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Speaker 1: Take Personally.

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Speaker 2: With Morgan Juelsman. Hi, y'all welcome to take this personally Morgan.

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Speaker 2: Here this week I got to dive into some serious

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Speaker 2: self care work with expert Christina Lacarri. I brought her

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Speaker 2: on so she could share another resource for those who

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Speaker 2: are looking for ways to elevate their lives. Some people

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Speaker 2: do therapy, some like manifesting and affirmations. Christina likes to

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Speaker 2: help people expand their self awareness and align their energy

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Speaker 2: so that they can lead their most fulfilling lives. Her

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Speaker 2: work is applied to all areas of somebody's life, and

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Speaker 2: reading about her online, I thought it would be a

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Speaker 2: super thought provoking conversation and it really was. So here

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Speaker 2: we go, and I'm here right now with Christina La Carrie, Christina,

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Speaker 2: how are you? Oh?

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Speaker 1: I'm so good? And I love hearing that. I'm like,

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Speaker 1: that's a really beautiful way of explaining it and putting

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Speaker 1: it and like if I like that, well.

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Speaker 2: It's awesome what you were doing to help people. And

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Speaker 2: I just want to hear all the things so it

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Speaker 2: can help some more people out there. So I want

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Speaker 2: to know what does it mean to create or reach

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Speaker 2: the highest, most powerful self?

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Speaker 1: So for me, it's less of like a mental concept.

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Speaker 1: I think it can kind of sound like it's unattainable

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Speaker 1: if you think it's somewhere to get to. And really

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Speaker 1: what I'm talking about when I say that is being

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Speaker 1: in the present moment, like being aware of your conditioned

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Speaker 1: thoughts and your reactive emotions that you know have been

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Speaker 1: programmed within you in your childhood and traumatic events, to

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Speaker 1: really choose and decide how you want to feel and

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Speaker 1: who you want to be, how you want to respond

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Speaker 1: in this moment instead of just being like a bundle

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Speaker 1: of reflexes. So I think it's really less about trying

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Speaker 1: to get to this version of yourself and realizing that

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Speaker 1: this version of yourself is the natural you underneath all

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Speaker 1: of the distortions and delusions and all of the thoughts

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Speaker 1: and things that cover it up.

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Speaker 2: And if somebody were to try and take their first

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Speaker 2: step into getting to that place for themselves, like you

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Speaker 2: just mentioned, kind of the underneath or lack of another term,

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Speaker 2: peeling back all the layers and revealing our true personality

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Speaker 2: in a way, how would somebody take that first step

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Speaker 2: to doing that.

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Speaker 1: You know, it's like my logical brain wants to be

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Speaker 1: like you have to look at your mind. You have

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Speaker 1: to listen to the thoughts in your mind and get

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Speaker 1: aware and become aware of the looping thoughts and the

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Speaker 1: way that you're programming has been conditioned. But the other

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Speaker 1: part of me is like, I feel like you really

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Speaker 1: need to start with noticing that you feel awful in

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Speaker 1: certain areas, or you feel stuck, or you don't feel good,

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Speaker 1: or you feel frustrated, or you feel sad, or you

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Speaker 1: keep hitting the same walls or the same experiences, because

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Speaker 1: then it's like, what's going on? And then we start

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Speaker 1: looking at the thoughts, and then we start looking at

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Speaker 1: the cyclical emotional experiences and then looking at the physical

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Speaker 1: manifestations that reflect that. But I feel like if you

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Speaker 1: just go straight to the thoughts, you're not really honoring, like, hey,

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Speaker 1: I feel disconnected from myself. I feel like there's something

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Speaker 1: off here because you're just trying to be like, Okay,

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Speaker 1: what's happening in my mind? So I think they do

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Speaker 1: go together. But I'd say paying attention to how you

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Speaker 1: feel and noticing most of the time when you don't

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Speaker 1: feel clean and clear and good, it's not because of

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Speaker 1: what's happening, it's because of your perception of it and

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Speaker 1: how you're feeling about things. So I'd say the feelings

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Speaker 1: to start first, for sure.

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Speaker 2: Oh and that's super hard because getting in touch with

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Speaker 2: our feelings is a very vulnerable place to be. I

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Speaker 2: do know that you were talking about on your social media,

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Speaker 2: and I think this kind of correlates to what you're

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Speaker 2: talking about here. Is if you want to accomplish all

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Speaker 2: these big dreams you have and make the big changes

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Speaker 2: in your life, you truly have to believe that you

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Speaker 2: are capable of doing that. Otherwise you're just going to

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Speaker 2: make it really hard for yourself. Does that kind of

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Speaker 2: connect to what you're saying.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, Yeah, definitely. I mean that's a huge part of it.

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Speaker 1: You for sure can't expect to build big buls, beautiful

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Speaker 1: things and then not believe it's going to work like that.

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Speaker 1: That doesn't work.

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Speaker 2: Yes, you know, I'm my own worst critic, and I

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Speaker 2: think a lot of people can feel that way. And

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Speaker 2: I know I'm capable of really great things, But to

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Speaker 2: allow yourself to kind of keep getting dragged down by

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Speaker 2: you're not saying those things aren't going to happen, but

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Speaker 2: how can we make sure that we're getting through those

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Speaker 2: negative and hard things that happen.

