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Speaker 4: I'm Erica and I'm Mila.
Speaker 3: And it's Wednesday, bitches, Happy hump Day, Happy hump Day.
Speaker 2: I hope somebody is getting humped tonight or this morning.
Speaker 2: Me too.
Speaker 4: Speaking of humping, I was reading one of Beileed Jay's.
Speaker 2: Posts and she was just saying that she sometimes she's
Speaker 2: feeling like she wants really deep connections sexually, sometimes she
Speaker 2: just wants like very.
Speaker 4: Surface day physical connections.
Speaker 2: And I was like, that's so interesting, because like we
Speaker 2: actually really do go through seasons, you know, like sometimes
Speaker 2: I want to have deep spiritual sex and sometimes it
Speaker 2: could just be like a casual encounter. And that's fine too,
Speaker 2: but sometimes I think you need different things.
Speaker 3: I agree, because there was a time in a season
Speaker 3: where all I really wanted was to have really.
Speaker 1: What maybe say something go lay down.
Speaker 3: I'm going to, but I have to told you, I
Speaker 3: have to finish and then I'll be in there.
Speaker 1: Okay, please go lay down. She's so tired.
Speaker 3: I know she's she's literally staring, like hanging on for
Speaker 3: dear life as I'm talking about my sexual seasons.
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, go it there, Okay, good girl.
Speaker 3: There was a point in like my entry into singleness
Speaker 3: where I really just wanted to have like aggressive, disrespectful sex,
Speaker 3: honestly and now, and that's really all I wanted. Like
Speaker 3: I noticed that with every person that I had sex with,
Speaker 3: that that's what I wanted, to the point where I
Speaker 3: almost felt bad about it, Like I was like, what
Speaker 3: does this say about me?
Speaker 1: What's what's happening to me?
Speaker 3: But and then like now I'm in a place where
Speaker 3: like I still want that, but I like also need variation.
Speaker 3: Then there's times where like all I want to do
Speaker 3: is be like cuddled and romantic, and there's times where
Speaker 3: I just don't even want to have sex, Like I
Speaker 3: don't even feel like being touched. And yeah, I think
Speaker 3: you have to like honor where you're at and try
Speaker 3: not to judge yourself, because I definitely did.
Speaker 1: And now looking back, I'm like, why.
Speaker 2: Just do it, Just be in it, just do what
Speaker 2: she fulfills you. In that moment, maybe explore why. But
Speaker 2: sometimes it's just what you want, some weird, freaky, kinky
Speaker 2: casual shit, some real deep, soul depth shit. I just
Speaker 2: thought that was a cool subject. I hadn't thought about
Speaker 2: it in that like, it's going to change your appetite
Speaker 2: for and your needs are going to change. And I
Speaker 2: think we've been taught to shame the part of us
Speaker 2: that's like lusting, lusty and wanting just kinky casual sex.
Speaker 4: But that is just a.
Speaker 2: Part of the human nature. Sometimes it's what you need.
Speaker 2: You do yourself a service, denying yourself. I feel like, anyway,
Speaker 2: that's all because we said happy hump Day, we can
Speaker 2: real deep already.
Speaker 1: I can deep, bitch. I'm tired, Like I really, you
Speaker 1: aren't getting deep at nine thirty pm.
Speaker 4: You know what early?
Speaker 1: Nine thirty isn't I thirty?
Speaker 4: It feels much later, I know, but like.
Speaker 1: Oh god, my daughter's awake.
Speaker 2: God damn it.
Speaker 4: I know I didn't.
Speaker 2: Really Yeah, God, honestly, the school shit's kicking my ass.
Speaker 4: I'm tired, bitch. I'm tired as fuck.
Speaker 1: Welcome to the club.
Speaker 3: Yeah, I I've been like this morning. I woke up
Speaker 3: at like six am, to try to exert what I
Speaker 3: did well. I woke up at six, but I actually
Speaker 3: didn't get out of bed till six thirty to try
Speaker 3: to exercise. I'm like, my moms do this shit. They
Speaker 3: wake up earliest buck and they work out or like
Speaker 3: drink their coffee and like do things.
Speaker 1: Early, you know.
Speaker 3: And I'm like, I'm literally waking up to wake her
Speaker 3: up to get together, to get her together, to try
Speaker 3: to get me together, to get her there, to get
Speaker 3: me here, to barely get shit done. I'm like, Okay,
Speaker 3: maybe if I started waking up earlier, I just have
Speaker 3: to make it a habit. I know once I do it.
Speaker 3: Like I remember waking up around six am for a
Speaker 3: while and it was fine. It's just it's like working
Speaker 3: out and also not going to bed at two am.
Speaker 2: You know, the way I look dropping off londing to
Speaker 2: school compared to the other moms. When I pick up,
Speaker 2: I feel I have to really step my game up
Speaker 2: because in the morning it's so I just literally roll out.
Speaker 2: Sometimes I'm just wearing a hood and like.
Speaker 1: What are the other moms are like.
Speaker 4: Stylish full dress?
Speaker 1: Really, I mean.
Speaker 3: Most of my moms at her school are in like
Speaker 3: workout gear. And I'm like, bitch, are you really going
Speaker 3: to work out or you just able to work out
Speaker 3: gear on? Because I know I'm wearing workout gear and
Speaker 3: a bitch is not work it out well.
Speaker 4: Workout gear is also La fashions.
Speaker 3: It's just comfortable. Yeah, but that's like people people were
Speaker 3: to work too.
Speaker 4: No I think in La No, I know, we'll hang
Speaker 4: out and work out gear. No workout happening, No, I know.
Speaker 3: Because when I'm when anyone comes from New York, they're like,
Speaker 3: you guys are so casual, wet, like we're like spandex.
Speaker 1: I'm like at four pm, like, what's going on?
Speaker 2: Almost if someone's like wearing a casual business business casually?
Speaker 4: Like where the fuck do you work? Where are you going? Right?
Speaker 1: Oh my god, come.
Speaker 4: My life's super cash.
Speaker 1: Yeah we ro that week.
Speaker 7: Girl.
Speaker 1: This is just gonna make us more tired. But I'm
Speaker 1: ready to go to bed after this so tired.
Speaker 4: Oh my god.
Speaker 6: Sorry, guys, this is probably not id for anyone's listening
Speaker 6: to this in the morning.
Speaker 4: This is terrible.
Speaker 2: Get up, we got, we got come on, Like these
Speaker 2: bitches are yawning on the podcast. Nobody wrote that in
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Speaker 1: Yeah, So how was your weekend?
Speaker 3: I saw you went to Sunday service, Kanye West Sunday.
Speaker 2: I did go to Kanye West Sunday Service, you flake, dummy.
Speaker 1: No, no, no, I did want to go. It's just
Speaker 1: I had priority.
Speaker 2: So I was inviting my friends and like, you want
Speaker 2: to have a Sunday service, and they're like church.
