WEBVTT - #76 Fanthrax Only 0:00:00.240 --> 0:00:14.600 Nicky, here's Nikki and Andrew. Hello, Yeah, Andrew's here today, 0:00:14.640 --> 0:00:17.720 you guys. It's a special version of the show. Welcome 0:00:17.760 --> 0:00:22.320 to a special fan trax version of the show. That 0:00:22.360 --> 0:00:25.440 means that we have too much feedback from you guys, 0:00:25.480 --> 0:00:28.000 and we don't get to it all every Thursday, which 0:00:28.040 --> 0:00:31.160 is our normal fan trax segment. So all we're doing 0:00:31.200 --> 0:00:34.600 today me and Andrew are and Noah are going to 0:00:34.800 --> 0:00:38.080 sift through your voice memos, your d M s, your emails, 0:00:38.159 --> 0:00:41.080 anything you've sent to the show, and we are going 0:00:41.159 --> 0:00:44.680 to laugh at it, laugh with you, laugh at you, 0:00:44.920 --> 0:00:48.519 um and respond, maybe give advice. It's just a special 0:00:48.520 --> 0:00:50.879 episode that is going to cover our butts if one 0:00:50.920 --> 0:00:54.120 day we get sick or can't do the show. And um, 0:00:54.200 --> 0:00:57.080 Andrew's very uncomfortable right now because I have Last night, 0:00:57.120 --> 0:00:59.400 I did do surgery on myself and I finally think 0:00:59.440 --> 0:01:02.480 I'm kind of sad almost because whatever this thing is 0:01:02.520 --> 0:01:05.720 on my knee, I've definitely dug it out. And I 0:01:05.800 --> 0:01:07.560 went to places last night that I didn't think I 0:01:07.600 --> 0:01:11.039 could go in terms of pain tolerance, and I loved it. 0:01:11.040 --> 0:01:13.440 It's a lot, folks. And I took off my band 0:01:13.440 --> 0:01:17.800 aid because it's so much worth literally bleeding. It's already scaped, 0:01:17.840 --> 0:01:20.520 it's already scabbed. The scab has happened. It's scabbing. There's 0:01:20.520 --> 0:01:24.120 no fresh understand it looks like like a crime scene 0:01:24.120 --> 0:01:27.000 on her knee, and she it's her own thing. I 0:01:27.040 --> 0:01:29.840 get it, but you know, it's making me a little queasy. 0:01:30.000 --> 0:01:32.760 There's no there's no apologizing. You have to do. This 0:01:32.800 --> 0:01:36.560 should make you queazy. This is weird. And I and it. 0:01:36.560 --> 0:01:38.319 It started we just did a podcast and it was 0:01:38.360 --> 0:01:40.480 bubbling up during that, like I took off the bandmaid 0:01:40.560 --> 0:01:43.399 and it like opened up and started bleeding and it 0:01:43.480 --> 0:01:45.280 was making like puddles of blood. But I didn't I 0:01:45.319 --> 0:01:47.080 couldn't be the guest on, so I couldn't go get 0:01:47.120 --> 0:01:49.080 a band aid. So then it actually I saw it 0:01:49.200 --> 0:01:51.840 scab and now it's like building scabs and it stopped bleeding, 0:01:51.880 --> 0:01:53.600 and I'm just fascinated by it. And if you do 0:01:53.680 --> 0:01:56.960 want anything removed surgically from you, sign over your life 0:01:56.960 --> 0:01:58.200 to me, and I will gladly do it because I'm 0:01:58.240 --> 0:02:00.000 pretty good at it. Unless you cut the corn off 0:02:00.080 --> 0:02:02.760 my girlfriend's toes. So yeah, I did tell them about that, 0:02:02.840 --> 0:02:05.920 so I think, yeah, but that this that doesn't require blood. 0:02:05.920 --> 0:02:09.320 I mean, I really this would usually need a local anesthetic. 0:02:09.440 --> 0:02:11.680 And all the videos I've watched, if someone having a 0:02:11.720 --> 0:02:13.839 wart like this removed, this is not like a bad word. 0:02:13.880 --> 0:02:17.720 It's just like a weird growth. Um people, No doctor 0:02:17.760 --> 0:02:20.160 would ever do what I did last night with my scalpel, 0:02:20.200 --> 0:02:23.760 my medical grade scalpel, without anesthetic. And I did it, 0:02:23.800 --> 0:02:26.240 and I honestly could have taken more. I think I 0:02:26.240 --> 0:02:29.280 would have been okay, civil war I was. I was 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:32.160 truly thinking last night, if