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Speaker 1: Hey guys, and welcome back to another episode of Casual Chaos.

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Speaker 1: This week, I have one of my Special Forces castmates,

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Speaker 1: Christy Pierce.

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Speaker 2: Welcome to Casual Chaos.

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Speaker 3: Thanks for having me.

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Speaker 2: I'm so excited.

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Speaker 1: So we went through Special Forces together and it was

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Speaker 1: probably one of the most intense things I think any

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Speaker 1: of us have ever done. How are you doing post

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Speaker 1: Special Forces?

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Speaker 3: I'm doing good, you know, I think realizing I faced

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Speaker 3: all my fears and got through it. You know, No, definitely,

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Speaker 3: it's hard to watch. I'll say, like, I enjoyed being there,

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Speaker 3: but like when you have to reflect back and watch

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Speaker 3: it over and watch yourself fail miserably, that's hard to watch.

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Speaker 3: But no, I got through it. I'm okay.

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Speaker 1: Honestly, I feel like, out of everybody, you and Sean

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Speaker 1: were really tough on yourselves, and I think that has

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Speaker 1: to do with being in the Olympics and being a

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Speaker 1: part of such a competitive sport. So I think you guys,

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Speaker 1: you guys were amazing, Like you killed it, you inspired.

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Speaker 1: I think all of us you were just so tough

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Speaker 1: and got through every challenge. But I think due to

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Speaker 1: what your line of work was and what you did

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Speaker 1: with your career, it made you guys so tough on yourselves. Meanwhile,

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Speaker 1: I was just happy to get through the day. I

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Speaker 1: was like, no, thank god.

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Speaker 3: No, We've draw something from each other. Like I am

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Speaker 3: hard on myself, like I'm disappointing myself if I'm like

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Speaker 3: not finishing the task the way I wanted to. But

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Speaker 3: then just seeing how you're getting through it and how

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Speaker 3: you're like just always like had a smile on her

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Speaker 3: face and was like onto the next Like I was

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Speaker 3: just appreciative of that because I pulled that energy to

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Speaker 3: help me get through. Like we all bring something different,

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Speaker 3: So I definitely did appreciate how you and about it

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Speaker 3: and I pulled stuff from you to get me through.

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Speaker 1: Oh you're so sweet to give our listeners a little

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Speaker 1: bit of a background on who you are. I feel

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Speaker 1: like you should give your introduction because it's just so badass.

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Speaker 1: I don't want to be like, Okay, guys, this is Christy.

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Speaker 1: I mean, you guys should know who she is. She

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Speaker 1: was a captain of the US woman's national soccer team.

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Speaker 2: But I'll let you take it away.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it was a long career, very nineteen year career

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Speaker 3: playing for the.

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Speaker 2: US the longest standing by the way, guys.

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Speaker 3: It's a crazy time. But I was able to compete

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Speaker 3: in five World Cups and I went two of them.

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Speaker 3: And I competed in four Olympics, winning three gold medals

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Speaker 3: and one silver. And I also was able to have

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Speaker 3: two children along the way, So I have two beautiful daughters,

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Speaker 3: Riley and Reese, who are nineteen and fifteen now. So

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Speaker 3: it's definitely a great journey, a great career that is

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Speaker 3: able to have that work life balance and also being

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Speaker 1: So going through that and then going onto Special Forces.

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Speaker 1: How was leading a national soccer team for eight years

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Speaker 1: undergoing Special Forces training in Morocco for ten days different?

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Speaker 3: It was so different because I was playing sports is

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Speaker 3: my comfort zone. You know, I've been doing it my

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Speaker 3: whole life, and you know, when you're preparing for something,

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Speaker 3: you know, I was always preparing for a World Cup,

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Speaker 3: I was always preparing for Olympics, and it's a four

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Speaker 3: physical side. I was ready. I was not ready for

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Speaker 3: Special Forces in any means.

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Speaker 1: You know.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you have a little bit of that background, but

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Speaker 3: it's always that fear of the unknown. We had no

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Speaker 3: a mental challenge within itself.

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Speaker 1: So you would say Special Forces was more mentally challenging

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Speaker 1: than playing on the US olympere.

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Speaker 3: Per Yeah, because I knew it was coming. Yeah, a

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Speaker 3: game plan may not work out, but you know how

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Speaker 2: But I'm like, can imagine you passed that? Well? Uh,

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Speaker 3: But again you're just like, how do you like? You

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Speaker 3: don't know. We're thrown into these situations we've never been

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Speaker 2: Yeah.

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Speaker 1: Well, I mean you guys, the athletes on the course,

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Speaker 1: athletes on Special Forces, like you guys, I'm sure inspired me, Bree,

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Speaker 1: you know Mark, just all of us who because I mean,

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Speaker 2: I'm like, I'm like trying to.

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Speaker 3: Keep up in the back. You were mentally tough, though

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Speaker 3: you don't. You have to give yourself more credit. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: because as many times as you may have wanted to tap,

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Speaker 3: I was in the same mindset at times where I'm

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Speaker 3: like I'm just exhausted. What am I doing here? You

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Speaker 3: know those that inner voice starts talking to you, but

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Speaker 2: No, definitely.

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Speaker 1: Do you think people actually realize how tough Special Forces

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Speaker 3: Absolutely, not, like even people I talked to.

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Speaker 2: No.

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Speaker 1: No, And I thought it was so funny because even

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Speaker 1: in our group chat when Randall was like they had

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Speaker 2: Oh yeah, and like, honestly it was it was.

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Speaker 1: It was day six, episode six when we had to

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Speaker 2: Because how we were all dying.

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Speaker 1: Me and Brie are crying looking back at each other

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Speaker 1: being like, are we quitting right now?

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Speaker 2: Like we did? We had.

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Speaker 1: We probably did about ten to twelve suicides up and

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Speaker 3: Yeah. I was tapped out on that one too, because

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Speaker 2: Yeah, And then I.

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Speaker 3: Started doing lunches at my bag or get off, and

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Speaker 3: I was like and he's like, we're dropping. We're pulling

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Speaker 1: They didn't show any of that, no, none of it,

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Speaker 1: And it was like that was so mentally tough for

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Speaker 2: I just felt so bad.

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Speaker 2: But I was like like I don't know which way

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Speaker 1: I got super emotional during this show, and I think

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Speaker 1: there were times when you did too. Did it bring

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I think all encompassing with I felt when you're

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Speaker 3: So my biggest fear is like telling my story and

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Speaker 3: And when we had that time together, I felt so

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Speaker 3: And so then I was like, it's time, Like it's

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Speaker 2: That's not good. Christy, you need to let your emotions go.

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Speaker 1: That is not good.

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Speaker 3: But I was trying to even talk to you guys.

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Speaker 1: On Special Forces because you were able to really use

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Speaker 3: Now, yes, it's giving me confidence, but still everything's baby steps.

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Speaker 3: You know, It's like I couldn't watch it, you know,

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Speaker 2: And how do you know now that your daughter's watched that.

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Speaker 1: I'm sure you brought them along with you throughout your

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Speaker 1: And you know, actually hearing you say like I had

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Speaker 2: Do they support you?

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Speaker 1: Do they understand that, does this ever like make them

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Speaker 3: Just truth and honesty, you know, talking it out, you know,

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, and you get torn. You know. I

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Speaker 1: And I mean that's also very big of you though,

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Speaker 3: Yeah, they both made the choice at their own age

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Speaker 1: Definitely, you had to medically withdraw on day seven, Christy.