Speaker 4: It was like, no, bitch, Kanye, no, I'm not going
Speaker 4: to church.
Speaker 1: It is church.
Speaker 2: I know, but I didn't realize it was church because
Speaker 2: Zaia actually shout out to Zaya.
Speaker 3: Actually, Zia's if you listen to our song that opened
Speaker 3: this episode, that is Zya Belle. She's bomb and also
Speaker 3: she's a boy. Remember at Sunday Service. Sunday Service superbomb.
Speaker 4: She gotta just go check that out, Ziabelle.
Speaker 3: Everyone in that choir is fucking insanely talented. I heard
Speaker 3: like when you were posting and like Ashley was posting,
Speaker 3: it sounded amazing.
Speaker 4: It does sound really good. The aesthetic was really beautiful.
Speaker 2: It's all like fresh flowers and shrubbery and that orb
Speaker 2: that or the orb in the ceiling with this light
Speaker 2: ultra light beam ultimately, is that what that was? You
Speaker 2: know it's not an ultra light beame. It was really beautiful,
Speaker 2: and you know what, I actually, I'm going to keep
Speaker 2: it all the way one hundred. I felt really guilty
Speaker 2: about all my anti religious remark rhetoric rhetoric because I
Speaker 2: do get beside myself with the anti religion, and I
Speaker 2: you know, I know I keep saying it. But in
Speaker 2: the eighth grade, I got very Christian.
Speaker 4: I did was back in nineteen ninety eight, I believe this.
Speaker 2: Two thousand and three, Yeah, you're right, I'm sorry two
Speaker 2: thousand and four, maybe now. Two thousand and three, I
Speaker 2: was super into church and I was in the youth group.
Speaker 2: We were like leading youth, fucking youth services. I went
Speaker 2: to winter Camp Church winter camp and the music was
Speaker 2: the part that I could get lost in and unexpectedly
Speaker 2: I didn't really anything. I was signing up for this part.
Speaker 2: But there was a pastor at Sunday service. There was
Speaker 2: two and they had they were both men.
Speaker 4: They were both men. I'm from Atlanta, one was from Compton.
Speaker 4: And they preached a little bit.
Speaker 3: They did some word and it was it spoke to me,
Speaker 3: and I was kidding, what was what was like the
Speaker 3: theme of well, what service.
Speaker 4: I've heard a lot of things, but specifically what I
Speaker 4: remember was don't be burnished on fire?
Speaker 1: It was on fire? Yeah, I think it's fine. Right?
Speaker 4: Wait?
Speaker 2: Was oh, basically like, you'll fall and you'll get back
Speaker 2: up again, and you'll fall and you'll get back up again,
Speaker 2: and you'll fall again. But Jesus always forgives. He's constantly forgiving.
Speaker 2: He doesn't care about yesterday, I doesn't care about tomorrow.
Speaker 2: But right now, as long as you're getting back up again,
Speaker 2: getting back up again, then God is merciful, and then
Speaker 2: He's always forgiving you. And I immediately felt like it
Speaker 2: was speaking to me because I was just feeling like, fuck,
Speaker 2: all this talking and I'm just scratching the surface of
Speaker 2: all the shit I have to dig through, all the
Speaker 2: like programming that I've experienced, all the the way I
Speaker 2: all the things I how I react to things emotionally
Speaker 2: body because that's what I'm used.
Speaker 7: To, you know.
Speaker 4: I was just feeling like, when you know, sometimes.
Speaker 2: You just be doing a lot of the same shit
Speaker 2: because that's what you're used to doing. And I'm like
Speaker 2: it just spoke to me like you'll fall and you'll
Speaker 2: get back up again, and every time he's forgiving and
Speaker 2: forgiving and forgiving. And that's how gentle you have to
Speaker 2: be with yourself, you know what I mean. And we
Speaker 2: forget that. We're so hard on ourselves, we're so harsh
Speaker 2: on our expectations of ourselfs, not realizing like we're human.
Speaker 4: So that was a pretty powerful message. The music was powerful.
Speaker 2: It was just the energy was really it was really dynamic,
Speaker 2: and you felt that shit, You felt the presence of
Speaker 2: God and you felt like everybody in the room is
Speaker 2: feeling it. And I always say this, like I'm not religious,
Speaker 2: but I feel like when any group of people puts
Speaker 2: their intentions and their vulnerability and all to worship one
Speaker 2: thing or into one room and inevitably going to feel
Speaker 2: it when you're when you're going to seek, When you
Speaker 2: go seeking message, no matter how it's delivered to you
Speaker 2: from a stranger at a church, from a pastor from
Speaker 2: a conversation, you're going to if you're looking, you'll and
Speaker 2: you're seeking, you're going to find the message that you
Speaker 2: need to hear at that time. So I feel like
Speaker 2: if that's in church, if that's in you know, SRF
Speaker 2: or whatever wherever you go, that if you're open to
Speaker 2: finding the message that's in everyday life, then you'll be
Speaker 2: able to receive.
Speaker 3: I think really at the root of religion, like before
Speaker 3: it became a means to control and you know, influence sway,
Speaker 3: I think that's really what it was. Like that's why
Speaker 3: that's how they were able to package it in a way,
Speaker 3: because we do we feel that whether we feel that
Speaker 3: connection to one another to like, you know, a deeper
Speaker 3: existence than just us, but also this this.
Speaker 1: Like primal feel like.
Speaker 4: Connecting to source.
Speaker 1: Right and the need to feel.
Speaker 2: I don't know, open enough to charge up from it,
Speaker 2: to be filled up from the word, filled up from
Speaker 2: the you know, the gospel.
Speaker 4: Like there's all these like words that we were taught.
Speaker 1: Was it was did he did Kanye Like do you
Speaker 1: say anything? Or did he do music? Or did him
Speaker 1: or what was he do?
Speaker 4: He was there?
Speaker 2: Does he lead it still or is it like no,
Speaker 2: not lead it, but but he leads it at the
Speaker 2: person in the center like leading the choir is another
Speaker 2: man who talks throughout too.
Speaker 4: And you and was like, you know, it doesn't matter
Speaker 4: what you did last night.
Speaker 2: Maybe you smoked some stuff, I know, but maybe you
Speaker 2: drank some stuff you shouldn't. Maybe you late, you woke
Speaker 2: up with somebody didn't want to wake up with. No
Speaker 2: matter what you've done last night, whatever you did yesterday,
Speaker 2: God doesn't care.
Speaker 4: It doesn't matter. Today is what matters.
Speaker 2: You're loved, you know, like, and I think people we
Speaker 2: all need to hear that.
Speaker 4: You know, he was kind of off to the side.
Speaker 2: I think he does like those you know, the buttons
Speaker 2: the mixtape, like you know, and.
Speaker 4: Then he got on he got on the mic.
Speaker 2: He performed a lot of some of the songs from
Speaker 2: Jesus's King you know that chick fil a song which
Speaker 2: you would not stop singing after it.
