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Speaker 1: I've got sex with thirty five guys. Okay, who oh lord? Impressive?

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Speaker 1: Is it the word? So if I'm judge, if I'm

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Speaker 1: so help yourself.

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Speaker 2: We got this for the next hour.

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Speaker 3: All my life, grinding, all my life, sacrifice, hustle, bad

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Speaker 3: the price, Want a slice?

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Speaker 4: Got the brother of Dice, the swap all my life.

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Speaker 3: I've been grinding all my life, all my life, the grinning,

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Speaker 3: all my life, sacrifice, hustle, bag, the price, one slice,

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Speaker 3: got the brother of Dice, the.

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Speaker 1: Squad all my life.

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Speaker 3: I've been grinding all my life.

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Speaker 5: Hello, welcome to another edition of Club Shaha. I am

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Speaker 5: your host. I'm also the proprietor Club Shah And the

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Speaker 5: young lady that's stopping by for a conversation and a

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Speaker 5: drink today is a former college soccer star. She's unapologetically

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Speaker 5: a social media influencer, reality TV star personality, popular fitness model, model, actress, mother, author, businesswoman, entrepreneur.

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Speaker 2: Britney Nicole Renner.

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Speaker 4: Oh my gosh, what.

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Speaker 2: Did I leave anything? Is there something you'd like to add?

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Speaker 5: No, that was amazing, So how are you?

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Speaker 1: I'm kind of nervous?

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Speaker 2: Why are you nervous You've done so many of these interviews.

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Speaker 1: Well, I feel like you're easily one of the most

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Speaker 1: influential people I've sat down with, and there's a lot

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Speaker 1: I'm just really nervous. I know you're gonna ask you

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Speaker 5: I'm gonna ask you some unbelievable questions. But before we

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Speaker 5: get started, I'd like to have a toaest. This is

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Speaker 5: my very own kanyak. I'm gonna send you home with

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Speaker 5: a bottle while I have a bottle sent to you,

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Speaker 5: sent to you because you can't take a word on

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Speaker 5: the plane. What would you like to toast to love? Uh?

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Speaker 5: Congratulations on all your success moving forward. Hopefully everything that

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Speaker 2: To all the best. Brittany.

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Speaker 1: That's like a good little money.

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Speaker 2: That's good you that type of woman. I was thank you.

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Speaker 5: We you know, were like periodically we you know told

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Speaker 5: you, you know, have a little swig. I didn't know you

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Speaker 5: were gonna take it all the way to the dawn, Like.

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Speaker 2: Okay, welcome to Club.

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Speaker 5: Thank you. I mean this was a large undertaking to

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Speaker 5: to an opportunity to player appearing on Club Shit.

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Speaker 1: Why not?

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Speaker 5: Well, I mean I've seen, I've seen. I don't really

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Speaker 1: Yeah, And I would say that I'm really different depending

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Speaker 1: people getting me. It's just roll the disks. You never know.

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Speaker 1: I'm like a box of chocolates. You never know what

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Speaker 5: Written and Nicole Renter born in miss born in Mississippi,

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Speaker 5: born in Ohio, Born in Ohio.

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Speaker 2: Moved to Mississippi at a very.

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Speaker 1: Young name Ocean Spring, Mississippi.

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Speaker 5: Ocean Spring, so where's that close to Jackson? But Hayley, it's.

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Speaker 1: About three hours from Jackson, about an hour from New Orleans.

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Speaker 5: Right, oh okay, so you're you're on the border. Okay,

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Speaker 5: So what what was I mean? Your your siblings, brothers, sisters?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I have two brothers and one sister.

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Speaker 1: All right, Well, I was raised with my grandparents from

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Speaker 5: When you say you was read by your grandparents, what

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Speaker 1: So my dad, he was an alcoholic. He's been sober

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Speaker 5: Did you understand that you were different because you were biracial?

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Speaker 5: So yeah, so what was Britain in middle school?

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Speaker 1: I guess in what way, like dating.

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Speaker 5: Or just or were you like I got it, Guys

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Speaker 1: I don't feel like I ever had my pick of

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Speaker 5: You know, you wore a jacket, wore class ring.

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Speaker 1: God knows even what he was doing that. He's only

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Speaker 4: Because prosper.

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Speaker 5: You didn't lie. You told him the truth. But if

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Speaker 2: Did he ask you?

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Speaker 1: No, he had no idea.

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Speaker 1: No, you tell the truth. If it can be destroyed

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Speaker 1: Like if my truth take something away from me, I

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Speaker 2: Well, you know he's emotionally scarred for life.

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Speaker 5: Probably, Yeah, are you?

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Speaker 2: Are you so you want that on your resume?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, I'd rather wear the truth. Yes, I want people

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Speaker 2: It is okay to also be seen for what you're not.

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Speaker 5: Okay. I feel like before you no, no, no, you

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Speaker 1: You deserve to know the truth. I would want to

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Speaker 2: He don't win and got you.

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Speaker 5: He don't spend his heart on money, got you a

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Speaker 1: Because telling the truth is an act of love. So

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Speaker 5: Loved him so much that you cheat him. But anyway,

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Speaker 5: we're gonna we're gonna move on. We're gonna move on. Don't, don't,

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Speaker 5: We're gonna.

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Speaker 1: Move sixteen sixteen.

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Speaker 5: Obviously you're good at soccer. You get your greatest greatest soccer. Please,

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Speaker 5: you get a scholarship to Jackson State.

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Speaker 1: Jack Jackson State University.

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Speaker 2: Okay, what was that experience?

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Speaker 2: Okay, you go to college.

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Speaker 5: Obviously, now you're around you know, you were clicked up

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Speaker 1: It was a culture shock. I found out about Little

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Speaker 1: We be looking out for each other and classes and stuff.

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Speaker 1: So there was nothing like Jackson State, you know, But

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Speaker 1: I like, so, I played soccer, so I was busy

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Speaker 5: Did you know about HBCUs prior to you go into one?

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Speaker 1: No? And honestly, like, my grades really weren't the best.

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Speaker 5: Okay, so you go to Jackson State. It's a culture shop.

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Speaker 1: Just probably wasn't exposed to it.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, you felt more comfortable.

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Speaker 5: And so now, how did the girls treat Britney because

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Speaker 5: you're different? I mean you you know you got paper

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Speaker 1: Are you sure you can't have one more shot?

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Speaker 5: Sure?

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Speaker 1: Jesus hell, just a baby one. But wow, I've never

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Speaker 4: Dude.

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Speaker 1: I honestly felt I felt accepted.

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Speaker 2: You felt accepted.

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Speaker 1: I did. Yeah, And what I'll tell you because I

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Speaker 1: Right when those players were on the field of calling

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Speaker 1: us inward right, it wasn't half of me was en

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Speaker 1: raised or or that the other hand, that don't apply

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Speaker 4: You know, I'm only half right.

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Speaker 1: We're all fighting, right, So that's why for me, it's like,

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Speaker 1: Let's go, because you're not going to talk to us

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Speaker 2: How was it soccer side?

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Speaker 5: You're not on the soccer field, you walk in the class,

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Speaker 2: I mean what, so what.

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Speaker 5: Would how did the women how would the women at

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Speaker 1: I felt very much accepted. I feel like black people

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Speaker 1: That's why I learned, Hey, I'm both so I could

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Speaker 5: I read that you led Jackson State to the first

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Speaker 5: Did you ever think about pursuing soccer professionally?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? Have a love has always been.

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Speaker 2: Like, oh man, you met a guy.

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Speaker 1: The quarterback, and guess what, he was white?

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Speaker 5: All time? About time out?

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Speaker 2: Let me get a twenty second time about.

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Speaker 5: You go to HBCU from at high school, you clicked

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Speaker 5: up with white. You go with to and HBCU where

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Speaker 5: they're like a black and you and you date the

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Speaker 1: Oh? No, more pink meat from me.

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Speaker 2: Oh lord, that brother? See ja show hope we got

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Speaker 2: to show after this?

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Speaker 1: You're funny?

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Speaker 4: Oh god, how did it happen?

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Speaker 2: Faate what bait?

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Speaker 1: It was fake because it was literally kind of like

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Speaker 1: It was a lot going on, right, So you you up,

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Speaker 2: You in the quarterback, y'all date how long?

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Speaker 1: Well? I do have to disclose that I was. I

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Speaker 5: So obviously you didn't feel about yourself then the way

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Speaker 1: Because I would never accept bread combs, But then I

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Speaker 5: You know.

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Speaker 1: That's how it was.

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Speaker 2: Was that because.

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Speaker 5: The yearning for affection from your dad or something. Did

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Speaker 1: So that's how I got myself in a bit of

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Speaker 2: So you left when he left?

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Speaker 1: Or yeah? Because he I know, he's just like a girl,

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Speaker 2: But well he didn't tell his name, so but I'm

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Speaker 1: Yeah, well, yeah, who gets fu fuck him? But if

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Speaker 5: so how after he left? After he left school, you

444
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Speaker 5: dropped out of Jackson State? How long were you together

445
00:21:06,000 --> 00:21:06,800
Speaker 5: with him after that?

446
00:21:07,840 --> 00:21:12,080
Speaker 1: What I left in was at the end of twenty eleven.

447
00:21:12,480 --> 00:21:16,199
Speaker 1: We broke up. Uh, the summer of twenty fourteen, that's

448
00:21:16,240 --> 00:21:16,680
Speaker 1: when I moved.

449
00:21:16,600 --> 00:21:19,520
Speaker 5: To La m So y'all together for a minute.

450
00:21:19,600 --> 00:21:21,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, He's the reason I got into fitness, got my

451
00:21:21,520 --> 00:21:23,800
Speaker 1: body together. He taught me everything I know about fitness.

452
00:21:23,800 --> 00:21:24,960
Speaker 1: I can go into a gym and I know how

453
00:21:24,960 --> 00:21:27,719
Speaker 1: to navigate and do what I need to do to to

454
00:21:27,720 --> 00:21:29,960
Speaker 1: to get it done. So he taught me a lot

455
00:21:30,000 --> 00:21:33,480
Speaker 1: about business fitness and we made a lot of money together,

456
00:21:33,600 --> 00:21:35,639
Speaker 1: right you know. So that's why he was still a

457
00:21:35,720 --> 00:21:37,280
Speaker 1: very important piece in that puzzle.

458
00:21:38,160 --> 00:21:41,600
Speaker 5: Y did you once you guys, did you think it

459
00:21:41,640 --> 00:21:44,199
Speaker 5: was too late for you to pursue pretension with soccer

460
00:21:44,240 --> 00:21:46,879
Speaker 5: again after you had left and been away from it.

461
00:21:47,200 --> 00:21:48,840
Speaker 1: Well, there was a new coach that came in and

462
00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:51,159
Speaker 1: he was like, Hey, I I really want you to

463
00:21:51,160 --> 00:21:52,639
Speaker 1: come back on the team. Maybe you could just come back.

464
00:21:52,680 --> 00:21:55,479
Speaker 1: You could read sir, red shirt and then play. You know,

465
00:21:55,520 --> 00:21:58,840
Speaker 1: the last year I told him I wasn't interested in that.

466
00:22:00,080 --> 00:22:02,399
Speaker 1: I had an opportunity to at least finish out right,

467
00:22:02,560 --> 00:22:03,359
Speaker 1: but I didn't want to.

468
00:22:03,400 --> 00:22:05,200
Speaker 2: I was do you usually love?

469
00:22:09,600 --> 00:22:10,399
Speaker 1: And I haven't changed.

470
00:22:10,480 --> 00:22:11,080
Speaker 2: You love hard.

471
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Speaker 1: That's why to be careful.

472
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Speaker 5: So let me ask you this to your childhood, how

473
00:22:16,240 --> 00:22:20,199
Speaker 5: difficult your grandmother is very strict? How difficult was it

474
00:22:20,240 --> 00:22:22,439
Speaker 5: to try to unlearn some of the things that he

475
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Speaker 5: tried to instill.

476
00:22:23,680 --> 00:22:24,760
Speaker 2: Because I still.

477
00:22:24,520 --> 00:22:26,399
Speaker 5: Carry a lot of the things that my grandmother and

478
00:22:26,440 --> 00:22:27,800
Speaker 5: my grandparents instilled in me.

479
00:22:28,200 --> 00:22:30,000
Speaker 2: Being from the South and they were very.

480
00:22:29,840 --> 00:22:32,280
Speaker 5: Strict, I still carry some of that because I look

481
00:22:32,320 --> 00:22:35,080
Speaker 5: at it as a form of discipline. And at the time,

482
00:22:36,119 --> 00:22:38,199
Speaker 5: I like yourself, like, man, why is it like this?

483
00:22:38,320 --> 00:22:39,840
Speaker 2: Why do you have why we can't do the X,

484
00:22:39,960 --> 00:22:40,280
Speaker 2: Y and Z.

485
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Speaker 5: But as I've gotten older, I realized what they were

486
00:22:44,359 --> 00:22:46,680
Speaker 5: trying to do. They were trying to put up guardrails

487
00:22:46,680 --> 00:22:50,640
Speaker 5: and safeguards to prevent me from doing things or prevent

488
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Speaker 5: things from happening in my life that I didn't see

489
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Speaker 5: at the time.

490
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Speaker 1: Okay, so you're asking me, what what's it? I have

491
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Speaker 1: to unlearn or how hard was it?

492
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Speaker 2: How hard was it?

493
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Speaker 1: I mean, I think it's just any per any type

494
00:23:00,880 --> 00:23:03,600
Speaker 1: of programming, it's gonna take. If it took years to learn,

495
00:23:03,720 --> 00:23:05,959
Speaker 1: it may take years to unlearn. So there were just

496
00:23:06,000 --> 00:23:10,600
Speaker 1: things Again, even as a biracial person. I remember I

497
00:23:10,640 --> 00:23:12,560
Speaker 1: read a book that it was is It I think

498
00:23:12,560 --> 00:23:13,320
Speaker 1: it's called it Is It Me?

499
00:23:13,480 --> 00:23:13,720
Speaker 5: Is it you?

500
00:23:13,800 --> 00:23:15,399
Speaker 1: Or is it my skin color? Or something? But it

501
00:23:15,480 --> 00:23:19,359
Speaker 1: explained a lot of the history between white and black women.

502
00:23:19,400 --> 00:23:20,919
Speaker 1: So I think there's just certain things that you just

503
00:23:20,920 --> 00:23:24,360
Speaker 1: have to educate yourself on and that just takes some research.

504
00:23:24,720 --> 00:23:27,080
Speaker 5: Well, I've just been reading this quote and I've seen

505
00:23:27,119 --> 00:23:28,439
Speaker 5: it like fifty thousand times.

506
00:23:28,440 --> 00:23:30,000
Speaker 2: They say you only become.

507
00:23:30,320 --> 00:23:33,560
Speaker 5: Learn who you are once you've unlearned, once you've unlearned

508
00:23:33,640 --> 00:23:34,520
Speaker 5: what you've been told.

509
00:23:35,119 --> 00:23:35,560
Speaker 1: That's a bar.

510
00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:44,080
Speaker 5: So being biracial. Did were they any stereotypes? Were they

511
00:23:44,080 --> 00:23:48,399
Speaker 5: any like blacks or this, or whites or that? Knowing

512
00:23:48,480 --> 00:23:51,000
Speaker 5: that half of use this and half of use that,

513
00:23:51,160 --> 00:23:53,240
Speaker 5: So you have to be a certain way around this

514
00:23:54,080 --> 00:23:57,040
Speaker 5: racial people and a certain way around that racial people.

515
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Speaker 2: And although like.

516
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Speaker 5: You can I mean, I mean, I don't know if

517
00:24:01,600 --> 00:24:03,640
Speaker 5: you could, you could you could get away with saying

518
00:24:03,640 --> 00:24:06,359
Speaker 5: the N word or you black mo oh, well, you

519
00:24:06,400 --> 00:24:09,240
Speaker 5: know things of that nature. So how hard was it

520
00:24:09,320 --> 00:24:11,320
Speaker 5: for you to like? Because you have to like Okay,

521
00:24:11,320 --> 00:24:13,120
Speaker 5: I'm over here with you guys. Okay, no, I'm back

522
00:24:13,119 --> 00:24:14,040
Speaker 5: over here with you guys.

523
00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:20,520
Speaker 1: I mean there's a lot of stereotypes. Okay, like.

524
00:24:22,160 --> 00:24:28,480
Speaker 5: You know, hold on, my audience, my audience had never.

525
00:24:28,359 --> 00:24:29,080
Speaker 2: Seen you before.

526
00:24:30,280 --> 00:24:31,000
Speaker 4: Give you that quote.

527
00:24:31,359 --> 00:24:34,040
Speaker 5: I'm gonna get tell you now, I see what you're

528
00:24:34,040 --> 00:24:34,359
Speaker 5: trying to do.

529
00:24:34,560 --> 00:24:36,040
Speaker 2: No, let's let's let's happen.

530
00:24:36,560 --> 00:24:36,960
Speaker 5: Let's happen.

531
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Speaker 1: Let's happen to you.

532
00:24:42,600 --> 00:24:47,480
Speaker 5: You kept with damn every time?

533
00:24:47,560 --> 00:24:48,760
Speaker 2: Are you really looking for love?

534
00:24:49,320 --> 00:24:52,360
Speaker 1: I'm not looking for love. I'm prepared for love. Ok

535
00:24:52,640 --> 00:24:56,800
Speaker 1: clink clink, Brittany finding love, love finding Brittany.

536
00:24:57,560 --> 00:25:03,480
Speaker 2: Okay, hmmm, how was the sit at that time?

537
00:25:04,840 --> 00:25:09,840
Speaker 5: It's good Mississi Mississippi. I don't when I think of Mississippi,

538
00:25:10,280 --> 00:25:15,160
Speaker 5: I'm from rural South Georgia, not too much I am.

539
00:25:15,280 --> 00:25:16,840
Speaker 2: I am like a corn cobbet.

540
00:25:16,880 --> 00:25:22,520
Speaker 5: I don't see any similarities between rural South Georgia Mississippi

541
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Speaker 5: and La.

542
00:25:23,240 --> 00:25:25,120
Speaker 2: So how hard was it for you?

543
00:25:25,720 --> 00:25:25,840
Speaker 3: Like?

544
00:25:26,400 --> 00:25:33,760
Speaker 1: La, Mississippi ain't nothing, nothing, dirty, disrespectful. I mean there

545
00:25:33,880 --> 00:25:37,159
Speaker 1: was another again, another culture shock, especially when you're in

546
00:25:37,200 --> 00:25:38,879
Speaker 1: the South too, everybody speaks to one another.

547
00:25:39,280 --> 00:25:39,720
Speaker 5: Yeah.

548
00:25:39,800 --> 00:25:41,280
Speaker 1: Yeah, that was like the biggest thing. I was like,

549
00:25:41,320 --> 00:25:44,240
Speaker 1: why is everyone so rude or everyone's you know, everyone's

550
00:25:44,280 --> 00:25:46,640
Speaker 1: going nowhere fast in these cars and honking and beeping.

551
00:25:46,680 --> 00:25:48,119
Speaker 1: I think getting on the freeway was one of the

552
00:25:48,160 --> 00:25:49,959
Speaker 1: scariest things when I moved to LA I was just like,

553
00:25:50,119 --> 00:25:53,600
Speaker 1: you know, but yeah, it was. It was really hard

554
00:25:53,640 --> 00:25:56,480
Speaker 1: because I didn't realize how much it was like a

555
00:25:56,520 --> 00:25:58,639
Speaker 1: doggy dog like people looking out for themselves. That was

556
00:25:58,760 --> 00:25:59,320
Speaker 1: very new to me.

557
00:25:59,440 --> 00:25:59,600
Speaker 5: Yeah.

558
00:26:00,040 --> 00:26:04,400
Speaker 1: Actually, after years being on travel teams, the college team,

559
00:26:04,440 --> 00:26:07,040
Speaker 1: having that type of sisterhood and camaraderie to where like

560
00:26:07,119 --> 00:26:09,439
Speaker 1: every person is for themselves, that was weird. That was

561
00:26:09,480 --> 00:26:11,320
Speaker 1: really weird and it's still weird to this day and

562
00:26:11,359 --> 00:26:11,920
Speaker 1: I'm thirty one.

563
00:26:13,320 --> 00:26:16,399
Speaker 5: So when you say, like, because I agree, it was

564
00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:18,960
Speaker 5: always yes sir, no, sir, yes, ma'am, no, ma'am. You

565
00:26:19,119 --> 00:26:21,199
Speaker 5: hold the door for someone, You're like, hey, how you

566
00:26:21,200 --> 00:26:24,399
Speaker 5: doing today, And now people look at you like and

567
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:27,520
Speaker 5: so now I'm kind of like desensitized that, hey, get

568
00:26:27,520 --> 00:26:31,679
Speaker 5: the door yourself. Yeah, I mean, I mean, you know,

569
00:26:31,720 --> 00:26:34,600
Speaker 5: when after you after for so long, people looking at

570
00:26:34,600 --> 00:26:35,440
Speaker 5: you like you're crazy.

571
00:26:35,640 --> 00:26:37,360
Speaker 2: Not obviously people speak to me because they.

572
00:26:37,359 --> 00:26:39,879
Speaker 5: They recognize, oh hey, because I think sometimes a lot

573
00:26:39,920 --> 00:26:43,320
Speaker 5: of people will recognize who I am. But for the

574
00:26:43,359 --> 00:26:46,359
Speaker 5: most part, if people don't recognize you are, they're just

575
00:26:46,400 --> 00:26:49,600
Speaker 5: not saying him low just to a total stranger.

576
00:26:49,680 --> 00:26:52,919
Speaker 1: No, no, no, they're definitely not. Definitely just don't exist

577
00:26:53,440 --> 00:26:54,680
Speaker 1: or entitle that you held the door.

578
00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:56,600
Speaker 5: Did you know you was always gonna move to la

579
00:26:56,680 --> 00:26:58,400
Speaker 5: or did you always want to leave Mississippi.

580
00:27:01,640 --> 00:27:04,040
Speaker 1: I didn't always know that. I just followed my heart

581
00:27:04,320 --> 00:27:05,920
Speaker 1: brought me to Michigan. That's where I lived for a

582
00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:09,240
Speaker 1: little bit. I lived in Wyoming, Michigan, and I actually

583
00:27:09,240 --> 00:27:11,640
Speaker 1: had a cover shoot for this magazine. We won't say

584
00:27:11,840 --> 00:27:14,880
Speaker 1: I had a cover shoot then, and I came out here,

585
00:27:15,560 --> 00:27:17,600
Speaker 1: went to like a house party, just really did it up.

586
00:27:17,600 --> 00:27:20,600
Speaker 1: When I came out here and my first boyfriend and

587
00:27:20,600 --> 00:27:22,679
Speaker 1: I we broke up. There was just a lot of insecurities,

588
00:27:22,680 --> 00:27:24,960
Speaker 1: a lot of a lot of you know what I'm saying.

589
00:27:24,720 --> 00:27:27,399
Speaker 2: But no, I don't know what you're saying, and you

590
00:27:27,440 --> 00:27:28,199
Speaker 2: didn't say anything.

591
00:27:30,000 --> 00:27:30,840
Speaker 1: Okay, is this that.

592
00:27:33,720 --> 00:27:34,639
Speaker 2: I know what you're saying.

593
00:27:34,960 --> 00:27:36,680
Speaker 5: I would know what you were saying if you had

594
00:27:36,720 --> 00:27:41,199
Speaker 5: said something, but since you didn't say anything.

