WEBVTT - Amanda Knox Navigates Labyrinths

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<v Speaker 1>I'm Alec Baldwin and you're listening to Hear's the Thing

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<v Speaker 1>from iHeart Radio. In two thousand and nine, Amanda Knox

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<v Speaker 1>was sentenced to twenty six years in prison for a

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<v Speaker 1>crime she didn't commit. You probably remember her case. Amanda

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<v Speaker 1>was a foreign exchange student in Perugia, Italy in two

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<v Speaker 1>thousand and seven when her roommate Meredith Kercher was raped

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<v Speaker 1>and murdered. Despite a lack of physical evidence linking her

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<v Speaker 1>to the crime, Knox spent almost a decade of her

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<v Speaker 1>life stuck in the maze of the Italian criminal justice system.

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<v Speaker 1>Amanda Knox is thirty three now and lives in Seattle.

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<v Speaker 1>Last year, she and her husband launched a podcast called Labyrinths.

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<v Speaker 1>In December, they put out a special episode to mark

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<v Speaker 1>the release from prison of Meredith Kircher's actual killer, Rudy Gaday.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, thank you for being here on this labyrinth with me.

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<v Speaker 2>Should he have gotten a life sentence, I don't think so.

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<v Speaker 2>I would not wish an unreasonably harsh sentence on anyone.

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<v Speaker 2>I would wish them only true rehabilitation. Gooday's lawyers say

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<v Speaker 2>he's well along that path. Maybe so, But I do

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<v Speaker 2>know one thing. So long as he refuses to admit

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<v Speaker 2>his crimes to show true regret, I will continue to

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<v Speaker 2>unjustly bear his infamy, be held accountable for the Kircher's grief,

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<v Speaker 2>be shamed for not showing remorse for good Day's crime.

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<v Speaker 2>He could end all that in a second.

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<v Speaker 1>Amanda Knox knows what it's like to be stuck inside

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<v Speaker 1>someone else's preconception of you.

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<v Speaker 2>So the work that I'm doing now is I'm a podcaster,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm a journalist. I very often, especially in my journalism

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<v Speaker 2>and focusing on on criminal justice issues, not just wrongful

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<v Speaker 2>conviction issues, but more broad criminal justice issues. I'm on

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<v Speaker 2>the board of the Frederick Douglass Project, which is working

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<v Speaker 2>to build bridges between the incarcerated population and the non

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<v Speaker 2>incarcerated population. So I'm deeply interested in that divide. But

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<v Speaker 2>my podcast work, and Labyrinths being the podcast that I've

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<v Speaker 2>devoted so much energy and love into this past year,

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<v Speaker 2>is about how people navigate being lost. We just had

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<v Speaker 2>a twelve episode season that concluded on January first with

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<v Speaker 2>an interview with LeVar Burton, which was super fun and.

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<v Speaker 1>You discussed what with him. For example, we.

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<v Speaker 2>Talked about his career and how he could have done

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of different things, how he was on the

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<v Speaker 2>path to becoming a Catholic priest except that this one

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<v Speaker 2>thing happened, and then he very well could have gone

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<v Speaker 2>into politics except that this thing happened. So we had

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<v Speaker 2>this really fun and we actually had a lot of

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<v Speaker 2>fun with that episode because Chris and I decided to

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<v Speaker 2>become super nerdy and go sci fi, and we created

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<v Speaker 2>alternate dimensions where like we talked to Catholic priest LeVar

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<v Speaker 2>Burtons and politician LeVar Burton.

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<v Speaker 1>He's so talented.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, he's a sweetheart. He was so nice.

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<v Speaker 2>But we cover a lot of ground in the in

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<v Speaker 2>the season, and we go from anywhere from like super

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<v Speaker 2>super dramatic stories, like we interviewed Samantha Geimer, who was

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<v Speaker 2>the fourteen year old girl who was raped by Roman Polanski. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and how like interestingly speaking of you know, people using

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<v Speaker 2>individual human beings like worst experiences of their lives as

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<v Speaker 2>entertainment that they're entitled to and as a profit making machine.

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<v Speaker 3>Like that was her story.

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<v Speaker 2>And she didn't react the way or didn't want the

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<v Speaker 2>things that people expected a rape victim to want, and

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<v Speaker 2>so they vilified her because she actually wanted some kind

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<v Speaker 2>of amicable result with Polanski, and they themselves found ambicable

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<v Speaker 2>resolutions behind closed doors, while the rest of society was

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<v Speaker 2>still trying to churn up this like victim and villain narrative.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the name of the podcast Labyrinths Labyrinths.

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<v Speaker 2>There's actually a really awesome comic that was drawn and

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<v Speaker 2>came out shortly after I got out of prison, which

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<v Speaker 2>showed me escaping the labyrinth of the Italian criminal justice system,

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<v Speaker 2>and I felt that that was a really beautiful metaphor.

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<v Speaker 2>And what I've found is that not only is my

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<v Speaker 2>own case, you know, it's remarkable and unique in a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of ways, but it's also totally not remarkable and

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<v Speaker 2>unique in the sense that it has all the telltale

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<v Speaker 2>signs of wrongful convictions that happen here in the United States.

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<v Speaker 2>But also like the feeling of going through that experience

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<v Speaker 2>of being lost and feeling like there's this overpowering force

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<v Speaker 2>that's like you can't actually navigate and you're sort of

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<v Speaker 2>like on this journey and you don't know how it's

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<v Speaker 2>going to end. That's an experience that lots of people have.

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<v Speaker 2>I remember going back to school and taking a poetry class,

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<v Speaker 2>and there was a girl in my poetry class who

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<v Speaker 2>was really clicking with my poetry. And I wasn't, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>writing explicitly like I'm Amanda Knox. I was in prison

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<v Speaker 2>for crime I didn't commit. It was more just like

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<v Speaker 2>very emotional. And eventually one day she figured out who

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<v Speaker 2>I was and she said, oh my god, you're Amanda Knox.

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<v Speaker 2>And I was like, oh, no, Like what Google rabbit

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<v Speaker 2>hole has she gone down now? And instead she said, no, No,

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<v Speaker 2>you don't understand. I was gang raped when I was sixteen,

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<v Speaker 2>and the feeling of what you went through feels like

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<v Speaker 2>what I went through when I was gang raped at sixteen.

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<v Speaker 3>And I was like wow.

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<v Speaker 2>So the fact that like I sit in this very

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<v Speaker 2>weird position where I'm a not very usual wrongfully convicted

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<v Speaker 2>person in what way, Well, I'm female, for one thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Who's usually wrongfully convicted.

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<v Speaker 2>People who are usually wrongfully convicted tend to be, especially

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<v Speaker 2>in this country, tend to be young men from impoverished

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<v Speaker 2>backgrounds and young men of color.

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<v Speaker 1>And that's because they can't afford a good defense.

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<v Speaker 3>I mean, that's part of it.

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<v Speaker 2>There's also a lot of biases that go into it.