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Speaker 1: There's two pieces that I feel like I said this

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Speaker 1: for my last answer, there's two pieces. There's two pieces,

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Speaker 1: but that's just what's happening. There are two pieces for this.

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Speaker 1: One is like, you have to decide that whatever you're

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Speaker 1: going to do is going to work, because why would

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Speaker 1: you put any other energy into what you're doing. And

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Speaker 1: if you decide that it's going to work, you're going

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Speaker 1: to see everything as evidence that it's working. And if

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Speaker 1: it is evidence that it's not working yet. So I

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Speaker 1: think that choice is so important. It's just a decision.

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Speaker 1: That's where I'm going, that's the path I'm walking down.

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Speaker 1: This is what I'm doing with my life versus this

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Speaker 1: whole Like, ah, is it gonna happen? Like it's in

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Speaker 1: the universe's hands, Like no, it's in your hands, like

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Speaker 1: you co create with the universe, but the universe is like,

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Speaker 1: what do you want? Yeah, you can have that. So

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Speaker 1: I think that's super important. And the second piece is

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Speaker 1: the emotional intelligence to realize these thoughts, these emotions, these

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Speaker 1: self sabotaging patterns, like whatever it is, that's your emotional trauma,

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Speaker 1: that's the past within you that needs to be looked at,

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Speaker 1: that needs to be dealt with, that needs to be felt, honored,

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Speaker 1: self in the moment instead of carrying around these old

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Speaker 1: energetics from what you're seeing every single moment, which is

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Speaker 1: a new moment unless you have that energy in your

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Speaker 2: Wow, And it sounds like it's a really cool place

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Speaker 2: to get to once you can let go and move

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Speaker 2: forward from those things. I do think a lot of

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Speaker 2: people out there I want to ensure that they're living

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Speaker 2: their best life. We see that on social media. I'm

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Speaker 2: that is really becoming the conscious creator of your life.

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Speaker 2: And you speak a lot about this, how and what

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Speaker 2: would that look like for someone to truly be a

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Speaker 1: So I think it's like what I was saying before

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Speaker 1: that you have to start noticing, like what have you

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Speaker 1: created up until this point. So for me, I started

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Speaker 1: realizing this with relationships where it was like, hmm, the

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Speaker 1: past three men in a row were all blonde haired,

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Speaker 1: like there was something that was like, Okay, this isn't

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Speaker 1: what are these guys have in common? Why was I

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Speaker 1: and were not available. It's like having that awareness of

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Speaker 1: I guess I'm emotionally unavailable if I'm attracted to people

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Speaker 1: who don't want to be in relationship, and that was like,

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Speaker 1: why looking at what am I creating? To really own

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Speaker 1: but the past that's still alive within you now that's

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Speaker 1: I'm not creating the things that I want to create.

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Speaker 1: What am I creating? Why? That to me is really

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Speaker 1: where you start, and then it kind of just like

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Speaker 2: And as we keep talking about this, I hear a

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Speaker 2: lot of things from you that almost sound a little

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Speaker 2: bit like therapy in a way. Do you feel like

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Speaker 2: becoming the highest version of yourself in therapy? Do collide

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Speaker 2: in some senses or how are they different.

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Speaker 1: I've never been to therapy to say for sure, but

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Speaker 1: I think from my perspective, what's a little different is

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Speaker 1: therapy to me seems more like it's like talking about

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Speaker 1: all of this stuff, and what I'm talking about is

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Speaker 1: really honoring those things that have stayed in our mind,

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Speaker 1: body and energetic field and that have created these actions

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Speaker 1: and programs and like where we're on this same loop,

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Speaker 1: an old pattern and breaking apart the energetics as that

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Speaker 1: from presence instead of whatever life has conditioned you to be.

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Speaker 1: So I think, like with my clients and in my programs.

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Speaker 1: We're not really talking about the stuff as it is.

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Speaker 2: That's super interesting too, because that wasn't a planned question

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Speaker 2: that because I think it's important to realize there are

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Speaker 2: resources out there across the board that look different for everyone,

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Speaker 2: and this type of resource could be very valuable to someone,

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Speaker 2: just as therapy could be valuable to someone else. So

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Speaker 2: it's cool to see the differences in them and also

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Speaker 2: the potential if you do both, to see where your

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Speaker 2: life could come from and out of that. Thank you

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Speaker 2: for explaining.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, and you know, I think too, it's like just

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Speaker 1: knowing where you're at. Like the work that I live

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Speaker 1: sh and teach can be super offensive and triggering to

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Speaker 1: someone who's like deeply identified with their ego and their

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Speaker 1: mind and their pain and their trauma. But for the

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Speaker 1: people who are like, oh my god, I'm dying to

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Speaker 1: get out of and stuck in these cycles. I don't

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Speaker 1: care about what happened in nineteen ninety five, but like

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Speaker 1: it's still repeating when they find this work they're like, ah,

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Speaker 1: but if you're still in it, it's like, my pain

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Speaker 1: there's a and I get it having been in that side.

