WEBVTT - Chapter 1: Enter JennaWorld

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<v Speaker 1>Everyone watches poor No and if they say they don't,

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<v Speaker 1>their motherfucking liars.

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<v Speaker 2>Kid Rock. I do porno because that's what makes me happy.

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<v Speaker 2>I fuck all day, I get money. I love what

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<v Speaker 2>I'm doing. There is something wrong with that, Faco sa

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<v Speaker 2>Frede performer.

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<v Speaker 3>People often say that the world would be so much

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<v Speaker 3>better if it were run by women, But women have

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<v Speaker 3>as many faults as men. Their faults are just different.

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<v Speaker 3>So the truth is that the world would not be better

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<v Speaker 3>if it were run by a woman. It would be

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<v Speaker 3>better if it were run by the right woman. Jenna Jamison,

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<v Speaker 3>Welcome to Jeno World.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, this so good.

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<v Speaker 4>What does pornography reveal about the American sexual psyche? Critics

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<v Speaker 4>say that porn degrades and disposes of its workers, So

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<v Speaker 4>what's the difference between that and any other job? And

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<v Speaker 4>what are we to make of performers who transcended their

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<v Speaker 4>alleged disposability and created profitable brands around their screen personas,

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<v Speaker 4>like the porn star Jenna Jamison did in the nineties

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<v Speaker 4>and two thousands when she made herself into a brand

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<v Speaker 4>and became queen of all media. But also, why should

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<v Speaker 4>anyone have to become a brand? Just to survive in America?

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<v Speaker 4>Why would anyone want to be famous? And then why

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<v Speaker 4>would everyone want to be famous? How did a parasocial

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<v Speaker 4>connection with a voyeuristic audience become mandatory for everyone with

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<v Speaker 4>the advent of social media? How do we maintain autonomy

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<v Speaker 4>in the attention economy? And why is the right wing

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<v Speaker 4>actively trying to make pornography illegal again? How can I

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<v Speaker 4>nut ethically? Welcome to Jena World Jenna Jamison Vivid Video

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<v Speaker 4>in the Valley. I'm your host, Molly Lambert. You may

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<v Speaker 4>remember me from Heidi World, the Heidi Flyfe Story and

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<v Speaker 4>the Secret History of LA. This time, I'll be your

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<v Speaker 4>tour guide for Genal World, a narrative nonfiction podcast about

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<v Speaker 4>the history of the adult film industry, telling the story

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<v Speaker 4>of porn superstar Jenna Jamison and a cavalcade of the

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<v Speaker 4>people who make up the colorful world of X rated films.

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<v Speaker 4>It's the crazy saga of the rise, fall, and rebirth

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<v Speaker 4>of the adult film industry. It has sex, drugs, art,

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<v Speaker 4>lots and lots of money, rock and roll, filmmaking, TV,

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<v Speaker 4>Howard Stern, the Internet, family, and even.

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<v Speaker 5>Love, love, sex love, sex, love, sex, love, sex, love,

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<v Speaker 5>sex love sex.

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<v Speaker 4>In the nineteen seventies, eighties, and early nineties, mainstream media

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<v Speaker 4>used the tragic stories of several adult film stars to

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<v Speaker 4>paint the porn industry as an inherently bad workplace that

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<v Speaker 4>degrades women and leads its performers into addiction and an

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<v Speaker 4>early grave. In the nineties, adult actress Jenna Jamison crossed

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<v Speaker 4>over into mainstream pop culture and helped to normalize making

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<v Speaker 4>porn as just another occupation. During her two thousands media peak,

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna helped popularize the radical idea that sex work is

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<v Speaker 4>a real job, requiring safe work conditions and fair wages.

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<v Speaker 4>The idea that women are sexual beings who aren't degraded

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<v Speaker 4>by sex on or off camera remains controversial. After being

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<v Speaker 4>legalized in the nineteen seventies, porn is now under attack

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<v Speaker 4>on multiple fronts. There are the conservatives who want to

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<v Speaker 4>ban porn entirely with Project twenty twenty five and began

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<v Speaker 4>a new era of sexual repression. There's also the nightmarish

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<v Speaker 4>rise of AI porn, which aims to cut out adult

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<v Speaker 4>performers entirely while simultaneously exploiting their images to train visual

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<v Speaker 4>models and promote deeply unethical stuff like face swapping filters.

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<v Speaker 4>And there's the puritanical way online platforms like TikTok and

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<v Speaker 4>Instagram use sexually suggestive content to lure in viewers while

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<v Speaker 4>punishing and banning actual sex workers from selling and promoting

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<v Speaker 4>their content online. Whatever you think about porn, its continued

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<v Speaker 4>legal existence is vital to American freedom of speech. It

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<v Speaker 4>is imperative that sexual content remains protected under the law.

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<v Speaker 6>Sex isn't something men do to you. It isn't something

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<v Speaker 6>men get out of you. Sex is something you can

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<v Speaker 6>dive into with Gusto and like it every bit as

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<v Speaker 6>much as he does. Nina Hartley.

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<v Speaker 4>Performer Jenna Jamison combined her talent at performing on screen,

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<v Speaker 4>skill for marketing herself, an ability to speak up smartly

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<v Speaker 4>for sex workers during what would turn out to be

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<v Speaker 4>porn's last financial golden era. If she managed to make

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<v Speaker 4>both art and money from an industry that is deeply

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<v Speaker 4>corrupt and set up to exploit artists, well, that just

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<v Speaker 4>makes her a woman in film.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm a powerful woman. I think that's intimidating to a

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<v Speaker 3>man on every level. That's why I always go out

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<v Speaker 3>of my way to be ultra nice and ultra sweet

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<v Speaker 3>and COI because it makes people feel comfortable, and I

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<v Speaker 3>want people to feel comfortable around me before I put

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<v Speaker 3>them in a headlock.

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<v Speaker 4>This is a story about the American dream at the

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<v Speaker 4>end of the twentieth century and the collapse of the

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<v Speaker 4>American Empire at the turn of the twenty first. It's

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<v Speaker 4>about one woman's self directed rise to power in an

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<v Speaker 4>industry that was unknowingly experiencing its final rise to one

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<v Speaker 4>last big climax of profit. It's about the people who

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<v Speaker 4>make adult films and the place they once made them,

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<v Speaker 4>LA's San Fernando Valley Suburbs. This is an American fable

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<v Speaker 4>about money, love, sex, and familia. People seem to forget

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<v Speaker 4>that adult performers are actors playing roles, and because there's

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<v Speaker 4>now so little depiction of sex and mainstream American media,

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<v Speaker 4>Horn takes on the load, so to speak, of representing

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<v Speaker 4>all sex and intimacy, which it was never meant to do.

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<v Speaker 4>Porn depicts sexual fantasies about power and control, and what

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<v Speaker 4>people like to watch doesn't necessarily correlate to what they

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<v Speaker 4>like in real life. Oh my god, honey, there's a

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<v Speaker 4>lot of fear mongering that easy access to porn sexually

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<v Speaker 4>dead ends its viewers, but nobody gives viewers credit for

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<v Speaker 4>being able to differentiate media from real life. Consuming sexual

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<v Speaker 4>images cannot be compared to, nor will it ever replace,

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<v Speaker 4>the human experience of touching a real person's body. Is

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<v Speaker 4>porn really the reason idealized images of beauty are becoming

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<v Speaker 4>ever more unreachable? Or is porn just an easy target

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<v Speaker 4>to deflect away from larger issues of how the human

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<v Speaker 4>image can be visually idealized into an imaginary fantasy, a

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<v Speaker 4>tradition that goes all through art history. I'm just asking questions,

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<v Speaker 4>much like Joe Rogan, who will show up here later on.

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<v Speaker 3>We get paid more than the men we call the shots.

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<v Speaker 3>We say who we want to work with. In what

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<v Speaker 3>way is that degrading? That's us taking hold of our

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<v Speaker 3>life life.

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<v Speaker 4>The history of porn is also about shifting media format.