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<v Speaker 2>There's a lot of sort of hysteria around youth culture,

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<v Speaker 2>like even just issues with like gangs. That's an issue

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<v Speaker 2>where it's like, you know, a lot of people don't

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<v Speaker 2>understand that kids just by virtue of living in a

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<v Speaker 2>neighborhood are sort of associated with gangs, even if they

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<v Speaker 2>have never committed a crime. And so suddenly you're like

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<v Speaker 2>in a gang book and you're identifiable as a gang member.

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<v Speaker 2>But that's only because you happen to live in that neighborhood,

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<v Speaker 2>and you happen to associate with a number of people

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<v Speaker 2>who also live in that neighborhood. You know, those kinds

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<v Speaker 2>of things. But the major thing is that the criminal

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<v Speaker 2>justice system is a system that was built by men

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<v Speaker 2>for men, because the vast majority of people who are

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<v Speaker 2>committing crimes are men, and for someone like me to

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<v Speaker 2>be put through the criminal justice system as a defendant

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<v Speaker 2>is highly unusual. I come from a middle class background,

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<v Speaker 2>I come from an educated background. I have no history

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<v Speaker 2>of you know, behavioral problems or anything like that. Like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm usually what I mean, actually, usually the victims of

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<v Speaker 2>crimes also happen to be young men of color. But generally,

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<v Speaker 2>when you think of someone like me the media presents

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<v Speaker 2>someone like me as a crime victim, and for me

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<v Speaker 2>to be in a position of being able to both

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<v Speaker 2>sympathize with what it is like to be a young

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<v Speaker 2>woman who is victimized by a man, and to be

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<v Speaker 2>able to sympathize with the experience of young men who

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<v Speaker 2>are being put through this incrediblely unfair criminal justice process

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<v Speaker 2>that puts me in a unique position to like build bridges,

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<v Speaker 2>and I kind of view my work as bridge building

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<v Speaker 2>as like acknowledging the complex humanity of people on both

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<v Speaker 2>sides of the equation and being able to bring nuance

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<v Speaker 2>back into the true crime genre, which I tend to

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<v Speaker 2>feel has been more dominated by scandalous, salacious, black and

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<v Speaker 2>white presentations of stories as opposed to more complicated ones.

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<v Speaker 2>And a lot of times, like a lot of people

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<v Speaker 2>reach out to me thinking that I am going to

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<v Speaker 2>be able to understand their humanity in a way that

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<v Speaker 2>other people just don't or refuse to, and so a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of the stories that I end up talking about

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<v Speaker 2>are just people who've reached out to me.

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<v Speaker 1>So you're not somebody who people are coming to you

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<v Speaker 1>and going I need you to fix this for me.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean a lot of people reach out to me

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<v Speaker 2>asking me to fix things for them, But the truth

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<v Speaker 2>of the matter is, I'm not a lawyer, So like

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of the people who would love for me

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<v Speaker 2>to be able to do something about some one's case,

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<v Speaker 2>like I usually end up being the person who like

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<v Speaker 2>directs them towards the Innocence project that is like closest

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<v Speaker 2>to their location. What I end up doing is I

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<v Speaker 2>try to give a voice to the people who have

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<v Speaker 2>felt like their voice has been stolen from them. And

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<v Speaker 2>once again, it isn't necessarily someone who's been wrongfully convicted.

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<v Speaker 1>Did you come out of this experience when you finally

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<v Speaker 1>were free, did you come out of this with some

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<v Speaker 1>divine ability to tell who's telling the truth and who isn't.

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<v Speaker 2>No, I don't think anyone has that ability. No, they don't,

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<v Speaker 2>absolutely not. I think that what it gave me was

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<v Speaker 2>a perspective that I wouldn't have had otherwise, but also

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<v Speaker 2>a sensitivity to when I view people as being scapegoated,

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<v Speaker 2>whether they did something or not. I am very sensitive

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<v Speaker 2>to when people become ideas of people and not actual people,

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<v Speaker 2>and I can see that happening on a day to

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<v Speaker 2>day basis.

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<v Speaker 1>What was the most consistent idea that you represented the people.

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<v Speaker 2>That Foxynoxy was a drug adult, sexually promiscuous young woman

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<v Speaker 2>who manipulates men to do her bidding. Like there's this

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<v Speaker 2>idea of I think there was also this sense of

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<v Speaker 2>like female jealousy that was imbued in me. So basically

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<v Speaker 2>everything that is stereotypically bad about being a woman was

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<v Speaker 2>sort of put on me. I was made to be

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<v Speaker 2>this like jealous, sexually promiscuous, manipulative, druggy woman, and I

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<v Speaker 2>came to embody that in the minds of people. And

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<v Speaker 2>on the other hand, I also was, you know, portrayed

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<v Speaker 2>as this like saint like damsel in distress, and even

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<v Speaker 2>in the courtroom, people were, you know, presenting me as like,

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<v Speaker 2>on the one hand, she has the face of an angel,

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<v Speaker 2>on the other hand, she's really like devil. And it

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<v Speaker 2>was like, how about I'm neither. I'm just a young

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<v Speaker 2>person who, like my roommate was murdered and I had

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<v Speaker 2>no idea what was going on. And everyone was speaking

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<v Speaker 2>an Italian really fast, and I had no idea what

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<v Speaker 2>was going on, and I got scared and here I am.

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<v Speaker 1>So how much time did you spend in the Italian

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<v Speaker 1>prison total four years.

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<v Speaker 2>My god, So from age twenty to twenty four, I

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<v Speaker 2>spent in a foreign prison.

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<v Speaker 1>And everybody in there with you was Italian.

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<v Speaker 2>Actually, the vast majority of the people who were in

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<v Speaker 2>there were either Nigerian or Roma.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, there were plenty of Italians in there, and

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of them were very very poor Italian people

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<v Speaker 2>who had ties to the drug trade and stuff like that.

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<v Speaker 2>A lot and a lot of people in for drug offenses,

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<v Speaker 2>whether they were drug mules or drug dealers.

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<v Speaker 1>Amanda Knox, if you like crime drama where the defendant

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<v Speaker 1>is falsely accused, that listened to my conversation with filmmaker

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<v Speaker 1>Joe Berlinger. Berlinger directed the Paradise Lost series of documentaries

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<v Speaker 1>about the trial of the West Memphis three.

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<v Speaker 4>I mean, here you have allegedly a crime by three

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<v Speaker 4>teens who are not professional killers, who brought, according to

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<v Speaker 4>the prosecutor, three little boys out into the woods and

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<v Speaker 4>slaughtered them to death in this savage beating, and yet

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<v Speaker 4>there was no blood found at the crime scene. And

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<v Speaker 4>then you look at the confession, and the confession is

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<v Speaker 4>riddled with inconsistencies and problems coaching and coaching. So within

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<v Speaker 4>months we knew that something was amiss.

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<v Speaker 1>Hear more of my conversation with Joe Berlinger at Here's

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<v Speaker 1>the Thing dot Org. After the Break, Amanda Knox describes

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<v Speaker 1>the toll that her long wait for justice had on

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<v Speaker 1>her family. I'm Alec Baldwin and you're listening to Here's

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<v Speaker 1>the Thing. After her release from prison, Amanda Knox wrote

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<v Speaker 1>a memoir titled Waiting to be Heard. A few years later,

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<v Speaker 1>Netflix released a documentary called Simply Amanda Knox. However, she's

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<v Speaker 1>resisted offers to participate in a feature film based on

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<v Speaker 1>her experience.