I ever got my arm 0:02:32.200 --> 0:02:34.639 cut under a caught under a boulder, I could cut 0:02:34.680 --> 0:02:37.480 I could cut it off. I really could, because I 0:02:37.560 --> 0:02:39.440 let me just say that I was. I usually just 0:02:39.480 --> 0:02:41.280 removed the top layer. If you want to treat your work, 0:02:41.360 --> 0:02:43.400 you just scrape off the callus and then you put 0:02:43.400 --> 0:02:46.000 on whatever medicine and then you put a cover over it. 0:02:46.040 --> 0:02:48.720 That's generally the best way to treat it. Uh Apple 0:02:48.720 --> 0:02:50.799 site of vinegars is I think the best method that 0:02:50.840 --> 0:02:54.920 I've seen on the words subredit but this but the 0:02:54.960 --> 0:02:58.600 other way and and dermatologists in the States can't even 0:02:58.680 --> 0:03:01.120 do it because it's surgery is they cut the word out. 0:03:01.160 --> 0:03:03.360 That's really the best technique and there's videos of it 0:03:03.480 --> 0:03:05.800 in Europe and Canada like where they can do it 0:03:06.000 --> 0:03:08.560 all over YouTube. So I've literally learned how to do it. 0:03:08.840 --> 0:03:11.760 And what it takes is like you have to you 0:03:11.800 --> 0:03:14.440 have to go past it because the award this is 0:03:14.440 --> 0:03:16.560 not interesting. But the word only lives on the first 0:03:16.720 --> 0:03:19.000 layer of your skin. It does never goes deeper. It 0:03:19.040 --> 0:03:21.359 does tap into your blood supply, so you're gonna get 0:03:21.400 --> 0:03:24.120 crazy bleeding, but that's not It's not like it's never 0:03:24.160 --> 0:03:26.760 gonna end unless you're you know, one of those the 0:03:26.840 --> 0:03:29.799 e ma lephiliac or whatever it is. Um, I just 0:03:29.840 --> 0:03:31.519 made up a word, but there's some word of I 0:03:31.560 --> 0:03:34.520 don't stop bleeding, and I just don't feel like coming 0:03:34.600 --> 0:03:37.080 up with it. And but last night I was just 0:03:37.160 --> 0:03:39.200 there was this wordy tissue that I could feel because 0:03:39.200 --> 0:03:41.600 I've listened to so I've watched so many videos of 0:03:41.640 --> 0:03:45.360 them scraping using a little ice cream scoop curet to 0:03:45.480 --> 0:03:47.960 scrape out what appears to be like, oh you got 0:03:47.960 --> 0:03:49.960 the word out, why are you scraping it still? Because 0:03:50.280 --> 0:03:53.720 if any cell of wordy tissue remains, it will regrow. 0:03:54.000 --> 0:03:56.880 And last night I was like, let's see if I 0:03:56.880 --> 0:03:58.560 can like this thing that's been on my knee for 0:03:58.840 --> 0:04:01.360 over a decade get a lot. I pick it. It's 0:04:01.400 --> 0:04:02.760 it's like and it's something that brings me a lot 0:04:02.760 --> 0:04:04.640 of I don't know if anyone out there is a picker, 0:04:04.680 --> 0:04:07.480 but when I get anxious, I like the fact that 0:04:07.520 --> 0:04:09.360 I am able to pick it, like I'll miss this 0:04:09.400 --> 0:04:11.720 thing if it's gone. But I honestly wanted to see 0:04:11.720 --> 0:04:15.000 if I could do what everyone on the Subred Awards 0:04:15.040 --> 0:04:16.840 is trying to do. There's people there that are creeping 0:04:16.880 --> 0:04:18.599 on word videos because they're like me and they just 0:04:18.680 --> 0:04:20.960 like it. And then there are also most people are 0:04:21.000 --> 0:04:23.760 there just like here's my words, like I don't know 0:04:23.800 --> 0:04:25.080 what to do with it, and then there's creates like 0:04:25.120 --> 0:04:27.920 me commenting like will you take it? Like? And there's 0:04:27.920 --> 0:04:29.800 always so it's people that are getting help for their 0:04:29.800 --> 0:04:32.720 words and people and also people like just loving it 0:04:32.839 --> 0:04:35.560 and they all get along. It's weird, like they'll the 0:04:35.640 --> 0:04:37.760 word people will be like because they keep coming back 0:04:37.800 --> 0:04:39.479 and they'll be