WEBVTT - Episode 400: Get Where You're Going (Feat. Millyz) 0:00:02.200 --> 0:00:04.600 What up it is the service. I'm Angela Yee, I'm 0:00:04.680 --> 0:00:08.840 Jazz and a Brand, I'm Laura Mura, and I'm Millies Millis. 0:00:09.119 --> 0:00:12.040 Welcome Silip Service for the first time. Thank you. You're 0:00:12.080 --> 0:00:14.040 a virgin up here. How many tattoos do you have 0:00:14.640 --> 0:00:17.759 a lot of It's like one altogether, one all together? 0:00:18.120 --> 0:00:20.840 Do you know how many na? I started getting them? Like, 0:00:20.880 --> 0:00:22.480 I didn't get it out how people like wrap their 0:00:22.560 --> 0:00:25.919 arms and stuff like that. I started with like one, two, three, four, 0:00:26.720 --> 0:00:29.320 and then I just started wrapping everything making it cohesive. 0:00:29.520 --> 0:00:32.440 How much you think your body's worth in tattoos? Would 0:00:32.479 --> 0:00:35.640 you do? You know how much you spent um? Not 0:00:35.640 --> 0:00:40.479 not crazy, maybe like fifteen thousand or something, nothing crazy. 0:00:40.520 --> 0:00:41.960 How were you the first time you got a tattooed? 0:00:41.960 --> 0:00:44.600 And what was your first tattoo? Thirteen? Okay, I got 0:00:44.720 --> 0:00:46.920 I got this right here. It was like my little 0:00:47.000 --> 0:00:49.000 crew at the time. But I got it from a 0:00:49.040 --> 0:00:51.360 girl in the park. She had like Indian ink. You 0:00:51.400 --> 0:00:55.320 know what Indiana is. You put the na kind of 0:00:55.400 --> 0:00:57.160 but it's like you're putting it, but you really pairs 0:00:57.200 --> 0:00:58.840 on the skin. You put the needle, you dip the 0:00:58.920 --> 0:01:01.360 needle in the ink. Something I don't know if she 0:01:01.440 --> 0:01:03.440 was dipping the needle in the ink punctu from my 0:01:03.560 --> 0:01:07.680 skin puncture. She hit me in wild times and I 0:01:07.720 --> 0:01:10.280 had to try to hold it down and I ended 0:01:10.360 --> 0:01:12.200 up on I walked back to my house and I 0:01:12.240 --> 0:01:17.520 threw up in a bush, And yeah, I was one 0:01:17.520 --> 0:01:19.600 of my friends. We all got it at it because 0:01:19.600 --> 0:01:22.320 it was like our gang in this year. Everybody threw 0:01:22.400 --> 0:01:25.240 up the way I don't know, because we went off 0:01:25.280 --> 0:01:27.600 several ways. Yeah, everybody probably was like, oh thank god 0:01:27.640 --> 0:01:31.880 we split up. First tattoo was like that. I custom out. 0:01:32.720 --> 0:01:37.800 He was fourteen, yeah, like fourteen fifteen. He came home 0:01:37.840 --> 0:01:39.759 and he thought he was sick. He put LLLC long 0:01:39.840 --> 0:01:42.080 lived cold. My friend's daughter that passed away. But it 0:01:42.120 --> 0:01:44.360 was he did it right here, and it's kind. But 0:01:44.360 --> 0:01:46.520 you can't get mad for the rp's hat, right. That's 0:01:46.840 --> 0:01:49.240 my second time was another r pizza. I went big 0:01:49.440 --> 0:01:53.200 my best friend. My mother can't tell me nothing right 0:01:53.200 --> 0:01:55.360 there because my mom really don't like tattoos. I got 0:01:55.400 --> 0:01:58.440 all you still don't care now? I did, though, like 0:01:58.480 --> 0:02:00.920 I really paste it for her, this is facing it. 0:02:01.640 --> 0:02:05.160 I paced it until she accepted it, like I would 0:02:05.160 --> 0:02:07.760 have been blasted my neck and blasted my face if 0:02:07.760 --> 0:02:10.480 it was up to me. But as my success grew, 0:02:10.520 --> 0:02:13.200 and I'm like mom, never getting I'm not going to 0:02:13.280 --> 0:02:17.560 be working in corporate yeah, going to get anymore? Um yeah, 0:02:17.600 --> 0:02:21.000 but like like I gotta still do my ribs and stuff. Okay, 0:02:21.440 --> 0:02:23.000 what did your mom want you to do? Like in 0:02:23.040 --> 0:02:27.440 her head, what was ideal? Nothing? I thought you was 0:02:27.480 --> 0:02:32.440 talking about tattoo. She said you had to let her 0:02:32.480 --> 0:02:34.639 know you wasn't, you know, gonna get a corporate job. 0:02:34.680 --> 0:02:37.560 But what in her head did she think you were 0:02:37.560 --> 0:02:40.680 going to be. I don't know. I got in trouble 0:02:40.800 --> 0:02:42.960 so fast that I think she just wanted me to 0:02:43.000 --> 0:02:45.840 do anything but be in trouble. I don't care what 0:02:45.880 --> 0:02:48.240 you do. Yeah, for real, Because she really wanted me 0:02:48.240 --> 0:02:50.640 to go to college, but I was always in like 0:02:50.680 --> 0:02:53.320 special education, so she kind of knew that college was 0:02:53.400 --> 0:02:57.359 out of the realm of possibilities. You know. And you 0:02:57.400 --> 0:03:00.880 are from Cambridge, Massachusetts. Yeah, and that's where Harvard is 0:03:00.919 --> 0:03:04.640 by the way. Yeah. Yeah, she probably was like my 0:03:04.680 --> 0:03:10.880 son going to Harvard? Yeah maybe, how fire is Cambridge 0:03:10.880 --> 0:03:13.720 from Boston? Because I know everybody thinks Massachusetts automatically, It's 0:03:13.760 --> 0:03:16.600 like Boston. I mean Cambridge is like, like, so, you 0:03:16.639 --> 0:03:19.400 ever been to the TV Garden in Boston with Boston 0:03:19.440 --> 0:03:22.800 Celtics play? Yeah, I have. It's like two minutes from there. Ah, 0:03:22.800 --> 0:03:24.480 the being from New York, you feel like I can't 0:03:24.480 --> 0:03:29.840 really be in Bostonston games like that, not the Celtics. Now, 0:03:29.840 --> 0:03:32.400 it was like five minutes from Boston. Now, Milly's you 0:03:32.520 --> 0:03:37.480 was telling me that we did meet previously in Atlanta? 0:03:37.560 --> 0:03:42.240 What happened that I remember this night? So go ahead, 0:03:42.480 --> 0:03:46.400 that's crazy that you remember that, m Dam. That was 0:03:46.440 --> 0:03:49.840 like like All Star Weekend or b T Weeknd something 0:03:49.880 --> 0:03:52.560 like that. And I was real young and I was 0:03:52.600 --> 0:03:56.880 in I was in yeah club Compound, I believe, and 0:03:56.920 --> 0:03:58.680 it was mass stars. It was my first time being 0:03:58.720 --> 0:04:01.600 in the club with like old D stars, like you know, 0:04:01.640 --> 0:04:03.120 I don't want to say who was there because it 0:04:03.200 --> 0:04:05.920 got crazy. But the club got shot up and everybody 0:04:05.960 --> 0:04:09.320 had to run out and get evacuated. And while everybody's 0:04:09.400 --> 0:04:13.200 running out, I saw you and I'm like, yo, I 0:04:13.280 --> 0:04:15.520 know we're running and it's like a shooting in there 0:04:15.600 --> 0:04:20.320 right now. But I'm a big fan of yours. Was 0:04:20.360 --> 0:04:26.040 that nice? Yeah? You were super cool? Was drunk? I 0:04:26.080 --> 0:04:28.640 think she was blasted up. I remember that night because 0:04:28.640 --> 0:04:30.920 I think I had on white and somebody like spilled 0:04:30.960 --> 0:04:34.479 a drink on me. Probably, Yeah, So you know the 0:04:34.520 --> 0:04:36.280 things you remember, right, I could never wear that out, 0:04:36.600 --> 0:04:38.520 and I think it's it was grand New So yeah, 0:04:38.560 --> 0:04:42.920 shout out to club Compound. Shoot out the club Compound. 0:04:42.960 --> 0:04:46.440 But let's talk about your trajectory as an artist, and 0:04:46.440 --> 0:04:47.880 then you know, we got to get into your personal 0:04:47.880 --> 0:04:53.240 business because it's his lip service, right. Yeah. So you've 0:04:53.240 --> 0:04:54.880 been knowing you wanted to do music since you were 0:04:55.240 --> 0:04:58.760 a young in right. Do you remember what your early 0:04:58.880 --> 0:05:04.320 raps were like and what you were talking about. Mm? Yeah, 0:05:04.360 --> 0:05:07.520 I was like talking about like low level drug dealing 0:05:07.560 --> 0:05:12.760 and shit like that, but like emotional pain. Yeah, I 0:05:12.800 --> 0:05:14.600 was rapping about what I was doing. I started like 0:05:14.640 --> 0:05:16.600 selling weed young, So you know you're gonna rap about 0:05:16.760 --> 0:05:19.040 I was looking at it like like wrappings like an 0:05:19.040 --> 0:05:21.719 action movie sometimes. So you're naturally gonna think of the 0:05:21.800 --> 0:05:25.960 most intense things in your life, extreme things in your life, 0:05:26.000 --> 0:05:28.040 you know. So whatever you got going on with your 0:05:28.040 --> 0:05:30.400 most extreme moments, yet, your mind is gonna drift to 0:05:30.480 --> 0:05:34.000 those and you're gonna, you know, put that into the music. 