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I don't need 0:01:16.080 --> 0:01:19.080 a deal by my mama house and a brand new car, 0:01:19.280 --> 0:01:22.000 myself a crib pay all the bills. She never had 0:01:22.040 --> 0:01:24.200 to work to live. She never had to work to 0:01:24.280 --> 0:01:28.000 live all I ever wanted was a break, never wanted 0:01:28.080 --> 0:01:29.000 a hand out. 0:01:29.440 --> 0:01:30.920 I keep my head up. 0:01:31.800 --> 0:01:32.279 I sweat. 0:01:32.360 --> 0:01:36.240 I hate asking for a favor, even though I need help. 0:01:36.560 --> 0:01:40.440 My God, it's me now, Mama race fol kids on 0:01:40.520 --> 0:01:42.080 her own, two baby. 0:01:41.880 --> 0:01:45.560 Daddies both welcome back to good mom's bad choices. 0:01:45.880 --> 0:01:47.920 I'm Erica and I'm Mila. 0:01:48.720 --> 0:01:53.920 And it's Wednesday, bitches, Happy hump Day, Happy hump Day. 0:01:54.240 --> 0:01:57.680 I hope somebody is getting humped tonight or this morning. 0:01:59.080 --> 0:01:59.440 Me too. 0:02:02.120 --> 0:02:05.760 Speaking of humping, I was reading one of Beileed Jay's. 0:02:05.560 --> 0:02:11.640 Posts and she was just saying that she sometimes she's 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:15.480 feeling like she wants really deep connections sexually, sometimes she 0:02:15.520 --> 0:02:16.919 just wants like very. 0:02:18.800 --> 0:02:23.480 Surface day physical connections. 0:02:23.960 --> 0:02:25.880 And I was like, that's so interesting, because like we 0:02:25.919 --> 0:02:29.320 actually really do go through seasons, you know, like sometimes 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:33.800 I want to have deep spiritual sex and sometimes it 0:02:33.800 --> 0:02:36.400 could just be like a casual encounter. And that's fine too, 0:02:37.120 --> 0:02:39.960 but sometimes I think you need different things. 0:02:41.639 --> 0:02:44.360 I agree, because there was a time in a season 0:02:44.400 --> 0:02:48.760 where all I really wanted was to have really. 0:02:50.200 --> 0:02:56.600 What maybe say something go lay down. 0:02:58.639 --> 0:03:00.480 I'm going to, but I have to told you, I 0:03:00.520 --> 0:03:02.120 have to finish and then I'll be in there. 0:03:03.320 --> 0:03:05.600 Okay, please go lay down. She's so tired. 0:03:05.720 --> 0:03:09.280 I know she's she's literally staring, like hanging on for 0:03:09.400 --> 0:03:16.000 dear life as I'm talking about my sexual seasons. 0:03:17.520 --> 0:03:20.120 Okay, yeah, go it there, Okay, good girl. 0:03:21.240 --> 0:03:26.359 There was a point in like my entry into singleness 0:03:27.160 --> 0:03:34.400 where I really just wanted to have like aggressive, disrespectful sex, 0:03:34.600 --> 0:03:38.800 honestly and now, and that's really all I wanted. Like 0:03:38.840 --> 0:03:41.840 I noticed that with every person that I had sex with, 0:03:41.880 --> 0:03:44.160 that that's what I wanted, to the point where I 0:03:44.160 --> 0:03:45.840 almost felt bad about it, Like I was like, what 0:03:45.880 --> 0:03:46.800 does this say about me? 0:03:46.960 --> 0:03:48.280 What's what's happening to me? 0:03:49.000 --> 0:03:50.960 But and then like now I'm in a place where 0:03:51.080 --> 0:03:53.520 like I still want that, but I like also need variation. 