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Speaker 5: I'm broke arow gotta make a big hand, A time

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Speaker 5: to quill. I'm gonna make a meal. I don't need

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Speaker 5: a deal by my mama house and a brand new car,

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Speaker 5: myself a crib pay all the bills. She never had

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Speaker 5: to work to live. She never had to work to

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Speaker 5: live all I ever wanted was a break, never wanted

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Speaker 5: a hand out.

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Speaker 6: I keep my head up.

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Speaker 4: I sweat.

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Speaker 5: I hate asking for a favor, even though I need help.

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Speaker 5: My God, it's me now, Mama race fol kids on

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Speaker 5: her own, two baby.

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Speaker 3: Daddies both welcome back to good mom's bad choices.

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Speaker 4: I'm Erica and I'm Mila.

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Speaker 3: And it's Wednesday, bitches, Happy hump Day, Happy hump Day.

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Speaker 2: I hope somebody is getting humped tonight or this morning.

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Speaker 2: Me too.

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Speaker 4: Speaking of humping, I was reading one of Beileed Jay's.

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Speaker 2: Posts and she was just saying that she sometimes she's

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Speaker 2: feeling like she wants really deep connections sexually, sometimes she

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Speaker 2: just wants like very.

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Speaker 4: Surface day physical connections.

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Speaker 2: And I was like, that's so interesting, because like we

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Speaker 2: actually really do go through seasons, you know, like sometimes

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Speaker 2: I want to have deep spiritual sex and sometimes it

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Speaker 2: could just be like a casual encounter. And that's fine too,

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Speaker 2: but sometimes I think you need different things.

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Speaker 3: I agree, because there was a time in a season

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Speaker 3: where all I really wanted was to have really.

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Speaker 1: What maybe say something go lay down.

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Speaker 3: I'm going to, but I have to told you, I

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Speaker 3: have to finish and then I'll be in there.

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Speaker 1: Okay, please go lay down. She's so tired.

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Speaker 3: I know she's she's literally staring, like hanging on for

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Speaker 3: dear life as I'm talking about my sexual seasons.

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Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, go it there, Okay, good girl.

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Speaker 3: There was a point in like my entry into singleness

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Speaker 3: where I really just wanted to have like aggressive, disrespectful sex,

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Speaker 3: honestly and now, and that's really all I wanted. Like

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Speaker 3: I noticed that with every person that I had sex with,

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Speaker 3: that that's what I wanted, to the point where I

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Speaker 3: almost felt bad about it, Like I was like, what

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Speaker 3: does this say about me?

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Speaker 1: What's what's happening to me?

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Speaker 3: But and then like now I'm in a place where

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Speaker 3: like I still want that, but I like also need variation.

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Speaker 3: Then there's times where like all I want to do

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Speaker 3: I just don't even want to have sex, Like I

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Speaker 3: don't even feel like being touched. And yeah, I think

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Speaker 3: not to judge yourself, because I definitely did.

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Speaker 1: And now looking back, I'm like, why.

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Speaker 2: Just do it, Just be in it, just do what

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Speaker 2: she fulfills you. In that moment, maybe explore why. But

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Speaker 2: sometimes it's just what you want, some weird, freaky, kinky

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Speaker 2: thought that was a cool subject. I hadn't thought about

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Speaker 2: it in that like, it's going to change your appetite

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Speaker 2: for and your needs are going to change. And I

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Speaker 2: think we've been taught to shame the part of us

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Speaker 2: that's like lusting, lusty and wanting just kinky casual sex.

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Speaker 4: But that is just a.

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Speaker 2: Part of the human nature. Sometimes it's what you need.

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Speaker 2: You do yourself a service, denying yourself. I feel like, anyway,

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Speaker 2: that's all because we said happy hump Day, we can

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Speaker 2: real deep already.

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Speaker 1: I can deep, bitch. I'm tired, Like I really, you

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Speaker 1: aren't getting deep at nine thirty pm.

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Speaker 4: You know what early?

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Speaker 1: Nine thirty isn't I thirty?

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Speaker 4: It feels much later, I know, but like.

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Speaker 1: Oh god, my daughter's awake.

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Speaker 2: God damn it.

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Speaker 4: I know I didn't.

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Speaker 2: Really Yeah, God, honestly, the school shit's kicking my ass.

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Speaker 4: I'm tired, bitch. I'm tired as fuck.

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Speaker 1: Welcome to the club.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I I've been like this morning. I woke up

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Speaker 3: to exercise. I'm like, my moms do this shit. They

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Speaker 1: Early, you know.

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Speaker 3: And I'm like, I'm literally waking up to wake her

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Speaker 3: maybe if I started waking up earlier, I just have

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Speaker 3: to make it a habit. I know once I do it.

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Speaker 3: Like I remember waking up around six am for a

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Speaker 2: You know, the way I look dropping off londing to

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Speaker 2: I feel I have to really step my game up

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Speaker 2: because in the morning it's so I just literally roll out.

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Speaker 2: Sometimes I'm just wearing a hood and like.

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Speaker 1: What are the other moms are like.

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Speaker 4: Stylish full dress?

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Speaker 1: Really, I mean.

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Speaker 3: Most of my moms at her school are in like

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Speaker 3: workout gear. And I'm like, bitch, are you really going

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Speaker 3: a bitch is not work it out well.

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Speaker 4: Workout gear is also La fashions.

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Speaker 3: It's just comfortable. Yeah, but that's like people people were

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Speaker 3: to work too.

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Speaker 4: No I think in La No, I know, we'll hang

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Speaker 3: Because when I'm when anyone comes from New York, they're like,

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Speaker 3: you guys are so casual, wet, like we're like spandex.

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Speaker 1: I'm like at four pm, like, what's going on?

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Speaker 2: Almost if someone's like wearing a casual business business casually?

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Speaker 4: Like where the fuck do you work? Where are you going? Right?

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Speaker 1: Oh my god, come.

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Speaker 4: My life's super cash.

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Speaker 1: Yeah we ro that week.

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Speaker 7: Girl.

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Speaker 1: This is just gonna make us more tired. But I'm

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Speaker 1: ready to go to bed after this so tired.

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Speaker 4: Oh my god.

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Speaker 6: Sorry, guys, this is probably not id for anyone's listening

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Speaker 6: to this in the morning.

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Speaker 4: This is terrible.

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Speaker 2: Get up, we got, we got come on, Like these

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Speaker 2: bitches are yawning on the podcast. Nobody wrote that in

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Speaker 2: the review We're up and we're pumped and we're ready

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Speaker 3: Oh okay, baby poop and his diaper, guys, baby Jack Jack.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, So how was your weekend?

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Speaker 3: I saw you went to Sunday service, Kanye West Sunday.

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Speaker 2: I did go to Kanye West Sunday Service, you flake, dummy.

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Speaker 1: No, no, no, I did want to go. It's just

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Speaker 1: I had priority.

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Speaker 2: So I was inviting my friends and like, you want

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Speaker 2: to have a Sunday service, and they're like church.

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Speaker 4: It was like, no, bitch, Kanye, no, I'm not going

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Speaker 4: to church.

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Speaker 1: It is church.

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Speaker 2: I know, but I didn't realize it was church because

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Speaker 2: Zaia actually shout out to Zaya.

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Speaker 3: Actually, Zia's if you listen to our song that opened

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Speaker 3: this episode, that is Zya Belle. She's bomb and also

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Speaker 3: she's a boy. Remember at Sunday Service. Sunday Service superbomb.

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Speaker 4: She gotta just go check that out, Ziabelle.

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Speaker 3: Everyone in that choir is fucking insanely talented. I heard

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Speaker 3: like when you were posting and like Ashley was posting,

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Speaker 4: It does sound really good. The aesthetic was really beautiful.

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Speaker 2: It's all like fresh flowers and shrubbery and that orb

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Speaker 2: that or the orb in the ceiling with this light

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Speaker 2: ultra light beam ultimately, is that what that was? You

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Speaker 2: know it's not an ultra light beame. It was really beautiful,

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Speaker 2: and you know what, I actually, I'm going to keep

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Speaker 2: it all the way one hundred. I felt really guilty

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Speaker 2: about all my anti religious remark rhetoric rhetoric because I

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Speaker 4: I did was back in nineteen ninety eight, I believe this.

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Speaker 2: Two thousand and three, Yeah, you're right, I'm sorry two

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Speaker 2: We were like leading youth, fucking youth services. I went

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Speaker 2: I didn't really anything. I was signing up for this part.

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Speaker 2: But there was a pastor at Sunday service. There was

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Speaker 2: two and they had they were both men.

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Speaker 4: They were both men. I'm from Atlanta, one was from Compton.

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Speaker 4: And they preached a little bit.

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Speaker 3: They did some word and it was it spoke to me,

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Speaker 3: theme of well, what service.

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Speaker 4: I've heard a lot of things, but specifically what I

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Speaker 4: remember was don't be burnished on fire?

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Speaker 1: It was on fire? Yeah, I think it's fine. Right?

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Speaker 4: Wait?

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Speaker 2: Was oh, basically like, you'll fall and you'll get back

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Speaker 2: up again, and you'll fall and you'll get back up again,

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Speaker 2: and you'll fall again. But Jesus always forgives. He's constantly forgiving.

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Speaker 2: He doesn't care about yesterday, I doesn't care about tomorrow.

