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Speaker 1: What's up guys.

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Speaker 2: This week we're joined by Badass Breastfeeder.

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Speaker 3: Doula, childbirth educator, sex worker, author, motivational speaker, and badass

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Speaker 3: beach Miss rights Way.

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Speaker 3: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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Speaker 3: I'm Nila.

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Speaker 1: And it's Weasday.

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Speaker 3: Happy Wednesday, be mother fucking Wednesday.

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Speaker 1: How's it going.

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Speaker 3: How's your weekend, my dear, My week has been good,

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Speaker 3: feeling good. Ari's been in zoom school, so you know

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Speaker 3: that's been not great. But no, we made it through.

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Speaker 3: It's we made it through. Her dad can pick her up.

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Speaker 3: I'm baby free for the weekend.

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Speaker 2: It's always nice when somehow baby free weekends a line

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Speaker 2: there's no school, it's always nice.

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Speaker 1: It's always trouble.

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Speaker 3: There's no school on Monday, which means, oh, this is

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Speaker 3: it's a triple weekend though, which means I'm definitely not

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Speaker 3: picking her up on Monday, maybe not even Tuesday.

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Speaker 1: I don't know. We'll see, we'll figure it out. So

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Speaker 1: I'm great.

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Speaker 2: How are you.

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Speaker 1: I'm doing well. I'm doing really good.

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Speaker 2: I've been feeling very cancery, very crab like, like not

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Speaker 2: wanting to leave my house at all, getting high and

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Speaker 2: tipsy by myself.

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Speaker 1: But you know what, it's so funny.

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Speaker 2: So if we don't have the kids, this is three

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Speaker 2: day weekend, and immediately it's like what can I get into?

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Speaker 2: I'm like, my things come out and I'm like, come on,

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Speaker 2: be grown up. Also, you don't have any hosts.

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Speaker 1: So yeah, just been chilling at the house, like nesting,

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Speaker 1: kind of cleaning up a lot. Just shit like that.

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Speaker 1: Nothing really new is going on in my world. Just

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Speaker 1: like grateful and happy and yeah, that's it, same same.

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Speaker 1: Should we pull a.

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Speaker 3: Card, my dear, Yeah we should. Okay, let's do it.

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Speaker 3: We pulled the page of Cups. The page of Cups.

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Speaker 2: It seems like there's a woman upright, looking like she's

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Speaker 2: walking rather proudly with a cup.

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Speaker 1: With a fish in it, and it appears that maybe

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Speaker 2: The Page of Cups is creative, represents creative opportunities, intuitive

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Speaker 2: messages and curiosity and possibility.

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Speaker 1: Wow, we're just going strong.

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Speaker 2: The Page of Cups wears a blue tunic with a

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Speaker 2: keep thinking, these men or women, this must be an

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Speaker 2: old timey card. Mayor are his head with a long

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Speaker 2: seat behind him, holding a cup in his right hand. Surprisingly,

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Speaker 2: a fish pops its head out of the cup.

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Speaker 1: And looks at the yanker. This is a lot. Okay,

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Speaker 1: let's see what this shit means.

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Speaker 2: The Page of Cups suggests a new idea or opportunity

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Speaker 2: has come to you out of the blue. Oh, what

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Speaker 2: has something come to us? It's so funny that has

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Speaker 2: happened yesterday. Your creative energy is flowing, and now the

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Speaker 2: question is how you will express it. Will you snap

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Speaker 2: up to this new idea and turn it into something

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Speaker 2: or will you let.

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Speaker 1: Someone else bring in the fruit? Fruition? Fruition I need

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Speaker 1: to hung read. It is up to you.

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Speaker 2: Spend time exploring the idea to see if you want

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Speaker 2: to move forward. It invites you to have an open

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Speaker 2: and curious mind. Be open to anything, including a fish

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Speaker 2: louse with curious mind that you will discover new aspects

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Speaker 2: of life and yourself. Open your mind to all possibilities,

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Speaker 2: especially those of creative or intuitive nature. You will be

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Speaker 2: pleasantly surprised. Be ready to dream the impossible, dream and

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Speaker 2: explore the magic of your fullest potential, even if it

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Speaker 2: seems out of reach. The Page of Cups is asking

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Speaker 2: is possible.

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Speaker 3: Whoo, you'll charge love doing this shit fucking witch.

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Speaker 1: Um. Yeah that speaks to me. Yeah, it really does.

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Speaker 2: Wow, I feel like I don't know whatever, like religion,

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Speaker 2: whatever the hell you do.

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Speaker 1: You don't have to.

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Speaker 2: Like I know, people get really touchy about the stage

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Speaker 2: and the incense and the cards and the shit.

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Speaker 1: So for the Christians out there, we love you too.

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Speaker 2: But what you don't have, like what you can think

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Speaker 2: of it is as a message from God.

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Speaker 1: That's how I think about it.

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Speaker 2: Anyway you can get the message from God, take it

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Speaker 2: the tarot, the gut, the oracle, the moon, what a

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Speaker 2: random message from a stranger, Take it as a message

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Speaker 2: from God. You know, it's always you can interpret it

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Speaker 2: anyway you want, but generally it's all the same source.

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Speaker 1: So don't get all crazy.

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Speaker 3: Well that those cards spoke to me and damn. So

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Speaker 3: basically I just need to get creative. Sounds like I

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Speaker 1: Guys. Oh no, they just sound like mushroom a clock.

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Speaker 1: Maybe we could take them to the beach. Mmmm, it's

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Speaker 1: gonna be hot this weekend.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, But anyway, I'm really excited because we have a

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Speaker 3: long awaited special guest today, someone who's come highly recommended

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Speaker 3: like two miles from my home. We have Ashley aka

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Speaker 3: Miss Wright's Way here. Yay, I'm your titles, Ashley, because

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Speaker 3: you got a lot you know, best, breastspeeder, little childbirth educated,

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Speaker 3: breastfeeding educator, sex worker, author, motivational inspirational speaker, badass motherfucker, beads,

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Speaker 3: skincare maker A yes, okay, skin, I mean natural skincare, natural,

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Speaker 1: Mama. I'm so happy to have you here. Finally. I

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Speaker 3: Yeah, well we had I don't know, I just remember

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Speaker 3: Like this is Mela's person. They need to be friends

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Speaker 1: You know it makes me happy?

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it does enlightenment. And also I do need that

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Speaker 3: skincare because your skin is a fucking mom you have

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Speaker 3: like one poor with the fuck really just look like good?

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Speaker 3: I was like, then I didn't get to watch my

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Speaker 1: told you, like, did you make that cleanser yet? I

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Speaker 2: First of I invited myself over Ashley's house this week

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Speaker 2: with my child and stayed for hours. I'm like one

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Speaker 1: I'm like, are you good? I know it's my first

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Speaker 2: And she told me that when she told me the

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Speaker 1: We would be friends.

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Speaker 2: Someone told me that we're like the same person, but

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Speaker 3: But when I saw her, I was like, oh, she's

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Speaker 1: Like we're on the same frequency, but our waves look

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Speaker 1: like yeah, I mean you guys even have the same hair.

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Speaker 1: My god, yeah, she she literally like I recommend Ziah

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Speaker 3: Okay it is I have I've had it in here

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Speaker 1: I know. I'm like, can you come back from Portland please? Yeah,

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Speaker 1: I'm thinking about going to Portland for the hairstuf. Oh god,

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Speaker 1: I was thinking about her today. I was like, damn,

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Speaker 1: she really is good at what she does. That's not

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Speaker 3: That this guy's amazing braiding capability right now, it says

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Speaker 3: I was really happy and people always ask them like,

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Speaker 3: I was like two weeks. I really was like how

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Speaker 1: Go follow Zaia Bell. She has really dope music. Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Are you going to present Affirmation of the day Ashley?

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Speaker 1: Oh yeah. So she was like, give me an affirmation.

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Speaker 3: in oneness with myself. That is an affirmation. Do I

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Speaker 1: If you'd like to elaborate babies.

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Speaker 3: So, I am often being like met in spaces or

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Speaker 3: having these reflections of people my friends of, like bifurcated individuals.

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Speaker 4: Sorter Dictionary, bring it back, bibra k, people who have

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Speaker 3: That's also the word of the weak black.

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Speaker 1: Girl magic, learning and giving to each other.

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Speaker 3: You know, I always remind myself that it feels really

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Speaker 3: So I am in oneness with myself, and I tend

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Speaker 3: That's the one that I've been saying every single day.

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Speaker 1: I want everyone to get paid, and if you get paid,

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Speaker 3: We definitely don't want to be sexy as mothers, and

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Speaker 3: It was like, if you're a mom, you have to

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Speaker 1: But it just didn't make any sense. And I was like,

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Speaker 1: But I could have every animal except a cat. That

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Speaker 3: No, he's not got a bombcasts running around Atlanta.

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Speaker 3: Issues never eat my shoes, but something about this flip

442
00:20:40,160 --> 00:20:42,560
Speaker 3: flop he a digested and it got stuck in his

443
00:20:43,160 --> 00:20:45,480
Speaker 3: smaller intestine intestines.

444
00:20:45,160 --> 00:20:47,840
Speaker 1: And I could not afford the surgery. Oh yeah, it

445
00:20:47,880 --> 00:20:48,400
Speaker 1: was like a house.

446
00:20:48,440 --> 00:20:50,840
Speaker 3: And they didn't take credit, like they don't do payments

447
00:20:50,920 --> 00:20:51,960
Speaker 3: for animal surgery.

448
00:20:52,040 --> 00:20:52,800
Speaker 1: You had to get credit.

449
00:20:52,840 --> 00:20:54,720
Speaker 3: But I also was like, I don't get I don't

450
00:20:54,760 --> 00:20:56,400
Speaker 3: have it, and then so I begged my parents.

451
00:20:56,520 --> 00:20:59,320
Speaker 1: My parents was like, absolutely fucking not right. They're like,

452
00:20:59,359 --> 00:21:01,960
Speaker 1: we're not. So I had to have him put down.

453
00:21:01,960 --> 00:21:03,960
Speaker 1: He was six years old. Oh wow, you went to

454
00:21:04,000 --> 00:21:06,679
Speaker 1: school in Atlanta. No waagin.

455
00:21:07,480 --> 00:21:09,320
Speaker 3: I went to school there and I had him there

456
00:21:09,359 --> 00:21:10,840
Speaker 3: and everybody was like I used to bring him when

457
00:21:10,840 --> 00:21:12,840
Speaker 3: he was small. Then he got bigger and one time

458
00:21:12,960 --> 00:21:18,239
Speaker 3: the FDA and the Wildlife Game Department they came. They

459
00:21:18,240 --> 00:21:20,040
Speaker 3: picked his ass up. I had to go get and

460
00:21:20,040 --> 00:21:22,600
Speaker 3: they threw his ass in the zoo and I had

461
00:21:22,640 --> 00:21:25,880
Speaker 3: to go get him back because somebody had said there

462
00:21:25,880 --> 00:21:27,760
Speaker 3: was a tiger living there.

463
00:21:28,280 --> 00:21:32,520
Speaker 1: In their apartment complex. I get arrived from your black name, like, hello, yeah,

464
00:21:32,560 --> 00:21:38,160
Speaker 1: it's crazy, bitch. Next thing she got yep on their shoulder. Yeah,

465
00:21:38,320 --> 00:21:42,000
Speaker 1: immediately come up in here because they just gotte next. Yeah.

466
00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:44,760
Speaker 1: It was pretty bad. So yeah, but they couldn't keep

467
00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:47,240
Speaker 1: him because I had the papers. Yeah what was his name?

468
00:21:47,359 --> 00:21:50,760
Speaker 1: His name was Kiros? You know he had a full name,

469
00:21:50,840 --> 00:22:01,320
Speaker 1: Kiro's Anthony Young? Okay, why yes, young Young?

470
00:22:01,480 --> 00:22:01,720
Speaker 3: Sorry?

471
00:22:02,480 --> 00:22:05,600
Speaker 1: Was getting right? Oh my goodness? Did you always want

472
00:22:05,640 --> 00:22:07,159
Speaker 1: to be a mom? Like, what was like what was

473
00:22:07,160 --> 00:22:08,680
Speaker 1: your journey into motherhood.

474
00:22:08,920 --> 00:22:11,080
Speaker 3: And my You know, it's really interesting because I think

475
00:22:11,119 --> 00:22:14,680
Speaker 3: back about being a mom. I remember at one point

476
00:22:14,680 --> 00:22:16,639
Speaker 3: in my life I thought I was gonna I don't know,

477
00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:18,440
Speaker 3: and I noticed I'm not the only one. But there

478
00:22:18,440 --> 00:22:19,800
Speaker 3: was ever a time where you guys thought like, oh,

479
00:22:19,920 --> 00:22:21,440
Speaker 3: I have a whole bunch of babies with a whole different

480
00:22:21,440 --> 00:22:22,560
Speaker 3: people from all different races.

481
00:22:22,640 --> 00:22:25,119
Speaker 1: No, only niggas think like that. I thought, I'm never

482
00:22:25,160 --> 00:22:27,360
Speaker 1: gonna have any babies. No, I've only heard guys say

483
00:22:27,359 --> 00:22:30,760
Speaker 1: shit like that. I was literally only heard a baby.

484
00:22:31,080 --> 00:22:31,840
Speaker 1: You're really telling me?

485
00:22:31,880 --> 00:22:34,080
Speaker 3: You never I thought, Okay, So at one point I

486
00:22:34,119 --> 00:22:36,720
Speaker 3: thought like that, right, I knew I was gonna have kids,

487
00:22:36,880 --> 00:22:38,639
Speaker 3: but I didn't.

488
00:22:39,160 --> 00:22:43,320
Speaker 1: It didn't work out that way. I don't know. I

489
00:22:43,400 --> 00:22:45,439
Speaker 1: just there was not a huge emphasis on like, oh,

490
00:22:45,480 --> 00:22:46,119
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be a mom.

491
00:22:46,160 --> 00:22:47,399
Speaker 3: I thought I was gonna be a mom at like

492
00:22:47,520 --> 00:22:50,080
Speaker 3: my thirties, like the first time mom, like thirty five.

493
00:22:50,119 --> 00:22:51,359
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I'm hav my first kid, like

494
00:22:51,400 --> 00:22:53,880
Speaker 1: thirty five. That did not work out that way.

495
00:22:55,440 --> 00:22:57,600
Speaker 3: But you know, my mom said she always knew I

496
00:22:57,600 --> 00:22:58,920
Speaker 3: was gonna be a good mom because of the way

497
00:22:58,920 --> 00:22:59,879
Speaker 3: I was with animals.

498
00:23:00,440 --> 00:23:01,840
Speaker 1: I didn't know I was gonna be this good as a mom.

499
00:23:01,880 --> 00:23:05,960
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm a fucking exceptional mom. But no, I didn't.

500
00:23:07,040 --> 00:23:08,679
Speaker 1: It wasn't. There was an emphasis that was like a

501
00:23:08,680 --> 00:23:09,479
Speaker 1: career girl I saw.