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<v Speaker 4>As a medium, porn is always changing to fit new

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<v Speaker 4>technology and always slightly ahead of mainstream media. Paul Thomas

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<v Speaker 4>Anderson's Boogie Nights covered the eighties shift from film to video,

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<v Speaker 4>when porn moved from theaters into homes with VHS players.

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<v Speaker 4>Porn had its own studio system, which began in the

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<v Speaker 4>seventies peaked with DVDs in the early two thousands and

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<v Speaker 4>collapsed as streaming online content to hold just ahead of

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<v Speaker 4>the mainstream Hollywood studio system collapsing into streaming. Jenna Jamison

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<v Speaker 4>bridged the gap between the old age of print magazines, videotapes,

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<v Speaker 4>and DVDs and the new era of websites, social media,

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<v Speaker 4>and streams. During her reign as the of porn she

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<v Speaker 4>epitomized the perks and pitfalls of selling your personality and

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<v Speaker 4>physical image for profit. Where being camera ready was once

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<v Speaker 4>reserved for professional performers, now everybody knows how to perform

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<v Speaker 4>when a camera is on, and a camera is almost

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<v Speaker 4>always on. Your porn has always reflected American culture back

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<v Speaker 4>to itself. It's possible to consume media and not agree

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<v Speaker 4>with its politics or take them on. I call this

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<v Speaker 4>the top Gun theory. Watching Top Gun doesn't mean you

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<v Speaker 4>suddenly endorse the US military or that you believe Tom

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<v Speaker 4>Cruise is an ace military pilot in real life. For

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<v Speaker 4>some reason, we seem to know that movies like Top

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<v Speaker 4>Gun are just movies, that they're fantasies. But when it

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<v Speaker 4>comes to porn, there's some kind of slipperiness. The nineties

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<v Speaker 4>also saw the popularization of third wave feminism, which embraced

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<v Speaker 4>an idea that women could use sexual allure as part

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<v Speaker 4>of their self concept of power. I did not anticipate

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<v Speaker 4>that the feminists rise to power in the bedroom and

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<v Speaker 4>boardroom by postmodern girl boss media stars like Madonna and

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna Jamison would be followed by decades of sexist backlash.

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<v Speaker 4>In real life, desire and beauty are deeply subjective and individualized.

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<v Speaker 4>If everybody was only attracted to one media ideal of beauty,

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<v Speaker 4>it would be eugenics. I don't think we're going to

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<v Speaker 4>completely eradicate unreachable beauty ideals, which span from the Venus

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<v Speaker 4>of Willendorf to big titty hentai Ai. But I do

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<v Speaker 4>think we've lost the plot when it comes to media

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<v Speaker 4>literacy and knowing that the images on screen are false fantasies.

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<v Speaker 4>We need to move past the seductive perfection of idealized

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<v Speaker 4>images into the messiness of real attraction, intimacy, and the

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<v Speaker 4>soft fallibility of human bodies. Making horny movies like any

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<v Speaker 4>job can be done fairly or in a way that

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<v Speaker 4>explodes it's its workers. Growing up in the Valley, I've

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<v Speaker 4>always been interested in porn as a low budget secondary

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<v Speaker 4>film industry that went from a legal too autorist cranking

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<v Speaker 4>out films that briefly made more money than Hollywood's despite

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<v Speaker 4>most people being too embarrassed to admit they watch.

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<v Speaker 3>The best sex takes place in the mind first.

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<v Speaker 4>For a young, beautiful woman, the possibilities seem endless. You

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<v Speaker 4>can try cashing in on your youth and beauty, but

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<v Speaker 4>you will run out of collateral and need other skills

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<v Speaker 4>to fall back on. Eventually, you might make a lot

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<v Speaker 4>of money if you're smart, lucky, and cash out at

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<v Speaker 4>the right time, but there's also a high chance you'll

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<v Speaker 4>lose it all to the house, which almost always wins.

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<v Speaker 4>If you're not careful. You might also get caught up

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<v Speaker 4>in the high rollers' lifestyle, addicted to spending money and

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<v Speaker 4>gambling with your life in an endless party that leaves

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<v Speaker 4>you feeling empty inside. You could even start to lose

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<v Speaker 4>your own sense of self to the perfect image up

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<v Speaker 4>on the screen.

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<v Speaker 3>In this business, you get to see all the double

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<v Speaker 3>standards that women are held to in society, and it

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<v Speaker 3>is important to keep from perpetuating them. One way is

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<v Speaker 3>by refusing to allow anyone to disrespect you.

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<v Speaker 4>So what do you do if you're a young woman

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<v Speaker 4>who exactly fits the beauty standards of your era as

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<v Speaker 4>a skinny, white blonde with big boobs, and you want

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<v Speaker 4>to become independent from your family and escape medical debt

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<v Speaker 4>induced poverty. Working against you is the limited timeline afforded

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<v Speaker 4>women who become valued as sex symbols by heterosexual men,

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<v Speaker 4>as well as possibilities. You might burn out from overwork,

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<v Speaker 4>only climb up halfway, or fall off entirely. If you're

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna Jamison, you spin the Roulette wheel of faith.

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<v Speaker 7>I remember Jenna. You know she was so beautiful. I

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<v Speaker 7>was pretty overwhelmed. I knew that Jenna was going to

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<v Speaker 7>be a heartbreaker right away. Larry Mizzoli, Jenna's father.

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<v Speaker 3>I miss my mother more than I can express.

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna Marie Mizzoli is born on April ninth, nineteen seventy four,

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<v Speaker 4>in Las Vegas, Nevada, and Aires. Her mother is a

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<v Speaker 4>showgirl and her daddy is a cop. This is how

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna's parents met and fell in love. Lawrence Larry Mizzoli

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<v Speaker 4>is born in San Joaquin County, California, in nineteen thirty nine.

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<v Speaker 4>His mother, Wanna Lee Dilbeck, Missoli is an Oklahoman whose family,

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<v Speaker 4>the Dilbecks, goes back to the British colonists. His father,

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<v Speaker 4>Henry Lawrence Massoli, is the son of Italians who immigrated

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<v Speaker 4>to San Francisco's Little Italy. The Missoli's claim of family

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<v Speaker 4>connection to Italian American nineteen fifties baseball star Joe DiMaggio,

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<v Speaker 4>allegedly Jenna's grandfather's second cousin, Jolton. Joe DiMaggio gained his

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<v Speaker 4>fame as a New York Yankee, but he was born

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<v Speaker 4>Giuseppe Paolo DiMaggio in Martinez, California, to Sicilian immigrants delivered

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<v Speaker 4>into a family dynasty of fishermen. I couldn't verify the

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<v Speaker 4>Massoli DiMaggio connection, but I do believe all the Italians

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<v Speaker 4>living in northern California at that time made a nice

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<v Speaker 4>sacchi a pio. After high school, Larry Massoli joins the military,

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<v Speaker 4>gets sent to Vietnam, and becomes a cold blooded mass murderer.

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<v Speaker 4>The United States government then asks him to go to

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<v Speaker 4>the Congo as part of a CIA program to trade

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<v Speaker 4>counter insurgents during the Simba Rebellion.

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<v Speaker 7>It's interesting because when you first go over there, you know,

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<v Speaker 7>you try to be so righteous. And I grew up

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<v Speaker 7>with Roy Rogers and Gene Autry, and they never shot

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<v Speaker 7>anyone in the back, you know, his white hats against

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<v Speaker 7>the black hats, and yet to do everything fair. While

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<v Speaker 7>I found out and war the best way to come

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<v Speaker 7>home alive is to sneak up on people and shoot them.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry Mossoli briefly tries to retain his humanity under the

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<v Speaker 4>conditions of warfare, but quickly descends into killing everybody in sight,

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<v Speaker 4>including innocent civilians. The United States government gives him its

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<v Speaker 4>most violent toys for the massacre.

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<v Speaker 7>I'll come up to a village and instead of going

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<v Speaker 7>house to house, I would level the whole place. Now,

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<v Speaker 7>I'll call in the P fifty one mustangs. We used napalm.