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<v Speaker 2>I actually very much pushed back against that. I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>there's kind of a film that's sort of a narrative

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<v Speaker 2>version of it.

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<v Speaker 3>It's not worth watching. It's really bad.

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<v Speaker 2>I Mean, what I thought that the documentary did that

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<v Speaker 2>a film couldn't do was it allowed everyone to sort

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<v Speaker 2>of present their own thoughts in perspective about what happened.

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<v Speaker 2>And it didn't claim to be Like, it didn't have

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<v Speaker 2>a scene where I either kill or don't kill Meredith

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<v Speaker 2>Kircher right, Like the problem with having a film be

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<v Speaker 2>about it is you're making some sort of you're taking

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<v Speaker 2>some stance about reality that is built up of a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of claims of reality, but not necessarily reality, And

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<v Speaker 2>in a situation where so much judgment is attached to that,

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<v Speaker 2>I found that that was inevitably going to be flawed.

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<v Speaker 2>Whereas a documentary that genuinely allows everyone to portray what

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<v Speaker 2>they experienced and what they think about what.

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<v Speaker 1>They experienced and the facts as they know.

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<v Speaker 2>And the facts as they know them is going to

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<v Speaker 2>be closer to the truth and also is going to

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<v Speaker 2>present the crux of this issue, which is that people

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<v Speaker 2>are making claims about reality that they can't actually you know,

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<v Speaker 2>like sustain with evidence, what do we actually know? I

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<v Speaker 2>want to preserve this sense of like, well, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>the person who actually committed this crime, Rudy Gaudet, who

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<v Speaker 2>no one ever talks about, is not someone and who's

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<v Speaker 2>forthcoming with what actually happened. We have the evidence of

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<v Speaker 2>him at the crime scene, of him interacting with Meredith's

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<v Speaker 2>body and leaving his fingerprints and footprints in her blood.

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<v Speaker 3>We know that.

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<v Speaker 2>Do we have a camera on the wall where we

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<v Speaker 2>see him doing it or we're in his mind nor.

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<v Speaker 1>He confesses, right, And the imagine for you you want

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<v Speaker 1>to avoid that where they're going to leave it Gray

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<v Speaker 1>whether you really killed this girl or not. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>a feature film is always going to be like, well,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, yeah, that's a fear I would have.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>That's the unfortunate thing about true crime in general is

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<v Speaker 2>there is this sort of temptation to treat it fundamentally

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<v Speaker 2>as an entertainment product. And due to that, like the

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<v Speaker 2>thing that is most entertaining is when people can walk

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<v Speaker 2>away from the movie and just argue about it. You know, like,

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<v Speaker 2>if I feel this way about the case, you feel

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<v Speaker 2>that way about the case, and you know, now we

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<v Speaker 2>can argue about it because it's unclear. And I think

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<v Speaker 2>one of my big frustrations with my own case was

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<v Speaker 2>that the prosecution, first of all, but also just people

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<v Speaker 2>in general, always wanted to have this attitude of well,

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<v Speaker 2>the defense says this, and the prosecution says that, and

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<v Speaker 2>so you know, there must be some sort of truth

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<v Speaker 2>in between. Amanda must be guilty of something. We're not

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<v Speaker 2>quite sure what it is, but she must be guilty

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<v Speaker 2>of something. And that's actually like one of the major

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<v Speaker 2>reasons why I was retried and reconvicted. I don't know

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<v Speaker 2>if you knew that or maybe you followed that in

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<v Speaker 2>the documentary, but like in Italy, the double jeopardy laws

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<v Speaker 2>aren't the same.

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<v Speaker 3>And so when the.

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<v Speaker 2>Sort of whole forensic case against me came crashing down

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<v Speaker 2>after my acquittal, I was retried again but on behavioral evidence.

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<v Speaker 2>So basically the prosecution said, sure, we can't actually place

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<v Speaker 2>her at the crime scene, but she just.

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<v Speaker 3>Didn't act like an I was.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, was just something like, we can't be totally wrong,

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<v Speaker 2>so like something's got to be there. And I was

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<v Speaker 2>reconvicted on that, like just on that sort of sense

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<v Speaker 2>that there must be something there.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we don't have the evidence yet, but we're going

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<v Speaker 1>to find it, trust me.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like there's some you know, I just got a

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<v Speaker 2>vibe and they bought that. And it wasn't until the

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<v Speaker 2>Supreme Court and I was on trial for eight years,

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<v Speaker 2>and it wasn't until the court swooped in and was like,

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<v Speaker 2>where's the evidence.

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<v Speaker 3>There's literally no evidence.

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<v Speaker 1>Explain to people who don't know what are the extradition

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<v Speaker 1>arrangements between Italy and the United States that they try

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<v Speaker 1>to have you extra died it because when you were

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<v Speaker 1>convicted again.

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<v Speaker 3>You didn't go back right.

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<v Speaker 2>So the way that it worked was that there is

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<v Speaker 2>an extradition treaty between the United States and Italy, and

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<v Speaker 2>so while I was in trial there, I was in prison,

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<v Speaker 2>and then I was acquitted and I was allowed to

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<v Speaker 2>go home, but I was still on trial, like they

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<v Speaker 2>still pursued a case against me, and I was retried

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<v Speaker 2>in absentia, so they had a whole trial without me

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<v Speaker 2>in Italy while I was here living in the United States.

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<v Speaker 2>And while that was going on, I was meeting with

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<v Speaker 2>lawyers here to see, depending on the outcome of this

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<v Speaker 2>new trial, do I want to make a case to

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<v Speaker 2>at least potentially serve my sentence here in the United

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<v Speaker 2>States so it's less of a burden on my family.

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<v Speaker 2>So here I am like trying to go to college

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<v Speaker 2>and go to school, but also making plans to potentially

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<v Speaker 2>turn myself into the cops in case there's a bad

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<v Speaker 2>outcome in this case, which there was, and I'm trying

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<v Speaker 2>to plan to how am I going to fight my

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<v Speaker 2>case in court here in the US, to just see

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<v Speaker 2>if I can try to serve a sentence here in

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<v Speaker 2>the US as opposed to being trucked all the way

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<v Speaker 2>back to Italy like that was my twenties.

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<v Speaker 1>That doesn't exist, so you can't serve your time in

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<v Speaker 1>the US for a crime in Italy.

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<v Speaker 2>Can you Well, the US has discretion over whether or

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<v Speaker 2>not it actually will fulfill that extradition treaty. It can

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<v Speaker 2>always say, you know what, I don't really care to

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<v Speaker 2>extradite her.

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<v Speaker 3>She's going to stay here in the US.

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<v Speaker 2>But because we want to appease the Italian justice system,

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<v Speaker 2>we're going to hold her here in the US.

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<v Speaker 3>She'll serve her sentence.

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<v Speaker 1>Really, I didn't know that. I went through a divorce

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<v Speaker 1>in California what's been re christened the Parents' Rights movement.