Speaker 6: I don't really.
Speaker 1: Listened to his album.
Speaker 3: I've listened to like maybe like the beginning of it,
Speaker 3: because I'd like to listen to albums in their sequence.
Speaker 1: And I started playing it and the like I think,
Speaker 1: I like, I don't know what happened. I got distracted or.
Speaker 3: Something, but when I heard him, he's he's an insanely
Speaker 3: he's amazing. Like what I heard, I was like, oh,
Speaker 3: I mean he's always he's just so incredibly talented and unfortunately,
Speaker 3: like we get bogged down by his views and all
Speaker 3: that other shit, but you know, being able to put
Speaker 3: that aside and like see, like what he There's one
Speaker 3: thing you can say about Kanye West is that he
Speaker 3: is able to rise and rise and rise and rise
Speaker 3: again and reinvent and inspire and build and his vision
Speaker 3: he is.
Speaker 1: He is a genius in so many ways.
Speaker 3: I think the annoyance for me is like the fact
Speaker 3: that he always feels the need to have to like
Speaker 3: get everyone's.
Speaker 1: Approval on that.
Speaker 3: I think maybe like it seems like he's I don't know,
Speaker 3: it doesn't matter. The point is it is like I
Speaker 3: think what.
Speaker 1: He's doing is amazing.
Speaker 4: A narcissist, there's that yes, Is that what you're gonna say?
Speaker 1: No? No, no, no. I was just saying like, well, well,
Speaker 1: part of it was this.
Speaker 3: That is like I thought, I feel like, you know,
Speaker 3: he's always needs to be validated as this genius.
Speaker 1: He needs everyone to.
Speaker 3: Saporate where it's like, dude, you we know right, you know, yes, baby,
Speaker 3: you know where they are.
Speaker 1: We'll get him. I don't know what do you do?
Speaker 1: Just open them? Was that door?
Speaker 2: But a part of feels like part of me feels
Speaker 2: like it's low key his persona at this point, Like
Speaker 2: even while I was there, he was performing church on
Speaker 2: Sunday or whatever, and he's like, this is the greatest
Speaker 2: song ever rap song ever made in history.
Speaker 4: That's just how I feel. I'm like, Okay, Kanye, sure, whatever.
Speaker 1: You say, you know, I mean, he's still Kanye.
Speaker 4: He is still Kanye.
Speaker 6: But that's what I'm saying, Like that's almost like branding
Speaker 6: a genius, like he's just turned you know, but that's
Speaker 6: actually who he is and you have to love it.
Speaker 4: You know, you could disagree with a lot of shit.
Speaker 2: He does a lot of extra shit, but like at
Speaker 2: the end of the day, he's an incredibly talented artist,
Speaker 2: and most people like that are like crazy mad geniuses,
Speaker 2: you know.
Speaker 3: Honestly, Like before you invited me to go to that,
Speaker 3: to that, I had been like I was thinking, like,
Speaker 3: I don't know. My mom said something recently to me,
Speaker 3: not too much, just enough thank you. Maybe she'll that'll
Speaker 3: translate to something the chance to shay. She listens pretty good,
Speaker 3: she does.
Speaker 1: I feeling she's gonna pour it. It's all gonna just
Speaker 1: go everywhere. But whatever gets across that bridge, we'll get there.
Speaker 3: She said something about like I remember like there was
Speaker 3: a time like I grew up going to church with
Speaker 3: my dad, like that was our thing. Like I didn't
Speaker 3: see my dad a lot, but when he did pick
Speaker 3: me up on Sundays, that was his thing, like he
Speaker 3: was repenting for his sins of the week and also
Speaker 3: picking up his daughter.
Speaker 1: He hadn't seen.
Speaker 4: I'm going to heaven. Yeah, period, And.
Speaker 3: So I grew up like going to a black church
Speaker 3: like that was my first entry into church.
Speaker 1: The church was like the black the choir, the.
Speaker 3: Music, and I remember before I even understood what any
Speaker 3: of it was like that's what connected to feel it.
Speaker 3: You felt like everyone coming together. You felt like everyone Okay,
Speaker 3: I'll be learned one second. You felt everyone coming together,
Speaker 3: You felt everyone's energy, You felt like people n you
Speaker 3: felt like people needed help and people were getting help.
Speaker 3: And it just felt like a place where I don't know,
Speaker 3: like it just felt like a place even w I
Speaker 3: remember because there was a lot of like people being
Speaker 3: saved and holy ghost and hands raised that never I
Speaker 3: think because I I that never scared me.
Speaker 1: I remember bringing my friends to church with me. Oh
Speaker 1: my god.
Speaker 3: I remember bringing my little like two of my little
Speaker 3: white home girls to church from like Archer School for Girls,
Speaker 3: which is like the super real, like prestigious middle school.
Speaker 3: My mom sent me to and I took them to
Speaker 3: Church of the Harvest, which was at the Palladium at
Speaker 3: the time. Yes, the Palladium was having church also a
Speaker 3: place where people do drugs currently, Like that's where like
Speaker 3: li so just performed.
Speaker 1: Like that's a concert a concert hall.
Speaker 3: Yeah, and people like passing out and ship and speaking
Speaker 3: in tongues and they were all like scared, like first
Speaker 3: was probably.
Speaker 4: The most around of black people they've ever seen.
Speaker 3: They were so scared, and I just kept I was
Speaker 3: like proud. I remember being no, not just proud of
Speaker 3: what It's fine, you guys, this is like totally like
Speaker 3: and being like this is like I don't know, I
Speaker 3: don't I just remember this feeling of like this is
Speaker 3: how we do it.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 3: Also church though too was like confusing to me though,
Speaker 3: because my dad didn't pay attention much.
Speaker 1: He would play games with me all the time.
Speaker 3: And then then at the end would go talk to
Speaker 3: like uh, the like the pre preacher or the pastor
Speaker 3: at the end and go do his like secret like
Speaker 3: private talk or forgiveness or some shit. But I remember like,
Speaker 3: I think my really like, for me, church became negative
Speaker 3: when I got to you know what, I think it
Speaker 3: was my like when I got to high school, when
Speaker 3: I started going to Catholic.
Speaker 4: School, What do you think of it?
Speaker 1: Why?
Speaker 4: Because I think that's interesting.
Speaker 1: It was so different than anything I was used to.
Speaker 2: It was so like, oh, oh, you're saying that your
Speaker 2: church experience at Notre Dame.
Speaker 1: I mean it's not even I didn't even go to church.
Speaker 3: I didn't grow up going to church every Sunday because
Speaker 3: I just also didn't grow up with my dad my mom.
Speaker 1: I also got a different perspective there.
Speaker 5: You go.
Speaker 3: I also got a different perspective because my mom then
Speaker 3: started to go to church throughout on and off throughout
Speaker 3: my life. I felt like started going whenever there was
Speaker 3: like she was going through going through something, and it.