0:05:34.040 --> 0:05:35.839 So at the time, I was just rapping about whatever 0:05:35.920 --> 0:05:37.600 is the most extreme to me and trying to put 0:05:37.640 --> 0:05:40.640 some similes and metaphors and bar work together. Yeah, could 0:05:40.640 --> 0:05:44.920 you really care about lyrics? Everybody's not like that. Yeah, 0:05:45.040 --> 0:05:48.560 everybody's not like that at all. Yeah, I feel like 0:05:49.200 --> 0:05:51.440 you feel you feel like you didn't get a lot 0:05:51.480 --> 0:05:56.520 of support locally at first, um, like as far as 0:05:56.560 --> 0:05:58.440 a radio and I mean I didn't get a lot 0:05:58.480 --> 0:06:02.800 of supporting nationally n nowhere. Why do you think that is? 0:06:03.880 --> 0:06:07.960 I think maybe people got like preconceived notions in me 0:06:08.000 --> 0:06:11.240 and something like that. Yeah, it's just a different thing, 0:06:11.240 --> 0:06:13.560 like what I'm trying to do. People. Let's see, like 0:06:13.560 --> 0:06:15.479 a white kid, Like even how I talk like on 0:06:15.520 --> 0:06:17.720 the internet, sometimes people are like, oh my god, it's 0:06:17.800 --> 0:06:20.480 accent and shit, like it would be like white people 0:06:20.480 --> 0:06:22.520 that like living the mountains and shit. You know, I'm 0:06:22.560 --> 0:06:25.479 from a different neighborhood, so I just speak like everybody 0:06:25.520 --> 0:06:28.040 that I've been around, shit like that. So I think 0:06:28.040 --> 0:06:30.680 it's pretty much just preconceived notions and maybe they just 0:06:30.720 --> 0:06:32.240 don't understand it, you know what I mean. Because I'm 0:06:32.240 --> 0:06:34.600 trying to people that early on, who are artists that 0:06:34.680 --> 0:06:37.800 gravitated towards you. Oh hell yeah, like the streets and 0:06:37.800 --> 0:06:40.400 like my neighborhood and like everybody always fucked with me, 0:06:40.480 --> 0:06:42.479 like all like rapper. If I ever got in front 0:06:42.480 --> 0:06:44.440 of a rapper in life, it was like, oh no, 0:06:44.560 --> 0:06:46.640 you hard. I've never been in front of a rapper ever. 0:06:46.680 --> 0:06:49.520 That's like heard my ship and be like nah right, 0:06:49.880 --> 0:06:52.200 like I mean like a hundred four hundred. Like so 0:06:52.240 --> 0:06:54.800 I knew like I was validated, like in the streets 0:06:54.920 --> 0:06:56.720 or even when a lot of even me growing up 0:06:56.720 --> 0:06:58.320 like Pete, I was one of the only white boys 0:06:58.360 --> 0:07:00.560 people are rapped. Little white boy. I heard you could 0:07:00.600 --> 0:07:02.600 rap and I'm just rapping, like like you could pull 0:07:02.680 --> 0:07:04.480 my string and I'm just wrapping, you know what I mean. 0:07:05.480 --> 0:07:08.720 So um, I was getting that validation. But what was 0:07:08.760 --> 0:07:11.120 the question? Oh, I was just talking about other artists 0:07:11.120 --> 0:07:13.720 actually did, like Jada Kiss, Oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, 0:07:13.760 --> 0:07:17.400 yeah yeah. Actually, what's your situation with so Raspy? So 0:07:17.720 --> 0:07:22.800 I met Kiss in two thousand and like fifteen, fourteen, 0:07:22.880 --> 0:07:24.880 fifteen something like that when I moved to New York 0:07:25.720 --> 0:07:28.640 and I did a record with him in two thousand 0:07:28.600 --> 0:07:32.320 and sixteen something like that. And you know ice Pick 0:07:32.440 --> 0:07:35.520 j yeah, rest in peace. Ice Peck