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<v Speaker 1>It was the father's rights movement. Women were favored so

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<v Speaker 1>clearly in courts about custody and so forth. And that's

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<v Speaker 1>slowly changing. But in an analysis that different organizations I

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<v Speaker 1>worked with did, California was ragged at the bottom of

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<v Speaker 1>men's rights. I mean, it was a really, really, really

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<v Speaker 1>because and that breaks down to basically two the haves

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<v Speaker 1>and the have nots. I was in court, and if

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<v Speaker 1>the guy that walks in the room is a gardener

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<v Speaker 1>and he's getting divorced from his wife, the divorce proceedings

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<v Speaker 1>are over in fifteen or twenty minutes. There's no money

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<v Speaker 1>for lawyers to mine and pump out of that situation.

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<v Speaker 1>If a famous whatever, actor, writer, musician, doesn't matter, government official,

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<v Speaker 1>if somebody prominent who was presumed to have the resources

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<v Speaker 1>comes into court, it's like this is a big business.

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<v Speaker 1>So they say to you, Alec Baldwin, your daughter who

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<v Speaker 1>back then she was five years old, she's on the

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<v Speaker 1>other side of this six foot concrete wall. Here's a

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<v Speaker 1>paper clip, start digging, and you're going to start digging

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<v Speaker 1>because if you're a normal human being who has a child,

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<v Speaker 1>you want to be with that child, you want to

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<v Speaker 1>parent that child. I know many people drop out and

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<v Speaker 1>they give up and they write it off and go,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to go start another family because they're so

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<v Speaker 1>abused by that system. And so abused was I by

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<v Speaker 1>that that I wrote a book. So I wasn't wrongfully

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<v Speaker 1>convicted of murder in an Italian courtroom. But I was

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<v Speaker 1>somebody who did everything they asked me to do, and

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<v Speaker 1>they just kept punishing me because they knew I was

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<v Speaker 1>going to keep coming. I'm wondering in your case, was

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<v Speaker 1>they're just this driving need for you to share with

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<v Speaker 1>other people what I went through and the lessons of

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<v Speaker 1>that and how you can avoid what I went through.

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<v Speaker 1>Was there some of that?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, first of all, I just want to say that

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<v Speaker 2>I'm really sorry that you went through that. And I

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<v Speaker 2>was going to point out, like, you know exactly what

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<v Speaker 2>it's like to be made to be the center of

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<v Speaker 2>a morality play that people feel like they can just

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<v Speaker 2>you know, keep taking and like profiting from and profiting

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<v Speaker 2>from and profiting from. And I'm sure the tabloids have

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<v Speaker 2>their cut of the pie too, Like I get it,

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<v Speaker 2>Like it's easy to be made the villain of a story,

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<v Speaker 2>especially when you're on trial, especially when you're accused. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>like all of the sort of prejudices and stereotypes that

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<v Speaker 2>we associate with people, but we don't say in polite company.

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<v Speaker 2>As soon as you're accused of something and you're in court,

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<v Speaker 2>like everyone feels comfortable bringing those stereotypes and prejudices to

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<v Speaker 2>the table, like it's no, it's always now we're allowed

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<v Speaker 2>to say she's a whore right now?

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<v Speaker 1>When you went to prison, what was the.

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<v Speaker 2>Sentence The first time I was convicted, I was sentenced

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<v Speaker 2>to twenty six years, And when I was reconvicted and resentenced,

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<v Speaker 2>I was sentenced to twenty eight and a half years.

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<v Speaker 2>But to your point previously. I think that especially when

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<v Speaker 2>we're talking about someone like you being in court for

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<v Speaker 2>not you know, a murder, right, like, this is a

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<v Speaker 2>situation where it's and I think it points to the

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<v Speaker 2>fact that, like, this issue is not just about wrongful convictions.

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<v Speaker 2>It's broader than that. It's about judgment. It's about mob

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<v Speaker 2>mentality and mob profit off of an individual human being,

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<v Speaker 2>and it's about the dehumanization of individual human beings for profit.

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<v Speaker 2>That is something that has repercussions, not just in wrongful

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<v Speaker 2>convictions cases where like the stakes are highest because you

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<v Speaker 2>know the prosecutor ultimate.

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<v Speaker 1>Cancel culture, right, the ultimate cancelation. Yes, you're going to

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<v Speaker 1>go to prison for twenty eight and a half years for.

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<v Speaker 3>A crime you did not commit.

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<v Speaker 1>Amanda Knox. If you're enjoying this conversation, don't keep it

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<v Speaker 1>Amanda talks about returning to Italy for the first time

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<v Speaker 1>since her release. I'm Alec Baldwin and you're listening to

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<v Speaker 1>Here's the Thing. When Amanda Knox was released after four

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<v Speaker 1>years in prison. She returned to Seattle. It took time

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<v Speaker 1>for her to rebuild her life. Last year, on February

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<v Speaker 1>twenty ninth, she married writer Christopher Robinson.

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<v Speaker 2>He's a novelist, he has two master's degrees in poetry.

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<v Speaker 3>He's but you know, he's my partner DNA expert. Yeah no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 3>not at all. In fact, nothing to do with that.

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<v Speaker 2>No, if anything, I've sort of like dragged him into

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<v Speaker 2>this world and that he you know, didn't really have

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<v Speaker 2>that much of a perspective on He was just like

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<v Speaker 2>a philosophy poetry guy. But we have a really great

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<v Speaker 2>dynamic because of that, because you know, he he can

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<v Speaker 2>bring his sort of analytical self. I bring my emotional,

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<v Speaker 2>experiential self, and then we put that together into what

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<v Speaker 2>we hope is a really complex, nuanced, heartfelt, you know

0:24:35.000 --> 0:24:38.400
<v Speaker 2>journey that we put people on to your experience with

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<v Speaker 2>paparazzi is something that you know, one of the things

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<v Speaker 2>that people would tell me when I came home was

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<v Speaker 2>they would say things like, I feel really bad for

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<v Speaker 2>you because it's not like you're a celebrity, it's not

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<v Speaker 2>like you asked for it. You just get you know,

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<v Speaker 2>people chasing you down the street.

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<v Speaker 3>Do they do that to you now today?

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<v Speaker 2>No? But when I first came home, and for many

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<v Speaker 2>many men months afterwards, and actually the entire time, I

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<v Speaker 2>was still on trial, so like I was still in

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<v Speaker 2>I was in freedom for four years, but still on trial.

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<v Speaker 2>Like any time something happened with the case, there would

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<v Speaker 2>be people outside of my apartment building.

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<v Speaker 1>But that's subsided now.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, it's all finished.

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<v Speaker 2>Now the Supreme Court in Italy definitively acquitted me in

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<v Speaker 2>twenty fifteen.

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<v Speaker 3>So it's over.