0:03:56.120 --> 0:03:57.760 Then there's times where like all I want to do 0:03:57.840 --> 0:04:01.360 is be like cuddled and romantic, and there's times where 0:04:01.400 --> 0:04:03.160 I just don't even want to have sex, Like I 0:04:03.200 --> 0:04:06.560 don't even feel like being touched. And yeah, I think 0:04:06.560 --> 0:04:08.839 you have to like honor where you're at and try 0:04:08.880 --> 0:04:11.280 not to judge yourself, because I definitely did. 0:04:11.560 --> 0:04:15.080 And now looking back, I'm like, why. 0:04:14.400 --> 0:04:16.160 Just do it, Just be in it, just do what 0:04:16.200 --> 0:04:20.120 she fulfills you. In that moment, maybe explore why. But 0:04:20.200 --> 0:04:22.920 sometimes it's just what you want, some weird, freaky, kinky 0:04:23.360 --> 0:04:27.240 casual shit, some real deep, soul depth shit. I just 0:04:27.240 --> 0:04:30.080 thought that was a cool subject. I hadn't thought about 0:04:30.120 --> 0:04:33.159 it in that like, it's going to change your appetite 0:04:33.279 --> 0:04:37.279 for and your needs are going to change. And I 0:04:37.279 --> 0:04:40.839 think we've been taught to shame the part of us 0:04:40.920 --> 0:04:49.440 that's like lusting, lusty and wanting just kinky casual sex. 0:04:49.520 --> 0:04:51.280 But that is just a. 0:04:51.200 --> 0:04:53.840 Part of the human nature. Sometimes it's what you need. 0:04:55.320 --> 0:05:00.320 You do yourself a service, denying yourself. I feel like, anyway, 0:05:00.360 --> 0:05:02.720 that's all because we said happy hump Day, we can 0:05:02.760 --> 0:05:03.680 real deep already. 0:05:03.760 --> 0:05:09.159 I can deep, bitch. I'm tired, Like I really, you 0:05:09.240 --> 0:05:13.440 aren't getting deep at nine thirty pm. 0:05:14.080 --> 0:05:14.719 You know what early? 0:05:14.800 --> 0:05:17.080 Nine thirty isn't I thirty? 0:05:17.120 --> 0:05:19.000 It feels much later, I know, but like. 0:05:18.920 --> 0:05:20.359 Oh god, my daughter's awake. 0:05:20.520 --> 0:05:21.240 God damn it. 0:05:21.200 --> 0:05:21.760 I know I didn't. 0:05:21.800 --> 0:05:26.680 Really Yeah, God, honestly, the school shit's kicking my ass. 0:05:27.360 --> 0:05:29.600 I'm tired, bitch. I'm tired as fuck. 0:05:30.640 --> 0:05:32.599 Welcome to the club. 0:05:33.200 --> 0:05:38.159 Yeah, I I've been like this morning. I woke up 0:05:38.160 --> 0:05:40.120 at like six am, to try to exert what I 0:05:40.120 --> 0:05:41.799 did well. I woke up at six, but I actually 0:05:41.800 --> 0:05:44.320 didn't get out of bed till six thirty to try 0:05:44.320 --> 0:05:47.200 to exercise. I'm like, my moms do this shit. They 0:05:47.240 --> 0:05:50.520 wake up earliest buck and they work out or like 0:05:50.920 --> 0:05:53.680 drink their coffee and like do things. 0:05:53.160 --> 0:05:54.160 Early, you know. 0:05:54.240 --> 0:05:56.680 And I'm like, I'm literally waking up to wake her 0:05:56.760 --> 0:05:59.560 up to get together, to get her together, to try 0:05:59.560 --> 0:06:01.720 to get me together, to get her there, to get 0:06:01.720 --> 0:06:04.719 me here, to barely get shit done. I'm like, Okay, 0:06:04.760 --> 0:06:07.919 maybe if I started waking up earlier, I just have 0:06:07.960 --> 0:06:10.080 to make it a habit. I know once I do it. 0:06:10.120 --> 0:06:12.400 Like I remember waking up around six am for a 0:06:12.400 --> 0:06:14.640 while and it was fine. It's just it's like working 0:06:14.720 --> 0:06:19.120 out and also not going to bed at two am. 0:06:19.680 --> 0:06:21.840 You know, the way I look dropping off londing to 0:06:21.880 --> 0:06:25.680 school compared to the other moms. When I pick up, 0:06:25.680 --> 0:06:27.120 I feel I have to really step my game up 0:06:27.160 --> 0:06:30.200 because in the morning it's so I just literally roll out. 0:06:31.680 --> 0:06:34.600 Sometimes I'm just wearing a hood and like. 0:06:33.920 --> 0:06:35.120 What are the other moms are like. 0:06:35.080 --> 0:06:36.360 Stylish full dress? 