like this this is today, what it is? 0:04:39.480 --> 0:04:41.520 What should I do? People give advice, then they and 0:04:41.520 --> 0:04:45.279 then we go film and then they sometimes do and 0:04:45.279 --> 0:04:46.599 then they bring a video and they're like, I don't 0:04:46.600 --> 0:04:48.039 know why anyone wants to see this, but here you 0:04:48.040 --> 0:04:52.480 go and we go, thank you so much. Yeah, it's honestly, 0:04:52.440 --> 0:04:54.920 I have offered people to pay people to make these 0:04:55.000 --> 0:04:57.640 videos because they are so soothing to my soul. Anyway, 0:04:57.760 --> 0:05:00.160 last night there was this tissue that I couldn't was 0:05:00.200 --> 0:05:05.600 a different consistency than the regular healthy skin. And I 0:05:05.760 --> 0:05:07.520 know is getting ready to write on our board that 0:05:07.560 --> 0:05:10.760 says let's move on from warts. Yeah, yeah, I know 0:05:10.800 --> 0:05:16.560 what you're doing. And that really means ten minutes. No 0:05:16.600 --> 0:05:19.080 one knows that five means ten because I don't listen, 0:05:19.440 --> 0:05:24.760 and three means yeah, well that sounds like a great 0:05:24.800 --> 0:05:28.520 band name. Um, that sounds like a cover band, uh 0:05:28.760 --> 0:05:32.400 Anthrax cover band. Anyway, last night I really did a 0:05:32.480 --> 0:05:36.039 great job, and I went to places like I challenged 0:05:36.080 --> 0:05:39.320 myself to perform surgery on myself, thinking I was like 0:05:39.680 --> 0:05:45.039 almost like a doctor in uh, you know, uh Pilgrim 0:05:45.080 --> 0:05:46.839 times or whatever, and I was like, wow, I could 0:05:46.880 --> 0:05:48.480 have been maybe a surgeon in those times if you 0:05:48.480 --> 0:05:50.320 didn't have to go to school for it, like, and 0:05:50.440 --> 0:05:52.120 I would just be a good patient because the thing is, 0:05:52.160 --> 0:05:54.000 most people couldn't take this pain. And I wish they 0:05:54.000 --> 0:05:55.800 could because we could get it, I could get it 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:58.640 out right away. And but most people can't stand pain, 0:05:58.720 --> 0:06:00.799 and I get it. But I'm have a high tolerance, 0:06:00.800 --> 0:06:04.080 and I'm not getting shots for yourself. I'm not. I'm 0:06:04.120 --> 0:06:07.279 not being like I wouldn't. I'm sure there's something I 0:06:07.279 --> 0:06:09.479 could buy that would numb even ice. I think girls 0:06:09.480 --> 0:06:11.120 when they pie us their ears, they use ice to 0:06:11.240 --> 0:06:13.920 numb it. Um. There's some things you could give people 0:06:13.960 --> 0:06:16.599 that would love. In every movie they like, they drink 0:06:16.600 --> 0:06:21.120 a shot of whiskey. Drink whiskey. They so it makes 0:06:21.160 --> 0:06:24.520 you braver, like you bleed more if you're drunk for something. Yeah, 0:06:24.520 --> 0:06:27.120 it's blood for sure. All right, let's get to Uh. 0:06:27.240 --> 0:06:29.160 I'm sorry to make you uncomfortable with this though, because 0:06:29.200 --> 0:06:31.080 I know it is. It's just it's a lot. It 0:06:31.080 --> 0:06:34.520 looks like a like open surgery, like like you got 0:06:34.520 --> 0:06:36.839 a knee replace. Yeah, I can definitely get an infection 0:06:36.960 --> 0:06:39.080 very easily. But I know myself and I don't get 0:06:39.120 --> 0:06:41.680 infections often, So I'm just gonna I think that the 0:06:41.720 --> 0:06:43.960 only thing is like when you pick out your knee, 0:06:44.200 --> 0:06:46.960 like it's an it's almost involuntary at this point, and 0:06:46.960 --> 0:06:49.120 I think when we go to video, like, you're not 0:06:49.160 --> 0:06:51.839 going to even realize you do it. It's like I 0:06:51.839 --> 0:06:54.560 don't realize when I buy my nails and people see 0:06:54.600 --> 0:06:57.800 it and they get like very like people get so 0:06:57.880 --> 0:07:02.200 fucking anal about if you're doing something that's making them uncomfortable. 