Speaker 1: Was always it was. It was much different than the
Speaker 1: church my dad would take me to. And I never
Speaker 1: liked that church.
Speaker 3: Was it Catholic or regular. It was like non denominational,
Speaker 3: but it was very like it was in the valley.
Speaker 3: It was very Caucasian, and I just remember it very boring.
Speaker 3: It wasn't as exciting as the Black church. There was
Speaker 3: no music like that right there weren't people like just
Speaker 3: it was just like the energy that was in that
Speaker 3: space was not in that space, and it just seemed
Speaker 3: like and then I would go to Bible study, it
Speaker 3: felt like I was in school, right, so then going
Speaker 3: to Catholic school where it is school, it is.
Speaker 1: Like it just changed. It just changed.
Speaker 3: And also like it really like the people that were
Speaker 3: teaching me religion and high school, it was a lot
Speaker 3: of shame involved. It was a lot of shame. It
Speaker 3: was a lot of guilt. It was really guilt driven,
Speaker 3: like if you don't do this, then this is what happens,
Speaker 3: and if you don't like believe in this, then you're
Speaker 3: going to hell or like you're not a good or
Speaker 3: you need to do more work so you can be
Speaker 3: a better person.
Speaker 2: That was absolutely where I was like, ah, I'm cool
Speaker 2: to the point where because I was doing bad things
Speaker 2: and then I felt and then they would tell me
Speaker 2: things like when you're in one of g when you're
Speaker 2: one of God's children, he also will punish you when
Speaker 2: you're doing.
Speaker 4: Wrong, and like so stupid.
Speaker 2: Now I got caught like two times in a row
Speaker 2: snaking a boy in my room, were having sex or anything,
Speaker 2: and I got caught twice and I was like, oh,
Speaker 2: this is cause I'm I'm a Christian. Now God is
Speaker 2: not gonna let me get away with this. And I
Speaker 2: was like praying on my knees. Oh my God.
Speaker 6: I know. But there's a lot of reasons I'm turned
Speaker 6: off by it. The guilt, the shame.
Speaker 2: There's so many things that come naturally to us as
Speaker 2: women and as people, sexuality, sensuality, being in touch with that, Like,
Speaker 2: I don't like to I don't think in any situation
Speaker 2: you should be guilted in doing anything. There should be
Speaker 2: no if you do this, you're gonna go to heaven.
Speaker 2: If you don't, you're gonna go to hell. That makes
Speaker 2: me feel uncomfortable. I feel like it's like trying to
Speaker 2: make a fearful people, and I think that's like a
Speaker 2: fear tactic.
Speaker 4: I don't believe in that, so I but also I went.
Speaker 2: To that winter church camp and the last day they
Speaker 2: started speaking in tongues and then they were like like
Speaker 2: trying to really pressure us into catching our tongues too,
Speaker 2: and we just weren't catching the tongues, and like to
Speaker 2: the point they went on the way, like we went
Speaker 2: back to the cabin and they were still trying to
Speaker 2: force the tongue speaking.
Speaker 1: That's too much.
Speaker 4: It was too much. And then one time my youth
Speaker 4: pastor said something.
Speaker 2: About my cleavage. Of course, you know I'm gonna huci
Speaker 2: since I came out the wound. So I was just like,
Speaker 2: why are you looking at my cleavage? This is strange,
Speaker 2: Like I wasn't even thinking about it.
Speaker 1: You're not, You're never thinking about it.
Speaker 4: Then there's then there's.
Speaker 2: Like the black side of me that like I associate
Speaker 2: I associate like Christianity with like their their tactic to
Speaker 2: make like slaves, like give them a little something, but
Speaker 2: take away their freedom.
Speaker 3: I totally cannot wait. So if you is your history
Speaker 3: with the church in Catholicism.
Speaker 1: No, did you go to church?
Speaker 3: I went to Catholic schools, right, But did you go
Speaker 3: to church like in Philly or did you I.
Speaker 4: Went to I always went.
Speaker 2: I went to church with my grandmother and I think
Speaker 2: she I don't even know like Baptists. And then when
Speaker 2: I moved here, my dad is and I grew up
Speaker 2: in a very anti Christian family. My dad was like, hey,
Speaker 2: no Jesus, some white man that is not like it
Speaker 2: was like some some of white man made it that a
Speaker 2: long time ago, and everybody believed it, and that made sense.
Speaker 4: To me that as I got older, but then I
Speaker 4: don't know what happened.
Speaker 2: Eighth grade, I got into it, but as I became
Speaker 2: more aware it doesn't.
Speaker 4: It didn't sit well with me.
Speaker 2: This huge white, blue whyed, blonde haired figure looking really
Speaker 2: sad down at me from the cross, Like when I
Speaker 2: went to Lutheran school.
Speaker 1: In seventh grade, I went to you know.
Speaker 2: Catholics high school, and I just it just made me uneasy.
Speaker 2: And the fact that like, I mean, black people are
Speaker 2: really really into Jesus. And then like definitely in the South,
Speaker 2: then I went to I went to church all the
Speaker 2: way up into like college, but like towards the end
Speaker 2: before I moved from Atlanta, I was like kind of
Speaker 2: getting just after the music was over, I'd be like
Speaker 2: kind of ready to go. They start talking about putting
Speaker 2: money in the pan, and like sometimes I'd say shit
Speaker 2: about gays, and then it would just turn me off,
Speaker 2: you know, because I don't believe in any religion there
Speaker 2: should be any room for hating anyone marginalizing a people.
Speaker 3: I remember watching my dad put money and it was
Speaker 3: always he never put less than one hundred dollars, and
Speaker 3: it was usually two or three. And I always remember like, WHOA,
Speaker 3: that's like that's a lot of money. And I was
Speaker 3: like thinking, like why.
Speaker 1: Do we like?
Speaker 3: And I'd see like because I'd see him put this
Speaker 3: money and then I see the next person and be
Speaker 3: like five dollars, and I see the next person it
Speaker 3: might be like ten dollars, and I'm like, WHOA, why
Speaker 3: does my dad feel like he must deliver this much?
Speaker 3: I mean, is he I mean, obviously he's giving what
Speaker 3: his percentages?
Speaker 1: Well, they tell you, no, I know that's what I mean.
Speaker 1: That's what I mean. But like he's really following that.
Speaker 1: And my dad grew up in the South, you.
Speaker 3: Know, he went he grew up in church, and it
Speaker 3: was like, I feel like he went to church out
Speaker 3: of just habit because that's what you're.
Speaker 1: Supposed to do.
Speaker 3: And like for me, like when I when I went,
Speaker 3: and I did enjoy it, like I enjoyed the energy.
Speaker 3: I wouldn't I wouldn't say I really like paid. I
Speaker 3: guess I did pay attention to the message. But once
Speaker 3: we started opening up the book and reading shit, I
Speaker 3: got kind of lost and I remember Sunday school was
Speaker 3: really a.
