WEBVTT - Scandalous with Katie Lowes 0:00:01.960 --> 0:00:05.400 Wind down with Janet Kramer and I'm Heart Radio podcast. 0:00:06.640 --> 0:00:11.840 All right, guys, how you doing good? Coming up? I'm 0:00:11.880 --> 0:00:14.640 coming up for air and between birthday season here guys, 0:00:14.920 --> 0:00:18.960 So so neigh birthdays in August, that's how I feel 0:00:19.120 --> 0:00:23.239 in November, yes, and do you have things? Well, it's 0:00:23.360 --> 0:00:26.960 it's Roman and then a week later's Jace, a week 0:00:27.040 --> 0:00:30.880 later is me, a week later is Alan. That's four birthdays. 0:00:30.880 --> 0:00:33.159 A week later is Jesus, and then Jesus and then 0:00:33.240 --> 0:00:37.080 Jolie and in between Happy New Year. I feel like 0:00:37.080 --> 0:00:39.920 there's it's just a lot. Yeah. But Jace had a 0:00:39.920 --> 0:00:43.320 lot of fun at Legends. Jace I birthday, I was 0:00:43.320 --> 0:00:46.440 a little out of it because Easter I gave was 0:00:46.479 --> 0:00:49.200 a nurse and a back injury. I was like, okay, 0:00:49.280 --> 0:00:53.479 be off today. Are you doing all right? Jace is 0:00:53.560 --> 0:00:55.880 just such a It's so fun because I love how 0:00:56.040 --> 0:00:59.040 Jace and Legend like love each other but they couldn't 0:00:59.040 --> 0:01:02.160 be any more opposite. Yeah, And I'm always like, oh, 0:01:02.240 --> 0:01:04.200 Jace is coming, this will be good for like us 0:01:04.240 --> 0:01:07.880 being like a dapperhandsome, like good standing kind of guy, 0:01:07.920 --> 0:01:11.560 you know, and Legend's like, Jace, get over you. Please 0:01:11.560 --> 0:01:14.520 tell the quote about my sister. Well, I wasn't sure 0:01:14.560 --> 0:01:16.399 if you wanted me too. I think it's hysterical. So 0:01:16.760 --> 0:01:19.520 it shows their personalities really well. Well, you're just so 0:01:19.680 --> 0:01:22.280 cute because it's like, yeah, like you said, they're they're 0:01:22.440 --> 0:01:24.800 very different, but not, I mean, Legend is still very 0:01:25.080 --> 0:01:27.679 you know sweet. Oh he's a good guy. Yeah, he's 0:01:27.720 --> 0:01:30.960 a good kid. He's just a very like outgoing character. Yeah. 0:01:31.040 --> 0:01:33.600 I mean he's got I mean he has a mullet. Mullet, 0:01:33.800 --> 0:01:36.959 so you know, it's kind of his name is Legend 0:01:37.000 --> 0:01:41.199 wild like I did it to myself. Sure, so there, 0:01:41.319 --> 0:01:44.319 you know, and Jace is more cautious and a little 0:01:44.319 --> 0:01:48.720 bit more I say, it's sweet. Yeah, but I mean 0:01:49.840 --> 0:01:53.040 it's fine. We all like we see it. But it 0:01:53.240 --> 0:01:54.680 takes him a second to kind of warm up to 0:01:54.760 --> 0:01:57.040 like the rough and toughness of like that energy. I 0:01:57.040 --> 0:01:58.640 don't know if it's because he's with me seventy percent 0:01:58.640 --> 0:02:02.400 of the time, but you know, he's not tumbling with 0:02:02.960 --> 0:02:05.360 dudes a bunch, you know, I mean now him and 0:02:05.400 --> 0:02:08.280 like Alan Russell and stuff. But you know, anyways, I digress. 0:02:08.400 --> 0:02:13.239 So we walk in and he they're bouncing on the 0:02:14.320 --> 0:02:18.160 big bouncy house stuff. And the boys are just running. No, 0:02:18.520 --> 0:02:20.920 I walked into them throwing water balloons at the girls. 0:02:20.919 --> 0:02:22.840 It was the girls against the boys. There were six 0:02:22.880 --> 0:02:27.120 boys and two girls. They're just chucking these water balloons 0:02:27.200 --> 0:02:30.080 the girls. And then Jace, sweet Jace, goes to the 0:02:30.120 --> 0:02:32.760 girls team, and then the one of the kids goes, no, 0:02:32.800 --> 0:02:35.080 it's the girls. It's the guys against the boys against 0:02:35.120 --> 0:02:37.400 the girls. And he's like okay. So then he like 0:02:37.480 --> 0:02:39.720 kind of goes on the other side and gets into it. 0:02:39.760 --> 0:02:41.200 And then they're on the like the bounce thing, and 0:02:41.240 --> 0:02:44.880 the adults are inside and I've I can't move because 0:02:44.880 --> 0:02:50.000 of my back, so I'm just sitting on this chair, beautiful, 0:02:50.080 --> 0:02:54.520 nice legs backyard. Yeah, I love me. Thanks great, thank you, thanks. 