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<v Speaker 2>Like it's over in the sense that I was definitively acquitted.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not over in the sense that, like my entire

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<v Speaker 2>life and identity is now associated with a crime that

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't commit, that is still an ongoing reality.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel that way? Do you go places and

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<v Speaker 1>do you? I mean not now? Maybe it's died down

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<v Speaker 1>and where you live is it's home, and maybe you

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<v Speaker 1>fitted and people are much more, you know, kind of

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<v Speaker 1>polite toward you if you will. But I mean, I'll

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<v Speaker 1>walk into restaurants and you just see that look in

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<v Speaker 1>people's eyes. Someone's eating with a crowd of people. They

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<v Speaker 1>smack the person next to them, they look at you,

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<v Speaker 1>they look at them, they talk, everyone huddles up, they lie,

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<v Speaker 1>and then all of them look at you at the

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<v Speaker 1>same time. Five heads go slap. Then they'll come back

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<v Speaker 1>into the home and start laughing. And you are this

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<v Speaker 1>fodder for them in this kind of gossipy, tabloidy way.

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<v Speaker 2>Well again, you're an idea of a person, right like

0:26:14.520 --> 0:26:17.399
<v Speaker 2>they've had you as an idea of a person in

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<v Speaker 2>their mind this whole time. And the way that I

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<v Speaker 2>feel when I'm moving through the world is that I

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<v Speaker 2>have this sort of doppelgang or version of me that

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<v Speaker 2>sort of stands in front of me, and everywhere I go,

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<v Speaker 2>I see people seeing her, and I have no idea

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<v Speaker 2>what they're actually seeing because what the vision of me

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<v Speaker 2>that they're actually seeing was constructed out of probably just

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of media, but what media and who? And like,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, what are the things that they are projecting

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<v Speaker 2>onto the name and face Amanda Knox or Foxy Noxy.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, there's a sense of sort of entitlement because

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<v Speaker 2>we are not, like I don't think our brains are

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<v Speaker 2>even really well adapted to understand that a human being

0:27:05.000 --> 0:27:09.320
<v Speaker 2>that we've seen but never encountered is a real human being.

0:27:09.800 --> 0:27:11.960
<v Speaker 2>Like back in you know, hunter gatherer days, if you

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<v Speaker 2>ever heard of a human being who you had never

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<v Speaker 2>actually met before in your real life, they were a god.

0:27:19.400 --> 0:27:22.200
<v Speaker 2>Like that's that's the only person that you would ever

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<v Speaker 2>have heard of that you've never encountered on day to

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<v Speaker 2>day life.

0:27:25.440 --> 0:27:27.000
<v Speaker 3>And the king would be a god.

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<v Speaker 2>And so this like idea of a person is actually

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<v Speaker 2>something that is very difficult for people to like genuinely understand.

0:27:36.080 --> 0:27:38.480
<v Speaker 2>So I don't know if that's you know, something that

0:27:38.520 --> 0:27:41.800
<v Speaker 2>can help you process or you know, console yourself or

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<v Speaker 2>find peace. Is like we actually, generally our brains are

0:27:45.320 --> 0:27:48.840
<v Speaker 2>really really bad at understanding that a human being that

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<v Speaker 2>we've heard of but never encountered before is a human

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<v Speaker 2>being like I am.

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<v Speaker 1>I always tell people the worst thing in life is

0:27:57.280 --> 0:27:59.919
<v Speaker 1>to be misunderstood. Like I'll sit there and say, kind

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<v Speaker 1>of only people really knew who I was. I just

0:28:02.000 --> 0:28:04.280
<v Speaker 1>don't feel to think people you know what we do,

0:28:04.480 --> 0:28:06.400
<v Speaker 1>and you know my wife and I what we do

0:28:06.920 --> 0:28:09.479
<v Speaker 1>philanthropically and all those silly things that you wind up

0:28:09.600 --> 0:28:12.399
<v Speaker 1>having to resist, the desire to point your finger that

0:28:12.480 --> 0:28:15.000
<v Speaker 1>underline that when I do this, and here's.

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<v Speaker 3>Another thing, you know, I'm a human being. Look, there

0:28:17.880 --> 0:28:19.199
<v Speaker 3>are multiple sides of me.

0:28:19.400 --> 0:28:22.880
<v Speaker 1>But that's the trap that you lunge in that way

0:28:23.119 --> 0:28:26.720
<v Speaker 1>and you start to advertise, and you start to respond

0:28:26.760 --> 0:28:28.680
<v Speaker 1>and say to people, well, I'm really this great guy,

0:28:28.720 --> 0:28:30.560
<v Speaker 1>and you don't get me. You get deeper in the

0:28:30.640 --> 0:28:33.840
<v Speaker 1>quicksand unfortunately when you do that. But my point is

0:28:33.840 --> 0:28:37.800
<v Speaker 1>is that in your case, you're wrongfully convicted. But there

0:28:37.840 --> 0:28:42.400
<v Speaker 1>are people who do these crimes. Someone killed Meredith Kercher.

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<v Speaker 2>His name is Rudy Gaday. He was actually recently released

0:28:47.160 --> 0:28:47.680
<v Speaker 2>from prison.

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<v Speaker 1>He was I mean, without getting into any ugly details,

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<v Speaker 1>can you share with us just one moment of when

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<v Speaker 1>you really, really when you were in prison and you

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<v Speaker 1>just hit rock bottom and you thought, what the am

0:29:00.560 --> 0:29:03.560
<v Speaker 1>I gonna do? What was that feeling like for you

0:29:03.640 --> 0:29:06.280
<v Speaker 1>as a person who didn't belong there.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, there are a number of moments that come to mind. Unfortunately,

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<v Speaker 2>So first of all, I should describe what was the

0:29:14.600 --> 0:29:19.280
<v Speaker 2>default setting. The default setting for me in prison was

0:29:19.440 --> 0:29:22.080
<v Speaker 2>I had like I had been the sort of like cheerful,

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<v Speaker 2>just like having a good life kind of person, and

0:29:25.840 --> 0:29:32.560
<v Speaker 2>my new emotional default setting was reset to sad. Oh,

0:29:32.640 --> 0:29:35.800
<v Speaker 2>so I woke up sad, I lived through the day sad.

0:29:35.960 --> 0:29:38.479
<v Speaker 2>I went to bed sad, and that was just like

0:29:38.680 --> 0:29:40.600
<v Speaker 2>my new emotional default setting.

0:29:40.720 --> 0:29:41.520
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god.

0:29:41.640 --> 0:29:44.520
<v Speaker 2>And I just sort of like lived that and I

0:29:44.600 --> 0:29:48.080
<v Speaker 2>became numb to it, even like I was just sad

0:29:48.160 --> 0:29:48.440
<v Speaker 2>and that.

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<v Speaker 3>Was just normal.

0:29:49.600 --> 0:29:50.720
<v Speaker 1>What an amazing answer.

0:29:50.960 --> 0:29:53.560
<v Speaker 2>But on top of that, like there were moments where,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, depending on the various places that we were

0:29:57.400 --> 0:29:59.960
<v Speaker 2>in the case, Like very shortly after I was convicted,

0:30:00.240 --> 0:30:03.320
<v Speaker 2>two years into my imprisonment, because it took that long

0:30:03.360 --> 0:30:06.760
<v Speaker 2>for the trial to go do its whole thing, my

0:30:06.880 --> 0:30:11.720
<v Speaker 2>dad came in to visitation and he had just had

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<v Speaker 2>like a conversation with the lawyers about potentially how long

0:30:15.480 --> 0:30:18.000
<v Speaker 2>it was going to take for the appeals process, and

0:30:18.640 --> 0:30:21.239
<v Speaker 2>you know, he had to share with me, you know,

0:30:21.320 --> 0:30:24.160
<v Speaker 2>maybe it's going to be you know, another several years.