0:07:02.320 --> 0:07:04.320 So if you're playing with your knee or fidgeting. I'm 0:07:04.320 --> 0:07:06.560 a woman on the internet, so I know. I know 0:07:06.640 --> 0:07:10.840 that's your first rodeo of being picked apart about everything 0:07:10.840 --> 0:07:13.080 you do, like the thing on your knee. But I'm 0:07:13.240 --> 0:07:15.400 when I signed them to do video for this, first 0:07:15.440 --> 0:07:17.120 I wanted a desk to cover my legs so I 0:07:17.120 --> 0:07:19.520 didn't have to be judged for my outfit. Then I 0:07:19.520 --> 0:07:21.360 wanted then I would go, maybe I'll wear sunglasses like 0:07:21.400 --> 0:07:23.680 Jenny McCarthy because I don't want to do my makeup. 0:07:24.080 --> 0:07:27.400 I have now surrendered to I'm going to look like 0:07:27.440 --> 0:07:29.240 I look that dy. I'll try to look a little nice, 0:07:29.280 --> 0:07:31.680 just so it looks visually cool. Like when I try 0:07:31.720 --> 0:07:33.240 to put a makeup or want to ring light. It's 0:07:33.240 --> 0:07:34.920 not because I want people to want to fuck me. 0:07:34.960 --> 0:07:37.480 It's because it's more pleasing to the eye. People always 0:07:37.480 --> 0:07:39.240 go my sister goes, I don't need a ring light. 0:07:39.240 --> 0:07:41.600 I'm teaching zoo, I'm teaching high school kids, and I go, 0:07:41.920 --> 0:07:43.800 they'll more likely to look at the screen if it's 0:07:43.800 --> 0:07:45.920 a visually well lit thing. It's not because I want 0:07:45.920 --> 0:07:47.920 you to want to look fuckable for your students. It's 0:07:47.960 --> 0:07:50.800 because it looks better. Makeup makes you look not only 0:07:50.800 --> 0:07:54.040 more fuckable, but just more pleasing aesthetically to the eye. 0:07:54.480 --> 0:07:57.600 So um, I'm ready to have those things. However, I've 0:07:57.600 --> 0:07:59.840 been on a lot of TV shows where I've seen 0:08:00.080 --> 0:08:04.120 already and myself, to tell the truth, where you don't 0:08:04.120 --> 0:08:06.360 think you're on you forget you're on camera. It's almost 0:08:06.360 --> 0:08:08.840 like a reality show. When I've done reality, I've forgotten 0:08:08.840 --> 0:08:10.960 I was on camera and had that happen where I 0:08:11.040 --> 0:08:13.320 was like, oh my god, there's camera right there and 0:08:13.360 --> 0:08:15.720 you like happened to me yesterday in our meeting when 0:08:15.760 --> 0:08:18.280 I was playing with my penis in my shorts and 0:08:18.320 --> 0:08:23.520 I didn't realize I heard that happen. I'm sorry, I saw, 0:08:23.840 --> 0:08:26.920 Thank Goodness that we're friends, but it was I heard 0:08:26.960 --> 0:08:30.520 that happening. I just forgot. I catch you playing with 0:08:30.560 --> 0:08:33.720 your penis so often like a three year old board, 0:08:33.720 --> 0:08:36.800 but in my pants it's in your pants, but still 0:08:36.800 --> 0:08:39.760 it's not right. I would assume everyone thinks that, but like, yeah, 0:08:40.280 --> 0:08:41.720 but you stick your hands in your pants. It's not 0:08:41.760 --> 0:08:45.920 outside your pants there, it's in. Yeah, that's how comfortable 0:08:45.960 --> 0:08:48.400 you are around us. And yeah you forgot you were 0:08:48.440 --> 0:08:52.439 on zoom for a second and that's fine. Um, but anyways, yes, 0:08:52.800 --> 0:08:56.520 but yes, what were you saying you do involuntary things 0:08:56.559 --> 0:08:58.640 when you don't even realize it. Why were you telling 0:08:58.679 --> 0:09:00.520 me that, like, you gotta work on your picking thing. 