0:02:54.880 --> 0:02:57.320 And I'm just observing and just kind of watching. And 0:02:57.360 --> 0:03:01.120 so it's Jace and Legend and they're bouncing up and 0:03:01.160 --> 0:03:06.480 down and he's like, attack the girls, and he's like, oh, 0:03:06.520 --> 0:03:08.320 I don't want to attack my sister. He goes, well, 0:03:08.320 --> 0:03:15.520 then attack mine, and he was like like and he 0:03:15.600 --> 0:03:17.320 just kind of like stood there like he's a gentleman. 0:03:17.360 --> 0:03:19.240 He didn't He's like, well, I don't want to attack 0:03:19.320 --> 0:03:22.120 my sister. And then just without any well, then attack mine. 0:03:22.240 --> 0:03:27.320 I love that, like borrow mine. Then yes, that's but 0:03:27.360 --> 0:03:29.600 it was cute. They're sweet love that he lived his 0:03:29.600 --> 0:03:32.560 best life. It was Jake. It was Jay squinting. We 0:03:32.639 --> 0:03:34.840 did our version of Visit Cake. Legend loves that show, 0:03:34.880 --> 0:03:39.600 so we did like our own little thing. Jay's squinty, 0:03:39.840 --> 0:03:43.800 I mean so in it. Like I have several pictures 0:03:43.840 --> 0:03:45.640 of just him, Like he pulled his shades up but 0:03:45.880 --> 0:03:47.360 on the top of his head and he was like 0:03:47.440 --> 0:03:49.160 he was going to win. He was going to call 0:03:49.520 --> 0:03:51.960 which one was Cake. It was so cute to me. Well, 0:03:52.000 --> 0:03:53.600 he said the other day, he goes, Mom, can we 0:03:53.640 --> 0:03:55.480 have camp at the house? I was like, okay, so listen. 0:03:55.520 --> 0:03:58.680 That was not how their house always is. That was 0:03:58.840 --> 0:04:01.119 just for his birthday party. Yeah yeah, but if you'd 0:04:01.120 --> 0:04:03.840 like to camp sometime, we could figure it out. Oh yeah. 0:04:03.960 --> 0:04:06.360 And dude. Camp was two hours specified twice on the 0:04:06.360 --> 0:04:08.560 invitation and it was all outdoors. We want to be. 0:04:10.080 --> 0:04:12.560 I mean it's very against to like, it's against my 0:04:12.640 --> 0:04:18.320 DNA to have wild you know, and boys are crazy. Yeah, 0:04:18.360 --> 0:04:20.680 but I thought it was so sweet. Oh yeah, they 0:04:20.720 --> 0:04:23.800 had fun. Well, it's Legend wants everything, right, you ask 0:04:23.880 --> 0:04:25.920 them what the dream party is and usually includes like 0:04:25.960 --> 0:04:28.520 an aircraft and us flying somewhere, and so I was like, okay, 0:04:28.560 --> 0:04:30.839 say we kept it to like our postage stamp backyard, 0:04:30.960 --> 0:04:33.120 what would we do here? And he's like, ah, okay, 0:04:33.160 --> 0:04:35.280 and so we can mind all things. And I just 0:04:35.360 --> 0:04:38.800 labeled it dude camp And the next one's fifty preston. Yeah, 0:04:38.920 --> 0:04:44.520 next week, next week, crazy wild? Have we planned anything yet? 0:04:44.960 --> 0:04:47.760 We can't plan because we just never know where he'll be. 0:04:47.800 --> 0:04:52.200 He's not home so far though. Still he's back out again, 0:04:52.320 --> 0:04:56.400 so I think like Christmas, and it sounds like don't 0:04:56.480 --> 0:04:59.479 don't you have their shows like knowing what he's doing 0:04:59.480 --> 0:05:02.640 in the next two weeks. No, I mean we do, 0:05:02.680 --> 0:05:05.240 but then everything changes, like even just this morning has 0:05:05.320 --> 0:05:07.960 changed again, so we might have him next week really, 0:05:08.040 --> 0:05:09.960 but we don't think. So I can think shows come 0:05:10.000 --> 0:05:12.440 that