Speaker 1: Time just to flirt with boys. But I don't know
Speaker 1: like more more recently lately.
Speaker 3: Honestly, in the past, I would say, I mean, I've
Speaker 3: I think, like because I had Catholic school kind of
Speaker 3: steered me away from religion and a say, in a
Speaker 3: sense in my early twenties, I started like thinking thinking
Speaker 3: more about what my like what I did believe in,
Speaker 3: and I was like, Okay, I'm a spiritual person.
Speaker 1: Okay, but what does that actually mean? What does it
Speaker 1: mean to be spiritual?
Speaker 3: Is it just that, like you know, I ask for things,
Speaker 3: I talked to this imaginary thing every now and then,
Speaker 3: or I believe that there's something bigger than me that
Speaker 3: besides me. Who like, what is what exactly it is
Speaker 3: my spirituality? How do I define it? And I've gotten
Speaker 3: in and out of like trying to figure that out.
Speaker 3: But recently, I just I've been feeling called to go
Speaker 3: to church in some capacity, whether it's church or a
Speaker 3: space that I can go and.
Speaker 2: Be committed to devote.
Speaker 3: Devote to that, to figuring out what that means, what
Speaker 3: that what the spirituality means, and exploring that more because
Speaker 3: there's just been too many times where I've been like, wow,
Speaker 3: shit just is working out. Something is looking the fuck
Speaker 3: out for me. And it's not just by chance, and
Speaker 3: it's not just by accident or because I'm a good
Speaker 3: person or car or luck. And it's like I feel
Speaker 3: like I've been feeling called to like honor that in
Speaker 3: some way because I should, and I'm grateful for it.
Speaker 3: I feel like, okay, if maybe there's more and more,
Speaker 3: there's more to it, you know, and so but I've
Speaker 3: been feeling conflicted about it. And that's why I really
Speaker 3: actually was looking forward to going to Kanye's thing because
Speaker 3: I did hear like it's it is although it is
Speaker 3: like church in a way, like it's the church that
Speaker 3: I think that I remembered and loved right and when
Speaker 3: you put when I saw those videos and I heard
Speaker 3: the music, it almost like feels like that kind that's
Speaker 3: what really unlocked it for me when I was a kid,
Speaker 3: and that's why I really loved it and I felt
Speaker 3: connected to something.
Speaker 1: And if you can.
Speaker 3: Sprinkle some motivation some you know, some other like deep
Speaker 3: shit in there, I am in. But I just I
Speaker 3: have to find what that means to me and where
Speaker 3: that means to me I'm like, where do I find
Speaker 3: this perfect balance of all the things I need in la?
Speaker 3: I think that hundred dollars Kanye, Yeah.
Speaker 4: Yeah, No, well no, I just I don't know. I
Speaker 4: don't even think he charges.
Speaker 1: He does. Ashley bought tickets.
Speaker 4: She did, yes, Oh I thought it was free.
Speaker 1: Oh no, we could just go to the forum for
Speaker 1: free and show up.
Speaker 4: Well it was church. Wow, I'm one hundred dollars.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, this was a new come up.
Speaker 4: Oh wow, I didn't know that. I thought I was. Yeah.
Speaker 4: I think that.
Speaker 2: We rarely get to go to a space amongst other
Speaker 2: people and then like bear ourselves and like take off
Speaker 2: the load of the day, take off the stress, take
Speaker 2: off what you did yesterday, take it off unloaded, and
Speaker 2: bear it. Like there's not a lot of places that
Speaker 2: were willing to be completely.
Speaker 4: Naked.
Speaker 3: Well, we're all here because we want to do something.
Speaker 3: We want to do some unpacking.
Speaker 2: And I think that was which was what was really
Speaker 2: beautiful about Kanye, because it is still Kanye.
Speaker 4: So it's like, is this a concert? Is his church?
Speaker 2: But people are like like that's another thing for raising
Speaker 2: of hands, the dropping of knees. Like, to me, that's
Speaker 2: saying like I'm coming and I'm dropping all of my
Speaker 2: everything that I have, like all the all the the
Speaker 2: faces and the masks that we put up every day
Speaker 2: all the time, not even realizing.
Speaker 7: It just comes to a place and you could just
Speaker 7: like let go of all that and be like I'm
Speaker 7: here and I'm laying down everything, and I'm asking for this,
Speaker 7: and I'm you know what I mean, Like that's a
Speaker 7: really beautiful thing.
Speaker 2: I I think that wherever you go to seek, you
Speaker 2: will find it. Like I've practiced Buddhism, I've chanted namio
Speaker 2: hole range Kio. I've been to Buddhists like spaces and
Speaker 2: you go in front of a scroll and you ring
Speaker 2: three bells and you nomio ho range geykio as many
Speaker 2: times as you can, and that shit seems strange in
Speaker 2: a room full a lot of people. But then like
Speaker 2: there's this powerful movement of this. It's like they call
Speaker 2: it a miss this mystics being mysticness. And which other
Speaker 2: place is like sr F, We've been there. It's by
Speaker 2: Malibu and the Canyon Lake Shrine.
Speaker 1: Okay, that's what it's called.
Speaker 4: Yeah, s re F. It's like self realization fellowship all
Speaker 4: paths that oh.
Speaker 1: I've walked over there. I did met it. Actually I
Speaker 1: went there with my friend.
Speaker 3: The lawn and we meditated there and then we went
Speaker 3: They have like this bookstore and they talk about like
Speaker 3: the guy who founded it actually have his booked, right.
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I always see yeah and Pamahansa Yogananda. But
Speaker 2: I really feel like there is this omni present spirit
Speaker 2: amongst all of us that connects us, that's in God,
Speaker 2: that's in our ancestors, that's in our angels, that's in
Speaker 2: our kids, that's amongst people. And I so whenever we
Speaker 2: can acknowledge that and give it power, it's so it's
Speaker 2: also giving ourselves power and that you know, like there's obviously.
Speaker 4: Something bigger than us.
Speaker 2: But I think sometimes we get I get stuck on
Speaker 2: the fact, like why we got to calm he him?
Speaker 1: Who?
Speaker 2: Like like what, why does it have to be Jesus,
Speaker 2: Jesus Christ, our Lord, our savior. Those words make me uncomfortable.
Speaker 2: And I know for some people that's like, oh no,
Speaker 2: she's a heathen.
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 3: I believe that there's a lot of godly people that
Speaker 3: have walked this earth, a lot of healers, a lot
Speaker 3: of people that possess supernatural abilities beyond the realm of
Speaker 3: this world even tonight, like looking up at the like
Speaker 3: I came outside while you were cooking, and I was
Speaker 3: looking at the moon and it was just like, it's
Speaker 3: just this this orb that's connected to us and controlling
Speaker 3: like I was saying, like controlling the ocean.
Speaker 1: How can we think.
Speaker 3: That it doesn't control us that we're not connected to.
