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Speaker 1: I don't know if it's timing because I'm gonna go

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Speaker 1: Now Mental Health Professional, Taj Moreno is best known as

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Speaker 1: Along with other accolades in the game, Taj is the

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Speaker 1: Because the man is doing it. He's bringing it to

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Speaker 1: talk one on one studio, Taj Motor. Thank you. Thank you, guys, me. Man,

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Speaker 1: It's like wait, yeah, man, this person went to school

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Speaker 1: what's something I can do on a daily basis to

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Speaker 1: TJ Moreno, I mean breathing, all these tips, all these things.

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Speaker 1: and that's what I'm saying. You're trying to think. I

421
00:21:04,480 --> 00:21:06,959
Speaker 1: need to addressed it with the family. Addressed that. They

422
00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:09,480
Speaker 1: addressed it with you first. Once you're cool with it

423
00:21:09,640 --> 00:21:11,680
Speaker 1: and you're cool with whatever that is, it doesn't matter

424
00:21:11,720 --> 00:21:13,680
Speaker 1: if you're right, you're wrong, if you feel they're wrong,

425
00:21:14,000 --> 00:21:16,439
Speaker 1: you've addressed it with home, because charity begins at home.

426
00:21:16,480 --> 00:21:18,960
Speaker 1: So you gotta work on yourself first, you know, and

427
00:21:19,000 --> 00:21:21,199
Speaker 1: then and then, and I'm not the doctor, but you

428
00:21:21,240 --> 00:21:23,159
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I feel good. No, but

429
00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:26,399
Speaker 1: I feel good about like the way I I do

430
00:21:26,560 --> 00:21:29,520
Speaker 1: like you. Yeah, if I was going to take any

431
00:21:29,520 --> 00:21:31,240
Speaker 1: of the profession, it would have been a therapist. I

432
00:21:31,280 --> 00:21:33,040
Speaker 1: think I should have been good at it. Yeah, it

433
00:21:33,119 --> 00:21:35,640
Speaker 1: kind of weren't dope. was kind of like a therapist. Yeah,

434
00:21:36,720 --> 00:21:39,240
Speaker 1: that day you made people feel good. We had listen.

435
00:21:39,320 --> 00:21:45,359
Speaker 1: We does not just Kidah, yeah, it is not dope.

436
00:21:45,720 --> 00:21:50,639
Speaker 1: My Dad did call it. Do Call it dope, your pops.

437
00:21:51,560 --> 00:21:53,320
Speaker 1: You do this show dog and you sit there and

438
00:21:53,320 --> 00:21:55,320
Speaker 1: you get cats to open up and you talk deep

439
00:21:55,359 --> 00:21:57,719
Speaker 1: about things, which to me personally right. Let me give

440
00:21:57,760 --> 00:22:01,199
Speaker 1: you a Joe Story. Are Just oh facts. I'm a

441
00:22:01,200 --> 00:22:06,080
Speaker 1: big believer in therapy and working on individual self and growth.

442
00:22:07,040 --> 00:22:09,639
Speaker 1: I was first introduced to therapy at the age of

443
00:22:09,680 --> 00:22:12,639
Speaker 1: seventeen when I went overseas to London for a psychosynthesis

444
00:22:12,640 --> 00:22:15,200
Speaker 1: international youth camp, whereas the first time I did therapy

445
00:22:15,280 --> 00:22:16,840
Speaker 1: with people from all over the world and I ended

446
00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:18,800
Speaker 1: up opening up and punching the ground and breaking my

447
00:22:19,119 --> 00:22:20,880
Speaker 1: hand that I didn't know I had this much emotional

448
00:22:21,000 --> 00:22:22,840
Speaker 1: that was bottled up, and me like wow, this is

449
00:22:22,840 --> 00:22:25,480
Speaker 1: what happened when you talk about your childhood and your deep, Dark,

450
00:22:25,560 --> 00:22:29,480
Speaker 1: dark secrets. You let things go. And then I got

451
00:22:29,520 --> 00:22:31,560
Speaker 1: sober at the age of twenty six and then I

452
00:22:31,600 --> 00:22:34,200
Speaker 1: got more talking to people and realizing, and then I

453
00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:36,439
Speaker 1: got seen a therapist and more therapists, and I went

454
00:22:36,480 --> 00:22:38,840
Speaker 1: to therapy for eight straight years after I got sober

455
00:22:39,200 --> 00:22:42,280
Speaker 1: and really worked on my deep dark secrets and as

456
00:22:42,320 --> 00:22:44,240
Speaker 1: well as doing a and talking it out out, like

457
00:22:44,240 --> 00:22:46,439
Speaker 1: you started the show up by saying talking, and I

458
00:22:46,440 --> 00:22:51,359
Speaker 1: am a firm, strong believer in it's helped me, Joseph Lopez,

459
00:22:51,480 --> 00:22:54,680
Speaker 1: become a better man who now does not just choose

460
00:22:54,680 --> 00:22:57,959
Speaker 1: to drink and use alcohol and drugs to suppress my

461
00:22:58,040 --> 00:23:00,800
Speaker 1: feelings because of how I was treating it as a child. Right.

462
00:23:00,800 --> 00:23:02,439
Speaker 1: So I had to go look real deep at myself,

463
00:23:02,520 --> 00:23:04,840
Speaker 1: because that's six years old when I first started smoking.

464
00:23:04,920 --> 00:23:06,439
Speaker 1: A lot of other crazy things happened to me at

465
00:23:06,440 --> 00:23:08,480
Speaker 1: six too. So it's like a lot of things I

466
00:23:08,480 --> 00:23:10,680
Speaker 1: had to work on in my life to be like,

467
00:23:11,480 --> 00:23:13,639
Speaker 1: you're okay, man, like this is what happened to you,

468
00:23:13,680 --> 00:23:16,720
Speaker 1: but you're okay. You know what I'm saying, and if

469
00:23:16,720 --> 00:23:19,240
Speaker 1: people are out there listening, and why we have you

470
00:23:19,280 --> 00:23:21,439
Speaker 1: on the show like this is because I love what

471
00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:25,679
Speaker 1: you're doing as well. Like I said, what I did stuff,

472
00:23:25,760 --> 00:23:27,199
Speaker 1: not like what I believe and like no that's what

473
00:23:27,280 --> 00:23:28,800
Speaker 1: I did and I still go down. You heard me

474
00:23:28,800 --> 00:23:31,359
Speaker 1: start by saying I've got an appointment on Friday, saying,

475
00:23:31,440 --> 00:23:35,000
Speaker 1: like in a joke, about what we're talking to you about, folks,

476
00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:37,080
Speaker 1: and what blue and I were talking to this gentleman

477
00:23:37,080 --> 00:23:40,080
Speaker 1: about Taj and what he does with this show is

478
00:23:40,119 --> 00:23:42,280
Speaker 1: what we feel people in life should be doing, just

479
00:23:42,320 --> 00:23:44,560
Speaker 1: like we like to talk about educating people on cannabis

480
00:23:44,600 --> 00:23:47,720
Speaker 1: and the right brands and the right this. Educate your mind, folks,

481
00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:50,200
Speaker 1: because you're talking to these people and you're allowing them

482
00:23:50,200 --> 00:23:52,960
Speaker 1: to open up, and what your services are doing, which

483
00:23:53,040 --> 00:23:56,320
Speaker 1: is gangster, which healing is gangster, is the name of

484
00:23:56,359 --> 00:23:58,439
Speaker 1: your show. Speak on that right there, because tell us

485
00:23:58,440 --> 00:24:02,240
Speaker 1: about it's so gangster that you call it that, because

486
00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:07,280
Speaker 1: gangs that can be used in a lot of different ways. Um,

487
00:24:07,400 --> 00:24:09,720
Speaker 1: and you know, I gotta give credit to dame, to

488
00:24:10,640 --> 00:24:15,680
Speaker 1: Dame Dash, we came up with that idea together. Um.

489
00:24:16,440 --> 00:24:17,879
Speaker 1: So that's your boy like that, and you guys are

490
00:24:17,880 --> 00:24:20,560
Speaker 1: just coming up with ideas well. Yeah, because I had

491
00:24:21,400 --> 00:24:25,640
Speaker 1: obviously I had appeared on the reality show with him, Um,

492
00:24:25,800 --> 00:24:28,159
Speaker 1: but helping his son address some issues that he was

493
00:24:28,200 --> 00:24:31,720
Speaker 1: going through and he realized that's how the plug was. Okay. Yeah,

494
00:24:32,320 --> 00:24:35,560
Speaker 1: so I was that was that was growing up here, okay,

495
00:24:35,560 --> 00:24:37,560
Speaker 1: and they were okay, you have then sent out on that.

496
00:24:38,480 --> 00:24:40,520
Speaker 1: How did that? Did descent was his son. You know,

497
00:24:40,720 --> 00:24:43,359
Speaker 1: his son was going through a period in his life where,

498
00:24:43,880 --> 00:24:46,439
Speaker 1: you know, he was having some some issues with some

499
00:24:46,480 --> 00:24:48,520
Speaker 1: substances and, you know just kind of he was going

500
00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:52,520
Speaker 1: through a lot, you know, and you know his his

501
00:24:52,600 --> 00:24:57,160
Speaker 1: father and you know his family got very concerned. Um,

502
00:24:57,359 --> 00:25:01,160
Speaker 1: the homegirl, Brie, Brihanna, who's all song the show, who

503
00:25:01,200 --> 00:25:03,119
Speaker 1: I grew up with like when we was in the

504
00:25:03,119 --> 00:25:06,080
Speaker 1: streets and stuff. She knew about me like going to

505
00:25:06,119 --> 00:25:08,520
Speaker 1: school at that time. I was finishing up my master's degree,

506
00:25:08,520 --> 00:25:12,480
Speaker 1: I think. and Um, we she talked to me about

507
00:25:12,560 --> 00:25:14,399
Speaker 1: him and so I was giving her advice abody, and

508
00:25:14,440 --> 00:25:15,600
Speaker 1: she was like, Yo, you need to just come on

509
00:25:15,640 --> 00:25:19,280
Speaker 1: the show, and that's how I got on there and Um,

510
00:25:19,320 --> 00:25:22,520
Speaker 1: I was able to help him and Um, he's been

511
00:25:22,560 --> 00:25:26,359
Speaker 1: doing good ever since. Now. You still work with him? Yeah, yeah,

512
00:25:26,359 --> 00:25:28,840
Speaker 1: we talked. Yeah, we talked from time to time. I

513
00:25:28,920 --> 00:25:30,240
Speaker 1: check up on him here and there just to see

514
00:25:30,280 --> 00:25:34,520
Speaker 1: how he's doing. Um, but obviously Dane was, you know,

515
00:25:34,560 --> 00:25:35,960
Speaker 1: happy that I was able to help with that and

516
00:25:36,040 --> 00:25:37,720
Speaker 1: I was happy I was able to help with that

517
00:25:37,800 --> 00:25:43,679
Speaker 1: as well. Um, so he started inviting me around different things. Um,

518
00:25:43,760 --> 00:25:46,080
Speaker 1: we have a lot of similar friends. Obviously I've been

519
00:25:46,080 --> 00:25:49,000
Speaker 1: in this industry for a little while. So we have

520
00:25:49,040 --> 00:25:51,240
Speaker 1: a lot of friends in common. And he did his

521
00:25:51,280 --> 00:25:53,560
Speaker 1: research on me because he met me as just a therapist.

522
00:25:54,080 --> 00:25:56,720
Speaker 1: He didn't know none of my background. I mean he

523
00:25:56,760 --> 00:25:58,159
Speaker 1: could look at me and be like, oh, he's not

524
00:25:58,200 --> 00:26:01,960
Speaker 1: the average therapist. Okay, they to the therapist, but like

525
00:26:02,080 --> 00:26:06,520
Speaker 1: that exactly. You feel me? So, but he actually did

526
00:26:06,560 --> 00:26:12,400
Speaker 1: his research on me and he found out like yeah,

527
00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:14,879
Speaker 1: my name checked out in that a basically so m

528
00:26:15,920 --> 00:26:18,000
Speaker 1: you know, and after that he was like Yo, you

529
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:20,760
Speaker 1: really from this, you know, you're really from these streets,

530
00:26:20,840 --> 00:26:22,760
Speaker 1: and I was just like yeah, and he was just

531
00:26:22,880 --> 00:26:27,000
Speaker 1: very intrigued at the possibilities of of what making mental

532
00:26:27,040 --> 00:26:31,719
Speaker 1: health cool could do in the black and Brown community because,

533
00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:35,119
Speaker 1: you know, obviously we needed the most and you know,

534
00:26:35,200 --> 00:26:37,640
Speaker 1: especially here in America, you know what I mean. So

535
00:26:38,600 --> 00:26:40,640
Speaker 1: we just talked a lot. I don't know who said

536
00:26:40,640 --> 00:26:43,520
Speaker 1: it first, I don't know, but I just remember saying, Oh,

537
00:26:43,560 --> 00:26:45,200
Speaker 1: we need to put that on a t shirt. That's

538
00:26:45,200 --> 00:26:46,960
Speaker 1: where my mind was at. Oh, we gotta like put

539
00:26:46,960 --> 00:26:49,040
Speaker 1: that on the shirt. You know, that's a dope. And

540
00:26:49,080 --> 00:26:51,880
Speaker 1: it was like no, we need to make it a show. Now.

541
00:26:51,880 --> 00:26:55,040
Speaker 1: Are you recording at his studios? I'm recording. Well, I was,

542
00:26:55,160 --> 00:26:58,280
Speaker 1: he has I was. I was recording at his studio,

543
00:26:58,320 --> 00:27:02,000
Speaker 1: but then I bought his studio is in. Uh, where

544
00:27:02,040 --> 00:27:09,199
Speaker 1: is it? Burbank, Culver City, Bank Burbank is kind of

545
00:27:09,240 --> 00:27:12,879
Speaker 1: like the fire one and all of for years they

546
00:27:13,080 --> 00:27:16,040
Speaker 1: were powering on six right down the street. When where

547
00:27:16,200 --> 00:27:19,119
Speaker 1: you got that? Like uh, what's that? Like orange, Orange Grove,

548
00:27:19,880 --> 00:27:22,800
Speaker 1: and like uh, first, you know what I mean, like

549
00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:27,560
Speaker 1: literally five minutes from like from all the studios of

550
00:27:27,640 --> 00:27:30,520
Speaker 1: radio stations. It's a prime location because, you know, it's

551
00:27:30,640 --> 00:27:34,120
Speaker 1: it's out just good enough and it's in because you're

552
00:27:34,200 --> 00:27:35,960
Speaker 1: right there. Abo All the studios and everything else, I

553
00:27:35,960 --> 00:27:41,760
Speaker 1: mean Nickelodeon, so everything, everything, everything's there. So Um, Dane

554
00:27:41,960 --> 00:27:45,800
Speaker 1: was going to uh relocate to the you know, to

555
00:27:45,840 --> 00:27:47,399
Speaker 1: the east, because he's got some places like on the

556
00:27:47,400 --> 00:27:50,320
Speaker 1: East Coast and down South and I guess he had

557
00:27:50,359 --> 00:27:53,159
Speaker 1: a lot of business going on there presently. So he

558
00:27:53,240 --> 00:27:55,080
Speaker 1: was relocating. So we had to talk, you know, he's

559
00:27:55,080 --> 00:27:59,040
Speaker 1: like why, I'm not to do something with the studio and, uh,

560
00:27:59,400 --> 00:28:01,040
Speaker 1: I was like at that point I was like, Oh man,

561
00:28:01,040 --> 00:28:03,560
Speaker 1: I'm gonna need another place basically to take you know,

562
00:28:04,000 --> 00:28:07,640
Speaker 1: while you know, while he's away. And so he was like, yeah,

563
00:28:07,680 --> 00:28:09,200
Speaker 1: I gotta do something with the studio and I was

564
00:28:09,280 --> 00:28:11,280
Speaker 1: just like, I just asked him over how much, and

565
00:28:11,320 --> 00:28:12,760
Speaker 1: then he told me and I was like, give me

566
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:15,240
Speaker 1: twenty minutes and I called him back at fifteen and

567
00:28:15,240 --> 00:28:16,720
Speaker 1: I was like, I got it, let's go, and he

568
00:28:16,800 --> 00:28:24,840
Speaker 1: was like it's yours. And now the man shout out

569
00:28:24,880 --> 00:28:27,440
Speaker 1: to bang too. You know, are you doing anything else

570
00:28:27,560 --> 00:28:29,280
Speaker 1: the studio there? What what I mean? How big is it?

571
00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:32,160
Speaker 1: What is it? What kind of spot? We do everything there? Um,

572
00:28:32,240 --> 00:28:36,080
Speaker 1: people rented out for a podcast. Obviously, TV shows get film,

573
00:28:36,119 --> 00:28:41,120
Speaker 1: their set design, Um, you know, like movie sets. Um,

574
00:28:41,160 --> 00:28:43,360
Speaker 1: I can't remember the exact square footage off the top

575
00:28:43,360 --> 00:28:46,080
Speaker 1: of my head. I've only had it for like three months.

576
00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:49,640
Speaker 1: It's as worthhouse. Yes, yeah, it's big. Um, you know,

577
00:28:49,720 --> 00:28:53,520
Speaker 1: we do we do events. They're listening parties, UH, like

578
00:28:54,000 --> 00:28:57,440
Speaker 1: Ted talk type of things, mental health, like get together,

579
00:28:57,680 --> 00:29:01,600
Speaker 1: like whatever. Whatever it takes. Art, Art Gallery stuff, you know,

580
00:29:01,640 --> 00:29:04,040
Speaker 1: like artists, I want to like showcase their art kind

581
00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:06,760
Speaker 1: of like our facility. Yeah, you can do anything, and

582
00:29:06,800 --> 00:29:08,840
Speaker 1: that's why I was I was really looking at it like, Yo,

583
00:29:08,880 --> 00:29:10,520
Speaker 1: this is like Super Dope, you know what I mean,

584
00:29:10,560 --> 00:29:17,400
Speaker 1: because man tight in every way, like real talk. You know, Um,

585
00:29:17,520 --> 00:29:18,680
Speaker 1: that's a lot of things that I see. You know,

586
00:29:18,720 --> 00:29:21,360
Speaker 1: always take notes, you know, like things that I can

587
00:29:21,400 --> 00:29:23,280
Speaker 1: improve on at the spot and things like that, and

588
00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:28,160
Speaker 1: I'm like, Yo, this is in have a good time

589
00:29:28,240 --> 00:29:32,520
Speaker 1: talking about mental health, and I know I love it

590
00:29:32,560 --> 00:29:34,800
Speaker 1: because it shows that. You know, when I seen like

591
00:29:34,800 --> 00:29:36,120
Speaker 1: when I saw y'alls and I was like, Oh, I'm

592
00:29:36,160 --> 00:29:38,520
Speaker 1: on the right track, because I used to kick it

593
00:29:38,560 --> 00:29:41,120
Speaker 1: with like back in the days when I was doing

594
00:29:41,120 --> 00:29:43,160
Speaker 1: the music stuff. I used to kicking back in the

595
00:29:43,200 --> 00:29:45,960
Speaker 1: days with like rob dirty and drama from the fantasy factor,

596
00:29:46,400 --> 00:29:47,840
Speaker 1: and I they used to let us go up there

597
00:29:47,840 --> 00:29:50,840
Speaker 1: all the time, like it'd be be knit, you know,

598
00:29:51,040 --> 00:29:52,960
Speaker 1: like dudes from the street, like really from the street.

599
00:29:53,200 --> 00:29:55,600
Speaker 1: We'd be up there kigging it and, you know, I

600
00:29:55,600 --> 00:29:58,440
Speaker 1: had never seen nothing like that before, but I noticed

601
00:29:58,480 --> 00:30:01,000
Speaker 1: it was always something to do. It was entertaining. It

602
00:30:01,040 --> 00:30:03,200
Speaker 1: was like a grown up checking to you. Basically, yeah,

603
00:30:03,280 --> 00:30:06,480
Speaker 1: I like here. Yeah, that's how I kind of wanted

604
00:30:06,480 --> 00:30:08,120
Speaker 1: to aspire it to be with, like it's a whole

605
00:30:08,160 --> 00:30:10,360
Speaker 1: experience being there, and that's what I got when I

606
00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:13,960
Speaker 1: got here. It's like an experience, like even walking outside

607
00:30:14,160 --> 00:30:17,200
Speaker 1: game room. I love those chairs that's right there. Like

608
00:30:17,320 --> 00:30:19,240
Speaker 1: the kitchen. The kitchen looks like you're in a whole

609
00:30:19,280 --> 00:30:22,400
Speaker 1: different place. So it's dope. You know, I'll tell you.

610
00:30:22,480 --> 00:30:24,960
Speaker 1: Thank you. Appreciate it. You know, I'll tell you. You know,

611
00:30:25,080 --> 00:30:29,960
Speaker 1: we we um, you know, we've came through different levels ourselves,

612
00:30:29,960 --> 00:30:33,320
Speaker 1: you know, to Uh, have your imagination get to a

613
00:30:33,320 --> 00:30:36,320
Speaker 1: certain point. You know, and and I always I say this,

614
00:30:36,400 --> 00:30:38,760
Speaker 1: and there's two things. One thing you said earlier that

615
00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:41,440
Speaker 1: really resonated with me, Um, when you said, you know,

616
00:30:41,480 --> 00:30:44,840
Speaker 1: it's like exercise. You know, because I do like Um,

617
00:30:44,920 --> 00:30:47,720
Speaker 1: like Ted talks about, to do educational platforms for Cannadas

618
00:30:47,720 --> 00:30:50,400
Speaker 1: in the cannabis community. And so when I was speaking,

619
00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:53,120
Speaker 1: one of the things I'd always tell people as I'd say, listen,

620
00:30:53,200 --> 00:30:55,440
Speaker 1: you know. You know how many of you guys in

621
00:30:55,600 --> 00:30:57,880
Speaker 1: here exercise? You know what I mean. And and then, like,

622
00:30:57,960 --> 00:30:59,440
Speaker 1: you know, you get a few people in the hands

623
00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:01,440
Speaker 1: and ship. I'm the like, listen, you know, if I

624
00:31:01,480 --> 00:31:04,720
Speaker 1: exercise all day to day and then I show up

625
00:31:04,720 --> 00:31:06,880
Speaker 1: and I flex on him, like yeah, you know, no

626
00:31:06,920 --> 00:31:09,200
Speaker 1: one sees it, you know, I said, but if I

627
00:31:09,240 --> 00:31:12,440
Speaker 1: exercise for the next six months, you know you're gonna

628
00:31:12,480 --> 00:31:15,840
Speaker 1: see it, right, unless I'm faking that exercise. And I'm like,

629
00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:18,840
Speaker 1: your business is exactly the same, you know, and your

630
00:31:18,880 --> 00:31:21,320
Speaker 1: mind is exactly the same as that. So it's like

631
00:31:21,400 --> 00:31:23,560
Speaker 1: if you and and here's what happens, is that all

632
00:31:23,560 --> 00:31:26,280
Speaker 1: of a sudden you start exercising your business for six months,

633
00:31:26,280 --> 00:31:29,160
Speaker 1: you're a year into it, you're, you know, physically a

634
00:31:29,240 --> 00:31:31,800
Speaker 1: year into working out, people are gonna be like this

635
00:31:31,880 --> 00:31:35,920
Speaker 1: dude works out, like he clearly works out. Your Business

636
00:31:36,080 --> 00:31:41,480
Speaker 1: is is exactly. Your Business is the exact same way,

637
00:31:41,480 --> 00:31:43,560
Speaker 1: and so is your life, you know. And it's like

638
00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:46,600
Speaker 1: if you exercise, you know, for a year straight, you know,

639
00:31:46,680 --> 00:31:48,440
Speaker 1: all of a sudden the people that didn't believe that

640
00:31:48,480 --> 00:31:50,160
Speaker 1: you're because if I tell everybody, you guys know, I'm

641
00:31:50,160 --> 00:31:52,160
Speaker 1: working out like day two, they're like come on, man,

642
00:31:52,960 --> 00:31:55,800
Speaker 1: day three, month, month one, they're kind of like yeah, whatever, Bro,

643
00:31:55,880 --> 00:31:59,440
Speaker 1: you're working out month too. They're like whatever, six months

644
00:31:59,440 --> 00:32:01,800
Speaker 1: into it they're damn, you've been working out. A year

645
00:32:01,840 --> 00:32:03,840
Speaker 1: into it, they're like how do I get on that program?

646
00:32:04,320 --> 00:32:06,240
Speaker 1: Five years into it, they're like, damn, bro You guys

647
00:32:06,280 --> 00:32:08,920
Speaker 1: are crushing it. Ten years they're looking around, going holy

648
00:32:08,960 --> 00:32:11,720
Speaker 1: fun concept for mental health. It's the point, that point

649
00:32:11,720 --> 00:32:18,600
Speaker 1: you're making. Yeah, that's why it resonated like that and

650
00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:23,200
Speaker 1: it never ends. That's why I say it's not a

651
00:32:23,960 --> 00:32:27,680
Speaker 1: it's not a destination. It's about process. That's what mental

652
00:32:27,680 --> 00:32:30,480
Speaker 1: health is, that's what therapy is about. It's about process.

653
00:32:30,520 --> 00:32:33,640
Speaker 1: They're actually getting up and doing it because the way

654
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:36,240
Speaker 1: you see the world, it starts from the time you're born.

655
00:32:37,440 --> 00:32:41,160
Speaker 1: The the the the secureness of your attachments to your caregivers,

656
00:32:42,120 --> 00:32:44,680
Speaker 1: you know, the the environment around you. It starts shaping

657
00:32:44,680 --> 00:32:47,000
Speaker 1: how you view things and how you internalize things from

658
00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:49,280
Speaker 1: the moment you open your eyes, even in the womb,

659
00:32:50,000 --> 00:32:52,160
Speaker 1: even in you know, always starts. You know what I mean?

660
00:32:52,200 --> 00:32:53,880
Speaker 1: Like if you've got a mom that's going through constant

661
00:32:53,960 --> 00:32:57,600
Speaker 1: drama or in stressful situations, that baby's gonna feel all

662
00:32:57,640 --> 00:33:00,200
Speaker 1: of that and they're born with that. You know, even

663
00:33:00,200 --> 00:33:02,960
Speaker 1: with genetics, if people got a mama that has diabetes, diabetes.

664
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:07,400
Speaker 1: You not necessarily that something about. Sometimes it can't. Not

665
00:33:07,520 --> 00:33:11,479
Speaker 1: necessarily right. Not necessarily what he's saying either. So you're right,

666
00:33:11,560 --> 00:33:13,640
Speaker 1: not necessarily in all of them. But like my mom

667
00:33:13,760 --> 00:33:16,360
Speaker 1: has heart murmurs. I don't have heart murmbers. You can.