j He was 0:07:35.560 --> 0:07:37.880 the one who told Kiss like, now this kid could sing, 0:07:37.920 --> 0:07:39.440 he could rap, he could do all of that. Ice 0:07:39.440 --> 0:07:42.640 Ship put him down with the imprint. So just from 0:07:42.720 --> 0:07:44.840 there and me and Kiss started. You know, he put 0:07:44.840 --> 0:07:47.240 his arm around me, but pretty much just you know, 0:07:47.600 --> 0:07:50.120 had me go fem for myself too, like, you know, 0:07:50.200 --> 0:07:52.360 go figure it out. But I'm there if you need 0:07:52.440 --> 0:07:54.120 me type shit. I heard you was supposed to be 0:07:54.160 --> 0:07:56.400 on Love and Hip Hop at one point. Yeah, can 0:07:56.440 --> 0:07:59.000 you tell us about what happened? Yeah, yeah, I got 0:07:59.000 --> 0:08:01.280 casted for loving him. It would have been it would 0:08:01.280 --> 0:08:02.800 have been one of the worst things that happened to 0:08:02.840 --> 0:08:05.920 me though. Why you say that New York? Yeah, all right. 0:08:05.960 --> 0:08:08.240 So at the time, like I have been rapping for 0:08:08.280 --> 0:08:11.960 so long, and I'm like, damn, something I gotta give, 0:08:12.160 --> 0:08:16.480 like something I was like, And so I convinced myself 0:08:16.480 --> 0:08:18.760 in my mind, I'm like, all right, something's gonna shake 0:08:18.880 --> 0:08:22.640 with this, Like I'm gonna be able to get a 0:08:22.760 --> 0:08:27.000 national audience yea, and they're gonna let me be in 0:08:27.000 --> 0:08:29.160 the studio and show my rapping skills off. That was 0:08:29.160 --> 0:08:32.680 in my mind, like it wasn't gonna happen everybody. Yeah, 0:08:32.720 --> 0:08:35.920 so doesn't happen like that I signed up with this girl. 0:08:36.280 --> 0:08:38.480 It would have been like, well, y'all really dating or 0:08:38.559 --> 0:08:40.440 was in a situation where you're trying to pretend y'all 0:08:40.559 --> 0:08:44.680 was dating? Yeah, Like yeah, somebody, somebody kind of like, 0:08:44.840 --> 0:08:47.120 you know, put us together type shit. Did she end 0:08:47.200 --> 0:08:49.959 up on the show? Nah? Okay, So what happened then? 0:08:50.160 --> 0:08:55.560 So we got casted to the show, and UM, I'm 0:08:55.559 --> 0:08:59.120 not gonna lie like I don't, I don't you know, 0:08:59.679 --> 0:09:02.640 talk like bad on her. But we started having arguments 0:09:02.720 --> 0:09:05.520 even before the show started, and I'm like, you're not 0:09:05.559 --> 0:09:09.920 even my girl. This is crazy. So I'm fake getting 0:09:09.960 --> 0:09:12.320 scared and kisses like yo, don't do that shit, I'm 0:09:12.320 --> 0:09:14.760 telling you, But I got no emotion. I'm like, bro, 0:09:14.840 --> 0:09:17.199 I'm living in a bronch. I'm in a bad apartment 0:09:17.280 --> 0:09:20.400 right now. I'm like I gotta be on TV. Bro 0:09:20.760 --> 0:09:26.480 fuck that, like you know, um and yit like Mona 0:09:26.520 --> 0:09:29.200 loved me. It was good. They casting me, and then 0:09:29.360 --> 0:09:33.120 the first week of going to shoot, like you get 0:09:33.160 --> 0:09:37.520 your shooting schedule and they had me on the days. 0:09:37.559 --> 0:09:39.160 But then like the day of they was like, you're 0:09:39.160 --> 0:09:40.880 gonna get a call, and I didn't get a call 0:09:40.960 --> 0:09:43.240 that day off, and another day went by and another day, 0:09:43.280 --> 0:09:45.920 and then the week went by and I'm already like 0:09:45.960 --> 0:09:47.600 green let to be in the show and all of that, 0:09:47.640 --> 0:09:50.000 and so I'm just waiting. I got my wardrobe a 0:09:50.040 --> 0:09:52.640 bunch of shit with no logos on it. The TV 0:09:53.679 --> 0:09:56.040 it was bad. Dripped to him like damn, like my 0:09:56.280 --> 0:10:02.000 drip would have been bad. And and yeah, they just 0:10:02.080 --> 0:10:05.880 called me like like the next week and we're like, yeah, 0:10:06.280 --> 0:10:08.400 they decided to go with the regular cast, like the 0:10:08.720 --> 0:10:12.720 