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Speaker 1: Music Saved Me.

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Speaker 2: You just have to show people. You have to show

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Speaker 2: them what you're capable of. Nobody is ever going to

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Speaker 2: believe in you as much as you believe in yourself,

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Speaker 2: and nobody is ever going to do as much for

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Speaker 3: I'm Lynn Hoffman, and welcome to this episode of Music

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Speaker 3: Saved Me, where we delve deep into the stories from

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Speaker 3: musicians about their inside story, their passion and resilience, overcoming adversity,

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Speaker 3: and creating for their community. And today I'm so excited

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Speaker 3: I welcome country music singer songwriter Jessica Lynn. She has

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Speaker 3: a new music out now and has her own personal

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Speaker 3: story to share about how she almost lost everything in

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Speaker 3: her career and needed her deep connection to music to

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Speaker 3: get through those dark times and to find the light.

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Speaker 3: Welcome Jessica Lynn to.

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Speaker 2: Music Save Me.

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Speaker 1: Thank you so much for having me.

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Speaker 3: It's so great to have you on the show this morning,

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Speaker 3: or today or in the ether you're listening. We're so

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Speaker 3: grateful you're listening. Can you first start off this conversation

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Speaker 3: by telling us about yourself, who you are and share

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Speaker 3: your story about how music saved you.

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Speaker 1: Sure.

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Speaker 2: So everyone always asked me when did you decide to

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Speaker 2: because I never made that decision. It was just all

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Speaker 2: was very clear. From a very young age. My parents

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Speaker 2: so I started my first band when I was thirteen.

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Speaker 2: And then when I was about nineteen, I always loved

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Speaker 2: And my earliest memory of music ever was actually Glenn

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Speaker 2: But it's difficult working with so many different personalities, and

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Speaker 2: And it just kept going and we were covering over

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Speaker 2: And ever since then, we've been on the road and

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Speaker 2: I've been living my dream and I feel incredibly lucky.

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Speaker 3: That's such a cool thing because you pull from the

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Speaker 2: Thank you, so, the Very Merry Classic Christmas Tour is

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Speaker 2: So I was like, oh, we never played Christmas music before.

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Speaker 1: And ever since then, this is now.

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Speaker 2: Our eighth year, it has just spiraled into this monster.

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Speaker 2: And it also is a fundraiser for Toys for Tots.

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Speaker 3: It is it's a thing. You have created a bona

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Speaker 3: If you had a theme song to your life, what

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Speaker 1: Ooh, don't stop believing.

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Speaker 2: For real? I mean, I've had a hard road, totally

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Speaker 2: You know, my family is a very regular, working class

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Speaker 3: Very true, very true. And your family also, I read

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Speaker 2: The last few years really, twenty twenty, I would say

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Speaker 2: And I learned that because in the winter of twenty twenty,

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Speaker 2: ever since then, Run two was really my turning point.

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Speaker 3: How did you learn to listen to your instinct?

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Speaker 1: You know? I think experience.

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Speaker 2: There were so many times start my career, in the

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Speaker 2: And I am a very intuitive person, and I think

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Speaker 3: That's an important message for those who are paying attention

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Speaker 2: As an independent artist's finances are always hard. Everything that

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Speaker 2: Yeah, this was a very hard year for me physically.

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Speaker 4: Record like that. It was a fight to the finish.

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Speaker 2: such beautiful comments and messages after shows about really personal,

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Speaker 1: There's nothing like music in the entire world.

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Speaker 3: How does that make you feel when when your music

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Speaker 1: I'm so lucky to do what I do well.

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Speaker 2: This sounds very cliche, but always keep going and always

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Speaker 2: out there, how many beautiful women there are out there,

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Speaker 2: that's saying, how many people that are much better singers

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Speaker 2: than I am out there, but they don't have the drive.

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Speaker 1: That I have. It's all about that.

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Speaker 2: It's about being able to get up off the ground

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Speaker 2: and you've been kicked down, brush yourself off, and be

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Speaker 2: willing to try again. That is a skill that probably

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Speaker 2: one percent of the population has truly mastered. And those

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Speaker 2: are the people that get separated from the pact.

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Speaker 3: Well, those are beautiful words from a beautiful woman, And

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Speaker 3: I'm so grateful that you inside and out. You just

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Speaker 3: and it's obvious that you spend a lot of time

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Speaker 3: help you to get through things. But I can't thank

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Speaker 3: you enough for sharing this time with us on music

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Speaker 3: Save Me? And what's your latest single out that people

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Speaker 3: can go listen to right now? Oh?

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Speaker 1: So, Well, the record comes out January seventeenth, which I'm

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Speaker 1: really excited about.

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Speaker 2: It's called YEP, so that's also off the record, and

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Speaker 2: the music video for Something about You is out now

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Speaker 2: and it's a tour compilation music video too that you

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Speaker 2: can see on YouTube of our euro tour this year.

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Speaker 3: Excellent. Well, thank you so much. Her name is Jessica Lynn.

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Speaker 3: Go see her, check out her music, and please come

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Speaker 3: back and see us again. And congratulations on everything that

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Speaker 3: you've achieved and overcome.

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Speaker 1: Thanks so much, thanks for having me