0:30:24.200 --> 0:30:26.080
<v Speaker 2>It could be five years, it could be ten years.

0:30:26.120 --> 0:30:33.280
<v Speaker 2>We're not quite sure. And I at that moment, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>during my visitations, I would very very I tried very

0:30:37.080 --> 0:30:39.400
<v Speaker 2>very hard to be cheerful and to like have just

0:30:39.480 --> 0:30:41.960
<v Speaker 2>like this positive moment with my family members because those

0:30:42.000 --> 0:30:43.240
<v Speaker 2>moments were precious, right.

0:30:43.280 --> 0:30:46.200
<v Speaker 1>I didn't want to upset my dad. I'm here wrongfully

0:30:46.240 --> 0:30:49.680
<v Speaker 1>convicted of murder, facing a twenty six year sentence in

0:30:49.720 --> 0:30:52.320
<v Speaker 1>an Italian prison. But you know, I really really don't

0:30:52.320 --> 0:30:53.120
<v Speaker 1>want to upset dad.

0:30:53.520 --> 0:30:55.480
<v Speaker 2>I don't want to upset Dad because it's like we

0:30:55.560 --> 0:30:58.280
<v Speaker 2>only have some we only have six hours a month

0:30:58.320 --> 0:31:00.760
<v Speaker 2>that we get to see each other. So like this

0:31:00.840 --> 0:31:04.120
<v Speaker 2>is my one hour with my dad, and I just

0:31:04.240 --> 0:31:08.880
<v Speaker 2>couldn't hold it together and I started sobbing. And then

0:31:08.880 --> 0:31:10.680
<v Speaker 2>I did the thing that is like the worst thing

0:31:10.720 --> 0:31:13.400
<v Speaker 2>that I did in prison, which is that I begged

0:31:13.480 --> 0:31:16.440
<v Speaker 2>my dad to save me, even though I knew that

0:31:16.560 --> 0:31:19.719
<v Speaker 2>he was doing everything he could already and there was

0:31:19.760 --> 0:31:21.200
<v Speaker 2>nothing more that he could do.

0:31:21.720 --> 0:31:23.200
<v Speaker 1>So you were saying to him, you got to get

0:31:23.240 --> 0:31:23.880
<v Speaker 1>me out of here.

0:31:24.120 --> 0:31:25.560
<v Speaker 3>I was like, please save me.

0:31:25.760 --> 0:31:26.640
<v Speaker 1>And what did he say?

0:31:28.720 --> 0:31:30.320
<v Speaker 3>I mean, he couldn't say anything.

0:31:30.360 --> 0:31:34.480
<v Speaker 2>He just started well, he started crying, and it was

0:31:34.520 --> 0:31:37.800
<v Speaker 2>the first time I'd ever seen my father cry. It

0:31:39.440 --> 0:31:44.959
<v Speaker 2>really really solidified for me how bad the situation was,

0:31:45.360 --> 0:31:47.600
<v Speaker 2>because I had never seen my dad cry before in

0:31:47.640 --> 0:31:48.480
<v Speaker 2>my entire life.

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<v Speaker 1>Is that the point where you started to consider at

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<v Speaker 1>least that you weren't going to get.

0:31:52.120 --> 0:31:55.880
<v Speaker 2>Out of there absolutely, And you know, that was the

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<v Speaker 2>period of time where I was writing in my jour ernals,

0:32:00.520 --> 0:32:04.840
<v Speaker 2>trying to imagine what a worthwhile life would look like

0:32:05.360 --> 0:32:08.000
<v Speaker 2>if it took another five years, or another ten years,

0:32:08.120 --> 0:32:10.400
<v Speaker 2>or another twenty years, or if I got out as

0:32:10.400 --> 0:32:13.960
<v Speaker 2>an old woman, Like what was I going to do

0:32:14.600 --> 0:32:18.120
<v Speaker 2>to make my life worth living? So that was the

0:32:18.200 --> 0:32:20.520
<v Speaker 2>kind of things that I was thinking about as a

0:32:20.520 --> 0:32:21.400
<v Speaker 2>twenty two year old.

0:32:22.680 --> 0:32:24.480
<v Speaker 1>And when did the sun come out again and you

0:32:24.560 --> 0:32:26.360
<v Speaker 1>started to have hope that you were going to get

0:32:26.400 --> 0:32:27.280
<v Speaker 1>out of the labyrinth.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, like I said, I was afraid to hope all

0:32:31.960 --> 0:32:33.440
<v Speaker 2>the way leading up to my acquittal.

0:32:33.560 --> 0:32:35.160
<v Speaker 1>You were prepared for it to go the wrong way.

0:32:35.440 --> 0:32:37.040
<v Speaker 2>I was prepared for it to go the wrong way.

0:32:37.080 --> 0:32:39.000
<v Speaker 2>And the moment I was acquitted.

0:32:38.680 --> 0:32:39.760
<v Speaker 3>I lost it.

0:32:39.840 --> 0:32:43.080
<v Speaker 2>In fact, I lost it so hard that people who

0:32:43.160 --> 0:32:46.760
<v Speaker 2>were escorting me thought, like the police, thought that I

0:32:46.800 --> 0:32:48.600
<v Speaker 2>had misunderstood the verdict.

0:32:48.640 --> 0:32:50.240
<v Speaker 3>They were like trying to tell me, no, you got

0:32:50.240 --> 0:32:52.120
<v Speaker 3>to quit it, and I was like, I know.

0:32:52.600 --> 0:32:57.480
<v Speaker 2>And that was the moment of like, oh my god,

0:32:57.920 --> 0:32:58.440
<v Speaker 2>it's over.

0:32:59.040 --> 0:33:01.480
<v Speaker 3>And the great irony of that is that it wasn't over.

0:33:02.880 --> 0:33:06.080
<v Speaker 2>And I entered into a whole new version of this

0:33:06.200 --> 0:33:08.240
<v Speaker 2>labyrinth where I thought I had got out and yet

0:33:08.280 --> 0:33:11.040
<v Speaker 2>here's this yet another four years of labyrinth ahead of me.

0:33:11.640 --> 0:33:15.440
<v Speaker 2>And like the sort of true moment of feeling like

0:33:15.480 --> 0:33:18.320
<v Speaker 2>I'm no longer being hunted anymore was after I was

0:33:18.600 --> 0:33:22.880
<v Speaker 2>definitively acquitted by the Italian Supreme Court. Throughout my entire trial,

0:33:22.920 --> 0:33:25.000
<v Speaker 2>when everything was just getting worse and worse and worse,

0:33:25.280 --> 0:33:28.400
<v Speaker 2>I kept believing that it was inevitable that I was

0:33:28.440 --> 0:33:30.760
<v Speaker 2>going to be found innocent, because I was like, there's

0:33:30.880 --> 0:33:35.080
<v Speaker 2>just some horrible misunderstanding and eventually the truth is going

0:33:35.120 --> 0:33:37.000
<v Speaker 2>to come out. The jury's going to see through all

0:33:37.000 --> 0:33:39.600
<v Speaker 2>this bullshit that the prosecution is saying, and I'm going

0:33:39.640 --> 0:33:42.480
<v Speaker 2>to be released. So I was convinced the day that

0:33:42.520 --> 0:33:44.600
<v Speaker 2>I was convicted that I was going to be acquitted.

