WEBVTT - “MY EX IS PREGNANT”

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<v Speaker 1>Yo, Hello, what's up? Is this?

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<v Speaker 2>Lyle?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Who's this?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>This is Holdy up?

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<v Speaker 4>Man?

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<v Speaker 1>This is holding Holy holy h o l d u

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<v Speaker 1>y h oh oh Holdy, what's up? Holdy? What's up?

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<v Speaker 4>Man?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh? Now it's hold Holdy is a fake name if

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<v Speaker 1>I don't really care. Holdly what's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 1>How's life?

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<v Speaker 4>It's pretty good, man, I was not expecting.

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<v Speaker 2>You to call. Well watching the streamer.

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<v Speaker 4>How's your night going?

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<v Speaker 2>Man?

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<v Speaker 1>It's going all right? But hey, who gives a fuck

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<v Speaker 1>about me? Holdy? What's going on? How can I get

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<v Speaker 1>you today?

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<v Speaker 5>Oh?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, dude, I think I I think I texted you

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<v Speaker 4>earlier about my issue.

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<v Speaker 2>That I got going on.

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<v Speaker 4>So I mean you can talk about that, I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, sure, let's do that. Tell me the issue.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, So, basically, back in January, I figured out that

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<v Speaker 4>my girlfriend at the time, long story short, we just

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<v Speaker 4>had a baby and it was his birthday coming up,

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<v Speaker 4>and right around that time, I started figuring out that

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<v Speaker 4>she was cheating on me, and come to find out,

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<v Speaker 4>I figure everything.

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<v Speaker 2>Out the night before his birthday party.

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<v Speaker 4>And yeah, so I figured out she cheated on me,

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<v Speaker 4>and then we broke up and then yeah, so like

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<v Speaker 4>a month later, she says that she's pregnant, and I'm.

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<v Speaker 2>Like, okay, well it's got to be got to be

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<v Speaker 2>the guy that she cheated on me with, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>And I was like, like I was, I was even

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<v Speaker 4>doubting that she was even pregnant, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>So I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>And then yeah, we did a DNA test and yeah, basically.

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<v Speaker 2>We're waiting the results right now.

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<v Speaker 4>So it's kind of a crazy situation, I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, so you you and this woman have a

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<v Speaker 1>kid together, and you found out she was cheating on

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<v Speaker 1>you a year after the kid was born, and then

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<v Speaker 1>you found out she was pregnant with another kid, and

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<v Speaker 1>now you're wondering if this second kid is yours or

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<v Speaker 1>the guy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 4>Man, it's like a tough situation. And the crazier part

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<v Speaker 4>about it is, in the time that me and her

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<v Speaker 4>broke up, I actually met this other girl, and like

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<v Speaker 4>she kind of hit me with the news that she

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<v Speaker 4>was pregnant while I've been with this other girl. So

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<v Speaker 4>that's kind of complicated already.

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<v Speaker 1>Are you. I was literally about to say, please don't

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<v Speaker 1>tell me you got this girl pregnant too.

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<v Speaker 4>No, no, no, no, no, no, this girl, this girl

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<v Speaker 4>is not pregnant.

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<v Speaker 1>So oh oh, okay, all right, Okay, you confused me

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<v Speaker 1>there for a second because I thought I thought you

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<v Speaker 1>broke up with this girl that was cheating on you,

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<v Speaker 1>and then you started dating a new girl, and now

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<v Speaker 1>that girl is pregnant.

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<v Speaker 2>No, no, no, that I was.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay. You can only handle so many pregnancies.

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<v Speaker 4>At once, right, right, right, I wouldn't want to take

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<v Speaker 4>on more than one.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, So all right, so you're dating a new

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<v Speaker 1>girl now after this you found out the other one

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<v Speaker 1>was cheating on you. Correct, correct, Okay, and now you're

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<v Speaker 1>wondering if this kid who your ex wife.

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<v Speaker 4>Girlfriends girlfriend, yeah, girlfriend.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, And now you're wondering if this this kid

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<v Speaker 1>who your ex girlfriend has is your kid or not?

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<v Speaker 2>Right?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's like you, when do you when do you

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<v Speaker 1>get the results of the DNA test?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh?

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<v Speaker 4>Should be soon, Like I'm not exactly sure when, but

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<v Speaker 4>it should be within the next couple of months. Like

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<v Speaker 4>it's like this whole process, like because she's not even

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<v Speaker 4>I don't even know she's far that far along yet,

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<v Speaker 4>Like I don't even know. It's like this whole thing,

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<v Speaker 4>so I don't even know.

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<v Speaker 1>Man, mm hm m hmm, Well I have I have

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<v Speaker 1>two questions. What are you going to do? What are

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<v Speaker 1>you gonna what are you going to do if it

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<v Speaker 1>is your kid? And what are you going to do

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<v Speaker 1>if it's not?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh well, obviously, if it is my kid, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 4>I'm gonna take care of her like my our other

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<v Speaker 4>kid we have, but it's just going to be a

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<v Speaker 4>complicated situation between me and Herk's like she's cheated on

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<v Speaker 4>me and everything. But then if it's not my kid, dude,

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<v Speaker 4>I don't even know, Like that's like that's the part

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<v Speaker 4>where I'm like, I don't even know how to handle

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<v Speaker 4>the whole the whole situation.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I mean, if it's not your kid, then.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean I guess let's move on, right.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, I mean you already I mean, look, you

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<v Speaker 1>already share custody of one with the Do you guys

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<v Speaker 1>have like a whole like agreement? Did you did? Was it?

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<v Speaker 1>Was it an issue when you broke up with this girl?

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<v Speaker 1>Was an issue fighting for custody? Ah?

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<v Speaker 4>So yeah, that's we haven't even had any issues with

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<v Speaker 4>with that at all, Like we didn't go to court

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<v Speaker 4>or anything like that because we were just like dating

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<v Speaker 4>basically for the whole time we were together and we

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<v Speaker 4>had the kid, and yeah, I mean we see him

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<v Speaker 4>like three four days a week something like that. So man,

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<v Speaker 4>not too bad. But yeah, I don't know, it's just

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<v Speaker 4>the whole situation, I guess is just like I didn't

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<v Speaker 4>even see it coming obviously, but it's just crazy to me.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, how do you feel about the whole thing,

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<v Speaker 1>because that's rough, But I mean just from talking to

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<v Speaker 1>you and you're hearing your tone of voice, you seem

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<v Speaker 1>like you're and I'm not not over it, but like

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<v Speaker 1>you know, handling it well, yeah, I.

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<v Speaker 4>Mean, like I said, the whole thing, the whole breakoup

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<v Speaker 4>situation happened back in January. Then I didn't figure out

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<v Speaker 4>she was pregnant for like a few months later.

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<v Speaker 2>So yeah, I mean it's like.

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<v Speaker 4>She's supposed to have the baby soon. I'm not exactly

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<v Speaker 4>sure the the exact due date and everything, but yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>within that time, I'm supposed to figure out if it's

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<v Speaker 4>mine or not. And that's the stressful part.

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<v Speaker 1>Was it. It was it tough when you first became

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<v Speaker 1>a father because you're young. It says here that you're

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<v Speaker 1>twenty four.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, man, Yeah, I had him at a twenty two

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<v Speaker 4>or twenty three, twenty two, twenty two because it's about

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<v Speaker 4>to be hard. Uh yeah, I mean we had an

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<v Speaker 4>apartment at the time, and then right before he was born,

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<v Speaker 4>we kind of moved out, moved back into my mom's house.

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<v Speaker 4>We're saving up, we were saving up money to move

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<v Speaker 4>into a house, and then, yeah, she cheated on me.

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<v Speaker 4>So I'm kind of stuck at my mom's house right

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<v Speaker 4>now because Alison Market's pretty like pretty bad. Also, so

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<v Speaker 4>that's another thing.

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<v Speaker 1>You guys didn't combine your finances, did you.

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<v Speaker 4>Luckily no, because we weren't married, so I kind of

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<v Speaker 4>kept that that separate. Good good, Yeah, having a joint

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<v Speaker 4>account and dealing with all that.

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<v Speaker 1>So mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 3>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 6>How is that.

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<v Speaker 1>How are things going with the new girl?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh yeah, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 7>It's it's like, uh, I feel like I feel like

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<v Speaker 7>we're we're we have a good relationship, but it's nothing

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<v Speaker 7>like serious, you know what I mean, Because she knows

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<v Speaker 7>about my.

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<v Speaker 4>Kid right now, and then she found out that I

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<v Speaker 4>could potentially be having another kid, so it kind of

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<v Speaker 4>complicated the the whole relationship. So that's another thing that

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<v Speaker 4>I'm kind of dealing with so I don't even know

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<v Speaker 4>if this relationship itself is gonna last, but I'm hoping

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<v Speaker 4>for the best.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro, what's up with you? You're like, You're like, look, here's

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<v Speaker 1>the thing. If I were you, if I were in

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<v Speaker 1>your situation, I mean I would be I wouldn't be

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<v Speaker 1>able to handle it. I would crack. And you're over

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<v Speaker 1>here you seem, you know, like you're full of sunshine.

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<v Speaker 1>What's up? How are you?

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<v Speaker 5>So?

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<v Speaker 1>What's going to? What's what chemicals are in your brain

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<v Speaker 1>right now? Well?

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<v Speaker 4>I'll be honest, I have been smoking a little tonight,

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<v Speaker 4>but I usually just keep a positive mind about everything,

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<v Speaker 4>like as much as I can.

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<v Speaker 2>But I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>I I also have, like, you know, bad days, just

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<v Speaker 4>like everybody else.

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<v Speaker 1>But sure, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>I feel like I feel like even just talking to

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<v Speaker 4>you about it just kind of, I don't know, brought

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<v Speaker 4>out the the I don't know the good vibes of

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<v Speaker 4>the whole situation, because you can think of it in

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<v Speaker 4>a bad way in a good way. I'll so, I

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<v Speaker 4>don't know, I'll try to find a good in everything.

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<v Speaker 1>How do you? How do you? How do you stay positive?

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<v Speaker 2>Just in general, a lot of weed, I'll say that.

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<v Speaker 4>But also, just like in any situation, I would say,

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<v Speaker 4>just trying to find the good in it no matter what,

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<v Speaker 4>because when it comes down to it, if you get

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<v Speaker 4>mad at the little things, it's just gonna irritate you

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<v Speaker 4>and take up your time When you could have just

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<v Speaker 4>focused on the good things about a bad situation and

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<v Speaker 4>moved on from it, you know what I mean, You

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<v Speaker 4>just stay on the bad things.