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Speaker 1: So I think it's really like honoring where you're at

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Speaker 1: now and what you need now. Instead of thinking this

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Speaker 1: your experience and what are you looking for? Because I

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Speaker 1: have had people who have come into my containers who

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Speaker 1: a match for this work. This is going to feel

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Speaker 1: really far away from you and might even potentially re

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Speaker 1: traumatize you because it's such a big jump from being

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Speaker 1: like I'm in this thing that's really painful to like, hey,

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Speaker 1: that thing's not actually real. You're just tripping balls in

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Speaker 1: your head right now, and it's like it is real,

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Speaker 1: like it can create more of that wound. So I

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Speaker 1: think that self awareness on where you're at and what

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Speaker 1: you're interested in. Some people might never be interested in

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Speaker 1: But for the people who it's for, they're like, oh

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Speaker 1: my god, where have you been my whole life?

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Speaker 2: No, it's very powerful what you're doing. And like I said,

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Speaker 1: into sharing my soul's work with the world and seeing

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Speaker 1: the results that I was created where I was like,

435
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Speaker 1: I just didn't listen to anyone's rules and I did

436
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Speaker 1: it following those energetic like what if I posted this,

437
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Speaker 1: Ooh what if I said that? And just seeing how

438
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Speaker 1: it kept building from that momentum just really inspired me

439
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Speaker 1: to like announce to the world that it's like, you

440
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Speaker 1: don't have to do things the way other people say

441
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Speaker 1: you do unless that lights you up and turns you

442
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Speaker 1: on where you're like, I love that idea, but most

443
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Speaker 1: people are not connected to themselves to feel that. They're

444
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Speaker 1: just like, oh, this person smart, Oh, this person successful. Oh,

445
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Speaker 1: they said I should do it this way, and okay,

446
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Speaker 1: but what does your soul say? Because my soul would

447
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Speaker 1: rather gouge my own eyes out with a hot spoon

448
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Speaker 1: than sit on a sales call. Never literally never, you

449
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Speaker 1: want to work with me, Here's how it works. You

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Speaker 1: come to my inbox and you pay me. There's no

451
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Speaker 1: back and forth, there's no let's like talk about all

452
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Speaker 1: your pain points. It's like you feel it, you're ready,

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Speaker 1: here's the link. But people train you. You've got to get

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Speaker 1: on a sales call and you got to pitch them

455
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Speaker 1: this thing, and you've got to say yes seven times,

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Speaker 1: so they subconsciously want to say yes, and at the

457
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Speaker 1: end of the call it's a real thing, then they'll

458
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Speaker 1: want to say yes to you. And I'm like, I

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Speaker 1: hate that I'm not doing any of that. So it's

460
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Speaker 1: like being able to realize that you get to do,

461
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Speaker 1: whether it's your business or anything that you're creating in

462
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Speaker 1: the physical world, the exact way, like the literal, exact

463
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Speaker 1: way that you want to do it. It's the only

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Speaker 1: way it's gonna work for you because it's the only

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Speaker 1: way you're gonna do it, like fully and completely, and

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Speaker 1: that is the path that the universe is like, hey, sparkly,

467
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Speaker 1: door number seven, come this way, this is your door.

468
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Speaker 1: And you're like this famous person said I should do this,

469
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Speaker 1: and door number Seven's like okay, well, good luck. You're

470
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Speaker 1: going to be miserable, unhappy, and it's not gonna feel

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Speaker 1: natural like my business feels natural. I don't feel like

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Speaker 1: I'm trying. I feel like I'm just ooh, I'm going

473
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Speaker 1: to send an email. Oh I want to share this,

474
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Speaker 1: and things are just growing around me. And that's the

475
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Speaker 1: way that co creation is meant to feel really effortless

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Speaker 1: and connected. When you live in the moment and you

477
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Speaker 1: follow your desires and your inspiration instead of being an

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Speaker 1: overly masculine energy trying to force, hustle, pressure, create, make

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Speaker 1: something happen that already is happening.

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Speaker 2: Yes, and you know, being a digital director outside of

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Speaker 2: this podcast, the thing that I've seen the most on

482
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Speaker 2: social media chain is that we want to see genuine

483
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Speaker 2: content from people. And it goes to show what you're

484
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Speaker 2: talking about. If you're not connected in the soul, you're

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Speaker 2: not going to be creating genuine content because it's going

486
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Speaker 2: to feel disingenuous. You're not going to be the version

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Speaker 2: of yourself that is actually who you are behind the screen.

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Speaker 2: And so it just goes to show that what you're

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Speaker 2: talking about is one hundred percent true because we're just

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Speaker 2: in that place where we want realness from people. We

491
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Speaker 2: want genuine, we want authentic, and we want honest conversations,

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Speaker 2: and that just perfectly aligns with everything you're saying.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I agree, And it's like, especially when it comes

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Speaker 1: to things on the Internet, it's just like you don't

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Speaker 1: need to like force anything, you don't need to convince

496
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Speaker 1: me of anything. I feel your energy or I don't.

497
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Speaker 1: It's really simple. So I think when you lead with

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Speaker 1: your energy for yourself and whatever you're building, it just

499
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Speaker 1: makes everything cleaner. Like people were vibrational beings, we feel things,

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Speaker 1: So it's like, if what you're putting out is in

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Speaker 1: alignment with who you really are. People come to me

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Speaker 1: all the time and they're like, I literally don't know

503
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Speaker 1: what you're selling, but I want to buy. I just

504
00:23:01,840 --> 00:23:04,359
Speaker 1: feel this resonance with you, and I'm like, perfect, you

505
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Speaker 1: know that this is for you on a deep level.