Speaker 3: If we're connect we're If we're connected to that, how
Speaker 3: many other things are we connected to that we don't
Speaker 3: even realize it? Then that's why energy is so important.
Speaker 3: We are all connected. Everything we're connected to. I'm connected
Speaker 3: to this fucking because it came from a tree that
Speaker 3: you know.
Speaker 1: You know what I mean?
Speaker 4: Like, well, because they're all man out of the same shit.
Speaker 3: I know, it's just we're particles and cells and atoms.
Speaker 3: I just feel like I don't know, like there are
Speaker 3: I believe there have been holy men like Jesus or
Speaker 3: Buddha or whoever. And there's not just one specifically that
Speaker 3: I don't know if there's one person or thing I
Speaker 3: would worship.
Speaker 1: It's more like I honor energy.
Speaker 4: I see the God in you.
Speaker 2: I see the God, you know, like these are just
Speaker 2: you have the honor energy, you have the honor what
Speaker 2: comes natural to you, and I don't. Sometimes I get
Speaker 2: stuck between, like, do we need like discernment? Do we
Speaker 2: need discipline in certain areas? Absolutely, But I also feel
Speaker 2: like there's so much to learn and being free and
Speaker 2: honoring all parts of yourselves because there's like, there's things
Speaker 2: in Muslim culture I can really appreciate. There's things in
Speaker 2: a lot of different cultures I can appreciate where But
Speaker 2: then sometimes I see Muslim women all covered, and I'm like.
Speaker 3: Because I think inevitably that feeling eventually gets manipulated in
Speaker 3: some way no offense, like I somewhat in all religions
Speaker 3: and all in some ways there's a controlling.
Speaker 4: Aspect of any system. There's going to be people who
Speaker 4: take advantage of that system.
Speaker 3: Yeah, And I'm not saying that because there's beauty in
Speaker 3: all of it, and I get that there's discipline in
Speaker 3: all of it, which you know could be argued, which
Speaker 3: is why women have to wear this and whatever. But
Speaker 3: like I think that, I don't know, is it sad
Speaker 3: to think that? Is it human nature to just want
Speaker 3: to control?
Speaker 5: Oh?
Speaker 2: I always battle this in my head. I battle what
Speaker 2: is human that's our fault. Yeah, Like what is human nature?
Speaker 1: Is that our one fault? Like not one? But like
Speaker 1: obvious there's more? But is that the core of like.
Speaker 2: Like no, but like if I give Erica a seventy
Speaker 2: percent power over a system, are you going to inevitably
Speaker 2: abuse it?
Speaker 3: No?
Speaker 4: I would hate to say that, Like I would say, like,
Speaker 4: you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: Does it just take one bad apple to ruin the bunch?
Speaker 4: Are they just some fucked up people?
Speaker 1: That's what I mean?
Speaker 2: Like, I don't know, Yeah, Like do do some people
Speaker 2: actually need religion because they can't gauge just a regular
Speaker 2: ethical moral compass of love by fucking neighbor because it
Speaker 2: seems pretty much given? But then we see that it's not.
Speaker 2: And I would like to say that's the route because
Speaker 2: people have been hurt and so they act out and
Speaker 2: hurt other people.
Speaker 4: But are people just born that way? Like do people?
Speaker 4: Like do people need these systems to be moral?
Speaker 1: This the systems of what we're religio religion? N I know,
Speaker 1: I don't think so. I don't think so.
Speaker 4: I don't think so either. I mean because I'm sure
Speaker 4: Christians kill?
Speaker 1: What do you mean You're sure? Right?
Speaker 4: I'm like, yeah, so you're not exempt, No.
Speaker 3: But I do believe that, Okay, I don't know. Like,
Speaker 3: so I battle this because I want to believe that
Speaker 3: everyone is born pure, that we're all given the same
Speaker 3: opportunity the like in like once we're born, like in
Speaker 3: a perfect world, right, I think even in a perfect
Speaker 3: world you can have the perfect everything. I think just
Speaker 3: like there's people that are born and just I don't know,
Speaker 3: I do believe like.
Speaker 1: Evil can be born as well. Oh for sure, it's
Speaker 1: not like everyone is just pure.
Speaker 4: But then it's like, where does that come from?
Speaker 2: That a past life, reliving something, living something out I
Speaker 2: just think, okay, and then that's another thing. Religion, So okay,
Speaker 2: what is religion at its core? Religion is so quick
Speaker 2: to frown their nose that that really anything witchcraft, witchery
Speaker 2: like brew.
Speaker 7: Ha.
Speaker 4: But at the end of the day.
Speaker 1: That depends what religion.
Speaker 2: But yeah, yeah, true, But like all of it is ritualistic,
Speaker 2: the blood of Christ, the blood and body of Christ.
Speaker 2: Like that's strange, you know. So it's just like it's
Speaker 2: circumclis and all of them. Yeah, oh God, don't get
Speaker 2: me started. I watched this documentary Orthodox Jews.
Speaker 1: I don't want to talk about it. I told you no,
Speaker 1: but I already know a lot.
Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, okay, I gotta say it. We're talking about religion.
Speaker 2: We can't skip over it. I don't think they do
Speaker 2: it well. I know most people don't do it anymore.
Speaker 6: But very early on, in very extreme situations, the rabbi
Speaker 6: would cut the baby and then put his mouth on
Speaker 6: the penis to I don't fucking know what.
Speaker 3: I don't know.
Speaker 1: I know, I know, I'm not.
Speaker 3: I don't mean to laugh, but like, no, it's not
Speaker 3: it's it's not a laughing matter.
Speaker 1: But that's their tradition.
Speaker 2: Yeah, and then there's another there's another Orthodoxy Jewish tradition
Speaker 2: where they.
Speaker 4: Match the husband in life. They get married, they.
Speaker 2: Go in another room while their entire wedding party waits
Speaker 2: out in front of the dwarfs for her to consummate
Speaker 2: the marriage. So essentially, your whole family is waiting for
Speaker 2: you to fuck in the next room and then you
Speaker 2: come out. No, they put a hole in your dress
Speaker 2: so you can stick it through. Then they come on
Speaker 2: like oh opah, and everybody knows. Basically just like your
Speaker 2: cherry pop in the other room, and then you have
Speaker 2: a party and I was like, whoa, And I think that's.
Speaker 1: Been going on for centuries.
Speaker 3: But there's different and many different religions though not just
Speaker 3: orthodoxed no, but there's a.
Speaker 2: Lot of like we've seen pedophilia, sexual magic and acts
Speaker 2: that are taking place in religious like.
Speaker 4: So much. It can all get murky, It can get
Speaker 4: it can all get murky.
Speaker 3: Even the witchiest of the witchy shit. It gets a
Speaker 3: little scary too.
Speaker 2: Well, No, that is scary when you're you can deal,
Speaker 2: when you're dealing, when you're dealing.
Speaker 4: In harnessing energy.