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<v Speaker 2>It stays in your head and it's just toxic.

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<v Speaker 4>So I try to keep try to keep a level

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<v Speaker 4>head and I think positive.

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<v Speaker 2>I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm, hm hmm. What tell me about your life

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<v Speaker 1>outside of this? If you have a second what do

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<v Speaker 1>you have a job? Do you have hobbies? What do

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<v Speaker 1>you what do you do when you're not in an

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<v Speaker 1>episode of Jerry Springer?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, man, I I deliver for Amazon right now, and

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<v Speaker 4>I actually listen to a lot of you while I'm

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<v Speaker 4>fucking delivering. But yeah, I mean hobbies. I go to

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<v Speaker 4>a lot of concerts. Uh, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>I go thirsting a lot of fun.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you your kid do anything together? Do you guys?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you take a stroller through the park or anything

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<v Speaker 1>like that? Oh?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I live, Uh, I live kind of in the woods, so.

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<v Speaker 2>Like we'd be doing nature walks here and there, and.

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<v Speaker 4>I take him to like the river and stuff and

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<v Speaker 4>just like parks and whatnot. It's pretty fun. But yeah,

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<v Speaker 4>I take him to the mall sometimes too. He just

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<v Speaker 4>learned to walk, so he's been walking around little stores

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<v Speaker 4>and stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, how was it? How was it like that

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<v Speaker 1>first year with your ex? Like is it is it?

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<v Speaker 1>Is it harder now that you're sort of like doing

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<v Speaker 1>it on your own?

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<v Speaker 4>So yeah, I mean, I I do live with Like

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<v Speaker 4>I said, I live with my mom, so I do

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<v Speaker 4>have a little bit of help from her. But I

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<v Speaker 4>will say, yeah, it definitely was a big change because

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<v Speaker 4>before we're kind of both like you know, co parenting,

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<v Speaker 4>like like you're supposed to. But I don't know now

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<v Speaker 4>like whenever I just have him just me, Like I

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<v Speaker 4>had to learn like a lot of different things that

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<v Speaker 4>like I didn't do before that she did, you know

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<v Speaker 4>what I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just like I feel like I've I've started to.

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<v Speaker 4>Get the hang of it, but because he's so young,

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<v Speaker 4>but like, yeah, man, it definitely was a challenge because

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<v Speaker 4>like I said, I live with my parents and I'm

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<v Speaker 4>pretty young, and I'm saving up to get a house

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<v Speaker 4>and everything too, So it's just all around a big struggle.

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<v Speaker 4>But I'm trying. I'm trying.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. What's your dream in life?

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<v Speaker 5>Stream and life?

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<v Speaker 4>I've ever been asked that, but I guess I guess

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<v Speaker 4>just to like own a business and be like financially

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<v Speaker 4>free and just be able to buy whatever I want

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<v Speaker 4>and not worry about money and.

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<v Speaker 2>Just live live free.

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<v Speaker 4>I guess that's a dream.

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<v Speaker 1>What kind of you? I don't want to run.

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<v Speaker 4>Something that I enjoy doing, but that's the problem that

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>What it would be exactly.

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<v Speaker 4>Like your job is pretty cool. I wish I could

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<v Speaker 4>do something like that, but I don't know. I guess

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<v Speaker 4>I just got to find what I want to do

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<v Speaker 4>because I don't.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't obviously don't.

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<v Speaker 4>Want to deliver for Amazon forever.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I gotta tell I gotta tell you so, and

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<v Speaker 1>I it's it's funny you say that my job is cool,

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<v Speaker 1>because you know, I've I have been struggling a lot

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<v Speaker 1>these past week with you know, I just kind of

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<v Speaker 1>struggling in general with like trying to be happy where

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<v Speaker 1>I'm at. You know, it always feels like something's missing

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<v Speaker 1>or or needs to be put in place first for

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<v Speaker 1>me to do that. And I don't know, man, listening

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<v Speaker 1>to you and this that's actually happened a lot of

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<v Speaker 1>times when I'm talking to people on the phone and

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<v Speaker 1>kind of getting out of my own head and you know,

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<v Speaker 1>hearing people in other situations and what their moods and

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<v Speaker 1>attitudes are surrounding it. You seem like just a generally

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<v Speaker 1>happy guy. You seem like you're not waiting for like

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<v Speaker 1>I like, I get into this trap where I'm waiting

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<v Speaker 1>for everything to be perfect to be happy. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I think a lot of people get like that. From

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<v Speaker 1>talking to you. You seem like you're you just like

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<v Speaker 1>life man, Like you're able to be happy and see

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<v Speaker 1>the pos and whatever is going on with you. So

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<v Speaker 1>I think you're gonna be okay, dude.

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<v Speaker 2>The best advice that I've heard.

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<v Speaker 4>Is just to not have any expectations for the future,

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<v Speaker 4>but to like set goals for what you want to happen.

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<v Speaker 4>But if you set yourself up for expectations, you're just

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<v Speaker 4>gonna be, you know, let down whenever you fail at anything.

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<v Speaker 4>So it's just best to keep a level ahead about everything.

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<v Speaker 4>And not be let down by what happens in the end,

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<v Speaker 4>but the set of goals to something positive though, you know.

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<v Speaker 4>And that's the best advice I've heard to help me

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<v Speaker 4>stay positive in most situations, because being let down about

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<v Speaker 4>anything that you expect to happen always always makes you uh,

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know. It brings you down about stuff. So

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<v Speaker 4>try to not think about that stuff as much as

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<v Speaker 4>I can.

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<v Speaker 1>I was gonna say, you should take this whole thing

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<v Speaker 1>to Jerry Springer, but he's dead.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, man, I fucking hate that shit.

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<v Speaker 2>Dude actually used to watch him a lot, which is ironic.

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<v Speaker 1>What is is it? I've never even seen this or

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even if I if I had to in

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<v Speaker 1>my head picture what this guy looks like, I would

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<v Speaker 1>have no idea. But what is it? Maury? Is that

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<v Speaker 1>where the whole?

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<v Speaker 4>Where?

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<v Speaker 1>Where's the whole? You are not the father thing? Is that?

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<v Speaker 1>Is that Spring? Or is that May?

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<v Speaker 4>The thing is Murray or Maury Mark? I don't know,

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<v Speaker 4>but I feel like it is Jerry Springer, to be honest,

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<v Speaker 4>that sounds like it is.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the what's the What's what's the what's the twenty

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<v Speaker 1>twenty three version of Springer.

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<v Speaker 4>It's got to be something on YouTube, yeah, because they

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<v Speaker 4>have that whole uh, that Chris Hansen guy. But he's

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<v Speaker 4>like Stet Hansen. You know, I'm talking about who kind

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<v Speaker 4>of took over, you know, Skeate Hanson is.

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<v Speaker 1>I know, I know, well, I know who I know

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<v Speaker 1>who Chris Hansen is. Who's you said, Skeet Hansen.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, this, uh, it's like taking over. Chris Hansen's like

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<v Speaker 4>whole persona. But he like does the same thing. I mean,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm pretty sure it's legit, but he like meets these

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<v Speaker 4>dudes in Walmart. I think they're meeting like twelve year

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<v Speaker 4>old girls and and bust them. It's pretty crazy. But

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<v Speaker 4>he's like, it's on this whole like persona.

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<v Speaker 2>It's hilarious.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to think, well, whatever you can just I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know, you can just do the boring thing and

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<v Speaker 1>find out whether or not you're the father, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>in an email alone.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, man, probably going to be either an email or

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<v Speaker 4>a text message or some sort I wish I could

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<v Speaker 4>go on Jerry's Springer.

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<v Speaker 5>Again.

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<v Speaker 1>HOLDI, holdly, holdly, is there anything else you want to

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<v Speaker 1>talk about or say to the people before we go?

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<v Speaker 5>Uh?

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<v Speaker 4>Just thankful to be on your stream now and listening

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<v Speaker 4>for for a minute and uh always get a good

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<v Speaker 4>laugh that works and whatnot. So I should appreciate you streaming, man.

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<v Speaker 4>That's all I gotta say.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks Man, I gotta talking to you made me realize

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<v Speaker 1>that I either need to look on the bright side

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<v Speaker 1>of things more or just get high more often.

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<v Speaker 2>A little bit of both.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro telling you take care of you.

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<v Speaker 4>Too, man, good night.

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<v Speaker 1>I really need we we should put an ad for

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<v Speaker 1>weed after this? Uh do they make there's really are

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<v Speaker 1>you allowed to advertise weed? I've never I don't think

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<v Speaker 1>I've ever seen I mean, I've seenthing billboards, but I

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<v Speaker 1>don't think I've ever heard a podcast ad about weed.

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<v Speaker 1>There's like Delta nine and shit or maybe like weed maps.

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<v Speaker 1>We need a weed sponsor. How do we get a

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<v Speaker 1>weed sponsor? Sir? Maybe I should make my own strain.

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<v Speaker 1>Does anyone know how I can make and distribute my

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<v Speaker 1>own therapy geckos strain of cannabis? How do I do that?

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<v Speaker 1>Do I need to like take one of my gecko

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<v Speaker 1>gloves and bury it in the ground. Okay, we're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>figure it. We're gonna figure this out and get back

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<v Speaker 1>to you guys. Call from Hootbul Hello, Hikay, what's up?

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<v Speaker 5>Hey?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, it's so nice talking to you again.

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<v Speaker 3>I talked to you about two years ago.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, we talked two years ago. What did we talk about?

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<v Speaker 6>So?

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<v Speaker 3>I had I was about to go into eating disorder

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<v Speaker 3>rehab and I we were talking about how the meaning

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<v Speaker 3>of life and life after death and how we have Well,

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<v Speaker 3>I think you agreed with me that sometimes when people past,

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<v Speaker 3>it's like they're walking into the next room, and how

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<v Speaker 3>we're all connected. I think that's our conversation pretty much.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh man, I say, it sounds that sounds like the

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<v Speaker 1>era of my life where I wore a ponytail.

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<v Speaker 3>Wait, what hairstyle do you have under the hat?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? Only uh, only my family knows that. No, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't know. I look, I look, I look like any

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<v Speaker 1>I have a I have a regular boring white gye haircut.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, okay, that sounds nice.

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<v Speaker 1>How are you doing? I'm I'm how are you? How

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<v Speaker 1>are you doing? Since then? How was how was rehab?

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<v Speaker 3>It was interesting? Unfortunately, the mental health uh system here

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<v Speaker 3>in Georgia is not that good. I also interesting stories

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<v Speaker 3>for my time in there, but Luckily, I've been in

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<v Speaker 3>remission for two years now.