668
00:33:17,000 --> 00:33:20,720
Speaker 1: Is just the thing. Knowing your family history is very important,

669
00:33:20,920 --> 00:33:23,400
Speaker 1: especially with our community, you know what I mean, black

670
00:33:23,440 --> 00:33:26,400
Speaker 1: and brown like. Sometimes we get disconnected from those things.

671
00:33:26,520 --> 00:33:29,000
Speaker 1: You know what I mean. Knowing your family history doesn't

672
00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:31,400
Speaker 1: mean that you're gonna necessarily have those issues, but you

673
00:33:31,400 --> 00:33:34,360
Speaker 1: could type extra precautions because you know it's in your DNA,

674
00:33:34,640 --> 00:33:36,760
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So you could like exercising, like,

675
00:33:37,040 --> 00:33:39,040
Speaker 1: you know, working out your heart, your brain. This is

676
00:33:39,040 --> 00:33:42,920
Speaker 1: the thing. If, if you learn how to internalize things

677
00:33:43,080 --> 00:33:48,200
Speaker 1: in a maladaptive way as a child, maladaptive, maladaptive. maladaptive

678
00:33:48,240 --> 00:33:51,800
Speaker 1: means in a bad way. That's not good for you. Right.

679
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:55,000
Speaker 1: It causes more problems. You're like like, like, like I'm

680
00:33:55,000 --> 00:33:57,360
Speaker 1: stressed out, I'M gonna get a drink. You know what

681
00:33:57,400 --> 00:34:00,680
Speaker 1: I'm saying? I'm not saying I'm must smoke, I'm a

682
00:34:00,720 --> 00:34:03,720
Speaker 1: fire on somebody. Yeah, stuff like, you know, because it's

683
00:34:03,760 --> 00:34:06,120
Speaker 1: the thing like when it comes to like drinking or smoking.

684
00:34:06,440 --> 00:34:09,280
Speaker 1: The only time is bad if it's messing up something

685
00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:12,120
Speaker 1: else in your life that you really like, if you're

686
00:34:12,160 --> 00:34:14,560
Speaker 1: not going to work, if you're, you know, sucking up

687
00:34:14,600 --> 00:34:17,880
Speaker 1: you know, your life. Excuse my language, but yeah, but

688
00:34:18,760 --> 00:34:20,880
Speaker 1: you know, things like that, that's when it becomes a problem.

689
00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:23,520
Speaker 1: But I think, I think drinking right, and I say

690
00:34:23,560 --> 00:34:28,840
Speaker 1: this only because my own personal if if I'm drinking less,

691
00:34:29,560 --> 00:34:32,160
Speaker 1: I'm a lot clearer, so in the next day. So

692
00:34:32,239 --> 00:34:34,360
Speaker 1: what I mean is, if I drink today and I

693
00:34:34,400 --> 00:34:36,279
Speaker 1: get sucked up tonight and I go to bed, you know,

694
00:34:36,440 --> 00:34:39,400
Speaker 1: like the last night, I think I drink about heavily, like, no,

695
00:34:39,560 --> 00:34:42,520
Speaker 1: I'm just saying to sleep every night and takes X.

696
00:34:44,840 --> 00:34:56,680
Speaker 1: it's not with didn't even anymore. This is funny because

697
00:34:56,719 --> 00:34:58,640
Speaker 1: I call him like a twelve thirty in the afternoon.

698
00:34:58,680 --> 00:35:03,719
Speaker 1: He's what's good morning, I just I just checked in

699
00:35:03,800 --> 00:35:06,080
Speaker 1: right now for the show. No, no, what what I'm

700
00:35:06,120 --> 00:35:09,080
Speaker 1: saying is okay. So yesterday I probably like a I

701
00:35:09,120 --> 00:35:14,160
Speaker 1: think six. It's a helicopter, six o'clock, six o'clock yester. Yeah,

702
00:35:14,160 --> 00:35:19,080
Speaker 1: that's it's a big helicopter. We're all hearing it like that. No,

703
00:35:19,239 --> 00:35:22,000
Speaker 1: that's in there. That's a big over, that's a helicopter. Well,

704
00:35:22,040 --> 00:35:23,719
Speaker 1: you were talking over, so you can't cut it down now.

705
00:35:23,960 --> 00:35:27,120
Speaker 1: So Um, here's the thing. So yesterday, I'll give you

706
00:35:27,160 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 1: my own example. Right as I started, we're sitting here

707
00:35:30,080 --> 00:35:32,200
Speaker 1: with chilling. It's almost like Yeo, let's have a drink,

708
00:35:32,560 --> 00:35:34,319
Speaker 1: like yeah, no problem, we got a full bar here.

709
00:35:34,320 --> 00:35:36,040
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, let's have a drink, you know.

710
00:35:36,360 --> 00:35:39,759
Speaker 1: So I had a shot some patron Um, but I

711
00:35:39,800 --> 00:35:41,440
Speaker 1: was in bed by nine o'clock last night. You know

712
00:35:41,480 --> 00:35:43,120
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, because I was just I was already

713
00:35:43,120 --> 00:35:46,080
Speaker 1: having drinks at six, I had a few drinks. Here

714
00:35:46,200 --> 00:35:48,560
Speaker 1: I was, you know, went to the house seven, eight o'clock,

715
00:35:48,600 --> 00:35:50,359
Speaker 1: I had a few drinks at the house, watching TV

716
00:35:50,440 --> 00:35:52,440
Speaker 1: and I was on the couch out by nine. So

717
00:35:52,560 --> 00:35:56,520
Speaker 1: I slept from nine. It's, yeah, not normal for me. Right.

718
00:35:56,600 --> 00:35:59,319
Speaker 1: Normally I can't sleep because I'm I'm always in my head.

719
00:35:59,320 --> 00:36:01,360
Speaker 1: I'm DECAS I need to start drinking. So I'm a

720
00:36:01,360 --> 00:36:04,080
Speaker 1: two o'clock sleeper. I get him at six, seven o'clock,

721
00:36:04,080 --> 00:36:05,600
Speaker 1: and I'm just like I gotta go again, you know,

722
00:36:05,680 --> 00:36:08,000
Speaker 1: until I crash and then I have like a crash

723
00:36:08,040 --> 00:36:09,920
Speaker 1: day where I'll sleep for you know whatever, and then

724
00:36:09,960 --> 00:36:12,640
Speaker 1: I'll get back on my horse. Um, but stressed though,

725
00:36:12,760 --> 00:36:14,239
Speaker 1: because I'm going I'm doing the same living right here

726
00:36:14,280 --> 00:36:17,839
Speaker 1: with him. Sleep is a big parliament. So, Um, it's

727
00:36:17,880 --> 00:36:20,839
Speaker 1: optimal for you to have a resument in our line

728
00:36:20,840 --> 00:36:23,920
Speaker 1: of business. You know, even me as a psychologist, you know,

729
00:36:24,040 --> 00:36:25,960
Speaker 1: sometimes I'll struggle with that because you know just the

730
00:36:26,000 --> 00:36:28,600
Speaker 1: way this work is. But it's very important that you

731
00:36:28,640 --> 00:36:32,040
Speaker 1: stay on top of that, because not having sleep is

732
00:36:32,080 --> 00:36:37,680
Speaker 1: the equivalent of walking around drunk. Basically. If you're doing if,

733
00:36:37,719 --> 00:36:40,080
Speaker 1: if if it's getting to a point where it's like

734
00:36:40,360 --> 00:36:42,200
Speaker 1: you're not like people that are staying up for the

735
00:36:42,400 --> 00:36:44,600
Speaker 1: days and days out and, you know, just working and working,

736
00:36:45,200 --> 00:36:47,520
Speaker 1: like the whole thing like, Oh, I'll sleep when I'm dead.

737
00:36:47,920 --> 00:36:50,160
Speaker 1: That's not now. You'RE gonna be dead. Yeah, YOU'RE gonna

738
00:36:50,200 --> 00:36:52,840
Speaker 1: be dead. Yeah. One of the one of the craziest things,

739
00:36:53,000 --> 00:36:55,560
Speaker 1: as I tell myself this all the time, and I

740
00:36:55,600 --> 00:36:57,000
Speaker 1: don't bring it out to a lot of people, but

741
00:36:57,040 --> 00:37:00,319
Speaker 1: I feel like the world's on an algorithm right and

742
00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:03,160
Speaker 1: that algorithm it starts like at five in the morning

743
00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:05,680
Speaker 1: and it ends like at nine o'clock at night and

744
00:37:05,800 --> 00:37:09,120
Speaker 1: most most of the majority of the world is on

745
00:37:09,200 --> 00:37:11,920
Speaker 1: that Algorithm, and that's the majority of the workers of

746
00:37:11,960 --> 00:37:14,439
Speaker 1: the world. Right the most successful people that I've ever

747
00:37:14,480 --> 00:37:16,480
Speaker 1: met in my life are up at six in the

748
00:37:16,520 --> 00:37:19,200
Speaker 1: morning and their uptill, you know, I mean nine o'clock

749
00:37:19,239 --> 00:37:21,360
Speaker 1: at night, and then they're done. You know, and I

750
00:37:21,440 --> 00:37:23,719
Speaker 1: and and the people that are outside of that algorithm

751
00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:26,919
Speaker 1: are setting themselves up for failure because they don't have

752
00:37:27,080 --> 00:37:30,120
Speaker 1: a constant sleep pattern. They don't get to, you know,

753
00:37:30,280 --> 00:37:32,520
Speaker 1: articulate or even work with the same people in the

754
00:37:32,560 --> 00:37:34,960
Speaker 1: same field, because those people that are with that have

755
00:37:35,040 --> 00:37:37,160
Speaker 1: already started their day. By the time you call him

756
00:37:37,200 --> 00:37:39,279
Speaker 1: at noon, you're you're trying to catch them. By four,

757
00:37:39,680 --> 00:37:41,759
Speaker 1: there's you know, by six o'clock, you're like, why didn't

758
00:37:41,760 --> 00:37:43,759
Speaker 1: I catch them? And they're already working on their way

759
00:37:43,800 --> 00:37:45,600
Speaker 1: home with their families. You know what I mean. So

760
00:37:45,680 --> 00:37:48,279
Speaker 1: that Algorithm, when you fall into that you know and

761
00:37:48,360 --> 00:37:50,480
Speaker 1: you start to work in that machine, when you have

762
00:37:50,560 --> 00:37:53,360
Speaker 1: that machine in order, that machine starts to click and

763
00:37:53,640 --> 00:37:55,520
Speaker 1: it's like, you know, why I feel like, you know,

764
00:37:55,560 --> 00:37:58,000
Speaker 1: we're in the we have the ability to have this

765
00:37:58,080 --> 00:38:00,920
Speaker 1: facility right is because I've lived in that algorithm long

766
00:38:01,040 --> 00:38:04,239
Speaker 1: enough and I've worked hard enough in that space too,

767
00:38:04,920 --> 00:38:08,560
Speaker 1: not get lucky, but to outwork people because of my

768
00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:12,839
Speaker 1: my my discipline and be willing to sacrifice those fun

769
00:38:12,920 --> 00:38:18,560
Speaker 1: times for a fearless fortune, you know. And it's just, it's,

770
00:38:18,680 --> 00:38:22,680
Speaker 1: it's it's very um you know, depressing sometimes because you

771
00:38:22,719 --> 00:38:25,160
Speaker 1: don't get to do all kinds of fun ship. But

772
00:38:25,239 --> 00:38:27,160
Speaker 1: you know, I think, but I think the way you're

773
00:38:27,320 --> 00:38:29,160
Speaker 1: you're basically, you know, how you're trimming a fast so

774
00:38:29,239 --> 00:38:31,799
Speaker 1: to speak. You know, that's a smart way to do it,

775
00:38:31,880 --> 00:38:34,080
Speaker 1: because there's certain things that you don't want to cut

776
00:38:34,120 --> 00:38:36,560
Speaker 1: back too much on, like sleep. You know what I'm saying,

777
00:38:36,840 --> 00:38:39,320
Speaker 1: and this is where self analyzation is very important and

778
00:38:39,360 --> 00:38:41,880
Speaker 1: mental health and keeping track of your patterns, you know

779
00:38:41,880 --> 00:38:44,520
Speaker 1: what I mean. So when, if you're trying to get

780
00:38:44,560 --> 00:38:46,759
Speaker 1: more sleep, you got to analyze your life and see

781
00:38:46,800 --> 00:38:49,400
Speaker 1: what are the things that you can cut out but

782
00:38:49,600 --> 00:38:52,560
Speaker 1: sides this sleep, and you'll be surprised, like when you

783
00:38:52,680 --> 00:38:57,160
Speaker 1: really self manage, how many things you can stop doing

784
00:38:57,640 --> 00:39:00,080
Speaker 1: that will help you be more, you know, optimal to

785
00:39:00,280 --> 00:39:02,879
Speaker 1: hustle or whatever you're doing. Do you feel cannabis has

786
00:39:03,200 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 1: that ability to help people, absolutely, with their sleep and

787
00:39:07,080 --> 00:39:12,120
Speaker 1: and and and or they're healing, healing from mental health. Absolutely,

788
00:39:12,600 --> 00:39:15,920
Speaker 1: if it's Um I also believe that, you know, if

789
00:39:15,920 --> 00:39:18,399
Speaker 1: it's being used for like mental health, it should also

790
00:39:18,440 --> 00:39:22,520
Speaker 1: be kept track of. What I mean, you know, again,

791
00:39:22,640 --> 00:39:25,040
Speaker 1: you want to make sure it's not. This is the thing.

792
00:39:25,840 --> 00:39:30,040
Speaker 1: Some people probably shouldn't smoke. Right, if I agree with that,

793
00:39:31,080 --> 00:39:35,480
Speaker 1: we both agree with that. Totally agree with some people.

794
00:39:35,520 --> 00:39:37,920
Speaker 1: I think that's the case. I've ever seen people just

795
00:39:37,920 --> 00:39:40,400
Speaker 1: are a regular joint, not like I'm talking. You're like,

796
00:39:40,440 --> 00:39:42,160
Speaker 1: what's wrong with you? Just have to joint. You're acting

797
00:39:42,160 --> 00:39:44,480
Speaker 1: like you're passed down. Yeah, if you you know, if

798
00:39:44,520 --> 00:39:48,200
Speaker 1: you find yourself where it's affecting like, you know you can't.

799
00:39:48,320 --> 00:39:49,719
Speaker 1: You know you can't. You're not getting enough to go

800
00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:53,120
Speaker 1: to work. You know you can't. I don't think they

801
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:56,400
Speaker 1: notice affecting you because they're they're verbal skills, you know

802
00:39:56,400 --> 00:40:00,239
Speaker 1: what I mean? They're like dog and another, a thing

803
00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:03,520
Speaker 1: like we were talking about earlier. Knowing your family history,

804
00:40:03,560 --> 00:40:07,600
Speaker 1: because if you have a certain history of certain mental

805
00:40:07,640 --> 00:40:12,600
Speaker 1: disorders that are chemically based, like a chemical imbalance, things

806
00:40:12,680 --> 00:40:15,399
Speaker 1: like that, you have to watch your intake of weed

807
00:40:15,440 --> 00:40:18,080
Speaker 1: as well, because or or make sure you're doing it

808
00:40:18,080 --> 00:40:22,360
Speaker 1: correctly because, let's say, weed is a minor halluciness in

809
00:40:22,760 --> 00:40:24,520
Speaker 1: a lot of people don't know that. You know what

810
00:40:24,520 --> 00:40:31,239
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So right. So, if you're suffering from you know,

811
00:40:31,280 --> 00:40:32,560
Speaker 1: and I don't really I don't want to go too

812
00:40:32,600 --> 00:40:35,080
Speaker 1: deep into diagnosis stuff, but if you're like suffering with

813
00:40:35,239 --> 00:40:39,760
Speaker 1: like delusions or you know, uh, you have a certain

814
00:40:39,800 --> 00:40:43,120
Speaker 1: type of schizophrenia, things like that, you should really keep

815
00:40:43,160 --> 00:40:46,600
Speaker 1: an eye on your weed consumption because if if one

816
00:40:46,719 --> 00:40:49,960
Speaker 1: is off, it can make one worse. But I don't

817
00:40:50,000 --> 00:40:51,759
Speaker 1: think a lot of people that have that know that

818
00:40:51,800 --> 00:40:53,520
Speaker 1: they have that. You know what I'm saying again, that's

819
00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:55,319
Speaker 1: that's where it comes to where people that's why we've

820
00:40:55,320 --> 00:40:57,319
Speaker 1: got to make mental health cool so that people stay

821
00:40:57,360 --> 00:40:59,200
Speaker 1: on it, so that they because it's problem. You look

822
00:40:59,200 --> 00:41:02,120
Speaker 1: into it. Yeah, the thing the research on it. Our

823
00:41:02,200 --> 00:41:04,920
Speaker 1: people are people are scared of the system, and rightfully so.

824
00:41:05,400 --> 00:41:09,240
Speaker 1: The system wasn't made for us, even even in psychology.

825
00:41:09,680 --> 00:41:11,320
Speaker 1: One thing I learned going to all those years of

826
00:41:11,400 --> 00:41:16,200
Speaker 1: school is, like most things in this country, psychologist, psychology

827
00:41:16,280 --> 00:41:18,640
Speaker 1: was made for white people and it was made in

828
00:41:18,960 --> 00:41:21,319
Speaker 1: the experiments that they're going off of and that they're

829
00:41:21,360 --> 00:41:23,880
Speaker 1: using for some of these interventions were done on white middles,

830
00:41:23,920 --> 00:41:25,879
Speaker 1: like in the sixties, or some ship exactly for White

831
00:41:25,880 --> 00:41:28,240
Speaker 1: folks who have been treated great and never been treated

832
00:41:28,280 --> 00:41:30,560
Speaker 1: back and never known that you've been a piece of ship,

833
00:41:30,600 --> 00:41:32,640
Speaker 1: because this is what you've been taught your whole life, right,

834
00:41:32,719 --> 00:41:36,120
Speaker 1: you know. So. So our psychology is different, you know,

835
00:41:36,160 --> 00:41:40,319
Speaker 1: there's was more based on a racial, racial ideology, like

836
00:41:40,440 --> 00:41:43,439
Speaker 1: most things, that starts too and like what you say

837
00:41:43,440 --> 00:41:45,720
Speaker 1: and what you can feel can be validated. Why? Because

838
00:41:45,719 --> 00:41:47,839
Speaker 1: this is what should be right where. That's not how

839
00:41:47,880 --> 00:41:50,279
Speaker 1: it should be for us. We don't treated that way.

840
00:41:50,600 --> 00:41:53,080
Speaker 1: Right and, Um, you know learning that, you know, I

841
00:41:53,480 --> 00:41:55,880
Speaker 1: took what they you know what I learned in that education,

842
00:41:56,080 --> 00:41:58,600
Speaker 1: and I was able to what I'm still doing, in

843
00:41:58,680 --> 00:42:01,640
Speaker 1: shape it for our folks where it words, where it

844
00:42:01,680 --> 00:42:04,239
Speaker 1: words good for us. What is your nationality? What? I'm

845
00:42:04,280 --> 00:42:08,760
Speaker 1: Puerto Rican too. So, yeah, for sure, I'm I'm African,

846
00:42:08,840 --> 00:42:11,239
Speaker 1: native American in Spanish. Nice. Do you know where your

847
00:42:11,239 --> 00:42:16,680
Speaker 1: family from? All over Puerto Rico, bone said. Um, my

848
00:42:16,719 --> 00:42:21,080
Speaker 1: family was living in La PARLA, the projects over there. Um,

849
00:42:21,160 --> 00:42:24,080
Speaker 1: my past was born in San Juan. My mom was

850
00:42:24,120 --> 00:42:26,239
Speaker 1: born in Puerto Rico to it might be we might

851
00:42:26,280 --> 00:42:29,080
Speaker 1: be related. Do you do you? Have you ever heard

852
00:42:29,080 --> 00:42:32,080
Speaker 1: of the Nigron family? Not off the top of what.

853
00:42:32,120 --> 00:42:34,759
Speaker 1: Do you know what your family's name is there? UH, well,

854
00:42:34,840 --> 00:42:37,160
Speaker 1: my name is Modento, right, but what did your mom

855
00:42:37,440 --> 00:42:40,440
Speaker 1: my mom's was she Puerto Rican? Yeah, both of my

856
00:42:40,480 --> 00:42:43,040
Speaker 1: parents are Puerto Rican. My father was more like the

857
00:42:43,040 --> 00:42:46,440
Speaker 1: African side of like the Puerto Rico. Um, that's where

858
00:42:46,480 --> 00:42:49,480
Speaker 1: the blue eyes come from. You have light blue eyes. Yeah, yeah,

859
00:42:49,760 --> 00:42:52,600
Speaker 1: that kind of that came from my mom, my mom too. Yeah,

860
00:42:53,840 --> 00:42:56,280
Speaker 1: you know, and most of us are tried, tried racial

861
00:42:56,600 --> 00:42:59,959
Speaker 1: in Puerto Rico. So it's a lot of talking. Yeah, exact.

862
00:43:00,440 --> 00:43:02,600
Speaker 1: I mean you're saying you got them a lotto. I

863
00:43:02,640 --> 00:43:05,279
Speaker 1: thought you was full on black and wood. So and

864
00:43:05,280 --> 00:43:08,360
Speaker 1: then pull out Puerto Rican. I was really yeah, wow,

865
00:43:08,400 --> 00:43:10,479
Speaker 1: I was. I was full of Alatto. I was raised

866
00:43:10,520 --> 00:43:12,839
Speaker 1: out here, though, like me and my cousins. was raised

867
00:43:12,840 --> 00:43:14,799
Speaker 1: in l a like content. And then you were born

868
00:43:15,920 --> 00:43:19,640
Speaker 1: on the street. Yeah, yeah, like got Puerto Ricans, because

869
00:43:19,640 --> 00:43:20,759
Speaker 1: a lot of people, you know a lot of people

870
00:43:20,800 --> 00:43:22,040
Speaker 1: that come out here and when they found out on

871
00:43:22,080 --> 00:43:24,040
Speaker 1: Puerto Rican, you know, the first thing they say, oh,

872
00:43:24,080 --> 00:43:26,200
Speaker 1: we don't see a lot of y'all here. Yeah, we'll.

873
00:43:26,239 --> 00:43:28,600
Speaker 1: I tell people out here. You know, we're from L A.

874
00:43:28,719 --> 00:43:31,919
Speaker 1: WE'RE Mexican. You know, if you're you know you're Puerto Rican,

875
00:43:31,960 --> 00:43:35,440
Speaker 1: your Cuban, you're Dominican here you're Mexican, Latin period. But

876
00:43:35,480 --> 00:43:38,439
Speaker 1: when I go into New York, people like what you something?

877
00:43:38,440 --> 00:43:40,200
Speaker 1: They look at me like like what is up, and

878
00:43:40,239 --> 00:43:42,360
Speaker 1: I'm like you guys, you guys noticed me here. You

879
00:43:42,360 --> 00:43:45,759
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, like what do you yeah, it

880
00:43:45,800 --> 00:43:49,560
Speaker 1: was Mexican. Everyone told me I am Mexican here in

881
00:43:49,719 --> 00:43:51,840
Speaker 1: l a. You know, like everybody's like, oh, he's Mexican.

882
00:43:52,120 --> 00:43:53,799
Speaker 1: You know what I'm like? No, I'm not in Puerto Rican.

883
00:43:53,840 --> 00:43:55,759
Speaker 1: It's a whole different thing. You know, it is. And

884
00:43:55,960 --> 00:43:59,200
Speaker 1: you know, people don't understand how diverse Latin America really is. Oh, no,

885
00:43:59,239 --> 00:44:02,000
Speaker 1: they have no clue. Yeah, you know, and I feel blessed,

886
00:44:02,080 --> 00:44:05,440
Speaker 1: you know, to be able to uh address multiple issues

887
00:44:05,480 --> 00:44:08,319
Speaker 1: on multiple sides of this whether it's Brown, black, uh

888
00:44:08,600 --> 00:44:11,600
Speaker 1: even native. Are you bilingual as well? Um, I understanding

889
00:44:11,680 --> 00:44:14,080
Speaker 1: better than I speaking. Got You, but yeah, I know

890
00:44:14,120 --> 00:44:17,759
Speaker 1: what somebody talking about me. Yeah, that's as well. I

891
00:44:17,800 --> 00:44:20,400
Speaker 1: actually grew up at my first Tatchoo was this bustle

892
00:44:20,480 --> 00:44:24,120
Speaker 1: right here, this Indian tribe necklace, and I had my

893
00:44:24,160 --> 00:44:27,440
Speaker 1: whole Indian tribe. Winnebago was my tribe growing up from Nebraska,

894
00:44:27,440 --> 00:44:29,040
Speaker 1: and I died my whole bustle and I did my

895
00:44:29,080 --> 00:44:32,160
Speaker 1: whole tribal I made my whole fancy dancing. I used

896
00:44:32,200 --> 00:44:33,759
Speaker 1: to go to POW wow, it's the whole night. Yeah, no,

897
00:44:33,840 --> 00:44:36,160
Speaker 1: that's the I'm a talian, you know. And then, yeah,

898
00:44:36,160 --> 00:44:41,480
Speaker 1: that's where my name comes from. You probably, you probably

899
00:44:41,480 --> 00:44:46,319
Speaker 1: have like eighteen, maybe the African in you too. Yeah, no, yeah, yeah,

900
00:44:46,320 --> 00:44:49,080
Speaker 1: when I did the DNA, yeah, everything came out to

901
00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:52,360
Speaker 1: like either like mad twenty five or like thirty, you

902
00:44:52,400 --> 00:44:54,839
Speaker 1: know what I mean, of every of all those races. Yeah,

903
00:44:54,880 --> 00:44:56,600
Speaker 1: I didn't know. I didn't know. I was at like

904
00:44:57,200 --> 00:44:59,040
Speaker 1: my family, my grandmother, used to tell me all the

905
00:44:59,040 --> 00:45:00,799
Speaker 1: time that we were native, you know, but I just

906
00:45:00,880 --> 00:45:02,960
Speaker 1: never really considered it. And then when I really found out,

907
00:45:03,000 --> 00:45:04,799
Speaker 1: I was like wow, I'm like, I have a lot

908
00:45:04,840 --> 00:45:08,400
Speaker 1: of this same I had more native American Indian blooded

909
00:45:08,440 --> 00:45:10,560
Speaker 1: me than anything else too. Yeah, so I was you know,

910
00:45:10,560 --> 00:45:13,080
Speaker 1: it gave me a new appreciation, a new appreciation for

911
00:45:13,120 --> 00:45:16,480
Speaker 1: that side of who I am and it also makes

912
00:45:16,480 --> 00:45:21,280
Speaker 1: you realize how bad the country got sucked to. Every

913
00:45:21,280 --> 00:45:23,600
Speaker 1: one of my races that I have in my blood

914
00:45:23,600 --> 00:45:27,759
Speaker 1: has been to up by it, like slavery and psychology, right,

915
00:45:27,800 --> 00:45:30,040
Speaker 1: and then you go and you think about it, because

916
00:45:30,080 --> 00:45:32,839
Speaker 1: no matter what folks like us like. I look at

917
00:45:32,880 --> 00:45:36,920
Speaker 1: my dad, like when I was in therapy for years,

918
00:45:36,960 --> 00:45:39,160
Speaker 1: I literally brought this up and still bring this up

919
00:45:39,200 --> 00:45:43,040
Speaker 1: as this is my life experiences, meaning my dad always

920
00:45:43,080 --> 00:45:46,840
Speaker 1: acted funny around white men because he was always treated

921
00:45:46,920 --> 00:45:49,319
Speaker 1: so bad about him. And then to the point when

922
00:45:49,440 --> 00:45:51,920
Speaker 1: the war came on, my brother and I wanted to join. Well,

923
00:45:51,920 --> 00:45:53,719
Speaker 1: he was older than me. He was gonna enlist in

924
00:45:53,719 --> 00:45:55,840
Speaker 1: the war, in the Iraq war, right, and me no,

925
00:45:55,920 --> 00:45:57,919
Speaker 1: because my dad was in the army. And My dad

926
00:45:57,960 --> 00:46:00,200
Speaker 1: goes me, Oh, no, they don't treat us, my skin

927
00:46:00,320 --> 00:46:03,759
Speaker 1: is good in and I'm like, they got a GM

928
00:46:03,840 --> 00:46:06,080
Speaker 1: bill we're talking about right, like they got all these

929
00:46:06,080 --> 00:46:08,120
Speaker 1: things that that were happening. But he was still an

930
00:46:08,120 --> 00:46:11,200
Speaker 1: older generation where they didn't get treated that way. So

931
00:46:11,280 --> 00:46:13,960
Speaker 1: my point to that is, with you seen being from

932
00:46:14,120 --> 00:46:17,080
Speaker 1: L A, seeing these treets and being a young area

933
00:46:17,120 --> 00:46:19,120
Speaker 1: where you're still young, but you're old enough to see

934
00:46:19,160 --> 00:46:21,600
Speaker 1: what happened. You're not too young to were like you're

935
00:46:21,600 --> 00:46:24,160
Speaker 1: in the clueless. I'm like, I'm like in that middle

936
00:46:24,160 --> 00:46:26,400
Speaker 1: where I'm not like, oh, but I'm not young. You

937
00:46:27,680 --> 00:46:30,920
Speaker 1: can claim a status, right, like, okay, is the o Gee, Geez,

938
00:46:33,400 --> 00:46:37,279
Speaker 1: what exactly on the streets you're going? You're doing good.