Speaker 2: It can get murky if you have bad intentions. But
Speaker 2: at the very root of it, all the ritualistic and
Speaker 2: the sacrifices, it all comes from some like rather pagan
Speaker 2: ass shit. It's true.
Speaker 1: All it takes is one dark thought and then that
Speaker 1: thought turns.
Speaker 4: Into hmm, no, well everybody has dark thoughts.
Speaker 1: No, but I mean, but some people act on them. Okay,
Speaker 1: well some people don't, you know. That's the difference in sanity.
Speaker 1: I have a lot of weird fucking thoughts. Okay, do
Speaker 1: I do them all?
Speaker 4: Thank God?
Speaker 1: No? Okank god?
Speaker 4: No, I don't know if we just confused ourselves bad now,
Speaker 4: I sound.
Speaker 1: Like a creep. What kind of thoughts? Is air? Fuck
Speaker 1: is going on?
Speaker 4: Everybody has crazy thoughts.
Speaker 2: You're not alone and you're crazy thoughts.
Speaker 4: Just don't act on them if they're crazy. Okay, So
Speaker 4: because I felt, okay, what would you do? What?
Speaker 1: What?
Speaker 2: How are you going to instill spirituality or religion in
Speaker 2: your child? Because I realized what I took. I mean
Speaker 2: Erica and I took Luna to Sunday service. She was
Speaker 2: so over it.
Speaker 1: She was like, how would she into it?
Speaker 4: At first though, she was just like whatever, this is?
Speaker 4: This the last song?
Speaker 2: And I was like, and she would try to sing
Speaker 2: some of the songs she knew, but she was well,
Speaker 2: you know, she could have also been just trying to
Speaker 2: be a fret.
Speaker 1: But could she sit or was she standing the whole time?
Speaker 4: Okay?
Speaker 6: I picked her up because sometimes other people were standing
Speaker 6: so she couldn't see.
Speaker 1: But I'm being that small having all these people stand around.
Speaker 4: You sounds.
Speaker 2: Are we supposed to be taking the kids to church
Speaker 2: so they know some sense of the Lord. Because I
Speaker 2: was like, she doesn't know anything about church?
Speaker 1: She was like, what's happening? I always been asked them
Speaker 1: about God lately too? Oh my gosh, what did she say?
Speaker 3: Said the sweetest thing the other day, which also touched
Speaker 3: my heart in a way where I was like, okay,
Speaker 3: like I'm letting her lead this conversation. In some ways,
Speaker 3: I want to see what her like. I know that
Speaker 3: people or there's inevitably someone has told her what God is,
Speaker 3: whether or not I know it or not, whether it's
Speaker 3: at school or you know. But right like, we were
Speaker 3: looking at the sun and she was like, look at
Speaker 3: the sunset, mommy, and she was like, how is it
Speaker 3: that color? And I was like I don't. I couldn't think,
Speaker 3: and I was like I don't know. She's like I know,
Speaker 3: and I was like what. She's like, it's God and
Speaker 3: I was like, wow, yes, it is God. And the
Speaker 3: other day she asked me there was something else and
Speaker 3: she had said something about God or is.
Speaker 1: That what God is? Is God in the sky? Where
Speaker 1: is God?
Speaker 4: Imagine her child? How foreign and strange is.
Speaker 1: Is he coming to dinner? Who can keeps on talking
Speaker 1: about him?
Speaker 4: I haven't seen it?
Speaker 1: When do we meet him? What the fun do you mean?
Speaker 7: Like?
Speaker 4: Why does he look like a bird.
Speaker 3: She hasn't asked me all those questions yet, but I
Speaker 3: think she understands that it's bigger than us, that it's
Speaker 3: not like someone that's gonna that's coming over anytime soon, right,
Speaker 3: you know that he you know that he's around and
Speaker 3: he's or she is responsible or it or whatever is
Speaker 3: responsible for you know, beauty and things we can't explain.
Speaker 1: So I don't know, it's interesting. I don't know. I
Speaker 1: want her to believe that. I want her to I
Speaker 1: want her to believe in the power of energy me too, and.
Speaker 4: Really the power of beautiful things happening.
Speaker 3: Beautiful things happening in connection, and really that it's all
Speaker 3: inside of you, because truly, that's what it is. And
Speaker 3: it's just like, I don't know, we spend so much
Speaker 3: time looking outwardly and trying to find this bigger purpose
Speaker 3: going on all these that not to knock anything or
Speaker 3: about trying to go on retreats or like, you know,
Speaker 3: trying to find something because we all get to that
Speaker 3: in different ways. But really it's just it's always here.
Speaker 3: It's always been here, and it's just trying to remember
Speaker 3: that or know what that even feels like when you
Speaker 3: find it, being like, oh that's.
Speaker 4: It, right, Oh, I feel connected.
Speaker 5: Hm.
Speaker 1: But I don't know if I don't know. I'm gonna
Speaker 1: if anybody is listening right now, if.
Speaker 3: You live in the LA area and you know of
Speaker 3: some sort of place of worship, I should explore.
Speaker 1: I'm going on a tour.
Speaker 4: I feel like all the black people and m I
Speaker 4: go to one particular sho.
Speaker 1: I know it's called like the one, the one right, Yeah, No,
Speaker 1: I'm cool on that one.
Speaker 4: It was nice when I went. I was too high
Speaker 4: that day to like be into religion.
Speaker 1: I was just like, it seems I feel like that's
Speaker 1: also a scene.
Speaker 4: It is a scene.
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to go to LA everything is No.
Speaker 3: It's not I want to go to the SRF. Okay
Speaker 3: a is bomb that seeing like a scene when.
Speaker 4: I went, But the music is not going to be
Speaker 4: like what you're trying to get.
Speaker 3: I know.
Speaker 1: That's the thing. Where do I get the whole balance
Speaker 1: of it all?
Speaker 8: Is can Kanye Kanye like I even Kanye Choir elaborate
Speaker 8: with self Realization's fellowship at Lake Shrine.
Speaker 4: Let's put that out in the universe.
Speaker 1: I'm going to start my own quo Sia, starting my
Speaker 1: own choir? Is that is my first.
Speaker 4: Know when you're.
Speaker 5: No.
Speaker 3: Honestly though, I mean, I I think, I think, I'm
Speaker 3: like I honestly like, there's been so many times, especially
Speaker 3: the last time was in Atlanta, like when we were
Speaker 3: out there, like I finally just surrendered and I believed.
Speaker 3: I was like, something bigger is going to make this okay.
Speaker 3: It's going to be fine, and I know it's not
Speaker 3: a coincidence when it happens. And then it happened, and
Speaker 3: I told myself, if it happened in a way, made
Speaker 3: a promise, not a promise. But I was like, like,
Speaker 3: I can't ignore this anymore. I have to do something
Speaker 3: about this. I feel called to do something about it.