0:09:00.679 --> 0:09:03.600 I'm not I'm not coming at you like that. I'm 0:09:03.600 --> 0:09:06.440 just saying that if you're picking a lot, I think 0:09:06.480 --> 0:09:09.439 it's you know what my best sees people watching. First 0:09:09.440 --> 0:09:11.000 of all, I don't read you comment, so I would 0:09:11.000 --> 0:09:13.040 never literally know if someone was calling me out for that. 0:09:13.040 --> 0:09:15.640 That's why I really do rely on the people who 0:09:15.640 --> 0:09:17.720 work for me to let me know, like, hey, people 0:09:17.760 --> 0:09:19.560 don't seem to be liking this thing that you do, 0:09:19.600 --> 0:09:23.360 because I'll never a critical d M. I stopped reading it, so, 0:09:23.440 --> 0:09:26.120 like Noah and Andrew, as much as you guys see, 0:09:26.160 --> 0:09:28.680 if anyone's like, we don't like this about the podcast, 0:09:29.120 --> 0:09:31.920 steer me in those directions without explicitly telling me that 0:09:31.960 --> 0:09:37.920 people hate me. But there I'm not getting Oh yeah, 0:09:38.000 --> 0:09:40.520 I've done that one. I know. But that's what I'm 0:09:40.520 --> 0:09:43.600 saying people. It's not I'm not but that's that's That's 0:09:43.600 --> 0:09:45.560 another thing. It's like I don't care if you eat 0:09:45.559 --> 0:09:49.640 your picks. Yeah, I just can't. I'd really try to do. 0:09:49.920 --> 0:09:51.960 I would be eating a lot on a lot more. 0:09:52.320 --> 0:09:54.080 Um So I'm just telling those people I'm doing my 0:09:54.120 --> 0:09:56.319 best and that doesn't bother me. And the picking thing 0:09:56.320 --> 0:09:58.959 we're saying like too much. I'm working on all those things. 0:09:59.040 --> 0:10:01.160 These are things I'm aware of of, um and the 0:10:01.160 --> 0:10:02.920 picking thing. But I have been on tell to tell 0:10:02.920 --> 0:10:05.480 the truth, and sometimes I the last time I was on, 0:10:05.880 --> 0:10:08.600 I made sure I go Nikki. Remember that the cameras 0:10:08.640 --> 0:10:10.439 on you so many times when your face just fell 0:10:10.720 --> 0:10:12.679 and was like natural. It's like the joke I made 0:10:12.720 --> 0:10:17.440 on Conan the Zoom meeting. You're like fake and you're 0:10:17.440 --> 0:10:19.040 like hi, I think so much and then it goes 0:10:19.200 --> 0:10:21.960 leave meeting in your face falls to its natural state, 0:10:22.320 --> 0:10:24.679 and I just try to remember, like, remember where you are, 0:10:24.760 --> 0:10:27.720 not don't be fake, but remember to be like you're happy, Like, 0:10:27.800 --> 0:10:31.320 don't FoST in your thoughts, be self awareness, so we'll 0:10:31.320 --> 0:10:32.880 have that during the video. I'm excited to get to it. 0:10:32.960 --> 0:10:38.720 Let's get to fan tracks. The whole episode is fan 0:10:38.760 --> 0:10:48.000 tracks starting now. Thank you guys so much for all 0:10:48.040 --> 0:10:50.560 of your feedback on the show. Let's get to it. No, 0:10:50.840 --> 0:10:54.520 what's up first? Okay, let's start with an email that 0:10:54.600 --> 0:10:57.760 we got. Hi, Nikki and Andrew, I think I just 0:10:57.800 --> 0:11:00.840 became a bestie to be on this. I was struggling 0:11:00.880 --> 0:11:03.600 sometimes to get through the podcast, especially when you and 0:11:03.600 --> 0:11:06.160 Andrew would be working your ship out on air. It 0:11:06.240 --> 0:11:08.920 was like listening to a bickering couple, which can be 0:11:09.080 --> 0:11:12.200 grading for sure. I'm such a big fan of you both, though, 0:11:12.520 --> 0:11:14.280 that I would just take a break and then check 0:11:14.320 --> 0:11:17.480 back into see how things were evolving. It was touch 0:11:17.559 --> 0:11:19.600 and go l O L. I just finished listening to 0:11:19.679 --> 0:11:22.800 the s s DJ episode Soul Sucking Day Job, and 0:11:22.880 --> 0:11:24.880 after walking away a couple of times from it, I 0:11:25.200 --> 0:11:27.680 decided to just finish it, and Nikki, you basically addressed 0:11:27.679 --> 0:11:29.760 every single thing at the end of that podcast I 0:11:29.800 --> 0:11:31.960 was having a hard time with. Not only did I 0:11:32.000 --> 0:11:35.040 feel completely seen, I too have a a d h 0:11:35.120 --> 0:11:37.040 D and can totally relate probably why I was having 0:11:37.080 --> 0:11:40.000 a hard time listening to it, but your self awareness 0:11:40.000 --> 0:11:42.160 and vulnerability came through