0:06:36.760 --> 0:06:37.680 Really, I mean. 0:06:37.560 --> 0:06:39.599 Most of my moms at her school are in like 0:06:39.720 --> 0:06:42.280 workout gear. And I'm like, bitch, are you really going 0:06:42.320 --> 0:06:43.720 to work out or you just able to work out 0:06:43.760 --> 0:06:45.599 gear on? Because I know I'm wearing workout gear and 0:06:45.600 --> 0:06:47.360 a bitch is not work it out well. 0:06:47.400 --> 0:06:49.560 Workout gear is also La fashions. 0:06:50.120 --> 0:06:53.240 It's just comfortable. Yeah, but that's like people people were 0:06:53.279 --> 0:06:54.120 to work too. 0:06:54.480 --> 0:06:56.440 No I think in La No, I know, we'll hang 0:06:56.440 --> 0:06:58.880 out and work out gear. No workout happening, No, I know. 0:06:58.880 --> 0:07:01.680 Because when I'm when anyone comes from New York, they're like, 0:07:01.800 --> 0:07:04.280 you guys are so casual, wet, like we're like spandex. 0:07:04.520 --> 0:07:07.800 I'm like at four pm, like, what's going on? 0:07:08.160 --> 0:07:11.280 Almost if someone's like wearing a casual business business casually? 0:07:11.440 --> 0:07:16.240 Like where the fuck do you work? Where are you going? Right? 0:07:17.920 --> 0:07:19.520 Oh my god, come. 0:07:19.440 --> 0:07:22.720 My life's super cash. 0:07:26.240 --> 0:07:28.600 Yeah we ro that week. 0:07:28.640 --> 0:07:28.880 Girl. 0:07:29.440 --> 0:07:31.680 This is just gonna make us more tired. But I'm 0:07:31.800 --> 0:07:34.239 ready to go to bed after this so tired. 0:07:34.840 --> 0:07:35.320 Oh my god. 0:07:35.400 --> 0:07:37.240 Sorry, guys, this is probably not id for anyone's listening 0:07:37.280 --> 0:07:37.960 to this in the morning. 0:07:39.040 --> 0:07:39.800 This is terrible. 0:07:40.280 --> 0:07:42.440 Get up, we got, we got come on, Like these 0:07:42.480 --> 0:07:45.520 bitches are yawning on the podcast. Nobody wrote that in 0:07:45.520 --> 0:07:50.160 the review We're up and we're pumped and we're ready 0:07:50.240 --> 0:07:50.360 to go. 0:07:58.160 --> 0:08:07.760 Oh okay, baby poop and his diaper, guys, baby Jack Jack. 0:08:10.960 --> 0:08:13.040 Yeah, So how was your weekend? 0:08:13.040 --> 0:08:18.240 I saw you went to Sunday service, Kanye West Sunday. 0:08:18.320 --> 0:08:24.240 I did go to Kanye West Sunday Service, you flake, dummy. 0:08:24.800 --> 0:08:26.920 No, no, no, I did want to go. It's just 0:08:27.480 --> 0:08:28.600 I had priority. 0:08:28.840 --> 0:08:30.600 So I was inviting my friends and like, you want 0:08:30.640 --> 0:08:32.520 to have a Sunday service, and they're like church. 0:08:32.679 --> 0:08:36.520 It was like, no, bitch, Kanye, no, I'm not going 0:08:36.520 --> 0:08:37.200 to church. 0:08:37.400 --> 0:08:38.319 It is church. 0:08:38.520 --> 0:08:40.320 I know, but I didn't realize it was church because 0:08:41.679 --> 0:08:43.640 Zaia actually shout out to Zaya. 0:08:44.440 --> 0:08:47.480 Actually, Zia's if you listen to our song that opened 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:52.040 this episode, that is Zya Belle. She's bomb and also 0:08:52.520 --> 0:08:56.800 she's a boy. Remember at Sunday Service. Sunday Service superbomb. 