939
00:46:37,320 --> 00:46:40,120
Speaker 1: So my point is, are you see how the system

940
00:46:40,160 --> 00:46:42,680
Speaker 1: has been so messed up for as I feel? I've

941
00:46:42,680 --> 00:46:45,200
Speaker 1: seen this, me getting my degree, me going further in

942
00:46:45,200 --> 00:46:48,080
Speaker 1: my education as well going we have been set up,

943
00:46:48,520 --> 00:46:50,799
Speaker 1: as you say, native American, because I take that back

944
00:46:50,800 --> 00:46:53,279
Speaker 1: to when I think about my native American roots bring

945
00:46:53,320 --> 00:46:55,960
Speaker 1: me in my thought process and how I think this country,

946
00:46:55,960 --> 00:46:58,440
Speaker 1: which I love so very much. Don't get my words,

947
00:46:58,560 --> 00:47:04,399
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. This is what they did

948
00:47:04,640 --> 00:47:07,879
Speaker 1: as this country was here. My ancestors, who were majority

949
00:47:07,920 --> 00:47:11,880
Speaker 1: of my DNA is native American. So therefore my ancestors

950
00:47:12,120 --> 00:47:15,319
Speaker 1: were native Americans, and I realized after doing this, as

951
00:47:15,320 --> 00:47:18,000
Speaker 1: you're speaking, and they look at the psychologically going, these

952
00:47:18,040 --> 00:47:21,880
Speaker 1: are the people, the natives, the blacks, the Mexicans and

953
00:47:21,920 --> 00:47:23,680
Speaker 1: the Asians for that matter, because the Asians were the

954
00:47:23,680 --> 00:47:27,040
Speaker 1: ones blowing up the fucking built mountains to make the railroads.

955
00:47:27,040 --> 00:47:29,040
Speaker 1: So let's not get that twist in folks, the Asian folks,

956
00:47:29,200 --> 00:47:32,919
Speaker 1: they worked their asses, I mean came on boats too,

957
00:47:32,960 --> 00:47:35,799
Speaker 1: just like the blacks. The difference where the Indians were

958
00:47:35,840 --> 00:47:38,719
Speaker 1: here and the Mexicans were here and they got pushed away.

959
00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:41,120
Speaker 1: Mexicans go back over there to Mexico. Indians, you get

960
00:47:41,120 --> 00:47:43,040
Speaker 1: this little area in the TP and you get some

961
00:47:43,200 --> 00:47:45,439
Speaker 1: rights and you get the chance to sell a few

962
00:47:45,480 --> 00:47:48,759
Speaker 1: things and we'll take the rest. Yeah, I mean it's

963
00:47:48,800 --> 00:47:51,239
Speaker 1: it's it's it's part of history. On that crazy I

964
00:47:51,239 --> 00:47:52,640
Speaker 1: can send that up like that and it's really you

965
00:47:52,719 --> 00:47:56,839
Speaker 1: need some therapy on this, I tell you. That's how

966
00:47:56,840 --> 00:47:59,800
Speaker 1: I love generational trauma, though. This is and I feel

967
00:47:59,840 --> 00:48:02,160
Speaker 1: like that's my real drama, because my dad acted like

968
00:48:02,160 --> 00:48:03,480
Speaker 1: that with me. So when I tell you that, might

969
00:48:03,600 --> 00:48:08,680
Speaker 1: have to get like you know what I'm saying. No,

970
00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:11,400
Speaker 1: that is no I was. I was gonna says this

971
00:48:11,440 --> 00:48:14,040
Speaker 1: is generational trauma that we passed down. See, this is

972
00:48:14,120 --> 00:48:16,080
Speaker 1: the this is the big issue that we face as

973
00:48:16,160 --> 00:48:19,520
Speaker 1: minorities in this country is we're dealing with day to

974
00:48:19,600 --> 00:48:22,200
Speaker 1: day stress of just surviving. Now there's a difference. There's

975
00:48:22,239 --> 00:48:26,640
Speaker 1: a difference between surviving and living. The reason why we're

976
00:48:26,680 --> 00:48:29,000
Speaker 1: hyper visilant and we're always ready to turn up is

977
00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:32,239
Speaker 1: because we're busy just surviving. That's traumatic. So we're dealing

978
00:48:32,320 --> 00:48:36,279
Speaker 1: with trauma day to day, every day right, so much

979
00:48:36,320 --> 00:48:38,600
Speaker 1: to the point where we can't deal with the generational

980
00:48:38,640 --> 00:48:41,279
Speaker 1: trauma that has been passed down to us from our

981
00:48:41,320 --> 00:48:43,880
Speaker 1: old family members that went through trauma and when they

982
00:48:43,960 --> 00:48:48,360
Speaker 1: was coming up in this country and were it alters

983
00:48:48,400 --> 00:48:52,840
Speaker 1: your DNA. Sure, like I can't. You know exactly what

984
00:48:52,920 --> 00:48:55,040
Speaker 1: Joe is saying. I mean my grandfather sit there and

985
00:48:55,120 --> 00:48:57,279
Speaker 1: be like look, he said. I said, well, you know,

986
00:48:57,600 --> 00:49:00,880
Speaker 1: this is on his death not at that he was standing,

987
00:49:01,280 --> 00:49:04,200
Speaker 1: let me say that. But he, my my grandfather, lived.

988
00:49:04,360 --> 00:49:07,120
Speaker 1: He lived in ninety years old and then right and

989
00:49:07,120 --> 00:49:10,640
Speaker 1: and as eighty nine years old, the year before he died.

990
00:49:11,080 --> 00:49:14,440
Speaker 1: He's sitting in a family Um, you know, like a

991
00:49:14,480 --> 00:49:18,480
Speaker 1: party for his ninetieth birthday and we're having his birthday

992
00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:21,319
Speaker 1: and he asked me to record it, you know when

993
00:49:21,320 --> 00:49:24,520
Speaker 1: I had Jennifer come down and record this. Yeah, and

994
00:49:24,600 --> 00:49:27,080
Speaker 1: so so my my grandfather sitting there and he's like,

995
00:49:27,600 --> 00:49:29,640
Speaker 1: you know, he's like. I just wanted you guys to

996
00:49:29,719 --> 00:49:32,320
Speaker 1: know that. I don't know if it was a mistake

997
00:49:32,440 --> 00:49:34,239
Speaker 1: or not, because the world has changed quite a bit,

998
00:49:34,680 --> 00:49:36,440
Speaker 1: he said, but the reason that I didn't teach you

999
00:49:36,480 --> 00:49:38,719
Speaker 1: guys Spanish and I made your mom and and all

1000
00:49:38,760 --> 00:49:41,760
Speaker 1: your uncles speak English while they lived here is because

1001
00:49:42,000 --> 00:49:44,080
Speaker 1: when I was a young kid, there was no way

1002
00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:45,760
Speaker 1: in hell that I was ever going to become wealthy

1003
00:49:45,840 --> 00:49:49,080
Speaker 1: speaking with my with my accent, he said. I just

1004
00:49:49,280 --> 00:49:52,840
Speaker 1: knew that I can never become wealthy with my accent.

1005
00:49:52,960 --> 00:49:54,759
Speaker 1: And I was like, well, you know, and he's like,

1006
00:49:54,760 --> 00:49:57,200
Speaker 1: so that's why you don't know Spanish. That's why you

1007
00:49:57,239 --> 00:49:59,840
Speaker 1: don't know Spanish and that's why your parents are broken.

1008
00:49:59,840 --> 00:50:02,200
Speaker 1: They English when their first language was Spanish. You know,

1009
00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:06,759
Speaker 1: that's rich and well, and I'm like, well, you know,

1010
00:50:06,800 --> 00:50:09,080
Speaker 1: in my and and now that the world's changed quite

1011
00:50:09,120 --> 00:50:11,480
Speaker 1: a bit, I'm like, Damn. You know two things. One

1012
00:50:11,640 --> 00:50:14,080
Speaker 1: is that because of streets, and she like that, and

1013
00:50:14,080 --> 00:50:16,759
Speaker 1: growing up in Los Angeles myself and and knowing that,

1014
00:50:16,800 --> 00:50:18,680
Speaker 1: you know, if I did speak the language, I might

1015
00:50:18,719 --> 00:50:21,279
Speaker 1: be even well, you know, worse in prison. I might

1016
00:50:21,320 --> 00:50:23,840
Speaker 1: be worse off right because I would have navigated myself

1017
00:50:23,880 --> 00:50:27,440
Speaker 1: into deeper veins of of the Culture Um and I

1018
00:50:27,520 --> 00:50:30,359
Speaker 1: also look at, you know, being okay, where we're at

1019
00:50:30,400 --> 00:50:33,280
Speaker 1: now is is I do. You know, I did carry

1020
00:50:33,360 --> 00:50:37,640
Speaker 1: myself with the with the you know, a young Um,

1021
00:50:37,680 --> 00:50:40,239
Speaker 1: you know, thug attitude for a lot of years, a

1022
00:50:40,360 --> 00:50:42,880
Speaker 1: very rough crowd, and then I was able to, you know,

1023
00:50:43,000 --> 00:50:44,640
Speaker 1: change the way I walked away, I talked, the way

1024
00:50:44,680 --> 00:50:47,160
Speaker 1: I look, and I did that on purpose because of

1025
00:50:47,320 --> 00:50:49,480
Speaker 1: because of you know, I felt like it was holding

1026
00:50:49,520 --> 00:50:52,319
Speaker 1: me back and I and I so. So, you know,

1027
00:50:52,320 --> 00:50:53,919
Speaker 1: a lot of people would be like, okay, well, maybe

1028
00:50:53,920 --> 00:50:56,080
Speaker 1: that's you selling out or maybe that's you this, and

1029
00:50:56,080 --> 00:50:58,080
Speaker 1: I'm like no, it's just the difference is that I

1030
00:50:58,080 --> 00:51:00,800
Speaker 1: feel like I was, I'm doing something of my own community,

1031
00:51:00,840 --> 00:51:02,319
Speaker 1: like the way I have to do that, the way

1032
00:51:02,400 --> 00:51:05,839
Speaker 1: I can get in uh, you know, expressing myself by

1033
00:51:05,960 --> 00:51:09,520
Speaker 1: dressing in suits or coming into different you know, Um

1034
00:51:09,560 --> 00:51:13,480
Speaker 1: Arenas is allowed me to grow and allowed me to

1035
00:51:13,520 --> 00:51:17,360
Speaker 1: be accepted in different markets, including the Caucasian, you know industry,

1036
00:51:17,719 --> 00:51:20,440
Speaker 1: like there was, you know, but but quite frankly, the

1037
00:51:20,480 --> 00:51:23,480
Speaker 1: first investor that I've ever had, and I called my mentor,

1038
00:51:23,600 --> 00:51:27,440
Speaker 1: was the Caucasian Dude and he took me in and and, Um,

1039
00:51:27,480 --> 00:51:29,560
Speaker 1: you know, he and I say he's my mentor because

1040
00:51:29,560 --> 00:51:31,480
Speaker 1: he burned me for like a million and a half dollars.

1041
00:51:31,880 --> 00:51:33,440
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. But he was my mentor

1042
00:51:33,520 --> 00:51:36,200
Speaker 1: because he he also taught me how to bottle myself

1043
00:51:36,280 --> 00:51:37,680
Speaker 1: up and sell it, and that was the first thing say,

1044
00:51:37,719 --> 00:51:39,359
Speaker 1: I'm gonna bottle you up and sell. You, Bro you've

1045
00:51:39,360 --> 00:51:41,719
Speaker 1: got so much you know to sell. I'm gonna show

1046
00:51:41,760 --> 00:51:42,960
Speaker 1: you how to bother you up and sell. And then

1047
00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:45,240
Speaker 1: I sold it and I'm watching the companies doing millions

1048
00:51:45,280 --> 00:51:46,920
Speaker 1: of dollars a year and I'm going ship, but when

1049
00:51:46,960 --> 00:51:48,719
Speaker 1: am I gonna get paid? Dog? And he's like, you know.

1050
00:51:48,760 --> 00:51:51,120
Speaker 1: Finally I started doing my own Mexican math. I started

1051
00:51:51,120 --> 00:51:53,480
Speaker 1: putting my own facts together and I book felt my

1052
00:51:53,520 --> 00:51:55,120
Speaker 1: own case and I came to him and he was like,

1053
00:51:55,600 --> 00:51:57,920
Speaker 1: you know, piste off and upset that I had too

1054
00:51:57,960 --> 00:52:01,600
Speaker 1: much information. And then next show I just I converted

1055
00:52:01,640 --> 00:52:05,160
Speaker 1: and did it myself. But he he didn't know. I mean,

1056
00:52:05,360 --> 00:52:09,160
Speaker 1: in my opinion, had he just took this loyal, you know,

1057
00:52:10,160 --> 00:52:12,600
Speaker 1: kid from the street that was learning how to do

1058
00:52:12,760 --> 00:52:16,160
Speaker 1: business and we could have made billions of dollars faster,

1059
00:52:16,400 --> 00:52:19,279
Speaker 1: you know. But instead he taught me that, you know,

1060
00:52:19,400 --> 00:52:22,480
Speaker 1: don't first, don't trust everybody, and and second is how

1061
00:52:22,480 --> 00:52:24,400
Speaker 1: to bottle myself up and sell it and then, you know,

1062
00:52:24,480 --> 00:52:27,680
Speaker 1: create funnels and create call centers and understand how to

1063
00:52:27,719 --> 00:52:30,560
Speaker 1: make millions of dollars. Like I mean, that was for me.

1064
00:52:31,080 --> 00:52:34,000
Speaker 1: The best lesson I've ever had is by getting screwed

1065
00:52:34,040 --> 00:52:36,080
Speaker 1: by this dude, you know what I mean. And and

1066
00:52:36,080 --> 00:52:38,839
Speaker 1: and that I think that's, uh, you know, for me,

1067
00:52:38,960 --> 00:52:42,520
Speaker 1: the the blessing and the curse, like I you know,

1068
00:52:42,560 --> 00:52:45,000
Speaker 1: I'm glad I had to go through that and suffer

1069
00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:47,560
Speaker 1: for those three or four years and watch, you know,

1070
00:52:47,920 --> 00:52:49,840
Speaker 1: all these people around me get paid and then me

1071
00:52:49,960 --> 00:52:52,239
Speaker 1: not get paid, and then watch this dude live on

1072
00:52:52,280 --> 00:52:55,040
Speaker 1: a beach house and go funk. Dude, I built that

1073
00:52:55,080 --> 00:52:58,360
Speaker 1: whole ship with him. And then, and for those of

1074
00:52:58,520 --> 00:53:01,040
Speaker 1: the listening thing, that's part of the strees of Blues.

1075
00:53:01,160 --> 00:53:04,120
Speaker 1: Biggest it doesn't sound like a regret, by no means.

1076
00:53:04,160 --> 00:53:06,839
Speaker 1: That's his biggest lesson because when you think about life

1077
00:53:06,880 --> 00:53:09,880
Speaker 1: sometimes Taja has so many people would be going through something.

1078
00:53:09,920 --> 00:53:12,080
Speaker 1: And I always like to stick on this one, which is,

1079
00:53:12,440 --> 00:53:14,799
Speaker 1: you know, my biggest trials and tribulations is where I

1080
00:53:14,840 --> 00:53:17,759
Speaker 1: got my most success from. Oh No, most definitely. I

1081
00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:21,840
Speaker 1: like your perspective on that. Um, there's actually an intervention

1082
00:53:22,239 --> 00:53:25,680
Speaker 1: that's evidence based, so it's evidence that it works. It's

1083
00:53:25,719 --> 00:53:30,279
Speaker 1: called cognitive behavioral therapy. Basically what you just did by

1084
00:53:30,520 --> 00:53:35,799
Speaker 1: Um reorganizing how you thought about that experience. You were

1085
00:53:35,840 --> 00:53:37,920
Speaker 1: able to see the good in it and you were

1086
00:53:37,960 --> 00:53:40,719
Speaker 1: able to toss it into the positive side of your

1087
00:53:40,719 --> 00:53:44,359
Speaker 1: brain instead of dwelling on and creating anxiety, creating well,

1088
00:53:44,440 --> 00:53:47,200
Speaker 1: that goes back to my grandfather, my grandfather saying, you know,

1089
00:53:47,239 --> 00:53:52,759
Speaker 1: if you if you dwell on your on your right now,

1090
00:53:53,480 --> 00:53:57,359
Speaker 1: I can tell you after. Go ahead for so. But like,

1091
00:53:57,640 --> 00:54:03,080
Speaker 1: what's it? Cognitant cognitive behavior the pre basically it's CBT. Um,

1092
00:54:03,120 --> 00:54:07,280
Speaker 1: there's even CBT for like trauma. That's just directly for trauma.

1093
00:54:07,320 --> 00:54:11,760
Speaker 1: But CBT in general teaches you to rethink and test.

1094
00:54:12,239 --> 00:54:15,680
Speaker 1: Like when people are stressing about something, you sit there

1095
00:54:15,680 --> 00:54:17,879
Speaker 1: and you analyze what you're stressing about and you really

1096
00:54:17,920 --> 00:54:20,080
Speaker 1: see if it's worth stressing about, and you and you

1097
00:54:20,120 --> 00:54:22,759
Speaker 1: look at the evidence. Sometimes you'll look at you'll come

1098
00:54:22,880 --> 00:54:26,399
Speaker 1: and say, Oh damn, why am I stressing about that.

1099
00:54:26,960 --> 00:54:29,719
Speaker 1: I need to think about that like this, or you'll

1100
00:54:29,760 --> 00:54:32,640
Speaker 1: sit there and say, oh no, this is a problem. Okay,

1101
00:54:32,760 --> 00:54:35,000
Speaker 1: the evidence is showing that this is a problem. But

1102
00:54:35,080 --> 00:54:37,680
Speaker 1: the good thing about that is that now you're like, okay,

1103
00:54:37,719 --> 00:54:40,000
Speaker 1: I have this problem, how can I dress it? Again,

1104
00:54:41,000 --> 00:54:44,000
Speaker 1: back to giving it attention and not just letting it sit.

1105
00:54:44,239 --> 00:54:46,799
Speaker 1: What we often do, especially in our community, is we

1106
00:54:46,880 --> 00:54:50,719
Speaker 1: disassociate from problems, which means that we just talked, we

1107
00:54:50,840 --> 00:54:53,680
Speaker 1: just look and to act like it doesn't exist and

1108
00:54:54,160 --> 00:54:57,200
Speaker 1: we we think that because we're not consciously thinking about it,

1109
00:54:57,360 --> 00:54:59,680
Speaker 1: that our body is not thinking about it, that are

1110
00:55:00,000 --> 00:55:03,080
Speaker 1: conscience is not thinking about it, we we falsely assume

1111
00:55:03,480 --> 00:55:06,240
Speaker 1: that that's not happening. So what happens is that trauma

1112
00:55:06,320 --> 00:55:11,279
Speaker 1: comes out in your life, in behaviors, your relationships, the

1113
00:55:11,400 --> 00:55:15,000
Speaker 1: things that trigger you, your temperament. So you're gonna exhibit

1114
00:55:15,040 --> 00:55:16,719
Speaker 1: that trauma one way or the other, whether you like

1115
00:55:16,800 --> 00:55:18,799
Speaker 1: it or not. So it's better to address it so

1116
00:55:18,840 --> 00:55:22,319
Speaker 1: that you can control it and it doesn't mess up

1117
00:55:22,320 --> 00:55:25,759
Speaker 1: your life unknowingly. Yeah, you're speaking to me, man. I

1118
00:55:25,760 --> 00:55:27,279
Speaker 1: hope he's speaking to you out there. Let's take a

1119
00:55:27,280 --> 00:55:29,160
Speaker 1: break and come right back with this gentleman right here.

1120
00:55:29,160 --> 00:55:30,719
Speaker 1: If you haven't heard of the show and heard of

1121
00:55:30,800 --> 00:55:33,200
Speaker 1: him talking to all these big famous hip hop artists,

1122
00:55:33,360 --> 00:55:38,040
Speaker 1: you better recognize t j Morano, the Puerto Rican machine,

1123
00:55:38,120 --> 00:55:42,160
Speaker 1: right here, clinical psychologist, therapist, hip hop artists and hosts

1124
00:55:42,560 --> 00:55:44,839
Speaker 1: of healing his gangsters. Cannabis talking one on one. We'll

1125
00:55:44,840 --> 00:55:46,719
Speaker 1: be right back after this break. We'll be right back

1126
00:55:46,760 --> 00:55:59,840
Speaker 1: with cannabis talk. One Oh one. Welcome back to cannabis.

1127
00:56:00,120 --> 00:56:02,440
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1130
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Speaker 1: Discover more at advanced new treats DOT com. I want

1131
00:56:11,200 --> 00:56:14,640
Speaker 1: to thank everybody in advance here at our team, right here, Goldie,

1132
00:56:14,719 --> 00:56:18,840
Speaker 1: starting with you, the newest member of the team, Pitt's brother, Goldie,

1133
00:56:18,920 --> 00:56:21,439
Speaker 1: thank you so much for being here and helping doing

1134
00:56:21,480 --> 00:56:24,440
Speaker 1: what you do. Looking at those gold teeth and seeing

1135
00:56:24,440 --> 00:56:27,240
Speaker 1: the resemblance of your brothers sitting right there so golden

1136
00:56:27,239 --> 00:56:29,560
Speaker 1: to me. So thank you, brother. Appreciate it's good to

1137
00:56:29,560 --> 00:56:31,920
Speaker 1: see you right there. Thank you, glad to have you.

1138
00:56:32,000 --> 00:56:35,400
Speaker 1: It's the newest member, Erica Daniel Cal Christian, a Christian has,

1139
00:56:35,480 --> 00:56:39,640
Speaker 1: Danny P funk, Connor, Gabriel, Sagar, Jessica cash, Cam Kimberly,

1140
00:56:39,640 --> 00:56:44,800
Speaker 1: Isaiah Salar, Nadia, Ali Pitt, Devin, Eric, Alexas, Sarah, Maddie,

1141
00:56:45,200 --> 00:56:48,480
Speaker 1: always writing some great things on our website. Of course, Goldie, Chris, Frankino,

1142
00:56:48,600 --> 00:56:50,480
Speaker 1: Jennifer and Elvis. Thank you, guys so much for doing

1143
00:56:50,480 --> 00:56:53,160
Speaker 1: everything that you guys do for us. Mark, Mark Carn

1144
00:56:53,239 --> 00:56:57,360
Speaker 1: thank you. I love Mr Social, not social media. You know,

1145
00:56:57,400 --> 00:57:01,279
Speaker 1: what's it called? Influence in your village. I've seen some

1146
00:57:01,320 --> 00:57:02,879
Speaker 1: stuff that he just posted the other day too, which

1147
00:57:02,920 --> 00:57:07,360
Speaker 1: is real dope. Um, speaking of dope, helling his gangster Tajno.

1148
00:57:07,440 --> 00:57:09,799
Speaker 1: It's so amazing how blue and I would, and I

1149
00:57:09,880 --> 00:57:11,759
Speaker 1: love you, blue, for opening up about your personal life

1150
00:57:11,760 --> 00:57:20,240
Speaker 1: about that. Thank you for being vulnerable. You know, we're

1151
00:57:20,440 --> 00:57:23,360
Speaker 1: very shoulder transparent like that, like, and I mean we're

1152
00:57:23,360 --> 00:57:26,040
Speaker 1: not too cool for sucking anything, to be like NAB dog.

1153
00:57:26,080 --> 00:57:28,400
Speaker 1: We gotta do that too. Oh Yeah, we lost the house.

1154
00:57:28,400 --> 00:57:30,040
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, I lost this, I lost that, like yeah,

1155
00:57:30,040 --> 00:57:31,880
Speaker 1: we lost some ship too. We're not just the biggest

1156
00:57:31,920 --> 00:57:33,880
Speaker 1: players in the world that never lost nothing. Votes and

1157
00:57:33,920 --> 00:57:36,280
Speaker 1: I go through ship. He's going through the marriage. He

1158
00:57:36,320 --> 00:57:38,320
Speaker 1: just told you about that, and we all got our problems.