595
00:27:40,359 --> 00:27:43,159
Speaker 1: I feel like in that in my first relationship, I

596
00:27:43,280 --> 00:27:45,320
Speaker 1: thought that the only thing a guy could do is

597
00:27:45,920 --> 00:27:48,080
Speaker 1: you know, that was unhealthy or you know, one of

598
00:27:48,160 --> 00:27:49,840
Speaker 1: the only problems that you could have in a relationship

599
00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:51,960
Speaker 1: is getting cheated on. So I was very open to

600
00:27:52,880 --> 00:27:58,200
Speaker 1: opening up the relationship if you will. I know. No,

601
00:27:58,400 --> 00:28:01,720
Speaker 1: that was before too much loven hip hop. We were

602
00:28:01,720 --> 00:28:04,920
Speaker 1: watching Joe Budden and Caitlin Garcia at the time. Yeah,

603
00:28:04,960 --> 00:28:07,440
Speaker 1: and I was just like, maybe ill, only he ain't

604
00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:09,639
Speaker 1: gonna have to worry about other girls and let them go.

605
00:28:10,520 --> 00:28:14,520
Speaker 1: Oh my god, naive, poor thing.

606
00:28:14,920 --> 00:28:20,879
Speaker 5: But that didn't go. That wasn't going on kids. I

607
00:28:21,040 --> 00:28:26,639
Speaker 5: bought thirty years too early. I missed the gold is

608
00:28:26,840 --> 00:28:28,159
Speaker 5: about to go over there. I missed that.

609
00:28:29,760 --> 00:28:31,680
Speaker 1: What I'm saying is is that I ended up breaking

610
00:28:31,720 --> 00:28:33,280
Speaker 1: up with that guy, and I didn't go back to

611
00:28:33,320 --> 00:28:34,840
Speaker 1: get any of my stuff in Michigan and moved to

612
00:28:34,960 --> 00:28:37,119
Speaker 1: La Literally, it was like two other Instagram girls I

613
00:28:37,119 --> 00:28:39,720
Speaker 1: won't say their name, but two other Instagram girls who

614
00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:42,360
Speaker 1: lived with this photographer in a studio in downtown LA. Right,

615
00:28:42,520 --> 00:28:43,480
Speaker 1: we had like bunk beds.

616
00:28:43,520 --> 00:28:45,360
Speaker 5: I would I don't know what I would have thought,

617
00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:50,360
Speaker 5: like Mississippi, like you'd wit like kind of like South

618
00:28:50,440 --> 00:28:51,720
Speaker 5: and little North Atlanta.

619
00:28:51,960 --> 00:28:55,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, no, no, I don't like it like that.

620
00:28:55,320 --> 00:28:56,120
Speaker 4: Whoa?

621
00:28:55,920 --> 00:28:57,520
Speaker 2: How you not like the aid?

622
00:28:58,720 --> 00:28:59,320
Speaker 5: Much going on?

623
00:28:59,560 --> 00:29:00,640
Speaker 1: And it's is he as hell?

624
00:29:00,920 --> 00:29:11,440
Speaker 5: Yes right, yeah, but it's really nice. So so what

625
00:29:11,480 --> 00:29:13,720
Speaker 5: were your plans when you came to l A? What

626
00:29:13,760 --> 00:29:15,800
Speaker 5: did you want to be? What was I mean you

627
00:29:15,840 --> 00:29:18,360
Speaker 5: had dropped out of school, so obviously, so when you

628
00:29:18,440 --> 00:29:19,840
Speaker 5: were at Jackson State, what were you studying to be?

629
00:29:19,880 --> 00:29:21,080
Speaker 2: What was your what's gonna be your major?

630
00:29:21,160 --> 00:29:23,200
Speaker 1: I don't even know, pre dental, it could have been

631
00:29:23,200 --> 00:29:24,200
Speaker 1: something stupid, I don't know.

632
00:29:24,320 --> 00:29:26,920
Speaker 5: So you classes so I could play soccer, So you

633
00:29:27,040 --> 00:29:30,200
Speaker 5: made it in eligibility. So basically I just want to

634
00:29:30,200 --> 00:29:34,040
Speaker 5: stay on the side. Yes, So when you get to LA,

635
00:29:34,280 --> 00:29:36,680
Speaker 5: so what did you Okay? Because you say your your

636
00:29:36,760 --> 00:29:41,080
Speaker 5: your ex he he taught you fitness, he taught you following, Okay,

637
00:29:42,800 --> 00:29:43,920
Speaker 5: so that's what you were gonna be.

638
00:29:44,680 --> 00:29:47,480
Speaker 1: I didn't have a plan. I just came out here

639
00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:51,680
Speaker 1: like I am beautiful, I'm young, I got all these followers.

640
00:29:51,680 --> 00:29:54,239
Speaker 4: There's two other girls, then bunk punk bands that were

641
00:29:54,240 --> 00:29:54,680
Speaker 4: all here.

642
00:29:55,120 --> 00:29:57,680
Speaker 1: I don't know what we're chasing, but we're here, right.

643
00:29:58,880 --> 00:30:00,920
Speaker 1: Brand deals like that how I was getting money. It

644
00:30:00,960 --> 00:30:03,840
Speaker 1: was brand deals, so it's like you couldn't. I mean,

645
00:30:03,880 --> 00:30:05,520
Speaker 1: I was twenty two when I moved here, so I

646
00:30:05,600 --> 00:30:08,760
Speaker 1: was moving around spending money, being able to do what

647
00:30:08,800 --> 00:30:10,920
Speaker 1: I wanted to do because I was getting money from brandals.

648
00:30:11,480 --> 00:30:13,000
Speaker 1: So that's how I was making my way.

649
00:30:13,040 --> 00:30:14,480
Speaker 2: When did you realize you was like that?

650
00:30:15,760 --> 00:30:23,600
Speaker 1: When I was like that, Oh boy, I don't even

651
00:30:23,640 --> 00:30:27,320
Speaker 1: know what was like that aha moment because I feel

652
00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:31,120
Speaker 1: like I had a lot of access at a very

653
00:30:31,160 --> 00:30:33,880
Speaker 1: young age to people that I never thought would know

654
00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:36,040
Speaker 1: my name right, So it was kind of like living

655
00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:39,080
Speaker 1: in Disneyland. I'm like, oh my god, like I couldn't

656
00:30:39,120 --> 00:30:40,680
Speaker 1: get enough. So I don't know. Probably when I moved

657
00:30:40,680 --> 00:30:42,680
Speaker 1: out to LA just being twenty two or twenty.

658
00:30:42,440 --> 00:30:48,120
Speaker 5: Three, and because Coach Prime, you know, Coach Prime was

659
00:30:48,160 --> 00:30:50,400
Speaker 5: the former coach at Jackson State. He had you speaking

660
00:30:50,400 --> 00:30:55,320
Speaker 5: to his guys and you said that I've got more

661
00:30:55,400 --> 00:31:00,760
Speaker 5: checks in my DM than Nike. So is that how

662
00:31:00,800 --> 00:31:04,000
Speaker 5: it started? That's when you knew, like, damn man, look

663
00:31:04,040 --> 00:31:07,000
Speaker 5: at my inbox, my inbox running over.

664
00:31:07,840 --> 00:31:11,120
Speaker 1: I mean I think that was definitely a part of it.

665
00:31:11,200 --> 00:31:15,400
Speaker 1: I think just being able to literally and figuratively skip

666
00:31:15,440 --> 00:31:18,240
Speaker 1: the line and get paid to like stand in front

667
00:31:18,240 --> 00:31:20,000
Speaker 1: of a movie poster and post it on your page.

668
00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:23,760
Speaker 1: It was it was quick money, like I don't know,

669
00:31:23,800 --> 00:31:26,520
Speaker 1: it was the access, it was the money, It was

670
00:31:27,040 --> 00:31:31,600
Speaker 1: the man. I mean again, people like to judge, well, yeah,

671
00:31:31,840 --> 00:31:33,920
Speaker 1: I mean I like what I like.

672
00:31:34,000 --> 00:31:38,240
Speaker 5: My love man, definite, yeah, yeah.

673
00:31:38,040 --> 00:31:40,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I'm getting paid for my husband. I

674
00:31:40,800 --> 00:31:42,959
Speaker 1: mean I'm sitting here and tell them my thumbs. Look

675
00:31:43,000 --> 00:31:44,600
Speaker 1: in the beginning, just waiting on a real man, you.

676
00:31:44,560 --> 00:31:48,200
Speaker 2: Know, a real man.

677
00:31:50,120 --> 00:31:53,680
Speaker 5: Give me Britney Ryner's idea of a if if if

678
00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:57,080
Speaker 5: someone says, okay, draw your real man and then give

679
00:31:57,080 --> 00:31:59,880
Speaker 5: me the attributes in which you want him to possess.

680
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:01,280
Speaker 1: Okay, let me pull up the punishment.

681
00:32:02,360 --> 00:32:02,680
Speaker 5: Okay.

682
00:32:03,480 --> 00:32:09,920
Speaker 1: So first things first, honest. Okay, he's honest. He's adventurous,

683
00:32:10,680 --> 00:32:13,240
Speaker 1: he's affectionate, so that's something not a lot of people

684
00:32:13,280 --> 00:32:18,520
Speaker 1: are naturally. He is respectful, he is curious about the

685
00:32:18,560 --> 00:32:21,760
Speaker 1: life around him, and he's committed to himself. I would

686
00:32:21,760 --> 00:32:25,080
Speaker 1: say those are probably the core values that I'm thinking

687
00:32:25,080 --> 00:32:31,480
Speaker 1: of someone who is that believes in true love.

688
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:36,920
Speaker 5: True love, that's what you're looking for, Storybook wrote, I mean,

689
00:32:37,800 --> 00:32:40,000
Speaker 5: is true love? Is it something that you've read or

690
00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:42,240
Speaker 5: if it's something that you've experienced and you know what

691
00:32:42,280 --> 00:32:42,680
Speaker 5: it's like.

692
00:32:43,720 --> 00:32:48,560
Speaker 1: I can't say that I've ever experienced it necessarily just

693
00:32:48,560 --> 00:32:50,440
Speaker 1: because I feel that I would be with that person.

694
00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:52,400
Speaker 1: But it's always something that's been on my heart, and

695
00:32:52,440 --> 00:32:53,880
Speaker 1: if it was put on my heart, it was for

696
00:32:53,920 --> 00:32:56,600
Speaker 1: a reason. It's because it exists, just like you're able

697
00:32:56,640 --> 00:32:58,280
Speaker 1: to manifest the way that you are because it's put

698
00:32:58,280 --> 00:33:01,920
Speaker 1: on there for you too materialize. Same here. I think

699
00:33:02,000 --> 00:33:03,480
Speaker 1: a lot of people think that it's not going to

700
00:33:03,520 --> 00:33:05,960
Speaker 1: happen for me because of the way that I carry

701
00:33:06,000 --> 00:33:08,880
Speaker 1: myself or different versions of me that they're stuck on.

702
00:33:09,360 --> 00:33:11,280
Speaker 1: But it's all my heart for a reason. That's why

703
00:33:11,280 --> 00:33:13,200
Speaker 1: I've had to experience the flip side of the coin,

704
00:33:13,280 --> 00:33:15,440
Speaker 1: the darker side of the coin, where I've had a

705
00:33:15,440 --> 00:33:18,200
Speaker 1: lot of heartbreak and disappointments, because how else would I

706
00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:20,320
Speaker 1: appreciate true love when it comes to me Because I've

707
00:33:20,360 --> 00:33:22,920
Speaker 1: had everything come to me so easy, even with soccer,

708
00:33:23,160 --> 00:33:25,680
Speaker 1: I didn't have to practice. I was good. I'm good, good, great.

709
00:33:26,080 --> 00:33:27,760
Speaker 1: I mean that's just what it was. I didn't have

710
00:33:27,800 --> 00:33:30,240
Speaker 1: to That's what it was. So it's like when you

711
00:33:30,280 --> 00:33:32,480
Speaker 1: don't know the value of anything because things come to

712
00:33:32,520 --> 00:33:35,160
Speaker 1: you so naturally, because you're beautiful, because your body, the followers,

713
00:33:35,200 --> 00:33:38,120
Speaker 1: the social media, the notoriety. You don't value shit, right,

714
00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:39,680
Speaker 1: So that's why I think for me, so.

715
00:33:39,680 --> 00:33:42,440
Speaker 5: You didn't have an appreciation of anything, No, because I

716
00:33:42,440 --> 00:33:43,320
Speaker 5: could give whatever I want.

717
00:33:44,160 --> 00:33:46,200
Speaker 1: So going through some of the stuff I went through

718
00:33:46,200 --> 00:33:47,880
Speaker 1: the last couple of years, I've really got to see

719
00:33:47,880 --> 00:33:48,560
Speaker 1: what I've made of.

720
00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:51,520
Speaker 2: Were you were at Jackson State? Were you in a sorority?

721
00:33:51,960 --> 00:33:53,280
Speaker 1: No, my grades weren't good enough.

722
00:33:54,880 --> 00:33:58,600
Speaker 5: I'm rich. I mean, so you you would just think

723
00:33:58,840 --> 00:34:00,000
Speaker 5: you were just at college kick.

724
00:34:00,800 --> 00:34:02,640
Speaker 1: I mean I wouldn't even say, well, I was shocked up.

725
00:34:02,680 --> 00:34:06,000
Speaker 1: I was playing like like house. You were shocking in

726
00:34:06,080 --> 00:34:09,680
Speaker 1: college in the palasaides people at Jackson over there where

727
00:34:09,680 --> 00:34:13,839
Speaker 1: that is houseas playing house. Mm hmm.

728
00:34:13,960 --> 00:34:15,719
Speaker 2: Your grandmother would be so disappointed.

729
00:34:15,760 --> 00:34:18,040
Speaker 1: I mean, she was alive on the heaven and what

730
00:34:18,120 --> 00:34:18,680
Speaker 1: was she gonna do?

731
00:34:18,920 --> 00:34:21,640
Speaker 5: Nothing? But I'm saying that's what I'm said, He's gonna

732
00:34:21,640 --> 00:34:24,400
Speaker 5: be disappointed because she's gonna say, Brittany, I raise you

733
00:34:24,480 --> 00:34:28,600
Speaker 5: better than that, or at least I thought i'd be honestly, no, no, no, no,

734
00:34:28,920 --> 00:34:30,560
Speaker 5: Honesty honestly is the key.

735
00:34:30,800 --> 00:34:32,040
Speaker 2: Honestly the best.

736
00:34:31,680 --> 00:34:34,560
Speaker 1: I don't really my grandma said she never saw, so

737
00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:40,720
Speaker 1: I'm not even really experience life.

738
00:34:40,760 --> 00:34:42,239
Speaker 2: You're gonna put granny out there like.

739
00:34:42,239 --> 00:34:47,120
Speaker 1: That truth is truth, So I'm not really, wasn't it her?

740
00:34:49,480 --> 00:34:51,479
Speaker 5: So when Dion asked you to come back and speak

741
00:34:51,520 --> 00:34:53,759
Speaker 5: to the kids, to the to his team, the young

742
00:34:53,800 --> 00:34:59,160
Speaker 5: man at Jackson State, did you prepare to like, Okay,

743
00:34:59,160 --> 00:35:01,560
Speaker 5: I'm gonna touch you on this, this and this, or

744
00:35:01,600 --> 00:35:03,440
Speaker 5: you just went up there and let it blow from

745
00:35:03,440 --> 00:35:03,960
Speaker 5: the heart.

746
00:35:05,840 --> 00:35:09,440
Speaker 1: Well, originally I just wanted tickets to the game. I

747
00:35:09,440 --> 00:35:12,400
Speaker 1: think it was a homecoming game or something, and he's like, no,

748
00:35:12,440 --> 00:35:14,560
Speaker 1: I want you to speak to my team. So in

749
00:35:14,600 --> 00:35:16,799
Speaker 1: my mind, I was just like, Okay, I don't really

750
00:35:16,840 --> 00:35:19,040
Speaker 1: know what. I don't know what about I guess he

751
00:35:19,080 --> 00:35:22,200
Speaker 1: said the game of life. And I'm curious because I

752
00:35:22,239 --> 00:35:24,439
Speaker 1: know that you asked him about it. Did he ever

753
00:35:24,480 --> 00:35:28,239
Speaker 1: get into detail about what we discussed? And you've never

754
00:35:28,239 --> 00:35:29,440
Speaker 1: seen the footage, right.

755
00:35:29,400 --> 00:35:30,640
Speaker 2: I saw some of the footage.

756
00:35:30,640 --> 00:35:33,960
Speaker 5: But like I said, I don't like because I was like, Okay,

757
00:35:34,560 --> 00:35:36,759
Speaker 5: one day, I would like potentially for her to be

758
00:35:36,800 --> 00:35:39,640
Speaker 5: on my podcast. Now, obviously that was happening a couple

759
00:35:39,680 --> 00:35:41,319
Speaker 5: of years ago, so I was gonna let some time

760
00:35:41,800 --> 00:35:43,879
Speaker 5: passed by before I asked for.

761
00:35:43,800 --> 00:35:46,640
Speaker 2: You to come on my on my show. So but

762
00:35:46,719 --> 00:35:47,920
Speaker 2: I didn't want I didn't want to.

763
00:35:50,360 --> 00:35:52,600
Speaker 5: Sway any of the questions that I could potentially ask,

764
00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:55,480
Speaker 5: and hopefully I'm trying to ask questions I got because

765
00:35:55,480 --> 00:35:58,719
Speaker 5: I've kind of seen and my researcher and my producer CJ.

766
00:35:59,200 --> 00:36:01,440
Speaker 5: I think does a great job of making sure that

767
00:36:01,480 --> 00:36:04,080
Speaker 5: we don't we try not to touch on a whole

768
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:06,560
Speaker 5: lot of things that you've already spoken about. So that's

769
00:36:06,600 --> 00:36:08,759
Speaker 5: why I wanted to start back from the beginning. I

770
00:36:08,800 --> 00:36:11,120
Speaker 5: wanted to be britten in the cold renner I want. Ay,

771
00:36:11,600 --> 00:36:12,479
Speaker 5: I'm taking it back.

772
00:36:12,920 --> 00:36:16,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean, I think what I didn't like about

773
00:36:16,520 --> 00:36:19,080
Speaker 1: speaking at Jackson State is because the way that it

774
00:36:19,280 --> 00:36:23,759
Speaker 1: was marketed was that I was a cautionary tale. Oh

775
00:36:23,800 --> 00:36:27,359
Speaker 1: that's not what if you were to play back the

776
00:36:27,440 --> 00:36:32,200
Speaker 1: whole footage, what am I warning you guys about? Because

777
00:36:32,239 --> 00:36:34,200
Speaker 1: if I was a gold digger. I would be easily

778
00:36:34,239 --> 00:36:37,319
Speaker 1: the dumbest one. I'd be the least successful one, Like

779
00:36:37,400 --> 00:36:40,480
Speaker 1: I am not in a position to tell young men

780
00:36:40,600 --> 00:36:44,000
Speaker 1: about gold diggers or what women do or because the

781
00:36:44,040 --> 00:36:46,719
Speaker 1: friends that I have they're not not in this business.

782
00:36:47,000 --> 00:36:52,920
Speaker 1: They are call center nurses work out a freaking enterprise.

783
00:36:54,239 --> 00:36:57,640
Speaker 1: So when I didn't like that, it made it seem

784
00:36:57,680 --> 00:36:59,440
Speaker 1: like I'm coming in there and I'm telling you guys, hey,

785
00:36:59,440 --> 00:37:02,320
Speaker 1: don't get that's not what happened.

786
00:37:02,880 --> 00:37:05,560
Speaker 5: So well, Jeff, give us a brief some nopsis. Okay,

787
00:37:05,800 --> 00:37:08,400
Speaker 5: you get called here and he said, guys, I'm bringing

788
00:37:08,480 --> 00:37:10,879
Speaker 5: someone to in front of you today to speak to you.

789
00:37:11,200 --> 00:37:14,560
Speaker 5: That's gonna give you some some some some light, gonna

790
00:37:14,600 --> 00:37:17,040
Speaker 5: give you some game. That's the way he likes you, like,

791
00:37:17,080 --> 00:37:21,560
Speaker 5: I'm gonna give you game. And this person, although the

792
00:37:21,640 --> 00:37:27,000
Speaker 5: package is nicely bundled in a nice, neat presentable package,

793
00:37:27,680 --> 00:37:30,439
Speaker 5: you need to hear the message that she's going to say.

794
00:37:30,640 --> 00:37:32,440
Speaker 2: So you walk up there and everybody like.

795
00:37:35,360 --> 00:37:41,000
Speaker 5: Exactly she liked, or she's like, you got five So

796
00:37:41,160 --> 00:37:43,120
Speaker 5: now you know what's going on.

797
00:37:43,200 --> 00:37:45,400
Speaker 2: Hey, I mean, I can just imagine.

798
00:37:45,440 --> 00:37:48,120
Speaker 5: Hell, if I'm an eighteen nineteen year old someone like

799
00:37:48,160 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 5: yourself walks in.

800
00:37:49,120 --> 00:37:51,359
Speaker 2: I'm thinking the same thing. He's probably a young man thinking.

801
00:37:51,719 --> 00:37:56,520
Speaker 5: So now I've gotta set lustful thoughts asign and hear

802
00:37:56,560 --> 00:37:57,439
Speaker 5: what you have to say.

803
00:37:58,800 --> 00:38:00,839
Speaker 1: I think we did, doya, and I did a great

804
00:38:00,960 --> 00:38:03,759
Speaker 1: job kind of spitballing and he would, you know, help

805
00:38:03,840 --> 00:38:05,680
Speaker 1: set up the questions and different things you wanted me

806
00:38:05,719 --> 00:38:09,680
Speaker 1: to answer. But what I shared was my experience and

807
00:38:10,200 --> 00:38:13,600
Speaker 1: to not waste women's time, because you know, hell, hath

808
00:38:13,960 --> 00:38:17,439
Speaker 1: no fury like a woman's scoring. So really, but don't

809
00:38:17,440 --> 00:38:18,080
Speaker 1: try to correlate.

810
00:38:18,800 --> 00:38:20,200
Speaker 5: I just I don't. I don't know.

811
00:38:20,239 --> 00:38:21,040
Speaker 2: I'm not a woman.

812
00:38:21,200 --> 00:38:22,960
Speaker 1: So you're asking me just the way you know why

813
00:38:22,960 --> 00:38:24,640
Speaker 1: you said what you mean? Why?

814
00:38:24,960 --> 00:38:25,160
Speaker 2: Why?

815
00:38:25,520 --> 00:38:30,759
Speaker 5: How did I say it? We don no, No, Brittany, No.

816
00:38:30,719 --> 00:38:33,520
Speaker 4: You're like, oh really so you're familiar.

817
00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:37,400
Speaker 5: No, I mean I'm asking you this is new information?

818
00:38:38,320 --> 00:38:39,520
Speaker 1: Is that what warrens? Is that response?

819
00:38:39,920 --> 00:38:45,200
Speaker 5: Britney, You're asking me as a man to speak to

820
00:38:45,280 --> 00:38:47,960
Speaker 5: a situation that I would know nothing about, considering that

821
00:38:48,000 --> 00:38:50,080
Speaker 5: I'm not a woman. So I don't know what's gone

822
00:38:50,160 --> 00:38:53,560
Speaker 5: because me, sure things have happened, but I have to

823
00:38:53,600 --> 00:38:56,719
Speaker 5: move it alone. I don't get the luxury of being

824
00:38:56,760 --> 00:39:00,080
Speaker 5: able to be scornful and to lash out or to

825
00:39:00,120 --> 00:39:03,640
Speaker 5: retaliate if someone says, don't call me again. I don't

826
00:39:03,640 --> 00:39:07,200
Speaker 5: have the luxury of calling you again, because that is harassment.

827
00:39:07,320 --> 00:39:10,480
Speaker 5: Seanna Sharp called me harassment. I'm gonna be in the paper.

828
00:39:10,560 --> 00:39:13,520
Speaker 5: I'm gonna lose my job. So you can understand that

829
00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:17,040
Speaker 5: I'm speaking to things that I don't have the luxury

830
00:39:17,040 --> 00:39:17,840
Speaker 5: of being able to do.