like last minute, well they're doing they own their 0:05:12.560 --> 0:05:15.440 label now, so there's like extra other pieces that are 0:05:15.480 --> 0:05:18.760 also like that would be I'm like, yeah, I was 0:05:18.760 --> 0:05:20.520 always trying to change stuff. They wouldn't let me. 0:05:20.800 --> 0:05:24.279 Yeah, it's like, no, you're right, I wouldn't. Yeah, probably not, 0:05:24.440 --> 0:05:26.599 just like yeah, it's just a lot like it's great 0:05:26.839 --> 0:05:29.279 and stuff, very fruitful season. You know, summer is harvest 0:05:29.320 --> 0:05:31.640 season in the music industry. Well, let me know what 0:05:31.720 --> 0:05:35.120 we could do because I always love the fifty favorite 0:05:35.120 --> 0:05:37.920 things party. Oh yeah, where it's like you have fifty 0:05:37.960 --> 0:05:41.560 of your favorite things. So it's like fifty chocolateship cookies. 0:05:41.320 --> 0:05:46.360 Fifty, Kristin Bress, Yeah, fifty, fifty of your favorite friends fifty. 0:05:46.560 --> 0:05:48.599 Like I don't know. It's like it's cute. Someone through 0:05:48.600 --> 0:05:50.360 that one time, and I just always remember it. I'm like, 0:05:50.360 --> 0:05:52.240 all right, when I'm fifty, you know, I had my 0:05:52.279 --> 0:05:55.520 big forty one. Now I want my now fifty fifty. Yeah, 0:05:55.560 --> 0:06:02.040 it's crazy time. Yeah, correct, correct, I have done. I 0:06:02.120 --> 0:06:04.600 love birthdays so much so I feel a little like, okay, 0:06:04.640 --> 0:06:07.600 well this is our tenth birthday together, coming up on 0:06:07.640 --> 0:06:09.800 our tenth birthday, so I don't I'm like what I've 0:06:09.800 --> 0:06:12.599 done reverse surprise party for him. I've brought in his 0:06:12.640 --> 0:06:14.800 best friends from home, you know, like I don't know, 0:06:15.640 --> 0:06:18.040 and just the timing is tricky. So he said we're 0:06:18.080 --> 0:06:19.760 going to celebrate all year long. I do want to 0:06:19.800 --> 0:06:22.039 do like an overnight somewhere just us too. He did 0:06:22.040 --> 0:06:24.840 that for me, and I love it. It's like a 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:27.640 gift to each other. Really, we should go somewhere. I 0:06:27.680 --> 0:06:29.680 could be with kids. I know you like to travel 0:06:29.680 --> 0:06:31.839 with the good I do love, but we could all 0:06:31.880 --> 0:06:34.680 like go run a house somewhere for like a long 0:06:34.720 --> 0:06:36.640 weekend in Florida or something that could be really fun. 0:06:36.680 --> 0:06:41.280 Bring the kids in December. Really, I'm like, when I 0:06:41.560 --> 0:06:45.560 don't say this is a okay, I love you, I 0:06:45.600 --> 0:06:48.159 don't see it unb wrapping. No, there was a gosh, 0:06:48.240 --> 0:06:51.400 what was the percentage? It was like eighty percent of children. 0:06:51.480 --> 0:06:53.200 The only thing they really remember are the family trips 0:06:53.200 --> 0:06:55.560 who took, not the birthday parties or any the is 0:06:55.560 --> 0:06:58.479 are there. I don't focus on those things. Focus on 0:06:58.560 --> 0:07:00.800 the trips that you take. Yeah you're really good at that. 0:07:00.920 --> 0:07:04.000 Yeah we love that trip. So I'm like, I got 0:07:04.000 --> 0:07:06.440 to do more trips. But then I just looked because 0:07:06.440 --> 0:07:08.760 I was going to go to Michigan for the weekend. 