1159
00:57:38,920 --> 00:57:41,040
Speaker 1: As you work with these artists and stuff. What made

1160
00:57:41,080 --> 00:57:43,120
Speaker 1: you decide, like was that the first call from Damon

1161
00:57:43,200 --> 00:57:45,800
Speaker 1: Dash to do that like style, where now you're getting

1162
00:57:45,800 --> 00:57:48,480
Speaker 1: these other hip hop heads that come on there. I

1163
00:57:48,480 --> 00:57:51,000
Speaker 1: mean even getting the cats from real ninety two three,

1164
00:57:51,080 --> 00:57:54,680
Speaker 1: because these are some young guys that most people don't

1165
00:57:54,720 --> 00:57:58,240
Speaker 1: want to be vulnerable. Let's just call it Wesley, especially

1166
00:57:58,320 --> 00:58:02,640
Speaker 1: cats from our error. Like said, people are vulnerable. We

1167
00:58:02,680 --> 00:58:04,400
Speaker 1: all want to just deal with it. Like I got this,

1168
00:58:04,480 --> 00:58:09,160
Speaker 1: I'm cool player. Therapy problem, you pussy. We could all

1169
00:58:09,240 --> 00:58:11,760
Speaker 1: use some right now. We just lost his brother, Pitt,

1170
00:58:11,800 --> 00:58:15,600
Speaker 1: you know, right here, and should I even told I

1171
00:58:16,000 --> 00:58:19,600
Speaker 1: actually I told the whole the whole office. I said, look, man,

1172
00:58:19,600 --> 00:58:22,080
Speaker 1: if anybody feels that they need, you know, therapy, let

1173
00:58:22,080 --> 00:58:26,840
Speaker 1: me know. I'll figure out how they get you something. Friday. Yeah, well,

1174
00:58:26,840 --> 00:58:31,080
Speaker 1: that was too late. That expired. That was about Pitt.

1175
00:58:31,200 --> 00:58:36,560
Speaker 1: That your personal like, like like he said earlier. You know,

1176
00:58:36,680 --> 00:58:40,520
Speaker 1: we come up with ways to actually deal with these

1177
00:58:40,560 --> 00:58:43,800
Speaker 1: traumas because we don't really have the time to deal

1178
00:58:44,160 --> 00:58:46,920
Speaker 1: with the TRAUMAS. Talk about it right. So we'll do

1179
00:58:47,160 --> 00:58:49,600
Speaker 1: the finances to pay for him. You know what I'm saying?

1180
00:58:49,640 --> 00:58:54,120
Speaker 1: I mean, let's be honest like that. That's yeah, you know,

1181
00:58:54,240 --> 00:58:57,440
Speaker 1: that's probably the number ones. And Yeah, like I want

1182
00:58:57,480 --> 00:59:00,720
Speaker 1: to send my kid to uh, you know, therapy, but

1183
00:59:00,760 --> 00:59:03,960
Speaker 1: I can't because we can't afford it and we want

1184
00:59:04,040 --> 00:59:06,240
Speaker 1: the best, but you can't find it because you don't

1185
00:59:06,280 --> 00:59:08,640
Speaker 1: have it slam it in your community and it's probably

1186
00:59:08,640 --> 00:59:10,800
Speaker 1: not even available. I mean, you know, do they have

1187
00:59:10,840 --> 00:59:13,480
Speaker 1: outreach programs in the in the neighborhoods that do this?

1188
00:59:13,560 --> 00:59:15,640
Speaker 1: I'm sure they do. Right. Yeah, I've been part of them.

1189
00:59:16,320 --> 00:59:20,280
Speaker 1: One of the blessings of going to school. Um, I

1190
00:59:20,320 --> 00:59:21,840
Speaker 1: have to do a certain amount of hours, just like

1191
00:59:21,880 --> 00:59:24,720
Speaker 1: doing a residency when you're like becoming like a medical doctor,

1192
00:59:24,720 --> 00:59:26,959
Speaker 1: it's the same thing that I have to do. Um,

1193
00:59:27,000 --> 00:59:28,360
Speaker 1: so I have to put it in a certain amount

1194
00:59:28,360 --> 00:59:31,600
Speaker 1: of hours of helping people and giving therapy. And one

1195
00:59:31,640 --> 00:59:33,560
Speaker 1: of the things that I did, that I chose to

1196
00:59:33,600 --> 00:59:37,560
Speaker 1: do to get my hours, was go back to my community.

1197
00:59:38,160 --> 00:59:40,440
Speaker 1: You know, I was yeah, I went to the Compton

1198
00:59:40,520 --> 00:59:43,720
Speaker 1: high schools. I went all over L A, like uh,

1199
00:59:43,920 --> 00:59:46,880
Speaker 1: Compton Watts, I used to. I was I grew up.

1200
00:59:47,040 --> 00:59:48,640
Speaker 1: I mean I had a house when I was really

1201
00:59:48,640 --> 00:59:51,600
Speaker 1: young Uncompton Boulevard, which turns in Somerset. You know what

1202
00:59:51,600 --> 00:59:53,400
Speaker 1: I mean, over there. I lived there for a lot

1203
00:59:53,400 --> 00:59:56,280
Speaker 1: of years. Um, and then I'm originally from down in

1204
00:59:56,320 --> 01:00:00,440
Speaker 1: Norwalk area, like the imperial side Compton. I don't want

1205
01:00:00,440 --> 01:00:02,959
Speaker 1: to fill yeah, everybody's like, well, you know, I'm like dude,

1206
01:00:02,960 --> 01:00:07,000
Speaker 1: like I grew up with the guys from camp, like

1207
01:00:07,760 --> 01:00:09,640
Speaker 1: if we threw the football too far over the river

1208
01:00:09,680 --> 01:00:12,840
Speaker 1: beds are like back to back. Yeah, and we have

1209
01:00:12,960 --> 01:00:17,400
Speaker 1: to guard to each other. Thorne, uh, Inglewood, all those

1210
01:00:17,400 --> 01:00:20,520
Speaker 1: cities are like right there. Um. But yeah, no, I

1211
01:00:20,560 --> 01:00:24,240
Speaker 1: went to every community, basically in L A, and talk

1212
01:00:24,320 --> 01:00:28,360
Speaker 1: to the kids, and I mean God has blessed me

1213
01:00:28,400 --> 01:00:30,720
Speaker 1: to be able to have something where, you know, they

1214
01:00:30,760 --> 01:00:33,120
Speaker 1: listen to me, you know what I mean, probably because

1215
01:00:33,160 --> 01:00:34,880
Speaker 1: I've been I've been there. I am them. Well, you

1216
01:00:34,880 --> 01:00:36,360
Speaker 1: also look like that, you know what I mean. You

1217
01:00:36,360 --> 01:00:38,600
Speaker 1: have the tattoos. You got to feel, you know, you

1218
01:00:38,600 --> 01:00:41,920
Speaker 1: don't look like ahead. Well, and I say that. I

1219
01:00:41,960 --> 01:00:45,680
Speaker 1: said that because I am I am yeah, and that's

1220
01:00:45,480 --> 01:00:49,040
Speaker 1: that's that's the thing is is. I think there's Um,

1221
01:00:49,080 --> 01:00:52,960
Speaker 1: you know, imagine, you know someone from Newport Beach, right,

1222
01:00:53,080 --> 01:00:56,360
Speaker 1: they've got their you know, their their family, whether they're white, black, Asian, king,

1223
01:00:56,440 --> 01:00:58,560
Speaker 1: I don't care what race they are. But they bring

1224
01:00:58,600 --> 01:01:00,880
Speaker 1: their child in and they see you and they don't

1225
01:01:00,920 --> 01:01:03,800
Speaker 1: know that that they're about to see this therapist. What's happening? Yeah,

1226
01:01:03,840 --> 01:01:08,600
Speaker 1: and they're like, I'm not your therapist here. Yeah, that's

1227
01:01:09,000 --> 01:01:16,520
Speaker 1: a signing guy. Are you supposed to be exactly? Do

1228
01:01:16,560 --> 01:01:19,680
Speaker 1: you know where? Mr Right? No, that that happens to

1229
01:01:19,720 --> 01:01:22,120
Speaker 1: me quite frequently, especially when I'm doing like the work

1230
01:01:22,160 --> 01:01:24,080
Speaker 1: with some of the public schools, and I look at

1231
01:01:24,080 --> 01:01:26,000
Speaker 1: this text that I sent Daniel and call I said,

1232
01:01:26,080 --> 01:01:27,600
Speaker 1: is that really fucking him? That just walked in and

1233
01:01:27,640 --> 01:01:31,760
Speaker 1: I'm just kidding. But I like that though. I like that, though,

1234
01:01:31,840 --> 01:01:34,080
Speaker 1: like the same thing, the same thing greatest. Yeah, the

1235
01:01:34,120 --> 01:01:36,320
Speaker 1: same thing will happened to me in school, Um, when

1236
01:01:36,360 --> 01:01:38,800
Speaker 1: I got my first degree, right, and I went up

1237
01:01:38,800 --> 01:01:42,240
Speaker 1: there to get my degree, like she looked at because

1238
01:01:42,280 --> 01:01:44,320
Speaker 1: I had the highest GPA in school, like I said,

1239
01:01:45,320 --> 01:01:49,080
Speaker 1: and she kept looking at me like is this the

1240
01:01:49,200 --> 01:01:55,560
Speaker 1: right you know, to mar and I was just like, dude,

1241
01:01:55,560 --> 01:01:57,600
Speaker 1: are you gonna, are you gonna announce my honors or what?

1242
01:01:58,200 --> 01:02:00,600
Speaker 1: Because I had honors, you know, that keeps saying it

1243
01:02:00,640 --> 01:02:04,600
Speaker 1: was and she kind of like was like in the

1244
01:02:04,760 --> 01:02:11,000
Speaker 1: MP and the and let me tell you something. The

1245
01:02:11,040 --> 01:02:14,080
Speaker 1: reason why I went to school is because, before I

1246
01:02:14,240 --> 01:02:18,280
Speaker 1: checked into school, I had came home from a forced vacation. Yeah,

1247
01:02:18,320 --> 01:02:21,120
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Um, I got caught up

1248
01:02:21,120 --> 01:02:25,400
Speaker 1: doing some some ship, you feel me, and it caused

1249
01:02:25,440 --> 01:02:28,000
Speaker 1: me to and reanalyze my life with what I was doing,

1250
01:02:28,400 --> 01:02:31,160
Speaker 1: because I was halfway into the entertainment business, but I

1251
01:02:31,160 --> 01:02:33,480
Speaker 1: was still in the streets, you know, even when I

1252
01:02:33,520 --> 01:02:37,760
Speaker 1: started school, I was still in the streets, you know.

1253
01:02:38,120 --> 01:02:41,360
Speaker 1: So I was living a conflicted life. You know, I

1254
01:02:41,400 --> 01:02:43,920
Speaker 1: was coming to the school my Khakis on Chucks, like

1255
01:02:44,040 --> 01:02:48,120
Speaker 1: really looking gang banged out, you know, and to the

1256
01:02:48,120 --> 01:02:50,400
Speaker 1: point where security that to come up to me like Yo,

1257
01:02:50,680 --> 01:02:53,280
Speaker 1: you go here, like when we see already like hell, yeah,

1258
01:02:53,280 --> 01:02:55,320
Speaker 1: I go here, Bro. Yeah, like what you're talking about,

1259
01:02:55,320 --> 01:02:59,120
Speaker 1: that I really do this. So, like, I went through

1260
01:02:59,120 --> 01:03:00,920
Speaker 1: all of that and and and I learned to like

1261
01:03:01,000 --> 01:03:04,960
Speaker 1: it because my teachers, my or my professors, they always

1262
01:03:05,000 --> 01:03:08,920
Speaker 1: end up loving me, you feel me, like because, yeah,

1263
01:03:08,960 --> 01:03:11,680
Speaker 1: and you know, they they're they're proud of me. When

1264
01:03:11,680 --> 01:03:13,760
Speaker 1: I do very well in their classes, especially when I

1265
01:03:13,760 --> 01:03:17,880
Speaker 1: come across professors that are also black or brown. You know,

1266
01:03:17,960 --> 01:03:22,200
Speaker 1: they could tell. Okay, he's not your average student, different coins.

1267
01:03:22,200 --> 01:03:24,320
Speaker 1: I don't regret those things at all. And when people

1268
01:03:24,360 --> 01:03:27,360
Speaker 1: are like Oh, your hood, Hell Yeah, I'm other. That's

1269
01:03:27,360 --> 01:03:28,960
Speaker 1: where I come from. I'm not ashamed of that at

1270
01:03:29,000 --> 01:03:31,720
Speaker 1: all and it's great. And you're helping the hood and

1271
01:03:32,160 --> 01:03:35,160
Speaker 1: as you do this, healing his gangster, as we said.

1272
01:03:35,520 --> 01:03:39,920
Speaker 1: Are these people? Anybody hesitant to be vulnerable? When I'm

1273
01:03:39,920 --> 01:03:43,600
Speaker 1: doing the show? Um, well, I've been lucky to have

1274
01:03:43,920 --> 01:03:51,120
Speaker 1: very good relationships DJ head. Okay, D head man, we

1275
01:03:51,200 --> 01:03:53,640
Speaker 1: know each other from the streets, like before this rap ship.

1276
01:03:54,800 --> 01:03:58,360
Speaker 1: You know, uh, Kendrick and the shows right here on beach,

1277
01:03:58,840 --> 01:04:02,040
Speaker 1: all of that. I remember all that. Like you know, uh,

1278
01:04:02,440 --> 01:04:05,840
Speaker 1: cal can tell you. You know he saw some of that. Like, uh,

1279
01:04:06,000 --> 01:04:08,800
Speaker 1: I knew all of these. You know, Letty, you know

1280
01:04:09,280 --> 01:04:11,720
Speaker 1: I was there. I was there when she was putting

1281
01:04:11,720 --> 01:04:13,880
Speaker 1: in her work in palm spring. He's like letty be

1282
01:04:14,560 --> 01:04:20,120
Speaker 1: uh yeah, from power. Yeah, yeah, I like her. She's hot,

1283
01:04:20,560 --> 01:04:22,240
Speaker 1: you know, didn't? She used to work a big in

1284
01:04:22,280 --> 01:04:23,960
Speaker 1: the morning back in the day. The same now. Now

1285
01:04:24,000 --> 01:04:28,960
Speaker 1: she got her own. Exactly do you say that of

1286
01:04:29,000 --> 01:04:31,440
Speaker 1: all days, of all days, today, I heard her on

1287
01:04:31,480 --> 01:04:35,520
Speaker 1: the here today, rebody told me, like Joe, you know

1288
01:04:35,560 --> 01:04:38,240
Speaker 1: that the same. Like. I really respect her hustle, like

1289
01:04:38,320 --> 01:04:41,920
Speaker 1: she really hustled. You know. Shouts out to her husband, Jorge,

1290
01:04:42,080 --> 01:04:43,400
Speaker 1: who some of Y'all know him. He did a lot

1291
01:04:43,440 --> 01:04:45,520
Speaker 1: of work with Nipsey. He was like Nipsey, anything you

1292
01:04:45,560 --> 01:04:48,840
Speaker 1: see with Nipsey, and like the pictures and the way

1293
01:04:48,880 --> 01:04:52,040
Speaker 1: everything he did all aground, like he was. It was

1294
01:04:52,120 --> 01:04:54,600
Speaker 1: like brothers, you know what I mean. So, you know,

1295
01:04:54,600 --> 01:04:56,720
Speaker 1: shout out out today. But I had great relationships with

1296
01:04:56,960 --> 01:05:00,160
Speaker 1: some of these people before this, before I went to Schoo,

1297
01:05:00,920 --> 01:05:02,840
Speaker 1: you know, so they already knew me as being a

1298
01:05:02,880 --> 01:05:05,440
Speaker 1: real person. I'm not. I'm the same person that I

1299
01:05:05,600 --> 01:05:09,200
Speaker 1: was before school. I just got educated. I'm more educated

1300
01:05:09,880 --> 01:05:12,920
Speaker 1: and more deliberate about how I can help people. You

1301
01:05:12,920 --> 01:05:14,600
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I've always been a real person.

1302
01:05:14,800 --> 01:05:16,560
Speaker 1: It's just now I got the papers that can't take

1303
01:05:16,600 --> 01:05:18,479
Speaker 1: away from me. See if I would have came into

1304
01:05:18,520 --> 01:05:21,280
Speaker 1: this without the degrees. The first thing they're gonna do

1305
01:05:21,320 --> 01:05:23,760
Speaker 1: is attack me like that because they don't like what

1306
01:05:23,800 --> 01:05:27,160
Speaker 1: I'm doing. They don't like how you don't like the way,

1307
01:05:27,440 --> 01:05:29,520
Speaker 1: they don't like my my goal of trying to heal

1308
01:05:29,600 --> 01:05:34,080
Speaker 1: my community and so so, so, so, so. So what

1309
01:05:34,120 --> 01:05:36,360
Speaker 1: they're gonna do is, Oh, well, you're not a professional,

1310
01:05:36,720 --> 01:05:42,040
Speaker 1: you don't have this. Yeah, actually, I do. Actually, you know,

1311
01:05:42,120 --> 01:05:45,040
Speaker 1: and I'm sure that that happens, you know, quite often,

1312
01:05:45,160 --> 01:05:48,320
Speaker 1: where people just credit you or you know, because if

1313
01:05:48,360 --> 01:05:50,560
Speaker 1: you and I eat, even me, like you and I

1314
01:05:50,560 --> 01:05:52,560
Speaker 1: are sitting there and you're talking to me, you know,

1315
01:05:52,680 --> 01:05:54,840
Speaker 1: and then I wouldn't think that you were a college

1316
01:05:54,920 --> 01:05:57,280
Speaker 1: graduate like I would just be honest with you. I'M

1317
01:05:57,320 --> 01:05:59,320
Speaker 1: NOT gonna lie. I'm you know, I'm sitting next to

1318
01:05:59,320 --> 01:06:02,160
Speaker 1: a lot of people. I'm and I'm not either, you

1319
01:06:02,200 --> 01:06:03,680
Speaker 1: know what I mean. And I know where I'm and

1320
01:06:03,720 --> 01:06:05,400
Speaker 1: I know where I'm from, you know, and and and

1321
01:06:05,440 --> 01:06:08,240
Speaker 1: a lot of people. They don't see that in me either.

1322
01:06:08,800 --> 01:06:11,720
Speaker 1: And I thought you were. What all bullshit aside what,

1323
01:06:11,880 --> 01:06:13,520
Speaker 1: I thought you were a college graduate when I first

1324
01:06:13,520 --> 01:06:15,800
Speaker 1: met you. Know, a lot of people do. But, but,

1325
01:06:15,800 --> 01:06:20,280
Speaker 1: but now they do. Right, but I'm saying, but those,

1326
01:06:20,520 --> 01:06:23,040
Speaker 1: those people think that I'm college educated. Now I have

1327
01:06:23,120 --> 01:06:25,720
Speaker 1: conversations with them and I let them allude into it themselves,

1328
01:06:25,920 --> 01:06:27,720
Speaker 1: because they're like, oh, clearly you must have been it.

1329
01:06:27,800 --> 01:06:31,400
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? They sit there and they

1330
01:06:31,400 --> 01:06:34,120
Speaker 1: try to tell me how, how you know how much,

1331
01:06:34,200 --> 01:06:36,440
Speaker 1: or you know, US college graduate kind of guys get it,

1332
01:06:36,880 --> 01:06:38,280
Speaker 1: and I'm in they're like yeah, you know, you know,

1333
01:06:38,360 --> 01:06:41,080
Speaker 1: I know, we get that. You know, but but they

1334
01:06:41,120 --> 01:06:43,400
Speaker 1: also have no clue where I come from. So I'm

1335
01:06:43,440 --> 01:06:45,640
Speaker 1: like the opposite, right, like I don't. I don't show

1336
01:06:45,680 --> 01:06:48,960
Speaker 1: it like people. The people that know, they know, like

1337
01:06:49,000 --> 01:06:53,160
Speaker 1: you know, and you can't hide your right there. It's

1338
01:06:53,200 --> 01:06:57,760
Speaker 1: got a hard it's like these fronts. You cannot see

1339
01:06:57,840 --> 01:07:01,480
Speaker 1: the gold. You see a brother right there and then

1340
01:07:01,520 --> 01:07:04,240
Speaker 1: he smiles. You got a nice gold chain on. Oh,

1341
01:07:04,320 --> 01:07:07,920
Speaker 1: he got the tattoos, the tattoos. It's not on my neck.

1342
01:07:08,280 --> 01:07:09,800
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? Like you know when I

1343
01:07:10,160 --> 01:07:12,040
Speaker 1: look at you, but you do got gold all in

1344
01:07:12,080 --> 01:07:14,560
Speaker 1: your neck, though. No, yeah, but yeah, whatever I mean.

1345
01:07:16,440 --> 01:07:18,760
Speaker 1: But I'm telling you that I can hide it well.

1346
01:07:19,280 --> 01:07:21,000
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? I hide it well and

1347
01:07:21,200 --> 01:07:23,760
Speaker 1: and I'm just saying he's not hiding it. You know

1348
01:07:23,760 --> 01:07:26,040
Speaker 1: what I mean. He's got the credentials. Yeah, yeah, he's

1349
01:07:26,080 --> 01:07:28,960
Speaker 1: and he's got the credentials that actually back it up,

1350
01:07:29,280 --> 01:07:31,320
Speaker 1: whereas I don't. You know what I'm saying, and so

1351
01:07:32,040 --> 01:07:35,160
Speaker 1: I'm just saying that, that, that that I understand it thoroughly,

1352
01:07:35,480 --> 01:07:37,680
Speaker 1: because sometimes people sit there and try to, you know,

1353
01:07:37,800 --> 01:07:39,320
Speaker 1: run a fast one on me and I'm looking at

1354
01:07:39,360 --> 01:07:43,760
Speaker 1: him like, Bro, don't do this, don't do that thing.

1355
01:07:43,800 --> 01:07:46,200
Speaker 1: I'll tell people about school, you know, and I've had

1356
01:07:46,280 --> 01:07:47,760
Speaker 1: like me and dames, I had the base about this,

1357
01:07:47,800 --> 01:07:49,560
Speaker 1: because sometimes he'll be like, man, you don't need you know,

1358
01:07:49,720 --> 01:07:51,840
Speaker 1: you don't need college, you don't need that, and I

1359
01:07:51,960 --> 01:07:55,080
Speaker 1: feel like this for that part. You did though. Well, well,

1360
01:07:55,120 --> 01:07:56,360
Speaker 1: this is the thing. I went to school with a

1361
01:07:56,440 --> 01:07:59,479
Speaker 1: specific purpose exactly. It wasn't to learn how to make money.

1362
01:08:00,440 --> 01:08:02,600
Speaker 1: I knew how to make money already. You know what

1363
01:08:02,600 --> 01:08:05,360
Speaker 1: I'm saying. I mean, I've been a hustlers exactly. I

1364
01:08:05,480 --> 01:08:07,800
Speaker 1: agree with that school concept as well. If you go

1365
01:08:07,960 --> 01:08:10,120
Speaker 1: for a purpose and do something and then you can better,

1366
01:08:10,200 --> 01:08:12,880
Speaker 1: like you're better in your community, you're better in the things,

1367
01:08:12,960 --> 01:08:15,320
Speaker 1: and I agree with that concept. And I even look

1368
01:08:15,360 --> 01:08:17,200
Speaker 1: at myself when I got my degree in radio, television

1369
01:08:17,240 --> 01:08:19,880
Speaker 1: film and I'm so happy to feedback kids and we're

1370
01:08:20,000 --> 01:08:22,560
Speaker 1: interning people here all the time and I feel the

1371
01:08:22,640 --> 01:08:25,519
Speaker 1: sensation of always giving back to them, because it's what

1372
01:08:25,680 --> 01:08:27,280
Speaker 1: we should do, because that's why I went to school.

1373
01:08:27,280 --> 01:08:28,760
Speaker 1: I feel like, you know, I get to utilize my

1374
01:08:28,880 --> 01:08:30,880
Speaker 1: degree and like, let me explain this to you guys,

1375
01:08:30,960 --> 01:08:32,519
Speaker 1: to show you, guys, how this works and why this

1376
01:08:32,600 --> 01:08:34,360
Speaker 1: works that way and this and that, and when you're

1377
01:08:34,400 --> 01:08:37,840
Speaker 1: doing things like that with the purpose, whether even if

1378
01:08:37,880 --> 01:08:41,240
Speaker 1: you went to school for social worker or whatever, you

1379
01:08:41,320 --> 01:08:43,920
Speaker 1: got a degree in anything, anything you're going to school

1380
01:08:43,960 --> 01:08:47,120
Speaker 1: for that you have a passing for, is worth I

1381
01:08:47,240 --> 01:08:48,840
Speaker 1: look at it like this. It wasn't just about the

1382
01:08:48,960 --> 01:08:52,599
Speaker 1: education I was getting, it was the social the social experience,

1383
01:08:52,840 --> 01:08:55,160
Speaker 1: and I never take those degrees. You yeah, I got

1384
01:08:55,240 --> 01:08:57,760
Speaker 1: to be around people that I would never have been

1385
01:08:57,800 --> 01:09:00,720
Speaker 1: around if I didn't go to school. So that gave

1386
01:09:00,760 --> 01:09:02,680
Speaker 1: me a perspective on the world, you know what I mean?

1387
01:09:02,800 --> 01:09:04,760
Speaker 1: It gave me a new perspective. It makes me a

1388
01:09:04,840 --> 01:09:07,880
Speaker 1: good therapist, makes me a good psychologist, because I'm able

1389
01:09:07,920 --> 01:09:10,920
Speaker 1: to take all these different perspectives, all these different cultures

1390
01:09:11,000 --> 01:09:13,000
Speaker 1: and ethnicities. I went to school with all kind of people,

1391
01:09:13,600 --> 01:09:15,160
Speaker 1: you know, people that don't know you know that don't

1392
01:09:15,200 --> 01:09:17,960
Speaker 1: know anything about the streets. You know, there, there they

1393
01:09:18,000 --> 01:09:20,360
Speaker 1: were good people. You know that. I learned things from them.