506
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Speaker 1: That's so much more than anything I could say on

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Speaker 1: some story slides, you know what I mean. So it's like, yeah,

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Speaker 1: your authenticity is powerful and magnetic, but it's also the

509
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Speaker 1: thing that builds your version of whatever it is that

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Speaker 1: you're here to build.

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Speaker 2: Absolutely well, Christina, thank you so much. You just shared

512
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Speaker 2: so much wisdom and exciting things that now I'm really

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Speaker 2: going to be paying attention for energetic breadcrumbs. So thank

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Speaker 2: you for that.

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Speaker 1: You're welcome one of my favorite things.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so thank you again just for joining and being here.

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Speaker 2: It was really awesome to get to talk with you.

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Speaker 2: You too. If you want to connect with Christina on

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Speaker 2: social media, her Open Up podcast, or work with her

520
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Speaker 2: to evolve and expand your life. You can check out

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Speaker 2: Christina Lacarri dot com. Her last name is spelled l

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Speaker 2: I c a r E. Listening to Christina talk on

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Speaker 2: this episode was very enlightening and also an interesting experience

524
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Speaker 2: because of the current state of my life. So I

525
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Speaker 2: decided to do an audio journal entry with you all.

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Speaker 2: You're gonna hear my messiest thoughts as I try to

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Speaker 2: process all the things that life is thrown at me,

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Speaker 2: particularly when it comes to love and relationships. So here

529
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Speaker 2: it is my audio journal entry. Take one. You know,

530
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Speaker 2: love is a big part of your life, and she's

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Speaker 2: sitting here discussing with me about self awareness and trying

532
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Speaker 2: to align with certain goals so that you can have

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Speaker 2: this max highest self and I want that. I think

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Speaker 2: anybody listening to Christina would want that for themselves and

535
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Speaker 2: wants to accomplish that goal and be at that place

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Speaker 2: in their life where they are just achieving all of

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Speaker 2: the things because they're on such a high level of

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Speaker 2: self awareness and living in the moment that they're accomplishing

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Speaker 2: any and everything that they want to. And so in

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Speaker 2: this interview, I'm having envy hearing her share or her

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Speaker 2: story where she was at to where she is now,

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Speaker 2: how she got to this energy journey, and I think

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Speaker 2: it's really interesting for me to listen to when I

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Speaker 2: am sitting here doing everything I can to not be

545
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Speaker 2: in a fight or flight situation. I'm going to break

546
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Speaker 2: this down a little bit, and the societal standards for

547
00:25:19,760 --> 00:25:22,560
Speaker 2: what a woman should be are marriage and kids, in

548
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Speaker 2: the whole nine yards of this perfect life. And don't

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Speaker 2: get me wrong, I have grown up in this society

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Speaker 2: and I know exactly how I feel about it and

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Speaker 2: that I don't care that I'm not on a certain

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Speaker 2: timeline and I don't allow those pressures to get to me.

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Speaker 2: But it's still a hard pill to swallow. It's still

554
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Speaker 2: hard to sit around and see many of your friends married,

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Speaker 2: having their first kids, some their second kid, moving in

556
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Speaker 2: with someone, buying a house, having all of these life

557
00:25:49,520 --> 00:25:52,960
Speaker 2: accomplishments happen when you're the one that's having a bunch

558
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Speaker 2: of success happened, But in personal areas it's not. Because

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Speaker 2: I can confidently say that my professional life has been

560
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Speaker 2: going so well. It's been expanding, I've been learning things,

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Speaker 2: I've been growing, doing new projects, having awesome accomplishments, and

562
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Speaker 2: I love that, and I love to look at that

563
00:26:09,880 --> 00:26:12,440
Speaker 2: part of my life and be so excited for myself

564
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Speaker 2: because it's hard to do. But it's a hard pill

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Speaker 2: to swallow when I don't have someone to share that with,

566
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Speaker 2: and when I have to realize that at twenty eight

567
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Speaker 2: and twenty nine and now thirty, I fell in and

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Speaker 2: out of love again. I'm not mad at myself and

569
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Speaker 2: I'm not angry with what happened, and I would not

570
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Speaker 2: want to settle just for a perspective, but I'm not

571
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Speaker 2: going to lie to myself and say that it doesn't

572
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Speaker 2: hurt and it doesn't suck, and I hate being single.