in such a way that I 0:11:42.160 --> 0:11:45.240 committed to listening annoyed or not from here on out. 0:11:45.520 --> 0:11:47.360 Thank you so much for talking about all the things 0:11:47.360 --> 0:11:50.079 nobody else will. You are helping so many people by 0:11:50.080 --> 0:11:53.440 putting yourself out or like that out there like that mmmmm, 0:11:53.800 --> 0:11:58.640 Jiack bought from Brandy. Brandy, Oh my god, talk about 0:11:58.640 --> 0:12:01.719 feeling seen girl. That's why I did that. I'm so 0:12:01.800 --> 0:12:06.720 glad because I just I'm never gonna be a perfect 0:12:06.800 --> 0:12:10.360 performer and give all my fans exactly the version of 0:12:10.400 --> 0:12:14.040 myself that they wanted me or the be the thing 0:12:14.080 --> 0:12:16.560 that they tuned in for in the first place. I 0:12:16.640 --> 0:12:20.120 just can't, and I'm gonna have flaws. And that's why 0:12:20.200 --> 0:12:21.880 I just love the listeners of the show so much, 0:12:21.960 --> 0:12:24.840 because you know what, guys, I don't even mind, Brandy. 0:12:24.880 --> 0:12:27.160 I want you to never just rough it out. Like 0:12:27.200 --> 0:12:29.360 if I'm talking about something that's annoying you or your board, 0:12:30.400 --> 0:12:32.839 can I ask, can I as my best sea, will 0:12:32.840 --> 0:12:35.040 you just turn it off and like honor yourself in 0:12:35.080 --> 0:12:37.480 those moments of like this is uncomfortable, I don't like it, 0:12:37.520 --> 0:12:39.160 Like just do it feels good. So if I put 0:12:39.160 --> 0:12:41.439 you in a position where you're like not feeling good, 0:12:41.960 --> 0:12:44.280 do what Brandy said and just like turn it off 0:12:44.320 --> 0:12:45.920 and come back again and be like, I'm kind of 0:12:45.920 --> 0:12:47.800 mad at my friend NICKI like, I didn't like that. 0:12:47.960 --> 0:12:50.679 I just she just kind of disappointed me. You're allowed 0:12:50.720 --> 0:12:52.480 to be mad at me. You're allowed to be disappointed 0:12:52.480 --> 0:12:55.760 in me. Um. I I think it would be for 0:12:55.800 --> 0:12:58.440 you to be blindly on board with anything I do 0:12:58.640 --> 0:13:00.840 is not something I ask of my fan ends and 0:13:00.920 --> 0:13:04.920 sometimes when and I'm not saying not comparing besties to swifties, 0:13:04.960 --> 0:13:06.840 but I kind of am, because I do think that 0:13:07.200 --> 0:13:10.319 this was all born of the fact that I feel 0:13:10.400 --> 0:13:13.280 so taken care of as a Swifty and I want 0:13:13.320 --> 0:13:15.560 my fans to feel that way too, um And just 0:13:15.640 --> 0:13:19.120 like seen and all those things. But sometimes Taylor will 0:13:19.160 --> 0:13:25.240 do something that I don't love and I have I 0:13:25.320 --> 0:13:27.840 struggle with it, and I like get like mad, like 0:13:27.960 --> 0:13:30.720 you are departing from the version of you that I 0:13:30.760 --> 0:13:32.600 have on a pedestal, that is the version of you 0:13:32.640 --> 0:13:36.280 that you've only given me. I don't really know you, um, 0:13:36.400 --> 0:13:40.160 And I'll get hurt and and then sometimes I'll try 0:13:40.160 --> 0:13:43.920 to ignore it because I'm like, I just you know, 0:13:43.960 --> 0:13:45.640 the way we do in relationships of someone we love, 0:13:45.679 --> 0:13:47.120 they say something and we go I can't be with 0:13:47.160 --> 0:13:49.200 someone for talks like that, And then you just decide 0:13:49.240 --> 0:13:51.880 to forget it even happened, because it's too hard to 0:13:52.080 --> 0:13:55.640 realize that you're, you know, giving into this thing that 0:13:55.679 --> 0:13:58.000 you wouldn't stand for. But because it's Taylor Swift, I'll 0:13:58.080 --> 0:14:00.920 let it slide. So what I do is I try 0:14:00.960 --> 0:14:03.840 to process it, and I try to see it from 0:14:03.880 --> 0:14:06.280 their perspective. And I love that you were able to 0:14:06.320 --> 0:14:08.880 for maybe in the future, the apart Brandy that you 0:14:08.880 --> 0:14:11.760 would turn off, you won't have to actually stick out 0:14:11.880 --> 0:14:14.800 because you'll remember, I have a d h D and 0:14:14.800 --> 0:14:19.200 then I'm have self esteem issues and I smoke too 0:14:19.280 --> 0:14:22.520 much pot and I am on a d D meds 0:14:22.560 --> 0:14:24.960 that make me talk too much sometimes, but they also 0:14:25.000 --> 0:14:26.880 make me not want to kill myself. So it's better 0:14:26.960 --> 0:14:30.720 for myself to just be a little chatty, selfish bitch sometimes. 