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Speaker 1: Angie Martinez in Real Life Podcast. This episode and conversation

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Speaker 1: is powered by I Do Say. Hey, guys, welcome to

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Speaker 1: another edition of the Angie Martinez Podcast IRL. This is

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Speaker 1: a special one today for a few reasons. We're about

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Speaker 1: to do a follow up on the Taragi episode. We

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Speaker 1: have Taraji. We talked to Taraji about her Bolly trip,

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Speaker 1: which this is actually requested by a lot of people

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Speaker 1: after that Taraji episode, people were like, we want to

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Speaker 1: hear from her when she gets back. We want to

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Speaker 1: know what the experience was like. So we have that

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Speaker 1: for you today. In a few minutes, I'm going to

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Speaker 1: share my conversation with Taraji and as she kind of

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Speaker 1: breaks down with the Bali trip was like for her

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Speaker 1: But before we do that, I just wanted to get

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Speaker 1: first of all, thank you guys for rocking with us

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Speaker 1: through all the little I don't know pivots shifts. Change

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Speaker 1: of the podcast. Britney's Here with Me Show producer extraordinaire

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Speaker 1: HEYCP nominated Okay Podcast producer. Guess that my new LinkedIn

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Speaker 1: right there? You should absolutely put that on your profile,

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Speaker 1: your Instagram or something. Um, but So what I was

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Speaker 1: thinking was, today we will drop this episode as a

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Speaker 1: follow up to the Taraji p Henson conversation. I will

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Speaker 1: share this interview with Taraji with you. But then I

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Speaker 1: was we still have takeaways to do. We have to

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Speaker 1: take a moment to reflect on some of the past

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Speaker 1: episodes that we haven't done takeaways for, Like we really

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Speaker 1: have not talked about ever. The Kim Kardashian interview just

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Speaker 1: are we missing for takeaways? Um? JT, my favor you

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Speaker 1: Who else love got from it? She loved it? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: that makes me so happy that she loved it the

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Speaker 1: way she did. But yes, we have to do a

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Speaker 1: Clarkson Man, Kelly Clarkson was like waving the flag for

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Speaker 1: anybody to have been through that that relationship. This the

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Speaker 1: the top of next week. We have a really good

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Speaker 1: that next week, and then after that we will be

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Speaker 1: back on regular podcast schedule. But yeah, so for the

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Speaker 1: next couple of days, we will drop a takeaway every

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Speaker 1: day to take us through next week. Does that sound right?

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Speaker 1: That sounds amazing. And then after that week, wait till

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Speaker 1: you see what we got coming. If you maybe maybe

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Speaker 1: thank you guys enough just for rocking with us, just

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Speaker 1: with a response on these I you know, that's all.

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Speaker 1: I'm not going to get emotional and ridiculously over talk

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Speaker 1: this thing, but I do want to share my conversation

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Speaker 1: of course, it's always on the YouTube page and you

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Speaker 1: You look so good. I found my joy again, Angie.

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Speaker 1: I need Okay, the first thing I need to know

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Speaker 1: And you're never alone in your feelings, in your mental state,

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Speaker 1: Thank you. If did we forget anything, subscribe Ah, yes,

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Speaker 1: very important, guys. Subscribe Edgie Martina's Irl, the podcast, um

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Speaker 1: Subscribe on Instagram. That was an excellent call, Britney. Yeah, yeah, produce, sir,

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