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<v Speaker 7>I had a contingent of Howitz's and we went from

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<v Speaker 7>village to village, killing them all. We just didn't care.

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<v Speaker 7>We didn't care.

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<v Speaker 4>Rather than war turning him to pacifism, Larry Mizzoli becomes

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<v Speaker 4>a steward of American violence back home too, first for

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<v Speaker 4>the Italian mafia and then as a cop. He funnels

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<v Speaker 4>his post traumatic stress into more violence because he's too

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<v Speaker 4>fucked up to function normally in society.

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<v Speaker 7>I couldn't cope in the world, you know, I couldn't

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<v Speaker 7>carry on a conversation.

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<v Speaker 4>When jenal World returns, we'll find out how Jenna's parents

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<v Speaker 4>met and fell in love. Oh yeah, welcome back to

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<v Speaker 4>jenal World. Jenna's mother, Judy, is born Judith Brook Hunt

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<v Speaker 4>in Wichita, Kansas, on April twenty second, nineteen forty one.

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<v Speaker 4>A Taurus. Her parents are Doane Casper Hunt and Audrey E.

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<v Speaker 4>Smith Hunt. The Hunt side of the family consists of

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<v Speaker 4>German immigrants to the Midwest and more British colonists.

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<v Speaker 7>There was no one else in the world for me

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<v Speaker 7>but Judy, the only woman I ever loved. Twelve years

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<v Speaker 7>that we were together, I didn't even look at another woman,

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<v Speaker 7>and finding her was like a fairy tale. You read

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<v Speaker 7>about these perfect love stories, but you never think they're

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<v Speaker 7>going to happen to you.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry miss Oli ends up in the biggest little city, Reno, Nevada,

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<v Speaker 4>working a dubious job in partying. Larry's crew in Reno

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<v Speaker 4>includes Johnny Anastasia, nephew of Umberto albert Anastasia. Albert Anastasia

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<v Speaker 4>was a mob guy nicknamed the executioner who was instrumental

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<v Speaker 4>in murder incorporated the mafia's contract killing branch. Larry miss

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<v Speaker 4>Oli is also good friends with another NEPO baby of

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<v Speaker 4>a famous man connected to the mob, Frank Sinatra Junior.

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<v Speaker 8>The guy was drunk. He said, you're a singer. You're

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<v Speaker 8>a Sinatra. Ain'tia? I said, if I'm standing in a

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<v Speaker 8>garage doesn't mean I'm a car. I couldn't stand it.

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<v Speaker 8>Here my own voice, Frank Sinai Junior.

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<v Speaker 4>Frank Sinatra Junior has a long standing engagement at the

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<v Speaker 4>Harris Casino in Reno. Living in the shadow of his

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<v Speaker 4>ultra successful father provides him the publicity benefits of the

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<v Speaker 4>Sinatra name, but with it comes the downside of having

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<v Speaker 4>a famous workaholic father who is almost never around in

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<v Speaker 4>an era when fathers weren't expected to do much hands

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<v Speaker 4>on parenting anyway.

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<v Speaker 8>At home, he was dad. He was terribly, terribly human.

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<v Speaker 8>This is what the penalty is when you have someone

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<v Speaker 8>that has been famous for so long, the legend starts

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<v Speaker 8>to eclipse.

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<v Speaker 7>The man.

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<v Speaker 4>Nevada holds special meeting for Frank Sinatra Junior at nineteen,

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<v Speaker 4>while trying to launch his own singing career, he was

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<v Speaker 4>kidnapped for ransom. This finally got his dad's attention, and

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<v Speaker 4>Frank Junior was safely handed back to Frank Senior in Reno.

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<v Speaker 4>The media spectacle of Frank Sinatra's sons kidnapping and safe

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<v Speaker 4>return was drowned out by a much bigger media spectacle

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<v Speaker 4>a few days earlier, the killing of President John F.

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<v Speaker 4>Kennedy during a motorcade in Dallas. Larry Is also budds

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<v Speaker 4>with William F. Harra, son of rich politician and lawyer

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<v Speaker 4>John Harra. Gambling was illegal in the state of California,

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<v Speaker 4>so Bill Harra developed a workaround for bingo called the

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<v Speaker 4>Reno Game. The authorities repeatedly shut Bill Harra down, but

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<v Speaker 4>his dad would bail him out. In nineteen thirty seven,

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<v Speaker 4>Bill Harra took his Reno Game to Reno itself, where

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<v Speaker 4>gambling had been legalized in nineteen thirty one, along with

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<v Speaker 4>fast divorces, in an effort to create tourism there. Bill

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<v Speaker 4>Harra became a guiding force in Nevada's casino development and

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<v Speaker 4>gambling regulation laws. He was married six times, including a

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<v Speaker 4>four month long marriage to country singer Bobby Gentry in

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<v Speaker 4>nineteen sixty nine that inspired her to write Fancy, a

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<v Speaker 4>story song about a poor teenage girl who becomes an

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<v Speaker 4>escort to sugar daddies and remains proud of her life choices.

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<v Speaker 4>Fancy is a huge hit for Gentry and a breakthrough

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<v Speaker 4>women's lib song for the Old boys Club of mainstream country.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry miss Oli, Frank Sinatra Junior, and the executioner's nephew

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<v Speaker 4>spend their nights carousing in Reno. They often end up

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<v Speaker 4>at Bill Harra's house, where Bill invites old stars like

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<v Speaker 4>Mickey Rooney to hang out. They bring party girls over

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<v Speaker 4>to Bill's place in limos chartered from the local clubs.

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<v Speaker 4>They have their own reserved tables at every joint in town,

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<v Speaker 4>including one called the Golden Hotel. There's always a warm

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<v Speaker 4>seat ready for Larry. At the Golden Hotel's showgirl review

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<v Speaker 4>the Golden Girls. One night. Among the lineup of gorgeous

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<v Speaker 4>goals and sequins and feathers, Larry spots a new show

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<v Speaker 4>girl with blue eyes, a deep tan, dark coal cat eyeliner,

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<v Speaker 4>and nude frosted lips. She's a natural blonde under the

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<v Speaker 4>black Cleopatra wig she wears for the show.

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<v Speaker 7>From the moment I laid eyes on Judy, I knew

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<v Speaker 7>she was the one. I mean, even though she was

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<v Speaker 7>one of identically costume women on stage, she just radiated

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<v Speaker 7>in comparison to everyone else. I mean, to this day,

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<v Speaker 7>I still can't explain it.

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<v Speaker 1>Now.

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<v Speaker 7>I certainly wasn't expecting it. It's like what my mother

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<v Speaker 7>used to say about being struck by lightning. Now I

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<v Speaker 7>looked at her, she looked at me, and I went, WHOA,

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<v Speaker 7>that was it. It was amazing. I mean, that had

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<v Speaker 7>never happened to me in my life.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry already has a girlfriend named Barbara, who works as

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<v Speaker 4>a Marilyn Monroe impersonator, but he sidelines her to pursue

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<v Speaker 4>Judy while the other show girls come out to the

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<v Speaker 4>lobby to shoot their shot with the high rollers each

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<v Speaker 4>night after the show. Judy is shy and always stays backstage.

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<v Speaker 4>This only strengthens Larry's resolved to meet her. Judy already

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<v Speaker 4>has a boyfriend too, a local bartender, but one night

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<v Speaker 4>Larry convinces Judy to join him and his friend's roving

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<v Speaker 4>after party. Larry tells Judy he works at a grocery store,

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<v Speaker 4>but he sure knows a lot of celebrity's sons and

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<v Speaker 4>other well connected people in Reno for a bag boy.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry and his friends have a security detail of football

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<v Speaker 4>players from the University of Nevada, and Frank Sinatra Junior

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<v Speaker 4>has his own bodyguard on account of the kidnapping his quarterback.