502
00:23:09,520 --> 00:23:10,679
Speaker 3: I was like, I'm gonna go to school and be

503
00:23:10,720 --> 00:23:13,439
Speaker 3: super smart and I'm gonna run a fortune five hundred company.

504
00:23:13,480 --> 00:23:15,159
Speaker 3: And then the bitch actually went to college graduate and

505
00:23:15,200 --> 00:23:16,760
Speaker 3: I was working to enterprise running car So.

506
00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:22,280
Speaker 1: You like you want the pamium or I was fucked

507
00:23:22,359 --> 00:23:23,360
Speaker 1: up for a cool minute, and.

508
00:23:23,320 --> 00:23:28,440
Speaker 2: I was thinking before it's so interesting because Ashley said

509
00:23:28,480 --> 00:23:30,160
Speaker 2: something to me that it was.

510
00:23:30,359 --> 00:23:35,080
Speaker 1: Extremely interesting the other day. She said to me, I

511
00:23:35,119 --> 00:23:37,040
Speaker 1: was asking her, like if she's been dating, or like,

512
00:23:37,080 --> 00:23:39,000
Speaker 1: what's her what's you know? Nosy as fucks.

513
00:23:39,040 --> 00:23:41,000
Speaker 2: I'm in her house for the first time for fourteen hours,

514
00:23:41,040 --> 00:23:44,160
Speaker 2: asking about all our business, and she was like, no,

515
00:23:44,320 --> 00:23:47,240
Speaker 2: I don't even really like, I don't even care about sex. Honestly,

516
00:23:47,880 --> 00:23:50,280
Speaker 2: if I could just be pregnant and keep giving birth,

517
00:23:50,480 --> 00:23:51,280
Speaker 2: I'd be so happy.

518
00:23:51,320 --> 00:23:53,560
Speaker 1: I love giving birth that I don't really like having sex.

519
00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:59,479
Speaker 2: I was like, bitch said, no woman ever, right, just

520
00:23:59,480 --> 00:24:00,120
Speaker 2: give me.

521
00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:03,680
Speaker 1: She's like, I just want to keep birthing.

522
00:24:04,680 --> 00:24:09,879
Speaker 2: I like a birth too on YouTube on YouTube, I

523
00:24:09,920 --> 00:24:11,120
Speaker 2: love the birth on YouTube.

524
00:24:11,800 --> 00:24:15,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, it fucks people up because people look at me

525
00:24:15,119 --> 00:24:16,879
Speaker 3: as such like a super sexual.

526
00:24:16,600 --> 00:24:19,440
Speaker 1: Sensual being the way they perceive me on the internet.

527
00:24:19,680 --> 00:24:20,960
Speaker 1: But I'm pretty.

528
00:24:20,600 --> 00:24:23,639
Speaker 3: Fucking like asexual most of my life, like most of

529
00:24:23,680 --> 00:24:25,320
Speaker 3: my you know, my sex life.

530
00:24:26,480 --> 00:24:28,040
Speaker 1: I don't know. I think it because I'll be breastfeeding

531
00:24:28,080 --> 00:24:28,480
Speaker 1: so much.

532
00:24:28,520 --> 00:24:30,800
Speaker 3: So maybe it could be the pro laughton, you know,

533
00:24:31,040 --> 00:24:33,399
Speaker 3: like the nursing hormones that's making me not have a

534
00:24:33,480 --> 00:24:36,840
Speaker 3: high sex drive. But I also realized that I don't

535
00:24:36,880 --> 00:24:38,600
Speaker 3: ever want to have sex with anybody unless I have

536
00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:42,320
Speaker 3: an emotional attachment with them. Yeah, it's like across the board,

537
00:24:42,359 --> 00:24:44,680
Speaker 3: and it really people are like no way. I'm like, yeah,

538
00:24:44,800 --> 00:24:47,399
Speaker 3: I be needing niggas to love me. They have to

539
00:24:47,440 --> 00:24:48,560
Speaker 3: be in love with me, and I have to be

540
00:24:48,560 --> 00:24:50,520
Speaker 3: in love with them want to do it or I

541
00:24:50,640 --> 00:24:51,320
Speaker 3: just don't.

542
00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:54,359
Speaker 1: I really don't have the desire. I really just don't.

543
00:24:54,800 --> 00:24:58,240
Speaker 3: I also like so focused on like money and bills

544
00:24:58,320 --> 00:25:00,600
Speaker 3: right now too, so I'd be like about house is

545
00:25:00,600 --> 00:25:03,399
Speaker 3: burned out, You're fucking a burning down house, like like

546
00:25:03,480 --> 00:25:05,440
Speaker 3: I got two kids and shit, like I got shit,

547
00:25:05,680 --> 00:25:08,639
Speaker 3: it's just my I don't think I have, or maybe

548
00:25:08,640 --> 00:25:12,560
Speaker 3: I'm not making enough time for to invite the pleasure

549
00:25:12,640 --> 00:25:14,000
Speaker 3: in that way with a partner.

550
00:25:14,600 --> 00:25:15,640
Speaker 1: I mean, I just.

551
00:25:15,600 --> 00:25:17,960
Speaker 3: Started my Only Fans and then that's been like a

552
00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:22,640
Speaker 3: new step, So I don't know, Like I I'm not

553
00:25:22,720 --> 00:25:24,800
Speaker 3: completely sexual, but there are times like I can go

554
00:25:24,920 --> 00:25:27,720
Speaker 3: like two to four years at a time with no sex,

555
00:25:27,760 --> 00:25:29,800
Speaker 3: like absolutely fine with that and it doesn't bother me.

556
00:25:30,520 --> 00:25:32,919
Speaker 1: And I've done it multiple times. But it's not.

557
00:25:32,880 --> 00:25:35,159
Speaker 3: Never intentionally though, Like that's the weird part. It's like

558
00:25:35,200 --> 00:25:37,320
Speaker 3: it's not intentional. I don't intentionally like I'm not having sex.

559
00:25:37,320 --> 00:25:38,600
Speaker 3: I'm gonna even choose to be sell of it. In

560
00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:40,439
Speaker 3: these years, I just be like, oh, I look up

561
00:25:40,480 --> 00:25:41,919
Speaker 3: and like years I've gone by because I just be

562
00:25:41,920 --> 00:25:42,960
Speaker 3: breastfeeding all the time.

563
00:25:43,000 --> 00:25:44,879
Speaker 1: And then I work on like showing up and creating

564
00:25:44,880 --> 00:25:48,080
Speaker 1: content and I don't go anywhere. So and then when.

565
00:25:47,960 --> 00:25:49,879
Speaker 3: People are talking to me, I'm like, oh, we haven't

566
00:25:49,960 --> 00:25:51,879
Speaker 3: I haven't known me long enough, you know, like to

567
00:25:52,040 --> 00:25:53,840
Speaker 3: want to And then I never feel like, oh I

568
00:25:53,880 --> 00:25:54,720
Speaker 3: just need to get off.

569
00:25:54,960 --> 00:25:57,040
Speaker 1: I just don't feel like that, do you master me.

570
00:25:57,440 --> 00:26:02,840
Speaker 1: I just started on OnlyFans. My first time was on

571
00:26:02,840 --> 00:26:07,960
Speaker 1: only like your first time ever and it's so good.

572
00:26:08,359 --> 00:26:10,840
Speaker 1: That video is so good. It was your first time ever?

573
00:26:11,200 --> 00:26:15,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, recently, No, I just started masturbating. I have an

574
00:26:15,640 --> 00:26:18,200
Speaker 3: only fans maybe like seven eight six seven eight months

575
00:26:18,240 --> 00:26:20,800
Speaker 3: I did my I started what were you doing on there?

576
00:26:20,840 --> 00:26:24,439
Speaker 1: Before? It just like it just uncensored me, you know,

577
00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:26,240
Speaker 1: like I don't take off my knip. I keep the

578
00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:26,840
Speaker 1: nipples on.

579
00:26:26,840 --> 00:26:28,640
Speaker 3: There now And it was like, you know, I typically

580
00:26:28,680 --> 00:26:32,160
Speaker 3: do my morning shots. And so finally it's like, come on, Ashley,

581
00:26:32,200 --> 00:26:34,320
Speaker 3: like just start right. I'm like, okay, I sent.

582
00:26:34,280 --> 00:26:36,199
Speaker 1: To the audience. Now I got me started.

583
00:26:36,280 --> 00:26:38,600
Speaker 3: It was like, we're gonna go buy your first dick, right,

584
00:26:38,640 --> 00:26:40,120
Speaker 3: So I was like, I'm gonna buy my first dick.

585
00:26:40,160 --> 00:26:43,520
Speaker 1: So I bought my first dick in the mail and

586
00:26:43,560 --> 00:26:45,080
Speaker 1: I got it and I was like I had it

587
00:26:45,119 --> 00:26:47,280
Speaker 1: and I and then I didn't even do anything for

588
00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:49,280
Speaker 1: two weeks. I had I didn't even do it, and

589
00:26:49,280 --> 00:26:50,520
Speaker 1: then I was like, all right, I'm gonna I'm gonna

590
00:26:50,520 --> 00:26:50,960
Speaker 1: give it a shot.

591
00:26:51,000 --> 00:26:53,240
Speaker 3: Now I'm really gonna do it, right, So it's like okay,

592
00:26:53,280 --> 00:26:56,080
Speaker 3: So I set up to where I am going to

593
00:26:56,119 --> 00:26:58,960
Speaker 3: fuck myself with this dick on care my first time

594
00:26:58,960 --> 00:26:59,840
Speaker 3: I actually set up on live.

595
00:26:59,920 --> 00:27:02,160
Speaker 1: So I go live on only fans, you can go live?

596
00:27:02,359 --> 00:27:05,920
Speaker 1: Yeah wow, So I said it, go live on the fans,

597
00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:06,399
Speaker 1: bless you.

598
00:27:07,240 --> 00:27:11,159
Speaker 3: And so I got the penis and it having, you know,

599
00:27:11,160 --> 00:27:12,840
Speaker 3: a little suction cup on the bottom right.

600
00:27:13,680 --> 00:27:15,840
Speaker 1: So I was like, I don't know what to do.

601
00:27:16,760 --> 00:27:19,000
Speaker 1: I'm like sitting there like, oh what do I do?

602
00:27:19,040 --> 00:27:20,760
Speaker 1: They're like put your off, Like why put it in?

603
00:27:20,880 --> 00:27:25,120
Speaker 3: I'm out right, this is this on live, taking instruction

604
00:27:25,240 --> 00:27:28,159
Speaker 3: instructions from the audience, like they're like texting me. So

605
00:27:28,240 --> 00:27:29,760
Speaker 3: then I was like, whatever, I'm gonna try. Right, it

606
00:27:29,840 --> 00:27:31,280
Speaker 3: was just it, But did it vibrate? It was just

607
00:27:31,359 --> 00:27:33,000
Speaker 3: it was just just a regular.

608
00:27:34,400 --> 00:27:36,440
Speaker 1: Uh you know. I had the ultra skin. Those nice

609
00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:38,040
Speaker 1: you know. I felt like I did a little someone

610
00:27:38,040 --> 00:27:40,199
Speaker 1: with the old skin. You know, the bitches taught me

611
00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:40,720
Speaker 1: that one, right.

612
00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:44,480
Speaker 3: So then I'm like at one point though, I'm like

613
00:27:44,880 --> 00:27:47,840
Speaker 3: trying to write. So I'm like slamming it over and

614
00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:49,800
Speaker 3: over on the floor trying to get it to stick.

615
00:27:51,320 --> 00:27:53,920
Speaker 3: Like like literally, I'm just going like waiting in a

616
00:27:53,920 --> 00:27:56,359
Speaker 3: little bit, and no, I had like living I was

617
00:27:56,400 --> 00:27:57,560
Speaker 3: like trying and then I was trying to sit on

618
00:27:57,600 --> 00:27:58,679
Speaker 3: it was like popping off.

619
00:27:58,680 --> 00:27:59,800
Speaker 1: And then I tried it on the walls.

620
00:27:59,800 --> 00:28:01,960
Speaker 3: I'm like on the wall and then I'm just like

621
00:28:02,000 --> 00:28:03,920
Speaker 3: this the dick in my hand and I'm.

622
00:28:03,760 --> 00:28:06,880
Speaker 1: Just like, oh, guys, I'm not doing it right right.

623
00:28:06,920 --> 00:28:09,359
Speaker 3: So then I tried again, like oh my back and

624
00:28:09,400 --> 00:28:10,800
Speaker 3: I was like, well now my knees hurt. And then

625
00:28:10,800 --> 00:28:13,159
Speaker 3: I literally slouched off of the bed and I was like,

626
00:28:13,359 --> 00:28:18,640
Speaker 3: I blew it. Literally, I was like, I blew it

627
00:28:18,760 --> 00:28:21,640
Speaker 3: And when people laugh they watched it, they laughed so much,

628
00:28:21,680 --> 00:28:23,480
Speaker 3: but they love it so much. That's like my most

629
00:28:23,600 --> 00:28:26,760
Speaker 3: tipped video because it was so raw and it was

630
00:28:26,800 --> 00:28:28,800
Speaker 3: so real and I was like, my pussies journ up

631
00:28:28,840 --> 00:28:30,600
Speaker 3: and I'm just not doing a good job as some

632
00:28:30,840 --> 00:28:32,280
Speaker 3: for whatever reason, I thought I was a goot to

633
00:28:32,320 --> 00:28:33,680
Speaker 3: fuck myself like a corn star.

634
00:28:33,880 --> 00:28:35,800
Speaker 1: Oh. I really thought I was gonna be so good

635
00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:37,840
Speaker 1: at it. And I was like yeah, but it just wasn't.

636
00:28:37,920 --> 00:28:39,800
Speaker 1: It just wasn't like that at all. It was like

637
00:28:39,840 --> 00:28:42,560
Speaker 1: that all. So then they gave me instruction though they

638
00:28:42,600 --> 00:28:44,320
Speaker 1: was like Ashley, it's okay. You know.

639
00:28:44,800 --> 00:28:46,680
Speaker 3: I really had people come into my DMS, people who

640
00:28:46,840 --> 00:28:48,720
Speaker 3: like watched me and did my offense it's like, you know,

641
00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:51,440
Speaker 3: typically when you dance, it opens you up a little more,

642
00:28:51,440 --> 00:28:52,640
Speaker 3: you start to feel more sexy.

643
00:28:52,840 --> 00:28:54,680
Speaker 1: They was like, you have to take time to invite

644
00:28:54,680 --> 00:28:57,280
Speaker 1: the pleasure in. I had like moms coming on.

645
00:28:58,120 --> 00:28:59,760
Speaker 3: My moms were coming in, so they was just like

646
00:29:00,320 --> 00:29:03,880
Speaker 3: they're like, charge touching yourself here, play some music a

647
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:04,320
Speaker 3: little bit.

648
00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:06,239
Speaker 1: So the next time, I was like, all right, I'm

649
00:29:06,240 --> 00:29:08,959
Speaker 1: gonna do this, right. I got me some drink. I drank.

650
00:29:09,680 --> 00:29:12,680
Speaker 1: I dance, yeah, like my good old sugar juice.