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Speaker 2: While Christina and I were talking, she was sharing how

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Speaker 2: it's important to do a lot of self reflection and

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Speaker 2: awareness work of things going on in your life and

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00:26:47,840 --> 00:26:51,600
Speaker 2: the experiences that you've had to be able to truly

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Speaker 2: get to your highest self. And what's super frustrating for

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Speaker 2: me is that after my relationship, the one that was

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Speaker 2: probably the worst one that I'd faced in my life, emotionally, physically, abusive,

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Speaker 2: all the things. The list goes on, But for three

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Speaker 2: years after that relationship, I spent that entire time focusing

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Speaker 2: on who I was, my growth, my self awareness, figuring

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Speaker 2: out any mistakes I was making, making sure to learn

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Speaker 2: and unlearned. I spent three years doing that that I

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00:27:22,359 --> 00:27:25,639
Speaker 2: was so confident that after that three year journey that

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Speaker 2: the next person I was going to date was going

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Speaker 2: to be my partner for life. I'd put so much effort,

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Speaker 2: so much work into becoming the best version of myself

589
00:27:37,040 --> 00:27:40,080
Speaker 2: that there wasn't possibly a world where I couldn't meet

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Speaker 2: my next partner and it be the best situation for

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00:27:42,920 --> 00:27:45,360
Speaker 2: me and my partner for life. And so that's why

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Speaker 2: I go back to my disappointment of failure, which is

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Speaker 2: also colliding with my inability to settle, just because of

594
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Speaker 2: a perspective I had. This is a wish I wanted,

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Speaker 2: This is something that I wanted to accomplish. This is

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Speaker 2: what I believed in my heart, myself, soul, my gut

597
00:28:01,280 --> 00:28:04,359
Speaker 2: was going to happen because I put so much time

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Speaker 2: and energy into focusing on myself. And I wouldn't take

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Speaker 2: that back. Regardless of everything that's happened in the last

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Speaker 2: year in my latest relationship, I would not take that

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Speaker 2: time of three years that I spent working on myself.

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00:28:18,240 --> 00:28:20,800
Speaker 2: I would do that over again in a heartbeat. Because

603
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Speaker 2: it needed to happen, regardless of the before and after

604
00:28:24,840 --> 00:28:27,840
Speaker 2: events of it. Spending that time with myself, dating myself,

605
00:28:28,119 --> 00:28:32,240
Speaker 2: learning about myself, and exploring patterns that I had had

606
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Speaker 2: was essential for me to become who I am today.

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Speaker 2: After those three years of focusing on myself, I stepped up.

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Speaker 2: I made sure I did not make the same mistakes again,

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Speaker 2: which is also why it's so frustrating to have spent

610
00:28:45,960 --> 00:28:51,040
Speaker 2: so much energy and lessons on yourself to then fail again.

611
00:28:51,280 --> 00:28:54,080
Speaker 2: This is a part of life. You try something, you fail,

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00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:57,600
Speaker 2: you get back up again. Psychle repeats, and just as

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Speaker 2: important as success is, failure is as well. I know this.

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00:29:00,680 --> 00:29:03,360
Speaker 2: I know all of these things. It's in my brain,

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00:29:03,600 --> 00:29:07,160
Speaker 2: It's seered into my skull of knowledge. But it doesn't

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00:29:07,160 --> 00:29:09,880
Speaker 2: make it any less hard, and it doesn't make it

617
00:29:09,960 --> 00:29:14,000
Speaker 2: any less disappointing for myself. I want to be this

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00:29:14,040 --> 00:29:17,080
Speaker 2: person who can accomplish the highest self. I want to

619
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Speaker 2: be the person who can find this unicorn partner that

620
00:29:21,280 --> 00:29:24,360
Speaker 2: I've been wanting to have for years. I want to

621
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Speaker 2: accomplish every dream that I've set out to do, and

622
00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:30,520
Speaker 2: in all fairness, in one area of my life, I

623
00:29:30,560 --> 00:29:33,640
Speaker 2: have truly done that working on the Bobby Bone Show

624
00:29:33,880 --> 00:29:36,320
Speaker 2: was a dream job for me, and the fact that

625
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:39,479
Speaker 2: I've accomplished that and stayed in that is the highest self,

626
00:29:39,560 --> 00:29:41,680
Speaker 2: A part of me that is the highest self. But

627
00:29:41,760 --> 00:29:44,360
Speaker 2: I want all of me to be at the highest self.

628
00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:48,560
Speaker 2: In talking with Christina, and it's frustrating to me that

629
00:29:48,640 --> 00:29:51,920
Speaker 2: I've put so much time, so much effort into that

630
00:29:52,280 --> 00:29:54,760
Speaker 2: and i still haven't made it happen. And I'm saying

631
00:29:54,800 --> 00:29:58,040
Speaker 2: all of this not to get sympathy, not for anyone

632
00:29:58,120 --> 00:30:00,239
Speaker 2: to reach out and say you got this or do this.

633
00:30:00,280 --> 00:30:04,200
Speaker 2: I'm saying this because the journey to getting there, to

634
00:30:04,280 --> 00:30:08,400
Speaker 2: becoming this highest self, this person that Christina is talking about,

635
00:30:08,920 --> 00:30:11,800
Speaker 2: is so hard, and there's so many highs and lows

636
00:30:11,840 --> 00:30:14,560
Speaker 2: that you were going to go through with other people

637
00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:18,560
Speaker 2: and with yourself. I'm currently on a low part of mine.

638
00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:22,120
Speaker 2: I'm doing really well. I'm happy, I'm not upset. I'm

639
00:30:22,240 --> 00:30:26,240
Speaker 2: just frustrated. I'm angry. It's not with myself, it's not

640
00:30:26,320 --> 00:30:29,560
Speaker 2: with him, It's with the sequence of events that have happened.