0:08:57.080 --> 0:08:59.040 She gotta just go check that out, Ziabelle. 0:09:01.440 --> 0:09:05.520 Everyone in that choir is fucking insanely talented. I heard 0:09:05.600 --> 0:09:08.240 like when you were posting and like Ashley was posting, 0:09:08.720 --> 0:09:09.720 it sounded amazing. 0:09:09.880 --> 0:09:12.640 It does sound really good. The aesthetic was really beautiful. 0:09:13.240 --> 0:09:19.880 It's all like fresh flowers and shrubbery and that orb 0:09:20.200 --> 0:09:22.960 that or the orb in the ceiling with this light 0:09:25.000 --> 0:09:29.280 ultra light beam ultimately, is that what that was? You 0:09:29.320 --> 0:09:33.280 know it's not an ultra light beame. It was really beautiful, 0:09:33.320 --> 0:09:35.320 and you know what, I actually, I'm going to keep 0:09:35.360 --> 0:09:38.800 it all the way one hundred. I felt really guilty 0:09:39.160 --> 0:09:44.880 about all my anti religious remark rhetoric rhetoric because I 0:09:45.720 --> 0:09:51.319 do get beside myself with the anti religion, and I 0:09:51.320 --> 0:09:53.640 you know, I know I keep saying it. But in 0:09:53.679 --> 0:09:56.880 the eighth grade, I got very Christian. 0:09:59.360 --> 0:10:06.280 I did was back in nineteen ninety eight, I believe this. 0:10:06.320 --> 0:10:08.920 Two thousand and three, Yeah, you're right, I'm sorry two 0:10:08.960 --> 0:10:12.920 thousand and four, maybe now. Two thousand and three, I 0:10:13.080 --> 0:10:17.480 was super into church and I was in the youth group. 0:10:17.520 --> 0:10:22.480 We were like leading youth, fucking youth services. I went 0:10:22.520 --> 0:10:26.560 to winter Camp Church winter camp and the music was 0:10:26.920 --> 0:10:31.280 the part that I could get lost in and unexpectedly 0:10:31.360 --> 0:10:33.240 I didn't really anything. I was signing up for this part. 0:10:33.280 --> 0:10:36.960 But there was a pastor at Sunday service. There was 0:10:37.000 --> 0:10:39.720 two and they had they were both men. 0:10:39.880 --> 0:10:42.600 They were both men. I'm from Atlanta, one was from Compton. 0:10:43.240 --> 0:10:45.520 And they preached a little bit. 0:10:45.520 --> 0:10:49.640 They did some word and it was it spoke to me, 0:10:50.559 --> 0:10:53.160 and I was kidding, what was what was like the 0:10:53.160 --> 0:10:55.120 theme of well, what service. 0:10:56.520 --> 0:10:58.440 I've heard a lot of things, but specifically what I 0:10:58.480 --> 0:11:03.800 remember was don't be burnished on fire? 0:11:04.200 --> 0:11:08.000 It was on fire? Yeah, I think it's fine. Right? 0:11:08.480 --> 0:11:08.720 Wait? 0:11:11.400 --> 0:11:15.520 Was oh, basically like, you'll fall and you'll get back 0:11:15.600 --> 0:11:18.200 up again, and you'll fall and you'll get back up again, 0:11:18.320 --> 0:11:23.240 and you'll fall again. But Jesus always forgives. He's constantly forgiving. 0:11:23.240 --> 0:11:25.400 He doesn't care about yesterday, I doesn't care about tomorrow. 0:11:25.840 --> 0:11:28.200 But right now, as long as you're getting back up again, 0:11:28.720 --> 0:11:32.920 getting back up again, then God is merciful, and then 0:11:32.920 --> 0:11:37.199 He's always forgiving you. And I immediately felt like it 0:11:37.280 --> 0:11:40.360 was speaking to me because I was just feeling like, fuck, 0:11:41.040 --> 0:11:46.160 all this talking and I'm just scratching the surface of 0:11:46.400 --> 0:11:50.760 all the shit I have to dig through, all the 0:11:50.880 --> 0:11:56.480 like programming that I've experienced, all the the way I 0:11:56.760 --> 0:11:59.839 all the things I how I react to things emotionally 0:12:00.160 --> 0:12:01.640 body because that's what I'm used. 0:12:01.480 --> 0:12:03.000 To, you know. 0:12:03.040 --> 0:12:06.040 I was just feeling like, when you know, sometimes. 