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<v Speaker 4>Bodyguard scare off Judy's boyfriend and bring back in tell

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<v Speaker 4>that Judy is a twenty year old virgin. Judy lets

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<v Speaker 4>Larry buy her one ice cold coke and he takes

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<v Speaker 4>her to see his good friend Frank Sinatra Junior performing

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<v Speaker 4>at the Reno Haas. Judy decides he is worthy of

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<v Speaker 4>devirginizing her if he makes her an honest woman. Larry

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't want to settle down and commit to one woman

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<v Speaker 4>for the rest of his life quite yet, but he

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<v Speaker 4>knows this is his one shot with Judy and he

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't want to fuck it up up. After they consummate things,

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<v Speaker 4>he starts weeping because he feels so close to her.

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<v Speaker 4>He proposes shortly after, and she accepts. Now engaged, he

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<v Speaker 4>comes clean about his real profession, hijacking trucks carrying fur

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<v Speaker 4>coats and stereos for organized crime. She accepts this about

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<v Speaker 4>him too.

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<v Speaker 7>Judy was an extremely intelligent girl from which Tuk Kansas,

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<v Speaker 7>you know, not jaded, not very worldly, but very genuine,

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<v Speaker 7>you know, very sweet. Judy's whole thrust in life was

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<v Speaker 7>to be a wife and mother.

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<v Speaker 3>In the few pictures I have of my mom, she

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<v Speaker 3>looks so beautiful, fragile and sophisticated, like a swinging London model.

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<v Speaker 4>Showgirls are sexual fantasies made it to commerce. Semi nude

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<v Speaker 4>erotic dancers originate in Paris at clubs like the original

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<v Speaker 4>Follies Burgeire and the Moulin Rouge, while burlesque dancers have

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<v Speaker 4>been taking their clothes off in the US for years.

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<v Speaker 4>The showgirl review concept comes to America in nineteen oh

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<v Speaker 4>seven via Broadway impresario Florenz Zigfield Junior, who make stage

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<v Speaker 4>stars out of his Zigfield Girls. In nineteen eighteen, Follies

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<v Speaker 4>Burgeire introduces the first nude showgirls in Paris. Showgirls make

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<v Speaker 4>their Las Vegas debut in nineteen forty one at the

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<v Speaker 4>l Rancho Hotel Casino during breaks between musical acts. In

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<v Speaker 4>nineteen fifty two, the Sans Casino introduces showgirls wearing the flashy,

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<v Speaker 4>spangled peacocky costumes that become their signature Las Vegas look.

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<v Speaker 4>During the fifties, there are publicity wars between the showgirl

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<v Speaker 4>reviews and the flourishing casino ecosystem. The battle to have

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<v Speaker 4>the most glamorous showgirls advances at rappac mainstays like the

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<v Speaker 4>Desert Inn and the Sands. As showgirls take center stage

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<v Speaker 4>with their own shows. The idea of beautiful semi clad

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<v Speaker 4>women as diversion between acts, turns into boxing match ring girls.

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<v Speaker 4>In nineteen fifty seven, Harold Minsky, the adopted son whose

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<v Speaker 4>heir to the New York burlesque dynasty. Minskis brings topless

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<v Speaker 4>dancing to Las Vegas, escalating the casino arms race to

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<v Speaker 4>produce the most spectacular live show. The Tropicana, known as

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<v Speaker 4>the Trop is the luxurious crown jewel of the Vegas strip.

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<v Speaker 4>The Parisian Follies Bergeire franchises itself there in December of

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<v Speaker 4>nineteen fifty nine, advertising its shows as the cultural intersection

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<v Speaker 4>of Broadway and Hollywood in the Desert. Like all Vegas

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<v Speaker 4>stunts and frills, showgirls are bait to draw tourists into

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<v Speaker 4>the casinos to gamble. The trop crowd wears evening gowns

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<v Speaker 4>and suits to the Follies Burgeire show at the Fountain Theatre,

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<v Speaker 4>which is known as the Pink Room for its flamingo

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<v Speaker 4>pink furniture and curtains. The Trop has a net over

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<v Speaker 4>the orchestra pit because of how often the showgirls and

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<v Speaker 4>heavy headpieces topple off the stage.

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<v Speaker 7>I quit my job, I sold everything I had. I

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<v Speaker 7>got in my car and I drove to Vegas and

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<v Speaker 7>we got married. And if she lived, I would still

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<v Speaker 7>be married to her to this day. You know I

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<v Speaker 7>would never have left her. Let me tell you. It

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<v Speaker 7>was the best twelve years of my life, even if

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<v Speaker 7>I had the worst life in the world. Afterward, I

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<v Speaker 7>knew I'd always have that. I mean, who gets so lucky?

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<v Speaker 4>Judy gets hired at the Trop for the Follies burge Aire.

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<v Speaker 4>The newlywed Missolis immediately start trying to get pregnant, but

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<v Speaker 4>have no luck, so they turned to the professionals, scientologists.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry's brother in law has spent time in Scientology's private navy,

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<v Speaker 4>known as the Sea Organization or Sea ORG, having sailed

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<v Speaker 4>on Sea Org's flagship, the Apollo, with Commodore Lafayette. L

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<v Speaker 4>Ronald Hubbard He turns them on to dianetics. They take

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<v Speaker 4>courses they find pricey but useful. Judy gets pregnant. They

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<v Speaker 4>have a son they name Anthony Lawrence. When Larry is

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<v Speaker 4>thirty four and Judy is thirty two, they have a

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<v Speaker 4>daughter they named Jenna Marie.

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<v Speaker 7>She came out of the womb with a smile on

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<v Speaker 7>her face.

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<v Speaker 1>All of a sudden, there was another little entity, and

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<v Speaker 1>I had to share that universe. Tony Mussuli, Jenna's brother.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry's brother in law, helps him get a steady job too,

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<v Speaker 4>working at KSNV, an NBC Network affiliate TV station in Vegas.

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<v Speaker 4>Sometimes Larry lets little Jenna come into the studio, sit

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<v Speaker 4>behind the news desk between broadcasts, and read off the

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<v Speaker 4>teleprompter into the camera.

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<v Speaker 3>I was really in it and really good at it.

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<v Speaker 4>In nineteen seventy five, Judy Massoli gets a mole on

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<v Speaker 4>her shoulder checked out and is informed it's malignant. She

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<v Speaker 4>is diagnosed with melanoma, which quickly escalates. The Masoli clan

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<v Speaker 4>has to watch helplessly as skin cancer ravages Judy, who

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<v Speaker 4>becomes too weak from her chemotherapy treatment to take care

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<v Speaker 4>of her children or herself. The family is drained emotionally

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<v Speaker 4>and financially from the medical bills for her treatments. Even

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<v Speaker 4>though Larry's making six figures working at the TV channel,

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<v Speaker 4>He's losing it all, trying anything, in everything to save

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<v Speaker 4>Judy's life.

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<v Speaker 7>She became very ill.

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<v Speaker 3>She couldn't bathe herself, she couldn't get up out of bed,

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<v Speaker 3>she lost all her hair. I can remember so vividly

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<v Speaker 3>her screaming at night from the pain.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry sleeps by her bedside with morphine. Judy doesn't want

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<v Speaker 4>the kids to see her because she looks so sick.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry convinces himself she'll make a miraculous recovery, but she doesn't.

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<v Speaker 4>Judith Brooke Hunt miss Oli dies on February twentieth, nineteen

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<v Speaker 4>seventy six, when Jenna is almost two. Larry calls an

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<v Speaker 4>ambulance and puts the kids in a room so they

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<v Speaker 4>won't have to see their mom's lifeless body.

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<v Speaker 7>They've given her about six months to live and she

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<v Speaker 7>only lived about ninety days.

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<v Speaker 4>Larry, miss Oli just wants to man up and move forward.

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<v Speaker 4>But trauma doesn't desensitize you to new trauma. It just

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<v Speaker 4>keeps stacking up already too emotionally fucked up from war

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<v Speaker 4>to deal with processing his own feelings. He's now also

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<v Speaker 4>too fucked up emotionally to deal with the aftermath of

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<v Speaker 4>his wife's death. Jenna turns too, and starts having trouble

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<v Speaker 4>sleeping at night. Now five hundred thousand dollars in debt

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<v Speaker 4>for his wife's palliative care, the bank comes for Larry's assets,

0:30:10.880 --> 0:30:14.600
<v Speaker 4>his vehicles, a boat, and an apartment building he landlords.