831
00:39:18,400 --> 00:39:21,719
Speaker 1: Yes. But you also, because I've listened to a few

832
00:39:21,719 --> 00:39:24,360
Speaker 1: of your videos more recently getting up to this day,

833
00:39:24,600 --> 00:39:27,879
Speaker 1: where you are very big about whatever your dating life

834
00:39:28,000 --> 00:39:29,440
Speaker 1: is in private and that you don't want it to

835
00:39:29,440 --> 00:39:31,879
Speaker 1: be public. It's just like you said, if you if

836
00:39:31,880 --> 00:39:34,080
Speaker 1: you date in private, you can break up in private.

837
00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:39,400
Speaker 4: So even let.

838
00:39:39,200 --> 00:39:43,279
Speaker 1: Me finish my thought, the reality is is that you

839
00:39:43,360 --> 00:39:46,040
Speaker 1: know what I'm talking about. That's why you are you

840
00:39:46,120 --> 00:39:47,719
Speaker 1: move the way that you move in dating because you

841
00:39:47,760 --> 00:39:51,000
Speaker 1: can't just be out here all willy nilly and whatever

842
00:39:51,040 --> 00:39:54,160
Speaker 1: you're doing, especially publicly, because if you do some publicly,

843
00:39:54,239 --> 00:39:56,520
Speaker 1: you're gonna have to answer to it publicly. But I'm

844
00:39:56,560 --> 00:40:00,680
Speaker 1: saying in general, a lot of men with stout, I mean,

845
00:40:00,800 --> 00:40:02,719
Speaker 1: who are who are they supposed to date? They're gonna

846
00:40:02,760 --> 00:40:05,600
Speaker 1: go after women who typically have less than them, and

847
00:40:05,640 --> 00:40:07,480
Speaker 1: even women who may have greater than are equal to

848
00:40:07,880 --> 00:40:10,320
Speaker 1: Still hell, hath no fury like a woman's scorn.

849
00:40:10,440 --> 00:40:13,400
Speaker 2: Well, Oprah's taken Beyonce is taken?

850
00:40:13,480 --> 00:40:14,280
Speaker 1: You a date, Oprah.

851
00:40:14,360 --> 00:40:16,560
Speaker 2: No, I'm just saying, canceled.

852
00:40:17,400 --> 00:40:20,240
Speaker 5: You talk. You know, I'm saying when you talk about

853
00:40:20,320 --> 00:40:23,080
Speaker 5: men of high value and and and look we're gonna

854
00:40:23,080 --> 00:40:23,640
Speaker 5: talk about.

855
00:40:23,440 --> 00:40:25,160
Speaker 1: It, we got to differentiate that's spoken.

856
00:40:25,520 --> 00:40:30,359
Speaker 2: So let's just say men half a million million own up.

857
00:40:32,280 --> 00:40:33,680
Speaker 1: Mm hm.

858
00:40:33,760 --> 00:40:37,720
Speaker 2: The pool of dating the equivalent is not the same.

859
00:40:37,920 --> 00:40:38,400
Speaker 2: You know that.

860
00:40:38,520 --> 00:40:39,719
Speaker 1: Well yeah, waters what.

861
00:40:40,560 --> 00:40:41,600
Speaker 2: So that's what I'm saying.

862
00:40:41,920 --> 00:40:44,480
Speaker 5: So when you say, oh, men that have they're gonna

863
00:40:44,560 --> 00:40:46,839
Speaker 5: date women less day, water's wet.

864
00:40:46,840 --> 00:40:49,279
Speaker 1: But that's what Okay, So I'm going back to a

865
00:40:49,360 --> 00:40:52,879
Speaker 1: lot of people, male or female, don't have a lot

866
00:40:52,920 --> 00:40:55,400
Speaker 1: to lose. So when there are these breakups, or if

867
00:40:55,400 --> 00:40:58,120
Speaker 1: there was somebody who was maybe dating with ill intentions,

868
00:40:58,360 --> 00:41:02,360
Speaker 1: when that stuff happens, it can get right right, it

869
00:41:02,360 --> 00:41:04,200
Speaker 1: can get messy, especially when you don't have that much

870
00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:06,360
Speaker 1: going for yourself because you're like, oh, this person was

871
00:41:06,400 --> 00:41:08,799
Speaker 1: my way out, so now I'm going to out them

872
00:41:08,920 --> 00:41:10,840
Speaker 1: or post screenshots, like, there's been so much stuff in

873
00:41:10,880 --> 00:41:12,759
Speaker 1: the news that I've been seeing with basketball players and

874
00:41:13,120 --> 00:41:15,000
Speaker 1: certain things, and you know what I'm talking about. While

875
00:41:15,040 --> 00:41:17,719
Speaker 1: I was saying any names, but.

876
00:41:16,880 --> 00:41:19,759
Speaker 5: But that type of stuff right when you.

877
00:41:22,440 --> 00:41:25,839
Speaker 2: I remember when I'm trying to think.

878
00:41:25,880 --> 00:41:27,960
Speaker 5: I don't know if you said it on a radio

879
00:41:28,120 --> 00:41:32,200
Speaker 5: show or TV show about.

880
00:41:31,680 --> 00:41:32,680
Speaker 2: Your dating problems.

881
00:41:32,800 --> 00:41:36,080
Speaker 5: You was with one man, two man, three men, four

882
00:41:36,120 --> 00:41:38,399
Speaker 5: men over the course of a twenty four hour forty

883
00:41:38,440 --> 00:41:42,560
Speaker 5: eight hour span. Did you think about the ramifications of

884
00:41:42,640 --> 00:41:48,600
Speaker 5: how people men, women, everybody would look at you because.

885
00:41:50,560 --> 00:41:53,160
Speaker 2: Or does that not bother you? Or you learn to

886
00:41:53,200 --> 00:41:54,080
Speaker 2: tune that out.

887
00:41:54,960 --> 00:41:58,520
Speaker 1: So you're referring to one insular I can actually recall

888
00:41:58,560 --> 00:42:00,520
Speaker 1: a pinpoint are perfect for you. There's a video that

889
00:42:00,560 --> 00:42:02,240
Speaker 1: I did in my car where I was talking about

890
00:42:02,280 --> 00:42:04,640
Speaker 1: how I had sex with was it three men and

891
00:42:05,800 --> 00:42:07,680
Speaker 1: a day and then I ended up getting a yeast

892
00:42:07,680 --> 00:42:10,920
Speaker 1: in Yeah, that was I came out pretty unscathed for

893
00:42:11,080 --> 00:42:13,680
Speaker 1: just the east infection. It's considering what I could have gotten.

894
00:42:14,520 --> 00:42:17,520
Speaker 1: It wasn't that, you know, man.

895
00:42:17,360 --> 00:42:20,040
Speaker 5: I hope I was.

896
00:42:21,320 --> 00:42:22,920
Speaker 1: I was on birth control for ten years before I

897
00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:24,400
Speaker 1: had my son. I got off of it because there

898
00:42:24,440 --> 00:42:27,640
Speaker 1: was a conversation with my child's father. So I again

899
00:42:27,719 --> 00:42:30,680
Speaker 1: the whole trapping thing. Can't trap the wedding, babe. And

900
00:42:30,800 --> 00:42:32,440
Speaker 1: on top of that, I never wanted to have a fit.

901
00:42:32,640 --> 00:42:33,360
Speaker 1: I looked at kids.

902
00:42:34,480 --> 00:42:36,120
Speaker 5: You never wanted a baby daddy. You wanted to be

903
00:42:36,120 --> 00:42:37,560
Speaker 5: a mom. You didn't want to be a baby mom,

904
00:42:37,600 --> 00:42:38,239
Speaker 5: but you wanted to be a.

905
00:42:38,400 --> 00:42:39,719
Speaker 1: That's why I waited so long. I had my baby

906
00:42:39,719 --> 00:42:41,080
Speaker 1: when I was twenty nine. I thought I was doing

907
00:42:41,080 --> 00:42:42,600
Speaker 1: it right. I thought that was my guy. And I

908
00:42:43,040 --> 00:42:44,920
Speaker 1: never really liked kids. I always thought I referred to

909
00:42:44,960 --> 00:42:47,680
Speaker 1: them as crotch goblins to be honest, you know, but

910
00:42:47,840 --> 00:42:48,920
Speaker 1: as I got older, I wanted one.

911
00:42:48,920 --> 00:42:50,479
Speaker 2: But you, But did you think?

912
00:42:50,480 --> 00:42:52,520
Speaker 1: Do you think about the ramifications of telling people that

913
00:42:52,520 --> 00:42:54,839
Speaker 1: I had sex with multiple men? Yes, I don't care,

914
00:42:54,880 --> 00:42:56,880
Speaker 1: it's the truth. If you don't, if you don't see

915
00:42:56,920 --> 00:43:01,160
Speaker 1: me as a potential dating person, great one less heart

916
00:43:01,200 --> 00:43:03,960
Speaker 1: to break, leave me alone, and I'm gonna continue to live.

917
00:43:04,560 --> 00:43:09,040
Speaker 5: But you do understand, Brittany, that's hard for Look, like

918
00:43:09,080 --> 00:43:12,400
Speaker 5: you said, public versus private. Now, if you and I

919
00:43:12,480 --> 00:43:14,719
Speaker 5: having a conversation and we're you're sitting in here, we

920
00:43:14,800 --> 00:43:17,040
Speaker 5: have a conversation and you said with Shanna, I slept

921
00:43:17,040 --> 00:43:20,200
Speaker 5: with this many men. Okay, that's one thing that's between

922
00:43:20,200 --> 00:43:24,360
Speaker 5: you and I. But to have that conversation and then everybody, Sam,

923
00:43:24,440 --> 00:43:26,840
Speaker 5: John and everybody else knows it, that's a whole different

924
00:43:26,880 --> 00:43:29,520
Speaker 5: that's a whole different that's a whole different ball game, Britney.

925
00:43:30,640 --> 00:43:33,560
Speaker 1: That's fine with me. I mean I feel that that's.

926
00:43:33,360 --> 00:43:36,719
Speaker 5: Selfish because all you're thinking about is Hugh. What about him?

927
00:43:37,200 --> 00:43:40,040
Speaker 1: He's got to be with you, He has got to

928
00:43:40,080 --> 00:43:43,520
Speaker 1: be with me. He has the privilege to be Okay,

929
00:43:43,560 --> 00:43:45,640
Speaker 1: cause you know how many women you slept with, Brient.

930
00:43:46,120 --> 00:43:51,920
Speaker 6: Do you know how many women you slept with? How

931
00:43:51,920 --> 00:43:52,359
Speaker 6: many women?

932
00:43:52,400 --> 00:43:52,640
Speaker 2: You say?

933
00:43:52,760 --> 00:43:52,960
Speaker 5: Yes?

934
00:43:53,480 --> 00:43:56,719
Speaker 1: Double digits, triple digits. There we go send back in

935
00:43:56,760 --> 00:44:00,080
Speaker 1: this position, double triple Brittany.

936
00:43:59,760 --> 00:44:01,440
Speaker 2: I'm interviewer. Are you at the interviewer?

937
00:44:01,560 --> 00:44:02,680
Speaker 4: I can't ask any questions.

938
00:44:02,719 --> 00:44:05,600
Speaker 5: You can ask questions. But when you have your podcast,

939
00:44:05,719 --> 00:44:08,400
Speaker 5: invite me on it. You and I have this conversation. Okay,

940
00:44:08,960 --> 00:44:13,160
Speaker 5: now back to our really normal scheduled program. You do

941
00:44:13,400 --> 00:44:19,680
Speaker 5: understand that a man pride is woman to know. Look,

942
00:44:19,920 --> 00:44:23,080
Speaker 5: I don't have any I don't have any problem. You know,

943
00:44:24,200 --> 00:44:27,080
Speaker 5: three bodies, four bodies, five bodies, ten bodies that that

944
00:44:27,360 --> 00:44:30,680
Speaker 5: what you did before me long as you I mean,

945
00:44:31,040 --> 00:44:34,200
Speaker 5: you know, I'm pretty I'm pretty lenient because I've kind

946
00:44:34,200 --> 00:44:38,640
Speaker 5: of you know, lawyers, doctors, exotic answers.

947
00:44:38,719 --> 00:44:43,359
Speaker 2: Yeah, so you you love what you know, you love

948
00:44:43,400 --> 00:44:44,040
Speaker 2: what you love.

949
00:44:44,400 --> 00:44:44,640
Speaker 5: Wow.

950
00:44:45,280 --> 00:44:49,160
Speaker 2: But but it's a it's a it's.

951
00:44:49,040 --> 00:44:53,800
Speaker 5: A it's a high bar to hurdle if she makes

952
00:44:53,880 --> 00:44:56,880
Speaker 5: things that she's done public.

953
00:44:57,320 --> 00:44:58,719
Speaker 2: I think you understand what I'm saying.

954
00:44:59,560 --> 00:45:02,360
Speaker 1: I believe that the average person is below average, So

955
00:45:02,520 --> 00:45:06,080
Speaker 1: the average man is most likely not going to but.

956
00:45:05,920 --> 00:45:08,040
Speaker 5: You're not gonna be interested in no average man. You

957
00:45:08,160 --> 00:45:08,799
Speaker 5: like what you like.

958
00:45:08,960 --> 00:45:12,080
Speaker 1: They cannot stop me, and I never I never argued

959
00:45:12,120 --> 00:45:16,000
Speaker 1: with you on that. You didn't let me finish my thoughts. Okay,

960
00:45:16,160 --> 00:45:19,560
Speaker 1: and then and then we write Okay. What I'm saying

961
00:45:19,640 --> 00:45:21,360
Speaker 1: is is that the average guy would tell you that

962
00:45:21,480 --> 00:45:25,480
Speaker 1: I'm not wife material. That's fine, because I don't want

963
00:45:25,480 --> 00:45:27,279
Speaker 1: to be with the average man. The man that I

964
00:45:27,360 --> 00:45:30,759
Speaker 1: want is someone who is understanding of that. And if

965
00:45:30,800 --> 00:45:33,399
Speaker 1: that's asking for too much from the male species, then

966
00:45:33,520 --> 00:45:36,879
Speaker 1: I must be better off alone. Then I don't think

967
00:45:36,920 --> 00:45:39,879
Speaker 1: I'm asking for the impossible. You literally just said that

968
00:45:40,440 --> 00:45:44,440
Speaker 1: exotic dancers, lawyers, whoever you love, who you love, who

969
00:45:44,520 --> 00:45:46,600
Speaker 1: you're drawn to, is who you're drawn to. The average

970
00:45:46,600 --> 00:45:49,040
Speaker 1: person is not gonna want to make that make that jump,

971
00:45:49,200 --> 00:45:52,120
Speaker 1: And that's okay because I'm not talking to them. I

972
00:45:52,120 --> 00:45:55,160
Speaker 1: don't need anybody average. I'm not average. There's nothing about

973
00:45:55,160 --> 00:45:56,200
Speaker 1: my mentality that's average.

974
00:45:56,200 --> 00:45:57,440
Speaker 4: I don't care myself as average.

975
00:45:57,440 --> 00:45:58,360
Speaker 1: I don't look average.

976
00:45:58,520 --> 00:46:01,120
Speaker 6: I'm not lounkedane and forget. Just like.

977
00:46:02,640 --> 00:46:06,000
Speaker 1: I stand for something. I get so much flak because

978
00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:08,080
Speaker 1: there's this little box and people want me to just

979
00:46:08,120 --> 00:46:10,759
Speaker 1: like suck and shut up, make a only fans let

980
00:46:10,840 --> 00:46:13,279
Speaker 1: me finish though. They want me to go over here

981
00:46:13,320 --> 00:46:15,400
Speaker 1: and just admit that I'm a gold digger, that I

982
00:46:15,480 --> 00:46:17,680
Speaker 1: trap guys, and that I only care about money. But

983
00:46:17,760 --> 00:46:22,040
Speaker 1: because I go so hard about true love, it's another problem.

984
00:46:22,440 --> 00:46:24,520
Speaker 2: But you can understand that.

985
00:46:24,560 --> 00:46:27,640
Speaker 1: You say it because I like sex, like you whoa,

986
00:46:28,480 --> 00:46:31,520
Speaker 1: because I like sex because I'm curious, baked.

987
00:46:31,400 --> 00:46:32,280
Speaker 2: Up and we got boomed.

988
00:46:34,320 --> 00:46:38,160
Speaker 5: I don't care say. You can understand why people will

989
00:46:38,200 --> 00:46:41,520
Speaker 5: find that hard about true love because they're looking at it.

990
00:46:41,560 --> 00:46:44,080
Speaker 5: True love is not what you're looking but what you're saying.

991
00:46:44,320 --> 00:46:46,080
Speaker 5: What you're selling doesn't.

992
00:46:45,800 --> 00:46:47,760
Speaker 1: Say what am I selling?

993
00:46:47,800 --> 00:46:49,279
Speaker 5: Well, I mean when you go on and you in

994
00:46:49,320 --> 00:46:51,000
Speaker 5: your car and you say, well, I had sex with

995
00:46:51,040 --> 00:46:51,920
Speaker 5: three men I was.

996
00:46:51,880 --> 00:46:55,480
Speaker 6: Back in twenty eighteen, by the way, go ahead, sorry.

997
00:46:55,200 --> 00:46:59,560
Speaker 5: I mean era, No man, no woman can outrun their

998
00:46:59,600 --> 00:47:02,759
Speaker 5: past because all it does is makes you tired when

999
00:47:02,800 --> 00:47:05,120
Speaker 5: it catches up with you. So what you did in

1000
00:47:05,120 --> 00:47:07,760
Speaker 5: twenty eighteen, people still know about it, be in twenty

1001
00:47:07,760 --> 00:47:11,040
Speaker 5: twenty three. So this notion that you said when it

1002
00:47:11,080 --> 00:47:14,120
Speaker 5: happened five years ago, it happened ten years ago. People

1003
00:47:14,160 --> 00:47:16,399
Speaker 5: have what they call the Internet, people have what they

1004
00:47:16,440 --> 00:47:17,480
Speaker 5: call memory.

1005
00:47:20,120 --> 00:47:24,560
Speaker 4: Good don't haven't forget it? Just know when you tried this.

1006
00:47:24,719 --> 00:47:28,480
Speaker 1: Yeah, it ain't even about that. No, honestly though, I

1007
00:47:28,520 --> 00:47:32,480
Speaker 1: don't want people to forget. I don't want my I

1008
00:47:32,480 --> 00:47:35,080
Speaker 1: don't believe you can deleet your wholeness. I don't want to.

1009
00:47:35,360 --> 00:47:38,160
Speaker 1: I don't I wouldn't treat like I would not want

1010
00:47:38,160 --> 00:47:42,720
Speaker 1: a clean slate today, because you know why, this whole

1011
00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:46,520
Speaker 1: journey for me has been learning. Yes, So if I'm

1012
00:47:46,640 --> 00:47:50,680
Speaker 1: judged for the way that I learned, then so be it.

1013
00:47:50,800 --> 00:47:52,719
Speaker 1: I don't need you, guys to forget anything. I don't

1014
00:47:52,719 --> 00:47:54,799
Speaker 1: want each you quite frankly, keep bringing it up, keep

1015
00:47:54,840 --> 00:47:57,480
Speaker 1: talking about it, because there's so many people that are

1016
00:47:57,520 --> 00:47:58,520
Speaker 1: so curious about.

1017
00:47:58,320 --> 00:48:00,359
Speaker 6: Me in private, they don't have the balls to try

1018
00:48:00,400 --> 00:48:01,160
Speaker 6: it in public.

1019
00:48:01,200 --> 00:48:03,520
Speaker 1: And that's fine. You're not for me. I don't need

1020
00:48:03,560 --> 00:48:05,200
Speaker 1: a guy that's gonna keep my record of wrongs.

1021
00:48:05,239 --> 00:48:08,360
Speaker 4: I thought that's what the Bible said, that's it.

1022
00:48:10,320 --> 00:48:13,080
Speaker 2: I don't. I'm just saying, I don't judge.

1023
00:48:13,320 --> 00:48:15,680
Speaker 1: I'm not here, don't keep no record or wrong. No.

1024
00:48:15,800 --> 00:48:17,600
Speaker 2: But I'm saying, look, don't fault.

1025
00:48:17,360 --> 00:48:19,640
Speaker 6: Me for doing the best I could with the awareness

1026
00:48:19,719 --> 00:48:20,160
Speaker 6: I had.

1027
00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:22,319
Speaker 1: So if a man doesn't understand that, because you just

1028
00:48:22,360 --> 00:48:27,200
Speaker 1: said a few minutes ago, yes, a man can make

1029
00:48:27,280 --> 00:48:30,839
Speaker 1: that jump, will he? Most likely? Probably not? But guess what,

1030
00:48:31,239 --> 00:48:35,440
Speaker 1: Who's for me? Let me finish? Okay, who's for me?

1031
00:48:35,760 --> 00:48:35,960
Speaker 5: Yes?

1032
00:48:36,440 --> 00:48:40,080
Speaker 1: Who? God, creators, source, universe, whatever you want to call it.

1033
00:48:40,680 --> 00:48:43,760
Speaker 1: Who God designed for me? None of that it matters.

1034
00:48:43,920 --> 00:48:46,480
Speaker 1: So I don't care about all these people yapping about

1035
00:48:46,480 --> 00:48:49,040
Speaker 1: what I'm not gonna get because if I wasn't gonna

1036
00:48:49,040 --> 00:48:50,919
Speaker 1: get it, it wouldn't be on my heart. If I wasn't

1037
00:48:50,920 --> 00:48:52,720
Speaker 1: gonna get it, I would not have been I would

1038
00:48:52,719 --> 00:48:56,640
Speaker 1: not be experiencing the dark side of this coin, and

1039
00:48:56,680 --> 00:49:00,759
Speaker 1: that's why the world will bear witness to true love,

1040
00:49:01,960 --> 00:49:05,960
Speaker 1: and they will become my footsol and they will have

1041
00:49:06,120 --> 00:49:08,000
Speaker 1: to see this woman. This is my this is my

1042
00:49:08,080 --> 00:49:13,239
Speaker 1: whole mission statement. Okay, I'm gonna tell the truth and

1043
00:49:13,360 --> 00:49:17,080
Speaker 1: still get everything I want, and they're gonna watch me.

1044
00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:20,520
Speaker 1: And I don't have to play by your guys's rules.

1045
00:49:20,640 --> 00:49:24,240
Speaker 1: I do it my way.

1046
00:49:24,440 --> 00:49:26,759
Speaker 2: You do things your way and that, and.

1047
00:49:26,840 --> 00:49:29,879
Speaker 1: Honestly, it varies hour to hour. I don't know who

1048
00:49:29,880 --> 00:49:31,239
Speaker 1: I was gonna be when I came into this area.

1049
00:49:32,120 --> 00:49:35,520
Speaker 2: Are you okay with the way it's played out thus far?

1050
00:49:36,120 --> 00:49:38,359
Speaker 1: Absolutely? I'm at peace with it. There's nothing I could

1051
00:49:38,360 --> 00:49:39,040
Speaker 1: have done differently.

1052
00:49:40,160 --> 00:49:41,440
Speaker 5: Oh, there have a lot you could have done differently.

1053
00:49:41,440 --> 00:49:43,320
Speaker 5: Stop saying that there's nothing you could have done differently.

1054
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:43,719
Speaker 5: Stop it.

1055
00:49:43,800 --> 00:49:45,080
Speaker 1: This is the way I was meant to do it.

1056
00:49:47,280 --> 00:49:49,600
Speaker 1: I don't question fake, I don't question I accept my fate.

1057
00:49:49,640 --> 00:49:51,640
Speaker 1: I accept my destiny. So if that means that it

1058
00:49:51,680 --> 00:49:54,440
Speaker 1: takes me ten years for my mister Wonderful to come,

1059
00:49:54,480 --> 00:49:56,160
Speaker 1: then that's fine. I'm patient.