old school cast. So at the time, it was like, 0:10:13.280 --> 0:10:17.360 I'm like, I'm super like godly and God guides me 0:10:17.440 --> 0:10:20.600 through my whole process. So that was God saying like, yeah, 0:10:20.600 --> 0:10:22.400 they don't do that because there's mad things that I 0:10:22.520 --> 0:10:25.360 chased and the God just now now back and let's 0:10:25.360 --> 0:10:26.800 talk about this girl you're supposed to be on with. 0:10:27.280 --> 0:10:29.680 Is it somebody that we know, like the who we 0:10:29.720 --> 0:10:36.120 would know she like the Instagram girl or she artist artist? Yeah? 0:10:36.120 --> 0:10:40.480 It was, but okay, so what were y'all arguing about? Yea, bro, 0:10:40.600 --> 0:10:44.000 I don't know. She was like, we gotta make this real. 0:10:45.040 --> 0:10:47.760 She was just spasing on me. I don't know, jealous, 0:10:47.880 --> 0:10:51.319 or I don't know. She was just called me in 0:10:51.679 --> 0:10:54.640 blitz on me about communication or something, and I'm like, oh, 0:10:54.679 --> 0:10:57.680 this is gonna go wrong because then I realized, like, yeah, 0:10:57.679 --> 0:10:59.960 it would be great TV, but not for me because 0:11:00.120 --> 0:11:03.160 there's nothing really you could do, you know what I mean. 0:11:03.200 --> 0:11:04.760 It's like she could just have a scene and just 0:11:04.760 --> 0:11:07.160 get up and throw a bottle of Reperscado in my 0:11:07.200 --> 0:11:09.600 head and then now just the guy who got hit 0:11:09.640 --> 0:11:13.240 with a bottle TV, like so we could promote? Did 0:11:13.320 --> 0:11:16.120 you tell her like yo, like this is not real 0:11:16.160 --> 0:11:20.080 for real? Like yeah, hell yeah? And I was like, yeah, 0:11:20.080 --> 0:11:22.720 we got to be on the same page, like follow 0:11:22.840 --> 0:11:25.280 my lead. I'm gonna bring you to the Promised Land 0:11:25.280 --> 0:11:30.240 and like follow my lead. And she couldn't. No, she 0:11:30.320 --> 0:11:32.520 wasn't gonna follow my lead. No funny to me that 0:11:32.720 --> 0:11:34.760 even Jada kisses like, no, I don't do it right. 0:11:34.960 --> 0:11:37.480 Oh he was. He was avidly against it. But the 0:11:37.520 --> 0:11:40.199 fact that you went he had to drill with no 0:11:40.320 --> 0:11:42.800 logos to call him and be like, yeah, they ain't 0:11:42.840 --> 0:11:48.600 even have you bumped into the girl lately? No? Did y'all? 0:11:48.640 --> 0:11:51.280 At least like an I got love for her though, 0:11:51.440 --> 0:11:54.240 I got love for her Okay, No, I didn't even 0:11:54.720 --> 0:12:04.560 fool around. Yeah nothing. Are you a kisser? Yeah, but 0:12:04.640 --> 0:12:09.280 like seldomly. That's like to me, that's like eating pussy. 0:12:09.360 --> 0:12:11.560 Like you can't just eat any pussy and you can't 0:12:11.640 --> 0:12:17.080 kiss any girl. Like eating pussy is way higher actually, 0:12:17.200 --> 0:12:20.040 like but but I'm just saying like I can't, like 0:12:20.200 --> 0:12:23.200 you know how, like there's like cultures, I think, even 0:12:23.240 --> 0:12:26.959 in you know, like like the college culture or whatever, 0:12:27.160 --> 0:12:29.480 like this cultures of people to just kiss they see 0:12:29.480 --> 0:12:32.480 each other in the like Jersey Shore, right what I 0:12:32.520 --> 0:12:34.360 was trying to think, Yeah, they'll get it scared, they'll 0:12:34.400 --> 0:12:36.720 just kiss a stranger. Like that's wow, crazy to me, 0:12:36.800 --> 0:12:39.920 Like you that's kissing is very intimate, Like that's if 0:12:39.920 --> 0:12:42.280 you kiss a girl, Like that's like a higher form 0:12:42.280 --> 0:12:45.480 of intimacy. Why you're Yeah, I know this one girl, 0:12:45.800 --> 0:12:48.040 she's so funny, Like she's a really good friend of mine, 0:12:48.040 --> 0:12:49.559 and when we go I should just be like randomly 0:12:49.600 --> 0:12:52.760 making out with people sometimes. She always been like this 0:12:53.160 --> 0:12:56.439 so weird