0:07:09.279 --> 0:07:12.400 It's for this weekend, No next weekend. Me. I was 0:07:12.400 --> 0:07:16.760 gonna try for four tickets twenty five hundred dollars. Correct, 0:07:16.760 --> 0:07:20.640 that's economy correct. I was like for to Michigan, to 0:07:20.720 --> 0:07:25.200 the twenty five metropolis of twenty five hundred dollars that's 0:07:25.240 --> 0:07:28.280 a delta. Southwest was twenty eight hundred. I was looking 0:07:28.320 --> 0:07:31.360 at Allegiance. That's where we got. I was like, I 0:07:31.440 --> 0:07:33.880 might actually fly the plane for a discount and rate, 0:07:34.040 --> 0:07:36.680 Like it's wild right now. I wanted to go tomorrow 0:07:37.040 --> 0:07:40.880 and we've been it's crazy. I don't and then you 0:07:41.000 --> 0:07:43.520 can't fight all the time. So I'm like, okay, so 0:07:43.560 --> 0:07:44.920 I'm going to book this and then do I even 0:07:44.960 --> 0:07:45.360 get to go? 0:07:45.640 --> 0:07:48.640 Like, yeah, it's kind of a mess gas lip by 0:07:48.640 --> 0:07:50.720 my airline is I do you know what I mean? 0:07:50.760 --> 0:07:53.440 It's been like that for a while really, but yeah, 0:07:53.440 --> 0:07:56.480 I mean it's especially well is it going to Detroit 0:07:56.800 --> 0:07:58.200 or going to one of the other tribes. 0:07:58.360 --> 0:08:00.400 Yeah, that's not even like Travers City where that was 0:08:00.480 --> 0:08:02.200 normally would it be because normally the flights were like 0:08:02.240 --> 0:08:04.960 one hundred and eighty two hundred. They've been high for 0:08:05.000 --> 0:08:05.280 a while. 0:08:05.280 --> 0:08:07.520 And the problem is is that Southwest you could always 0:08:07.560 --> 0:08:09.240 kind of count on to be cheaper and then are 0:08:09.240 --> 0:08:11.680 more affordable, but that has not been the case. No, 0:08:12.200 --> 0:08:14.480 have you heard that they're going to change the seating assigned? 0:08:14.560 --> 0:08:17.000 Not cool that some people are like so excited and 0:08:17.000 --> 0:08:18.680 some people are like, I don't understand why you don't 0:08:18.760 --> 0:08:20.640 like it, and then people it's like it's like it's 0:08:20.840 --> 0:08:21.280 so funny. 0:08:21.480 --> 0:08:24.680 What a team builder on Southwest? Yeah, it's a team builder. 0:08:24.800 --> 0:08:26.680 I love it, Like it's a travel you have to 0:08:26.760 --> 0:08:30.520 just go hey, like it's it's I like fighting for that. 0:08:31.280 --> 0:08:34.400 My only I don't really care. But my issue is 0:08:34.440 --> 0:08:36.720 going to be, then what are the costs going to be? 0:08:36.840 --> 0:08:38.760 Like exactly, it's going to be higher, and that's why 0:08:38.760 --> 0:08:40.079 we like Southwest, right. 0:08:40.160 --> 0:08:43.080 But also with Southwest you are paying higher to kind 0:08:43.080 --> 0:08:45.120 of get those higher anyway, So I don't know, it 0:08:45.240 --> 0:08:49.760 might even out, it might not. I'll have to see whatever. 0:08:49.880 --> 0:08:52.640 But I also just I just am like it's so 0:08:52.840 --> 0:08:55.440 I don't know, you get to meet different people, and 0:08:56.640 --> 0:08:58.800 I think it's kind of cool. I will say though, 0:08:58.840 --> 0:09:01.599 when I'm traveling with the fans, I love having a 0:09:01.679 --> 0:09:04.120 sign seat. I love knowing. Yeah, I don't. 0:09:04.200 --> 0:09:06.600 And that's where I travel so much for like cheer 0:09:06.640 --> 0:09:09.640 and stuff, and it's super stressful because with the kids, 0:09:09.960 --> 0:09:12.120 they may not be able to sit together or you 0:09:12.160 --> 0:09:13.960 may not be able to get on with some. So 0:09:14.000 --> 0:09:17.120 I don't I would prefer probably assigned seats. Yeah, I 0:09:17.200 --> 0:09:19.880 just don't want the prices to be crazy because of it. 0:09:20.040 --> 0:09:22.360 Same and they're doing like a their version of a 0:09:22.400 --> 0:09:25.079 first class now too, which is, well, what are we 0:09:25.120 --> 0:09:26.679 going to be paying for that? Because there's no are 0:09:26.679 --> 0:09:28.760 they going to take the seats out and change first class? 0:09:28.760 --> 0:09:31.480 But they would probably do what they do in Europe, 0:09:31.559 --> 0:09:34.280 So there are classes. It's just the seat is still there. 0:09:34.440 --> 0:09:38.720 It makes zero. Yeah, I would be livid. 