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Speaker 2: But right now, as long as you're getting back up again,

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Speaker 2: getting back up again, then God is merciful, and then

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Speaker 2: He's always forgiving you. And I immediately felt like it

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Speaker 2: was speaking to me because I was just feeling like, fuck,

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Speaker 2: all this talking and I'm just scratching the surface of

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Speaker 2: all the shit I have to dig through, all the

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Speaker 2: like programming that I've experienced, all the the way I

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Speaker 2: all the things I how I react to things emotionally

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Speaker 2: body because that's what I'm used.

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Speaker 7: To, you know.

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Speaker 4: I was just feeling like, when you know, sometimes.

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Speaker 2: You just be doing a lot of the same shit

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Speaker 2: because that's what you're used to doing. And I'm like

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Speaker 2: it just spoke to me like you'll fall and you'll

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Speaker 2: get back up again, and every time he's forgiving and

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Speaker 2: forgiving and forgiving. And that's how gentle you have to

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Speaker 2: I don't know, open enough to charge up from it,

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Speaker 4: Like there's all these like words that we were taught.

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Speaker 1: Was it was did he did Kanye Like do you

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Speaker 4: And you and was like, you know, it doesn't matter

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Speaker 4: You know, he was kind of off to the side.

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Speaker 1: He's doing is amazing.

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Speaker 4: A narcissist, there's that yes, Is that what you're gonna say?

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Speaker 1: No? No, no, no. I was just saying like, well, well,

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Speaker 3: That is like I thought, I feel like, you know,

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Speaker 3: Saporate where it's like, dude, you we know right, you know, yes, baby,

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Speaker 1: We'll get him. I don't know what do you do?

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Speaker 2: But a part of feels like part of me feels

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Speaker 4: That's just how I feel. I'm like, Okay, Kanye, sure, whatever.

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Speaker 1: You say, you know, I mean, he's still Kanye.

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Speaker 4: He is still Kanye.

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Speaker 6: But that's what I'm saying, Like that's almost like branding

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Speaker 4: You know, you could disagree with a lot of shit.

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Speaker 2: He does a lot of extra shit, but like at

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Speaker 3: Honestly, Like before you invited me to go to that,

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Speaker 1: I feeling she's gonna pour it. It's all gonna just

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Speaker 3: She said something about like I remember like there was

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Speaker 1: He hadn't seen.

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Speaker 4: I'm going to heaven. Yeah, period, And.

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Speaker 3: I remember bringing my little like two of my little

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Speaker 1: I mean it's not even I didn't even go to church.

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Speaker 1: I also got a different perspective there.

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Speaker 2: That was absolutely where I was like, ah, I'm cool

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Speaker 2: not gonna let me get away with this. And I

445
00:23:14,320 --> 00:23:16,480
Speaker 2: was like praying on my knees. Oh my God.

446
00:23:16,640 --> 00:23:21,240
Speaker 6: I know. But there's a lot of reasons I'm turned

447
00:23:21,280 --> 00:23:24,440
Speaker 6: off by it. The guilt, the shame.

448
00:23:25,640 --> 00:23:27,800
Speaker 2: There's so many things that come naturally to us as

449
00:23:27,840 --> 00:23:33,880
Speaker 2: women and as people, sexuality, sensuality, being in touch with that, Like,

450
00:23:34,320 --> 00:23:37,160
Speaker 2: I don't like to I don't think in any situation

451
00:23:37,240 --> 00:23:39,439
Speaker 2: you should be guilted in doing anything. There should be

452
00:23:39,480 --> 00:23:41,840
Speaker 2: no if you do this, you're gonna go to heaven.

453
00:23:41,880 --> 00:23:44,440
Speaker 2: If you don't, you're gonna go to hell. That makes

454
00:23:44,480 --> 00:23:46,840
Speaker 2: me feel uncomfortable. I feel like it's like trying to

455
00:23:47,119 --> 00:23:51,159
Speaker 2: make a fearful people, and I think that's like a

456
00:23:51,200 --> 00:23:51,760
Speaker 2: fear tactic.

457
00:23:51,800 --> 00:23:55,159
Speaker 4: I don't believe in that, so I but also I went.

458
00:23:55,040 --> 00:23:57,720
Speaker 2: To that winter church camp and the last day they

459
00:23:57,720 --> 00:24:01,399
Speaker 2: started speaking in tongues and then they were like like

460
00:24:01,480 --> 00:24:04,960
Speaker 2: trying to really pressure us into catching our tongues too,

461
00:24:05,119 --> 00:24:07,960
Speaker 2: and we just weren't catching the tongues, and like to

462
00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:09,600
Speaker 2: the point they went on the way, like we went

463
00:24:09,640 --> 00:24:11,719
Speaker 2: back to the cabin and they were still trying to

464
00:24:11,800 --> 00:24:13,160
Speaker 2: force the tongue speaking.

465
00:24:13,720 --> 00:24:14,280
Speaker 1: That's too much.

466
00:24:14,320 --> 00:24:16,280
Speaker 4: It was too much. And then one time my youth

467
00:24:16,280 --> 00:24:17,240
Speaker 4: pastor said something.

468
00:24:17,040 --> 00:24:20,879
Speaker 2: About my cleavage. Of course, you know I'm gonna huci

469
00:24:21,000 --> 00:24:23,639
Speaker 2: since I came out the wound. So I was just like,

470
00:24:23,680 --> 00:24:26,000
Speaker 2: why are you looking at my cleavage? This is strange,

471
00:24:26,080 --> 00:24:27,320
Speaker 2: Like I wasn't even thinking about it.

472
00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:29,919
Speaker 1: You're not, You're never thinking about it.

473
00:24:30,040 --> 00:24:33,280
Speaker 4: Then there's then there's.

474
00:24:33,119 --> 00:24:36,520
Speaker 2: Like the black side of me that like I associate

475
00:24:38,359 --> 00:24:42,960
Speaker 2: I associate like Christianity with like their their tactic to

476
00:24:43,080 --> 00:24:47,480
Speaker 2: make like slaves, like give them a little something, but

477
00:24:47,760 --> 00:24:48,840
Speaker 2: take away their freedom.

478
00:24:49,280 --> 00:24:52,639
Speaker 3: I totally cannot wait. So if you is your history

479
00:24:52,680 --> 00:24:55,720
Speaker 3: with the church in Catholicism.

480
00:24:55,160 --> 00:24:56,120
Speaker 1: No, did you go to church?

481
00:24:56,240 --> 00:24:57,919
Speaker 3: I went to Catholic schools, right, But did you go

482
00:24:57,960 --> 00:25:00,160
Speaker 3: to church like in Philly or did you I.

483
00:25:00,080 --> 00:25:00,719
Speaker 4: Went to I always went.

484
00:25:00,880 --> 00:25:02,400
Speaker 2: I went to church with my grandmother and I think

485
00:25:02,480 --> 00:25:05,800
Speaker 2: she I don't even know like Baptists. And then when

486
00:25:05,800 --> 00:25:08,000
Speaker 2: I moved here, my dad is and I grew up

487
00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:11,000
Speaker 2: in a very anti Christian family. My dad was like, hey,

488
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:14,639
Speaker 2: no Jesus, some white man that is not like it

489
00:25:14,680 --> 00:25:16,439
Speaker 2: was like some some of white man made it that a

490
00:25:16,440 --> 00:25:19,320
Speaker 2: long time ago, and everybody believed it, and that made sense.

491
00:25:19,119 --> 00:25:21,280
Speaker 4: To me that as I got older, but then I

492
00:25:21,359 --> 00:25:22,000
Speaker 4: don't know what happened.

493
00:25:22,040 --> 00:25:26,520
Speaker 2: Eighth grade, I got into it, but as I became

494
00:25:26,680 --> 00:25:28,359
Speaker 2: more aware it doesn't.

495
00:25:28,560 --> 00:25:29,760
Speaker 4: It didn't sit well with me.

496
00:25:30,280 --> 00:25:35,639
Speaker 2: This huge white, blue whyed, blonde haired figure looking really

497
00:25:35,680 --> 00:25:37,480
Speaker 2: sad down at me from the cross, Like when I

498
00:25:37,480 --> 00:25:38,280
Speaker 2: went to Lutheran school.

499
00:25:38,320 --> 00:25:40,360
Speaker 1: In seventh grade, I went to you know.

500
00:25:40,320 --> 00:25:43,280
Speaker 2: Catholics high school, and I just it just made me uneasy.

501
00:25:43,920 --> 00:25:47,040
Speaker 2: And the fact that like, I mean, black people are

502
00:25:47,280 --> 00:25:50,600
Speaker 2: really really into Jesus. And then like definitely in the South,

503
00:25:50,640 --> 00:25:51,879
Speaker 2: then I went to I went to church all the

504
00:25:51,920 --> 00:25:55,040
Speaker 2: way up into like college, but like towards the end

505
00:25:55,080 --> 00:25:57,320
Speaker 2: before I moved from Atlanta, I was like kind of

506
00:25:57,359 --> 00:26:00,159
Speaker 2: getting just after the music was over, I'd be like

507
00:26:00,240 --> 00:26:02,480
Speaker 2: kind of ready to go. They start talking about putting

508
00:26:02,480 --> 00:26:05,480
Speaker 2: money in the pan, and like sometimes I'd say shit

509
00:26:05,560 --> 00:26:08,320
Speaker 2: about gays, and then it would just turn me off,

510
00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:10,159
Speaker 2: you know, because I don't believe in any religion there

511
00:26:10,160 --> 00:26:14,480
Speaker 2: should be any room for hating anyone marginalizing a people.