0:30:15.600 --> 0:30:18.080
<v Speaker 4>Even after that, he's still left with a mound of debt,

0:30:18.760 --> 0:30:21.240
<v Speaker 4>so the family moves out of their suburban house into

0:30:21.280 --> 0:30:25.600
<v Speaker 4>a trailer park. Larry develops nervous exhaustion and ticks from

0:30:25.600 --> 0:30:29.080
<v Speaker 4>the stress. He takes the kids to their mother's grave

0:30:29.160 --> 0:30:34.200
<v Speaker 4>regularly at first, and then stops thinking about The loss

0:30:34.360 --> 0:30:37.920
<v Speaker 4>is too much for any of them.

0:30:38.040 --> 0:30:41.880
<v Speaker 7>People don't want to be around death and grief. It's

0:30:41.920 --> 0:30:44.160
<v Speaker 7>one of those things a person has to go through

0:30:45.280 --> 0:30:45.880
<v Speaker 7>on their own.

0:30:48.640 --> 0:30:51.800
<v Speaker 4>From that moment on, Jenna's father is haunted by his

0:30:51.920 --> 0:30:55.640
<v Speaker 4>love for Judy, left with only memories and photos of

0:30:55.680 --> 0:30:59.200
<v Speaker 4>his beautiful, vibrant wife and their two children together as

0:30:59.240 --> 0:30:59.920
<v Speaker 4>living souvenir.

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<v Speaker 3>I just remember being so incredibly confused, you know, I

0:31:06.800 --> 0:31:10.200
<v Speaker 3>wasn't diapers. I was just a little kid, and to

0:31:10.240 --> 0:31:13.560
<v Speaker 3>have your mother ripped away from you that way devastated

0:31:13.600 --> 0:31:17.400
<v Speaker 3>me and changed the whole course of my life.

0:31:17.960 --> 0:31:21.920
<v Speaker 7>That woman was my life. There was nobody else in

0:31:21.960 --> 0:31:25.200
<v Speaker 7>the world for me, and I have never been able

0:31:25.240 --> 0:31:29.400
<v Speaker 7>to recover from that loss. Never you spend the rest

0:31:29.440 --> 0:31:47.760
<v Speaker 7>of your life just searching.

0:31:48.960 --> 0:31:51.480
<v Speaker 4>A few years later, five year old Jenna and seven

0:31:51.600 --> 0:31:53.840
<v Speaker 4>year old Tony looked like the children of the Corn,

0:31:54.200 --> 0:31:58.120
<v Speaker 4>with matching shaggy blonde mops of hair. Tony wears a

0:31:58.160 --> 0:32:02.080
<v Speaker 4>Superman logo T shirt and Jenna wears little ski jackets,

0:32:02.320 --> 0:32:08.040
<v Speaker 4>primary color shirts and pinafore dresses. She's a naturally rambunctious kid,

0:32:08.480 --> 0:32:10.960
<v Speaker 4>a fearless tomboy who likes to test her own limits

0:32:10.960 --> 0:32:13.120
<v Speaker 4>by doing cannonballs into the local pool.

0:32:15.040 --> 0:32:18.360
<v Speaker 3>I remember the pool incident. This was a turning point

0:32:18.400 --> 0:32:21.600
<v Speaker 3>in my life. I would just go so far to

0:32:21.640 --> 0:32:24.880
<v Speaker 3>get everyone's attention. I would do anything it took.

0:32:26.680 --> 0:32:28.920
<v Speaker 1>Jenna always threw caution to the wind.

0:32:30.680 --> 0:32:30.880
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:32:30.880 --> 0:32:32.440
<v Speaker 7>I would just go out in the middle of the

0:32:32.440 --> 0:32:35.240
<v Speaker 7>pool and try to coax my son into diving into

0:32:35.280 --> 0:32:37.840
<v Speaker 7>the pool, and Jenna would be standing next to him

0:32:38.160 --> 0:32:41.280
<v Speaker 7>in her diapers just watching me, and instead of my

0:32:41.400 --> 0:32:44.240
<v Speaker 7>son diving in courageously, Jenna would.

0:32:46.280 --> 0:32:48.560
<v Speaker 4>There's a picture of five year old Jenna in midair.

0:32:48.720 --> 0:32:52.640
<v Speaker 4>She vaults into the pool, looking equal parts terrified and excited.

0:32:53.560 --> 0:32:55.560
<v Speaker 4>This sets the pattern for the rest of her life.

0:32:56.120 --> 0:32:59.320
<v Speaker 4>If Jenna wants to do something, she's gonna do it,

0:33:00.040 --> 0:33:03.200
<v Speaker 4>especially if it scares her and makes other people stare.

0:33:05.200 --> 0:33:07.800
<v Speaker 3>I used to sit on my bed and gaze out

0:33:07.800 --> 0:33:12.280
<v Speaker 3>the window at the stars and think someday I'm going

0:33:12.360 --> 0:33:12.920
<v Speaker 3>to be a star.

0:33:15.640 --> 0:33:20.840
<v Speaker 4>When Jenna World returns, Jenna finds her first true love dance.

0:33:28.720 --> 0:33:35.840
<v Speaker 4>Oh my God, Welcome back to Jena World. In nineteen

0:33:35.920 --> 0:33:39.719
<v Speaker 4>seventy nine, Jenna starts taking dance classes at fern Adare

0:33:39.840 --> 0:33:43.719
<v Speaker 4>Conservatory of the Arts in Las Vegas. Knowing that her

0:33:43.760 --> 0:33:46.840
<v Speaker 4>mom was a showgirl, Jenna wants to start dancing too.

0:33:48.000 --> 0:33:52.160
<v Speaker 4>Dance classes offer a euphoric escape from her grief. She

0:33:52.240 --> 0:33:56.800
<v Speaker 4>can dance for hours and hours without getting tired. Larry

0:33:56.840 --> 0:34:00.920
<v Speaker 4>decides to pursue his own dream too, becomes a cop,

0:34:01.280 --> 0:34:03.200
<v Speaker 4>which makes him feel like he's in charge in a

0:34:03.240 --> 0:34:06.760
<v Speaker 4>world that has robbed him of control. Going on the

0:34:06.800 --> 0:34:09.480
<v Speaker 4>beat also gives him a convenient reason not to be

0:34:09.560 --> 0:34:12.240
<v Speaker 4>around his kids, who look like his deceased wife.

0:34:14.080 --> 0:34:16.440
<v Speaker 7>I quit a lucrative career for the NBC station to

0:34:16.440 --> 0:34:19.439
<v Speaker 7>become a policeman. I went to Night County, Nevada, which

0:34:19.480 --> 0:34:22.160
<v Speaker 7>is just north of Las Vegas, and got a job

0:34:22.200 --> 0:34:23.520
<v Speaker 7>as the graveyard deputy.

0:34:26.040 --> 0:34:29.239
<v Speaker 4>Larry's old employers in the Italian mafia don't look too

0:34:29.360 --> 0:34:32.359
<v Speaker 4>kindly on the cops and definitely don't approve of Larry

0:34:32.440 --> 0:34:35.799
<v Speaker 4>switching teams to the other side of the law. As

0:34:35.840 --> 0:34:40.520
<v Speaker 4>a graveyard shift cop, Larry busts local whorehouses, stepping into

0:34:40.560 --> 0:34:44.839
<v Speaker 4>ongoing wars between rival wardellos run by the mob. The

0:34:44.840 --> 0:34:48.800
<v Speaker 4>mobsters start sending him messages to stay far the fuck

0:34:48.840 --> 0:34:50.239
<v Speaker 4>away from their businesses.

0:34:52.400 --> 0:34:55.040
<v Speaker 1>One of the mob guys picked up Jenna after school

0:34:55.040 --> 0:34:56.400
<v Speaker 1>in a yellow school bus.