crazy. I randomly made out with somebody at 0:12:56.440 --> 0:12:59.120 one of Angele's event and they told me the next day. 0:12:59.160 --> 0:13:01.080 I was like I did what she didn't remember? I 0:13:01.240 --> 0:13:03.839 remember I was like why. I was like, yeah, yeah, 0:13:03.920 --> 0:13:06.320 like he grabbed you when he kissed you, and you 0:13:06.440 --> 0:13:15.800 kissed them back. I thought, yeah, so you like it now? Yeah, 0:13:15.880 --> 0:13:17.840 but ran but I get what you're saying, Like I 0:13:19.200 --> 0:13:21.520 kiss somebody, it's okay, but you would have sex with 0:13:21.559 --> 0:13:25.320 somebody and not kissing for show? See now kind of weird. 0:13:25.360 --> 0:13:28.000 You can't get pregnant from kissing. It's not that's like 0:13:28.000 --> 0:13:31.439 like a girl if like, cause I could have unemotionless sex, 0:13:31.520 --> 0:13:35.199 you know what I mean, So it's more emotion like this. 0:13:35.760 --> 0:13:37.800 Don't you feel like sex is better when it's emotional 0:13:38.000 --> 0:13:40.240 for sure? But I'm just saying I have the ability 0:13:40.320 --> 0:13:46.160 to have emotion No. Yeah, if you're a real man, 0:13:47.080 --> 0:13:49.720 it's like you got too much estrogen and if you 0:13:49.760 --> 0:13:51.800 get if you get attached to every girl you have 0:13:51.840 --> 0:13:54.160 sex with. Oh, do you think that as you've gotten 0:13:54.160 --> 0:13:58.080 older that you've been more selective? For sure? Okay, have 0:13:58.200 --> 0:14:00.319 you ever had sex with somebody and then later on 0:14:00.520 --> 0:14:02.640 being like I can't believe I did that. Yeah, when 0:14:02.640 --> 0:14:06.000 I was young all the time, all the time, because 0:14:06.040 --> 0:14:09.040 you know, I'm like, I'm like in the neighborhood, you know, 0:14:09.160 --> 0:14:11.640 So you got to pick from your selection sometimes and 0:14:11.760 --> 0:14:13.520 you know, like we just you you trapped in the 0:14:13.520 --> 0:14:15.760 neighborhood and then you get blasted and then it's like, 0:14:16.040 --> 0:14:23.560 whoever's left? What age did you lose your virginity? Like thirteen, 0:14:24.000 --> 0:14:28.240 same age you got a tattoo? How was that experience? 0:14:29.120 --> 0:14:36.200 Did you know? I got thirteen lucky number? Yeah? I 0:14:36.240 --> 0:14:38.360 played that and rule that all that. That's actually my 0:14:38.400 --> 0:14:41.480 birthday January third, So thirteen is like my lucky two. 0:14:41.520 --> 0:14:46.560 That's tough. So what was your virginia losing your virginity experience? Like? No, bullshit, 0:14:46.600 --> 0:14:48.800 I don't really remember, because like I was just getting 0:14:48.840 --> 0:14:52.120 introduced to alcohol, so I really got like blasted. But 0:14:52.400 --> 0:14:54.600 it was quick though. Okay she told you that you 0:14:54.680 --> 0:14:57.320 knew that much and now I just knew it. Okay, okay, 0:14:57.480 --> 0:15:01.160 it was quick. Did you before you had text like 0:15:01.600 --> 0:15:03.800 where you're doing things like masturbating and all of that 0:15:03.920 --> 0:15:08.360 you knew how to? Yeah? Yeah, I was you ever 0:15:08.400 --> 0:15:12.480 get called masturbating by appearance? Nam? You know how you 0:15:12.480 --> 0:15:14.440 guys are. No. I knew my schedule because like my 0:15:14.480 --> 0:15:20.200 mom worked until like my mom worked until like six 0:15:20.320 --> 0:15:22.480 pm or something like that. So when I get home, 0:15:22.520 --> 0:15:24.200 I know, I got like a cool like two hours. 