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Speaker 1: Welcome to Can't Flee Reckless, the production of iHeart Radio

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Speaker 1: and the Black Effects.

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Speaker 2: Shit be back on the air. Happy New Year, everybody.

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Speaker 1: We're back with yet another Can't Fully Reckless episode with

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Speaker 1: your girl just hilarious.

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Speaker 2: What do I do?

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Speaker 1: I'd be fixing thats same as I did last year.

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna do the same shit this year. We're just

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Speaker 1: gonna keep on getting bigger and better, keep on growing

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Speaker 2: As I came in.

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Speaker 1: Number five, the Great Brother Charlemagne to God, let me

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Speaker 1: know that our podcast came in number five, y'all. We

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Speaker 1: gonna jump straight into it. We got a voice note

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Speaker 1: for the top of the year, y'all know I love those.

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Speaker 1: But we also got some paragraphs.

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Speaker 3: Y'all.

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Speaker 1: People know these people voices and they ain't trying to

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Speaker 1: get caught. All right, let's jump straight into it.

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Speaker 4: Hey, us, I just want to say, like, I'm a

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Speaker 4: huge fan of yours. You know, I've been watching for years,

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Speaker 4: and you know I love you. I love your your work,

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Speaker 4: I love all that you're doing. I just wanted to

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Speaker 4: get get that out the way. But I really need advice, Like,

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Speaker 4: oh my god, So I've been basically I've been dating

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Speaker 4: this guy for the last how long has it been?

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Speaker 4: Four months? And we kind of moved pretty quickly because

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Speaker 4: I noticed that, you know, like he's a really good person.

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Speaker 4: I just came out of a not just but earlier

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Speaker 4: this year, you know, I came out of a toxic

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Speaker 4: relationship with my daughter's die, and when I met him,

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Speaker 4: it was like a breath of fresh air. So things

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Speaker 4: kind of moved quickly to the point where I invited

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Speaker 4: him to move in with me.

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Speaker 5: Okay, girl, That's where the problem started, because I noticed

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Speaker 5: that he has a lot of issues.

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Speaker 4: He has issues with ed, like he can't stay.

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Speaker 6: Up, and.

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Speaker 4: He didn't tell me that at first, so I had

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Speaker 4: to find out. I had to find that out on

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Speaker 4: my own, Like, this is not something that he disclosed

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Speaker 4: to me. He claims that he didn't know about it

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Speaker 4: and that he thought it was just every once in

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Speaker 4: so like not saying that he's dumb, but like he

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Speaker 4: doesn't stimulate me mentally. I will say, the good about

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Speaker 4: Good person at heart. I just feel like I'm not

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Speaker 4: four hundred percent happy, But at the same time, like

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Speaker 4: I'm trying to reason with myself, Like, you know, nobody's perfect.

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Speaker 4: You know, like if you find somebody who is willing

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Speaker 4: to fight for you and willing to work things out

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Speaker 4: with you, then stick with them. But he is, like

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Speaker 4: he's willing to break things out, and you know, we

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Speaker 4: to the point where for the last three months that

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Speaker 4: he's been by the last month that he's been living

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Speaker 4: with me, he didn't have his affiant and I was

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Speaker 4: a problem. So I have kids. He's good with my kids,

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Speaker 4: you know, like he's a good, good, genuinely good person.

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Speaker 4: But I'm just trying to I don't know, like I

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Speaker 4: guess I'm asked. My question is I'm sorry, I know

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Speaker 4: this is kind of long. I was trying to give

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Speaker 4: you all the details, but my question is, like, is

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Speaker 4: he told me that he you know, goes to the

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Speaker 2: Going on with it.

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Speaker 4: And you know, he he did say that he would

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Speaker 4: just doing uber. So you know, these are things I

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Speaker 4: guess that can be worked on, but I just don't

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Speaker 4: on What would you do or do you think that

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Speaker 1: Well, I appreciate you first of all for even having

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Speaker 1: more professional, you know, thank you for even sharing because

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Speaker 1: You know, we don't like to put all of our

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Speaker 2: Mistake.

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Speaker 1: Won I'm not saying the relationship is a mistake. Let

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Speaker 1: me be very careful. I'm saying the mistake was moving

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Speaker 1: him in too quick. Now I do understand you said

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Speaker 1: you had just got out of a really toxic relationship

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Speaker 1: Because I know it couldn't have been all bad because

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Speaker 1: that you had gotten out of. I think you didn't

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Speaker 1: it's you and your kids. Now again, I am not

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Speaker 1: in my opinion, of moving him in. Because what made

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Speaker 2: No, after one month?

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Speaker 1: Right, because you said y'all been dealing with each other,

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Speaker 1: him in. Now I'm repeating this back to you because

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Speaker 1: most of the time, when I repeat somebody's mess back

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Speaker 1: the advice. Sometimes you just got to hear your shit back,

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Speaker 1: you know what I mean, And that's what makes all

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Speaker 1: if it was someone else going through it. But it's you,

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Speaker 1: So me repeating it back to you should make you

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Speaker 1: be like, oh shit, yeah, this is crazy, but we've

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Speaker 2: Well.