1060
00:49:58,160 --> 00:50:01,680
Speaker 2: Nothing. You wouldn't change a thing about the way it's transpired.

1061
00:50:02,600 --> 00:50:05,680
Speaker 1: For what Because if here's the thing, about regret. If

1062
00:50:05,719 --> 00:50:08,160
Speaker 1: I regret things that happened, and that means I have

1063
00:50:08,280 --> 00:50:11,200
Speaker 1: to erase the awareness that I gained, and I would

1064
00:50:11,200 --> 00:50:14,120
Speaker 1: not trade this awareness. I would not trade going back

1065
00:50:14,200 --> 00:50:16,600
Speaker 1: to when I was twenty eighteen years old. I would

1066
00:50:16,600 --> 00:50:19,680
Speaker 1: not trade a clean slate for the wisdom that I have.

1067
00:50:19,800 --> 00:50:21,920
Speaker 1: I have a well of wisdom. That's why when I

1068
00:50:21,960 --> 00:50:24,560
Speaker 1: speak people are captivated. Why I've been called to so

1069
00:50:24,600 --> 00:50:27,279
Speaker 1: many different platforms. Who's the last couple of guests you've

1070
00:50:27,280 --> 00:50:27,719
Speaker 1: had on here?

1071
00:50:28,880 --> 00:50:29,680
Speaker 5: Uh?

1072
00:50:29,719 --> 00:50:34,000
Speaker 2: Stephen A. D Wade, Tabletha Brown?

1073
00:50:34,600 --> 00:50:35,000
Speaker 5: Who else?

1074
00:50:35,040 --> 00:50:35,200
Speaker 1: We have?

1075
00:50:35,360 --> 00:50:41,400
Speaker 2: CJ. S, Chris Brown, we had Ricky Smiley.

1076
00:50:41,840 --> 00:50:44,120
Speaker 1: Okay, what's one thing you think they all have in common?

1077
00:50:47,600 --> 00:50:48,799
Speaker 1: They're great at what they do.

1078
00:50:48,880 --> 00:50:51,680
Speaker 5: Yes, where do I fit at?

1079
00:50:51,920 --> 00:50:53,840
Speaker 1: I'm just supposed to be some Instagram thopping.

1080
00:50:53,600 --> 00:50:55,080
Speaker 4: Here I am talking to shock.

1081
00:50:55,719 --> 00:50:56,080
Speaker 5: So you.

1082
00:50:57,560 --> 00:50:58,680
Speaker 2: So you grated what you do?

1083
00:50:59,000 --> 00:51:01,879
Speaker 1: I certainly am because there's a lot of beautiful women.

1084
00:51:01,920 --> 00:51:04,440
Speaker 1: There's a lot of beautiful women that have better bodies

1085
00:51:04,480 --> 00:51:07,960
Speaker 1: than me, prettier faces, whatever type of features you think

1086
00:51:07,960 --> 00:51:11,799
Speaker 1: are attractive. But then you have little Petito me who

1087
00:51:11,920 --> 00:51:16,759
Speaker 1: just can't shut up. And here I am on Club

1088
00:51:16,800 --> 00:51:19,120
Speaker 1: Shack Shape, Club Sha Shape, Clip sack shape.

1089
00:51:21,680 --> 00:51:24,279
Speaker 5: Dion said, well, I don't know, like I said, but

1090
00:51:24,400 --> 00:51:26,480
Speaker 5: it was reported he said that there are women out

1091
00:51:26,520 --> 00:51:30,239
Speaker 5: there that do their homework on guys. I mean because

1092
00:51:30,320 --> 00:51:32,280
Speaker 5: now the salaries and you know, you can just google

1093
00:51:33,320 --> 00:51:35,319
Speaker 5: and you can. Oh, he makes this and he has

1094
00:51:35,360 --> 00:51:36,920
Speaker 5: the endorsement over there, and he does this.

1095
00:51:37,000 --> 00:51:39,879
Speaker 1: And that, especially with no too right. Huh.

1096
00:51:40,080 --> 00:51:44,480
Speaker 5: You know what, man, it's public public record.

1097
00:51:44,560 --> 00:51:47,880
Speaker 1: Hut public knowledge? Because yeah, because I mean, these college

1098
00:51:47,880 --> 00:51:50,440
Speaker 1: athletes are getting money, why are they driving maybacks?

1099
00:51:50,680 --> 00:51:50,879
Speaker 5: An?

1100
00:51:50,880 --> 00:51:53,120
Speaker 4: I l maybe come on now, not dumb?

1101
00:51:53,239 --> 00:51:55,439
Speaker 5: Could you could you date a normal can you? Could

1102
00:51:55,480 --> 00:51:58,520
Speaker 5: you date a guy that's not a professional athlete or

1103
00:51:58,640 --> 00:51:59,279
Speaker 5: that's not an.

1104
00:51:59,200 --> 00:52:02,399
Speaker 1: Athletics I don't even see myself dating an athlete again?

1105
00:52:03,320 --> 00:52:03,560
Speaker 5: Really?

1106
00:52:06,360 --> 00:52:10,720
Speaker 1: Why because something you said earlier?

1107
00:52:11,000 --> 00:52:12,280
Speaker 2: I don't know what I said earlier.

1108
00:52:12,640 --> 00:52:12,920
Speaker 5: I don't.

1109
00:52:13,120 --> 00:52:15,640
Speaker 2: I don't have a recall like you that can remember

1110
00:52:15,680 --> 00:52:16,799
Speaker 2: everything that happened.

1111
00:52:16,520 --> 00:52:17,080
Speaker 5: In day life.

1112
00:52:17,120 --> 00:52:19,640
Speaker 1: Because there's a lot of men who are not willing

1113
00:52:19,840 --> 00:52:21,920
Speaker 1: to make that jump. And when there are things that

1114
00:52:22,000 --> 00:52:26,400
Speaker 1: are public, a public figure has to take into account

1115
00:52:27,080 --> 00:52:30,719
Speaker 1: what is the risk versus reward with dating this girl

1116
00:52:30,840 --> 00:52:32,680
Speaker 1: and having her on my arm, having her at the

1117
00:52:32,840 --> 00:52:34,839
Speaker 1: SP's there's a lot of men that would not sign

1118
00:52:34,920 --> 00:52:36,480
Speaker 1: up for that, and I feel the type of men

1119
00:52:36,600 --> 00:52:39,279
Speaker 1: that maybe there's a good chance. It's like kind of

1120
00:52:39,320 --> 00:52:42,399
Speaker 1: opposite things. It's like either someone's super young that's new

1121
00:52:42,480 --> 00:52:45,799
Speaker 1: and doesn't care, or someone who's already established doesn't give

1122
00:52:45,800 --> 00:52:47,440
Speaker 1: a do what they want to do, and I just

1123
00:52:48,280 --> 00:52:50,520
Speaker 1: either one. It's just it's just kind of like I

1124
00:52:50,600 --> 00:52:52,680
Speaker 1: really don't see myself with another athlete. I'm not gonna

1125
00:52:52,680 --> 00:52:54,839
Speaker 1: say never, you know, never say never, because I don't

1126
00:52:54,960 --> 00:52:56,680
Speaker 1: want the love of my life to be a freaking athlete.

1127
00:52:56,680 --> 00:52:59,400
Speaker 1: I gotta eat these words. But I just don't see it.

1128
00:52:59,440 --> 00:53:02,680
Speaker 1: I don't see a man having the courage to not

1129
00:53:02,840 --> 00:53:06,479
Speaker 1: only take a you know, a risk with me, because

1130
00:53:06,480 --> 00:53:07,040
Speaker 1: that's what love is.

1131
00:53:07,480 --> 00:53:07,719
Speaker 2: Risk.

1132
00:53:07,840 --> 00:53:09,759
Speaker 1: Well, in love, it's a fifty to fifty risk. It's

1133
00:53:09,800 --> 00:53:11,719
Speaker 1: it's it's every person across the board. But I think

1134
00:53:11,840 --> 00:53:15,040
Speaker 1: that I am very vocal, but I also have not

1135
00:53:15,280 --> 00:53:19,600
Speaker 1: met any men that number one see my value. And

1136
00:53:19,719 --> 00:53:23,120
Speaker 1: if they see it, they don't understand it. So that's

1137
00:53:23,160 --> 00:53:23,960
Speaker 1: why I don't really see.

1138
00:53:24,040 --> 00:53:26,600
Speaker 5: In other words, when a man can't look outside of

1139
00:53:26,680 --> 00:53:29,120
Speaker 5: what he sees right here, well, this is gonna.

1140
00:53:28,920 --> 00:53:32,239
Speaker 1: Fade, So what else? So what what what makes me

1141
00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:35,200
Speaker 1: different than the girl that is the building down the

1142
00:53:35,560 --> 00:53:38,160
Speaker 1: who's willing to do whatever and she lets you cheat

1143
00:53:38,239 --> 00:53:40,440
Speaker 1: in private or if I'm sorry, yeah, in privately, let

1144
00:53:40,480 --> 00:53:44,640
Speaker 1: you cheat a private and do whatever. Like beauty is fleeting.

1145
00:53:44,760 --> 00:53:46,960
Speaker 1: That's why there has to be more going on. That's

1146
00:53:47,000 --> 00:53:48,600
Speaker 1: why I open my mouth and I speak and I

1147
00:53:48,680 --> 00:53:52,359
Speaker 1: stand for something because this is again, I'm always gonna

1148
00:53:52,360 --> 00:53:54,960
Speaker 1: beautiful because I'm beautiful in here. But yeah, we all

1149
00:53:55,000 --> 00:53:58,200
Speaker 1: get older and I don't want to bank on my looks.

1150
00:53:59,120 --> 00:54:00,440
Speaker 1: Why would anybody want? Right?

1151
00:54:01,040 --> 00:54:04,200
Speaker 5: But I think now if someone it's hard for me

1152
00:54:04,320 --> 00:54:07,479
Speaker 5: to imagine a scenario, and I do hope you find

1153
00:54:07,560 --> 00:54:10,040
Speaker 5: I think everybody deserves that if they're wanting of that.

1154
00:54:10,160 --> 00:54:12,160
Speaker 5: And it seems to me as I sit here and

1155
00:54:12,239 --> 00:54:14,960
Speaker 5: talk to you, that you are someone that's very passionate

1156
00:54:15,000 --> 00:54:16,000
Speaker 5: about finding love.

1157
00:54:16,480 --> 00:54:18,680
Speaker 2: And I think the thing is is that that person

1158
00:54:19,440 --> 00:54:22,279
Speaker 2: knows who you are. They know some of the things

1159
00:54:22,320 --> 00:54:22,919
Speaker 2: that you've done.

1160
00:54:23,239 --> 00:54:25,640
Speaker 5: So that person that wants to be with Britney Renner,

1161
00:54:26,320 --> 00:54:30,520
Speaker 5: they're gonna know who what she's done and be okay

1162
00:54:30,640 --> 00:54:30,840
Speaker 5: with that.

1163
00:54:31,200 --> 00:54:32,400
Speaker 2: Do you think it's hard for that?

1164
00:54:32,960 --> 00:54:35,760
Speaker 5: Is it hard for an athlete because athletes are very prideful,

1165
00:54:36,160 --> 00:54:39,279
Speaker 5: and they and and don't take this the wrong way,

1166
00:54:39,680 --> 00:54:42,640
Speaker 5: but they kind of like, that's mine. And to know

1167
00:54:42,880 --> 00:54:49,440
Speaker 5: that that package has been unwrapped by somebody else on

1168
00:54:51,200 --> 00:54:54,200
Speaker 5: multiple occasions, it doesn't sit well. I'm just I'm not

1169
00:54:54,320 --> 00:54:56,000
Speaker 5: gonna keep it one You say keep it onehund I'm

1170
00:54:56,000 --> 00:54:56,759
Speaker 5: gonna keep it one up with you.

1171
00:54:57,040 --> 00:54:58,960
Speaker 1: But then you have to go back to when there

1172
00:54:59,160 --> 00:55:02,200
Speaker 1: was the dear g your diamond. That's what my track

1173
00:55:02,239 --> 00:55:05,960
Speaker 1: records like. But Derek Jeter gets a segment on ESPN

1174
00:55:06,040 --> 00:55:08,560
Speaker 1: where they have his dating history in the let me

1175
00:55:08,640 --> 00:55:21,919
Speaker 1: finish though it because my dating pool is I mean impressive, expansive.

1176
00:55:22,000 --> 00:55:30,600
Speaker 1: I've got sex with thirty five guys. Okay, oh lord,

1177
00:55:35,120 --> 00:55:41,680
Speaker 1: impressive isn't the word. So if I'm judged, if I'm

1178
00:55:41,760 --> 00:55:44,160
Speaker 1: judge for having great taste, we are in the bar.

1179
00:55:44,360 --> 00:55:47,960
Speaker 2: So help yourself. We got this with the next nobel.

1180
00:55:50,239 --> 00:55:53,399
Speaker 1: If I'm judge for having great taste, Although there's someone

1181
00:55:53,520 --> 00:55:56,399
Speaker 1: like Derek Jeter, for example, without his dating diamond.

1182
00:55:56,320 --> 00:55:58,799
Speaker 5: Why would you feel a need that you you could

1183
00:55:58,840 --> 00:56:01,759
Speaker 5: be honest to yourself. I know how many men I

1184
00:56:01,880 --> 00:56:04,359
Speaker 5: slept with that ain't for everybody else. But why did

1185
00:56:04,400 --> 00:56:06,040
Speaker 5: you feel you need Why did you feel that needs

1186
00:56:06,040 --> 00:56:08,880
Speaker 5: to be for public consumption? That's what that's that's I mean,

1187
00:56:08,920 --> 00:56:10,839
Speaker 5: the crux of this, that's what you better.

1188
00:56:10,840 --> 00:56:12,440
Speaker 1: If I sit to the edge of my scene, you

1189
00:56:12,440 --> 00:56:13,480
Speaker 1: don't got to ask your permission?

1190
00:56:15,400 --> 00:56:17,759
Speaker 5: Why did you Why would you feel the need to

1191
00:56:17,840 --> 00:56:21,960
Speaker 5: share that information with the public. Some things are left

1192
00:56:22,040 --> 00:56:28,320
Speaker 5: best unseeing m That's what I hear. MMM.

1193
00:56:29,440 --> 00:56:31,759
Speaker 1: Probably the same reason that I wrote a book because

1194
00:56:31,800 --> 00:56:34,040
Speaker 1: I feel called to share. There are some things that

1195
00:56:34,640 --> 00:56:37,400
Speaker 1: maybe moving forward, I would keep to myself. But I mean,

1196
00:56:37,400 --> 00:56:39,160
Speaker 1: I just told you I had sex with thirty five guards.

1197
00:56:39,200 --> 00:56:41,920
Speaker 1: That's an updated number for people who have been following

1198
00:56:42,040 --> 00:56:43,200
Speaker 1: the number for years now.

1199
00:56:43,719 --> 00:56:48,759
Speaker 5: So uh now, I mean, obviously guys slide in your

1200
00:56:48,840 --> 00:56:52,719
Speaker 5: DM trying to holler, do you slide in guys DM?

1201
00:56:53,360 --> 00:56:54,040
Speaker 1: Not anymore?

1202
00:56:54,680 --> 00:56:55,160
Speaker 5: You used to?

1203
00:56:55,920 --> 00:56:56,080
Speaker 6: Why?

1204
00:56:56,320 --> 00:57:00,600
Speaker 1: Probably there are probably two or three guys the over

1205
00:57:00,680 --> 00:57:03,600
Speaker 1: the span of being like twenty two to now, probably

1206
00:57:03,640 --> 00:57:04,319
Speaker 1: about three guys.

1207
00:57:04,960 --> 00:57:05,680
Speaker 2: Did they respond?

1208
00:57:06,080 --> 00:57:08,880
Speaker 1: Of course they did. Well, there are some that didn't.

1209
00:57:08,640 --> 00:57:12,040
Speaker 5: Respond, but that was there are some guys left red.

1210
00:57:12,080 --> 00:57:13,880
Speaker 1: But it was like right after my breakup with my

1211
00:57:13,960 --> 00:57:15,840
Speaker 1: child's father and I was kind of getting facetious.

1212
00:57:16,040 --> 00:57:17,360
Speaker 2: Yeah that was a nice you try.

1213
00:57:17,240 --> 00:57:22,000
Speaker 5: To see why you do that? But anyways, why any ways?

1214
00:57:22,720 --> 00:57:24,320
Speaker 5: I want to know why why would you do?

1215
00:57:24,520 --> 00:57:28,080
Speaker 1: Like was she ready to move on? No? Honestly, I didn't.

1216
00:57:28,080 --> 00:57:30,680
Speaker 1: I didn't understand the magnitude of what I was about

1217
00:57:30,720 --> 00:57:33,480
Speaker 1: to go through. And I'm like, oh, I'm single. You

1218
00:57:33,560 --> 00:57:37,360
Speaker 1: know he's moved on, Like why is it different for

1219
00:57:37,560 --> 00:57:39,400
Speaker 1: both of us? You know what I'm saying, Like we

1220
00:57:39,880 --> 00:57:42,000
Speaker 1: have we share a young child. Why is me having

1221
00:57:42,040 --> 00:57:46,200
Speaker 1: a young child or whatever? But that whole situation being

1222
00:57:47,360 --> 00:57:51,080
Speaker 1: completely demonized. I had no idea what I was doing

1223
00:57:51,120 --> 00:57:52,960
Speaker 1: when I was trying to like hear and there just

1224
00:57:53,000 --> 00:57:54,320
Speaker 1: like telling guys they were just fine. That was just

1225
00:57:54,400 --> 00:57:56,760
Speaker 1: kind of it. It wasn't like, yeah we should whatever.

1226
00:57:56,800 --> 00:57:58,360
Speaker 1: It was just like I've always wanted to tell you this.

1227
00:57:58,760 --> 00:58:02,040
Speaker 5: But you know, like like basketball players are off limits, right,

1228
00:58:02,120 --> 00:58:05,840
Speaker 5: NBA players, any NBA players off limits? No, no, no, no,

1229
00:58:05,920 --> 00:58:10,080
Speaker 5: you can't do that. You try the whole sport, the

1230
00:58:10,160 --> 00:58:13,800
Speaker 5: whole NBA. You gotta go to Europe. You gotta go

1231
00:58:13,840 --> 00:58:19,040
Speaker 5: to Europe. Chinese buddies, hell on, you know that's gonna man,

1232
00:58:19,200 --> 00:58:21,560
Speaker 5: how do you know what that's gonna do.

1233
00:58:22,080 --> 00:58:26,040
Speaker 1: What do you mean because a whole sport.

1234
00:58:26,520 --> 00:58:30,040
Speaker 2: Yes, And besides you say you said you're done with athletes.

1235
00:58:29,720 --> 00:58:34,360
Speaker 1: Anyway, I mean, I trust me losing any sleep over.

1236
00:58:34,320 --> 00:58:37,280
Speaker 5: Him, because no, you got to stay away from them

1237
00:58:37,440 --> 00:58:40,000
Speaker 5: because it's gonna it's gonna be because people will suit

1238
00:58:40,120 --> 00:58:42,920
Speaker 5: and that this might not even be the case. You

1239
00:58:43,120 --> 00:58:46,800
Speaker 5: might sincerely love him, he might sincerely love you, but

1240
00:58:46,920 --> 00:58:49,680
Speaker 5: you know how it's gonna be portrayed. Oh, he trying

1241
00:58:49,720 --> 00:58:52,120
Speaker 5: to get back at it, and he probably will take it.

1242
00:58:52,160 --> 00:58:53,360
Speaker 5: And if you try to get at.

1243
00:58:53,320 --> 00:58:57,480
Speaker 1: Me, what I've had to take accountability for is that

1244
00:58:57,840 --> 00:59:01,680
Speaker 1: I had to shrink myself to fit into a world

1245
00:59:01,960 --> 00:59:04,160
Speaker 1: of his that I was never meant to fit in.

1246
00:59:04,920 --> 00:59:06,600
Speaker 1: And you have to understand this goes back to the

1247
00:59:06,680 --> 00:59:09,640
Speaker 1: pattern of when I was at Jackson State, I abandoned everything,

1248
00:59:10,080 --> 00:59:13,360
Speaker 1: left my whole life, moved across the country, you know,

1249
00:59:13,520 --> 00:59:17,080
Speaker 1: back to going back to Michigan. I lived in Woodland Hills,

1250
00:59:17,120 --> 00:59:20,680
Speaker 1: have my condo, had my bens, left California, moved to

1251
00:59:20,760 --> 00:59:24,600
Speaker 1: Charlotte to be with him, the same pattern ten years later.

1252
00:59:25,120 --> 00:59:28,960
Speaker 1: Because again here I am thinking that a man is

1253
00:59:29,040 --> 00:59:31,360
Speaker 1: gonna fix this is gonna fix it's this is the

1254
00:59:31,520 --> 00:59:35,160
Speaker 1: missing piece to my puzzle. So despite what people think

1255
00:59:35,240 --> 00:59:40,000
Speaker 1: about the complete buffoonery that has gone on between him

1256
00:59:40,000 --> 00:59:43,360
Speaker 1: and I, that is never anything I wanted. I had

1257
00:59:43,400 --> 00:59:46,760
Speaker 1: to stand up for myself after months of being lied on,

1258
00:59:47,160 --> 00:59:48,880
Speaker 1: that I was faking it all along and all these

1259
00:59:48,880 --> 00:59:51,360
Speaker 1: different things. This is such a popular topic years later

1260
00:59:51,800 --> 00:59:56,200
Speaker 1: because the lie ran around the world. So did it

1261
00:59:56,400 --> 00:59:59,840
Speaker 1: hurt initially when the guy that I thought was my

1262
01:00:00,160 --> 01:00:04,640
Speaker 1: guy proposed to the next person. Absolutely, That's happened to

1263
01:00:04,680 --> 01:00:07,880
Speaker 1: me a couple times. So it's one of those triggering

1264
01:00:07,960 --> 01:00:12,640
Speaker 1: things where full transparency, you're like, well, what's wrong with me?

1265
01:00:15,200 --> 01:00:19,080
Speaker 1: Why wasn't I enough? And then we start to internalize

1266
01:00:19,800 --> 01:00:24,080
Speaker 1: why it didn't work out. I've sat down with his fiance,

1267
01:00:24,400 --> 01:00:27,440
Speaker 1: We've had a four hour conversation out for brunch, and

1268
01:00:27,560 --> 01:00:30,760
Speaker 1: I think they're a perfect match for each other, quite frankly,

1269
01:00:32,000 --> 01:00:38,160
Speaker 1: So why would I be jealous or envious of a

1270
01:00:38,280 --> 01:00:41,760
Speaker 1: life that I walked away from. But the other side

1271
01:00:41,800 --> 01:00:45,120
Speaker 1: of that coin is understanding that was never my guy.

1272
01:00:45,240 --> 01:00:49,080
Speaker 1: We were meant to have our incredible son together, that

1273
01:00:49,520 --> 01:00:51,840
Speaker 1: he's literally changed my life in every way. I grew

1274
01:00:51,960 --> 01:00:56,160
Speaker 1: deeper empathy after having a son, but for men. But

1275
01:00:56,640 --> 01:00:59,520
Speaker 1: that's why I can't get upset. I get upset at

1276
01:01:00,080 --> 01:01:03,960
Speaker 1: how I'm treated, are you're portrayed. You lied on me.

1277
01:01:05,040 --> 01:01:07,680
Speaker 1: That's what bothers me is that you lied on me.

1278
01:01:07,800 --> 01:01:09,840
Speaker 1: You try to make it seem like something it wasn't.

1279
01:01:10,240 --> 01:01:14,240
Speaker 1: That was hurtful. But other than that, like, I'm happy

1280
01:01:14,320 --> 01:01:15,880
Speaker 1: for you, blessings on your journey.

1281
01:01:16,320 --> 01:01:23,040
Speaker 2: I heard you just say that what he said about

1282
01:01:23,160 --> 01:01:23,920
Speaker 2: you bothered you.