0:33:45.120 --> 0:33:48.920
<v Speaker 2>And then once that happened and the world turned upside

0:33:48.960 --> 0:33:52.760
<v Speaker 2>down and everything I thought was true about reality was

0:33:52.800 --> 0:33:56.840
<v Speaker 2>turned upside down. I no matter how good it was

0:33:57.040 --> 0:34:00.560
<v Speaker 2>getting throughout my acquittal, my appeals trial leading up to

0:34:00.600 --> 0:34:04.960
<v Speaker 2>my acquittal, I was afraid to hope because I couldn't

0:34:05.000 --> 0:34:08.319
<v Speaker 2>allow myself to be crushed again. And so even when

0:34:08.400 --> 0:34:10.560
<v Speaker 2>there was like big news that like, you know, the

0:34:10.600 --> 0:34:14.720
<v Speaker 2>independent experts are calling bullshit on all the prosecution's forensic evidence.

0:34:15.120 --> 0:34:19.080
<v Speaker 2>I was afraid to hope, yeah, because I knew that,

0:34:19.200 --> 0:34:22.200
<v Speaker 2>like I was innocent the first time, like what stopped

0:34:22.239 --> 0:34:25.719
<v Speaker 2>them from acquitting me, you know, last time. So like

0:34:26.280 --> 0:34:29.960
<v Speaker 2>for me, those are the hard moments. The sort of

0:34:30.000 --> 0:34:33.080
<v Speaker 2>true moment of feeling like I'm no longer being hunted

0:34:33.120 --> 0:34:36.640
<v Speaker 2>anymore was after I was definitively acquitted by the Italian

0:34:36.680 --> 0:34:41.400
<v Speaker 2>Supreme Court. And honestly, one of my first true experiences

0:34:42.280 --> 0:34:44.879
<v Speaker 2>was actually when I first met Chris. I was doing

0:34:45.040 --> 0:34:48.400
<v Speaker 2>arts correspondence for a local newspaper. He wrote his debut novel.

0:34:48.560 --> 0:34:51.480
<v Speaker 2>I reviewed it for the paper, I asked for an interview.

0:34:51.840 --> 0:34:55.120
<v Speaker 2>I interviewed him and his co author. They were two

0:34:55.120 --> 0:34:58.600
<v Speaker 2>best friends who wrote a novel together, and I had

0:34:58.640 --> 0:35:01.799
<v Speaker 2>this great experience interviewing. We drank Scotch, we watched Star Trek,

0:35:01.800 --> 0:35:04.279
<v Speaker 2>We wandered around the neighborhood into the night. And at

0:35:04.280 --> 0:35:07.720
<v Speaker 2>the end of like hanging out with these two guys

0:35:07.719 --> 0:35:11.279
<v Speaker 2>who I'd never met before, Gavin, his best friend and

0:35:11.280 --> 0:35:13.640
<v Speaker 2>co author, gave me this big bear hug and Chris

0:35:13.680 --> 0:35:16.600
<v Speaker 2>shook my hand and said we should be friends. And

0:35:16.920 --> 0:35:20.839
<v Speaker 2>I was like, oh my god, I can just make

0:35:20.920 --> 0:35:24.440
<v Speaker 2>friends with people again, Like I can just like meet

0:35:24.960 --> 0:35:30.239
<v Speaker 2>people and make friends now, Like I don't have to hide.

0:35:30.200 --> 0:35:32.960
<v Speaker 3>Anymore, have a normal life.

0:35:32.800 --> 0:35:35.600
<v Speaker 2>Right, and like, you know, my life is not normal,

0:35:35.760 --> 0:35:41.080
<v Speaker 2>But I was restored that that feeling that like I'm

0:35:41.120 --> 0:35:43.760
<v Speaker 2>no longer being hunted, I no longer have to fear

0:35:43.840 --> 0:35:46.800
<v Speaker 2>people that I don't know in the same way anymore.

0:35:47.400 --> 0:35:49.680
<v Speaker 1>Another thing that occurs to me about this is to

0:35:49.800 --> 0:35:53.239
<v Speaker 1>have Civics classes taught to teach people about what are

0:35:53.239 --> 0:35:54.920
<v Speaker 1>the things we need to do, one of which is

0:35:55.040 --> 0:35:59.239
<v Speaker 1>jury participation, in jury selection. To use your story as

0:35:59.239 --> 0:36:01.680
<v Speaker 1>a kind of a of a template here, Let's say

0:36:01.719 --> 0:36:04.000
<v Speaker 1>that girl, let's say she slept with everybody in the

0:36:04.040 --> 0:36:08.360
<v Speaker 1>Perugia phone directory. That doesn't make her a murderer.

0:36:08.200 --> 0:36:09.600
<v Speaker 3>Doesn't make her a murderery.

0:36:09.640 --> 0:36:12.480
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I could have been a professional dominatrix and it

0:36:12.520 --> 0:36:15.000
<v Speaker 2>shouldn't have mattered because the evidence wasn't there.

0:36:15.040 --> 0:36:16.719
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I mean that's what bothers me.

0:36:16.880 --> 0:36:17.080
<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

0:36:17.080 --> 0:36:19.680
<v Speaker 2>I actually think Civics would be really, really good to

0:36:19.719 --> 0:36:23.200
<v Speaker 2>teach in schools. And part of that civics course would

0:36:23.239 --> 0:36:27.000
<v Speaker 2>be not just your civic responsibilities, but also your rights.

0:36:27.440 --> 0:36:31.279
<v Speaker 2>So I didn't know what my rights were going into

0:36:31.320 --> 0:36:34.000
<v Speaker 2>the interrogation room. I didn't know how to recognize that

0:36:34.080 --> 0:36:37.080
<v Speaker 2>I was being interrogated as a suspect. They certainly didn't

0:36:37.160 --> 0:36:41.920
<v Speaker 2>tell me that. They certainly refused me a lawyer costing that.

0:36:42.080 --> 0:36:44.400
<v Speaker 2>So you know, like, so there are a million ways

0:36:44.480 --> 0:36:48.319
<v Speaker 2>that we are set up to be ignorant in the

0:36:48.360 --> 0:36:54.720
<v Speaker 2>face of these bigger societal structures that have enormous power

0:36:54.840 --> 0:36:58.520
<v Speaker 2>over our individual lives. And I think that it's an

0:36:58.560 --> 0:37:02.440
<v Speaker 2>atrocity that we aren't more empowered with the knowledge of

0:37:02.560 --> 0:37:06.160
<v Speaker 2>how we have power over those structures and also how

0:37:06.200 --> 0:37:08.040
<v Speaker 2>those structures have power over us.