0:09:38.920 --> 0:09:41.840 Yeah if I actually because I umblicious face it, I 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:44.000 did pay for that aid for a first class for myself. 0:09:44.559 --> 0:09:46.360 And if I did that and there was still a 0:09:46.440 --> 0:09:49.160 seat there, but like you can't even move from the thing. 0:09:49.240 --> 0:09:51.400 I literally stood there and stared at it for a while, 0:09:52.000 --> 0:09:54.880 like I could see you, what is happening? Trusting goes 0:09:54.920 --> 0:09:56.319 what is this? And I was like, oh, I think 0:09:56.320 --> 0:09:57.240 we're in first class. 0:09:57.240 --> 0:09:59.280 I think it wasn't first though, right, isn't it just 0:09:59.280 --> 0:10:01.840 like it's called premium. I guess one of them that, yeah, 0:10:02.000 --> 0:10:05.680 was the Tinier, That's what it was. Yeah, It's like 0:10:05.840 --> 0:10:07.680 we had the same one the three hour flight to Italy. 0:10:07.720 --> 0:10:09.520 It was the same thing. I'm like, this is so ridiculous. 0:10:09.520 --> 0:10:11.839 I'd like to at least can I sit close? And 0:10:11.920 --> 0:10:13.320 I feel like I'm next to you. There's a middle seat. 0:10:13.559 --> 0:10:15.199 There's just a middle seat. If you could take this 0:10:15.280 --> 0:10:17.400 thing and move it can't move it can't move it. 0:10:17.520 --> 0:10:17.800 No, I know. 0:10:17.880 --> 0:10:19.480 I stared at it for a long time. That's crazy. 0:10:19.960 --> 0:10:21.600 So I have something that I just want to bring 0:10:21.679 --> 0:10:23.120 up that I feel like you guys are going to 0:10:23.160 --> 0:10:31.680 make fun of me for Oh goodie, just entered the chap. 0:10:32.600 --> 0:10:37.800 Can't you want some snacks? I've been Sam's Club. Okay. 0:10:37.920 --> 0:10:39.600 So I was like, I have to bring this up 0:10:39.640 --> 0:10:43.160 to my girls. I'm having like a midlife crisis. That's 0:10:43.320 --> 0:10:48.560 another podcast. But I brought this up in Italy and 0:10:48.600 --> 0:10:51.199 it's still staying with me and I don't know. I 0:10:51.559 --> 0:10:53.000 was like, I need to unpack this with my girls 0:10:53.000 --> 0:10:59.160 on wine Down. Okay, Okay, you're ready for it. So okay, 0:10:59.360 --> 0:10:59.960 I'm so cure. 0:11:00.360 --> 0:11:03.040 I like to guess before and I got sure, go ahead, 0:11:03.040 --> 0:11:03.720 I got nothing. 0:11:03.800 --> 0:11:08.160 Our personalities are so clear when you look at us 0:11:08.160 --> 0:11:09.400 like I'm like on the edge and be like okay, 0:11:09.400 --> 0:11:13.600 go ahead, honey, share and Cat's already got squinty okay 0:11:14.120 --> 0:11:18.640 and go. So this came up in Italy when we 0:11:18.640 --> 0:11:21.679 were at Did you have any guesses? No? None, none, 0:11:22.280 --> 0:11:25.760 maybe none, nothing, pizza continue what I don't know Italy. 0:11:28.320 --> 0:11:35.200 So okay, so this came up when we were at 0:11:35.240 --> 0:11:39.000 a restaurant. I said to Alan, I said, well, I 0:11:39.000 --> 0:11:41.040 asked him the question, what's one thing you missed doing? 0:11:42.679 --> 0:11:46.720 And he said, I can't. Honestly, I can't remember. That's 0:11:46.800 --> 0:11:56.720 kind of crappy. Who maybe we should grab it. So 0:11:57.559 --> 0:12:01.400 and then he's like, what are you miss doing? And 0:12:01.559 --> 0:12:06.200 I was like, well, being here, I've it kind of 0:12:06.640 --> 0:12:09.560 made me miss this certain thing. Just from talking to 0:12:10.720 --> 0:12:13.599 the servers in Italy, I was like, I miss waitressing. 