651
00:29:12,800 --> 00:29:15,880
Speaker 3: Right, And I dance and I pulled it out and

652
00:29:15,960 --> 00:29:17,160
Speaker 3: I even did a butt flo.

653
00:29:20,280 --> 00:29:25,920
Speaker 1: I stuck it in my mouth. It went really good.

654
00:29:25,960 --> 00:29:27,760
Speaker 1: And my next time and I was like, I was like,

655
00:29:27,880 --> 00:29:30,880
Speaker 1: I was like part two. I'm like, I really did

656
00:29:30,880 --> 00:29:31,800
Speaker 1: it now, I can't remember that.

657
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:34,000
Speaker 3: I was like, watch me as I dance and I

658
00:29:34,040 --> 00:29:36,640
Speaker 3: fucked myself with my butt like I'm talking dirty.

659
00:29:36,680 --> 00:29:39,600
Speaker 1: Now, I'm like so much better now, I'm like so

660
00:29:39,680 --> 00:29:40,680
Speaker 1: good at it. I'm gonna have to go.

661
00:29:40,680 --> 00:29:41,760
Speaker 2: I'm gona to go over there and see what you

662
00:29:41,760 --> 00:29:43,560
Speaker 2: got going on?

663
00:29:42,320 --> 00:29:48,080
Speaker 1: Support me. Do you do you feel like you are

664
00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:51,440
Speaker 1: getting pleasure then? Master baby? Now yes, But what it's

665
00:29:51,480 --> 00:29:54,400
Speaker 1: done for me is like really.

666
00:29:55,640 --> 00:29:57,640
Speaker 3: Empower me on like what I like and what I

667
00:29:57,680 --> 00:30:00,840
Speaker 3: don't like.

668
00:29:59,440 --> 00:30:01,360
Speaker 1: Like really, it was so good.

669
00:30:01,400 --> 00:30:04,880
Speaker 3: Like in this journey of exploring myself sexually and intimately

670
00:30:04,920 --> 00:30:09,120
Speaker 3: with myself by myself, I'm typically used to really like

671
00:30:09,520 --> 00:30:12,760
Speaker 3: subject myself to the comforts of a partner, right, and

672
00:30:12,800 --> 00:30:15,800
Speaker 3: now I want to explore more kinks and more fetishes

673
00:30:16,240 --> 00:30:18,000
Speaker 3: and I don't have to worry about if it makes

674
00:30:18,000 --> 00:30:22,600
Speaker 3: a partner uncomfortable. So in that as well, I've also

675
00:30:22,720 --> 00:30:25,600
Speaker 3: learned I've been more empowered in my voice about sexual spaces.

676
00:30:25,640 --> 00:30:28,560
Speaker 3: Like I had a guy do something that was like inappropriate,

677
00:30:28,640 --> 00:30:31,920
Speaker 3: Like he I was talking to him on the phone

678
00:30:31,960 --> 00:30:32,280
Speaker 3: one time.

679
00:30:32,280 --> 00:30:33,040
Speaker 1: It's just years ago.

680
00:30:33,040 --> 00:30:34,840
Speaker 3: Shot so his smaller the niggure started whipping his dick

681
00:30:34,840 --> 00:30:37,160
Speaker 3: out and like masturbata and I remember him really yeah,

682
00:30:37,560 --> 00:30:38,080
Speaker 3: really like.

683
00:30:38,040 --> 00:30:39,480
Speaker 1: Pushing me to do it. And I didn't like it

684
00:30:39,600 --> 00:30:41,960
Speaker 1: all and I never really said anything, And like throughout

685
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:43,680
Speaker 1: the years we've just support each other online.

686
00:30:43,720 --> 00:30:46,760
Speaker 3: But I got to port where when I started this journey,

687
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:49,040
Speaker 3: I was like, you know what, I would call his

688
00:30:49,120 --> 00:30:49,560
Speaker 3: ass up, and.

689
00:30:49,520 --> 00:30:51,520
Speaker 1: I'm gona tell him I didn't like that shit, you know.

690
00:30:52,120 --> 00:30:55,360
Speaker 3: And in that I've been able to be so vocal

691
00:30:55,720 --> 00:30:58,160
Speaker 3: about those spaces, and I was like, wow, this is

692
00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:00,840
Speaker 3: what sex workers talk about when they empower that, Like

693
00:31:00,880 --> 00:31:03,840
Speaker 3: you become so empowered in sexual spaces where you it's

694
00:31:03,960 --> 00:31:08,400
Speaker 3: rare you'll be pushed into like.

695
00:31:06,880 --> 00:31:10,520
Speaker 1: Like coercion, like you you'd be like, no, I really

696
00:31:10,560 --> 00:31:11,120
Speaker 1: don't like that.

697
00:31:11,320 --> 00:31:13,560
Speaker 3: You start to have a voice more in those spaces,

698
00:31:13,800 --> 00:31:15,400
Speaker 3: So I really love that.

699
00:31:15,400 --> 00:31:16,760
Speaker 1: Like I'm like, no, I don't like that. Like I

700
00:31:16,800 --> 00:31:19,240
Speaker 1: remember I was the one guy and I was just like.

701
00:31:19,280 --> 00:31:20,680
Speaker 3: I'm gonna need you to take your time with me,

702
00:31:21,840 --> 00:31:23,000
Speaker 3: you know, Like I was like, I'm gonna need you

703
00:31:23,000 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 3: to take your time with me. And I don't think

704
00:31:25,800 --> 00:31:28,720
Speaker 3: I've ever spoken about that before. I like felt like

705
00:31:28,720 --> 00:31:30,720
Speaker 3: I needed to dictate, like how you were gonna lie?

706
00:31:30,800 --> 00:31:34,600
Speaker 1: Yeah, do you think what? What actually? Because if because maybe.

707
00:31:34,320 --> 00:31:38,240
Speaker 3: You were you you go through periods of not having

708
00:31:38,240 --> 00:31:39,480
Speaker 3: sex or not wanting sex.

709
00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:41,000
Speaker 1: What inspired you?

710
00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:41,000
Speaker 6: You?

711
00:31:41,120 --> 00:31:42,920
Speaker 1: Sorry? Only fans like was it because you.

712
00:31:42,880 --> 00:31:45,200
Speaker 3: Wanted to take this journey and explore yourself for like

713
00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:46,480
Speaker 3: what was the reason why?

714
00:31:46,640 --> 00:31:46,960
Speaker 1: The reason?

715
00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:50,400
Speaker 3: So I got gay right, that's where it started. I

716
00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:52,160
Speaker 3: saw it on the internet. I got hell, but I

717
00:31:52,160 --> 00:31:54,000
Speaker 3: still didn't know you. I was like, still checking in

718
00:31:54,040 --> 00:31:55,520
Speaker 3: because I was like, how is she doing? And then

719
00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:57,120
Speaker 3: I was like, oh damn, she got a whole ass

720
00:31:57,160 --> 00:32:01,280
Speaker 3: GRASMI I was like, this is cute.

721
00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:04,760
Speaker 1: I was like, be careful of those studs. Listen, bitches,

722
00:32:05,600 --> 00:32:08,880
Speaker 1: God nigga bitches, I got that raw.

723
00:32:10,640 --> 00:32:13,600
Speaker 3: To raw. I coined that that is her name is Ironic.

724
00:32:13,680 --> 00:32:18,040
Speaker 3: She's a trans individual, super fucking dope, and her name

725
00:32:18,080 --> 00:32:21,080
Speaker 3: is Ironic on in her net Instagram, and she's a

726
00:32:21,160 --> 00:32:23,680
Speaker 3: rapper as well, and she's super cool. And she was like, yo,

727
00:32:23,760 --> 00:32:26,560
Speaker 3: actually she's like, relax on these nigga bitches, right, and

728
00:32:26,600 --> 00:32:28,200
Speaker 3: she was like these nigga bitches and something else, So

729
00:32:28,280 --> 00:32:32,560
Speaker 3: that comes from her. But yeah, these young nigga bitches

730
00:32:32,640 --> 00:32:34,080
Speaker 3: is you know, they got me.

731
00:32:34,240 --> 00:32:34,760
Speaker 1: They got me.

732
00:32:34,800 --> 00:32:37,240
Speaker 3: But I realized that they got me. You know, typically

733
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:39,480
Speaker 3: everything I say tends to get real deep, so bring

734
00:32:39,520 --> 00:32:40,400
Speaker 3: me back if it starts.

735
00:32:40,200 --> 00:32:41,960
Speaker 1: To getting baby.

736
00:32:43,280 --> 00:32:45,800
Speaker 3: So originally they got me. And I can say because

737
00:32:45,840 --> 00:32:46,520
Speaker 3: people always.

738
00:32:46,280 --> 00:32:46,880
Speaker 1: Like, what do you like now?

739
00:32:46,920 --> 00:32:49,320
Speaker 3: Do you still like studs or something like that? Actually,

740
00:32:49,840 --> 00:32:54,080
Speaker 3: my interests right are shifting from that space. But that's

741
00:32:54,080 --> 00:32:57,280
Speaker 3: only because I've become more comfortable in my in my queerness.

742
00:32:57,400 --> 00:32:59,560
Speaker 1: And the fact is I actually do like women.

743
00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:03,440
Speaker 3: So initially when I got into like that opened up

744
00:33:03,480 --> 00:33:05,120
Speaker 3: the door. I was like, oh, I just like her,

745
00:33:05,200 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 3: which is a homophobic thought process, right, And I initially

746
00:33:10,000 --> 00:33:11,280
Speaker 3: that was oh they were like I.

747
00:33:11,200 --> 00:33:14,080
Speaker 1: Only like her. I only like her. But also she

748
00:33:14,240 --> 00:33:14,720
Speaker 1: was more.

749
00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:19,040
Speaker 3: Closer to masculinity, so it was easier to transition. Yeah,

750
00:33:19,040 --> 00:33:23,280
Speaker 3: it was a little more familiar, very uncomfortable, but more familiar. Right,

751
00:33:23,720 --> 00:33:28,440
Speaker 3: And so from there, obviously the sex is different, the

752
00:33:28,520 --> 00:33:31,680
Speaker 3: sex is different, the way we navigate the bodies are

753
00:33:31,800 --> 00:33:36,440
Speaker 3: very different. And so once I realized, like, oh shit, like,

754
00:33:36,560 --> 00:33:39,160
Speaker 3: hall the fuck isn't this last thirty four years old?

755
00:33:39,160 --> 00:33:39,680
Speaker 1: I'm thirty five.

756
00:33:40,000 --> 00:33:41,960
Speaker 3: I was like at the time, I'm thirty four and

757
00:33:42,080 --> 00:33:46,920
Speaker 3: I didn't know that I like women. Yeah, And if

758
00:33:46,920 --> 00:33:49,200
Speaker 3: people are like you've never I'm like, I never kissed

759
00:33:49,200 --> 00:33:49,960
Speaker 3: a girl ever.

760
00:33:50,160 --> 00:33:51,640
Speaker 1: I never held a hand to a girl.

761
00:33:51,640 --> 00:33:55,360
Speaker 3: I never ever until that girl, I'm like, how the

762
00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:57,960
Speaker 3: fuck did I miss this? You know, all as deep

763
00:33:58,000 --> 00:34:00,760
Speaker 3: as I am introspecting all motherfucker day, right, I know me, right,

764
00:34:00,760 --> 00:34:01,720
Speaker 3: how the hell did I miss that?

765
00:34:01,800 --> 00:34:06,800
Speaker 1: I'm gay as fuck? Right, So how did I miss that? Like?

766
00:34:06,880 --> 00:34:07,960
Speaker 1: How do I just get gay?

767
00:34:08,040 --> 00:34:08,160
Speaker 6: You know?

768
00:34:08,200 --> 00:34:09,399
Speaker 1: What I mean like feeling I'm gay?

769
00:34:09,520 --> 00:34:14,680
Speaker 3: Right, So so it fucked with me, and that's when

770
00:34:14,680 --> 00:34:18,240
Speaker 3: I started kind of exploring like oh.

771
00:34:18,120 --> 00:34:20,359
Speaker 1: Shit, if I like that, what else do I like?

772
00:34:21,040 --> 00:34:23,960
Speaker 1: What else do I like? Who am I? And then

773
00:34:24,040 --> 00:34:25,000
Speaker 1: I was like, yo, what else?

774
00:34:25,160 --> 00:34:27,080
Speaker 3: So that's when people are like, oh, I was like

775
00:34:27,080 --> 00:34:29,880
Speaker 3: maybe I started masturbating because I was like after that.

776
00:34:29,880 --> 00:34:31,480
Speaker 1: I was like, oh no, nobody would I should. I

777
00:34:31,480 --> 00:34:33,040
Speaker 1: should start exploring that. I don't really do it. I

778
00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:35,080
Speaker 1: never felt the need to. I'm just gonna force myself

779
00:34:35,080 --> 00:34:36,399
Speaker 1: to do and this, well you should do it. I'm

780
00:34:36,400 --> 00:34:38,560
Speaker 1: only things you should get, only fans. I was like, well,

781
00:34:38,640 --> 00:34:40,600
Speaker 1: I guess I should. It's a whole pandemic. Why not

782
00:34:40,880 --> 00:34:41,080
Speaker 1: you know?

783
00:34:41,280 --> 00:34:43,600
Speaker 3: Like so that's how I started like this is a

784
00:34:43,680 --> 00:34:45,840
Speaker 3: journey of what it looks like to explore myself sexually

785
00:34:45,920 --> 00:34:48,799
Speaker 3: because who knew my sexual interests involved women?

786
00:34:48,920 --> 00:34:53,319
Speaker 1: Been navigating that, like I now have this like I

787
00:34:53,320 --> 00:34:56,120
Speaker 1: don't know something about thick women do something to me.

788
00:34:56,600 --> 00:35:01,120
Speaker 1: You're like, oh, I heard her say, Oh I didn't

789
00:35:01,120 --> 00:35:07,160
Speaker 1: know you had was by something and it so it is,

790
00:35:07,200 --> 00:35:08,640
Speaker 1: it's really nice and it tricked me out.

791
00:35:08,680 --> 00:35:11,759
Speaker 3: Was like, had tittes something about titties and asked and

792
00:35:11,800 --> 00:35:14,439
Speaker 3: I never knew that, like I never I was like, yes.

793
00:35:14,480 --> 00:35:15,920
Speaker 1: When it came to my first part, I was like, dank, God,

794
00:35:15,960 --> 00:35:18,200
Speaker 1: you don't have a big titties. I remember literally saying.

795
00:35:18,200 --> 00:35:21,160
Speaker 1: I was like, I don't know what. I don't know

796
00:35:21,200 --> 00:35:22,440
Speaker 1: when of them did that. I don't even want her to.

797
00:35:22,480 --> 00:35:24,000
Speaker 1: I don't want to put her Please don't put your

798
00:35:24,040 --> 00:35:24,640
Speaker 1: vagohn on me.

799
00:35:24,640 --> 00:35:29,319
Speaker 3: Like I started, please don't. I was like, I used

800
00:35:29,360 --> 00:35:34,000
Speaker 3: to have so much anxiety and around like fucking up

801
00:35:34,040 --> 00:35:36,640
Speaker 3: like pleasure, like a like pleasure anxiety around you know what.