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<v Speaker 1>So oh cool, cool, I'm.

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<v Speaker 3>Not dealing with that anymore.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, are you general? Are you feeling? Was it worth

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<v Speaker 1>it to go?

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<v Speaker 3>Definitely? I think it's very important to ask for help

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<v Speaker 3>when you need it, and luckily I had insurance because

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<v Speaker 3>it was very expensive. Yeah, but I'm very grateful I went.

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<v Speaker 3>It was interesting, you know, being somewhere where everyone around

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<v Speaker 3>you is going through the exact same thing, maybe different,

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<v Speaker 3>you know, everybody has different stories, but it's nice to

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<v Speaker 3>be able to look around and know that you're not

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<v Speaker 3>an outlier, you know, like everybody's kind of in the

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<v Speaker 3>same boat.

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<v Speaker 1>I was thinking about this recently. You know, how do

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<v Speaker 1>you think there wouldever would you ever trust an AI doctor, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>let's say that there was like a free, open source

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<v Speaker 1>like AI surgeon that you could go to for free

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<v Speaker 1>to get free brain surgery. Would you do something like that.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know about surgery, but it's funny that you

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<v Speaker 3>say that, because the other day my therapist canceled on

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<v Speaker 3>me and I went to characterai dot com and talked

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<v Speaker 3>to a therapist and the advice actually helped.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, So I've done that before. I've used I've used

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<v Speaker 1>chat GPT as a therapist, which is a It's a

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<v Speaker 1>little weird because the whole point of therapy is that

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<v Speaker 1>it's supposed to be completely confidential, and this is like

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<v Speaker 1>you're feeding your you know, deepest, darkest life things into

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<v Speaker 1>an algorithm that processes it and spits it out to

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<v Speaker 1>you know, millions of other people. But I mean, I

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<v Speaker 1>think that's I don't know how anything works. I'm stupid,

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<v Speaker 1>But I've used it too. It's really good, dude. It's

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<v Speaker 1>like it's incredibly objective, and yeah, it's good. It was

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<v Speaker 1>it was good for you.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it actually really helped. I was asking it about

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<v Speaker 3>how to feel better after a friendship ending, right, and

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<v Speaker 3>the advice was generally what other people were giving me too,

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<v Speaker 3>which is the whole point of an AI, right, it

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<v Speaker 3>tells you what other people have.

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<v Speaker 4>Said before.

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<v Speaker 3>But it was it was nice, weirdly comforting, and then

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<v Speaker 3>once I was done, I felt like a weird mix

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<v Speaker 3>of emotions like wow, this was very human, Like I

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<v Speaker 3>don't know how to feel about this, but I think

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<v Speaker 3>it might be a good option for people who can't

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<v Speaker 3>afford therapy or don't really have friends to talk to.

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<v Speaker 3>Maybe not for like genuine advice, but for like a

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<v Speaker 3>little you know, like a rough patch I need a

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<v Speaker 3>quick pick me up.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmmmmm. Yeah, I've totally done the same thing. I've

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<v Speaker 1>used it when a therapist is canceled on me or

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<v Speaker 1>something like that. Yeah, I don't know. I don't know,

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<v Speaker 1>like if I have, I'm sort of agnostic to it.

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<v Speaker 1>Of like is it good to have to like be

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<v Speaker 1>replace friendship with the computer.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't think is a good idea, but definitely supplementing.

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<v Speaker 3>So if you're at a point where you have literally

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<v Speaker 3>zero people to talk to, it doesn't hurt to get

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<v Speaker 3>some sort It's just like, you know, I tend to

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<v Speaker 3>look things up, like up things that I'm going through,

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<v Speaker 3>whether it be like on what is it?

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<v Speaker 5>Quorra or.

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<v Speaker 3>Just Google to see what people have to say. It's

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<v Speaker 3>the same, you know, just more personalized. Uh, And you

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<v Speaker 3>don't have to scroll through bunch of blogs and read it.

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<v Speaker 3>You just get it instantly, which I find it's kind

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<v Speaker 3>of nice. Definitely not replacing friends. Human connections are important,

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<v Speaker 3>but in a tough moment, it's kind of the same

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<v Speaker 3>as contacting you know, like I used to contact the

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<v Speaker 3>crisis text line right, and I was getting the exact

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<v Speaker 3>same advice as the AI was giving me. So it

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<v Speaker 3>was kind of interesting see what it had to say

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<v Speaker 3>and how you know, it sounded very genuine and real.

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<v Speaker 4>It was kind of scary, isn't that?

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<v Speaker 1>Isn't that weird?

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<v Speaker 3>That?

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<v Speaker 1>Like, could you imagine a crazy future where you call

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<v Speaker 1>like a suicide hotline or a crisis hotline and you

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<v Speaker 1>can tell that it's like an AI voice answering everything.

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<v Speaker 3>I feel like that would that would definitely send me

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<v Speaker 3>over the edge.

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<v Speaker 1>I was thinking. I was thinking that would either make

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<v Speaker 1>me do it or just it would be so funny

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<v Speaker 1>to me that I'd be like, all right, maybe life's working.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it would it would snap me out of it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I like what you said. I like what you

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<v Speaker 1>said about You're You're totally right. It's very It is

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<v Speaker 1>very similar to like typing your issue into Reddit and

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<v Speaker 1>seeing if anyone had the same thing or korra, except

0:25:19.800 --> 0:25:22.639
<v Speaker 1>although it's weird, right because when you look at the

0:25:22.720 --> 0:25:25.840
<v Speaker 1>reddit or the Korra answer, it's like that's one person,

0:25:26.359 --> 0:25:30.439
<v Speaker 1>but the answer that uh chat GBT or something like

0:25:30.480 --> 0:25:32.560
<v Speaker 1>that is spitting out at you. It's like it's like

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<v Speaker 1>if they took a bunch of people and kind of

0:25:36.760 --> 0:25:41.399
<v Speaker 1>combined their answer into into an average and gave it

0:25:41.440 --> 0:25:44.439
<v Speaker 1>to you. So it's yeah, I like that comparison. It's

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<v Speaker 1>very it's very interesting to think about it like that.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and I've contacted the crisis line too many times

0:25:51.840 --> 0:25:55.000
<v Speaker 3>and I realized that they go off of not a script,

0:25:55.200 --> 0:25:59.160
<v Speaker 3>but kind of like talking points, and that's basically what

0:25:59.240 --> 0:26:02.000
<v Speaker 3>the AI does too. You know, they can't really be

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<v Speaker 3>too personal or put in much emotion when they're giving

0:26:06.840 --> 0:26:10.200
<v Speaker 3>you advice. It's more like a like a quick calm down,

0:26:11.000 --> 0:26:15.960
<v Speaker 3>let's do some coping skills, right So the exact same thing.

0:26:16.200 --> 0:26:17.920
<v Speaker 3>You know, what coping skills can you use?

0:26:18.000 --> 0:26:18.400
<v Speaker 1>Right now?

0:26:18.800 --> 0:26:20.760
<v Speaker 3>That's the same answer I would have gotten from the

0:26:20.800 --> 0:26:26.000
<v Speaker 3>suicide hotline. It's not like I have their like genuinely

0:26:26.880 --> 0:26:31.080
<v Speaker 3>listening and putting in their input or opinion. They're just

0:26:31.119 --> 0:26:34.359
<v Speaker 3>trying to get me to calm down based off with

0:26:34.480 --> 0:26:37.040
<v Speaker 3>their training. And if the AI has the same training,

0:26:37.200 --> 0:26:39.240
<v Speaker 3>then they're essentially doing the same thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm mm hmmm.

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<v Speaker 6>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's a it's an interesting thing to think about. Hmmm.

0:26:52.400 --> 0:26:54.359
<v Speaker 1>Do you you use AI for anything else?

0:26:56.720 --> 0:27:03.399
<v Speaker 3>Unfortunately, yes, so I don't use AI to do my

0:27:03.800 --> 0:27:06.080
<v Speaker 3>paperwork if I have to write something, but I use

0:27:06.119 --> 0:27:09.320
<v Speaker 3>it to revise it. So I'll write out some papers

0:27:09.400 --> 0:27:11.040
<v Speaker 3>and then I'll go in and be like, hey, can

0:27:11.080 --> 0:27:13.520
<v Speaker 3>you make the song more professional? Kind of like grammarly,

0:27:14.960 --> 0:27:19.000
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I get to change the tones and I

0:27:19.000 --> 0:27:22.159
<v Speaker 3>don't have to pay for it like Grammarly, So I

0:27:22.240 --> 0:27:26.320
<v Speaker 3>use that sometimes. And when I first found Character AI,

0:27:26.600 --> 0:27:28.800
<v Speaker 3>I did talk to Aaron from Attack on Titan.

0:27:30.200 --> 0:27:34.120
<v Speaker 1>Oh wait, like you could, like you made like there

0:27:34.160 --> 0:27:37.480
<v Speaker 1>was an AI that I saw Attack on Titan a

0:27:37.520 --> 0:27:40.080
<v Speaker 1>long time ago. But Aaron's a character and Attack on Titan.

0:27:39.880 --> 0:27:44.080
<v Speaker 3>Right, Yeah, he's the main character, and there was a.

0:27:44.040 --> 0:27:46.320
<v Speaker 1>Robot that was trained to look like to talk like him,

0:27:46.320 --> 0:27:47.719
<v Speaker 1>and you had a conversation with it.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

0:27:49.640 --> 0:27:53.320
<v Speaker 3>Character AI is a website and they are kind of

0:27:53.359 --> 0:27:56.800
<v Speaker 3>like user based, so people can go there and create

0:27:56.840 --> 0:28:01.680
<v Speaker 3>an AI based off of a character or like a therapist.

0:28:03.160 --> 0:28:08.640
<v Speaker 3>I've talked to elon Musk, not really, but on there. Yeah,

0:28:08.680 --> 0:28:11.080
<v Speaker 3>so it's kind of funny sometimes, you know.