512
00:26:14,560 --> 00:26:17,439
Speaker 3: I remember watching my dad put money and it was

513
00:26:17,480 --> 00:26:20,959
Speaker 3: always he never put less than one hundred dollars, and

514
00:26:21,160 --> 00:26:24,719
Speaker 3: it was usually two or three. And I always remember like, WHOA,

515
00:26:24,880 --> 00:26:26,960
Speaker 3: that's like that's a lot of money. And I was

516
00:26:27,040 --> 00:26:32,320
Speaker 3: like thinking, like why.

517
00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:32,040
Speaker 1: Do we like?

518
00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:34,119
Speaker 3: And I'd see like because I'd see him put this

519
00:26:34,160 --> 00:26:35,679
Speaker 3: money and then I see the next person and be

520
00:26:35,760 --> 00:26:38,080
Speaker 3: like five dollars, and I see the next person it

521
00:26:38,119 --> 00:26:41,480
Speaker 3: might be like ten dollars, and I'm like, WHOA, why

522
00:26:41,520 --> 00:26:44,640
Speaker 3: does my dad feel like he must deliver this much?

523
00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:46,679
Speaker 3: I mean, is he I mean, obviously he's giving what

524
00:26:46,800 --> 00:26:48,280
Speaker 3: his percentages?

525
00:26:48,480 --> 00:26:50,400
Speaker 1: Well, they tell you, no, I know that's what I mean.

526
00:26:50,560 --> 00:26:52,879
Speaker 1: That's what I mean. But like he's really following that.

527
00:26:52,960 --> 00:26:54,520
Speaker 1: And my dad grew up in the South, you.

528
00:26:54,480 --> 00:26:58,400
Speaker 3: Know, he went he grew up in church, and it

529
00:26:58,440 --> 00:27:00,240
Speaker 3: was like, I feel like he went to church out

530
00:27:00,240 --> 00:27:03,280
Speaker 3: of just habit because that's what you're.

531
00:27:03,119 --> 00:27:03,880
Speaker 1: Supposed to do.

532
00:27:04,359 --> 00:27:07,040
Speaker 3: And like for me, like when I when I went,

533
00:27:07,080 --> 00:27:09,320
Speaker 3: and I did enjoy it, like I enjoyed the energy.

534
00:27:09,600 --> 00:27:12,399
Speaker 3: I wouldn't I wouldn't say I really like paid. I

535
00:27:12,400 --> 00:27:14,959
Speaker 3: guess I did pay attention to the message. But once

536
00:27:15,000 --> 00:27:16,800
Speaker 3: we started opening up the book and reading shit, I

537
00:27:16,840 --> 00:27:19,399
Speaker 3: got kind of lost and I remember Sunday school was

538
00:27:19,440 --> 00:27:19,800
Speaker 3: really a.

539
00:27:19,760 --> 00:27:26,000
Speaker 1: Time just to flirt with boys. But I don't know

540
00:27:26,119 --> 00:27:29,640
Speaker 1: like more more recently lately.

541
00:27:29,920 --> 00:27:33,400
Speaker 3: Honestly, in the past, I would say, I mean, I've

542
00:27:33,800 --> 00:27:36,920
Speaker 3: I think, like because I had Catholic school kind of

543
00:27:36,920 --> 00:27:39,240
Speaker 3: steered me away from religion and a say, in a

544
00:27:39,280 --> 00:27:42,840
Speaker 3: sense in my early twenties, I started like thinking thinking

545
00:27:42,840 --> 00:27:47,080
Speaker 3: more about what my like what I did believe in,

546
00:27:47,119 --> 00:27:48,640
Speaker 3: and I was like, Okay, I'm a spiritual person.

547
00:27:48,680 --> 00:27:50,879
Speaker 1: Okay, but what does that actually mean? What does it

548
00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:51,879
Speaker 1: mean to be spiritual?

549
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:55,800
Speaker 3: Is it just that, like you know, I ask for things,

550
00:27:55,840 --> 00:27:58,920
Speaker 3: I talked to this imaginary thing every now and then,

551
00:27:59,640 --> 00:28:02,439
Speaker 3: or I believe that there's something bigger than me that

552
00:28:02,520 --> 00:28:07,520
Speaker 3: besides me. Who like, what is what exactly it is

553
00:28:07,560 --> 00:28:11,240
Speaker 3: my spirituality? How do I define it? And I've gotten

554
00:28:11,240 --> 00:28:12,960
Speaker 3: in and out of like trying to figure that out.

555
00:28:13,840 --> 00:28:20,520
Speaker 3: But recently, I just I've been feeling called to go

556
00:28:21,440 --> 00:28:24,879
Speaker 3: to church in some capacity, whether it's church or a

557
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:27,160
Speaker 3: space that I can go and.

558
00:28:28,000 --> 00:28:33,400
Speaker 2: Be committed to devote.

559
00:28:33,440 --> 00:28:37,640
Speaker 3: Devote to that, to figuring out what that means, what

560
00:28:37,760 --> 00:28:42,000
Speaker 3: that what the spirituality means, and exploring that more because

561
00:28:43,040 --> 00:28:47,240
Speaker 3: there's just been too many times where I've been like, wow,

562
00:28:47,520 --> 00:28:51,960
Speaker 3: shit just is working out. Something is looking the fuck

563
00:28:52,160 --> 00:28:55,920
Speaker 3: out for me. And it's not just by chance, and

564
00:28:55,960 --> 00:28:58,480
Speaker 3: it's not just by accident or because I'm a good

565
00:28:58,480 --> 00:29:03,920
Speaker 3: person or car or luck. And it's like I feel

566
00:29:03,960 --> 00:29:06,560
Speaker 3: like I've been feeling called to like honor that in

567
00:29:06,600 --> 00:29:10,960
Speaker 3: some way because I should, and I'm grateful for it.

568
00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:16,080
Speaker 3: I feel like, okay, if maybe there's more and more,

569
00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:19,160
Speaker 3: there's more to it, you know, and so but I've

570
00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:20,800
Speaker 3: been feeling conflicted about it. And that's why I really

571
00:29:20,880 --> 00:29:23,520
Speaker 3: actually was looking forward to going to Kanye's thing because

572
00:29:24,280 --> 00:29:26,520
Speaker 3: I did hear like it's it is although it is

573
00:29:26,600 --> 00:29:29,719
Speaker 3: like church in a way, like it's the church that

574
00:29:29,800 --> 00:29:32,640
Speaker 3: I think that I remembered and loved right and when

575
00:29:32,680 --> 00:29:34,520
Speaker 3: you put when I saw those videos and I heard

576
00:29:34,560 --> 00:29:39,040
Speaker 3: the music, it almost like feels like that kind that's

577
00:29:39,040 --> 00:29:41,280
Speaker 3: what really unlocked it for me when I was a kid,

578
00:29:41,360 --> 00:29:43,080
Speaker 3: and that's why I really loved it and I felt

579
00:29:43,080 --> 00:29:44,040
Speaker 3: connected to something.

580
00:29:44,360 --> 00:29:45,040
Speaker 1: And if you can.

581
00:29:44,880 --> 00:29:50,200
Speaker 3: Sprinkle some motivation some you know, some other like deep

582
00:29:50,240 --> 00:29:52,160
Speaker 3: shit in there, I am in. But I just I

583
00:29:52,280 --> 00:29:54,640
Speaker 3: have to find what that means to me and where

584
00:29:54,680 --> 00:29:56,160
Speaker 3: that means to me I'm like, where do I find

585
00:29:56,200 --> 00:29:59,360
Speaker 3: this perfect balance of all the things I need in la?

586
00:30:00,240 --> 00:30:03,360
Speaker 3: I think that hundred dollars Kanye, Yeah.

587
00:30:03,320 --> 00:30:06,120
Speaker 4: Yeah, No, well no, I just I don't know. I

588
00:30:06,120 --> 00:30:07,240
Speaker 4: don't even think he charges.

589
00:30:07,360 --> 00:30:09,120
Speaker 1: He does. Ashley bought tickets.

590
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:12,440
Speaker 4: She did, yes, Oh I thought it was free.

591
00:30:12,600 --> 00:30:14,479
Speaker 1: Oh no, we could just go to the forum for

592
00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:15,360
Speaker 1: free and show up.

593
00:30:15,520 --> 00:30:19,440
Speaker 4: Well it was church. Wow, I'm one hundred dollars.

594
00:30:19,560 --> 00:30:20,800
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, this was a new come up.

595
00:30:20,920 --> 00:30:24,320
Speaker 4: Oh wow, I didn't know that. I thought I was. Yeah.

596
00:30:24,840 --> 00:30:25,640
Speaker 4: I think that.

597
00:30:27,280 --> 00:30:30,720
Speaker 2: We rarely get to go to a space amongst other

598
00:30:30,800 --> 00:30:34,520
Speaker 2: people and then like bear ourselves and like take off

599
00:30:34,520 --> 00:30:37,080
Speaker 2: the load of the day, take off the stress, take

600
00:30:37,080 --> 00:30:39,320
Speaker 2: off what you did yesterday, take it off unloaded, and

601
00:30:39,520 --> 00:30:42,040
Speaker 2: bear it. Like there's not a lot of places that

602
00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:44,200
Speaker 2: were willing to be completely.