1394
01:09:20,400 --> 01:09:22,439
Speaker 1: They would teach me about their culture. Like one of

1395
01:09:22,520 --> 01:09:25,240
Speaker 1: the best classes I ever took was at l Comuno College,

1396
01:09:25,600 --> 01:09:29,360
Speaker 1: and that was anthropology, you know, and I loved anthropology

1397
01:09:29,439 --> 01:09:33,599
Speaker 1: because it forced me to in this country we tend

1398
01:09:33,680 --> 01:09:37,599
Speaker 1: to to judge other cultures if they're different from ours,

1399
01:09:37,800 --> 01:09:39,920
Speaker 1: and what that class taught me was you gotta see

1400
01:09:39,960 --> 01:09:43,000
Speaker 1: things from inside that culture. They're not gonna view it

1401
01:09:43,080 --> 01:09:45,320
Speaker 1: the same as you. You know what I'm saying. So

1402
01:09:45,680 --> 01:09:48,280
Speaker 1: when I learned that concept, that was a big part

1403
01:09:48,320 --> 01:09:50,320
Speaker 1: of me being the type of therapist that I am now,

1404
01:09:50,600 --> 01:09:53,840
Speaker 1: because my clients outside of my soul, you know, that

1405
01:09:53,920 --> 01:09:56,680
Speaker 1: I help with things that I may consult therapeutically, things

1406
01:09:56,800 --> 01:10:01,120
Speaker 1: like that. They're all kinds of different races of people, ages,

1407
01:10:01,280 --> 01:10:04,960
Speaker 1: different ages groups, you know. You know, older people, middle

1408
01:10:05,040 --> 01:10:09,880
Speaker 1: a's kids like you know, from all different backgrounds. You know,

1409
01:10:10,000 --> 01:10:14,759
Speaker 1: and again, every client, there's no blueprint to uh, treating

1410
01:10:14,760 --> 01:10:17,880
Speaker 1: a client. You have to look at them individually and

1411
01:10:17,920 --> 01:10:20,960
Speaker 1: assess their problems. You know what I'm saying, and it's

1412
01:10:20,960 --> 01:10:23,680
Speaker 1: almost like freestyling like you're talking and I'm sitting there

1413
01:10:23,720 --> 01:10:27,360
Speaker 1: like all right, I'm taking in all this information. You know,

1414
01:10:27,600 --> 01:10:29,479
Speaker 1: I can't put a blueprint that I used to for

1415
01:10:29,600 --> 01:10:34,720
Speaker 1: somebody else exactly because different. There's no outline towards this

1416
01:10:34,920 --> 01:10:36,880
Speaker 1: man or a woman or a child that's coming in,

1417
01:10:37,120 --> 01:10:40,080
Speaker 1: and you can work children adults of all ages. Right.

1418
01:10:40,640 --> 01:10:43,200
Speaker 1: So so you know, there's no outline that you can

1419
01:10:43,280 --> 01:10:45,840
Speaker 1: just go with like okay, this is clearly you know

1420
01:10:45,960 --> 01:10:49,080
Speaker 1: he's got this. No, it's this guy. Well, there's a

1421
01:10:49,200 --> 01:10:51,519
Speaker 1: D S M, there's a what is it called? It's

1422
01:10:51,560 --> 01:10:54,880
Speaker 1: called a diagnostic it's like a diagnostic statistical manual that

1423
01:10:55,000 --> 01:10:59,080
Speaker 1: we use to look at certain symptoms that patients are having.

1424
01:10:59,360 --> 01:11:02,280
Speaker 1: The only thing of about that is that it's behind

1425
01:11:02,360 --> 01:11:06,200
Speaker 1: a little bit culturally. So we have to use our knowledge.

1426
01:11:06,240 --> 01:11:10,640
Speaker 1: That's why classes like anthropology and any any education that

1427
01:11:10,760 --> 01:11:13,599
Speaker 1: focuses on seeing how other people live and what they're

1428
01:11:13,640 --> 01:11:16,600
Speaker 1: going through are some of the most important things you

1429
01:11:16,640 --> 01:11:19,560
Speaker 1: can have as a therapist, because that's part of that

1430
01:11:19,640 --> 01:11:24,360
Speaker 1: whole process of treating every client like an individual, because

1431
01:11:24,479 --> 01:11:27,040
Speaker 1: you're there's only one you. There had to be a

1432
01:11:27,080 --> 01:11:29,800
Speaker 1: perfect storm of things that happened that made you who

1433
01:11:29,920 --> 01:11:33,400
Speaker 1: you are, right, and when you say anthropology, when you

1434
01:11:33,439 --> 01:11:35,720
Speaker 1: say the anthropology thought, you know, I can. I can

1435
01:11:36,040 --> 01:11:38,559
Speaker 1: kind of go like I almost have that same background, right,

1436
01:11:38,640 --> 01:11:40,680
Speaker 1: and I'll tell you why is. You know, I grew

1437
01:11:40,760 --> 01:11:43,960
Speaker 1: up in Los Angeles in the nineties, probably the worst,

1438
01:11:44,040 --> 01:11:46,559
Speaker 1: you know, time ever to be there, right, I mean

1439
01:11:46,640 --> 01:11:53,960
Speaker 1: just gang violence, you know activity, and we happened to come. Yeah,

1440
01:11:54,280 --> 01:11:55,720
Speaker 1: I was. It was on my block. What are you're

1441
01:11:55,720 --> 01:11:56,840
Speaker 1: talking about? You know what I mean. That was in

1442
01:11:56,920 --> 01:11:59,360
Speaker 1: front of my house. I was watching my streets burned.

1443
01:11:59,400 --> 01:12:00,800
Speaker 1: I mean, this is where I grew up, you know.

1444
01:12:01,320 --> 01:12:03,720
Speaker 1: So so I'm sitting there and I and I look

1445
01:12:03,800 --> 01:12:07,160
Speaker 1: at that and then, similar to your story and like

1446
01:12:07,400 --> 01:12:10,840
Speaker 1: at College. For me, coincidentally, it was in school too,

1447
01:12:11,520 --> 01:12:13,720
Speaker 1: is I got shipped out to Orange County because I

1448
01:12:13,880 --> 01:12:15,840
Speaker 1: messed up in my schools here in l a. It

1449
01:12:15,960 --> 01:12:18,559
Speaker 1: got me out of l a school districts and when

1450
01:12:18,560 --> 01:12:21,479
Speaker 1: I went to Orange County, I walked into school and

1451
01:12:21,760 --> 01:12:24,320
Speaker 1: and out of you know, in my last school that

1452
01:12:24,560 --> 01:12:28,080
Speaker 1: there was, you know, nothing but minorities. Everybody was black,

1453
01:12:28,200 --> 01:12:32,040
Speaker 1: Mexican or, you know, something Samoan or Asian, you know.

1454
01:12:32,280 --> 01:12:35,120
Speaker 1: And then, and we had very the minority was was

1455
01:12:35,160 --> 01:12:38,280
Speaker 1: white people. And then I ended up in you know,

1456
01:12:38,720 --> 01:12:43,120
Speaker 1: Yorba Linda, placentia and funk. I was like one of

1457
01:12:43,280 --> 01:12:46,760
Speaker 1: like maybe ten Hispanic kids in the whole school, you

1458
01:12:46,840 --> 01:12:48,439
Speaker 1: know what I mean. And and I and it maybe

1459
01:12:48,520 --> 01:12:50,920
Speaker 1: one of ten black folks in the whole school. And

1460
01:12:50,960 --> 01:12:52,719
Speaker 1: all of a sudden I'm in this Yorka Linda School

1461
01:12:52,720 --> 01:12:56,160
Speaker 1: district or placential school district, and I remember crying like

1462
01:12:57,000 --> 01:12:58,719
Speaker 1: key I was in school because I was walking around

1463
01:12:58,720 --> 01:13:02,080
Speaker 1: like what seuth homes boom in my whole, my whole

1464
01:13:02,400 --> 01:13:05,000
Speaker 1: you know, everything was like holy sh it, like, who

1465
01:13:05,040 --> 01:13:07,200
Speaker 1: are all these people? And no one, you know, no

1466
01:13:07,280 --> 01:13:09,200
Speaker 1: one looks like me, and nor did I even know

1467
01:13:09,320 --> 01:13:11,880
Speaker 1: this town existed, one I don't even know about, you know,

1468
01:13:12,040 --> 01:13:14,640
Speaker 1: a city called Yoga Linda or placential or any of that.

1469
01:13:15,200 --> 01:13:17,519
Speaker 1: And then when somebody has and the ten kids that

1470
01:13:17,600 --> 01:13:19,439
Speaker 1: were there thought that we had a problem with l

1471
01:13:19,520 --> 01:13:21,960
Speaker 1: a because they're from Orange County, you know, and I'm

1472
01:13:22,000 --> 01:13:24,120
Speaker 1: like you got we gotta beat for like ship. I

1473
01:13:24,200 --> 01:13:28,880
Speaker 1: never even heard of you guys. I don't like me because, yeah, yeah,

1474
01:13:28,880 --> 01:13:30,680
Speaker 1: and we're like and we don't even consider that we're

1475
01:13:30,680 --> 01:13:33,280
Speaker 1: worried about the city block two blocks over, about getting

1476
01:13:33,400 --> 01:13:36,920
Speaker 1: hit out there. Yeah, and then, and then, so, so

1477
01:13:37,160 --> 01:13:38,960
Speaker 1: I'm sitting there going to school and I remember it

1478
01:13:39,040 --> 01:13:40,840
Speaker 1: when it hit me because I was, you know, this

1479
01:13:41,120 --> 01:13:43,719
Speaker 1: like this person that was just like watching for something

1480
01:13:43,880 --> 01:13:45,800
Speaker 1: or someone. And then, and then all of a sudden

1481
01:13:45,840 --> 01:13:48,800
Speaker 1: I met this teacher and he was in the serve

1482
01:13:48,840 --> 01:13:50,320
Speaker 1: class and they said you need to be in serve.

1483
01:13:50,760 --> 01:13:53,799
Speaker 1: I'm like what served? It's like social, emotional, recreational, educational,

1484
01:13:53,840 --> 01:13:56,040
Speaker 1: Vocational Class. And I'm like you know, and I'm like

1485
01:13:56,280 --> 01:13:57,639
Speaker 1: what is that? You know what I mean, and I'm

1486
01:13:57,640 --> 01:14:00,639
Speaker 1: like I don't need know that ship. Know. He was no, yeah,

1487
01:14:01,200 --> 01:14:03,600
Speaker 1: but he was like no, you gotta be BS, you

1488
01:14:03,680 --> 01:14:06,960
Speaker 1: want to hear. All of a sudden I'm in the class.

1489
01:14:07,000 --> 01:14:08,760
Speaker 1: And now I was in the class with all the

1490
01:14:08,880 --> 01:14:10,880
Speaker 1: cats that were either black or Mexican, like we were

1491
01:14:10,960 --> 01:14:17,200
Speaker 1: all in these class and the anybody. Yeah, yeah, so

1492
01:14:17,400 --> 01:14:19,360
Speaker 1: we we ended up all there in the class and

1493
01:14:19,360 --> 01:14:20,960
Speaker 1: I'm like damn not, and I kind of felt more

1494
01:14:21,000 --> 01:14:23,040
Speaker 1: comfortable in that class than any other class, to be

1495
01:14:23,120 --> 01:14:26,160
Speaker 1: honest with you. But but I remember that. You know,

1496
01:14:26,800 --> 01:14:30,000
Speaker 1: I didn't realize that people didn't talk like me. I

1497
01:14:30,080 --> 01:14:32,400
Speaker 1: didn't realize that people didn't look like me. I didn't

1498
01:14:32,400 --> 01:14:34,960
Speaker 1: realize that people didn't have such a tough, you know,

1499
01:14:35,280 --> 01:14:38,160
Speaker 1: way of learning, until it hit me one day and

1500
01:14:38,160 --> 01:14:40,000
Speaker 1: I'm sitting with these kids and they're like Yo, you

1501
01:14:40,040 --> 01:14:42,400
Speaker 1: want to go play, you know, do this or do that,

1502
01:14:42,479 --> 01:14:45,400
Speaker 1: and I'm looking at them like like bro what, like

1503
01:14:45,520 --> 01:14:47,720
Speaker 1: you got that? Like what? Like you guys to go

1504
01:14:47,840 --> 01:14:50,320
Speaker 1: swim after school? Like where are you guys swimming at? Like,

1505
01:14:50,400 --> 01:14:52,519
Speaker 1: what are you talking about? What do you mean? Like

1506
01:14:52,640 --> 01:14:55,080
Speaker 1: the whole like just the way that they were acting

1507
01:14:55,200 --> 01:14:57,720
Speaker 1: and being different. And it was at first I took

1508
01:14:57,720 --> 01:15:00,320
Speaker 1: advantage of it because I was an idiot, and then

1509
01:15:00,360 --> 01:15:02,400
Speaker 1: I stopped taking advantage of it and I started to

1510
01:15:02,479 --> 01:15:06,960
Speaker 1: embrace it. I did, I did. I know that's what

1511
01:15:06,960 --> 01:15:09,120
Speaker 1: you're supposed to do, because that's what we're taught. That

1512
01:15:09,200 --> 01:15:10,800
Speaker 1: probably has a lot to do with while you're so

1513
01:15:10,960 --> 01:15:13,000
Speaker 1: well rounded in business. No, that's what I'm saying. So

1514
01:15:13,080 --> 01:15:16,280
Speaker 1: when your your story relates exactly the mind, you know,

1515
01:15:16,439 --> 01:15:18,280
Speaker 1: in so many different ways, and I look at this

1516
01:15:18,320 --> 01:15:21,200
Speaker 1: ship and I'm like that ship saved my life, like

1517
01:15:21,400 --> 01:15:23,479
Speaker 1: that ship. Going over there and watching these kids and

1518
01:15:23,479 --> 01:15:25,439
Speaker 1: I'm going God, like you you mean you don't have

1519
01:15:25,560 --> 01:15:27,439
Speaker 1: to fight every day on the way to school and

1520
01:15:27,439 --> 01:15:29,439
Speaker 1: then when you get to school you gotta have a pistol,

1521
01:15:29,479 --> 01:15:31,960
Speaker 1: a little whammy nearby. You're trying to keep it off

1522
01:15:32,040 --> 01:15:34,559
Speaker 1: campus because someone sti is talking about taking your life

1523
01:15:34,880 --> 01:15:36,800
Speaker 1: and and and they're jumping these fools on the way

1524
01:15:36,840 --> 01:15:38,400
Speaker 1: to school if you're not from the hood and so

1525
01:15:38,800 --> 01:15:41,160
Speaker 1: and there was just so much more that was not

1526
01:15:41,560 --> 01:15:43,360
Speaker 1: you know, it's funny to be taught these things in

1527
01:15:43,640 --> 01:15:45,840
Speaker 1: life because that's what you thought as a youngster, like

1528
01:15:45,920 --> 01:15:48,519
Speaker 1: that's all you taught. I have one day where where

1529
01:15:49,600 --> 01:15:52,400
Speaker 1: one of the kids from that school, you know, had

1530
01:15:52,520 --> 01:15:54,719
Speaker 1: approached me and was like Bro, it's on after school

1531
01:15:55,360 --> 01:15:57,200
Speaker 1: essay cat, you know what I mean? He was either

1532
01:15:57,280 --> 01:15:59,280
Speaker 1: from plas or at Wood. I don't remember what neighborhood

1533
01:15:59,320 --> 01:16:01,439
Speaker 1: he was from, but he was like dog, it's a boom,

1534
01:16:01,600 --> 01:16:03,320
Speaker 1: we're gonna suck you up, and I was like okay,

1535
01:16:03,560 --> 01:16:05,280
Speaker 1: and we didn't even have cell phone, so I hit

1536
01:16:05,400 --> 01:16:08,000
Speaker 1: my we had pages, but I had already felt this

1537
01:16:08,120 --> 01:16:10,880
Speaker 1: tension coming. So I was telling my homies like Yo,

1538
01:16:11,000 --> 01:16:12,439
Speaker 1: for for a four, it's on. You know what I'm saying?

1539
01:16:12,479 --> 01:16:14,120
Speaker 1: If we get a four for four. I need your help.

1540
01:16:14,479 --> 01:16:16,599
Speaker 1: And I had already gave the address to my school

1541
01:16:16,640 --> 01:16:18,400
Speaker 1: to my brother and my cousins, I mean the whole

1542
01:16:18,680 --> 01:16:23,760
Speaker 1: my whole neighborhood knew what was going on with yeah,

1543
01:16:23,840 --> 01:16:26,400
Speaker 1: I was just four fours. So they were it was

1544
01:16:26,760 --> 01:16:28,880
Speaker 1: like kind of, you know, building up to this and

1545
01:16:29,200 --> 01:16:32,040
Speaker 1: I remember it and I shook the whole fucking town

1546
01:16:32,160 --> 01:16:34,479
Speaker 1: up because my team rolled up to from L A

1547
01:16:34,960 --> 01:16:36,600
Speaker 1: and they parked out in front and low ride, I

1548
01:16:36,600 --> 01:16:39,160
Speaker 1: had low riders and Fucking Gang Bangers up and down

1549
01:16:39,240 --> 01:16:41,600
Speaker 1: to school in front of the school and I was

1550
01:16:41,760 --> 01:16:43,519
Speaker 1: I was looking out the like side, like am I

1551
01:16:43,560 --> 01:16:45,240
Speaker 1: gonna get jumped? And I'm looking out there and oh

1552
01:16:45,320 --> 01:16:47,439
Speaker 1: that's my homies. And I just walked out there like

1553
01:16:47,479 --> 01:16:49,960
Speaker 1: boom because I knew and the cops were out there

1554
01:16:50,000 --> 01:16:51,800
Speaker 1: and they wouldn't leave. My friends are like we aren't

1555
01:16:51,800 --> 01:16:54,240
Speaker 1: going nowhere, like what are you? What are we talking about?

1556
01:16:54,320 --> 01:16:56,160
Speaker 1: Right here, we're waiting for my brother, like all of

1557
01:16:56,280 --> 01:16:59,240
Speaker 1: you right, so much so that they ended up, you know,

1558
01:16:59,400 --> 01:17:02,120
Speaker 1: coming in with the sheriffs and and um or the

1559
01:17:02,400 --> 01:17:05,440
Speaker 1: city police or whatever, having this whole you know conversation.

1560
01:17:05,880 --> 01:17:07,759
Speaker 1: They were like hey, you can never do that again

1561
01:17:07,840 --> 01:17:09,560
Speaker 1: and I'm like Yo. They're like well, why were you

1562
01:17:09,560 --> 01:17:11,040
Speaker 1: there here? And I was like they were picking me up.

1563
01:17:11,280 --> 01:17:13,200
Speaker 1: You know, I wasn't about to say I wasn't about

1564
01:17:13,240 --> 01:17:15,200
Speaker 1: say have beef with these other kids, but these other

1565
01:17:15,280 --> 01:17:17,840
Speaker 1: kids were telling me that they were gonna jump me

1566
01:17:17,880 --> 01:17:19,760
Speaker 1: after school. So I'm like yeah, and jump ship. My

1567
01:17:19,840 --> 01:17:22,320
Speaker 1: team's coming out. My team rolled up so thick that

1568
01:17:22,560 --> 01:17:25,600
Speaker 1: that those kids never and the whole school knew. Like

1569
01:17:25,720 --> 01:17:27,840
Speaker 1: they're like, Oh, don't play with this kid. But but

1570
01:17:28,560 --> 01:17:31,360
Speaker 1: my like my even the coolest ones where the the

1571
01:17:32,240 --> 01:17:34,599
Speaker 1: the you know, the security guards are on campus. Lorenzo,

1572
01:17:35,240 --> 01:17:39,280
Speaker 1: Lorenzo from the security guard. Yeah, Lorenzo, big as fat

1573
01:17:39,320 --> 01:17:42,519
Speaker 1: as Lorenzo, coming up, like what? That foe pulled up

1574
01:17:42,560 --> 01:17:45,960
Speaker 1: on me the next day. It was like, Bro, he

1575
01:17:46,040 --> 01:17:48,120
Speaker 1: said there was, he said. I don't know how you

1576
01:17:48,240 --> 01:17:50,639
Speaker 1: did that ship, he said, but there was so many

1577
01:17:50,720 --> 01:17:53,840
Speaker 1: fucking grown ass men out here ready to die for you.

1578
01:17:54,320 --> 01:17:56,720
Speaker 1: He's like, I don't think anybody's ever gonna fuck with

1579
01:17:56,760 --> 01:17:58,960
Speaker 1: you again at this school and I was just like, but,

1580
01:17:59,160 --> 01:18:01,320
Speaker 1: but you was telling the Reno was cool. I was

1581
01:18:01,320 --> 01:18:03,080
Speaker 1: like why they fucking want me, like you know what

1582
01:18:03,120 --> 01:18:04,880
Speaker 1: I'm saying. Like what, then, are people trying to funk

1583
01:18:04,920 --> 01:18:07,640
Speaker 1: with me for? Like I'm just some random kids from

1584
01:18:07,720 --> 01:18:09,280
Speaker 1: L A. They don't know me, they don't have that, like, oh,

1585
01:18:09,320 --> 01:18:11,280
Speaker 1: they got problems with you, they don't got problems with us.

1586
01:18:11,320 --> 01:18:13,080
Speaker 1: They were like I just pulled up to school. What

1587
01:18:13,200 --> 01:18:15,840
Speaker 1: I gotta Plan? But I realized, really, but this is

1588
01:18:15,880 --> 01:18:17,760
Speaker 1: how we grew up, though. This is the facts of

1589
01:18:17,840 --> 01:18:20,479
Speaker 1: how Mexicans and blacks we grew up, no matter what,

1590
01:18:20,880 --> 01:18:23,600
Speaker 1: because even in San Jose, same concept. I ended up

1591
01:18:23,640 --> 01:18:27,840
Speaker 1: getting taught in college taking an environmental sociology class because

1592
01:18:27,840 --> 01:18:30,800
Speaker 1: my minor was sociology, and we did a sociology with

1593
01:18:30,840 --> 01:18:33,560
Speaker 1: the family background, showing different neighborhoods, and I had to

1594
01:18:33,640 --> 01:18:36,600
Speaker 1: go film my neighborhood and my neighborhood had what he

1595
01:18:36,720 --> 01:18:41,280
Speaker 1: is and fucking liquor stores, everything, shootouts exactly. And when

1596
01:18:41,320 --> 01:18:44,240
Speaker 1: I showed my neighborhood ready for this, everyone's like wow,

1597
01:18:44,320 --> 01:18:46,320
Speaker 1: that's different that you saw. The sound was like, I

1598
01:18:46,360 --> 01:18:50,400
Speaker 1: didn't know you really like. Look, I filmed it and

1599
01:18:50,439 --> 01:18:53,439
Speaker 1: I went, let me go to this corner. Their liquor store,

1600
01:18:53,520 --> 01:18:55,960
Speaker 1: right here in liquor store, right there. This is Kobe's Dad,

1601
01:18:56,000 --> 01:18:58,320
Speaker 1: who hangs out the liquor store. Right there, though, dead.

1602
01:18:58,760 --> 01:19:01,840
Speaker 1: Who has done my homies? Dead? Who The neighborhood Drup?

1603
01:19:02,200 --> 01:19:05,200
Speaker 1: Right there, the youth save. But I'm just showing, not

1604
01:19:05,400 --> 01:19:09,439
Speaker 1: realizing that's the part of environmental so sociology. This is

1605
01:19:09,479 --> 01:19:12,360
Speaker 1: where I grew up and this wasn't until college that

1606
01:19:12,479 --> 01:19:14,640
Speaker 1: I figured out. Dog, look at Your neighborhood that you

1607
01:19:14,760 --> 01:19:17,880
Speaker 1: just showed. So so, now imagine all the things that

1608
01:19:18,600 --> 01:19:21,240
Speaker 1: you know, how that affected your decisions as a team,

1609
01:19:21,360 --> 01:19:25,000
Speaker 1: coming to all the things you might have come used. Well,

1610
01:19:25,040 --> 01:19:27,040
Speaker 1: that's what I'm saying. So so had, though, in in

1611
01:19:27,720 --> 01:19:29,760
Speaker 1: the sense I look at it as so, I don't

1612
01:19:29,760 --> 01:19:32,000
Speaker 1: know what you said earlier, but I could tell you where,

1613
01:19:32,120 --> 01:19:34,040
Speaker 1: where a lot of this connects from me, like I'm happy.

1614
01:19:34,120 --> 01:19:36,920
Speaker 1: I'm really happy you're here, because a lot like for me,

1615
01:19:37,240 --> 01:19:38,840
Speaker 1: that a lot of the things that I go through

1616
01:19:38,920 --> 01:19:40,960
Speaker 1: and the things that you've explained make a lot of

1617
01:19:41,320 --> 01:19:43,120
Speaker 1: sense to me. So, and I'll go back to it

1618
01:19:43,120 --> 01:19:44,800
Speaker 1: and you'll probably remember how to explain it to me.

1619
01:19:44,920 --> 01:19:47,200
Speaker 1: But you know, you were saying, like so, had those

1620
01:19:47,320 --> 01:19:50,759
Speaker 1: kids embraced me from those hoods over there in Orange County,

1621
01:19:51,680 --> 01:19:54,720
Speaker 1: then I probably wouldn't have had the other set of

1622
01:19:54,800 --> 01:19:56,840
Speaker 1: friends that I had ended up being with. What you

1623
01:19:56,880 --> 01:20:00,679
Speaker 1: were football players, their parents were fucking doctors, the were sucking,

1624
01:20:00,960 --> 01:20:03,160
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. They owned my space, they

1625
01:20:03,240 --> 01:20:05,800
Speaker 1: owned all these fucking, you know, wealthy companies, and I

1626
01:20:05,920 --> 01:20:08,080
Speaker 1: was able to hang out with those kids because I

1627
01:20:08,160 --> 01:20:10,320
Speaker 1: already knew that the other kids from the school didn't

1628
01:20:10,360 --> 01:20:12,120
Speaker 1: like me. So the only kids that I could hang

1629
01:20:12,160 --> 01:20:14,880
Speaker 1: out with were these, the football players, the baseball players,

1630
01:20:14,960 --> 01:20:16,720
Speaker 1: the soccer kids and all the other kids that that

1631
01:20:16,840 --> 01:20:19,960
Speaker 1: it finally embraced me because I started protecting them, like

1632
01:20:20,120 --> 01:20:21,840
Speaker 1: you know, when other people pick on them, and like man,

1633
01:20:21,960 --> 01:20:23,960
Speaker 1: stop working with this dude, I'll fuck you up, you know,

1634
01:20:24,439 --> 01:20:27,439
Speaker 1: and I go through that exercise with them. But, but, but,

1635
01:20:27,600 --> 01:20:30,560
Speaker 1: that's where. So I had they embraced me, though, I

1636
01:20:30,760 --> 01:20:34,360
Speaker 1: probably wouldn't have got the same Um, you know, I

1637
01:20:34,439 --> 01:20:36,880
Speaker 1: couldn't have packaged it up and bottled it somewhere else

1638
01:20:36,920 --> 01:20:39,320
Speaker 1: and found the better. Had the same experience. Yeah, I

1639
01:20:39,320 --> 01:20:40,880
Speaker 1: wouldn't have been able to find the good out of it,

1640
01:20:41,000 --> 01:20:42,400
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? And for you to even

1641
01:20:42,479 --> 01:20:45,200
Speaker 1: acknowledge the good and, like you said, by acknowledging the good,

1642
01:20:45,479 --> 01:20:48,240
Speaker 1: that was a finding, by the way, and that tip

1643
01:20:48,360 --> 01:20:52,000
Speaker 1: that he said by overlooking your negative situation and finding

1644
01:20:52,040 --> 01:20:55,200
Speaker 1: the good. It was such a redeveloped tip that I

1645
01:20:55,280 --> 01:20:57,000
Speaker 1: needed to hear and thank you for that because I

1646
01:20:57,080 --> 01:20:59,640
Speaker 1: agree with blue two like that was a tidbit of

1647
01:21:00,479 --> 01:21:04,120
Speaker 1: just look at your situation differently sometimes, folks, and you

1648
01:21:04,200 --> 01:21:06,479
Speaker 1: got to grow from all the shift to and in

1649
01:21:06,520 --> 01:21:10,519
Speaker 1: appreciating this is the thing in life, all right, to

1650
01:21:10,680 --> 01:21:13,800
Speaker 1: get better. Okay, when we're talking about working out, right,

1651
01:21:14,800 --> 01:21:18,320
Speaker 1: to work out, you need resistance. If there's no resistance,

1652
01:21:18,720 --> 01:21:23,760
Speaker 1: you're you're not gonna Build. What I saying pressure just created. Yeah,

1653
01:21:23,880 --> 01:21:26,400
Speaker 1: in life it's the same when you sharpen a knife.