0:12:14.240 --> 0:12:16.600 I was like, because I love waitressing. I loved it. 0:12:16.640 --> 0:12:20.560 I love helping people, and I love like I some 0:12:20.600 --> 0:12:23.920 of my favorite youth memory memories, it's like a young 0:12:23.960 --> 0:12:27.200 adolescent was waitressing because I just love doing it. I 0:12:27.240 --> 0:12:32.640 loved the the the changing things, and like kind of 0:12:32.679 --> 0:12:35.320 managing everything, and then you know, helping people and like 0:12:35.360 --> 0:12:37.040 sitting down. I was I'd get fired a lot just 0:12:37.080 --> 0:12:38.480 because I would like sit down at the table and 0:12:38.480 --> 0:12:42.880 like be overly friendly. This is why we're best. You 0:12:42.880 --> 0:12:44.800 don't think we do that now, Because I feel like 0:12:44.840 --> 0:12:47.520 a lot of my life feels very similar to everything 0:12:47.520 --> 0:12:50.559 you just described, right, but it's like because we have 0:12:50.640 --> 0:12:53.720 to oh and we don't get to want to. Yeah, 0:12:53.720 --> 0:12:56.760 we're not getting paid for and I'm the cook too. Okay, 0:12:57.000 --> 0:13:02.800 what if I like applied somewhere and worked one day 0:13:02.800 --> 0:13:05.600 a week at like a brick like a bricktops or 0:13:05.679 --> 0:13:10.079 like I would would you guys con visit me. 0:13:10.120 --> 0:13:17.960 Duhaut every Monday? 0:13:19.320 --> 0:13:23.200 Is like this is my dream scenario? Like no, I'm 0:13:23.240 --> 0:13:27.200 like actually like he was laughing me, but I'm like 0:13:27.440 --> 0:13:32.360 actually being serious. I think it would be my time 0:13:35.520 --> 0:13:39.000 support it so much. I'm not sure when you're picking 0:13:39.120 --> 0:13:50.600 up it would be like my like literally said what 0:13:50.800 --> 0:13:54.720 is happening? But it would be like like literally because 0:13:54.720 --> 0:13:56.520 it's something that I enjoy doing. It would be like 0:13:56.640 --> 0:13:59.839 my time because I don't like sitting down, like okay, 0:14:02.520 --> 0:14:12.880 I struggle. It's just I'm here for it. Are laughing 0:14:12.920 --> 0:14:15.800 at my dreams. I am so here for it. It's 0:14:15.840 --> 0:14:20.320 just so just life. You're so serious, You're so serious. 0:14:20.400 --> 0:14:23.240 I want you to live your dreams. I can't. I 0:14:23.320 --> 0:14:25.960 support it so much. I just I feels like for 0:14:26.080 --> 0:14:32.120 your time not serving others. But I mean I like that. 0:14:33.160 --> 0:14:39.600 Oh okay, okay, I love waitressing. I know I can't 0:14:41.520 --> 0:14:45.040 if you really love it that much to get out 0:14:45.040 --> 0:14:49.880 of the house, we might need a separate offline conversation. 0:14:51.560 --> 0:14:54.840 If I am giving you your latte at Starbucks because 0:14:54.880 --> 0:14:58.440 I need to get out of the house, I cannot wait. Okay, 0:14:59.240 --> 0:15:02.280 I have a couple of questions because I do think 0:15:02.320 --> 0:15:04.880 we are in similar seasons right now. I would say 0:15:06.680 --> 0:15:10.400 I went to third Eye blind and I felt like 0:15:10.440 --> 0:15:12.040 I could do that every weekend for the rest of 0:15:12.080 --> 0:15:20.520 it because we are saving a lot of catch stage. 0:15:21.080 --> 0:15:23.160 And then I started looking up like when is Yellow 0:15:23.200 --> 0:15:25.600 Card playing and Boys Like Girls? Because I just love 0:15:25.760 --> 0:15:29.920 the feeling I had and I I don't know if 0:15:29.920 --> 0:15:31.040 I'm emotional. 0:15:30.720 --> 0:15:32.080 Or the same. 0:15:32.400 --> 0:15:35.200 No, it is, because there's so I think those seasons 0:15:35.240 --> 0:15:38.520 of our lives are so this laughing guys turned into 0:15:38.520 --> 0:15:42.320 a breakdown. I'm almost there too. That's why I'm like, 0:15:44.280 --> 0:15:50.240 like I can feel it that cat goes. I feel 0:15:50.240 --> 0:15:57.320 it changing, and I'm like, it's okay. No. I actually 0:15:57.360 --> 0:15:59.000 just had this thought this morning because I used to 0:15:59.000 --> 0:16:01.040 do a morning show for like seven years in Michigan 0:16:01.080 --> 0:16:05.240 on radio, and I love getting up at like four 0:16:05.440 --> 0:16:08.800 thirty in the morning, like I love getting day under 0:16:08.840 --> 0:16:12.640 me before like everyone else even you know, blink, And 0:16:12.680 --> 0:16:16.440 I was like I have been in the season, like 0:16:16.480 --> 0:16:19.720 I named the podcast season last time, like living now 0:16:19.840 --> 0:16:21.840 in the good old days, because I don't think that 0:16:21.920 --> 0:16:25.520 we recognize like that we're in the good old days 0:16:25.560 --> 0:16:28.880 while we have them. Yeah, Like I was always stressed 0:16:28.920 --> 0:16:30.400 out when I was serving because I was like, I 0:16:30.440 --> 0:16:32.000 don't want to get fired. I need this money, like 0:16:32.080 --> 0:16:33.520 you know, But like I look back and I'm like 0:16:33.760 --> 0:16:37.640 the wildest speaking times and so much fun. Like I 0:16:37.720 --> 0:16:40.280 laid by the pool till three, took a shower, put 0:16:40.320 --> 0:16:43.280 on my cute little like black pants, and grabbed my 0:16:43.320 --> 0:16:46.040 apron and made bank because caring well for people a 0:16:46.080 --> 0:16:48.680 densrit to myself is exactly what I'm good at, you know. 0:16:49.160 --> 0:16:51.600 But like I think a lot of that, Like the 0:16:51.640 --> 0:16:53.320 third I blind showed it to me because I was like, 0:16:53.640 --> 0:16:56.160 I mean, we are listening to you guys. My husband 0:16:56.200 --> 0:16:58.560 definitely thinks I'm going through something because like all the 0:16:58.640 --> 0:17:00.800 music right now at home is like boys like Girls 0:17:00.800 --> 0:17:02.960 and Yellow Card and all those because I'm there's a 0:17:03.040 --> 0:17:05.919 time that it does something for me, Like there's a 0:17:05.960 --> 0:17:11.239 care free moment in time and I miss that. Not 0:17:11.440 --> 0:17:14.639 that I don't love what I have, right, but before 0:17:14.680 --> 0:17:17.600 I was a mom, before I was a wife two times, 0:17:18.440 --> 0:17:21.159 you know, like just don't make me count me. But 0:17:21.280 --> 0:17:25.840 like there's something really special about what those seasons were 0:17:25.840 --> 0:17:28.240 to us that it doesn't it makes sense to me 0:17:28.320 --> 0:17:31.399 that you'd want to go back. I would also say 0:17:32.880 --> 0:17:36.760 it won't feel the same. We can try it on 0:17:36.840 --> 0:17:39.400 if you want to, but I do it is sacred 0:17:39.440 --> 0:17:41.560 and special and fun and there's just a part of 0:17:41.640 --> 0:17:43.840 us that lived and I don't even think I think 0:17:43.880 --> 0:17:46.320 because of my worry and anxiety and never like really 0:17:46.359 --> 0:17:48.560 even soaked up everything I was inside of when I 0:17:48.560 --> 0:17:52.440 did it. So I mean, if you I can't wait, 0:17:52.480 --> 0:17:54.000 I want to be we want to be your first table. 0:17:54.359 --> 0:17:58.000 Oh it's happening. Yeah, is sending things back to the 0:17:58.080 --> 0:18:00.720 kitchen already? I would never Yeah, I think said that 0:18:00.800 --> 0:18:02.480 is that what's coming up for you right now? 0:18:03.160 --> 0:18:06.760 Which piece well, like like what she's saying, like you 0:18:06.800 --> 0:18:07.400 just wish you could. 0:18:07.640 --> 0:18:09.119 No. I think it's like we've had a lot of 0:18:09.160 --> 0:18:13.879 conversations in our house about like dreams and like living dreams, 0:18:13.880 --> 0:18:17.000 and I'm like, like my dream is to like be 0:18:17.119 --> 0:18:19.200 on a show again, right, So, like I really want 0:18:19.240 --> 0:18:20.880 to be on a show, and I'm super excited because 0:18:20.920 --> 0:18:23.720 we have Katie Lowe's coming on the show. And it's 0:18:23.800 --> 0:18:26.240 just you know, she's on a TV show that I 0:18:26.240 --> 0:18:29.960 actually tested for, and you know she's got a podcast. 