1283
01:01:25,880 --> 01:01:30,000
Speaker 5: The portrayal of you bothers you Have you thought about

1284
01:01:30,080 --> 01:01:32,760
Speaker 5: when your son is of age and he can hear

1285
01:01:32,840 --> 01:01:35,320
Speaker 5: some of the things that you said about some of

1286
01:01:35,360 --> 01:01:38,120
Speaker 5: the things that you've done in your past, do you do?

1287
01:01:38,320 --> 01:01:40,960
Speaker 2: Have you thought about how that's gonna impact him?

1288
01:01:41,800 --> 01:01:44,400
Speaker 1: Of course I've thought about it. But as much as

1289
01:01:44,440 --> 01:01:48,560
Speaker 1: I love my son, I love myself. I can't saturate

1290
01:01:48,960 --> 01:01:52,000
Speaker 1: myself from my child. I have to still be true

1291
01:01:52,040 --> 01:01:57,680
Speaker 1: to myself because outside of being his mother, I'm Brittany Runner. Alright,

1292
01:01:57,840 --> 01:01:59,760
Speaker 1: was Brittany Runner before he got here, and I'm gonna

1293
01:01:59,760 --> 01:02:02,960
Speaker 1: be and you Runner no matter what. My son could

1294
01:02:03,000 --> 01:02:06,600
Speaker 1: grow up and oh my mom, all these terrible things.

1295
01:02:06,680 --> 01:02:09,760
Speaker 1: She's the worst person ever. So I have to be

1296
01:02:09,800 --> 01:02:12,120
Speaker 1: at peace with the things that I've done and let

1297
01:02:12,200 --> 01:02:15,160
Speaker 1: my son make his own choice, his own decisions. But

1298
01:02:15,280 --> 01:02:18,320
Speaker 1: I'm not going to not live my life the way

1299
01:02:18,440 --> 01:02:21,600
Speaker 1: that again, because to question how I am, it's the

1300
01:02:21,720 --> 01:02:25,280
Speaker 1: question God. And people may not like the way that,

1301
01:02:25,920 --> 01:02:28,480
Speaker 1: like how my expression is, the way I carry myself,

1302
01:02:28,520 --> 01:02:29,960
Speaker 1: the things that I say, and how I say it,

1303
01:02:30,920 --> 01:02:32,360
Speaker 1: But you're still questioning God.

1304
01:02:34,600 --> 01:02:36,400
Speaker 2: What has social media done.

1305
01:02:38,120 --> 01:02:41,120
Speaker 5: To the relationship just in general?

1306
01:02:43,000 --> 01:02:44,960
Speaker 1: I mean, I think it's just a lot of different factors,

1307
01:02:45,040 --> 01:02:46,840
Speaker 1: you know, where they're like, oh, things were so different

1308
01:02:46,840 --> 01:02:49,120
Speaker 1: when our parents were growing up. Well, they were never

1309
01:02:49,200 --> 01:02:51,160
Speaker 1: aware of what options they really had. They didn't have

1310
01:02:51,280 --> 01:02:54,200
Speaker 1: access to people all the way across the country. And

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Speaker 1: I think one of the.

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Speaker 2: Annoying things is access isn't always good though.

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Speaker 1: Well, I think the question you have to ask yourself

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Speaker 1: is if you gave the average person access, who would

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Speaker 1: they become?

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01:03:06,280 --> 01:03:08,560
Speaker 2: We're seeing it there you go.

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Speaker 1: Some people rise above some people, you know, play into it.

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Speaker 5: So let's just say, for the sake of argument, someone

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01:03:20,520 --> 01:03:24,720
Speaker 5: tried to get at you in the DM. Later you

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01:03:25,160 --> 01:03:27,640
Speaker 5: find out they've been saying some crazy you know, ah, man,

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01:03:27,640 --> 01:03:29,400
Speaker 5: I wouldn't talk to that you know what, and she

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01:03:29,560 --> 01:03:30,520
Speaker 5: alled about this to here.

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01:03:31,200 --> 01:03:32,680
Speaker 2: But they've been at you in the DM.

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01:03:33,120 --> 01:03:34,920
Speaker 5: You screen shot in any of those dms and putting

1325
01:03:34,920 --> 01:03:37,439
Speaker 5: nobody there for public consumption, or you just said, okay,

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01:03:37,520 --> 01:03:38,400
Speaker 5: I'm just gonna bue this with.

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Speaker 2: I know what you've tried to do. I know you

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01:03:40,280 --> 01:03:42,000
Speaker 2: tried to get at me. He was trying to get

1329
01:03:42,040 --> 01:03:44,120
Speaker 2: these skins and I said no, And now you got

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01:03:44,160 --> 01:03:45,560
Speaker 2: this negative stuff to say about me.

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01:03:45,760 --> 01:03:47,920
Speaker 1: I think there was one rapper that tried me, and

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01:03:48,720 --> 01:03:51,480
Speaker 1: I definitely screenshot where he tried to send me a DM.

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01:03:51,600 --> 01:03:53,640
Speaker 1: Because what you're not gonna do is lie. What you're

1334
01:03:53,680 --> 01:03:55,320
Speaker 1: not gonna do is gonna sit up here and pretend.

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01:03:55,960 --> 01:03:58,640
Speaker 1: But there haven't been any men that I've been involved

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01:03:58,680 --> 01:04:01,560
Speaker 1: with I've gotten flip the mouth other than my child's father.

1337
01:04:01,640 --> 01:04:03,680
Speaker 1: That's the only person that's try to lie on me.

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01:04:04,320 --> 01:04:06,720
Speaker 1: It never addressed me by name, But no, I don't

1339
01:04:07,040 --> 01:04:10,560
Speaker 1: people who have ever been involved with me. We know

1340
01:04:10,680 --> 01:04:15,320
Speaker 1: the truth right and all my buttons work, so it

1341
01:04:15,360 --> 01:04:18,280
Speaker 1: would be in their best interest to keep my name

1342
01:04:18,360 --> 01:04:21,360
Speaker 1: out of their mouth because I'm giving them that same respect.

1343
01:04:21,400 --> 01:04:23,240
Speaker 1: I'm not over here sitting up here black and black

1344
01:04:23,280 --> 01:04:25,680
Speaker 1: and blabin about. There are certain things that it ain't

1345
01:04:25,760 --> 01:04:29,840
Speaker 1: up for discussion. But when we're talking about public things

1346
01:04:29,880 --> 01:04:31,920
Speaker 1: that have transpired, like with my child's fathers, it's been

1347
01:04:32,000 --> 01:04:34,400
Speaker 1: a hot topic since we've broken up, right, we have

1348
01:04:34,560 --> 01:04:36,400
Speaker 1: to discuss it. I'm gonna tell you the whole truth.

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01:04:36,760 --> 01:04:37,080
Speaker 5: Can you.

1350
01:04:39,320 --> 01:04:43,400
Speaker 2: When are you guys going to make peace for the

1351
01:04:43,520 --> 01:04:44,640
Speaker 2: sake of your child?

1352
01:04:46,000 --> 01:04:49,680
Speaker 1: That's not up to me. I've done everything in my power.

1353
01:04:49,840 --> 01:04:53,640
Speaker 1: I've exhausted all options. I told you, I've sat.

1354
01:04:53,560 --> 01:04:57,320
Speaker 5: Down with her before because that excuse me. I think

1355
01:04:57,360 --> 01:04:59,400
Speaker 5: that's a great thing to do, because if they're going

1356
01:04:59,440 --> 01:05:01,640
Speaker 5: to be the game, she's going to be in your

1357
01:05:01,720 --> 01:05:05,360
Speaker 5: son's life, and no matter what he might think of you,

1358
01:05:06,720 --> 01:05:09,840
Speaker 5: the relationship, the dynamic of who you are will never change.

1359
01:05:10,120 --> 01:05:12,360
Speaker 2: You'll always be the mother of his child.

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01:05:12,480 --> 01:05:17,919
Speaker 1: Yeah, I And honestly, for me, I would much rather

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Speaker 1: my son has a stable woman over there and seeing

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01:05:22,400 --> 01:05:25,680
Speaker 1: him having a bunch of girls now. So she has

1363
01:05:25,800 --> 01:05:26,840
Speaker 1: never been my enemy.

1364
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Speaker 4: It's it.

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01:05:29,080 --> 01:05:33,080
Speaker 1: But what it's going to take is for him to

1366
01:05:33,800 --> 01:05:39,560
Speaker 1: accept what is. We're still going through the core system

1367
01:05:39,680 --> 01:05:43,960
Speaker 1: now for child' spport, custody stuff, So it's nasty, it's

1368
01:05:44,080 --> 01:05:47,760
Speaker 1: just nasty. I have tried everything. There's nothing more I

1369
01:05:47,840 --> 01:05:48,040
Speaker 1: can do.

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Speaker 2: You don't mind me asking if his two personals say

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01:05:52,960 --> 01:05:54,720
Speaker 2: that's none of your business. And I'm white.

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Speaker 1: I told you I'm an open book. Shannon, you have

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01:05:58,200 --> 01:05:58,600
Speaker 1: the child.

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Speaker 2: The child is with you.

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Speaker 1: So we live in a fair state. North Carolina is

1376
01:06:02,000 --> 01:06:03,720
Speaker 1: a fair state that we both have joint customers.

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Speaker 5: Right, So it's not like you could just bring you

1378
01:06:05,800 --> 01:06:07,800
Speaker 5: live in California, you can just bring the child with you.

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Speaker 1: Why I would never do that. I grew up without

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Speaker 1: my dad. I would never want my son to be

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01:06:12,280 --> 01:06:15,800
Speaker 1: without his father. He needs his dad. He has Pj's name,

1382
01:06:16,000 --> 01:06:18,720
Speaker 1: Paul Jamaine Washington the third. Why would I want to

1383
01:06:18,760 --> 01:06:22,080
Speaker 1: take that away? Right? But see, that's another misconception people

1384
01:06:22,120 --> 01:06:24,080
Speaker 1: have about me, that I'm just super spiteful and that

1385
01:06:24,160 --> 01:06:26,240
Speaker 1: I would take our son and that he doesn't see him. No,

1386
01:06:28,080 --> 01:06:28,720
Speaker 1: just another lie.

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Speaker 2: So when this the aesthetics of this, what is Britney

1388
01:06:36,240 --> 01:06:37,760
Speaker 2: gonna do? What does Britney want to do?

1389
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Speaker 5: Cause, like you said, you're not gonna always have this figure,

1390
01:06:40,520 --> 01:06:42,320
Speaker 5: You're not gonna have always have this face. You're not

1391
01:06:42,400 --> 01:06:45,120
Speaker 5: gonna always be I don't know, you're thirty one thirty

1392
01:06:45,160 --> 01:06:48,880
Speaker 5: two years of age. You're not gonna always be this? Then?

1393
01:06:48,960 --> 01:06:57,760
Speaker 1: What the easiest way to maybe answer that is use

1394
01:06:57,840 --> 01:07:05,680
Speaker 1: my voice? Called to so many different platforms yours, basketball wives,

1395
01:07:06,240 --> 01:07:09,960
Speaker 1: and there is one commonality, which is the usage of

1396
01:07:10,040 --> 01:07:13,520
Speaker 1: my voice and sharing the well of wisdom that I've acquired.

1397
01:07:14,000 --> 01:07:16,800
Speaker 1: So I can only hope that my future looks like

1398
01:07:17,280 --> 01:07:22,600
Speaker 1: my own show, my own podcasts owns something right, because

1399
01:07:22,600 --> 01:07:24,040
Speaker 1: I know that I'm meant to be heard.

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Speaker 2: How hard is it easy to make money on the internet.

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01:07:28,480 --> 01:07:30,760
Speaker 1: I would say that companies have smartened up a lot,

1402
01:07:30,920 --> 01:07:34,200
Speaker 1: so they're not as naive with the brand deals. I

1403
01:07:34,240 --> 01:07:36,280
Speaker 1: think it's gotten a lot more competitive because there are

1404
01:07:36,360 --> 01:07:39,240
Speaker 1: people who will accept free clothes from a clothing company

1405
01:07:39,560 --> 01:07:42,760
Speaker 1: who have hundreds of thousands of followers, so it still

1406
01:07:43,040 --> 01:07:46,400
Speaker 1: it hurts the influencer who has the millions who are

1407
01:07:46,520 --> 01:07:49,680
Speaker 1: wanting compensation. When there's one hundred girls they can just

1408
01:07:49,720 --> 01:07:52,040
Speaker 1: get free clothes too, So it's gotten a lot more competitive,

1409
01:07:52,160 --> 01:07:55,560
Speaker 1: more oversaturated. Yeah, you have to really I don't even know,

1410
01:07:56,040 --> 01:07:57,520
Speaker 1: you have to really be I feel like kind of

1411
01:07:57,560 --> 01:08:01,160
Speaker 1: buzzing or have brand deals? What is uh?

1412
01:08:02,040 --> 01:08:04,960
Speaker 5: Obviously you you you you very very popular on the internet.

1413
01:08:05,000 --> 01:08:08,920
Speaker 5: And as you mentioned, you're a major influencer. What's one

1414
01:08:08,960 --> 01:08:14,120
Speaker 5: of the things that you purchased that you wish you hadn't, Like,

1415
01:08:14,600 --> 01:08:15,560
Speaker 5: I didn't really need that.

1416
01:08:16,120 --> 01:08:17,080
Speaker 2: I could have done without that.

1417
01:08:17,320 --> 01:08:20,080
Speaker 5: I could have kept that fifty thousand hard one thousand,

1418
01:08:20,280 --> 01:08:21,960
Speaker 5: two hundred, I could have kept that in my pocket.

1419
01:08:22,000 --> 01:08:22,720
Speaker 2: And just like because I.

1420
01:08:22,760 --> 01:08:26,639
Speaker 1: Really didn't need this, I'm not really a big spender

1421
01:08:26,680 --> 01:08:29,280
Speaker 1: in that way. I think the most foolish thing at

1422
01:08:29,400 --> 01:08:32,280
Speaker 1: one time that I did was just spending like eight

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01:08:32,320 --> 01:08:34,320
Speaker 1: thousand dollars on shoes. Like one day, I just went

1424
01:08:34,400 --> 01:08:35,439
Speaker 1: and got all these shoes.

1425
01:08:36,320 --> 01:08:39,400
Speaker 2: And when I look at that, sneakers, because you don't

1426
01:08:39,439 --> 01:08:40,479
Speaker 2: strike me as a sneaker chick.

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01:08:41,640 --> 01:08:41,880
Speaker 1: I was.

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01:08:42,320 --> 01:08:43,400
Speaker 2: I don't mean to say that. I don't mean. I

1429
01:08:43,439 --> 01:08:43,800
Speaker 2: don't mean that.

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01:08:44,120 --> 01:08:47,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, I know I did buy some sneakers, which I

1431
01:08:48,040 --> 01:08:50,600
Speaker 1: was not I was still figuring myself out. But it

1432
01:08:50,680 --> 01:08:52,880
Speaker 1: was some eels and some sneakers. You're just a waste

1433
01:08:52,920 --> 01:08:53,720
Speaker 1: of money. I wouldn't do that.

1434
01:08:53,800 --> 01:08:56,880
Speaker 5: Now, you want to do the fitness thing, like you

1435
01:08:56,960 --> 01:09:00,200
Speaker 5: want to do leggings or workout clothes. Is that kind

1436
01:09:00,240 --> 01:09:02,080
Speaker 5: of the direction you're trying to hit it in that well,

1437
01:09:02,200 --> 01:09:02,639
Speaker 5: I love.

1438
01:09:02,640 --> 01:09:04,800
Speaker 1: Athletic where that's really what I wear all the time.

1439
01:09:04,920 --> 01:09:07,360
Speaker 1: I do have an asymmetrical legging that was inspired by

1440
01:09:07,400 --> 01:09:09,479
Speaker 1: flow Joy, so I have It's the one leg and

1441
01:09:09,479 --> 01:09:12,000
Speaker 1: the short on the side Rebel by Britney Renner. But

1442
01:09:12,120 --> 01:09:15,200
Speaker 1: that still is something that's very new my business. You know,

1443
01:09:15,320 --> 01:09:17,559
Speaker 1: I started it. It was the last October, So yeah,

1444
01:09:17,600 --> 01:09:20,800
Speaker 1: I would I think ideally definitely designing some athletical would

1445
01:09:20,800 --> 01:09:21,040
Speaker 1: be cool.

1446
01:09:21,800 --> 01:09:23,559
Speaker 2: What's been the coolest thing about motherhood?

1447
01:09:27,000 --> 01:09:27,799
Speaker 1: Let's see.

1448
01:09:29,640 --> 01:09:30,840
Speaker 2: And is it what you thought it would be.

1449
01:09:32,200 --> 01:09:33,680
Speaker 1: It's much different than I thought it would be.

1450
01:09:36,640 --> 01:09:39,800
Speaker 4: I don't know then videos and pictures.

1451
01:09:40,360 --> 01:09:44,519
Speaker 1: And what's one of the ways it's different. Well, I

1452
01:09:44,560 --> 01:09:47,479
Speaker 1: would say when I first had my baby, I think

1453
01:09:47,600 --> 01:09:51,560
Speaker 1: there's this idea that the baby just comes out like

1454
01:09:52,120 --> 01:09:52,519
Speaker 1: loving you.

1455
01:09:52,640 --> 01:09:55,600
Speaker 4: You are the greatest thing, unconditional, boring into you.

1456
01:09:56,439 --> 01:10:01,920
Speaker 1: And I learned that although with breast there is that exchange,

1457
01:10:01,960 --> 01:10:06,280
Speaker 1: yet the connection still pouring in, still showing up. Well,

1458
01:10:06,320 --> 01:10:09,000
Speaker 1: my son comes and hands me a book, no matter

1459
01:10:09,120 --> 01:10:11,240
Speaker 1: what is on, no matter what we're doing, I'm stopping

1460
01:10:11,240 --> 01:10:13,160
Speaker 1: and I'm reading the book because I care about building

1461
01:10:13,200 --> 01:10:16,200
Speaker 1: the bond. So I think people underestimate the effort that

1462
01:10:16,320 --> 01:10:20,080
Speaker 1: still requires, that still goes into your baby. Just because

1463
01:10:20,080 --> 01:10:22,360
Speaker 1: they're your kid doesn't mean that they're just gonna love you.

1464
01:10:23,240 --> 01:10:26,240
Speaker 1: I would say my favorite thing though, is watching him

1465
01:10:26,280 --> 01:10:28,759
Speaker 1: just navigate the world. I think he is very curious

1466
01:10:30,160 --> 01:10:32,320
Speaker 1: when he sees a plane in the sky, sees the butterfly.

1467
01:10:32,479 --> 01:10:35,560
Speaker 1: We have bird feeders. I love feeding the birds. So

1468
01:10:35,760 --> 01:10:38,120
Speaker 1: just seeing him interact with the world around him and

1469
01:10:38,320 --> 01:10:41,280
Speaker 1: what he likes to talk about, it's really cool to me.

1470
01:10:41,680 --> 01:10:45,080
Speaker 5: Yeah, we got bird. You try to be a step

1471
01:10:45,120 --> 01:10:47,080
Speaker 5: with why you try to be like moving the.

1472
01:10:47,160 --> 01:10:49,760
Speaker 1: Suburbs, But I try to tell you that more than

1473
01:10:49,800 --> 01:10:52,680
Speaker 1: meets the eye. So I love birds, and I think

1474
01:10:52,760 --> 01:10:55,600
Speaker 1: my favorite thing about birds are that they can go

1475
01:10:55,720 --> 01:10:58,320
Speaker 1: anywhere in the world. So if they visit your backyard,

1476
01:10:58,520 --> 01:11:02,280
Speaker 1: that's very safe, and I love that. No matter what

1477
01:11:02,560 --> 01:11:06,360
Speaker 1: time in the day in the morning, if it's four o'clock,

1478
01:11:06,479 --> 01:11:09,080
Speaker 1: doesn't matter, if it sounds off pitch, if it's too early,

1479
01:11:09,160 --> 01:11:12,519
Speaker 1: they have a song. So that's why I really love birds,

1480
01:11:12,560 --> 01:11:15,360
Speaker 1: and it's an honor to feed them. I wouldn't know

1481
01:11:15,400 --> 01:11:15,840
Speaker 1: that about me.

1482
01:11:16,320 --> 01:11:21,040
Speaker 2: How difficult has it been or is it dating? It's

1483
01:11:21,080 --> 01:11:21,720
Speaker 2: a single mom.

1484
01:11:24,880 --> 01:11:27,080
Speaker 1: I think one of my complaints is that I've attracted

1485
01:11:27,280 --> 01:11:31,640
Speaker 1: more men without kids as a mom, and I'm just like,

1486
01:11:31,880 --> 01:11:33,639
Speaker 1: oh God, is it a deal, braver? If I don't

1487
01:11:33,640 --> 01:11:36,439
Speaker 1: want to have anymore, you know I love my baby.

1488
01:11:36,280 --> 01:11:37,200
Speaker 2: You don't want more kids.

1489
01:11:39,240 --> 01:11:43,639
Speaker 1: I had a really tough time. I gained fifty pounds

1490
01:11:44,120 --> 01:11:46,760
Speaker 1: and I've been in the gym for the last we

1491
01:11:48,880 --> 01:11:54,080
Speaker 1: my boobs, my stomach like stretch mark. It was a lot,

1492
01:11:54,200 --> 01:11:58,639
Speaker 1: the abdominal separation. I would say, I'm just now starting

1493
01:11:58,800 --> 01:12:02,560
Speaker 1: to feel comfortable in crops, like actually show him a

1494
01:12:02,560 --> 01:12:05,200
Speaker 1: whole stomach or a bikini. And obviously I have no

1495
01:12:05,520 --> 01:12:09,360
Speaker 1: nothing done to my body. I'm natural. But it was

1496
01:12:09,479 --> 01:12:13,360
Speaker 1: very hard on me and I just even if we

1497
01:12:13,439 --> 01:12:16,680
Speaker 1: were to get married, like why do we.

1498
01:12:16,680 --> 01:12:21,880
Speaker 5: Why you would deny him? He wants his lineage, he

1499
01:12:21,960 --> 01:12:24,519
Speaker 5: wants his one, his seat, he want a namesake. I'm

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01:12:24,560 --> 01:12:29,479
Speaker 5: not saying it's gonna be Darryl Williams the third or

1501
01:12:29,640 --> 01:12:32,320
Speaker 5: Daryl Williams Junior, but he's gonna want his What if

1502
01:12:32,360 --> 01:12:35,080
Speaker 5: he wants his namesake, would you deny him back?

1503
01:12:36,840 --> 01:12:39,640
Speaker 1: I think that's something I'm navigating. I'm not gonna say

1504
01:12:39,640 --> 01:12:41,719
Speaker 1: if I met my mister wonderful. I wouldn't want to give.

1505
01:12:41,640 --> 01:12:43,760
Speaker 2: Him a child, but what if he wanted more than one?

1506
01:12:48,240 --> 01:12:51,920
Speaker 1: You know what's really difficult is because I'm thirty one.

1507
01:12:52,120 --> 01:12:55,639
Speaker 5: Yeah I have a baby, Yeah I have you good

1508
01:12:55,680 --> 01:12:58,080
Speaker 5: it till you fifty. I mean, women now in today's time,

1509
01:12:58,120 --> 01:12:59,519
Speaker 5: they having babies all well to fit it.

1510
01:13:00,000 --> 01:13:04,160
Speaker 1: But and it's may be a belief, this may be

1511
01:13:04,280 --> 01:13:06,160
Speaker 1: my own belief. That's that's hindering me. So I'm not

1512
01:13:06,240 --> 01:13:08,880
Speaker 1: saying that this couldn't just be my own belief. But

1513
01:13:12,000 --> 01:13:18,360
Speaker 1: this is my prime time, this is my You need

1514
01:13:18,439 --> 01:13:21,360
Speaker 1: to make your next move your best move, right, there

1515
01:13:21,439 --> 01:13:25,240
Speaker 1: are no hiccups, that's just kind of how more.