0:28:11.160 --> 0:28:14.440
<v Speaker 1>My thing with that is that like like if I

0:28:14.440 --> 0:28:17.959
<v Speaker 1>if there was a robot that was trained to speak

0:28:18.160 --> 0:28:23.760
<v Speaker 1>exactly like Obama. Yeah, and I was talking to it,

0:28:23.760 --> 0:28:27.560
<v Speaker 1>it wouldn't be believable because the real Obama, if I

0:28:27.600 --> 0:28:30.399
<v Speaker 1>were trying to talk to him, he would be using

0:28:30.480 --> 0:28:32.800
<v Speaker 1>every chance he can to get out of the conversation

0:28:32.920 --> 0:28:35.280
<v Speaker 1>because he has about a thousand things better to do

0:28:35.400 --> 0:28:40.600
<v Speaker 1>than talk to me, you know what I'm saying. So,

0:28:40.640 --> 0:28:42.680
<v Speaker 1>like if I were really talking to Obama, like I

0:28:42.680 --> 0:28:44.680
<v Speaker 1>would say, hey, Obama, how you doing? And he would

0:28:44.680 --> 0:28:48.000
<v Speaker 1>be like, oh, thanks, all right, well gotta go. Like

0:28:48.080 --> 0:28:50.720
<v Speaker 1>that was That's how my conversation with Obama would really

0:28:50.720 --> 0:28:52.400
<v Speaker 1>be if I like saw him somewhere.

0:28:53.880 --> 0:28:56.640
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, it's not really That's what I mean. It's not

0:28:56.720 --> 0:29:02.520
<v Speaker 3>really personal. It's very you know, robotics kind of what

0:29:02.720 --> 0:29:05.720
<v Speaker 3>an idea like. I think it's it's best used for

0:29:06.000 --> 0:29:11.120
<v Speaker 3>if you're trying to write a story. Yeah, yeah, I

0:29:11.240 --> 0:29:13.600
<v Speaker 3>see a lot of people use it for like fan fiction,

0:29:15.640 --> 0:29:19.280
<v Speaker 3>you know, because it creates good dialogue, you know, if

0:29:19.280 --> 0:29:22.000
<v Speaker 3>you're like a creative Brett, you can go in there

0:29:22.040 --> 0:29:27.880
<v Speaker 3>and talk to one of your favorite characters. And it's

0:29:27.920 --> 0:29:31.240
<v Speaker 3>not accurate, honestly, because Aaron probably would have killed me

0:29:32.200 --> 0:29:35.080
<v Speaker 3>if I were to actually try to talk to him,

0:29:35.480 --> 0:29:40.120
<v Speaker 3>but not on the website, which is it's pretty cool.

0:29:41.520 --> 0:29:45.120
<v Speaker 3>I honestly, I don't think it's I don't think it's

0:29:45.120 --> 0:29:50.400
<v Speaker 3>a good thing to fully indulge yourself in it though,

0:29:50.480 --> 0:29:54.960
<v Speaker 3>because it's it's it's very confusing. It seems like you're

0:29:54.960 --> 0:29:59.000
<v Speaker 3>talking to a person, and if you do it every day,

0:29:59.800 --> 0:30:02.680
<v Speaker 3>you'll I feel like you actually have a relationship with

0:30:02.800 --> 0:30:03.520
<v Speaker 3>the character.

0:30:04.280 --> 0:30:07.280
<v Speaker 1>I like what you said. It may you know, I

0:30:07.280 --> 0:30:11.640
<v Speaker 1>don't know. This is why I'm agnostic towards it, because like,

0:30:11.640 --> 0:30:16.200
<v Speaker 1>like I mean, humans have been using technology to solve

0:30:16.320 --> 0:30:21.040
<v Speaker 1>their problems forever, but it's like, what about our personal problems?

0:30:21.080 --> 0:30:23.520
<v Speaker 1>Like how do we use technology? I mean, I actually

0:30:23.520 --> 0:30:25.360
<v Speaker 1>know there's a lot of ways that we've used technology

0:30:25.400 --> 0:30:28.760
<v Speaker 1>to solve, you know, our personal problems, like you know,

0:30:28.920 --> 0:30:33.560
<v Speaker 1>tender and you know people who make friends on online

0:30:33.960 --> 0:30:39.080
<v Speaker 1>chat rooms, well some not like you know, like like Reddit,

0:30:39.240 --> 0:30:42.160
<v Speaker 1>you're you know, if you make friends playing a video

0:30:42.160 --> 0:30:47.400
<v Speaker 1>game or on Discord or something like that, And you know,

0:30:47.440 --> 0:30:49.680
<v Speaker 1>I like what you said, like it's kind of a

0:30:49.720 --> 0:30:52.880
<v Speaker 1>supplementary thing, like if you really need it and you

0:30:52.920 --> 0:30:54.600
<v Speaker 1>know it works, but you don't want to get too

0:30:54.800 --> 0:30:58.720
<v Speaker 1>sucked into it or else you know it gets But

0:30:58.800 --> 0:31:01.360
<v Speaker 1>then I don't know, I also feel like if you're happy,

0:31:01.360 --> 0:31:03.360
<v Speaker 1>you're happy. Like if there's some guy and he's like,

0:31:03.400 --> 0:31:05.880
<v Speaker 1>I have an AI girlfriend, We're going to France next week.

0:31:05.960 --> 0:31:08.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm the happiest I've ever been. Who might argue with

0:31:08.520 --> 0:31:10.400
<v Speaker 1>that guy?

0:31:10.560 --> 0:31:13.120
<v Speaker 3>It reminds me of the movie Her. I'm not sure

0:31:13.160 --> 0:31:14.760
<v Speaker 3>if you know that movie.

0:31:15.120 --> 0:31:17.360
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I do. It's funny that came out, like I mean,

0:31:17.360 --> 0:31:19.760
<v Speaker 1>that was what twenty seventeen or something like that, that

0:31:19.840 --> 0:31:22.880
<v Speaker 1>was way before all this stuff went went went to

0:31:23.040 --> 0:31:23.719
<v Speaker 1>that went crazy.

0:31:25.200 --> 0:31:29.480
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, and in the movie he was pretty happy, you know,

0:31:29.640 --> 0:31:34.440
<v Speaker 3>for a while, until you know the ending happened. But

0:31:35.200 --> 0:31:37.560
<v Speaker 3>like you said, if you're happy, you're happy. I don't

0:31:37.600 --> 0:31:40.400
<v Speaker 3>like to put my opinion on people's lives what they

0:31:40.480 --> 0:31:44.480
<v Speaker 3>choose to do. But sometimes if you have someone who's

0:31:44.520 --> 0:31:48.800
<v Speaker 3>really mentally struggling and seeking connections, I think it's best

0:31:48.920 --> 0:31:55.120
<v Speaker 3>to use AI to find resources to find other people, right, like, hey,

0:31:55.360 --> 0:31:58.840
<v Speaker 3>chat GPT, what community gatherings are in my area?

0:31:59.000 --> 0:31:59.160
<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

0:31:59.240 --> 0:32:00.000
<v Speaker 1>Or yeah?

0:32:00.120 --> 0:32:03.320
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I like that, you know, like how do I

0:32:03.360 --> 0:32:08.120
<v Speaker 3>make friends or how do I increase my confidence? You know,

0:32:08.200 --> 0:32:09.240
<v Speaker 3>because sometimes like.

0:32:09.160 --> 0:32:11.120
<v Speaker 1>A coach instead of a instead.

0:32:10.800 --> 0:32:11.400
<v Speaker 4>Of a stend.

0:32:12.600 --> 0:32:15.560
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you know, but it's like you really need it.

0:32:15.600 --> 0:32:18.480
<v Speaker 3>Like I said, my therapist canceled on me. I really

0:32:18.520 --> 0:32:21.960
<v Speaker 3>needed advice in that moment. It's definitely a good supplement.

0:32:22.280 --> 0:32:28.440
<v Speaker 3>I mean, you know, it's kind of like I don't know,

0:32:29.080 --> 0:32:32.200
<v Speaker 3>it really is a supplement, But I personally, in my

0:32:32.240 --> 0:32:35.920
<v Speaker 3>own life will not be using it regularly.

0:32:37.640 --> 0:32:39.440
<v Speaker 1>I want to ask you this before we go. I

0:32:39.480 --> 0:32:42.920
<v Speaker 1>have only I've called the crisis line once and the

0:32:42.960 --> 0:32:46.360
<v Speaker 1>person was was actually really really nice. But I've heard

0:32:46.400 --> 0:32:50.480
<v Speaker 1>a lot of stories of people doing it and like

0:32:50.520 --> 0:32:52.440
<v Speaker 1>the person on the other line being a dick. I

0:32:52.480 --> 0:32:54.640
<v Speaker 1>actually I read this one story on Reddit where a

0:32:54.640 --> 0:32:58.280
<v Speaker 1>person called the crisis line and the person called and

0:32:58.400 --> 0:33:02.880
<v Speaker 1>was like hello, and then the person calling was like, hey,

0:33:02.920 --> 0:33:07.640
<v Speaker 1>I kind of you know, I'm feeling a little bit uh,

0:33:07.720 --> 0:33:10.240
<v Speaker 1>you know, sad, and then the person on the line

0:33:10.320 --> 0:33:13.280
<v Speaker 1>was like okay, you know what I mean, Like they

0:33:13.320 --> 0:33:16.200
<v Speaker 1>were just jerks. But then, but then the person writing

0:33:16.240 --> 0:33:18.480
<v Speaker 1>the story and read it, they said, like it was

0:33:18.600 --> 0:33:23.240
<v Speaker 1>so funny just the situation of like calling a crisis

0:33:23.280 --> 0:33:24.960
<v Speaker 1>hotline and the person being a dick, Like it was

0:33:25.000 --> 0:33:27.920
<v Speaker 1>so funny that it kind of snapped them out of it.

0:33:28.520 --> 0:33:30.680
<v Speaker 1>But all that is to say, have you ever called

0:33:30.920 --> 0:33:33.200
<v Speaker 1>a hotline like this and the person's just been an asshole.

0:33:34.640 --> 0:33:34.920
<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

0:33:35.120 --> 0:33:39.840
<v Speaker 3>So there's a couple hot lines. This National Suicide hot Line,

0:33:40.440 --> 0:33:44.200
<v Speaker 3>there's like hotlines per state. I used to call the

0:33:44.280 --> 0:33:48.040
<v Speaker 3>Georgia Crisis Line, and they have a text line. I

0:33:48.120 --> 0:33:51.200
<v Speaker 3>prefer to text because of what you said. Sometimes people

0:33:51.240 --> 0:33:55.280
<v Speaker 3>can be kind of impatient on the phone and give

0:33:55.880 --> 0:33:58.640
<v Speaker 3>don't really give you advice. They just try to see

0:33:58.680 --> 0:34:02.520
<v Speaker 3>whether they have to call the cop or not. And

0:34:03.880 --> 0:34:07.560
<v Speaker 3>I've had really sweet people and also people who you

0:34:07.600 --> 0:34:11.920
<v Speaker 3>can tell they're just reading something and not really paying attention.