0:15:24.200 --> 0:15:27.320 It's like seventh grade. Did you watch porn white and 0:15:28.320 --> 0:15:30.560 masturbating or you just get home and masturbating? Now, yeah, 0:15:30.560 --> 0:15:34.240 I just you know, think know how to masturbate at 0:15:34.280 --> 0:15:36.440 that age? Yeah, at that age. Oh no, I think 0:15:36.480 --> 0:15:39.600 it's just like accident. First you be in the shower 0:15:39.880 --> 0:15:43.920 watching your dick in it, Like, I haven't thought about 0:15:43.920 --> 0:15:46.880 this in a long time. I could see your mom. 0:15:49.320 --> 0:15:51.320 What about wet dreams? Did you have a lot of 0:15:51.320 --> 0:15:53.400 wet dreams as the kids when I was young? Yeah? 0:15:54.200 --> 0:15:56.400 Did you? Does every boy have? What dreams? Is that? 0:15:56.520 --> 0:15:58.800 I feel like everything a wet dream. It's only a 0:15:58.840 --> 0:16:01.520 wet dream. If you come it's not wet, then it's 0:16:01.520 --> 0:16:05.200 a dry Yeah, that's a dry dream. That's a dry drink. 0:16:06.800 --> 0:16:08.840 You kind of think that I've would notice a wet spot. 0:16:09.360 --> 0:16:12.880 You have two sons, so that's why I'm like, you 0:16:12.960 --> 0:16:15.560 never seeing that baby? Like what? Well, William sweats when 0:16:15.600 --> 0:16:21.560 he sleeps like that. Now he's saying that, I'm like, 0:16:24.320 --> 0:16:28.360 oh wait a minute. Now, you were and um in 0:16:28.440 --> 0:16:31.400 a relationship, right, When's when's the last time you've been 0:16:31.400 --> 0:16:34.360 in one? Because I know you have somebody that no 0:16:34.800 --> 0:16:37.600 one you are always Okay, did you look at your 0:16:37.680 --> 0:16:41.800 look at your ring? I was literally just looking at like, 0:16:40.520 --> 0:16:44.600 you know, I was thinking about them the women's game 0:16:44.680 --> 0:16:52.080 yesterday when she was pointing at the ring. Okay, okay, 0:16:52.080 --> 0:16:57.160 I guess that's a good immy. Okay. So you guys 0:16:57.160 --> 0:17:02.320 are on right now. How long have you been together? Wow? 0:17:02.560 --> 0:17:08.359 Like five years something like that? Five years continuously? What 0:17:08.560 --> 0:17:10.080 is it like to deal with you in a really 0:17:10.160 --> 0:17:12.840 like who do you think is um in the relationship? 0:17:12.880 --> 0:17:17.879 Who's the more difficult person? Me? You said that fast 0:17:18.359 --> 0:17:21.600 part about dealing I think because it's like my life 0:17:21.680 --> 0:17:27.960 hit like a couple different you know phases. So I've 0:17:27.960 --> 0:17:31.639 always been like a local celebrity, but then you know, 0:17:31.720 --> 0:17:34.360 I've had just my straight grinding mode and then I 0:17:34.400 --> 0:17:37.560 started transition into like being a real rapper, like a 0:17:37.640 --> 0:17:42.320 real schedule, really book, really have emotion. And I think 0:17:42.400 --> 0:17:45.919 that was like the hardest thing to deal with because 0:17:46.000 --> 0:17:48.520 shit switches. Things that you're accustomed to all of a 0:17:48.560 --> 0:17:51.800 sudden aren't the same anymore. Like example, like what I mean, 0:17:51.840 --> 0:17:54.480 we could walk in Central Park before something like it's 0:17:54.520 --> 0:17:57.200 clip now, you know what I mean? Yeah, we could 0:17:57.280 --> 0:17:59.679 go out to certain place, it's just certain places I'm 0:17:59.720 --> 0:18:02.800 not showing up to. I'm not going to certain family functions. 0:18:02.840 --> 0:18:07.240 I'm not I'm not doing a lot of like normal 0:18:07.320 --> 0:18:10.720 things that I used to do. Why not the family functions? 0:18:10.960 --> 0:18:13.240 I mean I will. I'm just saying it's like it's 0:18:13.560 --> 0:18:16.520 it's a thing now when you do family stuff. Yeah, 0:18:16.560 --> 0:18:20.320 you know, it's just different in general, so for her, 0:18:20.680 --> 0:18:23.880 because sometimes I feel like guys, you know, they they're 0:18:23.960 --> 0:18:26.040 with you, but and like you said, you know you're 0:18:26.080 --> 0:18:28.960 the one that's the problem. Do you feel like, yeah, 0:18:29.040 --> 0:18:31.080 not that I'm just the one that's the problem, But 0:18:31.119 --> 0:18:33.520 I just feel like you had more problems because even 0:18:33.560 --> 0:18:35.840 to like date like a rapper, you got to go through, 0:18:36.119 --> 0:18:39.080 you know, some shit. What is So? What does she 0:18:39.160 --> 