1516
01:13:25,200 --> 01:13:28,800
Speaker 5: So, I'm moving with So you're dating with a purpose. Now,

1517
01:13:28,960 --> 01:13:31,160
Speaker 5: ain't no more just dating to date. I'm dating to

1518
01:13:31,160 --> 01:13:32,400
Speaker 5: get married. You ain't trying to do that.

1519
01:13:32,479 --> 01:13:35,360
Speaker 2: Get to get the stamping, Yes, get to stamp.

1520
01:13:35,439 --> 01:13:37,439
Speaker 1: And I think a lot of I've seen a lot

1521
01:13:37,479 --> 01:13:40,479
Speaker 1: of people say, well, now, all of a sudden, you

1522
01:13:40,600 --> 01:13:43,360
Speaker 1: want to do that, and it's just okay, Well I

1523
01:13:43,479 --> 01:13:45,759
Speaker 1: told you to hit my head on down the steps

1524
01:13:45,840 --> 01:13:49,439
Speaker 1: a bunch of times and listen. And the thing is,

1525
01:13:50,240 --> 01:13:52,800
Speaker 1: I'm a logical person. It ain't working you know so,

1526
01:13:53,600 --> 01:13:59,160
Speaker 1: and having a deeper understanding of myself and really understanding

1527
01:13:59,200 --> 01:14:04,519
Speaker 1: my value and craving more than just okay, I just

1528
01:14:04,560 --> 01:14:07,000
Speaker 1: want someone. I just want someone who is this type

1529
01:14:07,000 --> 01:14:08,400
Speaker 1: of status. I just want to want on my arm

1530
01:14:08,400 --> 01:14:12,240
Speaker 1: who look, you know, really craving that substance and meaning

1531
01:14:13,240 --> 01:14:15,639
Speaker 1: even more than I always have. It's just like, I'm

1532
01:14:15,680 --> 01:14:17,559
Speaker 1: not so much shallow dating anymore.

1533
01:14:17,800 --> 01:14:19,240
Speaker 2: I don't think you're just shallow dating.

1534
01:14:19,320 --> 01:14:21,080
Speaker 5: But it's just hard for me to as I sit

1535
01:14:21,200 --> 01:14:23,479
Speaker 5: here and look across at you, I just don't see

1536
01:14:23,520 --> 01:14:24,720
Speaker 5: you with a nine to five guy.

1537
01:14:27,960 --> 01:14:28,240
Speaker 1: Okay.

1538
01:14:29,439 --> 01:14:31,840
Speaker 5: I mean, and you know and you know who, and

1539
01:14:32,000 --> 01:14:37,560
Speaker 5: you know what's attracted to you see the mob. He

1540
01:14:37,680 --> 01:14:39,439
Speaker 5: already knows what's gonna happen to the flame, but he

1541
01:14:39,479 --> 01:14:42,439
Speaker 5: can't help it. The attraction is too great. He's going

1542
01:14:42,520 --> 01:14:45,240
Speaker 5: to that flame even though he knows how it's going

1543
01:14:45,320 --> 01:14:45,720
Speaker 5: to end.

1544
01:14:46,520 --> 01:14:48,559
Speaker 2: You can't help what you attracted to bread.

1545
01:14:50,840 --> 01:14:54,280
Speaker 1: There has to be some accountabil There has to be

1546
01:14:54,320 --> 01:14:58,880
Speaker 1: accountability where it's like you can like certain things, but

1547
01:15:00,360 --> 01:15:06,400
Speaker 1: are we compatible, yes or no? Because if you're not

1548
01:15:06,600 --> 01:15:10,560
Speaker 1: going to the only flex is devotion. So, just like

1549
01:15:10,680 --> 01:15:13,479
Speaker 1: you said, you made the comment about athletes. I can

1550
01:15:13,560 --> 01:15:15,280
Speaker 1: be as open minded as I want to be across

1551
01:15:15,280 --> 01:15:17,840
Speaker 1: the board, whether it's nine to five or dating. Which

1552
01:15:17,920 --> 01:15:20,200
Speaker 1: man is going to be devoted to me? And there

1553
01:15:20,320 --> 01:15:23,680
Speaker 1: is a greater percentage that an athlete's going to be

1554
01:15:23,800 --> 01:15:27,240
Speaker 1: unfaithful to me. So that's why for me, I have

1555
01:15:27,479 --> 01:15:30,400
Speaker 1: to take the blinders off. I'm not saying he can't

1556
01:15:30,720 --> 01:15:32,519
Speaker 1: still be, you know, high stepping in his.

1557
01:15:32,560 --> 01:15:37,080
Speaker 5: Own right, But Britt, what you are attracted to, you

1558
01:15:37,320 --> 01:15:41,760
Speaker 5: can't help it. You've been there. I'm not saying just

1559
01:15:41,880 --> 01:15:44,920
Speaker 5: basketball player. I'm saying baseball. I'm saying football. It might

1560
01:15:45,000 --> 01:15:48,360
Speaker 5: be soccer, it might be something, but that's what you

1561
01:15:48,520 --> 01:15:52,160
Speaker 5: are attracted to, and you cannot help it. You can

1562
01:15:52,240 --> 01:15:54,840
Speaker 5: fight it, but you cannot deny it.

1563
01:15:56,360 --> 01:15:59,160
Speaker 1: Okay, I hear you loud and clear. A lot of

1564
01:15:59,720 --> 01:16:04,280
Speaker 1: the regular guys that I've attracted still have an athletic background.

1565
01:16:06,240 --> 01:16:08,439
Speaker 2: I hadn't talk about high school. I han't help about college.

1566
01:16:08,479 --> 01:16:10,320
Speaker 1: You know what I'm talking about Guys who I've played

1567
01:16:10,360 --> 01:16:12,559
Speaker 1: in college, they may still have an athletic background.

1568
01:16:12,560 --> 01:16:19,479
Speaker 5: So it's like I'm talking about pre pre profession MLB, NFL,

1569
01:16:19,880 --> 01:16:26,080
Speaker 5: n B A, m l S, the PREB R NASCAR

1570
01:16:26,560 --> 01:16:30,400
Speaker 5: stop at brand. We grown up in him. You know

1571
01:16:30,520 --> 01:16:31,439
Speaker 5: what you attracted to?

1572
01:16:32,280 --> 01:16:36,240
Speaker 1: They know what I'm gonna I cannot tell. Lie. I've

1573
01:16:36,320 --> 01:16:40,519
Speaker 1: had a very magical time with a trainer in Austin,

1574
01:16:40,600 --> 01:16:43,479
Speaker 1: Texas and we had a great time, held hands, got

1575
01:16:43,560 --> 01:16:47,759
Speaker 1: tacos and it was one of the most fun moments.

1576
01:16:47,840 --> 01:16:52,639
Speaker 1: That well, I was learning with someone on Twitter publicly

1577
01:16:52,920 --> 01:16:54,439
Speaker 1: and it changed things.

1578
01:16:54,880 --> 01:16:57,400
Speaker 2: Why would you do You're not my man.

1579
01:16:58,760 --> 01:17:00,680
Speaker 5: That he was trying to be You ruined it.

1580
01:17:01,160 --> 01:17:02,479
Speaker 1: No, he wasn't my guy anyways, but.

1581
01:17:02,560 --> 01:17:05,920
Speaker 2: I don't know he was trying to be your guy.

1582
01:17:06,640 --> 01:17:07,360
Speaker 5: You ruined it.

1583
01:17:07,720 --> 01:17:09,160
Speaker 2: You said you want true love.

1584
01:17:10,880 --> 01:17:12,320
Speaker 1: But okay, hold on you.

1585
01:17:12,520 --> 01:17:14,640
Speaker 5: Self sabotage, No, don't do that.

1586
01:17:14,720 --> 01:17:16,920
Speaker 1: I was in therapy for six years. No self sabotage.

1587
01:17:17,160 --> 01:17:19,760
Speaker 5: That you had a guy, he's holding your hand, he's

1588
01:17:19,800 --> 01:17:22,479
Speaker 5: taking you to get taco you getting a limon drop,

1589
01:17:22,600 --> 01:17:25,760
Speaker 5: you getting locker readers, and then you flirt publicly? Is

1590
01:17:25,840 --> 01:17:27,200
Speaker 5: that not self sabotage?

1591
01:17:27,200 --> 01:17:30,639
Speaker 1: It's not self sabotage. This was what was the timeline.

1592
01:17:30,720 --> 01:17:34,040
Speaker 1: It was about a year after my spoke my child's father.

1593
01:17:34,400 --> 01:17:37,160
Speaker 1: I was like, you know what, I've never just dated,

1594
01:17:37,280 --> 01:17:39,600
Speaker 1: so how I would do. Was I'm gonna talk to

1595
01:17:39,640 --> 01:17:41,439
Speaker 1: one guy at the time. Aside from the video where

1596
01:17:41,479 --> 01:17:43,759
Speaker 1: I told you all the different guys, them all just recycled.

1597
01:17:44,040 --> 01:17:47,559
Speaker 1: But anyways, I would talk to one guy at a time, okay,

1598
01:17:47,680 --> 01:17:49,960
Speaker 1: and it wasn't effective. It didn't work. So I was like, Okay,

1599
01:17:50,000 --> 01:17:51,960
Speaker 1: I'm pouring on my eggs into one person out of time,

1600
01:17:52,320 --> 01:17:53,719
Speaker 1: not getting my desired outcome.

1601
01:17:53,920 --> 01:17:58,240
Speaker 2: That's what you're supposed to do. What one basket out

1602
01:17:58,320 --> 01:17:58,679
Speaker 2: of time?

1603
01:17:59,560 --> 01:18:03,800
Speaker 1: Okay from one perspective, but when you are talking about

1604
01:18:03,920 --> 01:18:08,320
Speaker 1: modern dating, most men are not dating one woman at

1605
01:18:08,400 --> 01:18:09,160
Speaker 1: a time. So where does that?

1606
01:18:09,200 --> 01:18:10,080
Speaker 2: I ain't got nothing to do with you.

1607
01:18:11,800 --> 01:18:15,439
Speaker 1: Well, it's my if it's a particular you say, But you.

1608
01:18:15,680 --> 01:18:19,479
Speaker 5: Said you believe in true love. So what somebody else

1609
01:18:19,600 --> 01:18:22,160
Speaker 5: is doing? You said that guy was taking you to

1610
01:18:22,240 --> 01:18:25,160
Speaker 5: get tacos? So was he dating more than one.

1611
01:18:27,200 --> 01:18:27,720
Speaker 4: Tacos?

1612
01:18:28,600 --> 01:18:31,960
Speaker 5: Was he d Let's forget what else they're doing. I'm

1613
01:18:32,040 --> 01:18:36,720
Speaker 5: talking about him specifically. What was he dating more than one? Yes?

1614
01:18:37,560 --> 01:18:39,280
Speaker 2: Okay, Well I ain't got no Well you did what

1615
01:18:39,360 --> 01:18:39,639
Speaker 2: you did.

1616
01:18:40,360 --> 01:18:41,600
Speaker 1: I mean, what am I supposed to do? It's like

1617
01:18:41,640 --> 01:18:44,080
Speaker 1: I'm being faithful to an idea and he's doing what

1618
01:18:44,439 --> 01:18:46,479
Speaker 1: he wants to do, and that's why you're taking you know,

1619
01:18:46,520 --> 01:18:47,120
Speaker 1: you're taking.

1620
01:18:46,960 --> 01:18:49,160
Speaker 2: Your time, So that's why you that's why you was flirting.

1621
01:18:49,840 --> 01:18:51,760
Speaker 1: Now, this was a person that I've always loved and

1622
01:18:51,800 --> 01:18:54,959
Speaker 1: I cared about, and I just was like, from my understanding,

1623
01:18:55,000 --> 01:18:56,559
Speaker 1: I thought I was dating wrong. I'm like, why am

1624
01:18:56,600 --> 01:18:58,799
Speaker 1: I just talking to one guy at a time. Clearly

1625
01:18:58,840 --> 01:19:00,559
Speaker 1: there are women out here who are going on dates,

1626
01:19:00,640 --> 01:19:02,960
Speaker 1: not having sex with all the guys they're dating, going

1627
01:19:03,000 --> 01:19:05,160
Speaker 1: on different dates, trying different things out, going to dinner

1628
01:19:05,200 --> 01:19:08,479
Speaker 1: and going wherever. I'm not doing something right. So that's

1629
01:19:08,520 --> 01:19:09,880
Speaker 1: when I was like, you know what, let me try

1630
01:19:09,920 --> 01:19:12,040
Speaker 1: something new, and I don't have to have sex with

1631
01:19:12,080 --> 01:19:13,960
Speaker 1: all the guys i'm speaking with, Like I can go

1632
01:19:14,080 --> 01:19:15,559
Speaker 1: on dates and go get tacos.

1633
01:19:16,240 --> 01:19:17,080
Speaker 5: That didn't.

1634
01:19:18,880 --> 01:19:22,600
Speaker 1: There are different rules where you're in the limelight, you

1635
01:19:22,640 --> 01:19:26,000
Speaker 1: know what I mean. And I know after that, I'm like, well, damn,

1636
01:19:26,120 --> 01:19:27,320
Speaker 1: like I would have felt some type of way I

1637
01:19:27,320 --> 01:19:30,240
Speaker 1: people do that to me. So that's when I took

1638
01:19:30,360 --> 01:19:34,000
Speaker 1: from that situation of Okay, I tried the multiple guy.

1639
01:19:33,920 --> 01:19:37,439
Speaker 4: Thing, didn't work for me, not gonna listen la la

1640
01:19:37,479 --> 01:19:38,360
Speaker 4: la la la, to what.

1641
01:19:38,439 --> 01:19:42,280
Speaker 1: Modern dating is about in on tiktoks or podcasts. I'm

1642
01:19:42,280 --> 01:19:45,639
Speaker 1: not listening to that. If I'm talking to a guy,

1643
01:19:46,120 --> 01:19:50,120
Speaker 1: it's gonna be him, And that vetting process is very

1644
01:19:50,240 --> 01:19:52,519
Speaker 1: short lived most of the time because they are not

1645
01:19:53,479 --> 01:19:53,800
Speaker 1: the guys.

1646
01:19:54,160 --> 01:19:55,680
Speaker 2: They just turn off.

1647
01:20:00,840 --> 01:20:04,040
Speaker 1: I'd say inconsistency because lying is like that's so typical,

1648
01:20:04,280 --> 01:20:05,240
Speaker 1: that's obviously number one.

1649
01:20:05,280 --> 01:20:06,840
Speaker 5: But so you want to do the call, you want

1650
01:20:06,840 --> 01:20:08,280
Speaker 5: to doll you want to do to call you every

1651
01:20:08,360 --> 01:20:10,040
Speaker 5: day a couple of times the day, check in, hey Brett,

1652
01:20:10,080 --> 01:20:10,439
Speaker 5: how you do it?

1653
01:20:10,479 --> 01:20:11,840
Speaker 1: It doesn't have to be a couple of times, but

1654
01:20:11,960 --> 01:20:14,800
Speaker 1: I would like at least yeah, Like I mean, send

1655
01:20:14,840 --> 01:20:17,120
Speaker 1: me the morning text and then like let's recap maybe

1656
01:20:17,200 --> 01:20:19,120
Speaker 1: later in the day. I would prefer to talk on

1657
01:20:19,160 --> 01:20:22,040
Speaker 1: the phone. I'm not I feel like younger people love

1658
01:20:22,200 --> 01:20:24,320
Speaker 1: like FaceTime and stuff, but I like, just I have

1659
01:20:24,400 --> 01:20:25,800
Speaker 1: my headphones in. We can just talk on the phone

1660
01:20:25,880 --> 01:20:27,679
Speaker 1: or put you on speaker on doing my makeup or something.

1661
01:20:27,720 --> 01:20:31,960
Speaker 1: But yeah, it's just kind of like limited to text messages.

1662
01:20:32,040 --> 01:20:35,360
Speaker 1: That's just been my experience, right, Yeah, Like there's not

1663
01:20:35,400 --> 01:20:38,519
Speaker 1: a lot of like old soul what is your what.

1664
01:20:38,640 --> 01:20:42,960
Speaker 2: Is your take on first date? Six? You good?

1665
01:20:43,160 --> 01:20:43,200
Speaker 1: No?

1666
01:20:44,240 --> 01:20:46,240
Speaker 2: Maybe it depends.

1667
01:20:47,920 --> 01:20:51,320
Speaker 5: Who No, no, you what it told me? Say, Hey,

1668
01:20:51,720 --> 01:20:54,000
Speaker 5: we will have open and honest conversation.

1669
01:20:58,600 --> 01:20:59,920
Speaker 1: If the energy is there, I'm all for it.

1670
01:21:00,880 --> 01:21:01,160
Speaker 2: Okay.

1671
01:21:02,160 --> 01:21:09,880
Speaker 1: But some of my friends to the left here, you know,

1672
01:21:11,640 --> 01:21:14,639
Speaker 1: they they have been a bit more successful with holding out.

1673
01:21:14,800 --> 01:21:20,639
Speaker 1: But I'm just like, well, you're not gonna respect me anymore.

1674
01:21:21,240 --> 01:21:23,479
Speaker 1: You either respect me or you don't. I'm either someone

1675
01:21:23,520 --> 01:21:25,479
Speaker 1: that you can see yourself with or not. It's not

1676
01:21:25,600 --> 01:21:28,559
Speaker 1: gonna take three months for you to be You wonder

1677
01:21:28,640 --> 01:21:31,240
Speaker 1: if she could be my girl, like you already know

1678
01:21:31,320 --> 01:21:34,040
Speaker 1: when you're speaking with me, like she's a hookup, she's

1679
01:21:34,080 --> 01:21:37,160
Speaker 1: a wife or everything else in between, like wife, everything

1680
01:21:37,160 --> 01:21:37,759
Speaker 1: else in between.

1681
01:21:38,200 --> 01:21:38,840
Speaker 2: So can you.

1682
01:21:41,920 --> 01:21:44,280
Speaker 1: I don't clean let me? Well, that actually doesn't not

1683
01:21:44,280 --> 01:21:45,680
Speaker 1: why it doesn't apply to me because I don't have

1684
01:21:45,720 --> 01:21:49,839
Speaker 1: a ring. But uh no, but I'm very passionate about Felicia.

1685
01:21:50,320 --> 01:21:53,920
Speaker 1: Does that matter? I don't think that has a chore, babe.

1686
01:21:54,640 --> 01:21:56,840
Speaker 5: Oh look, I just asked him be the dude. He

1687
01:21:56,920 --> 01:21:58,960
Speaker 5: go walk a couple home my list and say he's

1688
01:21:59,040 --> 01:22:00,560
Speaker 5: nine to five instructions.

1689
01:22:00,880 --> 01:22:03,320
Speaker 1: Huh, I can follow instructions. No, I honestly I believe

1690
01:22:03,360 --> 01:22:04,120
Speaker 1: cooking is beneath me.

1691
01:22:05,320 --> 01:22:07,080
Speaker 2: Huh, don't.

1692
01:22:07,320 --> 01:22:08,400
Speaker 1: I don't belong in the kitchen.

1693
01:22:12,680 --> 01:22:15,360
Speaker 5: You're making it difficult. I'm really trying to help you here.

1694
01:22:15,360 --> 01:22:16,760
Speaker 5: I mean, you know a millions of people going to

1695
01:22:16,800 --> 01:22:17,680
Speaker 5: see this, and I'm really trying.

1696
01:22:17,800 --> 01:22:20,040
Speaker 1: They got to drag me. I love it. I'm into that.

1697
01:22:20,520 --> 01:22:22,000
Speaker 2: Would you let your friends sit you up on a

1698
01:22:22,000 --> 01:22:22,479
Speaker 2: blind date?

1699
01:22:24,160 --> 01:22:24,519
Speaker 4: I would?

1700
01:22:25,560 --> 01:22:27,719
Speaker 1: I did. I've gone on to blind date recently.

1701
01:22:28,479 --> 01:22:29,000
Speaker 5: I wasn't.

1702
01:22:29,640 --> 01:22:30,479
Speaker 1: We went zip blinding.

1703
01:22:30,560 --> 01:22:33,559
Speaker 2: It was fun, you adventurous, huh.

1704
01:22:34,280 --> 01:22:37,680
Speaker 1: Yes, But I feel like I have to work a lot.

1705
01:22:38,160 --> 01:22:40,560
Speaker 1: I'm in a very masculine role in my household, so

1706
01:22:40,760 --> 01:22:42,240
Speaker 1: I don't feel like I have a lot of time

1707
01:22:42,320 --> 01:22:44,600
Speaker 1: to have fun and go out and do stuff like that.

1708
01:22:44,680 --> 01:22:46,120
Speaker 1: But yeah, I did go zip blinding. It was fun.

1709
01:22:46,200 --> 01:22:48,439
Speaker 1: He's just he was twenty three. He was like, you're

1710
01:22:48,479 --> 01:22:49,840
Speaker 1: telling me everything I want to hear and not what

1711
01:22:49,920 --> 01:22:53,040
Speaker 1: I need to hear. And although he was very open

1712
01:22:53,200 --> 01:22:55,479
Speaker 1: about like the kids stuff and like, oh I don't

1713
01:22:55,520 --> 01:22:57,080
Speaker 1: care about that, but you know this is what I want.

1714
01:22:57,840 --> 01:23:01,120
Speaker 1: I'm just like, I don't. It's very hard to imagine

1715
01:23:01,160 --> 01:23:07,400
Speaker 1: a younger man having the courage, be an understanding seeing

1716
01:23:07,439 --> 01:23:10,000
Speaker 1: my value. So it's just hard to see that I've

1717
01:23:10,000 --> 01:23:10,400
Speaker 1: been open.

1718
01:23:10,479 --> 01:23:14,599
Speaker 5: But do you want the man to Okay, Brittany, I'm

1719
01:23:14,640 --> 01:23:16,479
Speaker 5: picking you up at I'm picking you up at seven

1720
01:23:16,600 --> 01:23:18,920
Speaker 5: thirty eight o'clock. We're going here. You want him to

1721
01:23:19,000 --> 01:23:22,360
Speaker 5: plan to date or are you going to plan or

1722
01:23:22,479 --> 01:23:22,960
Speaker 5: help plan?

1723
01:23:23,640 --> 01:23:25,680
Speaker 1: Yeah? Women don't like questions. Don't ask me if I

1724
01:23:25,720 --> 01:23:27,160
Speaker 1: want to go to dinner, tell me.

1725
01:23:27,280 --> 01:23:29,720
Speaker 5: You know, like, hey, this is what what can they can?

1726
01:23:29,760 --> 01:23:31,960
Speaker 2: They ask Brittany, what's your favorite for? What do you like?

1727
01:23:32,320 --> 01:23:35,320
Speaker 1: That's fine? But plan it? Yeah, I don't. I have

1728
01:23:35,520 --> 01:23:38,680
Speaker 1: no desire to be a man in a relationship with

1729
01:23:38,840 --> 01:23:39,120
Speaker 1: a man?

1730
01:23:39,360 --> 01:23:40,519
Speaker 2: What happened to y.

1731
01:23:42,280 --> 01:23:45,439
Speaker 1: Who said that? That's what Dwayne said on the last.

1732
01:23:45,800 --> 01:23:48,600
Speaker 2: Yeah, fifty fifty.

1733
01:23:50,080 --> 01:23:55,760
Speaker 1: That's getting friends platonic fifty to fifty. I mean, no, dude,

1734
01:23:56,720 --> 01:23:59,640
Speaker 1: Well there was a guy that I went on a

1735
01:23:59,720 --> 01:24:03,720
Speaker 1: date with O and what happened We we went out

1736
01:24:03,760 --> 01:24:06,880
Speaker 1: on a little zate, we went bowling and when we

1737
01:24:06,960 --> 01:24:11,599
Speaker 1: got there, oh, I mean I don't have a long now.