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Speaker 1: My heart was breaking when I saw that, because I mean,

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Speaker 3: No, I was like at some points pacing because I

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Speaker 1: I wanted to, but I didn't like when you Christy,

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Speaker 3: No, they gave me some meds when I left, and

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Speaker 3: I know it was bad. I probably should have gone,

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Speaker 3: It, because when I was breathing, I felt the crackling,

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Speaker 1: But I was like, and you obviously never had any

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Speaker 1: people who tapped out, it's like you were, you regret

438
00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:46,439
Speaker 1: it instantly.

439
00:21:46,119 --> 00:21:47,360
Speaker 2: You wish you stayed.

440
00:21:47,720 --> 00:21:48,280
Speaker 3: Yeah.

441
00:21:48,359 --> 00:21:51,359
Speaker 1: So, and it's weird because it was such a mind

442
00:21:51,440 --> 00:21:55,520
Speaker 1: altering thing, like we just wanted at the end of

443
00:21:55,600 --> 00:21:58,200
Speaker 1: the day. Yes, it was so challenging and we all

444
00:21:58,240 --> 00:22:00,679
Speaker 1: wanted to tap out, probably every day at some point.

445
00:22:01,000 --> 00:22:03,040
Speaker 1: But then it was like a mental thing, like you

446
00:22:03,080 --> 00:22:05,199
Speaker 1: got to keep going. You got to keep going, like

447
00:22:05,280 --> 00:22:06,480
Speaker 1: you're almost there.

448
00:22:06,560 --> 00:22:08,840
Speaker 3: Yeah there, Like just get to the next meal, You're

449
00:22:08,840 --> 00:22:10,119
Speaker 3: almost there.

450
00:22:10,320 --> 00:22:13,800
Speaker 2: Like where's lunch? Because I never ate dinner. I only

451
00:22:13,960 --> 00:22:14,520
Speaker 2: ate lunch.

452
00:22:16,160 --> 00:22:18,119
Speaker 3: I barely ate because I was just like couldn't. I

453
00:22:18,200 --> 00:22:21,639
Speaker 3: was so tired, tired, and it was so hot, and

454
00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:24,159
Speaker 3: the last thing I want to do was like eat that.

455
00:22:24,200 --> 00:22:25,840
Speaker 3: I just wanted a bar. I was like, just give me.

456
00:22:25,880 --> 00:22:26,960
Speaker 3: I could just have bars.

457
00:22:27,359 --> 00:22:31,360
Speaker 2: Oh those bars saved all of us. Yeah, all of us.

458
00:22:31,640 --> 00:22:33,760
Speaker 3: Give me that. Like I don't even eat the food. No.

459
00:22:34,080 --> 00:22:39,680
Speaker 1: Literally, I feel like Special Forces cast everyone for a reason.

460
00:22:39,600 --> 00:22:42,120
Speaker 2: And everyone got their own angle.

461
00:22:41,920 --> 00:22:46,240
Speaker 1: Or story, which I thought Fox did a really good job.

462
00:22:46,920 --> 00:22:50,840
Speaker 1: Did you feel like they really told your story and

463
00:22:50,880 --> 00:22:52,800
Speaker 1: the way you would have wanted them to.

464
00:22:53,240 --> 00:22:53,840
Speaker 3: Absolutely?

465
00:22:54,160 --> 00:22:56,439
Speaker 1: Yeah, I mean I just I just felt like they

466
00:22:56,440 --> 00:22:59,800
Speaker 1: were so respectful, like they really did it really good.

467
00:23:00,160 --> 00:23:03,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, I agree. I think they definitely are looking out

468
00:23:03,160 --> 00:23:05,560
Speaker 3: for each and every one of us and wanted us

469
00:23:05,640 --> 00:23:09,080
Speaker 3: to find our purpose on coming on this show. And

470
00:23:09,119 --> 00:23:11,560
Speaker 3: they you know, I don't think they truly embarrassed anybody.

471
00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:14,520
Speaker 3: They just showed personalities. I think they really do a

472
00:23:14,520 --> 00:23:18,000
Speaker 3: good job of the editing part because as much as

473
00:23:18,040 --> 00:23:20,080
Speaker 3: I wanted them to show a lot more, like we

474
00:23:20,119 --> 00:23:24,240
Speaker 3: said earlier, how hard it was, they really truly are

475
00:23:24,280 --> 00:23:25,639
Speaker 3: there for each and every one of us.

476
00:23:25,960 --> 00:23:28,720
Speaker 2: They really are. How did they approach you?

477
00:23:29,960 --> 00:23:31,600
Speaker 3: I just got my agent go to call like two

478
00:23:31,600 --> 00:23:34,560
Speaker 3: weeks prior to the show, two weeks two weeks prior,

479
00:23:34,600 --> 00:23:37,199
Speaker 3: and I was like, are you kidding me? Like I

480
00:23:37,240 --> 00:23:41,280
Speaker 3: have no training, I had no idea, like you know,

481
00:23:41,359 --> 00:23:44,560
Speaker 3: like I can't swim. That's my first reactions. I can't swim, Like.

482
00:23:44,640 --> 00:23:46,160
Speaker 2: My mom said the same thing.

483
00:23:46,400 --> 00:23:48,919
Speaker 3: And then I was like why not, you know, like

484
00:23:48,960 --> 00:23:51,920
Speaker 3: why not? Like I love challenges, you know, that's the

485
00:23:51,920 --> 00:23:53,800
Speaker 3: part I missed, the whole locker room feel like I

486
00:23:53,800 --> 00:23:57,000
Speaker 3: haven't I wasn't competing anymore, and I was like, well,

487
00:23:57,040 --> 00:23:59,439
Speaker 3: this is a lifetime and opportunity to meet people like

488
00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:04,760
Speaker 3: you and you know, just be around amazing people in

489
00:24:04,800 --> 00:24:08,960
Speaker 3: a locker room type feel facing your biggest challenges like

490
00:24:09,200 --> 00:24:11,360
Speaker 3: what's better once in a lifetime.

491
00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:17,240
Speaker 1: Definitely, did you kind of have a feeling of what

492
00:24:17,280 --> 00:24:21,520
Speaker 1: they were expecting from you on this show or a

493
00:24:21,640 --> 00:24:24,080
Speaker 1: kind of like a sense of why they wanted you

494
00:24:24,200 --> 00:24:24,960
Speaker 1: on this season.

495
00:24:25,920 --> 00:24:29,280
Speaker 3: No, I'll be honest, I really didn't watch too many episodes,

496
00:24:29,720 --> 00:24:31,880
Speaker 3: so I knew, like because one of my former teammates,

497
00:24:31,920 --> 00:24:34,080
Speaker 3: Carly was on the show in the first season, and

498
00:24:34,119 --> 00:24:37,120
Speaker 3: I remember, you know, when they when she got submerged

499
00:24:37,160 --> 00:24:38,920
Speaker 3: under water. I couldn't watch it anymore because I'm like,

500
00:24:39,200 --> 00:24:43,159
Speaker 3: that's like watching her Panic. Yeah, so watching her Panic,

501
00:24:43,160 --> 00:24:45,560
Speaker 3: I was like, I can't see her in that stace.

502
00:24:45,600 --> 00:24:48,720
Speaker 3: I never watched the show. I knew about it obviously,

503
00:24:48,800 --> 00:24:52,360
Speaker 3: and then I started watching like clips, and I was like, yeah,

504
00:24:52,400 --> 00:24:55,120
Speaker 3: I can't watch anywhere. I will not go on the show, Like, yeah,

505
00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:58,879
Speaker 3: you know. I didn't really want to have too much information,

506
00:24:59,480 --> 00:25:01,720
Speaker 3: so when I I was like, wow, this is legit.