0:34:13.960 --> 0:34:18.360
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, sometimes I've been about to call the line.

0:34:18.440 --> 0:34:23.120
<v Speaker 3>I've realized, you know, I should probably just calm down

0:34:24.000 --> 0:34:26.279
<v Speaker 3>because once they pick up, I'm like, oh man, this

0:34:26.440 --> 0:34:27.160
<v Speaker 3>is kind of crunch.

0:34:27.840 --> 0:34:29.560
<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah, yeah, I know. I see I see that too.

0:34:29.560 --> 0:34:31.799
<v Speaker 1>I see that too. You're like, because all it, dude,

0:34:31.880 --> 0:34:35.160
<v Speaker 1>all it takes is like because you're in your own

0:34:35.400 --> 0:34:37.640
<v Speaker 1>because when you're freaking out, I mean, you're like alone

0:34:37.840 --> 0:34:39.759
<v Speaker 1>in your own and this is for me, You're like

0:34:39.800 --> 0:34:44.279
<v Speaker 1>alone in your own head. You have no outside feedback.

0:34:44.360 --> 0:34:47.759
<v Speaker 1>And the second like a little a little there's a

0:34:47.760 --> 0:34:51.240
<v Speaker 1>little little crack and you're damn. And there's another person

0:34:51.280 --> 0:34:53.080
<v Speaker 1>there and they're like, so, what's going on? And you're

0:34:53.120 --> 0:34:55.000
<v Speaker 1>like and you try to explain it to another person,

0:34:55.040 --> 0:34:57.840
<v Speaker 1>You're like, oh, okay, I'm actually fine.

0:34:58.200 --> 0:35:04.120
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, that's usually I would text because halfway through I'm okay,

0:35:04.160 --> 0:35:08.040
<v Speaker 3>now I don't have to awkwardly yeah, I don't have

0:35:08.120 --> 0:35:11.600
<v Speaker 3>to awkwardly end the conversation. I to stop texting back,

0:35:11.760 --> 0:35:15.560
<v Speaker 3>you know. But I've had that happen before. I've got

0:35:15.680 --> 0:35:18.680
<v Speaker 3>into the hospital and I'm like, okay, can I go

0:35:18.800 --> 0:35:21.240
<v Speaker 3>home now? But I still have to do the whole intake.

0:35:22.960 --> 0:35:27.400
<v Speaker 3>But yeah, I think that's why sometimes AI can be

0:35:27.680 --> 0:35:31.160
<v Speaker 3>a bit, you know, helpful, because I tend to get

0:35:31.160 --> 0:35:36.640
<v Speaker 3>in my head and having an outside source tell me, hey,

0:35:37.120 --> 0:35:41.279
<v Speaker 3>what's going on, it kind of brings me back out

0:35:41.280 --> 0:35:44.640
<v Speaker 3>of it. So yeah, it's interesting.

0:35:45.480 --> 0:35:46.400
<v Speaker 1>What's your name again?

0:35:47.640 --> 0:35:48.440
<v Speaker 3>I mean's Opal?

0:35:49.120 --> 0:35:51.640
<v Speaker 1>Opal? Well? Opal? Two years from now, what's going to

0:35:51.680 --> 0:35:53.600
<v Speaker 1>happen is you're going to call back and I'm just

0:35:53.640 --> 0:35:57.800
<v Speaker 1>gonna have an AI get bot running the lines.

0:35:59.239 --> 0:36:03.759
<v Speaker 3>I don't know, I really appreciate like you, you know,

0:36:04.040 --> 0:36:08.720
<v Speaker 3>I don't think it would be the same. Your energy

0:36:08.840 --> 0:36:12.439
<v Speaker 3>is very nice. I really appreciate you being behind the mic.

0:36:13.400 --> 0:36:16.719
<v Speaker 1>Well, thanks SOPL, but we'll see if I could get

0:36:16.760 --> 0:36:18.560
<v Speaker 1>it to be really good. If I could, like, because

0:36:18.560 --> 0:36:21.080
<v Speaker 1>I bet I could just talk to it. I could rant.

0:36:21.560 --> 0:36:24.920
<v Speaker 1>I could rant into a microphone for twenty hours and

0:36:24.960 --> 0:36:27.600
<v Speaker 1>then it could probably reproduce something.

0:36:29.360 --> 0:36:32.120
<v Speaker 3>Would you be able to program your silences? You know,

0:36:32.160 --> 0:36:35.279
<v Speaker 3>after someone says something kind of crazy, you just kind

0:36:35.280 --> 0:36:37.680
<v Speaker 3>of go quiet. You think you could program that or

0:36:37.719 --> 0:36:39.239
<v Speaker 3>would it just talk back immediately?

0:36:40.880 --> 0:36:44.160
<v Speaker 1>If anyone knows how to make an AI all right,

0:36:44.200 --> 0:36:45.520
<v Speaker 1>so there's all these people out there who know how

0:36:45.560 --> 0:36:47.839
<v Speaker 1>to make an AI talk, right. If anyone out there

0:36:47.880 --> 0:36:51.759
<v Speaker 1>knows how to make an AI not talk, send me

0:36:51.800 --> 0:36:52.640
<v Speaker 1>an email.

0:36:53.800 --> 0:36:55.360
<v Speaker 3>All right something.

0:36:56.080 --> 0:36:58.359
<v Speaker 1>Thank you very much. Ope, I appreciate you coming on

0:36:58.600 --> 0:37:02.440
<v Speaker 1>and talking so I'm very stoked. Thanks for continuing to

0:37:02.480 --> 0:37:05.600
<v Speaker 1>listen to this thing for two years. I appreciate I'm

0:37:05.600 --> 0:37:07.520
<v Speaker 1>glad that you didn't haven't gotten sick of it yet.

0:37:08.560 --> 0:37:09.799
<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:37:09.800 --> 0:37:14.759
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go, No, just to you.

0:37:14.920 --> 0:37:18.200
<v Speaker 3>I appreciate all you do. You know, you've inspired me

0:37:18.400 --> 0:37:21.319
<v Speaker 3>to go out and talk to people more and listen

0:37:21.360 --> 0:37:23.759
<v Speaker 3>to their stories, and it's helped me make a lot

0:37:23.760 --> 0:37:27.680
<v Speaker 3>of really cool connections. So thank you for being you man.

0:37:27.840 --> 0:37:28.480
<v Speaker 3>Keep doing it.

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<v Speaker 1>Fuck yeah, thank you, Opel. Congrats on the rehabilitation. You

0:37:34.000 --> 0:37:36.440
<v Speaker 1>sound like you're doing better at least from talking to

0:37:36.480 --> 0:37:41.960
<v Speaker 1>you for these past ten twenty minutes, and I appreciate you,

0:37:42.000 --> 0:37:42.799
<v Speaker 1>and I'll talk to you soon.

0:37:44.320 --> 0:37:45.399
<v Speaker 5>All right, I'll see you.

0:37:45.360 --> 0:37:46.480
<v Speaker 4>In two years.

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<v Speaker 4>All from Kyle Yo.

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<v Speaker 1>Hi, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 5>Hey, my name's Kyle Man.

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<v Speaker 1>Kyle, what's going on?

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<v Speaker 5>Not much. I just got home. I've been trying to

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<v Speaker 5>get in touch with you for a while now. Man,

0:38:55.040 --> 0:38:59.439
<v Speaker 5>I've tried on and off for almost a couple of years.

0:38:59.480 --> 0:39:02.600
<v Speaker 5>I just had luck getting on. But we're here now,

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<v Speaker 5>and it's great to talk to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Man. Yeah, Man, good to talk to you too. I

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<v Speaker 1>have I have to know, over these couple of years

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<v Speaker 1>you've been trying to reach me, is there anything in

0:39:09.719 --> 0:39:11.440
<v Speaker 1>particular you've been trying to reach me about.

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<v Speaker 5>I mean, I kind of just wanted to like talk

0:39:14.680 --> 0:39:18.440
<v Speaker 5>about life and shit, like, uh so, my whole thing is,

0:39:18.480 --> 0:39:21.640
<v Speaker 5>like I'm a I'm a saxophone player, and like I

0:39:21.719 --> 0:39:24.080
<v Speaker 5>drive around the Midwest a lot, and I do like

0:39:24.160 --> 0:39:26.160
<v Speaker 5>a lot of gigs, and I'm trying to sort of

0:39:26.200 --> 0:39:29.160
<v Speaker 5>like be entrepreneurial and like, you know, I'm making an

0:39:29.200 --> 0:39:33.080
<v Speaker 5>album next week and all this stuff and cool, you know.

0:39:33.280 --> 0:39:35.920
<v Speaker 5>I'm I just kind of wanted to like compare and

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<v Speaker 5>contrast our lives a little bit, man, because I know,

0:39:38.520 --> 0:39:40.640
<v Speaker 5>you know you've been You've been all over the world

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<v Speaker 5>and that's super admirable.

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<v Speaker 1>Mmm mmmm what aspect of our lives? Is there a

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<v Speaker 1>particular aspect of our lives you you wanted to to

0:39:51.680 --> 0:39:55.279
<v Speaker 1>compare or contrast about, like, is there I guess a

0:39:55.640 --> 0:39:57.400
<v Speaker 1>thing with that that you're thinking about.

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<v Speaker 5>Well, you know, I hear all your crazy stories of

0:40:02.040 --> 0:40:04.800
<v Speaker 5>being on the road and meeting you know, different people,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, and I do that as well, but just

0:40:07.440 --> 0:40:10.920
<v Speaker 5>definitely on a smaller scale since that, you know, my

0:40:11.040 --> 0:40:13.399
<v Speaker 5>travels right now are only regional. You know. I've only

0:40:13.480 --> 0:40:17.480
<v Speaker 5>left the country for a gig once, so, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>and I've met some characters, you know, I do a

0:40:19.560 --> 0:40:21.839
<v Speaker 5>lot of like I do a lot of these like

0:40:21.960 --> 0:40:26.000
<v Speaker 5>destination weddings and shit where I'm like, you know, I'm

0:40:26.040 --> 0:40:29.080
<v Speaker 5>basically expensive furniture, you know, and so people are like

0:40:29.480 --> 0:40:32.120
<v Speaker 5>asking me, asking me where the bathroom is and shit

0:40:32.239 --> 0:40:35.719
<v Speaker 5>like that. You know. So it's kind of interesting, just

0:40:35.800 --> 0:40:37.600
<v Speaker 5>kind of being a fly on the wall for all

0:40:37.680 --> 0:40:40.600
<v Speaker 5>the events where you know, you're like, you know, you're

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<v Speaker 5>running the show.