802
00:35:36,680 --> 00:35:39,440
Speaker 3: I feel like it's because I performance anxiety. You it

803
00:35:39,480 --> 00:35:41,640
Speaker 3: almost feels more pressure to be able.

804
00:35:41,440 --> 00:35:43,440
Speaker 1: To please a woman. Because you were a woman, you

805
00:35:43,440 --> 00:35:47,759
Speaker 1: should be able to please, so it almost feels more pressure. Yeah,

806
00:35:48,080 --> 00:35:51,040
Speaker 1: I didn't. I only had it the I didn't.

807
00:35:51,080 --> 00:35:53,240
Speaker 3: I was terrified and we had to move real slow,

808
00:35:53,560 --> 00:35:56,839
Speaker 3: and I was like, did she guide you or did

809
00:35:56,880 --> 00:35:59,600
Speaker 3: you just figure out? No? I just I was very cliched.

810
00:35:59,640 --> 00:36:03,799
Speaker 3: I was very typical first time lesbian question. It was

811
00:36:03,840 --> 00:36:06,400
Speaker 3: just like I got to was like I want to

812
00:36:06,400 --> 00:36:07,200
Speaker 3: please you too.

813
00:36:09,800 --> 00:36:12,440
Speaker 1: Yeah. I was like I'm ready, like I want.

814
00:36:12,320 --> 00:36:15,640
Speaker 3: To do it too, and she's like, are you just like, yeah, actually,

815
00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:18,840
Speaker 3: I'm really actually fucking good at it personally.

816
00:36:19,320 --> 00:36:22,360
Speaker 1: She was locked up. I mean, but I feel like

817
00:36:22,360 --> 00:36:24,279
Speaker 1: I was good at it personally because I feel like

818
00:36:24,400 --> 00:36:27,080
Speaker 1: the niggas taught me, like, I know what it was

819
00:36:27,520 --> 00:36:29,680
Speaker 1: with a lot of men, and I'm like I and

820
00:36:30,880 --> 00:36:32,080
Speaker 1: so I was like, I don't know.

821
00:36:32,120 --> 00:36:34,560
Speaker 3: And then come finality, I'm really fucking good at you know,

822
00:36:34,600 --> 00:36:36,440
Speaker 3: the other loves all the same thing too, and I'm like,

823
00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:39,520
Speaker 3: but I also realized, no, real shit, I'm realizing that

824
00:36:39,600 --> 00:36:40,840
Speaker 3: like bisexual women.

825
00:36:41,320 --> 00:36:43,160
Speaker 1: And this is just an opinion. Obviously I just got here,

826
00:36:43,200 --> 00:36:44,479
Speaker 1: so it doesn't really mean shit.

827
00:36:45,120 --> 00:36:47,840
Speaker 3: But in the spaces i'm learning, like the LGBQT community,

828
00:36:47,920 --> 00:36:51,480
Speaker 3: I'm I'm hearing on how bisexual women are tend to

829
00:36:51,480 --> 00:36:56,520
Speaker 3: be better in sex with lesbian women, like because I

830
00:36:56,520 --> 00:36:59,160
Speaker 3: don't know, they just I think we navigate the bodies differently,

831
00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:00,719
Speaker 3: we show up different.

832
00:37:00,920 --> 00:37:01,400
Speaker 1: I don't know.

833
00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:03,600
Speaker 3: I mean, but I have very limited experience in that

834
00:37:03,640 --> 00:37:06,080
Speaker 3: space with women, but my performance anxiety can for the fact,

835
00:37:06,160 --> 00:37:09,000
Speaker 3: like listen, I know what it is dog dig back, right.

836
00:37:09,360 --> 00:37:10,839
Speaker 1: I don't know what the fuck to do with this,

837
00:37:11,200 --> 00:37:13,480
Speaker 1: So I don't know, but that's that's how it started.

838
00:37:13,480 --> 00:37:16,120
Speaker 1: My only fans. I really wanted to like, what else

839
00:37:16,160 --> 00:37:17,880
Speaker 1: do I like? I can't believe I like women? What

840
00:37:17,920 --> 00:37:18,440
Speaker 1: else I like?

841
00:37:19,000 --> 00:37:23,200
Speaker 2: It's so interesting to me that the bitch who doesn't

842
00:37:23,239 --> 00:37:27,920
Speaker 2: masturbate but pole dances doesn't have sex for three to

843
00:37:27,960 --> 00:37:30,880
Speaker 2: four years at a time. But also it's not interested

844
00:37:30,880 --> 00:37:31,239
Speaker 2: in sex.

845
00:37:31,320 --> 00:37:31,640
Speaker 1: I'll like.

846
00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:33,560
Speaker 2: I mean, i'd commend it because a lot of times

847
00:37:33,560 --> 00:37:36,960
Speaker 2: the thing we confuse like pleasure and sexuality for the

848
00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:40,920
Speaker 2: need to have someone there. You can be so content

849
00:37:40,960 --> 00:37:44,440
Speaker 2: with the sexual sexual whatever sexuality you bring to it.

850
00:37:44,800 --> 00:37:48,120
Speaker 1: You know what it is. It's that I love intimacy,

851
00:37:48,200 --> 00:37:49,839
Speaker 1: and intimacy doesn't need to be sex for me.

852
00:37:50,440 --> 00:37:53,680
Speaker 3: So I sit in a lot of cases of intimacy,

853
00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:58,560
Speaker 3: like vulnerable relationships, transparent relationships. I like like doing this,

854
00:37:58,680 --> 00:38:01,040
Speaker 3: Like I really this is for feeling for me, sitting

855
00:38:01,040 --> 00:38:03,520
Speaker 3: here talking and learning more about like walking around.

856
00:38:03,320 --> 00:38:05,239
Speaker 1: Your goddamn house, like she doesn't let me.

857
00:38:05,320 --> 00:38:06,799
Speaker 3: All I have in here, Like that's the ship that

858
00:38:06,920 --> 00:38:10,000
Speaker 3: like I don't know, it feels me in a way

859
00:38:10,040 --> 00:38:14,000
Speaker 3: of creating really genuine connections, and that's enough for me.

860
00:38:14,040 --> 00:38:16,120
Speaker 1: And then from there that's what makes me want to

861
00:38:16,160 --> 00:38:18,480
Speaker 1: have sex. I mean, like, no, I like I like her,

862
00:38:18,640 --> 00:38:20,920
Speaker 1: you know, I like I like being in her home.

863
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:23,719
Speaker 3: I like how she opens up her spaces to me,

864
00:38:23,880 --> 00:38:25,520
Speaker 3: you know, I like like this is a ship that

865
00:38:25,680 --> 00:38:27,279
Speaker 3: like gets my my nipples heart like that.

866
00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:33,720
Speaker 1: You may like it out, so I need to leave it.

867
00:38:34,400 --> 00:38:34,920
Speaker 1: Like these.

868
00:38:36,719 --> 00:38:38,400
Speaker 3: Those are the things that set the tone for me

869
00:38:38,440 --> 00:38:41,040
Speaker 3: in terms of like is this something like I want

870
00:38:41,040 --> 00:38:44,080
Speaker 3: to explore because it's the intimacy factor for me.

871
00:38:44,600 --> 00:38:45,400
Speaker 1: I feel that way too.

872
00:38:45,520 --> 00:38:47,840
Speaker 3: I Mean, there's definitely ways I don't There's things that

873
00:38:47,840 --> 00:38:49,520
Speaker 3: I don't need, and then there's things that I do need.

874
00:38:49,560 --> 00:38:49,880
Speaker 1: I don't know.

875
00:38:49,880 --> 00:38:52,800
Speaker 3: I mean, I go, I go through like waves of that.

876
00:38:53,000 --> 00:38:55,520
Speaker 3: I feel like that's where I'm at right now. Sometimes

877
00:38:55,520 --> 00:38:57,880
Speaker 3: I'm at though, like I don't actually care because I

878
00:38:57,880 --> 00:38:58,279
Speaker 3: don't care.

879
00:38:59,160 --> 00:39:02,400
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880
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881
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882
00:39:07,040 --> 00:39:08,600
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883
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Speaker 2: You don't, like Petra, I have toys, but no, I

884
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885
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886
00:39:16,400 --> 00:39:19,160
Speaker 3: Masturbation as a way, as you know, a way to

887
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Speaker 3: sac I guess sustain from sex essentially and not even

888
00:39:23,520 --> 00:39:27,360
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889
00:39:27,440 --> 00:39:29,080
Speaker 3: masturbate a lot of times, like you're like, oh, I

890
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Speaker 3: don't really need to go see that nigga that I

891
00:39:30,480 --> 00:39:32,759
Speaker 3: thought I needed to go see. Like wow, I did

892
00:39:32,760 --> 00:39:34,279
Speaker 3: that so much easy, more easily, And now I get

893
00:39:34,320 --> 00:39:35,920
Speaker 3: to cut up in my bed and watch Sex and

894
00:39:35,960 --> 00:39:36,719
Speaker 3: the City or.

895
00:39:36,640 --> 00:39:38,000
Speaker 1: Whatever girl ass show I want to watch.

896
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Speaker 3: I don't got to worry about your pH I don't

897
00:39:40,280 --> 00:39:42,160
Speaker 3: have to wake up in the morning and deal look

898
00:39:42,200 --> 00:39:43,920
Speaker 3: at you. I don't have to deal with any of it,

899
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Speaker 3: all of it, you know, I mean, unless it's that

900
00:39:46,520 --> 00:39:49,080
Speaker 3: person that I want to do with, right right, And

901
00:39:49,160 --> 00:39:52,360
Speaker 3: I think masturbation has definitely saved my life a few times.

902
00:39:54,640 --> 00:39:56,879
Speaker 1: Right now. Masturbation makes me money, and I like that

903
00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:01,600
Speaker 1: it makes me money. I like it. That sounds great

904
00:40:01,640 --> 00:40:01,840
Speaker 1: to me.

905
00:40:02,080 --> 00:40:05,040
Speaker 3: So how like, so what what is only what's happening

906
00:40:05,040 --> 00:40:05,799
Speaker 3: over there only fans?

907
00:40:05,800 --> 00:40:08,000
Speaker 1: Like how does that even work? Like how like.

908
00:40:09,840 --> 00:40:11,440
Speaker 3: Are you gonna be wealthy? Are you gonna be rich

909
00:40:11,440 --> 00:40:13,680
Speaker 3: on only fans? Like can you make like forty racks?

910
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Speaker 6: On?

911
00:40:13,920 --> 00:40:21,280
Speaker 3: There are women making like one hundred thousand a month.

912
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Speaker 1: Is not like a mom's face and only fans, like

913
00:40:22,840 --> 00:40:25,440
Speaker 1: why yeah there are mills people, there's not I mean

914
00:40:25,440 --> 00:40:27,439
Speaker 1: like a community, like a community of mom.

915
00:40:27,480 --> 00:40:30,040
Speaker 3: You need to make your only only fans like mom,

916
00:40:30,120 --> 00:40:36,080
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917
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918
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Speaker 1: You guys are so creative. It's not your funny.

919
00:40:41,360 --> 00:40:46,399
Speaker 3: A black girl's texting black mom's fucking everybody that's sign out.

920
00:40:46,440 --> 00:40:47,640
Speaker 1: I was like, it's pretty good.

921
00:40:47,719 --> 00:40:50,880
Speaker 3: Like if I'm watching if I'm watching Tasty Blacks from porn,

922
00:40:51,560 --> 00:40:55,719
Speaker 3: then I'm watching black moms fucking too Tasty Blacks.

923
00:40:56,040 --> 00:40:58,600
Speaker 1: It's the most offensive name. But I literally saw your

924
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Speaker 1: Patreon today.

925
00:41:00,080 --> 00:41:02,759
Speaker 2: We don't always see each other's posts on there, just

926
00:41:02,840 --> 00:41:05,400
Speaker 2: like yeah, we're just simultaneously doing ship and so I

927
00:41:05,440 --> 00:41:05,960
Speaker 2: just see.

928
00:41:05,800 --> 00:41:08,360
Speaker 1: Her like, oh, by the way, new porn side. I

929
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930
00:41:11,040 --> 00:41:14,919
Speaker 2: Blacks and it's great, highly recommended, And before I gotta

931
00:41:14,960 --> 00:41:17,200
Speaker 2: go to bed, night night, I'm.

932
00:41:17,120 --> 00:41:21,279
Speaker 1: Like, tast you guys are missing over.

933
00:41:21,360 --> 00:41:26,320
Speaker 3: You're missing all my extreme beautiful suggestions over a Patreon?

934
00:41:26,480 --> 00:41:28,760
Speaker 1: Is it really that good? Messrooms? Next to Christmas?

935
00:41:29,239 --> 00:41:31,719
Speaker 3: We need to like to compile like a list of

936
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Speaker 3: must us mom's must.

937
00:41:36,680 --> 00:41:37,040
Speaker 1: So many.

938
00:41:37,160 --> 00:41:39,600
Speaker 3: I also have like an extensive cheap candle list I

939
00:41:39,640 --> 00:41:40,600
Speaker 3: need to put on there.

940
00:41:40,600 --> 00:41:42,279
Speaker 1: I feel like moms will. Don't you love candles?

941
00:41:42,560 --> 00:41:44,440
Speaker 3: I love candles candles, and if I knew where to

942
00:41:44,480 --> 00:41:46,400
Speaker 3: find all of them in one place, I would like

943
00:41:46,440 --> 00:41:48,600
Speaker 3: all I know, like those two.

944
00:41:48,600 --> 00:41:50,600
Speaker 1: But there's awesome, cheap good ones, the ones you want

945
00:41:50,600 --> 00:41:51,799
Speaker 1: to burn all goddamn day.

946
00:41:52,360 --> 00:41:54,520
Speaker 3: This candle smells amazing, but this is so this is

947
00:41:54,560 --> 00:41:56,200
Speaker 3: the one that came from the box.

948
00:41:56,320 --> 00:41:57,600
Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah, By the way, this.

949
00:41:57,680 --> 00:42:01,319
Speaker 3: Candle right here is in the station box yet hold on,

950
00:42:01,360 --> 00:42:05,720
Speaker 3: what's it called? The post twenty one vi P Manifestation

951
00:42:05,840 --> 00:42:10,120
Speaker 3: box is gonna come after oh if you haven't gotten

952
00:42:10,120 --> 00:42:12,120
Speaker 3: it yet, and you should try to figure out how

953
00:42:12,160 --> 00:42:16,960
Speaker 3: to get one manifest that ship manifest That candle is amazing.

954
00:42:17,120 --> 00:42:19,640
Speaker 3: Frolic in stage black On Candle Company, and they all

955
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Speaker 3: their candles are bombed.

956
00:42:20,840 --> 00:42:25,560
Speaker 1: They're bomb Yeah. I love that. So we're gonna get

957
00:42:25,600 --> 00:42:27,319
Speaker 1: rich of only fans or what I mean? I mean?

958
00:42:28,160 --> 00:42:31,680
Speaker 1: People are asking, you know, I ordered a poll last week.