641
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Speaker 2: The first thing I do after a traumatic event in

642
00:30:33,480 --> 00:30:35,720
Speaker 2: my life is schedule a therapy session. I don't go

643
00:30:35,760 --> 00:30:39,200
Speaker 2: to therapy regularly I really don't need it regularly. I

644
00:30:39,200 --> 00:30:42,320
Speaker 2: typically need it when I get triggered or when a

645
00:30:42,400 --> 00:30:46,000
Speaker 2: situation happens, and that's what I did. I reached out

646
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Speaker 2: to her after this, and one of the first things

647
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Speaker 2: I told her is that I was tired of learning lessons.

648
00:30:52,600 --> 00:30:56,160
Speaker 2: I'm basically a professor in certain areas of the dating

649
00:30:56,200 --> 00:30:58,640
Speaker 2: and love world, and I'm done learning lessons. I'm done

650
00:30:58,680 --> 00:31:02,000
Speaker 2: teaching lessons. I'm done any thing. I just want to love.

651
00:31:02,040 --> 00:31:03,840
Speaker 2: I just want to be in love and be loved.

652
00:31:04,120 --> 00:31:06,760
Speaker 2: And I'm tired not of putting myself out there, not

653
00:31:06,800 --> 00:31:10,040
Speaker 2: of being vulnerable, not of getting hurt. I'm tired that

654
00:31:10,120 --> 00:31:14,080
Speaker 2: I keep having to learn lessons. And one of the

655
00:31:14,120 --> 00:31:18,000
Speaker 2: funniest things to me is people will always say, be patient.

656
00:31:18,400 --> 00:31:21,040
Speaker 2: Your person is out there, be patient, this is gonna happen.

657
00:31:21,440 --> 00:31:25,320
Speaker 2: I don't think people realize how hard patience is when

658
00:31:25,320 --> 00:31:28,320
Speaker 2: you really want something or when you've really been burned

659
00:31:28,360 --> 00:31:33,040
Speaker 2: by something. Patience is not something that can be taught. Unfortunately,

660
00:31:33,080 --> 00:31:36,680
Speaker 2: it has to be learned and experienced in very crappy

661
00:31:36,720 --> 00:31:40,880
Speaker 2: situations to truly understand the importance of patience. And right

662
00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:42,800
Speaker 2: now I don't want to learn any more. Lessons. I

663
00:31:42,840 --> 00:31:46,360
Speaker 2: don't want to have patience. I'm tired, and it's really

664
00:31:46,400 --> 00:31:49,320
Speaker 2: complicated for me to understand how there are aspects of

665
00:31:49,360 --> 00:31:52,720
Speaker 2: my life that are going so well and flourishing and

666
00:31:52,840 --> 00:31:56,720
Speaker 2: others are on the complete other spectrum. But this time,

667
00:31:56,960 --> 00:31:59,800
Speaker 2: what's different about this time than the breakup that happened

668
00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:06,080
Speaker 2: relationship Prior that time, I was destroyed, devastated. I had

669
00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:09,200
Speaker 2: to rebuild every part of my being. I had to

670
00:32:09,440 --> 00:32:14,680
Speaker 2: relearn so many things. But after this relationship ended, I didn't.

671
00:32:15,040 --> 00:32:17,120
Speaker 2: And maybe that's where the growth lies. Maybe that's where

672
00:32:17,120 --> 00:32:19,800
Speaker 2: my self awareness comes in. And maybe I learned so

673
00:32:19,880 --> 00:32:21,760
Speaker 2: much in the three years of being single that it

674
00:32:21,800 --> 00:32:25,160
Speaker 2: benefited me greatly for the ending of this one where

675
00:32:25,560 --> 00:32:27,800
Speaker 2: I didn't feel lost without him, I didn't need him,

676
00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:30,920
Speaker 2: I didn't lose my friends, I didn't lose people in

677
00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:34,240
Speaker 2: my life that I love. I kept up with my relationships,

678
00:32:34,280 --> 00:32:36,360
Speaker 2: I kept up with my priorities and the things that

679
00:32:36,400 --> 00:32:38,760
Speaker 2: matter to me. I did not let that relationship be

680
00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:41,400
Speaker 2: my only being. I had a life outside of him

681
00:32:41,440 --> 00:32:44,400
Speaker 2: for myself. And maybe that was the lesson I was

682
00:32:44,440 --> 00:32:47,000
Speaker 2: supposed to learn in this Maybe that's a lesson we

683
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:48,920
Speaker 2: all need to learn in things, is that you were

684
00:32:48,920 --> 00:32:51,600
Speaker 2: always supposed to be the priority. You were always supposed

685
00:32:51,600 --> 00:32:54,680
Speaker 2: to have your own life, your own things, your own establishments,

686
00:32:55,240 --> 00:32:58,320
Speaker 2: your own goals, your own dreams, and somebody's just supposed

687
00:32:58,320 --> 00:33:00,400
Speaker 2: to come in and be a partner. I don't know.