0:12:05.840 --> 0:12:07.320 You just be doing a lot of the same shit 0:12:07.400 --> 0:12:09.040 because that's what you're used to doing. And I'm like 0:12:09.360 --> 0:12:11.959 it just spoke to me like you'll fall and you'll 0:12:11.960 --> 0:12:14.320 get back up again, and every time he's forgiving and 0:12:14.360 --> 0:12:17.360 forgiving and forgiving. And that's how gentle you have to 0:12:17.360 --> 0:12:20.320 be with yourself, you know what I mean. And we 0:12:20.400 --> 0:12:22.960 forget that. We're so hard on ourselves, we're so harsh 0:12:23.280 --> 0:12:26.680 on our expectations of ourselfs, not realizing like we're human. 0:12:27.840 --> 0:12:31.880 So that was a pretty powerful message. The music was powerful. 0:12:32.200 --> 0:12:35.199 It was just the energy was really it was really dynamic, 0:12:35.360 --> 0:12:39.120 and you felt that shit, You felt the presence of 0:12:40.000 --> 0:12:42.240 God and you felt like everybody in the room is 0:12:42.280 --> 0:12:45.359 feeling it. And I always say this, like I'm not religious, 0:12:45.440 --> 0:12:47.520 but I feel like when any group of people puts 0:12:47.559 --> 0:12:53.640 their intentions and their vulnerability and all to worship one 0:12:53.679 --> 0:12:57.080 thing or into one room and inevitably going to feel 0:12:57.080 --> 0:12:59.319 it when you're when you're going to seek, When you 0:12:59.400 --> 0:13:02.080 go seeking message, no matter how it's delivered to you 0:13:02.320 --> 0:13:04.560 from a stranger at a church, from a pastor from 0:13:04.600 --> 0:13:07.720 a conversation, you're going to if you're looking, you'll and 0:13:07.760 --> 0:13:09.840 you're seeking, you're going to find the message that you 0:13:09.880 --> 0:13:11.920 need to hear at that time. So I feel like 0:13:11.960 --> 0:13:14.800 if that's in church, if that's in you know, SRF 0:13:14.960 --> 0:13:18.640 or whatever wherever you go, that if you're open to 0:13:18.800 --> 0:13:21.040 finding the message that's in everyday life, then you'll be 0:13:21.080 --> 0:13:22.319 able to receive. 0:13:22.559 --> 0:13:31.400 I think really at the root of religion, like before 0:13:31.520 --> 0:13:38.480 it became a means to control and you know, influence sway, 0:13:39.280 --> 0:13:42.720 I think that's really what it was. Like that's why 0:13:42.880 --> 0:13:45.040 that's how they were able to package it in a way, 0:13:45.120 --> 0:13:48.439 because we do we feel that whether we feel that 0:13:48.480 --> 0:13:53.120 connection to one another to like, you know, a deeper 0:13:55.360 --> 0:14:00.280 existence than just us, but also this this. 0:14:00.440 --> 0:14:05.400 Like primal feel like. 0:14:05.360 --> 0:14:06.720 Connecting to source. 0:14:06.600 --> 0:14:12.160 Right and the need to feel. 0:14:13.960 --> 0:14:16.280 I don't know, open enough to charge up from it, 0:14:16.320 --> 0:14:18.760 to be filled up from the word, filled up from 0:14:18.800 --> 0:14:20.160 the you know, the gospel. 0:14:20.800 --> 0:14:22.800 Like there's all these like words that we were taught. 