959
00:42:31,719 --> 00:42:33,600
Speaker 2: It comes in on Wednesday, and then I have a

960
00:42:33,760 --> 00:42:36,200
Speaker 2: pulled in I maybe I can't.

961
00:42:36,600 --> 00:42:38,600
Speaker 1: If I can't get enough, it'll be very tasteful. I

962
00:42:38,680 --> 00:42:39,600
Speaker 1: promise it will be tasteful.

963
00:42:39,680 --> 00:42:43,160
Speaker 3: Bit Jamila is promising me like I'm her fucking mother,

964
00:42:43,200 --> 00:42:43,680
Speaker 3: because I am.

965
00:42:43,719 --> 00:42:46,040
Speaker 1: Wait. When I started, when I started messing with her Landa,

966
00:42:46,160 --> 00:42:49,719
Speaker 1: She's like, do not get them only fans? I was like,

967
00:42:49,800 --> 00:42:52,759
Speaker 1: I'm not getting a fucking only fans a, bitch. I

968
00:42:52,840 --> 00:42:57,200
Speaker 1: was like, why not? Erica told me no, no, I

969
00:42:57,200 --> 00:42:59,560
Speaker 1: cannot throw. I don't. I don't know. I don't care.

970
00:43:00,120 --> 00:43:01,360
Speaker 2: Just I don't want to come. I don't think I

971
00:43:01,360 --> 00:43:03,080
Speaker 2: want my princy on the internet. I'm sure it's like

972
00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:04,920
Speaker 2: there's a strong possibility that someone you.

973
00:43:04,960 --> 00:43:08,319
Speaker 1: Know, in my mind, I thought the same thing. I

974
00:43:08,360 --> 00:43:09,720
Speaker 1: know obviously I don't give.

975
00:43:11,120 --> 00:43:13,600
Speaker 2: You know I believe I also I know I can.

976
00:43:13,680 --> 00:43:17,799
Speaker 1: I can easily cross that threshold. I remember I could.

977
00:43:17,880 --> 00:43:18,960
Speaker 1: I already don't want.

978
00:43:19,280 --> 00:43:21,400
Speaker 2: I don't want to wear a shirt on Instagram and

979
00:43:21,520 --> 00:43:23,560
Speaker 2: annoys the ship out of me that I have to

980
00:43:23,680 --> 00:43:25,720
Speaker 2: try and block my boom out of so many videos.

981
00:43:25,719 --> 00:43:27,920
Speaker 2: It doesn't work. But I just feel like if I

982
00:43:27,920 --> 00:43:30,360
Speaker 2: could just not block my boob out, i'd be happy.

983
00:43:30,440 --> 00:43:32,560
Speaker 1: But I don't know. I don't even mastered by myself,

984
00:43:33,160 --> 00:43:35,239
Speaker 1: and I don't. I don't ye, I don't think I

985
00:43:35,239 --> 00:43:37,839
Speaker 1: don't anyone. I don't want to do any fucking Yeah.

986
00:43:37,880 --> 00:43:40,520
Speaker 3: I encourage you to master it by yourself ware and

987
00:43:40,560 --> 00:43:42,040
Speaker 3: then and then make that decision.

988
00:43:42,640 --> 00:43:46,960
Speaker 1: But I would do console polling. You should. It's really nice.

989
00:43:46,960 --> 00:43:49,240
Speaker 3: I mean, I know someone that that's all she does tos,

990
00:43:49,280 --> 00:43:50,200
Speaker 3: just topless poles.

991
00:43:50,360 --> 00:43:52,440
Speaker 1: I would even get naked during polling. I don't really

992
00:43:52,440 --> 00:43:54,040
Speaker 1: care about that. But if it's like, might be like

993
00:43:54,239 --> 00:43:59,120
Speaker 1: my choreography, you could do art. Yeah, I was artists. Yeah,

994
00:43:59,160 --> 00:44:01,080
Speaker 1: I would love that. I can some body pad.

995
00:44:01,200 --> 00:44:04,120
Speaker 3: It doesn't have to be throwing that pussy in the

996
00:44:04,120 --> 00:44:07,239
Speaker 3: front can for pov car Jamila's only fans.

997
00:44:08,800 --> 00:44:10,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, huh, it's a fairy.

998
00:44:10,360 --> 00:44:16,280
Speaker 2: We're manifesting ease and pleasure, manifesting money with ease and pleasure.

999
00:44:16,440 --> 00:44:18,520
Speaker 1: It is and pleasure that it is true. You just

1000
00:44:18,520 --> 00:44:21,920
Speaker 1: say those ease and pleasure. I really like it.

1001
00:44:21,960 --> 00:44:24,120
Speaker 3: I love what it's It's been very liberating for me,

1002
00:44:24,160 --> 00:44:26,480
Speaker 3: empowering for me, but it's a It's gave me the

1003
00:44:26,560 --> 00:44:29,480
Speaker 3: push to explore myself ways and ways that I haven't

1004
00:44:29,680 --> 00:44:30,720
Speaker 3: and that's not for everybody.

1005
00:44:30,719 --> 00:44:31,480
Speaker 1: There are people who.

1006
00:44:31,320 --> 00:44:33,960
Speaker 3: Get on there and you know they don't like it,

1007
00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:35,799
Speaker 3: but you know, once it's out there, it's out there.

1008
00:44:37,080 --> 00:44:40,040
Speaker 3: But what's really dope is how it still falls in

1009
00:44:40,080 --> 00:44:45,360
Speaker 3: alignment with my brand cohesivity, because it's all about like mothering,

1010
00:44:45,560 --> 00:44:48,879
Speaker 3: self care, exploring yourself, being in want to yourself, knowing

1011
00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:51,439
Speaker 3: that you're still a sexual, beautiful being while being an

1012
00:44:51,480 --> 00:44:52,120
Speaker 3: awesome mom.

1013
00:44:52,239 --> 00:44:53,399
Speaker 1: So that's what I think.

1014
00:44:53,400 --> 00:44:57,440
Speaker 2: It's just so beautiful about you and like your journey

1015
00:44:57,520 --> 00:45:00,120
Speaker 2: and like you're just so radically you, you know, and

1016
00:45:00,120 --> 00:45:00,759
Speaker 2: I fuck with that.

1017
00:45:00,760 --> 00:45:01,319
Speaker 1: That's how I am.

1018
00:45:01,400 --> 00:45:03,719
Speaker 2: And I think that's what attracted to me to you initially,

1019
00:45:03,760 --> 00:45:05,480
Speaker 2: and I don't I think I even maybe started falling around.

1020
00:45:05,520 --> 00:45:07,040
Speaker 1: Maybe I'm still pregnant, but.

1021
00:45:07,000 --> 00:45:08,960
Speaker 2: I was like, oh that's my people, yeah, you know,

1022
00:45:09,040 --> 00:45:11,360
Speaker 2: And it's just something like everybody's shit looks different, Like

1023
00:45:11,400 --> 00:45:13,520
Speaker 2: we are so the same, it's so different, you know

1024
00:45:13,560 --> 00:45:13,920
Speaker 2: what I mean?

1025
00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:16,439
Speaker 1: And same with me and America, but we're still from

1026
00:45:17,000 --> 00:45:17,600
Speaker 1: the other day.

1027
00:45:17,600 --> 00:45:21,839
Speaker 2: We went to gymnastics, me actually and Jessica, and she's like,

1028
00:45:22,080 --> 00:45:23,799
Speaker 2: we're so fucking weird, isn't it great?

1029
00:45:23,800 --> 00:45:26,960
Speaker 1: Because we know we're weird? Though, right, I was looking

1030
00:45:27,000 --> 00:45:30,240
Speaker 1: at them, and I was like, God, we're so weird,

1031
00:45:30,440 --> 00:45:32,120
Speaker 1: you know, like and it makes.

1032
00:45:31,960 --> 00:45:33,600
Speaker 3: Me laugh because I was like, we're all the same,

1033
00:45:33,800 --> 00:45:38,240
Speaker 3: which is we have no fucking shame, Like there's no shame.

1034
00:45:38,320 --> 00:45:41,000
Speaker 1: So the way we communicate is hilarious.

1035
00:45:41,120 --> 00:45:43,080
Speaker 3: I'm like, bitch, listen, my whole ship was falling apart

1036
00:45:43,160 --> 00:45:45,520
Speaker 3: yesterday and I lied about it, and then I.

1037
00:45:45,480 --> 00:45:46,960
Speaker 1: Tried to do this and this, and I'm like, whish,

1038
00:45:47,000 --> 00:45:47,680
Speaker 1: why do you do all that?

1039
00:45:47,760 --> 00:45:49,960
Speaker 3: Because listen the way my head trauma was set up

1040
00:45:49,960 --> 00:45:51,359
Speaker 3: and then the trigger and I was like, oh fuck,

1041
00:45:51,360 --> 00:45:52,840
Speaker 3: I'm gonna just do abc. Well, you know that's not

1042
00:45:52,840 --> 00:45:54,680
Speaker 3: really healthy. I know it's not healthy, but tomorrow I'm

1043
00:45:54,680 --> 00:45:57,239
Speaker 3: gonna do better, you know. Like we talk like that, right,

1044
00:45:57,280 --> 00:45:59,480
Speaker 3: and it's the best. It's the fucking best.

1045
00:45:59,560 --> 00:46:02,000
Speaker 1: I'm like, I love being able to seek you, I know,

1046
00:46:02,520 --> 00:46:05,120
Speaker 1: and tell us. I lov being a conscious fuck up.

1047
00:46:05,280 --> 00:46:06,840
Speaker 1: I love being kind.

1048
00:46:08,800 --> 00:46:10,799
Speaker 3: Aware of what I'm doing and I'm talking through it

1049
00:46:10,840 --> 00:46:11,640
Speaker 3: and I'm going through.

1050
00:46:11,600 --> 00:46:13,120
Speaker 1: It and I'm talking to it out loud. Do you

1051
00:46:13,160 --> 00:46:15,799
Speaker 1: hear me? Okay? God, it's crazy, but do you catch

1052
00:46:15,840 --> 00:46:17,200
Speaker 1: my drift? But it's okay.

1053
00:46:17,400 --> 00:46:20,560
Speaker 3: It's like the awareness still allows us to have a

1054
00:46:20,600 --> 00:46:23,960
Speaker 3: positive self image right where we're not feeling like, oh

1055
00:46:24,040 --> 00:46:26,200
Speaker 3: my god, like I'm this awful.

1056
00:46:25,880 --> 00:46:27,960
Speaker 1: Individuals like, no, I liked it. I didn't like it,

1057
00:46:28,040 --> 00:46:30,000
Speaker 1: and I'm gonna do better. I tried that it didn't

1058
00:46:30,040 --> 00:46:33,120
Speaker 1: work out for me as opposed to being like I hate.

1059
00:46:32,880 --> 00:46:35,840
Speaker 3: Myself, right, you know, as like I love just people

1060
00:46:35,840 --> 00:46:37,000
Speaker 3: that we don't even ready perfect.

1061
00:46:37,040 --> 00:46:38,919
Speaker 1: I just needn't have awareness. So niggas can be real

1062
00:46:38,960 --> 00:46:40,680
Speaker 1: with each other, right, Like, can we be real with

1063
00:46:40,719 --> 00:46:45,080
Speaker 1: each other? Listen? It's true, Like it's such a testimony.

1064
00:46:45,200 --> 00:46:48,880
Speaker 2: It's such to just be honest about your journey, whatever

1065
00:46:48,920 --> 00:46:51,480
Speaker 2: the fuck that looks like, because everybody's gonna look different, right,

1066
00:46:52,080 --> 00:46:53,440
Speaker 2: not one person's gonna be the same.

1067
00:46:53,480 --> 00:46:54,920
Speaker 1: It's gonna look the same. But if we could just

1068
00:46:55,000 --> 00:46:55,800
Speaker 1: see each.

1069
00:46:55,600 --> 00:46:58,160
Speaker 2: Other in those journeys and like, I'm a little weird,

1070
00:46:58,239 --> 00:46:59,600
Speaker 2: I told dress with the other day, I was like

1071
00:47:00,040 --> 00:47:01,440
Speaker 2: when I was at when I was.

1072
00:47:01,360 --> 00:47:03,799
Speaker 1: At Ashley's house overstaying my welcome, I was like, you

1073
00:47:03,800 --> 00:47:05,319
Speaker 1: were not? I was like, does she want me to come?

1074
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:07,480
Speaker 2: I always I'm always thinking that I'm like bothering people.

1075
00:47:07,480 --> 00:47:08,600
Speaker 2: And then that's how I was like, I think you're

1076
00:47:08,600 --> 00:47:10,640
Speaker 2: like four hours, She's probably like, what the fun. So

1077
00:47:10,640 --> 00:47:12,440
Speaker 2: then I texted I, like, what are you doing.

1078
00:47:14,680 --> 00:47:17,360
Speaker 1: My other friend? And she's like, I can tell the

1079
00:47:17,520 --> 00:47:18,239
Speaker 1: nanny that you're coming.

1080
00:47:18,280 --> 00:47:19,600
Speaker 2: Then I was like, damn minute, She's like I have

1081
00:47:19,640 --> 00:47:21,400
Speaker 2: to edit something, okay, And then I got anxiety, like

1082
00:47:21,520 --> 00:47:22,479
Speaker 2: my bothering her.

1083
00:47:24,640 --> 00:47:25,360
Speaker 1: A bother.

1084
00:47:27,640 --> 00:47:30,480
Speaker 3: And she's just laying out in my backyard like it's

1085
00:47:30,560 --> 00:47:32,880
Speaker 3: not a thing. I told her was like I loved

1086
00:47:32,880 --> 00:47:35,960
Speaker 3: it because we don't need anybody to entertain anyone.

1087
00:47:35,960 --> 00:47:37,960
Speaker 1: I didn't need her to entertain me, she needed to

1088
00:47:38,040 --> 00:47:39,520
Speaker 1: entertain her. We could just exist.

1089
00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:41,360
Speaker 2: But that's my anxiety. But then I could tell Ashley

1090
00:47:41,400 --> 00:47:43,880
Speaker 2: my first time knowing her, like I'm just overthinking, like

1091
00:47:43,880 --> 00:47:46,080
Speaker 2: should I stay? And I was telling Jessica like I

1092
00:47:46,080 --> 00:47:47,520
Speaker 2: didn't know if you really want me to come. She's like, bitch,

1093
00:47:47,520 --> 00:47:48,960
Speaker 2: I told you to come, I said to the address.

1094
00:47:49,000 --> 00:47:51,040
Speaker 2: I was like, I know I'll be tripping, and I'm

1095
00:47:51,120 --> 00:47:52,399
Speaker 2: just gonna tell me the same ship, you.

1096
00:47:52,320 --> 00:47:54,200
Speaker 1: Know, And I know she'd be have an anxiety, and

1097
00:47:54,239 --> 00:47:58,000
Speaker 1: it's just beautiful to just be sharing space with you ladies.

1098
00:47:58,160 --> 00:48:01,120
Speaker 2: And I think it's a testimony to everybody else who's

1099
00:48:01,160 --> 00:48:05,799
Speaker 2: pretending or compartmentalizing that you could like mix colors, bitch.