1654
01:21:27,320 --> 01:21:30,400
Speaker 1: What are you doing? This tension. That's what's making this knife.

1655
01:21:30,520 --> 01:21:33,160
Speaker 1: You're telling me my relationship is going to get better. Sorry,

1656
01:21:34,640 --> 01:21:43,280
Speaker 1: of Yourships, we definitely address it, but, like everything, to

1657
01:21:43,600 --> 01:21:48,920
Speaker 1: to get better requires resistance, feel me. So I look at,

1658
01:21:48,960 --> 01:21:51,760
Speaker 1: I look at that's the real I said all the

1659
01:21:51,800 --> 01:21:54,240
Speaker 1: time I didn't know how to break down like that. Good.

1660
01:21:54,280 --> 01:21:56,680
Speaker 1: I look at obstacles as a good thing for me

1661
01:21:57,920 --> 01:22:01,000
Speaker 1: because I like it, because I've I've overcome so many

1662
01:22:01,439 --> 01:22:05,280
Speaker 1: that this is another I've done it well. This is

1663
01:22:05,320 --> 01:22:10,000
Speaker 1: the thing I tell my clients. My Heart, I'm looking cry.

1664
01:22:10,080 --> 01:22:15,560
Speaker 1: My heart just feels better because you're just celebrate, celebration.

1665
01:22:16,840 --> 01:22:22,160
Speaker 1: Celebrate chicken, chicken ball, celebrate your victories. Celebrate your victories,

1666
01:22:22,400 --> 01:22:25,679
Speaker 1: because when you celebrate your victories, you cement that ship

1667
01:22:25,760 --> 01:22:28,360
Speaker 1: in your brain and so when you go through ship again,

1668
01:22:29,360 --> 01:22:31,360
Speaker 1: you keep that memory. You're like, Oh, wait a minute,

1669
01:22:31,360 --> 01:22:34,439
Speaker 1: I climbed this mountain before I can do this, and

1670
01:22:34,520 --> 01:22:37,040
Speaker 1: so you just and you go. You know what I mean.

1671
01:22:37,360 --> 01:22:40,479
Speaker 1: So so celebrate your victories, remember them and look at

1672
01:22:40,640 --> 01:22:43,880
Speaker 1: those obstacles and those fights as things that are gonna

1673
01:22:43,920 --> 01:22:46,160
Speaker 1: make you better. Look, I look forward to I look

1674
01:22:46,200 --> 01:22:49,040
Speaker 1: forward to toppling like obstacles. Now you know what I'm saying.

1675
01:22:49,439 --> 01:22:52,160
Speaker 1: So you know, and it just helps me and helps

1676
01:22:52,200 --> 01:22:55,760
Speaker 1: people that I helped. You know, move through things adaptively,

1677
01:22:55,880 --> 01:22:59,479
Speaker 1: not maladaptively, like we were saying before. Man, so dope

1678
01:22:59,600 --> 01:23:02,479
Speaker 1: right now, Ta j Moreno, what is the if someone

1679
01:23:02,560 --> 01:23:04,400
Speaker 1: wants to hit you up and see you and book

1680
01:23:06,160 --> 01:23:08,200
Speaker 1: on instant, they just hit me up on instagram. Um,

1681
01:23:08,520 --> 01:23:13,000
Speaker 1: Tajo T A J E three one, oh Um. You

1682
01:23:13,080 --> 01:23:15,960
Speaker 1: can also go onto the healing gangster page, which is uh,

1683
01:23:16,640 --> 01:23:20,280
Speaker 1: focused around the show. Obviously, healing his gangster official Um

1684
01:23:20,360 --> 01:23:23,519
Speaker 1: on instagram. Um, if you want to see like my

1685
01:23:23,680 --> 01:23:26,679
Speaker 1: personal endeavors and you work out of like an office,

1686
01:23:26,760 --> 01:23:28,600
Speaker 1: you gotta you gotta facility. I do a lot of

1687
01:23:28,640 --> 01:23:32,280
Speaker 1: work on the phone. I work at the facility. Sometimes,

1688
01:23:32,479 --> 01:23:35,920
Speaker 1: like people come through, uh, some pe show. Yeah, some

1689
01:23:36,000 --> 01:23:37,680
Speaker 1: people like sitting on the set and just talking, and

1690
01:23:37,720 --> 01:23:39,640
Speaker 1: it was like we just tap it, like all right,

1691
01:23:40,280 --> 01:23:41,840
Speaker 1: that's good and we'll take you know, we'll do it

1692
01:23:41,960 --> 01:23:44,040
Speaker 1: like that. So I think that's the best healing because,

1693
01:23:44,120 --> 01:23:48,240
Speaker 1: in my opinion, I think therapy and if people watched it,

1694
01:23:49,080 --> 01:23:52,120
Speaker 1: I believe that that would be the best reality show ever,

1695
01:23:52,320 --> 01:23:54,360
Speaker 1: because it doesn't need to be scripted. I want to

1696
01:23:54,360 --> 01:23:56,360
Speaker 1: shoot the show, but he's already got his own studio

1697
01:23:56,560 --> 01:23:58,880
Speaker 1: and in my opinion, you know, we could do one.

1698
01:23:59,040 --> 01:24:02,559
Speaker 1: We could do one here. Yeah, because because I love

1699
01:24:02,600 --> 01:24:04,880
Speaker 1: all the therapy, I love talking and I get accused

1700
01:24:04,920 --> 01:24:08,160
Speaker 1: of being an over talker because I and I like to.

1701
01:24:08,439 --> 01:24:11,880
Speaker 1: Because of that, though, it's funny because it's even a

1702
01:24:12,040 --> 01:24:13,680
Speaker 1: trigger for me, because I go, how could I be?

1703
01:24:13,960 --> 01:24:20,160
Speaker 1: That's almost h oxymoron in my opinion, because I'm over

1704
01:24:20,280 --> 01:24:23,040
Speaker 1: talking my feelings to clear my mind, to make myself

1705
01:24:23,600 --> 01:24:25,360
Speaker 1: feel right there, or maybe I am an over talker

1706
01:24:25,400 --> 01:24:28,479
Speaker 1: sometimes therapy. Well, the thing about therapy, not to interruption,

1707
01:24:28,960 --> 01:24:31,160
Speaker 1: but the thing about therapy, I tell a lot of

1708
01:24:31,200 --> 01:24:33,920
Speaker 1: people have a misconception of what therapy is. A lot

1709
01:24:33,960 --> 01:24:35,920
Speaker 1: of people come in thinking that I'm gonna like get

1710
01:24:35,960 --> 01:24:39,519
Speaker 1: into their brain and strength their mind and programming them

1711
01:24:39,640 --> 01:24:42,560
Speaker 1: or give them a bunch of advice. A large percentage

1712
01:24:42,720 --> 01:24:45,920
Speaker 1: or a large volume of therapy is you talking to yourself,

1713
01:24:47,240 --> 01:24:50,360
Speaker 1: and I'm just flexing my art of listening. Feel me,

1714
01:24:50,760 --> 01:24:53,519
Speaker 1: because what's happening is that you're unconscious is talking to

1715
01:24:53,640 --> 01:24:58,000
Speaker 1: your conscious to your conscious brain, and it's you're telling

1716
01:24:58,080 --> 01:25:01,280
Speaker 1: yourself that you know, just saying it's like, you know

1717
01:25:01,360 --> 01:25:04,320
Speaker 1: how they say speak things into existence. So so you

1718
01:25:04,400 --> 01:25:06,840
Speaker 1: know or you write it down. It's the same thing

1719
01:25:06,920 --> 01:25:09,080
Speaker 1: that you're doing. It's like when you're speaking it now

1720
01:25:09,120 --> 01:25:11,760
Speaker 1: it's in front of you. So while you're speaking it,

1721
01:25:11,880 --> 01:25:16,639
Speaker 1: your brain is listening to you and translating the conscious

1722
01:25:16,640 --> 01:25:20,280
Speaker 1: mind the unconscious mind. Yeah, yeah, and it's and it's

1723
01:25:20,320 --> 01:25:24,479
Speaker 1: creating ideas about what you're saying without you even knowing it. Well,

1724
01:25:24,520 --> 01:25:27,320
Speaker 1: I'm I live that. Like you know what I mean.

1725
01:25:27,400 --> 01:25:31,559
Speaker 1: Like there I there's no way I could have designed

1726
01:25:31,600 --> 01:25:35,479
Speaker 1: and build this whole place out had I not done

1727
01:25:35,520 --> 01:25:40,280
Speaker 1: that right and often, though, I will, you know, tell people,

1728
01:25:40,320 --> 01:25:42,679
Speaker 1: like I said, Oh, and we're gonna throw this big festival,

1729
01:25:42,840 --> 01:25:45,400
Speaker 1: we're gonna have all these major artists. I didn't know

1730
01:25:45,439 --> 01:25:47,600
Speaker 1: what artists they were gonna be there. I said this

1731
01:25:47,760 --> 01:25:50,680
Speaker 1: months before it happened, but it fucking happened. We did

1732
01:25:50,760 --> 01:25:52,000
Speaker 1: the show. You know what I mean? It was a

1733
01:25:52,040 --> 01:26:03,400
Speaker 1: great success. People showed up. You knowratulations, yeah, right, yeahs

1734
01:26:03,920 --> 01:26:07,160
Speaker 1: big jokes, but you know so, so, yeah, seven thousand

1735
01:26:07,280 --> 01:26:09,639
Speaker 1: six D eight seven people walked through the door. Another

1736
01:26:09,680 --> 01:26:12,160
Speaker 1: two thousand people walked through the back. But but at

1737
01:26:12,160 --> 01:26:14,880
Speaker 1: the end of the day, though, you know, and we

1738
01:26:15,200 --> 01:26:16,519
Speaker 1: we just did it, we just threw it right. It

1739
01:26:16,560 --> 01:26:19,200
Speaker 1: was a little Chrisbuster rhymes too shortened and and and,

1740
01:26:19,479 --> 01:26:21,960
Speaker 1: you know, crub. I mean just a ton of artists.

1741
01:26:22,160 --> 01:26:24,280
Speaker 1: Can Want to look at the highlight reel. You can

1742
01:26:24,320 --> 01:26:26,280
Speaker 1: see how many people it was popping. You know it.

1743
01:26:26,520 --> 01:26:28,160
Speaker 1: It was a beautiful thing. And if you missed me

1744
01:26:28,200 --> 01:26:30,519
Speaker 1: flying performing earlier there in the little state, they did

1745
01:26:30,680 --> 01:26:34,360
Speaker 1: do whatever they on the other standing, that doesn't so so.

1746
01:26:34,720 --> 01:26:37,040
Speaker 1: But the point of that is that is that I

1747
01:26:37,120 --> 01:26:40,360
Speaker 1: spoke that into existence. Now, there was a lot of pressure.

1748
01:26:40,479 --> 01:26:42,680
Speaker 1: There's a lot of, you know, results that didn't come

1749
01:26:42,720 --> 01:26:46,320
Speaker 1: out all of our directions. Like everybody wants everything to

1750
01:26:46,400 --> 01:26:49,360
Speaker 1: be especially people that are rape, just like people that

1751
01:26:49,400 --> 01:26:51,720
Speaker 1: are comfortable. You don't want everything to go right, but

1752
01:26:52,120 --> 01:26:54,720
Speaker 1: I also know that ship doesn't happen that way, you know.

1753
01:26:55,040 --> 01:26:58,040
Speaker 1: And and so I feel like I lived at every

1754
01:26:58,080 --> 01:27:01,200
Speaker 1: fucking day that feeling, that vibe. You know, I put

1755
01:27:01,280 --> 01:27:05,280
Speaker 1: things into existence and I'm ultra unrealistic and people are like, Yo,

1756
01:27:05,400 --> 01:27:07,719
Speaker 1: you might be being unrealistic, and I'm like no, wealthy

1757
01:27:07,760 --> 01:27:10,920
Speaker 1: people were very unrealistic people. We have unrealistic fucking cars,

1758
01:27:11,000 --> 01:27:13,880
Speaker 1: we have unrealistic houses, we have unrealistic girlfriends and houses

1759
01:27:14,160 --> 01:27:16,680
Speaker 1: and we do unrealistic ship. And that's what you have

1760
01:27:16,920 --> 01:27:20,800
Speaker 1: to do, is be unrealistic absolutely Um. You know, I

1761
01:27:20,880 --> 01:27:23,240
Speaker 1: think that's the key to elevating to status, is that

1762
01:27:23,320 --> 01:27:26,559
Speaker 1: people haven't gone before, you know, whether it's financially, whether

1763
01:27:26,600 --> 01:27:29,360
Speaker 1: it's you know, your ideology or you know, whatever you

1764
01:27:29,400 --> 01:27:32,040
Speaker 1: stand for, to reach levels of other people have. Because

1765
01:27:32,040 --> 01:27:33,400
Speaker 1: that's the thing. Like, there's a lot of people who

1766
01:27:33,479 --> 01:27:36,640
Speaker 1: make sacrifices, especially like I said from our community to

1767
01:27:36,760 --> 01:27:39,559
Speaker 1: get to certain places. We're doing them a disservice if

1768
01:27:39,600 --> 01:27:42,640
Speaker 1: we don't think crazy, if we don't, you know, I

1769
01:27:42,920 --> 01:27:45,000
Speaker 1: think outside the box, because we gotta take it to

1770
01:27:45,080 --> 01:27:47,640
Speaker 1: the next level. So I always encourage people to do that.

1771
01:27:47,760 --> 01:27:50,360
Speaker 1: I mean that's the same thing, like with me and therapy.

1772
01:27:50,479 --> 01:27:53,360
Speaker 1: I mean when I started this, it looked like such

1773
01:27:53,400 --> 01:27:55,960
Speaker 1: a long road. Yeah, I never thought I would go

1774
01:27:56,000 --> 01:28:01,760
Speaker 1: to school. that. I never thought. Ye never respect that.

1775
01:28:02,400 --> 01:28:04,360
Speaker 1: I didn't do it. Culture, I didn't do it. You know,

1776
01:28:04,400 --> 01:28:06,439
Speaker 1: I feel like I want to go back much sometimes,

1777
01:28:06,479 --> 01:28:07,720
Speaker 1: like I don't know why, but I want to go

1778
01:28:07,920 --> 01:28:09,800
Speaker 1: back because my wife has a doctor and I feel like,

1779
01:28:09,840 --> 01:28:10,960
Speaker 1: you know, I might be a and M I want

1780
01:28:11,000 --> 01:28:13,720
Speaker 1: my kids. I wanted just for the accolades only too,

1781
01:28:14,160 --> 01:28:15,720
Speaker 1: because I know, I think I can't. I don't even

1782
01:28:15,720 --> 01:28:17,000
Speaker 1: know if I can't, to be honest, because it takes

1783
01:28:17,160 --> 01:28:20,240
Speaker 1: you absolutely can't. It's just it's just exactly. It's just

1784
01:28:20,640 --> 01:28:22,320
Speaker 1: what you choose. It's what you choose to put you

1785
01:28:22,479 --> 01:28:24,120
Speaker 1: some I'm like, if I do it online, if I

1786
01:28:24,160 --> 01:28:25,560
Speaker 1: finished at home, can I get my M B a?

1787
01:28:25,640 --> 01:28:27,599
Speaker 1: Can I get my doctor? Like I think those things

1788
01:28:27,640 --> 01:28:29,320
Speaker 1: because I want to be called that too. Sometimes part

1789
01:28:29,360 --> 01:28:31,920
Speaker 1: of me goes well, and mind you, because I'm the

1790
01:28:32,080 --> 01:28:35,320
Speaker 1: first Lopez period to have a bachelor's degree and to

1791
01:28:35,360 --> 01:28:43,040
Speaker 1: go to college my family. Let me clarify that, folks.

1792
01:28:43,040 --> 01:28:46,559
Speaker 1: I am not the first from Helen Rich House, from

1793
01:28:46,640 --> 01:28:50,240
Speaker 1: Helen and Richard and my that and Helen and Richard's

1794
01:28:50,320 --> 01:28:52,880
Speaker 1: family too, from their tree to all their trees and

1795
01:28:53,000 --> 01:28:55,040
Speaker 1: everybody else from there. I'm the first one to get

1796
01:28:55,080 --> 01:28:57,719
Speaker 1: a degree. Nobody in my nobody in my immediate family.

1797
01:28:58,000 --> 01:29:00,639
Speaker 1: You know my mind either. That's still that's and I'm

1798
01:29:00,640 --> 01:29:03,360
Speaker 1: talking nephews, nieces and everybody. I'm talking all my brother's

1799
01:29:03,439 --> 01:29:05,599
Speaker 1: kid everybody. And then, guess what? You ready for this one?

1800
01:29:05,640 --> 01:29:08,559
Speaker 1: Ready for this random the next ring, the next bachelor

1801
01:29:09,280 --> 01:29:12,320
Speaker 1: is my oldest daughter Nia. She's going through right now now.

1802
01:29:12,400 --> 01:29:14,720
Speaker 1: She just graduated. That just goes to show you how

1803
01:29:14,720 --> 01:29:17,639
Speaker 1: it breaks the Cyclostope, because my brother, who has three kids,

1804
01:29:17,640 --> 01:29:20,360
Speaker 1: and my other brother, older brother, who has six kids, nothing,

1805
01:29:20,479 --> 01:29:23,200
Speaker 1: my other sisters, all these kids, other sisters, none of

1806
01:29:23,240 --> 01:29:25,840
Speaker 1: them have you. So I'm the first son. We set

1807
01:29:25,880 --> 01:29:29,160
Speaker 1: the example, and then then my oldest daughter, who were

1808
01:29:29,200 --> 01:29:31,400
Speaker 1: heading for this, folks, five times, hit it with her

1809
01:29:31,439 --> 01:29:33,320
Speaker 1: mom one time without a condom and it was a

1810
01:29:33,439 --> 01:29:38,880
Speaker 1: crazy story and it was Jerry springers. It was a

1811
01:29:39,000 --> 01:29:42,400
Speaker 1: jerry it was a jerry springer scenario because why, I

1812
01:29:42,439 --> 01:29:43,880
Speaker 1: had to do the DNA test the whole nine I

1813
01:29:43,880 --> 01:29:45,280
Speaker 1: was there a whole life. But my point is it

1814
01:29:45,360 --> 01:29:48,120
Speaker 1: was one of those scenarios. I'm saying whether it was

1815
01:29:48,160 --> 01:29:49,439
Speaker 1: one of those. And my daughter's been with me the

1816
01:29:49,479 --> 01:29:51,679
Speaker 1: whole time. I never lived with me, but I set

1817
01:29:51,800 --> 01:29:54,600
Speaker 1: the example and so did her mom, and praise her

1818
01:29:54,680 --> 01:29:57,519
Speaker 1: mom so for doing so. Well, you don't get my

1819
01:29:57,640 --> 01:30:02,519
Speaker 1: point is, if you look at Standard said, and I'm like,

1820
01:30:02,640 --> 01:30:05,599
Speaker 1: look at you, look at Yoshi, just graduating college. Don't

1821
01:30:05,600 --> 01:30:07,320
Speaker 1: think you're you're a nothing less than getting B A.

1822
01:30:07,920 --> 01:30:11,000
Speaker 1: It's minimal b what what you're doing is like. Even

1823
01:30:11,040 --> 01:30:14,120
Speaker 1: I can relate to that with my kids, like when

1824
01:30:14,160 --> 01:30:16,120
Speaker 1: I made the change in my life, my kids were

1825
01:30:16,160 --> 01:30:19,400
Speaker 1: still very young, so they didn't really get to see

1826
01:30:20,520 --> 01:30:25,160
Speaker 1: the street Tis as. They don't really get to see

1827
01:30:25,240 --> 01:30:28,560
Speaker 1: like they knew about it, but they didn't experience it

1828
01:30:28,680 --> 01:30:32,679
Speaker 1: in real time too much. So what they experienced about

1829
01:30:32,760 --> 01:30:38,400
Speaker 1: me is doing homework all the time, square studying, going

1830
01:30:38,479 --> 01:30:40,519
Speaker 1: to school. You know, I was, you know I was

1831
01:30:40,600 --> 01:30:43,400
Speaker 1: hipping cool and all that still, but they just saw

1832
01:30:43,479 --> 01:30:46,280
Speaker 1: me just applying myself to these studies. So now, now,

1833
01:30:46,360 --> 01:30:48,479
Speaker 1: I told you I wasn't good at school before college.

1834
01:30:49,320 --> 01:30:51,680
Speaker 1: I sucked at it, you know what I mean. I

1835
01:30:51,720 --> 01:30:54,120
Speaker 1: had a tutor them out to our sophomore year. My kids,

1836
01:30:55,120 --> 01:30:58,439
Speaker 1: they're like super students, you know what I'm saying, and

1837
01:30:58,520 --> 01:31:00,800
Speaker 1: that I know. I feel good with the fact that

1838
01:31:02,320 --> 01:31:05,960
Speaker 1: just not just me on accident, concentrating on doing something

1839
01:31:06,040 --> 01:31:10,400
Speaker 1: positive made it not a foreign concept to them, not

1840
01:31:10,920 --> 01:31:13,639
Speaker 1: that ship. Like to me, doing homework was a foreign concept.

1841
01:31:14,080 --> 01:31:16,160
Speaker 1: I loved, you know what I'm saying, like I love

1842
01:31:16,240 --> 01:31:20,439
Speaker 1: my Mama. My Mama raised me like the best she could,

1843
01:31:20,800 --> 01:31:22,760
Speaker 1: but she didn't go to school. You know what I'm saying.

1844
01:31:22,760 --> 01:31:25,120
Speaker 1: I didn't know how to study, I didn't I didn't

1845
01:31:25,120 --> 01:31:28,120
Speaker 1: know about committing myself to go into class and all

1846
01:31:28,200 --> 01:31:29,720
Speaker 1: of that. My Mama was always working, so I was

1847
01:31:29,720 --> 01:31:32,080
Speaker 1: always by myself most of the time and I said, Mama,

1848
01:31:32,160 --> 01:31:33,840
Speaker 1: which one of these theres do I need to use?

1849
01:31:33,920 --> 01:31:35,000
Speaker 1: Right there, you know what I'm saying, I got the

1850
01:31:35,040 --> 01:31:36,720
Speaker 1: three theres to pick from and she got me or

1851
01:31:36,800 --> 01:31:40,320
Speaker 1: just pick one. So didn't school either. I was like, mom,

1852
01:31:40,360 --> 01:31:43,080
Speaker 1: what's there to write you? I'll never forget it. She goes, Oh,

1853
01:31:43,680 --> 01:31:46,120
Speaker 1: just pick. Yeah, that's how my mom was like, I

1854
01:31:46,160 --> 01:31:48,120
Speaker 1: don't I don't know how to do that. You know

1855
01:31:48,160 --> 01:31:50,240
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So you know. But now, but now

1856
01:31:50,360 --> 01:31:52,880
Speaker 1: my kids, my kids have those habits in order where

1857
01:31:52,880 --> 01:31:56,360
Speaker 1: it's like, okay, I was how I was learning in education.

1858
01:31:56,760 --> 01:31:59,160
Speaker 1: I was schooling in while I was learning it. So

1859
01:31:59,320 --> 01:32:01,840
Speaker 1: every time I or something new, they basically got my

1860
01:32:01,920 --> 01:32:04,439
Speaker 1: college degree with me. You know what I mean? So

1861
01:32:05,280 --> 01:32:08,400
Speaker 1: you're changing, you're changing the order of something that's been

1862
01:32:08,439 --> 01:32:14,200
Speaker 1: going on for hundreds and hundred congratulations. And when I

1863
01:32:14,280 --> 01:32:17,240
Speaker 1: even called blue on my way this morning because look

1864
01:32:17,240 --> 01:32:19,479
Speaker 1: at this, this is my son at the church me

1865
01:32:19,520 --> 01:32:22,240
Speaker 1: and I look at this, he's now, while I was

1866
01:32:22,360 --> 01:32:24,679
Speaker 1: late because I had to go watch my son carry

1867
01:32:24,720 --> 01:32:27,120
Speaker 1: the cross up to the Church and do the prayer

1868
01:32:27,280 --> 01:32:31,720
Speaker 1: on the Alternati Day, folks, my son today, and this

1869
01:32:32,120 --> 01:32:35,320
Speaker 1: is what I dealt with from, you know, the life

1870
01:32:35,400 --> 01:32:37,679
Speaker 1: we grew up doing. It's like, okay, now we're gonna

1871
01:32:37,720 --> 01:32:40,400
Speaker 1: teach these kids. There something that you gotta celebrate yourself,

1872
01:32:40,720 --> 01:32:42,120
Speaker 1: and I think it's because I married a white woman.

1873
01:32:43,680 --> 01:32:45,760
Speaker 1: Talking about overachieving things and doing things like, Hey, look

1874
01:32:45,800 --> 01:32:47,360
Speaker 1: what we've done. Hey, well, I went got me something

1875
01:32:47,360 --> 01:32:51,280
Speaker 1: that I didn't I can get and I don't know,

1876
01:32:52,920 --> 01:32:59,400
Speaker 1: Germany make some machines. Hey, look at I mean, look

1877
01:32:59,439 --> 01:33:04,120
Speaker 1: at you. I can't race, Bro like, what am I

1878
01:33:04,160 --> 01:33:12,760
Speaker 1: gonna say about you, because the way I come from?