0:14:23.080 --> 0:14:25.840 Was it was did he did Kanye Like do you 0:14:25.920 --> 0:14:28.920 say anything? Or did he do music? Or did him 0:14:29.000 --> 0:14:29.640 or what was he do? 0:14:29.720 --> 0:14:30.200 He was there? 0:14:31.320 --> 0:14:33.160 Does he lead it still or is it like no, 0:14:34.040 --> 0:14:35.600 not lead it, but but he leads it at the 0:14:35.600 --> 0:14:37.920 person in the center like leading the choir is another 0:14:37.960 --> 0:14:39.440 man who talks throughout too. 0:14:40.160 --> 0:14:43.800 And you and was like, you know, it doesn't matter 0:14:43.840 --> 0:14:44.760 what you did last night. 0:14:44.840 --> 0:14:49.400 Maybe you smoked some stuff, I know, but maybe you 0:14:49.480 --> 0:14:51.480 drank some stuff you shouldn't. Maybe you late, you woke 0:14:51.560 --> 0:14:54.000 up with somebody didn't want to wake up with. No 0:14:54.080 --> 0:14:57.360 matter what you've done last night, whatever you did yesterday, 0:14:57.960 --> 0:14:59.720 God doesn't care. 0:15:00.080 --> 0:15:02.400 It doesn't matter. Today is what matters. 0:15:02.440 --> 0:15:04.720 You're loved, you know, like, and I think people we 0:15:04.960 --> 0:15:06.520 all need to hear that. 0:15:06.680 --> 0:15:08.480 You know, he was kind of off to the side. 0:15:08.520 --> 0:15:12.480 I think he does like those you know, the buttons 0:15:13.000 --> 0:15:14.640 the mixtape, like you know, and. 0:15:16.280 --> 0:15:17.480 Then he got on he got on the mic. 0:15:17.520 --> 0:15:19.240 He performed a lot of some of the songs from 0:15:19.320 --> 0:15:23.600 Jesus's King you know that chick fil a song which 0:15:23.680 --> 0:15:25.600 you would not stop singing after it. 0:15:25.680 --> 0:15:26.240 I don't really. 0:15:26.120 --> 0:15:26.800 Listened to his album. 0:15:26.880 --> 0:15:29.200 I've listened to like maybe like the beginning of it, 0:15:29.240 --> 0:15:31.720 because I'd like to listen to albums in their sequence. 0:15:32.360 --> 0:15:34.440 And I started playing it and the like I think, 0:15:34.480 --> 0:15:36.440 I like, I don't know what happened. I got distracted or. 0:15:36.440 --> 0:15:39.239 Something, but when I heard him, he's he's an insanely 0:15:39.600 --> 0:15:41.800 he's amazing. Like what I heard, I was like, oh, 0:15:42.040 --> 0:15:48.240 I mean he's always he's just so incredibly talented and unfortunately, 0:15:48.400 --> 0:15:51.480 like we get bogged down by his views and all 0:15:51.520 --> 0:15:53.840 that other shit, but you know, being able to put 0:15:53.840 --> 0:15:57.320 that aside and like see, like what he There's one 0:15:57.320 --> 0:15:58.920 thing you can say about Kanye West is that he 0:15:59.600 --> 0:16:03.120 is able to rise and rise and rise and rise 0:16:03.160 --> 0:16:07.200 again and reinvent and inspire and build and his vision 0:16:08.280 --> 0:16:09.240 he is. 0:16:09.280 --> 0:16:11.840 He is a genius in so many ways. 0:16:11.920 --> 0:16:13.800 I think the annoyance for me is like the fact 0:16:13.800 --> 0:16:15.520 that he always feels the need to have to like 0:16:16.480 --> 0:16:17.479 get everyone's. 0:16:17.120 --> 0:16:17.920 Approval on that. 0:16:18.000 --> 0:16:21.920 I think maybe like it seems like he's I don't know, 0:16:22.120 --> 0:16:25.520 it doesn't matter. The point is it is like I 0:16:25.560 --> 0:16:26.840 think what. 0:16:26.760 --> 0:16:27.760 He's doing is amazing. 