1100
00:48:05,560 --> 00:48:07,680
Speaker 1: And you can get wet. And the kids didn't bother me.

1101
00:48:07,760 --> 00:48:09,440
Speaker 3: So the whole time you're thinking to bother me, she

1102
00:48:09,560 --> 00:48:11,280
Speaker 3: was literally helping my life.

1103
00:48:12,400 --> 00:48:14,320
Speaker 1: She played with the Torries so Tory won't leave me

1104
00:48:14,320 --> 00:48:14,799
Speaker 1: then alone.

1105
00:48:14,800 --> 00:48:18,520
Speaker 3: You guys can see the Tory was with her and

1106
00:48:18,600 --> 00:48:21,400
Speaker 3: went for a walk. I got a TikTok done what

1107
00:48:22,280 --> 00:48:24,880
Speaker 3: I was like, I sat around and listened to Clubhouse,

1108
00:48:25,080 --> 00:48:25,560
Speaker 3: you know what I mean?

1109
00:48:25,719 --> 00:48:28,360
Speaker 1: Like, I was like, yo, this is a great fucking dance.

1110
00:48:28,560 --> 00:48:33,239
Speaker 1: She made us English fans. Yeah, her Polar day. I

1111
00:48:33,280 --> 00:48:35,080
Speaker 1: was like, she danced. I got a kick out of that.

1112
00:48:35,239 --> 00:48:37,600
Speaker 1: I know. I was watching I love sh so you're

1113
00:48:37,640 --> 00:48:39,640
Speaker 1: so good at it. I'm like, you are. I love

1114
00:48:39,719 --> 00:48:40,080
Speaker 1: that ship.

1115
00:48:40,360 --> 00:48:42,399
Speaker 3: It was inspiring too, you know, Like I'm like, oh,

1116
00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:44,239
Speaker 3: that was nice because it's fun to watch like other

1117
00:48:44,280 --> 00:48:45,720
Speaker 3: little fairies just like hop around.

1118
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:47,080
Speaker 1: Right. So she was like, ma, a little fair I

1119
00:48:47,120 --> 00:48:49,919
Speaker 1: was like, oh, I'm gonna dance maybe too. That's nice.

1120
00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:53,160
Speaker 1: She danced. I do have that pull up dance.

1121
00:48:53,239 --> 00:48:58,600
Speaker 2: Later given I was like, Mommy, can we go back

1122
00:48:58,600 --> 00:49:00,920
Speaker 2: to that girl's house with the Oh?

1123
00:49:01,000 --> 00:49:01,200
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1124
00:49:01,400 --> 00:49:03,920
Speaker 1: Like I was like, I love it. I was like,

1125
00:49:03,920 --> 00:49:05,160
Speaker 1: I know, I ordered darts Homeborn.

1126
00:49:07,920 --> 00:49:09,839
Speaker 2: I'm really like the first part is like I hope

1127
00:49:09,840 --> 00:49:12,000
Speaker 2: when I get it in the mail, like she's not home,

1128
00:49:12,320 --> 00:49:13,799
Speaker 2: because I know I have to share it.

1129
00:49:13,840 --> 00:49:16,000
Speaker 1: And I'm just like, how do you still feel about

1130
00:49:16,160 --> 00:49:16,800
Speaker 1: like sharing?

1131
00:49:16,920 --> 00:49:18,399
Speaker 3: Like, okay, obviously if you have to put a poll

1132
00:49:18,480 --> 00:49:20,560
Speaker 3: up like moons Ganana, are you not going to like

1133
00:49:21,040 --> 00:49:21,600
Speaker 3: share it?

1134
00:49:22,239 --> 00:49:24,520
Speaker 1: Well, I got over it. I mean I had it bad.

1135
00:49:24,560 --> 00:49:25,280
Speaker 1: I had experience.

1136
00:49:25,760 --> 00:49:28,120
Speaker 2: I had experience where I videoed her on a pole

1137
00:49:28,200 --> 00:49:30,960
Speaker 2: and like somebody's someone I know said something to me,

1138
00:49:31,040 --> 00:49:33,480
Speaker 2: text me, and I took it down because I didn't

1139
00:49:33,480 --> 00:49:36,000
Speaker 2: really want the I didn't really want the fight.

1140
00:49:36,080 --> 00:49:37,520
Speaker 1: I don't know. I just didn't think about it. I

1141
00:49:37,719 --> 00:49:38,320
Speaker 1: just like whatever.

1142
00:49:39,200 --> 00:49:42,600
Speaker 2: But I just feel like it's so innocent for a child,

1143
00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:45,359
Speaker 2: and it's so unfair to like project and it's like.

1144
00:49:45,280 --> 00:49:46,840
Speaker 1: Do I have to put on the internet? No, I

1145
00:49:46,840 --> 00:49:48,200
Speaker 1: don't have to put it on the internet.

1146
00:49:48,239 --> 00:49:50,080
Speaker 2: But like she's not in a bikini taking one dollar

1147
00:49:50,160 --> 00:49:52,880
Speaker 2: bills from my friends on the side, Like it's a sport,

1148
00:49:52,920 --> 00:49:55,319
Speaker 2: it's it's a form of dance, and I encouraged like

1149
00:49:55,520 --> 00:49:58,480
Speaker 2: expression and body and expression and dance I want her

1150
00:49:58,480 --> 00:50:00,799
Speaker 2: also to do aerial like I want. I think like

1151
00:50:00,840 --> 00:50:02,880
Speaker 2: I would do That's something that we could do together,

1152
00:50:03,400 --> 00:50:05,680
Speaker 2: just like if we would learn Spanish together, or you know,

1153
00:50:05,800 --> 00:50:06,640
Speaker 2: learn history together.

1154
00:50:06,680 --> 00:50:08,720
Speaker 1: I think it's like the exploration of body.

1155
00:50:08,760 --> 00:50:10,840
Speaker 2: And I see her doing that and like mimickating with

1156
00:50:11,000 --> 00:50:14,640
Speaker 2: music and like just being like theatrical and feeling the music,

1157
00:50:14,680 --> 00:50:17,280
Speaker 2: and I just think, Wow, how powerful of a gift,

1158
00:50:17,400 --> 00:50:19,080
Speaker 2: you know, like for her to just be in tune

1159
00:50:19,080 --> 00:50:21,920
Speaker 2: with like that, you know, just to kind of meditate

1160
00:50:21,960 --> 00:50:25,200
Speaker 2: in that way and express herself. So yeah, like, fuck everybody.

1161
00:50:25,200 --> 00:50:26,400
Speaker 2: If I feel like putting it on and she does,

1162
00:50:26,719 --> 00:50:29,080
Speaker 2: she's gonna be the bomb. By the time she's like ten,

1163
00:50:29,200 --> 00:50:32,200
Speaker 2: she says, Yeah, she's the bomb, you know. So I

1164
00:50:32,360 --> 00:50:35,960
Speaker 2: just yeah, I'm just gonna let life be and worry

1165
00:50:35,960 --> 00:50:37,879
Speaker 2: about myself and find everybody.

1166
00:50:37,600 --> 00:50:41,720
Speaker 1: Cracking up to be torking and I be laughing so hard.

1167
00:50:42,280 --> 00:50:45,399
Speaker 1: She Hanon's really the dancer though she Hadnon's really good.

1168
00:50:45,400 --> 00:50:47,120
Speaker 1: She'd be moving her a little wire, I'd be cracking.

1169
00:50:47,560 --> 00:50:50,200
Speaker 2: Isn't it amazing to see children like just move their

1170
00:50:50,239 --> 00:50:51,799
Speaker 2: bodies to like to the be.

1171
00:50:51,960 --> 00:50:53,560
Speaker 1: It's such an expression. I love that.

1172
00:50:53,600 --> 00:50:56,240
Speaker 3: Shit we have dance parties all the time. Dance parties

1173
00:50:56,239 --> 00:50:58,040
Speaker 3: is life. I can't get through my days without a

1174
00:50:58,080 --> 00:50:58,560
Speaker 3: dance party.

1175
00:50:58,719 --> 00:51:00,600
Speaker 1: Seriously, did you always think you have two daughters?

1176
00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:01,000
Speaker 2: No?

1177
00:51:01,320 --> 00:51:03,239
Speaker 1: And people ask me, do I want a son? Absolutely not.

1178
00:51:03,400 --> 00:51:05,399
Speaker 1: If I had another baby, I want another little girl. Yeah.

1179
00:51:05,920 --> 00:51:09,960
Speaker 3: I love having I love having people like, oh, but

1180
00:51:10,080 --> 00:51:11,680
Speaker 3: you want a boy to be like this nigga be

1181
00:51:11,800 --> 00:51:12,319
Speaker 3: on top of.

1182
00:51:12,280 --> 00:51:13,839
Speaker 1: You and they're gonna want you to even next day.

1183
00:51:13,880 --> 00:51:16,160
Speaker 1: I was like, that's what the tories like that. I

1184
00:51:16,160 --> 00:51:17,120
Speaker 1: don't understand what you're saying.

1185
00:51:17,120 --> 00:51:18,600
Speaker 3: If like you write the stories like that, Like she's

1186
00:51:18,640 --> 00:51:20,680
Speaker 3: my rough one. She doesn't want jumping off her tables,

1187
00:51:20,960 --> 00:51:23,520
Speaker 3: climbing everything. And it's funny because everybody used to cry

1188
00:51:23,600 --> 00:51:25,200
Speaker 3: just like, oh, that's your little stood right there. I'm

1189
00:51:25,200 --> 00:51:27,359
Speaker 3: like telling my baby that she'd get a whole ass

1190
00:51:27,480 --> 00:51:32,560
Speaker 3: nigga baby.

1191
00:51:32,640 --> 00:51:35,160
Speaker 1: And I was like, and.

1192
00:51:35,120 --> 00:51:37,360
Speaker 3: It's so funny because she loves dressing up and she

1193
00:51:37,360 --> 00:51:39,520
Speaker 3: does mind me looking like them's so pretty.

1194
00:51:39,600 --> 00:51:41,680
Speaker 1: And then it throws everybody off. My best friend be like,

1195
00:51:41,719 --> 00:51:43,120
Speaker 1: I just knew she was gonna want to be a

1196
00:51:43,120 --> 00:51:46,640
Speaker 1: little time. I said, she's three, right, like relax, people

1197
00:51:46,840 --> 00:51:49,759
Speaker 1: love because she had a little, deep raspy voice.

1198
00:51:49,760 --> 00:51:51,399
Speaker 3: I'm like, the only reason she has a raspy voice

1199
00:51:51,400 --> 00:51:52,520
Speaker 3: is because she cries too much.

1200
00:51:52,600 --> 00:51:56,480
Speaker 1: That's trauma that you're listening to. That's not just that's

1201
00:51:56,520 --> 00:51:59,080
Speaker 1: a little raspy. No, it's trauma. It was not like that.

1202
00:51:59,400 --> 00:52:01,960
Speaker 1: And it came back right, and I was like.

1203
00:52:01,920 --> 00:52:10,200
Speaker 3: She had a beautiful little soft voice, and you're hearing

1204
00:52:10,239 --> 00:52:13,399
Speaker 3: trauma in the vocal courts, so now it's like that, right,

1205
00:52:13,480 --> 00:52:18,480
Speaker 3: So the screen screened it out, and beautiful little she was.

1206
00:52:18,520 --> 00:52:20,840
Speaker 3: It was really sweet and every and it's just so

1207
00:52:20,960 --> 00:52:23,000
Speaker 3: quickly I people forgot and I had to bring them back, like,

1208
00:52:23,040 --> 00:52:26,959
Speaker 3: you're right, I'll never forget. When it went out, I

1209
00:52:27,160 --> 00:52:31,640
Speaker 3: remember everyone screamed so bad because I was trying to

1210
00:52:31,680 --> 00:52:33,600
Speaker 3: hurryup and finish the dishes, and I really needed to

1211
00:52:33,600 --> 00:52:35,600
Speaker 3: finish the dishes, like I really wanted to clean out

1212
00:52:35,640 --> 00:52:39,000
Speaker 3: that sink, and so she sat there hollering and then

1213
00:52:39,120 --> 00:52:40,160
Speaker 3: I was like, story, I.

1214
00:52:40,160 --> 00:52:42,279
Speaker 1: Told you what, I'm almost done. So then all of

1215
00:52:42,280 --> 00:52:43,560
Speaker 1: a sudden, it was like and then it went to

1216
00:52:45,960 --> 00:52:50,279
Speaker 1: it hit one of those and it was a rap

1217
00:52:50,400 --> 00:52:51,480
Speaker 1: after that rap.

1218
00:52:51,520 --> 00:52:57,160
Speaker 7: After that, everyone was like, oh my gosh, she's so cute.

1219
00:52:57,400 --> 00:52:59,960
Speaker 7: I said, no, it's not cute. I said, this is trauma.

1220
00:53:00,160 --> 00:53:02,279
Speaker 7: You guys are reminding me of that moment. I said,

1221
00:53:02,320 --> 00:53:03,680
Speaker 7: this is pain in her voice.

1222
00:53:03,760 --> 00:53:04,000
Speaker 1: Right.

1223
00:53:04,719 --> 00:53:09,040
Speaker 3: So then then it came back. It came back, I

1224
00:53:09,080 --> 00:53:10,720
Speaker 3: want to say, maybe a few months ago.

1225
00:53:11,200 --> 00:53:12,799
Speaker 1: And I was like, oh my god. I was like,

1226
00:53:12,800 --> 00:53:16,719
Speaker 1: the little voice came back. Was vacuuming.

1227
00:53:17,200 --> 00:53:19,440
Speaker 3: She didn't want me to vacuum, and I'm thinking, like,

1228
00:53:19,480 --> 00:53:21,439
Speaker 3: it's back now. Should be fine, y'all are cracker funk

1229
00:53:21,520 --> 00:53:24,839
Speaker 3: doesn't really happen. So I'm vacuuming, and apparently she needed

1230
00:53:24,880 --> 00:53:27,520
Speaker 3: to be touched at that moment, and I said, I really.

1231
00:53:27,320 --> 00:53:29,440
Speaker 1: Want to vacuum in and she hit me one more

1232
00:53:29,480 --> 00:53:35,120
Speaker 1: time with the and then they went to and here

1233
00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:37,880
Speaker 1: we are. We're back here now. Maybe this time she

1234
00:53:37,880 --> 00:53:40,360
Speaker 1: she'll remember if it comes back this maybe she was

1235
00:53:40,360 --> 00:53:41,120
Speaker 1: a little throat coat.

1236
00:53:41,239 --> 00:53:41,439
Speaker 6: Yeah.

1237
00:53:43,400 --> 00:53:44,600
Speaker 1: I hate it because we'd be like, oh my god,

1238
00:53:44,640 --> 00:53:47,479
Speaker 1: I love her a little raspy voice, drink some lemon in ny.

1239
00:53:47,520 --> 00:53:49,239
Speaker 2: She'll be like, oh, I'm like, now that I know,

1240
00:53:49,400 --> 00:53:50,919
Speaker 2: I can never hear her little brassy voice.