1879
01:33:12,800 --> 01:33:18,840
Speaker 1: It's not what I'm saying, but I can't, although I'm

1880
01:33:18,960 --> 01:33:22,040
Speaker 1: very proud of my ancestry and I'll ride with it.

1881
01:33:22,600 --> 01:33:24,680
Speaker 1: Are you putting? At the end of the day, but

1882
01:33:24,760 --> 01:33:26,920
Speaker 1: I represent a lot of different types of people, you know,

1883
01:33:27,040 --> 01:33:30,360
Speaker 1: whether it's the African or native, the Spanish whatever. At

1884
01:33:30,360 --> 01:33:33,240
Speaker 1: the end of the day, I represent these minorities. It's

1885
01:33:33,240 --> 01:33:36,160
Speaker 1: in my blood. So I take pride in our struggle

1886
01:33:36,479 --> 01:33:39,520
Speaker 1: and I take pride in helping my people. But obviously

1887
01:33:39,720 --> 01:33:42,559
Speaker 1: I'm a mixed person. What do I look like hating

1888
01:33:42,600 --> 01:33:46,080
Speaker 1: on somebody's race? Like, yeah, you mixed generally, yeah, you

1889
01:33:46,160 --> 01:33:49,280
Speaker 1: feel what I'm saying? I don't. I don't ever hate

1890
01:33:49,320 --> 01:33:53,040
Speaker 1: on anyone's mixed especially because I just feel like I

1891
01:33:53,200 --> 01:33:56,560
Speaker 1: love every I like to do the over the top exaggerated,

1892
01:33:56,640 --> 01:33:59,280
Speaker 1: false narrative that's always out there. That's the prejudice, that's

1893
01:33:59,320 --> 01:34:03,400
Speaker 1: just so stupid. So I capitalize on the stupidity of

1894
01:34:03,920 --> 01:34:08,400
Speaker 1: ignorance that we think as society that's, quote unquote, normal

1895
01:34:08,680 --> 01:34:12,720
Speaker 1: and on Fox News or CNN even I'm not just

1896
01:34:12,800 --> 01:34:14,880
Speaker 1: attacking one side, I'm talking both sides. Don't get twisted

1897
01:34:14,880 --> 01:34:16,439
Speaker 1: for us, you know what I'm saying. It's it's always

1898
01:34:16,520 --> 01:34:19,640
Speaker 1: this propaganda that we get looked at for being a

1899
01:34:19,760 --> 01:34:23,200
Speaker 1: certain way, like it's just ridiculous, and I capitalize on that.

1900
01:34:24,720 --> 01:34:26,880
Speaker 1: For me, though, you know, as as a minority, like

1901
01:34:26,960 --> 01:34:28,400
Speaker 1: I said, the first time I've ever had a gun

1902
01:34:28,479 --> 01:34:30,680
Speaker 1: pulled on me was by a police officer. You know

1903
01:34:30,720 --> 01:34:33,080
Speaker 1: what I mean, and I say that because I knew

1904
01:34:33,160 --> 01:34:34,840
Speaker 1: the guns were out there. Not The first time I've

1905
01:34:34,840 --> 01:34:36,519
Speaker 1: seen a gun, not seen the first time I've seen

1906
01:34:36,560 --> 01:34:38,840
Speaker 1: it gun pulled on somebody. I'm talking about. The first

1907
01:34:38,880 --> 01:34:41,000
Speaker 1: time I had a gun on me was by a

1908
01:34:41,040 --> 01:34:43,880
Speaker 1: police officer, you know, and I was not armed, you know.

1909
01:34:44,120 --> 01:34:46,560
Speaker 1: And so when we go through those exercises and we

1910
01:34:46,680 --> 01:34:49,400
Speaker 1: start to realize, like damn, you know, and and not

1911
01:34:49,439 --> 01:34:52,320
Speaker 1: only that, you know it was violent. It was very

1912
01:34:52,600 --> 01:34:55,880
Speaker 1: punk you motherfucker. You know what I mean. I'm punking

1913
01:34:55,920 --> 01:34:58,240
Speaker 1: you right now and I don't know if they were

1914
01:34:58,280 --> 01:35:00,360
Speaker 1: trying to teach me a lesson or they were trying to,

1915
01:35:00,680 --> 01:35:03,360
Speaker 1: you know, create something. And and I don't even remember

1916
01:35:03,400 --> 01:35:05,240
Speaker 1: his race, by the way. I don't know if he

1917
01:35:05,360 --> 01:35:10,519
Speaker 1: was White Brown. I just remember the I just remember getting,

1918
01:35:10,520 --> 01:35:13,280
Speaker 1: you know, with your your left hand reaching for the

1919
01:35:13,400 --> 01:35:16,360
Speaker 1: car free right hand, hands out the window, opened the

1920
01:35:16,400 --> 01:35:19,240
Speaker 1: car from the outside with, you know, with your back

1921
01:35:19,320 --> 01:35:22,240
Speaker 1: facing towards me, walked backwards, towards and he said towards

1922
01:35:22,320 --> 01:35:24,400
Speaker 1: my voice, and I'm like towards your gun, because as

1923
01:35:24,439 --> 01:35:25,920
Speaker 1: soon as I got out, I see a bunch of guns.

1924
01:35:25,960 --> 01:35:27,880
Speaker 1: I mean I'm like towards your gun, Suck Your Voice.

1925
01:35:29,680 --> 01:35:31,880
Speaker 1: Mind you, I was a miner without with the vehicle.

1926
01:35:32,040 --> 01:35:34,320
Speaker 1: That was, you know, I mean it was reported, you know,

1927
01:35:35,000 --> 01:35:37,200
Speaker 1: that there was someone breaking into someone's house because I

1928
01:35:37,240 --> 01:35:39,800
Speaker 1: was knocking on my boys, you know, window at, you know,

1929
01:35:39,920 --> 01:35:41,880
Speaker 1: four in the morning, because we're supposed to sneak out

1930
01:35:41,920 --> 01:35:43,960
Speaker 1: and go see some girls, and I have my mom's Van,

1931
01:35:44,400 --> 01:35:46,639
Speaker 1: which which, you know, they put me on. How many

1932
01:35:46,640 --> 01:35:48,240
Speaker 1: guns did you have on you? I would say, I

1933
01:35:48,280 --> 01:35:50,360
Speaker 1: don't know, six or ten. I don't know. They'll see.

1934
01:35:50,360 --> 01:35:52,120
Speaker 1: At least I had six or eight, because I dressed

1935
01:35:52,120 --> 01:35:58,679
Speaker 1: as a prisoner, knocking on exactly exactly. Look at the difference.

1936
01:35:59,280 --> 01:36:02,799
Speaker 1: Guns on me, but at least so. Here's the funniest

1937
01:36:02,800 --> 01:36:05,320
Speaker 1: part of that story, though. I'm fucking walking backwards, right,

1938
01:36:05,360 --> 01:36:07,160
Speaker 1: I've got my hands up and getting on my knees.

1939
01:36:07,200 --> 01:36:09,560
Speaker 1: They fucking bumping the fucking pistol the back of my

1940
01:36:09,640 --> 01:36:11,720
Speaker 1: head the whole ship, right. They laid me down, they

1941
01:36:11,760 --> 01:36:16,599
Speaker 1: put me a cuss. They go what's your name? Like Christopher, right, okay, cool, boom,

1942
01:36:16,640 --> 01:36:18,920
Speaker 1: and they're they're asking the person that called nine one,

1943
01:36:19,040 --> 01:36:20,439
Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Like you know, I'm like

1944
01:36:20,520 --> 01:36:22,200
Speaker 1: I was that. They're like what's House Are you trying

1945
01:36:22,200 --> 01:36:24,040
Speaker 1: to rob and break into, and I'm like, I'm not

1946
01:36:24,120 --> 01:36:25,640
Speaker 1: robbing the breaking in anything. I don't even know what

1947
01:36:25,720 --> 01:36:28,639
Speaker 1: they're talking about. I was like, Oh, ship, it clicked

1948
01:36:28,680 --> 01:36:30,639
Speaker 1: on me. I was just at my Buddy Greg's house,

1949
01:36:31,120 --> 01:36:32,679
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And I'm like, oh shoot,

1950
01:36:32,720 --> 01:36:34,960
Speaker 1: I was just at Greg's house knocking on his window

1951
01:36:35,000 --> 01:36:37,120
Speaker 1: and apparently his grandma was sleeping in the room that night,

1952
01:36:37,320 --> 01:36:39,840
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So, so, they called nine one,

1953
01:36:39,960 --> 01:36:43,160
Speaker 1: but check this out. I'm fourteen, Bro Right, fourteen years old.

1954
01:36:43,200 --> 01:36:46,719
Speaker 1: I stold my mom's car, my mom's minivan. I'm driving

1955
01:36:46,800 --> 01:36:49,840
Speaker 1: off and then I fucking the cops go. So, you

1956
01:36:49,920 --> 01:36:51,679
Speaker 1: guys know who this kid is? They go, he asked

1957
01:36:51,720 --> 01:36:54,000
Speaker 1: one of our, you know, son's friends. He's cool, and

1958
01:36:54,120 --> 01:36:55,960
Speaker 1: I'm telling them the story. was supposed to sneak out.

1959
01:36:56,280 --> 01:36:58,920
Speaker 1: They go cool, they uncoffed me on the street right there,

1960
01:37:00,000 --> 01:37:01,680
Speaker 1: give me the keys back to the car and tell

1961
01:37:01,720 --> 01:37:04,360
Speaker 1: me go home. I'm fourteen years old. I drove home.

1962
01:37:04,439 --> 01:37:07,439
Speaker 1: My mob never found out the story. Dog. So how

1963
01:37:07,560 --> 01:37:09,599
Speaker 1: great of a story from the top and the guns

1964
01:37:09,680 --> 01:37:12,800
Speaker 1: on you, you're almost dying to the same cops who

1965
01:37:12,840 --> 01:37:18,400
Speaker 1: were about to kill you. Drive home, dog. I don't

1966
01:37:18,439 --> 01:37:20,400
Speaker 1: even have draw. I didn't have a license. I didn't

1967
01:37:20,400 --> 01:37:23,360
Speaker 1: even have a license, like, no LICENARIO, no ship. I

1968
01:37:23,439 --> 01:37:26,040
Speaker 1: just walked back like Oh, get a shot by its

1969
01:37:26,080 --> 01:37:30,240
Speaker 1: crazy about. That is how normal that is. And that

1970
01:37:30,360 --> 01:37:33,080
Speaker 1: happened many times after that, by the way. Yeah, you're

1971
01:37:33,120 --> 01:37:35,439
Speaker 1: leading up the story and I'm thinking that's named bull

1972
01:37:35,479 --> 01:37:36,920
Speaker 1: that I had in my neighbor that you should rough

1973
01:37:36,960 --> 01:37:39,080
Speaker 1: houses all like. If you had a cop, you knew that.

1974
01:37:39,960 --> 01:37:42,320
Speaker 1: What is the thing? I think cops should have to take.

1975
01:37:43,120 --> 01:37:46,920
Speaker 1: You know, a certain amount of psychological courses before they

1976
01:37:47,000 --> 01:37:49,320
Speaker 1: get those jobs. I think they should take them yearly,

1977
01:37:49,400 --> 01:37:54,040
Speaker 1: like cops, like a dentistry, and so do Um uh

1978
01:37:54,880 --> 01:37:56,880
Speaker 1: surgeons and all this, because they need to stay on

1979
01:37:57,000 --> 01:38:00,200
Speaker 1: top of everything, because not only are you doing, not

1980
01:38:00,280 --> 01:38:03,160
Speaker 1: only are you dealing with, you know, obviously a you

1981
01:38:03,240 --> 01:38:04,640
Speaker 1: know a certain part of the you know there are

1982
01:38:04,720 --> 01:38:06,479
Speaker 1: good police officers. You know, I used to be one

1983
01:38:06,479 --> 01:38:09,600
Speaker 1: of those dudes that were like Yo, everybody, you know,

1984
01:38:10,080 --> 01:38:13,200
Speaker 1: but there are good police. The thing is that you

1985
01:38:13,240 --> 01:38:15,280
Speaker 1: know you're dealing with a racial issue, right, but you're

1986
01:38:15,280 --> 01:38:18,040
Speaker 1: also dealing with these dudes have no training industries at all.

1987
01:38:18,280 --> 01:38:20,200
Speaker 1: They have no training on how to everybody should be

1988
01:38:21,000 --> 01:38:23,920
Speaker 1: with people and they'd be out there scared. Oh yeah,

1989
01:38:23,920 --> 01:38:26,920
Speaker 1: they're scared as fun. They hand maybe out there shook

1990
01:38:26,960 --> 01:38:29,360
Speaker 1: and tripping, you know. and well, I mean I I

1991
01:38:29,439 --> 01:38:31,560
Speaker 1: can go. I can go so deep into it that

1992
01:38:31,640 --> 01:38:33,519
Speaker 1: in our neighborhood, the cops, you should drive by with

1993
01:38:33,560 --> 01:38:35,120
Speaker 1: their hands out the window and just start acting like

1994
01:38:35,200 --> 01:38:38,200
Speaker 1: they were shooting us, doing stupid ship. That would provoke us.

1995
01:38:38,640 --> 01:38:40,720
Speaker 1: You know, they used to pull up on us, handcuffed us,

1996
01:38:40,720 --> 01:38:43,160
Speaker 1: sprays from Mason talk about who's who's the biggest gang

1997
01:38:43,160 --> 01:38:46,479
Speaker 1: in your neighborhood? We are. So, you know, we're talking

1998
01:38:46,560 --> 01:38:49,320
Speaker 1: about like the first time I ever went to county jail.

1999
01:38:49,720 --> 01:38:51,599
Speaker 1: This is my story. You know now. I'm not telling

2000
01:38:51,600 --> 01:38:53,680
Speaker 1: anybody else, but we were on our way to go

2001
01:38:54,000 --> 01:38:56,519
Speaker 1: Robert Carr, I'm not gonna lie. Me and my boy,

2002
01:38:56,640 --> 01:38:58,160
Speaker 1: we were trying to go see some girls. We had

2003
01:38:58,160 --> 01:39:00,400
Speaker 1: a damp puller in our hands. My, we knew how

2004
01:39:00,439 --> 01:39:02,719
Speaker 1: to do a damp pool and snagger car. We wanted

2005
01:39:02,720 --> 01:39:05,840
Speaker 1: to go see some chicks. We were very young doing

2006
01:39:05,880 --> 01:39:08,200
Speaker 1: stupid ship. So he had a damp pool in his pants.

2007
01:39:08,360 --> 01:39:11,599
Speaker 1: We went down the street to the to the UH uh,

2008
01:39:12,400 --> 01:39:14,760
Speaker 1: to the donor store to call the girls to make

2009
01:39:14,800 --> 01:39:19,760
Speaker 1: sure that before we stole the car, they were still ready. Yeah, we're,

2010
01:39:19,880 --> 01:39:24,839
Speaker 1: I mean we're sucking fifteen and fully in the business

2011
01:39:24,880 --> 01:39:27,080
Speaker 1: because we were trained that way because of the neighborhood

2012
01:39:27,120 --> 01:39:30,120
Speaker 1: we grew up in. So we're there and and my my,

2013
01:39:30,720 --> 01:39:36,160
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, we were. We were. We were seventeen and

2014
01:39:36,360 --> 01:39:44,240
Speaker 1: eighteen last month. No, no, we were seventeen and and so. No.

2015
01:39:44,520 --> 01:39:46,600
Speaker 1: So the COP, though, this is a true story. This and,

2016
01:39:47,080 --> 01:39:48,240
Speaker 1: like I said, I'm not banging on our cops, that

2017
01:39:48,240 --> 01:39:50,400
Speaker 1: I love, cops. I got cop friends and the neighbors

2018
01:39:50,439 --> 01:39:55,560
Speaker 1: of mind that are cops that you know. That that uh, that. No,

2019
01:39:55,720 --> 01:39:58,120
Speaker 1: I'm not. There's a lot of happened good. There's a

2020
01:39:58,120 --> 01:40:01,559
Speaker 1: lot of cops. There's just no but there's there's there's

2021
01:40:01,560 --> 01:40:04,120
Speaker 1: just too many bad people to use the opportunity. But Um,

2022
01:40:05,360 --> 01:40:07,920
Speaker 1: while with that, though, I'm out out of phone and

2023
01:40:08,160 --> 01:40:09,760
Speaker 1: we're calling. This is the first time I ever went

2024
01:40:09,800 --> 01:40:12,920
Speaker 1: to to county jail. Um, and because my birthday was

2025
01:40:13,000 --> 01:40:15,200
Speaker 1: like two days away, they took me straight to the county.

2026
01:40:15,520 --> 01:40:18,280
Speaker 1: So my buddy's birthday was just just happening. He just

2027
01:40:18,400 --> 01:40:21,320
Speaker 1: turned eighteen. So we're both just turning eighteen years old,

2028
01:40:21,840 --> 01:40:24,960
Speaker 1: and and and and uh, the COP right. He said,

2029
01:40:25,000 --> 01:40:26,240
Speaker 1: what are you gonna do with this damn poler and

2030
01:40:26,280 --> 01:40:28,200
Speaker 1: my friends like nothing, we're just rolling down the street.

2031
01:40:28,280 --> 01:40:29,920
Speaker 1: Like he's like no, you guys are gonna still a car.

2032
01:40:30,520 --> 01:40:32,280
Speaker 1: So we're like what are you talking about? There's no

2033
01:40:32,360 --> 01:40:34,080
Speaker 1: cars in site. We're at the fucking donors store at

2034
01:40:34,080 --> 01:40:35,800
Speaker 1: two thirty three in the morning. Like what are you

2035
01:40:35,880 --> 01:40:38,320
Speaker 1: talking about? We're not sucking at no donors, like still

2036
01:40:38,439 --> 01:40:40,240
Speaker 1: no cars. There's no cars in the parking lot, like,

2037
01:40:40,280 --> 01:40:42,439
Speaker 1: what are you talking about? The donor hole. So check

2038
01:40:42,479 --> 01:40:44,240
Speaker 1: it out. What he did, though, this cop put it

2039
01:40:44,360 --> 01:40:46,800
Speaker 1: up to the up to the phone booth and in

2040
01:40:46,880 --> 01:40:49,080
Speaker 1: the front right there, he drills a hole with the

2041
01:40:49,200 --> 01:40:52,679
Speaker 1: thing and and puts three holes in it, takes pictures

2042
01:40:52,720 --> 01:40:54,760
Speaker 1: of it and we all went to jail for trying

2043
01:40:54,800 --> 01:40:57,400
Speaker 1: to break into a pay phone that night. Both of

2044
01:40:57,520 --> 01:41:00,640
Speaker 1: us went to jail and dirty like Oh that that

2045
01:41:00,800 --> 01:41:03,240
Speaker 1: was my first time ever going to jail. Bro We didn't.

2046
01:41:03,280 --> 01:41:05,920
Speaker 1: We didn't dent pull that motherfucker. He was trying to

2047
01:41:06,000 --> 01:41:08,840
Speaker 1: dent pull the thing. He had not tried. He Dent pulled,

2048
01:41:09,120 --> 01:41:11,639
Speaker 1: put three holes into it and he goes boom, boom.

2049
01:41:12,040 --> 01:41:14,439
Speaker 1: As he's going in, he's like, Yep, I fucking fits,

2050
01:41:14,560 --> 01:41:16,320
Speaker 1: and then he goes bad and he pulls it out.

2051
01:41:16,640 --> 01:41:19,679
Speaker 1: Oh look, another one fits, but he did three holes

2052
01:41:19,720 --> 01:41:22,679
Speaker 1: in that motherfucker. took us in that night for breaking

2053
01:41:22,760 --> 01:41:26,400
Speaker 1: into a pay phone. Um, we got destroying city property,

2054
01:41:26,520 --> 01:41:29,280
Speaker 1: trust passing this and that. No one's gonna believe to

2055
01:41:29,439 --> 01:41:32,160
Speaker 1: eighteen year old little Latin kids over a police officer.

2056
01:41:32,280 --> 01:41:35,960
Speaker 1: That said, my boy took the case. My boy took

2057
01:41:36,000 --> 01:41:38,000
Speaker 1: the case. I fought the motherfucker of the whole way

2058
01:41:38,320 --> 01:41:40,040
Speaker 1: because I kept telling my mom there's no fucking way

2059
01:41:40,080 --> 01:41:41,960
Speaker 1: I'm taking this deal. I'm not doing that. I'm not

2060
01:41:42,000 --> 01:41:43,400
Speaker 1: going to jail for this ship. I didn't do it,

2061
01:41:43,520 --> 01:41:45,400
Speaker 1: you know, and my mom was like just take the deal.

2062
01:41:45,400 --> 01:41:47,400
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm not taking this deal. I did not

2063
01:41:47,880 --> 01:41:50,240
Speaker 1: destroy public property, I did not trying to break into

2064
01:41:50,280 --> 01:41:53,680
Speaker 1: a fucking payphone. This motherfucker if I did, and I

2065
01:41:53,800 --> 01:41:56,400
Speaker 1: fucking fought it the whole way. And then they finally

2066
01:41:56,439 --> 01:42:00,800
Speaker 1: gave me Um Uh trust passing or I'm sorry, what

2067
01:42:00,960 --> 01:42:02,559
Speaker 1: is it when you hang out somewhere you're not supposed

2068
01:42:02,560 --> 01:42:06,200
Speaker 1: to be there? They said, we'll give you loitering charges

2069
01:42:06,280 --> 01:42:09,519
Speaker 1: in one year of informal infrobation. My Buddy took a case, though,

2070
01:42:09,560 --> 01:42:11,760
Speaker 1: and did like sucking six months and sucking all kinds

2071
01:42:11,800 --> 01:42:14,479
Speaker 1: of probation. Ended up on two violations, you know what

2072
01:42:14,479 --> 01:42:16,960
Speaker 1: I mean. Like I was like, fucking I'll fight this

2073
01:42:17,760 --> 01:42:19,920
Speaker 1: one to fight. Yeah, you know what we'd like to

2074
01:42:19,960 --> 01:42:21,479
Speaker 1: do the high five with cats that come in here

2075
01:42:21,479 --> 01:42:23,519
Speaker 1: and ask them five questions about candidates. So thank you

2076
01:42:23,600 --> 01:42:25,320
Speaker 1: so much for everything that you bring into the show

2077
01:42:25,400 --> 01:42:28,960
Speaker 1: and all the information of great stuff. I'll tell you

2078
01:42:29,080 --> 01:42:30,559
Speaker 1: right now. I don't know if you had a good show,

2079
01:42:30,640 --> 01:42:31,920
Speaker 1: but I think blue and I had a great show,

2080
01:42:33,720 --> 01:42:39,800
Speaker 1: beautiful experience, longer than most. But we're not supposed to

2081
01:42:39,800 --> 01:42:41,720
Speaker 1: take my girl Carl out for her birthday. She's not

2082
01:42:41,840 --> 01:42:48,160
Speaker 1: fifty one. She fifty one now. You got here. Now

2083
01:42:48,240 --> 01:42:50,880
Speaker 1: she's fifty one and wherever this cooking sounds good. Jessica,

2084
01:42:50,960 --> 01:42:53,400
Speaker 1: give me a plate exactly. Question number one of the

2085
01:42:53,479 --> 01:42:56,800
Speaker 1: high five with Taija more no, clinical psychologist, therapist, hip

2086
01:42:56,840 --> 01:43:00,760
Speaker 1: hop artists and hosts of the healing is gangster podcast. Hold,

2087
01:43:00,920 --> 01:43:02,720
Speaker 1: the first time you smoked cannabis and where'd you get it?

2088
01:43:02,760 --> 01:43:08,160
Speaker 1: Tom Uh, I believe I was I want to say

2089
01:43:08,200 --> 01:43:14,519
Speaker 1: I was nine going on Tim uh, my homeboy Willie. Yeah, yeah,

2090
01:43:16,160 --> 01:43:19,000
Speaker 1: it was trash Um, but I don't know. I think

2091
01:43:19,040 --> 01:43:20,800
Speaker 1: I just felt cool because I was smoking weed and

2092
01:43:21,520 --> 01:43:24,920
Speaker 1: ain't really do nothing, just part of the we had

2093
01:43:25,000 --> 01:43:32,400
Speaker 1: smoked like Tim blunts for it to like, no matter

2094
01:43:32,479 --> 01:43:34,920
Speaker 1: what you think, because I was I was around older

2095
01:43:35,000 --> 01:43:38,400
Speaker 1: people and so you know, it was going around passing around.

2096
01:43:39,280 --> 01:43:41,000
Speaker 1: Question number two of the high five. What is your

2097
01:43:41,040 --> 01:43:45,040
Speaker 1: favorite way to use or smoke cannabis? Um? Well, I

2098
01:43:45,120 --> 01:43:47,040
Speaker 1: try to stay away from like the blunts and stuff now,

2099
01:43:47,120 --> 01:43:50,880
Speaker 1: so I've been um doing like joints, or I might

2100
01:43:51,040 --> 01:43:53,720
Speaker 1: do the bold thing, you know, but but um, I'll

2101
01:43:53,760 --> 01:43:57,800
Speaker 1: try to like the do you minded people smoke while

2102
01:43:57,800 --> 01:44:04,240
Speaker 1: you're doing a session? Therapy sessions, unless unless they're a

2103
01:44:04,320 --> 01:44:06,560
Speaker 1: minor dealing with a DITIONEAH, if they're a minor or,

2104
01:44:06,600 --> 01:44:09,479
Speaker 1: they're dealing with addiction problems. If they're if they're dealing

2105
01:44:09,520 --> 01:44:12,400
Speaker 1: with an addiction problem, then yeah, I would prefer them

2106
01:44:12,479 --> 01:44:15,120
Speaker 1: to be sober in therapy, because what happens is that

2107
01:44:16,439 --> 01:44:18,760
Speaker 1: when people are coming in and they're struggling with any

2108
01:44:18,840 --> 01:44:23,400
Speaker 1: kind of substance problem, therapy won't take because, which is

2109
01:44:23,400 --> 01:44:27,439
Speaker 1: why I send them to an addiction specialist or a

2110
01:44:27,560 --> 01:44:30,599
Speaker 1: Rehab Center so that they can be in the right

2111
01:44:30,680 --> 01:44:33,280
Speaker 1: mind when they're reflecting on themselves, because they're not in

2112
01:44:33,360 --> 01:44:35,600
Speaker 1: the right mind to handle the trauma that they're you

2113
01:44:35,640 --> 01:44:39,000
Speaker 1: know that they haven't processed yet and you know to

2114
01:44:39,080 --> 01:44:41,560
Speaker 1: take whatever input I have. You know, I'd prefer you

2115
01:44:41,640 --> 01:44:43,120
Speaker 1: to be in a sober mind if you're dealing with

2116
01:44:43,240 --> 01:44:46,840
Speaker 1: the diction problems. Are you considered doctor? Yeah, well, I'm

2117
01:44:46,880 --> 01:44:49,479
Speaker 1: a doctoral candidate. You're about to get to. You know

2118
01:44:49,479 --> 01:44:54,240
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But I've completed every single UH thing

2119
01:44:54,320 --> 01:44:58,200
Speaker 1: that I've needed to to be a doctor. Yeah, pretty much.