688
00:33:00,920 --> 00:33:02,880
Speaker 2: You know, I'm sitting here talking to you guys about this,

689
00:33:02,920 --> 00:33:06,080
Speaker 2: and I genuinely don't know if that's the lesson I

690
00:33:06,120 --> 00:33:08,560
Speaker 2: was supposed to take from this. I don't know if

691
00:33:08,560 --> 00:33:10,040
Speaker 2: the lesson that I was supposed to take from this

692
00:33:10,080 --> 00:33:11,920
Speaker 2: is ever gonna come up in my life, or if

693
00:33:11,920 --> 00:33:13,720
Speaker 2: I'm going to be ninety years old sitting and saying,

694
00:33:13,720 --> 00:33:17,160
Speaker 2: oh wow, that was the lesson. It's particularly interesting to

695
00:33:17,240 --> 00:33:20,440
Speaker 2: me too, because I have learned that my personality type,

696
00:33:20,640 --> 00:33:24,320
Speaker 2: which some would call an impath, is directly targeted by

697
00:33:24,440 --> 00:33:26,640
Speaker 2: a certain group of people, which is what you have

698
00:33:26,760 --> 00:33:31,040
Speaker 2: probably commonly seen online as a narcissist. That's frustrating for

699
00:33:31,120 --> 00:33:35,200
Speaker 2: me too. I don't understand. I don't understand why people

700
00:33:35,480 --> 00:33:39,880
Speaker 2: can attract themselves to a lighter force and want to

701
00:33:39,960 --> 00:33:44,200
Speaker 2: destroy that lighter force. I can't possibly comprehend that either.

702
00:33:44,320 --> 00:33:46,720
Speaker 2: It's also another lesson. Maybe I'm learning that, you know,

703
00:33:46,880 --> 00:33:48,440
Speaker 2: not all people are good. I want to believe all

704
00:33:48,480 --> 00:33:50,200
Speaker 2: people are good. I want to believe that people have

705
00:33:50,240 --> 00:33:52,680
Speaker 2: the ability to change and do good and be the

706
00:33:52,720 --> 00:33:55,280
Speaker 2: person that they're supposed to be. And maybe that's my lesson.

707
00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:58,160
Speaker 2: I don't know. Do you see the dilemma I'm sitting

708
00:33:58,160 --> 00:34:00,440
Speaker 2: here having these are thoughts that go in my head

709
00:34:00,440 --> 00:34:04,040
Speaker 2: all the time, where it's like I'm a pinball machine, Like,

710
00:34:04,080 --> 00:34:06,240
Speaker 2: am I gonna bounce this way that way? What's gonna

711
00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:08,279
Speaker 2: happen that I need to learn so that I can

712
00:34:08,320 --> 00:34:10,840
Speaker 2: move forward? But I know there's a lesson in there somewhere,

713
00:34:10,880 --> 00:34:13,320
Speaker 2: and I know that that lesson is the only ability

714
00:34:13,360 --> 00:34:16,239
Speaker 2: for me to get to my highest self. And I

715
00:34:16,280 --> 00:34:18,719
Speaker 2: hate that. At the end of college, when I completed

716
00:34:19,040 --> 00:34:22,240
Speaker 2: college in three years, I said, oh my gosh, thank goodness,

717
00:34:22,239 --> 00:34:24,480
Speaker 2: no more school. I hated school work. It was terrible

718
00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:27,279
Speaker 2: at taking tests. I just studied so hard to get

719
00:34:27,280 --> 00:34:29,760
Speaker 2: the grades that I got. And so when I finally

720
00:34:29,800 --> 00:34:32,080
Speaker 2: no longer had to do school work, I was so excited.

721
00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:34,680
Speaker 2: And now I'm sitting here in life and I'm still

722
00:34:34,760 --> 00:34:37,440
Speaker 2: learning lessons. I'm still having to journal and take notes

723
00:34:37,480 --> 00:34:39,920
Speaker 2: and understand what's going on around me. That's something they

724
00:34:39,920 --> 00:34:41,799
Speaker 2: don't teach you about in school, that you're just going

725
00:34:41,880 --> 00:34:44,439
Speaker 2: to constantly keep learning and not learning in the way

726
00:34:44,440 --> 00:34:47,879
Speaker 2: that you remember learning, no, learning in much more emotionally

727
00:34:47,920 --> 00:34:51,840
Speaker 2: difficult ways. So while talking about getting to your highest

728
00:34:51,880 --> 00:34:54,480
Speaker 2: self is important, I want people to have these tools.

729
00:34:54,560 --> 00:34:56,759
Speaker 2: I want people to know that they exist, that this

730
00:34:56,800 --> 00:35:00,040
Speaker 2: is a possibility to live your life this way. I

731
00:35:00,120 --> 00:35:04,080
Speaker 2: also want people to hear from me, in my perspective

732
00:35:04,080 --> 00:35:07,360
Speaker 2: and the life that I've experienced this far, is that

733
00:35:07,480 --> 00:35:09,879
Speaker 2: getting to your highest self is not going to be easy.

734
00:35:09,960 --> 00:35:11,920
Speaker 2: It's not gonna be pretty, and it's gonna hurt, it's

735
00:35:11,960 --> 00:35:14,719
Speaker 2: gonna be hard. It's worth it, it's worth figuring out,

736
00:35:14,719 --> 00:35:17,480
Speaker 2: it's worth finding yourself on that journey and going through

737
00:35:17,520 --> 00:35:20,680
Speaker 2: all these experiences. But it's gonna be fricking hard. And

738
00:35:20,719 --> 00:35:23,200
Speaker 2: maybe it looks like mine, maybe it looks totally different.