1241
00:53:51,120 --> 00:53:52,719
Speaker 1: Say oh my god, I thought a little bass voice,

1242
00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:55,719
Speaker 1: so damn cute. That's what she's like. Is this suck

1243
00:53:56,719 --> 00:54:02,080
Speaker 1: that one? There's there's pain there. Oh my god, you're right.

1244
00:54:02,960 --> 00:54:04,880
Speaker 1: Let me not remind you of child's trauma.

1245
00:54:05,280 --> 00:54:09,440
Speaker 3: I really changes to her, haven't changed the subject. I'm like,

1246
00:54:09,600 --> 00:54:11,840
Speaker 3: is this I know that I didn't do cry it

1247
00:54:11,840 --> 00:54:14,960
Speaker 3: out right in my head right like this isn't But

1248
00:54:15,239 --> 00:54:17,120
Speaker 3: I have to tell myself it was okay actually that

1249
00:54:17,239 --> 00:54:18,000
Speaker 3: she wanted to finish.

1250
00:54:17,800 --> 00:54:20,640
Speaker 1: Backing that floor. It's okay. You didn't know that she was.

1251
00:54:21,239 --> 00:54:23,480
Speaker 1: I know she could take it that far. She took it.

1252
00:54:23,560 --> 00:54:25,320
Speaker 2: She takes it there, that's gonna be really lesson. And

1253
00:54:25,400 --> 00:54:27,919
Speaker 2: if I take it this far with either's repercussion.

1254
00:54:28,040 --> 00:54:30,440
Speaker 3: Sometimes she had dry lips and she was screaming so

1255
00:54:30,560 --> 00:54:33,440
Speaker 3: hard and this split and I tell HERM like, this

1256
00:54:33,480 --> 00:54:35,400
Speaker 3: is what happens when you scream this hard. You know,

1257
00:54:35,480 --> 00:54:37,880
Speaker 3: like you shouldn't be like that angry. So it's like

1258
00:54:37,920 --> 00:54:39,439
Speaker 3: you got a moisture and drink some water.

1259
00:54:39,640 --> 00:54:42,920
Speaker 2: The kids really be trying you, like I haven't tried

1260
00:54:43,480 --> 00:54:44,120
Speaker 2: this week.

1261
00:54:44,719 --> 00:54:47,560
Speaker 1: I mean really tried a lot of eye rolling, you know.

1262
00:54:47,760 --> 00:54:57,000
Speaker 3: And I'm just like, do you have any is a

1263
00:54:57,000 --> 00:54:57,319
Speaker 3: good one?

1264
00:54:57,360 --> 00:55:03,200
Speaker 1: Though I may b I mean, honestly, they're not.

1265
00:55:04,480 --> 00:55:07,760
Speaker 3: I mean, it's kind of like elementary horri I feel

1266
00:55:07,760 --> 00:55:10,960
Speaker 3: like that's not fair to say everybody's dying.

1267
00:55:11,000 --> 00:55:13,000
Speaker 1: That's not true. Okay, well let's just go first, take

1268
00:55:13,000 --> 00:55:15,120
Speaker 1: it for a spin. Let's do it. It's not It

1269
00:55:15,160 --> 00:55:17,800
Speaker 1: wasn't even like a group of What happened.

1270
00:55:17,680 --> 00:55:21,480
Speaker 3: Was I was like having sex with this one guy

1271
00:55:23,120 --> 00:55:28,600
Speaker 3: and he was on a fraternity but then at the

1272
00:55:28,680 --> 00:55:30,359
Speaker 3: same time, okay, well it didn't start there.

1273
00:55:30,360 --> 00:55:34,520
Speaker 1: Wait, So what happened was I had.

1274
00:55:34,400 --> 00:55:36,960
Speaker 3: This one boyfriend who was in the fraternity, right, and

1275
00:55:37,000 --> 00:55:39,840
Speaker 3: then we broke good because he was like cheating on me.

1276
00:55:40,000 --> 00:55:42,319
Speaker 3: And then so my friend who was on the other

1277
00:55:42,400 --> 00:55:48,440
Speaker 3: fraternity was had a uh like one of his his

1278
00:55:48,760 --> 00:55:51,400
Speaker 3: like he was the ADP.

1279
00:55:51,680 --> 00:55:52,960
Speaker 1: So he was lily Dance. So he had you know,

1280
00:55:53,000 --> 00:55:55,280
Speaker 1: some people online. He was like listen. He was like, actually,

1281
00:55:55,320 --> 00:55:56,200
Speaker 1: I know what you need, right.

1282
00:55:56,280 --> 00:55:58,640
Speaker 3: He's like, you meet so and so, y'all need to

1283
00:55:58,640 --> 00:56:02,239
Speaker 3: come together and y'all to have sex, and that we

1284
00:56:02,440 --> 00:56:04,920
Speaker 3: need to have sex. He's like, you guys like you

1285
00:56:05,600 --> 00:56:06,440
Speaker 3: it was a dick appointment.

1286
00:56:06,760 --> 00:56:09,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, He like no, like the dean had set it up.

1287
00:56:09,920 --> 00:56:12,200
Speaker 3: He's like you you you guys, you guys need to

1288
00:56:12,480 --> 00:56:14,839
Speaker 3: know what trigger us out right, So I was like

1289
00:56:15,000 --> 00:56:16,640
Speaker 3: I thought, I remember being so like, oh my god,

1290
00:56:16,760 --> 00:56:19,440
Speaker 3: like hi, you know, like we were like in the

1291
00:56:19,480 --> 00:56:21,480
Speaker 3: student center, it's like open public area.

1292
00:56:21,520 --> 00:56:23,479
Speaker 1: But somehow that then related us to.

1293
00:56:23,440 --> 00:56:25,640
Speaker 3: Us having a sexual relationship where he would like come

1294
00:56:25,640 --> 00:56:26,920
Speaker 3: over and at a time I guess he had a

1295
00:56:26,960 --> 00:56:28,880
Speaker 3: girlfriend that he was in an auto too, and he

1296
00:56:28,920 --> 00:56:33,200
Speaker 3: would come to my apartment and we would do the dude,

1297
00:56:33,280 --> 00:56:36,520
Speaker 3: and then somehow what happened was I then started sucking

1298
00:56:36,520 --> 00:56:42,520
Speaker 3: the dean, no, the one that set them up, the

1299
00:56:42,520 --> 00:56:45,799
Speaker 3: guy who had set you guys up, And then we start.

1300
00:56:46,800 --> 00:56:52,920
Speaker 1: Right and then it became this really like weird space

1301
00:56:53,400 --> 00:56:54,080
Speaker 1: of like.

1302
00:56:56,080 --> 00:56:58,960
Speaker 3: Sort of kind of like going back and forth, and

1303
00:56:59,000 --> 00:57:02,360
Speaker 3: then they just not want to talk about it because

1304
00:57:02,360 --> 00:57:06,560
Speaker 3: they both really liked me. Y'all were like having sex

1305
00:57:06,600 --> 00:57:10,320
Speaker 3: with him on Monday, having sex with him on Tuesday Wednesday.

1306
00:57:10,320 --> 00:57:15,320
Speaker 1: If my mind, it wasn't like that. In my mind,

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00:57:15,360 --> 00:57:17,280
Speaker 1: it was like we would have our run and then

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00:57:17,280 --> 00:57:20,520
Speaker 1: it would pause and then and then we would have

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Speaker 1: our run.

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Speaker 3: I don't know, and then because it was like people's

1311
00:57:24,880 --> 00:57:26,240
Speaker 3: feelings were getting caught up in it.

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Speaker 1: I remember like he got so mad.

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Speaker 3: He was like I can't believe you're fucking my like

1314
00:57:31,560 --> 00:57:35,360
Speaker 3: my bro like my dean, and then I just and

1315
00:57:35,360 --> 00:57:37,160
Speaker 3: then I remember we did some like weirdo ship to show.

1316
00:57:37,200 --> 00:57:39,680
Speaker 3: He was like having a temper tantrum about it, and

1317
00:57:39,720 --> 00:57:41,320
Speaker 3: I was like, well, you have a whole girlfriend, this

1318
00:57:41,360 --> 00:57:46,000
Speaker 3: is weird, right, And then I don't that's about as like,

1319
00:57:46,080 --> 00:57:48,520
Speaker 3: I guess, as really hoary as it gets where I

1320
00:57:48,640 --> 00:57:54,880
Speaker 3: was like actively participating in fucking a line like a

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Speaker 3: two of like fraternity brothers.

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Speaker 1: I feel like that was I feel like everybody was

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00:57:58,560 --> 00:57:59,919
Speaker 1: doing that. You pimp.

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00:58:00,320 --> 00:58:02,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, I don't know, or maybe I was just being

1325
00:58:02,240 --> 00:58:04,840
Speaker 3: a hell like but they were like I don't know,

1326
00:58:04,920 --> 00:58:07,680
Speaker 3: because everyone was like well, and then it became drama

1327
00:58:08,000 --> 00:58:11,560
Speaker 3: like big beef between that returning against the other fraternity

1328
00:58:11,600 --> 00:58:13,680
Speaker 3: because then my ex was also still trying to fight

1329
00:58:13,720 --> 00:58:16,560
Speaker 3: for my affections as well. You just pop it in,

1330
00:58:17,080 --> 00:58:19,560
Speaker 3: so yeah, and then he was also like it was

1331
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Speaker 3: pretty it got intense like to where like niggas was

1332
00:58:23,280 --> 00:58:27,760
Speaker 3: like they were they were having nobody like yo. Because

1333
00:58:27,800 --> 00:58:29,960
Speaker 3: then they tried to get like all the lbs to

1334
00:58:30,000 --> 00:58:32,120
Speaker 3: go against the other like fraternity, and it was like

1335
00:58:32,160 --> 00:58:35,320
Speaker 3: all over me because I was starting ship because I

1336
00:58:35,360 --> 00:58:38,320
Speaker 3: was fucking everybody, not everything.

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Speaker 1: Yeah, but it wasn't like at the time, it wasn't

1338
00:58:41,640 --> 00:58:43,840
Speaker 1: like I don't know. I mean I look at him like, oh,

1339
00:58:43,880 --> 00:58:46,160
Speaker 1: that was some really hoary shit. I guess, well that's

1340
00:58:46,200 --> 00:58:47,280
Speaker 1: some fucking twenty ship.

1341
00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:50,560
Speaker 3: I was fucking everybody. And also you like, who doesn't

1342
00:58:50,600 --> 00:58:52,560
Speaker 3: like that attention? You're like, who are you fighting over me?

1343
00:58:54,280 --> 00:58:57,080
Speaker 3: I know, like I was really in relationships with them though,

1344
00:58:57,160 --> 00:58:58,120
Speaker 3: Like I don't.

1345
00:58:58,000 --> 00:59:00,920
Speaker 1: Know, I think even funk about a relationship in fucking college.

1346
00:59:00,960 --> 00:59:04,040
Speaker 1: I was just like, oh, you're cute. Yeah. I didn't

1347
00:59:04,080 --> 00:59:05,920
Speaker 1: feel guilty about that at all. I don't even remember.

1348
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Speaker 3: Well, my school was small and if you were as

1349
00:59:09,280 --> 00:59:10,640
Speaker 3: soon as you had sex with somebody, you were having

1350
00:59:10,640 --> 00:59:11,200
Speaker 3: sex with somebody.

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00:59:11,200 --> 00:59:14,320
Speaker 1: They were all friends. It was so many I hate

1352
00:59:14,360 --> 00:59:18,720
Speaker 1: that school. What school? I don't tell anybody, Okay, never mind,

1353
00:59:19,120 --> 00:59:22,560
Speaker 1: that's mine at school. That's about It's like really hard.

1354
00:59:22,600 --> 00:59:24,560
Speaker 3: I can't think of anything else except now that I'm

1355
00:59:24,560 --> 00:59:25,680
Speaker 3: an actual whole asshole.

1356
00:59:29,120 --> 00:59:32,320
Speaker 1: Way to make a countback like doing it, you know,

1357
00:59:32,640 --> 00:59:35,320
Speaker 1: late in life lesbian and a late in life.

1358
00:59:35,440 --> 00:59:37,360
Speaker 3: And I'm very serious about it, Like how does your

1359
00:59:37,360 --> 00:59:39,000
Speaker 3: mom feel about the only time I don't know, like

1360
00:59:39,040 --> 00:59:41,440
Speaker 3: nobody says anything, but I'm very public. Right, no one

1361
00:59:41,480 --> 00:59:42,520
Speaker 3: says anything about it.

1362
00:59:43,160 --> 00:59:45,120
Speaker 1: Her mom did anything. Her mom's very seems like a

1363
00:59:45,200 --> 00:59:46,160
Speaker 1: very respectful lie.

1364
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Speaker 3: I don't know, like it's not a thing though, I mean,

1365
00:59:48,560 --> 00:59:50,000
Speaker 3: I can't imagine what they would say to me. I'm

1366
00:59:50,040 --> 00:59:53,240
Speaker 3: a whole girl asking with two kids, and I really

1367
00:59:53,360 --> 00:59:53,959
Speaker 3: don't care.

1368
00:59:54,280 --> 00:59:57,760
Speaker 1: Really. Also, I've become really.

1369
00:59:57,480 --> 01:00:01,080
Speaker 3: Good at like asking for money from my time, Like

1370
01:00:01,120 --> 01:00:03,240
Speaker 3: it's so funny, Like people on the online like, oh,

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01:00:03,560 --> 01:00:06,320
Speaker 3: put me do this, I'd be like, that's actually gonna

1372
01:00:06,360 --> 01:00:08,880
Speaker 3: cost so I need to you need to like pay

1373
01:00:08,920 --> 01:00:09,520
Speaker 3: me for my time.

1374
01:00:09,560 --> 01:00:11,560
Speaker 1: Like I love being able to feel so bossy and

1375
01:00:11,640 --> 01:00:13,520
Speaker 1: my value. Only fans has.

1376
01:00:13,440 --> 01:00:17,760
Speaker 3: Really taught me value, Like I love to be like no,

1377
01:00:17,840 --> 01:00:20,200
Speaker 3: this is not yeah, it's not free, Like it feels

1378
01:00:20,200 --> 01:00:24,280
Speaker 3: really good to like someone's like I'll pay you a

1379
01:00:24,320 --> 01:00:27,240
Speaker 3: thousand dollars. I'm like I gotta make that and like ghostep,

1380
01:00:27,360 --> 01:00:29,160
Speaker 3: you know, like try to try harder, you know, like.

1381
01:00:29,800 --> 01:00:34,280
Speaker 1: That feels really good to do that. You gotta ask

1382
01:00:34,320 --> 01:00:37,880
Speaker 1: for that money, baby, get that money. Baby, time is money.

1383
01:00:38,280 --> 01:00:41,120
Speaker 2: Energy is money, and if you don't ask, you'll never

1384
01:00:41,160 --> 01:00:41,520
Speaker 2: get it.

1385
01:00:41,840 --> 01:00:44,360
Speaker 1: Yeah, you'll never get it. How the fuck you just

1386
01:00:44,360 --> 01:00:46,439
Speaker 1: think someone's gonna give it to you right right?