603
00:30:46,240 --> 00:30:46,600
Speaker 4: Naked.

604
00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:50,160
Speaker 3: Well, we're all here because we want to do something.

605
00:30:50,200 --> 00:30:51,600
Speaker 3: We want to do some unpacking.

606
00:30:51,880 --> 00:30:53,600
Speaker 2: And I think that was which was what was really

607
00:30:53,640 --> 00:30:55,920
Speaker 2: beautiful about Kanye, because it is still Kanye.

608
00:30:56,360 --> 00:30:58,080
Speaker 4: So it's like, is this a concert? Is his church?

609
00:30:58,240 --> 00:31:01,080
Speaker 2: But people are like like that's another thing for raising

610
00:31:01,080 --> 00:31:04,680
Speaker 2: of hands, the dropping of knees. Like, to me, that's

611
00:31:04,720 --> 00:31:09,840
Speaker 2: saying like I'm coming and I'm dropping all of my

612
00:31:10,480 --> 00:31:13,720
Speaker 2: everything that I have, like all the all the the

613
00:31:14,640 --> 00:31:17,200
Speaker 2: faces and the masks that we put up every day

614
00:31:17,320 --> 00:31:18,920
Speaker 2: all the time, not even realizing.

615
00:31:18,960 --> 00:31:20,600
Speaker 7: It just comes to a place and you could just

616
00:31:20,640 --> 00:31:23,360
Speaker 7: like let go of all that and be like I'm

617
00:31:23,400 --> 00:31:26,480
Speaker 7: here and I'm laying down everything, and I'm asking for this,

618
00:31:26,560 --> 00:31:28,080
Speaker 7: and I'm you know what I mean, Like that's a

619
00:31:28,080 --> 00:31:28,960
Speaker 7: really beautiful thing.

620
00:31:30,280 --> 00:31:35,400
Speaker 2: I I think that wherever you go to seek, you

621
00:31:35,440 --> 00:31:39,000
Speaker 2: will find it. Like I've practiced Buddhism, I've chanted namio

622
00:31:39,040 --> 00:31:43,960
Speaker 2: hole range Kio. I've been to Buddhists like spaces and

623
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:46,920
Speaker 2: you go in front of a scroll and you ring

624
00:31:46,960 --> 00:31:49,960
Speaker 2: three bells and you nomio ho range geykio as many

625
00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:54,600
Speaker 2: times as you can, and that shit seems strange in

626
00:31:54,600 --> 00:31:56,880
Speaker 2: a room full a lot of people. But then like

627
00:31:56,960 --> 00:32:01,959
Speaker 2: there's this powerful movement of this. It's like they call

628
00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:08,040
Speaker 2: it a miss this mystics being mysticness. And which other

629
00:32:08,080 --> 00:32:10,760
Speaker 2: place is like sr F, We've been there. It's by

630
00:32:10,760 --> 00:32:13,240
Speaker 2: Malibu and the Canyon Lake Shrine.

631
00:32:13,680 --> 00:32:14,720
Speaker 1: Okay, that's what it's called.

632
00:32:14,920 --> 00:32:17,880
Speaker 4: Yeah, s re F. It's like self realization fellowship all

633
00:32:17,960 --> 00:32:19,040
Speaker 4: paths that oh.

634
00:32:19,000 --> 00:32:20,640
Speaker 1: I've walked over there. I did met it. Actually I

635
00:32:20,680 --> 00:32:22,960
Speaker 1: went there with my friend.

636
00:32:22,760 --> 00:32:25,040
Speaker 3: The lawn and we meditated there and then we went

637
00:32:25,080 --> 00:32:26,960
Speaker 3: They have like this bookstore and they talk about like

638
00:32:27,000 --> 00:32:29,160
Speaker 3: the guy who founded it actually have his booked, right.

639
00:32:29,680 --> 00:32:35,960
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, I always see yeah and Pamahansa Yogananda. But

640
00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:41,120
Speaker 2: I really feel like there is this omni present spirit

641
00:32:41,680 --> 00:32:44,640
Speaker 2: amongst all of us that connects us, that's in God,

642
00:32:44,760 --> 00:32:46,840
Speaker 2: that's in our ancestors, that's in our angels, that's in

643
00:32:46,880 --> 00:32:49,160
Speaker 2: our kids, that's amongst people. And I so whenever we

644
00:32:49,640 --> 00:32:52,840
Speaker 2: can acknowledge that and give it power, it's so it's

645
00:32:52,880 --> 00:32:57,200
Speaker 2: also giving ourselves power and that you know, like there's obviously.

646
00:32:56,840 --> 00:32:57,760
Speaker 4: Something bigger than us.

647
00:32:57,920 --> 00:32:59,440
Speaker 2: But I think sometimes we get I get stuck on

648
00:32:59,480 --> 00:33:02,400
Speaker 2: the fact, like why we got to calm he him?

649
00:33:02,600 --> 00:33:03,120
Speaker 1: Who?

650
00:33:03,240 --> 00:33:07,480
Speaker 2: Like like what, why does it have to be Jesus,

651
00:33:08,040 --> 00:33:12,240
Speaker 2: Jesus Christ, our Lord, our savior. Those words make me uncomfortable.

652
00:33:12,600 --> 00:33:14,120
Speaker 2: And I know for some people that's like, oh no,

653
00:33:14,320 --> 00:33:15,560
Speaker 2: she's a heathen.

654
00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:16,640
Speaker 1: I don't know.

655
00:33:16,720 --> 00:33:18,880
Speaker 3: I believe that there's a lot of godly people that

656
00:33:18,920 --> 00:33:22,120
Speaker 3: have walked this earth, a lot of healers, a lot

657
00:33:22,160 --> 00:33:27,960
Speaker 3: of people that possess supernatural abilities beyond the realm of

658
00:33:28,000 --> 00:33:31,320
Speaker 3: this world even tonight, like looking up at the like

659
00:33:31,440 --> 00:33:33,200
Speaker 3: I came outside while you were cooking, and I was

660
00:33:33,280 --> 00:33:35,440
Speaker 3: looking at the moon and it was just like, it's

661
00:33:35,560 --> 00:33:40,000
Speaker 3: just this this orb that's connected to us and controlling

662
00:33:41,160 --> 00:33:43,440
Speaker 3: like I was saying, like controlling the ocean.

663
00:33:43,640 --> 00:33:44,680
Speaker 1: How can we think.

664
00:33:44,520 --> 00:33:47,880
Speaker 3: That it doesn't control us that we're not connected to.

665
00:33:48,520 --> 00:33:50,760
Speaker 3: If we're connect we're If we're connected to that, how

666
00:33:50,800 --> 00:33:52,520
Speaker 3: many other things are we connected to that we don't

667
00:33:52,560 --> 00:33:55,840
Speaker 3: even realize it? Then that's why energy is so important.

668
00:33:55,840 --> 00:33:59,160
Speaker 3: We are all connected. Everything we're connected to. I'm connected

669
00:33:59,200 --> 00:34:02,520
Speaker 3: to this fucking because it came from a tree that

670
00:34:02,560 --> 00:34:02,840
Speaker 3: you know.

671
00:34:02,760 --> 00:34:03,280
Speaker 1: You know what I mean?

672
00:34:03,320 --> 00:34:04,920
Speaker 4: Like, well, because they're all man out of the same shit.

673
00:34:05,280 --> 00:34:08,680
Speaker 3: I know, it's just we're particles and cells and atoms.

674
00:34:08,760 --> 00:34:12,560
Speaker 3: I just feel like I don't know, like there are

675
00:34:12,680 --> 00:34:16,239
Speaker 3: I believe there have been holy men like Jesus or

676
00:34:16,320 --> 00:34:20,360
Speaker 3: Buddha or whoever. And there's not just one specifically that

677
00:34:20,920 --> 00:34:23,200
Speaker 3: I don't know if there's one person or thing I

678
00:34:23,200 --> 00:34:24,040
Speaker 3: would worship.

679
00:34:24,360 --> 00:34:26,360
Speaker 1: It's more like I honor energy.

680
00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:28,080
Speaker 4: I see the God in you.

681
00:34:28,239 --> 00:34:29,920
Speaker 2: I see the God, you know, like these are just

682
00:34:30,440 --> 00:34:32,960
Speaker 2: you have the honor energy, you have the honor what

683
00:34:33,160 --> 00:34:36,520
Speaker 2: comes natural to you, and I don't. Sometimes I get

684
00:34:36,560 --> 00:34:39,520
Speaker 2: stuck between, like, do we need like discernment? Do we

685
00:34:39,560 --> 00:34:42,479
Speaker 2: need discipline in certain areas? Absolutely, But I also feel

686
00:34:42,480 --> 00:34:45,359
Speaker 2: like there's so much to learn and being free and

687
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:48,160
Speaker 2: honoring all parts of yourselves because there's like, there's things

688
00:34:48,160 --> 00:34:50,880
Speaker 2: in Muslim culture I can really appreciate. There's things in

689
00:34:50,920 --> 00:34:52,960
Speaker 2: a lot of different cultures I can appreciate where But

690
00:34:53,000 --> 00:34:57,400
Speaker 2: then sometimes I see Muslim women all covered, and I'm like.