1738
01:24:12,120 --> 01:24:15,000
Speaker 1: I'm a very isary classic ball like this when you.

1739
01:24:15,040 --> 01:24:20,320
Speaker 5: Put things what didn't you like to know? I'm just

1740
01:24:20,400 --> 01:24:22,400
Speaker 5: trying to ask the question that you go with the blue.

1741
01:24:22,320 --> 01:24:27,200
Speaker 1: Jab anyways, and we got out.

1742
01:24:28,520 --> 01:24:34,240
Speaker 5: Okay, okay, I've got something this time.

1743
01:24:34,280 --> 01:24:37,280
Speaker 1: But this is so good. It is I usually don't

1744
01:24:37,280 --> 01:24:38,320
Speaker 1: like dark. Maybe I gotta try it.

1745
01:24:38,479 --> 01:24:40,760
Speaker 2: Maybe I have to you know, maybe maybe I have

1746
01:24:40,800 --> 01:24:42,000
Speaker 2: to have you in a bathroom.

1747
01:24:42,680 --> 01:24:47,000
Speaker 1: I would have loved that. So back to Jacob. We

1748
01:24:47,120 --> 01:24:49,920
Speaker 1: get to the date. He pays for a bowling. I'm like, okay, cool.

1749
01:24:50,680 --> 01:24:52,919
Speaker 1: And he gets there and he's like, honestly, I shouldn't

1750
01:24:52,920 --> 01:24:56,000
Speaker 1: be here right now, and he kind of alluded to

1751
01:24:56,080 --> 01:24:59,600
Speaker 1: his sister giving him money the date, and so I

1752
01:24:59,720 --> 01:25:05,040
Speaker 1: paid for like our drinks and what Yeah, yeah.

1753
01:25:04,920 --> 01:25:05,320
Speaker 2: He said that.

1754
01:25:05,479 --> 01:25:09,840
Speaker 1: He said that he oh god, I can't lie. It's

1755
01:25:09,840 --> 01:25:11,960
Speaker 1: like a curse with a blessing. But yeah, so anyways,

1756
01:25:11,960 --> 01:25:13,720
Speaker 1: he was like, yeah, I can't really, I can't really

1757
01:25:13,720 --> 01:25:15,840
Speaker 1: afford it that. This is what happened. I was playing overseas,

1758
01:25:15,960 --> 01:25:18,920
Speaker 1: I got robbed all these different things, and I was like,

1759
01:25:18,960 --> 01:25:21,080
Speaker 1: you know what, it doesn't even matter because all that

1760
01:25:21,240 --> 01:25:22,360
Speaker 1: girls true love.

1761
01:25:22,840 --> 01:25:26,240
Speaker 5: So I paid for our drinks and you told him

1762
01:25:26,280 --> 01:25:28,120
Speaker 5: to scodaddle school.

1763
01:25:28,760 --> 01:25:31,320
Speaker 1: No, let me tell you why I told him to scoodattle.

1764
01:25:31,439 --> 01:25:35,639
Speaker 1: So we're leaving and the parking was like thirty five.

1765
01:25:36,400 --> 01:25:37,800
Speaker 5: He ain't have no money in the ballot.

1766
01:25:38,680 --> 01:25:39,439
Speaker 2: Yeah, he got to go.

1767
01:25:41,800 --> 01:25:45,640
Speaker 1: So I paid for parking thirty five dollars each and

1768
01:25:46,080 --> 01:25:48,160
Speaker 1: mind you whatever, I was like, let me just give

1769
01:25:48,200 --> 01:25:50,640
Speaker 1: him a little little kiss. So we made out. No

1770
01:25:50,760 --> 01:25:52,680
Speaker 1: passion there. I already kind of knew this was a now.

1771
01:25:53,280 --> 01:25:54,640
Speaker 1: So we were in the parking, people like you.

1772
01:25:54,840 --> 01:25:59,439
Speaker 5: Put your toe, did you president the ball the dudes

1773
01:25:59,439 --> 01:26:01,800
Speaker 5: show up, you got to pay for the drink.

1774
01:26:03,160 --> 01:26:04,760
Speaker 4: I still had to give it my all. I had

1775
01:26:04,800 --> 01:26:05,320
Speaker 4: to see him.

1776
01:26:05,760 --> 01:26:09,040
Speaker 1: He got going, Okay, I saw I put it, put

1777
01:26:09,080 --> 01:26:10,080
Speaker 1: my tongue, got his throat.

1778
01:26:10,200 --> 01:26:12,439
Speaker 2: Did you have on lipstick out the game with napkin?

1779
01:26:13,280 --> 01:26:14,320
Speaker 2: And you go take that with you?

1780
01:26:15,120 --> 01:26:18,040
Speaker 5: That's all he'd got. God, that's all he That's all

1781
01:26:18,080 --> 01:26:19,120
Speaker 5: he frow to the table.

1782
01:26:19,240 --> 01:26:22,599
Speaker 1: It's a little charity. Okay. So we were in there

1783
01:26:22,640 --> 01:26:24,519
Speaker 1: for about you know, we're talking and whatever. He's like,

1784
01:26:24,560 --> 01:26:27,280
Speaker 1: you know, let's continue to date. I'm like, no, I'm good.

1785
01:26:27,800 --> 01:26:32,439
Speaker 1: So we're going through the parking, going through the parking meter,

1786
01:26:32,960 --> 01:26:35,960
Speaker 1: and it was like an additional ten dollars what because

1787
01:26:35,960 --> 01:26:37,599
Speaker 1: we were it was like I don't know, I don't

1788
01:26:37,680 --> 01:26:38,800
Speaker 1: I don't know how long we were there we were

1789
01:26:38,840 --> 01:26:40,479
Speaker 1: making out that dam't lie. So whatever, I paid the

1790
01:26:40,560 --> 01:26:45,080
Speaker 1: ten dollars, I go through under the parking meter and

1791
01:26:45,160 --> 01:26:45,639
Speaker 1: I hear.

1792
01:26:48,439 --> 01:26:55,200
Speaker 5: What happened. Oh, he tried to raise through the Joey

1793
01:26:55,280 --> 01:27:00,320
Speaker 5: Wage closed down on it. Oh. I was like, oh

1794
01:27:00,400 --> 01:27:02,080
Speaker 5: my god, because I was like, someone's about to hit

1795
01:27:02,160 --> 01:27:04,920
Speaker 5: my car so we didn't have to pay for the parking.

1796
01:27:05,320 --> 01:27:08,439
Speaker 7: And I was like, I'm never calling him again. This

1797
01:27:08,720 --> 01:27:11,960
Speaker 7: is exactly why people are like, you can't date the regular. God,

1798
01:27:11,960 --> 01:27:18,320
Speaker 7: you're right, because I tried and mister all you know, he.

1799
01:27:18,479 --> 01:27:23,400
Speaker 1: Was cute, but yeah, when he raced through that, yeah,

1800
01:27:23,520 --> 01:27:24,880
Speaker 1: I was like, oh you canna offer me is some

1801
01:27:24,920 --> 01:27:26,560
Speaker 1: hard dicking bubble gum babe. And I was just like

1802
01:27:26,680 --> 01:27:30,600
Speaker 1: that ain't gonna work, I thought, But yeah, that's the

1803
01:27:30,640 --> 01:27:34,080
Speaker 1: first time I've shared this the republic. Very embarrassing. Ooh

1804
01:27:34,479 --> 01:27:37,240
Speaker 1: we and I just got stood up recently.

1805
01:27:37,000 --> 01:27:40,479
Speaker 2: To him, well, hold on, did your friend you got

1806
01:27:40,760 --> 01:27:42,839
Speaker 2: step up by a blind date or this was something.

1807
01:27:42,680 --> 01:27:45,360
Speaker 1: That no, it was just it was it was, yeah,

1808
01:27:45,680 --> 01:27:46,519
Speaker 1: it didn't work.

1809
01:27:47,160 --> 01:27:47,839
Speaker 2: What happened?

1810
01:27:50,880 --> 01:27:53,040
Speaker 1: He told me the reason he couldn't go to the

1811
01:27:53,160 --> 01:27:57,439
Speaker 1: date was because his friend's grandma died and that his

1812
01:27:57,640 --> 01:27:59,920
Speaker 1: friend wanted him to come console him.

1813
01:28:01,280 --> 01:28:05,000
Speaker 2: Dudes doing that, well, and you believed it. I know

1814
01:28:05,080 --> 01:28:08,240
Speaker 2: you didn't believe it, Britt, I blocked him.

1815
01:28:09,680 --> 01:28:12,759
Speaker 1: But yeah, so I have really really funny stories.

1816
01:28:13,080 --> 01:28:15,519
Speaker 2: You What is it with you and these guys you've

1817
01:28:15,520 --> 01:28:16,959
Speaker 2: been you've been, You've been meeting.

1818
01:28:16,800 --> 01:28:19,720
Speaker 5: Some some real tell us clowns.

1819
01:28:19,920 --> 01:28:20,120
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1820
01:28:21,320 --> 01:28:23,639
Speaker 4: Yeah, But do you get.

1821
01:28:23,560 --> 01:28:26,680
Speaker 5: Guys that try to impress you that come out like,

1822
01:28:26,840 --> 01:28:28,680
Speaker 5: oh they like big ballers, or they show up with

1823
01:28:28,760 --> 01:28:31,639
Speaker 5: somebody else a rental car or bent let or rolls

1824
01:28:31,800 --> 01:28:32,639
Speaker 5: or the homeboy.

1825
01:28:32,880 --> 01:28:37,040
Speaker 1: Well, I mean that's not really that impressive just because

1826
01:28:37,240 --> 01:28:40,160
Speaker 1: it's I guess it's just been so familiarized for me,

1827
01:28:40,320 --> 01:28:43,280
Speaker 1: like you know, uh, that's not really that now. But

1828
01:28:46,040 --> 01:28:47,920
Speaker 1: now I I I mean I did have a good

1829
01:28:48,040 --> 01:28:50,240
Speaker 1: date a couple of months ago, I mean the whole

1830
01:28:50,320 --> 01:28:52,640
Speaker 1: shebang dinner and went out and stuff. It was a

1831
01:28:52,680 --> 01:28:55,360
Speaker 1: good time. But he's a dud.

1832
01:28:57,040 --> 01:28:57,400
Speaker 5: What is it?

1833
01:28:58,479 --> 01:29:02,639
Speaker 1: It's it's just like it it's I guess the energy. Okay,

1834
01:29:02,720 --> 01:29:04,840
Speaker 1: this is this is actually a really important distinction we

1835
01:29:04,920 --> 01:29:09,439
Speaker 1: have to make because there's high value men, yes, but

1836
01:29:09,840 --> 01:29:15,040
Speaker 1: high value does not mean high quality because yes, because

1837
01:29:15,160 --> 01:29:21,519
Speaker 1: mufassa high value high quality scar, high value, low quality, So.

1838
01:29:21,720 --> 01:29:24,040
Speaker 5: That's where for a lot of scars. Huh.

1839
01:29:25,280 --> 01:29:28,519
Speaker 1: I wouldn't even say that, or you know, high value

1840
01:29:28,600 --> 01:29:33,560
Speaker 1: because almost broke the freaking parking meter skating behind me,

1841
01:29:33,640 --> 01:29:37,080
Speaker 1: you know. So, I mean I've just been very open minded.

1842
01:29:37,320 --> 01:29:39,360
Speaker 5: Why did you just get up the moment he said

1843
01:29:39,479 --> 01:29:43,000
Speaker 5: that my sister is basically paying for this part of

1844
01:29:43,120 --> 01:29:45,720
Speaker 5: the date. That would that should have been your key

1845
01:29:46,080 --> 01:29:47,759
Speaker 5: to exit stage left?

1846
01:29:48,160 --> 01:29:52,080
Speaker 2: Well because how long? So how long did it take

1847
01:29:52,120 --> 01:29:54,519
Speaker 2: to put this date together? Was it like quickly? Was

1848
01:29:54,560 --> 01:29:56,960
Speaker 2: it like two weeks? Was it like three weeks? Because

1849
01:29:57,000 --> 01:29:57,880
Speaker 2: they could have Yeah.

1850
01:29:57,840 --> 01:29:59,800
Speaker 1: I met him. I met him at a party and

1851
01:30:00,040 --> 01:30:02,360
Speaker 1: and you know, if i'd me on Instagram, and I

1852
01:30:02,560 --> 01:30:04,080
Speaker 1: already kind of felt like it was a red flag

1853
01:30:04,160 --> 01:30:07,519
Speaker 1: because I like in person encounters. So when you saw

1854
01:30:07,600 --> 01:30:10,040
Speaker 1: me in person, you say anything you should have Well, no,

1855
01:30:10,120 --> 01:30:12,320
Speaker 1: he introduced himself, but he didn't get my number right.

1856
01:30:12,400 --> 01:30:14,320
Speaker 1: So there's like certain things that I'm just kind of

1857
01:30:14,360 --> 01:30:16,120
Speaker 1: more old fashioned about. So why would you go to

1858
01:30:16,160 --> 01:30:18,120
Speaker 1: the digital route when you have me right in front

1859
01:30:18,160 --> 01:30:20,120
Speaker 1: of you and you could have made more lasting impression?

1860
01:30:20,360 --> 01:30:23,000
Speaker 1: That was like my first already like kind of weird

1861
01:30:23,360 --> 01:30:27,160
Speaker 1: but how long did it take? What? What was the question? Again?

1862
01:30:27,280 --> 01:30:27,479
Speaker 5: Yeah?

1863
01:30:27,520 --> 01:30:29,320
Speaker 2: How long did it take you? Like, like I said,

1864
01:30:29,360 --> 01:30:31,040
Speaker 2: I'm saying to set this date up?

1865
01:30:31,520 --> 01:30:33,840
Speaker 1: Oh no, yeah, it was just maybe like a few days.

1866
01:30:33,880 --> 01:30:36,439
Speaker 1: I mean it was pretty quick. But I told you,

1867
01:30:36,520 --> 01:30:39,679
Speaker 1: I told myself, Well, I told myself that, Well, Brittany,

1868
01:30:39,680 --> 01:30:42,720
Speaker 1: if it's not about the money, yeah, but no, no, no, no,

1869
01:30:42,800 --> 01:30:45,120
Speaker 1: no no no, I just wanted to try again.

1870
01:30:45,240 --> 01:30:48,000
Speaker 2: I like to try Brittany.

1871
01:30:49,040 --> 01:30:51,920
Speaker 5: Having enough money for a common date. I'm not saying

1872
01:30:52,000 --> 01:30:54,080
Speaker 5: the guy got to be worth thirty mil. But a

1873
01:30:54,160 --> 01:30:55,840
Speaker 5: dude got to be able to have enough money for

1874
01:30:55,920 --> 01:30:58,599
Speaker 5: a common date. And I come on, now, I don't

1875
01:30:58,640 --> 01:31:01,240
Speaker 5: think you're I don't think any woman is asking now.

1876
01:31:01,280 --> 01:31:03,160
Speaker 5: I'm not saying we can go to mask Rolls, or

1877
01:31:03,200 --> 01:31:05,560
Speaker 5: we can go to Catcher some place like that, but

1878
01:31:05,760 --> 01:31:09,800
Speaker 5: for the go bowling and the paper parking. I don't

1879
01:31:09,800 --> 01:31:12,720
Speaker 5: think that's a stretch. I don't think that's asking too much.

1880
01:31:13,040 --> 01:31:16,439
Speaker 1: No, it's not. But that's where because what I don't

1881
01:31:16,479 --> 01:31:18,800
Speaker 1: want people to take away from this is that I'm

1882
01:31:18,920 --> 01:31:22,519
Speaker 1: blaming men. Because what I do is any experience I have,

1883
01:31:23,040 --> 01:31:26,519
Speaker 1: and it's unfavorable. I don't like it. I go inward

1884
01:31:26,560 --> 01:31:28,720
Speaker 1: and figure out what part of me, what part of

1885
01:31:28,840 --> 01:31:34,000
Speaker 1: my belief system aligns with skating through the parking meter,

1886
01:31:34,160 --> 01:31:36,240
Speaker 1: what part of me alignce to someone who would ghost

1887
01:31:36,280 --> 01:31:39,280
Speaker 1: me on a date. So I go back inward and

1888
01:31:40,160 --> 01:31:43,439
Speaker 1: do the work to understand. So I no longer have

1889
01:31:43,680 --> 01:31:48,000
Speaker 1: these below average experiences with men. So it's still a

1890
01:31:48,120 --> 01:31:50,439
Speaker 1: reflection of parts of me that needs to be addressed.

1891
01:31:50,760 --> 01:31:54,400
Speaker 1: So yeah, I'm still learning the dating stuff is. It's

1892
01:31:54,880 --> 01:31:58,800
Speaker 1: very challenging to navigate, especially having such a heavy presence online, right,

1893
01:31:59,040 --> 01:32:01,720
Speaker 1: good batter and different. It's it's very difficult because a

1894
01:32:01,760 --> 01:32:04,400
Speaker 1: lot of guys will look at you as trophy. Other

1895
01:32:04,560 --> 01:32:07,960
Speaker 1: guys will look at you as just like a good time.

1896
01:32:08,160 --> 01:32:10,720
Speaker 1: What a hundred million or one hundred dollars? You know.

1897
01:32:10,840 --> 01:32:14,760
Speaker 1: It's it's hard because I do social media is my life,

1898
01:32:14,880 --> 01:32:17,720
Speaker 1: has been my life, and especially we've being on Basketball Wives.

1899
01:32:17,760 --> 01:32:20,080
Speaker 1: Now I'm very curious to see who comes out of

1900
01:32:20,120 --> 01:32:22,680
Speaker 1: the woodwork and what's really genuine. I still have to

1901
01:32:22,800 --> 01:32:25,120
Speaker 1: filter through all these things that the average person has to.

1902
01:32:25,680 --> 01:32:29,840
Speaker 1: But now you're adding all these factors that what a

1903
01:32:29,920 --> 01:32:30,760
Speaker 1: billion dollar question?

1904
01:32:31,000 --> 01:32:33,120
Speaker 5: Why do you think it's so hard? Why why do

1905
01:32:33,160 --> 01:32:35,960
Speaker 5: you think relationships are so hard for either one. I

1906
01:32:36,000 --> 01:32:38,160
Speaker 5: don't want to say men are more faithful or mean

1907
01:32:38,600 --> 01:32:40,479
Speaker 5: more unfaithful women are more unfaithful.

1908
01:32:40,680 --> 01:32:42,479
Speaker 2: But why do you think it's so hard to remain

1909
01:32:42,560 --> 01:32:43,880
Speaker 2: faithful in a relationship?

1910
01:32:44,200 --> 01:32:46,800
Speaker 1: Remain faithful? Yeah, I don't think it's hard. I think

1911
01:32:46,840 --> 01:32:49,800
Speaker 1: it's a lifestyle choice, just like a lot of people are. Like,

1912
01:32:49,880 --> 01:32:51,800
Speaker 1: if he wants to, he will, just like you know,

1913
01:32:52,040 --> 01:32:53,960
Speaker 1: if you know you actually went to the gym like

1914
01:32:53,960 --> 01:32:55,840
Speaker 1: you said you would on January first. Yeah, if you

1915
01:32:55,840 --> 01:32:58,519
Speaker 1: wanted to, you would. It's just a lifestyle choice. And

1916
01:32:59,479 --> 01:33:01,080
Speaker 1: I you don't know what it's like to be a man.

1917
01:33:01,120 --> 01:33:02,280
Speaker 1: I would love to be a man for a day

1918
01:33:02,280 --> 01:33:05,200
Speaker 1: and see these biological things that are maybe even me

1919
01:33:05,240 --> 01:33:06,679
Speaker 1: want to just stick my dick and everything. I would

1920
01:33:06,720 --> 01:33:09,880
Speaker 1: love to see if that stands true. But I really

1921
01:33:09,960 --> 01:33:12,439
Speaker 1: think it's aligning with someone who has the same beliefs

1922
01:33:12,479 --> 01:33:17,360
Speaker 1: as you. I don't understand how people are unfaithful because

1923
01:33:17,400 --> 01:33:20,760
Speaker 1: the only thing that can quench lust is love. So

1924
01:33:20,960 --> 01:33:25,080
Speaker 1: how why people are out moving around and having casual

1925
01:33:25,160 --> 01:33:27,519
Speaker 1: sex with people is really beyond me, especially when you

1926
01:33:27,600 --> 01:33:30,080
Speaker 1: have someone who gives a damn about you. I will

1927
01:33:30,120 --> 01:33:31,760
Speaker 1: never understand that I told you first on the last

1928
01:33:31,760 --> 01:33:33,559
Speaker 1: time I cheated was when I was sixteen years old.

1929
01:33:33,640 --> 01:33:37,240
Speaker 1: I can't relate. I think loyalty is actually the easiest part.

1930
01:33:37,439 --> 01:33:39,719
Speaker 5: You know, people find that very hard to believe because

1931
01:33:40,680 --> 01:33:43,760
Speaker 5: the number of men that you said you've slept with, and.

1932
01:33:46,000 --> 01:33:48,000
Speaker 2: I guess just they look at you and who you

1933
01:33:48,080 --> 01:33:49,600
Speaker 2: are to like a man. She full of it.

1934
01:33:50,160 --> 01:33:52,360
Speaker 5: But I mean, I have no reason to believe that

1935
01:33:52,439 --> 01:33:55,080
Speaker 5: you're lying to me. But I'm saying you can understand

1936
01:33:55,120 --> 01:33:57,679
Speaker 5: that people look at you. I mean, you know, perception

1937
01:33:57,920 --> 01:34:02,880
Speaker 5: is people's truth, although it's not reality a person, perception

1938
01:34:03,080 --> 01:34:03,799
Speaker 5: is their reality.

1939
01:34:04,520 --> 01:34:05,200
Speaker 2: You agree, right?

1940
01:34:05,920 --> 01:34:08,040
Speaker 1: No? Why would I agree that perception is reality?

1941
01:34:08,160 --> 01:34:10,639
Speaker 2: No, perception is their reality some people's realty.

1942
01:34:10,720 --> 01:34:14,560
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, yes, no, I that's fine. I'm not to

1943
01:34:14,680 --> 01:34:19,120
Speaker 1: think that I would be po no, because that's that's

1944
01:34:19,200 --> 01:34:23,639
Speaker 1: typical answer. Telling the truth is way more wild than lying.

1945
01:34:24,280 --> 01:34:25,920
Speaker 1: And for me to lie to you, that means I

1946
01:34:26,040 --> 01:34:28,680
Speaker 1: have to fear you. I don't fear anything, right when

1947
01:34:28,760 --> 01:34:30,920
Speaker 1: it comes to death. Whatever today is a good day

1948
01:34:31,000 --> 01:34:31,240
Speaker 1: is ever?

1949
01:34:32,240 --> 01:34:32,479
Speaker 5: Wow?

1950
01:34:33,760 --> 01:34:35,880
Speaker 1: So why would I lie? I don't live my life

1951
01:34:35,920 --> 01:34:36,080
Speaker 1: like that.

1952
01:34:36,320 --> 01:34:37,880
Speaker 2: Would you ever date publicly? Again?

1953
01:34:38,360 --> 01:34:42,040
Speaker 1: Of course? I don't know what that what the vetting

1954
01:34:42,120 --> 01:34:44,240
Speaker 1: process looks. Say, I don't know what that guy is like.

1955
01:34:44,400 --> 01:34:46,439
Speaker 1: I don't know. That's why it's like I consider and

1956
01:34:47,439 --> 01:34:48,439
Speaker 1: I'll never do this. I'll never do that.

1957
01:34:50,000 --> 01:34:51,880
Speaker 2: It's not even that that's that guy is gonna be

1958
01:34:51,880 --> 01:34:52,360
Speaker 2: an athlete.