507
00:25:02,440 --> 00:25:03,560
Speaker 2: No, so legit?

508
00:25:04,400 --> 00:25:07,760
Speaker 1: I mean I binge watched the third season, and I

509
00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:10,840
Speaker 1: watched a little bit of season one and two, so

510
00:25:11,200 --> 00:25:14,640
Speaker 1: I kind of knew, like what some of the challenges

511
00:25:14,640 --> 00:25:15,399
Speaker 1: we're gonna.

512
00:25:15,119 --> 00:25:18,280
Speaker 2: Be, like watching it and actually doing it.

513
00:25:18,640 --> 00:25:22,240
Speaker 1: Please, it's like you can't even compare it.

514
00:25:22,720 --> 00:25:25,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, because I remember Sean watching's like I watched everything,

515
00:25:25,320 --> 00:25:27,320
Speaker 3: So I was kind of that annoying little kid next

516
00:25:27,359 --> 00:25:30,439
Speaker 3: to her. I was like, next, what's next? She's like, well,

517
00:25:30,440 --> 00:25:32,600
Speaker 3: we probably have three or formal workouts. I was like, okay,

518
00:25:32,600 --> 00:25:33,920
Speaker 3: I'm not not gonna.

519
00:25:33,680 --> 00:25:40,480
Speaker 2: Ask you right, Like are you kidding me? It was

520
00:25:40,600 --> 00:25:41,360
Speaker 2: so funny.

521
00:25:41,760 --> 00:25:45,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, like everything she did, I was like, okay, I'm

522
00:25:45,320 --> 00:25:46,680
Speaker 3: just gonna follow on your footsteps.

523
00:25:46,760 --> 00:25:49,119
Speaker 2: Oh yeah no, literally everyone was following Sean.

524
00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:54,520
Speaker 1: But you and Sean had a very like the way

525
00:25:54,560 --> 00:25:58,399
Speaker 1: that you guys moved it was very and it was

526
00:25:58,440 --> 00:26:01,199
Speaker 1: funny because the DA said it too very robotic, like

527
00:26:01,320 --> 00:26:05,440
Speaker 1: you guys were just attentive like did everything that they said,

528
00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:09,200
Speaker 1: and it was like it was almost like like yeah,

529
00:26:09,359 --> 00:26:12,879
Speaker 1: like mechanical like you guys just like did it and

530
00:26:12,960 --> 00:26:16,359
Speaker 1: that definitely comes from your both of your backgrounds. But

531
00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:19,879
Speaker 1: it was so like inspiring and amazing to watch you

532
00:26:19,920 --> 00:26:23,800
Speaker 1: guys because I was like that like like due diligence

533
00:26:23,840 --> 00:26:26,920
Speaker 1: and like determination like has to come from just all

534
00:26:26,960 --> 00:26:28,680
Speaker 1: the training that you guys have been through.

535
00:26:29,119 --> 00:26:31,200
Speaker 3: Oh. Absolutely. I think Sean and I are so used

536
00:26:31,240 --> 00:26:34,399
Speaker 3: to that discipline too, of like what you ever has

537
00:26:34,440 --> 00:26:36,280
Speaker 3: been where you're told to do, you do it or

538
00:26:36,320 --> 00:26:38,520
Speaker 3: there'll be consequences. So I'm like, I don't want to

539
00:26:38,520 --> 00:26:41,040
Speaker 3: do anything extra, like even to what we brought.

540
00:26:41,119 --> 00:26:43,280
Speaker 1: Yes, I don't want to do anything extra like if

541
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:44,760
Speaker 1: you if you screw up.

542
00:26:44,680 --> 00:26:46,800
Speaker 2: Then you're gonna have to do ten hundreds friends.

543
00:26:47,400 --> 00:26:49,479
Speaker 3: Like even we were even talking about what we brought

544
00:26:50,200 --> 00:26:52,040
Speaker 3: in with us, like in our bag, like the two

545
00:26:52,080 --> 00:26:55,520
Speaker 3: of us had like barely anything. I had like a

546
00:26:55,800 --> 00:26:59,240
Speaker 3: travel bottle of shampoo and conditioner that obviously lasted one day,

547
00:26:59,640 --> 00:27:01,800
Speaker 3: you know, but we were just like My whole fear

548
00:27:01,880 --> 00:27:03,400
Speaker 3: was like I don't want to get caught with anything,

549
00:27:03,920 --> 00:27:05,520
Speaker 3: you know. And that was just the upbringing. It's like

550
00:27:05,520 --> 00:27:07,639
Speaker 3: you're told what to do, you do it, you know.

551
00:27:07,680 --> 00:27:10,840
Speaker 3: I'm like, I think we both thrive and with discipline.

552
00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:14,320
Speaker 1: I know. You guys were so funny, Sean and Christy.

553
00:27:14,359 --> 00:27:18,200
Speaker 1: They would use my hair brush. They literally brought nothing.

554
00:27:18,280 --> 00:27:20,760
Speaker 1: I was like, guys, yeah, I was like I told

555
00:27:20,760 --> 00:27:22,080
Speaker 1: them that I'm on accutane.

556
00:27:22,240 --> 00:27:25,200
Speaker 2: I needed my moisturizer my awka before and.

557
00:27:25,119 --> 00:27:26,520
Speaker 3: I'm like, I need that shampoo.

558
00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:31,560
Speaker 1: I brought everything that I could everything. I was like,

559
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:33,520
Speaker 1: they can't do this to me. This is crazy.

560
00:27:33,840 --> 00:27:36,639
Speaker 3: Yeah, we were definitely tapping into your stuff.

561
00:27:36,760 --> 00:27:39,399
Speaker 1: Oh no please, We were all sharing it. And then

562
00:27:39,400 --> 00:27:43,400
Speaker 1: it was funny because it was like and my mom

563
00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:45,760
Speaker 1: was like in her mind it was like when she

564
00:27:45,920 --> 00:27:48,600
Speaker 1: was in prison, like every time somebody left, we would

565
00:27:48,600 --> 00:27:51,600
Speaker 1: get all their stuff. Eva left, she gave us all

566
00:27:51,600 --> 00:27:54,760
Speaker 1: her stuff. Like every time someone left, it was like

567
00:27:55,080 --> 00:27:56,560
Speaker 1: all the commissary they had, they.

568
00:27:56,480 --> 00:27:57,120
Speaker 2: Gave it to us.

569
00:27:57,640 --> 00:27:59,480
Speaker 3: Absolutely, It's like, what do you got in that bag?

570
00:28:00,880 --> 00:28:04,359
Speaker 1: So funny, it's like about something a little brighter now.

571
00:28:04,440 --> 00:28:07,000
Speaker 1: But you've been with someone new for a while now,

572
00:28:07,640 --> 00:28:11,840
Speaker 1: and how is this relationship different and what feels better

573
00:28:11,960 --> 00:28:13,680
Speaker 1: or healthier this time around?