691
00:34:57,960 --> 00:35:02,239
Speaker 3: Because I think inevitably that feeling eventually gets manipulated in

692
00:35:02,239 --> 00:35:05,400
Speaker 3: some way no offense, like I somewhat in all religions

693
00:35:05,480 --> 00:35:08,239
Speaker 3: and all in some ways there's a controlling.

694
00:35:07,760 --> 00:35:09,960
Speaker 4: Aspect of any system. There's going to be people who

695
00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:11,560
Speaker 4: take advantage of that system.

696
00:35:11,680 --> 00:35:13,799
Speaker 3: Yeah, And I'm not saying that because there's beauty in

697
00:35:13,840 --> 00:35:15,759
Speaker 3: all of it, and I get that there's discipline in

698
00:35:15,800 --> 00:35:18,600
Speaker 3: all of it, which you know could be argued, which

699
00:35:18,600 --> 00:35:21,000
Speaker 3: is why women have to wear this and whatever. But

700
00:35:22,320 --> 00:35:28,040
Speaker 3: like I think that, I don't know, is it sad

701
00:35:28,080 --> 00:35:31,239
Speaker 3: to think that? Is it human nature to just want

702
00:35:31,280 --> 00:35:31,880
Speaker 3: to control?

703
00:35:32,160 --> 00:35:32,399
Speaker 5: Oh?

704
00:35:32,680 --> 00:35:35,319
Speaker 2: I always battle this in my head. I battle what

705
00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:38,480
Speaker 2: is human that's our fault. Yeah, Like what is human nature?

706
00:35:38,600 --> 00:35:40,719
Speaker 1: Is that our one fault? Like not one? But like

707
00:35:40,719 --> 00:35:43,439
Speaker 1: obvious there's more? But is that the core of like.

708
00:35:43,080 --> 00:35:45,280
Speaker 2: Like no, but like if I give Erica a seventy

709
00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:49,080
Speaker 2: percent power over a system, are you going to inevitably

710
00:35:49,200 --> 00:35:49,799
Speaker 2: abuse it?

711
00:35:50,440 --> 00:35:50,480
Speaker 3: No?

712
00:35:50,840 --> 00:35:53,520
Speaker 4: I would hate to say that, Like I would say, like,

713
00:35:54,719 --> 00:35:55,319
Speaker 4: you know what I mean.

714
00:35:55,280 --> 00:35:58,000
Speaker 1: Does it just take one bad apple to ruin the bunch?

715
00:35:59,239 --> 00:36:00,720
Speaker 4: Are they just some fucked up people?

716
00:36:00,800 --> 00:36:01,439
Speaker 1: That's what I mean?

717
00:36:01,560 --> 00:36:06,440
Speaker 2: Like, I don't know, Yeah, Like do do some people

718
00:36:06,640 --> 00:36:12,800
Speaker 2: actually need religion because they can't gauge just a regular

719
00:36:12,960 --> 00:36:16,400
Speaker 2: ethical moral compass of love by fucking neighbor because it

720
00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:21,600
Speaker 2: seems pretty much given? But then we see that it's not.

721
00:36:22,400 --> 00:36:24,120
Speaker 2: And I would like to say that's the route because

722
00:36:24,160 --> 00:36:27,320
Speaker 2: people have been hurt and so they act out and

723
00:36:27,400 --> 00:36:28,160
Speaker 2: hurt other people.

724
00:36:28,920 --> 00:36:33,720
Speaker 4: But are people just born that way? Like do people?

725
00:36:34,520 --> 00:36:37,600
Speaker 4: Like do people need these systems to be moral?

726
00:36:38,800 --> 00:36:44,000
Speaker 1: This the systems of what we're religio religion? N I know,

727
00:36:44,120 --> 00:36:47,080
Speaker 1: I don't think so. I don't think so.

728
00:36:47,120 --> 00:36:48,839
Speaker 4: I don't think so either. I mean because I'm sure

729
00:36:48,920 --> 00:36:49,640
Speaker 4: Christians kill?

730
00:36:50,520 --> 00:36:52,399
Speaker 1: What do you mean You're sure? Right?

731
00:36:53,920 --> 00:36:57,680
Speaker 4: I'm like, yeah, so you're not exempt, No.

732
00:36:57,719 --> 00:37:01,560
Speaker 3: But I do believe that, Okay, I don't know. Like,

733
00:37:01,640 --> 00:37:04,880
Speaker 3: so I battle this because I want to believe that

734
00:37:05,000 --> 00:37:08,000
Speaker 3: everyone is born pure, that we're all given the same

735
00:37:08,040 --> 00:37:12,239
Speaker 3: opportunity the like in like once we're born, like in

736
00:37:12,280 --> 00:37:15,280
Speaker 3: a perfect world, right, I think even in a perfect

737
00:37:15,320 --> 00:37:19,839
Speaker 3: world you can have the perfect everything. I think just

738
00:37:19,880 --> 00:37:24,440
Speaker 3: like there's people that are born and just I don't know,

739
00:37:24,440 --> 00:37:25,479
Speaker 3: I do believe like.

740
00:37:25,920 --> 00:37:28,640
Speaker 1: Evil can be born as well. Oh for sure, it's

741
00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:30,680
Speaker 1: not like everyone is just pure.

742
00:37:30,760 --> 00:37:32,760
Speaker 4: But then it's like, where does that come from?

743
00:37:33,040 --> 00:37:36,600
Speaker 2: That a past life, reliving something, living something out I

744
00:37:36,680 --> 00:37:39,720
Speaker 2: just think, okay, and then that's another thing. Religion, So okay,

745
00:37:39,760 --> 00:37:44,239
Speaker 2: what is religion at its core? Religion is so quick

746
00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:49,800
Speaker 2: to frown their nose that that really anything witchcraft, witchery

747
00:37:50,320 --> 00:37:51,120
Speaker 2: like brew.

748
00:37:51,200 --> 00:37:51,239
Speaker 7: Ha.

749
00:37:52,040 --> 00:37:53,760
Speaker 4: But at the end of the day.

750
00:37:53,760 --> 00:37:54,840
Speaker 1: That depends what religion.

751
00:37:54,840 --> 00:37:59,560
Speaker 2: But yeah, yeah, true, But like all of it is ritualistic,

752
00:38:01,239 --> 00:38:04,200
Speaker 2: the blood of Christ, the blood and body of Christ.

753
00:38:04,560 --> 00:38:07,879
Speaker 2: Like that's strange, you know. So it's just like it's

754
00:38:07,920 --> 00:38:10,319
Speaker 2: circumclis and all of them. Yeah, oh God, don't get

755
00:38:10,320 --> 00:38:14,360
Speaker 2: me started. I watched this documentary Orthodox Jews.

756
00:38:14,640 --> 00:38:16,640
Speaker 1: I don't want to talk about it. I told you no,

757
00:38:16,719 --> 00:38:17,719
Speaker 1: but I already know a lot.

758
00:38:17,800 --> 00:38:23,240
Speaker 2: Okay, yeah, okay, I gotta say it. We're talking about religion.

759
00:38:23,239 --> 00:38:27,480
Speaker 2: We can't skip over it. I don't think they do

760
00:38:27,520 --> 00:38:29,759
Speaker 2: it well. I know most people don't do it anymore.

761
00:38:29,480 --> 00:38:33,680
Speaker 6: But very early on, in very extreme situations, the rabbi

762
00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:36,239
Speaker 6: would cut the baby and then put his mouth on

763
00:38:36,440 --> 00:38:38,840
Speaker 6: the penis to I don't fucking know what.

764
00:38:41,560 --> 00:38:41,920
Speaker 3: I don't know.

765
00:38:42,280 --> 00:38:43,360
Speaker 1: I know, I know, I'm not.

766
00:38:43,400 --> 00:38:45,200
Speaker 3: I don't mean to laugh, but like, no, it's not

767
00:38:45,320 --> 00:38:47,240
Speaker 3: it's it's not a laughing matter.

768
00:38:47,360 --> 00:38:48,480
Speaker 1: But that's their tradition.

769
00:38:48,760 --> 00:38:52,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, and then there's another there's another Orthodoxy Jewish tradition

770
00:38:53,560 --> 00:38:54,800
Speaker 2: where they.

771
00:38:56,280 --> 00:39:00,440
Speaker 4: Match the husband in life. They get married, they.

772
00:39:00,120 --> 00:39:02,279
Speaker 2: Go in another room while their entire wedding party waits

773
00:39:02,320 --> 00:39:04,719
Speaker 2: out in front of the dwarfs for her to consummate

774
00:39:04,719 --> 00:39:07,600
Speaker 2: the marriage. So essentially, your whole family is waiting for

775
00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:09,840
Speaker 2: you to fuck in the next room and then you

776
00:39:09,920 --> 00:39:12,080
Speaker 2: come out. No, they put a hole in your dress

777
00:39:12,080 --> 00:39:13,360
Speaker 2: so you can stick it through. Then they come on

778
00:39:13,520 --> 00:39:17,120
Speaker 2: like oh opah, and everybody knows. Basically just like your

779
00:39:17,200 --> 00:39:18,880
Speaker 2: cherry pop in the other room, and then you have

780
00:39:18,920 --> 00:39:23,239
Speaker 2: a party and I was like, whoa, And I think that's.

781
00:39:22,719 --> 00:39:24,040
Speaker 1: Been going on for centuries.

782
00:39:24,400 --> 00:39:27,759
Speaker 3: But there's different and many different religions though not just

783
00:39:27,920 --> 00:39:29,200
Speaker 3: orthodoxed no, but there's a.