1959
01:34:53,720 --> 01:34:54,720
Speaker 1: Why would you wish that on me?

1960
01:34:54,840 --> 01:34:57,200
Speaker 2: I ain't wish it, because that's what you can't you

1961
01:34:57,360 --> 01:34:58,880
Speaker 2: the mob, he's the flame.

1962
01:34:59,640 --> 01:35:04,800
Speaker 5: You it can't help. You can't help. You can't help it. Okay,

1963
01:35:05,000 --> 01:35:08,000
Speaker 5: he's the mall, you're the plane. It doesn't matter.

1964
01:35:08,720 --> 01:35:09,639
Speaker 2: It does it does.

1965
01:35:11,520 --> 01:35:13,599
Speaker 1: That moth is every time.

1966
01:35:14,439 --> 01:35:15,280
Speaker 4: But I wouldn't do that.

1967
01:35:15,760 --> 01:35:18,960
Speaker 5: Yeah you would, Yeah you would. You said, I know

1968
01:35:19,040 --> 01:35:21,360
Speaker 5: how it feels to be desired by men but not

1969
01:35:21,560 --> 01:35:25,360
Speaker 5: value by one. No longer am I drinking of the way,

1970
01:35:25,439 --> 01:35:27,640
Speaker 5: eating of a way, sleeping in a way, iffing of

1971
01:35:27,720 --> 01:35:32,280
Speaker 5: a way. I'm sitting in my own issue when you

1972
01:35:32,439 --> 01:35:34,520
Speaker 5: say it, I know what it's like to be desired

1973
01:35:34,960 --> 01:35:36,439
Speaker 5: but not to be valued.

1974
01:35:37,240 --> 01:35:37,599
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

1975
01:35:38,000 --> 01:35:42,280
Speaker 2: They want this, but they don't value that.

1976
01:35:44,320 --> 01:35:49,840
Speaker 1: They don't value what's outside of the vagina. That's what

1977
01:35:49,960 --> 01:35:53,000
Speaker 1: they don't value. They don't care because they don't see

1978
01:35:53,120 --> 01:35:58,240
Speaker 1: me in a wife category. It's wife everything else. That's

1979
01:35:58,320 --> 01:36:01,679
Speaker 1: not my responsibility to try to control how I'm perceived

1980
01:36:01,760 --> 01:36:03,439
Speaker 1: or how people see me, because at the end of

1981
01:36:03,439 --> 01:36:04,920
Speaker 1: the day, I could paint you a pretty picture, but

1982
01:36:04,960 --> 01:36:07,800
Speaker 1: what's the reality? Who am I? Behind closed doors? There

1983
01:36:07,840 --> 01:36:10,439
Speaker 1: are plenty of girls that were getting slutted out when

1984
01:36:10,439 --> 01:36:13,000
Speaker 1: they were at Kentucky. You know you're sucking all types

1985
01:36:13,000 --> 01:36:15,439
Speaker 1: of the steps. I know that because I've been told stories.

1986
01:36:15,640 --> 01:36:18,519
Speaker 1: But it's like that's just not public. But that's more

1987
01:36:18,640 --> 01:36:20,920
Speaker 1: considered more of a wife because it's not public. So

1988
01:36:21,000 --> 01:36:24,280
Speaker 1: I don't know. I just feel you gotta find someone's

1989
01:36:24,320 --> 01:36:25,240
Speaker 1: truth that you accept.

1990
01:36:29,240 --> 01:36:29,600
Speaker 5: You just.

1991
01:36:31,200 --> 01:36:33,160
Speaker 2: Are you going to Are you willing to sign a prenup?

1992
01:36:33,360 --> 01:36:43,000
Speaker 1: Absolutely? What you won't do? Do for love? Absolutely?

1993
01:36:43,200 --> 01:36:46,639
Speaker 4: Sign of maybe whatever whatever that makes me feel better.

1994
01:36:47,760 --> 01:36:50,080
Speaker 1: I'm ready for my husband, not my cousin.

1995
01:36:50,360 --> 01:36:52,080
Speaker 5: Is it? Did you think Kevin Samuel?

1996
01:36:52,560 --> 01:36:52,600
Speaker 1: No?

1997
01:36:53,439 --> 01:36:54,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, were just cool.

1998
01:36:54,240 --> 01:36:56,479
Speaker 1: Yeah, we were cool. We just did content together. I

1999
01:36:56,520 --> 01:36:59,320
Speaker 1: did an interview. But you know, he may God.

2000
01:36:59,200 --> 01:37:01,519
Speaker 2: Blessed, God rested soul. He made some good points.

2001
01:37:01,600 --> 01:37:03,400
Speaker 1: Though I had a great time here. We had a

2002
01:37:03,560 --> 01:37:06,080
Speaker 1: really he was somebody that when I would have conversations

2003
01:37:06,120 --> 01:37:08,160
Speaker 1: with him, it was really hard to talk to him sometimes.

2004
01:37:08,280 --> 01:37:11,080
Speaker 1: Even the last conversation we had it was it's like

2005
01:37:11,080 --> 01:37:11,920
Speaker 1: a little jagged pill.

2006
01:37:13,240 --> 01:37:14,240
Speaker 2: When did you write that book?

2007
01:37:14,479 --> 01:37:16,200
Speaker 1: Twenty eighteen October twenty eighteen.

2008
01:37:16,040 --> 01:37:20,120
Speaker 5: Twenty eighteens, Because at the time they said you slept

2009
01:37:20,120 --> 01:37:23,679
Speaker 5: with twenty four men, eleven athletes, five entertainers, eight regular guys.

2010
01:37:23,960 --> 01:37:25,040
Speaker 2: Now you're up to thirty five.

2011
01:37:27,640 --> 01:37:29,240
Speaker 1: I keep it listening my phone. Why is that a lot?

2012
01:37:30,360 --> 01:37:32,639
Speaker 1: It was a whistle whistle?

2013
01:37:35,200 --> 01:37:37,280
Speaker 2: I mean you said athletes don't use condoms?

2014
01:37:37,720 --> 01:37:39,880
Speaker 1: So ten guys? Was that nine guys?

2015
01:37:40,680 --> 01:37:41,040
Speaker 2: Eleven?

2016
01:37:41,200 --> 01:37:42,840
Speaker 1: Eleven guys in five years?

2017
01:37:42,960 --> 01:37:43,120
Speaker 5: Yeah?

2018
01:37:45,160 --> 01:37:48,080
Speaker 2: I mean is there another You're trying to get half

2019
01:37:48,120 --> 01:37:49,080
Speaker 2: a HUNDI I mean.

2020
01:37:49,040 --> 01:37:49,960
Speaker 5: You, what do you go on for?

2021
01:37:50,880 --> 01:37:52,040
Speaker 1: How are you gonna ask me if I'm trying to

2022
01:37:52,040 --> 01:37:53,679
Speaker 1: get half a hundred when I've been sitting here talking

2023
01:37:53,720 --> 01:37:55,040
Speaker 1: to you from was two goddamn hours.

2024
01:37:55,080 --> 01:37:59,000
Speaker 2: You got so thirty six? So thirty six and that's it?

2025
01:37:59,520 --> 01:38:00,559
Speaker 2: Or are you looking to go back?

2026
01:38:00,840 --> 01:38:02,840
Speaker 5: Would you be willing to go back and get one

2027
01:38:02,880 --> 01:38:04,880
Speaker 5: of those thirty six and make it thirty five?

2028
01:38:04,960 --> 01:38:08,519
Speaker 4: Don't hey, don't add a buddy, Okay, let you trying

2029
01:38:08,520 --> 01:38:09,080
Speaker 4: to out a buddy?

2030
01:38:09,600 --> 01:38:11,360
Speaker 2: So thirty six.

2031
01:38:11,640 --> 01:38:15,519
Speaker 5: Don't worry about listen, listen, worry about it. You worried

2032
01:38:15,520 --> 01:38:18,639
Speaker 5: about it with any of those guys that you previously

2033
01:38:18,760 --> 01:38:21,640
Speaker 5: have slept with, would you be willing to would you

2034
01:38:23,120 --> 01:38:25,439
Speaker 5: husband them? Mmm?

2035
01:38:26,200 --> 01:38:29,360
Speaker 1: I've given some second chances, and it just reiterates why

2036
01:38:29,479 --> 01:38:32,360
Speaker 1: I don't give second chances. I don't don't think that

2037
01:38:32,479 --> 01:38:35,000
Speaker 1: I've I don't believe that I've had a.

2038
01:38:38,280 --> 01:38:40,880
Speaker 2: Not my guy. You don't believe you, Maddy.

2039
01:38:41,400 --> 01:38:43,320
Speaker 1: I thought I did a couple of times.

2040
01:38:43,479 --> 01:38:45,000
Speaker 2: Are you willing to date outside your race?

2041
01:38:49,120 --> 01:38:53,439
Speaker 1: I can't do paint me child, It's just guard me.

2042
01:38:55,600 --> 01:38:55,800
Speaker 5: Eh.

2043
01:38:55,960 --> 01:38:57,880
Speaker 1: This is gonna sound kind of fucked up, but I

2044
01:38:58,040 --> 01:39:02,479
Speaker 1: just don't see myself respecting anyone that's not black. Why

2045
01:39:04,360 --> 01:39:05,880
Speaker 1: the man who's supposed to lead me is black?

2046
01:39:05,920 --> 01:39:09,920
Speaker 2: I know that leading is the easy part. Following is

2047
01:39:09,960 --> 01:39:10,400
Speaker 2: what's hard.

2048
01:39:10,560 --> 01:39:12,920
Speaker 1: The man that is meant to cherish me and love

2049
01:39:13,120 --> 01:39:15,120
Speaker 1: me and be there for me, and that it was

2050
01:39:15,200 --> 01:39:18,600
Speaker 1: designed for me it energetically at this moment, again, it

2051
01:39:18,640 --> 01:39:21,160
Speaker 1: could change, cause never was never black.

2052
01:39:23,280 --> 01:39:26,280
Speaker 5: Let's talk about okay basketball. Why you're on another another

2053
01:39:26,360 --> 01:39:26,880
Speaker 5: season of that?

2054
01:39:27,479 --> 01:39:29,800
Speaker 1: Well, this is my first season, it's my first time.

2055
01:39:29,800 --> 01:39:30,880
Speaker 1: I don't get to say that often.

2056
01:39:34,000 --> 01:39:36,240
Speaker 2: Brandy, I'm sorry, this is not the life I really

2057
01:39:36,320 --> 01:39:38,320
Speaker 2: chose for myself. But hey, here we are, Granny.

2058
01:39:42,120 --> 01:39:43,920
Speaker 4: What about basketball wives, basketballs?

2059
01:39:43,960 --> 01:39:44,799
Speaker 1: Sason eleven?

2060
01:39:44,960 --> 01:39:49,000
Speaker 5: Yes, what can we expect? Shut?

2061
01:39:50,160 --> 01:39:54,000
Speaker 1: It was the most ooh, come on Chuesday, I just

2062
01:39:54,080 --> 01:39:57,640
Speaker 1: hoop wisely, what's a positive one? It was an experience,

2063
01:39:58,120 --> 01:39:59,599
Speaker 1: right that I will never forget.

2064
01:40:00,880 --> 01:40:01,320
Speaker 3: You like it?

2065
01:40:03,320 --> 01:40:08,519
Speaker 2: Like like season twelve, you down.

2066
01:40:15,560 --> 01:40:17,360
Speaker 1: A lot of things have to change for me, but

2067
01:40:18,120 --> 01:40:19,760
Speaker 1: I'm gonna keep it open. Mind a lot of things

2068
01:40:19,800 --> 01:40:20,320
Speaker 1: have changed.

2069
01:40:20,400 --> 01:40:25,240
Speaker 5: But you do realize that anytime someone see you with

2070
01:40:25,400 --> 01:40:31,800
Speaker 5: someone publicly, they automatically jump to the conclusion. You know that, right,

2071
01:40:32,080 --> 01:40:34,839
Speaker 5: So like me and you that I do an interview,

2072
01:40:35,240 --> 01:40:40,040
Speaker 5: not shaq, I'm saying people saw you out she was

2073
01:40:40,080 --> 01:40:43,920
Speaker 5: shack or if I can assure you if someone would

2074
01:40:43,960 --> 01:40:47,600
Speaker 5: have if we let's just say we're out at some restaurant, me,

2075
01:40:48,360 --> 01:40:50,880
Speaker 5: you and I. What you think even if were talking

2076
01:40:51,040 --> 01:40:54,839
Speaker 5: to this, even if we just having a conversation. You're somewhere,

2077
01:40:55,160 --> 01:40:58,680
Speaker 5: I'm with my boys and they see man, shall you

2078
01:40:58,880 --> 01:40:59,840
Speaker 5: know it's gonna be a thing.

2079
01:41:00,040 --> 01:41:02,479
Speaker 2: So you know what comes along with Britney Renner.

2080
01:41:02,760 --> 01:41:05,599
Speaker 5: You know that anybody that you talk to, there's going

2081
01:41:05,680 --> 01:41:11,400
Speaker 5: to be accusation in you windows, conjecture about what's happening.

2082
01:41:13,880 --> 01:41:19,040
Speaker 2: Okay, you don't I mean, I mean you okay with that.

2083
01:41:20,040 --> 01:41:23,160
Speaker 1: I mean people are entitled to their opinions. If I

2084
01:41:23,240 --> 01:41:24,479
Speaker 1: want to grow out for dinner, I'm gonna go.

2085
01:41:24,439 --> 01:41:25,720
Speaker 2: Out for the zo I'm just say.

2086
01:41:25,920 --> 01:41:28,479
Speaker 5: But don't you wanna just like be able to go

2087
01:41:28,680 --> 01:41:30,880
Speaker 5: somewhere and people not automatically assume.

2088
01:41:31,160 --> 01:41:33,720
Speaker 1: Hell no, I wouldn't trade this light for nothing, cause

2089
01:41:33,720 --> 01:41:36,760
Speaker 1: I get to skip the line figuratively and literally. So

2090
01:41:36,840 --> 01:41:39,240
Speaker 1: you have to accept the good with the bad. You

2091
01:41:39,280 --> 01:41:41,280
Speaker 1: can't say ahead, I want all these brand deals. I

2092
01:41:41,360 --> 01:41:43,240
Speaker 1: wanna be famous, I wanna be on TV. But don't

2093
01:41:43,240 --> 01:41:45,040
Speaker 1: take a picture of me even I'm leaving, don't take

2094
01:41:45,040 --> 01:41:48,880
Speaker 1: a picture of meaning I'm not eating grow up. It's

2095
01:41:48,920 --> 01:41:52,160
Speaker 1: hot up under these lights. Okay. Not everybody can handle it,

2096
01:41:52,240 --> 01:41:55,360
Speaker 1: but for me, I mean, I love. I love being

2097
01:41:55,360 --> 01:41:57,680
Speaker 1: in front of the camera. I love. I really had

2098
01:41:57,880 --> 01:42:01,360
Speaker 1: a great time filming for Ask About Wives. It just

2099
01:42:01,439 --> 01:42:04,000
Speaker 1: felt so natural. But this is just a part of me.

2100
01:42:04,080 --> 01:42:05,679
Speaker 1: This is what I like to do, so I'm built

2101
01:42:05,720 --> 01:42:07,599
Speaker 1: for it. I don't I don't look at that as whatever.

2102
01:42:07,640 --> 01:42:09,519
Speaker 1: They're allowed to think what they want. People are already

2103
01:42:09,520 --> 01:42:11,760
Speaker 1: gonna assume that. I mean, I don't really believe in

2104
01:42:11,880 --> 01:42:15,200
Speaker 1: like male female friendships anyways. I'm not a bit.

2105
01:42:15,200 --> 01:42:16,960
Speaker 2: I don't have a man, can't be a friend, can't

2106
01:42:16,960 --> 01:42:17,360
Speaker 2: have a girl.

2107
01:42:21,160 --> 01:42:24,479
Speaker 1: I'm just saying, I personally do not have male friends.

2108
01:42:24,520 --> 01:42:26,360
Speaker 1: The only male friend that I have, his name is Jerry,

2109
01:42:26,400 --> 01:42:29,040
Speaker 1: and he's a family friend of ours. Like his baby

2110
01:42:29,160 --> 01:42:32,719
Speaker 1: mama is my mom's baby, daddy's sister. Like it's family,

2111
01:42:32,800 --> 01:42:34,960
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So that's the only male

2112
01:42:35,040 --> 01:42:37,479
Speaker 1: friend that I have, Right, that's family. I know.

2113
01:42:37,600 --> 01:42:38,559
Speaker 5: I don't male.

2114
01:42:38,439 --> 01:42:40,000
Speaker 2: Friends are male friends replacement?

2115
01:42:42,040 --> 01:42:45,040
Speaker 1: No, I just think that there's always uh for me

2116
01:42:45,520 --> 01:42:49,760
Speaker 1: my experience, there's just always that lingering undertone, and that's

2117
01:42:49,800 --> 01:42:52,599
Speaker 1: how everything starts his friendship. So it's like it ain't

2118
01:42:52,720 --> 01:42:54,240
Speaker 1: much to just do a hop, skip it a jump,

2119
01:42:54,280 --> 01:43:00,439
Speaker 1: and then now, you know, fill in the busy life, y'all, don't.

2120
01:43:00,439 --> 01:43:01,200
Speaker 1: I don't have no friends.

2121
01:43:01,240 --> 01:43:06,360
Speaker 5: I'm good. So, but the person that's never seen Britney Renner,

2122
01:43:06,560 --> 01:43:11,760
Speaker 5: God heard Britney Renner's story, person sitting right down here

2123
01:43:11,840 --> 01:43:15,920
Speaker 5: for the very first time, in one minute, explain him.

2124
01:43:16,000 --> 01:43:20,040
Speaker 2: It's best that you can't explain to them, male or female.

2125
01:43:20,240 --> 01:43:23,840
Speaker 1: About myself, about Brittany Renner. It's it's a lot shorter

2126
01:43:23,960 --> 01:43:24,479
Speaker 1: than a minute.

2127
01:43:24,680 --> 01:43:26,000
Speaker 2: Give me thirty seconds.

2128
01:43:26,040 --> 01:43:26,240
Speaker 5: Then.

2129
01:43:26,520 --> 01:43:31,800
Speaker 1: I am extremely unpredictable. Every minute, every second, every hour.

2130
01:43:32,520 --> 01:43:35,120
Speaker 1: I wake up. Sometimes I change my wig. I want

2131
01:43:35,120 --> 01:43:38,040
Speaker 1: to be somebody different. You don't know what you're gonna

2132
01:43:38,040 --> 01:43:40,280
Speaker 1: get with me. I am like a box of chocolates.

2133
01:43:40,560 --> 01:43:43,080
Speaker 1: You don't know what you're gonna get, right, What.

2134
01:43:43,120 --> 01:43:44,800
Speaker 2: If people don't like chocolates? Can I get a bi

2135
01:43:44,880 --> 01:43:46,040
Speaker 2: of some Can I give something else?

2136
01:43:46,200 --> 01:43:53,760
Speaker 1: Nobody? Motherfucking ass. Stop making it so personalized chocolate. I'm

2137
01:43:53,800 --> 01:43:55,400
Speaker 1: just saying I'm talking to I'm not talking.

2138
01:43:55,439 --> 01:43:56,200
Speaker 5: I'm talking to this guy.

2139
01:43:56,200 --> 01:43:59,120
Speaker 2: Okay, whatever his name is for her break one.

2140
01:43:59,240 --> 01:44:05,519
Speaker 1: They pronounce anyways. I'm just very unpredictable. Sometimes I don't

2141
01:44:05,520 --> 01:44:07,960
Speaker 1: even know what I'm gonna do, right. I follow my heart.

2142
01:44:08,200 --> 01:44:09,840
Speaker 1: That is what I stand by, and I believe that

2143
01:44:09,920 --> 01:44:13,000
Speaker 1: I'm going to tell the truth and get all the

2144
01:44:13,040 --> 01:44:15,400
Speaker 1: things that my heart desires, and the world is going

2145
01:44:15,479 --> 01:44:18,080
Speaker 1: to have to bear a witness and eat their words.

2146
01:44:18,360 --> 01:44:21,599
Speaker 2: None of that is that is that what it's about?

2147
01:44:21,720 --> 01:44:24,960
Speaker 5: Because it because so many people are saying she's never

2148
01:44:25,080 --> 01:44:28,120
Speaker 5: gonna find someone to marry her with her track record,

2149
01:44:28,200 --> 01:44:28,639
Speaker 5: with her.

2150
01:44:28,640 --> 01:44:30,639
Speaker 2: Background, You really will?

2151
01:44:31,439 --> 01:44:33,840
Speaker 5: That is that I mean? I mean honestly, as I

2152
01:44:33,880 --> 01:44:35,680
Speaker 5: sit here, and you know, we've had a great conversation.

2153
01:44:36,280 --> 01:44:39,160
Speaker 5: But I do believe that as we sit here, you

2154
01:44:39,400 --> 01:44:45,000
Speaker 5: truly want to find love, but true love, or to

2155
01:44:45,080 --> 01:44:48,720
Speaker 5: say I have no because that's just childish for me.

2156
01:44:48,840 --> 01:44:51,880
Speaker 1: It's the real thing or nothing at all. It's not

2157
01:44:52,080 --> 01:44:54,040
Speaker 1: what looks good on paper. It's not because we take

2158
01:44:54,080 --> 01:44:58,360
Speaker 1: pretty pictures together. It's the real thing or nothing at all.

2159
01:44:58,640 --> 01:45:01,760
Speaker 1: The only flex is devotion. I don't care what you

2160
01:45:01,840 --> 01:45:03,840
Speaker 1: have me up in. You got all your rich on

2161
01:45:03,880 --> 01:45:07,479
Speaker 1: the side. The only flex is devotion. What do I

2162
01:45:07,520 --> 01:45:09,080
Speaker 1: look like being on the arm of a man who

2163
01:45:09,160 --> 01:45:12,600
Speaker 1: is still entertaining bitches when you are supposed to be

2164
01:45:13,040 --> 01:45:14,200
Speaker 1: my hus what.

2165
01:45:14,320 --> 01:45:16,160
Speaker 5: He already heard you say you've done a threesome. So

2166
01:45:16,320 --> 01:45:18,160
Speaker 5: it ain't a far stretched to say you cool with it.

2167
01:45:18,840 --> 01:45:22,120
Speaker 1: That's fine. He's allowed to think whenever he wants. But

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Speaker 1: where I'm at today, then where you were then and

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Speaker 1: where I was then, I haven't munched on the.

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Speaker 2: Jesus J Sorry, mad you have to have to beat, but.

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Speaker 1: Hey, I ain't munched on it since twenty fifteen. So

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Speaker 1: if you think you're getting a threesome out of me

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Speaker 1: in twenty twenty three, King of Worshel thinking, you know,

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Speaker 1: that's fine. But I really cannot control what people are

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Speaker 1: gonna think and what they think they're gonna do, and

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Speaker 1: how they are think they're gonna treat me. I can

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Speaker 1: only stand in my power and show you what it is,

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Speaker 1: because I can show you rather tell you. So yeah,

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Speaker 1: I'm not here to sway all these people. And please

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Speaker 1: understand me, Please get me. If you don't get it,

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Speaker 1: you ain't meant to move along.

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Speaker 5: Thank you for coming on clotiation and as you said,

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Speaker 5: living in your issue, sharing your story. Continue success, Britney

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Speaker 5: Nicole Absolutely clubs, lazy gentlemen.

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Speaker 2: There you go.

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Speaker 3: All my life, grinding all my life, sacrifice, hustle the price,

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Speaker 3: want a slice, got to brother Dia all my life.

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Speaker 3: I've been grinding all my life, all my life, been

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Speaker 3: grinding all my life, Sacrifice, hustle, bat the price, one slice,

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Speaker 3: nott to brother the dice swap all my life.

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Speaker 5: I've been grinding all my life