0:18:30.000 --> 0:18:32.320 I'm talking about Scandal. But you know, Alan and I've 0:18:32.359 --> 0:18:35.000 been lots of conversation about like our dreams and he's like, well, 0:18:35.000 --> 0:18:36.479 you make great money, and I'm like, but what you 0:18:36.560 --> 0:18:39.639 don't understand is that, like I'm not making money on 0:18:39.680 --> 0:18:42.159 the stuff that like, I'm doing it because it's a 0:18:42.200 --> 0:18:44.760 means to support my children. And I've had to pivot. 0:18:44.800 --> 0:18:46.240 I was like, you don't think that I want to 0:18:46.280 --> 0:18:50.000 be out like busting it again, like because I love 0:18:50.119 --> 0:18:52.440 music or you know, like I would love to play 0:18:52.480 --> 0:18:54.280 big shows again. I'm like, but does that suit the 0:18:54.320 --> 0:18:54.840 mom life? 0:18:54.880 --> 0:18:54.960 No? 0:18:55.119 --> 0:18:59.240 Does it suit like you know, you know, I was like, 0:18:59.280 --> 0:19:01.119 I'd love to be on a TV show again. I'm like, 0:19:01.160 --> 0:19:03.480 I don't. Those opportunities don't come all the time, so 0:19:03.520 --> 0:19:06.080 I have to make find means to support my kid, 0:19:06.280 --> 0:19:08.919 kids and you know, the house and everything else. So 0:19:08.960 --> 0:19:11.400 I'm like, just because it makes money does not mean 0:19:11.400 --> 0:19:14.480 that like I'm living my dream. And I'm like that's 0:19:14.520 --> 0:19:17.440 the piece where it's like, again, I'm so thankful. I 0:19:17.480 --> 0:19:19.400 don't want this to like come out the other way, 0:19:19.480 --> 0:19:21.960 like I'm very thankful for everything, and I've had to 0:19:22.080 --> 0:19:25.280 like be a scrapper and like you know, figure things 0:19:25.359 --> 0:19:29.119 out and kind of like Okay, let's do this and 0:19:29.160 --> 0:19:30.800 let's change here, and let's have a podcast and are 0:19:30.840 --> 0:19:32.640 right now, let's do that. And it's like so I'm 0:19:32.760 --> 0:19:35.080 I'm I love like creating and dreaming things, but it's 0:19:35.119 --> 0:19:38.879 not my ultimate dream, Like it's I enjoy it, but 0:19:38.960 --> 0:19:40.919 some of the things I don't enjoy doing, you know, 0:19:41.040 --> 0:19:43.359 especially when there's certain things that I just have to 0:19:43.400 --> 0:19:46.439 do it for the money piece of it. And so 0:19:46.840 --> 0:19:48.600 you know, I've just like been kind of in that 0:19:48.960 --> 0:19:51.840 mode where it's like and there's other things that obviously 0:19:51.880 --> 0:19:53.679 I can do, but it's that going back to like 0:19:53.680 --> 0:19:55.440 what you said, it's like those are the moments where 0:19:55.480 --> 0:19:57.760 I'm like I'd rather make nothing and enjoy what I'm doing, 0:19:58.240 --> 0:20:00.960 you know, and less responsibility. Like, yeah, those were the 0:20:01.040 --> 0:20:02.840 days where it was like I don't know. And I 0:20:02.840 --> 0:20:04.760 don't mean that either with like me, because I'm like 0:20:04.800 --> 0:20:06.560 I do know that I have to make but it's 0:20:06.600 --> 0:20:08.919 like when you know, we'd have conversations like we have, 0:20:08.960 --> 0:20:10.960 you're making great money, it's like it doesn't matter. That's 0:20:11.000 --> 0:20:14.040 not it actually doesn't do anything for me, Like a 0:20:14.080 --> 0:20:15.639 little piece of meat dies inside when I had to 0:20:15.680 --> 0:20:18.000 do certain things that like that I know I need 0:20:18.040 --> 0:20:20.360 to do to support my family and pay for MIC 0:20:20.440 --> 0:20:23.040 and you know all the stuff. So you know, that's 0:20:23.080 --> 0:20:25.959 where it's just like I gotta I gotta find something 0:20:25.960 --> 0:20:28.920 in there that is filling the cup when the dream 0:20:29.080 --> 0:20:31.879 is like so on. It seems at times in the 0:20:31.920 --> 0:20:35.440 world of like acting so unreachable that it's like, all right, 0:20:35.440 --> 0:20:37.840 I gotta find something because in those moments it's just 0:20:37.920 --> 0:20:40.160