574
00:28:13,960 --> 00:28:18,840
Speaker 3: Yeah? To see you understands me, like he understands my stubbornness,

575
00:28:18,880 --> 00:28:22,600
Speaker 3: you know, like my mentality and you know everything I've

576
00:28:22,640 --> 00:28:26,040
Speaker 3: been through, you know, because he witnessed some parts of

577
00:28:26,280 --> 00:28:29,480
Speaker 3: what wasn't so great in my relationship and you know,

578
00:28:29,520 --> 00:28:31,159
Speaker 3: helped me get out of it. So I feel like

579
00:28:31,280 --> 00:28:34,280
Speaker 3: I'm I feel safe with him, you know, And He's

580
00:28:34,320 --> 00:28:39,360
Speaker 3: just really really supportive of me and my dreams and

581
00:28:39,400 --> 00:28:42,440
Speaker 3: my you know how I see my future. So like

582
00:28:43,120 --> 00:28:46,680
Speaker 3: it's just refreshing knowing that someone's not trying to live

583
00:28:46,720 --> 00:28:50,680
Speaker 3: through me, that someone's there on a journey with me

584
00:28:50,720 --> 00:28:53,120
Speaker 3: and wants to be part of my journey. I love

585
00:28:53,160 --> 00:28:54,480
Speaker 3: that doing it together.

586
00:28:54,560 --> 00:28:58,120
Speaker 1: He's awesome, And I mean, I know this is always

587
00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:00,360
Speaker 1: so hard because I you know, you went through your

588
00:29:00,360 --> 00:29:03,760
Speaker 1: divorce and people said things about that, and no matter what,

589
00:29:03,880 --> 00:29:06,720
Speaker 1: people are always going to have something to say. Do

590
00:29:06,800 --> 00:29:10,600
Speaker 1: you feel like sometimes the public does not understand who

591
00:29:10,640 --> 00:29:11,520
Speaker 1: you're with right.

592
00:29:11,360 --> 00:29:15,280
Speaker 3: Now hundred percent? You know, the public always has their

593
00:29:15,320 --> 00:29:18,760
Speaker 3: own viewpoints on things, because you know, I met him

594
00:29:18,800 --> 00:29:22,600
Speaker 3: through soccer, right I met him through like he was

595
00:29:22,640 --> 00:29:24,520
Speaker 3: my coach at one point, but he was also in

596
00:29:24,600 --> 00:29:27,560
Speaker 3: my friend circle, you know, because he was friends with

597
00:29:27,600 --> 00:29:30,800
Speaker 3: my ex and I didn't really get to know him

598
00:29:31,160 --> 00:29:34,040
Speaker 3: all that well until he became my coach, you know,

599
00:29:34,080 --> 00:29:37,040
Speaker 3: because I didn't really hang out. I wasn't allowed to

600
00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:39,640
Speaker 3: hang out with the boys when I was with my

601
00:29:39,760 --> 00:29:43,880
Speaker 3: ex husband, So the relationship just developed and he witnessed

602
00:29:43,920 --> 00:29:46,320
Speaker 3: some stuff when I was allowed to hang out, and

603
00:29:47,240 --> 00:29:51,880
Speaker 3: you know, unfortunately he saw the worst and kind of switch.

604
00:29:51,920 --> 00:29:54,920
Speaker 3: He went from not really liking me to supporting me

605
00:29:54,960 --> 00:29:57,360
Speaker 3: and helping me. And you know, people just look at

606
00:29:57,360 --> 00:30:00,360
Speaker 3: it as headlines. As you know, I started, you know,

607
00:30:00,400 --> 00:30:03,600
Speaker 3: a relationship with my coach, but I was in my

608
00:30:03,680 --> 00:30:06,720
Speaker 3: forties and you really truly helped support me get out

609
00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:10,280
Speaker 3: of an abusive relationship. And I couldn't thank him enough.

610
00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:13,520
Speaker 3: And then, of course, you know when you become really

611
00:30:13,520 --> 00:30:15,800
Speaker 3: close to someone friends, you know, I fell for him,

612
00:30:15,800 --> 00:30:16,920
Speaker 3: I fell in love.

613
00:30:16,760 --> 00:30:18,840
Speaker 2: With them, and you know I do that through a

614
00:30:18,880 --> 00:30:19,719
Speaker 2: really I couldn't.

615
00:30:19,880 --> 00:30:22,000
Speaker 3: Yeah, there's nothing I could do about it. You know,

616
00:30:22,040 --> 00:30:24,280
Speaker 3: it's like you can't help them you fall in love

617
00:30:24,320 --> 00:30:27,800
Speaker 3: with and you know, and we started a relationship. And

618
00:30:27,800 --> 00:30:30,280
Speaker 3: he's been in the girls' lives for a long time

619
00:30:30,400 --> 00:30:33,680
Speaker 3: and you know, the respects and it has been a

620
00:30:33,720 --> 00:30:37,120
Speaker 3: great step father to the girls. So you know, like,

621
00:30:37,320 --> 00:30:39,600
Speaker 3: did I want it to happen that way? Obviously not

622
00:30:39,840 --> 00:30:42,560
Speaker 3: like you know, but in the end of the day,

623
00:30:42,840 --> 00:30:47,120
Speaker 3: like I have this supporting, loving husband that you know,

624
00:30:47,920 --> 00:30:50,640
Speaker 3: I know what happened. I don't need to, Like I said,

625
00:30:50,640 --> 00:30:53,360
Speaker 3: I'm a private person, I really haven't. I'm starting to

626
00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:57,520
Speaker 3: now tell my story you know, and everyone's going to

627
00:30:57,560 --> 00:31:01,040
Speaker 3: have their own opinion, and that's all what I have

628
00:31:01,120 --> 00:31:05,560
Speaker 3: no idea what I went through and how everything ended

629
00:31:05,640 --> 00:31:08,080
Speaker 3: up working out the way it probably should have been

630
00:31:08,240 --> 00:31:11,120
Speaker 3: for me, Like I finally got my path in life,

631
00:31:11,160 --> 00:31:13,400
Speaker 3: and I finally found my happiness a little bit later

632
00:31:13,440 --> 00:31:13,880
Speaker 3: in life.

633
00:31:15,320 --> 00:31:18,280
Speaker 1: And you know, as long as he is amazing to

634
00:31:18,360 --> 00:31:21,040
Speaker 1: you and amazing to your daughters, that is all that matters.

635
00:31:21,320 --> 00:31:23,680
Speaker 3: It is, it truly is. It's like I'm living my

636
00:31:23,720 --> 00:31:27,400
Speaker 3: own life. Like people can have their opinions in my view,

637
00:31:27,400 --> 00:31:29,600
Speaker 3: but they don't see my day to day. They don't

638
00:31:29,600 --> 00:31:31,680
Speaker 3: see what I have to go through and what I

639
00:31:31,760 --> 00:31:36,360
Speaker 3: have to deal with. And you know, they can have

640
00:31:36,400 --> 00:31:38,520
Speaker 3: your own opinions, but like I know, deep down I

641
00:31:38,560 --> 00:31:41,040
Speaker 3: can sleep good at night because I've made the right

642
00:31:41,080 --> 00:31:42,360
Speaker 3: decisions for myself and my.

643
00:31:42,320 --> 00:31:44,480
Speaker 2: Family one thousand percent.

644
00:31:52,680 --> 00:31:55,960
Speaker 1: Let's get into a little bit of your time as

645
00:31:56,080 --> 00:31:59,920
Speaker 1: captain of the women's national team. What's part of women's

646
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:05,000
Speaker 1: soccer much less being the captain that people don't see.

647
00:32:07,400 --> 00:32:09,320
Speaker 3: I think people don't see all the stuff that you

648
00:32:09,360 --> 00:32:12,120
Speaker 3: do behind the scenes, you know, I think they see

649
00:32:12,120 --> 00:32:14,880
Speaker 3: what is on TV. You know, they see game days,

650
00:32:16,080 --> 00:32:18,080
Speaker 3: they see social media, but you know there's a lot

651
00:32:18,120 --> 00:32:20,160
Speaker 3: that goes on behind the scenes. And I think what

652
00:32:20,320 --> 00:32:22,480
Speaker 3: helped me be a be a good captain is that

653
00:32:22,720 --> 00:32:24,600
Speaker 3: I was a mom. You know, the girls were on

654
00:32:24,640 --> 00:32:28,200
Speaker 3: the road with me majority of the time, so.