0:37:08.320 --> 0:37:10.759
<v Speaker 1>I'm always filled with joky versions of this, but I

0:37:10.800 --> 0:37:13.080
<v Speaker 1>have this feeling like, you get out of prison, you

0:37:13.160 --> 0:37:15.239
<v Speaker 1>do the four plus years in prison, and you could

0:37:15.239 --> 0:37:17.160
<v Speaker 1>have been in prison for decades, and you get out.

0:37:17.760 --> 0:37:20.080
<v Speaker 1>How is your relationship with your parents now? Because it

0:37:20.160 --> 0:37:21.879
<v Speaker 1>was like my joke version, as you call your mom

0:37:21.920 --> 0:37:25.480
<v Speaker 1>and go, Mom, I really miss you. Can we have lunch?

0:37:25.520 --> 0:37:27.760
<v Speaker 1>And she's like, I'm sorry, baby, I have tennis tomorrow.

0:37:28.719 --> 0:37:30.320
<v Speaker 1>Where are you at with your parents now?

0:37:30.880 --> 0:37:32.960
<v Speaker 3>I mean we've always been super super close.

0:37:33.640 --> 0:37:35.760
<v Speaker 2>Can I talk about a joke though that I really

0:37:35.800 --> 0:37:39.279
<v Speaker 2>appreciated that first of all, I loved you on thirty Rock,

0:37:39.800 --> 0:37:44.120
<v Speaker 2>and one of the first nice jokes about me was

0:37:44.280 --> 0:37:47.560
<v Speaker 2>on thirty Rock that I encountered. Oh, good God, maybe

0:37:47.600 --> 0:37:49.239
<v Speaker 2>there's some nice jokes out there, But most of the

0:37:49.280 --> 0:37:51.560
<v Speaker 2>time I found when I first came out, that people

0:37:51.560 --> 0:37:54.960
<v Speaker 2>were making jokes at my expense, of course, And the

0:37:55.080 --> 0:37:57.759
<v Speaker 2>first time that I heard a joke that was not

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<v Speaker 2>at my expense was Kristin on thirty Rock saying it's

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<v Speaker 2>not hard to be famous. Amanda Knox is famous for

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<v Speaker 2>not killing someone, and that was like, Oh.

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<v Speaker 3>You can make a joke and not at my expense.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, Thank you, Kristin Shaw. But things are good

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<v Speaker 1>with your family, absolutely, and they appreciate you and hold

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<v Speaker 1>you close because you could be over there right now,

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<v Speaker 1>in an alternate universe. You could be over there now,

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<v Speaker 1>just really really struggling.

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<v Speaker 2>Absolutely, And their lives all came to a stop when

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<v Speaker 2>everything happened to me. So it's not like my life

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<v Speaker 2>was sort of trapped in a hole and theirs went on.

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<v Speaker 2>Like everyone in my family, their whole lives just came

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<v Speaker 2>to a stop. And this was especially difficult on my

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<v Speaker 2>younger sisters. I have three younger sisters and One of

0:38:46.080 --> 0:38:48.000
<v Speaker 2>them was eight years old at the time has happened,

0:38:48.000 --> 0:38:50.879
<v Speaker 2>another was thirteen, one was just going into college. Their

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<v Speaker 2>lives stopped, like everything all my entire family became about

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<v Speaker 2>saving Amanda. Save Amanda. And it was until I was

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<v Speaker 2>able to come home that we've all been able to

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<v Speaker 2>restart our lives. And of course we all live within

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<v Speaker 2>walking distance of each other, and it's always been that way.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you been back to Italy?

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<v Speaker 3>I have been back to Italy.

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<v Speaker 2>So I was invited by the Italy Innocence Project, which

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<v Speaker 2>did not exist while I was in prison, to come

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<v Speaker 2>and speak at their first ever annual conference about trial

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<v Speaker 2>by Media. And I felt that, like, of all of

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<v Speaker 2>the ways to return to Italy, that was the best

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<v Speaker 2>way possible. Like, you know, I had struggled with the

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<v Speaker 2>idea of like how am I going to go back

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<v Speaker 2>and see the people who supported me and thank them

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<v Speaker 2>and like to try to do that process. And I

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<v Speaker 2>returned and the press called it, you know, Amanda's familiar

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<v Speaker 2>dance with the with the paparazzi, and it's like, actually,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm being assaulted by them, like I can't move because

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<v Speaker 2>they're throwing themselves at me and my my partner, the country.

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<v Speaker 1>That originated the word paparazzi, by.

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<v Speaker 2>The way, yep, Yeah, that was a crazy experience. I

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<v Speaker 2>had many many good moments.

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<v Speaker 1>Were you scared to go there? Were you terrified to

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<v Speaker 1>go there?

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<v Speaker 3>I was absolutely scared to go there.

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<v Speaker 1>You're braver than I would never go back there again. Ever.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, Like the crazy thing is, these things happen everywhere, right, Like,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not like there's anywhere where you're safe from being judged,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like misunderstood and misjudged and mistreated.

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<v Speaker 1>You're in as much danger here as you are in Peruja. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>The one difference being that like here in the US,

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<v Speaker 2>there's more of a nuanced sentiment towards me, whereas in

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<v Speaker 2>Italy there's more of a she's the oj Simpson of

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<v Speaker 2>Italy kind of thing. And I was surprised, Like the

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<v Speaker 2>big surprise that I had was when I gave my speech,

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<v Speaker 2>I was fully prepared to get arrested again, like to

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<v Speaker 2>like get shanked, get booed, like all of that.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you say shanked a prison term? You just put

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<v Speaker 1>a chill in my back to get shanked. What a

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<v Speaker 1>reveal that was? You really did do four years in prison?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah shit.

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<v Speaker 2>I was surprised when people gave me a standing applause

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<v Speaker 2>for my talk, and granted, these are the kind of

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<v Speaker 2>people who are going to show up, who are interested

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<v Speaker 2>in criminal justice issues, who are interested in the Italy

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<v Speaker 2>Innocence Project, who are going to show up anyway, so

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<v Speaker 2>they I was a more accommodating audience, but I was not.

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<v Speaker 3>I was not ready for it.

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<v Speaker 2>Like I I remember like being whisked away because I

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<v Speaker 2>had have personal security while I was there, Like it was,

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<v Speaker 2>it was not an easy process, and this like personal

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<v Speaker 2>security guard sort of whisked me away down the stairs,

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<v Speaker 2>down the hallway in underground where I had this like

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<v Speaker 2>secret sort of underground dungeon bunker thing where I sort

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<v Speaker 2>of lived throughout.

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<v Speaker 3>The entire conference.

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<v Speaker 2>And as soon as we got down the stairs, he

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<v Speaker 2>gave me a little squeeze and said parfeto and I

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<v Speaker 2>just started bawling. And it was a really great moment

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<v Speaker 2>where I was like, Wow, maybe I'll be given a chance,

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<v Speaker 2>not even a second chance, like a chance.

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<v Speaker 3>In Italy.

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<v Speaker 1>Journalist, public speaker and podcaster Amanda Knox, I, I'm Alec Baldwin,

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<v Speaker 1>and this is here's the thing. We're produced by Kathleen Russo,

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<v Speaker 1>Carrie Donahue, and Zach MacNeice. Our engineer is Frank Imperial.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks for listening.