0:34:56.800 --> 0:34:57.440
<v Speaker 7>He let all the.

0:34:57.400 --> 0:35:00.799
<v Speaker 1>Other kids off and kept Jenna on the bus. He

0:35:00.920 --> 0:35:05.000
<v Speaker 1>drove just with her for miles and miles. The deputies

0:35:05.040 --> 0:35:08.120
<v Speaker 1>in the Sheriff's department chased him, and finally the bus

0:35:08.120 --> 0:35:12.120
<v Speaker 1>pulled over and got Jenna.

0:35:12.320 --> 0:35:14.600
<v Speaker 4>Gangsters in a nice car pull up on Tony at

0:35:14.600 --> 0:35:18.520
<v Speaker 4>school pickup, saying his dad said to get in. Tony

0:35:18.560 --> 0:35:21.040
<v Speaker 4>bolts off into the desert and hides there until dark.

0:35:22.200 --> 0:35:24.800
<v Speaker 4>The kids start going to school with a police escort.

0:35:25.880 --> 0:35:28.799
<v Speaker 4>They're paranoid at home too, where the phones are likely

0:35:28.840 --> 0:35:32.960
<v Speaker 4>being tapped. Their father is both their protector and the

0:35:33.000 --> 0:35:36.359
<v Speaker 4>one who put them in this danger. He tells Jenna

0:35:36.520 --> 0:35:39.280
<v Speaker 4>not to look out the windows, afraid she might get sniped,

0:35:40.360 --> 0:35:43.600
<v Speaker 4>but Dad's mostly not around to comfort them because he's

0:35:43.640 --> 0:35:48.440
<v Speaker 4>out patrolling. Instead, they get a revolving door of dubiously

0:35:48.520 --> 0:35:54.400
<v Speaker 4>qualified babysitters. Larry decides what he needs is a maternally

0:35:54.400 --> 0:36:00.320
<v Speaker 4>inclined new wife to cook, clean and raise these goddamn kids. Instead,

0:36:00.520 --> 0:36:04.120
<v Speaker 4>he gets Marjorie, an old coworker from the TV station

0:36:04.160 --> 0:36:07.440
<v Speaker 4>who's always had a thing for him. She's a former

0:36:07.520 --> 0:36:11.640
<v Speaker 4>model whose looks favor Marlena Dietrich. He takes her out

0:36:11.680 --> 0:36:16.320
<v Speaker 4>on a few dates and then proposes while he marries

0:36:16.360 --> 0:36:19.799
<v Speaker 4>her for the free child care. Marjorie is worse than

0:36:19.800 --> 0:36:24.319
<v Speaker 4>the bad babysitters. She backhands the kids for backtalk. She

0:36:24.440 --> 0:36:28.120
<v Speaker 4>doesn't feed them, but buys luxurious treats for herself, like

0:36:28.200 --> 0:36:32.120
<v Speaker 4>yo play yogurt. The kids subsists on a diet of

0:36:32.239 --> 0:36:35.640
<v Speaker 4>cheese sandwiches made by their dad and Jenna's attempts to

0:36:35.640 --> 0:36:37.239
<v Speaker 4>cook pasta in a microwave.

0:36:38.880 --> 0:36:43.920
<v Speaker 3>Marjorie was awful. It was like the evil stepmom. She

0:36:44.080 --> 0:36:47.959
<v Speaker 3>was always angry with us, maybe because we were left

0:36:47.960 --> 0:36:51.560
<v Speaker 3>over from Dad's other life before her.

0:36:52.719 --> 0:36:55.640
<v Speaker 4>Marjorie throws a pot of hot coffee at the kids,

0:36:56.040 --> 0:37:01.400
<v Speaker 4>but when confronted, plays dumb to their dad. Frustrate and malnourished,

0:37:01.800 --> 0:37:04.560
<v Speaker 4>the kids call up Grandma and tell her they're starving

0:37:04.640 --> 0:37:09.000
<v Speaker 4>at home. Grandma is not much better at taking care

0:37:09.040 --> 0:37:12.759
<v Speaker 4>of young kids herself. She's an alcoholic who drinks a

0:37:12.760 --> 0:37:16.239
<v Speaker 4>big glass of bourbon each night and passes out. She

0:37:16.280 --> 0:37:19.880
<v Speaker 4>doesn't cook either, but her kitchen is stocked with microwave

0:37:19.960 --> 0:37:23.520
<v Speaker 4>meals and pudding cups. The kids tell dad they're at

0:37:23.560 --> 0:37:27.840
<v Speaker 4>grandma's now. They eat her reserves of Hostess cherry pies

0:37:27.960 --> 0:37:45.560
<v Speaker 4>and wear her satin nightgowns to bed. Larry takes a

0:37:45.640 --> 0:37:48.480
<v Speaker 4>job offer in Florida. He wants to get himself and

0:37:48.520 --> 0:37:52.279
<v Speaker 4>his kids the fuck out of Vegas stat They load

0:37:52.400 --> 0:37:55.040
<v Speaker 4>up in his brown Pontiac Firebird and speed down to

0:37:55.080 --> 0:37:58.319
<v Speaker 4>Panama City. They enroll in a new school fenced off

0:37:58.360 --> 0:38:01.759
<v Speaker 4>with barbed wire. Larry gets a forty thousand dollars a

0:38:01.840 --> 0:38:04.400
<v Speaker 4>year job as a Florida cop, and Marjorie works as

0:38:04.400 --> 0:38:08.320
<v Speaker 4>a dispatcher. They're both hardly around because they work so much,

0:38:08.640 --> 0:38:11.880
<v Speaker 4>leaving the children with no supervision and lots of freedom

0:38:12.239 --> 0:38:17.200
<v Speaker 4>to get into lots of trouble. At their new apartment complex,

0:38:17.760 --> 0:38:21.640
<v Speaker 4>Tony and Jenna are lash key kids. An upstairs neighbor

0:38:21.640 --> 0:38:24.760
<v Speaker 4>who calls himself Charlie Daniels and wears a cowboy hat

0:38:25.040 --> 0:38:29.759
<v Speaker 4>makes Jenna mayonnaise sandwiches. While this could be creepy, it

0:38:29.880 --> 0:38:32.960
<v Speaker 4>is thankfully an innocent kindness from a man who sees

0:38:33.000 --> 0:38:37.279
<v Speaker 4>that the kids downstairs are neglected. Jenna also has a

0:38:37.320 --> 0:38:40.200
<v Speaker 4>protector in Tony, who beats up kids at school that

0:38:40.280 --> 0:38:43.360
<v Speaker 4>bullier try to touch her until he gets expelled for

0:38:43.440 --> 0:38:47.759
<v Speaker 4>punching out a teacher. When Marjorie is at home, she

0:38:47.880 --> 0:38:52.480
<v Speaker 4>mainly screams and slams doors. She slaps Jenna and spanks

0:38:52.480 --> 0:38:58.520
<v Speaker 4>her for perceived disrespect. She also mocks Tony for having asthma.

0:38:58.600 --> 0:39:01.360
<v Speaker 4>Most of the time, she just ignores the kids to

0:39:01.520 --> 0:39:05.319
<v Speaker 4>lay out back and sunbathe naked. She's awful to them

0:39:05.360 --> 0:39:08.440
<v Speaker 4>when their father isn't around, which is most of the time.

0:39:09.520 --> 0:39:15.560
<v Speaker 4>Jenna craves real motherly love and care. The Masoli family's

0:39:15.600 --> 0:39:18.879
<v Speaker 4>increasing sense of paranoia has followed them all the way

0:39:18.920 --> 0:39:22.439
<v Speaker 4>down to Florida. Tony keeps a gun his dad gave

0:39:22.520 --> 0:39:26.120
<v Speaker 4>him under his pillow and gives Jenna a butterfly knife.