655
00:32:29,240 --> 00:32:31,960
Speaker 2: You homeschooled them right for Yeah, pretty much.

656
00:32:32,000 --> 00:32:35,400
Speaker 3: They Riley, my oldest, started going to school full time,

657
00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:39,280
Speaker 3: like second grade, but they allowed her to miss a

658
00:32:39,280 --> 00:32:43,000
Speaker 3: good chunk of kindergarten first because they felt like being

659
00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:46,480
Speaker 3: on the road in that culture and you know, seeing it,

660
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:49,880
Speaker 3: you know, in person, was just as an education experience

661
00:32:50,040 --> 00:32:53,080
Speaker 3: as you know, being in school. So you know, she

662
00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:56,120
Speaker 3: was able to travel a lot longer. And then Reese,

663
00:32:56,680 --> 00:32:58,960
Speaker 3: she was six when my career was over with the

664
00:32:59,040 --> 00:33:02,920
Speaker 3: national team, so she went right on to kindergarten. Yeah,

665
00:33:02,960 --> 00:33:05,080
Speaker 3: so you know it was it was a great experience.

666
00:33:05,080 --> 00:33:07,800
Speaker 3: They were around amazing female role models. It couldn't have

667
00:33:07,800 --> 00:33:09,000
Speaker 3: been a better exper I'm sure.

668
00:33:09,520 --> 00:33:12,480
Speaker 1: You know, they probably just owned so much. I mean

669
00:33:12,560 --> 00:33:14,760
Speaker 1: traveling and seeing the world like that. I feel like

670
00:33:14,800 --> 00:33:19,600
Speaker 1: that's the best way to just learn and experience everything.

671
00:33:19,720 --> 00:33:22,280
Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean both of them. At six weeks I

672
00:33:22,360 --> 00:33:25,720
Speaker 3: was back with the team, you know, traveling and you know,

673
00:33:26,040 --> 00:33:28,520
Speaker 3: three months I was back on the field competing, so

674
00:33:28,560 --> 00:33:31,479
Speaker 3: I was just like, you know, like no time wasting,

675
00:33:31,560 --> 00:33:32,680
Speaker 3: Let's go, Let's get.

676
00:33:32,520 --> 00:33:34,560
Speaker 2: Back out you know.

677
00:33:34,560 --> 00:33:36,240
Speaker 3: It was like my mentality is like I'm not losing

678
00:33:36,240 --> 00:33:38,040
Speaker 3: my position. I want to get it back out there.

679
00:33:38,080 --> 00:33:40,040
Speaker 3: I want to you know, give what I can. Even

680
00:33:40,080 --> 00:33:41,560
Speaker 3: if it wasn't one hundred percent on the field, it

681
00:33:41,600 --> 00:33:43,880
Speaker 3: was going to be off the field as a leader,

682
00:33:44,400 --> 00:33:47,520
Speaker 3: you know, and making sure that you know, playing on

683
00:33:47,520 --> 00:33:50,200
Speaker 3: the best team in the world, like it's very competitive,

684
00:33:50,320 --> 00:33:52,320
Speaker 3: so you know, I wanted to make sure that if

685
00:33:52,320 --> 00:33:54,760
Speaker 3: I wasn't there physically, I could be there, you know,

686
00:33:54,960 --> 00:33:59,200
Speaker 3: mentally and supporting and helping, whether it was players trying

687
00:33:59,240 --> 00:34:02,560
Speaker 3: to build confidence or even the coaching staff giving them confidence.

688
00:34:02,600 --> 00:34:05,720
Speaker 3: Sometimes you know, media is rough, so as a good

689
00:34:05,760 --> 00:34:08,640
Speaker 3: balance as a captain, trying to keep that whole locker

690
00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:09,280
Speaker 3: room together.

691
00:34:10,040 --> 00:34:14,520
Speaker 1: Definitely, when you look how women's sports are treated today,

692
00:34:14,800 --> 00:34:17,760
Speaker 1: do you ever feel bitter about what you didn't get?

693
00:34:18,320 --> 00:34:20,680
Speaker 3: I mean yes and no, but knowing where they are

694
00:34:20,719 --> 00:34:24,160
Speaker 3: now to where we began, because it's like it was

695
00:34:24,440 --> 00:34:26,200
Speaker 3: tough when I first started. I was you know, my

696
00:34:26,239 --> 00:34:29,799
Speaker 3: first contract was six thousand dollars, you know, and you know,

697
00:34:30,080 --> 00:34:33,520
Speaker 3: working a couple of different jobs and you know, trying

698
00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:35,759
Speaker 3: to fend for yourself, and then you know where they

699
00:34:35,760 --> 00:34:39,239
Speaker 3: are now. I mean when I when I retired professionally

700
00:34:39,239 --> 00:34:42,200
Speaker 3: in twenty seventeen, I was making thirty five thousand dollars

701
00:34:42,239 --> 00:34:44,719
Speaker 3: a year, you know, So that's and you look at it,

702
00:34:44,719 --> 00:34:47,320
Speaker 3: that's not too long ago. And now these girls professionally

703
00:34:47,320 --> 00:34:50,280
Speaker 3: in the NWSL are making you know, some decent money.

704
00:34:50,400 --> 00:34:53,399
Speaker 3: Not where they could be, but it's growing and it's

705
00:34:53,400 --> 00:34:56,719
Speaker 3: getting better. But we just you know, still need those

706
00:34:57,080 --> 00:35:01,319
Speaker 3: those same opportunities to you need to push to make

707
00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:02,799
Speaker 3: those salaries a lot more.

708
00:35:03,200 --> 00:35:08,680
Speaker 2: Definitely. Wow, that's crazy, all that work you guys put in.

709
00:35:08,800 --> 00:35:11,640
Speaker 2: God my gosh, that's the national team is there?

710
00:35:11,680 --> 00:35:14,560
Speaker 3: Like the national team level is getting better, Like the

711
00:35:14,640 --> 00:35:18,080
Speaker 3: money is getting better through sponsors, you know, and US

712
00:35:18,080 --> 00:35:21,000
Speaker 3: Soccer and you know, and fighting against FIFA and doing

713
00:35:21,000 --> 00:35:23,799
Speaker 3: all that stuff off the field has helped a ton.

714
00:35:23,920 --> 00:35:27,160
Speaker 3: It's just now professionally within her own country, we need

715
00:35:27,160 --> 00:35:29,840
Speaker 3: to still have the backing of the sponsors and the

716
00:35:29,840 --> 00:35:32,239
Speaker 3: support of the fans to keep growing it so these

717
00:35:32,280 --> 00:35:34,400
Speaker 3: girls can get paid what they deserve to get paid.

718
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:38,360
Speaker 1: Definitely, who do you think is the future of women's

719
00:35:38,360 --> 00:35:40,040
Speaker 1: sports today.

720
00:35:41,000 --> 00:35:44,560
Speaker 3: Wow, in soccer, we're just all around.

721
00:35:44,200 --> 00:35:47,400
Speaker 2: And I guess soccer because yeah, I we'll say soccer.