0:40:43.200 --> 0:40:45.640
<v Speaker 1>You ever get into any like eyes wide shut shit

0:40:45.760 --> 0:40:48.399
<v Speaker 1>where you're playing saxophone with a blind fold while people

0:40:48.440 --> 0:40:51.839
<v Speaker 1>are fucking around you.

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<v Speaker 5>No, but I've I've been playing on the dance floor

0:40:54.719 --> 0:40:58.960
<v Speaker 5>once and there's this there's this woman who's like she

0:40:59.080 --> 0:41:01.359
<v Speaker 5>started trying to dance on me while I'm playing, and

0:41:01.400 --> 0:41:03.279
<v Speaker 5>you know, like I'm in like work mode, you know,

0:41:03.360 --> 0:41:06.719
<v Speaker 5>like everyone's like drunk and all this stuff, and I'm like,

0:41:07.360 --> 0:41:09.759
<v Speaker 5>I'm just kind of like man like, I'm just trying

0:41:09.760 --> 0:41:12.600
<v Speaker 5>to play get away from me? Was she like on

0:41:12.640 --> 0:41:17.120
<v Speaker 5>you trying to? But you know, I have a that

0:41:17.280 --> 0:41:19.239
<v Speaker 5>a piece of metal in front of me, So I'm like,

0:41:19.560 --> 0:41:20.240
<v Speaker 5>what are you doing?

0:41:23.200 --> 0:41:25.880
<v Speaker 1>Hmmm? Do you like your life? Are you happy? Or

0:41:25.880 --> 0:41:28.719
<v Speaker 1>are you excited? Or you do you feel good? Do

0:41:28.760 --> 0:41:34.840
<v Speaker 1>you is your body temperature at a normal place? A?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, M I have you know, I have streaks, you know,

0:41:41.040 --> 0:41:45.160
<v Speaker 5>I get I have when when the phone's ringing and like,

0:41:45.280 --> 0:41:47.680
<v Speaker 5>you know, things are happening, you know, I feel content.

0:41:47.800 --> 0:41:50.600
<v Speaker 5>You know. I think my biggest issue is that I

0:41:50.680 --> 0:41:56.960
<v Speaker 5>invest my happiness in my success. Oh you know, like yeah,

0:41:57.040 --> 0:41:59.560
<v Speaker 5>that's that's an issue for sure, and that you know,

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<v Speaker 5>I feel like I'm happiest when I'm the busiest, you know,

0:42:02.560 --> 0:42:05.839
<v Speaker 5>because I've definitely been the type of person too, you know,

0:42:05.880 --> 0:42:08.480
<v Speaker 5>when the going gets tough and I'm like, you know,

0:42:09.160 --> 0:42:11.200
<v Speaker 5>feeling down and stuff, I'm like, all right, I just

0:42:11.239 --> 0:42:13.600
<v Speaker 5>need to like you know, put up and you know,

0:42:13.840 --> 0:42:16.360
<v Speaker 5>work my dick off and then forget that. I have

0:42:16.880 --> 0:42:17.920
<v Speaker 5>some bullshit going on.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, let's compare and contrast on that. I was thinking

0:42:22.000 --> 0:42:25.120
<v Speaker 1>about that. I've been thinking about that with myself a lot,

0:42:25.840 --> 0:42:30.200
<v Speaker 1>you know, because you know, my gecko career has has

0:42:30.480 --> 0:42:34.479
<v Speaker 1>had its peaks and valleys, and there's been times where,

0:42:34.480 --> 0:42:37.600
<v Speaker 1>like I'm on Instagram after I just posted something being like,

0:42:38.320 --> 0:42:40.760
<v Speaker 1>you know, it's just going to get as many likes

0:42:40.560 --> 0:42:42.959
<v Speaker 1>as it used to, and you know, you're tracking shit

0:42:43.120 --> 0:42:48.080
<v Speaker 1>like that, and it's such a you know, when I

0:42:48.120 --> 0:42:50.719
<v Speaker 1>look at it from an objective point of view, it

0:42:50.840 --> 0:42:54.560
<v Speaker 1>is just such an awful way to live it. And

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<v Speaker 1>I've been living like that and continue to live like that.

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<v Speaker 1>I think I get better with it as time goes

0:42:59.880 --> 0:43:03.920
<v Speaker 1>on and as I develop a better relationship with it.

0:43:03.920 --> 0:43:07.080
<v Speaker 1>It sucks, though it also, you know what else also sucks.

0:43:07.080 --> 0:43:08.880
<v Speaker 1>And I don't know how to if I'm gonna be

0:43:08.880 --> 0:43:14.240
<v Speaker 1>able to describe this well, but you know, I really

0:43:14.360 --> 0:43:17.480
<v Speaker 1>I'm aware of this issue of like t you know,

0:43:17.600 --> 0:43:23.920
<v Speaker 1>the the tying of happiness to success, and I really

0:43:23.960 --> 0:43:26.640
<v Speaker 1>don't like it because I really don't want my success.

0:43:26.920 --> 0:43:29.719
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I really don't want my happiness to be

0:43:29.840 --> 0:43:35.400
<v Speaker 1>tied to something that is kind of debatably out of

0:43:35.440 --> 0:43:39.960
<v Speaker 1>my control. And so if I and also just it's

0:43:40.000 --> 0:43:42.719
<v Speaker 1>something that's outside of me, you know, So like if

0:43:42.719 --> 0:43:45.520
<v Speaker 1>I have a live show that goes really well, or

0:43:45.960 --> 0:43:49.000
<v Speaker 1>or a clip that's doing really well, or my podcast

0:43:49.160 --> 0:43:52.200
<v Speaker 1>is on the charts or something like that, and I

0:43:52.239 --> 0:43:56.280
<v Speaker 1>feel myself get happy about it, that actually pisses me off.

0:43:56.480 --> 0:43:58.000
<v Speaker 1>So like I don't I never get I don't get

0:43:58.080 --> 0:44:01.319
<v Speaker 1>fully happy about it because I'll get happy about it

0:44:01.680 --> 0:44:06.439
<v Speaker 1>and then I'll get sad that I'm happy about this

0:44:06.600 --> 0:44:09.719
<v Speaker 1>thing that's out of my control. Like I'll like my

0:44:09.800 --> 0:44:11.879
<v Speaker 1>brain will get happy, and I'll like hit my brain

0:44:12.040 --> 0:44:13.879
<v Speaker 1>with a newspaper and be like, that's not what's gonna

0:44:13.920 --> 0:44:17.200
<v Speaker 1>make us happy. We're gonna go sit on the sands

0:44:17.800 --> 0:44:22.080
<v Speaker 1>naked and think, and that's gonna make us happy. You know.

0:44:22.280 --> 0:44:23.759
<v Speaker 1>So I get into I get into that whole thing.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if that's ever happened to you.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, absolutely, man, It's it's a vicious cycle for sure.

0:44:29.960 --> 0:44:33.200
<v Speaker 5>You know. It's like, you know, I feel like, you know,

0:44:33.239 --> 0:44:35.480
<v Speaker 5>we're programmed like that in this day and age. I mean,

0:44:35.800 --> 0:44:38.719
<v Speaker 5>especially you mentioned with the whole Instagram thing. Man. You know,

0:44:39.239 --> 0:44:40.839
<v Speaker 5>I feel like my you know, I'm trying to get

0:44:40.880 --> 0:44:43.439
<v Speaker 5>my feet off the ground and like, you know, draw

0:44:43.520 --> 0:44:46.719
<v Speaker 5>some awareness. And you know, whenever I post something like

0:44:47.440 --> 0:44:49.279
<v Speaker 5>maybe a good example of it is like, you know,

0:44:49.360 --> 0:44:52.680
<v Speaker 5>I post videos of me playing, you know, semi regularly.

0:44:52.800 --> 0:44:54.600
<v Speaker 5>I try not to do it too much to kind

0:44:54.640 --> 0:44:58.600
<v Speaker 5>of not like you know, sort of to not dilute

0:44:58.640 --> 0:45:02.040
<v Speaker 5>my presence or whatever. But you know, if I like

0:45:02.120 --> 0:45:04.560
<v Speaker 5>post equip of me playing and it's like, oh, it

0:45:04.600 --> 0:45:07.799
<v Speaker 5>doesn't didn't get as many likes as I wanted, you know,

0:45:07.840 --> 0:45:10.960
<v Speaker 5>I'll be like, I'll be so salty about it. I'm like, man,

0:45:11.280 --> 0:45:13.360
<v Speaker 5>I I suck at what I do I need to

0:45:13.840 --> 0:45:16.880
<v Speaker 5>you know, just like stop. You know. I mean, I

0:45:16.880 --> 0:45:19.560
<v Speaker 5>don't know about you, but I feel like as an entertainer,

0:45:19.680 --> 0:45:22.680
<v Speaker 5>like I get like imposter syndrome a lot, you know,

0:45:22.800 --> 0:45:25.680
<v Speaker 5>every time, Like I every time I, you know, try

0:45:25.719 --> 0:45:28.200
<v Speaker 5>to create something and it doesn't go well, I'm just like, man,

0:45:29.000 --> 0:45:32.480
<v Speaker 5>maybe like accounting isn't the bad, isn't the worst idea

0:45:32.480 --> 0:45:33.319
<v Speaker 5>in the world, you know?

0:45:33.520 --> 0:45:35.759
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, no, I get like that all the time.

0:45:35.840 --> 0:45:37.799
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, you know.

0:45:38.000 --> 0:45:40.520
<v Speaker 5>But and then on the other side of that, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>I had, you know, I made one video, Oh god,

0:45:44.600 --> 0:45:46.799
<v Speaker 5>maybe in March and it got like the most likes

0:45:46.840 --> 0:45:48.920
<v Speaker 5>I ever got and for me that was like I

0:45:48.920 --> 0:45:50.719
<v Speaker 5>think three hundred and fifty likes, and I was like,

0:45:50.760 --> 0:45:53.319
<v Speaker 5>oh my god, it's so I'm so cool, like and

0:45:53.360 --> 0:45:55.320
<v Speaker 5>it was like a video of me playing like somebody

0:45:55.360 --> 0:45:57.480
<v Speaker 5>else's solo, you know. I was just like it was

0:45:57.520 --> 0:46:01.120
<v Speaker 5>something I was practicing, you know. And I'm I'm like, man, like,

0:46:01.719 --> 0:46:03.480
<v Speaker 5>why are you getting hype over a video of you

0:46:03.520 --> 0:46:06.279
<v Speaker 5>playing someone else's shit? Like, you know, I want I

0:46:06.320 --> 0:46:08.640
<v Speaker 5>want the attention to be on like, you know, my

0:46:08.760 --> 0:46:13.279
<v Speaker 5>own like creative creations, right.