784
00:39:29,160 --> 00:39:35,000
Speaker 2: Lot of like we've seen pedophilia, sexual magic and acts

785
00:39:35,040 --> 00:39:37,120
Speaker 2: that are taking place in religious like.

786
00:39:40,520 --> 00:39:42,399
Speaker 4: So much. It can all get murky, It can get

787
00:39:42,560 --> 00:39:44,040
Speaker 4: it can all get murky.

788
00:39:43,800 --> 00:39:45,960
Speaker 3: Even the witchiest of the witchy shit. It gets a

789
00:39:46,000 --> 00:39:46,839
Speaker 3: little scary too.

790
00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:49,200
Speaker 2: Well, No, that is scary when you're you can deal,

791
00:39:49,239 --> 00:39:51,400
Speaker 2: when you're dealing, when you're dealing.

792
00:39:51,080 --> 00:39:52,320
Speaker 4: In harnessing energy.

793
00:39:53,600 --> 00:39:57,279
Speaker 2: It can get murky if you have bad intentions. But

794
00:39:57,640 --> 00:40:00,160
Speaker 2: at the very root of it, all the ritualistic and

795
00:40:00,200 --> 00:40:03,560
Speaker 2: the sacrifices, it all comes from some like rather pagan

796
00:40:03,600 --> 00:40:06,720
Speaker 2: ass shit. It's true.

797
00:40:08,200 --> 00:40:11,080
Speaker 1: All it takes is one dark thought and then that

798
00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:12,160
Speaker 1: thought turns.

799
00:40:11,800 --> 00:40:14,720
Speaker 4: Into hmm, no, well everybody has dark thoughts.

800
00:40:14,920 --> 00:40:17,080
Speaker 1: No, but I mean, but some people act on them. Okay,

801
00:40:17,080 --> 00:40:21,960
Speaker 1: well some people don't, you know. That's the difference in sanity.

802
00:40:22,200 --> 00:40:24,440
Speaker 1: I have a lot of weird fucking thoughts. Okay, do

803
00:40:24,520 --> 00:40:25,160
Speaker 1: I do them all?

804
00:40:25,239 --> 00:40:25,719
Speaker 4: Thank God?

805
00:40:25,840 --> 00:40:27,160
Speaker 1: No? Okank god?

806
00:40:27,680 --> 00:40:35,600
Speaker 4: No, I don't know if we just confused ourselves bad now,

807
00:40:35,640 --> 00:40:36,160
Speaker 4: I sound.

808
00:40:36,000 --> 00:40:39,839
Speaker 1: Like a creep. What kind of thoughts? Is air? Fuck

809
00:40:40,000 --> 00:40:40,480
Speaker 1: is going on?

810
00:40:40,560 --> 00:40:41,920
Speaker 4: Everybody has crazy thoughts.

811
00:40:42,400 --> 00:40:45,400
Speaker 2: You're not alone and you're crazy thoughts.

812
00:40:45,440 --> 00:40:49,239
Speaker 4: Just don't act on them if they're crazy. Okay, So

813
00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:53,200
Speaker 4: because I felt, okay, what would you do? What?

814
00:40:53,200 --> 00:40:53,279
Speaker 1: What?

815
00:40:53,640 --> 00:40:57,600
Speaker 2: How are you going to instill spirituality or religion in

816
00:40:57,640 --> 00:41:00,680
Speaker 2: your child? Because I realized what I took. I mean

817
00:41:00,880 --> 00:41:03,759
Speaker 2: Erica and I took Luna to Sunday service. She was

818
00:41:03,800 --> 00:41:04,480
Speaker 2: so over it.

819
00:41:04,800 --> 00:41:06,440
Speaker 1: She was like, how would she into it?

820
00:41:06,480 --> 00:41:10,120
Speaker 4: At first though, she was just like whatever, this is?

821
00:41:10,120 --> 00:41:10,839
Speaker 4: This the last song?

822
00:41:11,680 --> 00:41:13,120
Speaker 2: And I was like, and she would try to sing

823
00:41:13,200 --> 00:41:15,319
Speaker 2: some of the songs she knew, but she was well,

824
00:41:15,360 --> 00:41:16,680
Speaker 2: you know, she could have also been just trying to

825
00:41:16,680 --> 00:41:17,120
Speaker 2: be a fret.

826
00:41:18,440 --> 00:41:22,839
Speaker 1: But could she sit or was she standing the whole time?

827
00:41:22,960 --> 00:41:23,360
Speaker 4: Okay?

828
00:41:23,400 --> 00:41:25,439
Speaker 6: I picked her up because sometimes other people were standing

829
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:26,400
Speaker 6: so she couldn't see.

830
00:41:26,760 --> 00:41:29,719
Speaker 1: But I'm being that small having all these people stand around.

831
00:41:29,560 --> 00:41:33,839
Speaker 4: You sounds.

832
00:41:34,560 --> 00:41:36,440
Speaker 2: Are we supposed to be taking the kids to church

833
00:41:36,520 --> 00:41:38,759
Speaker 2: so they know some sense of the Lord. Because I

834
00:41:38,800 --> 00:41:40,319
Speaker 2: was like, she doesn't know anything about church?

835
00:41:40,560 --> 00:41:42,279
Speaker 1: She was like, what's happening? I always been asked them

836
00:41:42,320 --> 00:41:47,480
Speaker 1: about God lately too? Oh my gosh, what did she say?

837
00:41:47,560 --> 00:41:51,040
Speaker 3: Said the sweetest thing the other day, which also touched

838
00:41:51,080 --> 00:41:53,040
Speaker 3: my heart in a way where I was like, okay,

839
00:41:53,239 --> 00:41:57,600
Speaker 3: like I'm letting her lead this conversation. In some ways,

840
00:41:57,640 --> 00:42:00,319
Speaker 3: I want to see what her like. I know that

841
00:42:00,360 --> 00:42:03,279
Speaker 3: people or there's inevitably someone has told her what God is,

842
00:42:03,320 --> 00:42:04,799
Speaker 3: whether or not I know it or not, whether it's

843
00:42:04,840 --> 00:42:08,480
Speaker 3: at school or you know. But right like, we were

844
00:42:08,520 --> 00:42:09,880
Speaker 3: looking at the sun and she was like, look at

845
00:42:09,880 --> 00:42:12,560
Speaker 3: the sunset, mommy, and she was like, how is it

846
00:42:12,640 --> 00:42:16,439
Speaker 3: that color? And I was like I don't. I couldn't think,

847
00:42:16,440 --> 00:42:18,719
Speaker 3: and I was like I don't know. She's like I know,

848
00:42:18,880 --> 00:42:22,719
Speaker 3: and I was like what. She's like, it's God and

849
00:42:22,760 --> 00:42:26,960
Speaker 3: I was like, wow, yes, it is God. And the

850
00:42:27,000 --> 00:42:31,239
Speaker 3: other day she asked me there was something else and

851
00:42:31,320 --> 00:42:33,759
Speaker 3: she had said something about God or is.

852
00:42:33,760 --> 00:42:37,040
Speaker 1: That what God is? Is God in the sky? Where

853
00:42:37,080 --> 00:42:37,479
Speaker 1: is God?

854
00:42:37,880 --> 00:42:40,160
Speaker 4: Imagine her child? How foreign and strange is.

855
00:42:43,040 --> 00:42:45,600
Speaker 1: Is he coming to dinner? Who can keeps on talking

856
00:42:45,600 --> 00:42:45,960
Speaker 1: about him?

857
00:42:45,960 --> 00:42:46,400
Speaker 4: I haven't seen it?

858
00:42:46,840 --> 00:42:48,319
Speaker 1: When do we meet him? What the fun do you mean?

859
00:42:48,360 --> 00:42:48,400
Speaker 7: Like?

860
00:42:48,400 --> 00:42:49,880
Speaker 4: Why does he look like a bird.

861
00:42:51,440 --> 00:42:53,120
Speaker 3: She hasn't asked me all those questions yet, but I

862
00:42:53,160 --> 00:42:58,640
Speaker 3: think she understands that it's bigger than us, that it's

863
00:42:58,719 --> 00:43:02,320
Speaker 3: not like someone that's gonna that's coming over anytime soon, right,

864
00:43:02,920 --> 00:43:05,480
Speaker 3: you know that he you know that he's around and

865
00:43:05,520 --> 00:43:09,120
Speaker 3: he's or she is responsible or it or whatever is

866
00:43:09,160 --> 00:43:13,960
Speaker 3: responsible for you know, beauty and things we can't explain.

867
00:43:15,320 --> 00:43:19,000
Speaker 1: So I don't know, it's interesting. I don't know. I

868
00:43:19,480 --> 00:43:24,520
Speaker 1: want her to believe that. I want her to I

869
00:43:24,560 --> 00:43:29,560
Speaker 1: want her to believe in the power of energy me too, and.

870
00:43:30,440 --> 00:43:33,120
Speaker 4: Really the power of beautiful things happening.