722
00:35:47,560 --> 00:35:49,760
Speaker 3: Yeah, because I mean, like I say, like the Caitlin

723
00:35:49,800 --> 00:35:52,520
Speaker 3: Clark for basketball, like she was a big buzz which

724
00:35:52,520 --> 00:35:57,200
Speaker 3: I think helped just people want to watch sports, you know,

725
00:35:57,239 --> 00:36:01,120
Speaker 3: not even just basketball, but then within soccer. But you know,

726
00:36:01,160 --> 00:36:04,080
Speaker 3: there's a younger generation now up and coming for soccer

727
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:07,200
Speaker 3: because it would say all the household names you know

728
00:36:07,360 --> 00:36:11,440
Speaker 3: have retired or which I'm loving. There's so many of

729
00:36:11,440 --> 00:36:13,719
Speaker 3: them that are getting pregnant, you know, and starting the

730
00:36:13,840 --> 00:36:16,520
Speaker 3: families and then wanting to like get back after it.

731
00:36:17,040 --> 00:36:20,880
Speaker 3: So yeah, this new younger generation is is going to

732
00:36:20,960 --> 00:36:24,840
Speaker 3: be a good test to continue to push, you know,

733
00:36:25,080 --> 00:36:29,279
Speaker 3: and and lead the ones behind them to take over.

734
00:36:29,960 --> 00:36:34,680
Speaker 1: Definitely, you've spent your career dealing with so much pressure, expectations,

735
00:36:34,760 --> 00:36:39,040
Speaker 1: and criticism. What's something that you still struggle with mentally today?

736
00:36:40,480 --> 00:36:43,200
Speaker 3: I think always being judged, you know, I think trying

737
00:36:43,200 --> 00:36:45,239
Speaker 3: to get that out of my head is because my

738
00:36:45,360 --> 00:36:49,080
Speaker 3: whole life, you know, I was being judged even when

739
00:36:49,120 --> 00:36:50,760
Speaker 3: I was I even feel like when I was five,

740
00:36:50,880 --> 00:36:53,880
Speaker 3: because I was a great player, Like, you know, everybody

741
00:36:53,920 --> 00:36:56,560
Speaker 3: was always looking at me. Everybody was always talking about

742
00:36:56,600 --> 00:36:58,680
Speaker 3: this girl. Yeah, it's like a little jealousy. So I

743
00:36:58,760 --> 00:37:02,279
Speaker 3: think always being judged when you step out into the

744
00:37:02,280 --> 00:37:04,480
Speaker 3: real world, just off the field. I think that's what

745
00:37:04,560 --> 00:37:07,479
Speaker 3: I'm really working on on the mental side of it,

746
00:37:07,520 --> 00:37:10,920
Speaker 3: is like that I'm not being judged all the time

747
00:37:11,080 --> 00:37:14,080
Speaker 3: when I think people are constantly judging me, and it's

748
00:37:14,200 --> 00:37:16,680
Speaker 3: you know, people aren't. People don't care as much as

749
00:37:16,719 --> 00:37:18,960
Speaker 3: you think they do. So it's just again taking that

750
00:37:19,000 --> 00:37:21,320
Speaker 3: deep breath to get out and just like live your life,

751
00:37:21,840 --> 00:37:25,280
Speaker 3: you know, and not worry so much about what people

752
00:37:25,320 --> 00:37:26,839
Speaker 3: think of you.

753
00:37:26,840 --> 00:37:27,000
Speaker 1: You know.

754
00:37:27,040 --> 00:37:27,399
Speaker 2: It's hard.

755
00:37:27,640 --> 00:37:31,920
Speaker 3: That's how I was, Like, It's what was always, you know,

756
00:37:31,960 --> 00:37:35,319
Speaker 3: I'm always getting critiqued, whether it's film, whether it was

757
00:37:35,480 --> 00:37:39,279
Speaker 3: like you know, sports and like and then you know,

758
00:37:39,360 --> 00:37:42,200
Speaker 3: I got into commentating. You know, I wrote a book.

759
00:37:42,239 --> 00:37:44,799
Speaker 3: I could wrote a book with you know, with a

760
00:37:44,800 --> 00:37:46,440
Speaker 3: good friend of mine, you know. So it's just like

761
00:37:46,440 --> 00:37:49,000
Speaker 3: you're I was always dabbling. But it's just that pressure

762
00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:52,680
Speaker 3: of people always judging, I think is the hardest thing

763
00:37:52,719 --> 00:37:56,759
Speaker 3: when you transition into that next part of my life.

764
00:37:56,800 --> 00:37:59,839
Speaker 3: I'm just tired of being judged. But that's part of

765
00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:03,080
Speaker 3: my ear voice saying keep moving forward.

766
00:38:03,680 --> 00:38:07,040
Speaker 1: No, and that's all you have to do because obviously

767
00:38:07,120 --> 00:38:10,000
Speaker 1: soccer was your love and your passion, and then when

768
00:38:10,040 --> 00:38:12,600
Speaker 1: that ended, life goes on.

769
00:38:13,000 --> 00:38:15,319
Speaker 2: You have to figure out what your next passion is.

770
00:38:15,440 --> 00:38:18,560
Speaker 1: And I know that's definitely probably a really difficult transition.

771
00:38:19,280 --> 00:38:23,400
Speaker 1: But no matter what the public, they're gonna say what

772
00:38:23,440 --> 00:38:27,560
Speaker 1: they want to say. But honestly, their opinion is this

773
00:38:27,719 --> 00:38:32,200
Speaker 1: big compared to what you can build, So just think

774
00:38:32,239 --> 00:38:35,359
Speaker 1: about it. It's probably some ugly troll behind their phone and.

775
00:38:35,760 --> 00:38:40,800
Speaker 2: It doesn't even matter. You're doing way bigger and better things.

776
00:38:41,760 --> 00:38:44,200
Speaker 2: All right, I want to talk I mean I want

777
00:38:44,200 --> 00:38:44,560
Speaker 2: to talk to.

778
00:38:44,560 --> 00:38:46,719
Speaker 1: You about episode eight a little bit before we wrap

779
00:38:46,800 --> 00:38:52,280
Speaker 1: up this episode. Yes, so we basically it was actually

780
00:38:52,320 --> 00:38:55,799
Speaker 1: probably the hardest physical challenge we ever we ever did.

781
00:38:56,560 --> 00:38:59,480
Speaker 1: It was basically like this mountin that reminded me of

782
00:38:59,480 --> 00:39:02,160
Speaker 1: like an ice cream cone. So it just kept going

783
00:39:02,280 --> 00:39:07,240
Speaker 1: up and up and up and up, and like each

784
00:39:07,680 --> 00:39:10,120
Speaker 1: every time you made it around one circle, you had

785
00:39:10,120 --> 00:39:12,680
Speaker 1: to grab another piece of equipment. So it was like

786
00:39:12,760 --> 00:39:14,960
Speaker 1: we made it up the one circle, we had to

787
00:39:15,000 --> 00:39:19,480
Speaker 1: grab a tire. Okay, bring the tires to the one spot.

788
00:39:19,960 --> 00:39:23,759
Speaker 1: Then we had to bring sandbags to another spot. Then

789
00:39:24,400 --> 00:39:27,440
Speaker 1: the last stretch were chains.

790
00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:29,719
Speaker 3: I've seen them, like, yeah, oh.

791
00:39:29,680 --> 00:39:34,520
Speaker 1: You had chains wrapped around us, like fully wrapped around us.

792
00:39:35,400 --> 00:39:40,600
Speaker 1: And that challenge, I don't know what it was, Christy,

793
00:39:40,719 --> 00:39:43,239
Speaker 1: and I think it was because we really didn't have to,

794
00:39:43,480 --> 00:39:46,600
Speaker 1: like we couldn't run like you, like you could run

795
00:39:46,640 --> 00:39:49,320
Speaker 1: as much as you wanted, but like you were really

796
00:39:49,400 --> 00:39:52,640
Speaker 1: just like lunging and pulling yourself up this mountain because

797
00:39:52,680 --> 00:39:53,560
Speaker 1: it was so steep.