0:18:43.760 do for a living? I keep it private, okay, just 0:18:43.800 --> 0:18:45.520 because it's like I don't really like share too much 0:18:45.520 --> 0:18:49.440 of my personal life because you know, it's dangerous too. 0:18:49.680 --> 0:18:53.080 Is she from New York or is she from Okay, 0:18:53.080 --> 0:18:56.800 she's my Boston back home. So does her family like you? 0:18:57.960 --> 0:19:02.800 H Are you sure you said they do? Okay? Have 0:19:02.920 --> 0:19:05.080 they always liked you or it takes them getting accustomed 0:19:05.119 --> 0:19:08.880 to Yeah? They always likely? Okay? Angel your mom like her? Yeah? 0:19:09.240 --> 0:19:11.600 All right, that's good. It's just someone you knew growing 0:19:11.720 --> 0:19:16.200 up or someone you met. Oh I met a kind 0:19:16.240 --> 0:19:18.760 of new growing up, but not really though, Okay, I 0:19:18.880 --> 0:19:21.760 kind of met like later on in life, all right. 0:19:21.800 --> 0:19:23.840 And so now you're at a point where well for 0:19:23.880 --> 0:19:26.920 the past few years, where things are really popping off 0:19:26.920 --> 0:19:28.919 for you and it's been a long road in a 0:19:28.960 --> 0:19:30.760 long journey. What would you say to people that are 0:19:31.240 --> 0:19:33.120 you know, in the game as artists? And it does 0:19:33.160 --> 0:19:35.399 take a while sometimes because I don't think there's a 0:19:35.400 --> 0:19:38.160 lot of stories of overnight success, right Sometimes we don't 0:19:38.200 --> 0:19:39.840 know what the grind is before they got to a 0:19:39.880 --> 0:19:43.000 certain point that they got to. But for you, um, 0:19:43.040 --> 0:19:44.560 what would you say to people who are in this 0:19:44.600 --> 0:19:46.440 game trying to come up right now? And it's it's 0:19:46.480 --> 0:19:51.359 not easy. Um, you just gotta you gotta have the 0:19:51.400 --> 0:19:55.320 heart of a line. You gotta really, um, put you 0:19:55.440 --> 0:19:57.119 all in it, like you have to be one hundred 0:19:57.119 --> 0:20:01.919 and ten percent. You gotta be courageous, You gotta know 0:20:02.280 --> 0:20:05.840 that this is like what God wants for you. If 0:20:05.880 --> 0:20:07.800 because if this is really for you, it's gonna be 0:20:07.840 --> 0:20:10.360 embedded in your heart and you're gonna fail it And 0:20:10.440 --> 0:20:13.480 you gotta just be ready to um you know, fail 0:20:13.560 --> 0:20:16.240 and fail and fail and fail and fail until you win. 0:20:17.240 --> 0:20:19.920 You know, I don't think you're just gonna get a win. 0:20:20.040 --> 0:20:22.000 And if you do get a win early, like you're 0:20:22.000 --> 0:20:28.600 probably gonna lose shortly after. So oh damn. Yeah that's see. 0:20:28.600 --> 0:20:31.680 That feels like a fair to me because sometimes it's 0:20:31.720 --> 0:20:33.880 so hard for us to celebrate winning because when things 0:20:33.920 --> 0:20:36.160 are going well in your head, you think something bad's 0:20:36.160 --> 0:20:39.960 about to happen. Yep, No, but I'm saying, like any 0:20:40.000 --> 0:20:42.600 person in life, like I'm sure you couldn't get got 0:20:42.680 --> 0:20:45.400 here without it, like a bunch of rejection, a bunch 0:20:45.440 --> 0:20:48.120 of bad shit happening until you. Like, what I'm saying 0:20:48.200 --> 0:20:50.200 is people are like forged in the fire. So if 0:20:50.200 --> 0:20:53.560 you have if you have an easy life and you 0:20:53.720 --> 0:20:55.760 just had an easy road, you're not gonna know how 0:20:55.800 --> 0:20:57.760 to hold it down. Yeah you don't. You learn a 0:20:57.800 --> 0:21:00.040 lie from your losses. Yeah, So like you got to 0:21:00.160 --> 0:21:02.240 be forged in the fire for this, I feel like, 0:21:02.680 --> 0:21:05.800 or you just gotta be you know, if like for 0:21:05.840 --> 0:21:07.679 the young and getting in it, they just gotta be 0:21:07.840 --> 0:21:11.840 ahead of their time, like super ahead of their time. Now, 0:21:11.960 --> 0:21:14.360