0:14:31.240 --> 0:14:33.600 And I can be a jealous person. I can be 0:14:35.240 --> 0:14:39.080 really petty, and it all stems from like not feeling enough, 0:14:39.360 --> 0:14:42.240 and so if you can extend that to me, and 0:14:42.280 --> 0:14:46.240 you play golf too much and it's like that's your 0:14:46.280 --> 0:14:50.960 only fault, Like we're just I really well. I think 0:14:51.000 --> 0:14:54.280 sometimes they're like like if they come to us as 0:14:54.320 --> 0:14:58.240 a place of like laughter and silliness and and then 0:14:58.280 --> 0:15:01.360 we're like, we're just bringing more stress. No. I knew 0:15:01.960 --> 0:15:04.000 when we did our fight episodes and we couldn't get 0:15:04.040 --> 0:15:06.240 out of it because Guy's besties have been in fights 0:15:06.240 --> 0:15:07.880 where they can't get out of it, where you just 0:15:07.920 --> 0:15:10.520 go we I can't move onto the news with my 0:15:10.600 --> 0:15:13.000 husband right now or whatever that version of and we 0:15:13.080 --> 0:15:16.080 can't talk about it off air sometimes and like it 0:15:16.240 --> 0:15:18.400 just so I I but I do think a lot 0:15:18.400 --> 0:15:23.360 of people get positive out of a daily show is 0:15:23.400 --> 0:15:27.080 going to have moments of disappointing you and being not 0:15:27.280 --> 0:15:29.680 good or not the best, because in order to have 0:15:29.680 --> 0:15:33.240 the best, you have to have low points. And I 0:15:33.240 --> 0:15:35.280 think that's something that I love about our show. And 0:15:35.280 --> 0:15:39.800 I've only felt comfortable being this vulnerable and this uh this, 0:15:40.640 --> 0:15:42.600 you know, like I've said, when we have an argument, 0:15:42.640 --> 0:15:44.280 I don't want to move on to the news like 0:15:44.320 --> 0:15:47.520 nothing happened, because even though that awkwardness is real, and 0:15:47.560 --> 0:15:49.360 maybe pointing out that it's awkward now is real and 0:15:49.360 --> 0:15:51.200 it's the only way to get past it because we can't. 0:15:51.240 --> 0:15:53.880 We don't have enough time to work it out. I'll 0:15:53.920 --> 0:15:56.040 at least address that, but I just feel like sometimes 0:15:56.160 --> 0:15:58.400 I need to finish an argument with you or get 0:15:58.520 --> 0:16:01.480 my feelings out, because um, it's the most honest thing 0:16:01.520 --> 0:16:03.600 to do, even though I know the show is suffering. 0:16:03.680 --> 0:16:07.040 And I hope that you understand that I'm I don't 0:16:07.040 --> 0:16:10.160 always put besties first and their interests sometimes in those 0:16:10.200 --> 0:16:12.160 moments that I get caught up in my own ego 0:16:12.520 --> 0:16:15.920 and I I want to remember though that the show 0:16:16.000 --> 0:16:17.760 is for you, and but it is for us too. 0:16:18.240 --> 0:16:20.760 But for me, the best show I can make is 0:16:20.840 --> 0:16:24.160 one that everyone benefits from. But I will say that 0:16:24.480 --> 0:16:26.400 the Taylor is with thing what it was able for me, 0:16:26.600 --> 0:16:29.360 something that she did that I was really hurt by 0:16:29.520 --> 0:16:35.240 personally and that I felt like betrayed or whatever by 0:16:35.240 --> 0:16:38.000 this person that it literally I'm probably in love with 0:16:38.440 --> 0:16:43.720 um she? Uh? Was she heard a joke on a 0:16:43.760 --> 0:16:46.440 Netflix show called Georgie and Frankie or not? No? Its 