798
00:39:54,280 --> 00:39:58,000
Speaker 2: And I was honestly.

799
00:39:57,760 --> 00:40:00,600
Speaker 1: Really proud of myself that day because I I felt

800
00:40:01,120 --> 00:40:04,839
Speaker 1: like I always kind of finished last. But even though

801
00:40:04,840 --> 00:40:08,919
Speaker 1: I finished, I finished last. I was the first one

802
00:40:08,960 --> 00:40:11,799
Speaker 1: out of the out of the girls to finish that challenge.

803
00:40:12,120 --> 00:40:12,680
Speaker 3: Well done.

804
00:40:13,000 --> 00:40:15,640
Speaker 1: And I was like, see, I'm getting stronger as this

805
00:40:15,760 --> 00:40:16,440
Speaker 1: is goner.

806
00:40:17,040 --> 00:40:19,000
Speaker 3: You were, though, because you think you were like saying

807
00:40:19,000 --> 00:40:21,600
Speaker 3: you weren't maybe as fit as you'd like to be.

808
00:40:22,000 --> 00:40:24,279
Speaker 2: Yeah, no, doub well. I was in Italy. I just

809
00:40:24,280 --> 00:40:26,160
Speaker 2: did not prepare for this properly.

810
00:40:26,520 --> 00:40:29,279
Speaker 3: But you were getting fit as you were getting through

811
00:40:29,280 --> 00:40:32,399
Speaker 3: those days. You know, I was a day you said

812
00:40:32,480 --> 00:40:35,640
Speaker 3: day it was day you were already lifting every day

813
00:40:36,400 --> 00:40:38,920
Speaker 3: and yeah, getting fitter and fitter, so well done.

814
00:40:39,200 --> 00:40:41,279
Speaker 1: No, yeah, so that was that was crazy though.

815
00:40:41,320 --> 00:40:47,040
Speaker 2: It was like nuts. And then Sean and Bree obviously

816
00:40:47,080 --> 00:40:47,919
Speaker 2: made it through that.

817
00:40:48,120 --> 00:40:51,879
Speaker 1: They were awesome, but it was it was a little

818
00:40:51,920 --> 00:40:54,640
Speaker 1: scary though, because the ds were being rough with the chains,

819
00:40:55,320 --> 00:40:57,840
Speaker 1: so like I got we got, I finally got my

820
00:40:57,960 --> 00:41:00,520
Speaker 1: chains off of me, and Sean's were at actually wrapped

821
00:41:00,520 --> 00:41:04,000
Speaker 1: around her neck and Andrew like that was the first

822
00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:06,360
Speaker 1: time I ever saw Andrew like get a little annoyed,

823
00:41:06,640 --> 00:41:08,279
Speaker 1: you know, and he was like.

824
00:41:08,920 --> 00:41:11,120
Speaker 2: Oh my god, like why were these around her neck?

825
00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:14,120
Speaker 1: And I think it was just like not even realizing it,

826
00:41:14,200 --> 00:41:17,120
Speaker 1: but they were so heavy, Like me, Sean and Jesse

827
00:41:17,239 --> 00:41:20,279
Speaker 1: were the shortest ones on the course and it was

828
00:41:20,440 --> 00:41:22,080
Speaker 1: just like crazy.

829
00:41:22,280 --> 00:41:25,120
Speaker 2: So that it was the first time I was.

830
00:41:25,080 --> 00:41:27,360
Speaker 1: Like, oh, I was like, but it's okay, Andrew, that

831
00:41:27,440 --> 00:41:29,080
Speaker 1: is your wife as you should.

832
00:41:29,600 --> 00:41:31,600
Speaker 2: You should be passed right now. I was like, I'm

833
00:41:31,640 --> 00:41:32,759
Speaker 2: trying to catch my breath, but.

834
00:41:32,920 --> 00:41:35,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, there shall be so mad here.

835
00:41:37,800 --> 00:41:38,680
Speaker 2: But yeah, and.

836
00:41:38,640 --> 00:41:44,720
Speaker 1: Then after that challenge that night we went on our mission.

837
00:41:45,160 --> 00:41:48,480
Speaker 3: So that's when you go on the they kotya wow.

838
00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:52,440
Speaker 1: So that was crazy because they just kind of dropped

839
00:41:52,480 --> 00:41:56,640
Speaker 1: us off. I think it was actually close to where

840
00:41:57,040 --> 00:42:02,520
Speaker 1: the damn was. Oh okay, around there you were okay,

841
00:42:02,840 --> 00:42:06,319
Speaker 1: but we were in like a town, like there was

842
00:42:06,600 --> 00:42:08,400
Speaker 1: little convenience stores.

843
00:42:08,000 --> 00:42:09,439
Speaker 3: Like hiding, trying to hide.

844
00:42:09,920 --> 00:42:13,799
Speaker 2: Hide. But then there was like a map and we

845
00:42:15,000 --> 00:42:15,480
Speaker 2: had to.

846
00:42:17,200 --> 00:42:24,440
Speaker 1: Basically find the safe house, okay, and each like destination

847
00:42:24,560 --> 00:42:26,160
Speaker 1: we would get closer and closer.

848
00:42:26,880 --> 00:42:29,160
Speaker 2: But then eventually, how long.

849
00:42:29,040 --> 00:42:32,239
Speaker 3: Do you think you guys were on the run for

850
00:42:35,000 --> 00:42:35,759
Speaker 3: before they caught you?

851
00:42:38,280 --> 00:42:42,359
Speaker 1: It was laid out, it was yeah. I think we

852
00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:48,759
Speaker 1: probably started the mission around five or six, okay, and

853
00:42:48,800 --> 00:42:52,880
Speaker 1: we were on our feet until like twelve a like

854
00:42:53,000 --> 00:42:55,279
Speaker 1: twelve or one, just.

855
00:42:55,280 --> 00:42:56,600
Speaker 2: Like running through it.

856
00:42:57,160 --> 00:42:57,399
Speaker 1: Wow.

857
00:42:58,600 --> 00:43:00,560
Speaker 2: And then it came to the point where.

858
00:43:00,360 --> 00:43:04,440
Speaker 1: They were like, okay, like you're about to get captured.

859
00:43:04,480 --> 00:43:05,160
Speaker 2: So just like.

860
00:43:05,800 --> 00:43:08,360
Speaker 1: Because we were like getting close to like the safe house,

861
00:43:08,440 --> 00:43:11,200
Speaker 1: but I don't think like the safe house really existed

862
00:43:11,719 --> 00:43:15,440
Speaker 1: because they had to capture us. But then it basically

863
00:43:15,480 --> 00:43:18,200
Speaker 1: came to the point where they were like, okay, guys,

864
00:43:18,640 --> 00:43:23,120
Speaker 1: like prepare yourselves, you're about to get captured. And even

865
00:43:23,160 --> 00:43:26,400
Speaker 1: though they said that, it was like there was no

866
00:43:26,480 --> 00:43:31,000
Speaker 1: way of preparing yourself. Like the dogs were barking, like

867
00:43:31,520 --> 00:43:34,759
Speaker 1: screaming at you. We had those the black things over

868
00:43:34,800 --> 00:43:40,880
Speaker 1: our heads again, and it was just like.