2120
01:44:58,280 --> 01:45:01,559
Speaker 1: It's just it's just the hour. So the officially they

2121
01:45:01,640 --> 01:45:04,640
Speaker 1: called me a doctoral candidate. I'm like, I did, but

2122
01:45:04,760 --> 01:45:08,240
Speaker 1: you'll have it when a couple months. Uh. Well, Japan's

2123
01:45:08,479 --> 01:45:12,360
Speaker 1: you know that. Obviously, the show and the facility that

2124
01:45:12,479 --> 01:45:15,320
Speaker 1: I have now, Um, it's De laated just a little bit.

2125
01:45:16,280 --> 01:45:20,160
Speaker 1: So I'm thinking in the next like six months because you, yeah,

2126
01:45:20,800 --> 01:45:22,840
Speaker 1: just about hours. You gotta put it in. So it's just,

2127
01:45:23,040 --> 01:45:24,920
Speaker 1: you know, six months. I'm also in the process of

2128
01:45:25,000 --> 01:45:29,040
Speaker 1: turning my dissertation into a book. Yeah, I wrote a

2129
01:45:29,080 --> 01:45:32,439
Speaker 1: book already. Oh, yeah, yeah, I gotta published. I put

2130
01:45:32,479 --> 01:45:34,960
Speaker 1: it out. Yeah, so I'm not a market that book.

2131
01:45:35,720 --> 01:45:37,160
Speaker 1: I'll be hollering at you. Yeah, a lot of the

2132
01:45:37,200 --> 01:45:38,559
Speaker 1: things I want to talk to you about a fair

2133
01:45:38,600 --> 01:45:40,479
Speaker 1: but yeah, I'M gonna be. I'm gonna be doing a

2134
01:45:40,560 --> 01:45:43,920
Speaker 1: documentary to about the book. Um, so you know. So

2135
01:45:44,200 --> 01:45:46,080
Speaker 1: I have a lot going on in the average like

2136
01:45:46,400 --> 01:45:48,880
Speaker 1: doctor person, I love it. Well, question number three of

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01:45:48,960 --> 01:45:52,719
Speaker 1: the high fived. Excuse me, craziest place you ever used

2138
01:45:52,880 --> 01:45:59,320
Speaker 1: or smoked cannabis the craziest place? Oh Man, I mean

2139
01:46:01,400 --> 01:46:04,439
Speaker 1: probably just like in the hood, like when this war

2140
01:46:04,600 --> 01:46:07,360
Speaker 1: is going on and stuff. I mean just sitting outside

2141
01:46:07,439 --> 01:46:15,200
Speaker 1: like nothing's happening, burning down in jail. Yeah, yeah, were blowing,

2142
01:46:15,560 --> 01:46:17,840
Speaker 1: blowing it down. I mean, I don't know what they're

2143
01:46:17,840 --> 01:46:19,519
Speaker 1: doing now. I don't want to put them blast, but

2144
01:46:20,200 --> 01:46:22,800
Speaker 1: I will go down it goes down. The first dude,

2145
01:46:22,800 --> 01:46:30,760
Speaker 1: I was in the package yesterday. Yeah, I actually went

2146
01:46:30,840 --> 01:46:34,479
Speaker 1: in just to bring a package in. Just guys, let

2147
01:46:34,520 --> 01:46:39,840
Speaker 1: me drop one. I turned myself in just to bring

2148
01:46:39,920 --> 01:46:42,479
Speaker 1: one in. I mean I have I have smoked with

2149
01:46:42,600 --> 01:46:45,200
Speaker 1: something like with people that I came up like like,

2150
01:46:45,320 --> 01:46:47,839
Speaker 1: you know, kind of idolizing that were like legendary smokers.

2151
01:46:48,360 --> 01:46:51,560
Speaker 1: I wouldn't consider that a crazy place. I got. I

2152
01:46:51,600 --> 01:46:54,160
Speaker 1: got to smoke with like domies from like bone back

2153
01:46:54,200 --> 01:46:58,040
Speaker 1: in the day. I told him be real, you know

2154
01:46:58,040 --> 01:46:59,680
Speaker 1: what I mean, like the dudes that you would really

2155
01:46:59,720 --> 01:47:02,519
Speaker 1: look at like yeah, they smoke. I got going for

2156
01:47:02,600 --> 01:47:04,360
Speaker 1: you that I smoked. Was You ready? Yeah, I got

2157
01:47:04,400 --> 01:47:07,120
Speaker 1: a good one, one really good one that I smoked.

2158
01:47:07,600 --> 01:47:10,360
Speaker 1: They small three days before he dies. Oh Wow, I

2159
01:47:10,560 --> 01:47:13,320
Speaker 1: was smoking major books with me and nip done hit

2160
01:47:13,360 --> 01:47:15,320
Speaker 1: a bunch of backwoods and that fun. Just be able

2161
01:47:15,360 --> 01:47:19,080
Speaker 1: to use those. Alright. Question Number Four. Question number four,

2162
01:47:19,200 --> 01:47:21,200
Speaker 1: the high five. What did you go to munch sheet

2163
01:47:21,520 --> 01:47:24,280
Speaker 1: after you get high, if you have one. I like

2164
01:47:24,439 --> 01:47:27,400
Speaker 1: the UM. I like to like the cakes. We need cakes,

2165
01:47:27,560 --> 01:47:30,439
Speaker 1: like the Brownie type. Yeah, like the liquor store. A

2166
01:47:30,439 --> 01:47:35,000
Speaker 1: little simple bullshit, a little like a little square of

2167
01:47:35,080 --> 01:47:38,800
Speaker 1: the grocery stores. Like a double. It's a double cupcake cake.

2168
01:47:39,080 --> 01:47:42,280
Speaker 1: I don't giving up my fatty card. I'm sorry, you

2169
01:47:42,320 --> 01:47:45,880
Speaker 1: guys have just list this cupcake. I'm sorry. Exactly what

2170
01:47:45,960 --> 01:47:50,080
Speaker 1: it isn't. I don't want to resort exactly. You see

2171
01:47:50,240 --> 01:47:57,720
Speaker 1: right now. Chicken. Yeah, I don't really do like. I

2172
01:47:57,800 --> 01:48:00,759
Speaker 1: know people. They got everything now, like candy, these drinks,

2173
01:48:00,880 --> 01:48:04,719
Speaker 1: and kind of stay with it. I found this granola

2174
01:48:04,960 --> 01:48:06,960
Speaker 1: peanut butter lace that was a little healthier after I

2175
01:48:07,080 --> 01:48:08,960
Speaker 1: try to go to sleep at night. It ain't healthy.

2176
01:48:09,400 --> 01:48:12,000
Speaker 1: Question number five and the high five. This is where

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01:48:12,000 --> 01:48:13,920
Speaker 1: the longest shows we've done, dog, because you were a

2178
01:48:14,040 --> 01:48:19,040
Speaker 1: story man. So like we like to cut people off.

2179
01:48:20,479 --> 01:48:23,920
Speaker 1: We would have been done an hour minutes ago, but

2180
01:48:23,920 --> 01:48:28,280
Speaker 1: at least phenomenal dog and what you can do. I

2181
01:48:28,320 --> 01:48:29,720
Speaker 1: mean you may even get. I need to get your

2182
01:48:29,760 --> 01:48:32,280
Speaker 1: sell no, be calling you to sign your session. He

2183
01:48:32,400 --> 01:48:36,160
Speaker 1: doesn't actually do anything to help. Really, he really needs

2184
01:48:36,160 --> 01:48:38,560
Speaker 1: a session. You're like, please, I'll pay for it. You

2185
01:48:38,600 --> 01:48:40,400
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Just he really need to do it.

2186
01:48:41,640 --> 01:48:49,599
Speaker 1: Give a price if it's something. Seriously on the most

2187
01:48:49,640 --> 01:48:51,760
Speaker 1: gangster thing that you can do, back to your healing

2188
01:48:51,800 --> 01:48:53,920
Speaker 1: his gangster question. The most gangster thing you can do

2189
01:48:54,040 --> 01:48:57,080
Speaker 1: in life is face yourself. That's why I named healing

2190
01:48:57,200 --> 01:49:01,760
Speaker 1: his gangster. Yeah, so congrating, you love it. Lord knows

2191
01:49:01,840 --> 01:49:04,040
Speaker 1: I've done the world. We all need. We all need

2192
01:49:04,680 --> 01:49:06,360
Speaker 1: so bad and I want to blame everybody and I'm

2193
01:49:06,400 --> 01:49:09,040
Speaker 1: just a fucking idiot. Question number five of the high

2194
01:49:09,080 --> 01:49:12,040
Speaker 1: five and of me transparency, because Lord, will get myself

2195
01:49:12,080 --> 01:49:15,720
Speaker 1: in trouble. Question number five of the high five. You

2196
01:49:15,840 --> 01:49:19,240
Speaker 1: could get if you could smoke with anyone, dead or alive,

2197
01:49:19,600 --> 01:49:21,920
Speaker 1: who would it be and why? I already smoked a Lottom,

2198
01:49:22,520 --> 01:49:28,760
Speaker 1: but you gotta have something too far studios, go ahead

2199
01:49:28,800 --> 01:49:31,800
Speaker 1: and rock. I'm pushing them for that. Forty man, so

2200
01:49:31,920 --> 01:49:34,920
Speaker 1: you were at can studios or what? In the nineties? Yeah, well,

2201
01:49:35,200 --> 01:49:38,000
Speaker 1: I was nine. I got in this game when I

2202
01:49:38,080 --> 01:49:41,080
Speaker 1: was eleven, twive years old, like, not the entertainment game.

2203
01:49:41,160 --> 01:49:46,680
Speaker 1: I was out here like so I was basically, you know,

2204
01:49:46,720 --> 01:49:49,280
Speaker 1: I had a dope ass connect at the time. You know,

2205
01:49:49,320 --> 01:49:52,000
Speaker 1: I ain't gonna lie. And Uh, whatever you needed, I

2206
01:49:52,520 --> 01:49:57,839
Speaker 1: had it. So, Mexican. Yeah, probably one of my homies.

2207
01:49:58,760 --> 01:50:00,960
Speaker 1: So I was, you know, I was Mexican, you know,

2208
01:50:01,760 --> 01:50:08,160
Speaker 1: and Wecan. I told you, just to keep it all

2209
01:50:08,200 --> 01:50:10,760
Speaker 1: the way real, because I was Spanish. It allowed me

2210
01:50:10,880 --> 01:50:17,439
Speaker 1: to to cross certain lines, of course, up here. So

2211
01:50:18,160 --> 01:50:19,720
Speaker 1: people listen, you don't know it. That's a good thing

2212
01:50:19,760 --> 01:50:22,680
Speaker 1: that you don't know, but you thing that we happened to.

2213
01:50:23,240 --> 01:50:24,920
Speaker 1: I had to let my hair grow dog when I

2214
01:50:25,000 --> 01:50:27,680
Speaker 1: moved out here from the bay area. Okay, so like

2215
01:50:27,800 --> 01:50:29,400
Speaker 1: what we have to go through. You guys know what

2216
01:50:29,479 --> 01:50:31,720
Speaker 1: I mean. I had to let my hair grow because, well,

2217
01:50:31,760 --> 01:50:34,280
Speaker 1: I had it grown. Then I lost this betting snoop

2218
01:50:34,320 --> 01:50:36,519
Speaker 1: dog on a bed whatever, and I was bad for

2219
01:50:36,520 --> 01:50:38,479
Speaker 1: a long time. I moved Orange Candy to let my

2220
01:50:38,520 --> 01:50:41,000
Speaker 1: hair grow. He He. He had to cut his hair

2221
01:50:41,040 --> 01:50:49,560
Speaker 1: because because snoop beat him in. Uh. was there, however? Yeah, no,

2222
01:50:49,680 --> 01:50:51,679
Speaker 1: but I was always around, like I was always around,

2223
01:50:51,760 --> 01:50:55,240
Speaker 1: like the entertainment crowd because of my profession at the time,

2224
01:50:55,600 --> 01:50:58,080
Speaker 1: at that age, and they always, you know, those people

2225
01:50:58,080 --> 01:50:59,400
Speaker 1: always showed me a lot of love because I was

2226
01:50:59,439 --> 01:51:01,760
Speaker 1: so young, and so I think they looked at me like, man,

2227
01:51:01,800 --> 01:51:03,559
Speaker 1: we're kind of doing him a favorite by letting him

2228
01:51:03,560 --> 01:51:07,040
Speaker 1: hang out and getting whatever we need that and I

2229
01:51:07,160 --> 01:51:09,120
Speaker 1: was just telling you know the Homi earlier like those,

2230
01:51:09,240 --> 01:51:11,400
Speaker 1: those moments probably saved my life, because those are moments

2231
01:51:11,400 --> 01:51:12,800
Speaker 1: I still would have been in the street. You know

2232
01:51:12,800 --> 01:51:14,559
Speaker 1: what I'm saying? That I was kicking in the studio.

2233
01:51:15,120 --> 01:51:17,400
Speaker 1: You know, shouts out to my boy Kenny McLeod, who

2234
01:51:17,439 --> 01:51:19,720
Speaker 1: had the studio on Rose Crans called the black hole

2235
01:51:19,760 --> 01:51:22,400
Speaker 1: recording studios. He would let me kick it right over

2236
01:51:22,479 --> 01:51:24,960
Speaker 1: the free over the thing on the left, right right

2237
01:51:25,000 --> 01:51:27,120
Speaker 1: over the bridge on the left. Well, it was like

2238
01:51:27,479 --> 01:51:30,560
Speaker 1: it was since it was it was. It was like

2239
01:51:30,640 --> 01:51:33,040
Speaker 1: past Guardina. It was actually you know what borderline Guardina

2240
01:51:33,120 --> 01:51:36,559
Speaker 1: Hawthorne like in that that area, Um, but I mean

2241
01:51:36,640 --> 01:51:38,920
Speaker 1: compton was like, do you remember? Because you remember in

2242
01:51:39,040 --> 01:51:41,880
Speaker 1: Compton there was when he came right over the bridge.

2243
01:51:41,960 --> 01:51:46,160
Speaker 1: I forget what street it was. I want to say Rosecrans,

2244
01:51:46,400 --> 01:51:48,479
Speaker 1: you know, and then you go right over the bridge

2245
01:51:48,560 --> 01:51:52,920
Speaker 1: and it actually comes from Downey right down the left that.

2246
01:51:56,280 --> 01:51:58,439
Speaker 1: I forgot what they called that, but this was more westy.

2247
01:51:58,760 --> 01:52:00,880
Speaker 1: This was more west of that. But I know what

2248
01:52:00,880 --> 01:52:03,600
Speaker 1: you're talking about. You down that way. Every everybody was

2249
01:52:03,840 --> 01:52:06,519
Speaker 1: going there. Like I saw easy up in there, and

2250
01:52:06,640 --> 01:52:09,200
Speaker 1: you know, I was a super youngster. You know. I

2251
01:52:09,320 --> 01:52:12,519
Speaker 1: see easy, uh bone. That's the first time I've seen bone.

2252
01:52:12,960 --> 01:52:14,280
Speaker 1: was like when they were like on top of the

2253
01:52:14,360 --> 01:52:17,720
Speaker 1: world type thing. Um, actually a little before that, but

2254
01:52:18,200 --> 01:52:24,240
Speaker 1: DJ quick, yeah, DJ quick. Um. I mean. So I

2255
01:52:24,400 --> 01:52:26,960
Speaker 1: was around, you know, drew down. I got introduced to

2256
01:52:27,000 --> 01:52:32,920
Speaker 1: like you read. Um. Yeah, yeah, pretty well. Actually, I

2257
01:52:33,040 --> 01:52:34,320
Speaker 1: was on the phone with him maybe a couple of

2258
01:52:34,320 --> 01:52:37,680
Speaker 1: months ago. gave me up two days ago. Yeah, and uh,

2259
01:52:38,160 --> 01:52:39,800
Speaker 1: it was just so many people going in and out

2260
01:52:39,880 --> 01:52:41,920
Speaker 1: that I was so lucky to be around and talked to.

2261
01:52:42,360 --> 01:52:44,360
Speaker 1: You know, like I said, I got to be around

2262
01:52:44,520 --> 01:52:46,280
Speaker 1: UH C NHS back in the day. He was a

2263
01:52:46,320 --> 01:52:48,680
Speaker 1: manager of the loonies. So that introduced me to like

2264
01:52:48,800 --> 01:52:52,280
Speaker 1: the whole bay area stuff, Um, and that's how my

2265
01:52:52,320 --> 01:52:54,479
Speaker 1: whole life was, that's how all of this started. Really

2266
01:52:54,600 --> 01:52:57,000
Speaker 1: was me doing doing that. I'm surprised. We don't know

2267
01:52:57,040 --> 01:53:01,320
Speaker 1: what you know is in the head and during their

2268
01:53:01,360 --> 01:53:03,559
Speaker 1: whole like peak, when they were running around all the streets.

2269
01:53:03,760 --> 01:53:05,760
Speaker 1: I had a studio down the street from here, and

2270
01:53:05,880 --> 01:53:10,320
Speaker 1: he glasses, glasses. Yeah, glasses. When when glasses shot in Inglewood,

2271
01:53:10,360 --> 01:53:15,000
Speaker 1: when he shot his UH certified video in Inglewood? was there?

2272
01:53:16,400 --> 01:53:18,559
Speaker 1: That's what I'm saying. And wats? I'm sorry, correction. Yeah,

2273
01:53:18,600 --> 01:53:20,280
Speaker 1: in the in the car play, yeah, with all the

2274
01:53:20,400 --> 01:53:22,880
Speaker 1: essays pulled up. That was my homies. So we brought

2275
01:53:22,920 --> 01:53:24,519
Speaker 1: all the low riders, you know what I'm saying. So

2276
01:53:24,680 --> 01:53:29,720
Speaker 1: I was there right at homeboard was there? Yeah, yeah, Cam,

2277
01:53:29,800 --> 01:53:32,920
Speaker 1: you're talking about the West Coast Cam? Yeah, he was

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Speaker 1: in my first video. Yeah, West Coast Cam. I ain't

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01:53:35,520 --> 01:53:39,640
Speaker 1: see him. Yeah. No, we know a lot of the

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01:53:39,680 --> 01:53:41,759
Speaker 1: same people and that's what I'm saying. We probably actually

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01:53:41,840 --> 01:53:44,639
Speaker 1: kicked it. We just didn't reconative, you know, especially plus,

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01:53:44,680 --> 01:53:47,599
Speaker 1: I look like a whole different character. Yeah, that I'm

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01:53:47,600 --> 01:53:49,360
Speaker 1: a whole different character. Yeah, you know, I look more

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01:53:49,400 --> 01:53:50,720
Speaker 1: like you back then, you know what I mean, and

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01:53:50,800 --> 01:53:54,040
Speaker 1: now I'm a little bit changed exactly, but you know what.

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Speaker 1: You know what, though, if I had to pick somebody

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Speaker 1: that I ain't smoked with, it I wouldn't want to

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01:53:57,800 --> 01:54:03,120
Speaker 1: smoke with shot. So you're the first to say shod

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Speaker 1: day and and it's so big to me that you

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01:54:06,320 --> 01:54:09,519
Speaker 1: say shot day, because Shod Day is one of those

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01:54:09,680 --> 01:54:14,320
Speaker 1: ladies artists that we grew up to that's comparable to

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01:54:14,720 --> 01:54:17,880
Speaker 1: the most making love music you've ever heard. I mean

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01:54:18,080 --> 01:54:22,720
Speaker 1: that's right there next to the big guy said. You know,

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Speaker 1: don't talk about right and I'm not talking on the

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01:54:25,200 --> 01:54:32,080
Speaker 1: top of your head. That's credit. Now. Is shod day

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Speaker 1: her name, or shot day the name of the group?

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Speaker 1: I think. I think that's her name and I think

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Speaker 1: it's the name of the whole group. Alright, because someone

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01:54:40,760 --> 01:54:42,480
Speaker 1: was telling me like a couple of days ago, like wow,

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Speaker 1: shodas name is is the group name, but I forgot

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01:54:49,520 --> 01:54:51,680
Speaker 1: her last name. But she just took off with the

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01:54:51,720 --> 01:54:54,760
Speaker 1: whole group because she was she got me, man, her

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01:54:54,840 --> 01:54:58,240
Speaker 1: music got me through like like homelessness. I would listen

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01:54:58,280 --> 01:55:01,360
Speaker 1: to her like like from Tupac ship, like I would

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Speaker 1: really listen to her. She would calm me down, like yeah,

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01:55:05,160 --> 01:55:09,400
Speaker 1: Spirit Rich. So yeah, I would smoke. That was deep.

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01:55:09,680 --> 01:55:12,040
Speaker 1: So so listen, man, anything else that we forgot before

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01:55:12,080 --> 01:55:13,240
Speaker 1: we let you get on out of here? That you

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01:55:13,280 --> 01:55:16,200
Speaker 1: want to just talk about a plug man? Oh No, Um, well,

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01:55:16,920 --> 01:55:20,200
Speaker 1: tune in, you know, uh, to healing this gangster. Um,

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01:55:20,400 --> 01:55:24,320
Speaker 1: season three will be coming shortly. Um, we're upgrading the show.

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01:55:24,920 --> 01:55:28,120
Speaker 1: You gotta bring us to your show too. I would,

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01:55:28,200 --> 01:55:30,840
Speaker 1: I would love to have y'all. Um, I'm scared right now.

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01:55:30,920 --> 01:55:33,600
Speaker 1: Those don't ask me any questions. If I can, you

2315
01:55:33,640 --> 01:55:36,720
Speaker 1: guys need to exchange. We all need to. Please get

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01:55:36,760 --> 01:55:38,840
Speaker 1: them a little therapy, a as session. Man. Yeah, to

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01:55:39,240 --> 01:55:41,600
Speaker 1: tune in and healing this gangster. H If you're looking

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01:55:41,680 --> 01:55:44,280
Speaker 1: the book of venue in L A, you know, hit

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01:55:44,360 --> 01:55:46,680
Speaker 1: up projector space l a. You can. You can find

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01:55:46,760 --> 01:55:50,520
Speaker 1: us on instagram. You know the email. Everything's in the bio. Um,

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01:55:50,760 --> 01:55:53,440
Speaker 1: you know, if you need, like I said, podcast venues,

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01:55:53,520 --> 01:55:56,240
Speaker 1: all that type stuff. So definitely, how are you marketing?

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01:55:56,280 --> 01:55:59,240
Speaker 1: How are you marketing that? Right now, it's worth of mouth.

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01:55:59,360 --> 01:56:03,080
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying? Yeah, you know, uh, you know.

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Speaker 1: Obviously we're doing a lot of community work for the community,

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Speaker 1: but I also want to have exclusive type you know,

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01:56:08,520 --> 01:56:11,200
Speaker 1: some exclusive events and which we've been doing the last

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Speaker 1: couple of months. Um, I have a pretty good network,

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01:56:14,320 --> 01:56:16,440
Speaker 1: so it's been just getting around, you know, just you know,

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Speaker 1: shout out to Laura and changes. They just did a

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Speaker 1: DOPE TUPAC event. UH, there, right here. Yeah, that's Laura

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01:56:25,320 --> 01:56:28,880
Speaker 1: right there. They did a dope event where we watched

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01:56:28,960 --> 01:56:31,280
Speaker 1: we have movie night that we do there, and so

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01:56:31,400 --> 01:56:33,120
Speaker 1: you can come check out a movie. That night we

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01:56:33,200 --> 01:56:36,400
Speaker 1: were watching Tupac and we did also a discussion about

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Speaker 1: like how he might have affected, you know, our lives

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Speaker 1: and other people's lives if I was at death row

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01:56:42,560 --> 01:56:45,320
Speaker 1: in the nineties. So, Um, you know, he it totally

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Speaker 1: affected my life, you know what I mean? I was

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Speaker 1: like one of the only Latin artists there, UM, and

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01:56:49,200 --> 01:56:51,040
Speaker 1: so I got to do that's why I know so

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01:56:51,120 --> 01:56:52,880
Speaker 1: many people in the space. You know, been on so

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01:56:52,960 --> 01:56:54,840
Speaker 1: many on the road so much with these guys, and

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01:56:54,960 --> 01:56:56,960
Speaker 1: so I could relate with that ship. I wish I

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Speaker 1: was invited, Laura. Hey, Laura, thanks for calling us. Young

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01:57:01,000 --> 01:57:13,320
Speaker 1: cow ware to go. Cow was there too. He don't

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01:57:13,360 --> 01:57:15,880
Speaker 1: invite US nowhere, though, cow, young Cole, I mean young

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01:57:15,960 --> 01:57:18,440
Speaker 1: cows everywhere. He's a young player. Looking at it and

2349
01:57:18,600 --> 01:57:21,800
Speaker 1: want to break the old guys, and I mean definitely just,

2350
01:57:23,040 --> 01:57:25,120
Speaker 1: you know, focus on healing yourself. You know, it's, like

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01:57:25,200 --> 01:57:27,080
Speaker 1: I said's the most gangster things you can do. It's

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01:57:27,080 --> 01:57:29,000
Speaker 1: the most difficult thing. If you can face yourself and

2353
01:57:29,080 --> 01:57:32,840
Speaker 1: conquer yourself, you can do anything that anything you know,

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01:57:32,960 --> 01:57:35,280
Speaker 1: and then you can help heal somebody else, and that's

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01:57:35,360 --> 01:57:37,720
Speaker 1: basically what I'm about, you know, and thank you all

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Speaker 1: for having me. Man, it's great. No, thank you, man,

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01:57:40,360 --> 01:57:42,920
Speaker 1: real talk. Thank you, brother, appreciate you. Well. There it is, guys.

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Speaker 1: It's cannabis talk one on one, and remember this. If

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Speaker 1: no one else loves you, we do. Thank you for

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01:57:48,240 --> 01:57:50,240
Speaker 1: listening to cannabis talk one on one on the I

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Speaker 1: heart radio, APP apple podcast or wherever you get your podcasts.