0:16:28.080 --> 0:16:31.040 A narcissist, there's that yes, Is that what you're gonna say? 0:16:31.760 --> 0:16:36.520 No? No, no, no. I was just saying like, well, well, 0:16:36.600 --> 0:16:37.320 part of it was this. 0:16:37.440 --> 0:16:39.280 That is like I thought, I feel like, you know, 0:16:39.320 --> 0:16:42.240 he's always needs to be validated as this genius. 0:16:42.520 --> 0:16:43.800 He needs everyone to. 0:16:43.840 --> 0:16:50.560 Saporate where it's like, dude, you we know right, you know, yes, baby, 0:16:53.680 --> 0:16:54.320 you know where they are. 0:16:54.360 --> 0:16:57.160 We'll get him. I don't know what do you do? 0:16:57.360 --> 0:17:00.680 Just open them? Was that door? 0:17:02.640 --> 0:17:05.960 But a part of feels like part of me feels 0:17:06.000 --> 0:17:08.600 like it's low key his persona at this point, Like 0:17:08.680 --> 0:17:12.800 even while I was there, he was performing church on 0:17:12.840 --> 0:17:15.119 Sunday or whatever, and he's like, this is the greatest 0:17:15.119 --> 0:17:17.479 song ever rap song ever made in history. 0:17:17.920 --> 0:17:22.320 That's just how I feel. I'm like, Okay, Kanye, sure, whatever. 0:17:22.040 --> 0:17:24.199 You say, you know, I mean, he's still Kanye. 0:17:24.359 --> 0:17:25.280 He is still Kanye. 0:17:25.400 --> 0:17:27.320 But that's what I'm saying, Like that's almost like branding 0:17:27.400 --> 0:17:30.960 a genius, like he's just turned you know, but that's 0:17:31.000 --> 0:17:33.080 actually who he is and you have to love it. 0:17:33.600 --> 0:17:35.080 You know, you could disagree with a lot of shit. 0:17:35.880 --> 0:17:38.439 He does a lot of extra shit, but like at 0:17:38.480 --> 0:17:41.520 the end of the day, he's an incredibly talented artist, 0:17:41.680 --> 0:17:45.800 and most people like that are like crazy mad geniuses, 0:17:47.440 --> 0:17:47.639 you know. 0:17:48.240 --> 0:17:52.119 Honestly, Like before you invited me to go to that, 0:17:52.240 --> 0:17:55.199 to that, I had been like I was thinking, like, 0:17:56.880 --> 0:17:59.159 I don't know. My mom said something recently to me, 0:18:00.200 --> 0:18:05.240 not too much, just enough thank you. Maybe she'll that'll 0:18:05.280 --> 0:18:08.600 translate to something the chance to shay. She listens pretty good, 0:18:08.640 --> 0:18:09.160 she does. 0:18:11.320 --> 0:18:13.439 I feeling she's gonna pour it. It's all gonna just 0:18:13.480 --> 0:18:16.800 go everywhere. But whatever gets across that bridge, we'll get there. 0:18:18.119 --> 0:18:21.080 She said something about like I remember like there was 0:18:21.119 --> 0:18:23.639 a time like I grew up going to church with 0:18:23.680 --> 0:18:25.560 my dad, like that was our thing. Like I didn't 0:18:25.560 --> 0:18:27.560 see my dad a lot, but when he did pick 0:18:27.600 --> 0:18:29.399 me up on Sundays, that was his thing, like he 0:18:29.560 --> 0:18:31.640 was repenting for his sins of the week and also 0:18:31.640 --> 0:18:32.480 picking up his daughter. 0:18:32.520 --> 0:18:33.400 He hadn't seen. 0:18:34.680 --> 0:18:38.360 I'm going to heaven. Yeah, period, And. 0:18:38.359 --> 0:18:40.440 So I grew up like going to a black church 0:18:40.520 --> 0:18:45.040 like that was my first entry into church. 