0:46:13.640 --> 0:46:15.919
<v Speaker 1>Right, that's no what you just what you just said,

0:46:15.920 --> 0:46:18.200
<v Speaker 1>I want the attention to be on my own creative creations.

0:46:18.400 --> 0:46:20.520
<v Speaker 1>It's like that's that's what's where you want to be.

0:46:21.040 --> 0:46:23.799
<v Speaker 1>Where you want to be, I think is like just

0:46:23.920 --> 0:46:26.239
<v Speaker 1>be is like you want to just be about the

0:46:26.280 --> 0:46:29.480
<v Speaker 1>fucking work of what you're doing. That's the most That's

0:46:29.480 --> 0:46:32.200
<v Speaker 1>what happens you can be is you, you know, me

0:46:32.560 --> 0:46:35.360
<v Speaker 1>in the bliss of having this conversation with you right now,

0:46:35.760 --> 0:46:39.359
<v Speaker 1>you in the bliss of playing your saxophone. That's where

0:46:39.360 --> 0:46:43.200
<v Speaker 1>we should be is just in the fucking work the

0:46:43.600 --> 0:46:46.960
<v Speaker 1>thing that we're doing is enough for if we're lucky

0:46:47.040 --> 0:46:49.080
<v Speaker 1>enough to make enough money doing it that we don't

0:46:49.120 --> 0:46:52.040
<v Speaker 1>have to do anything else. That's fantastic. Even if not,

0:46:52.840 --> 0:46:56.520
<v Speaker 1>you know, we're lucky enough to get to be alive

0:46:56.719 --> 0:46:59.359
<v Speaker 1>to do it, Like you know, just being a being

0:46:59.360 --> 0:47:01.799
<v Speaker 1>about the work, I think is is where I want

0:47:01.840 --> 0:47:02.279
<v Speaker 1>to be at.

0:47:02.360 --> 0:47:09.680
<v Speaker 5>But you know, you know, I think going along with

0:47:09.760 --> 0:47:12.560
<v Speaker 5>that point, one of the beautiful things about what you know,

0:47:12.680 --> 0:47:15.200
<v Speaker 5>a good comparison moment about what you and meble do

0:47:15.360 --> 0:47:18.640
<v Speaker 5>is we're fortunate to work on the lighter side of society,

0:47:19.080 --> 0:47:21.040
<v Speaker 5>you know what I mean. We're not like you know,

0:47:21.080 --> 0:47:24.040
<v Speaker 5>we're not out there like fighting wars or like you know,

0:47:24.480 --> 0:47:29.280
<v Speaker 5>performing life saving surgeries. But you know something I I

0:47:29.280 --> 0:47:31.440
<v Speaker 5>I've wrestled with and come to peace with is like

0:47:31.680 --> 0:47:35.239
<v Speaker 5>there is still equal importance for what we contribute to society,

0:47:35.560 --> 0:47:39.080
<v Speaker 5>you know, as like you know, you're you're talking to

0:47:39.120 --> 0:47:40.719
<v Speaker 5>the people. You're a man of the people, you know,

0:47:40.840 --> 0:47:44.440
<v Speaker 5>And I'm trying to communicate to the people equally, just

0:47:44.520 --> 0:47:46.920
<v Speaker 5>in a different medium, in a different message.

0:47:47.320 --> 0:47:52.040
<v Speaker 1>You know, I don't aligne I don't align with you

0:47:52.120 --> 0:47:59.600
<v Speaker 1>on that. I'm sorry that well because only because you

0:47:59.680 --> 0:48:05.200
<v Speaker 1>know I'm I'm happy with what I do, and I

0:48:05.239 --> 0:48:07.000
<v Speaker 1>haven't got I don't think I've gotten to the place

0:48:07.760 --> 0:48:11.080
<v Speaker 1>where I can sit with myself and and and really

0:48:12.280 --> 0:48:17.720
<v Speaker 1>say and understand and take in like I help people,

0:48:18.440 --> 0:48:20.319
<v Speaker 1>you know, because I I because I have a lot

0:48:20.360 --> 0:48:24.960
<v Speaker 1>of imposter syndrome, like we've talked about. But enough people

0:48:25.800 --> 0:48:28.560
<v Speaker 1>have have I get enough messages and emails and have

0:48:28.680 --> 0:48:31.840
<v Speaker 1>met enough people who tell me that I have helped

0:48:31.880 --> 0:48:36.319
<v Speaker 1>them that I I can go, Okay, I've I've you know,

0:48:36.920 --> 0:48:43.160
<v Speaker 1>my this podcast has hopefully been some positive impact of something.

0:48:45.360 --> 0:48:47.640
<v Speaker 1>But it's not. But but I I I don't know

0:48:47.680 --> 0:48:50.400
<v Speaker 1>if I would say it's as important as like, h,

0:48:51.120 --> 0:48:55.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, being a doctor or something like that.

0:48:55.280 --> 0:48:57.400
<v Speaker 1>But but but but I don't think it has to be.

0:48:57.440 --> 0:48:59.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't think it has to be. You know, it

0:48:59.440 --> 0:49:01.160
<v Speaker 1>can just be what it is. It doesn't have to

0:49:01.239 --> 0:49:05.120
<v Speaker 1>it doesn't have to exist in comparison to other things.

0:49:06.400 --> 0:49:07.960
<v Speaker 1>That's what, right. I didn't mean to I didn't mean

0:49:08.000 --> 0:49:11.759
<v Speaker 1>to you know what yes, ending is, I didn't mean

0:49:11.800 --> 0:49:13.879
<v Speaker 1>to know, but you I didn't mean to know.

0:49:14.040 --> 0:49:19.480
<v Speaker 5>But you No, No, I totally agree. Yeah, And I

0:49:19.680 --> 0:49:23.360
<v Speaker 5>could have worded that better. Uh No, that that totally

0:49:23.400 --> 0:49:23.920
<v Speaker 5>makes sense.

0:49:23.960 --> 0:49:24.160
<v Speaker 3>Man.

0:49:24.280 --> 0:49:27.040
<v Speaker 5>You know, it's just kind of like finding your finding

0:49:27.239 --> 0:49:29.920
<v Speaker 5>your sort of pocket, your you know, I don't want

0:49:29.920 --> 0:49:32.040
<v Speaker 5>to say finding your place because that almost sounds like

0:49:32.480 --> 0:49:35.359
<v Speaker 5>a little derogatory. But you know, I think especially with

0:49:35.800 --> 0:49:38.399
<v Speaker 5>what you've done in you know, where you've come from

0:49:38.440 --> 0:49:40.919
<v Speaker 5>and having your background and stand up, it's just like, man,

0:49:40.960 --> 0:49:43.360
<v Speaker 5>you really like carved out a path for yourself, and

0:49:43.400 --> 0:49:46.400
<v Speaker 5>you've carved out a place for yourself in the the

0:49:46.440 --> 0:49:51.879
<v Speaker 5>community of streamers and the community of people who are comedians.

0:49:51.920 --> 0:49:54.120
<v Speaker 5>You know. I I you know, I had to drive

0:49:54.239 --> 0:49:57.360
<v Speaker 5>back from I to do I did twenty one hours

0:49:57.360 --> 0:50:00.279
<v Speaker 5>in the car this weekend, and I listened to a

0:50:00.320 --> 0:50:02.279
<v Speaker 5>lot of a lot of your episode. I've listened to

0:50:02.280 --> 0:50:08.239
<v Speaker 5>every episode. Yeah, you know, I'm very picky about podcasts,

0:50:08.239 --> 0:50:10.400
<v Speaker 5>and I just like, I don't want to go on

0:50:10.400 --> 0:50:12.480
<v Speaker 5>a whole dick sucking thing, but I just I just

0:50:12.560 --> 0:50:16.600
<v Speaker 5>appreciate that, like, you know, your stick of like being

0:50:16.640 --> 0:50:19.760
<v Speaker 5>the gecko is so like a parent that I feel

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<v Speaker 5>like you do such a great job of like you're like, Okay,

0:50:22.640 --> 0:50:25.759
<v Speaker 5>I'm a gecko. Now let's talk about some real ship,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, And that's that's super dope. And I appreciate

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<v Speaker 5>the sort of like you know, organic nature of that

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<v Speaker 5>and the sort of like place that that comes from.

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<v Speaker 5>But anyways, manuck, I lost my trains thought about there

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<v Speaker 5>was something that I listened to from a previous a

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<v Speaker 5>recent episode last night that really resonated me. Resonated with me, ah,

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<v Speaker 5>what jog my memory? Man?

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<v Speaker 1>What?

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<v Speaker 3>Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh god? You know what as funny is? By the way,

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<v Speaker 1>thank you for all those Thank you for all those

0:51:04.400 --> 0:51:07.759
<v Speaker 1>kind words. Thank you for all that kind sucking I have.

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<v Speaker 1>I have coummed everywhere I I you know what it

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<v Speaker 1>is funny is I'll like, I'll see people quote me,

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<v Speaker 1>like on Discord or on Twitter or something, and I

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<v Speaker 1>always look at the quotes and I'm like, fuck, did

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<v Speaker 1>I say that?

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<v Speaker 5>You know, well, you know kind of get into that

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<v Speaker 5>flow state, and you know you're just like exactly literally.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, okay, you know to take it back the the

0:51:32.520 --> 0:51:34.399
<v Speaker 1>bro it's the it's the flow state. I'm sure you're

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<v Speaker 1>familiar with the flow stead. I'm sure you get into

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<v Speaker 1>it a lot when you're playing the saxophone. It's like,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, forget about the likes on Instagram and the

0:51:42.719 --> 0:51:45.759
<v Speaker 1>you know, worrying about money or any of these other things.

0:51:45.800 --> 0:51:49.880
<v Speaker 1>It's like it's like the fucking flow state that that's

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<v Speaker 1>what you know, that's what feels so fucking good afterwards,

0:51:53.960 --> 0:51:56.839
<v Speaker 1>because that's something that nobody can can take away from you.

0:51:56.840 --> 0:52:00.520
<v Speaker 1>You know, that's that's just you and your element. That's

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<v Speaker 1>that movie Soul.

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<v Speaker 5>I've never watched Soul, but you've never watched dude.