871
00:43:32,719 --> 00:43:37,399
Speaker 3: Beautiful things happening in connection, and really that it's all

872
00:43:37,440 --> 00:43:42,320
Speaker 3: inside of you, because truly, that's what it is. And

873
00:43:45,440 --> 00:43:47,279
Speaker 3: it's just like, I don't know, we spend so much

874
00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:51,280
Speaker 3: time looking outwardly and trying to find this bigger purpose

875
00:43:51,360 --> 00:43:54,000
Speaker 3: going on all these that not to knock anything or

876
00:43:54,080 --> 00:43:57,880
Speaker 3: about trying to go on retreats or like, you know,

877
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:01,520
Speaker 3: trying to find something because we all get to that

878
00:44:01,880 --> 00:44:05,799
Speaker 3: in different ways. But really it's just it's always here.

879
00:44:05,840 --> 00:44:10,840
Speaker 3: It's always been here, and it's just trying to remember

880
00:44:10,920 --> 00:44:12,840
Speaker 3: that or know what that even feels like when you

881
00:44:12,920 --> 00:44:14,720
Speaker 3: find it, being like, oh that's.

882
00:44:14,560 --> 00:44:16,880
Speaker 4: It, right, Oh, I feel connected.

883
00:44:17,160 --> 00:44:17,279
Speaker 5: Hm.

884
00:44:22,280 --> 00:44:27,360
Speaker 1: But I don't know if I don't know. I'm gonna

885
00:44:27,760 --> 00:44:30,040
Speaker 1: if anybody is listening right now, if.

886
00:44:29,840 --> 00:44:33,520
Speaker 3: You live in the LA area and you know of

887
00:44:33,840 --> 00:44:36,080
Speaker 3: some sort of place of worship, I should explore.

888
00:44:36,239 --> 00:44:37,359
Speaker 1: I'm going on a tour.

889
00:44:38,440 --> 00:44:39,920
Speaker 4: I feel like all the black people and m I

890
00:44:39,960 --> 00:44:40,960
Speaker 4: go to one particular sho.

891
00:44:41,280 --> 00:44:43,840
Speaker 1: I know it's called like the one, the one right, Yeah, No,

892
00:44:43,960 --> 00:44:44,759
Speaker 1: I'm cool on that one.

893
00:44:44,840 --> 00:44:47,080
Speaker 4: It was nice when I went. I was too high

894
00:44:47,120 --> 00:44:48,920
Speaker 4: that day to like be into religion.

895
00:44:49,880 --> 00:44:51,640
Speaker 1: I was just like, it seems I feel like that's

896
00:44:51,640 --> 00:44:52,480
Speaker 1: also a scene.

897
00:44:52,760 --> 00:44:53,479
Speaker 4: It is a scene.

898
00:44:53,520 --> 00:44:56,319
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to go to LA everything is No.

899
00:44:56,280 --> 00:44:58,320
Speaker 3: It's not I want to go to the SRF. Okay

900
00:44:58,400 --> 00:45:01,000
Speaker 3: a is bomb that seeing like a scene when.

901
00:45:00,880 --> 00:45:02,279
Speaker 4: I went, But the music is not going to be

902
00:45:02,320 --> 00:45:03,000
Speaker 4: like what you're trying to get.

903
00:45:03,160 --> 00:45:03,440
Speaker 3: I know.

904
00:45:03,560 --> 00:45:05,960
Speaker 1: That's the thing. Where do I get the whole balance

905
00:45:06,000 --> 00:45:06,319
Speaker 1: of it all?

906
00:45:06,440 --> 00:45:14,839
Speaker 8: Is can Kanye Kanye like I even Kanye Choir elaborate

907
00:45:15,200 --> 00:45:19,240
Speaker 8: with self Realization's fellowship at Lake Shrine.

908
00:45:20,560 --> 00:45:21,920
Speaker 4: Let's put that out in the universe.

909
00:45:22,320 --> 00:45:27,040
Speaker 1: I'm going to start my own quo Sia, starting my

910
00:45:27,080 --> 00:45:29,239
Speaker 1: own choir? Is that is my first.

911
00:45:31,160 --> 00:45:31,800
Speaker 4: Know when you're.

912
00:45:37,000 --> 00:45:37,080
Speaker 5: No.

913
00:45:37,239 --> 00:45:39,960
Speaker 3: Honestly though, I mean, I I think, I think, I'm

914
00:45:40,000 --> 00:45:44,000
Speaker 3: like I honestly like, there's been so many times, especially

915
00:45:44,239 --> 00:45:46,719
Speaker 3: the last time was in Atlanta, like when we were

916
00:45:46,760 --> 00:45:49,880
Speaker 3: out there, like I finally just surrendered and I believed.

917
00:45:50,640 --> 00:45:54,120
Speaker 3: I was like, something bigger is going to make this okay.

918
00:45:54,480 --> 00:45:57,799
Speaker 3: It's going to be fine, and I know it's not

919
00:45:58,080 --> 00:46:03,040
Speaker 3: a coincidence when it happens. And then it happened, and

920
00:46:03,120 --> 00:46:05,480
Speaker 3: I told myself, if it happened in a way, made

921
00:46:05,480 --> 00:46:07,960
Speaker 3: a promise, not a promise. But I was like, like,

922
00:46:08,760 --> 00:46:11,800
Speaker 3: I can't ignore this anymore. I have to do something

923
00:46:11,800 --> 00:46:14,399
Speaker 3: about this. I feel called to do something about it.

924
00:46:14,920 --> 00:46:17,520
Speaker 3: So that's why even when you invited me, it felt like, whoa,

925
00:46:17,600 --> 00:46:22,920
Speaker 3: that's weird because I've been literally thinking about this and

926
00:46:22,960 --> 00:46:24,880
Speaker 3: we don't talk about religion, I mean you, because we

927
00:46:24,920 --> 00:46:28,440
Speaker 3: don't talk about talk about religion, you know, so I

928
00:46:28,480 --> 00:46:29,640
Speaker 3: hadn't told you that yet.

929
00:46:29,719 --> 00:46:33,280
Speaker 1: So I was like, this is so weird non religious relationship.

930
00:46:33,360 --> 00:46:37,440
Speaker 1: I guess to me our parents we're also on our

931
00:46:37,480 --> 00:46:38,520
Speaker 1: religion together.

932
00:46:38,880 --> 00:46:43,400
Speaker 4: Jesus Christ, Oh my goodness.

933
00:46:44,360 --> 00:46:46,880
Speaker 2: I just think, really what it is is like for

934
00:46:47,080 --> 00:46:49,640
Speaker 2: for me, for Lunin, for the kids. It's just letting

935
00:46:49,680 --> 00:46:54,359
Speaker 2: her know that divine things happen when you allow them to.

936
00:46:54,960 --> 00:46:57,719
Speaker 2: There have been so I'm not really like religious, but like,

937
00:46:58,000 --> 00:46:58,680
Speaker 2: there are things.

938
00:46:58,520 --> 00:47:00,640
Speaker 4: That happen all the time where I was like, it's yesterday.

939
00:47:00,640 --> 00:47:03,480
Speaker 1: I remember that name that popped up when we're talking about.

940
00:47:03,960 --> 00:47:10,799
Speaker 4: Oh right, right, that was so weird. It's God, like, Hai,

941
00:47:11,360 --> 00:47:13,560
Speaker 4: I'm around, it's me here.

942
00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:17,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm showing myself believe it.

943
00:47:17,160 --> 00:47:20,480
Speaker 6: Even that moment that you're talking about in Atlanta when.

944
00:47:21,840 --> 00:47:23,440
Speaker 4: We were bad, we were in.

945
00:47:23,480 --> 00:47:29,640
Speaker 2: A bad situation and Erica usually be stressing the fuck out,

946
00:47:30,560 --> 00:47:32,320
Speaker 2: and this is a good valid reason to stress the

947
00:47:32,360 --> 00:47:34,040
Speaker 2: funk out, Like they're gonna come get this ship. We're

948
00:47:34,040 --> 00:47:35,560
Speaker 2: gonna have to pay another day and we don't have

949
00:47:35,600 --> 00:47:38,560
Speaker 2: the money for this ship, and you're like everything else

950
00:47:38,600 --> 00:47:41,319
Speaker 2: has worked itself out, It's gonna work out. And I

951
00:47:41,360 --> 00:47:47,840
Speaker 2: was like, hmm, that's new, but you're right, so okay,

952
00:47:48,000 --> 00:47:50,600
Speaker 2: Like I'm always like, well, if you can't do anything

953
00:47:50,640 --> 00:47:51,160
Speaker 2: about it.

954
00:47:51,040 --> 00:47:51,840
Speaker 1: You just be.

955
00:47:53,040 --> 00:47:57,520
Speaker 6: And literally that was the defining moment in our in

956
00:47:57,600 --> 00:48:03,440
Speaker 6: our fucking manifesting of shit happening for us, because looking

957
00:48:03,840 --> 00:48:08,080
Speaker 6: for Jamel not having, not having, like he'm not answering the.

958
00:48:08,080 --> 00:48:09,560
Speaker 4: Phone for hours or at all.

959
00:48:11,080 --> 00:48:13,600
Speaker 6: We've only met him like twice at this point, and

960
00:48:13,640 --> 00:48:16,360
Speaker 6: we see this man walk through this place.

961
00:48:16,600 --> 00:48:21,279
Speaker 2: It was just so crazy. I mean, I want our

962
00:48:21,360 --> 00:48:26,040
Speaker 2: kids to know that's there's something someone rooting for you.

963
00:48:27,120 --> 00:48:30,160
Speaker 2: So have faith in that and follow that and don't

964
00:48:30,520 --> 00:48:35,360
Speaker 2: miss any messages from anyone and any small thing that

965
00:48:35,440 --> 00:48:37,719
Speaker 2: seems a little bit missed it.

