a lot of things. Why why ask yourself, 0:18:04.320 --> 0:18:07.080 why what can you do to stop getting in your way? 0:18:07.320 --> 0:18:09.680 Let your guard down, be a little bit more humble, 0:18:10.240 --> 0:18:14.399 which is what open and more down to earth a 0:18:14.520 --> 0:18:20.320 k A understandable, open and understanding. That's humble. Okay, that's 0:18:20.320 --> 0:18:25.199 the real definition of being humble, open and understanding, and 0:18:25.200 --> 0:18:26.960 that's what a lot of us need to practice. In 0:18:27.000 --> 0:18:31.080 a moment. I started practicing that ship. A lot of 0:18:31.080 --> 0:18:35.800 ship changed for me. A carefully reckless listeners, A lot 0:18:35.880 --> 0:18:40.320 of that ship changed for me. Pride wouldn't let my 0:18:40.480 --> 0:18:44.360 dad let my mom go after the divorce. I love 0:18:44.440 --> 0:18:48.199 my dad to death. He was so prideful after his 0:18:48.320 --> 0:18:52.119 and my mom's divorce. He would start doing spiteful ship. 0:18:52.200 --> 0:18:56.520 He started doing spiteful things until he looked up one 0:18:56.560 --> 0:18:58.400 day and was like, Yo, this is not even who 0:18:58.400 --> 0:18:59.959 the funk I am. I didn't even know I had 0:19:00.040 --> 0:19:02.680 this ship in me. Yeah, you were with my mom 0:19:02.760 --> 0:19:05.120 for thirty four or thirty five years, so you're only 0:19:05.160 --> 0:19:08.119 doing what you know. And that's the person, the only 0:19:08.119 --> 0:19:10.159 person in the world that you would hate seeing with 0:19:10.240 --> 0:19:13.520 somebody else. But you know what's over between y'all, your 0:19:13.560 --> 0:19:16.720 pride didn't let her go. She let you go, but 0:19:16.840 --> 0:19:20.560 your pride couldn't let her go fully because you always 0:19:20.560 --> 0:19:22.679 felt like you had to have one up. You felt like, 0:19:22.880 --> 0:19:24.520 she ain't gonna be with me, She's gonna be with nobody. 0:19:24.560 --> 0:19:26.960 I don't want her, but I don't want her with 0:19:27.040 --> 0:19:32.919 nobody else. That's selfishness, that's pride, that's ego. Until he 0:19:33.000 --> 0:19:37.040 looked up, he realized, Damn, I don't want to hurt her. 0:19:37.119 --> 0:19:39.439 I don't want to be like this. I don't. I 0:19:39.480 --> 0:19:41.280 don't I want her to be happy. No, I don't 0:19:41.359 --> 0:19:44.200 want to see her happy with anybody else. And him 0:19:44.359 --> 0:19:46.399 saying it, because at first he wasn't saying that. He 0:19:46.440 --> 0:19:49.080 was just being mean and doing spiteful ship. He wasn't 0:19:49.119 --> 0:19:52.919 saying that at first, but when he said it, he realized, oh, damn, 0:19:52.960 --> 0:19:55.000 this is why I've been lashing out in acting out 0:19:55.040 --> 0:19:57.040 like this because I don't want to see it with 0:19:57.160 --> 0:20:00.200 nobody else. I don't. I don't want to, but don't 0:20:00.240 --> 0:20:02.440 want another nigga to have I don't want another man 0:20:02.440 --> 0:20:05.240 to have her. No. No, you know, so you're throwing 0:20:05.240 --> 0:20:07.680 a little temper tantrums and ship and look y'all know, 0:20:07.760 --> 0:20:09.720 my dad is short and ship like me. So you 0:20:09.800 --> 0:20:12.160 run around the city like Chucky and Ship just being 0:20:12.160 --> 0:20:15.119 destructive and ship, I said, Dad, set your little ass 0:20:15.200 --> 0:20:18.000 down and swing them legs and just think about it 0:20:18.080 --> 0:20:21.920 as your legs are swinging. Think about it, Dad, You 0:20:22.040 --> 0:20:26.199 had all this time to be great. You didn't. You 0:20:26.320 --> 0:20:28.800 lost her and that's when he got it the funk together, 0:20:28.840 --> 0:20:31.240 I said, Yo, and your pride can't get her back. 0:20:31.359 --> 0:20:34.520 Your pride will never help you win. How you win 0:20:34.920 --> 0:20:36.879 is you let her go. You let her be happy. 0:20:37.080 --> 0:20:39.760 Who knows what the the future gonna bring. And his 0:20:39.920 --> 0:20:44.800