1387
01:00:46,760 --> 01:00:49,680
Speaker 3: Like I really enjoy and dating is different too, and

1388
01:00:49,720 --> 01:00:51,400
Speaker 3: when they do give it to you, you'll wonder why

1389
01:00:51,440 --> 01:00:53,360
Speaker 3: the fuck it took so long. You'd be like, damn

1390
01:00:53,520 --> 01:00:55,320
Speaker 3: all this time, I'm gonna got this ship the fuck

1391
01:00:55,560 --> 01:00:57,160
Speaker 3: I think me and me love learned that a lot

1392
01:00:57,160 --> 01:01:00,920
Speaker 3: in our journey in like podcasting and you know, creating

1393
01:01:00,960 --> 01:01:03,440
Speaker 3: so much and being like what is the return on this?

1394
01:01:03,560 --> 01:01:05,960
Speaker 2: Like how like you know, like we're just telling our

1395
01:01:06,000 --> 01:01:07,240
Speaker 2: business every week endlessly?

1396
01:01:07,360 --> 01:01:12,680
Speaker 1: What the fuck have you done? Hold on? Why we

1397
01:01:12,720 --> 01:01:13,040
Speaker 1: do this?

1398
01:01:13,480 --> 01:01:13,600
Speaker 3: Right?

1399
01:01:13,840 --> 01:01:16,360
Speaker 1: Until you figure it out? You know, we're all learning.

1400
01:01:16,440 --> 01:01:18,680
Speaker 1: I'm like learning how to best like monetize myself in

1401
01:01:18,720 --> 01:01:19,480
Speaker 1: all spaces too.

1402
01:01:19,480 --> 01:01:23,360
Speaker 3: It's a journey, but definitely like you see that that

1403
01:01:23,720 --> 01:01:25,640
Speaker 3: people are willing to pay for it, and then you're like,

1404
01:01:25,680 --> 01:01:28,280
Speaker 3: why did I ever not put value on that?

1405
01:01:28,400 --> 01:01:31,680
Speaker 1: Right right? It's so funny somebody has it's something. I'm

1406
01:01:31,720 --> 01:01:33,520
Speaker 1: like this that's not a thing. These feet is crusty

1407
01:01:33,560 --> 01:01:35,840
Speaker 1: as fun, and that get the people give to me

1408
01:01:35,920 --> 01:01:38,000
Speaker 1: the best on my own like fans, I don't know,

1409
01:01:38,120 --> 01:01:39,040
Speaker 1: Petgrad ask you.

1410
01:01:39,040 --> 01:01:40,680
Speaker 3: I'll be walking around in f I'd be like, listen

1411
01:01:40,880 --> 01:01:42,560
Speaker 3: outdoor nature feed and they love that.

1412
01:01:42,600 --> 01:01:45,200
Speaker 1: Sh they love it. They love it.

1413
01:01:45,240 --> 01:01:47,400
Speaker 3: But when you do that, like when you step into

1414
01:01:47,440 --> 01:01:50,040
Speaker 3: that type of space, you love on your self.

1415
01:01:49,840 --> 01:01:52,640
Speaker 1: Redom like you can't tell me a mother, you're like.

1416
01:01:52,640 --> 01:01:54,200
Speaker 3: People be like, oh my god, you're a hand barre

1417
01:01:54,240 --> 01:01:56,160
Speaker 3: like bitch, and they pay good money to see it.

1418
01:01:56,280 --> 01:01:58,320
Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying, Like it's not a thing,

1419
01:01:58,720 --> 01:02:00,320
Speaker 3: Like you're not true and you know what you can

1420
01:02:00,440 --> 01:02:01,800
Speaker 3: and can do, Like I know what it is to

1421
01:02:01,920 --> 01:02:04,240
Speaker 3: like who I'm a bad Like I'm a problem when

1422
01:02:04,280 --> 01:02:07,880
Speaker 3: I draw these eyebrows in right, like draw when I

1423
01:02:08,000 --> 01:02:10,000
Speaker 3: when I fucking shave this ship on and put some

1424
01:02:10,240 --> 01:02:13,439
Speaker 3: highlight under here, I'm a problem. And I thought, what

1425
01:02:13,640 --> 01:02:16,080
Speaker 3: and I can dress I'm a problem when I put

1426
01:02:16,080 --> 01:02:19,760
Speaker 3: on a dress right. But there's I also know itice

1427
01:02:19,800 --> 01:02:22,440
Speaker 3: to like be like this and give hella femdom energy

1428
01:02:22,560 --> 01:02:28,920
Speaker 3: and everybody loves it. Right you okay, go ahead, should

1429
01:02:28,920 --> 01:02:31,440
Speaker 3: reach it. I don't know, she'll tell you. Let's wrap up,

1430
01:02:31,760 --> 01:02:35,120
Speaker 3: wrap up. But yes, I love all that. I love

1431
01:02:35,160 --> 01:02:37,320
Speaker 3: the you can have both, you can be everything you

1432
01:02:37,600 --> 01:02:40,160
Speaker 3: what's the affirmation again? I am one with I am

1433
01:02:41,120 --> 01:02:43,800
Speaker 3: with myself. But I even one this with myself.

1434
01:02:43,880 --> 01:02:44,200
Speaker 1: Whatever.

1435
01:02:44,320 --> 01:02:47,680
Speaker 3: That's what that is, that's encompassing.

1436
01:02:47,160 --> 01:02:51,479
Speaker 1: All parts of you. Talk about you guys are so cool.

1437
01:02:52,080 --> 01:02:53,240
Speaker 1: You're so cool. I love you.

1438
01:02:53,400 --> 01:02:55,840
Speaker 2: Thank you for cousining and hanging out with us. I

1439
01:02:55,880 --> 01:02:58,000
Speaker 2: always like when we find new moms in our neighborhood.

1440
01:02:58,000 --> 01:02:59,720
Speaker 2: We're friends with, like almost everybody to get to talk to.

1441
01:02:59,760 --> 01:03:02,280
Speaker 1: It's great. Yeah, tell Shannon to help you. Tell Shannon

1442
01:03:02,280 --> 01:03:05,360
Speaker 1: to help you. We're coming right now. Okay, so she's

1443
01:03:05,400 --> 01:03:07,000
Speaker 1: over it. This comes to this is about this is

1444
01:03:07,000 --> 01:03:11,360
Speaker 1: about the time where the kids get restless, shann I'm

1445
01:03:11,360 --> 01:03:12,160
Speaker 1: so excited to watch it.

1446
01:03:12,080 --> 01:03:13,760
Speaker 2: It doesn't matter what set of kids it is. It's

1447
01:03:13,760 --> 01:03:16,280
Speaker 2: about the same amount of time one podcast.

1448
01:03:17,040 --> 01:03:20,320
Speaker 3: Sure, well, thank you so much for coming on. Can

1449
01:03:20,360 --> 01:03:21,920
Speaker 3: you tell our people where defined you?

1450
01:03:22,280 --> 01:03:23,760
Speaker 1: Yes? Hi, names Ashley.

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01:03:23,840 --> 01:03:28,280
Speaker 3: You can find me on Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, uh only

1452
01:03:28,440 --> 01:03:29,960
Speaker 3: fans as mis.

1453
01:03:29,840 --> 01:03:32,200
Speaker 1: Rights a Way that's ms w R I g h

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01:03:32,280 --> 01:03:33,160
Speaker 1: T s w A Y.

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Speaker 3: I also have a natural skincareline, organic vegan, toxin free.

1456
01:03:37,280 --> 01:03:40,760
Speaker 3: It's called a firm skincare quality natural ingredients that you

1457
01:03:40,800 --> 01:03:43,439
Speaker 3: look in your best intentional uself, you manifest your best

1458
01:03:43,480 --> 01:03:47,080
Speaker 3: self because imagine what it is to wake up every

1459
01:03:47,160 --> 01:03:50,600
Speaker 3: day and bathe yourself or cleanse your face in enough,

1460
01:03:50,720 --> 01:03:53,120
Speaker 3: or to cleanse yourself in value, or to cleanse yourself

1461
01:03:53,160 --> 01:03:57,320
Speaker 3: in oneness. Right, moisturize yourself. Yes, yeah, it starts with that.

1462
01:03:57,480 --> 01:03:59,560
Speaker 3: You have to touch on yourself. It's have to love

1463
01:03:59,600 --> 01:03:59,960
Speaker 3: on yourself.

1464
01:04:00,280 --> 01:04:03,880
Speaker 1: Yes, yes, because like it doesn't matter, Like I'm really shifting.

1465
01:04:03,920 --> 01:04:06,120
Speaker 3: I really want us to shift the way we approach skincare,

1466
01:04:06,160 --> 01:04:09,160
Speaker 3: because you can spend hundreds of dollars on really expensive products,

1467
01:04:09,200 --> 01:04:10,760
Speaker 3: but if you don't love yourself, if you're not affirming

1468
01:04:10,800 --> 01:04:14,040
Speaker 3: yourself every day, doesn't fucking matter how it won't.

1469
01:04:14,080 --> 01:04:15,840
Speaker 1: It won't project that love that you need to see

1470
01:04:15,840 --> 01:04:16,400
Speaker 1: in the mirror.

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01:04:16,480 --> 01:04:19,720
Speaker 3: And so I really am saying you there are on

1472
01:04:19,800 --> 01:04:21,720
Speaker 3: the bottle, says I am, And it's for you to

1473
01:04:21,760 --> 01:04:23,720
Speaker 3: write your action word on there, like your.

1474
01:04:23,600 --> 01:04:25,600
Speaker 1: Affirmation word on there. And there was a stay.

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01:04:25,640 --> 01:04:29,960
Speaker 3: A Japanese person said that when you write words on liquid,

1476
01:04:29,960 --> 01:04:32,200
Speaker 3: it changes the molecular structure of the liquid.

1477
01:04:32,280 --> 01:04:34,040
Speaker 1: Right, I think there's a Japanese side. I can't remember

1478
01:04:34,120 --> 01:04:35,640
Speaker 1: his name currently at this time.

1479
01:04:36,440 --> 01:04:38,720
Speaker 3: So that's just what I'm bringing into that that every

1480
01:04:38,800 --> 01:04:42,400
Speaker 3: day ritual that intentional space to get up and affirm

1481
01:04:42,480 --> 01:04:45,480
Speaker 3: yourself in what it is that you need in that moment.

1482
01:04:45,640 --> 01:04:47,840
Speaker 3: So and then I need to go like I feel

1483
01:04:47,840 --> 01:04:49,440
Speaker 3: like I'm just motivated. First of all, I need some

1484
01:04:49,480 --> 01:04:51,400
Speaker 3: affirm I feel like I need to affirm my body.

1485
01:04:51,920 --> 01:04:54,360
Speaker 1: It is everything that I believe in and physical form.

1486
01:04:54,440 --> 01:04:54,880
Speaker 1: I love that.

1487
01:04:54,960 --> 01:04:57,000
Speaker 2: I love it too, and I tried it and it

1488
01:04:57,080 --> 01:04:59,520
Speaker 2: really fucking yes, it really fucking works.

1489
01:05:00,960 --> 01:05:02,840
Speaker 3: Well. You guys know where to find us that good

1490
01:05:02,840 --> 01:05:04,400
Speaker 3: mom's bad choices everywhere.

1491
01:05:05,040 --> 01:05:07,040
Speaker 1: Check out our Patreon. You need to come on our

1492
01:05:07,080 --> 01:05:10,760
Speaker 1: Close after Dark like our Friends after Friends.

1493
01:05:10,800 --> 01:05:12,240
Speaker 3: I would love that and then I would give me

1494
01:05:12,320 --> 01:05:15,040
Speaker 3: some time so I can like dull myself up.

1495
01:05:15,360 --> 01:05:17,440
Speaker 1: We have to show y'all what tites do you know

1496
01:05:17,480 --> 01:05:18,000
Speaker 1: what I'm saying.

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01:05:18,040 --> 01:05:19,800
Speaker 3: I'm like, maybe you can give us a only fan

1498
01:05:19,880 --> 01:05:26,480
Speaker 3: citatorial on the oh yeahs yes, because we have a

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01:05:26,520 --> 01:05:28,960
Speaker 3: segment on Patreon called Close Friends after Dark and that's

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01:05:29,000 --> 01:05:30,640
Speaker 3: where we you know, we bring our friends in and

1501
01:05:30,640 --> 01:05:31,200
Speaker 3: we have you.

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01:05:31,160 --> 01:05:36,360
Speaker 1: Know, I mean, Mela probably can hang with me.

1503
01:05:36,440 --> 01:05:38,800
Speaker 3: I don't know out here like this where it is

1504
01:05:38,880 --> 01:05:43,040
Speaker 3: really she really took her fanny's off, like you was like,

1505
01:05:43,040 --> 01:05:44,320
Speaker 3: how you do like, let me show you spread the

1506
01:05:44,320 --> 01:05:47,680
Speaker 3: ship right here, like and I'd be like really doing

1507
01:05:47,680 --> 01:05:49,320
Speaker 3: this right now, right now, I'm doing it.

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01:05:49,320 --> 01:05:51,960
Speaker 1: It's really happening. It's really happening.

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01:05:53,280 --> 01:05:55,040
Speaker 2: You're you're in the tribe where you can see who

1510
01:05:55,080 --> 01:05:58,400
Speaker 2: you are, fat and breast milk, so I.

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01:05:58,320 --> 01:05:58,800
Speaker 1: Know it's real.

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01:05:59,280 --> 01:06:10,320
Speaker 6: Yes, Shannon, help your sister get the apple juice, the

1513
01:06:10,400 --> 01:06:12,800
Speaker 6: trot that everybody loves to hear.

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01:06:15,200 --> 01:06:17,800
Speaker 1: Oh my god. Anyway, catch you guys.

1515
01:06:17,840 --> 01:06:21,040
Speaker 2: Hey, guys, have you joined Patreon, where we offer even

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01:06:21,320 --> 01:06:22,960
Speaker 2: more juicy content.

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01:06:23,320 --> 01:06:24,080
Speaker 1: Yes, y'all.

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01:06:24,120 --> 01:06:28,760
Speaker 3: We have a secret episodes, secret segments, and some very

1519
01:06:28,800 --> 01:06:32,160
Speaker 3: personal blog posts that we don't share on the interwebs.

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Speaker 3: So make sure you go check out our Patreon. That's

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Speaker 3: patreon dot com, backslash, Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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Speaker 2: Here's a little sneak peek.

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Speaker 8: All right, so this is how I deep throw. Okay,

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Speaker 8: So I'm gonna show you first and then I'm explaining.

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Speaker 1: Okay, Okay.

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Speaker 8: So I am not a person that has no gag

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Speaker 8: reflex or you know, like you have those throat GUIDs

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Speaker 8: where they just just shove anything down there and they

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Speaker 8: just go.

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Speaker 1: You know, I'm not one of those people. I had

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Speaker 1: to teach myself.

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Speaker 8: Had a deep girl, so ideally you either know how

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Speaker 8: or you don't, and if you don't, this.

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Speaker 1: Is your way to get into that door.

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Speaker 3: Okay, whoa, yeah, it's the last one for me.

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Speaker 2: That was a real quick warm up you had before

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Speaker 2: you came onre