0:39:26.480 --> 0:39:30.120
<v Speaker 4>Like any older sibling, Tony is both Jenna's bodyguard and

0:39:30.160 --> 0:39:33.080
<v Speaker 4>sometimes her bully. He puts her on a bike and

0:39:33.120 --> 0:39:36.279
<v Speaker 4>shoves it down a steep hill. They sneak into other

0:39:36.320 --> 0:39:39.760
<v Speaker 4>apartments in a game they call Ninja, running around wreaking

0:39:39.800 --> 0:39:44.280
<v Speaker 4>havoc with throwing stars and samurai swords. One time, Tony

0:39:44.320 --> 0:39:46.760
<v Speaker 4>flings a throwing star at Jenna and it gets stuck

0:39:46.800 --> 0:39:50.239
<v Speaker 4>in her head. Not very deeply, but it's in there.

0:39:51.480 --> 0:39:53.960
<v Speaker 4>Jenna covers for him and tells their dad she bumped

0:39:54.000 --> 0:39:59.160
<v Speaker 4>her head. The kids have a sibling pact of shared silence.

0:40:00.080 --> 0:40:03.000
<v Speaker 4>Tony gets into an altercation where a kid starts choking

0:40:03.080 --> 0:40:06.440
<v Speaker 4>him out. Jenna knows he has asthma and runs over

0:40:06.520 --> 0:40:10.520
<v Speaker 4>to save him. Like any good short kid, she jumps

0:40:10.560 --> 0:40:13.520
<v Speaker 4>on his attacker like a spider monkey and starts hammering

0:40:13.600 --> 0:40:15.359
<v Speaker 4>him in the spine with the handle end of her

0:40:15.400 --> 0:40:21.520
<v Speaker 4>butterfly knife. At home, Jenna cries all the time because

0:40:21.520 --> 0:40:24.880
<v Speaker 4>she's so miserable, but her stepmom never comes in to

0:40:24.960 --> 0:40:28.960
<v Speaker 4>comfort her. Tony and Jenna tell their father he has

0:40:29.040 --> 0:40:34.760
<v Speaker 4>to choose a side, Marjorie or them. He picks the kids.

0:40:35.600 --> 0:40:39.480
<v Speaker 4>Larry lays down the lod dinner that night. Marjorie doesn't

0:40:39.480 --> 0:40:42.400
<v Speaker 4>take it well and stomps around destroying stuff.

0:40:44.040 --> 0:40:47.040
<v Speaker 3>For all his problems, it was reassuring to know that

0:40:47.080 --> 0:40:50.960
<v Speaker 3>he was, in his own strange way in our corner

0:40:51.000 --> 0:40:53.839
<v Speaker 3>if we ever really needed him.

0:40:54.360 --> 0:40:57.040
<v Speaker 4>His second marriage had been a ploy for instant stability,

0:40:57.120 --> 0:41:01.800
<v Speaker 4>but Marjorie only caused more chaos. Even though she hates Marjorie,

0:41:01.880 --> 0:41:05.239
<v Speaker 4>Jenna still feels guilty and wishes it all played out

0:41:05.280 --> 0:41:10.000
<v Speaker 4>differently somehow. When Jenna is ten and Tony is thirteen,

0:41:10.480 --> 0:41:13.359
<v Speaker 4>the kids are sent back to Nevada for another stin

0:41:13.440 --> 0:41:30.719
<v Speaker 4>at Grandma's house until Larry can move back. Then the

0:41:30.719 --> 0:41:35.640
<v Speaker 4>Mizsoli family moves again to Boulder City, Nevada. Larry is

0:41:35.719 --> 0:41:38.400
<v Speaker 4>chasing police work, but also making it so the kids

0:41:38.440 --> 0:41:41.880
<v Speaker 4>can never settle in or build friendships. They're forced to

0:41:41.880 --> 0:41:44.560
<v Speaker 4>give away the family dogs because the new building won't

0:41:44.560 --> 0:41:50.200
<v Speaker 4>allow pets in her mainly unstable life. Jenna's ballet and

0:41:50.280 --> 0:41:54.560
<v Speaker 4>dance classes provide one reliable source of happiness, so Jenna

0:41:54.640 --> 0:41:59.279
<v Speaker 4>puts all her energy there. She becomes fixated on obtaining

0:41:59.360 --> 0:42:02.040
<v Speaker 4>toe shoes so that she can learn to dance on point.

0:42:03.000 --> 0:42:06.920
<v Speaker 4>She scavenges a used pair that aren't ballerina pink but

0:42:07.080 --> 0:42:12.279
<v Speaker 4>jet black. The point shoes provide a template. When Jenna

0:42:12.400 --> 0:42:16.160
<v Speaker 4>wants something, she'll figure out a way to make it hers.

0:42:17.000 --> 0:42:21.000
<v Speaker 3>I went into this very gowky stage. I was very thin,

0:42:21.440 --> 0:42:25.320
<v Speaker 3>my head was really big, my teeth were really messed up.

0:42:25.800 --> 0:42:29.360
<v Speaker 3>I wore glasses, I had races. I remember in school

0:42:29.400 --> 0:42:31.480
<v Speaker 3>gym class looking at all the other girls who were

0:42:31.520 --> 0:42:35.640
<v Speaker 3>already shapely, and I looked like I was in third grade.

0:42:37.200 --> 0:42:40.040
<v Speaker 4>Jenna starts seventh grade in Boulder City with glasses, a

0:42:40.080 --> 0:42:43.719
<v Speaker 4>prince valiant haircut, and hand me downs. She wants to

0:42:43.760 --> 0:42:46.200
<v Speaker 4>fit in and be popular, but can't afford new clothes

0:42:46.280 --> 0:42:50.200
<v Speaker 4>or other trendy stuff. In a classic Dolly Parton's Coat

0:42:50.200 --> 0:42:53.839
<v Speaker 4>of Many Colors situation, she tries to convert her grandmother's

0:42:53.880 --> 0:42:56.840
<v Speaker 4>old clothes into something cooler looking with a sewing machine,

0:42:57.360 --> 0:43:02.200
<v Speaker 4>but it doesn't work. At school poo, She's shy and introverted.

0:43:03.120 --> 0:43:06.200
<v Speaker 4>Being very short and small doesn't help her feel or

0:43:06.239 --> 0:43:10.200
<v Speaker 4>look any less young. She finally makes friends in a

0:43:10.280 --> 0:43:13.359
<v Speaker 4>cheerleading class, but they don't like that she's way better

0:43:13.360 --> 0:43:16.240
<v Speaker 4>at cheerleading than they are, so they start icing her out.

0:43:17.960 --> 0:43:21.880
<v Speaker 3>I had experience with dance and gymnastics, so I was

0:43:21.960 --> 0:43:25.440
<v Speaker 3>super good and they weren't. So they pretty much ganged

0:43:25.520 --> 0:43:27.680
<v Speaker 3>up on me and decided they weren't going to be

0:43:27.719 --> 0:43:30.840
<v Speaker 3>my friends anymore. They wouldn't talk to me and would

0:43:30.840 --> 0:43:33.800
<v Speaker 3>go out of their way to make me feel foolish.

0:43:34.080 --> 0:43:37.040
<v Speaker 3>I went through about three months of being completely alone

0:43:37.080 --> 0:43:41.279
<v Speaker 3>at school. I had to eat lunch by myself. A

0:43:41.280 --> 0:43:43.319
<v Speaker 3>lot of the time. I would skip lunch and leave

0:43:43.360 --> 0:43:44.760
<v Speaker 3>school grounds to read a book.

0:43:46.960 --> 0:43:49.759
<v Speaker 4>She ends up quitting cheerleading to win her friends back.

0:43:50.560 --> 0:43:56.200
<v Speaker 4>Classic junior high situation, kill or be killed. Jenna and

0:43:56.239 --> 0:43:59.640
<v Speaker 4>Tony get another new stepmom, Vivian, one of their father's

0:43:59.640 --> 0:44:04.239
<v Speaker 4>student at the Carson City Police Academy. Vivian is better

0:44:04.280 --> 0:44:08.560
<v Speaker 4>than Marjorie. She actually feeds them too, making them sandwiches

0:44:08.560 --> 0:44:12.200
<v Speaker 4>for school lunches, but Jenna is so stressed out at

0:44:12.200 --> 0:44:16.120
<v Speaker 4>school she stops eating, hiding her uneaten lunches in her

0:44:16.160 --> 0:44:19.520
<v Speaker 4>locker until it smells so rank she gets in trouble.