Speaker 3: So that's why even when you invited me, it felt like, whoa,
Speaker 3: that's weird because I've been literally thinking about this and
Speaker 3: we don't talk about religion, I mean you, because we
Speaker 3: don't talk about talk about religion, you know, so I
Speaker 3: hadn't told you that yet.
Speaker 1: So I was like, this is so weird non religious relationship.
Speaker 1: I guess to me our parents we're also on our
Speaker 1: religion together.
Speaker 4: Jesus Christ, Oh my goodness.
Speaker 2: I just think, really what it is is like for
Speaker 2: for me, for Lunin, for the kids. It's just letting
Speaker 2: her know that divine things happen when you allow them to.
Speaker 2: There have been so I'm not really like religious, but like,
Speaker 2: there are things.
Speaker 4: That happen all the time where I was like, it's yesterday.
Speaker 1: I remember that name that popped up when we're talking about.
Speaker 4: Oh right, right, that was so weird. It's God, like, Hai,
Speaker 4: I'm around, it's me here.
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm showing myself believe it.
Speaker 6: Even that moment that you're talking about in Atlanta when.
Speaker 4: We were bad, we were in.
Speaker 2: A bad situation and Erica usually be stressing the fuck out,
Speaker 2: and this is a good valid reason to stress the
Speaker 2: funk out, Like they're gonna come get this ship. We're
Speaker 2: gonna have to pay another day and we don't have
Speaker 2: the money for this ship, and you're like everything else
Speaker 2: has worked itself out, It's gonna work out. And I
Speaker 2: was like, hmm, that's new, but you're right, so okay,
Speaker 2: Like I'm always like, well, if you can't do anything
Speaker 2: about it.
Speaker 1: You just be.
Speaker 6: And literally that was the defining moment in our in
Speaker 6: our fucking manifesting of shit happening for us, because looking
Speaker 6: for Jamel not having, not having, like he'm not answering the.
Speaker 4: Phone for hours or at all.
Speaker 6: We've only met him like twice at this point, and
Speaker 6: we see this man walk through this place.
Speaker 2: It was just so crazy. I mean, I want our
Speaker 2: kids to know that's there's something someone rooting for you.
Speaker 2: So have faith in that and follow that and don't
Speaker 2: miss any messages from anyone and any small thing that
Speaker 2: seems a little bit missed it.
Speaker 1: I have a question, irin, what is God?
Speaker 4: Oh kind of people? That makes people?
Speaker 1: People? That makes people? Because God as people? Okay, where's God?
Speaker 1: And God in God? God is in God? Kay? Does God?
Speaker 1: Where God? Where does God live in God?
Speaker 6: Oh?
Speaker 1: Okay?
Speaker 7: Cool? I like that.
Speaker 1: It's a good description. Well, on that note, it's late.
Speaker 1: I gotta put this little one to sleep.
Speaker 4: No, yes, but I love you.
Speaker 1: Oh you're out. I love you too.
Speaker 4: Ooh it's here, Oh my god. Oh oh more.
Speaker 2: If you are in the LA area, come hang out
Speaker 2: with us on Saturday nights at a simple bar off
Speaker 2: a Kawenga in Hollywood Hills actually.
Speaker 1: Like Studio City, not what like. I don't even know
Speaker 1: how they got across it.
Speaker 4: That's it goes up. It's like the hill Us. It's
Speaker 4: in a little plaza. It's cool.
Speaker 1: It's a dope.
Speaker 2: Bar.
Speaker 3: They play hip hop and the drinks are good, and
Speaker 3: we'll be there. We'll be there hanging out nine thirty
Speaker 3: ish nine pm nine.
Speaker 2: I think we already committed to nine Yeah you know
Speaker 2: really yeah, we'd be late nine thirty.
Speaker 4: Don't get there and not say hi. That's weird.
Speaker 3: Yeah, please don't do that, Like, just come say hi. Work,
Speaker 3: That's why we're all there. We're all there to say hi.
Speaker 5: Oh.
Speaker 2: Also, bring a single friend, bring a tender date, a
Speaker 2: hinge date.
Speaker 1: Maybe that person that's been in that inbox that you're like, I.
Speaker 3: Don't know should I do it? Where should we meet?
Speaker 3: I don't want to like be weird. Just invite them there,
Speaker 3: simple bar. We'll vet them for you.
Speaker 1: We're professionals, professional tender vetters.
Speaker 2: Any other announcements, Oh yeah, we have a big announcednage.
Speaker 3: Sure, dude, after one complete year of really strategic have
Speaker 3: been one year, it's been a minute, I think, so
Speaker 3: I don't even think we It doesn't matter.
Speaker 2: The point is we stalked and stalked and stocked like
Speaker 2: we always do.
Speaker 1: The point is is just do it.
Speaker 4: It's God.
Speaker 7: Just ask.
Speaker 1: If you don't ask, then you'll never know. This is
Speaker 1: We're proof of that. Okay, this podcast is proof of that.
Speaker 3: Just everything that we're doing is proof that if you
Speaker 3: just try and just fucking ask and don't just do it,
Speaker 3: just do it like Nike. Anyway, we have fucking Sean
Speaker 3: King coming on our podcast.
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's right, you heard her.
Speaker 2: Sean King is coming on Good Mom's Bad Choices.
Speaker 3: Yes, and we're so excited because we've been following him
Speaker 3: for a minute. I just have so many questions, and
Speaker 3: I'm sure maybe you guys do too, So please please email,
Speaker 3: please email us any question, you have, anything you want,
Speaker 3: just go for it.
Speaker 1: This is your time. If you've ever.
Speaker 3: Wanted to ask Seaun King anything, or social activist or
Speaker 3: a black man, or a father or just an overall
Speaker 3: just educated human some shit.
Speaker 1: Here you go. You're welcome.
Speaker 2: Seaun King baby will be in New York.
Speaker 3: Yeah, next week we will. So if you're out there,
Speaker 3: let us know. Okay, let's go do some shit.
Speaker 4: Let's go get into some shit.
Speaker 1: Oh my god, are we gonna have a New York
Speaker 1: meet up?
Speaker 4: I feel like we don't have any time, but we
Speaker 4: need to maybe just like a just like a bar,
Speaker 4: a happy hour, meet us a happy hour.
Speaker 2: We actually have to we just announced it, so if
Speaker 2: you have any happy hour suggestions.
Speaker 1: Please let us know.
Speaker 3: Yeah, anyway, anyway, we will catch you guys next week.
Speaker 1: I told you I'm your littery.
Speaker 3: Don't need some ticketsh mama, Please, you're comforted with my
Speaker 3: sheep found It's like a crush appreaching.
Speaker 1: Never led on me, My mama, she inspired me like you.
Speaker 3: Good woman.
Speaker 5: She could say the world, but tell me who gone
Speaker 5: save her?
Speaker 4: Who gone save her?
Speaker 2: Blessing woman.
Speaker 1: She could say the world, but tell me