869
00:43:39,080 --> 00:43:41,720
Speaker 2: Like trembling, like it was so story.

870
00:43:42,560 --> 00:43:44,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, see you don't know where you're going. You don't know.

871
00:43:45,400 --> 00:43:46,600
Speaker 1: And it was like, you know at the end of

872
00:43:46,600 --> 00:43:49,040
Speaker 1: the day, yeah, you have the DS's, but like everyone

873
00:43:49,080 --> 00:43:53,000
Speaker 1: else was like these random people just like oh like

874
00:43:53,080 --> 00:43:56,880
Speaker 1: these random dogs and these random people like growing you

875
00:43:56,960 --> 00:43:59,520
Speaker 1: around and it's like who are you?

876
00:44:00,000 --> 00:44:03,560
Speaker 3: Where am I going? When they brought you back, you

877
00:44:03,640 --> 00:44:06,480
Speaker 3: still had no idea where you do you know you're

878
00:44:06,480 --> 00:44:07,840
Speaker 3: back in the compound.

879
00:44:07,840 --> 00:44:11,960
Speaker 1: You like, yeah, you kind of put it together, especially

880
00:44:12,040 --> 00:44:14,960
Speaker 1: when like you were getting out of the car and

881
00:44:15,040 --> 00:44:18,240
Speaker 1: then like just kind of like but it was crazy,

882
00:44:18,360 --> 00:44:23,280
Speaker 1: like obviously we'll see the rest of the days.

883
00:44:23,360 --> 00:44:26,200
Speaker 3: But you hear their voices.

884
00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:29,160
Speaker 1: You kind of figured it out because then once we

885
00:44:29,239 --> 00:44:32,480
Speaker 1: got back to the compound and went into interrogation, you

886
00:44:32,560 --> 00:44:34,600
Speaker 1: were like, okay, this is our dorm.

887
00:44:34,960 --> 00:44:36,720
Speaker 2: Okay, like all of our beds were gone.

888
00:44:37,560 --> 00:44:38,239
Speaker 3: Oh god.

889
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:41,240
Speaker 1: So it was like little things and we were allowed

890
00:44:41,280 --> 00:44:45,760
Speaker 1: to go to the bathroom and get a glass of water.

891
00:44:46,360 --> 00:44:48,680
Speaker 1: But like so when we went to the bathroom, I

892
00:44:48,760 --> 00:44:52,799
Speaker 1: was like, Okay, clearly I'm sitting in the piece of

893
00:44:53,200 --> 00:44:57,200
Speaker 1: plywood right now, But like then you would put it

894
00:44:57,239 --> 00:44:58,600
Speaker 1: together a little by little.

895
00:44:58,800 --> 00:45:00,760
Speaker 3: You still couldn't. Couldn't at this point.

896
00:45:01,200 --> 00:45:04,080
Speaker 1: No the bag, no, yeah, they put They kept the

897
00:45:04,080 --> 00:45:07,920
Speaker 1: bag over our head until we reached the bathroom, so

898
00:45:08,080 --> 00:45:11,040
Speaker 1: like they like directed you, like your hands were like

899
00:45:11,080 --> 00:45:13,239
Speaker 1: this in front of you, and it was like this

900
00:45:13,560 --> 00:45:14,200
Speaker 1: directing you.

901
00:45:14,760 --> 00:45:17,800
Speaker 2: Wow, it was terrible. It was like we were talking

902
00:45:17,800 --> 00:45:19,520
Speaker 2: to the ds is twenty four to seven.

903
00:45:19,960 --> 00:45:22,640
Speaker 1: But I kept asking for water because I'm like, oh,

904
00:45:22,680 --> 00:45:23,320
Speaker 1: I need.

905
00:45:23,160 --> 00:45:26,640
Speaker 2: Water, just so like a breathe, because I was like

906
00:45:26,680 --> 00:45:27,360
Speaker 2: I'm dying.

907
00:45:27,960 --> 00:45:31,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm excited for you to watch the rest of it,

908
00:45:31,600 --> 00:45:34,040
Speaker 1: even though I wish you were there with us.

909
00:45:34,400 --> 00:45:36,040
Speaker 3: I know it's fun because I'm like, oh, I wish

910
00:45:36,080 --> 00:45:36,520
Speaker 3: I could.

911
00:45:36,320 --> 00:45:36,799
Speaker 1: Be doing that.

912
00:45:36,920 --> 00:45:41,360
Speaker 2: You don't know, but you were like so close, literally

913
00:45:41,480 --> 00:45:42,839
Speaker 2: so close, I know.

914
00:45:43,520 --> 00:45:46,440
Speaker 3: Because you're like passing and like all activity, like like

915
00:45:46,560 --> 00:45:48,799
Speaker 3: physical physical, physical stuff after.

916
00:45:48,560 --> 00:45:52,000
Speaker 1: That, well, and that's why like when you left that morning,

917
00:45:52,120 --> 00:45:53,000
Speaker 1: the gas would have.

918
00:45:53,680 --> 00:45:56,480
Speaker 2: Oh probably taken you out, like with your lungs.

919
00:45:56,920 --> 00:46:01,400
Speaker 1: And then day eight, how it was so physically challenging,

920
00:46:02,040 --> 00:46:05,400
Speaker 1: like you you probably wouldn't have been able to breathe now,

921
00:46:06,280 --> 00:46:08,560
Speaker 1: it would have been too rough. But I mean, I

922
00:46:08,560 --> 00:46:10,800
Speaker 1: think everyone knows how tough you are, and the DS

923
00:46:10,840 --> 00:46:13,520
Speaker 1: we're definitely really disappointed to see you go.

924
00:46:13,840 --> 00:46:17,080
Speaker 3: I was, Yeah, I was disappointed, you know. Even when

925
00:46:17,080 --> 00:46:20,240
Speaker 3: they came in, they're like, you do cry.

926
00:46:20,320 --> 00:46:22,920
Speaker 2: You're not a robot. This is not good to know.

927
00:46:23,960 --> 00:46:27,719
Speaker 3: Yes, I do not often, but I am crying right now.

928
00:46:30,400 --> 00:46:33,360
Speaker 1: Chrissy, Well, thank you so much for coming on Casual Chaos.

929
00:46:33,400 --> 00:46:36,000
Speaker 1: It was so good to see you, and I can't

930
00:46:36,040 --> 00:46:38,719
Speaker 1: wait for you to watch the rest of Special Forces

931
00:46:39,280 --> 00:46:44,120
Speaker 1: live your journey and just keep building your confidence and strength.

932
00:46:44,520 --> 00:46:46,320
Speaker 3: Thank you. I'm so happy our paths crossed.

933
00:46:48,480 --> 00:46:50,560
Speaker 1: I know we have to hang out down the shore

934
00:46:50,840 --> 00:46:55,200
Speaker 1: this summer. We need a little Special Forces reunion me,

935
00:46:55,320 --> 00:46:58,400
Speaker 1: you and Chanelle because we're all in the Jersey area.

936
00:46:58,680 --> 00:47:01,040
Speaker 3: Yes, I watched one of the episodes with Chanel was

937
00:47:01,080 --> 00:47:01,600
Speaker 3: so much fun.

938
00:47:01,680 --> 00:47:03,880
Speaker 2: Well, I saw that that was so cute.

939
00:47:04,680 --> 00:47:06,960
Speaker 3: She's awesome. Yeah, we'll pick it back together.

940
00:47:06,880 --> 00:47:10,799
Speaker 2: Yes, definitely. All right. Well, thank you, Christy, all right,

941
00:47:10,880 --> 00:47:11,439
Speaker 2: see you soon.