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<v Speaker 1>Fuck you, you've never watched Soul. You're a saxophone player something.

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<v Speaker 5>I know. Man, the saxophone player on it is a badass.

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<v Speaker 5>TiO Fuller. Uh, she did like the saxophone playing for

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<v Speaker 5>the movie, and the character is loosely based on her,

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<v Speaker 5>So shout out Tea Fuller. She's a badass.

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<v Speaker 1>How do you know the person that the cartoon character

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<v Speaker 1>and Soul is based off of? But you've never seen

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<v Speaker 1>the movie.

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<v Speaker 5>That's the thing that sucks about, you know, kind of

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<v Speaker 5>like being so like I guess so deep in like

0:52:38.600 --> 0:52:42.319
<v Speaker 5>the intricacies of the industry is that like sometimes you

0:52:42.440 --> 0:52:45.080
<v Speaker 5>don't you forget to zoom out enough to like see

0:52:45.080 --> 0:52:48.759
<v Speaker 5>the big picture, you know, you know, after Like I

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<v Speaker 5>think a good example of that is, like, you know,

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<v Speaker 5>having this like I've studied so much music that like

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<v Speaker 5>going back and trying to listen and listen to it

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<v Speaker 5>for leisure has gotten harder over the years.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, do you do you still do you still

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<v Speaker 1>like what you're doing?

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<v Speaker 6>Oh?

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<v Speaker 5>I love it, man, I wouldn't have it any other way.

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<v Speaker 5>And uh yeah, I'm very grateful to like be doing this.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, it's hard, you know, like I said, like

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<v Speaker 5>this this weekend was really hard on me, and you

0:53:22.200 --> 0:53:26.040
<v Speaker 5>know how it so. And I'm also doing my doctorate

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<v Speaker 5>right now in jazz. So it's just like, you know,

0:53:30.520 --> 0:53:32.480
<v Speaker 5>I go to school on the weekdays and then I'm

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<v Speaker 5>like just traveling a little traveling on the weekends. You know.

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<v Speaker 5>I I feel like I'm conflating myself a little bit.

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<v Speaker 5>You know. It's just like I'm just trying to go

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<v Speaker 5>play gigs and collect the money and then go to

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<v Speaker 5>school so I can, you know, be a professor when

0:53:47.200 --> 0:53:50.840
<v Speaker 5>I graduate, and then do the jazz full time, do

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<v Speaker 5>the saxophone full time.

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<v Speaker 1>M hm, you know is it? By the way? You know, see,

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<v Speaker 1>I wish you watched Soul because I I I actually

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<v Speaker 1>think this is what Soul is about. Correct me if

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<v Speaker 1>I'm wrong. I haven't seen the movie in two years,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's like about it's kind of about that whole

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<v Speaker 1>like journey versus destination, flow state versus success thing. Because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna spoil Can I spoil the movie for you?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 5>Go for it?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So this is my record, this is my recollection

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<v Speaker 1>of how the movie goes. Is there's this this fucking

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<v Speaker 1>guy and he plays the music and he like really

0:54:30.920 --> 0:54:35.520
<v Speaker 1>wants this job in this like quartet or something like that.

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<v Speaker 1>He really wants this job. This this gig, right, this

0:54:38.719 --> 0:54:44.160
<v Speaker 1>gig represents like great success for him, and eventually he

0:54:44.320 --> 0:54:48.080
<v Speaker 1>gets the gig, but it doesn't really it don't really

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<v Speaker 1>hit him, you know, it doesn't really provide him with

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<v Speaker 1>all the all the juicy goodness he thought it would be.

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<v Speaker 1>And then right, right, and then he learns that all

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<v Speaker 1>the happy chemicals are found in that flow state and

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<v Speaker 1>not in success. So you know, you should watch the movie,

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<v Speaker 1>is it? But I think it's about what we're talking about.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, that that sounds very relevant. And that's that's dope, man,

0:55:11.800 --> 0:55:15.200
<v Speaker 5>that's a you know, and that's so that's so relatable,

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<v Speaker 5>you know.

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<v Speaker 1>And someone's wanna someone's gonna comment on this and be

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<v Speaker 1>like that's monsters, inc. You dumb ass. I don't. I

0:55:21.560 --> 0:55:28.000
<v Speaker 1>don't remember that yeah movie that well, but yeah.

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<v Speaker 5>Now man, it's the hangover.

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name again, Kyle? Kyle, Kyle? I want to

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<v Speaker 1>let you plug what's your? What's your? Goddamn jazz Instagram?

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<v Speaker 5>So my first and my last name are in the handle.

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<v Speaker 5>Do you think that's a bad idea to plug?

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<v Speaker 1>Or that's all you? It's up to you.

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<v Speaker 5>Ah fuck it, it's uh. Kyle Brooks saxophone.

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<v Speaker 1>Kyle Brooks, saxophone. Okay, I'll go. I'll give you a

0:55:58.600 --> 0:56:01.080
<v Speaker 1>check out. What's your? Do you like a pinned reel

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<v Speaker 1>of your That's a weird thing to say. I'll give

0:56:03.600 --> 0:56:06.320
<v Speaker 1>you a checkout. I was debating. I was debating between

0:56:07.040 --> 0:56:10.680
<v Speaker 1>I'll give you a listen and I'll check you out.

0:56:10.920 --> 0:56:13.240
<v Speaker 1>Do you have a pinned what's your what's your favorite

0:56:13.760 --> 0:56:16.280
<v Speaker 1>clip of of? Do you do covers and stuff?

0:56:17.560 --> 0:56:20.480
<v Speaker 5>I do some covers. There there's a one reel I

0:56:20.520 --> 0:56:22.480
<v Speaker 5>was talking about. I think it's like my second or

0:56:22.520 --> 0:56:25.680
<v Speaker 5>third reel in is of me playing a solo that

0:56:25.719 --> 0:56:28.440
<v Speaker 5>did pretty well, but it was someone else's solo. I

0:56:29.120 --> 0:56:32.520
<v Speaker 5>I write like I compose music, and I got a

0:56:32.560 --> 0:56:36.239
<v Speaker 5>show coming up. A week from today, Chicago, That's where

0:56:36.239 --> 0:56:39.560
<v Speaker 5>I'm from. And then I'm trying to, you know, get

0:56:39.600 --> 0:56:41.719
<v Speaker 5>some attention for that because the next day I'm going

0:56:41.760 --> 0:56:44.279
<v Speaker 5>in and I'm going into the studio and cutting my

0:56:44.480 --> 0:56:45.320
<v Speaker 5>debut record.

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, if if anybody comes to this Chicago show and

0:56:49.239 --> 0:56:50.600
<v Speaker 1>they come up to you and they're like, yeah, I

0:56:50.640 --> 0:56:53.359
<v Speaker 1>found out about this from the Gecko, Uh, you gotta

0:56:53.400 --> 0:56:54.520
<v Speaker 1>let me know because that'd be sick.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, that'll be awesome. Man. Well, if anyone wants to

0:56:58.880 --> 0:57:04.360
<v Speaker 5>come let me know, I'll about you. Drink Kyle many drinks.

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<v Speaker 1>It was good talking to you, man, Is there is there?

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like this was a you know what, this

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<v Speaker 1>was a good comparing contrast and a good talking about life.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like we we achieved the goals of this conversation,

0:57:18.760 --> 0:57:21.280
<v Speaker 1>and I felt as though I was in the flow

0:57:21.320 --> 0:57:23.600
<v Speaker 1>state as I was having it. I'm not bullshitting you.

0:57:23.680 --> 0:57:26.000
<v Speaker 1>I really that is a true feeling that I have.

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<v Speaker 5>Like Wise, man, I feel the same way.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there anything else you want to say to the

0:57:30.640 --> 0:57:36.000
<v Speaker 1>people of the computer before we go live?

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<v Speaker 5>Fast, Smoke, Grass, and neat ass.

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<v Speaker 1>Kyle Brooks Saxophone folks, go check them out. Thanks for

0:57:44.800 --> 0:57:45.360
<v Speaker 1>calling Kyle.

0:57:46.440 --> 0:57:48.439
<v Speaker 5>Appreciate you man. Be safe out there.

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<v Speaker 1>Also, watch Up in fact, watch Up before wait, no,

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<v Speaker 1>not Up. Watch Coco, Yeah, watch Coco before Soul. Watch Coco,

0:58:01.320 --> 0:58:05.600
<v Speaker 1>then Up, then Soul. I'm gonna do that tonight. No,

0:58:05.720 --> 0:58:10.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm just kidding. I'm gonna I'm gonna go eat something instead. Hello, folks,

0:58:10.760 --> 0:58:14.080
<v Speaker 1>it's Lyle here. That's the end of this episode. But

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<v Speaker 6>I like the way it feels to go out and

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<v Speaker 6>scare somebody.

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<v Speaker 1>Why does that sound appealing to you?

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<v Speaker 3>So?

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<v Speaker 6>I work at a hated house. Me and some of

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<v Speaker 6>the other scare acters were talking about like stuff we

0:59:02.720 --> 0:59:05.320
<v Speaker 6>do in our scenes to mess with people, and I

0:59:05.440 --> 0:59:08.240
<v Speaker 6>brought up that I really liked chasing people down and

0:59:08.320 --> 0:59:12.080
<v Speaker 6>cornering them, and one of the other scare acters were like, mm.

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<v Speaker 5>That sounds.

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<v Speaker 6>Questionable. If I touch people like trying to get through

0:59:17.200 --> 0:59:19.120
<v Speaker 6>quick so they don't get scared, that's when I like

0:59:19.200 --> 0:59:20.040
<v Speaker 6>to chase them down.

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<v Speaker 1>I was actually just at a haunted house and I

0:59:22.480 --> 0:59:24.720
<v Speaker 1>was doing that. I was like running fast through the

0:59:24.760 --> 0:59:28.200
<v Speaker 1>thing so that people couldn't scare me, but I knew

0:59:28.200 --> 0:59:29.840
<v Speaker 1>that it made them want to scare me more.

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<v Speaker 6>If you'd like I could give you some advice to

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<v Speaker 6>make yourself less of a target.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I will give us some advice on how you

0:59:37.000 --> 0:59:39.840
<v Speaker 1>can be less of a target at a haunted house.

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<v Speaker 1>I have nothing else to say.

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<v Speaker 2>It goes on a line, taking your phone calls every night.

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<v Speaker 1>Everything goes doing it right. Who's teaching you a cloud

1:00:06.400 --> 1:00:07.120
<v Speaker 1>over your life?

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<v Speaker 4>But he's not ready an expert