0:18:45.800 --> 0:18:48.320 The church was like the black the choir, the. 0:18:48.359 --> 0:18:52.320 Music, and I remember before I even understood what any 0:18:52.359 --> 0:18:55.600 of it was like that's what connected to feel it. 0:18:55.680 --> 0:19:03.920 You felt like everyone coming together. You felt like everyone Okay, 0:19:03.960 --> 0:19:08.359 I'll be learned one second. You felt everyone coming together, 0:19:08.520 --> 0:19:12.520 You felt everyone's energy, You felt like people n you 0:19:12.600 --> 0:19:16.320 felt like people needed help and people were getting help. 0:19:16.840 --> 0:19:20.880 And it just felt like a place where I don't know, 0:19:21.080 --> 0:19:23.520 like it just felt like a place even w I 0:19:23.560 --> 0:19:26.200 remember because there was a lot of like people being 0:19:26.240 --> 0:19:32.159 saved and holy ghost and hands raised that never I 0:19:32.160 --> 0:19:34.119 think because I I that never scared me. 0:19:34.200 --> 0:19:38.080 I remember bringing my friends to church with me. Oh 0:19:38.119 --> 0:19:38.520 my god. 0:19:39.080 --> 0:19:41.920 I remember bringing my little like two of my little 0:19:41.920 --> 0:19:45.119 white home girls to church from like Archer School for Girls, 0:19:45.160 --> 0:19:48.679 which is like the super real, like prestigious middle school. 0:19:48.720 --> 0:19:51.320 My mom sent me to and I took them to 0:19:51.440 --> 0:19:53.880 Church of the Harvest, which was at the Palladium at 0:19:53.880 --> 0:19:56.840 the time. Yes, the Palladium was having church also a 0:19:56.840 --> 0:19:59.320 place where people do drugs currently, Like that's where like 0:19:59.800 --> 0:20:01.400 li so just performed. 0:20:00.960 --> 0:20:03.160 Like that's a concert a concert hall. 0:20:03.320 --> 0:20:07.080 Yeah, and people like passing out and ship and speaking 0:20:07.080 --> 0:20:11.000 in tongues and they were all like scared, like first 0:20:11.200 --> 0:20:11.720 was probably. 0:20:11.520 --> 0:20:13.200 The most around of black people they've ever seen. 0:20:13.280 --> 0:20:17.520 They were so scared, and I just kept I was 0:20:17.520 --> 0:20:20.840 like proud. I remember being no, not just proud of 0:20:20.840 --> 0:20:23.000 what It's fine, you guys, this is like totally like 0:20:23.320 --> 0:20:26.639 and being like this is like I don't know, I 0:20:26.920 --> 0:20:29.480 don't I just remember this feeling of like this is 0:20:29.520 --> 0:20:30.160 how we do it. 0:20:30.920 --> 0:20:32.760 Yeah. 0:20:33.000 --> 0:20:35.520 Also church though too was like confusing to me though, 0:20:35.520 --> 0:20:37.359 because my dad didn't pay attention much. 0:20:39.359 --> 0:20:41.240 He would play games with me all the time. 0:20:43.200 --> 0:20:45.119 And then then at the end would go talk to 0:20:45.240 --> 0:20:50.240 like uh, the like the pre preacher or the pastor 0:20:50.280 --> 0:20:53.080 at the end and go do his like secret like 0:20:53.280 --> 0:20:59.119 private talk or forgiveness or some shit. But I remember like, 0:21:00.160 --> 0:21:05.280 I think my really like, for me, church became negative 0:21:05.359 --> 0:21:11.760 when I got to you know what, I think it 0:21:11.840 --> 0:21:14.640 was my like when I got to high school, when 0:21:14.640 --> 0:21:15.879 I started going to Catholic. 0:21:15.600 --> 0:21:17.760 School, What do you think of it? 0:21:17.880 --> 0:21:18.120 Why? 0:21:18.359 --> 0:21:19.760 Because I think that's interesting. 0:21:20.440 --> 0:21:22.480 It was so different than anything I was used to. 0:21:22.800 --> 0:21:25.120 It was so like, oh, oh, you're saying that your 0:21:25.240 --> 0:21:27.000 church experience at Notre Dame. 0:21:28.640 --> 0:21:30.560