0:16:46.520 --> 0:16:48.640 like um. Anyway, there was a joke on a show 0:16:48.640 --> 0:16:51.200 on Netflix that everyone was watching at a time between 0:16:51.240 --> 0:16:54.160 a mother and a daughter, and the mother said, you 0:16:54.240 --> 0:16:56.680 go through guys like Taylor Swift faster than Taylor Swift, 0:16:56.960 --> 0:17:00.920 and Taylor send out a tweet that was like, come on, Netflix, 0:17:00.920 --> 0:17:03.120 you can do better than this. Really like you're gonna 0:17:03.480 --> 0:17:05.399 I don't know, I don't know exact wording, but she 0:17:05.560 --> 0:17:08.520 was annoyed by this joke, And to me, as a 0:17:08.560 --> 0:17:11.720 comedian who writes jokes, I was like, Taylor, you're famous, 0:17:11.760 --> 0:17:13.760 you open yourself up to that, and it's like such 0:17:13.760 --> 0:17:16.240 an innocuous joke, Like why is why the big deal 0:17:16.280 --> 0:17:18.040 about them saying you date a lot of people, you've 0:17:18.040 --> 0:17:20.280 been in a relationship for you know, four or five 0:17:20.359 --> 0:17:23.000 years now, that's the old version of you. That's a 0:17:23.000 --> 0:17:26.440 shitty joke, you know it is. Let it slide because 0:17:26.480 --> 0:17:30.200 I think it probably like you said, whatever, they're gonna 0:17:30.200 --> 0:17:32.240 listen to his actually win thing, how you were like 0:17:32.280 --> 0:17:37.640 insecure about not feeling dirty. She's probably has those same 0:17:37.680 --> 0:17:40.119 feelings of like, yeah, I do write a lot of 0:17:40.160 --> 0:17:42.760 songs about a lot of guys, but that doesn't necessarily 0:17:42.840 --> 0:17:45.120 mean I've been through a ton of guys. I'm sure 0:17:45.160 --> 0:17:48.160 she's so insecure about stuff like that, And and she's 0:17:48.160 --> 0:17:50.800 had responses to different jokes like she I think one 0:17:50.800 --> 0:17:53.400 time Amy Poeller and Tina Fey made jokes about her 0:17:53.560 --> 0:17:57.000 and in this similar fashion, probably much more like comedically 0:17:57.040 --> 0:18:00.560 executed at the Golden Globes or something, and she wrote, well, 0:18:00.560 --> 0:18:02.640 there's a special place in Hell, I think she said 0:18:02.680 --> 0:18:04.720 for people like that. And I kind of loved I mean, 0:18:04.760 --> 0:18:06.159 I hated it at the time because I was like, 0:18:06.400 --> 0:18:08.159 I'm going to Taylor so as things, I'm going to 0:18:08.160 --> 0:18:10.760 help because I would have made that joke. Um, but 0:18:10.840 --> 0:18:12.600 she was just she was just talking and that's just 0:18:12.600 --> 0:18:14.200 the thing people, it's a turn of phrase. She didn't 0:18:14.200 --> 0:18:20.480 actually did say. First of all, I forgive anyone who uh. 0:18:20.520 --> 0:18:22.280 I will react to things sometimes all the time. So 0:18:22.320 --> 0:18:23.720 the overreaction was what I was mad about. Was like, 0:18:23.720 --> 0:18:25.440 if such an ocuous joke, why did she gets so upset? 0:18:25.600 --> 0:18:28.320 And then I go, I think, I know, not only 0:18:28.480 --> 0:18:30.720 is it just this tired joke, she's still fucking tired 0:18:30.760 --> 0:18:32.760 of hearing and she's been in a relationship for five years. 0:18:32.760 --> 0:18:35.600 Why is this even still coming up? And it's also 0:18:35.640 --> 0:18:37.720 bad for young girls to think that dating a lot 0:18:38.040 --> 0:18:41.560 and like having experiences is like a a shameful thing, 0:18:41.680 --> 0:18:44.600 which it's not. So she's she's mad about all that, 0:18:44.680 --> 0:18:47.000 the example this joke is setting for young girls, the 0:18:47.000 --> 0:18:50.200 attack on her that isn't even representative of her anymore 0:18:50.359 --> 0:18:53.800 or never really was. But then I realized, I bet 0:18:53.840 --> 0:18:57.800 Taylor Swift was had just released these two albums, I 0:18:57.840 --> 0:18:59.719 was doing a lot of press, getting so much attention, 0:18:59.720 --> 0:19:02.080