0:44:21.000 --> 0:44:24.040
<v Speaker 4>Vivian even listens to Jenna and defends her to Larry

0:44:24.040 --> 0:44:26.520
<v Speaker 4>when Jenna wants to start shaving her legs to fit

0:44:26.560 --> 0:44:29.799
<v Speaker 4>in with the mature teenage girls all around her. But

0:44:29.880 --> 0:44:33.239
<v Speaker 4>Jenna's guard is still up and Tony is against new

0:44:33.239 --> 0:44:38.080
<v Speaker 4>stepmoms on principle. It's probably for the best, because Vivian

0:44:38.160 --> 0:44:41.560
<v Speaker 4>and Larry start getting into screaming fights, and stepmom number

0:44:41.600 --> 0:44:44.839
<v Speaker 4>two is out the door fast, putting Jenna back on

0:44:44.880 --> 0:44:48.120
<v Speaker 4>her quest for a maternal figure to mentor her into

0:44:48.120 --> 0:44:55.800
<v Speaker 4>her burgeoning womanhood. As teen hood approaches, Jenna still looks

0:44:55.840 --> 0:44:58.640
<v Speaker 4>like a kid. She grows her hair out and starts

0:44:58.680 --> 0:45:03.360
<v Speaker 4>bleaching it. Flat chested, but starts wearing a bra. She

0:45:03.480 --> 0:45:08.000
<v Speaker 4>gets her first crush on a guy named Sesar. After

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<v Speaker 4>four months of playground love, Seyesar comes over to her place.

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna has no idea how to behave around a guy

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<v Speaker 4>who's interested in her. She clams up while they sit

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<v Speaker 4>on some steps, nervous her dad will come out, and

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<v Speaker 4>nervous he won't. Seesar slides his arm around her and

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<v Speaker 4>starts frenching her Jenna is disgusted by his tongue in

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<v Speaker 4>her mouth. Maybe she's not ready, or maybe she's just

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<v Speaker 4>not that into him. Her grandmother interrupts and Jenna pleads

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<v Speaker 4>with her not to tell Larry. She never sees Cesar

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<v Speaker 4>again because her road dog family pick up and move

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<v Speaker 4>for dad's new girlfriend, who lives in Elko, Nevada. In Elko,

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna picks cheerleading back up and thrives.

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<v Speaker 3>That's how I started to get a little bit popular

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<v Speaker 3>for the first time in my life. Then I started

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<v Speaker 3>doing pad because one of the popular girls did them.

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<v Speaker 3>I was like, I can shred these people.

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna's love of being on stage and competitive streak makes

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<v Speaker 4>her un natural for beauty pageants, but there's something else

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<v Speaker 4>motivating her, a huge chip on her shoulder about being

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<v Speaker 4>lower class and where that places her in the femininity sweepstakes.

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<v Speaker 4>Other pageant girls have momagers who support them emotionally and financially,

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<v Speaker 4>and live out their own dreams through their daughters. Jenna's

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<v Speaker 4>dad has neither time nor the inclination to be a

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<v Speaker 4>pageant dad. But if Jenna wants something, she's going to

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<v Speaker 4>get it. So to raise money, she has a bake

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<v Speaker 4>sale and her brother and dad sell off some guns.

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<v Speaker 4>She makes two K, which only covers the pageant entry fee.

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<v Speaker 4>Other girls have dance coaches, but Jenna does it all herself.

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<v Speaker 4>She choreographs an original tap routine to the Village People's

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<v Speaker 4>hit song about maritime life in the Navy.

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<v Speaker 3>I was always trying to outdo myself. I felt like

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<v Speaker 3>I had to prove myself constantly because I felt alone, lonely,

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<v Speaker 3>and I wanted everyone to love me.

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna loves winning. She'll enter any competition, especially if there's

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<v Speaker 4>prize money at stake. While she's still shy at heart,

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<v Speaker 4>whenever she gets on stage, she transforms into a confident performer.

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<v Speaker 4>She has a chin length blonde, flip red lipstick, a

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<v Speaker 4>red satin young mismodeling sash, and a matching red sweatshirt.

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<v Speaker 4>She wins the Elko pageant's overall title and advances to

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<v Speaker 4>a state pageant, where she competes against two hundred girls

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<v Speaker 4>and wins Best Interview and most Photogenic. She gets accepted

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<v Speaker 4>to nationals in Arkansas and has to raise more money

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<v Speaker 4>for the entry fee. She washes cars and convinces a

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<v Speaker 4>local luxury car dealership to give her one hundred and

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<v Speaker 4>fifty dollars.

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<v Speaker 3>I would strap my banner to myself, put my crown on,

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<v Speaker 3>and I would walk the streets of Las Vegas asking

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<v Speaker 3>for sponsorship. I would go into the car dealerships begging,

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<v Speaker 3>please just sponsor me.

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<v Speaker 4>Hustling people out of their money comes easily to her.

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<v Speaker 4>All her nervousness and insecurity dissipates when it's showtime. It's

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<v Speaker 4>like she's playing a character who's self assured. The more

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<v Speaker 4>often she switches over into performance mode, the more fearless

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<v Speaker 4>she becomes. She's finding a way to integrate the version

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<v Speaker 4>of herself who can involve dauntlessly into swimming pools as

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<v Speaker 4>a child with the girl who feels invisible to others

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<v Speaker 4>and can barely speak up at school. Jenna gets over

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<v Speaker 4>her beauty pageant bug quickly as soon as she realizes

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<v Speaker 4>it's a scam, depart her from money that she could

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<v Speaker 4>be rustling up for other purposes. Larry uproots his family

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<v Speaker 4>yet again and moves them all back to Las Vegas.

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna decides she wants to be popular at school this

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<v Speaker 4>time around, while her social anxiety is still so bad

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<v Speaker 4>that she throws up in the bathroom every day. Something

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<v Speaker 4>else happens in nineteen eighty nine, when Jenna Masoli turns fifteen, all.

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<v Speaker 3>Of a sudden, boom, my boobs got huge. I mean,

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<v Speaker 3>I can't even tell you. I weighed ninety pounds and

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<v Speaker 3>I had like a C D cup, which is very

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<v Speaker 3>strange for a little girl. So I remember walking into

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<v Speaker 3>my first day of class my sophomore year, and I

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<v Speaker 3>wore a tight shirt, no bra, just because I wanted

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<v Speaker 3>to like throw it in everybody's face. And I remember

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<v Speaker 3>everyone looking at me going, Oh my god, what happened

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<v Speaker 3>to Jenna? Next Time?

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<v Speaker 4>On episode two of Jena World, learning from Las Vegas Showgirls,

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna tries to become a showgirl like her mother, gets

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<v Speaker 4>a job at a strip club and works her way

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<v Speaker 4>up to top earner. This will get her drafted into

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<v Speaker 4>pornography and take her on a journey from Las Vegas

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<v Speaker 4>to Los Angeles. All this and more next time on

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<v Speaker 4>Jenna World. Jenna World is an iHeartRadio production executive produced

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<v Speaker 4>by Anna Hosnier and Becca Ramos, supervising, produced by Bei Wang,

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<v Speaker 4>produced by Victor Wright, script editing by Jonathan Mills, engineered

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<v Speaker 4>by Graham Gibson, and edited by Rory Gagan. Today's episode

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<v Speaker 4>of Jenna World featured Laurence ser Video as Jenna Jamison,

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<v Speaker 4>Miles Gray as Kid Rock, Max Silvestri as Roco Safreddi

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<v Speaker 4>Correina Longworth as Mina Hartley, Paul Sheer as Larry, Joe

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<v Speaker 4>Mandy as Frank Sinatra Junior, and Wyatt Faar as Tony Massly.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh my god, Honey, h