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Speaker 1: I ain't done that part, but I've definitely moved too quickly,

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Speaker 1: this commercial and then we'll be right back. Okay, So

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Speaker 1: let's get into the eden. When he moves in, you

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Speaker 1: notice that sex is a problem because he can't keep

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Speaker 1: had to find out. No, man, Well, I'm not gonna

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Speaker 1: You know, it could be a medical issue, it could

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Speaker 2: Maybe you know.

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Speaker 1: So I don't I can't say that I blame him

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Speaker 1: You know, he didn't know that it would happen with you,

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Speaker 1: going to get checked out. Yes, that can be worked on,

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Speaker 1: all right, that's a big thing. Not being sexually satisfied

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Speaker 1: in the bedroom does play a big part in a relationship. Okay,

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Speaker 1: moving on. You said he calls himself an entrepreneur?

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Speaker 2: What does he do?

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Speaker 1: Not even being nosy, It's just things that I want

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Speaker 1: You hear this shit that's coming out now, shit, you

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Speaker 1: if it is something that way I'm just saying, because

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Speaker 1: somebody real. You know, you don't need nobody that's gonna

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Speaker 2: Look, baby, no, no, no, no, no.

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Speaker 1: This bakery that you're trying to open the market right now,

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Speaker 1: it ain't the time for that. So what we need

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Speaker 1: fund your business idea, until you can get your business

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Speaker 2: Here with us. Now we're in a relationship.

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Speaker 1: This is secure. This is something that we have to

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Speaker 1: move forward. Bills are today your entrepreneurship and ain't kicking

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Speaker 1: way that it should be right now, you know, how

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Speaker 2: Does he give.

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Speaker 1: Real effort into trying to be an entrepreneur whatever it is,

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Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Do you see him actually

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Speaker 1: working toward a goal? You know, does he have ambition.

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Speaker 1: You said, he is a genuinely good person. He's good

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Speaker 1: with your kids. That's a plus. A lot of men

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Speaker 1: You can have whatever you want. When you meet your partner.

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Speaker 2: Okay, you understand me.

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Speaker 1: So I think it needs to be a real, genuine conversation.

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Speaker 1: I know he's feeling it. If you're feeling it, you

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Speaker 1: No man wants you to talk down because he probably

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Speaker 1: And you do that and tell him this entrepreneur thing

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Speaker 2: Now, I don't call it a thing. Lord, shit, he

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Speaker 1: Okay, Now, don't minimize it like that, you say, I

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Speaker 2: Some men are able to take.

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Speaker 1: Four months is not that long. Okay, Please do that

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Speaker 1: And do that for him too, just for the sake

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Speaker 1: Check back in with me. Let me know, girl, Okay,

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Speaker 1: moving on. I lost my fiance about a month ago.

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Speaker 1: Shit wasn't doing the best for months, she would say.

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Speaker 1: seening it. Damn We split shortly after that after the picture. Okay,

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Speaker 1: this girl is my life. We got a daughter and

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Speaker 1: she's there for my other kids. How do I get

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Speaker 1: There's some other shit that you do, bene did ain't nobody?

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Speaker 1: Leave you just because she's seeing a bitch sent a

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Speaker 1: I ain't even gonna take your shit until you open

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Speaker 1: This is crazy. You gonna send me this little bit

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Speaker 1: for months, she would say. I wasn't making that happy,

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Speaker 1: wasn't a great father at times, rarely having sex. Long

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Speaker 1: story short, How the fuck are you gonna say? Long

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Speaker 1: story short? And the story already fucking short? Long story short.

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Speaker 1: A female message me sending me picks. I sent one

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Speaker 1: This girl is my life, got a daughter and shed

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Speaker 1: there for my other kids. How do I get her back?

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Speaker 1: You tell a motherfucking truth about everything, So help you God,

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Speaker 1: I'm not believing it.

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Speaker 2: Now.

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Speaker 1: You can come back and you can send me take

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Speaker 1: back like this shit. This is probably how you lost them,

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Speaker 1: that was like what six months ago? Yeah, this was

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Speaker 1: you ain't got a back yet, and you ain't going

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Speaker 1: my DM for Carefully Reckless and see a longer message. Shit,

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Speaker 1: send a voice note, talk to me, because this ain't

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Speaker 1: gonna get you nowhere with me, I say, she don't

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Speaker 1: you hiding some shit, and yeah, I ain't playing with

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Speaker 1: Women in twenty twenty four, I ain't doing it. Get

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Speaker 1: your shit together, And just like that, we've come to

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Speaker 1: the end of yet another carefully reckless episode with your

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Speaker 1: girl Jesselarius. I ain't playing with y'all, niggas, I ain't

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Speaker 1: playing with you, and then my deepest paying voice peace,

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Speaker 1: Catch you next week.

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Speaker 3: Taking Class.

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Speaker 6: And Can't.

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Speaker 1: Fully Reckless is a production of iHeartRadio and The Black Effect.

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