739
00:35:23,280 --> 00:35:26,520
Speaker 2: But I think everyone deserves to feel that and experience

740
00:35:26,719 --> 00:35:30,040
Speaker 2: what your highest self is the biggest part of your life,

741
00:35:30,080 --> 00:35:34,000
Speaker 2: the most shiny moment where everything is sunshine. I do

742
00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:36,400
Speaker 2: believe that that exists. I do believe that's possible. I

743
00:35:36,480 --> 00:35:38,560
Speaker 2: know that there's people out there that have experienced it.

744
00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:41,520
Speaker 2: Christina is talking about her experience with it, but I

745
00:35:41,520 --> 00:35:44,439
Speaker 2: also acknowledge that for me in this moment, I don't

746
00:35:44,440 --> 00:35:47,160
Speaker 2: think I'm quite there yet. I want to be. I'm

747
00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:50,840
Speaker 2: shooting to be, and in maybe one of these lessons

748
00:35:50,840 --> 00:35:52,640
Speaker 2: that I've learned along the way, it's going to be

749
00:35:52,640 --> 00:35:55,960
Speaker 2: the one thing I need for the self awareness, the reflection,

750
00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:58,920
Speaker 2: everything to do that. I hope if you're in a

751
00:35:58,920 --> 00:36:02,520
Speaker 2: similar situation to me, that this helps you, that you're

752
00:36:02,520 --> 00:36:06,040
Speaker 2: hearing me and you're like, oh my gosh, yes, Morgan,

753
00:36:06,120 --> 00:36:09,200
Speaker 2: everything you're saying I feel, But I also hope you don't.

754
00:36:09,320 --> 00:36:11,600
Speaker 2: I hope you never have to go through half of

755
00:36:11,600 --> 00:36:14,359
Speaker 2: these things. I will always appreciate the things that I've

756
00:36:14,360 --> 00:36:18,640
Speaker 2: been through that have made me mentally, emotionally, physically tough today,

757
00:36:18,719 --> 00:36:20,839
Speaker 2: but I will never wish for anyone to go through them.

758
00:36:21,040 --> 00:36:24,000
Speaker 2: And so if you've gone through something, or you're experiencing

759
00:36:24,160 --> 00:36:28,239
Speaker 2: heartache similar to me, if you're experiencing career fatigue or

760
00:36:29,040 --> 00:36:32,759
Speaker 2: personal moments that are hard, just know that I do

761
00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:35,920
Speaker 2: believe there's a sunshine on the other end of it,

762
00:36:36,120 --> 00:36:38,279
Speaker 2: but it's going to get really messy before you get there.

763
00:36:38,480 --> 00:36:41,000
Speaker 2: And I'm okay with that I'm learning to be okay

764
00:36:41,000 --> 00:36:50,680
Speaker 2: with that. It's very nerve wracking for me to be

765
00:36:50,840 --> 00:36:54,719
Speaker 2: super vulnerable and basically put my open, wounded heart out

766
00:36:54,719 --> 00:36:56,719
Speaker 2: into the world with some of these episodes, but I

767
00:36:56,880 --> 00:36:59,439
Speaker 2: know the importance of it, and I want to keep

768
00:36:59,480 --> 00:37:01,840
Speaker 2: making sure to do it, even if I'm just able

769
00:37:01,880 --> 00:37:05,399
Speaker 2: to help one person by talking about the crazy things

770
00:37:05,440 --> 00:37:07,640
Speaker 2: I've experienced in life. Make sure to check out the

771
00:37:07,640 --> 00:37:10,799
Speaker 2: podcast on Instagram at Take This Personally or email me

772
00:37:10,920 --> 00:37:14,120
Speaker 2: at Take This Personally podcast at gmail dot com. I

773
00:37:14,160 --> 00:37:17,120
Speaker 2: love hearing from you all, and I'm noting your ideas, advice,

774
00:37:17,239 --> 00:37:20,000
Speaker 2: and everything in between. One of those ideas, which is

775
00:37:20,080 --> 00:37:22,319
Speaker 2: one that I also had, I wanted to bring on

776
00:37:22,320 --> 00:37:25,400
Speaker 2: one of my very best friends, Julia Cole. She was

777
00:37:25,400 --> 00:37:28,239
Speaker 2: also one of my first friends in Nashville, and her

778
00:37:28,280 --> 00:37:31,400
Speaker 2: and I are kind of experts in heartbreak. She just

779
00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:34,840
Speaker 2: broke off an engagement last year. I'm currently dealing with

780
00:37:34,880 --> 00:37:39,960
Speaker 2: heartbreak again, so why not do a designated heartbreak episode?

781
00:37:40,040 --> 00:37:43,640
Speaker 2: So that's going to be next week. If you've experienced this,

782
00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:47,040
Speaker 2: are experience in it, or you've just ever had a

783
00:37:47,080 --> 00:37:49,719
Speaker 2: wounded heart, then I think you'll really enjoy the episode.

784
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Speaker 2: I can't wait to talk to y'all soon. Bye friends,