966
00:48:39,600 --> 00:48:42,959
Speaker 1: I have a question, irin, what is God?

967
00:48:45,200 --> 00:48:48,440
Speaker 4: Oh kind of people? That makes people?

968
00:48:49,520 --> 00:48:56,080
Speaker 1: People? That makes people? Because God as people? Okay, where's God?

969
00:48:56,800 --> 00:49:01,839
Speaker 1: And God in God? God is in God? Kay? Does God?

970
00:49:02,040 --> 00:49:04,520
Speaker 1: Where God? Where does God live in God?

971
00:49:05,239 --> 00:49:05,359
Speaker 6: Oh?

972
00:49:05,440 --> 00:49:05,760
Speaker 1: Okay?

973
00:49:06,360 --> 00:49:08,480
Speaker 7: Cool? I like that.

974
00:49:09,040 --> 00:49:20,399
Speaker 1: It's a good description. Well, on that note, it's late.

975
00:49:20,880 --> 00:49:22,560
Speaker 1: I gotta put this little one to sleep.

976
00:49:23,000 --> 00:49:27,759
Speaker 4: No, yes, but I love you.

977
00:49:28,280 --> 00:49:30,000
Speaker 1: Oh you're out. I love you too.

978
00:49:30,760 --> 00:49:34,560
Speaker 4: Ooh it's here, Oh my god. Oh oh more.

979
00:49:41,400 --> 00:49:45,279
Speaker 2: If you are in the LA area, come hang out

980
00:49:45,280 --> 00:49:48,960
Speaker 2: with us on Saturday nights at a simple bar off

981
00:49:49,000 --> 00:49:54,080
Speaker 2: a Kawenga in Hollywood Hills actually.

982
00:49:53,719 --> 00:49:56,640
Speaker 1: Like Studio City, not what like. I don't even know

983
00:49:56,640 --> 00:49:58,080
Speaker 1: how they got across it.

984
00:49:58,280 --> 00:50:01,480
Speaker 4: That's it goes up. It's like the hill Us. It's

985
00:50:01,480 --> 00:50:03,320
Speaker 4: in a little plaza. It's cool.

986
00:50:03,400 --> 00:50:04,040
Speaker 1: It's a dope.

987
00:50:04,080 --> 00:50:04,279
Speaker 2: Bar.

988
00:50:04,440 --> 00:50:08,399
Speaker 3: They play hip hop and the drinks are good, and

989
00:50:08,960 --> 00:50:12,720
Speaker 3: we'll be there. We'll be there hanging out nine thirty

990
00:50:13,080 --> 00:50:15,120
Speaker 3: ish nine pm nine.

991
00:50:15,600 --> 00:50:18,040
Speaker 2: I think we already committed to nine Yeah you know

992
00:50:18,080 --> 00:50:20,800
Speaker 2: really yeah, we'd be late nine thirty.

993
00:50:21,680 --> 00:50:24,080
Speaker 4: Don't get there and not say hi. That's weird.

994
00:50:24,560 --> 00:50:27,319
Speaker 3: Yeah, please don't do that, Like, just come say hi. Work,

995
00:50:27,320 --> 00:50:29,520
Speaker 3: That's why we're all there. We're all there to say hi.

996
00:50:29,719 --> 00:50:29,879
Speaker 5: Oh.

997
00:50:30,000 --> 00:50:34,160
Speaker 2: Also, bring a single friend, bring a tender date, a

998
00:50:34,239 --> 00:50:34,799
Speaker 2: hinge date.

999
00:50:34,880 --> 00:50:38,640
Speaker 1: Maybe that person that's been in that inbox that you're like, I.

1000
00:50:38,560 --> 00:50:40,439
Speaker 3: Don't know should I do it? Where should we meet?

1001
00:50:40,480 --> 00:50:43,359
Speaker 3: I don't want to like be weird. Just invite them there,

1002
00:50:43,560 --> 00:50:45,440
Speaker 3: simple bar. We'll vet them for you.

1003
00:50:47,400 --> 00:50:51,080
Speaker 1: We're professionals, professional tender vetters.

1004
00:50:53,440 --> 00:50:58,360
Speaker 2: Any other announcements, Oh yeah, we have a big announcednage.

1005
00:50:58,719 --> 00:51:07,000
Speaker 3: Sure, dude, after one complete year of really strategic have

1006
00:51:07,280 --> 00:51:09,920
Speaker 3: been one year, it's been a minute, I think, so

1007
00:51:10,080 --> 00:51:12,600
Speaker 3: I don't even think we It doesn't matter.

1008
00:51:12,880 --> 00:51:15,759
Speaker 2: The point is we stalked and stalked and stocked like

1009
00:51:15,800 --> 00:51:16,400
Speaker 2: we always do.

1010
00:51:16,560 --> 00:51:19,160
Speaker 1: The point is is just do it.

1011
00:51:19,160 --> 00:51:19,720
Speaker 4: It's God.

1012
00:51:20,000 --> 00:51:20,640
Speaker 7: Just ask.

1013
00:51:20,840 --> 00:51:23,239
Speaker 1: If you don't ask, then you'll never know. This is

1014
00:51:23,400 --> 00:51:26,120
Speaker 1: We're proof of that. Okay, this podcast is proof of that.

1015
00:51:26,719 --> 00:51:29,160
Speaker 3: Just everything that we're doing is proof that if you

1016
00:51:29,280 --> 00:51:33,920
Speaker 3: just try and just fucking ask and don't just do it,

1017
00:51:34,360 --> 00:51:38,520
Speaker 3: just do it like Nike. Anyway, we have fucking Sean

1018
00:51:38,719 --> 00:51:40,560
Speaker 3: King coming on our podcast.

1019
00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:42,319
Speaker 4: Yeah, that's right, you heard her.

1020
00:51:42,600 --> 00:51:47,320
Speaker 2: Sean King is coming on Good Mom's Bad Choices.

1021
00:51:47,719 --> 00:51:50,920
Speaker 3: Yes, and we're so excited because we've been following him

1022
00:51:50,920 --> 00:51:55,239
Speaker 3: for a minute. I just have so many questions, and

1023
00:51:55,239 --> 00:51:58,640
Speaker 3: I'm sure maybe you guys do too, So please please email,

1024
00:51:58,680 --> 00:52:03,000
Speaker 3: please email us any question, you have, anything you want,

1025
00:52:03,400 --> 00:52:04,040
Speaker 3: just go for it.

1026
00:52:04,080 --> 00:52:06,280
Speaker 1: This is your time. If you've ever.

1027
00:52:06,120 --> 00:52:09,400
Speaker 3: Wanted to ask Seaun King anything, or social activist or

1028
00:52:09,440 --> 00:52:13,719
Speaker 3: a black man, or a father or just an overall

1029
00:52:14,200 --> 00:52:17,320
Speaker 3: just educated human some shit.

1030
00:52:18,320 --> 00:52:20,120
Speaker 1: Here you go. You're welcome.

1031
00:52:20,280 --> 00:52:24,839
Speaker 2: Seaun King baby will be in New York.

1032
00:52:25,000 --> 00:52:27,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, next week we will. So if you're out there,

1033
00:52:28,360 --> 00:52:30,680
Speaker 3: let us know. Okay, let's go do some shit.

1034
00:52:30,760 --> 00:52:31,879
Speaker 4: Let's go get into some shit.

1035
00:52:31,920 --> 00:52:33,000
Speaker 1: Oh my god, are we gonna have a New York

1036
00:52:33,040 --> 00:52:33,319
Speaker 1: meet up?

1037
00:52:33,960 --> 00:52:35,319
Speaker 4: I feel like we don't have any time, but we

1038
00:52:35,400 --> 00:52:37,759
Speaker 4: need to maybe just like a just like a bar,

1039
00:52:37,920 --> 00:52:39,919
Speaker 4: a happy hour, meet us a happy hour.

1040
00:52:39,960 --> 00:52:42,960
Speaker 2: We actually have to we just announced it, so if

1041
00:52:43,000 --> 00:52:46,480
Speaker 2: you have any happy hour suggestions.

1042
00:52:45,640 --> 00:52:47,680
Speaker 1: Please let us know.

1043
00:52:48,080 --> 00:52:53,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, anyway, anyway, we will catch you guys next week.

1044
00:52:53,760 --> 00:52:55,320
Speaker 1: I told you I'm your littery.

1045
00:52:55,480 --> 00:52:58,920
Speaker 3: Don't need some ticketsh mama, Please, you're comforted with my

1046
00:52:59,520 --> 00:53:01,480
Speaker 3: sheep found It's like a crush appreaching.

1047
00:53:01,600 --> 00:53:04,719
Speaker 1: Never led on me, My mama, she inspired me like you.

1048
00:53:04,920 --> 00:53:05,440
Speaker 3: Good woman.

1049
00:53:07,400 --> 00:53:11,640
Speaker 5: She could say the world, but tell me who gone

1050
00:53:11,760 --> 00:53:12,399
Speaker 5: save her?

1051
00:53:14,520 --> 00:53:15,839
Speaker 4: Who gone save her?

1052
00:53:18,760 --> 00:53:19,800
Speaker 2: Blessing woman.

1053
00:53:21,760 --> 00:53:25,239
Speaker 1: She could say the world, but tell me